Latest / We Talk Back / EP. 28 "Its Not You, its Mercury" with Maisy Bristol
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- 0:03Speaker 1: We're just too unapologetically black women with an opinion. Who
- 0:07Speaker 1: talks back? Hey, it's your girl, a J. Welcome back
- 0:13Speaker 1: to a new episode. Up we talk back out just
- 0:18Speaker 1: me Tim Bam, y'all. Hey, I love y'all. We have
- 0:21Speaker 1: the amazing, amazing Bristol on We talked back this week.
- 0:26Speaker 1: She is a world renowned Do you go by just
- 0:30Speaker 1: a tarot card reader or a psychic or what? Do
- 0:33Speaker 1: you like to be addressed as? What are? Who are you? Um? Well,
- 0:39Speaker 1: the sides being a super deeper guest, very exciting, super
- 0:44Speaker 1: duper special. I feel super duper special. I'm a terror
- 0:47Speaker 1: reader and astrologer, so those are kind of my identifiers.
- 0:52Speaker 1: This is a J's wheelhouse right here, not yours, not exactly.
- 0:58Speaker 1: I grew up very so I've been Christian. So Tara
- 1:02Speaker 1: reading and my mom's house would be like devil me
- 1:05Speaker 1: is what she would the devil's work. Yeah, yeah, she
- 1:08Speaker 1: would call it devil mean. I I don't call it that.
- 1:11Speaker 1: I actually want my terror as long as you're gonna
- 1:14Speaker 1: give me good news. Now, if you flipped the card
- 1:16Speaker 1: and you see some bullshit, just don't need to tear me.
- 1:18Speaker 1: Just keep on moving on with life. Girl. Well, nothing
- 1:24Speaker 1: in Taro is bad. Okay, how long? How long have
- 1:28Speaker 1: you been doing this? Hey it's thirteen years ago now, um,
- 1:32Speaker 1: and I started reading professionally like five and a half
- 1:35Speaker 1: years ago. Uh, and I got I was always into astrology,
- 1:40Speaker 1: but I got more professional with it, um more recently
- 1:44Speaker 1: about three years ago. So but yeah, Tara was always
- 1:49Speaker 1: I'm Taro first, astrology second. But terror has always kind
- 1:52Speaker 1: of been there, and it is like just the coolest
- 1:55Speaker 1: thing I think. Obviously, I can talk about Taro all
- 1:58Speaker 1: day every day. So how does tarat work? Exactly? Like
- 2:03Speaker 1: A j knows all about it, but me, I know,
- 2:06Speaker 1: it's like it looks like a deck of spades or
- 2:07Speaker 1: something like that, but there's no books and no points.
- 2:11Speaker 1: So can you explain to me in the audience, like
- 2:14Speaker 1: what what Tara really is? Yeah? Yeah, So Tarot cards
- 2:19Speaker 1: are a deck of cards, obviously, and they actually mirror
- 2:23Speaker 1: a playing card deck in the way that playing card
- 2:25Speaker 1: decks have four suits. Ptero decks also have four suits.
- 2:28Speaker 1: They have an ace through ten car numerical system, and
- 2:34Speaker 1: they also have a court card system. So but instead
- 2:37Speaker 1: of just having jack Queen king, they have two jacks.
- 2:41Speaker 1: So that's just four pursuits. Yeah, yeah, so like and
- 2:48Speaker 1: they all Actually I could probably read cards with a
- 2:50Speaker 1: regular playing card deck because those those suits match up
- 2:53Speaker 1: with suits in the tarot deck. Um. The thing that
- 2:57Speaker 1: makes it different is that if you take the playing
- 3:00Speaker 1: card deck portion, which is usually fifty two, but with
- 3:03Speaker 1: the extra jack and there it's fifty six. Um, then
- 3:06Speaker 1: you add twenty two more cards and um, so really
- 3:11Speaker 1: a tarot deck is seventy eight cards, and it has
- 3:13Speaker 1: the the playing card deck section, which is called the
- 3:16Speaker 1: minor arcona, and the more um spiritual or like evolutionary section,
- 3:22Speaker 1: which is called the major arcana. And so the way
- 3:25Speaker 1: I describe it, the major icona talks about more like
- 3:28Speaker 1: big life moments like uh, like I've decided to move
- 3:33Speaker 1: from the city to the country, you know, and that's
- 3:35Speaker 1: like a major econom moment where it's really a life
- 3:38Speaker 1: changing thing, as opposed to minor kond of cards really
- 3:42Speaker 1: talk about like day to day emotions or feelings like
- 3:46Speaker 1: I feel jealous today or or right now in my relationship,
- 3:50Speaker 1: like we are disconnecting, like disconnected, and I feel disconnected.
- 3:54Speaker 1: That's just and in the moment kind of situations. So
- 3:56Speaker 1: minor kind of card would come up there. So UM,
- 4:00Speaker 1: so yeah, we have the seven eight cards. And the
- 4:03Speaker 1: way that it works I always like to say is that, um,
- 4:07Speaker 1: if we believe in energy and we believe in the idea,
- 4:10Speaker 1: that what we think about we bring about, you know,
- 4:13Speaker 1: um or h. If we're if we're sending out vibrations
- 4:20Speaker 1: that were like not in a good mood, we're going
- 4:22Speaker 1: to continue to be not in a good mood. So
- 4:24Speaker 1: when you're asking the Tarot deck, I always think that
- 4:27Speaker 1: like what we bring, what we put out reflects back.
- 4:29Speaker 1: So in the way that we're asking the cards the question,
- 4:33Speaker 1: the cards are just gonna reflect back what we need
- 4:35Speaker 1: to see at the moment. So if I'm sick of men,
- 4:38Speaker 1: then that means men are sick of me too. Well
- 4:43Speaker 1: you get you're sick of men, You're like, I'm over
- 4:45Speaker 1: the ship then, like you probably so I saw that
- 4:57Speaker 1: you you you said you started uh reading tarot when
- 5:00Speaker 1: you found a random deck of cards in your home,
- 5:03Speaker 1: Like who had the tarot cards? Was it your? I
- 5:06Speaker 1: don't know, just like I, Um, I just found them
- 5:10Speaker 1: in like our games section, like where Monopoly was and
- 5:16Speaker 1: and I was like, what's this? This looks kind of
- 5:17Speaker 1: interesting and I pulled them out, and I don't know why.
- 5:21Speaker 1: I asked my one what they were. She kind of
- 5:23Speaker 1: told me it's like a sportune teller thing. She gave me,
- 5:26Speaker 1: like she's not into it though she she didn't really think.
- 5:30Speaker 1: She thought it was more like a gimmick, which is
- 5:32Speaker 1: why it's in the section. Yeah, and so she just,
- 5:37Speaker 1: you know, in a gimmicky kind of way, gave me
- 5:39Speaker 1: a reading, and I was like, this is super cool.
