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Pamela, or Virtue Rewarded Volume 1 Letter 10 · The Samuel Richardson Library

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  Speaker 1: Section x of pamela or virtue rewarded by samuel richardson
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  Speaker 1: i but slightly read this letter for the present to
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  Speaker 1: give way to one i had hopes of finding by
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  Speaker 1: this time from mr williams i took an evening turn
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  Speaker 1: as i called it in mrs jukes's company and walking
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  Speaker 1: by the place i said do you think mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: any of my beans can have struck since yesterday she
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  Speaker 1: laughed and said you are a poor gardener but i
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  Speaker 1: love to see you divert yourself she passing on i
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  Speaker 1: found my good friend had provided for me and slipping
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  Speaker 1: it in my bosom for her back was towards me
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  Speaker 1: here said i having a bean in my hand is
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  Speaker 1: one of them but it has not stirred no to
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  Speaker 1: be sure said she and turned upon me a most
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  Speaker 1: wicked jest unbecoming the mouth of a woman about planting
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  Speaker 1: c when i came in i hied to my closet
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  Speaker 1: and read as follows i am sorry to tell you
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  Speaker 1: that i have had a repulse from lady jones she
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  Speaker 1: is concerned at your case she says but don't care
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  Speaker 1: to make herself enemies i applied to lady darnford and
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  Speaker 1: told her in the most pathetic manner i could your
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  Speaker 1: sad story and showed her your more pathetic letter i
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  Speaker 1: found her well disposed but she would advise with sir
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  Speaker 1: simon who by the bye is not a man of
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  Speaker 1: an extraordinary character for virtue but he said to his
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  Speaker 1: lady in my presence why what is all this my
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  Speaker 1: dear but that our neighbour has a mind to his
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  Speaker 1: mother's waiting-maid and if he takes care she wants for
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  Speaker 1: nothing i don't see any great injury will be done
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  Speaker 1: her he hurts no family by this so my dear
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  Speaker 1: father and mother it seems that poor people's honesty is
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  Speaker 1: to go for nothing and i think mr williams you
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  Speaker 1: of all men should not engage in this affair against
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  Speaker 1: your friend and patron he spoke this in so determined
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  Speaker 1: a manner that the lady had done and i had
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  Speaker 1: only to beg no notice should be taken of the
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  Speaker 1: matter as from me i have hinted your case to
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  Speaker 1: mr peters the minister of this parish but i am
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  Speaker 1: concerned to say that he imputed selfish views to me
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  Speaker 1: as if i would make an interest in your affections
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  Speaker 1: by my zeal and when i represented the duties of
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  Speaker 1: our function and the like and protested my disinterestedness he
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  Speaker 1: coldly said i was very good but was a young
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  Speaker 1: man and knew little of the world and though it
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  Speaker 1: was a thing to be lamented yet when he and
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  Speaker 1: i should set about to reform mankind in this respect
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  Speaker 1: we should have enough upon our hands for he said
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  Speaker 1: it was too common and fashionable a case to be
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  Speaker 1: withstood by a private clergyman or two and then he
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  Speaker 1: uttered some reflections upon the conduct of the present fathers
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  Speaker 1: of the church in regard to the first personages of
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  Speaker 1: the realm as a justification of his coldness on this
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  Speaker 1: score i represented the different circumstances of your affair that
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  Speaker 1: other women lived evilly by their own consent but to
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  Speaker 1: serve you was to save an innocence that had but
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  Speaker 1: few examples and then i showed him your letter he
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  Speaker 1: said it was very prettily written and he was sorry
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  Speaker 1: for you and that your good intentions ought to be
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  Speaker 1: encouraged but what said he would you have me do
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  Speaker 1: mr williams why suppose sir said i you give her
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  Speaker 1: shelter in your house with your spouse and niece till
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  Speaker 1: she can get to her friends what and embroil myself
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  Speaker 1: with a man of mr b s power and fortune
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  Speaker 1: no not i i'll assure you and i would have
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  Speaker 1: you consider what you are about besides she owns continued
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  Speaker 1: he that he promises to do honourably by her and
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  Speaker 1: her shyness will procure her good terms enough for he
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  Speaker 1: is no covetous nor wicked gentleman except in this case
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  Speaker 1: and tis what all young gentlemen will do i am
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  Speaker 1: greatly concerned for him i assure you but i am
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  Speaker 1: not discouraged by this ill success let what will come
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  Speaker 1: of it if i can serve you i don't hear
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  Speaker 1: as yet that mr b is coming i am glad
