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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #175_ HOST MINISTER ALMA THOMAS · DA CREW Podcast

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That's good evening, good evening. Welcome to The Crew podcast Podcast one,
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Episode one, seventy five. Amen, what a difference year makes. Amen.
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This is my last show for the year with the hottest production team in
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you can be a part of this amazing team. And we're gonna end the
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year or the same way that I started the year with my friend, my
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sister Apostle Erika t. Moore. But in a year, Amen, what
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a difference a year makes. Amen. So we're gonna start to show off
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with like we do every single week, with prayer. Amen. Because in
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everything you do, Amen, you should give God thanks. Hallelujah, hallelujah,
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Dear heavenly Father, hallelujah. And the precious Max, the son of
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your name, just Son Jesus, hallelujah. We come boldly before your throne
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tonight, asking you God, that you open up our wisdom and understanding.
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God, that you have controlled a man of the Internet on tonight. God
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and the name of Jesus. We're standing on your promises tonight because you've said,
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many are the afflictions of the righteous, but you shall deliver them out
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of them. Or you said you'll need to never leave us or forsake us.
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You'll be with us until the end of time. And God was standing
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on your promises. On tonight, we thank you for the visionary of this
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ministry. God, because it is a ministry. Everything we do brings you
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glory. God, So we thank you for the visionary of this ministry.
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Continue to stir up a gifts in the name of Jesus. Let us work
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in unity, God, because we're building up your kingdom. God. There's
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not separate kingdom, but there's one kingdom in your name. We thank you,
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we praise you, We give you all the glory in Jesus' name.
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I pray, and now I present to some, and I introduce to some
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my best friend of over twenty something years. She's a she's an author,
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she's a motivational speaker, she's a serial entrepreneur. And recently, over the
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last six months, Amen, she lost a man, her beloved husband,
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a man. And so we're on it tonight, Amen, to talk about
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grief, Amen, and some things that people say that they shouldn't say,
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Amen, that there's no expliration date on grief. Nobody can tell you how
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long or how you should grieve. Amen. Grieving is a unique process and
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it's only your process. If you've never gone through it, you cannot judge
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how they would are doing it or how you would do it. If you
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don't know, Amen, Sometimes it's best to keep quiet. So without any
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friend, whether I do, I introduced my wonderful, wonderful friend, Apostle
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Erica T. Moore. How are you, hey, Hey, family,
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I am bettered and amazing and hoping the same for you. How are you
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tonight? I am truly excited, not excited about what we are talking about
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on tonight, but excited to be ending my show, my year with you.
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I started with you, and now that I'm ending with you. Amen,
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I wish a man that we were speaking about another topic on tonight.
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But tell us a little bit about you and what do you spend your days
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doing? How I spend my days now or normally and now so you said
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it in your introduction, author of life pastor Apostle, publisher all those good
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things through an entrepreneurs But the newest title, the newest label I wear now
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is a widow. And that's something that was unexpected. So if you would
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have asked me these questions, this question. Like six months ago, I
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spent my day work in grinding, you know, building minds and my husband's
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empire. Now I spend each day in prayer. I spend each day.
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I spend most of the time in my day on my face in my prayer
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closet, because that is my strength. The last couple of days I spent
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it in my bed. Can barely get about my bed, you know.
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But for the most part, Monday to Fridays, I'm in my word.
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I'm preparing for my morning vitamin daily DOSO inspiration of Vitamin D which is just
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spreading the gospel the way God would want me to have it. So that's
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how I've been spending my days between crying all day this all this like,
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between crying all day, praying, trying to busy myself, spending time with
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my dog was now become my new best friend. That's how I've been spending
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my days these last six months in the presence of God. What does it
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mean to find joy among your mourning? And what does joy look like now?
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Oh my God, what does joy look like now? You and I
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we was up talking to something this morning. I've changed. I am not
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the woman that I was six months ago. I've changed for the better,
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something's even for the worse. The Bible says counted joy when you when you
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fall into divers temptation. I find joy now in the memories of my husband.
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My husband and I were very vigilant. We were transparent, and we
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was tangible, so you can reach us, touch us. We was always
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busy and doing something productive and constructive. So I'm finding joy and seeking God.
