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how sometimes you might look like the narcissist in the relationship · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on? Beautiful people.
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  Welcome to another episode of The Narcissist code.
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  I'm your favorite self-aware, narcissist mr.
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  Lee hammock better known as mental illness across all social
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  media platforms. This your first time seeing my
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  face or hear my voice. I'm a clinically diagnosed
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  narcissist. That is my platform on social
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  media to raise awareness for MPD.
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  Get more people in the therapy like myself, six years, strong
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  and also validate the victims survivors and thrivers of said
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  disorder said toxic people said toxic traits.
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  Today's episode is going to be about how sometimes times you
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  end up looking like the narcissist.
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  Sometimes you end up looking like the toxic narcissistic
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  person. Before we hop in today's
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  episode, y'all, make sure you have on Amazon.
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  Check out these self-love Journal.
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  I love me bodily hammock that self-love journal and whatnot to
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  you know help you rebuild that self-love and identity and all
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  those other good things. But yeah I'd always tell people,
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  controlling your reactions is a superpower.
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  Our did not a lot of people have when you're dealing with
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  narcissistic. People learning learning to
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  control your reactions. Learning to control your
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  behaviors in, you know, how you react to that in the toxic
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  narcissistic person is a superpower because the more you
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  react, the more, the worst you look.
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  Sometimes, y'all and that's just me.
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  Being real. Is this not me?
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  Trying to be. I'm not y'all know what y'all
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  follow me for any specific period of time?
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  You know, I'm not here to victim blame, that's just not, I don't
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  do that. It's just I mean, I don't do the
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  victim blaming thing, but this is me just letting, you know,
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  they like if you are reacting to them, if you are experiencing
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  reactive abuse, which is a real day.
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  If you don't know where reactive, if you don't do not
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  know where reactive abuse is its.
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  When you look like the abuser, you are reacting to them, you're
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  reacting to them. It could be built up over time.
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  It could be just spur of the moment, but you are reacting to
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  them for some way, shape or form.
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  You are you're, you are reacting to them right in.
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  They get you on camera, sometimes they record you being
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  toxic, sometimes they record. You being the looking like the
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  aggressor you some saying if you are recorded or you are
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  continuously reacting out of character, you look like the
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  narcissist y'all. I'm not calling you The
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  Narcissist. I'm just saying you look like
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  the narcissistic person over time.
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  I've seen plenty of videos online where the the victim
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  looks like the abuser and abusive posted online and
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  everybody starts calling me. The person who is actually the
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  victim, they're narcissists, you might start to act like the
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  narcissist. You might talk to start to pick
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  up traits from this toxic narcissistic person because
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  you've been in a relationship with them and you are reflecting
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  back their behaviors to them, you're reflecting back.
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  Who I am to me. You said I'm saying you learn
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  how to defend yourself against Me by becoming an acting like
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  me. The narcissistic person.
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  A lot of people call that narcissistic fleas.
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  It's like when you start to act and behave like the Cystic
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  person, you start to be a liar, you start to be manipulative,
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  you start gaslighting, you start being dismissive and deflecting
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  and big and blame deflecting. You start doing that type of
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  stuff because you've been around this person for so long.
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  It's kind of like, you know, when people say you've been in a
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  relationship so long, you saw the look like the other person.
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  These are the, I like the other person.
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  Imagine looking and acting like your narcissistic person.
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  You some say, you look like the narcissist sometimes y'all.
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  I'm just I'm telling you, I'm not calling y'all.
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  Do not take this video. The Wrong way, I'm not calling
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  you a narcissist. I'm just telling you, I'm here
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  trying to help check you. So, you don't look like the
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  beauty. You don't look abusive to other
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  people, from Outsiders looking in.
