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sc bookgal and friends 3-4-25 · DA CREW Podcast

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Speaker 1: Ladies and gentlemen, May I have your attention please? The
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Speaker 1: show starts in ten nine eight seven six five four shool.
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Speaker 2: Hey everyone, this is your girl s se book Yard
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Speaker 2: eight four three, and we are here on another Tuesday night,
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Speaker 2: and you guys, tonight it is gonna be special. We
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Speaker 2: have a warrior, We have one of God's warriors. You guys,
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Speaker 2: This lady, this elder, this staple of energy is just.
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Speaker 3: I'm phenomenal.
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Speaker 2: I there's so many words that you could describe somebody who.
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Speaker 3: Who has everything on her back.
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Speaker 2: But her smile, her will, her determination, God got his
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Speaker 2: hands all over her. Okay, so you guys, but Women's
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Speaker 2: History Month, I am going to be interviewing four female authors.
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Speaker 2: They're going to talk to you about their journeys on
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Speaker 2: being an author. They're going to talk about their journeys
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Speaker 2: as a woman, a woman or women and just them
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Speaker 2: because everything that's going on sometimes the flight of the
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Speaker 2: black woman, and yes I did say black women, and
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Speaker 2: no I'm not being racist, but y'all know, we go
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Speaker 2: through a lot and when you can look at somebody
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Speaker 2: who was going through so much, you get energy off
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Speaker 2: of them and they don't even know that they're giving
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Speaker 2: you the energy. They don't not even know how much
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Speaker 2: they're blessing you in their lives, in your life, because
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Speaker 2: you see them.
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Speaker 3: Continue to go on.
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Speaker 2: So tonight I have my first guest. She is the
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Speaker 2: author of the book entitled The Music Cake. Tonight, I
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Speaker 2: am going to bring up miss Millie.
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Speaker 3: Girls, come on up, hello, and how are you?
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Speaker 2: My sweetheart?
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Speaker 3: The best I get to be right now?
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Speaker 2: And that is the best you are. God has you
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Speaker 2: here for a reason and he.
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Speaker 3: Is going to use you to encourage us.
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Speaker 2: And by encouraging us, you're actually encouraging yourself again too.
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Speaker 3: It is something where you.
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Speaker 2: It's something when you go back and you remember where you.
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Speaker 3: Come from or what you went through. How the Songe's.
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Speaker 2: Old spiritual how I got over? My soul looks back
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Speaker 2: and wonder how I got over? That's just yo, that
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Speaker 2: was one of my granny sounds.
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Speaker 1: Yo.
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Speaker 2: I'm sorry, y'all. I'm being very very how they say, uh,
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Speaker 2: walking down memory late to night. But I'll tell you
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Speaker 2: all about that later. Why, but tell us a little
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Speaker 2: bit about yourself.
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Speaker 4: Well, my name is Milagaos. It means miracles, and even
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Speaker 4: before I was born, that has been my walk from
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Speaker 4: miracle to miracle to miracle. I was born in Puerto Rico,
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Speaker 4: raised in the Virgin Islands, and I was always considered
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Speaker 4: a little weird.
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Speaker 3: I have my own style.
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Speaker 4: I don't follow fashion, I don't follow what other people
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Speaker 4: are doing, and I'm happy with myself.
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Speaker 3: Most of the time.
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Speaker 4: I am told that I don't fit in, and I
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Speaker 4: am okay with that because I don't want to fit
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Speaker 4: in everywhere, and I don't want to fit in with everyone.
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Speaker 4: I just want to fit in with my creator because
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Speaker 4: he created me with purpose and that's the life I really.
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Speaker 3: Want to live.
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Speaker 2: Oh my god, that is that's beautiful. So you said
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Speaker 2: he purpose.
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Speaker 3: How did you find out the purpose? It wasn't easy.
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Speaker 3: It wasn't easy. I went through a whole series of abuse.
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Speaker 4: Part of the story within the mutic Cage is about
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Speaker 4: the abuse, all kinds of abuse you they met.
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Speaker 3: I dealt with it. But also I found.
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Speaker 4: So much strength in going back to write my story.
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Speaker 3: It took me seven years to write that book. Why
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Speaker 3: because every.
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Speaker 4: Time I was confronted with the truth that I had hidden,
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Speaker 4: that I had silence, it threw me in two weeks
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Speaker 4: sometimes months of depression.
