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Da Poetic Lounge presented by Aspiring Authors Magazine_W/ DA VOICE KISHA J · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Shoot, so if you don't mind, let's have a little
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  Speaker 1: church right now.
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  Speaker 2: Shoes something about that name.
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  Speaker 1: Listen, shouting something about the name.
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  Speaker 3: Hallilujahs, sweet sweet, sweetest, sweetest.
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  Speaker 4: Hello, I'm gonna lift your hands and said it.
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  Speaker 3: Is a sweet thank you Jesus.
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  Speaker 4: I listen is right here.
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  Speaker 1: Some people say a free river.
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  Speaker 2: I can't explain.
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  Speaker 5: Oh no.
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  Speaker 6: That I feel.
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  Speaker 2: We'll not call your name, call your day, said it's
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  Speaker 2: just lie. Oh shut up in my bones?
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  Speaker 6: Whoa day?
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  Speaker 1: The whole that goesn't move?
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  Speaker 2: And he alone something.
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  Speaker 1: Shop shut.
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  Speaker 7: Mm hmm.
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  Speaker 1: Well I'm still you see me. I'm still singing. I'm
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  Speaker 1: still singing. So we lied. I think we lie.
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  Speaker 8: We're on, stay on the stage. We were ready, right
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  Speaker 8: we be okay, okay, thank you, thank you, thank you.
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  Speaker 8: Good evening everyone, good evening, gonna get you give the evening.
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  Speaker 1: I am so glad.
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  Speaker 9: I really can't see who's on yet, but that is okay.
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  Speaker 9: I'm glad whoever it is here it's here today to
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  Speaker 9: spend this one day.
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  Speaker 1: Evening with us. So I just want to welcome everyone again.
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  Speaker 9: And my name is Keisha Johnson and Craig and you're
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  Speaker 9: at the Poetry Lounge podcast, and this podcast was given
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  Speaker 9: to us, and this podcast started by aspiring authors Manda
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  Speaker 9: Zing And if you didn't know, a Spiding Author's magazine
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  Speaker 9: also crowned me as their twenty twenty six Holy the Year.
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  Speaker 9: So I'm excited about that and what I've been able
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  Speaker 9: to do in that space. And so I am your
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  Speaker 9: host tonight and I myself am an author, a poet,
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  Speaker 9: and an emotional wellness advocate.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm excited as tonight. I really am.
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  Speaker 9: I cited because I feel that this night is gonna
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  Speaker 9: be a little different than any type of usual podcast
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  Speaker 9: because we're here tonight to really have a conversation. We're
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  Speaker 9: gonna talk about me. We're gonna talk about a lot
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  Speaker 9: of things. We're gonna We're gonna talk about poetry, faith
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  Speaker 9: and how do we incorporate rate poetry in our lives
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  Speaker 9: and our challenges.
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  Speaker 1: You know, because a lot of us we deal.
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  Speaker 9: With challenges different ways, right, But for us as writers
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  Speaker 9: and poets, most of our poems are from our heart
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  Speaker 9: right and then right, and it's from experiences.
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  Speaker 1: So that's what you're gonna actually experience the night.
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  Speaker 9: So I don't know if you all would be able
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  Speaker 9: to show me where you're calling and from writing or
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  Speaker 9: watching from I don't think I can see it.
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  Speaker 10: Uh, let me listen and let's see I see something.
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  Speaker 10: I see him, I can see him, and the I
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  Speaker 10: see you, I see you. That's my that's my literally, yep,
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  Speaker 10: that is my first lady.
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  Speaker 9: That is my first lady. It's always great to have
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  Speaker 9: you know, support. So right now, what I want to
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  Speaker 9: do is I want to normally before I start anything, right,
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  Speaker 9: I have to. I feel that I need to pray
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  Speaker 9: right because we can't go into things and and you
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  Speaker 9: know really nearly you know, into things and not thinking
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  Speaker 9: that prayer.
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  Speaker 1: It's privilege.
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  Speaker 9: So if your value has with me, Spirity the most
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  Speaker 9: Living God, thank you for being here with us today.
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  Speaker 9: We thank you for for bringing us together tonight in
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  Speaker 9: the body name of Jesus. Lord, I thank you but
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  Speaker 9: every person that you allowed to get on here tonight,
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  Speaker 9: because they could have been anywhere else, Father God, but
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  Speaker 9: in the name of Jesus, you allow them to be
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  Speaker 9: here tonight to be blessed.
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  Speaker 7: Father.
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  Speaker 9: I pray that tonight's conversation you will allow her to
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  Speaker 9: deep people with encouragement, love, hope, and in a better
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  Speaker 9: place than they was when they stepped on to the platform.
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  Speaker 1: In the name of Jesus, Father, open our hearts, open
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  Speaker 1: the people hearts to his conversation with Father God, Father God.
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  Speaker 9: I prayed that my guests tonight, Father God will get on,
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  Speaker 9: Father God and all will be well. So I thank
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  Speaker 9: you Lord for giving us the compassion and the empathy
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  Speaker 9: in order to actually.
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  Speaker 1: Have this podcast, and the mighty name on Jesus, I
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  Speaker 1: pray a name.
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  Speaker 7: That's right, all right?
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  Speaker 9: You know we came on here today, so many things
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  Speaker 9: was happening for me, my toolboke, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 9: So it's like the devil. You know, the enemy is here.
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  Speaker 9: You know, he don't he doesn't want to see things
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  Speaker 9: going well, but we.
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  Speaker 1: Got something else for him. We got something, so that's
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  Speaker 1: not gonna that's not gonna happen. We were moving forth.
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  Speaker 1: You know, if this was any other time, I would
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  Speaker 1: probably I wouldn't. I'm not gonna lie. I would have rescheduled.
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  Speaker 1: I wouldn't ask.
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  Speaker 9: But where are at in the Lord right now? I
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  Speaker 9: know that these things happen for a reason. So I
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  Speaker 9: just want to explain to you a little bit why
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  Speaker 9: this podcast exists. I feel that podcasts should be conversations, right.
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  Speaker 9: You should be able to come on and be comfortable,
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  Speaker 9: be you be authentic because when you're talking to your audience,
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  Speaker 9: that's what they want to see.
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  Speaker 7: Right.
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  Speaker 9: So I know a lot of times in our lives
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  Speaker 9: we talk about I got this thing where we talk
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  Speaker 9: about being okay, right, we smile, but on the inside
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  Speaker 9: we're pringing and we feel like.
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  Speaker 1: You're done in it. Right.
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  Speaker 9: Sometimes we're talking to someone and where the grief is
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  Speaker 9: so bad, you know, but we're still smiling and that
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  Speaker 9: is okay.
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  Speaker 1: But we can't. We have to learn how.
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  Speaker 9: To stop suppressing things, right, Stop suppressing your emotions, stop
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  Speaker 9: suppressing how you fear.
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  Speaker 1: So this is for us.
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  Speaker 9: This is where poetry comes in, right, because I look
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  Speaker 9: at poetry as a lifeloin.
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  Speaker 1: From here's a lifeliin.
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  Speaker 9: So that's what brings me to tell you or tonight,
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  Speaker 9: I have to guess tonight. And I'm so excited for
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  Speaker 9: you all to meet this woman.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, she is a friend.
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  Speaker 9: She is a confident because we talk all the time,
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  Speaker 9: and she's a woman of aith, right, who've been through
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  Speaker 9: many challenges. But I'm gonna let you hear talk on
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  Speaker 9: the story.
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  Speaker 1: But before I.
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  Speaker 9: Bring her one. I would like to let you or
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  Speaker 9: know who she is behind the scene. Yel Legrand is
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  Speaker 9: a woman of influence whose strength is rooted in her
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  Speaker 9: faith and preseverance. She's a breast cancer survivor and warrior,
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  Speaker 9: also an advocate for women healing from divorce and life challenges.
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  Speaker 1: She meets with resilience and purpose. Guided by God. She
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  Speaker 1: is a.
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  Speaker 9: Self taught author and trusted voice in her community.
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  Speaker 1: It's buying women to rise above adversity.
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  Speaker 9: She believes her calling is to motivate others by showing
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  Speaker 9: that faith and.
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  Speaker 1: Endurance can overcome any battle.
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  Speaker 9: So, with any further ado, I want to introduce you
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  Speaker 9: to the author, the cancer survivor, the Lupiswarleans, the woman,
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  Speaker 9: the incredible woman of faith, Miss Sheryl le grand.
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  Speaker 1: I wish. I said, y'all have to get some stars.
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  Speaker 1: Give us some stars, give us some lights, give us some.
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  Speaker 7: Thumbs up, some up.
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  Speaker 9: I love you, that's right, yes, yes, first nay authenticity.
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  Speaker 1: So God, Shelan, how do you feeling today? I am
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  Speaker 1: feeling blessed. I want good for me.
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  Speaker 7: Thank you for for trees and everybody for this platform.