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  Speaker 1: of your hint as to that unhappy fellow john arnold
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  Speaker 1: something perhaps will strike out from that which may be
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  Speaker 1: useful as to your packets if you seal them up
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  Speaker 1: and lay them in the usual place if you find
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  Speaker 1: it not suspected i will watch an opportunity to convey
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  Speaker 1: them but if they are large you had best be
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  Speaker 1: very cautious this evil woman i find mistrusts me much
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  Speaker 1: i just hear that the gentleman is dying whose living
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  Speaker 1: mr b has promised me i have almost a scruple
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  Speaker 1: to take it as i am acting so contrary to
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  Speaker 1: his desires but i hope he will one day thank
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  Speaker 1: me for it as to money don't think of it
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  Speaker 1: at present be assured you may command all in my
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  Speaker 1: power to do for you without reserve i believe when
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  Speaker 1: we hear he is coming it will be best to
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  Speaker 1: make use of the key which i shall soon procure
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  Speaker 1: you and i can borrow a horse for you i
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  Speaker 1: believe to wait within half a mile of the back
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  Speaker 1: door over the pasture and will contrive by myself or
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  Speaker 1: somebody to have you conducted some miles distant to one
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  Speaker 1: of the villages thereabouts so don't be discomfited i beseech
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  Speaker 1: you i am excellent mrs pamela your faithful friend c
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  Speaker 1: i made a thousand sad reflections upon the former part
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  Speaker 1: of this honest gentleman's kind letter and but for the
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  Speaker 1: hope he gave me at last should have given up
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  Speaker 1: my case as quite desperate i then wrote to thank
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  Speaker 1: him most gratefully for his kind endeavours to lament the
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  Speaker 1: little concern the gentry had for my deplorable case the
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  Speaker 1: wickedness of the world first to give way to such
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  Speaker 1: iniquitous fashions and then plead the frequency of them against
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  Speaker 1: the attempt to amend them and how unaffected people were
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  Speaker 1: with the distresses of others i recalled my former hint
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  Speaker 1: as to writing to lady davers which i feared i
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  Speaker 1: said would only serve to apprise her brother that she
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  Speaker 1: knew his wicked scheme and more harden him in it
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  Speaker 1: and make him come down the sooner and to be
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  Speaker 1: the more determined on my ruin besides that it might
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  Speaker 1: make mr williams guest at as a means of conveying
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  Speaker 1: my letter and being very fearful that if that good
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  Speaker 1: lady should interest herself in my behalf which was a
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  Speaker 1: doubt since she both loved and feared her brother it
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  Speaker 1: would have no effect upon him and that therefore i
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  Speaker 1: would wait the happy event i might hope for from
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  Speaker 1: his kind assistance in the key and the horse i
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  Speaker 1: intimated my master's letter begging to be permitted to come
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  Speaker 1: down was fearful it might be sudden and that i
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  Speaker 1: was of opinion no time was to be lost for
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  Speaker 1: we might let slip all our opportunities telling him the
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  Speaker 1: money trick of this vile woman c i had not
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  Speaker 1: time to take a copy of this letter i was
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  Speaker 1: so watched and when i had it ready in my
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  Speaker 1: bosom i was easy and so i went to seek
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  Speaker 1: out mrs jukes and told her i would have her
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  Speaker 1: advice upon the letter i had received from my master
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  Speaker 1: which point of confidence in her pleased her not a
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  Speaker 1: little ay said she now this is something like and
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  Speaker 1: we'll take a turn in the garden or wherever you
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  Speaker 1: please i pretended it was indifferent to me and so
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  Speaker 1: we walked into the garden i began to talk to
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  Speaker 1: her of the letter but was far from acquainting her
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  Speaker 1: with all the contents only that he wanted my consent
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  Speaker 1: to come down and hoped she used me kindly and
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  Speaker 1: the like and i said now mrs jukes let me
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  Speaker 1: have your advice as to this why then said she
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  Speaker 1: i will give it to you freely eden send to
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  Speaker 1: him to come down it will highly oblige him and
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  Speaker 1: i dare say you'll fare the better for it how
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  Speaker 1: the better said i i dare say you think yourself
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  Speaker 1: that he intends my ruin i hate said she that
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  Speaker 1: foolish word your ruin why ne'er a lady in the
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  Speaker 1: land may live happier than you if you will or
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  Speaker 1: be more honourably used well mrs jukes said i i
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  Speaker 1: shall not at this time dispute with you about the
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  Speaker 1: words ruin and honourable for i find we have quite