- 5:41Speaker 1: And so I I read a lot on it just
- 5:44Speaker 1: on my own, just because I thought it was interesting.
- 5:47Speaker 1: And then once I realized that people take it seriously,
- 5:50Speaker 1: that's when I got very fascinating. For me, I just
- 5:53Speaker 1: did like a full on Alice in Wonderland deep dive um.
- 5:57Speaker 1: And that's how it came about, Like I just had
- 6:00Speaker 1: passion for it. That's the only reason I'm here today.
- 6:02Speaker 1: You know, I definitely spend money year reading what's your
- 6:06Speaker 1: favorite day? Well, I I started with the I started
- 6:11Speaker 1: with the right Weight, like everyone mostly does, and then
- 6:14Speaker 1: I moved into the wild Unknown deck and I used
- 6:17Speaker 1: that for a number of years and it's really beautiful.
- 6:20Speaker 1: It only has animals like no people, which I really like.
- 6:22Speaker 1: M like screw people. I don't know. I just like
- 6:26Speaker 1: I really connected with the animals, I guess, and um,
- 6:29Speaker 1: and then I'm now really really into the right or
- 6:33Speaker 1: Wait Smith deck, which is basically the right Way deck,
- 6:36Speaker 1: but it just has more muted colors. The reason I
- 6:38Speaker 1: didn't like the Right Weight and I didn't connect with
- 6:40Speaker 1: it because because it was just like so bold and
- 6:41Speaker 1: like looked kind of tacky. Like the colors are kind of, um,
- 6:46Speaker 1: they're bold, but then the cars themselves are kind of
- 6:48Speaker 1: shiny and glossy, you know. And then I don't know,
- 6:52Speaker 1: there's something about this rhetor Wait Smith deck that really
- 6:54Speaker 1: speaks more to me. I want to clarify for everyone
- 6:58Speaker 1: that orable cards and Tearoor cards are right, that Tarot
- 7:02Speaker 1: decks have that seventy eight card structure with the court
- 7:05Speaker 1: card system and as through ten and all and the
- 7:08Speaker 1: four suits and Oracle cards are they kind of like
- 7:12Speaker 1: live by their own rules. I like to say it's
- 7:15Speaker 1: like Tarot cards or like nordstrooms where every North drom
- 7:19Speaker 1: is basically the same and they kind of have the
- 7:20Speaker 1: same layout and the same clothing section and stuff. And
- 7:24Speaker 1: um Orco cards are like futiques. They just kind of
- 7:26Speaker 1: like are their own thing, right, Yeah, I usually meditate
- 7:29Speaker 1: in the Yeah. Well, I feel like orco cards are
- 7:34Speaker 1: great for that, just like one like pull a card
- 7:37Speaker 1: daily kind of pull or or I just want like
- 7:39Speaker 1: a really quick, simple clarification because a lot of them
- 7:42Speaker 1: have um, you know, one to three words on on
- 7:45Speaker 1: each card, so you could it could be like fine
- 7:47Speaker 1: clarity or something and you're like, okay, got it, um,
- 7:51Speaker 1: whereas tarot cards are really more you know, uh, they
- 7:55Speaker 1: have their specific interpretations and you use all of them
- 7:59Speaker 1: together to make a narrative, so it's a little bit
- 8:01Speaker 1: more like complex in that way. I was just gonna
- 8:04Speaker 1: say that y'all when y'all were discussing like the different
- 8:07Speaker 1: types of cars, that y'all were literally speaking a different
- 8:09Speaker 1: language to me, Like I don't know anything about like
- 8:13Speaker 1: the different decks and do the glosses of the cars
- 8:16Speaker 1: and the animals versus the people. Does that make a
- 8:19Speaker 1: difference in what you're going to tell the person or
- 8:21Speaker 1: does that No? No, no, no, it's just personal preference.
- 8:25Speaker 1: It's like I have a style, like a floating style,
- 8:27Speaker 1: and I just don't like that sweater. Okay, fine, but
- 8:30Speaker 1: someone else might like that sweater, So yeah, you just
- 8:33Speaker 1: pick out yours based on what you like. Okay, because
- 8:37Speaker 1: I was confused at that point, like, okay, the animal
- 8:40Speaker 1: deck is gonna tell me that I'm a horse or
- 8:42Speaker 1: something like that deck stupid part of amazing. As you
- 8:53Speaker 1: can see, you're very colorful with my tongue a little bit.
- 8:57Speaker 1: That's okay, I probably swear too much. I feel very
- 9:01Speaker 1: hung here. So tell us a little bit about tarot
- 9:05Speaker 1: by Mazie website so our listeners can know where to
- 9:08Speaker 1: find you and all that good stuff. Um, you teach
- 9:12Speaker 1: people how to read tarot? Now, I do, yes. So
- 9:17Speaker 1: my main my main offerings, I guess I would say,
- 9:20Speaker 1: are terror readings and birth start readings. That's astrology. Um,
- 9:25Speaker 1: so that's one section. Another thing that I offer is
- 9:28Speaker 1: the online course, so that I have pre recorded. All
- 9:32Speaker 1: you do is you go there, pick the one the
- 9:34Speaker 1: course that works for you. It's I have a one
- 9:36Speaker 1: on one or two one, a three on one, or
- 9:38Speaker 1: a whole on bundle. Um. So kind of it's like
- 9:41Speaker 1: if you're if you are, you know, more a little
- 9:44Speaker 1: bit more advanced than just a beginner, then you can
- 9:46Speaker 1: just start with two A one or wherever you think
- 9:47Speaker 1: you belong it's all prerecorded. You go at your own pace.
- 9:51Speaker 1: And um, I'm also creating and about to launch a
- 9:55Speaker 1: Tarot deck. So those are my three things that I have, um,
- 9:58Speaker 1: and you can find all of those and all the
- 10:00Speaker 1: information on my website at Tarot by maze dot com. Yeah,
- 10:04Speaker 1: I'm excited about the dick. I'm going to get that.