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  Speaker 7: Once again for allowing me to share number one. I
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  Speaker 7: don't look at it as a testimony. I look at
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  Speaker 7: it as a faith war I always made. It was
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  Speaker 7: only one person. My name is Ryla Grand. I'm originally
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  Speaker 7: from North New Jersey. I resigned in Nightdale, North Carolina.
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  Speaker 7: When I first got started, my children were smaller and
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  Speaker 7: now all threed on when the other store. One I
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  Speaker 7: finished rad scoal, one finished college, can read go to
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  Speaker 7: grad school, and one has went back. That too, is
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  Speaker 7: the favor of God. I take one day at a
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  Speaker 7: because I life and changed many minutes when caught up
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  Speaker 7: the cancer and Lucas, I tell anyone that's listening, I
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  Speaker 7: didn't have any signs of either one. I was dinosed
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  Speaker 7: with lucas probably about sixteen seventeen years ago. I was
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  Speaker 7: in and out of the doctor, but they did not know.
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  Speaker 7: And so after I had surgery on my knee, and
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  Speaker 7: then it came up years later. Did anybody know you
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  Speaker 7: had lucas? But I was going through the pain years
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  Speaker 7: before that, the same thing with cancer. I was doing
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  Speaker 7: a molegue with Miss Angela Trevina and a couple others,
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  Speaker 7: and my my part was that I have courage that
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  Speaker 7: the doctor told me I was gonna die and it
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  Speaker 7: was about my love. And I would tell anybody a
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  Speaker 7: lot of times when God places somewhere, he is preparing us.
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  Speaker 7: But I was actually doing that thing at that time.
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  Speaker 7: I didn't know he was preparing me for real life
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  Speaker 7: issues with cancer was all they were talking about. Liver
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  Speaker 7: and Shana. You know, he set it up and the
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  Speaker 7: other women. I never forget when I'm start being around
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  Speaker 7: Missus Angela. She was saying, well, y'all ladies like to come.
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  Speaker 7: So when I got on and we did this for
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  Speaker 7: maybe a couple of months. The thing about life. When
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  Speaker 7: I went to the doctor and they actually called me
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  Speaker 7: in the room the faith that I was dinosed for cancer,
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  Speaker 7: I didn't react the same way. My human side wrote
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  Speaker 7: down what I did and what I did, and it
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  Speaker 7: was it was almost like I was at the play
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  Speaker 7: because they I was looking at it when they was
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  Speaker 7: looking at me, and they was taking pictures and then they
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  Speaker 7: said the doctor coming in here, and it was kind
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  Speaker 7: of scary because that was the scene there. So when
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  Speaker 7: they called me inted, it said we got something to
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  Speaker 7: tell you, and so they said the side of a
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  Speaker 7: small piece. My whole face was totally different at that
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  Speaker 7: moment and I called a family member, she's an author
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  Speaker 7: as well. I called her. She said, calm down, and
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  Speaker 7: when you get home called me. Do you know I
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  Speaker 7: would tell anybody when you're going through anyone people could
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  Speaker 7: pray for you. You could jump over, but it is
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  Speaker 7: good to have someone besides you. But we have to
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  Speaker 7: learn how to pray for our So that all the
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  Speaker 7: time we had that was my transformation. And my family member,
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  Speaker 7: my aunt Debbie John informers like it's just surprised, just
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  Speaker 7: a cross and around. And then though she was saying it,
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  Speaker 7: and even after she went home, I had to get
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  Speaker 7: that in my heart and that was hard because the
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  Speaker 7: human part came out the flash. Do we know what
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  Speaker 7: we go something? It's building our strength, it's building our characters,
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  Speaker 7: it's building our faith, building our hop because we take
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  Speaker 7: life for granted. You know, we up every day were
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  Speaker 7: God wakes us up. Right, there is a testimony saying
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  Speaker 7: thank you Lord, but we take that like, oh he
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  Speaker 7: woke of it. So I did all my chick ups,
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  Speaker 7: all my physicals working out, so to me, I was
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  Speaker 7: already doing so can you imagine you already You're already
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  Speaker 7: taking Loopers medicine.
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  Speaker 1: And then that yeah, I can't. I can't even imagine.
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  Speaker 9: I can't what because what we go through with the
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  Speaker 9: loop is is like life changing.
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  Speaker 1: You know, your life changes when you're diagos. When I
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  Speaker 1: think your.
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  Speaker 9: Life changes when you're diagnosed with any chronic owness. You
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  Speaker 9: know it is an order immune disease, but it's also
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  Speaker 9: a chronic illness because as the people say, the doctors say,
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  Speaker 9: they don't have the last say, it's something we will
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  Speaker 9: have for the rest of our lives because they claim
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  Speaker 9: it is no cue.
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  Speaker 1: But we know who has the last say.
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  Speaker 7: So mm hmm, you're not.
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  Speaker 9: When I when I first saw Shovel, I think she
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  Speaker 9: was in a chat.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know something was going on. I think this,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know.
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  Speaker 9: I think it was clean this talking to you about
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  Speaker 9: something and I saw the chet, But I know I
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  Speaker 9: saw her all over kind of on Facebook, all over
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  Speaker 9: the Crew podcast, you know, just seeing things that Queen
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  Speaker 9: Angela was share And when I hold you Storky, you
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  Speaker 9: know you guys, she's being very humble tonight because her
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  Speaker 9: story is of.
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  Speaker 1: God has favor on her life, and I.
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  Speaker 9: Know that she's she was spared for a reason, and
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  Speaker 9: I feel that everything she does now is because of that,
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  Speaker 9: and it shows, you know, so showing you could continue
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  Speaker 9: because I could listen to you all night because she's
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  Speaker 9: so real and it's just.
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  Speaker 1: Her story just is amazing.
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  Speaker 9: But what I do want you to talk about because
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  Speaker 9: you know how we go through humus.
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  Speaker 1: Flayers, You've been through you know the cancer, you said,
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  Speaker 1: God that.
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  Speaker 9: But in the middle of all of that, right, you
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  Speaker 9: know us as poets and writers and authors, how did
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  Speaker 9: you use poetry to.
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  Speaker 1: Even help you along the way that process?
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  Speaker 7: Well, honestly, it was tough because it was very uncomfortable
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  Speaker 7: because you understand, I was right. So when Austin miss
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  Speaker 7: Andrew the Queen asked me to do it, I was
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  Speaker 7: like what because I was like, I'm not a poetry
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  Speaker 7: and I thought you had the rhyme and left. You know,
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  Speaker 7: But what I did learn in life when she pushed
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  Speaker 7: me over the cliff. Anything in life is a challenge.
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  Speaker 7: And as long as we stay, we're not going to grow.
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  Speaker 7: That's number one, We're not going to grow. So the
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  Speaker 7: challenge that I had.
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  Speaker 1: Old Cheryl, I can't hear you. I don't know why.
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  Speaker 7: I know it's Miami, Okay, want me to say something?
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  Speaker 8: Uh?
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  Speaker 7: Can you get me yes, yes, uh huh, I can
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  Speaker 7: hear you? Yeah, yeah, okay, I can't.
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  Speaker 1: Oh you can you? Oh? Okay, I think I can
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  Speaker 1: hear you now too. That's okay, okay. That had keep
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  Speaker 1: on shuttle with life.
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  Speaker 7: Like I said, mister Andrews pushed me in that area
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  Speaker 7: because I never lived before. But in life, when we
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  Speaker 7: stay stuck, we don't grow. That's about anything. So what
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  Speaker 7: what poetry did is let me see a different side
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  Speaker 7: of me. Because I was so comfortable with the writing
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  Speaker 7: when I did his party, because I made a lot
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  Speaker 7: of mistakes. Right, I went from have no internet going
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  Speaker 7: to different stores, right, I didn't have I had to
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  Speaker 7: use everybody hot spot to write. So that's also was
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  Speaker 7: a challenge. So when miss ange to do poetry, I
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  Speaker 7: thought about how did I get to this part with
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  Speaker 7: my books? So you got to remember I didn't have
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  Speaker 7: no WiFi or nothing in my house, so I was
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  Speaker 7: okay bookstores. I made a lot of mistakes. I got
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  Speaker 7: criticized on a lot of my books. So when she
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  Speaker 7: asked me, I thought about that journey. Anything that we
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  Speaker 7: do is going to be a journey. It's up to
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  Speaker 7: us how that journey of life. It's like I heard
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  Speaker 7: me a long time ago when my middle son is
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  Speaker 7: going to grad school have certain pause, and he used
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  Speaker 7: one side of his body. So when I was pushing him,
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  Speaker 7: I was really pushing myself and didn't even know it.
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  Speaker 7: So everything that I do and my strength and my
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  Speaker 7: character and my faith, so poetry was another side of me.
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  Speaker 7: It brought out something different. It brought out the pain.
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  Speaker 7: It brought out the courage, because you know, when we
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  Speaker 7: write our story right right, but brings good out of
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  Speaker 7: the say wow, I didn't even know if this was
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  Speaker 7: any So when I did it, it makes you think
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  Speaker 7: a little bit more. Okay, I did this. I jumped
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  Speaker 7: over the fence. I could put this together. Well, boy
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  Speaker 7: T has you think about your inner stuff? About what
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  Speaker 7: can come out of what can share? One book? We share?
