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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #181_ HOST LATONYA MICHELLE LITTLEJOHN · DA CREW Podcast

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Not to Night? Every second Monday and for a Friday of each monthing this
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that you don't want to miss. Everybody them, Hey, everybody, Hey,
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everybody. I want to thank you all for tuning in to the last
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episode of Delay but not denied the podcast on tonight. This is episode one
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eight one for the Crew podcast. Tonight. I have our phenomenal leader,
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Mss Queen Angela, and we will be talking tonight and just having a conversation.
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I also before I start, I want to say thank you for all
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of the people who've been on my show, who wanted to be on my
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show, who's made my show what it is today, I thank you.
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I think the ones who brought me out of Michelle. I could not have
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done this without you. Today is my mom's birthday. She would have been
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sixty three today, So I would like to take a moment to wish my
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mother, Margaret Marie Kennedy, a very happy, heavenly sixty third birthday.
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Mommy. I love you, I miss you. So tonight is for you
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as well. Again Tonight, we're coming close to the end. There's twenty
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four hours left and this year, So anything that you have put off until
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tomorrow, get it done, get it done. Don't don't take it into
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twenty twenty four, if you can help it. Without going to any further,
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I would like to go to God in prayer, Heavenly Father, I
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come to you tonight, thanking you for this opportunity, blessing your name,
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Father God, and just showering you with love and just heartfelt gratitude for what
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you have allowed us to do as a team and for me individually. Lord,
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I ask you that you carry us into twenty twenty four even stronger than
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we left in twenty twenty three. And I just want to say thank you.
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And you know we're nothing without you, Father God. So with that
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being said, I thank you. I bless your name in Jesus name.
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I pray without further Ado, Miss Angela, come talk to me. Amen,
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Amen, Amen, how you doing? I'm good? How are you
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tonight? Well? I can't complain. I tell you I could never complain.
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It could be worse, right, I'm sure somebody else is going through
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something worse than what I'm going through. No, anytime we wake up on
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this side, any time we get another chance, absolutely stop saying a second
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chance, because you know that second chance was that second chance, right?
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But then he gave us another chance because all of us had third, four,
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fifth, six, ten, twenty thirty, one hundred a thousand chances,
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so he keep giving us another chance to get it right. So I
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have another chance. You know, I got to see another day that was
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not promised me. You know, every day I've learned, and I have
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to give a shout out to my Negros Rimeros, because she is truly someone
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that has taught me what gratitude is and taking the little things and appreciating them.
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The rising of the sun is setting of the same, you know,
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and just different things that sometimes we take for granted that a lot of people
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wish they had the opportunity to enjoy. Lord, I just learned to begin
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to appreciate those things around me and to realize the things that I had around
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me. You know, sometimes God places these gifts on the inside of us,
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and we don't utilize these gifts right, and they can be helping so
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many people. Well, the things that we think are minute, or the
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things that we think are little, or the things that we think that don't
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matter sometimes can change mellions of lives if we just step out on faith.
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And I thank God for the upbringing that I've had and the belief system that
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he instilled in those that he allowed to be My disciples, because that is
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our jobs as people. And we have to understand that regardless of what religion
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you choose to follow, what religion you choose to take upon, or whatever
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you want to call it. You know, we got names to everything,
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but at the end of the day, it all go back to one God.
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You know, he allow all of this, He allowed all these different
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religions. And if we go back to our Bible, and we truly understand
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that he had to do that. He had to break it up because when
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everybody is truly on one accord, and everybody is truly sink and everybody,
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and those that truly know the Bible know this, that they were building the
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temple, and the temple was getting so high, they was getting so close,
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and they was getting so close that he had to begin. He had
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to break up the languages. So when people get they panics in the ward
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about the different religions that want to fight and argue. I can't argue about
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religion belief systems, you know, And it goes back to I remember this
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lady, and she's a woman of the cloth. I don't call names,
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but she said this and it was profound and I shared all the time.
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But when your mama put you in that carrier, she placed you in that
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carrier. You sit there, and then as you begin to grow, you
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moved up to your high chair, and then you moved up to your little
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chair, and then you moved up to the next chair, and then you
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moved to the next chair. And then when you start walking, you walked
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up to the chair. You just sit down. You didn't question that chair,
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just like you didn't putting you in those chairs. But everything else.