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  You see, I'm saying? And I only sometimes the you
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  look like the narcissistic person because you're reacting
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  you possibly reacting to them. Sometimes they are already
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  spreading these days. Started a smear campaign on you
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  to tell other people, the same thing somehow, they took their
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  telling other people that you are the abuser, they're painting
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  this image of you being Abuser a day, once you behave like the
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  abuser, they got you, controlling your reactions is a
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  superpower. Yeah, I'm telling you, you have
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  to get this, you know, how you see the people who meditate and
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  they cross their legs and start floating into the dam.
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  Are that's how you need to get to that level of Zen.
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  When you're, you know, you need to get to that level of Zen and
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  just imagine yourself like Julius cross at you.
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  Like you're doing your own homes.
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  Like I'm And he's just start floating off the ground because
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  you're so at peace in this toxic relationship.
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  Because when you at, when you have peace, when you are, when
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  you are exerting, when you are like expressing, when you are,
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  when you have positive, peaceful energy coming from your from
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  your presence coming from your being, you irritate a
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  narcissistic person Soul, who could because we as narcissistic
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  people are rarely if ever at peace.
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  So we are jealous of your piece. Ice.
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  So we need to disrupt it you know me we would disrupt it and
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  sometimes yes, yes, yes, y'all a lot of that sometimes a lot of
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  times the narcissistic person in your life is setting you off on
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  purpose. A lot of times the narcissistic
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  person in your life is triggering you on purpose.
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  They're trying to set you up on purpose to behave like this so
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  they can play the victim. Why wouldn't it like, why do you
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  want? Why do Mars is going to play the
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  victim so much. Why wouldn't they?
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  Why wouldn't The Narcissist want to play the victim?
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  Why did they need to change their behaviors?
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  If people keep coddling in their coddling him and enabling them
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  if people keep doing the same thing over and over and over
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  again to this person. Why wouldn't they Jim saying?
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  But lie, I love him so much. Okay, look out Let Your Love
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  make you look like the abuser if you if that's what you want.
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  If you if y'all if the only reason you stayed in this
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  relationship because you feel like you love this person, they
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  let your love. Make you look like the abuse.
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  It's is love worth it. Look worth you looking like the
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  abuse. Sure.
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  Some people will say yeah, because at least I have them.
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  If you say, if you say yes to that question, then you need to
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  go to therapy. Oh it is not me.
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  Trying to down. Talk you a bad choke.
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  You you need to talk to a therapist because there's
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  something going on inside of you that needs to be healed.
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  You see? I'm saying, if you think love is
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  enough to keep you in a toxic abusive as relationship because
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  you love this person. I'm telling you, there's
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  something going on inside of you.
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  I'm not saying there's something wrong with you.
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  I'm saying there's something going on inside of you that
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  needs to be healed. To help you break this trauma
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  bond to help you break the ties. That Bind that bind you to this
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  person because you're going to look abusive, I'm just telling
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  you, I'm just putting out there and being open and honest with
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  you. You're going to look the longer
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  you in this relationship, the more app you are to look
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  abusive. And then narcissistic person who
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  might be a covert narcissist in, nobody expects it being
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  narcissistic, they people think is a very good person that
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  person might be using. They might be a covert
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  narcissist didn't nobody says specs or expects to be
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  narcissistic and guess what happens?
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  People take their side. The therapist, if y'all go to
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  marriage counseling couples counseling, they take their side
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  because their covert narcissist a person, you are reacting to
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  them. You said I'm saying that's what
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  you tell people control it. You have to get control of your
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  reactions and yes, y'all. I know it's easier said than
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  done. I know the kids might be
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  involved. I know houses and cars and
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  vacations in like, your lives might be intertwined, you may
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  like a tightly knotted, tightly knotted French braid, you know,
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  me. But you have to find some way to
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  find a healthy outlet. That is does not help make you
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  look abusive because sometimes it only lets I'm just telling
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  you, I have messages from a lot of people I posted A video the
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  other day about is a reactive abused video.