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Speaker 3: So in dealing with that I found my strength.
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Speaker 4: I found me within my pain, within the devastation that
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Speaker 4: I had been living. There was an instance I was
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Speaker 4: about fifteen years old and I asked God because I
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Speaker 4: was going out.
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Speaker 3: My mother was very strict. She always used to keep.
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Speaker 4: Me by her side, but for some reason, when I was.
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Speaker 3: Thirteen and a half, she let me go out.
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Speaker 4: With my neighbor. Although my neighbor was older than I was.
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Speaker 3: I was a chaperone.
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Speaker 4: I was the assurance that she would return home right.
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Speaker 4: So one day I'm getting ready. I'm ready to go
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Speaker 4: because this is the only freedom I found in my home.
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Speaker 4: My mom, I was saying, she must be crazy cause
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Speaker 4: she doesn't let me go anywhere, and she's letting me
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Speaker 4: go with this girl. So I used to go and
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Speaker 4: dance Friday, Saturday, Sundays. And this one day we already started.
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Speaker 3: Like visiting church.
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Speaker 4: And this one day I think wanted to go dancing,
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Speaker 4: and I heard the voice say.
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Speaker 3: Do not go. And I was like, what do not go?
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Speaker 3: Now that I'm having fun?
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Speaker 4: Oh?
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Speaker 3: Yes, I get get ready. Second time, do not go.
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Speaker 4: And I felt a little chill, like, ooh, this might
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Speaker 4: be a little serious.
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Speaker 3: But my flesh was rising.
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Speaker 4: I just wanted to go because again, it was the
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Speaker 4: only freedom I knew.
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Speaker 3: So I said, now I'm going. The third time.
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Speaker 4: That was it because I heard the voice again and
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Speaker 4: he said, do not go, because if you go, you
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Speaker 4: will not return home. So of course I was very
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Speaker 4: upset that somebody was getting in the way of my phone,
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Speaker 4: and I was like, okay, I'm not gonna go, but
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Speaker 4: I'm not gonna go to church either. That didn't last
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Speaker 4: too long because even though I did.
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Speaker 3: Not find the fullness of God when in the church.
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Speaker 4: I was going, I was beginning to feel God in
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Speaker 4: a different way. So about three days later I started
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Speaker 4: going back to the church and why not? But I
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Speaker 4: was so hungry, and I said to God, why are
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Speaker 4: you talking to me now? Why when the abuse, especially
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Speaker 4: the sexual abuse ended when I was twelve old, Why
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Speaker 4: now when I don't need you.
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Speaker 3: I'm okay, now, you're right. I was okay wrong.
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Speaker 4: So God never answered that question during that time. But
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Speaker 4: about ten years ago and I was fifteen and I'm
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Speaker 4: sixty two now, so about ten years ago, God took
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Speaker 4: me back to that moment and he said, do you
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Speaker 4: remember when you asked me that question? And I said, yes,
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Speaker 4: I do but you never answered. He said, I'll answered now,
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Speaker 4: But I'm gonna ask you a question. When things were
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Speaker 4: happening to you and you were going through thirtain abuse
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Speaker 4: and you felt like you left your body and you
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Speaker 4: can see what they were doing to you, how did
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Speaker 4: you feel?
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Speaker 3: And we had to.
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Speaker 4: Repeak out at and I said, I felt safe, he
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Speaker 4: said to you know why?
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Speaker 3: I said no? He said, because in.
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Speaker 4: Those moments when your body was going through what it
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Speaker 4: was going through, I.
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Speaker 3: Still have you within my arms.
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Speaker 4: That's why you felt safe because I was holding you
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Speaker 4: in my arms. So that answer the question where is
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Speaker 4: God when I'm going through all this sickness, problem situations?
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Speaker 4: Black God is always there. He is always there. Our
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Speaker 4: pain blinds us and we cannot see it. I cannot feel,
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Speaker 4: we cannot understand. And of course that is the work
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Speaker 4: of the enemy, separate us from.
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Speaker 3: The truth of God in our lives.
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Speaker 4: Anyway, that started a whole new cycle in my life.
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Speaker 3: And I'm here to see you now. I got me
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Speaker 3: over here because he is He's just.
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Speaker 2: God has a crazy sense of human you know what.
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Speaker 3: Oh yeah, yeah, he has a crazyness of human. Oh wow.