- 10:07Speaker 1: I am so excited about it. It took a long time,
- 10:10Speaker 1: was my one project. So I'm getting close. I'm trying
- 10:14Speaker 1: to release it at the end of the September. But well,
- 10:18Speaker 1: but and no trying, are you not? It's September, which
- 10:26Speaker 1: I'm going to make it happen. I just I'm I'm
- 10:29Speaker 1: in the process where I'm deciding whether I want to
- 10:31Speaker 1: include a guidebook or not, which would need me to
- 10:34Speaker 1: write it. I want to include it. So because the
- 10:37Speaker 1: deck I have comes with a little small book you
- 10:39Speaker 1: can get kind of, um, you know, an explanation for
- 10:43Speaker 1: each car, right and most people, especially if you want
- 10:46Speaker 1: beginners to pick it up, I wouldn't need that. So
- 10:50Speaker 1: what is the natal chart? So we all know one
- 10:55Speaker 1: sign in our chart, right, Um? So what what do
- 10:59Speaker 1: you guys? Oh you already know yourself? YEA. I was
- 11:05Speaker 1: just explaining it for everyone else who doesn't. But basically,
- 11:09Speaker 1: you're a cancer, right, And our calendar follows the sun, right,
- 11:15Speaker 1: so we have three hundred six five days in the year,
- 11:17Speaker 1: and the sun spent a certain amount of time in
- 11:19Speaker 1: each corner of the sky. So for four weeks it's
- 11:23Speaker 1: in cancer, and then for the next four weeks it's
- 11:26Speaker 1: you know, moving on to Leo and so on and
- 11:29Speaker 1: so forth, all the way around the wheel. So that's
- 11:33Speaker 1: why you are a cancer, and then many other people
- 11:35Speaker 1: are cancers. But the reason that you're different is because
- 11:39Speaker 1: at the time that you were born, all the other
- 11:40Speaker 1: plans were in different parts of the sky and they
- 11:43Speaker 1: all have signs too, and your birth chart talks about
- 11:48Speaker 1: all those signs and how they work together and how
- 11:50Speaker 1: they make you who you are. So are you a
- 11:52Speaker 1: flat oh Earth or around Earth? Which one right? Oh
- 11:56Speaker 1: around Earth? She thinks the Earth is it? Don't find
- 12:04Speaker 1: there's this ground in my humble opinion. Um, But I
- 12:10Speaker 1: think one thing that people don't understand about astrology is
- 12:13Speaker 1: that it is fact based. It's like it's scientific based,
- 12:17Speaker 1: because we're talking about the planets and where they are
- 12:20Speaker 1: in actuality in the sky and how they make angles
- 12:23Speaker 1: with other planets, like that's all something that we don't
- 12:26Speaker 1: just make up. That's that's the real thing. Like physically
- 12:30Speaker 1: a place, do you? I don't know, Like I believe
- 12:33Speaker 1: that there's probably some sort of life somewhere out there.
- 12:37Speaker 1: I wouldn't call them like aliens. It could be a plant, like,
- 12:41Speaker 1: but I feel like there's got to be life elsewhere,
- 12:44Speaker 1: whatever life means. Call the aliens. I feel like we're
- 12:47Speaker 1: probably aliens to aliens, you know, like they had things
- 12:51Speaker 1: on their hair and they opened the whole in the
- 12:53Speaker 1: front and white ship was in there, you know, like
- 12:55Speaker 1: I'm sure they would feel that way about us. That's
- 12:58Speaker 1: all off topic. I'm sorry, but she went on flatter Earth.
- 13:01Speaker 1: So I was just wondering if you thought about aliens.
- 13:03Speaker 1: And I always ask people that because I gotta know
- 13:05Speaker 1: what type of people I'm dealing with, because I think
- 13:09Speaker 1: that's stop me and I I'm a I'm not on
- 13:12Speaker 1: your list good people? Am I on your hit list? Well?
- 13:17Speaker 1: It's just that So when I asked people that, like
- 13:20Speaker 1: I'm looking for like do you think outside the box?
- 13:23Speaker 1: Like or does someone just able to tell you this
- 13:25Speaker 1: guy is fucking purple? Or you want to question it.
- 13:28Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, So I question everything. So
- 13:30Speaker 1: that's why I asked, you know, because sometimes people be like,
- 13:33Speaker 1: you know, I don't know, we ain't been there, or
- 13:34Speaker 1: I don't know, I hadn't seen it. That if I
- 13:38Speaker 1: read terror cards and I believe in astrology and I
- 13:40Speaker 1: believe you ghost, that I probably think outside the box. Yeah,
- 13:43Speaker 1: so what do they don't believe I'm a witch? But
- 13:45Speaker 1: I keep telling them that I believe it. I believe it.
- 13:49Speaker 1: What do you say so I believe it? So people
- 13:53Speaker 1: like I'll be acting like a bit. Sometimes they're like,
- 13:55Speaker 1: you're acting like that because Mercury is in retrograde, And
- 13:58Speaker 1: I'm like, what the fund do that mean? What does
- 13:59Speaker 1: they even me mercury? And I don't think that that
- 14:05Speaker 1: makes sense. But but but basically, Mercury is the planet
- 14:10Speaker 1: of communication and travel short distance travel, so like your
- 14:14Speaker 1: daily commute or whatever, and um, whenever planet goes retrograde,
- 14:18Speaker 1: it just means that the planet's energies or what they
- 14:21Speaker 1: what it represents, slows down and kind of gets in
- 14:24Speaker 1: this hazy fog. So um, because Mercury is communication, travel,
- 14:31Speaker 1: and technology, Um, all three of those things can get
- 14:33Speaker 1: kind of messed up. So the way that you say
- 14:37Speaker 1: something to someone, they might take it super personally and
- 14:39Speaker 1: then you like break up or whatever or have a
- 14:42Speaker 1: huge fight or something. Or regarding travel, like you could
- 14:46Speaker 1: just get into a just if you're on the subway
- 14:49Speaker 1: you take the wrong one, and it's like if there's
- 14:50Speaker 1: an accident or something, you have to wait like five
- 14:52Speaker 1: hours to get to work, or for technologies, you could
- 14:57Speaker 1: this is like such a classic example that everyone uses.
- 14:59Speaker 1: But if you could reply all instead of trying to
- 15:02Speaker 1: just reply to one person and then it's just like
- 15:05Speaker 1: it's just a bunch of miss Yeah, it's like just
- 15:09Speaker 1: being drunk, like you just make stupid mistakes or like
- 15:13Speaker 1: things are just kind of all messed up and you
- 15:14Speaker 1: can't really control it. Just it's happening to you. So
- 15:18Speaker 1: when Mercury retregrade, a lot of stuff like that happens.
- 15:21Speaker 1: How often he is Mercury and how do Yeah, it
- 15:27Speaker 1: happens three times a year for about like three and
- 15:30Speaker 1: a half weeks um, and so nope, we have The
- 15:35Speaker 1: next one is in September and that's the last one
- 15:38Speaker 1: of the year. So the next I'm gonna start using
- 15:44Speaker 1: it as a reason why I'm sucking up. If I'm
- 15:47Speaker 1: sucking up, just use that as an excuse mercury retrograde
- 15:51Speaker 1: or like you just forget to an assignment or something
- 15:53Speaker 1: and you're like, my computer broke, mercury retroge an opportunity
- 15:58Speaker 1: for you to blame it on mercury. Yeah, that's what
- 16:03Speaker 1: I'm gonna using for Hold on, Sam, let's stay some bills?
- 16:12Speaker 1: So amazing? Can you give us a reading? Yes? I
- 16:16Speaker 1: had a so I could tell me that I was
- 16:17Speaker 1: going to meet a professional athlete in twelve or fourteen
- 16:21Speaker 1: months and fall very madly in love and have two
- 16:24Speaker 1: kids with this person. Can you tell me if that's
- 16:26Speaker 1: true during taro or no? Yeah, my girl, we could
- 16:34Speaker 1: do the efficacy of it, like like is this true?
