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39: Why Rest Feels Unsafe for So Many People - and stillness starts to feel threatening · (re)Parenting Radio

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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to Reparenting Radio.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm Lisa Watson, architect of human transformation.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a space for leaders, parents, and anyone ready to break old patterns, regulate their nervous system, and show up in their life with clarity and self-trust.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you're ready to change the way you lead, love, and live, you're in the right place.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let's begin.
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  SPEAKER_00: Hello and welcome back to Reparenting Radio.
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  SPEAKER_00: Today we're going to talk about something that I think most people feel.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's this strange discomfort feeling, just uncomfortable feeling, when life slows down.
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  SPEAKER_00: When, you know, even life meaning like a day, a week, maybe even a couple of hours.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just truly the inability to rest, the constant need to stay busy, you know, the urge that we have to keep cleaning and working and scrolling and fixing and planning, producing, thinking, moving, doing, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Even when there's technically nothing urgent happening.
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  SPEAKER_00: And what's interesting is that most people don't even realize that they're doing it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And as you're listening to this, you might be thinking, I don't do that, I just have a lot of stuff to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because culturally, we have normalized busyness so deeply that it actually gets praised.
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  SPEAKER_00: You ask somebody, how have you been?
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  SPEAKER_00: and they say, Oh, busy, crazy busy.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh, I've just been so busy lately.
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  SPEAKER_00: And almost automatically, the response that you get back is something like, oh, well, that's good, or that's great, good for you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh, I'm so glad to hear it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You must be doing a lot.
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  SPEAKER_00: My goodness, you're so productive.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's awesome.
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  SPEAKER_00: Busy's good, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: But I've started realizing over the years that both personally and through the work that I do with clients, that busyness is not necessarily fulfilling.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes it's survival.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes it's just our nervous system conditioning, and sometimes it's emotional avoidance dressed up as productivity.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think many people have unknowingly built their identity around being productive.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, productive means that we're being useful, that we're needed, maybe we're efficient and responsible and high functioning.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the difficult part is that a lot of these patterns are rewarded by society.
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  SPEAKER_00: The overachiever gets praised, you know, the exhausted parent gets praised, the person working nonstop gets admired, and the person who never rests gets labeled as ambitious and what a go-getter.
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  SPEAKER_00: Meanwhile, underneath it all, many nervous systems are completely shot.
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  SPEAKER_00: They're just overwhelmed and completely shot.
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  SPEAKER_00: But because the outside world validates the behavior, people rarely stop to question whether the pace that they're living at is actually healthy and serving them.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this starts very, very young.
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  SPEAKER_00: Children absorb what life is supposed to feel like through the modeled behavior of the adults around them.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when they're witnessing rushing and multitasking, the inability to slow down, the constant checking of the phone, stress, emotional unavailability of their parents, packed schedules, just not even their parents, just adults in general watching them.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then they've got basketball practice, dance, play dates, homework, volleyball, gymnastics, camp, you know, t-ball at four years old.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think we have to become more honest about how many adults just don't know how to rest and they're really not modeling those behaviors for children, or they're also setting up the children's lives in a way that mirror their own lives.
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  SPEAKER_00: Our nervous systems learned very early that slowing down was not safe.
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  SPEAKER_00: A child growing up in unpredictability, conflict, criticism, and maybe financial stress or conditional love, they often adapt by becoming hyper-aware.
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  SPEAKER_00: So they'll be, you know, hyper-responsible, hyper-vigilant, hyper-independent.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so the body is learning stay alert, stay useful, stay productive, stay ahead, don't relax too much, don't make many mistakes, don't stop moving, don't have any extra time in your day.
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  SPEAKER_00: And eventually those survival adaptations become personality traits.
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  SPEAKER_00: So the child who had to stay on and always busy becomes the adult who cannot relax without guilt, can't stop scrolling, can't stop shopping, can't stop thinking.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the child who learned love through achievement becomes the adult who feels worthless when they're resting.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have a friend who grew up in a very educationally strict home.
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  SPEAKER_00: Study, study, study.
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  SPEAKER_00: And today, in her 40s, I watch her and she thinks she just has ADHD.
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  SPEAKER_00: And she can't stop multitasking and running from one thing to the next and then forgetting things.
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  SPEAKER_00: And and there's shopping and there's scrolling and there's constant calls to girlfriends.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I see it, it's just a result of the way that her nervous system was wired to never relax, never have any free time.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I think that this is where healing can get really interesting because many people consciously say that they want peace, but unconsciously they feel unsafe when peace actually arrives.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever noticed that when your life finally slows down a bit, when you finally have a free day and nobody needs anything around you, nothing dramatic's happening, that instead of feeling relaxed, you suddenly feel kind of anxious?
