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Kevin Gates Speaks On Maintaining his Health & Wellness, Beyonce', Great Sex & More! · The Breakfast Club

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Speaker 1: Wait that ass up in the morning Breakfast Club. Morning,
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Speaker 1: Everybody's DJ Envy Angela Yee, Charlemagne the guy. We are
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Speaker 1: to Breakfast Club. We got a special guest in the building,
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Speaker 1: the good brother Kevin Gates. Welcome brother. Thank you for
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Speaker 1: having me. Man. You look good, Man than you like.
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Speaker 1: You're looking shape, healthy, You got the God's going around you. Man,
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Speaker 1: you look good. Also, thank you, brother. Let me see
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Speaker 1: you in the long time. Man, let's not time. Keen
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Speaker 1: up here this ship five year everything bit. Brother, How
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Speaker 1: are you feeling? How are you You want me to
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Speaker 1: be honest? Absolutely, It's been an amazing journey. You've been difficult,
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Speaker 1: but I feel amazing. Wow. What made you want to
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Speaker 1: get into your fitness journey? Man? It go with the
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Speaker 1: spiritual mind, body soul connection. And then I come from
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Speaker 1: a place of doing a lot of drugs and not
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Speaker 1: being self accountable and not holding myself accountable for things
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Speaker 1: and pass traumatic experiences that I went through. I was
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Speaker 1: really operating out of fear not to just go down that.
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Speaker 1: But the first time I ever spoke about this was
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Speaker 1: in on with the Mike Tyson interview. I was talking
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Speaker 1: about like I'm a great father, I'm not a big stepper.
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Speaker 1: Like the violence that I exhibited was because I was
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Speaker 1: molested when I was young. So that's what made me
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Speaker 1: just operate out of fear. I had that fear being vulnerable.
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Speaker 1: You know. I took out all these different styles of
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Speaker 1: martial lords, you know, weapon reality, these things, but I
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Speaker 1: was operating out of a place of feel because even
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Speaker 1: though I'm I'm tough, you still got that feel being vulnerable.
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Speaker 1: And it's just it's something that a lot of men
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Speaker 1: don't speak on. But I had read this book by
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Speaker 1: I think his name, mister Jason Wilson. Yeah, hell yeah, yeah,
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Speaker 1: that's my homie I loved and I was and he
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Speaker 1: was like me and I'm supposed to be. Nurtural was
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Speaker 1: also we great protect as great fathers, but nurtural was
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Speaker 1: also and it was like, yeah, it's like society wants
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Speaker 1: you to just be tough and don't never you know,
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Speaker 1: but I was like I cried too three times a
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Speaker 1: day sometime working out, doing yoga and things that because
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Speaker 1: you have to release or you an implode. And then
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Speaker 1: I'm real conscious of like my words, like what I
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Speaker 1: say to people, I make sure even if I'm hurting
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Speaker 1: your feelings, I make sure I say it out of
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Speaker 1: a place I love, because I just I've been hurt,
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Speaker 1: so now I operated out of place. I don't like
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Speaker 1: to see people hurt, you know, because there's always a
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Speaker 1: bad story. That's like when I watched the movie A Joker,
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Speaker 1: I was like this, said, yeah, because you see how
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Speaker 1: somebody ends up. We project, we project pain on the people,
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Speaker 1: we project our own pain on the other people. I
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Speaker 1: was gonna ask, what's that book got you to open up?
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Speaker 1: What did you see? You want me to be honest,
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Speaker 1: absolutely honest. I don't think you know any other way
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Speaker 1: to be. I mean, I don't want to trigger. I
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Speaker 1: don't want to trigger nobody. Ll know. Um, when I
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Speaker 1: was seventeen, I believe I had shot myself in the head.
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Speaker 1: I tried to commit suicide, had the bullet in my head.
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Speaker 1: And then twenty twenty, I believe I was gonna push
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Speaker 1: my shit out again. Yeah, so you said that on
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Speaker 1: big fact. I got off Instagram. I did all of that.
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Speaker 1: I got disconnected my Instagram, got off social media, and
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Speaker 1: I was by myself and just through the course of events, like,
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Speaker 1: I don't want to talk about it to trigger nobody,
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Speaker 1: but absolutely I was gonna kill myself. I wasn't happy,
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Speaker 1: and I don't do all that. Hey, I'm about to
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Speaker 1: throw a big parade about it. I'm gonna just do
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Speaker 1: it in silence because all that talking, this horse plan,
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Speaker 1: if you're gonna do it, hey, let's get it done.
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Speaker 1: It's all about to boat myself to the flow. What
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Speaker 1: got you out of it? What made you stop? Once
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Speaker 1: I got off Instagram, I was making a lot of
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Speaker 1: comparisons because I put in so much work to be
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Speaker 1: an amazing orders but you never celebrated properly, you know,
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Speaker 1: especially when you're a man and I'm not no alpha
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Speaker 1: mea advocate or No, I ain't with all that dumbas ship.
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Speaker 1: I believe it takes balance, you know, like I ain't
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Speaker 1: with that woman gonna do what I This ain't no
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Speaker 1: toxic masculinity feminine. You're talking about the hold of divine,
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Speaker 1: feminine and sacred masculinity. That's God's how you know about
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Speaker 1: that about man? So anyway, you're talking to a person
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Speaker 1: that I always make sure I try to destroy my
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Speaker 1: ego before I walk in any room. Well, I never
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Speaker 1: really had an ego, but my ego was fear protection,
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Speaker 1: like protecting myself and protecting the things around me, operating
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Speaker 1: out of field. So back to that store. So just
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Speaker 1: during the course of events me getting off Instagram, stopped
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Speaker 1: making comparisons because comparisons is to kill all joy. People
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Speaker 1: show the Highlight Room. DJ n't be pulling up in Ferrari's,
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Speaker 1: but his home life might be straight bullshit, but he
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Speaker 1: making it look good. And it's like, you compare your
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Speaker 1: real life and all the problems you got to somebody
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Speaker 1: that's highlight real. And that ship caused depression. So I
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Speaker 1: got out social media for like a year and al
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Speaker 1: and I just started living. And I saw that, man,
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Speaker 1: the streets loved me. Everywhere I go people love me.
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Speaker 1: People love me for real, like New York or Hard City.
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Speaker 1: To be your orders and get love in everywhere I go. Here,
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Speaker 1: these people loved me in the streets. These people loved
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Speaker 1: me everywhere I go. Though. Everywhere I go, everybody loved me.