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  Speaker 7: But what about what about that deepness? What about the fall?
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  Speaker 7: We don't talk about that. We don't talk about when
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  Speaker 7: we fall. We don't talk about the situation when we heard.
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  Speaker 7: We don't talk about how we got We didn't get
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  Speaker 7: here because we did everything right. We didn't get here
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  Speaker 7: because we didn't make a mistake in our books. We
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  Speaker 7: didn't get here because we had a block. We did
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  Speaker 7: not we made mistakes, these challenges, and that's what boy
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  Speaker 7: did for me. It bore out everything that was already
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  Speaker 7: there and started anybody's listening. Pick up a pen, don't
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  Speaker 7: look at you perfect and you always gotta get along.
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  Speaker 7: And to make of warning your eyes right to see yourself,
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  Speaker 7: your pain. School. You know you might have to take
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  Speaker 7: your kids to school. And Johnny didn't come by. Whatever
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  Speaker 7: life is, don't let find it. People, family, stop you
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  Speaker 7: because somebody gonna say, girl, you shouldn't do that. I
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  Speaker 7: want to put my business on faith. I would just
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  Speaker 7: share if you listen to the divorcees and trust me
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  Speaker 7: when I say this, you will not never succeed.
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  Speaker 1: You got to hear God first day.
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  Speaker 7: He gives all of us, and when we don't use it,
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  Speaker 7: our gift is not for us, our children and I family.
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  Speaker 7: Everything is God.
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  Speaker 1: So when we not use.
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  Speaker 7: Our guests and talents for Him, we lose all of
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  Speaker 7: them because it all to him. People get that I
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  Speaker 7: met you or Miss Angela. He knew it already, so
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  Speaker 7: why not plan't proceived for the next generation and not
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  Speaker 7: when we when we take us out, we could do
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  Speaker 7: a whole lot of things. So me and say this,
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  Speaker 7: we are Lucis warrant fighters. And God said, it wasn't
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  Speaker 7: time last year or the year after right now, because
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  Speaker 7: I gotta move some stuff around. I gotta shift some stuff, y'all.
• 21:59
  Speaker 7: It's it's going to be together through me, right.
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: That's right, that's right. You're right about that.
• 22:06
  Speaker 9: Because even with Queen Angela, everyone we call her name
• 22:12
  Speaker 9: is Angela Thomas when we call her Queen Angela, and
• 22:16
  Speaker 9: she's the queen of collaborations, and she she's a woman
• 22:23
  Speaker 9: who believes in us authors, she believes in We're not
• 22:29
  Speaker 9: gonna talk about her talents. She's not gonna talk about
• 22:32
  Speaker 9: her talents because she feels she and she is doing
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  Speaker 9: the Lord to work.
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  Speaker 7: I prayed my thank.
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  Speaker 9: God that I met her because my family was telling me,
• 22:44
  Speaker 9: I need.
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: To do the book. I need to do the book.
• 22:48
  Speaker 9: But we got to realize a lot of times we
• 22:50
  Speaker 9: had things in our own lives that is a.
• 22:55
  Speaker 1: Hindrance and that can mean people. You know what I'm
• 22:59
  Speaker 1: saying to me people.
• 23:01
  Speaker 9: So it's like when things start actually be calming down
• 23:04
  Speaker 9: in my life, you know, I was and my sister passed,
• 23:07
  Speaker 9: I was able to say no, even if I had
• 23:10
  Speaker 9: to use her in that instance, I'm gonna write this
• 23:13
  Speaker 9: book and of her the poetry, because she wanted to
• 23:17
  Speaker 9: see me.
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: Write this book. She pushed me.
• 23:23
  Speaker 9: But you know, for me, poetry is a lifeline. It's
• 23:26
  Speaker 9: a lifeline for me because there was a lot of times,
• 23:30
  Speaker 9: you know, when I was younger. I've been writing, maybe
• 23:35
  Speaker 9: since I was in eighth grade. Yeah, yeah, I think
• 23:39
  Speaker 9: like in eighth grade I had did my first poem.
• 23:42
  Speaker 9: It was about a mother and I wasn't second place.
• 23:46
  Speaker 9: So from then on I saw I said, wow, I
• 23:48
  Speaker 9: can write my feelings on paper because a lot of
• 23:52
  Speaker 9: times for me, I feel that poetry is also a language,
• 23:56
  Speaker 9: right because I can sit, I can write out.
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: What I feel.
• 24:01
  Speaker 9: It doesn't matter how sound, it doesn't matter what I write.
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: You know what I mean, and it's safe.
• 24:08
  Speaker 9: It keeps me safe until I'm ready to share it
• 24:12
  Speaker 9: in a way.
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: That it can help somebody else.
• 24:16
  Speaker 9: And when we spoke about the gifts, you're right, the
• 24:19
  Speaker 9: gifts are not for us.
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: And where I was.
• 24:23
  Speaker 9: Convicted at was the fact that I can't remember who
• 24:26
  Speaker 9: said it to me, but the fact.
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: That you holding on to this gives or gives.
• 24:32
  Speaker 9: For what right, So that needs the person who needs you,
• 24:37
  Speaker 9: the person whom God has a sign to you has
• 24:41
  Speaker 9: to wait.
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: Not only do they have to wait, they got to struggle.
• 24:46
  Speaker 9: Right or because I won't or we won't share our gifts.
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: So you're right, you know, Polty.
• 24:55
  Speaker 9: You know if anybody on here, like Chel said, don't
• 24:58
  Speaker 9: have the rhyme, you know that's my forte. But when
• 25:04
  Speaker 9: I first started writing, I was reading different poems and
• 25:08
  Speaker 9: I'm like, it just sounded like a conversation.
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: That's all it is, right, It's just your heart on paper.
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: So it's something I also do.
• 25:18
  Speaker 9: And I know chery, I know if you do this
• 25:20
  Speaker 9: with your poetry, but even at nighttime before I would
• 25:24
  Speaker 9: have been it's almost like a brain dump, right.
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: But when I put it all together, it want to
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: be in a poem. It can be a poem, right.
• 25:34
  Speaker 9: So writing is definitely something that I think everybody every
• 25:39
  Speaker 9: time I speak about poetry. Everybody should try to incorporate
• 25:43
  Speaker 9: in their life, you know. So, So Cheyl, let me
• 25:48
  Speaker 9: let me ask you chev how many books you had.
• 25:56
  Speaker 7: Just me alone? I have five and a journal, but
• 26:01
  Speaker 7: I have collaborated for the last five years of books.
• 26:06
  Speaker 7: Listen Angels. I have one with my family member that
• 26:13
  Speaker 7: we are doing now. Oh, I haven't, but I'm gonna
• 26:17
  Speaker 7: say this right with them. Whatever you do, and like
• 26:22
  Speaker 7: whatever you do, whether it's our poetry, whether wherever it is,
• 26:29
  Speaker 7: pray about the person and ask God to guide you,
• 26:33
  Speaker 7: to protect you. Because everybody don't do right out here
• 26:37
  Speaker 7: who you work with. So I would tell pray about it,
• 26:42
  Speaker 7: and don't be so eager to jump over the ship
• 26:45
  Speaker 7: as I jump over first. Even if you start and
• 26:50
  Speaker 7: make a mistake.
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: We have to stop down in ourselves.
• 26:56
  Speaker 7: Like enemy credit. Like I hear us say no, the
• 27:00
  Speaker 7: enemy not here. Because the enemy was here, we wouldn't
• 27:02
  Speaker 7: be up there right. So the task for me to
• 27:06
  Speaker 7: tell I don't care if it's the man or woman,
• 27:08
  Speaker 7: if it's nothing but one anything in life you want
• 27:10
  Speaker 7: to do, because we do what we want to do.
• 27:13
  Speaker 7: Just step out. Don't let money, don't let your circumstance.
• 27:17
  Speaker 7: I'm a testimony. Do you know right now the doctor
• 27:19
  Speaker 7: said I have heart failure. Between the loopers, the heart
• 27:23
  Speaker 7: failure and everything bragging right, this is gobb Okay, you
• 27:31
  Speaker 7: don't let what going. When you stop you we take
• 27:34
  Speaker 7: over it. And that don't mean my life, That don't
• 27:37
  Speaker 7: mean I don't have to be in the hospital. But
• 27:39
  Speaker 7: you don't, but they say take over you because they're
• 27:45
  Speaker 7: doing their job. They're telling you what you need. But
• 27:48
  Speaker 7: God is the overseer. Y know, anything that you do,
• 27:55
  Speaker 7: it starts with you. You can motivate me all day and
• 27:59
  Speaker 7: I can get fine and say okay, but what is shrevey?
• 28:02
  Speaker 7: We gotta stop looking for other people the patterns on the.
• 28:04
  Speaker 9: Back until giving us permission, and stop everybody to play
• 28:11
  Speaker 9: for you.