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So we'll walk up to a plane and we'll get on a plane, and
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we'll drive these cars across bridges, and we'll do all these different things that
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we are doing by faith. We're doing by faith that is faith, but
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we won't activate that same faith. And things that we do for God,
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things that we do for the Kingdom, because everything that we do, whether
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we want to accept it or not, everything that we do is for the
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kingdom at the end of the days, for the kingdom. It's for the
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building of the kingdom, because that's why we all place here. We all
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have a route back to the Father absolutely, and how we get there is
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upon us. Because guess what. You can change your route, you can
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change the detoys, you can change the rape. But with everything that we
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do that's out of the wheell, know that there's a consequence. But if
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you stay on the straight and narrow, it can be a whole lot easier.
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And I learned that alone the way on this journey. But it took
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me some time. Like I'm finna be forty nine, it took me some
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time. But God is good and he will extend his grace and his mercy
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to allow you to get back on track, and he think enough of you
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to bring you out of that darkness because some of us we be deeping our
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sind that we forget about all this stuff that's going on around us, and
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we need no consume, and we allow consumption to take over us. Because
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let me tell you something, I was there. I was that person and
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say I just have to be transparent because it's what Nobody was transparent with me.
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So I stayed in that dark place. But see, when you can
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be transparent with somebody else and you can tell the truth and you can be
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honest with yourself, then it helps other people to hear, It helps other
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people to move past. Yeah, I be depressed still to this day.
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I've been in I've sit I've laid on many of coaches. I've had psychologists,
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I've had psychiatrists. I've had therapists after therapists after therapists. But I
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have to make a determination that say I'm gonna keep going when I realized that
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I'm going through something. And then you have to be able to recognize stuff
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too, and you have to want to change, you have to want to
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past, you have to want to say, Okay, I'm gonna take hold
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of this. I know I got this issue, I know I'm dealing with
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this. Then okay, let me deal with this, let me get through
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this. Let me surround my people myself with people that have been through this
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or going through this, and I can call upon these people and see,
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that's what we got to do. We got to get back to that village.
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I see a lot of I've gotten away from that village mentality because guess
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what, we've been hurt. We've been hurt by family, we've been hurt
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by close friends. We've just been hurt, and we built up that while
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and we don't want to let people in because guess what, people continue to
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do the same thing people continue, The people continue to throw their problem off
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of But you just have to continue to move by faith and believe and ask
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for discernment so that He will show you when somebody is acting out of order,
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because he will not allow his child to be food. That's one thing
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he will not do. And I've learned this on this journey. And you
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know, that's just just something that you know, I just I don't know.
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I don't know why I went in like that, but God told you
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to. We just have to sometimes we just have to humble ourselves and understand
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that. You know, this is a journey that we got to go through.
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You know, we can read the Bible. Yeah, it was given
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to us as a blueprint, but guess what they didn't have. They didn't
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have a God, they didn't have that. All they had was experiences and
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in Jesus leading them. But guess what you not Jesus, So your experience
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is gonna be different. I'm not Joseph, I'm not married, I'm not
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Serah. Even though we have their blueprint, we have what they went,
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what they've done, but I'm a different breath and those coming after me are
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a different breed. I mean everybody has evolved, and as people evolved,
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we have to understand that life evolves too, and we have to we have
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to grasp different ways to work with people and understand people and meet people where
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they are and share life experiences. Because guess what, what worked thousands and
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thousands and thousands of years ago, they not working right, may not work
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now. So we have to go with what's gonna work now because we're living
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in the now, and that's where a lot of what's happening now overseas is
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happening. The way it is happening. People think that it's happening because of
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one reason, is happening because of one reason. No, it's happening because
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people disobe back in the Bible day, and now that stuff is coming to
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past. You know, everything that we sow, we shall reap, whether
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it's your children's children, children's children, it's coming back. Absolutely. These
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people were doing this mass conservation. You think you getting away, You not.
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Everything that you're doing is gonna come back to bite you. Whether it's
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your great great grandchildren or your great great grand they are going to suffer.