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Speaker 1: And I had to realize, hold on, man, I got
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Speaker 1: to reaffirm some things with myself. I had to get
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Speaker 1: out my own way. Man, I want you. I'm gonna
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Speaker 1: recommend this book. Hey, I got a question if I
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Speaker 1: was to bring the copy of your book up here
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Speaker 1: with you. Sign this is you need to read. Ego
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Speaker 1: is the enemy. I carry it with me, trust me,
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Speaker 1: I know, but I love how I love to talk
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Speaker 1: about it though, And the reason you know it might
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Speaker 1: be triggering the something or for someone helps. So like
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Speaker 1: I did, I was say with you, I was away
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Speaker 1: from shooting myself too, and it's because I didn't think
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Speaker 1: I was worthy. That's right, feel as good as what
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Speaker 1: we could do for somebody. But what help was when
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Speaker 1: I spoke about it, and so many other people were
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Speaker 1: in that same position, and they got me and walk
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Speaker 1: up to me every day and cry every day. If
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Speaker 1: I'm in the gym, man, thank you for being so transparent, Like,
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Speaker 1: don't nobody to talk about this. I'm talking about bad
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Speaker 1: to build a super big and I could tell that
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Speaker 1: you're doing this out of frustration or whatever you're doing
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Speaker 1: that out of. So I changed the way that I
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Speaker 1: even approached the gym. Now when I go, I go
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Speaker 1: to make myself feel good. I go to put positive
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Speaker 1: energy in my badd I did yoga before I came
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Speaker 1: up here. I gotta open myself up and feel positive,
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Speaker 1: get the blood flowing, and put positive energy into my battle.
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Speaker 1: Before I move because anybody, I'm just big on that.
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Speaker 1: I don't even entertain miss no negativity because there's still consumption. Absolutely,
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Speaker 1: So what's the process now? Before you write? When you
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Speaker 1: do your music, I go jogging for like twenty minutes
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Speaker 1: because I'm addicted to that. It's like once they endorphands release,
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Speaker 1: it's like I'm high. Like I like to feel good,
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Speaker 1: Like I like to feel good. I want to feeling.
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Speaker 1: I craved that feeling and feeling good, Like, how do
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Speaker 1: I feel like? If I don't feel good, I'm not
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Speaker 1: doing it. Like just before I came in here, I say,
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Speaker 1: hold on, I gotta go take a shot. That's gonna
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Speaker 1: make me feel better. That's real. I only eat one
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Speaker 1: meal a day, so after, you know, I drink my
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Speaker 1: hot tea in the morning or high water with lambs.
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Speaker 1: Everything come out. Now, I'm ready. I'm ready for work.
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Speaker 1: You know. I wanted to ask you, man, because you
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Speaker 1: know a lot of I go to therapy once a week.
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Speaker 1: I'm doing it for like six years. But therapy is
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Speaker 1: not everybody's form of healing. So what else do you
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Speaker 1: do to like what you do on your healing journey?
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Speaker 1: I had to get by myself okay. And one one
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Speaker 1: of the biggest things I do. I keep self inventory.
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Speaker 1: I write down the things that I'm feeling, whatever it is,
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Speaker 1: and I go back and answer them questions. I talk
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Speaker 1: to myself. I used to think I was weird for
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Speaker 1: doing it. Than I read that all genius has talk
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Speaker 1: to themselves. I'm in tune with myself. I can be alone.
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Speaker 1: Is it difficult? It is? A lot of people can't
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Speaker 1: be alone with themselves. They got to watch TV or
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Speaker 1: play music to keep themselves distracted. Because there's a lot
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Speaker 1: of things that we suppress. That's like when they got
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Speaker 1: this yoga post called a pigeon post. I never knew
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Speaker 1: nothing about no emotional detox and what you know, walk
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Speaker 1: around talking about man the emotional detox. We got taught
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Speaker 1: that I was doing a pigeon pole just to open
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Speaker 1: my hips up more like, Okay, this gonna give you
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Speaker 1: more strength in a gym, but I'm looking at it
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Speaker 1: for the strength aspect. And it was so healing because
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Speaker 1: I started crying right there uncontrollably. She put her hands
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Speaker 1: on my back. She say, a lot of what you're
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Speaker 1: feeling right now is not your own psychic debris. You're
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Speaker 1: having an emotional detox right now. She just breathing to
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Speaker 1: the poles. Breathe and she said a lot of the
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Speaker 1: anger and frustration and emotions are hall but in the
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Speaker 1: gut and then the hips. I never knew this, so
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Speaker 1: I emotionally detox before I came up here because I
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Speaker 1: don't want to project. Even with my son, he told
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Speaker 1: me some one day, and I may, what is you alone?
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Speaker 1: I'm I'm handling him bad. This miss checked, this unchecked aggression.
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Speaker 1: Like if I'm not in tune with myself, if I'm
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Speaker 1: not happy, I can't make my children happy. I can't
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Speaker 1: be the man I'm supposed to be for my family.
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Speaker 1: If I got I got in a turmoil going on.
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Speaker 1: That's really what got you in new yoga. I got
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Speaker 1: into it in prison, and on my last bid it
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Speaker 1: was a blessing. I had got into it. But the
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Speaker 1: first when I was presented with the opportunity to do yoga,
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Speaker 1: I'm like, man, I'm not about to do that. Puss says, shit,
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Speaker 1: you going in been over. I ain't got time to
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Speaker 1: be doing that. You know, I was just you know,
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Speaker 1: you judge it because you don't understand it. Correct. My
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Speaker 1: first class maybe two minutes into it, I had to
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Speaker 1: run to the bathroom and just shit everything out my batter.
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Speaker 1: He say, you're releasing everything that's not that's no longer
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Speaker 1: serving yo, how yourself? So I just stought experimenting with
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Speaker 1: yoga and jail, and I noticed, I'm like, this curt
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Speaker 1: my appetite. This makes me don't want to eat. You
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Speaker 1: focusing on your breath, You're focusing on yourself. This person
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Speaker 1: may be able to stretch way better than you, but
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Speaker 1: guess what, everybody is on their own individual journey. So
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Speaker 1: it kind of teach you to not compel. And it
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Speaker 1: also teach you too. Even those situations may get rough tense,
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Speaker 1: you just breathe through it and work through it. And
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Speaker 1: the reward being in the journey. I ain't trying to
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Speaker 1: get to no destination. I'm I'm loving the journey right now.
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Speaker 1: It's a good time to meditate too. And then if
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Speaker 1: you ever have like back pains and things like that, though,
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Speaker 1: it's like very intense stretching, so it really helps, like
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Speaker 1: your whole body just feel I'm kind of nice with yoga. Yeah,
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Speaker 1: I saw your in feature. I'm kind of nice. I
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Speaker 1: did that here in New York and I never saw
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Speaker 1: myself doing no shit like that gangster for that. You
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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, I never saw myself doing It's like,
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Speaker 1: I'm amazed that just watching my journey. But that's why
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Speaker 1: these conversations are so powerful coming from you, because I
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Speaker 1: saw you on Big Facts podcast and I was like, man,
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Speaker 1: Kevin is talking that talk. He talking that talk that
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Speaker 1: brothers need to hear to heal yourself. And you also
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Speaker 1: have a shamman. I saw you say that too, that
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Speaker 1: you yeah, my tattoo orders. Yeah, he liked my showman.
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Speaker 1: I call him my showman because he's a spiritual advisor.
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Speaker 1: He's a guy. He's shamanistic in nature because he's not
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Speaker 1: gonna putting it on me that the energy not aligning
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Speaker 1: with And sometime he'll be like, I can't do it.
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Speaker 1: Then other times we just we pray this. So we
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Speaker 1: burned sage and he do my tattoos. Everything I've ever
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Speaker 1: been through all my life, it's tattooed on me. It's
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Speaker 1: a journey. It's a lot of people that done me dirty.
