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01 - A Heart to Heart · Heartbeat of The Home

• 0:00
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I have a lot of imposter syndrome because I'm like, who am I to be talking about any of this?
• 0:05
  SPEAKER_00: But I mean, I guess I have given birth, so maybe and I do have a child, so maybe I can't talk about being mama.
• 0:15
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 0:16
  SPEAKER_00: This is super nerve-wracking, but I'm starting a podcast.
• 0:20
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just gonna try and keep this short and sweet.
• 0:23
  SPEAKER_00: Um, this is just a little intro to why I'm starting this podcast and wow, my intro to this podcast.
• 0:33
  SPEAKER_00: So my name is Kristen and I am 28 years old.
• 0:39
  SPEAKER_00: I have an incredible son, Jackson.
• 0:43
  SPEAKER_00: He is almost 16 months, so almost a year and a half, and I have an incredible husband who you might have heard in the background while I was starting this, who is super supportive of me doing this, which is so exciting.
• 0:57
  SPEAKER_00: I am a creator.
• 0:59
  SPEAKER_00: I love to create.
• 1:10
  SPEAKER_00: Um, why this has been on my heart, why I'm doing this now, and just what the purpose of this is, and yeah, how I hope it impacts you.
• 1:23
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I'm not talking loud enough because I'm outside.
• 1:27
  SPEAKER_00: And let's address why I'm outside.
• 1:30
  SPEAKER_00: This is pretty much the only space right now that I have to record this episode, and we are currently living in a friend's basement to save money right now, and I really feel like I'm supposed to start this podcast, and I think I've looked at studios, I've looked at all the different options for where I could go, but nothing felt authentic, and my whole purpose of this podcast is to be authentic and to help other moms and other women in the season of life, in the season of life to feel less alone, and if I didn't record here and was trying to find something else, I would be disingenuous, if that's a word, it wouldn't be real because this is where we're at.
• 2:21
  SPEAKER_00: We have we are living in a basement, so we have our room and Jackson's room, and I could either be on the opposite wall of him and risk waking him up, slash you'd probably hear the sound machine in the background, or we're outside.
• 2:35
  SPEAKER_00: So you might hear an occasional bird chirp, a car drive past.
• 2:39
  SPEAKER_00: I'll try and edit that out.
• 2:42
  SPEAKER_00: Unfortunately, cannot guarantee that, but that is just the reality of where we are, and I was thinking about that this morning, um, or earlier when I was thinking about recording this podcast.
• 2:52
  SPEAKER_00: What came to mind was when we were processing and really praying about whether we were supposed to move into this basement for the time being with our friend, I was talking to our pastor's wife and just about how we don't have you know just limited space, and something that she said that I thought of today and was like, wow, um, was what if God is saying that the outdoors is your living room in this season?
• 3:21
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and so welcome to my living room.
• 3:25
  SPEAKER_00: We're outside, it's a beautiful night.
• 3:27
  SPEAKER_00: Listen to the birds chirp, recording my first episode.
• 3:31
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like this is gonna be all over the place, so I apologize in advance.
• 3:35
  SPEAKER_00: I've never done this before.
• 3:37
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like this episode has been a long time coming.
• 3:39
  SPEAKER_00: My friend and I were going to start a podcast.
• 3:43
  SPEAKER_00: Oh my gosh, probably four years ago, maybe five, which is crazy.
• 3:50
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but the timing was never right, the topic was never right, yeah, never felt right.
• 3:56
  SPEAKER_00: And we just felt like we were supposed to wait.
• 3:58
  SPEAKER_00: Now, I feel like this has been on my heart probably for the past few months, and just really felt like I need to do this, so I'm doing it.
• 4:08
  SPEAKER_00: Also, full transparency.
• 4:10
  SPEAKER_00: I have no idea what I'm gonna call this podcast yet.
• 4:14
  SPEAKER_00: So if you're listening to this, you know it before I do.
• 4:18
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but I just really feel like I'm supposed to step out in faith and start recording, even though I have no idea what I'm gonna call it.
• 4:24
  SPEAKER_00: So it'll come to me.
• 4:25
  SPEAKER_00: God's gonna give it to me at some point, and when he does, it's gonna be cool.
• 4:29
  SPEAKER_00: But until then, no clue what it's gonna be called.
• 4:33
  SPEAKER_00: This podcast is about motherhood, about supporting moms, about supporting moms in postpartum seasons, supporting moms in the new stages of motherhood in the trenches, um, encouraging them leading up to birth, and just all of things motherhood, and just being real about it, um, being encouraging about it.