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And I had that conversation with somebody like we may not feel what that karma
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is directly, but we'll definitely know it indirectly because I mean, God gonna
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spend the block. I mean, He's not gonna allow you to go but
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so far before he pulls you back and you know, and put you in
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your place, because I mean, you can only step out of line so
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many times before that whipcrack. So right, But I wanted to bring you
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on tonight to give you your flowers. You have created a safe space for
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a lot of different people from all different walks of life, from different age
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groups, different tax brackets, and we all have the same goal in mind
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and it's just to go further. And none of this would be possible without
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you, And so I wanted to take this moment to just say thank you,
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to tell you that we love you, we honor you, and you
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know, the Queen of collaboration. You have opened doors that some of us
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haven't even thought about entering. Like you know, everybody knows that I followed
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Trevita into the podcast world, but it was you that gave me the training
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to get me to where I am today. Here. I am never thought
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that this is something that I've stuck to and stuck it out like I never
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finished anything. I never see anything through. I procrastinate. I'm really bad
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at it, and you know that's my cross to beat. But you saw
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something in me and it made me want to show up. I show up
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for everybody when I can, and even though I got the flu at this
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very moment, I showed up tonight. This is my last show for twenty
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twenty three, and I can only see bigger and better things happening for twenty
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twenty four. So I wanted to start this conversation with asking you where do
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you see the Crew podcast going in twenty twenty four? What direction do you
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see? What's your vision for the crew? Well, as a visionary,
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of course, my vision is very humongous. I just don't see it as
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a podcast. I see us venturing into been doing television, doing red carpet
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events. I'm definitely pushing the crew out there coming up next season. Because
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everyone knows that I do this expo that I've been doing for about four years.
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I started in twenty and sixteen twenty seventeen, but during COVID I had
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to stop because of COVID. But we're gonna get back out there. We're
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gonna get back on the road, those that follow aa l a C,
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which is the African American author LYZCA awareness campaign. I do a Chasing Your
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Dream Book tour in Expo where I bring in individuals that do workshops. They
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facilitate workshops, we do breakout sessions. I bring in authors, business owners,
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so I bring in about thirty hour, about fifteen business We have speakers
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that do the breakout shops. Like I say, this year, I want
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to include the Crew podcast, to host the red carpet area, to do
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the interviews, to go right around and give the authors and the business owners
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an extra opportunity for exposure, and y'all can cover the event and then only
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that the magazine. Now I have the magazine. I didn't have the magazine
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before the magazine thing came out in twenty twenty. So we're celebrating four years
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next year. And and all this happened on COVID. I dropped this in
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my spirit to be able to do these things to share around the world.
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Doing the lockdown because a lot of people they were unsure of what they were
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gonna do. So I really racked my brain and just came up with a
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lot of stuff to you know, help the people that were in my circle.
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You know, I can only think about those that were connected to me,
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and I came up with these different things and that's that's, that's what
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we did. But now we're getting back out there. Like I said,
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we're gonna be hitting the cities, sitting on different states. We have ten
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stops. We're gonna started Murder Beach April sixth. We're headed to Texas.
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We're headed to Illinois, New York, Tennessee, Alabama, Savannah, North
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Carolina, Spartanburg, Charleston. Hopefully we can end on somebody's ship on cruise
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or in Murder Beach. But those are my desires. We have some ambassadors
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that's helping me, and I'm still putting a plea out there. If you
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are in a state and you would like to be a state ambassador, simply
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if you know, you know different places, venues in your state, you
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know different connections, you know different things that could help me. Because I'm
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not in your state. I'm in Mertin Beach. But I need to get
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these locations booked. I need to get these venues solidified so that we can
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get them packed out, get the community involved. I am also trying to
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make sure that I connect with the news stations. I'm reaching out to those
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news stations back in Anderson in Greenville that I worked with when I lived in
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Anderson and see if they can help me connect with those different ones and those
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different states that I'm trying to reach out to. I'm pulling out all hats.
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I'm getting back to the basics. I'm getting back to you know how
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I got here, you know those things that God allows me to do to
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get me where I am today. So I'm sticking to it, you know,
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and I'm trying to show other people how to do it too. So
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we're doing workshops at these events. So we're gonna have branding workshops so people
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can learn how to brand their business, learn how to do other stuff.
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If you are an author, you can do so much more besides talk about
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selling your book. You can do so much more. You can create a
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coaching program, you can create a speaking platform, you can create merchandise around
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your book. You can create so much. So we're gonna have a branding
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workshop, We're gonna have a marketing workshop. Of course, we're going to
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be doing podcasting because guess what you are listening to the newly Enshrine Class of
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twenty twenty three International Internet Radio Hall of Fame Broadcasting Inductee. I'm excited about
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that, not only that I won Host of the Year over on wbn N.