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Speaker 1: I got their faces on me. But guess what, I
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Speaker 1: still love you because you was a great lesson anything
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Speaker 1: that happened in my life, good or bad, has been
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Speaker 1: a great teacher to me. So it's about changing the perspective.
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Speaker 1: Go back to that, revisit the situation that hurt you.
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Speaker 1: What did you learn from it and attach a positive
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Speaker 1: emotion to it? And I noticed it sound it's sound
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Speaker 1: easier than done. But you got to go back and
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Speaker 1: relive this shit. And you you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: But once you go back and you relive it, you
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Speaker 1: realize that this was only gladiator school to train me
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Speaker 1: for the next level. And what you said is keto,
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Speaker 1: you said, he like, there's no destination to healing. It's
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Speaker 1: a constant journey at all. It's a journey. Like I'm
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Speaker 1: I'm in love with the journey like all my friends.
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Speaker 1: At first they were like, there he go with this
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Speaker 1: old health there and ship, but they started to get
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Speaker 1: into your friends and your family and your queen, like
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Speaker 1: because your journey is when they first started. When they
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Speaker 1: first started, it was a lot of resistance because it's
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Speaker 1: alien of people. I'm exhibited an alien behavior. It's unknown,
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Speaker 1: it's foreign and I didn't know what I was doing.
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Speaker 1: But I had to follow my heart because I never
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Speaker 1: wanted to sit there watch TV and say, you know what,
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Speaker 1: what if I never would have tried, that would be
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Speaker 1: my biggest regret. And I had everything taken from me
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Speaker 1: In two thousand and sixteen, I was innocent over a lot,
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Speaker 1: nominated for a Grammars, all of that. But it was
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Speaker 1: beautiful because this time I'm even helping more people. But
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Speaker 1: I harbored a lot of resentment towards that. I'm like, man,
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Speaker 1: why I keep getting looked over? I do nothing but
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Speaker 1: great ship? But then when somebody else emulate what I do,
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Speaker 1: the world slapped them on the ass and applaud like why.
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Speaker 1: I don't know I had have noticed me because it
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Speaker 1: wasn't my time yet. I wasn't ready to receive these blessings,
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Speaker 1: these blessings, wasn't then that they was just delayed. So
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Speaker 1: now I'm receiving my blessings. Do you think that comes
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Speaker 1: from not having a sense of worthiness for yourself? So
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Speaker 1: if you don't have a sense of worthiness or love
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Speaker 1: for yourself, it's hard to recognize it from other. Big bro,
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Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest with you. I crushed so many
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Speaker 1: relationships out of ego, and I closed so many doors
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Speaker 1: just operating out of my ego. So where it was
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Speaker 1: people that saw something greater than me and reached for me.
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Speaker 1: And I got in my own way. I could say
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Speaker 1: that like I'm gonna be honest, like people be like,
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Speaker 1: so why you ain't never work with no other orders.
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Speaker 1: I just started reaching out. But in the beginning it
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Speaker 1: was pride and fear or rejection. What if you say
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Speaker 1: no and that's all you can do and say no, hey,
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Speaker 1: let's work, And then guess what, Kevin, you an artist,
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Speaker 1: you be busy, hey high let me when you free?
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Speaker 1: And then you got to also realize everybody and I
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Speaker 1: made the co create. Sometimes you could be so powerful
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Speaker 1: and your truth that just a person standing on side
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Speaker 1: of you exposed them for who they really is. They
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Speaker 1: can't stand on side of you because you would expose them.
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Speaker 1: You the truth. I'm my authentic self every day. However
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Speaker 1: I feel I'm gonna say it no filter. It's just
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Speaker 1: me now. He said something earlier, right, what I said
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Speaker 1: something that you know, when you say something, you say
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Speaker 1: it from the heart. I mean, with all due respect
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Speaker 1: out of Look if it could be hurting to somebody,
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Speaker 1: you don't mean to hurt somebody. My sister, don't kill me.
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Speaker 1: If you're watching but she it was a situation went
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Speaker 1: on with her and she flashed out. We have an argument.
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Speaker 1: She like, you just don't know your words hurt people.
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Speaker 1: I wish i'd have never I wish i'd have just
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Speaker 1: let him go ahead and do that to me. I
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Speaker 1: was like, then I find out she had took a
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Speaker 1: bunch of pills and just wanted to really end her
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Speaker 1: life based on the things that I was saying. That
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Speaker 1: was hurtful, but I'm hurt she being hurt, so like,
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Speaker 1: were breaking generation of curses right now? Please don't care mine.
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Speaker 1: You're trying to put nobody in your business. But I
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Speaker 1: had ended up taking care of something for her. You know,
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Speaker 1: it's nothing to be spoke about. It just was what
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Speaker 1: it was. But just in her saying that, I would
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Speaker 1: think you would be grateful that I stopped it, But
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Speaker 1: she was like, I should have just not even called you.
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Speaker 1: And this years later after that, because your words hurt people.
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Speaker 1: And I'm like, damn, so now make sure even if
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Speaker 1: I hurt your feelings, I'm gonna do it with pure intentions.
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Speaker 1: I love you, but I love me more. I gotta
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Speaker 1: protect my energy. That's not a crime. Now, I wanted
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Speaker 1: to ask you. We had a big discussion about this
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Speaker 1: when you said it on the radio. Right, what I
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Speaker 1: said when you were talking about miss being talk about
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Speaker 1: another man's wife. Yeah, what I said, umn't I forgot
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Speaker 1: something that I forgot? You? Could you? Could you? Could
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Speaker 1: you say? Yeah, the audio, I don't know exactly mess
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Speaker 1: I don't want to quote you. What about it? I
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Speaker 1: remember that, you know I forgot. I don't remember the details.
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Speaker 1: But whatever whatever it was, could you make me? Could
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Speaker 1: you make me remember? I don't remember. I wouldn't want
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Speaker 1: to quote you. I don't want to miss quote. Don't
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Speaker 1: want to miss quote. But they do, the media do
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Speaker 1: that though. But that's one of the most beautiful women
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Speaker 1: in the world. I can't be a fan, Yes you can.
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Speaker 1: I can't be a fan, absolutely can. I'm sitting in
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Speaker 1: a trap out around the monster's just looking at TV man.
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Speaker 1: I swear to guard when I said that, everybody feel
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Speaker 1: like that. They just scared to say it. I ain't
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Speaker 1: scared to say it. Respect for another man. I said respectfully.
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Speaker 1: I don't mean respectfully. I said I respect Oh, I
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Speaker 1: think it was. I don't even want to have this conversation.
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Speaker 1: But I was just asking, of course, if somebody said
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Speaker 1: that about your lady, your queen. That'll that'll feel good
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Speaker 1: you posted fans had about what I got, Nick, I'm
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Speaker 1: living your dreams every night. Yeah, I'm punching Dick and
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Speaker 1: her living your dreams. What I don't want nothing, don't
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Speaker 1: nobody else, won't I get. That's like if Angela, you
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Speaker 1: or my lady, I'm not trying. I'm only being illustrative,
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Speaker 1: if that's a word. If you're my lady now and
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Speaker 1: I know all y'all just y'all want my woman, I'm
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Speaker 1: about to walk up and get you a big hug
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Speaker 1: game and grip that ass in front of them. Yeah.