• 28:11
  Speaker 7: Sometimes you gotta get on your knees through the transformation,
• 28:14
  Speaker 7: like a computer. That's why sometime we set it up
• 28:20
  Speaker 7: with minds and we set our heart. Even our phones.
• 28:23
  Speaker 7: You know, we don't do certain things my phone going.
• 28:27
  Speaker 7: We gotta do our minds and shifted like the computer.
• 28:30
  Speaker 7: You might look more storaging, but whatever, we gotta stop
• 28:35
  Speaker 7: depending on other people. You know, when I first started
• 28:39
  Speaker 7: doing podcasts, Miss Angela, I was on the wrong podcast.
• 28:44
  Speaker 7: He might have been waiting on me. And I've been
• 28:47
  Speaker 7: on the roll one but a guy six years, six
• 28:54
  Speaker 7: years saying ask for grand. There was a time she
• 28:58
  Speaker 7: had a look full of grand because the grand beyond
• 29:00
  Speaker 7: the wrong things. So everything is a price, and she
• 29:04
  Speaker 7: was like wet enough, But I think so he waited
• 29:09
  Speaker 7: for me she watched me grow. She watched the podcasting
• 29:16
  Speaker 7: My Kids Walking Through. I mean she watched me so
• 29:20
  Speaker 7: she could see him. Yeah, and that's a good thing.
• 29:24
  Speaker 7: What it's called grow. So I'm gonna tell you about
• 29:28
  Speaker 7: if you're looking for perfect and anything that you do,
• 29:31
  Speaker 7: it's not gonna go. There have to be able, willing
• 29:36
  Speaker 7: to slip a little bit to grow. That's why act.
• 29:42
  Speaker 7: You have to. But don't think we're up here. We
• 29:46
  Speaker 7: don't have stuff going on in our house. Don't think
• 29:50
  Speaker 7: our life is perfect. Don't see don't think that. Just
• 29:53
  Speaker 7: look at two women that do all the obstule trials
• 29:58
  Speaker 7: and that don't mean our life perfect. And I'm telling
• 30:01
  Speaker 7: you sperients, ain't what the doctor when, like the pastism
• 30:07
  Speaker 7: always say what are you saying about yourself? What do
• 30:13
  Speaker 7: we gotta teach? What are you saying? So we gotta
• 30:17
  Speaker 7: stop making fall? It's bad? Tell you it's not always better.
• 30:22
  Speaker 7: I don't have in life. My struggles became my hurt
• 30:28
  Speaker 7: became my healing became my pusin.
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: My fear became.
• 30:34
  Speaker 7: My belief. What is you tell you all? I don't
• 30:41
  Speaker 7: know how drive I have three children that the doctor
• 30:45
  Speaker 7: done killed me so many years in a nice way.
• 30:48
  Speaker 7: I'm just using it as a phrase because everything they
• 30:52
  Speaker 7: told me, oh yeah, uh stop giving a petty party,
• 31:03
  Speaker 7: that's right, and keep moving. I stop giving a pretty part.
• 31:08
  Speaker 7: Not blame blame family, they could stick keep you moving.
• 31:17
  Speaker 7: Can't use no more. You can't you go ahead and talk,
• 31:22
  Speaker 7: that's what.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: Can You can't know? It's just mm hmm.
• 31:34
  Speaker 4: But that's the one.
• 31:37
  Speaker 9: Yeah, it's you know.
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: Our our challenge is uh you.
• 31:42
  Speaker 9: Know, God uses them to uh to reboot us, to
• 31:45
  Speaker 9: shift us to uh even.
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: Reset right, you know, because for me, I.
• 31:53
  Speaker 9: Had an issue with my emotions since I was a
• 31:57
  Speaker 9: little girl.
• 31:58
  Speaker 1: Right, I was right then and you know, doing post.
• 32:02
  Speaker 9: And doing little things like that, but my emotions still
• 32:06
  Speaker 9: wasn't regulated at all.
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: It was a thing where I put it to you
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: like this, I had a thing.
• 32:13
  Speaker 9: A fear of death, right, I mean a high fear
• 32:19
  Speaker 9: of death. So if anyone would die in my family.
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: I was a hot mess. I'm falling now only a
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: passer now.
• 32:28
  Speaker 9: Just to where it got so bad when my families
• 32:33
  Speaker 9: had to tell me somebody passed, they had to get
• 32:36
  Speaker 9: together and have an intervention of how they was gonna
• 32:39
  Speaker 9: tell Keisha.
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: Okay, that's how bad it was, you know, But I
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: don't regret that.
• 32:49
  Speaker 9: I don't regret God putting me through that because the
• 32:52
  Speaker 9: same thing I feared and reference to.
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: Death if he put in front of me plink of
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: the time. So I had no choice but to face the.
• 33:05
  Speaker 9: Death in his space, even when it came down to
• 33:09
  Speaker 9: thinking I was going to lose my life, right, but
• 33:13
  Speaker 9: he allowed me to be there in rooms we're fairly
• 33:19
  Speaker 9: members who passed away, and I don't know why I.
• 33:24
  Speaker 1: Was there right continue to continue to continue.
• 33:27
  Speaker 9: I say personally up to this point, I think he
• 33:31
  Speaker 9: was preparing me for my father because I was in
• 33:36
  Speaker 9: a room with him only one and my sister, because
• 33:42
  Speaker 9: I was going to need that emotional control in order
• 33:46
  Speaker 9: to be in that room with my dad right instead
• 33:50
  Speaker 9: of pulling out all over the place and then my sister.
• 33:54
  Speaker 9: I wouldn't have been my sister solaced the way I
• 33:56
  Speaker 9: was if my emotions weren't control. So it's like emotional maturity,
• 34:02
  Speaker 9: my emotional intelligence, just my emotions period means like the
• 34:07
  Speaker 9: world to me because I thank God for that, because
• 34:11
  Speaker 9: I would not have been able when my sister was
• 34:14
  Speaker 9: going through.
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: Her uncertainty during her the cancer.
• 34:17
  Speaker 9: She just had a time in her life it was
• 34:21
  Speaker 9: just uncertainty, right, and I was the only one that
• 34:25
  Speaker 9: she would talk to. Now, if he hadn't blessed me
• 34:29
  Speaker 9: with healing me from emotional exhaustion and emotional things, I
• 34:34
  Speaker 9: would not have been able to sit with her, talk
• 34:38
  Speaker 9: with her and get her through that moment, right would
• 34:42
  Speaker 9: I would have been weeping in crying, But that wouldn't
• 34:45
  Speaker 9: did her that when it did her no good.
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: You know, I think I thank the Lord for that.
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: That's what I said. I know. With poetry, m hmm,
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: that's something I'm never ever want to stop doing because
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: a lot of times with my poetry, when I had
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: the pain, I would go to poetry. Right when I
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: was hurt, I went to poetry.
• 35:13
  Speaker 11: Right.
• 35:13
  Speaker 9: You know, it's not going to be everybody's story about poetry,
• 35:16
  Speaker 9: but I do believe that every single line of you
• 35:22
  Speaker 9: that are listening.
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: That's on here me to write. Everybody has a story.
• 35:29
  Speaker 9: Don't have to be poetry, but we all need to
• 35:32
  Speaker 9: write because we don't realize how safe that is for us.
• 35:38
  Speaker 9: You know, there are times I want to say something
• 35:40
  Speaker 9: to somebody because of the hurt, and I know I
• 35:43
  Speaker 9: can't because I didn't go Beforebard to ask.
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: How to present it. So I said, you know what,
• 35:51
  Speaker 1: I just go to the paper. The paper.
• 35:54
  Speaker 9: I'm safe with that, so I can say what I
• 35:56
  Speaker 9: want to say, get it off my chest. And that's
• 36:00
  Speaker 9: just something that's just what poetry does, you know.
• 36:03
  Speaker 1: And And speaking.
• 36:05
  Speaker 9: Of Queen Angela, you know, I can't stop thinking her.
• 36:10
  Speaker 9: And the reason I say that is because I've been
• 36:13
  Speaker 9: dealing with Angela and and some of her her books
• 36:17
  Speaker 9: and anthologies. I think it might have been like two
• 36:20
  Speaker 9: or three years, you know, but that's that was good
• 36:22
  Speaker 9: for me.
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: That was good sticking with someone, right.
• 36:26
  Speaker 9: And because I've had other people I've been in collaboration
• 36:29
  Speaker 9: with but it didn't work out, that was because I
• 36:32
  Speaker 9: didn't belonged there.
• 36:33
  Speaker 1: That was when I was thinking with my flesh.
• 36:35
  Speaker 9: I didn't ask God who I needed to be with, right,
• 36:39
  Speaker 9: and he just let me. One day, one of my
• 36:42
  Speaker 9: sisters and my chos labor, Charlotte, she also is that
• 36:47
  Speaker 9: I will do. And she's an author as well, and
• 36:51
  Speaker 9: she introduced and told me about Angela. And the funny
• 36:56
  Speaker 9: thing about it is me and Angela used to talk
• 36:58
  Speaker 9: about so many different things when they came out.
• 37:00
  Speaker 1: Of the books. You know, my books and things of
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: that sort.