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I'm finding joy and holding on to the last words he spoke to me.
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I'm finding joy like today's Wednesdays, i am picking up food. I
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am feeding twenty five families in the community. I'm finding joy, which is
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it comes very seldom. But I'm finding joy in just the idea that I'm
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still moving, that I'm I'm not in that spot where I was six months
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ago when I got the new song. I'm finding joy looks. Joy looks
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different every day, every second, every minute. It's not the same.
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I just woke up and I'm excited about that. A man, Amen,
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what what now do you know that you wish you had known when Apostle Adolf
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first passed away? What have you learned in these last six months that you
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wish you knew on the first day that he passed away. I wish I
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would have known that I was going to be alone. I wish I would
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have known that all the people that said they loved him, that surrounding their
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sounds with him, that busied him. I wish I would have known then
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that they would not be here today, because I wouldn't have wasted time looking
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and hoping and praying that they'll come just to say anything, boo high hello.
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I wish I would have known that I'm trying to words just right because
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I gotta be careful. I wish I would have known that that it would
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be that it would be a long road, and man a man, and
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it is a long journey. That non't matter if it's one year or it's
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ten years. You're always gonna have the memories, and you never know how
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the memories are gonna affect you. One minute you might be laughing and the
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next minute you're gonna be crying. The devil tries to tell yo, you
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Bipola, you're you're crazy, You're not gonna make it. But we know
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that the devil is a liar and that God has a lot more in store
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for you. We just gotta keep moving. What surprised you most about your
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journey. What surprised me is God's strengthen ability to strengthen me to endure this
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and to keep going no matter what came all way. I took a looking,
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but I still kept going, ticking like the energizer bunny. What surprised
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me is that whoo that should have sent me into the mental institution. Everything
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that I've endured from January sixth and from the moment they said ma'am, I'm
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sorry for your loss. You know, I be talking about it. I
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was talking about it today with somebody. I can't believe these six months already,
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Saturday, December sixteen, Mate, six months, and I was like,
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I can't believe that I'm still standing. People have always said amen,
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And man, Amen, welcome back. Are you able to continue apostle?
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Yes? Yes, yes, yes, I'm just I'm just elated that I'm
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still standing. Amen. Amen. Sometimes Amen, people will put a S
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on our chest that stands for Superwoman, and inside we are secretly hurting.
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But I'll tell you all the time that grief has no expiration date. And
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unless you go through all the stages of grief, you will become stagnated in
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one spot. And that's what makes people lose their mind that what, in
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what ways has this been harder than you thought? I know that you never
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we never even imagine that six months ago we would six months now be having
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this discussion that he's been going for six months. And it's hard to see
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someone you truly love go through a pain that you can't help them with.
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You can't just put a band aid on this pain. You can't just slap
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some oil on it and it goes away. But what did you imagine that
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in your mind? Have you ever thought about if something had happened to him,
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how you would go on? And has it been harder than you imagine?
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It's definitely been harder than I imagine, because I've always imagined me going
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first. Adolf and I will have the conversation. I would say that Ada,
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I need to die first, because God forbid, if you die first,
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I will be here alone. He didn't believe that I will be here
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alone. Well, and I'm not talking about my circle. I'm talking about
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his camp. So think about it. Remember June sixth, you know I
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was saying goodbye. I was having my last podcast. He was my co
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host, right right, and not even what June sixth? What is that?
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Ten days later he's gone? So I can't believe that I'm here.
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Even the day that we was burying him, I didn't want to go,
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but it hit me. I'm a I was like, oh, shoot,
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we're the we're the sense of attention. Listen, you gotta show up.