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Speaker 1: I don't kill right, but but somebody that's not on
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Speaker 1: your same plane field saying I would fuck the shit
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Speaker 1: out of you and whatever whatever, whatever it may be,
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Speaker 1: stick my tullaul in your ass and squirrel it around
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Speaker 1: like a helicopter. I do all that to my wife's helm.
17:32
Speaker 1: So you wouldn't feel away if another man said that
17:34
Speaker 1: about your wife. Wouldn't give a fuck. I don't care
17:38
Speaker 1: about what nobody to think about me or what nobody
17:40
Speaker 1: to say. I live life every day, and you still
17:43
Speaker 1: would have the same respect for that individual. I wouldn't
17:45
Speaker 1: give a damn. I'm living your dreams. Nigga, you salute me.
17:50
Speaker 1: I believe that Kevin Gates than the average You salute me.
17:55
Speaker 1: You want to do all this I got. I'm pussial
18:00
Speaker 1: and you would still respect that individual the same way. Yeah,
18:03
Speaker 1: me and speak to the same way. We can still
18:05
Speaker 1: do a song with each other. We're still good. I mean,
18:07
Speaker 1: if you speak to me, I'll speak to you, you
18:08
Speaker 1: know me and greet me, and I don't know what
18:10
Speaker 1: you got going on, or they see y'all invited me here.
18:12
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna go know where, I'm not invited. So
18:14
Speaker 1: if somebody invite me somewhere, and yeah, I'm you know,
18:17
Speaker 1: I'm a gangster, a gentleman. How you doing, beloved? You
18:20
Speaker 1: know I'm gonna greet you humble and see me and
18:22
Speaker 1: greet men. You know you said some other shit too
18:26
Speaker 1: that on a song shoot my shot. Because I hadn't
18:34
Speaker 1: bring it. They buttered me up with all of the positivity.
18:39
Speaker 1: You know, most guys would be intimidated by a situation
18:42
Speaker 1: like this, right, what kind of situation? Shoot my shot?
18:45
Speaker 1: You said that I don't remember, could you? Yes? I
18:48
Speaker 1: have no recollection because I'm gonna mention this just because
18:52
Speaker 1: we did on lip Service. We had a J. Johnson
18:55
Speaker 1: on and she was talking about how she was with
18:56
Speaker 1: two guys and it turned into this whole thing where
18:59
Speaker 1: people were like condemning her for it and she had
19:02
Speaker 1: to actually come back on to defend herself about a
19:04
Speaker 1: situation that she had. But you were like, leg you know,
19:07
Speaker 1: I don't mind. I would actually like to fuck a
19:10
Speaker 1: girl and have another guy, like, you know, like a
19:12
Speaker 1: threesome and like my homie, you know, just be able
19:15
Speaker 1: to do that, and I won't look at her. No,
19:17
Speaker 1: you can't do that with no anybody. You gotta have
19:19
Speaker 1: somebody that's gonna respect that woman like you respect that
19:21
Speaker 1: woman right, like even even the way that we even
19:25
Speaker 1: the way that we issued dick to her. Like I like,
19:28
Speaker 1: it's a lot of women that Dad loved it, but
19:32
Speaker 1: they have a feel being judged. They ware you say,
19:35
Speaker 1: you say punch dick and issued dick. I'm using both
19:37
Speaker 1: of them because I feel like that's a taboo thing.
19:45
Speaker 1: And people look at they'll say like, oh, she got
19:48
Speaker 1: a train ran on her, or that happens. Okay, when
19:51
Speaker 1: you go see you gotta listen. You listening to that.
19:55
Speaker 1: People that don't even know who they are, they're not
19:57
Speaker 1: even comfortable what they say. Well, don't even know who
19:59
Speaker 1: you are. I don't even know what you like. How
20:01
Speaker 1: can I let somebody that don't know what they like
20:03
Speaker 1: telling me what's wrong and what's right for me? Hey, Hey,
20:06
Speaker 1: what you eat don't make me shitting. What I eat
20:08
Speaker 1: don't make you shit. But if a woman, I talk
20:11
Speaker 1: to women that's I'm talking about up in rank, having
20:14
Speaker 1: businesses and everything, and they just I just kevin, I
20:18
Speaker 1: just I just love the way you just slept me out.
20:20
Speaker 1: Just yes, they loved that. I just feel free when
20:25
Speaker 1: I'm with you. No judgment, yeah, baby, no judgment. People
20:27
Speaker 1: go through shit. How you think I got this good?
20:31
Speaker 1: Because practice don't make you perfect. Practice only makes you better.
20:36
Speaker 1: I'll tell everybody that. So, like I say, if a
20:38
Speaker 1: woman had been with a lot of people, you know
20:40
Speaker 1: what you got field credentials. I'm not. I'm not. That's
20:43
Speaker 1: like Charlemagne Dick. Charlemagne Dick two inches longer than matter,
20:48
Speaker 1: were both still hitting that bone. I mean your stomach.
20:50
Speaker 1: If a woman saying I'm not a enough stomach, she
20:52
Speaker 1: hate on me. Y'all with that boy. I want to
21:02
Speaker 1: know what do you what do you say no to
21:06
Speaker 1: in the broom because it feels like no host bird.
21:09
Speaker 1: What are some things that you're like, I ain't doing
21:11
Speaker 1: that that somebody's asked you to do. Don't know about
21:15
Speaker 1: to ask me to do nothing because I'm such a pleaser,
21:17
Speaker 1: Like I get off phone, that's like this this car
21:22
Speaker 1: right here? Do we separate? Okay? You got this car
21:25
Speaker 1: right here. You know somebody else can probably wash this car.
21:30
Speaker 1: But this my dream call. So I'm gonna detail list
21:33
Speaker 1: call intricately. I'm gonna be I'm gonna put my everything
21:38
Speaker 1: into it. And a woman Badding know when you aiming
21:42
Speaker 1: the police? Huh, A woman Badding knew if you're doing
21:44
Speaker 1: this selfishly. A woman Badding know if you're doing this
21:47
Speaker 1: with gratitude. And guess what, I'm thankful for you right
21:50
Speaker 1: now because this is a whole blessing. I praying everything
21:54
Speaker 1: before I have six. This is spiritual. My dick wouldn't
21:57
Speaker 1: get hard if it wasn't without the permission of the creator.
21:59
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna pray before I do this. I'm gonna
22:02
Speaker 1: make it sacred because guess who know about it? Businesses
22:05
Speaker 1: between those who make it. That's right. You know you
22:08
Speaker 1: got the song thinking with my dick with Juicy J.