• 4:57
  SPEAKER_00: I want it to be a space that is positive and uplifting, but balancing being positive, but also talking about the hard things, but talking about the hard things in a way of how God has brought healing and redemption, um, or how he's still bringing healing and still bringing redemption, or believing in the healing car, or believing in the healing and redemption that's to come.
• 5:23
  SPEAKER_00: I don't want it to be, oh my gosh, everything's phenomenal and amazing, and we're doing great.
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_00: If that's the case in that season, in that episode, that's amazing.
• 5:34
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but if it isn't that we're just here to talk about it and to help you feel less alone to encourage you in the hard seasons and encourage you in the incredible seasons because motherhood is an honor, um, motherhood is such a blessing.
• 5:50
  SPEAKER_00: Motherhood is difficult.
• 5:52
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it's one of the hardest things I've ever done.
• 5:54
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but it's also the most rewarding thing I've ever done.
• 5:57
  SPEAKER_00: And Jackson, my son, is my greatest gift, it's the greatest gift that God has ever given my husband and I, and we are just so thankful for him, and he has brought so much joy, so much joy to our lives, and I just it's crazy.
• 6:13
  SPEAKER_00: I love him so much, but also I need sleep.
• 6:17
  SPEAKER_00: That's kind of what the podcast is about.
• 6:20
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I think that this was really put on my heart to start a podcast like this because I really struggled postpartum.
• 6:29
  SPEAKER_00: I had a very severe postpartum anxiety and depression.
• 6:32
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and I just remember while I was going through it, awful.
• 6:39
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but once I got out of it, all I could think of was, oh my gosh, I never want anyone else to ever go through this ever.
• 6:50
  SPEAKER_00: And how can I support my friends in this season if they go through this, or how can I make sure that they don't go through this?
• 7:00
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but also I think talking to some friends who had babies, or just being on social media and just hearing different things, just realizing how much support I did have, and how even though I had severe postpartum anxiety and depression, I still had so many things in place to support me that I did, that other people did, and just knowledge going into it that helped, um, that so many people don't have.
• 7:28
  SPEAKER_00: And it honestly broke my heart just hearing stories of people's births, um, postpartum, motherhood, just of them feeling like they were doing it alone, and just that they feel like they didn't have the resources or the answers or just the information to make informed decisions for themselves, for their families, for their births, and that just like infuriated me, but also just broke my heart that they didn't have that.
• 7:53
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but it also just made me so thankful that I had that, um, and that God had gifted me with a community of so many moms around me, um, so many like-minded moms, and so many people who are there to support me, and so I want to be that for you.
• 8:09
  SPEAKER_00: If you whether you have that community or not, um, I just don't want you to feel alone, and I want to be that person for you to answer questions, to just lock walk alongside you as you process these things, um, as you're learning things about birth, if you're preparing for birth and you just have no idea what to expect, just giving you tools.
• 8:33
  SPEAKER_00: Um, if you have been through birth and it just was absolutely not what you had dreamed, what you had prayed about, what you had imagined, you had no idea going into it, and it was just nothing like you had expected um how to process that or just like a space to process that.
• 8:50
  SPEAKER_00: I just want to be here for you through birth, postpartum, motherhood, pregnancy, preconception.
• 8:57
  SPEAKER_00: I want to be here for all of it, and I want to give you resources that I was blessed with, um, hopefully resources that I didn't even have that like we're gonna discover together.
• 9:07
  SPEAKER_00: There's like a few topics specifically that I want to list.
• 9:10
  SPEAKER_00: That's important to me is a more holistic, natural um God's design for birth, um, God's design for community, for motherhood, um, more natural approaches, not necessarily Western medicine.
• 9:28
  SPEAKER_00: I think there is a hundred percent a time and place for it.
• 9:31
  SPEAKER_00: I'm so thankful for the wisdom that God has given us, God has given doctors, God has given research, all the knowledge he's given so many people, but I do believe there's a time and place for that.
• 9:41
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and I believe that there is a time and place to trust God and trust your body and trust how he designed you.
• 9:49
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and so that's something that I'm really passionate about.
• 9:52
  SPEAKER_00: Motherhood can be super isolating and lonely, and I just want a place that people feel connected, where they feel less alone, where they feel seen.
• 10:02
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I'm recording this because my son is in bed and I'm out here, was not planning to do this.
• 10:10
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just thankful today that I washed my hair.
• 10:12
  SPEAKER_00: But yeah, I just want it to be a real space, nothing is curated.
• 10:16
  SPEAKER_00: I'm sitting next to a water table, but motherhood can be lonely, it can be isolating.
• 10:21
  SPEAKER_00: I want a space that you do not feel alone.
