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Farron Dozier Show- Why Do We Pretend We're Okay · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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  All right, so today I just had a couple things to get off my
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  chest. Shout out to Angelica.
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  You know, we was having a conversation this morning on the
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  on the text and just just about life, you know, and you know,
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  one of the things I did learn in the education that I take is
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  about, you know, what do, what do we pretend?
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  Do we pretend a lot of things? What do you pretend?
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  Human beings? We know how to pretend a lot.
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  You know, the brain can't tell the difference between a real
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  and an imaginary threat. Do you want to do you know that
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  I'm not a psychologist, I'm not a therapist.
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  I'm not none of that. All I'm saying, from what I
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  understand when I examine myself up against that conversation,
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  the brain can't tell the difference between real and an
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  imaginary threat. And that could cause us to
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  pretend. Can it possibly?
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  Do you use the word pretend? What word do you use to describe
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  when you're not? Whatever that is what I don't
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  know what words you, you use in your language, but sometimes
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  pretend. Sometime we're in denial.
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  You know, there's a lot of things that I noticed from
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  myself. Ridiculous.
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  Like like even in my house, right?
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  It's got electricity running through here, it's got gas
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  running through here on a stove. And we just walk around like
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  nothing, nothing that cannot happen.
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  It's just, you know, it's electric, just gas.
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  Live in denial. And that's not good or bad,
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  right or wrong. It just depends on your
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  perspective, your perception, your interpretation, right?
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  But I believe the pretense of a lot of the conversations that
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  I'm pointing to is not up against the stuff in life, not
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  up against the stuff we talk about that stuff.
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  It's the human being connection that we pretend, right?
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  If you can look in your life and tell the truth, maybe in the
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  aspect. So I, I did, you know, years
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  ago, I started this journey and I was looking and I was, you
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  know, I pretend, I pretend like everything's cool and it's
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  really not. I think everything is fine and
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  it's really not. I pretend, but what am I
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  pretending? Why am I pretending?
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  And, you know, for me, being able to go back and look as far
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  as I could go back at two years old, you know, the identities
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  that get created in those very young ages, the things that we
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  land on as children, the stories that we make up about the
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  situation to survive those moments in time to how our
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  perception of a child gets formed, how the stories get
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  created, how we write our own script about what happened if we
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  don't get the information, the fill in the blanks.
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  And so, yeah, I found myself with a lot of pretense growing
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  up. And it felt, feels felt good to
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  peel some of those layers off, to look back and discover that
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  the stories that I made-up to protect myself, to protect that
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  identity. I've never wanted to experience
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  disappointment. But you can't avoid
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  disappointment. What is disappointment to you
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  see, my disappointments might not be the same as yours, right?
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  So how I view disappointments and shames and embarrassments
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  may not be yours. You might have your own version
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  of a disappointment that you call disappointment that I would
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  be like, that's not disappointing.
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  What are you talking about? Or that's not embarrassing.
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  What are you talking about? See how that up against another
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  human being, that language is very important.
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  And so when I looked at my own life, it's got to start with
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  yourself first. God says love God or your heart,
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  mind, soul, body, and then love your neighbor with the same
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  measure that you love yourself, which points it back to me.
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  So people say like, you point your finger over there.
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  How many of them point back at you?
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  Plus, where's the thumb going up?
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  And you know, we got all those different things, right?
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  We, we say it all. So when I started measuring
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  myself at 40, Oh my gosh, I took some measurements and I was
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  like, yeah, that one that might be, that's not a good
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  measurement right there. Oh, that one hurts.
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  Where I where'd I get that measurement from?
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  Oh, shame, embarrassment, disappointment, blame, you know,
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  those are the things I'm looking at.
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  So I'm saying that to say one of the things I'm now, since I'm
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  I'm cool with my dad's transition in his life.
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  I'm cool with that. I'm cool.
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  I'm spiritually cool with that, physically cool with that, I'm
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  mentally cool with that, and I'm pretty much emotionally cool
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  with that. But there's a lot of things that
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  I took on in the last seven years that was filling the void.
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  And, you know, to now get to that space and then to now look
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  and like, Oh my goodness, that was all done to fill a emptiness
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  in my, in my mind. So now my mind is filled up with
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  stuff that guess what? The stuff that maybe I don't
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  want to be about today, maybe stuff that I don't want to do
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  today. And, and, and life is changing
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  and, and, and goals change, right?
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  And, and visions change and they grow and we develop.
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  And I'm, I'm recognizing for myself about every five into
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  that sixth year, there's a new evolution of Ferran that shows
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  up, right. And so in my 16 years of this,
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  you're talking about 3 different versions of Ferran has been
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  discovered. And I'm, I'm, I'm in the, I'm in
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  the fourth one, I'm in Season 4 right now.
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  And there may be some, some changes.
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  There may be some, maybe there may be some growth, there may be
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  some, of course, some more development, but there may be
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  some changes. And again, we can manage change.
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  For some people, change can be scary, the unforeseen.
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  I know where I live. I live in the future of
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  uncertainty. So I'm learning how to manage
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  that, that perspective, that view.
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  But yeah, we talk about change, but how do you manage your
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  change? Only, you know, only you can
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  discover. Only you know what she's like
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  right here. The age.
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  What do you say? I'm at the age where I don't
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  pretend. How did you get there?
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  Please in the comments tell us how did you become the person
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  that learned that? And that's that's what we talked
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  about, right? Because I don't want to live in
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  that space. No, we don't.
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  We don't really want to pretend, right?
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  But what, what, what do we, how do we find ourselves in that
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  space of pretense? And one of the conversations
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  that we have with this, like there's a ice cream shop in the
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  front and then they're running guns and drugs in the back.
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  They call that a racket. The racketeering.
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  It's gun. It's it's ice cream shop in the
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  front. And then there's guns and, and
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  drugs in the back. So I don't want to go look in
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  the back. Just get your ice cream in the
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  front. Don't worry about what's in the
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  back. Here's what she says.
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  She says, I truly believe age. Yes.
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  And, and that's true, right? And and and and do we have to
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  leave it to age? And I questioned that because I
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  was 40 when I started this journey.
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  Imagine teaching that to a 12 year old.
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  Imagine teaching that to a six year old.
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  My grandson was 5 when I helped when we discovered his almost
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  first first fraction fracture of the kids, not the kids don't
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  like me at 5:00 when it going into kindergarten.
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  And we corrected that because I was aware.
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  I heard it. We heard it.
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  But yeah, if we leave it to age, that's like leaving it to
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  chance. You know, we know that some
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  people never discover what their life is worth their life is
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  about. People die with so many
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  inventions and books and stuff that they didn't get a chance to
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  get out because they felt like I'm not good enough, I'm not
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  worth it, I'm something wrong with me, I don't belong.
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  And so you with, you hold all that stuff inside and you don't
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  express it. So we're pretending.
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  It's another version of pretending like I'm an author.
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  I'm pretending like I'm not. But I, I wrote, I wrote some
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  books that I'm, I don't want to be an author.
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  So I have to find another way to express my writings in a way
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  that I can, you know, share them.
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  But I'm to be an author. I don't want that title.
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  I'm not even looking. I'm not.
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  I'll go check. Oh, I wrote that in my book on
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  page 46. I'm not going to be that guy.
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  My stuff is a conversation. So I appreciate that.
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  Thank you for sharing that and it and it and my thing is, let's
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  not leave it to age for those who are willing.
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  Now, everybody's not willing. Everybody's not willing to do
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  the work. Everybody's not willing to tell
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  the truth to themselves about their own life where they're
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  pretending. But you know, you look in the
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  mirror, you hear your mind talk to you about why you act like
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  that. Why you just want you to say why
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  don't you just say what that is? See this lady, she right here,
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  she got it. Hey, I'm trying to tell you 40,
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  404040 is a biblical number as well.
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  If you look at Moses and the Israelites, they walk that
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  wilderness for 40 years, a 30 day walk, 40 day walk, but they
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  walked there for 40 years. Why?
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  Why did they walk for 40 years? Why?
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  Why did they just not go to Canaan?
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  Why did they not? Do you know why my revelation?
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  Why they did it? Because clearly they still had
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  their minds in Egypt. So you imagine being 4, you have
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  400 years of generational and, and that enslaved mindset being
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  passed down for 400 years to your family, to the
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  conversation, to your culture, and then now you're free.
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  Where do you think your mind has got your mind?
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  They was like, man, Moses, why you got us out here in the
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  wilderness, man, What's wrong with you, man?
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  We could be back in Egypt eating garlic, bro.
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  Why are we out here? No, they didn't understand that
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  God was going to provide. He was providing.
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  They had miracles every day. The clothes didn't wear out, the
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  shoes didn't wear out. They have food every day.
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  But their hearts were still in Egypt.
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  And so for some of us, our hearts are still back in the
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  past of our childhood and our homes where we felt like life.
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  It was, it was terrible. Or you hear people say, oh,
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  adulting is hard. I don't want to be in the
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  adulting is hard. You hear?
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  You hear all the different versions of it, right?
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  But then what is that for you? And and then she said 40 year at
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  44. So 40 years they walked and and
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  and God was just going to destroy him just now I'm just
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  going to take him out. And Moses was like, Nah, bro,
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  you can't take him out. Can't take him out because
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  remember what you said? If you take him out, then who
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  are you going to be? He was like, all right, I got
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  OK, OK, I'm gonna leave him alone.
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  Oh, we going to let him die off. So check it.
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  So 40 years generation died off. The new generation was born in
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  the wilderness. They wasn't born in Egypt.
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  So guess what, their hearts had no idea what it was to be
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  enslaved in Egypt. And that was enough freedom to
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  be able to go and even go in the Canaan.
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  So do you, I don't know if you understand that.
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  So that that that's why that 40 for me is significant.
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  I started my journey at 40 and and 40 isn't is the spiritual is
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  the biblical of the next generation.
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  That's at 40, you'll be leaving your generation into the next
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  generation 40 years apart. And so that is very significant.
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  And if you understand that, and however you use those passages
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  to unravel to get your, because a lot of us a lot of parables in
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  there, you got to catch some in the spirit.
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  Your, your mind ain't going to understand that.
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  But for some people, we still live in the past and and we're
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  complaining about the past and how we grew up and all these
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  things. But guess what?
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  At some point, as she said, with age, we pray that your mind
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  clicks and like, wait a minute. And that's what mine did at 39.
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  Mine was like, man, there's got to be something better than
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  this. I'm, I'm, I'm in suicide
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  ideation, I'm depressed, I'm dark, I'm ready to get out of
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  here. I don't care about my life is
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  over. And I heard this little blink
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  that said, Yep, there's got to be something better than this.
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  And I heard it. I heard my, I heard that voice
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  in my head. And here at 40, almost turning
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  41. That the journey began.
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  So I'm saying this, not leave it to time.
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  That's all I'm saying. Let's not leave it to time.
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  We can teach these conversations.
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  There's curriculums, there's conversations we have for my
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  veteran brothers and sisters out here, a lot of us are dealing
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  with what's next, that transition and change.
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  For some of us, like myself, I was an emotional child.
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  So transition and change for me was emotional.
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  And when I look at my brothers and sisters, I look at my life,
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  even in my transition out of the military, it was like I said, it
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  was over. It was over.
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  What's next? And so sometimes we have to help
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  one another figure out what's next.
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  Sometimes you got to be able to step back and like, OK, I'm not.
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  That's not my identity today. Sometimes you got to be OK with
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  that. But who does one have to become?
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  That's not what it's not what you got to do is who you got to
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  be. And that's my conversation.
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  We talk about who you get to be first because you could do it
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  upset and frustrated and angry and you can do a whole bunch of
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  stuff in life, but what's your experience of that frustration?
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  But if you check your experience of life first, you find peace,
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  you find patience, you find kindness, whatever to yourself.
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  Can you imagine what it would to be kind to yourself to figure
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  out what's next? That means you would be able to
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  go and try out anything. I mean, we, we go out with the
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  hidden pioneers right now and we're telling children, you
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  could become, you could get a job at NASA at 16.
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  You could do all these jobs. There's thousands of jobs.
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  And other than being in the military and being a cop and
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  being a gangster and being an athlete, there's so many other
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  jobs out there. And none of those are right or
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  wrong, good or bad. But Can you imagine grew up in
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  an environment that says that you can't do that?
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  You got to go get this job at McDonald's.
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  We got to pay these bills. You mechanic, You can't ask.
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  We don't want no grease monkeys in our family.
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  You know how much? You know how you got much?
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  You got to be how smart you got to be to be a mechanic today.
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  Do you know? Do you know how smart you have
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  to be? It's computers now, electric
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  cars. Mechanics aren't grease monkeys
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  no more, ladies and gentlemen. They're not grease monkeys.
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  And there's still nothing wrong with a grease monkey.
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  Somebody got to fix some carburetors and them fuel
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  injectors and them change them oils.
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  So, but imagine you grew up in an environment that doesn't pull
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  for that and you learn that early on.
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  I can't do that. Oh, my mom, my dad said, I can't
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  do that. My dad said, I got to be this, I
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  got to do this. I got to be this, I got to and,
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  and now, and now we kill the child's dream off.