• 37:03
  Speaker 9: And I remember saying, when you're gonna do your podcast
• 37:07
  Speaker 9: now at that time that I know it's feel it
• 37:10
  Speaker 9: would be because it was actually after year.
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: It was after my sister died, and it was feel.
• 37:16
  Speaker 1: She said, when you're gonna do your podcast.
• 37:18
  Speaker 9: I'm like, well, I want to wait, I'm gonna wait.
• 37:22
  Speaker 9: I'm going wait, I'm gonna wait. And what happened was
• 37:25
  Speaker 9: I called myself getting involved with another network, right, okay,
• 37:31
  Speaker 9: I got involved with it never work, which was which
• 37:33
  Speaker 9: was good. I loved them to that, but got abroaday,
• 37:35
  Speaker 9: never working. But I for some reason, I just couldn't
• 37:39
  Speaker 9: keep up because once I was proud twenty twenty six,
• 37:42
  Speaker 9: the year you know the poet, it came with how
• 37:47
  Speaker 9: can I put it? It came with structure, It came
• 37:51
  Speaker 9: with some things that I had to make sure I
• 37:53
  Speaker 9: put in place.
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: I couldn't do that.
• 37:56
  Speaker 9: I couldn't do everything else at once, and I had to.
• 37:59
  Speaker 9: I had to realize that for myself.
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: So I said, you.
• 38:02
  Speaker 9: Know what, I'm gonna concentrate on where God got me now,
• 38:06
  Speaker 9: but God has me now, That's what I'm gonna concentrate on.
• 38:09
  Speaker 9: And it's so funny that I said with the podcast,
• 38:11
  Speaker 9: because it came with this podcast as well.
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: The podcast. Right, So I'm still I'm where I need
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: to be, you know.
• 38:23
  Speaker 9: So I don't know what's gonna hold after because we
• 38:27
  Speaker 9: got two more to go in of the year of
• 38:30
  Speaker 9: the podcast, but we don't know.
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: Who knows. I might start my own emotional wellness podcast
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: because I know you are gonna watch. I was a boy, but.
• 38:42
  Speaker 7: You're doing a wonderful job. And I wanted you when
• 38:47
  Speaker 7: you were talking about what God was playing for you.
• 38:49
  Speaker 7: My kept telling me that is an office well because
• 38:55
  Speaker 7: my grandmother and my grandfather, yeah okay, and her sister
• 39:04
  Speaker 7: past I do know when you say that, Like when
• 39:07
  Speaker 7: I was telling you about me, God is for parents.
• 39:09
  Speaker 7: He knew that he was going to be up here
• 39:10
  Speaker 7: tonight before we did, because honestly, I had no idea
• 39:13
  Speaker 7: I was going to be up here tonight until you
• 39:15
  Speaker 7: told me last week. And I was.
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: Did I tell you last week? Did I tell you
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: two days ago? You last week?
• 39:25
  Speaker 7: I'm trying to give you a little bit more boost,
• 39:28
  Speaker 7: but we know I swung.
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: It on you.
• 39:34
  Speaker 7: But last year or whatever it is this year, and
• 39:38
  Speaker 7: when I was going through when I came back from
• 39:40
  Speaker 7: Texas and I was going through I had had I
• 39:42
  Speaker 7: Sarder Lucas well, you was going to same as that time.
• 39:47
  Speaker 7: So God the parents still during that time it was
• 39:51
  Speaker 7: the same I it was kind of the same situaiting right, yeah, okay,
• 39:57
  Speaker 7: and that and the whole time, even when we was
• 40:00
  Speaker 7: getting nominated, I didn't know that she was dealing with
• 40:03
  Speaker 7: and to right, it's not God's timing. No, it's not
• 40:10
  Speaker 7: about our time. Tell wow, he said, Okay, I'm gonna
• 40:14
  Speaker 7: shift this order for this to happen when we collaborate.
• 40:21
  Speaker 7: When when we collaborate, we get to know. But the
• 40:24
  Speaker 7: collaboration didn't just happen. The collaboration with us been trying
• 40:30
  Speaker 7: to collaborate the here. So I can't say the collabora
• 40:34
  Speaker 7: because I look at all the books I'm in with
• 40:36
  Speaker 7: her were all in that book together. But this wasn't
• 40:39
  Speaker 7: the time because God had to get the mind and
• 40:42
  Speaker 7: heart right to get it right, so had the people
• 40:47
  Speaker 7: in the room. If the real is all over the place.
• 40:50
  Speaker 7: So while he was one of us the growing up,
• 40:54
  Speaker 7: he said, this is the season that I'm going to
• 40:57
  Speaker 7: put you together, because we mixed our seasons up when
• 41:01
  Speaker 7: I did. It might not even work this year because honestly,
• 41:05
  Speaker 7: how I met Miss Andrews through off the Debbie Joan
• 41:10
  Speaker 7: a Foreman, which she just started with Miss andrew She
• 41:14
  Speaker 7: been looking at her for years. I never when I
• 41:18
  Speaker 7: was going to a divorce, she said, okay, you got
• 41:19
  Speaker 7: a story. I was like, how I'm gonna do this
• 41:21
  Speaker 7: and I do kids? She said no. So when I
• 41:24
  Speaker 7: started doing a book signers with her, it was a nett.
• 41:27
  Speaker 7: It was your Sods, a couple of homes authors. When
• 41:31
  Speaker 7: she told me after about two years, she said we
• 41:34
  Speaker 7: gotta do something else. I said say what? Because I
• 41:36
  Speaker 7: had with her and book signings, so that was like
• 41:43
  Speaker 7: do this. She said, yes, it is time for you
• 41:46
  Speaker 7: to go to another level. And I was talking about
• 41:52
  Speaker 7: She gave me a list of names and the lobby
• 41:56
  Speaker 7: and Miss Angela's name was up here. Look at that
• 42:00
  Speaker 7: mean that she gave me. I am the one who
• 42:05
  Speaker 7: touched each name. All the names I stayed connected to
• 42:11
  Speaker 7: about three that I still.
• 42:15
  Speaker 1: I guess.
• 42:16
  Speaker 7: The funny part about it, author Debbie John of Foreman,
• 42:21
  Speaker 7: it's also now with Miss Angels even though but she
• 42:28
  Speaker 7: watched me. She watched me. Yeah, as you need to
• 42:32
  Speaker 7: see even though she helped write book and she do
• 42:36
  Speaker 7: her own thing, which I love and I meant we
• 42:39
  Speaker 7: have different tasks from a fart in there, we got
• 42:42
  Speaker 7: the same goal for the next generation.
• 42:45
  Speaker 1: And that's right, that's right legacy we got.
• 42:49
  Speaker 7: Some people get into the jealousy spirit, but I love
• 42:53
  Speaker 7: it was my family member. There has never been. She
• 42:56
  Speaker 7: has been my coach for years, her asset. It's never been.
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  Speaker 7: He's so jealous. And that's how you can grow. That's
• 43:05
  Speaker 7: what you're looking at what somebody else is doing instead
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  Speaker 7: of being your affective self and do Surel and do Keisha,
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  Speaker 7: and we stop trying to do what the next person
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  Speaker 7: doing and us we can make it. And that's why
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  Speaker 7: I love the collaboration. We all got different situations, but
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  Speaker 7: our goal is to motivate and fire. It's not us
• 43:35
  Speaker 7: and like that, bgether and we can grow. We start
• 43:42
  Speaker 7: thinking about us, we are gonna lose.
• 43:47
  Speaker 9: It's not gonna work because that's got it set up.
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  Speaker 9: It does not set up like that, you know, for
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  Speaker 9: us to take the skins, us do these things and
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  Speaker 9: as so as me, me, me, me me, or to
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  Speaker 9: give him.
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  Speaker 7: That's the idol. And when we look at the you
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  Speaker 7: know what I was. I didn't get mad when I
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  Speaker 7: about And don't never forget my middle son that's going
• 44:12
  Speaker 7: to grad school enough to get the question, why do
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  Speaker 7: bad things happened to the people?
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  Speaker 1: And I wasn't that a book?
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  Speaker 7: That's what I'm saying. Oh, but I think it was
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  Speaker 7: a book.
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  Speaker 1: I think so, Yeah, I think so.
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  Speaker 7: But my son asked that question and I had to really,
• 44:38
  Speaker 7: But when we look at the Bible, it's of our lives.
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  Speaker 7: Everything in the Bible we reflect somebody in the Bible,
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  Speaker 7: right right. I took things for granted, but when that
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  Speaker 7: happened cheme o radiation, it made me even though my
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  Speaker 7: faith was good, even though I said, I play the Lord,
• 45:01
  Speaker 7: what about when God come to you unexpected and knock
• 45:05
  Speaker 7: you off your feet? These are times I have called
• 45:09
  Speaker 7: and I had a call Kimberly the apostle, because he
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  Speaker 7: has knocked me off my feet. And I never forget
• 45:15
  Speaker 7: what the apostle said, it's a maybe, it's a delay.