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I'm telling you, I'm going to be celebrating four years over on that
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networks, and I'm excited about that. I'm telling you, somebody believed in
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me. Somebody gave me a chance. So I have no choice but to
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believe in others and to give others a chance. Because guess what if I
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had a gave up a long time ago and said forget this, throw in
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the towels, I wouldn't be sick right here. But it's just something about
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that will and the will y'all. He's given us power. And I tell
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people these words that you know, we take for granted that we throw around
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like. He kept giving me this word, kept giving me his word,
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and I was like, okay, power and then he broke it down to
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me. He said, I have positioned you the pee, position you to
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be an overcomer. Oh you overcome everything that you've been through. Yeah,
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it all came at you. It was part of the plan. Jeremih twenty
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nine to eleven will not return to and board. He said. It was
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not to harm you, huh, wouldn't harm you, But it was to
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prosper you. It was to help provide you with hope in the future.
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See, if you didn't go through nothing, you couldn't hope for nothing.
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So you had to go through. So you overcame that. But guess what
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you didn't complain. You was a willing vessel. You stood there. You
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let them talk about you, you let them call your names, you let
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them do darts at you, You let them do everything to you. But
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they never helped you. They never gave you a help and hand that never
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pushed you. They never wanted to see you succeed. But you stood.
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You didn't give up. You said willing. He said. Guess what,
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he said, I've given you the tools to educate. He said. No,
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it ain't about degrees, he said, and I showed you it wasn't
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about degrees, he said. I allowed you to go back thirty years later
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to get your degree. You did, but you had to go through.
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You had to let other people see that wouldn't bout a degree. It was
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about the titles, about all that. But you're in a vessel to educate
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and power and encourage others to not give up that will and the will that
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will not let you quit. It's called resilience, and that's power. And
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when people understand the power that's on the inside of them Genesis two and seven,
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will not return to him board. He said, he breathed a breath
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of life, life into you. Mm hm. So part of him is
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out of you. It look it ain't you gonna wake you up. But
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all you got to do is you you have to move out your way right
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and let him in, Invite him in, welcome him in, give him
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a place to dwell, give them a place to be, and he'll be
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just what he said he will be. And people gotta understand that. And
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until they do, they're gonna continue to go in the same circles. And
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then they gonna want know why nothing want right? I promise nothing that is
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doing this and why nothing know? Everybody want to know books? How you
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do this, how you do that? How you do this? How?
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It ain't by my strength because guess what, I have no poblem right,
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but he dropped things in my spirit and I have to move on. Like
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all these books right here, I did I did these this year, all
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these right here, I did these this year. I did a calendar and
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I got another one on the way. But I did this. I made
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this calendar from Stratch. I just sit here one day and designed it.
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You know. I ask people if they wanted to be a part of it,
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and you know, I put people in it. You know. But
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all these books, he dropped in my spirit, and I did it.
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And I look on Amazon. Amazon said I got eighty seven books. My
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goal is to have a hundred by the turn, by the time I turned
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fifty. So we're gonna see. I'm gonna sit down one day. I'm
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gonna sit down one day and I'm gonna figure out exactly how many books I
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really got, Like when I turned fifty nine, I mean on forty nine
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and then I got a whole year of the the right. But I do
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believe I'm on I'll get the hundred. But I like, I just like
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everybody helping, like doing stuff. Like we got a book that's dropping tomorrow,
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m the third book to this series here. It is a poetry book
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that is bringing awareness to black mental health. Like it's titles suddenly Hurt inside,
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Hurt no More. You know, people like how you coming up with
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that? Like I dropped it in my spirit, like so many people hurt
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in silence, and they don't want to talk about it. They want to
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hold it inside and they don't want to say nothing about it. You know,
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I don't think that it's that they want to hold it inside. We're
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in a generation of where we can't talk to everybody because everybody don't care.
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And then you know, you have your group of people that can't wait to
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run and tell what what you're going through. So it's not so much that
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they want to keep it inside, but it's a safe place to keep it
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bottled up because at the end of the day, you're not gonna use it
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against you, You get what I'm saying like that, But it's so many
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opportunities we we we have. We're living in an age right now where there's
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so many opportunities where there's no there's no more time for making like we're living
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in an air where you can go anywhere and find somebody, Like now you
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can pick up your phone down nine eight eight and somebody on the line to
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sit there and listen to you and not say nothing. If that's what you
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want. You know that they're they're there to help you, you know,
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and that that's what I'm trying to do through out of what do you know,
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to share with people because let people know that, hey, you,
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you are not alone, you know. And when this book dropped tomorrow,
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people want to understand. You know, it's forty of us inside of this
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book. You know, we come from different walks of life. You got
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seven men, and five of those men are incarcerated, you know, and
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they're sharing in poetry. You got two ladies from Legos, Nigeria, all
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the way from Africa, you know, sharing poetry. You know their perspective,
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you know, and we're talking about love from a place of being hurt
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because you got a school teacher one of the ladies from Africa. She's a
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school teacher and she's battled with depression, you know, so she understands on
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so many different levels what this black mental health is really all about, you
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know. And people think that, you know, just no, it's not
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just an American thing either. And we're not just focused on what's happening here
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in America. We focused on what's happening around the world. Because we are
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an international magazine, we're an international podcast. We are we We are focused
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on what's happening around the globe and that's what we do. You know.