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  Oh, this is, it's ridiculous. So that's, that's my first, my
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  first conversation. I wanted to get off my chest
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  today. I mean, I got a whole lot more
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  over here, but I, I wanted to just start with that.
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  I'm doing a segment called becoming right.
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  And if you saw the flyer for today, it's, it's about, I
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  forgot about 8 versions of myself from 11 to I think that
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  was 5056 now. So I think that was about last
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  year, so about 5556. There's different versions of
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  myself in that and there's a lot more, but those were the main 8.
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  If I could look, those are the main 8 and and the transitions
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  and changes from those ages, right?
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  And although I'm 56, man, my heart is like 25 and my mind is
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  like 14 because I healed all those little childhood ages. 2
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  years old, five years old, six years old, eight years old, nine
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  years old, eleven. What is that 141721239090?
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  I think there's a lot that I had to go back in time and like is
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  that, is that, is that real about, is that true about me?
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  Oh, no, that's not true. Can you imagine going to an 11
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  year old and, and, and the challenge is being able to tell
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  the truth to yourself that you made-up that story.
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  That's that's, that's, that's a huge part that you made-up that
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  story because now you got to go back and you got to might have
• 24:34
  to retract some of those, those words.
• 24:36
  You got to retract. You got to go ask for some
• 24:37
  family people members to forgiveness.
• 24:40
  You got to apologize for some stuff.
• 24:42
  You got to forgive yourself and maybe rewrite your whole past
• 24:49
  and maybe rewrite your whole past.
• 24:52
  Can you imagine? Can you imagine that?
• 24:57
  Can you not hear me? Y'all can't hear me?
• 24:59
  Somebody said they can't hear me.
• 25:01
  Am I still there? Big Drake, can you hear me?
• 25:04
  Lynn, can you hear me? Are we there?
• 25:08
  Or maybe that was her line she just dropped off.
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  So we're going to get this episode started again.
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  Thank you for tuning, listening, and thank you for the comments.
• 25:17
  For, for, for them out there. Let me see.
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  I got another one coming here. I can hear you.
• 25:23
  Oh, yes, you can hear. Yeah.
• 25:25
  So YouTube is fine. I think that was Lynn.
• 25:26
  I think she was losing signal over there.
• 25:27
  She's my one of my guests coming up.
• 25:31
  But yeah, so that's that's my that's my conversation.
• 25:34
  What does that look like for you?
• 25:35
  I'm asking. I'm asking.
• 25:39
  Sometimes we pretend to protect that identity, right?
• 25:42
  We're protecting ourselves from something.
• 25:43
  From what? What are we protecting ourselves
• 25:45
  from? We're protecting ourselves from
• 25:47
  something. What is that?
• 25:50
  Why are my guests dropping off? Where y'all going?
• 25:54
  What is that? What are you protecting yourself
• 25:55
  from? Only you know, only you know,
• 26:00
  only you know what you're protecting yourself from.
• 26:03
  I was protecting myself from being I was avoiding
• 26:06
  disappointment. I was avoiding disappointment
• 26:11
  and being disappointed. And then I was still
• 26:13
  disappointed and still disappointing people.
• 26:16
  And that's what they even with today's conversation, I was
• 26:18
  like, Dang, I looked at myself, I looked around the house and
• 26:22
  I'm like, I'm, I'm still in the space of avoiding
• 26:24
  disappointment. Still for Ron, even today,
• 26:28
  October 7th, I, I'm still, I mean, I just discovered a few
• 26:32
  weeks ago. So, you know, now I got to, I
• 26:34
  got to take the deep breath and like, OK, how does it feel not
• 26:38
  to be experienced being disappointed when you've grown
• 26:41
  up for 54 years of your life living, avoiding disappointment,
• 26:45
  still disappointing people and still being disappointed.
• 26:49
  So what are we pretending? Right?
• 26:51
  So I'm asking you to examine yourself, if you're willing,
• 26:56
  tell the truth of where you're pretending, where you got ice
• 26:59
  cream in the front and you got guns and drugs in the back.
• 27:02
  That's what we call right of the racket.
• 27:05
  All right, so I'm going to let that go.
• 27:07
  It's almost at the bottom of the hour.
• 27:08
  So I'm going to play another PSA come back.
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  how we have these time and changes every day in life.
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  We have a what do you call it a guaba.
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  What do you call it? A guaba?
• 30:29
  Love that God has and. Agape, yeah.
• 30:32
  Agape love and you have, I call it ludicrous love, that fake
• 30:39
  love that they got something going on, but what?
• 30:45
  God give us sincerity, and if you don't love yourself, how you
• 30:48
  going to love anybody else? You know, you know.
• 30:51
  And we and we do love ourselves. We do love ourselves, but do we
• 30:55
  measure it? Because, because there's a point
• 30:57
  sometimes I'm like, I don't love myself today.
• 30:58
  But you can't when you, when you discover that you won't say that
• 31:01
  no more. I love myself at least 50% of
• 31:03
  the time. So at least I could, I could
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  give you 50% love if I'm going to give myself 50%.
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  So I appreciate you for that it. Ain't going to work at all, you
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  know, That's why I love thinking about it.
• 31:12
  But you know, God is good all the time, man.
• 31:15
  But we're only on a good note, man.
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  We're here to promote Mr. Jeff Davis Promotions November 7th
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  We got Brandon and Cannon from Cannon Nation.
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  He's a big man. He fought Sugar Shane Junior.
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  He won. You know the show that the
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• 32:02
  that show. Yeah, he won that.
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  Brandon did. He had a fight by the name of
• 32:05
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  Eduardo Diaz, LAPD, Boxing Day, he's going to be on the card,
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  jeff@jeffdavismotion.com. Or it's going to be a great
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  night of boxing. What great day.
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  Stores open at 3:00. I think the main event will be
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  starting about 7:00. But it's going to be Thunder
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  And she is on Tuesday nights for a box, you know, bags and
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  canvas. Sick on it.
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  Getting close to the fight and getting closer.
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  Yeah, yeah. Thank you.
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  Thank you. Oh yeah, I'm looking forward to
• 33:51
  that one. The got degree getting the crew
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  together. Ask Ilia.
• 33:55
  Well, yeah, we had a mutual compadre because ask Ilia is it
• 33:59
  knows your your your partner from from years ago.
• 34:03
  She. Is she?
• 34:06
  Was she a fighter? No, Ilya is a guy.
• 34:09
  Ilya knows. He knows.
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  He knows. Jeff, Jeff, Dan.
• 34:14
  Yeah, they go back Carson days he was talking about.
• 34:17
  Oh, yeah, yeah. Jeff, Dan the the, the good man,
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  very, very strong minded brother.
• 34:22
  Leave her like myself. Once you get things done and he
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  gets them done in a timely manner, it's going to be a great
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  boxing experience behind him adjusting the back, back of the
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  his own promotions. You got to come check him out.
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  Got to get it. You got to get it.
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  or purple that day. You get 10% off of Domestic
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  Violence and Breast Cancer Awareness Month, which is this
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  month. I want to do a segment with you
• 34:53
  next week and bring on 2 survivors of domestic violence
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  on next week if possible. They're also part of my
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  Archangels all female elite bodyguard team which I am doing
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  a new team next year. I'm starting to recruit women
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  now getting ready to go to my new school Step back please
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  Academy that starting next year 2027.
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  So if anybody wants to come out and learn the best tier of being
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  a legit security expert, come talk to me.
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  So they're teaching them how to be real security experts.
• 35:37
  You've got I, have I? Have someone here, I got someone
• 35:41
  in a in a in a in a room waiting room for you.
• 35:43
  You want to bring her up? Oh yeah, bring up.
• 35:45
  Please, please bring her. Pull back together.
• 35:50
  Hello out there, Hello out. There.
• 35:54
  Hello, how you doing? What's?
• 35:55
  Up. What's up?
• 35:56
  I'm doing good. Wonderful.
• 35:58
  I hear, I, I hear, I echo. I hear myself in the background.
• 36:01
  In the background. OK, hold on.
• 36:04
  Let me try to tell you, suck her off.
• 36:05
  She has won $20,000. You'll realize that she can't
• 36:07
  hear. It's Echo.
• 36:11
  How did you work please? I can hear you.
• 36:14
  Perfect. There it goes.
• 36:15
  It's good. Moore how you doing?
• 36:17
  Long time no see. We can hear you.
• 36:23
  OK, wonderful. How you doing today for Ron?
• 36:25
  I'm doing great. Nice to meet you well.
• 36:27
  Thanks to Dee for inviting me to this.
• 36:31
  I never knew this existed. This is so awesome, thank you.
• 36:34
  Thank you. Thank you.
• 36:36
  So tell me about who you are, girl.
• 36:37
  Who you are, what you all about? I just wanted to introduce
• 36:40
  myself. I'm Alex Moore.
• 36:41
  I'm with the Veterans Legacy Center in California, but I
• 36:45
  actually live, I actually live in Dallas, TX.
• 36:49
  My brother Daniel Moore is in California.
• 36:53
  Who can help? He's there to help veterans
• 36:57
  secure their legacies, to just record them, do their pre needs,
• 37:02
  get them into the National Cemetery and then take care of
• 37:06
  the needs afterwards as well. Because a lot of veterans don't
• 37:10
  know their, you know, exactly what they're due.
• 37:14
  So we're here to help them to to show them what the VA covers and
• 37:19
  what the VA does not cover and to help them, you know, to
• 37:23
  cover. We're going to cover what the VA
• 37:25
  doesn't cover, but we're going to get them all set up so that
• 37:29
  when the time comes, they're all prepared.
• 37:32
  So that's what we do. That's beautiful.
• 37:39
  My question to you about that part of it, as veterans, you
• 37:43
  know, we're guarded, we're protected, right?
• 37:45
  We, we, we don't, we, we, we have some of us have top secret
• 37:48
  clearances. And so that transitions over
• 37:51
  into our life. How, how does your, your
• 37:53
  organization build the relationship?
• 37:55
  And I don't, I don't even want to use trust because confidence,
• 38:00
  like how do you build the confidence for that person that
• 38:02
  even want to talk to you about their life and that that day
• 38:06
  that's going to happen to all of us at some point?
• 38:09
  Well, you know. It's not only a veteran thing,
• 38:12
  it's a life thing. No one trust people with that
• 38:16
  information. But I really think it's just
• 38:18
  the, it's just, it's just the getting to know people and
• 38:23
  letting them see that we are real, that we do have their best
• 38:26
  interest at heart. We're going to show them
• 38:29
  basically, you know what just it's, it's basic information as
• 38:33
  far as what's covered and what's not covered.
• 38:36
  So it's really just a simple, it's a simple act.
• 38:39
  And all they have to do is be willing to hear.
• 38:42
  Wow, there we go into. It but but it's really.
• 38:45
  Tough to get to them and get through them.
• 38:49
  My brother does it. He's, I'm kind of new into it.
• 38:53
  I'm just starting down here in Texas, but he's like a beast in
• 38:57
  California and he's been doing this for about 8 or 9 years now.
• 39:01
  So he's very, very good at what he does.
• 39:05
  I told him to get on. I'm like Oh my God, I don't know
• 39:08
  what to do but. I had to get on.
• 39:10
  Just to represent to let the. Veterans.
• 39:12
  Know that they do have someone that they can trust with their
• 39:18
  final wishes, you know, and, and, and I'm a life insurance
• 39:22
  agent. I'm a life insurance, a licensed
• 39:24
  agent. So, you know, I go and talk to
• 39:27
  many people about this and they don't want to hear it.
• 39:30
  But you know, if the veteran wants to hear it wants to, you
• 39:35
  know, if they want to get help if they don't have everything
• 39:38
  together or if even if they think they don't have an
• 39:41
  everything together, that's where that that's what we're
• 39:44
  here for, to help them to prepare for that moment because
• 39:49
  it's, you know, it's going to happen.
• 39:50
  So I'm not, you know, a major, you know, I don't have all the
• 39:56
  verbiage, but I know that when I meet people, I just let them see
• 40:00
  the genuineness of me and they'll get to trust me.
• 40:05
  And especially being licensed insurance agents, you know, we
• 40:08
  are, you know, we're trusted by the government and, you know, so
• 40:12
  not the government, but the States and, and the commissions.
• 40:17
  You know. So yeah.
• 40:19
  So we are. Righteous people, we are not
• 40:22
  scammers or anything like that. So if a veteran does not have
• 40:25
  their pre needs like a lot of them haven't, they haven't
• 40:28
  filled out their DD214. A lot of them haven't done that.
• 40:32
  So we do. We walk through all of the every
• 40:35
  single thing with them and we take care of that and then we
• 40:39
  will take care of the things that they need that the VA does
• 40:43
  not cover. Sure.
• 40:46
  I appreciate that, you know, again.