22:11
Speaker 1: How does a man not think with it? Kevin's like, damn,
22:13
Speaker 1: this is all that's so positive? Man, Let me find
22:18
Speaker 1: out y'all been plotting only Kevin? How does a man
22:21
Speaker 1: not think with it? You want me to be honest. Yeah,
22:26
Speaker 1: that glow that you say you see in that order,
22:29
Speaker 1: that that presence that you feel when I walk in
22:31
Speaker 1: the room. A lot of people are gonna talk against this,
22:34
Speaker 1: but this comes from seeming retention and discipline. Like if
22:39
Speaker 1: I wake up in the morning, they call it morning,
22:41
Speaker 1: would some men wake up dick be hard? You know,
22:44
Speaker 1: you could choose to you it's a choice. You could
22:46
Speaker 1: choose to put a sock on your dick and beat
22:49
Speaker 1: it and shoot your precious life force in a in
22:52
Speaker 1: a sock. Or you could choose to get up and
22:54
Speaker 1: put that energy into your workout. You could take your
22:57
Speaker 1: sexual cravnce and translate that energy in the sun something else,
23:02
Speaker 1: and it shows it shows you can translate that energy
23:06
Speaker 1: like you can have practice, seeming retention and something else
23:10
Speaker 1: that I've noticed since I've been on this journey, I've
23:12
Speaker 1: been practicing about maybe three and a half years. And
23:16
Speaker 1: it is times that I had with dreams. Because when
23:18
Speaker 1: you anything that need to come out with you, it's
23:20
Speaker 1: gonna come out. I have we dreams. Don't watch porn
23:23
Speaker 1: at all, don't even watch porn. Don't don't even feed
23:27
Speaker 1: that to your man. I'm talking about put it into
23:29
Speaker 1: your music. That energy is gonna be different. Everybody that
23:32
Speaker 1: meet me not say, man, your energy is so different
23:34
Speaker 1: now because I'm translating it. Even when I'm around women,
23:37
Speaker 1: they tell me, you know what, you talk about a
23:40
Speaker 1: lot of sexuals related topics in your songs. I say,
23:43
Speaker 1: you know how, I say because I have stained and
23:47
Speaker 1: I put my cravens into the music. Yeah, and when
23:50
Speaker 1: I kitch you, guess what. I'm not gonna play with you.
23:54
Speaker 1: But I don't get creep energy from you because I
23:56
Speaker 1: don't look at women objectively. This is a blessing. Even
24:00
Speaker 1: met your matchroom, Um, I met somebody really close, and
24:05
Speaker 1: guess what I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna tell you something.
24:10
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you something. I haven't met my match,
24:13
Speaker 1: but I miss somebody that's really close. And the reason
24:16
Speaker 1: I say, she really really close. Oh God, don't kill it.
24:21
Speaker 1: She got acting in her face. I know this gonna
24:24
Speaker 1: sound crazy. I know this gonna sound crazy. A lot
24:27
Speaker 1: of women were acting in their face, got good pussing
24:30
Speaker 1: because they harmones. They harmones are so imbalanced that it
24:34
Speaker 1: caused them to have congestion, so they're not releasing properly.
24:38
Speaker 1: See once I started really justus caught in. I really
24:41
Speaker 1: put it on her. Her face started cleaning up. Because
24:43
Speaker 1: a lot of time we break out, you notice we
24:46
Speaker 1: have bad acting developed through to what stress and things
24:49
Speaker 1: of that nature. I'm not saying all women were acting
24:52
Speaker 1: anything with the skin, yeah, but a lot of a
24:55
Speaker 1: lot of the things that go on with us are
24:57
Speaker 1: really internally. I'm that is just saying it for that.
25:01
Speaker 1: But she she uped though she and my top three.
25:04
Speaker 1: That's good man, because there's a lot of women out
25:05
Speaker 1: there with acne and they got insecurities because of the acne.
25:08
Speaker 1: But you just know, I'm so serious, like like a
25:12
Speaker 1: woman with act a little bit of congestion acting in
25:15
Speaker 1: our face, then be the ones I'm talking about. Pussy good.
25:20
Speaker 1: So you don't like the make up, I mean, yeah,
25:22
Speaker 1: don't you don't want to see a girl with makeup?
25:23
Speaker 1: You want see her for what So you can see
25:26
Speaker 1: the acne because she covered up with the makeup, you
25:28
Speaker 1: won't see it. Oh you could just see acne with makeup.
25:31
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say this. I just I'm not a big
25:33
Speaker 1: fan of makeup. I like a woman in a natural
25:36
Speaker 1: state because sometimes my skin is and she get congested.
25:39
Speaker 1: If I eat the wrong things. Anything I put in
25:41
Speaker 1: my badg gonna show up in my face. That's dietarr related.
25:45
Speaker 1: I know this one out fast for about seven days,
25:47
Speaker 1: don't eat nothing, just juice. My skin looked like glass porcelain.
25:52
Speaker 1: It just it's something internal. But I just noticed that
25:55
Speaker 1: with hood, like in a few women that I a
25:57
Speaker 1: run across with acne. Puss it good. You know. I
26:00
Speaker 1: wanted to say, I'm talking my great as a fact, yes, Lord,
26:07
Speaker 1: speaking of the music, I appreciate the fact you did
26:09
Speaker 1: by my lonely by speaking knockas over man. Do you
26:12
Speaker 1: know where he's from from the same plan, Well, he
26:15
Speaker 1: from Columbia. I'm from most corner. But his mom, his
26:18
Speaker 1: mom woked like really really good woman. Yeah. Like at
26:22
Speaker 1: least I started listening to him in jail, and it
26:24
Speaker 1: was always like my dream of like work with him
26:26
Speaker 1: and he had dad before I came home. Yep, I started.
26:29
Speaker 1: I started communicating with him like four months Carolina, sir, h,
26:33
Speaker 1: I love that place, that's home. But what made you
26:36
Speaker 1: want to do that? Because you're a fan of music? Yeah,
26:38
Speaker 1: I was a fan of him, and I always say that,
26:40
Speaker 1: Like at my concert, before I bring the song, I'd
26:43
Speaker 1: be like speaking Knockas, I love you forever because I do,
26:46
Speaker 1: like I never got a chance to meet you, but
26:48
Speaker 1: I met you like Mama Knockas. She just she loved me.
26:53
Speaker 1: Now you know what I wanted to ask you about
26:54
Speaker 1: your relationship, which drinker, because there's been a lot of
26:57
Speaker 1: speculation online. So how is everything a little I'm speculated.
27:00
Speaker 1: I don't answer. No, I don't. I don't. I don't
27:02
Speaker 1: do that with the internet. Let them say what they
27:04
Speaker 1: want to say about me. I don't kill they say
27:08
Speaker 1: all kind of negative things about me. Because then you
27:10
Speaker 1: see her and she still know all the lyrics to
27:12
Speaker 1: all the songs on the album. She posting that looked
27:15
Speaker 1: like she loved me. Yeah, and I love That's it?
27:18
Speaker 1: Like what else? Like why does my life? Why does
27:22
Speaker 1: it matter? People be? I just want to know. I
27:24
Speaker 1: just know Listen, you're living by caressly through somebody else.
27:28
Speaker 1: You're looking at my life for your source and entertainment.
27:31
Speaker 1: My life is not your source entertainment. Last time I checked.
27:34
Speaker 1: I'm grown, I'm a real god to do what I want.