• 45:22
  Speaker 7: I was all emotional all over the place and I
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  Speaker 7: called and I said, wow, an apostle off. And I'm saying,
• 45:30
  Speaker 7: is that when we get knocked off it could be
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  Speaker 7: a lesson trying to transfer us into another thing. Are
• 45:43
  Speaker 7: what do we do when we get knocked off of
• 45:46
  Speaker 7: our feet? And well, I can't call my family member,
• 45:51
  Speaker 7: I can't talk to my children. God saying, you know
• 45:54
  Speaker 7: why I need you to talk to.
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  Speaker 1: That.
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  Speaker 7: I need you to look at me. M grains everything
• 46:05
  Speaker 7: you through when the doctor told you will never had
• 46:08
  Speaker 7: kids and you have and you got what three when
• 46:13
  Speaker 7: you have a metal that's graduated from college girl to
• 46:17
  Speaker 7: go to grad school. When he used one side of
• 46:19
  Speaker 7: his boy sometimes he said, wait a minute, daughter, you
• 46:24
  Speaker 7: need to get in the time out and remember I'm
• 46:27
  Speaker 7: the same guy with the heart and in the flare up.
• 46:34
  Speaker 7: So why are you scared to do poetry? Right? Why
• 46:39
  Speaker 7: are you scared to write that next book? Why are
• 46:44
  Speaker 7: you worrying about finance? Because your don't belong to you?
• 46:49
  Speaker 7: You plan to see at the end of the day.
• 46:53
  Speaker 7: They got minds of their own and think and say, okay, God,
• 47:00
  Speaker 7: what are you saying to me? He said, I'm transforming you,
• 47:06
  Speaker 7: I'm shifting you, and I'm delivering you. Because what I'm
• 47:09
  Speaker 7: taking you, everybody can't go with you. You're gonna have
• 47:14
  Speaker 7: to maybe get knocked got that right. They can't. They
• 47:20
  Speaker 7: cannot go with you because what I'm getting ready bringing you,
• 47:24
  Speaker 7: I need you just to see me because sometime we
• 47:28
  Speaker 7: run around like a chicken.
• 47:30
  Speaker 9: We can't see him right, be right right because of
• 47:34
  Speaker 9: the distractions, you know. And there's plenty of distractions out there,
• 47:40
  Speaker 9: and it's and that's all the plan of the ender.
• 47:42
  Speaker 9: Need to put him out there for us to jump
• 47:44
  Speaker 9: towards that and not see God, you know, and and
• 47:49
  Speaker 9: I you know by when you're speaking about the jealousy,
• 47:56
  Speaker 9: you know, by my bishop always tell us, you know,
• 47:59
  Speaker 9: it's you have to be careful manticizing somebody else gives
• 48:05
  Speaker 9: or what or worry about with somebody else's at or
• 48:09
  Speaker 9: wishing you was there where they're at. First of all,
• 48:13
  Speaker 9: you don't know what they had to go through in
• 48:18
  Speaker 9: order to gig.
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  Speaker 1: Where they're at, right.
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  Speaker 9: And then the thing of it is you you're not
• 48:25
  Speaker 9: ready for that. This is why you're watching them go
• 48:29
  Speaker 9: through what they go through. It right, it looks cute,
• 48:32
  Speaker 9: it looks good, it looks like it ain't no problem,
• 48:34
  Speaker 9: but you don't know behind the scenes what that person
• 48:37
  Speaker 9: had to go room in order to get where that
• 48:42
  Speaker 9: you know they're at now.
• 48:43
  Speaker 1: So that's something you know in it passed.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, of course, you know.
• 48:48
  Speaker 1: You compare yourself social media. You know.
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  Speaker 9: I used to do that, you know, in the past.
• 48:53
  Speaker 9: But as I begin to be under a in that
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  Speaker 9: not only changed my life, but I found my bishop
• 49:08
  Speaker 9: is is different. You know, my my bishop. The integrity
• 49:15
  Speaker 9: that he has is just amazing.
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  Speaker 1: Right. I watched him preach, teach.
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  Speaker 9: Right and think about this what So I'm still growing,
• 49:30
  Speaker 9: but I'm not where I was before before I met
• 49:34
  Speaker 9: you know. So I love all of them, so, you know,
• 49:38
  Speaker 9: I even I remember one time I was going to
• 49:44
  Speaker 9: speak at an event actually my mother's church. They wanted
• 49:48
  Speaker 9: me to speak, and I love to talk. I'm like,
• 49:52
  Speaker 9: I love to speak. I'd be nervous a little bit,
• 49:54
  Speaker 9: but I do love to talk. I do love to.
• 49:57
  Speaker 1: Speak to people, you know, educate people.
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  Speaker 9: She is something I can bless them with, even if
• 50:03
  Speaker 9: it's tempercent more that I know than they know. I
• 50:06
  Speaker 9: want to give them that right because that's.
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  Speaker 1: Why I know it.
• 50:10
  Speaker 9: But I was born to speaking in church and the
• 50:15
  Speaker 9: Lord said, make sure you used to be to your past.
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  Speaker 1: I had never knew protocol with.
• 50:24
  Speaker 9: Things like that, but the Lord said, go go to
• 50:27
  Speaker 9: your past. So I couldn't get my bishop, so I
• 50:29
  Speaker 9: got my first lady. She's always that's my heart too.
• 50:33
  Speaker 9: But anyway, she spoke with me and she came back.
• 50:38
  Speaker 9: She spoke to this and she said, he said to
• 50:39
  Speaker 9: go for When he said, Dad, it was like a
• 50:43
  Speaker 9: battery in my back, you know what I mean, Like
• 50:47
  Speaker 9: it was like a battery on my back. So we
• 50:50
  Speaker 9: you know, I always said we gotta listen to God,
• 50:54
  Speaker 9: because God.
• 50:56
  Speaker 1: Was telling me to make moves and I was not.
• 50:58
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie.
• 50:59
  Speaker 7: I was and doing it.
• 51:01
  Speaker 9: My Bishop he prophesized to me about two years ago
• 51:05
  Speaker 9: and he said, God told him what was I waiting for?
• 51:08
  Speaker 1: And I'm like, wow, So I knew that was saying
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: God said the move.
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  Speaker 7: It's time we go forth, look at look at Now
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  Speaker 7: for break?
• 51:22
  Speaker 1: Okay, she said it's time for break.
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  Speaker 7: M hm.
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: So we're gonna take a break.
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  Speaker 9: Welcome, Welcome, Welcome family.
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  Speaker 12: To the poetic lounds, where the words have rhythm and
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  Speaker 12: every story matters.
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  Speaker 7: From the page to the stage.
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  Speaker 13: She leads with grace, lifting every soul.
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  Speaker 9: In that sacred place. Clap your hands, Let.
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  Speaker 1: Let me test the mooney.
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  Speaker 9: Every dream survives.
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  Speaker 14: We bring our heart, we bring the place, turn the
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, let's come down.
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  Speaker 6: Welcome to the boy, Jazz in the room, jazz in Yeah.
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  Speaker 7: Gos the South They did the flower.
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  Speaker 13: Kisha Johnson McGray Woman Embrace Off the Advocate, Truth in
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  Speaker 13: the face CEO of the Beautiful Butterfly Movement, helping women
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  Speaker 13: heal through the whole improvement. She speaks to the battles
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  Speaker 13: that stay off stage.
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  Speaker 1: God in Christian.
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  Speaker 13: Hearts through the storm and rage, who trauma, transition, struggle
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  Speaker 13: in prayer. She tells every sister healing lives there, racing
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  Speaker 13: sons with ADHD, carrying loopis toos till she rises with
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  Speaker 13: strength and all.
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  Speaker 14: She walks through her words brings a bible. Her voice
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  Speaker 14: brings Gee. So open every door and left the heavywe release.
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  Speaker 14: If you came with a story, let it rise tonight.
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  Speaker 14: If you came with a burden, step into the light.
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  Speaker 2: If your pear has been waiting.
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  Speaker 1: Let it write tonight.
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  Speaker 3: If your soul needs healing, God is insight, let it
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  Speaker 3: ride he let it lie, yelpen man.
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  Speaker 6: Chess in the room.
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  Speaker 3: Were the words, Yeah, let's see some guy.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, Oh God, Queen, you know what I can't. I
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  Speaker 1: just can't.
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  Speaker 9: I'm lost for words. And I know each and every
• 56:07
  Speaker 9: one of you out there heard that. Oh my God,
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  Speaker 9: that that that was beautiful.
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  Speaker 15: I love it.
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  Speaker 7: That was fire.
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  Speaker 1: That made me at that in my house just listening
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  Speaker 1: to it. That ran over again.
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  Speaker 9: Yeah, because it's also something to remind you that you.
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  Speaker 1: You know, the Lord allowed you to.
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  Speaker 9: Do you know once again, you know, so oh my god,
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  Speaker 9: well everyone, we're back, We're back, We're back.
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  Speaker 1: I wanted to for us to.
• 56:44
  Speaker 7: Talk about what what was.
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  Speaker 1: Your first book?