• 10:23
  SPEAKER_00: I want your space that you feel included, a space that you feel seen, and we're breaking that in Jesus' name because we're not alone.
• 10:30
  SPEAKER_00: We do not need to be lonely.
• 10:31
  SPEAKER_00: We have each other and we have God, and we have our families, which are such a blessing.
• 10:36
  SPEAKER_00: I also want to create a space to hear real, beautiful, natural, redemptive, powerful, unexpected births from other moms.
• 10:47
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna be sharing my birth story.
• 10:49
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna be doing a lot of interviews and hearing so many other women's birth stories, and I want it to be an inclusive space of so many at-home births, natural hospital births, unexpected c-sections, planned c-sections, epidural, no epidural, unneeded epidural, water births, anything and everything.
• 11:12
  SPEAKER_00: I think it's just so important to hear so many different stories and just bring so much life and honor all of those stories because they are all birth stories and they're all beautiful, even if they are not exactly what we expected.
• 11:24
  SPEAKER_00: So I think there's so much power in hearing birth stories and hearing what other women have gone through, um, and just taking the fear out.
• 11:32
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like that is my biggest thing is I just want to take the fear out of birth, fear out of motherhood, fear out of all of it.
• 11:42
  SPEAKER_00: There is no place for fear here in Jesus' name.
• 11:46
  SPEAKER_00: Like I had said that I just really struggle with postpartum.
• 11:49
  SPEAKER_00: I think that's something I'm very passionate about, is a space to talk about postpartum, all the difficulties of postpartum, but I think I struggle with talking about that while also again I do not want to instill fear in anyone.
• 12:00
  SPEAKER_00: I think it's more a prepare preparing for postpartum, the difficulties that might come, and if they do come, be proactive about it and not just like this is isolating, I do not know what to do, and so I think I want to give you tools and talk about it, and again, also talk about the beautiful postpartum that people have.
• 12:22
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I want to do both because both are real.
• 12:26
  SPEAKER_00: Some people have the most incredible postpartum, it is just amazing, they're soaking it up, and I pray that that is what you experience.
• 12:34
  SPEAKER_00: That unfortunately is not what I experienced, but that's what I hope for you, and some people have that, and that is incredible.
• 12:42
  SPEAKER_00: And so, how can you prep for both?
• 12:44
  SPEAKER_00: Or it could be both, and it could be incredible, and then all of a sudden it's hard, or it's hard and then it's beautiful.
• 12:50
  SPEAKER_00: All things are possible, and then I think my biggest thing that I want to be really good about is I want to bring glory to God, and I want to invite him into this space, whether that's praying on the podcast for guests, um, just listening to his discernment, um, and just really, even if I go on with one plan that God will just direct it, um, and just yeah, give glory to God because he created us and he created our incredible bodies to grow human beings.
• 13:27
  SPEAKER_00: What the heck?
• 13:28
  SPEAKER_00: We literally grow babies in our bodies, we're pretty incredible.
• 13:34
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it's just insane.
• 13:36
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like when I really think about it, even when I was pregnant, it was just like I'm literally growing bones right now.
• 13:45
  SPEAKER_00: Crazy, crazy.
• 13:47
  SPEAKER_00: So just like give God the glory for that, that He created us to give birth, and how He's working in the lives of so many moms, and how He has brought healing to so many moms in whatever area, whether it's motherhood, whether it's childhood, whether it's relationships, family relationships, friend relationships, because we're moms, but we have so much else going on in our lives, and even just like I'm gonna share my testimony in a few episodes, and just like how much healing God has brought in my life, and it has nothing to do with motherhood, but it helped me prepare for motherhood.
• 14:27
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and it just brought so much healing in my life, and so I was able to like move forward in so many areas, and so just giving God the glory in that and just hearing his goodness and people's lives, the healing he's brought, the pain that he redeemed for his glory.
• 14:43
  SPEAKER_00: I just want to talk about that.
• 14:44
  SPEAKER_00: I just want to encourage you in all these seasons, cheer you on as you are going through it, and uh, I hope that you join and that you sit in with my chats and listen to it as you're folding laundry.
• 15:01
  SPEAKER_00: I just thank you so much for being here for joining in on this journey.
• 15:06
  SPEAKER_00: I have no idea what it's gonna look like, but I just really feel like it's what I'm supposed to do, and I just really feel God is calling me to do this and to just share all the things that I mentioned.
• 15:19
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so I just thank you for being here and joining in, and I hope we have fun because it's gonna be fun, but I'm excited, so thank you for joining.
• 15:30
  SPEAKER_00: We'll channel later.
• 15:32
  SPEAKER_00: See ya.