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Speaker 2: And when he's ready to show you something it's always
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Speaker 2: mind blowing.
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Speaker 3: Yes, it's life changing.
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Speaker 2: And like I'm hearing the song the song Big God.
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Speaker 2: Literally that's what he is because when he comes, he's like, man,
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Speaker 2: you okay, I hear you. But when I come, I'm coming.
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Speaker 2: When I come, I'm gonna show out because I need
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Speaker 2: you to know that this is me. You don't think
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Speaker 2: it's nothing else, but it's me.
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Speaker 4: Yes.
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Speaker 3: So I'm talking a little bit about the muted Cage.
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Speaker 3: The name.
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Speaker 4: I had several names for the book because in nineteen
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Speaker 4: ninety three, Holy Spirit inspired me and I.
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Speaker 3: Heard the voice write your story, and I was so
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Speaker 3: happy because in my mind it's like.
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Speaker 4: Oh, I'm gonna tell everything that they did to me
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Speaker 4: and who I'm gonna empty myself and God stop me.
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Speaker 4: He said, no, that is not the intention of it.
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Speaker 4: You will not write that book as a victim.
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Speaker 3: You are going to write that book as somebody who.
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Speaker 4: Witnessed the abuse, and you are going to share it
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Speaker 4: with people because there are many people, first of all,
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Speaker 4: that have gone through many of the things that you
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Speaker 4: have gone through, but they think that they are the
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Speaker 4: only one because nobody talks about these things.
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Speaker 3: Number Two, there are a lot of people that.
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Speaker 4: Have not experienced the kind of abuse that many have,
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Speaker 4: and they look at a person and they say, oh,
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Speaker 4: that person is just so bitter, they're crazy, they do
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Speaker 4: they misbehave have this problem, and very few people take
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Speaker 4: the time to seek within the person what is really
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Speaker 4: going on. So the music Gauge gives a little window
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Speaker 4: as to what is going on in the mind of
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Speaker 4: people that go through very severe abuse. So it had
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Speaker 4: many names, and I had this book from nineteen ninety
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Speaker 4: three and two thousand and three. I went to a
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Speaker 4: poetry conference in Florida and something happened that we ended
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Speaker 4: up giving a ride to a gentleman and.
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Speaker 3: My cousin didn't know and I did not know either.
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Speaker 4: Anyway, we gave him a ride and she stopped at
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Speaker 4: the gas station, got out the park and he's behind
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Speaker 4: me and.
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Speaker 3: He cups my shoulder and he says, you a.
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Speaker 4: Writer, And I'm like, yeah, I write poetry. I don't
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Speaker 4: think about the book at all, write because.
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Speaker 3: Of how fault it was with all my pain.
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Speaker 4: And he said, no, you wrote a book, and in
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Speaker 4: that book every letter represents tears that you have cried,
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Speaker 4: and that book is going to go to places that
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Speaker 4: you don't even know about that book is about healing
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Speaker 4: many songs. Anyway, I was still scared of publishing the
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Speaker 4: book because of its content, because I am not explicit,
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Speaker 4: but I am very real and very raw in telling
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Speaker 4: my story. So he said, just do what you need
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Speaker 4: to do with the book. That was in two thousand
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Speaker 4: and three. I didn't publish that book until twenty eighteen.
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Speaker 4: I was over at my knees and I had to
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Speaker 4: I would carry I would travel and carry the manuscript
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Speaker 4: with me and just.
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Speaker 3: Keep it hidden. She found it and she put it
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Speaker 3: in my hand. She said, what are you gonna do
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Speaker 3: with this? What about this? She was very serious, and
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Speaker 3: I was like, I.
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Speaker 4: Just don't even know what name to give it, because
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Speaker 4: every time I give it a name, it doesn't feel right.
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Speaker 4: And the minute she placed it on my hand, I
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Speaker 4: had a vision of a guge made of words, and
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Speaker 4: the door for the cage was open, and so it was.
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Speaker 4: It looked beautiful because the words adorn the gauge.
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Speaker 3: So I decided, okay, so that's it.
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Speaker 4: Then I heard a whisper the muted gage, and I'm like,
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Speaker 4: the muted cage. People aren't gonna think that it's because
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Speaker 4: I lost my voice so many years ago, and I
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Speaker 4: still struggled with that, and all the spirit said, it
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Speaker 4: is muted because the words are real.
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Speaker 3: The words are there.
