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Our Announcement · CelinaSpookyBoo

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  Speaker 1: Oh selena's filming on the bridge you know that means
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  Speaker 1: we're gonna be talking about some deep things warning uh
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  Speaker 1: this is gonna be a video this is gonna be
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  Speaker 1: a video um this bridge which i've told you before
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  Speaker 1: is where i come it's a special place when i
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  Speaker 1: need to think or yell or process things and um
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  Speaker 1: today i'm i'm here to tell you guys something big
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  Speaker 1: and and crazy and i know i've Not exactly dragged
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  Speaker 1: it out, but announced I was going to announce something
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  Speaker 1: and then just didn't say anything. And it was because
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  Speaker 1: I got nervous and excited and I wasn't sure what
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  Speaker 1: I was going to share if I wanted to. But
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  Speaker 1: of course I do, because honestly, you guys feel sometimes
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  Speaker 1: just as much as my family is close to me,
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  Speaker 1: if not more sometimes. And you've been such a big
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  Speaker 1: part of absolutely everything in my life and why I
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  Speaker 1: am where I am and why I can do what
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing and why I am who I am. This
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  Speaker 1: news is crazy. And it feels real for the first
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  Speaker 1: time ever. And I've just sat with it for the
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  Speaker 1: last couple weeks. And I think I'm ready to just
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  Speaker 1: tell you guys. And try not to cry. Bullfrog's going off.
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  Speaker 1: Sun is shining. Everything's great. Don't even cry. A long
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  Speaker 1: time ago, actually a couple times over my career, I
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  Speaker 1: get bombarded. with the question about when are you having kids?
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  Speaker 1: Are you pregnant? Do you have children? Which, you know
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  Speaker 1: what I've said before, like, it's not a nice thing
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  Speaker 1: to ask people, but it, you, I used to live
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  Speaker 1: this life where that shit really hurt me. Like it
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  Speaker 1: hurt me to answer that question. And it's like, well,
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  Speaker 1: what do I say? How do I explain A, B, C, D, E,
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  Speaker 1: and F? Cause the truth is in short synopsis, um,
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  Speaker 1: I tried to have a family for, since I was
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  Speaker 1: like so young, like too young, um, the last 10
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  Speaker 1: years and nine, 10 years, we've been, we've been trying
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  Speaker 1: to have a family, um, but gave up last couple
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  Speaker 1: of years because it felt like it was too hard
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  Speaker 1: to make it happen. And a part of me just
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  Speaker 1: thought that maybe it wasn't supposed to, because if it
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  Speaker 1: was this hard, I had been through two losses. We
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  Speaker 1: had tried a surrogate who bailed and just like shut
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  Speaker 1: me off from ever wanting to even consider having children again.
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  Speaker 1: I had just felt like I had tried every single
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  Speaker 1: avenue and because of my weird uterus, And stuff like...
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  Speaker 1: I just can't carry myself. And... I had an agency.
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  Speaker 1: I spoke to them a while ago. CFC Families. I'm
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  Speaker 1: going to link them down below. Because they are amazing.
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  Speaker 1: Surrogacy agency. Reach out to me. And we spoke back
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  Speaker 1: and forth. And... An amazing group of people. And I remember...
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  Speaker 1: Speaking to them and this woman, Leah, just gave me
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  Speaker 1: so much confidence about the situation. And that was like
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  Speaker 1: almost like two years ago at this point or a
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  Speaker 1: little bit over a year ago. And I just didn't
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  Speaker 1: feel ready. I didn't feel ready and I felt scared
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  Speaker 1: and I felt like I couldn't handle it. And I
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  Speaker 1: felt like I wasn't ready to be disappointed again. But
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  Speaker 1: the truth is, and the announcement is, we got matched
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  Speaker 1: with a surrogate. And she is... wonderful and she has
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  Speaker 1: been a surrogate a few times before and she has
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  Speaker 1: been able to just like guide me through this experience
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  Speaker 1: and she is you know I really believe in reincarnation
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  Speaker 1: stuff like you've known that my paranormal videos and I
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  Speaker 1: just feel like maybe in another life we knew each
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  Speaker 1: other but she is going to be having a baby
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  Speaker 1: for Adam and I not yet not yet um I'm
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  Speaker 1: And that's something I always wanted to do with you guys.
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  Speaker 1: Because I feel like people don't realize that infertility is
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  Speaker 1: like one in four. And so many people have to
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  Speaker 1: deal with this. And a lot of people don't put
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  Speaker 1: it out there. And I just, I'm terrified to do it.
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  Speaker 1: I'm terrified. Terrified for the hormones. I'm terrified for everything. Everything.
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  Speaker 1: But I think it'll feel less scary with you guys
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  Speaker 1: by my side. But yeah, the announcement is for sure.
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  Speaker 1: In 2025, Adam and I will have a baby. Well,
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  Speaker 1: my wonderful surrogate will have the baby for us, but
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  Speaker 1: I couldn't thank her enough. She is such a wonderful
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  Speaker 1: person and she has just laid out the yellow brick
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  Speaker 1: road and explained to me how everything's going to be.
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  Speaker 1: And she's so excited as we are. And it was
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  Speaker 1: always hard for me to imagine my future. Because I
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  Speaker 1: always watch these movies where I'd see people and, you know,
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  Speaker 1: the spinsters and the people without children. And it hurt
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  Speaker 1: me because when I was a little girl, I didn't
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  Speaker 1: want to be a doctor. I didn't want to be
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  Speaker 1: a teacher. All I ever wanted to be was a mom.
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  Speaker 1: I wanted like 10 kids. I just thought it would
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  Speaker 1: be awesome. And for me, my main thing was Adam.
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  Speaker 1: Not letting someone have Adam as a father is the ultimate.
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  Speaker 1: I don't get it. Do you know what I mean?
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  Speaker 1: So the fact that he's going to get that opportunity,
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  Speaker 1: because I just overall, like I say it all the time,
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  Speaker 1: I think Adam is the best dude in the world.
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  Speaker 1: And it's like, I needed that for him and for us.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm scared and I'm excited. And this has been
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  Speaker 1: a long time coming. I was looking in my Facebook
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  Speaker 1: memories the other day, and it was exactly 10 years
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  Speaker 1: ago now that I got pregnant for the first time.
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  Speaker 1: And if everything would have worked out, we would have
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  Speaker 1: a 10-year-old and an 8-year-old right now. And I like
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  Speaker 1: to think that wherever they are, they're going to make
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  Speaker 1: sure that this goes well. I'm crying again! Anyways, so
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  Speaker 1: that is the announcement. Yeah, right? Thank you for being
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  Speaker 1: with me through all of this and watching me cry
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  Speaker 1: a million times about this. I just thought that maybe
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  Speaker 1: it wasn't my path, but now it feels more my
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  Speaker 1: path than ever. If you have ever thought of or
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  Speaker 1: are considering being a surrogate, please check out CFC. They
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  Speaker 1: are extraordinary. Okay. I love you guys. I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: go watch something sad and cry and maybe eat some
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  Speaker 1: chicken wings. Bye.