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  Speaker 1: different notions of both but now i will speak plainer
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  Speaker 1: than i ever did do you think he intends to
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  Speaker 1: make proposals to me as to be a kept mistress
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  Speaker 1: or kept a slave rather or do you not why
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  Speaker 1: lambkin said she what dost thou think thyself i fear
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  Speaker 1: said i he does well said she but if he
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  Speaker 1: does for i know nothing of the matter i assure
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  Speaker 1: you you may have your own terms i see that
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  Speaker 1: for you may do anything with him i could not
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  Speaker 1: bear this to be spoken though it was all i
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  Speaker 1: feared of a long time and began to exclaim most
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  Speaker 1: sadly nay said she he may marry you as far
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  Speaker 1: as i know no no said i that cannot be
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  Speaker 1: i neither desire nor expect it his condition don't permit
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  Speaker 1: me to have such a thought and that in the
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  Speaker 1: whole series of his conduct convinces me of the contrary
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  Speaker 1: and you would have me invite him to come down
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  Speaker 1: would you is not this to invite my ruin tis
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  Speaker 1: what i would do said she in your place and
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  Speaker 1: if it was to be as you think i should
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  Speaker 1: rather be out of my pain than live in continual
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  Speaker 1: frights and apprehensions as you do no replied i an
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  Speaker 1: hour of innocence is worth an age of guilt and
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  Speaker 1: were my life to be made ever so miserable by
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  Speaker 1: it i should never forgive myself if i were not
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  Speaker 1: to lengthen out to the longest minute my happy time
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  Speaker 1: of honesty who knows what providence may do for me
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  Speaker 1: why maybe said she as he loves you so well
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  Speaker 1: you may prevail upon him by your prayers and tears
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  Speaker 1: and for that reason i should think you'd better let
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  Speaker 1: him come down well said i i will write him
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  Speaker 1: a letter because he expects an answer or maybe he
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  Speaker 1: will make a pretence to come down how can it
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  Speaker 1: go i'll take care of that said she it is
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  Speaker 1: in my instructions ay thought i so i doubt by
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  Speaker 1: the hint mr williams gave me about the post-house the
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  Speaker 1: gardener coming by i said mr jacob i have planted
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  Speaker 1: a few beans and i call the place my garden
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  Speaker 1: it is just by the door out yonder i'll show
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  Speaker 1: it you pray don't dig them up so i went
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  Speaker 1: on with him and when we had turned the alley
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  Speaker 1: out of her sight and were near the place said
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  Speaker 1: i pray step to mrs jukes and ask her if
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  Speaker 1: she has any more beans for me to plant he
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  Speaker 1: smiled i suppose at my foolishness and i popped the
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  Speaker 1: letter under the mould and stepped back as if waiting
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  Speaker 1: for his return which being near was immediate and she
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  Speaker 1: followed him what should i do with beans said she
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  Speaker 1: and sadly scared me for she whispered me i am
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  Speaker 1: afraid of some fetch you don't use to send on
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  Speaker 1: such simple errands what fetch said i it is hard
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  Speaker 1: i can neither stir nor speak but i must be
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  Speaker 1: suspected why said she my master writes that i must
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  Speaker 1: have all my eyes about me for though you are
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  Speaker 1: as innocent as a dove yet you are as cunning
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  Speaker 1: as a serpent but i'll forgive you if you cheat
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  Speaker 1: me then i thought of my money and could have
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  Speaker 1: called her names had i dared and i said pray
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  Speaker 1: mrs jukes now you talk of forgiving me if i
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  Speaker 1: cheat you be so kind as to pay me my
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  Speaker 1: money for though i have no occasion for it yet
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  Speaker 1: i know you was but in jest and intended to
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  Speaker 1: give it me again you shall have it in a
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  Speaker 1: proper time said she but indeed i was in earnest
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  Speaker 1: to get it out of your hands for fear you
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  Speaker 1: should make an ill use of it and so we
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  Speaker 1: cavilled upon this subject as we walked in and i
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  Speaker 1: went up to write my letter to my master and
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  Speaker 1: as i intended to show it her i resolved to
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  Speaker 1: write accordingly as to her part of it for i
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  Speaker 1: made little account of his offer of mrs jervis to
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  Speaker 1: me instead of this wicked woman though the most agreeable
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  Speaker 1: thing that could have befallen me except my escape from
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  Speaker 1: hence nor indeed any thing he said for to be
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  Speaker 1: honourable in the just sense of the word he need
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  Speaker 1: not have caused me to be run away with and