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  SPEAKER_00: I know it's absolutely happens to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like restless or agitated or uncomfortable or not sure what to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's like your mind starts searching for problems, you start cleaning something unnecessarily, or reach for your phone, or you just start creating tasks or start thinking about work or start feeling guilty about something.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is not your personality, that's conditioning.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's a nervous system that became accustomed to activation.
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  SPEAKER_00: And for many people that stress feeling became really familiar, and it became homeostasis for your nervous system.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because what becomes familiar often feels safe even when it's exhausting.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think we we live in a culture that is deeply addicted to stimulation.
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  SPEAKER_00: We know that, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Constant input, noise, constant productivity and urgency, and and honestly, many people have never learned how to simply be with themselves.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because the moment the distraction stops, the feeling underneath finally has space to surface.
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  SPEAKER_00: And those feelings can be grief, loneliness, fear, emptiness, exhaustion, unprocessed emotions and old pain, things that we've never given ourselves time to actually feel.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when we suppress an emotion, we push it down, you know, energy cannot be created or destroyed.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that energy of that emotion, it gets trapped inside of us.
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  SPEAKER_00: If we don't eventually feel it through our tears or through our words, it's going to manifest itself somewhere in our body, maybe as an illness, you know, as a as a rash or as a tumor, as a headache, or as inflammation somewhere in the body.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's really important that we give ourselves time to actually feel these emotions.
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  SPEAKER_00: And they they could be emotions that have been trapped in there since we were two years old.
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  SPEAKER_00: But instead of slowing down long enough to feel what's there, many people just keep themselves in motion.
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  SPEAKER_00: And they're not doing it consciously, but subconsciously, protectively.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I'm not against ambition.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm not against discipline and doing things.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because mind you, I do a lot.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have a lot of projects and lots of things going all the time.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, you know, this episode isn't about anti-ambition.
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  SPEAKER_00: I love creating, I love meaningful work, I love building things, and I think purpose is beautiful.
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  SPEAKER_00: But this is about awareness because there's a massive difference between creating from alignment and running from yourself through constant productivity.
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  SPEAKER_00: And one of the things that I have personally had to learn in my own healing journey is that rest is not laziness.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's regulation, it's repair, it's needed biologically.
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  SPEAKER_00: And honestly, many people feel guilty resting because somewhere along the way they learn that their value came from what they did and what they produced, not from who they are.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's a really painful program to carry.
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  SPEAKER_00: Many, many, many of us are carrying, especially for women and parents and high performers, and men too.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I think one of the most important questions we can start asking ourselves is who am I when I'm not performing?
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  SPEAKER_00: Who am I when I'm not needed?
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  SPEAKER_00: Who am I when I'm not fixing other people's problems?
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  SPEAKER_00: And who am I when I'm not trying to prove myself?
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  SPEAKER_00: Can I sit quietly with myself without immediately needing a distraction?
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  SPEAKER_00: Can I allow stillness without interpreting it as failure?
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  SPEAKER_00: Because healing often looks like creating enough internal safety for the body to realize that I don't have to stay in survival mode anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: And for those of you who've been following and listening to this podcast, you know that I moved to Mexico for four years.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, and I just moved back a few months ago.
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  SPEAKER_00: And and that is what I did in Mexico for four years.
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  SPEAKER_00: I literally had to train myself to relax.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have always been such a type A personality.
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  SPEAKER_00: I found my safety and productivity.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, I was married to a very volatile man who was a little OCD, and I just kept things perfect all the time.
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  SPEAKER_00: And and in Mexico, I literally trained myself just to just learn how to relax.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it wasn't easy.
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  SPEAKER_00: I mean, I honestly just sat in a chair sometimes, whether it be on the beach or on my back patio, and I chose to do nothing, literally nothing.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have trained myself to leave baskets of laundry on the floor or on my bed or dishes in the sink, maybe overnight, and let myself sit with the discomfort of it and stop defining myself by those things.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I'll tell you, it was very challenging, but totally worth it because I'm so much more relaxed now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now laundry doesn't stress me, dishes don't stress me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now I realize it's just a choice, and if they don't get done right away, it doesn't define me.
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  SPEAKER_00: And for parents, I think it's really, really important that we understand that children need slowness.
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  SPEAKER_00: They need boredom, they need space to use their imagination, to regulate, to decompress, and to simply exist without constant stimulation.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think many adults unintentionally recreate in childhood the same overstimulation they themselves are struggling to heal from because we think that it's the way we should do it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we sign our kids up for sports and activities, we hand them screens and homework and schedules and constant entertainment, plastic toys everywhere, books.
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  SPEAKER_00: And again, none of these things are inherently bad, but nervous systems need recovery too.