• 40:47
  It's, it's important. I'm, I'm thinking as, as you
• 40:49
  talk, you know, we're, I know in my generation, where I was at,
• 40:53
  we were trained that we're not the civilians don't understand
• 40:56
  you. So when you, when you, when you
• 40:58
  taught that at 19 years old and you grew up and I, I spent 24
• 41:02
  years in the military and that was drilled in us that civilians
• 41:05
  will not understand you. It's, it's that transition comes
• 41:08
  out like, oh, I suppose you're a civilian, how you don't even
• 41:11
  know what I went through. And so there's, there's these
• 41:13
  gaps, right? And they're not just military
• 41:16
  guests, but this is a human being flaw, right?
• 41:18
  It's a human being flaw. But for some of us, we're
• 41:21
  trained, we're taught that that you're, you're not going to
• 41:24
  understand me. And So what I had to do was for
• 41:26
  myself was go back and look at my own.
• 41:28
  So like, well, I don't understand for on.
• 41:30
  So then why can I put the pressure on you don't understand
• 41:32
  what? I don't understand me.
• 41:33
  So the relatedness. And that's why I asked you, how
• 41:35
  do we have these conversations where it's a relatedness so that
• 41:39
  person can then become willing to like, you know what?
• 41:41
  OK, I, I do have concerns about my life and, and these documents
• 41:45
  and, and I have the confidence in you to give you the
• 41:48
  opportunity as a civilian, right?
• 41:50
  As someone who's not military connected to help me.
• 41:53
  It's a it's a lot that goes with that.
• 41:56
  OK, you know my. Brother, he was in the military
• 42:00
  and that's probably why he messed really well.
• 42:03
  Oh yeah? Well then, no.
• 42:04
  Yeah, yeah, yeah. But his sister?
• 42:07
  I'm a military sister, so. You so you can you right there.
• 42:11
  You right there. So you right there you.
• 42:14
  You you dropped that that I'm. A military sister.
• 42:16
  Then we got, we got some compassion for you because we
• 42:18
  did. We know, you know.
• 42:19
  So let us know how we can find. Let us know.
• 42:21
  How you find that? I know.
• 42:23
  Some of that life indeed. So I didn't know that you guys
• 42:27
  didn't were wasn't that you guys didn't trust civilians.
• 42:31
  I didn't know understand the word.
• 42:33
  We're taught not trust, but what it not understanding could lead
• 42:37
  to mistrust. That right.
• 42:38
  There's a lot that could come with that depend on the person,
• 42:40
  but it's it's it's taught that that you're not going to
• 42:43
  understand me. I'll tell you what you're going.
• 42:47
  To do that. And you know.
• 42:48
  I'll be going. Down.
• 42:49
  I'll be going hard down here hanging out at the VA hospitals.
• 42:53
  They going to trust me because I'm a travel worthy.
• 42:55
  Person they going? To hear what I got to say, if
• 42:58
  they want to hear what you. Do I don't think it's hard for.
• 43:02
  Me to build up trust with people because I'm just that type of
• 43:06
  person but you know, the main thing is just getting someone
• 43:10
  who understands your needs and then understands what you need
• 43:15
  so exactly so. Thank you.
• 43:17
  Thank you for that. Yeah.
• 43:20
  So I'm. Here for that, but I really
• 43:22
  appreciate you allowing. Me on your platform that's.
• 43:26
  That's really awesome. And and if you like more
• 43:28
  information, how can I get you more information?
• 43:32
  Big Dre we, we. Connected so once we're done
• 43:34
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• 43:37
  can. Let the audience know.
• 43:38
  Right now you're live. Yeah, you're live.
• 43:40
  Right now, you're live. So you can let them know where
• 43:42
  you at, how you going to tell, I'll reach you and everything.
• 43:43
  Else if any of you guys want to check out the website please
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  You I lost your vocals. Lost your vocals?
• 43:56
  Lost your vocals? Yeah, now it's going out.
• 44:00
  It's a little staticky. Yeah, Staticky.
• 44:03
  Oh. There we go.
• 44:07
  Yeah, but if you had a bad area, which you probably had a bad
• 44:10
  area. Yeah, What I was saying what we
• 44:14
  need to do is basically let her let them know what the whole
• 44:18
  mainstay was understanding because I I found out much a lot
• 44:22
  of a lot of vets they my uncle he he he fought.
• 44:26
  Nah, he had never filled the DD24 change out.
• 44:28
  He just he just I'm gonna die. I'm gonna kill him when I kill
• 44:32
  myself nephew each other every other day.
• 44:34
  I said you would have did it. You'd have did it 20 years ago.
• 44:36
  You're 80 years old. You ain't doing that.
• 44:39
  You're just talking about you just site going bad and they
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  going blind. Probably.
• 44:47
  Like I said, it's called getting old.
• 44:49
  You get a hold, you lose your sight.
• 44:51
  Welcome to the jungle. Yeah, it was the jungle.
• 44:54
  Brother, so you know it's not it is man.
• 44:56
  But thank you. Thank you man on on this man for
• 44:58
  showing for sure man. I appreciate you.
• 45:00
  I'll send you all the information right now.
• 45:02
  All right, man. Thank you for your time today,
• 45:03
  Big Dre. All right.
• 45:05
  Bless us, man. All right, talk to you soon.
• 45:07
  All righty. All right, this is the front
• 45:09
  door to show you shows your show the military broadcast radio NB
• 45:13
  radio dot US All right, PSA coming back I got Lynn up next
• 45:17
  we going to talk to her. She was here last week on the
• 45:21
  episode and she said some things in her conversation that I want
• 45:27
  to unravel in some more depth. So I invited her to come back
• 45:31
  today. So she's going to be here
• 45:32
  sharing her story and some experiences.
• 45:35
  We call it the aspects of sickle cell trade, quality of life
• 45:38
  versus a cure. But also I wanted her to be a
• 45:41
  part of the becoming conversation today that we're
• 45:44
  having right. So I'm going to put this PSA
• 45:46
  come back. This is the front Dozy show NB
• 45:49
  radio dot US. Did you?
• 46:08
  See. The game last night.
• 46:10
  But did you? See the shot?
• 46:12
  I lost money. From that.
• 46:13
  Oh man, the shot was old man, but it was good.
• 46:15
  Yeah. What's the note?
• 46:24
  You really want to know. I do.
• 46:30
  Exhaustion Muscle. Spasm.
• 46:32
  Asthmatic issues? Are you serious?
• 46:38
  When I was young, I found. Out I had sickle cell trait, my
• 46:41
  mom's told me, but I didn't have no knowledge of it.
• 46:44
  But when I got older I had a child and the doctor told me my
• 46:46
  daughter had sickle cell trait. You know, the fact that both
• 46:49
  parents have sickle cell trait, there's a 50% chance the child
• 46:52
  may have the trait and 25% chance the child may have the
• 46:55
  disease. Man, that's what's the count do.
• 46:57
  You. Know that 2.5 million people in
• 46:59
  the United States have sickle cell trait, 300 million people
• 47:01
  globally. I didn't find out I had sickle
• 47:03
  cell trait until I was in the army 10 years.
• 47:06
  Make sure you know I had a sickle cell trait of nursery
• 47:08
  site A sickle cell. I.
• 47:10
  Thought that was a. Black.
• 47:11
  Gene or. Something Nah man, the black
• 47:13
  community is number 2. One out of 30. 6000 babies.
• 47:16
  Are being born with sickle cell disease.
• 47:17
  You could be a Caucasian Mediterranean European.
• 47:20
  You got rid of a bloodline, man. There is an inherited gene in
• 47:25
  our. Community that has been
• 47:27
  forgotten. The name is Sickle Cell Trade.
• 47:29
  WDCONSCT, also known as What's the Count, is out to bring
• 47:34
  awareness, education and prevention to people all over
• 47:37
  the globe. Want more information?
• 47:40
  Call us now at 323-215-5384 or visit www.wdconsct.org.
• 47:53
  I almost brought that Mister red, white and blue back on
• 47:55
  y'all, but I'm going to let it slide right now.
• 47:57
  I'm a lie. I'm not going to play that
• 47:58
  video. WDCONST t.org For more
• 48:02
  information about sickle cell trait.
• 48:04
  And my guest today is Lynn. She's back to have a
• 48:08
  conversation with me. What's up Lynn, how you doing?
• 48:15
  Can you hear me? Hey, how are you?
• 48:17
  What's happening? I can hear.
• 48:18
  You it's calling in and out. But I can't OK come.
• 48:21
  On hanging in here, surviving. In this heat, man, it's fine to
• 48:25
  survive in the heat, hey? I don't know what it is.
• 48:28
  We we don't. We don't get you.
• 48:30
  We don't. I don't.
• 48:31
  Do we ever get used to the heat? I don't think so.
• 48:37
  So how you doing? You You Never.
• 48:38
  The East. I know.
• 48:39
  I'm from the East Coast, but this is not the kind of heat
• 48:42
  that how cool we normally have. Oh yeah.
• 48:47
  Yeah. All right.
• 48:48
  So. Thank you.
• 48:50
  Thank you for. Accepting the invitation to come
• 48:52
  and hang out today. I really appreciate that.
• 48:55
  Sure, definitely I was. Excited.
• 48:57
  I was like, oh, Part 2. Yeah, part. 2 Still balling.
• 49:02
  So, you know, you said some things on the last episode and I
• 49:06
  wanted to just kind of go back and just peel some of those
• 49:10
  layers off. Introduce yourself.
• 49:14
  How about introduce yourself 1st and then we'll get started.
• 49:16
  How's that? All right, I'm Lynn.
• 49:21
  Well, Madeline and I'm Mickey. I go by Lynn.
• 49:25
  I'm a super cell advocate, cancer survivor, mentor, tutor,
• 49:32
  teacher slash slash slash. I'm originally from Maryland,
• 49:40
  Davisburg, Maryland. I moved to California in 2010
• 49:44
  and I've been advocating since then, teaching and I'm also an
• 49:52
  artist. Graphic design?
• 49:53
  What design now Animation. Thank.
• 49:57
  You thank you. And again we we've been
• 49:58
  connected for for many years. I want to say early, early on,
• 50:03
  am I coming into the sickle cell break community and then
• 50:06
  connecting with the sickle cell community?
• 50:09
  But do you like this whole becoming thing for me, right?
• 50:13
  And, and, and I want our community, especially our sickle
• 50:17
  cell community that we know that we're more than just those
• 50:23
  genes, right? Those inherited genes, right?
• 50:25
  We know that there were more than genes.
• 50:28
  But for some people, you can hear in their conversation that
• 50:33
  the sickle cell is like, like I said, outside force, right?
• 50:39
  It's inherited. So it's, it's a part of us, you
• 50:42
  know, my sickle cell trait, I mean, we live with that.
• 50:44
  I mean, it's in our DNA, right? But sometimes you, we hear, I
• 50:48
  hear people describe it as an outside force, right?
• 50:52
  And if it's an outside force, then that means I'm battling
• 50:55
  with my sickle cell trait outside of myself, which then in
• 51:00
  it impacts as you're saying, you're a teacher, you're a
• 51:03
  mentor, you, you like you're, you're doing these things, but
• 51:06
  you be if you become those things, right?
• 51:09
  And so how do you let's go back to your childhood with the
• 51:13
  sickle cell. Let's, let's, let's go there
• 51:15
  first, right? So you growing up with sickle
• 51:18
  cell, young young girl, what was that like for you and your peer
• 51:24
  age, right, having to be living with sickle cell And then you.
• 51:29
  Know well I was going to say when I was younger there was a
• 51:38
  eight-year span where I still had the pedal hemoglobin helping
• 51:42
  me so I didn't have as many Pisces as I am now.
• 51:46
  It extended for like a 10 year gap.
• 51:49
  So when I was in my teens, preteen and well as a baby, I
• 51:54
  suffered. But in my teens nothing
• 51:58
  happened. I lived in my opinion, which was
• 52:01
  ordinary life like I was able to play sports, I was able to do
• 52:04
  after school activities, I played basketball, I played
• 52:09
  soccer, I played football. So I was living an active life
• 52:14
  during that time. But I still had to be aware of
• 52:18
  the fact that I had simple stuff and during the winter time I
• 52:24
  had, it came more to play because it would get extremely
• 52:28
  cold back home and I remember I got invited to play.
• 52:35
  Touch flag. Football and my mom was like,
• 52:38
  she wasn't having it. She was like, no, it's too cold.
• 52:40
  I don't want you to get sick. So going against the grain and
• 52:45
  kind of, you know, become this athlete.
• 52:48
  I put on like 16 sweatshirts and I was like, I'm playing.
• 52:52
  And my best friend at the time, he was like, you know, you're so
• 52:55
  fast, we're going to call you tornado.
• 52:57
  So when I called Tornado, that's when you just think about you
• 53:00
  won. I was so excited to play that I
• 53:05
  was like, I gotta go. My best friend and I, you know,
• 53:08
  decided that we leave the house early and say that we've got to
• 53:11
  spend the night at her house. And it was the thing, but I
• 53:16
  ended up playing it again and I was so excited.
• 53:19
  I was so happy that I actually did it.
• 53:23
  I didn't think about the long term effects of it, but.
• 53:26
  You know, I eventually told. My mom, but well, let me let.