• 56:50
  Speaker 7: Do you know if you remember that?
• 56:51
  Speaker 1: The first But it wasn't poetry though, right.
• 56:56
  Speaker 7: No, that wasn't poetry, no.
• 56:58
  Speaker 9: Okay, okay, and your surviving kids.
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  Speaker 1: That was like the memoir of how you.
• 57:07
  Speaker 7: Yeah, that's why I did that one in twenty twenty three.
• 57:12
  Speaker 7: So all the other things. So I finished that one.
• 57:16
  Speaker 7: I was doing that one actually when I was going
• 57:20
  Speaker 7: through chemo and radiation of lucas at the same time.
• 57:22
  Speaker 7: But that was twenty twenty three. And when I heard
• 57:26
  Speaker 7: the song Keisha. You know what I was thinking about,
• 57:29
  Speaker 7: I was about the New York Billboard because through everything,
• 57:36
  Speaker 7: the issues, the health challenges, this only God God would
• 57:42
  Speaker 7: show you in them, not only one time. Have we
• 57:47
  Speaker 7: been on the billboard several times.
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  Speaker 1: And this is I think this is gonna be my third.
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  Speaker 7: Time I lived up north. I never what was on
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  Speaker 7: a through all the challenge, all the issues, and all
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  Speaker 7: the and theuth and we have I know you're alone
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  Speaker 7: to me, I think about the book reverse Everything. Yeah,
• 58:19
  Speaker 7: listen to her song and the words that were in there.
• 58:24
  Speaker 7: God was preparing you even through your sister. And this
• 58:28
  Speaker 7: is why you're here and this is why you die,
• 58:31
  Speaker 7: and this is why you attract the audience like boo
• 58:35
  Speaker 7: because of the everything you've been through. And look at
• 58:39
  Speaker 7: a young lady didn't even want to do a podcast
• 58:42
  Speaker 7: and right, you know, Wow, it's a blessing because the
• 58:55
  Speaker 7: song truth. You know, you got these people that seeing
• 59:00
  Speaker 7: the artist and you hit him live, you'd be like,
• 59:03
  Speaker 7: how did you get that song? The song that was
• 59:07
  Speaker 7: played within you? And it goes with who you are?
• 59:15
  Speaker 1: Right, thank you?
• 59:19
  Speaker 7: And I tell you looking down and see like why
• 59:24
  Speaker 7: you are up with your family because you wanted a
• 59:31
  Speaker 7: prival to place and right and what grew me from you?
• 59:37
  Speaker 7: Because I was wining the nomination, I was like, wait
• 59:41
  Speaker 7: a minute, let me said, I got the tea is
• 59:47
  Speaker 7: just let me tell you.
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  Speaker 9: I think between the I think between the because she
• 59:54
  Speaker 9: cut it like I think we started and then the
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  Speaker 9: cut was I think.
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  Speaker 1: They had to stop all over again or something like that.
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  Speaker 9: It was because I went back in and I saw
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 9: it was zero from like twenty something thousands.
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 1: I think all together. Yeah.
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 9: I had about you getting forty something the thousands. Yeah,
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 9: and it was inspired and I didn't take that lightly.
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 1: That just showed me that people see them.
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 7: That's right, And you motivated me because I was like, wait,
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 7: I meant now, yeah, it was such a joy. So
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 7: you don't understand you didn't give us rooms to be
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 7: comfortable with them. It was It wasn't. It was one
• 1:00:43
  Speaker 7: of them things like wait, I'm mad. I said, okay,
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 7: let me see what you's doing. And I was brought
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 7: me so much joy from that to see your spirit
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 7: what it was like, I got this and that a minute,
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 7: let me see who this is. But I just want
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 7: to say, it's truly humbling. It's a blessing to see
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 7: my sister, everything you've been through because things job I
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 7: cannot imagine losing a sister. I call everybody my sister.
• 1:01:17
  Speaker 1: One.
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  Speaker 7: Through the pain and through everything that I do experience.
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 7: It is good to cause someone and say you know
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 7: exactly how I feel. It is say they understand until
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 7: you experience lupis or cancer.
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 1: That's right, Oh my god, say that everybody.
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 7: You might have five people with lupis and like you say, butterfly,
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 7: my butterfly is right over my.
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 12: Eye, right.
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 7: Everybody, and I don't understand. And for me with lucas,
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 7: if I get any type of rash, I gotta automatically
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 7: go to that.
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 7: Yeah, they checked my lupas my cancer. They said that
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 7: luke all types of things. And I hear you say
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 7: the word butterfly. Don't nobody know what butterfly means. That
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 7: is a symbol of of theoper get a lot of
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 7: know and like I said, mine is right above my eyes,
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 7: and you could say so when I hear people say it,
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 7: I didn't understand it, and that like, wow, I got
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 7: the butterfly, but.
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 1: That butterfly rash because that's how mind style.
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  Speaker 7: M h.
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  Speaker 9: Yeah, yeah, that's how my story.
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  Speaker 11: But for me it's a little different because although the
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 11: butterfly is the loopers like that people my king a
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  Speaker 11: little deep.
• 1:02:50
  Speaker 9: I see my mom, she nicknamed me, she had names
• 1:02:55
  Speaker 9: all that was beautiful, right, and my sister was black
• 1:03:00
  Speaker 9: blood and block.
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 1: So I put them both together beautiful.
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 9: But so it has a little more sentiment meaning for me,
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 9: I put us And that's why, you know, because herspirity
• 1:03:13
  Speaker 9: transformation that God allows her to have throughout our own
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 9: process it just was unbelievable, right it was. I mean,
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 9: my sister, once she got over that that hurdle of
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 9: those times, certain I could see that the Lord just
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 9: snatched her up and that was it. My my my
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 9: sister was ministering to people, and my sister row too.
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 9: She didn't she didn't indulge too much in the poetry,
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 9: but I found things. They did a lot of honor
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 9: everythings in her name. And when me and my mom
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 9: my family will go, we heard somebody rapping saying something
• 1:03:55
  Speaker 9: it was her poem, and we didn't we didn't even
• 1:03:59
  Speaker 9: know that she can really write like that. My sister,
• 1:04:02
  Speaker 9: she had the talent to write, you know what I mean,
• 1:04:05
  Speaker 9: But that just wasn't her thing, you know.
• 1:04:08
  Speaker 1: What I mean.
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 9: You know, she Hugglift was teaching the art of damis right,
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 9: you know too young two young children and old you know,
• 1:04:17
  Speaker 9: little older adults you know, and schools.
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 1: So that was her blessing because they named the whole
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: school studio after her. Okay, that's her dad, you know
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 1: what I mean?
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 9: Because I saw something she wrote it and it said
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 9: my book. So that was her goal was to write
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 9: a book. Because she knew she was going to be
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 9: You know what I'm saying, that's that was all the
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 9: hope she had. That's why she didn't struggle, you know.
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 9: And when I that's that's what kind of I guess
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 9: having to gravitate to you because I saw you had
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 9: you had the book, so it's like, wow, my sister
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 9: name was Kim.
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 1: Kim, Look she has the book. You know what I'm
• 1:05:08
  Speaker 1: saying that somebody who has the book says I didn't.
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 9: Cancer, So you know, I, like I said the I
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 9: hope all of you out there who are listening and
• 1:05:21
  Speaker 9: watching are thinking hard about poaching, you know, about writing
• 1:05:28
  Speaker 9: in itself. I mean, it's a beautiful thing. And don't
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 9: be afraid of your words because you know, like you said,
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 9: you thought poetry you had the rock.
• 1:05:39
  Speaker 7: I did too.
• 1:05:40
  Speaker 9: Like back in the day when I first started really writing,
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 9: I was like, oh, I got it rhyming.
• 1:05:45
  Speaker 1: You know.
• 1:05:45
  Speaker 9: I read poaching that I had no understanding of where
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  Speaker 9: it until I found out.
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  Speaker 1: There's no wrong way to write poetry. People have to think.
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  Speaker 1: That's why I said, you can't.
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  Speaker 9: Listen to people people haveing thinking it's supposed to be
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  Speaker 9: this way, the grammar is supposed to be.
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  Speaker 1: No, there's no there's no wrong way, no right way
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  Speaker 1: to write to poetry, especially when it's authentic.
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  Speaker 7: That's right, it's authentic. Yes, I was gonna say this, Keisha,
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  Speaker 7: I think you went out, but whoever is listening, Like
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  Speaker 7: I said, we all have a talent that God gave us.
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  Speaker 7: If you just be yourself, yuess So it'll be okay
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  Speaker 7: even through your mistakes and your issues. And I'm a
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 7: testimony of that. And one thing I like, Like I said,
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  Speaker 7: with me and Keisha, we have a lot in common,
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 7: but God had to grow both of us in different
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  Speaker 7: areas to get us to this point tonight.
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  Speaker 9: I'm okay if I left a little bit, that is okay.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 7: No, I'm telling the world. When you're on the podcast,
• 1:06:57
  Speaker 7: you might have a little somebody may leave and come
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 7: back to invite it's perfect. But that's not this true.