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We are here to make an impact. We're here to be the change that
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we want to see around this world, you know, And we're leading by
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example. We're not sitting back and waiting for something to fall out this guy,
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right, It's never gonna fall out this guy right. So you know,
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like so, being that you are the woman that you are, you've
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shared your story with us many times on many different shows. How do you
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find the strength to keep going? Like you know, you've you've shared in
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Domestic Violence Month that you were shot at point blank range with a sod Off
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shotgun. And I mean, yes, God, God spared your life.
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But what is it within yourself that keeps you from not just sitting in that
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depressive state and blaming yourself for not seeing signs before and just being able to
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walk away and being who you are today? Well, I had to own
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up to the fact that, you know, in every situation, we all
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have a part, right, we all play apart, And I did play
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a part. I was more so than I was more so the person that
34:04
thought I could fix on mm hmmm, that that was me. I my
34:10
my my problem was called what they call codependency. That that that was me,
34:16
thought that I could change something that I couldn't change, not realizing that
34:23
the signs were there. And then in the place where pride was still there
34:29
too. You know, I'm back in my hometown. While I said I
34:34
will never be I'm dealing with uh A lot a lot of stuff that I
34:44
said I wouldn't be dealing with, you know, And I was in that
34:49
dark place. And for us to say that we'll never do this, because
34:53
I'm telling you, if you had known me before domestic violence and before I
35:00
through all this, you would have never thought I would be that person in
35:02
that place. Like nobody thought that that happened to me. Like when a
35:07
lot of people saw this on the news. And people were seeing this on
35:10
the news, they was like, no, not now she went on like
35:15
that's somebody else that was yeah, But yeah, that was me. I
35:19
was in a dark place. But even afterwards, I had to realize that
35:30
this was not what I wanted and I had to walk away because and being
35:38
transparent and being honest may trigger some people, but just trigger on it.
35:45
I went back. Even after all of this, you know I was married,
35:51
this was my husband, and I gave him we were gonna work it
35:54
out. After a while, I was like, no, I can't do
36:01
this. I packed up what I could and I left. I went to
36:07
Atlanta and I never looked back. And that was twenty eighteen. I walked
36:16
away for good and said this is this and this is that, and I
36:20
never looked back. And I think my turnaround really came in two thousand and
36:32
seventeen. Really in the back of my mind, I was planning, like
36:42
the getaway. I was planning on leaving, but I didn't know how,
36:51
you know, and then how they'll wheel you back in and make everything seem
36:58
like it's gonna be oy and you know this is gonna happen, and everything
37:01
going great for a while, and then then they go. They they show
37:07
themselves again. But if we understand, and we truly when people show you
37:14
who they are, you gotta believe them. That's who they are, that's
37:17
who they are. They not changing, it's not going back, it's not
37:22
they can't take it back. Once they reveal to you who they are,
37:25
that's who they are. You gotta take it for what it is, and
37:30
you have to make those decisions. So I choose now to sit back and
37:36
watch people and monitor people, and to really take people for who they are.
37:40
If they show me who they are, like you show me other than
37:45
like you don't told me you this way, and then you show me something
37:49
else, then I'm believing what you show me, right, and how you
37:52
done told me no whin out the window as speak louder than words, exactly,
37:59
and when you start seeing me less than you should know, right,
38:06
That's what it is. Twenty twenty four for me is gonna be a whole
38:08
lot different. Like a lot of people have wrote my coattail, a lot
38:13
of people have a lot of people to just being honest, to just being
38:17
real, a lot of people have they have thought that they have used me,
38:22
and they picked my brains and they've done all kind of stuff, but
38:27
they've only been able to do what God would allow me to do. I
38:32
was just being obedient. But a lot of stuff is changing in twenty twenty
38:37
four, Like a lot of people, I'm walking away from a lot of
38:43
people that truly mean me no good, like they have ill intentions and they
38:50
have truly shown themselves like they show themselves daily, Like if you just watch
38:55
people, They will reveal to you exactly who they are and you won't even
39:00
have to say nothing if you just sit and just listen and observe sometimes and
39:07
then sometimes if you just just watch their pages, like you don't even have
39:10
to have no conversation with people sometimes sometimes you just watch their actions because actions
39:15
are always speaking. They speak loud, and people don't understand it. But
39:21
yeah, I think they do. I think that they just don't everybody.