- 16:39Speaker 1: Guess or no question? And uh like maybe how, um what,
- 16:44Speaker 1: so are you within the twelve sixteen months right now
- 16:48Speaker 1: or whatever? Like, oh, are you close to ending that
- 16:51Speaker 1: or are you like in the middle? No, I'm like
- 16:54Speaker 1: that was in February. He said that. Okay, I think
- 16:58Speaker 1: that matters. I'm just curious. Um, so did we do
- 17:01Speaker 1: you first? Yes? Girl? Go ahead, I need all Okay,
- 17:06Speaker 1: I'm just gonna say like I'm just gonna ask I
- 17:08Speaker 1: always have to always have to clarify what question you're
- 17:13Speaker 1: I just want to know about my relationships because I'm
- 17:16Speaker 1: getting money. Guy's okay, work is okay, my family is okay,
- 17:19Speaker 1: my health is okay. But my relationships, girl, they are
- 17:22Speaker 1: in shamp both And notice that you add s on
- 17:25Speaker 1: the end of relationships. Take one, Well, we have to
- 17:33Speaker 1: take one question at least. So do we want to
- 17:36Speaker 1: talk about the psychic thing or do we want to
- 17:38Speaker 1: talk about you? Because I'm really cool like four card
- 17:42Speaker 1: spread and it talks about like, you know, maybe things
- 17:45Speaker 1: that are from the past that are affecting love life
- 17:48Speaker 1: or yeah, it's like a really nice one for people
- 17:53Speaker 1: who are looking for love and they're like, what can
- 17:55Speaker 1: I do to help, you know, work on that or
- 17:58Speaker 1: like get that. So I'm gonna guess what I can do,
- 18:02Speaker 1: and then you can tell me what the car say.
- 18:05Speaker 1: Maybe I'm in line with what I already. I need
- 18:07Speaker 1: to shut the funk up. Sometimes I need to pick
- 18:11Speaker 1: one person, focus on thew and again shut the funk up.
- 18:20Speaker 1: All right, So let's see what the car and saying,
- 18:21Speaker 1: don't cross your arms, don't cross your legs, everything open
- 18:25Speaker 1: to receive, don't cross my legs. Make sure you hands
- 18:31Speaker 1: going across one. If I open, I got both right now?
- 18:35Speaker 1: All right, they were crossed. Do I need to put
- 18:38Speaker 1: my legs in the air, because I'll do it. You
- 18:45Speaker 1: can do whatever you want with the Uh, that's what
- 18:51Speaker 1: he said. So I just like pull the cars until
- 18:55Speaker 1: they stopped kind of popping out. Okay, no, he said,
- 19:01Speaker 1: I'm legs. No he did not, girl, Because I'm doing yoga,
- 19:07Speaker 1: hot yoga. These legs go up. Okay, at first they
- 19:13Speaker 1: we'll go up a crack crack crack crack crack. Yeah,
- 19:22Speaker 1: I need to stretch for sure. I mean feel a hell.
- 19:25Speaker 1: Let's dude, Macy's working, y'all. I feel like she's about
- 19:32Speaker 1: to tell me some good ship about myself. I didn't
- 19:34Speaker 1: prepare for the reading, so I'm like, not on the table,
- 19:37Speaker 1: so I track. I'm like setting them up on my chair. Okay, okay, um,
- 19:48Speaker 1: there's a lot going on here, and I like, I'm
- 19:50Speaker 1: super excited to dive. UM. So I sometimes have like
- 19:56Speaker 1: an energy card that's kind of like a I use
- 20:00Speaker 1: it to sort of look at the spread in sort
- 20:03Speaker 1: of an objective way or or through the lens of
- 20:05Speaker 1: this card. But UM sometimes to read it first and
- 20:08Speaker 1: sometimes to read last. I'm gonna read last. But basically,
- 20:11Speaker 1: so I have four cards here and then the energy cards.
- 20:13Speaker 1: That's five cards. The first card is basically what your
- 20:17Speaker 1: relationship with love is right now, like how do you
- 20:20Speaker 1: see it and what does it mean to you? And
- 20:22Speaker 1: we got the eight of Pentacles reversed and so this
- 20:27Speaker 1: card is really like, uh, it's like I work really
- 20:30Speaker 1: hard to get what I want and I know I'll succeed,
- 20:33Speaker 1: so you like work hard and everything, but when it's
- 20:35Speaker 1: reversed like this, it just makes me feel like you
- 20:37Speaker 1: feel like love is a lot of work for a
- 20:39Speaker 1: little payoff. Like it's kind of like like why would
- 20:42Speaker 1: I work so hard for just kind of an annoyance,
- 20:45Speaker 1: you know, someone had to think about all the time,
- 20:47Speaker 1: and like someone have to take care of and it's
- 20:49Speaker 1: just like it's just too much work, you know. I
- 20:51Speaker 1: just it's it's worked to be in love, it's work
- 20:53Speaker 1: to have a relationship, and I just don't feel like
- 20:55Speaker 1: dealing with that. Um. But it's funny because the next
- 21:00Speaker 1: card I have it's always about like it's like that's
- 21:03Speaker 1: what your relationship is. And then this is the media
- 21:06Speaker 1: issue that blocks you from moving forward UM, and we
- 21:09Speaker 1: got the Hangman reverse the Hangman upright. Uh. In general,
- 21:14Speaker 1: it talks about like our skeletons are like our darker sides,
- 21:18Speaker 1: the kind of stuff that we don't really want to face,
- 21:21Speaker 1: but at some point we have to about ourselves, you know,
- 21:23Speaker 1: to work on UM. And when it's reversed, it just
- 21:26Speaker 1: means like you didn't choose to work on that that
- 21:29Speaker 1: issue came to you. So it makes me feel like
- 21:31Speaker 1: when you're in a relationship, people point out the ship
- 21:33Speaker 1: that you don't want to think about about yourself, that
- 21:35Speaker 1: you haven't to work on. And so part of the
- 21:37Speaker 1: reason of it's too much work means that you have
- 21:39Speaker 1: to be um self like evolving or like self aware,
- 21:44Speaker 1: a little bit more self aware than you want to be. UM.