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  Speaker 1: confined as i am i wrote as follows honoured sir
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  Speaker 1: when i consider how easily you might make me happy
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  Speaker 1: since all i desire is to be permitted to go
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  Speaker 1: to my poor father and mother when i reflect upon
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  Speaker 1: your former proposal to me in relation to a certain
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  Speaker 1: person not one word of which is now mentioned and
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  Speaker 1: upon my being in that strange manner run away with
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  Speaker 1: and still kept here a miserable prisoner do you think
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  Speaker 1: sir pardon your poor servant's freedom my fears make me
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  Speaker 1: bold do you think i say that your general assurances
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  Speaker 1: of honour to me can have the effect upon me
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  Speaker 1: that were it not for these things all your words
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  Speaker 1: ought to have oh good sir i too much apprehend
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  Speaker 1: that your notions of honour and mine are very different
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  Speaker 1: from one another and i have no other hopes but
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  Speaker 1: in your continued absence if you have any proposals to
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  Speaker 1: make me that are consistent with your honourable professions in
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  Speaker 1: my humble sense of the word a few lines will
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  Speaker 1: communicate them to me and i will return such an
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  Speaker 1: answer as befits me but oh what proposals can one
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  Speaker 1: in your high station have to make to one in
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  Speaker 1: my low one i know what belongs to your degree
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  Speaker 1: too well to imagine that anything can be expected but
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  Speaker 1: sad temptations and utter distress if you come down and
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  Speaker 1: you know not sir when i am made desperate what
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  Speaker 1: the wretched pamela dares to do whatever rashness you may
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  Speaker 1: impute to me i cannot help it but i wish
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  Speaker 1: i may not be forced upon any that otherwise would
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  Speaker 1: never enter into my thoughts forgive me sir my plainness
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  Speaker 1: i should be loth to behave to my master unbecomingly
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  Speaker 1: but i must needs say sir my innocence is so
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  Speaker 1: dear to me that all other considerations are and i
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  Speaker 1: hope shall ever be treated by me as niceties that
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  Speaker 1: ought for that to be dispensed with if you mean
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  Speaker 1: honourably why sir should you not let me know it
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  Speaker 1: plainly why is it necessary to imprison me to convince
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  Speaker 1: me of it and why must i be close watched
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  Speaker 1: and attended hindered from stirring out from speaking to any
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  Speaker 1: body from going so much as to church to pray
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  Speaker 1: for you who have been till of late so generous
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  Speaker 1: a benefactor to me why sir i humbly ask why
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  Speaker 1: all this if you mean honourably it is not for
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  Speaker 1: me to expostulate so freely but in a case so
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  Speaker 1: near to me with you sir so greatly my superior
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  Speaker 1: pardon me i hope you will but as to seeing
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  Speaker 1: you i cannot bear the dreadful apprehension whatever you have
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  Speaker 1: to propose whatever you intend by me let my assent
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  Speaker 1: be that of a free person mean as i am
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  Speaker 1: and not of a sordid slave who is to be
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  Speaker 1: threatened and frightened into a compliance with measures which your
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  Speaker 1: conduct to her seems to imply would be otherwise abhorred
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  Speaker 1: by her my restraint is indeed hard upon me i
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  Speaker 1: am very uneasy under it shorten it i beseech you
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  Speaker 1: or but i will not dare to say more than
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  Speaker 1: that i am your greatly oppressed unhappy servant after i
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  Speaker 1: had taken a copy of this i folded it up
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  Speaker 1: and mrs jukes coming just as i had done sat
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  Speaker 1: down by me and said when she saw me direct
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  Speaker 1: it i wish you would tell me if you have
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  Speaker 1: taken my advice and consented to my master's coming down
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  Speaker 1: if it will oblige you said i i will read
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  Speaker 1: it to you that's good said she then i'll love
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  Speaker 1: you dearly said i then you must not offer to
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  Speaker 1: alter one word i won't replied she so i read
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  Speaker 1: it to her and she praised me much for my
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  Speaker 1: wording it but said she thought i pushed the matter
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  Speaker 1: very close and it would better bear talking of than
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  Speaker 1: writing about she wanted an explanation or two as about
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  Speaker 1: the proposal to a certain person but i said she
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  Speaker 1: must take it as she heard it well well said
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  Speaker 1: she i make no doubt you understand one another and
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  Speaker 1: will do so more and more i sealed up the
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  Speaker 1: letter and she undertook to convey it sunday for my
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  Speaker 1: part i knew it in vain to expect to have
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  Speaker 1: leave to go to church now and so i did