39:28
Yeah, yeah, I think that they think that if you don't speak on
39:32
it, then the other person don't know or whatever. But you know,
39:39
you can you can only well I'll say this, people can only do to
39:45
you what you allow them to do, and how long you allow them to
39:51
do it is totally up to you. And so you know, with that
39:55
being said, you know, I've had a conversation where my twenty twenty four
40:00
will not look anything remotely close to what this year and years has has looked
40:09
like. It won't. I mean, twenty twenty one, twenty twenty taught
40:15
me something, twenty twenty one, twenty twenty two, twenty twenty three,
40:19
saying twenty twm twent four insight wonna be sae and all and I do believe
40:23
that God allows you to keep learning the same lesson until you get it.
40:29
Yeah, Like you know, I I've had a conversation with a friend and
40:36
we were talking about how if God is trying to take you away from something
40:42
and you choose to ignore it and stay in the situation thinking that you can
40:47
change a person, He's gonna allow that person to do you harm until you
40:54
decide to say, Okay, I hear you. If it's truly time for
41:00
me to go, then it's my time to go. And I mean,
41:05
he doesn't. I feel like God doesn't create a situation to harm you himself.
41:12
But because people were given free will. In that free will, they
41:16
do what they want to do. And you know, sometimes you just have
41:22
you happen to be in the way at that moment, so you know,
41:28
it changes you for how you look at people, and it makes it harder
41:35
on friendships and relationships of any type moving forward, because you don't want to
41:43
take that prior hurt, whether it be church hurt, family hurt, friendship
41:49
hurt. You don't want to take that into new situations. You don't want
41:55
to bleed on people that didn't cut you at the end end of the day
42:00
right. So my last question for you is being that you were able to
42:08
come out of a dark place and and not look back. What recommendations do
42:15
you have for someone who is trying to pull themselves out of darkness but can't
42:23
seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But first thing,
42:30
I tell them that they need to wake up and remind themselves that they
42:36
are loved. They need to talk to themselves on a daily basis out like
42:39
you got to speak life to yourself. You have that power. He's giving
42:44
you that power. Proverbs eighteen twenty one Tis says that we have the power
42:47
in the tongue to speak life or death. So we can speak life over
42:51
ourselves. We get up in the morning and look ourselves in the mirror,
42:54
look at our souls, look at it, look in your eyes in that
42:59
mirror, and to yourself. And then not only just speak to yourselves,
43:04
act upon that thing that you speak to yourself. We got to learn how
43:09
to love on ourselves and how to build ourselves up and understand that this is
43:19
who we are. He's given us gifts, and he's given us talents.
43:22
He's given us a passion. So find that passion that's on the inside of
43:24
you, that purpose that he's given you. Jerem My twenty nine to eleven
43:28
is not gonna return to him. Boy, He's given us all a purpose.
43:30
There's a reason that we're here. We're not here by accident. Place
43:36
will be a podcaster. He's placed you here to be a podcaster or a
43:39
journalist writing for the newspaper, on somebody TV show, or whatever the case
43:47
is. He's placed you here for that purpose for the kingdom. So you
43:51
find whatever your passion is. If your passion is helping people write books,
43:54
if your passion is is sharing affirmations, your passion is, you know,
44:00
just being in encourage or whatever. Your passion is that thing that drives you,
44:05
that thing that wakes you up in the morning, the things that give
44:07
you life, the things that make you want to do more. People ask
44:13
me, how do you do what you do? Because that will and the
44:16
will, that power that he's given me. He's given me a power to
44:22
be a leader. He's given me a power to be a collaborator. Whoever
44:24
spoke that over my life they did something, I mean, they did that.
44:29
They spoke that over my life, and I had to live up to
44:31
that, so I have no choice. So now I have to live up
44:36
to that name. So now I had to get out and start collaborating.
44:40
I had to get out and start meeting people, Like I don't meet a
44:44
stranger, right, How can I meet a stranger when I'm on a mission
44:50
to bring people together, Like it's my job to bring people together, for
44:54
people to understand that there's a reason why they're here. It's not by accident,
45:00
Like you didn't get dropped out of the sky, like he placed you
45:02
here, Like literally, he placed you here for a reason. He didn't.