27:40
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, oh, I just say that because I
27:42
Speaker 1: get an X that questions so much, And why does
27:44
Speaker 1: it matter? Either you love me or you don't. Either
27:47
Speaker 1: you're gonna you're gonna hate me for who I am
27:50
Speaker 1: and love me for who You're never gonna love me
27:53
Speaker 1: for who I'm at. So this is why does it
27:55
Speaker 1: matter for that situation? Because you y'all were so intwined
27:58
Speaker 1: with each other, still live between, we're still in. People
28:03
Speaker 1: don't see something always why what happened? You know? People
28:06
Speaker 1: see you with somebody else and then they'll be like, oh,
28:08
Speaker 1: he's doing this, And did you see me nailing somebody else?
28:10
Speaker 1: And you just see me with somebody you ain't seen
28:13
Speaker 1: me pinning up and somebody else somebody. I can't even
28:25
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying it's a true statement. Like, listen,
28:29
Speaker 1: let's go off statistics like a lot of the I'm
28:33
Speaker 1: gonna say, all of the women I ran across with
28:35
Speaker 1: that acne and they face then being prussire real Prussia,
28:40
Speaker 1: and they had an insecurity about the acne. Girl, lick
28:43
Speaker 1: your little bomps. You better stop playing with me. What
28:46
Speaker 1: did you think about Nick Canada's comments that eighty percent
28:48
Speaker 1: of all women don't know how to probably clean the vaginas.
28:53
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna say eighty percent, but it's a high
28:55
Speaker 1: it's a high percentage, right. But I'm gonna say this,
28:57
Speaker 1: It's not their fault. They never were being taught. We
29:01
Speaker 1: forced them to a society where the mama might have
29:04
Speaker 1: had it been a dad and the mom in a relationship,
29:06
Speaker 1: you got something in a single parent households. You know,
29:09
Speaker 1: I thank god I had a grandmother, you know that
29:11
Speaker 1: taught me and raised me and loved me. Taught me
29:13
Speaker 1: how to clean all behind my ears. You know, a
29:15
Speaker 1: woman I supposed to putting no soap on they or
29:18
Speaker 1: it don't even pppost to go in there. It cleans itself.
29:22
Speaker 1: You clean it internally. You can't. Nothing external adds value.
29:27
Speaker 1: You clean yourself up from the inside out, not the
29:29
Speaker 1: outside end. So as far as cleaning yourself properly, a
29:32
Speaker 1: lot of people don't even use wash rags. They don't
29:35
Speaker 1: even scrub, they upper derm as, they old layer skin off.
29:38
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, It's just not taught. Yeah,
29:41
Speaker 1: you can't follow them that they don't know whoever they are. Man,
29:44
Speaker 1: I know niggas that don't I know niggas that's like Jason,
29:47
Speaker 1: I'm talking about real killers, but scared of get in
29:49
Speaker 1: the water. I know niggas like that, just real trolls.
29:53
Speaker 1: It's not they fault, it's just they don't know no better.
29:56
Speaker 1: So you can't be mad at them if they never
29:58
Speaker 1: been shown properly how to clean himselves. You know, cleanliness
30:02
Speaker 1: is next to gardliness. I don't even feel right to
30:04
Speaker 1: the shot off. I came here, that's all. You're on
30:07
Speaker 1: stage two and you was telling the crowd like, y'all
30:08
Speaker 1: don't don't don't love me based on I guess the
30:11
Speaker 1: reception to your album. So what were your expectations? No,
30:13
Speaker 1: I can't say that, I thought, No, I can't say
30:16
Speaker 1: that like that. I just asked him, what cha don't
30:17
Speaker 1: love me? Oh? I thought it was because of the album.
30:21
Speaker 1: You know how, I don't measure that off numbers schmumbers. Okay,
30:24
Speaker 1: you know how I know the album doing good because
30:26
Speaker 1: everywhere I go on the street, like I don't tell
30:29
Speaker 1: him I'm popping up over here. I hear that the
30:32
Speaker 1: cause of album playing, it's healing the world right now.
30:34
Speaker 1: I spoke on subject matters that no rappers even touch.
30:37
Speaker 1: You got from the young to the old. It's gyms
30:40
Speaker 1: in there for everybody. It's healing the world. Because my
30:43
Speaker 1: son don't learn through through on. He don't learn through education.
30:49
Speaker 1: He learned through entertainment. I make his learning fun for him,
30:53
Speaker 1: and that's how he learned because he hands on. Like
30:56
Speaker 1: I can't sit in no class like this all day,
30:59
Speaker 1: that's true. Would you want me to be asign? I
31:01
Speaker 1: want to be hands on and the experienced. Don't you
31:04
Speaker 1: teach me? Show me? Don't you do more? Why don't
31:05
Speaker 1: you cover like we we ever seen you a six
31:08
Speaker 1: years man. You don't over the last time, and we
31:13
Speaker 1: couldn't somebody and somebody in his team at Colby, that's
31:16
Speaker 1: what it was. Anytime you you would have come. I
31:18
Speaker 1: don't understand like you. I don't think you understand. Forget
31:22
Speaker 1: all people heal from the words that you that's right,
31:24
Speaker 1: that's the most important thing. The music, yes, of course,
31:27
Speaker 1: but people heal from your words and the music. Yeah,
31:30
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. When I'm telling watching that
31:31
Speaker 1: Big Fact podcast, I was like, man, we're in a
31:33
Speaker 1: We're in a different time where Brothers is really embracing
31:37
Speaker 1: the healing process. And I love Kendrick's album, I love
31:39
Speaker 1: your project. You know, a West Side bookie like all
31:42
Speaker 1: of these brothers talking about healing and therapy. Have you
31:46
Speaker 1: ever told you nough ani ya? No. I never told
31:49
Speaker 1: me no. But you know what I did want to
31:51
Speaker 1: ask you when we since we're talk about healing pt
31:53
Speaker 1: ptoe right, and you're talking about protect me from my friends,
31:56
Speaker 1: and several times you do discuss having friends and people
31:59
Speaker 1: close to you that I have betrayed you financially. A
32:02
Speaker 1: lot of times it is how do you heal and
32:04
Speaker 1: move on from that? And is there ever any conversations
32:07
Speaker 1: of forgiveness because you said you just they just can't
32:09
Speaker 1: get in touch with you. I'm gonna be honest with you.
32:12
Speaker 1: Sometimes when you forgive people, it's not to rectify the
32:16
Speaker 1: or get the matter resolved. It's to resolve the matter internally.
32:20
Speaker 1: I'm forgiving you for me, not for you. I'll probably
32:24
Speaker 1: never deal with you again, but I forgive you. But
32:27
Speaker 1: It just showed me I can't be looking for myself
32:29
Speaker 1: inside of other people, and we do that a lot
32:31
Speaker 1: of times. I can't expect you to be the way
32:33
Speaker 1: I'm built because I'm cut from a band down. A
32:36
Speaker 1: lot of these dudes cut from shit paper. So I
32:38
Speaker 1: can't expect you to be like me. And I understand
32:41
Speaker 1: that and not respect it. I just know how far
32:43
Speaker 1: to go with you know, hey, like trusting people is scary.