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  Speaker 1: not ask and i was the more indifferent because if
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  Speaker 1: i might have had permission the sight of the neighbouring
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  Speaker 1: gentry who had despised my sufferings would have given me
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  Speaker 1: great regret and sorrow and it was impossible i should
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  Speaker 1: have edified under any doctrine preached by mr peters so
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  Speaker 1: i applied myself to my private devotions mr williams came
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  Speaker 1: yesterday and this day as usual and took my letter
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  Speaker 1: but having no good opportunity we avoided one another's conversation
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  Speaker 1: and kept at a distance but i was concerned i
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  Speaker 1: had not the key for i would not have lost
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  Speaker 1: a moment in that case had i been he and
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  Speaker 1: he i when i was at my devotion mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: came up and wanted me sadly to sing her a
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  Speaker 1: psalm as she had often on common days importuned me
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  Speaker 1: for a song upon the spinet but i declined it
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  Speaker 1: because my spirits were so low i could hardly speak
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  Speaker 1: nor cared to be spoken to but when she was
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  Speaker 1: gone i remembering the one hundred thirty seventh psalm to
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  Speaker 1: be a little touching turned to it and took the
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  Speaker 1: liberty to alter it somewhat nearer to my case i
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  Speaker 1: hope i did not sin in it but thus i
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  Speaker 1: turned it one when sad i sat in the b
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  Speaker 1: hall all guarded round about and thought of every absent
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  Speaker 1: friend the tears for grief burst out two my joys
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  Speaker 1: and hopes all overthrown my heart-strings almost broke unfit my
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  Speaker 1: mind for melody much more to bear a joke three
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  Speaker 1: when she to whom i prisoner was said to me
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  Speaker 1: tauntingly now cheer your heart and sing a song and
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  Speaker 1: tune your mind to joy four alas said i how
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  Speaker 1: can i frame my heavy heart to sing or tune
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  Speaker 1: my mind while thus enthralled by such a wicked thing
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  Speaker 1: five but yet if from my innocence i e'en in
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  Speaker 1: thought should slide then let my fingers quite forget the
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  Speaker 1: sweet spinet to guide 6. And let my tongue within
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  Speaker 1: my mouth be locked for ever fast, if I rejoice
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  Speaker 1: before I see my full deliverance past. 7. and thou
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  Speaker 1: almighty recompense the evils i endure from those who seek
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  Speaker 1: my sad disgrace so causeless to procure eight remember lord
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  Speaker 1: this mrs jukes when with a mighty sound she cries
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  Speaker 1: down with her chastity down to the very ground nine
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  Speaker 1: even so shalt thou o wicked one at length to
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  Speaker 1: shame be brought and happy shall all those be called
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  Speaker 1: that my deliverance wrought ten yea blessed shall the man
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  Speaker 1: be called that shames thee of thy evil and saves
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  Speaker 1: me from thy vile attempts and thee too from the
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: devil monday tuesday wednesday i write now with a little
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: more liking though less opportunity because mr williams has got
• 20:40
  Speaker 1: a large parcel of my papers safe in his hands
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: to send them to you as he has opportunity so
• 20:47
  Speaker 1: i am not quite uselessly employed and i am delivered
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: besides from the fear of their being found if i
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: should be searched or discovered i have been permitted to
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: take an airing five or six miles with mrs jukes
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: but though i know not the reason she watches me
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: more closely than ever so that we have discontinued by
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: consent for these three days the sunflower correspondence the poor
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: cook-maid has had a bad mischance for she has been
• 21:16
  Speaker 1: hurt much by a bull in the pasture by the
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: side of the garden not far from the back door
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: now this pasture i am to cross which is about
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: half a mile and then is a common and near
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: that a private horse-road where i hope to find an
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: opportunity for escaping as soon as mr williams can get
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: me a horse and has all made ready for me
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: for he has got me the key which he put
• 21:40
  Speaker 1: under the mould just by the door as he found
• 21:42
  Speaker 1: an opportunity to hint to me he just now has
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: signified that the gentleman is dead whose living he has
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: had hope of and he came pretendedly to tell mrs
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: jukes of it and so could speak this to her
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: before me she wished him joy see what the world
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: is one man's death is another man's joy thus we
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: thrust out one another my hard case makes me serious
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: he found means to slide a letter into my hands
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: and is gone away he looked at me with such
• 22:14
  Speaker 1: respect and solemnness at parting that mrs jukes said why
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: madam i believe our young parson is half in love
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: with you ah mrs jukes said i he knows better