45:08
He didn't drop you down like you. You you here because he needed
45:15
you on tasks. He needed you doing what he needed you to do.
45:22
So that that that's why. So we just have to understand that. And
45:28
I'm excited about this journey because I get the opportunity to take the gifts and
45:34
the talents that he's given me. Because some some he's given one talent,
45:37
some he's given two, some he's given three, and these some he's given
45:39
a lot of talents to But we have the opportunity to you know, our
45:44
socialds. So He's just happened to give us the opportunity to utilize them through
45:49
the Cool podcast and through the magazine and through now the Chasing Your Dream book
45:55
too. We have the opportunity to take those skills that He's given us as
46:00
broadcasters, as journalists, as individuals that's diving into the lives of others.
46:07
We have a passion for sharing other stories because we believe that others have a
46:10
story, and by sharing these stories, then we have the opportunity to bring
46:16
about change and to give people the opportunity to hear the change that other people
46:22
have been experiencing in their lives and how their lives can change if they desire
46:27
that change, and if they're willing to do the work, because your work
46:30
comes with that. Like I was sharing with Chara, Charita had posted something
46:36
on Facebook the other day about overcoming something throughout the week or something or something
46:44
of that nature, and I posted about really having about what depression this week.
46:52
December is really a trying time for me because it's my mom's birthday.
46:58
My mom's birthday December the fourth, and then I got two cousins that was
47:01
born on her birthday, so they're still hit celebrating their birthday. So they
47:07
get to celebrate their birthday and my mom's not here, and then so many
47:12
of my cousin's birthdays in December. Then my favorite cousin, he was like
47:15
my best friend, my brother, like he was really really close. He
47:20
lived in Atlanta. He passed away October two years ago. I dedicated that
47:24
book So for Metamores, So for Metamorphous, on that poetry book to him.
47:32
It was released on his birthday. But December sometimes very hard for me.
47:38
So I was kind of depressed, and like I was telling Treda in
47:45
that post, you know, I had to cry a little bit. I
47:51
had to let it out and then I released, and then I took a
47:55
nap, and then I got up and got at it again. You know,
48:00
that's what we have to do. Sometime we just have to release.
48:02
Sometime we just have to let it out. Sometime it just need to come
48:07
out. And sometimes, you know, I don't know what the stigma is
48:10
with black people, but therapy helps get you a therapist. Talk to your
48:17
therapist. You know, Like I deal with depression and anxiety, and the
48:25
month of December is hard for me as well. As you know, I'm
48:30
adopted. My birth mother, her birthday is today. She's no longer here.
48:37
My adoptive mother. Her birthday was December nineteenth, my adoptive family their
48:45
wedding anniversary is tomorrow, and my adoptive father is no longer here. So
48:51
I mean, you know, I get it. And I went through about
48:57
of crying yes today and it just when you have all of these things bottled
49:06
up inside of you, you have to release it or to kill you.
49:10
I mean, that's that's the end, point blank period. So you have
49:16
to get it out, whether it be writing, singing, what I mean,
49:23
whatever it is that you do. Because like I, I never knew
49:28
what my purpose was. I wrote a book thinking okay, well that's my
49:32
purpose. That wasn't my purpose. You know, I've done a lot of
49:37
different things and try to do things that other people were doing, thinking okay,
49:43
if it worked for them, it may work for me. But this
49:46
this was different. Everybody has their own podcast within the crew, and you
49:59
know, out out to everybody. I mean, miss Alma Live Again,
50:04
She's she's teaching you how to navigate life after going through something traumatic. You
50:10
know, Trevita, believe in the journey. You gotta believe in the journey
50:20
ahead of you, no matter what it looks like. You gotta believe what
50:23
that is and trust her progress process. Let's chat with Nat. She's talking
50:30
to you, She's telling you what's on her plate. And I mean we
50:36
we all go through things s see book galling friends. If you got a
50:44
book that you won't reviewed by all means, get it patriced. She got
50:49
you and the mama of our crew, Miss black Diamond, like you know,
50:57
we all bring something different to the like. You know, it's it,
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you know, a shameless plug. It's not too late to get some
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black beautiful people that are giving you a portion of their lives throughout these podcasts,
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creating a platform for you to have a safe space to speak. My
51:30
platform delayed but not denied. You know, what is delayed for you today
51:36
is not necessarily being denied upon you. So just because it doesn't happen today
51:42
doesn't mean that it's not going to you. Just have you just have to
51:46
stay the course. And you know, I open my platform to different people
51:52
for different reasons because everybody's situation is not the same. Everybody won't you know,
51:59
everybody won't travel the same road. But the end goal is to walk
52:07
amongst the Kingdom of God, and you know, whatever we can do as
52:15
a family to get to that point, you know, I'm here for it.