• 53:29
  Me, let me let me back up a little bit.
• 53:30
  Highlight for me. But let me back up a little bit.
• 53:34
  Because you said something I want people to understand in
• 53:36
  this whole sickle cell as we advocate and educate and bring
• 53:39
  awareness, Right? So you, you, you, your s s.
• 53:42
  You have s s, right? Your s s.
• 53:46
  I have s s. Yeah.
• 53:48
  OK. So, so so I want.
• 53:49
  People to understand she has two sickle cell trait genes, right?
• 53:54
  Combined creates sickle cell anemia s s.
• 53:58
  But she mentioned that she had a level of hemoglobin F, the fetal
• 54:03
  hemoglobin that helped her in her crisis.
• 54:06
  And So what that does people, if you're not familiar with the red
• 54:09
  blood cell family, for some people that fetal hemoglobin is,
• 54:14
  is at, at at birth, maybe a year or two.
• 54:19
  It lasts for for most people and then it translates it, it dies
• 54:23
  off and then becomes your normal adult hemoglobin.
• 54:27
  Some people do maintain a level of fetal hemoglobin right, which
• 54:32
  is good. Red blood cells.
• 54:35
  They're they're producing. I mean, they're the those are
• 54:37
  the best, the amazing ones, right?
• 54:38
  They're the amazing red blood cell that he and so Can you
• 54:41
  imagine, you know her growing up with sickle cell assess and she
• 54:45
  has two genes that can mutate at any time and then she has a
• 54:49
  fetal hemoglobin that's a high percentage.
• 54:52
  So when she does have that crisis because of the fetal
• 54:55
  hemoglobin, not crisis is actually providing support in
• 55:00
  her blood cells. It reduces crisis in the body.
• 55:05
  And, and, and so I don't know if people really understand that,
• 55:07
  that that's why a hydroxyria is important for that was it was a
• 55:10
  cancer medication, but they use it for sickle cell because the
• 55:14
  hydroxyurea it raises the fetal hemoglobin in the body, right?
• 55:20
  So, but some people have natural fetal hemoglobin that produces
• 55:25
  even in their adult age. And so I do know some people
• 55:27
  that still have a high level, I don't know if it's like maybe
• 55:29
  3-4 percent that have a high level of field hemoglobin.
• 55:33
  So their crisis seem of seem milder on the outside, right.
• 55:37
  But the body is still dealing with the organs.
• 55:39
  And I know the pain crisis, things like that.
• 55:41
  But yeah, I wanted to touch on that because I'm not I'm not
• 55:43
  sure if people heard that, that that gave you that assistance in
• 55:48
  your blood. You said for your teenage,
• 55:50
  pretty much your teenage years. Yeah, that's cool.
• 55:55
  Yeah. So, so did you ever talk about
• 55:58
  to your friends that you had sickle cell?
• 56:00
  Did you, did you, was that an open dialogue for you or did you
• 56:02
  not talk about the only person that?
• 56:06
  Knew was my best friend from high school, my best friend.
• 56:10
  I got to my sister. Hope that's the only person that
• 56:14
  was posted up in my life that I felt like I needed to express
• 56:17
  this to. Most of the people that I went
• 56:21
  to school with because of the fact that I was in my attendance
• 56:25
  was up and down. Unless we were really, really
• 56:28
  close, I didn't share my sickle cell.
• 56:34
  I didn't share the fact that I had sickle.
• 56:35
  Cell anemia. So I got a little older and went
• 56:37
  to the reunions or communicated with some of my friends back
• 56:41
  from home or in college that I, I kind of started talking more
• 56:46
  about it, but it took me some years to kind of, you're like,
• 56:50
  OK, well, I need to now tell people about this as opposed to
• 56:53
  them just saying or hearing I'm in the hospital or I'm sick or I
• 56:57
  can't come because of whatever the case may be, right?
• 57:01
  And, and, and so did did you, how did you manage that?
• 57:04
  How did you manage that though? Because now you're like, people
• 57:07
  don't know that you are having these crises and then then they
• 57:11
  see you one day and then they might not see you for two weeks
• 57:13
  and then they see you pop up again.
• 57:15
  So, I mean, how did you deal with that, not expressing that?
• 57:20
  I know there was something going on in your own mind, right?
• 57:24
  Yeah. When I was younger, I.
• 57:26
  Used to, I used to see it as a bad thing.
• 57:30
  I used to be like, why would God curse me with this?
• 57:34
  Like what did I do so wrong to deserve to have civil fail?
• 57:37
  Because I have two older sisters and neither of them have it.
• 57:42
  Not the trait, not any trace of it whatsoever.
• 57:45
  And it was like, there's three of us and I'm the I'm the lucky
• 57:48
  winner. So at that time, I was just
• 57:51
  thinking like, why me, you know? But as I got older and I started
• 57:56
  going to school and just learning more about myself and
• 57:59
  the things that I actually enjoyed doing, I said this could
• 58:02
  be seen as my superpower as opposed to it being a purse or
• 58:08
  something that looked at upon as bad.
• 58:12
  And I don't like the word disease, so I try.
• 58:16
  To use the word. Ailment or ailment because
• 58:19
  diseases. Consider this ease of the body.
• 58:26
  So you're not comfortable in your?
• 58:27
  Body and that's your body's reaction to whatever the illness
• 58:30
  may be so learning and just going to counseling and just
• 58:37
  retraining my brain to think of it in the terms of this is
• 58:41
  something that I've that is a part of my life, but I don't let
• 58:45
  it control my life so being aware of it and making sure I'm
• 58:50
  I'm. Taking care of myself.
• 58:53
  No matter what's going on health wise, I get lots of water,
• 58:57
  getting enough rest, not over exerting myself, but also being
• 59:02
  mindful that you know, life still has to happen.
• 59:05
  Whether you're in the hospital or you're out the hospital, life
• 59:07
  still goes on and that. Took me a long.
• 59:11
  Time to kind of get used to because like I said, that 10
• 59:14
  years span, nothing happened. So in my mind I'm like oh, I'm
• 59:19
  OK. And then transfer transition to
• 59:23
  a year age of like 20/19/20. That's when things started to
• 59:29
  change for me. I started to have to be more in
• 59:33
  the hospital. I started missing more school,
• 59:37
  there was like years where I ended up having to do
• 59:40
  homeschooling because my grades suffered so bad as a result, and
• 59:45
  then this year I was supposed to graduate.
• 59:49
  I ended up having my gallbladder erupted.
• 59:53
  Oh wow. I had gallstones.
• 59:57
  And it turned my whole face and body green and.
• 1:00:01
  My grandmother was still alive at the time, and she was like,
• 1:00:04
  you know, she's the proponent of eating at home and a healthy
• 1:00:08
  lifestyle. So she was just like, you know,
• 1:00:10
  you're eating outside and there's raw food and that's what
• 1:00:13
  got you sick because I was vomiting profusely.
• 1:00:16
  And she's not knowing, no, not realizing that it's because of
• 1:00:20
  the situation. She's thinking, I'm just not
• 1:00:23
  eating. I'm eating poorly.
• 1:00:26
  So she's like, you know, it's the whole food.
• 1:00:27
  It's the whole food. And I was like, go to this.
• 1:00:29
  It's not the Whole Foods this time.
• 1:00:31
  It's not, I promise you. And I ended up in the hospital
• 1:00:35
  and I had to have my gallbladder removed.
• 1:00:37
  And then that kind of just was a wake up call.
• 1:00:41
  I was like, I have to now change everything because of this
• 1:00:46
  illness. Like, I was hospitalized from
• 1:00:48
  months on. Then I literally lived in the
• 1:00:50
  hospital during that time. Yeah.
• 1:00:52
  Wow. And then again, thank you for
• 1:00:55
  for, for sharing that. And and again, you, you said
• 1:00:59
  something for me that I want to touch on for our not just people
• 1:01:03
  who are listening, but our community and, and from your
• 1:01:06
  only experience. But we don't, we don't
• 1:01:08
  generalize conversations. So we like to share our own from
• 1:01:10
  home space, but our lived experience can help other people
• 1:01:13
  look in their life right based of how we talk and how we share
• 1:01:17
  our personal experiences, I think.
• 1:01:21
  About. At the conference, the Sickle
• 1:01:23
  Soul conference I was at a couple of months ago, and I
• 1:01:27
  posed the question to the community about Can you imagine
• 1:01:30
  what it feels like for a child to feel like they're a burden on
• 1:01:32
  the family, right? And you saying that I'm, I'm,
• 1:01:37
  I'm one of three sisters. Nobody else has it.
• 1:01:40
  It could be a curse or it could be a superpower and depends on
• 1:01:43
  what that child lands on in that moment at that young mind at
• 1:01:47
  that young age. It could be the curse that they
• 1:01:49
  land on and then how the emotional state of the person
• 1:01:53
  grows up thinking that it's the curse or, or thinking it's a
• 1:01:57
  superpower, right. So can you speak to any of that
• 1:02:00
  part of that experience of was it a burden?
• 1:02:04
  Was it was like how did you language it for yourself?
• 1:02:07
  Well. When I was younger, I was very
• 1:02:14
  quiet and I kind of stuck to myself.
• 1:02:17
  I only had a few friends that I really communicated with, and
• 1:02:21
  the ones that I did communicate with, they were not fully aware,
• 1:02:26
  but they were like the ones that were invited for birthdays and
• 1:02:28
  stuff, or I was allowed to go to their house.
• 1:02:31
  My mom was very particular about me going out to people's houses
• 1:02:36
  or spending the night out because of my situation.
• 1:02:39
  So in that regard, I was very, what's the word?
• 1:02:43
  I can't think. Of the word I was very.
• 1:02:46
  Throws off innocent. OK.
• 1:02:49
  Yeah. And.
• 1:02:51
  At that age I was kind of like I felt a way about it because I
• 1:02:54
  was just like, you know, I'm 16 trying to celebrate my birthday
• 1:02:59
  and I have to stay at home because I'm being home schooled.
• 1:03:03
  So the birthday celebration was more so just me and my best
• 1:03:06
  friend Hope at my house would take.
• 1:03:08
  It was never like, oh, a huge party or whatever because I
• 1:03:12
  would always get so excited about having his birthday party
• 1:03:15
  or end up right back in the hospital.
• 1:03:17
  Yeah, yeah. Wow.
• 1:03:20
  And so that that transition, you clearly, clearly you you were
• 1:03:25
  able to start expressing with the superpower.
• 1:03:27
  You know, that superpower moment kicked in and you're like, OK,
• 1:03:31
  let me deal with this. And, and again, carrying that
• 1:03:34
  into your teens that I'm kind of pretty cool with this.
• 1:03:38
  And then the transition of the crisis start to happen.
• 1:03:42
  How did, how did you deal with that part of life?
• 1:03:44
  Now that, I mean, you're, you're 1920 years old now.
• 1:03:47
  You're you're, you're in an adult life phase transition.
• 1:03:54
  How you deal with? Because I wanted so I.
• 1:03:59
  Had so many dreams and apparitions of doing so many
• 1:04:02
  things and it honestly, if it wasn't for my mother, my sisters
• 1:04:07
  and my best friend, I don't even think I would have made it out
• 1:04:10
  of high school to be honest My. Sister, basically.
• 1:04:15
  Sat me down and was like, you know.
• 1:04:18
  It's up to you what you. Become if you truly want to do.
• 1:04:22
  This you have to. Be the one that's the driving
• 1:04:24
  force. Because in my mom and my
• 1:04:27
  grandmother's eyes, it was like, oh, you're sickly, so you can't
• 1:04:30
  do this, this and that. And I was always like, I don't
• 1:04:33
  want to not look at it in that way.
• 1:04:34
  You know, I want to go out and see the world.
• 1:04:38
  I want to do it all. But at the same time, I have to
• 1:04:40
  be realistic because I was like, you know, I can't.
• 1:04:43
  I have to be careful when I fly because of the changing out in
• 1:04:47
  the altitude. I have to be careful when I, you
• 1:04:50
  know, go from east to West Coast because of the cold weather.
• 1:04:53
  I have to be mindful of making sure I take my medication
• 1:04:57
  wherever I go if I run out. I actually used to be a mentor
• 1:05:01
  to a couple of typical patients, and one of the issues was one of
• 1:05:05
  them ran out of their medication.
• 1:05:07
  And I was like, it's hard because when you go from state
• 1:05:09
  to state, yes, they'll take care of you in another state, but you
• 1:05:13
  will have a bill going back home.
• 1:05:15
  Yeah, yeah, yeah. So I that.
• 1:05:18
  Was also something that I had to keep in mind and then just
• 1:05:24
  thinking like long term, where do.
• 1:05:26
  I want to live because. Of this illness, I love being
• 1:05:30
  home and all but the weather it just wasn't wasn't to my liking.
• 1:05:37
  Like I. Literally was.
• 1:05:38
  In and out the hospital, back-to-back to back-to-back to
• 1:05:42
  back. Like literally it was like
• 1:05:45
  paying rent each month because I was there.