- 21:47Speaker 1: So it's harder for you to kind of accept faults
- 21:49Speaker 1: in yourself and and UM and you know evolved from them,
- 21:54Speaker 1: which relationship and point out for you, I'm always right,
- 22:00Speaker 1: I'm exactly Uh, Okay, So we have the past affecting
- 22:09Speaker 1: the present, like what in your past affects your love
- 22:12Speaker 1: life now? And they got the four once, which is
- 22:14Speaker 1: like a really nice card, but it makes me feel
- 22:17Speaker 1: like and it makes me feel like you've had really
- 22:20Speaker 1: like a really solid relationship before, and maybe that's like
- 22:23Speaker 1: part of why you wanted You're so averse to them
- 22:25Speaker 1: now because like that relationship, maybe you like maybe you
- 22:29Speaker 1: work too much on yourself or like you gave too
- 22:31Speaker 1: much of yourself or you lost yourself in that relationship,
- 22:34Speaker 1: and so now you're like, I'm not losing myself ever,
- 22:36Speaker 1: and I'm never you know, like, don't tell me what
- 22:38Speaker 1: to do. You're just like so much more closed off
- 22:41Speaker 1: and independent um in your current love life because in
- 22:45Speaker 1: this one, like it was happy and everything, but you
- 22:47Speaker 1: look back on it and you're like, god, I like
- 22:49Speaker 1: was not the kind of person I want to be
- 22:50Speaker 1: or I or I just gave myself up too much. Girl.
- 22:54Speaker 1: They may have me shopping in the thrift store girl.
- 22:56Speaker 1: So yeah, that is right, because I'm never going back
- 22:58Speaker 1: to that life. And the last card is the advice card.
- 23:04Speaker 1: So we have the cream of Swords reversed um, which
- 23:06Speaker 1: is basically I'm always right. So when you said that,
- 23:11Speaker 1: because I was gonna say that here, um swords like
- 23:15Speaker 1: as an upright woman is like I see your perspective,
- 23:19Speaker 1: I see your side, and we can think about this logically,
- 23:22Speaker 1: and I have a strong personality, but I'm not like overbearing.
- 23:24Speaker 1: But when she's reversed like this, it's really like my
- 23:27Speaker 1: way the highway. Um, I you know, I you're a
- 23:32Speaker 1: strong woman, but then maybe you're just like a little
- 23:34Speaker 1: bit um more one sided than than you should be. Um.
- 23:40Speaker 1: And then the last card, which is interesting is this
- 23:43Speaker 1: is the energy card, the overall kind of thing. Um
- 23:45Speaker 1: we got the Lover's reversed, which makes me feel like, uh,
- 23:51Speaker 1: like either you're and you know, I know you just
- 23:53Speaker 1: said this past act like you're never going back to
- 23:55Speaker 1: it again, but maybe there's like something there that you
- 23:57Speaker 1: think about often, like the passion or the least something
- 24:00Speaker 1: or whatever it was. Um. Because the lovers is a
- 24:03Speaker 1: very like passionate card. It's not a long lasting card.
- 24:06Speaker 1: This is not a long lasting relationship card. It's more
- 24:08Speaker 1: like I we like felt so happy and childish and
- 24:11Speaker 1: fun and like also super intensely in love. It's almost
- 24:15Speaker 1: toxic where it's like super high high, it's really low lows.
- 24:18Speaker 1: And so when it's reversed like this, it means like
- 24:20Speaker 1: you might be thinking about someone in the past or
- 24:22Speaker 1: that that relationship with the past and how like caught
- 24:24Speaker 1: it was or whatever or um you pick people who
- 24:28Speaker 1: you only pick people who are not long lasting prospects
- 24:32Speaker 1: or both could be true. It is the last one.
- 24:35Speaker 1: I always yeah, I mean like no, I can't have
- 24:37Speaker 1: no real relationship with well yeah, and that's all part
- 24:41Speaker 1: of this, Like I don't want to work on myself.
- 24:44Speaker 1: I'm going to pick these people because I know it's
- 24:46Speaker 1: like hot for now. Well, that's really spot right there
- 24:52Speaker 1: the guy I went right now that ain't going nowhere.
- 24:54Speaker 1: Child's fun. There you have it now, So what should
- 25:04Speaker 1: I do based off of that work? On how well
- 25:10Speaker 1: do the work? What is the work? Well, first of all,
- 25:14Speaker 1: don't take the douche bags that you are going to
- 25:16Speaker 1: see yourself with forever, Like why date? Why like lower
- 25:22Speaker 1: your standards at the very beginning, just to date and
- 25:24Speaker 1: have fun. Like if you want a long lasting relationship,
- 25:27Speaker 1: you have to take people who are like good prospects
- 25:29Speaker 1: for that. That's like number one, And then number two,
- 25:34Speaker 1: it's being open to receiving uh you know, not feedback,
- 25:39Speaker 1: like but just being open to other people's perspectives on
- 25:44Speaker 1: how they feel or certain things that you do that
- 25:47Speaker 1: make them feel certain ways, and taking some responsibility when necessary,
- 25:55Speaker 1: and like, thank you, Mac, I gotta I don't even
- 25:57Speaker 1: gotta come for her. You've come up for her for me.
- 25:59Speaker 1: Thank you. I'm exhausted now, Yo, it's amazing. Do smashly
- 26:13Speaker 1: right now? Do her go in? Go in? Maybe? Um?
- 26:19Speaker 1: Do you know your birth time? Me? Two pm, two pm, Friday,
- 26:25Speaker 1: June eight four, two pm, Charleston, South Carolina. Why do
- 26:32Speaker 1: you answer? Because I'm into me? That's why I know
- 26:38Speaker 1: what My mom still has like a little um, not
- 26:42Speaker 1: the birth certificate, but like the little car they put
- 26:44Speaker 1: your foot stamp on as a baby, she still has that.
- 26:47Speaker 1: So my birth is on June what eight? June eight,
- 26:53Speaker 1: nineteen eighty four, eight four? Okay, yeah, we're older than
- 26:58Speaker 1: June eight, eight four at two pm, Charleston, South Carolina,
- 27:08Speaker 1: two needs four, two pm. Times I want to would
- 27:15Speaker 1: you rather have that? Then? A? Are you making me
- 27:18Speaker 1: do extra work? Just do her tar? Just do her terre.
- 27:22Speaker 1: She already noticed. She I want you to rip and
- 27:24Speaker 1: tear it like you didn't need just now? Okay, what
- 27:27Speaker 1: what what do you want to talk about? Um? Her
- 27:32Speaker 1: love life, love lies, uh career, So we have temperance.