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: said she i believe to sound me why i can't
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: see you can either of you do better and i
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: have lately been so touched for you seeing how heavily
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: you apprehend dishonour from my master that i think it
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: is a pity you should not have mr williams i
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: knew this must be a fetch of hers because instead
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: of being troubled for me as she pretended she watched
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: me closer and him too and so i said there
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: is not the man living that i desire to marry
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: if i can but keep myself honest it is all
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: my desire and to be a comfort and assistance to
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: my poor parents if it should be my happy lot
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: to be so is the very top of my ambition
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: well but said she i have been thinking very seriously
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: that mr williams would make you a good husband and
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: as he will owe all his fortune to my master
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: he will be very glad to be sure to be
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: obliged to him for a wife of his choosing especially
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: said she such a pretty one and one so ingenious
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: and genteelly educated this gave me a doubt whether she
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: knew of my master's intimation of that sort formerly and
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: i asked her if she had reason to surmise that
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: this was in view no she said it is only
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: her own thought but it was very likely that my
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: master had either that in view or something better for
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: me but if i approved of it she would propose
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: such a thing to her master directly and gave a
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: detestable hint that i might take resolutions upon it of
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: bringing such an affair to effect i told her i
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: abhorred her vile insinuation and as to mr williams i
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: thought him a civil good sort of man but as
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: on one side he was above me so on the
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: other i said of all things i did not love
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: a parson so finding she could make nothing of me
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: she quitted the subject i will open his letter by
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: and by and give you the contents of it for
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: she is up and down so much that i am
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: afraid of her surprising me well i see providence has
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: not abandoned me i shall be under no necessity to
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: make advances to mr williams if i was as i
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: am sure i am not disposed to it this is
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: his letter i know not how to express myself lest
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: i should appear to you to have a selfish view
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: in the service i would do you but i really
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: know but one effectual and honorable way to disengage yourself
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: from the dangerous situation you are in it is that
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: of marriage with some person that you could make happy
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: in your approbation as for my own part it would
• 25:08
  Speaker 1: be as things stand my apparent ruin and worse still
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: i should involve you in misery too but yet so
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: great is my veneration for you and so entire my
• 25:20
  Speaker 1: reliance on providence upon so just an occasion that i
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: should think myself but too happy if i might be
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: accepted i would in this case forego all my expectations
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: and be your conductor to some safe distance but why
• 25:36
  Speaker 1: do i say in this case that i will do
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: whether you think fit to reward me so eminently or
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: not and i will the moment i hear of mr
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: b s setting out and i think now i have
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: settled a very good method of intelligence of all his
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: motions get a horse ready and myself to conduct you
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: i refer myself wholly to your goodness and direction and
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: am with the highest respect your most faithful humble servant
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: don't think this is a sudden resolution i always admired
• 26:06
  Speaker 1: your hearsay character and the moment i saw you wished
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: to serve so much excellence what shall i say my
• 26:14
  Speaker 1: dear father and mother to this unexpected declaration i want
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: now more than ever your blessing and direction but after
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: all i have no mind to marry i had rather
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: live with you but yet i would marry a man
• 26:29
  Speaker 1: who begs from door to door and has no home
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: nor being rather than endanger my honesty yet i cannot
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: methinks hear of being a wife after a thousand different
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: thoughts i wrote as follows reverend sir i am greatly
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: confused at the contents of your last you are much
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: too generous and i can't bear you should risk all
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: your future prospects for so unworthy a creature i cannot
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: think of your offer without equal concern and gratitude for
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: nothing but to avoid my utter ruin can make me
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: think of a change of condition and so sir you
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: ought not to accept of such an involuntary compliance as
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: mine would be were i upon the last necessity to
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: yield to your very generous proposal i will rely wholly
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: upon your goodness to me in assisting my escape but