32:49
Speaker 1: It's scary, like you have I got a question, Like
32:52
Speaker 1: you have a conversation with somebody and it's supposed to
32:55
Speaker 1: be in private, but mad they come, they ask your
32:57
Speaker 1: dirt or launch route, like that's not platinum, that's not
33:01
Speaker 1: a platinum, and then it kind of put you on
33:03
Speaker 1: a share and make you well. I can't even say
33:06
Speaker 1: what I want to say fulfill that they might. You
33:08
Speaker 1: know what, guess what, I'm transparent in a way, bitch,
33:11
Speaker 1: say what you want about me. I don't even imitate it.
33:13
Speaker 1: I wouldn't made for everybody to like, what has impactaged
33:17
Speaker 1: your life? Man? More? What has impacage your life? More?
33:19
Speaker 1: Islama hip hop? You know, I'm me to tell you
33:23
Speaker 1: something to be honest, since you're speaking about that and
33:29
Speaker 1: I mean it's with all due respect, the people that
33:34
Speaker 1: hurt me the most, it's my own people. Like they
33:41
Speaker 1: hurt me the most, been my own people, people that
33:43
Speaker 1: look like me. Like it's a lot of Muslims that
33:47
Speaker 1: loved me, but it's also a lot of Muslims that judgement.
33:49
Speaker 1: You can't have tattoos. That's hard m this this that
33:52
Speaker 1: hard arm. It means forbidden. You can't do this. And
33:54
Speaker 1: this man you know, who helped me, like really get
33:58
Speaker 1: back on my feet since my last tool. It been
34:00
Speaker 1: Jews and transgenders, like the people that the world will
34:05
Speaker 1: say is the worst people them the people that helped me,
34:07
Speaker 1: Like I'm doing business. They bring like I got a
34:09
Speaker 1: pot to here, jew he bringing me coffee deals and
34:13
Speaker 1: all of this. We're doing all these investments. This Later
34:16
Speaker 1: she transgender. She say, baby, you can use my white
34:18
Speaker 1: house if you want to put all your merchant up.
34:21
Speaker 1: Just gave me the whitehouse. Man, the words you say,
34:23
Speaker 1: they speak to my spirit. I love who, I love
34:25
Speaker 1: who you are. I love what you stand for. It
34:27
Speaker 1: be the people that the world say is the most
34:29
Speaker 1: worst people, fucked up people on earth, been the people
34:33
Speaker 1: that helped me. And it's my own people that judge
34:36
Speaker 1: me and kicked me when I'm down, and I always
34:38
Speaker 1: got something negative to say about me. I always in
34:40
Speaker 1: my business, keep my name and miss like like. Then
34:42
Speaker 1: they say black lives matter and get mad when I
34:44
Speaker 1: don't support it. Who they matter to? We kill each
34:46
Speaker 1: other all day? Who they matter to? We talk behind
34:50
Speaker 1: each other back. We always what the fuck? Like I
34:53
Speaker 1: told garden Man, I hate to say it. I mean
34:55
Speaker 1: it's without the respect of the Look, if I gotta
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Speaker 1: come back a nigga, I just waited to see them
34:59
Speaker 1: else come available. Pig I don't even won't be no nigga. Really,
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Speaker 1: everybody won't be a nigga teller time to be one.
35:06
Speaker 1: That's I just you're a black guard though. Niggas the
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Speaker 1: nigga mean king. That's what they say. No, that's what
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Speaker 1: why you hear me say b o, n big old nigga,
35:18
Speaker 1: that mean king. We was taught wrong, We was taught
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Speaker 1: wrong and nigga mean king, big old nigga. I got that, nigga.
35:27
Speaker 1: I'm a big old nigga. It's nothing I can't go
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Speaker 1: through and and adapt and adjust and become greater. But
35:33
Speaker 1: that's what most of my problems don't come from other people,
35:36
Speaker 1: come from niggasjudge me. That's who kicked me when I'm down,
35:40
Speaker 1: But that's also who supports you to But we also
35:42
Speaker 1: got I'm gonna be honest. I'm gonna be honest with you.
35:46
Speaker 1: I can't say it's just niggas that support me. You
35:49
Speaker 1: know what it is that supports me, real people. I
35:52
Speaker 1: don't look at that like that. I look at it
35:53
Speaker 1: as real people and fake people. Real people do real things,
35:57
Speaker 1: fake people do fake shit, and you never know who
36:01
Speaker 1: your blessing gonna come through, so you can't judge. Don't
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Speaker 1: you believe it's a white supremacist system that created that
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Speaker 1: put us in this position to even be the way
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Speaker 1: we all to each other. They say that, but I
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Speaker 1: ain't shit. I got a good heart. I try to
36:14
Speaker 1: help niggas. I get shitted on. But every time think
36:17
Speaker 1: about how you think about how you working for the
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Speaker 1: healing process, there's a bunch of brothers and sisters that
36:22
Speaker 1: support you. Yeah, the real people. It's real people and
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Speaker 1: fake people. And I ain't trying to be controversial with
36:27
Speaker 1: this shit, but it's real people and fake people. But
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Speaker 1: the people that didn't really kick me when I'm down
36:33
Speaker 1: be the people that look like me, the people that
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Speaker 1: judge me, Be the people that look like me. That's
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Speaker 1: why I didn't God using you as a vessel. Now
36:39
Speaker 1: that I hope somebody to hear this and realize that
36:42
Speaker 1: main't look hey, it's like I can't do no, I
36:45
Speaker 1: can't do no right. I started to get rid of killed,
36:47
Speaker 1: talked about, kicked in my ass for nothing, for what?
36:51
Speaker 1: Every time? I mean, I'm I ain't trying to admit
36:54
Speaker 1: this type of emotion, but man, this shit hurt, This
36:57
Speaker 1: shit hurt, homie. I feel like I asked, I asked
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Speaker 1: on the one interview, I say, man, you know I
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Speaker 1: ain't even make contact with that girl in the Florida
37:06
Speaker 1: You got don't under standing? Light on me a nigga like,
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Speaker 1: and I love you because maybe Guard used you for
37:14
Speaker 1: me to go through this transition, I wouldn't be who
37:16
Speaker 1: I am not, So I tached that positive energy to it.
37:18
Speaker 1: But I had harbored a lot of resentment from they
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Speaker 1: all took me from my children over a four hundred dollars. Fine,
37:24
Speaker 1: y'all gave me six months for that. When it's time
37:27
Speaker 1: for me to come home Illinois, say you got a warrant.
37:30
Speaker 1: What you know about having your heartbroke like that? Get
37:33
Speaker 1: to Chicago jail. You know, I'm doing my bid, Miller,
37:36
Speaker 1: my bid. Your brother just got murdered. What you know
37:39
Speaker 1: about having your heart broke like that? I could keep going,
37:41
Speaker 1: But like I could keep going, I was destroyed on
37:46
Speaker 1: the inside. Man, you shit hurt like so of course
37:50
Speaker 1: I get emotional just thinking about it, Like it's like
37:52
Speaker 1: I can't do no right. But with the people. That's
37:56
Speaker 1: like when I say real people, it's real people and
37:59
Speaker 1: fake people. It's just that's how I look at life.
38:03
Speaker 1: I can't go through this with it and attach myself
38:05
Speaker 1: to know. But you'd be surprised how many people you're
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Speaker 1: helping right now. Yeah, Like I mean, I mean, I mean,
38:12
Speaker 1: I just you know, I love I look at the
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Speaker 1: at Malcolm Mix and all the ship that he stood
38:18
Speaker 1: funning all that shit, and I identify with him. I do.