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This is your husband. I didn't. I was the apostle was fine,
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but Erica done checked out. I understood the moment they announced him that and
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they said, well, I'm sorry for your loss. The only thing that
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came out my mouth is versus guy here, I am, I will serve
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you, I will serve you. I'm right here. So I knew enough
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to know that the woman, the wife, could not show up, but
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the apostle needed to walk in integrity because those were some of the last words
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that my husband spoke to me, not even knowing that that was our goodbye
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because I told him that he died. Amen. Amen, Like I said,
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it's a hard piller swallow, so I imagine we're going through it alongside
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of you that it's hard for you to imagine that you're still standing. That's
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how I felt when my son passed away. I was like, I'm not
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going to the funeral because if I don't go, there won't be a funeral,
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because how can you have a funeral without his mother? And then I
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noticed everybody was getting dressed and they were whispering around like, Okay, if
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she doesn't come, you know, just sit here with her. But you
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know, basically the show must go on. Amen. Like we it's hard,
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but God gives us the strength. Like I was talking to someone and
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I said, I don't know how anybody goes goes through death without God,
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because barely with God you can make it. You feel like you know you
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want to go too. You just don't know what you're gonna do. But
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tell us of some happier time. What do you remember most about Apostle and
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man when I remember it said he was a motivator and a pusher, and
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he motivated you in a way, not that you felt like he was that
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he was pushing you, but you knew he was motivating you. He wanted
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the best for you. And I find myself or the lessons that he taught
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me over the year that we got close, I find myself pulling on those
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lessons now, like you have to be strong one of you. You understand
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that your sister is going through and if you love her, you'll do everything
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and your power that you're able to do to alleviate some of the pain,
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some of the pressure to hold her hands up when she feels like she can't
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go on. But one of some of the happier memories that you have of
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Apostle. It's funny that you say that because tomorrow would have been our tenth
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year anniversary. So one of the things that I've been holding on today was
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first of all, I was dressed in all his clothing on today, his
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chain, his shirt, his sweatpants. I was in an atoor for most
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state of mind. But I'm recalling coming down here and me and Charity were
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sick with the stomach virus, and we were sick. We were a mess,
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we were tore up. We looked at like we didn't belong to nobody.
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And I called him the day before and I said, I'm not going
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to be able to We're gonna have to be scheduled our wedding. Were sick,
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and he told me, do whatever you have to do, but make
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sure y'all are on that plane. Get on that plane. So when we
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got here, it's so funny because he looked at us and shook his head
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like, oh my god, but we were sick. He went back,
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he nursed us back to hell. We arrived on a Thursday. That Friday
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morning, as we're going and I changed my profile picture to that picture of
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his face because we're sick. I can't really do my head out. My
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wig is have longside and whatever. I'm like, hey, we got the
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stomach virus, but we're getting married that Saturday. So we was to say,
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we're inside the place the registered in d and my husband was popping junk
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and I clapped back. I started, you know me, my mouth was
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slick. I started popping jump not knowing that the ladies were all paying attention,
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and everybody started cracking up, even my husband. And it was then
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that Charity captured that moment of Adolf smiling because I just told them off and
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the love of way, I clapped back my mouth to slick. So that's
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one of the memories that are giving me through because a lot of people are
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speaking things like I know you're gonna be depressed, depressed the blood of Jesus,
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I'm grieving. I'm not depressed. I'm hurt, you know, or
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I know it's gonna be hard for you, And I'm like, God,
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no, no, no, no. I I had to stow away.
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I had to get to myself. So one of the lessons that I hold
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them to for my husband, no matter what comes your way, you live.
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And we would have these conversations ad of what would I am to do
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if you was to leave Either you are to live your life, live your
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life. So I'm here trying to make sense of my life while living my
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life. So there's so many valuable lessons like the entrepreneurship. My house is
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full of conversation business ideas him closing bills and talking with multi millionaires and billionaires.
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That's the type of husband. That's the type of man I was married
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to. And now my house is quiet. I understand, amen, Amen.
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And your daily dose of vitamin D is such an inspiration to women who
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are going through the same thing that you're going through. Amen. And they
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see a man that as you're counting down the days, you're relying on the
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strength of God because we know that we can cast all his kids, our
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kids on him because he cares for us. Amen. But how can someone
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get in touch with you that's going through that's a newly binds usself, a
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new widow, a new you know, a this is a different life,
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a new chapter and a life. Well. They can find me on Facebook
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Erica Tmore just take it on my table, this dog is acting up.
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They can find me social media, Instagram author Erica T. Fourteen. You
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can contact me six three one nine zero two sixty six zero six, or
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you can DM me. That's where you can find me. Amen. Amen.