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: shall not on your account principally think of the honour
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: you propose for me at present and never but at
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: the pleasure of my parents who poor as they are
• 27:32
  Speaker 1: in such a weighty point are as much entitled to
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: my obedience and duty as if they were ever so
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: rich i beg you therefore sir not to think of
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: any thing from me but everlasting gratitude which shall always
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: bind me to be your most obliged servant thursday friday
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: saturday the fourteenth fifteenth and sixteenth of my bondage mrs
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: jukes has received a letter and is much civiler to
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: me and to mr williams too than she used to
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: be i wonder i have not one in answer to
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: mine to my master i suppose i put the matter
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: too home for him and he is angry i am
• 28:12
  Speaker 1: not the more pleased with her civility for she is
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: horrid cunning and is not a whit less watchful i
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: laid a trap to get at her instructions which she
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: carries in the bosom of her stays but it has
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: not succeeded my last letter is come safe to mr
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: williams by the old conveyance so that he is not
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: suspected he has intimated that though i have not come
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: so readily as he hoped into his scheme yet his
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: diligence shall not be slackened and he will leave it
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: to providence and himself to dispose of him as he
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: shall be found to deserve he has signified to me
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: that he shall soon send a special messenger with the
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: packet to you and i have added to it what
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: has occurred since sunday i am just now quite astonished
• 28:59
  Speaker 1: i hope all is right but i have a strange
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: turn to acquaint you with mr williams and mrs jukes
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: came to me both together he in ecstasies she with
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: a strange fluttering sort of air' Well,' said she,' Mrs. Pamela,
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: I give you joy, I give you joy. Let nobody
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: speak but me.' Then she sat down as out of breath,
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: puffing and blowing.' Why, everything turns as I said it would,'
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: said she.' Why, there is to be a match between
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: you and Mr. Williams. Well, I always thought it. Never
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: was so good a master. Go to, go to, naughty,
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: mistrustful Mrs. Pamela. Nay, Mrs. williams said the forward creature
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: i may as good call you you ought on your
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: knees to beg his pardon a thousand times for mistrusting
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: him she was going on but i said don't torture
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: me thus i beseech you mrs jukes let me know
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: all ah mr williams said i take care take care
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: mistrustful again said she why mr williams show her your
• 30:08
  Speaker 1: letter and i will show her mine they were brought
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: by the same hand i trembled at the thoughts of
• 30:14
  Speaker 1: what this might mean and said you have so surprised
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: me that i cannot stand nor hear nor read why
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: did you come up in such a manner to attack
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: such weak spirits said he to mrs jukes shall we
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: leave our letters with mrs pamela and let her recover
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: from her surprise ay said she with all my heart
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: here is nothing but flaming honour and good-will and so
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: saying they left me their letters and withdrew my heart
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: was quite sick with the surprise so that i could
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: not presently read them notwithstanding my impatience but after a
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: while recovering i found the contents thus strange and unexpected
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: mr williams the death of mr founs has now given
• 31:01
  Speaker 1: me the opportunity i have long wanted to make you
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: happy and that in a double respect for i shall
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: soon put you in possession of his living and if
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: you have the art of making yourself well received of
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: one of the loveliest wives in england she has not
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: been used as she has reason to think according to
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: her merit but when she finds herself under the protection
• 31:24
  Speaker 1: of a man of virtue and probity and a happy
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: competency to support life in the manner to which she
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: has been of late years accustomed i am persuaded she
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: will forgive those seeming hardships which have paved the way
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: to so happy a lot as i hope it will
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: be to you both i have only to account for
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: and excuse the odd conduct i have been guilty of
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: which i shall do when i see you but as
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: i shall soon set out for london i believe it
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: will not be yet this month meantime if you will
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: prevail with pamela you need not suspend for that your
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: mutual happiness only let me have notice of it first
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: and that she approves of it which ought to be
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: in so material a point entirely at her option as
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: i assure you on the other hand i would have
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: it at yours that nothing may be wanting to complete
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: your happiness i am your humble servant was ever the
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: like heard lie still my throbbing heart divided as thou