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Speaker 4: And most of the time when people look at the cover,
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Speaker 4: they say, oh, that's a beautiful cage, and I tell
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Speaker 4: them a lot closer and they're like, it's beautiful, and
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Speaker 4: I tell them they are eleven words that adorn that
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Speaker 4: guge and only one word is a positive if word,
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Speaker 4: and it's a word free.
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Speaker 3: And yet those words.
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Speaker 4: Help help me captive within a gauge that I couldn't
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Speaker 4: see the open door. That's the gauge I was living in.
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Speaker 4: The words had me a prisoner. And that's how that
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Speaker 4: name came about. And even the picture and the cover
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Speaker 4: I had someone her name is norm.
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Speaker 3: She drew a picture for me.
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Speaker 2: And you, guys, if you see this cover, I wish
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Speaker 2: I had my book with me. It is the most
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Speaker 2: beautiful cover. It has three colors, yellow, white, black. Okay,
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Speaker 2: But that cage, like she said, it is so beautiful.
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Speaker 2: Into the naked eye, you just see a cage, but
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Speaker 2: you have to look a little further and then you
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Speaker 2: will see the words on the cage. Yes, as a
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Speaker 2: female author, well, let's say, as an author period, do
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Speaker 2: you feel that this book.
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Speaker 3: Would be received greatly because you're a female or.
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Speaker 2: Do you feel that, like some people said, some books
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Speaker 2: have to be they feel like some books have to
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Speaker 2: be written by or from a male perspective for the
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Speaker 2: book to be a great book. Do you feel that
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Speaker 2: in this case because I love it?
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Speaker 4: No, Actually, my brain doesn't filter that. My brain doesn't
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Speaker 4: think like that. What I know is that people need.
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Speaker 3: Hope.
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Speaker 4: And within the book, it is not just telling my story,
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Speaker 4: it's also presenting because I tell one story, let's say
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Speaker 4: about a being written that I got and it was
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Speaker 4: not justified. And then I do a little summary of
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Speaker 4: how I experience a pain and it's not the physical thing,
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Speaker 4: but the spiritual and emotional not pain that I felt.
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Speaker 3: And then I'm right how I'm mature from that space.
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Speaker 4: So if people were to give the book a chance,
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Speaker 4: a lot of people would be set free, because it
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Speaker 4: set me free to write this book.
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Speaker 3: And God does not make mistakes. So and a lot
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Speaker 3: of people that have read the book, they.
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Speaker 4: Always have great things to say about the book, and
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Speaker 4: they call me brave and a great writer. And to me,
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Speaker 4: I see nothing of that. What I see is that
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Speaker 4: I need it to be obedient. And because you are
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Speaker 4: obedient and you are faithful in doing what God tells
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Speaker 4: you to do, of course I want my time.
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Speaker 3: I ran away from it like Joe.
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Speaker 4: I had a journey to get to where I can
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Speaker 4: release a book because I have a family that I
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Speaker 4: love and I love them deeply, and I knew that
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Speaker 4: it was going.
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Speaker 3: To bring conflict, and it did.
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Speaker 4: But I had to be willing to obey God, even
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Speaker 4: if it meant standing alone. And sometimes we don't want
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Speaker 4: and we don't have the courage to do that, and
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Speaker 4: you have that courage a.
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Speaker 3: Little it's of our courage step by step. I mean,
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Speaker 3: God really had to push me a lot. But I
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Speaker 3: also admit I.
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Speaker 4: Had to give in because I understand the intention and
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Speaker 4: purpose of the book.
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Speaker 3: It's not about me, it's not about my family. It's
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Speaker 3: a out the souls that.
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Speaker 4: Are suffering, that are living in devastation, that that are
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Speaker 4: waiting to even try suicide. I did because I was done.
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Speaker 3: I was tired. I was asking God, take me if
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Speaker 3: you I need in it. So then I tried myself.
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Speaker 4: So it's it's a book I can bring hope to
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Speaker 4: a lot of people.
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Speaker 2: And that is one of the things we need nowadays.
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Speaker 2: That is, Oh my God, that's one of the things
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Speaker 2: we need nowadays, especially with everything that's going on. Yes,
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Speaker 2: So as we close out tonight, what message would you
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Speaker 2: leave us?
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Speaker 3: The message I want to leave people it is that
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Speaker 3: God is real.
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Speaker 4: He is so real that even before we were born,
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Speaker 4: he already had our our story planned out for us.