38:22
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, you know, went to jail.
38:25
Speaker 1: We're gonna ride in this bitch. Yeah, they're feeding us
38:28
Speaker 1: cold food. I'm about to stand. Yeah, come on, let's
38:30
Speaker 1: go when they come in this bitch, let's go. You
38:32
Speaker 1: know what the niggas did when they came in up
38:34
Speaker 1: with them guns and ship niggas. Whin't got nig wreck.
38:37
Speaker 1: I'm out there fighting by myself. Don't nor the war.
38:39
Speaker 1: And told me, he said, I respect you, your man,
38:41
Speaker 1: but start sticking by yourself. I can't win, you know,
38:46
Speaker 1: minister fragon I said one time in this fag and
38:48
Speaker 1: I said, you have to love black people more than
38:50
Speaker 1: they hate themselves. I guess I love I love, I
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Speaker 1: love God, and I love my family, and I love
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Speaker 1: people that love me. I'm not walking out, hey, I'm
39:02
Speaker 1: gonna be honest with you. You're gonna be honest, said
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Speaker 1: like people I don't like, I don't wish no good
39:08
Speaker 1: on them. I hope you. I hope you drive down
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Speaker 1: the street and get hit by a car, and that
39:13
Speaker 1: this is why healing is like like, I don't wish
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Speaker 1: good footnot linear, I don't. I don't like. I don't
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Speaker 1: wish like. I'm gonna be honest. I don't wish good like.
39:22
Speaker 1: I'll be hearing people say that man, he hurt you.
39:24
Speaker 1: I wish the best for you. I'm gonna say I
39:26
Speaker 1: wish you the best because I'm not gonna put no
39:28
Speaker 1: negative energy. But I don't wish no good for you.
39:30
Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck what happened to you. This
39:33
Speaker 1: is why healing isn't a task. It's a practice, all right,
39:37
Speaker 1: it's a journey. It's no harm on anybody. I just
39:40
Speaker 1: mind my business man. That shit sound cool, that shit,
39:43
Speaker 1: that shit sound cool, that shit sound I'm gonna tell
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Speaker 1: the truth, though. Hey, if you hurt me or funk
39:48
Speaker 1: over me, man, I wish something bad happened to you.
39:51
Speaker 1: That's why you point that wrestler so hard. No no comment,
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Speaker 1: no comment. I'm just asking. Don't like the world, the
40:03
Speaker 1: world want to be politically correct. I'm not trying to
40:08
Speaker 1: do is be successful. I'll be feeling. I can't just
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Speaker 1: be successful and cut somebody off so that they have
40:14
Speaker 1: no access to you. And I think that's I mean,
40:16
Speaker 1: why would I throw away all of this behind a
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Speaker 1: peon a pisant mindset? If you did something pussy on
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Speaker 1: Malaysius to me, that just showed me where your mind
40:24
Speaker 1: said that you are pisant. But I ain't wishing a
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Speaker 1: biss for you. I don't care what the fuck happened
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Speaker 1: to you now. I'm not wishing the best. But I'm
40:30
Speaker 1: just saying I said I would cut off access to you,
40:33
Speaker 1: but would be successful. I don't wish the biss. I
40:36
Speaker 1: might say that he stay bliss boy boy, thank you
40:40
Speaker 1: that today I ain't gonna say the boy fuck you,
40:45
Speaker 1: ditt thank you, but I think the man you I'm
40:48
Speaker 1: gonna hey, listen, I'm gonna say with everybody scared to say,
40:52
Speaker 1: I'm not with that politically correct. But all of that
40:55
Speaker 1: intro was gonna be how you have to start the
40:56
Speaker 1: album off because I see all of that in the intro. Yeah,
41:00
Speaker 1: that like when I make music, that therapy for me.
41:03
Speaker 1: I'm releasing all of these emotions and things of that nature,
41:06
Speaker 1: and it's healing for people to hear that. Oh man,
41:09
Speaker 1: I'm going through the same thing he going through. This
41:11
Speaker 1: is how he did with it, with fitness, this is
41:13
Speaker 1: how he did with it. I take I could go
41:15
Speaker 1: smoke weed, but I love with eNCA Johnson say. He
41:18
Speaker 1: said a lot of these brothers when she get difficult,
41:20
Speaker 1: they just go blow weed. Da ain't got nothing invested. See,
41:23
Speaker 1: when you're investing something and you hustle and you work
41:26
Speaker 1: for something, you got a different type of attachment to it.
41:28
Speaker 1: You're gonna have a cold day in hell for somebody
41:30
Speaker 1: to try to take this from you. We live by this,
41:32
Speaker 1: we die by this. We don't surrender, we don't retreat.
41:35
Speaker 1: Every man want to search his own soul. I listened
41:37
Speaker 1: to that quote every morning. Every man wanna search his
41:40
Speaker 1: own soul. And I gotta just tell a truth. I
41:43
Speaker 1: don't feel like a lot of these people feel. Oh
41:45
Speaker 1: they're scared to say that's how they feel. I don't
41:47
Speaker 1: care whatever you think about me. I don't care. I'm happy,
41:52
Speaker 1: but I ain't gonna lie. That was triggering when I
41:54
Speaker 1: got to think about all the hurt. But would you
42:00
Speaker 1: do sky diving again? You saw me? Yeah, did you
42:03
Speaker 1: do that again? I would never wait. I jumped off
42:07
Speaker 1: the thing in Jamaica that was healing. Yeah, I did
42:11
Speaker 1: it one time too. Then you start looking up on
42:13
Speaker 1: him YouTube because I didn't wear a cot. I was
42:15
Speaker 1: gonna join a club because it was so free. Right,
42:19
Speaker 1: join the club and we go every week. And then
42:21
Speaker 1: somebody up here showed me the sky diving accidents. And
42:24
Speaker 1: I've seen people getting electrocq to get caught, the lines,
42:26
Speaker 1: the polls and everything that happen. I's like, now, I'm good.
42:28
Speaker 1: I got six Hey, Faith over fear, buddy. The moral
42:32
Speaker 1: of this interview. Is healing isn't a task? And he
42:35
Speaker 1: trying to do all healing? Is it? Linear? Healing is
42:41
Speaker 1: a journey. Now that's right, that's right. You really gonna
42:44
Speaker 1: autograph my book? You just said that because I got you. Man.
42:47
Speaker 1: I appreciate when I have autograph because I ain't bringing
42:50
Speaker 1: my book done. I got give it the crust, but
42:52
Speaker 1: I'll have enough. But I appreciate what you out here doing. Cab.
42:54
Speaker 1: I do, I really do because people need to hear
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Speaker 1: from me. Don't care to day smelling it. That was
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Speaker 1: a learning that wasn't donna get to day though. That
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Speaker 1: was It was funny. I thought that should have been
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Speaker 1: a challenge. I wanted people to do it like you want.
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Speaker 1: You want me to. He wanted me to eat this
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Speaker 1: Kevin Gates, It's the breakfast song. Good morning,