• 1:05:48
  So yeah. You know, I appreciate you again
• 1:05:53
  for. Hanging out today and.
• 1:05:55
  Yeah, thank you for hanging out. Today and sharing your story
• 1:05:59
  before I let you go, let you get out of here again, you, you have
• 1:06:05
  accomplished a lot of things right?
• 1:06:10
  And I, I want to point to that because you know.
• 1:06:14
  When I When, when, when? When I hear our community talk
• 1:06:17
  and share and it's the stumbling blocks, it's the who's going to
• 1:06:22
  hire me when I'm sick or who's, where can I get a job at?
• 1:06:25
  Because I'm, I'm probably not going to last as long or, or, or
• 1:06:29
  I want to get fired or what, whatever.
• 1:06:31
  That whatever that living, avoiding that end result of the,
• 1:06:34
  that future of uncertainty that a lot of our a lot of people
• 1:06:38
  live from without, without sickle cell either just just
• 1:06:41
  human beings. We all lived in that already,
• 1:06:44
  right? That's an already identity
• 1:06:46
  crisis, right? And then you add on a chronic
• 1:06:49
  illness or condition and then it's like, like, who's going to
• 1:06:55
  hire me, you know, and, and so can you just share a little bit
• 1:07:01
  of part of that of you said aspirations, you had dreams and
• 1:07:05
  things like that. How did you, who did you have to
• 1:07:08
  become to take that step and say, you know what, I'm going to
• 1:07:12
  go and, and be this kind of person and then do this kind of
• 1:07:15
  work regardless of how I feel. And if I do get fired, I'm just
• 1:07:19
  going to get fired or I'm, I'm going to find a job that I don't
• 1:07:21
  get fired. Like so like, I mean, because
• 1:07:23
  there's before you answer that I want to say I'm asked this
• 1:07:27
  because, you know, even as myself coming out of the
• 1:07:30
  military and again, that what's next for a lot of my brothers
• 1:07:34
  and sisters, it's like now what do I like go to, what do I do?
• 1:07:40
  Like what do I do? What do?
• 1:07:42
  I do now like. But but I'm saying before you
• 1:07:45
  figure out what are you, what are you going to do?
• 1:07:49
  We got to figure out who we're going to be and the being of the
• 1:07:52
  human being experience because if we build up our experience of
• 1:07:56
  our self, then the doing is going to be fun.
• 1:07:58
  It's we just go at it. We always just I got because I
• 1:08:00
  got the confident, I got the self love.
• 1:08:02
  I got the self-confidence in this space that I can just do
• 1:08:05
  whatever I want, right? That's what we're talking about.
• 1:08:07
  I can, I can do that because I got the self-confidence, I got
• 1:08:10
  the self worth, I got the self esteem, but in the identity
• 1:08:14
  crisis for myself that I could articulate for you, it's when
• 1:08:18
  that identity is gone, I got to create a new identity or I'm or
• 1:08:23
  I think I have to create a new identity because that that
• 1:08:26
  person is not here no more. And so and I and so for our
• 1:08:30
  community, I believe it's so important that we help have
• 1:08:34
  conversations like we're about to have right now so that people
• 1:08:37
  can maybe discover your God-given talent.
• 1:08:41
  We say it, we say our God-given talent, but we don't live from
• 1:08:46
  our God-given talent. So, yeah, what is it?
• 1:08:49
  And so you've you've accomplished a lot and I
• 1:08:51
  appreciate that. And we've talked about going to
• 1:08:53
  some colleges and doing some talks.
• 1:08:54
  Now that you're California, you're back at it.
• 1:08:57
  You know, I'm getting back at it.
• 1:08:59
  And it's like you've done a lot and you've taken on teaching and
• 1:09:03
  those careers and those choices. What do you want to say to the
• 1:09:07
  community about that space that some people might be stuck in?
• 1:09:14
  I think it's important. First of all, to just know
• 1:09:18
  yourself as your limits and the things that you want out of
• 1:09:21
  life. Really, truly working on myself
• 1:09:25
  and finding out the things that interest me and excite me was a
• 1:09:28
  huge part of becoming who I am today.
• 1:09:31
  Because a lot of the times I didn't allow myself to even try
• 1:09:36
  it because I was like, Oh well, I'll be sick anyway, so there's
• 1:09:38
  no point. So I had to get out of that,
• 1:09:41
  that thinking in itself. But once I got a hold of that
• 1:09:47
  and I started to really be passionate and take different
• 1:09:50
  classes at school, I was like, you know, I really like art
• 1:09:54
  because of the fact that it's so free and it's not limiting to
• 1:09:58
  anything. So it allows me to have the free
• 1:10:01
  time to be at home. If I am in the hospital, I could
• 1:10:04
  still do art projects. So when I did get the job to
• 1:10:07
  teach, I had to advocate for myself because I was like, I do,
• 1:10:12
  I'm a great teacher, but I have sickle cell anemia.
• 1:10:16
  So I had to make sure that I was expressing that to them.
• 1:10:19
  And in the interview process, it's like, you know, everything
• 1:10:23
  sounds great, we love you and let's start.
• 1:10:25
  But I, I have to be like, well, there's a situation interview,
• 1:10:30
  by the way. Oh, by the way.
• 1:10:38
  Right. Right.
• 1:10:40
  By the way, I can only be here, well once once a month.
• 1:10:45
  I have to take off automatically.
• 1:10:48
  There might be times where I'm off 3 to 4 weeks or 3 or 4.
• 1:10:53
  Days at a time, so I might. Only be at work two to three
• 1:10:56
  days out of the week or I can only work part time so it just
• 1:11:04
  you. Have to find what?
• 1:11:05
  Works to you, and like I said, advocating for yourself is a big
• 1:11:09
  proponent. I was lucky enough to be able to
• 1:11:14
  get jobs while in my hospital bed.
• 1:11:16
  My very first job came because the director of the, I'm sorry,
• 1:11:24
  activities director, she was like, oh, you're so positive and
• 1:11:27
  upbeat and articulate. I would love for you to come and
• 1:11:30
  speak to some of the nurses and doctors about your experience.
• 1:11:33
  And I was like, wow, I didn't say I even.
• 1:11:37
  Thought about it, yes. So I.
• 1:11:42
  Kinda. You know, it did landed in my
• 1:11:45
  lap and that way I was lucky and I thank God.
• 1:11:49
  For it. Because I didn't really have the
• 1:11:52
  whole idea of teaching. When I thought of teaching, I
• 1:11:54
  was like, yeah, it's about life and theory, but can I
• 1:11:58
  realistically do it seven days a week, 365 days a year?
• 1:12:03
  Exactly. And then at the time, oh, go
• 1:12:07
  ahead, you know, teaching, you can't always just say, oh, well,
• 1:12:12
  I want to teach art because it doesn't always work like that.
• 1:12:15
  Sometimes you have to teach art. You have to eat history.
• 1:12:17
  You have to be physical education.
• 1:12:19
  You have to. Oh, yeah, right, right.
• 1:12:24
  You ain't teaching art all day. You got to teach PE fifth
• 1:12:27
  period, by the way. Cool.
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  dot US, as it's a great support system and a great platform for
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  us veterans. All right, so, but I, I want to
• 1:14:34
  ask you these questions, not not questions, but just views of
• 1:14:39
  life, right, because we all live life from different views.
• 1:14:43
  And I, I and I had to go back and, and, and, and kind of
• 1:14:47
  revamp my whole, my whole thought process pretty much I
• 1:14:51
  had to just go back and just like my.
• 1:14:54
  Inside out care. If you guys watch Inside Out,
• 1:14:56
  I'm a huge inside out fan if you can get past.
• 1:15:00
  If you can get past the cartoon. Aspect of it and and watch it
• 1:15:04
  for for what this little girl goes through and her transitions
• 1:15:07
  in life Oh my gosh Oh my gosh you would have a better
• 1:15:12
  understanding of your own life right so I love how she had all
• 1:15:16
  those separate worlds and and every.
• 1:15:19
  Time there was a. Something that happened, each
• 1:15:20
  one got torn down and would break apart and break apart and
• 1:15:23
  tear down the friendship world and the family world and all the
• 1:15:26
  world like all the world. And then, but she rebuilds.
• 1:15:30
  Them up into this takes all those leftover pieces and she
• 1:15:33
  puts it all together. She's using the.
• 1:15:36
  Anger for the hockey and, and it's like, all makes sense,
• 1:15:39
  right? So for me, I had, I had to go
• 1:15:43
  back. I had to get a new philosophy
• 1:15:47
  right. Because my philosophy.
• 1:15:48
  Was corrupted with corrupted information, with corrupted
• 1:15:51
  stories that I made-up. So I had to take responsibility
• 1:15:53
  for my philosophy being corrupted.
• 1:15:55
  I had to get a new ideology of my ideas and how I thought from
• 1:16:00
  I had to get a new theology because because my theology was
• 1:16:04
  corrupted. It was religious.
• 1:16:06
  It was all the stuff that you hear and you see in the world
• 1:16:09
  today about religion, right? And once I once I got those
• 1:16:13
  situated, I looked at. So these are the.
• 1:16:18
  Aspects. There's there's, there's your
• 1:16:19
  spirituality, there's your mentality, right?
• 1:16:24
  There's your physical and then your emotional state.
• 1:16:27
  So I'm looking at like those four parts.
• 1:16:31
  Do you agree with any of those? And if you do, how do you, let's
• 1:16:34
  start with your emotional state. How do you or what do you use or
• 1:16:38
  how do you manage your emotional state of life when you were
• 1:16:43
  dealing with that? Well, like I.
• 1:16:47
  Said there. I'm a huge proponent for
• 1:16:50
  therapy. It's important and it's
• 1:16:53
  important our community particularly because there's so
• 1:16:57
  many stigma and so many things that go on and just.
• 1:17:02
  Being raised in. African American household that
• 1:17:06
  we just kind of brush under the rug and it's like, oh, don't
• 1:17:09
  worry about it. It'll work itself out.
• 1:17:10
  And it's that's just not real, you know, realistically, that's
• 1:17:14
  just not how it works. So I think therapy as far as
• 1:17:19
  getting to know who you are, your porch, your likes, your
• 1:17:23
  dislikes, what triggers your anger, what makes you angry,
• 1:17:28
  your passion, definitely important, he said.
• 1:17:35
  The four things like religion because of the fact that no, no,
• 1:17:39
  don't go there. Yeah, don't go there, don't go
• 1:17:42
  there. Yeah.
• 1:17:42
  Wait, wait, wait, hold on. I want.
• 1:17:44
  To I want to finish that that emotional state.
• 1:17:46
  So you're so you're saying for emotional is is definitely a
• 1:17:49
  therapy, right? So therapy for emotional state
• 1:17:53
  you got to. Find.
• 1:17:54
  You got to find. Something that you trust, that
• 1:17:56
  you believe in, that you have confidence in, in, in, in, in
• 1:17:59
  the therapy that works, right? And I appreciate that because
• 1:18:04
  my, my baby, she was, she's my baby sister.
• 1:18:07
  I mean, she a grown woman now, but she was, she's a, she's a,
• 1:18:11
  she has her own practice now, right?
• 1:18:13
  So she's, she worked for the education system, got her own
• 1:18:16
  practice, but one day on my show in 2016.
• 1:18:20
  So that means I was 46 at the time in 2016.
• 1:18:24
  And she was like, bro, I said something on the radio.
• 1:18:27
  I thought I was, I thought I was, you know, I thought I was
• 1:18:29
  saying something intelligent and, and she was like, whatever
• 1:18:34
  I said, she was like, brother, she's like, bro, you need
• 1:18:37
  cognitive behavior, right? And I was like, OK, and I took
• 1:18:43
  that. And I put.
• 1:18:43
  I put. A pen in it and put it in the
• 1:18:44
  back of my mind right and it wasn't until four years later
• 1:18:47
  that I went to the VA but I I was like hey, my sister I and I
• 1:18:52
  never forgot it like I never forgot it and I shout out to my
• 1:18:54
  baby sister Sheen I. Never forgot that seed that she
• 1:18:57
  planted. About cognitive behavior and I
• 1:19:00
  and why I needed the cognitive behavior was because the classes
• 1:19:04
  that I had been taking from 2011 until 2016, right?
• 1:19:13
  They, they taught us how to just be with your feelings and
• 1:19:16
  emotions. They taught you how to just be
• 1:19:17
  with your thoughts, right? You, we have 60,000 thoughts
• 1:19:21
  just with you can't stop your thoughts.
• 1:19:23
  You can't. You can't stop.
• 1:19:25
  Right, so so when you. Recognize your thoughts, you
• 1:19:29
  don't have to become your thoughts.
• 1:19:30
  And you could just be with the OK, that's OK.
• 1:19:33
  That, that, that we don't want that yet.
• 1:19:34
  But but I was like, there's got to be something else to the
• 1:19:36
  thoughts. Like there's got to be like,
• 1:19:38
  like, just be with them. Like, no, that's got.
• 1:19:41
  And so my sister, when she said that I caught him to be CBT, I'm
• 1:19:46
  like, OK, Oh my gosh. Connor's behavior therapy.