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And with all that you're going through in this point in life. Amen,
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I celebrate you on tonight. I celebrate you for keeping the legacy of
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apostible live. I celebrate you because this is not an easy journey to travel
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on. It has unexpected twists and turns, and and the people that you
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thought was in your corner you find out that they're not in your corner.
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But God supplies amen, everything that we need. So He's gonna replace those
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people with the new people, the people that know the new you. See,
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the people who knew the old U had to go with the old you
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because now you're entering a new chapter in your life and you're gonna be You're
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gonna be new. Amen. And as I always tell this parable about the
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eagle, the first half of the eagle's life he goes about flying and doing
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his business. And then when it gets halfway through his life, he goes
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in a remote place by himself, and he pulls all the feathers off of
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his face. And we know that's a pain for process to pluck your face
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your feathers one by one. But he lives to be one hundred and twenty
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years old, So this happens when he's sixty. He gets he goes,
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he gets renewed, refreshed for the second half of his life. So God
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has you in a place that he's plucking all the feathers off of you,
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and it doesn't feel good. Hey, money as you in a place by
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yourself so you can hear his voice. Sometimes we hear so many voices that
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God is calling us out of our waiting position, but we can't hear him
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because there's so many voices talking in our ear. But I celebrate you for
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taking his journey one day at a time, being transparent, because sometimes when
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you're grieving, people want to say you're depressed. People want to say you
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don't believe in God. But no matter what position, what title that we
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have, underneath all of that, we are human first and just like Jesus
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took on humanly blessed so he can experience everything that we experience. Even after
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his friend Lazarith died and he knew he was going to raise Lazarith back,
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but he cried. He cried for his friend. So God understands when we
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are grieving. We might understand even when people say, oh, they're in
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a better place. We know they're in a better place, but we don't
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want to hear that right now, because when it's tender and it's fresh in
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my mind, I'm thinking when my son passed away and people was like,
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he's in a better place, and I'm thinking, like, Okay, you
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got five kids, won't you send one of yours to the better place and
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send mind God right because you know that they're in a better place. You
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understand that, but you don't want to hear it because right now, at
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this moment, the better place is with you celebrating your ten year anniversary.
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So we celebrate you. Thank you for being willing to come on tonight at
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such a tender part of your healing to share with us what it's like having
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your circle broken, having that chain, that that that bracelet will never be
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a complete bracelet because one of the leaks is missing. So we celebrate you.
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We thank you for coming on tonight and taking time out of your grieving
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process to share with us, to be open with us. And I thank
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you for being on my last show of twenty twenty three looking forward to twenty
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twenty four. But I started twenty twenty three with you on the show,
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and now I'm a year later, I'm ending the show with you and I
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wouldn't want it no other way because you possess such a special place in my
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heart. So I'm glad that I was able to share this time with you.
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And even though the subject was tough, was tough, you handled it
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with grace. So I thank you, I thank you. I thank everybody
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that's watching, those that are gonna watch on the replay. Remember we'll be
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back in February. So like sharing comments, shared this live with your friends
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that might be in a space this same situation. You may not have lost
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a husband, but you might have lost a childlike I dig. You might
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have lost the wife, you might have lost a friend. And during these
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holidays seasons is when we have to remember those that are going through. So
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good night, good night, and God bless We're going to have a word
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of prayer a man before we close. Dear Heavenly Father and the precious name
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of your son, Jesus, we thank you for this year. God.
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We thank you for the lessons learned. God. We thank you God for
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how you have strengthened your daughter through this process. God, continue to strengthen
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her. God, continue to gird her up for the journey. Continue to
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give her the discerning spirit, a man that she needs in this season.
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God, Oh, we thank you, We give you glory, we give
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you praise because you're an awesome God, and we're so grateful, grateful,
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grateful for the things you're doing in this season. And we're looking forward to
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the next chapter of our lives. Good Night, good night, good night.
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See you in twenty twenty four. God, bless of a happy new
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year, a blessed holiday, and I'll see you next year. Ma,
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Happy birthday, Love you, love you. Tell