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: art between thy hopes and thy fears but this is
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: the letter mrs jukes left with me mrs jukes you
• 32:31
  Speaker 1: have been very careful and diligent in the task which
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: for reasons i shall hereafter explain i had imposed upon
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: you your trouble is now almost at an end for
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: i have written my intentions to mr williams so particularly
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: that i need say the less here because he will
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: not scruple i believe to let you know the contents
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: of my letter i have only one thing to mention
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: that if you find what i have hinted to him
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: in the least measure disagreeable to either you assure them
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: both they are at entire liberty to pursue their own
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: inclinations i hope you continue your civilities to the mistrustful
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: uneasy pamela who now will begin to think better of
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: hers and your friend c i had hardly time to
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: transcribe these letters though writing so much i write pretty
• 33:21
  Speaker 1: fast before they both came up again in high spirits
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: and mr williams said i am glad at my heart
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: madam that i was beforehand in my declarations to you
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: this generous letter has made me the happiest man on
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: earth and mrs jukes you may be sure that if
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: i can procure this fair one's consent i shall think
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: myself i interrupted the good man and said ah mr
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: williams take care take care don't let there i stopped
• 33:52
  Speaker 1: and mrs jukes said still mistrustful i never saw the
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: like in my life but i see said she i
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: was not wrong while my old orders lasted to be
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: wary of you both i should have had a hard
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: task to prevent you i find for as the saying
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: is naught can restrain consent of twain i doubted not
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: her taking hold of his joyful indiscretion i took her
• 34:17
  Speaker 1: letter and said here mrs jukes is yours i thank
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: you for it but i have been so long in
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: amaze that i can say nothing of this for the
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: present time will bring all to light sir said i
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: here is yours may everything turn to your happiness i
• 34:35
  Speaker 1: give you joy of my master's goodness in the living
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: it will be dying said he not a living without
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: you forbear sir said i while i have a father
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: and mother i am not my own mistress poor as
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: they are and i'll see myself quite at liberty before
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: i shall think myself fit to make a choice mrs
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: jukes held up her eyes and hands and said such
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: art such caution such cunning for thy years well why
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: said i that he might be more on his guard
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: though i hope there cannot be deceit in this twould
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: be a strange villainy and that is a hard word
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: if there should i have been so used to be
• 35:20
  Speaker 1: made a fool of by fortune that i hardly can
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: tell how to govern myself and am almost an infidel
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: as to mankind but i hope i may be wrong
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: henceforth mrs jukes you shall regulate my opinions as you
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: please and i will consult you in every thing that
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: i think proper i said to myself for to be
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: sure though i may forgive her i can never love
• 35:43
  Speaker 1: her she left mr williams and me a few minutes
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: together and i said consider sir consider what you have
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: done tis impossible said he there can be deceit i
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: hope so said i but what necessity was there for
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: you to talk of your former declaration let this be
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: as it will that could do no good especially before
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: this woman forgive me sir they talk of woman's promptness
• 36:12
  Speaker 1: of speech but indeed i see an honest heart is
• 36:15
  Speaker 1: not always to be trusted with itself in bad company
• 36:20
  Speaker 1: he was going to reply but though her task is
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: said to be almost i took notice of that word
• 36:26
  Speaker 1: at an end she came up to us again and
• 36:29
  Speaker 1: said well i had a good mind to show you
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: the way to church to-morrow i was glad of this
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: because though in my present doubtful situation i should not
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: have chosen it yet i would have encouraged her proposal
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: to be able to judge by her being in earnest
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: or otherwise whether one might depend upon the rest but
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: mr williams again indiscreetly helped her to an excuse by
• 36:52
  Speaker 1: saying that it was now best to defer it one
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: sunday until matters were riper for my appearance and she
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: readily took hold of it and confirmed his opinion after
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: all i hope for the best but if this should
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: turn out to be a plot i fear nothing but
• 37:09
  Speaker 1: a miracle can save me but sure the heart of
• 37:12
  Speaker 1: man is not capable of such black deceit Besides, Mr.
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: Williams has it under his own hand, and he dare
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: not but be in earnest. And then again, though to
• 37:24
  Speaker 1: be sure he has been very wrong to me, yet
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: his education and parents' example have neither of them taught
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: him such very black contrivances. So I will hope for
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: the best.