52:19
Like you know, I love all of y'all more than you could possibly
52:25
even imagine. And I'm grateful for you because you came into my life at
52:30
a time where my life was in shambles. I mean, I'm still putting
52:36
the pieces back together. It's a work in progress. But you know,
52:43
anything worth having is worth fighting for. So right now I'm fighting for me.
52:49
So you know, I thank you for just being not only the queen
52:57
of collaborations, but the big sister that some of us don't have. You
53:02
You are ear to everybody like and and nothing that is said to you goes
53:08
anywhere. And you know that that says a lot about who you are and
53:14
your character as a woman, you know, because women are chatty. We
53:17
we we don't always get along, you know, in certain situations, but
53:23
we got the right group of people to come together and you know, we
53:30
pray for one another. We we got the little group chat and we hop
53:35
in there and it's not always about the podcast. And that's beautiful that we
53:39
can communicate beyond the confines of the podcast, and so I thank you for
53:46
that, right. So is there anything that you would like to say before
53:54
we head out of here. Well, I just think for the opportunity to
54:00
be able to do the things that I do, I'm not always been in
54:05
this place, and I'm just thankful that he thought enough of me to bring
54:10
me out of that dark place into the marvelous light that I may be a
54:15
beacon of light to somebody that may be in that dark place and to be
54:19
able to spread hope. And I try to do that through love and by
54:24
leading and by educating, empowering and encouraging others. So I just try to
54:32
be a voice. And again I just erriage everyone to make sure that they
54:38
are following the Coup podcast. They connected to the cool podcast A A L.
54:45
A C Chasing your Dream Books to y'all, we're gonna be on the
54:49
road, so stay connected to what we got going on. It's amazing hosts.
54:55
I cannot leave out of here without giving a plug out to the amazing
55:00
hosts. Season two we'll kick off February the first, y'all, we all
55:07
be live right here on the Crew podcast eight pm Eastern Center Time, Live
55:13
every single night eight pm Easter Center time start in February to first. Y'all
55:17
gonna have an opportunity to meet some amazing people from February to first to December
55:22
thirty first, twenty twenty four. So market calendar, set your alarms,
55:27
do whatever you gotta do to be in the building, to be in the
55:30
virtual arena so that you can be up close and personal with these amazing people
55:37
from around the world. Y'all, we're taking that trip around the globe.
55:42
We're gonna be stopping in different cities. We're gonna get back to that village
55:46
and get back to that community mentality. So y'all make sure y'all are following
55:52
us. I appreciate y'all, and guess what. The Queen loves you.
55:55
I love you from the bottom of my heart. And guess what. It's
55:59
absolutely that to do nothing nothing. And you know, also, if you
56:06
would like to join the Crew podcast as a host, we still have room.
56:15
One hundred and ninety nine dollars. Gets you in, It gets you
56:17
training. We have my interviews. You can piggyback off anybody talk, ask
56:24
questions. We're all here. What one doesn't know the other does, so
56:30
you know we're here we're here. We're a family, we love each other,
56:35
We're here to see each other grow and just expand our horizons. And
56:45
you know, before we leave, I would just like to say again thank
56:49
you for a marvelous first season of Delayed but Not Denied the podcast. This
56:57
has been one heck of a ride that I do all over again, one
57:04
hundred times over. I've enjoyed myself. I love the people. I love
57:09
hearing people's different perspectives on life and things that they deal with. So this
57:20
is a family and we would love to have you. And if you would
57:24
like to be a part or please reach out to Miss Angela, the Queen
57:29
of Collaborations herself, and let her help you. Let her get you started,
57:34
and we will be back on tomorrow night where we will have everybody and
57:42
we're gonna take two twenty twenty three out with the bang, So you don't
57:47
want to miss at eight pm Eastern Standard time, be here, don't don't
57:53
meet us here, beat us here. So you know that's all I got.
58:00
I love you all. I'm grateful for you guys, and I'll see
58:04
you tomorrow night. The book A Song for Soupora, written by David Harris,
58:12
is a powerful historical fiction centering around the life and character of Moses's future
58:16
wife, Zupporah before they met. Book author David Harris brings the reader into
58:22
the relationship between Moses and Zuppora, which was gradual and lush. The story
58:27
unfolds beautifully when Moses finally acts Upporah to marry him