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Speaker 4: And so God gave me a saying. I use it
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Speaker 4: as a hashtag, it's time to return to God. Because
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Speaker 4: we struggle, we fight, we suffer, and sometimes we suffer,
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Speaker 4: struggle a struggle and fight more than we need to.
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Speaker 3: Because we can't align with God's will.
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Speaker 4: And aligning with God's will is a fight. It's it's
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Speaker 4: a choice that you have to make. It doesn't just happen,
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Speaker 4: and it hurts sometimes. It's denying yourself and taking the cross,
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Speaker 4: Legenesus said, and taking across in de nine years, that's
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Speaker 4: the last thing we want to do because we want
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Speaker 4: to have a position, we want to have of authority,
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Speaker 4: We want to have all these things.
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Speaker 3: But it want to be yet, Jesus said, deny yourself.
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Speaker 4: These days, who is really benign themselves? Very few people,
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Speaker 4: But at some point if we really want to, if
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Speaker 4: God's plan, that great and perfect plan that you created
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Speaker 4: for us, We're.
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Speaker 3: Gonna have to get out the way.
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Speaker 4: We're gonna have to submit, and we're gonna have to
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Speaker 4: deny ourselves and our desires and ours want and our
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Speaker 4: dreams because most of the dreams we have, most of
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Speaker 4: the businesses we build, have nothing to do with God
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Speaker 4: and his kingdom and what He.
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Speaker 2: Has for us, and what He has for us is
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Speaker 2: way greater than what we can get for ourselves, absolutely
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Speaker 2: way greater. But of course we feel like we have
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Speaker 2: to do it. It's like, sit down and let me
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Speaker 2: handle this us. You know, it's like a little kid
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Speaker 2: and they want to do it so bad because they
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Speaker 2: want to do what we want to do it. And
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Speaker 2: God is like God is like the parents, sit down,
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Speaker 2: did you do what I told you to do? But
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Speaker 2: you want to do this, but you didn't do what
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Speaker 2: I told.
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Speaker 3: You to do?
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Speaker 2: Not tell I told you because I did tell you
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Speaker 2: to do that. Yeah, go do what I told you
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Speaker 2: to do and let me handle this.
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Speaker 4: And then we want to wonder why you didn't work
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Speaker 4: and why God is not helping.
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Speaker 3: Well, you know why God?
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Speaker 4: Are yes a blind and if you choose to build
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Speaker 4: your blind don't expect him to come and serve you.
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Speaker 2: Holly used to say, down here in the sun, down
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Speaker 2: here in the south, hard headed, make a soft behind.
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Speaker 3: God said something like I.
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Speaker 2: Told you you ready to listen now? Yeah, So tell
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Speaker 2: us how we can get your book. We have your
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Speaker 2: social media that is scrolling at the bottom of the screen.
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Speaker 2: But just tell us how we can grab your book
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Speaker 2: so we can read it for ourselves.
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Speaker 4: Okay, The Muted Gauge is available on Amazon, is it?
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Speaker 4: They have to kind and they have the paperback. The
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Speaker 4: rest of my books and including the Muted Gauge, are
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Speaker 4: published through Lulu dot Com.
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Speaker 3: I have about eight or nine books there.
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Speaker 2: Yes, so you guys, you know what I do. I
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Speaker 2: always post the next morning there is a blog that
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Speaker 2: comes out. I will have all the links for you
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Speaker 2: guys to purchase her book and you can follow her
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Speaker 2: at the social media that is at the bottom, and
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Speaker 2: also will have that available for you.
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Speaker 3: Okay, we thank you.
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Speaker 2: For reading with us tonight.
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Speaker 3: We truly so you guys. It's another Tuesday night.
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Speaker 2: Oh oh my god. So I don't lose the Mother
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Speaker 2: of the Year award. I would like to wish my daughter,
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Speaker 2: a Naya Elizabeth Krumble A happy tenth birthday, old lady,
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Speaker 2: Happy birthday. But you guys, thanks for joining us tonight.
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Speaker 2: Next week join me as I have, Missus Robinson. She's
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Speaker 2: gonna be our next author for our Woman's History Month,
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Speaker 2: and she'll be talking about her latest read. Always remember
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Speaker 2: there's no such thing as an old book, because not
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Speaker 2: everyone is read every book.
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Speaker 3: Good Night everyone, Bye,