• 1:19:51
  Oh my gosh, Lynn, it was the icing on the cake because it it
• 1:19:58
  allowed me, it taught me to grab those thoughts and then take
• 1:20:02
  them and put them in that curriculum and then, hey, is
• 1:20:05
  that exaggerated? Is that habitual?
• 1:20:08
  Is that where is that thought coming from?
• 1:20:10
  As it no, you can't say all or none.
• 1:20:12
  What's the percentage of that? You can't you?
• 1:20:15
  I don't love. I don't love myself.
• 1:20:17
  Well, no, you can't say that. What?
• 1:20:18
  How much do you love yourself? Oh well, I love myself but.
• 1:20:22
  Yeah, right, I was. Like, Oh my God.
• 1:20:24
  So that was like, and I've done a lot.
• 1:20:28
  I've, I've been, I'm not going to say I've done a lot of work,
• 1:20:30
  but I've done a lot of work. But the CBT was like huge, huge
• 1:20:38
  because that, that's the, that's the tool that I use to unravel
• 1:20:41
  that I was abandoned by my mom. Like I use that tool, that
• 1:20:47
  practice, that education to unravel.
• 1:20:50
  Yes, so the. Thoughts So.
• 1:20:52
  You saying therapy for for the emotional state therapy for
• 1:20:54
  sure. OK, spiritual, let's go
• 1:20:59
  spiritual. How, how, how do you how do you
• 1:21:02
  what do you do? What do you use to manage your
• 1:21:04
  spirituality as a person before I go spiritual?
• 1:21:10
  Let me address what you were just saying.
• 1:21:11
  Go ahead, go ahead, go back to the.
• 1:21:13
  Emotional. Go ahead Because of having.
• 1:21:18
  Sickle cell You do sometimes get frustrated and upset and angry
• 1:21:23
  because it's. Like.
• 1:21:24
  Well, I, I, I want to do something else and I'm tired of
• 1:21:28
  doing the same thing and I'm tired of always being sick and
• 1:21:31
  I'm tired of looking out on the fun stuff.
• 1:21:33
  That's, that was my thought when I was younger.
• 1:21:35
  I was tired. I was like that.
• 1:21:37
  I was mad like, well, why can't I play basketball?
• 1:21:40
  Why can't I play football? Why can't I go to the concert?
• 1:21:44
  Why can't I go play in the snow? You know, so that anger, I
• 1:21:47
  understand it and that's why I say it's important to do therapy
• 1:21:52
  because you'll figure out what it is exactly that's fueling
• 1:21:57
  that anger. Because I was angry and I
• 1:21:59
  requested so much. That it would just explode.
• 1:22:04
  When I did, you know, get to that point, and it's something
• 1:22:08
  that I had to work on and I wasn't aware of it until I
• 1:22:11
  started talking to my friends back home.
• 1:22:13
  And they're like, you're like a whole different person in
• 1:22:15
  California. And I was like, what do you
• 1:22:18
  mean? And they're like, yeah, you're,
• 1:22:21
  you're like, oh, then now. And I was like, only then before
• 1:22:25
  they're like, no, no, maybe you were.
• 1:22:29
  You're not then. Yeah.
• 1:22:32
  So they're, they're definitely, you know.
• 1:22:33
  That is important. Therapy is top of the list.
• 1:22:38
  I'm telling I'm here to tell my brothers and sisters in arms
• 1:22:41
  therapy. Yes.
• 1:22:43
  That that frustration and that anger, the disappointment, the
• 1:22:47
  grief, the unresolved issue. Like a burden, a burden.
• 1:22:52
  Exactly, yes, exactly all that. So therapy for sure sounds like
• 1:22:56
  there's. No post.
• 1:23:00
  To burn. Yeah, that's tough.
• 1:23:04
  So especially. From the mind.
• 1:23:06
  Of a child too, right? Especially.
• 1:23:08
  Especially the mind. Of a child exactly.
• 1:23:11
  Like where do you? Who do I turn to as a child?
• 1:23:14
  Wow, that's a good one. OK, which one you want next?
• 1:23:19
  You want physical? It doesn't necessarily.
• 1:23:21
  Oh. Go ahead, we can do physical.
• 1:23:27
  No, I was going to say it's harder for children sometimes to
• 1:23:29
  express their emotion when dealing.
• 1:23:32
  With. Pain because it's like I'm in
• 1:23:34
  pain but I don't know how to voice that I'm in pain and I'm
• 1:23:36
  angry about some other stuff that happened at school.
• 1:23:38
  So it just blows up. And because I used to work with
• 1:23:42
  pre-K to 3rd grade, I would see it a lot.
• 1:23:46
  And I was like, I know it's positive.
• 1:23:48
  I used to be that kid. And then I.
• 1:23:51
  Also work with at. Risk you too.
• 1:23:53
  So I understood them more, you know?
• 1:23:56
  Yeah. Because I was like, I did.
• 1:23:58
  Why you're mad I did. What happened?
• 1:24:00
  I get. I get.
• 1:24:03
  What's leading? You to not want to come to class
• 1:24:06
  or feel like because I, I had a kid tell me straight up like I
• 1:24:10
  can make more on the corner doing what I'm doing.
• 1:24:13
  They're coming in here and looking at you every day.
• 1:24:19
  Yeah, you know that's. That's a real life.
• 1:24:21
  I didn't know what. To say at.
• 1:24:22
  The time I'm just like there's. Nothing.
• 1:24:25
  There's not much to. Say that education.
• 1:24:27
  Is. Important PP I'm loving it.
• 1:24:33
  OK, no, let's let's let's go to spirit let's go to spiritual
• 1:24:36
  hot. That's that's a hot topic
• 1:24:38
  spiritual. So how, how do you, how today
• 1:24:41
  looking back and now, how do you do your spiritual aspect of
• 1:24:45
  life? How did you how do you take that
• 1:24:46
  on? Well, growing up, I was.
• 1:24:50
  More religious and I did the church thing and I went to a
• 1:24:56
  Catholic school, all girls Catholic school.
• 1:24:58
  I went to Trinity University. They didn't enforce it, but it
• 1:25:04
  was there. But at the time.
• 1:25:08
  It was like unless you were. Graduating.
• 1:25:10
  That was the only time you really had to go to the service.
• 1:25:14
  But it was there if you. Wanted to, you know, you wanted
• 1:25:17
  to go pray or vent or you were stressed out about school or
• 1:25:21
  whatever the case might be. They had Sunday service every
• 1:25:24
  Sunday. But it took.
• 1:25:27
  Me a while to break free from religious, virtual spiritual,
• 1:25:33
  I'm now more spiritual and I like what the guy that you were
• 1:25:36
  talking to earlier in the show said about Agape, universal
• 1:25:40
  love. That's the highest form of love,
• 1:25:43
  and I learned. That when I started to.
• 1:25:45
  Go to church out here in California.
• 1:25:53
  I'm sorry I had a cramp. You got a cramp.
• 1:25:56
  This is real life, ladies and gentlemen.
• 1:25:58
  We're live. Live.
• 1:25:59
  Cramps on the air. That's what it looks like when
• 1:26:06
  you get a cramp, ladies and gentlemen.
• 1:26:08
  But hello. Yeah, go.
• 1:26:12
  Ahead I. Think you froze?
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  Go ahead. No, I was going.
• 1:26:18
  To say adopt A center, the adopt A center, I used to go to the
• 1:26:22
  adopt A center. They moved from down the street
• 1:26:24
  from my house, but I used to go there and it's that's where I
• 1:26:29
  learned about spirituality and not having to focus so much on
• 1:26:34
  the religious, religious teachings of, you know.
• 1:26:40
  You were going to go to hell if. You did XY or Z?
• 1:26:44
  Yeah, because. Those.
• 1:26:45
  Teachings that it really threw me to a place where I was like,
• 1:26:47
  well I feel bad because now I'm not doing everything that I'm
• 1:26:51
  supposed to be doing it it gives me it gave me anxiety Oh yeah,
• 1:26:55
  for sure. So I.
• 1:26:56
  Really. Learned a lot by going to the
• 1:26:59
  center because you know, God is has always been present in my
• 1:27:06
  life. I'm not.
• 1:27:08
  I wouldn't be where I am today without that aspect of it at
• 1:27:12
  all. Because when I had.
• 1:27:16
  Near death experiences and I was like literally hearing voices
• 1:27:21
  and messages like I would go to sleep and wake up and it's like,
• 1:27:25
  am I am I tripping or then I really just like have a dream.
• 1:27:30
  So I say all that to say that it's important to listen to
• 1:27:35
  those angels or those voices, your ancestors, whatever signs
• 1:27:41
  that may be coming to you. And it is important to have some
• 1:27:46
  type of spirituality or connection because you need it,
• 1:27:50
  especially in this day and age with everything that's going on.
• 1:27:52
  Oh yeah, even if you're. Not religious.
• 1:27:56
  Spirituality is definitely important because we deal with a
• 1:28:00
  lot of stickers in general for sure.
• 1:28:03
  Everyday struggle is hard. So having super self compounded
• 1:28:08
  on top of that, you know, you have to have some type of inner
• 1:28:12
  workings or something because it does help in terms of like
• 1:28:15
  depression, anger, frustration, resentment.
• 1:28:22
  The list can go on and on. And on yeah, no there.
• 1:28:26
  Thank you. I mean, that's my take on it.
• 1:28:28
  Definitely important I. I was I grew up in that
• 1:28:31
  religious aspect of it and like you, I was like, that's too
• 1:28:34
  perfect. Like I got to get out of here
• 1:28:36
  because I ain't I'm not here to play with it.
• 1:28:38
  So I'm out like, so I was like, I'm out of here.
• 1:28:41
  You know, I can't listen to my rap music.
• 1:28:42
  Oh, I can't listen to my jazz and and no, I'm out of here,
• 1:28:45
  right. That was my and and I I was gone
• 1:28:49
  20 years before I had a conversation with my mom at 40
• 1:28:52
  and she was like, say it don't work like that.
• 1:28:54
  I'm like what? And then when she like, you
• 1:28:57
  don't want that in your life, go to God, pray, take, take it to
• 1:29:00
  him and pray about leave it at the altar.
• 1:29:01
  And, and if, if you really want it out of your life, it'll,
• 1:29:04
  it'll go away. And I was like, well, I wish I
• 1:29:07
  would have told me that when I was like 16, because I would
• 1:29:11
  have, I would have been at it. So, and then now to get back at
• 1:29:15
  it, you know, the last seven years like full force.
• 1:29:18
  But I came back because my I came back not because my dad
• 1:29:21
  passed. But it was I was in that mindset
• 1:29:25
  that I was looking. At my.
• 1:29:30
  Kind of my own years now, how much time I got left and, and I
• 1:29:32
  didn't want to live like that. And so I the God like, hey, man,
• 1:29:36
  I'm going to find you for myself.
• 1:29:38
  I heard you're it's a relationship.
• 1:29:40
  And so and I did, I, I gave all that stuff that my mom was like,
• 1:29:43
  give it to him and I, I took it to him.
• 1:29:45
  And it's like, look, I don't want if, if it's not for me to
• 1:29:48
  have the music, man, you know, I'm, I'm here, I'm here.
• 1:29:51
  You take it away and you got to be.
• 1:29:54
  Careful what? You ask for because he will, he
• 1:29:57
  will take it away. And, and for me it was the
• 1:29:59
  beautiful part was it was that he took it away.
• 1:30:03
  You might get it. Yeah, but he took the.
• 1:30:05
  Music away because the music it taken it away allowed me to heal
• 1:30:10
  from the music and when I. Healed from the music.
• 1:30:13
  And sanctified the music with the Word and the gospel and, and
• 1:30:17
  practicing the principles. Now the music doesn't trigger
• 1:30:21
  me. Now the music is the soundtrack
• 1:30:23
  and it reminds me of the great stuff about my childhood.
• 1:30:25
  It doesn't take me back to the upsets and the frustration.
• 1:30:28
  So sometimes, you know, people, we have to walk away from that
• 1:30:31
  music because it's, it's a trigger.
• 1:30:34
  It will take your, my heart back to those painful moments.
• 1:30:37
  And right so, and I, I learned it for myself.
• 1:30:40
  Like, oh, man, like, you know, and so I do, I do listen to it,
• 1:30:44
  but it's not the fact that I, I the only thing I listen to
• 1:30:48
  because it's, it's a soundtrack to our life.
• 1:30:50
  And you can't deny I can't walk around like I can not going to
• 1:30:52
  hear rap music in somebody else's restaurant, a car.
• 1:30:55
  Then I got to I got to get out of here because they're playing
• 1:30:57
  rap. No, you, you OK?
• 1:30:58
  I remember that song. And then I followed.
• 1:31:01
  Up with some scriptures. What did God say about that?
• 1:31:03
  Oh yeah, remember what God said about that?
• 1:31:05
  So it's a balance, you know, and, and, and your heart
• 1:31:09
  posture, when you really, when you really practice it, your
• 1:31:12
  heart posture changes and some aspects you, you get convicted
• 1:31:17
  and you transform and you take responsibility.