- 27:40Speaker 1: So for me, temperance is all about like emotional balance
- 27:44Speaker 1: and stability, and it makes me feel like you get
- 27:48Speaker 1: really invested in your relationships once you're in it. So
- 27:51Speaker 1: it's like, right now, you're taking time for you, You're
- 27:53Speaker 1: pulling away. You're saying, I don't want to get too
- 27:56Speaker 1: wrapped up into something unless it's the real deal. So
- 28:00Speaker 1: I'm trying to keep a level head of trying to
- 28:01Speaker 1: keep my my emotional stability and my mental stability in
- 28:05Speaker 1: the same place, like at all times. So you're like
- 28:07Speaker 1: kind of doing you for now and like going, I
- 28:11Speaker 1: am in control of how deep I get, how fast
- 28:15Speaker 1: you know, like you are trying to tell yourself, I'm
- 28:17Speaker 1: in control. I'm in control. Like, uh, that's kind of
- 28:21Speaker 1: like your mantra when you go into dating or dating
- 28:24Speaker 1: scenes or just whatever. Um, you're the one who is
- 28:28Speaker 1: in control of you, and that's like the most important
- 28:30Speaker 1: thing for you right now. Um. So regarding your career,
- 28:36Speaker 1: you've got a really nice one. We got the Night
- 28:38Speaker 1: of Pentacles, and so this is one of those court
- 28:41Speaker 1: cards that I was talking about. This is uh a jack,
- 28:43Speaker 1: we would say, because we have got the night and
- 28:46Speaker 1: then we have the king. So this to me says
- 28:50Speaker 1: that there's a lot of projects ahead that you're working
- 28:52Speaker 1: towards or that are growing, but they are growing and
- 28:56Speaker 1: they are going to be prosperous. We have panicles, which
- 28:59Speaker 1: is the suit of money and material, and so whatever
- 29:03Speaker 1: you're working on now or whatever product you're thinking about
- 29:06Speaker 1: working on, UM, I would say, definitely go for it
- 29:09Speaker 1: because it's going to be successful and it's going to work.
- 29:11Speaker 1: Another question for another quick not question. Another interpretation here
- 29:16Speaker 1: might be that someone is going to give you an opportunity. Um,
- 29:19Speaker 1: we have that he looks like he's like offering the pentacle.
- 29:22Speaker 1: So this could be mean that some opportunity is coming
- 29:25Speaker 1: your way from someone else. So it's not like you're
- 29:27Speaker 1: creating it, but someone's going to hand it to you,
- 29:30Speaker 1: which is really awesome either way. It's and then your
- 29:38Speaker 1: last heart was super interesting and it kind of makes
- 29:41Speaker 1: me it like pulls me back to your love life
- 29:43Speaker 1: a little bit. Um, we got the this is for
- 29:46Speaker 1: spiritual just like kind of your essence. I don't know. Um,
- 29:51Speaker 1: we got the nine of Pentacles reverse. And whenever I
- 29:55Speaker 1: see this card, it's really a card of self worth.
- 29:57Speaker 1: It's like I know I value, I know I'm awesome,
- 30:01Speaker 1: Like I am a catch um when she's upright like this,
- 30:04Speaker 1: but when she's reversed, it means that we have to
- 30:08Speaker 1: work on a little bit self of self love or
- 30:10Speaker 1: a little bit of self confidence. Uh. And I think
- 30:15Speaker 1: because you put your all into these relationships and you
- 30:17Speaker 1: like not like lose yourself, but you just you devalue yourself,
- 30:21Speaker 1: maybe some people end up treating you badly or making
- 30:24Speaker 1: or guilt tripping you into doing something, or manipulate you
- 30:26Speaker 1: into doing things, making you working with your emotions and
- 30:30Speaker 1: that emotional um aspect that you give to partners, they
- 30:34Speaker 1: use that and turn it against you, and then all
- 30:37Speaker 1: of a sudden you have this self hatred and self
- 30:39Speaker 1: loathing going on. Um what you know? What? What? How
- 30:44Speaker 1: did I mess that up? How did I suck that up? Um?
- 30:48Speaker 1: So this is just about bringing value to your life,
- 30:52Speaker 1: like you are valuable and um, you need to kind
- 30:56Speaker 1: of show yourself that that's like where your spiritual journeys
- 30:59Speaker 1: on right now, Like more self love to enable self confidence. Yes,
- 31:04Speaker 1: So between this reading and my reading a couple of
- 31:06Speaker 1: weeks ago, it's just really affirmative for real, for real,
- 31:11Speaker 1: And well, I love one thing I just like to say,
- 31:13Speaker 1: like to women sometimes when we have in relationships like
- 31:16Speaker 1: how to funk? Why is this happening to? You have
- 31:18Speaker 1: to dig really deep and see what is it about
- 31:21Speaker 1: yourself that's inviting this type of energy or this type
- 31:25Speaker 1: of person and make those corrections that you can open
- 31:29Speaker 1: yourself up to to what you really deserve. You know,
- 31:34Speaker 1: it could even be that same person, but maybe your
- 31:36Speaker 1: energy would then make that person start changing somehow. Right.
- 31:41Speaker 1: I like that because it's like what patterns? Like what
- 31:44Speaker 1: are my patterns? How are how are the people I've dated? Where?
- 31:48Speaker 1: What's the pattern here? And how does that? How do
- 31:51Speaker 1: I feel about myself? You know when we look at
- 31:54Speaker 1: those patterns, like how does that work? Why am I
- 31:57Speaker 1: choosing that pattern over and over again? Yes? I have
- 32:03Speaker 1: my patterns, y'all. It's the worst the fixed rappers. I'm
- 32:12Speaker 1: a project kind of goal. We we gotta we got
- 32:17Speaker 1: a segment hub dumb bitch stories. Right, you got a
- 32:23Speaker 1: dumb bitch story for us? Since you're a fixer rapper,
- 32:26Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure you've been finest a couple of times.
- 32:29Speaker 1: But I don't know if it's like I wouldn't call
- 32:32Speaker 1: it dumb bitch, but I just I've been with a
- 32:35Speaker 1: lot of them, you know, like, I just just guys
- 32:38Speaker 1: that have mental health columns, guys I've did an alcoholic Like,
- 32:42Speaker 1: I just it's it's I just choose people who need help.
- 32:49Speaker 1: I'm attracted to the wounded. But you know why, I
- 32:51Speaker 1: think it's because, like, if I'm seeking out guys who
- 32:55Speaker 1: need self insurance and like confidence to see their value, Like,
- 33:00Speaker 1: does not mean that I need to see value myself
- 33:04Speaker 1: if you're using that as like I'm here and we
- 33:05Speaker 1: talked about the reflection or the patterns and how does
- 33:08Speaker 1: that reflect back onto you. That could be a thing.
- 33:12Speaker 1: I think that's a lot of women though, like because
- 33:14Speaker 1: they're naturally nurturers. So you get these projects, you know,
- 33:18Speaker 1: and I can make them better, or we just see
- 33:21Speaker 1: something and people that they don't they don't see in themselves,
- 33:24Speaker 1: so we try to and then you end up to
- 33:27Speaker 1: bleating yourself basically an accepting behavior that is like wounding
- 33:33Speaker 1: to you. It's so fucked up. A j what would
- 33:39Speaker 1: you say, Like the type of men that I'm attracted to,
- 33:42Speaker 1: You don't attract fixer ruppers in the aspect of money, maybe,
- 33:46Speaker 1: but it may be emotional. Maybe they are something may
- 33:51Speaker 1: be wrong with them. Emotionally and you are trying to
- 33:53Speaker 1: fix them up in that way. So I don't know.
- 33:56Speaker 1: I don't think like fixer ruppers is just broke right.