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  SPEAKER_00: Children do not just need achievement, they need presence, and so do adults.
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  SPEAKER_00: Boredom creates the need for imagination, and imagination becomes the bridge to a new perspective.
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  SPEAKER_00: And a new perspective can become a new lens that creates a new belief.
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  SPEAKER_00: And because our beliefs create our reality, that shows you just how important imagination is.
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  SPEAKER_00: If we're constantly being handed things that show us exactly how things are supposed to be, children aren't building them with their imagination.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like I'm thinking, I'm around a lot of kids, I nanny sometimes, I enjoy being around small children, I live with them, and I just see like the the toys nowadays that are just like the garage, you know, that has absolutely every detail of everything, or the the the trucks with the trash can disposal, and it's got there's no room for imagination for the kids.
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  SPEAKER_00: They don't have to imagine anything.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's just exactly a duplication of the world that we're living in.
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  SPEAKER_00: How do we create something new when we're not given the space to have to think about something new or create something in our mind of what we would enjoy?
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  SPEAKER_00: I think one of the most radical things we can do in this generation is to relearn how to be present, to walk without constant input, to sit outside without scrolling, to eat slowly, to breathe deeply, and to allow silence without immediately trying to escape it.
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  SPEAKER_00: I go to yoga often and I'm always amazed at the people in yoga class for the five or ten minutes that we're waiting for the teacher.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, we get in there and set up our mat, and there's always a few people on their phone, just scrolling, scrolling, scrolling, just waiting for class to start.
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  SPEAKER_00: Can we not even sit for ten minutes in silence and just wait?
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  SPEAKER_00: There's wisdom in stillness.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's information in stillness.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's healing, there's opportunity for connection with self and others and nature.
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  SPEAKER_00: Silence creates space to hear ourselves again, to feel our body, to notice our nervous system, to become aware of what's actually happening.
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  SPEAKER_00: What are we really feeling internally belief below beneath all of the noise and distraction?
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  SPEAKER_00: And sometimes in that stillness we begin reconnecting to a sense of ease that was always available underneath the survival patterns.
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  SPEAKER_00: Our higher self's wisdom is available to us in the silence, beyond constant force and striving.
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  SPEAKER_00: But many of us have become so conditioned to survive through pressure, urgency, and overfunctioning that we've lost connection to stillness and we've lost that connection to our higher self and to our intuition.
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  SPEAKER_00: In the stillness is where our clarity can return.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's why you always have a more clarity when you're in the shower or, you know, just like driving in your car.
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  SPEAKER_00: When you've turned your brain off for a second, you're not trying to think.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's like, oh, oh, you know, this moment of clarity when you're not distracting yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: But for many of us, we have to slowly rebuild safety there first, like I did in Mexico.
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  SPEAKER_00: Practice it actually.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that takes awareness, it takes patience, it takes compassion with yourself, and it takes nervous system work.
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  SPEAKER_00: So maybe this week, instead of immediately feeling every quiet moment, try allowing yourself a few moments of presence.
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  SPEAKER_00: Go for a walk without your phone.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have a meal without distraction.
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  SPEAKER_00: Take a few deep breaths before reaching for the next task.
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  SPEAKER_00: And just notice what comes up.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not to judge yourself, not to force healing, not to find something wrong with you or fix yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're just becoming aware.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because awareness is where patterns begin to loosen.
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  SPEAKER_00: Awareness is where your nervous system begins to soften.
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  SPEAKER_00: And awareness is where we stop unconditionally running the old programs.
• 18:54
  SPEAKER_00: Now, if you're wanting some reminders of how to consistently practice awareness, reprogramming yourself and seeing your patterns, I have put together a few free resources for you.
• 19:05
  SPEAKER_00: There's I have three things.
• 19:06
  SPEAKER_00: I have a quick start guide to reparenting, I have a conscious parenting guide, and then I also have created a guide for what to look for as a founder or as a leader before you scale.
• 19:17
  SPEAKER_00: The links to all these free PDFs are in the show notes.
• 19:21
  SPEAKER_00: You can download them directly from there.
• 19:24
  SPEAKER_00: And that's all I have for you this week, folks.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for listening to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope you find some relaxation, some quietness, maybe even some boredom in your week this week.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I'll talk to you next time.
• 19:40
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you for listening to Reparenting Radio.
• 19:43
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• 19:53
  SPEAKER_00: If you're ready for serious inner work and real transformation, personally or professionally, you can explore my leadership pathways at Lisa-Watson.com.
• 20:02
  SPEAKER_00: And if you're raising little ones alongside your own healing, you'll find my children's books at awakentheone.org.
• 20:08
  SPEAKER_00: Until next time, stay grounded, stay open, and keep reparenting the parts of you that are ready to come home to their authenticity.