• 1:31:19
  Then all the stuff that you said now and you kind, you're
• 1:31:21
  patient, you're loving, you're caring, you're all those, those
• 1:31:25
  ways of being that, but for yourself first.
• 1:31:27
  So I appreciate you. And then for religion, like it's
• 1:31:31
  not right around good or bad, because it's not for me to judge
• 1:31:33
  people where they believe. I get to listen to hear where
• 1:31:36
  you are and, and then ask more questions.
• 1:31:39
  And how did you get there? Because maybe my, my, my views
• 1:31:42
  is a little bit different, right?
• 1:31:44
  But I don't make yours wrong either.
• 1:31:47
  But I don't have to, you know, but so it's, it's a fine line.
• 1:31:52
  And then today that a lot of that is weaponized.
• 1:31:54
  Religion has been weaponized for years.
• 1:31:57
  You know, that that that's what that is.
• 1:31:59
  We got ACBT, we got ACBT comment.
• 1:32:01
  CBT is amazing because it teaches us exactly that CBT was
• 1:32:06
  off the chain baby. I recommend that.
• 1:32:09
  I recommend that for anybody who's looking at therapy.
• 1:32:12
  I'm like start there, start there with the triggers.
• 1:32:17
  All right, we got a couple more. We got.
• 1:32:19
  We did. Oh.
• 1:32:22
  That's your friend? Oh, OK.
• 1:32:25
  Yeah, she. Was dropped.
• 1:32:26
  She dropped it. He or she dropped it right
• 1:32:28
  there. Yeah, I believe so.
• 1:32:31
  Yeah, CBT. All right, so we got spiritual.
• 1:32:35
  We did. We did emotional, mental, the
• 1:32:39
  mind. Oh my gosh, when I understood
• 1:32:43
  the mind, the brain, that's what I opened up the show with.
• 1:32:47
  The brain is powerful. Ladies and gentlemen, if you
• 1:32:50
  don't understand how your brain operates, I'm I'm not a
• 1:32:54
  therapist. I don't want to be a therapist.
• 1:32:56
  I'm not a psychologist. I'm not none of that, but I was
• 1:32:59
  able to go and learn just the basics about my own, how the
• 1:33:04
  brain works, and then how I show up in that and my behavior and
• 1:33:08
  my mental and the conscious mind and the conscience mind and the
• 1:33:11
  subconscious mind and understanding that.
• 1:33:13
  Yeah, it's three pieces that work together, but each one does
• 1:33:17
  his thing in our perception and perspective.
• 1:33:23
  Right, right. All like all of that.
• 1:33:25
  And when you understand, I was like, Oh my gosh, like I'm in my
• 1:33:29
  40s learning about my brain like for.
• 1:33:34
  Real. Beautiful, beautiful to
• 1:33:37
  understand. That's a that's a beauty.
• 1:33:38
  Of it beautiful, So what? So when you when you hear
• 1:33:43
  mental, your mentality, your mental and we talk about the
• 1:33:46
  mind again, I learned that the brain is the brain is design of
• 1:33:52
  perception patterns, memory patterns and action patterns,
• 1:33:57
  right? Other than the normal neurons
• 1:34:00
  firing off neurons fight. That's really what the brain is
• 1:34:02
  doing is just firing neurons off it.
• 1:34:04
  But because of of us as having the soul and the mind willing
• 1:34:09
  emotions and the language. Now those, those stories mean
• 1:34:14
  that mind means something in the subconscious mind.
• 1:34:16
  It means something in the conscience mind, your thoughts
• 1:34:19
  in the conscious mind. So now you got we're working
• 1:34:21
  with all of that. And when I realized for myself
• 1:34:24
  that that voice in my head wasn't for Ron, I was like, you
• 1:34:29
  got to be kidding me. That voice is not that voice has
• 1:34:32
  been talking to me since I was a child.
• 1:34:36
  I thought that was me, right? Right.
• 1:34:38
  You mean that voice ain't me? Right.
• 1:34:40
  Who is that The Who is that in there talking all that trash,
• 1:34:43
  being cynical and judging people and talking crazy to myself and
• 1:34:47
  giving me warnings? You better not do that.
• 1:34:49
  Remember what happened the last time you did that?
• 1:34:51
  You better not raise your hand. You better not say nothing.
• 1:34:53
  You know you how embarrassed you was the last time you did that.
• 1:34:55
  Remember that pain? Oh my gosh, you mean that's not
• 1:34:59
  me? A good example of.
• 1:35:04
  What you're talking about is the movie Inside Out.
• 1:35:09
  It's a great example of it in living color, and I say that to.
• 1:35:15
  Say. I watch cartoons all the time
• 1:35:19
  just to calm myself down because I have anxiety, but at night, to
• 1:35:24
  kind of get with myself calm and comfortable enough to go to
• 1:35:28
  sleep, I watch cartoons. I'm a huge Disney fan and I love
• 1:35:33
  cartoons. I'm actually doing, Like I said,
• 1:35:36
  I'm excited about doing animation, so that's one of my
• 1:35:40
  favorites. Inside Out.
• 1:35:42
  This is my guy right here. Because that was me.
• 1:35:44
  Oh, that. Is not, I think yeah.
• 1:35:50
  Did you see soul? Oh, soul was.
• 1:35:52
  Good too, yes, There's so many lessons in soul.
• 1:35:55
  Too exact. That's another one that was
• 1:35:57
  good. That's soul.
• 1:36:00
  But anxiety, I'm telling you, it's the battle.
• 1:36:03
  It's the battle of the mind. And then so last one of of
• 1:36:09
  course, last one. No, go ahead.
• 1:36:11
  No. Go ahead now I was going to say,
• 1:36:15
  I think it's. Important words have power and I
• 1:36:17
  have to learn that. I have to learn that because
• 1:36:22
  like you were saying, you know, about what you say and how you
• 1:36:27
  say things tends to definitely resonate in in Word.
• 1:36:33
  So because of the cell you're saying to yourself, oh, I feel
• 1:36:36
  deceited or I feel upset, or I remember being embarrassed
• 1:36:40
  because I said something foolish or I said to.
• 1:36:43
  I felt like I said too much that my sister told me the other day
• 1:36:47
  she was like, you know, you need to stay on topic because you
• 1:36:51
  have a tendency to get off topic.
• 1:36:53
  And I said, you know what, you're right.
• 1:36:56
  So I just have to now stop and take my time to let it resonate
• 1:37:03
  and then respond. Wow.
• 1:37:06
  'Cause I have a tendency that I'm.
• 1:37:07
  Going to forget. So I try to get it all out as as
• 1:37:10
  fast as I can. Right, right, right, right.
• 1:37:15
  I feel like I'm rambling now. I'm saying too much.
• 1:37:18
  I'm doing too much, right? And and and thank you for that.
• 1:37:23
  Thank you for for breaking those down for me.
• 1:37:24
  And the last one, of course, I'm no, I don't want to say you've
• 1:37:27
  mastered it, but I'm sure you are very aware of the physical,
• 1:37:31
  right? But, but the physical though,
• 1:37:34
  check this out though. I want to, I want to point to
• 1:37:36
  the physical, not from the sickle cell, from our, from our
• 1:37:39
  trait crisis and our pain crisis, but more of the body.
• 1:37:45
  I've heard for years that the body keeps the score, right?
• 1:37:48
  So when you, when you, when I, when I, I'm going to use myself
• 1:37:51
  an example. When I started doing my work,
• 1:37:56
  understanding that those anxieties, pains that I had
• 1:38:02
  growing up and my knees was so crippling.
• 1:38:04
  Like when I, when my, my anxiety kicked in, I would have to go
• 1:38:07
  sleep it off. Like I couldn't even walk, like
• 1:38:10
  I could barely move. And it'd be plenty of times
• 1:38:14
  where I just go lay down and I'm, I'm sleep, I'm sleeping,
• 1:38:18
  I'm, I'm done for the night because the anxiety in my body
• 1:38:21
  is just so tense and it's so crippling.
• 1:38:24
  But as I started to heal the, the, this, the mental, as far as
• 1:38:29
  to heal the emotional, it was like, Oh, I can recognize where
• 1:38:33
  that's coming from. Oh, that, that's a thought that
• 1:38:35
  made that happen. That's not, that's not me.
• 1:38:38
  That's a thought that could. And then sometimes the body does
• 1:38:42
  its own thing on its own. It'll give you a sensation.
• 1:38:44
  And then the thought come where, where that, where that pain come
• 1:38:47
  from. Oh shoot, that's that's from
• 1:38:50
  that. 14. Year old child emotion, or
• 1:38:53
  that's from that 23 or that's from that 11 year old.
• 1:38:56
  So when I was able to connect the body sensations with the
• 1:39:00
  stories, I was able to unravel that thought and that experience
• 1:39:05
  from the body sensation. And it was amazing to be able to
• 1:39:10
  recognize where that gut pain came from.
• 1:39:13
  That I always thought was a part of me, but it was a part of the
• 1:39:17
  story, right? So the physical part of for me
• 1:39:21
  is that part is, is how do we, you know, tell the truth to our
• 1:39:25
  self about maybe that body has stored some trauma, has stored
• 1:39:32
  some emotional pain. And that's what's actually you
• 1:39:35
  feeling, not what you actually think it is as far as whatever
• 1:39:40
  else. And so when I learned that the
• 1:39:42
  body late in age, now this is, I'm, I'm, I'm talking in my 50s
• 1:39:46
  that I'm learning the body keeps a score.
• 1:39:49
  And that's what that is. And I've experienced, you know,
• 1:39:52
  letting go of that pain that was from the 8 year old that my mom
• 1:39:55
  abandoned me. Like there was a gut Richie pain
• 1:39:58
  that I'm, that was a body sensation to that decision.
• 1:40:02
  And so for you, you know, now you're managing crisis pain,
• 1:40:06
  you're mad, you know, you're managing neurological pain
• 1:40:09
  because now the from the, from the whole nerve damage possibly,
• 1:40:13
  you know, so we understand that in our community that we have
• 1:40:16
  crisis pain and you have. Nerve pain that that may never
• 1:40:19
  go away right and then you got the emotional pains how do have
• 1:40:24
  you does that make. Sense to you in in.
• 1:40:27
  In how you live your life and view, you know your, your, your,
• 1:40:30
  your physical. Well, it definitely makes a lot.
• 1:40:39
  Of sense I know for me, grief, going through the grief of
• 1:40:43
  losing my mother really impacted me deeply, physically,
• 1:40:49
  emotionally, mentally. And just learning more about
• 1:40:55
  myself through therapy and reading, I realized that I carry
• 1:41:01
  a lot of that tension and that stress in my body.
• 1:41:05
  So sleep is a huge, huge, huge, huge factor in my life and my
• 1:41:10
  well-being. Because if I don't get rest, my
• 1:41:13
  mind starts breathing, I start having these crazy dreams and
• 1:41:17
  thoughts and then I can't sleep. And I like I I.
• 1:41:21
  Mentioned the last time I went days.
• 1:41:24
  Literally 3-4 days without sleeping.
• 1:41:27
  Had I gotten for day seven, I wouldn't have been here to still
• 1:41:30
  tell you the story. Wow.
• 1:41:34
  Wow, wow, wow. It got.
• 1:41:36
  It got. It got it got life was lifing.
• 1:41:39
  I'll say that life is definitely lifing, but through prayer,
• 1:41:47
  reading and having friends and family that have been absolutely
• 1:41:53
  amazing and supportive during this whole journey, I'm able to
• 1:42:00
  talk about it today. Because as I said last time, I
• 1:42:03
  wasn't. I had cut off social media, I
• 1:42:05
  had cut off friends, I had cut off the world.
• 1:42:08
  I had just stopped. I wasn't doing anything it.
• 1:42:12
  Took me. Months to get out of the bed to
• 1:42:15
  actually get up and go brush my teeth.
• 1:42:17
  It took me months to get out of the bed and just go do basic
• 1:42:20
  stuff because I just stopped. I know, I know that life shut
• 1:42:25
  down everything. Shut down.
• 1:42:28
  I know that life real. Well, there was no art
• 1:42:30
  happening. There was no teaching happening.
• 1:42:34
  I was. Done with the kids.
• 1:42:35
  That's for the homework I tap out.
• 1:42:41
  Wow man. You did.
• 1:42:45
  You did. Though you did though when you
• 1:42:47
  send me that message, I'm like, oh, somebody on jacked somebody
• 1:42:49
  on jacked her mess, her Facebook Messenger talking about hey,
• 1:42:53
  hey, how you been? Let's let's let's do some more
• 1:42:55
  talks. Can you send me, send me a text
• 1:42:57
  over here. I'm like, I ain't sending you no
• 1:42:58
  text. I don't even know where.
• 1:43:00
  This ain't even your account. I was like, who Where you been?
• 1:43:03
  I was like, where you been? I see you in like 5.
• 1:43:08
  Years. Six years.
• 1:43:09
  Like who is this? I'm gonna send.
• 1:43:11
  Me a text message I don't really be on.