- 34:01Speaker 1: It could be emotional, you know, neither one of us
- 34:03Speaker 1: just don't type of fixer uppers. A lot of these
- 34:07Speaker 1: guys got mama issues. Man. They literally was raised by
- 34:10Speaker 1: some bitches. So now they don't feel love until you're
- 34:13Speaker 1: cutting their ass out like a dog. And it's like,
- 34:18Speaker 1: I want to be loving towards the person out where
- 34:20Speaker 1: I don't want to have to get crazy on you,
- 34:22Speaker 1: but it's like you don't think I love you, and
- 34:24Speaker 1: tip cut you out. I don't talk to people like
- 34:27Speaker 1: that though not. I don't cuss like, I don't say
- 34:29Speaker 1: like bad words. I say things that hurt worse than
- 34:33Speaker 1: bad words, like based off, like uh, this is awful
- 34:40Speaker 1: about to share this. I don't say things like like
- 34:45Speaker 1: he'll be vulnerable enough to share with me that he's
- 34:47Speaker 1: not sure if his first child is really his, and
- 34:51Speaker 1: then we will be in an argument and I'll be
- 34:53Speaker 1: like that ain't leaving your fucking kids. You know some
- 34:56Speaker 1: shing like that, like that's you know, that's hurtful. It's
- 35:00Speaker 1: me But it's not like you're a bit. It's not
- 35:05Speaker 1: that it's that's not your child, so burn you know
- 35:11Speaker 1: that's that's worse. That's worse, Yes, because what you do
- 35:15Speaker 1: when is addressing the tone and how somebody says something.
- 35:18Speaker 1: But you can say some really nasty ship corregular. Yeah,
- 35:23Speaker 1: but I don't know. I'm working on it. I think, yeah,
- 35:28Speaker 1: it's different. I don't like diverge and like say something
- 35:31Speaker 1: that's like super hurtful but totally off the charts, like
- 35:35Speaker 1: not even relevant. But I I can say her what
- 35:40Speaker 1: I want to. I never I never do it unless
- 35:42Speaker 1: I feel like her, like um, and then I and
- 35:48Speaker 1: then I'll just like pull something from the very back
- 35:50Speaker 1: and be like, well remember the time. It's just like
- 35:53Speaker 1: just like that. It has to be relatable, you know,
- 35:57Speaker 1: it has to relate to I won't just I like,
- 36:00Speaker 1: not your child. Comment will have to be some something
- 36:02Speaker 1: to do with the kids. You know. I wouldn't just
- 36:05Speaker 1: throw it out there just like hey, guess what I
- 36:08Speaker 1: remember when you share it with me and now that's
- 36:10Speaker 1: not your baby. You know I wouldn't do that. You're
- 36:15Speaker 1: a maniac girl, And no, listen, I don't have to
- 36:19Speaker 1: win the argument I'm not going to say the worst
- 36:22Speaker 1: thing to win the argument, because I feel like if
- 36:25Speaker 1: you love somebody like certain ship, like your heart won't
- 36:27Speaker 1: let you say your due to them. So when somebody
- 36:30Speaker 1: can just say the craziest ship to me and I
- 36:33Speaker 1: gotta disrespect you in that way, we probably should not
- 36:35Speaker 1: be together because I could be really disrespectful. I would say,
- 36:40Speaker 1: I'm not I'm definitely not petty. I have zero pettiness
- 36:45Speaker 1: to me. Cancer, it's very Tell me give me an
- 36:49Speaker 1: example of me being petty. Um, you said that you
- 36:53Speaker 1: hope my hair style was ugly. When I was on
- 36:56Speaker 1: my way to my hair that was petty, as she
- 37:04Speaker 1: I was on my winter airpoint. But she said, I
- 37:06Speaker 1: hope your hair gets I hope she sucks your hair up. Dude,
- 37:11Speaker 1: that's petty. Because he was going back and forth. I'd
- 37:19Speaker 1: been arguing with this girl like she's my guy. Man,
- 37:21Speaker 1: I'm sticking her as Yeah, But like two hours later,
- 37:25Speaker 1: I was like, so are we gonna record tomorrow night? Yeah,
- 37:30Speaker 1: that's how I went. Me wish my hair was fucked up.
- 37:37Speaker 1: It guess what it was. I left there. It was bad.
- 37:43Speaker 1: It was so bad. I was like, I hate this bitch.
- 37:46Speaker 1: She manifested that my closure was all tweezed. Why this hell?
- 37:54Speaker 1: I was like, basically, you don't know what I'm talking
- 37:59Speaker 1: about with the closure being tweets wise, it's white as hell. No,
- 38:03Speaker 1: it's some black dot about Listen. I appreciated my reading.
- 38:12Speaker 1: I don't know about you. Say, we both have some
- 38:14Speaker 1: inner work to do. I know I have to do
- 38:17Speaker 1: some inner work, but I don't know everybody. Everybody says
- 38:20Speaker 1: do the work. Somebody giving me the syllables so I
- 38:24Speaker 1: can know what I need to do first. You know,
- 38:27Speaker 1: when I tell you to as you say, I'm petty.
- 38:29Speaker 1: So what you no want to tell me right now?
- 38:32Speaker 1: Tell me in the world? What? What? What is my syllabus? Like?
- 38:36Speaker 1: What's the first thing? Accountability? I feel like I take
- 38:40Speaker 1: accountability and that's all I have to say. You don't accountability.
- 38:45Speaker 1: Accountability is saying you know why you write my bag.
- 38:49Speaker 1: It's not you do that. It's not arguing back and
- 38:52Speaker 1: forth when you know your dad as wrong. I do
- 38:55Speaker 1: say that. Did she just say she got to be
- 38:58Speaker 1: right all the time? That doesn't matter and around the
- 39:01Speaker 1: don't argue that point. But when you think you're right,
- 39:06Speaker 1: the words come out that same way. They're not gonna
- 39:08Speaker 1: come out anyway different because you think you're right, But
- 39:11Speaker 1: no I will. I have the capacity to apologize when
- 39:15Speaker 1: I'm wrong sometimes, did you fucking serial killer? No empathy? Look,
- 39:27Speaker 1: got no empathy, Macy. Look, I don't even I have
- 39:30Speaker 1: so much empathy that I can't watch grays and at
- 39:32Speaker 1: Okay it makes me so sad. Okay, that's a lie.
- 39:36Speaker 1: May see listening to plug yourself, girl, talk about your
- 39:40Speaker 1: website if you want to follow up with that or
- 39:42Speaker 1: in with that, right, all that good stuff. I'm on
- 39:49Speaker 1: Instagram like all the time. So just look up terrorby
- 39:54Speaker 1: Mazie and there I am asking questions and gets to
- 39:59Speaker 1: know me and take my cuss. I think that information
- 40:03Speaker 1: on Instagram or on the website, look forward to it.