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  It was like five or six seconds long, it was just very short
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  video about a person screaming and crying and lashing out
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  finally lashing out and exploding in the narcissistic
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  person, recording them and making them staying calm.
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  You know, me and a lot of people just like Willie, I don't know
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  if they're doing it on purpose, or if they're really trying to
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  set me off on purpose, if they put on the phone or if they do,
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  they don't even have to put on a phone if you are reacting
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  negatively, if you are yelling and screaming and About to pull
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  your hair out and something along those lines and they are
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  still sitting right there, calm, cool, and collected, then they
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  did, they probably did it on purpose, you something, if they
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  have enough wherewithal to pull their phone out and record.
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  You believe, while you, when you react, they feel like they got
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  you. Because as I say all the time,
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  if I can trigger you, I can control you.
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  That's the mindset that a lot of narcissistic toxic people have.
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  Yo, if I can trigger you, I Can control you.
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  There's no, if there's no buts, there's no.
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  If M, there's no if ands and buts.
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  If I can set you off on purpose, I got you.
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  They're just telling people you have to get control of your
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  reaction job because sometimes you're going to look like the
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  abuser. And I know people going to say I
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  believe I've been asking myself that question for a long time.
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  If I'm actually The Narcissist because my narcissistic toxic as
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  partner, who's cheated on me? Beat on me, left me a couple
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  time, discarded, me love balmy. Did all the stuff to me, they
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  called me the Narcissus and I was just like, wait, no, there's
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  no way I'm an artist it and I've read online that if you ask
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  Self. Do, if you ask yourself, if you
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  are an artist, has that automatically means you're not
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  want. It does.
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  Automatically you're not a narcissist job that just how it
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  works. You can play.
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  This is how the mindset of everything works.
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  They just have to do that, the dynamic of everything works.
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  It is a very weird unique mindset to have, but I'm just
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  telling you the longer you stay in a toxic relationship.
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  The more you argue probably are going to look toxic as hell.
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  Believe how do I know if it's not me for certain?
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  Yeah, first of all, go to therapy.
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  Are you open to taking accountability and going to
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  therapy and work on yourself? Then chances are you might not
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  be the nurse. Consistent person in your life.
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  In your relationship, Dynamic, your relationship space.
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  You know me. Are you willing to take that
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  look to take that deep introspective look within
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  yourself? You know, are you willing to do
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  that? It's up to you.
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  I'm just I'm just telling people.
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  It is absolutely up to you in this mindset and it's Dynamic of
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  things, you, but you have to choose you.
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  It's okay to choose you. I know a lot of times you need
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  toxic relationship, Dynamics and tight relationship spaces, they
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  make you feel guilty for choosing you, right?
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  Don't feel good to put your eyes easier said than done, but I
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  need you to not feel guilty about picking yourself about,
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  choosing yourself about you about winning.
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  Now, you can win waiting this, definitely 100% possible.
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  It just don't, I just don't want y'all to look like narcissistic
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  people and it drive, you crazy. Some people who get dripping to
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  the point of craziness because the narcissist, the person will
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  not leave them up there. Narcissistic person keeps
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  hammering away at them and hammering away at them and
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  hammering away at them and hammered away at them.
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  And so you feel until you crack. You explode, in the Take your
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  toxic will lie. I've had a narcissistic rage
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  incident, my partner did this pool party, did that and then I
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  started yelling the screaming. Is that make me nurses.
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  Know there's a lot of it doesn't make you an artist as a job.
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  I'm just telling you might be, it might be you in a toxic
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  relationship. Have you behaved like this in
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  previous relationships, you know, is this a consistent
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  pattern, your entire life or do you feel like a new person since
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  you've been in this relationship space, you feel like a new
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  person. Then there's the, you have it
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  right there. Anyways, y'all thank you for
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  tuning in to another episode. I truly appreciate it.
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  A single one of y'all because as much as y'all say, y'all learn
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  from me. I promise you promise.
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