• 1:43:13
  Facebook, I was like, Nah, I falling for that one you're
• 1:43:17
  trying to steal. My.
• 1:43:18
  Information I was on guard with your I was.
• 1:43:23
  Like spam. I was like this I.
• 1:43:24
  Was like somebody that stole her account.
• 1:43:26
  I I went and looked for your other account.
• 1:43:28
  Like, wait a minute, this ain't her.
• 1:43:31
  That was hilarious. But that's how guarded.
• 1:43:33
  Look at my brothers and sisters at arms.
• 1:43:35
  They know that's how we are. Hey, I'm not clicking on
• 1:43:38
  nothing. And and if I don't if.
• 1:43:41
  I'm. Who, who are you?
• 1:43:44
  This ain't this ain't her. She don't even talk.
• 1:43:46
  I'm like, she don't even talk like that.
• 1:43:48
  She don't even talk like that. And then you want to send me a,
• 1:43:50
  a cell phone number to text you on?
• 1:43:52
  Oh heck no, I ain't following by that.
• 1:43:56
  But it was you though. You see the story I made-up,
• 1:44:00
  right? Off the top like this.
• 1:44:02
  Right off the top, made-up a story.
• 1:44:03
  Like this ain't her I'm. Guarded.
• 1:44:07
  I'm guarded. But I'm glad.
• 1:44:08
  I'm glad I responded and it was you.
• 1:44:11
  It's, it's good to see that you're back at it.
• 1:44:14
  Like I said, we did a lot of stuff in the past and just
• 1:44:17
  looking forward to, to doing some more work with you as we
• 1:44:21
  move forward. I mean, here we are cool.
• 1:44:25
  So, alright, So what do you want to say to the people we'll get
• 1:44:27
  out of here? Cool.
• 1:44:29
  Oh yeah, Yeah. What do you want to say to the
• 1:44:32
  people? Definitely want to say that.
• 1:44:36
  Definitely want to say. That it has been a journey and I
• 1:44:42
  will be sharing more of my story on my social media because I'm
• 1:44:46
  actually in a place now I'm ready to.
• 1:44:50
  But little by. Little sharing instances of what
• 1:44:54
  actually took place on accounts. So definitely follow me on
• 1:45:02
  Instagram. I'm on TikTok.
• 1:45:06
  I'm not on there often, but I do have a TikTok.
• 1:45:10
  I'm on Instagram and Facebook more.
• 1:45:13
  Well, I try. To be on it more when you say
• 1:45:15
  that. So, you know, just know that
• 1:45:20
  it's not, it doesn't have to be the end for you when you find
• 1:45:25
  out that you have super cell or when you find out that you're
• 1:45:27
  diagnosed with cancer or you find out that you, you know,
• 1:45:31
  your life has changed because you're now 40 and you might feel
• 1:45:35
  like you haven't gotten anywhere because of the disease or excuse
• 1:45:38
  me, because of the illness, whatever.
• 1:45:42
  It may be that's true. That's true.
• 1:45:45
  Just because you got cancer? The business, like your life,
• 1:45:48
  has to stop and. Losing my mom.
• 1:45:51
  Just made me look at life differently completely and it
• 1:45:54
  made me want to do more and see more and become more because she
• 1:45:59
  lived her life like. She did everything that she
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  wanted. To do before she passed, well,
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  almost everything, but she definitely worked hard and she
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  saw the world. She was able to see the world.
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  Before she did. Go on to the next phase in life.
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  But I admire her hard work and the determination.
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  Because when she was. There she went through
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  chemotherapy like a chance. She took pictures.
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  She was silent. She was like, you know this, I'm
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  not going to let this thing beat me.
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  And I tried to definitely take. That disease, you know.
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  Yeah. You know we, we.
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  Talk about that as well, said diagnosis.
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  Topical. Yeah, we talked.
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  About that as well, even as an identity for my veterans, my
• 1:46:49
  brothers and sisters who are listening at arms even taking on
• 1:46:54
  the, the, the, the identity of being disabled, right, or those
• 1:46:58
  illnesses that cause us to be disabled.
• 1:47:01
  You know, some people take those diagnosis and they they embrace
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  it and they and they die off even faster because they've
• 1:47:08
  taken that, that identity and that burden of that disease.
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  And then the lifespan gets. I don't know if people only
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  really understand that that's that can happen though, that if
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  you take that on and you wear that and you own it, it.
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  It can be. Emotionally, physically damaging
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  stress. That's all you.
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  That's all you focus on. So the people have, hey, now I'm
• 1:47:30
  like, Oh no, like, Oh no, like I'm glad I was able to.
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  God has allowed me to go through this process, even though it was
• 1:47:39
  again, if you would have told me what, what my life was going to
• 1:47:41
  look like today, I've been like, Nah, bro, you can have that one.
• 1:47:43
  Give me, give me, give me another one.
• 1:47:45
  Give me something else. I don't want none of that.
• 1:47:48
  I don't want to be attacked in my mind as a child, bro, no,
• 1:47:52
  man, no. Give me that life.
• 1:47:54
  But here we are, you know, and he's using everything that he
• 1:47:58
  knew that I could take past those tests.
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  He knew that I could pass those tests.
• 1:48:03
  And I'm very grateful. Very great.
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  Thank. You for hanging out to get.
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  Over the. Hurdles.
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  Yeah, we here we. Are here we are so thank you for
• 1:48:12
  hanging out today again Lynn I appreciate you for Part 2 you
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  know getting. This conversation through thank.
• 1:48:19
  You for making it through the pain, through the cramps.
• 1:48:24
  So. I'll.
• 1:48:25
  Catch. Up with you on the.
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  Social, I'll catch up with you on the social media side.
• 1:48:28
  And again, thanks for your time today.
• 1:48:33
  No problem, Take care. And I look forward to the next
• 1:48:35
  time next time. Thank you so much.
• 1:48:39
  All right, this is the Frondosier show MB radio dot USI
• 1:48:43
  want to play something for you. You know, I was able to be a
• 1:48:47
  part of another conversation with connect to my sickle cell
• 1:48:50
  trade exertion was the Rabdomyelosis.
• 1:48:53
  The Rabdo conversation is so, so, so important and there are
• 1:48:57
  so many things that can trigger Rabdo in itself, right?
• 1:49:02
  And so I want to play some PS As for you and then I'm going to
• 1:49:09
  show you the website. So let me see what this one is.
• 1:49:11
  That was the full 1. I don't want to play the full.
• 1:49:13
  I might play the full one one day.
• 1:49:15
  That one is 7 minutes. I might play these.
• 1:49:17
  Matter of fact, you know, I might.
• 1:49:18
  I'm going to save it. I'm going to take a day and just
• 1:49:21
  have a rap dose show and I will have a guest and I'm just going
• 1:49:24
  to go through these processes and show you.
• 1:49:27
  I'm not going to tease you. Let's play this one right here.
• 1:49:29
  This is an investigative report that I was being I was able to
• 1:49:32
  be a part of that came out to my area, interviewed me, took my
• 1:49:39
  story and I had no idea what it was going to look like.
• 1:49:44
  So this is my part of my clip of it around my sickle cell trade
• 1:49:50
  in the military. They were studying military and
• 1:49:52
  people with sickle cell trade and rather milosis and what's
• 1:49:55
  going on with our bodies, right? So grateful that the military is
• 1:49:58
  actually taking a look at that. They're retesting soldiers for
• 1:50:02
  sickle cell trade, retesting the new soldiers coming in with
• 1:50:05
  sickle cell for sickle cell trade, identifying soldiers and
• 1:50:09
  figuring out how to reduce these collapses in the sudden death.
• 1:50:13
  So I'm going to play this and leave you with this right here.
• 1:50:16
  But this is what I'm working on. This is what?
• 1:50:19
  I'm working on in. Addition to my advocacy work so
• 1:50:24
  this is let me see we're going to go here Oh, there it is right
• 1:50:27
  there Let me see see we're going to do this we're going to raise
• 1:50:36
  that up a little bit right there So what does that look like over
• 1:50:38
  here OK, that's cool right there All right so this is an
• 1:50:42
  investigative report that was a part of sharing a little bit
• 1:50:45
  about my story about rhythm myelosis and and this is this
• 1:50:49
  condition this disorder. 200,000 people.
• 1:50:55
  Plus they say have rado milosis and you might have heard it in
• 1:51:01
  CrossFit. CrossFit.
• 1:51:03
  Got a bad rap? Connected to rado milosis
• 1:51:06
  because in CrossFit you go from one extreme exercise to the next
• 1:51:10
  extreme exercise. No breaks, no water.
• 1:51:13
  You're pushing past, you're pushing past, you're pushing
• 1:51:15
  past. And then some people in those
• 1:51:18
  exercises with this condition call Rabdo.
• 1:51:21
  So check this out real quick, according to the Cleveland.
• 1:51:26
  Clinic kidney injury occurs in up to half of Rabdo cases.
• 1:51:31
  My kidneys are at 50%. Each.
• 1:51:32
  It's a complication. Former Sergeant first class for
• 1:51:36
  ON Dozier experienced first hand while serving in the Army in
• 1:51:40
  2006. Everything was spent like a
• 1:51:42
  million. Miles an hour.
• 1:51:43
  It happened during an army. Physical fitness test right
• 1:51:46
  after the final Sprint of the two mile run for Ron was rushed
• 1:51:51
  to to the hospital physically. I.
• 1:51:54
  Was in I was in a very bad state.
• 1:51:55
  I had severe muscle damage, I could barely walk.
• 1:51:58
  But the mindset of a soldier, you don't complain.
• 1:52:01
  He survived the ordeal and. Tried to get back to his old
• 1:52:04
  self that says ongoing health problems ultimately led to his
• 1:52:08
  medical retirement in 2013. I had a lot of mental and.
• 1:52:11
  Physical pain at that time, and the pain is still.
• 1:52:14
  With him today, Blocked has never recovered.
• 1:52:16
  Fully I still deal with the Vertigo.
• 1:52:18
  If I move too fast or I move my head too fast, I could still so
• 1:52:21
  trigger it. Faron has since dedicated.
• 1:52:23
  His life to spreading education and awareness.
• 1:52:27
  About Rado HPC. You too Rado before.
• 1:52:29
  Engaging military. Personnel, athletes and youth
• 1:52:33
  nationwide, you can experience it.
• 1:52:35
  Or you might be the person that saves that person's life, given
• 1:52:38
  the intense mental. And physical requirements.
• 1:52:41
  Faron says it's a conversation that's especially important in
• 1:52:45
  the military. There's a lot of push ups.
• 1:52:47
  There's a lot of mountain crawls.
• 1:52:48
  It's the repetitive mountain crawls soldiers, military
• 1:52:51
  personnel are. Our number one human.
• 1:52:54
  Asset. And so.
• 1:52:55
  Figuring out ways to protect that and that.
• 1:52:58
  Is. Again, that conversation very
• 1:53:01
  important, so I'm going to take a day and then bring awareness
• 1:53:04
  to that. There's some conversations that
• 1:53:05
  we're having. It's a public health issue.
• 1:53:09
  A lot of the deaths that we've seen connected to heat stroke
• 1:53:13
  because it looks like heat exhaustion looks like heat
• 1:53:15
  stroke, But some of those that's are actually connected to
• 1:53:22
  rhabdo, eucretinine kinesis levels, your CK levels.
• 1:53:26
  Mines were 12,000 that day when I collapsed.
• 1:53:29
  They're supposed to be in 150. And so I've met people who have
• 1:53:32
  had their CKS in the hundreds of thousands.
• 1:53:35
  I've met people 300,000. I met people who had to learn
• 1:53:39
  how to walk again. They had to learn how to do all
• 1:53:43
  these, those functions again because they had so much severe
• 1:53:46
  skeletal muscular damage. And for me, unfortunately or
• 1:53:50
  fortunately, with my sickle cell trait, my damages, you know,
• 1:53:54
  we're a little bit different and I, my body just never fully
• 1:53:59
  recovered back to what I would call my, my normal.
• 1:54:03
  Now I have a new normal, right? So I can't run, I can't
• 1:54:06
  exercise, I have fatigue, the Vertigo, a lot of stuff that
• 1:54:11
  secondary health complications from that right?
• 1:54:13
  My my kidneys got back together. They were at 50% each.
• 1:54:18
  But for me, the skeleton muscular, the joint damage with
• 1:54:23
  my trade, I believe that was like I said, that was just the
• 1:54:26
  trigger in that episode. And here we are.
• 1:54:30
  Right. So I appreciate you, but we'll
• 1:54:32
  be just we'll be doing some more talks about that Rabdo coming
• 1:54:35
  up. But yeah, I think today was
• 1:54:38
  pretty good. And I may or may not be here
• 1:54:40
  next week. I can't promise you, God willing
• 1:54:43
  may take a a day off next week. The ABA if you want to follow us
• 1:54:48
  over there, IE dogs ABA on Instagram, IE dogs aba.com on
• 1:54:56
  the website and you'll you'll see some more that over there
• 1:55:00
  and here on my talk shows. All right, last PSA, I'm out of
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