- 40:07Speaker 1: We really appreciate you joining us today, Macy. Yes, we
- 40:10Speaker 1: do this. Yeah, I'm always happy to talk about. Maybe
- 40:15Speaker 1: we can do this quarterly. Yeah, we can get some
- 40:18Speaker 1: updates and see where we are. We get some updates
- 40:22Speaker 1: on the love life and whether you need this famous athlete. Yeah,
- 40:25Speaker 1: maybe all have done some self work work before then,
- 40:28Speaker 1: and then you can just send me a syllabus damn,
- 40:32Speaker 1: and then I do the work I always excelled. When
- 40:37Speaker 1: the teacher gave us a syllabus at the beginning of
- 40:39Speaker 1: the year, I knew exactly what was expected of me,
- 40:42Speaker 1: do the work. Just that sentence just don't make sense
- 40:45Speaker 1: to me, Like it is the work, She's perfect, I
- 40:52Speaker 1: am not. I don't feel that if you don't know
- 40:54Speaker 1: the work, then you're perfect. If you don't and there's
- 40:56Speaker 1: anything that you can work on, that means you think
- 40:58Speaker 1: you're perfect. No, no, I don't. It's not that I said,
- 41:01Speaker 1: I don't think I know anything I need to work on.
- 41:03Speaker 1: I just don't know what the work is. Like, what
- 41:06Speaker 1: is the work? She just told you what the work is, right,
- 41:10Speaker 1: did you not being accountable? Okay, that you don't have
- 41:14Speaker 1: to receive that, But I said, no, that's that's a
- 41:16Speaker 1: great one. Being accountable and being open to other people's
- 41:22Speaker 1: opinions and not assuming that you're right all the time.
- 41:25Speaker 1: That's basically where it is. Again, I'm so stressed. I'm
- 41:33Speaker 1: joking jokes. I'm receiving what you're saying. Okay, I really, Oh,
- 41:37Speaker 1: I know, I'm not. I'm not offend all all right, y'all.
- 41:42Speaker 1: Follow Macy at taro by macy dot com. We really
- 41:46Speaker 1: appreciate you coming on. We talked back, and we hope
- 41:48Speaker 1: to talk to you again in the next quarter of
- 41:51Speaker 1: our lives. Yes, we do awesome. Okay, them with that
- 42:00Speaker 1: future looking like, Yeah, I'm fucking are you feeling uneasy now?
- 42:07Speaker 1: I'm stressed out. Yeah, I gotta go do drugs and
- 42:10Speaker 1: drink all you use money excuse to do drugs and drinks.
- 42:16Speaker 1: My terror reading was so stressful. Somebody roll up. Yeah.
- 42:19Speaker 1: Between that reading and the last one I have is
- 42:21Speaker 1: just pretty affirmative that I'm on the right. I like
- 42:26Speaker 1: psychists better than tear him because I don't feel like
- 42:30Speaker 1: she didn't tell me sh I ain't know already. Wait
- 42:35Speaker 1: wait wait, wait wait, So she didn't tell you ship
- 42:37Speaker 1: you don't know, but you still need a syllabus. Yes,
- 42:42Speaker 1: do the work. You gotta do the work. Everybody says that,
- 42:45Speaker 1: but nobody says what the fucking work is. It's just
- 42:48Speaker 1: internally they say, dig beat Okay, how do you how?
- 42:52Speaker 1: How like I know my If I want a successful career, right,
- 42:57Speaker 1: I know I'd be bullshitting with time. I know I'd
- 43:00Speaker 1: be bushing with the things I need to do, Like
- 43:02Speaker 1: you know what your fucking problems is? You know, like
- 43:04Speaker 1: the ship that's keeping you from getting to the fucking
- 43:07Speaker 1: next level. Dog, you don't need no syllabus like you
- 43:10Speaker 1: know the things from love. No, I don't. I don't know.
- 43:16Speaker 1: I don't know it is And so do you want
- 43:19Speaker 1: me to tell you in the world very quick? Yeah,
- 43:23Speaker 1: it is messing with men that are not obtainable. You
- 43:27Speaker 1: are attracted to the unattainability of men. I feel like
- 43:32Speaker 1: if you get a man that is attainable, that you
- 43:35Speaker 1: could that's gonna be around around people like man, that's
- 43:38Speaker 1: you get on my nerve. I really don't like them
- 43:40Speaker 1: when you make them way for no reason? Are they just?
- 43:43Speaker 1: And then she still don't work out. So I feel
- 43:46Speaker 1: like when you get somebody you kinda it's like, uh no,
- 43:52Speaker 1: that's not true because that last guy, how long did
- 43:54Speaker 1: it take you to give him a shot? Something? But
- 44:01Speaker 1: you're busting wide open for the wrong nigga quick because
- 44:07Speaker 1: you feel like, girl, you don't know my life killers. Man,
- 44:14Speaker 1: we both put a lot of catch up on our
- 44:16Speaker 1: fries in the circle, not on the side. Yeah, we
- 44:27Speaker 1: all wt work in progress. Now, all you could do
- 44:29Speaker 1: is take it the day to time. But every day
- 44:31Speaker 1: you have to make that conscious decision to be better
- 44:34Speaker 1: than yesterday. And that's what you just gotta wake up
- 44:37Speaker 1: and do. So y'all want to know what that magic is, ditch,
- 44:39Speaker 1: happen over here making magic. I'm gonna tell a world
- 44:42Speaker 1: what I've been doing. I've been master dating and seeing
- 44:47Speaker 1: my affirmations at the same time, and coming is what
- 44:52Speaker 1: I've been doing, like for real, for real. We had
- 44:55Speaker 1: twenty thousand downloads for our last at the phone, mad
- 45:00Speaker 1: at the type of ship I have been meditating on,
- 45:04Speaker 1: and now I just get all these good affirmations about
- 45:07Speaker 1: ship that already know that's gonna happen because I'm putting
- 45:09Speaker 1: all my good old I Am I WILL statements in
- 45:13Speaker 1: the universe. And why are you coming while I'm coming?
- 45:17Speaker 1: That's what your teami orgasm is forward. It's not for
- 45:20Speaker 1: some bullshit, for real, for real. So the next time,
- 45:24Speaker 1: my time, I'm gonna say I'm a millionaire in the
- 45:27Speaker 1: universe belongs to me. It works. It doesn't work when
- 45:34Speaker 1: I'm faking the orgasm because it seems like I've been
- 45:36Speaker 1: doing a lot of that. You got to do with yourself, man,
- 45:38Speaker 1: you can't have somebody else in your damn ship while
- 45:41Speaker 1: you that's your unless that's your partner that you're gonna
- 45:45Speaker 1: be with, y'all. Can y'all can manifest together in that
- 45:47Speaker 1: way while y'all coming. That's another episode though I said,
- 45:51Speaker 1: I wasn't gonna tell y'all, but that's what y'all need
- 45:54Speaker 1: to do with stout wasting them nuts, holding until you
- 45:56Speaker 1: really got some ship. You're trying to ask the universe
- 45:58Speaker 1: for receeded information, Come and collect. Okay, the blessings. I'm
- 46:05Speaker 1: abny to go masturbate when we hang up. Yeah, So
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