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  Speaker 1: This this one makes things.
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  Speaker 9: I feel like that things happened like that people could
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 9: look at us and say, wow, I thought it was
• 1:07:13
  Speaker 9: really gonna be hard.
• 1:07:14
  Speaker 1: I thought they had to be perfect.
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  Speaker 9: I thought this had to happen and that had to
• 1:07:18
  Speaker 9: look because life happens right right like you know, so
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 9: my my son could have just been walking walking by,
• 1:07:27
  Speaker 9: you know, what I mean, like it happens.
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  Speaker 1: I moved the way I was situated because I was like,
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 1: you are not fast. My podcast in the back of it, you're.
• 1:07:43
  Speaker 7: That's okay, this is from the book we were Okay.
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 7: So I'm gonna do the best I can. Okay, okay.
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 7: I lay down heavy, familiar cold, the parents that held me,
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  Speaker 7: the words that roll the pain I I nursed, through
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  Speaker 7: the mindsets I fed. I surrendered them all to the
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  Speaker 7: Lord instead, release the people who didn't hold space for
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  Speaker 7: the new creation, seeking his faith. I trade my burdens
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  Speaker 7: for his life yo, releasing the chains that only he broke,
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  Speaker 7: the oldest gold. A new day is here. I stepped
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  Speaker 7: into a call and free from all fear, not by
• 1:08:24
  Speaker 7: strength but his grace, become who He caused me, and
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  Speaker 7: just sacred face. That's because I'm stretching my eyes.
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  Speaker 9: Everybody then, because yeah, because your paudi, you have to
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  Speaker 9: go in your email, you as you were saying, right.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, that's okay.
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  Speaker 1: Long as here, then I say, as long as you
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  Speaker 1: my glasses.
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  Speaker 7: So when I put for embrace the po birth is
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  Speaker 7: not studding light, but a quiet grace within the night.
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  Speaker 7: It does not happen overnight. In the soul surrender sign
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  Speaker 7: patient hands much tender soul. Therenderm the inner told trust
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  Speaker 7: the work. Savior does embrace the process and the pause,
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  Speaker 7: the almost to make the new adental transformation through.
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  Speaker 1: That's some of my point. I love it.
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  Speaker 7: That's from that's from rebirth, and to me, rebirth means
• 1:09:34
  Speaker 7: this kisha transformation, reburth and you know, born again. You
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 7: give your life the Christ and charleng before rebirth. Rebirth
• 1:09:45
  Speaker 7: means yes, you remember the past, so God has new right.
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  Speaker 7: You gotta be able to go with the new, but
• 1:09:52
  Speaker 7: don't forget the past because there but we also got
• 1:09:57
  Speaker 7: to be able to separate the two. Is where people
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  Speaker 7: have mistake. I said, well, last year might not work
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  Speaker 7: this year, even me. You elaborate you was with miss
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  Speaker 7: Angela last year, but God picked up today this moment. Yes,
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  Speaker 7: I might not been ready last year. God I got
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  Speaker 7: That's where you got to look at it. So when
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  Speaker 7: you get up here, okay, this will be the new.
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  Speaker 7: Ye see that that's not you ready to be here
• 1:10:38
  Speaker 7: as well? You were just together. Yeah that So I'm
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  Speaker 7: really enjoying tonight number one too, because it's coming from
• 1:10:57
  Speaker 7: uh a face of spirit with you. But it's coming
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  Speaker 7: from honesty, and it's coming from a realness.
• 1:11:05
  Speaker 1: That's right.
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  Speaker 7: I have been on podcasts for everybody, just like the
• 1:11:09
  Speaker 7: makeup the head like everything is right right. We are
• 1:11:13
  Speaker 7: speaking from a truth or know we heard. We don't
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  Speaker 7: study it. We speak in fact. Lupus is real, real God,
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  Speaker 7: this ain't right. We are showing you the all possible
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  Speaker 7: fight everything that we are sarent. Is it easy. I'm
• 1:11:34
  Speaker 7: not going to sit here and tell you that everything
• 1:11:37
  Speaker 7: is easy. I'm not going to sit here and tell
• 1:11:39
  Speaker 7: you that we don't have to cry. I'm not gonna
• 1:11:41
  Speaker 7: see I feel like getting up. I'm not gonna do that.
• 1:11:46
  Speaker 7: Sometimes the medicine don't even stop the pain, but I
• 1:11:50
  Speaker 7: will one thing God always provides, and take control over this.
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  Speaker 7: Don't understand even when we a that's something. Stop letting
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  Speaker 7: your circumstances knock you off your feet, book, stop letting
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  Speaker 7: your children what they doing, stop you, your husband, your whatever,
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  Speaker 7: the visual First, when we leave world. We came in.
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  Speaker 15: Here bout when we leave.
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  Speaker 7: So stop letting everything stop you. We are testimony. I
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  Speaker 7: ain't gonna say you living witness, ye not, We ain't
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  Speaker 7: got it going on, know the truth about God, what
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  Speaker 7: he can do. That's it.
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  Speaker 9: I can't.
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  Speaker 7: I can't tell you. I can't tell you what's gonna
• 1:12:53
  Speaker 7: happen tomorrow. I can't tell you. And everything is right,
• 1:12:57
  Speaker 7: But what I can't tell you from the doctor telling
• 1:13:01
  Speaker 7: me I can't have no kids, from the loopers, from
• 1:13:05
  Speaker 7: the from the heart, from eight treatments at one time,
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  Speaker 7: from the radiation to m from.
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  Speaker 1: Losing all my you know, they ain't nothing.
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  Speaker 7: It's not what I'm telling you. Don't let life stop.
• 1:13:25
  Speaker 7: And sometimes kee Sha talk we're gonna be doing too much.
• 1:13:29
  Speaker 7: And don't hear that because I'm on every podcast, because
• 1:13:32
  Speaker 7: I'm one everybody set, don't mean I'm in the right
• 1:13:35
  Speaker 7: room that we gotta be killing that I'm gonna get
• 1:13:41
  Speaker 7: on this podcast today. I'm gonna go over here today.
• 1:13:46
  Speaker 7: If I'm not resting, I'm not in order. Easier, if
• 1:13:50
  Speaker 7: I'm all over the place, I'm not in order either.
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 7: Sometimes I say, God, I need that right.
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  Speaker 9: And we have to, you know, be able to have
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  Speaker 9: that decernment. It's very important, you know. I always pray
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  Speaker 9: for even more height and discernment because it's the only
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  Speaker 9: way we're going to make the right moves and be
• 1:14:18
  Speaker 9: able to see things in the.
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  Speaker 15: Spirit before it happened.
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  Speaker 9: You know what I'm saying. Because God prepares us for
• 1:14:25
  Speaker 9: these things, and sometimes we step out and do things
• 1:14:28
  Speaker 9: on our own and it don't work out because I
• 1:14:32
  Speaker 9: always say, you know, if I'm doing something and I'm stressed,
• 1:14:37
  Speaker 9: then this is not going right down, and well then
• 1:14:40
  Speaker 9: that's evidently that's where God didn't tell me to do that.
• 1:14:44
  Speaker 1: God didn't put me there. I'm not ready yet, right.
• 1:14:48
  Speaker 9: So I've come to understand that, right, you know, so
• 1:14:53
  Speaker 9: I'm able to step back. I'm able to say no
• 1:14:57
  Speaker 9: to opportunities that look exciting.
• 1:15:01
  Speaker 1: But I can say no.
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  Speaker 9: You know, because I know too with the loopis stress. Yes, stress,
• 1:15:12
  Speaker 9: you don't I could take your life.
• 1:15:15
  Speaker 1: I mean stressing stress period is dangerous.
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  Speaker 9: But when you have something like we have with the
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  Speaker 9: Order new it could lock you off your feet.
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  Speaker 7: Yes it can, and it had y Yeah I can.
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  Speaker 1: I mean I was getting sick. It seemed like every
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  Speaker 1: day at one time, but it had It wasn't the
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  Speaker 1: fact that I had the LOOPID. It was because of
• 1:15:40
  Speaker 1: what was.
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  Speaker 9: Going on in my life, you know, And I didn't
• 1:15:44
  Speaker 9: realize that until it was going and things, you know,
• 1:15:50
  Speaker 9: started going different with me, you know, So for me,
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  Speaker 9: it's like, I know, we are definitely witnesses, but we
• 1:16:02
  Speaker 9: are a testimony of what God can do because people
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  Speaker 9: look at it and be like, you know, I wish
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  Speaker 9: that a lot of other you know, I have a
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  Speaker 9: little lucas you know, groups and stuff.
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  Speaker 1: That I'm and I'm hoping that some of them might
• 1:16:16
  Speaker 1: have jumped.
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  Speaker 9: On because I want to encourage them because a lot
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  Speaker 9: of times I don't know if this happened with you, Shovel,
• 1:16:23
  Speaker 9: but I can't vowe in those groups. It be so
• 1:16:28
  Speaker 9: depression and I can't go in there trying.
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  Speaker 1: To be light because it's too much what you know,
• 1:16:38
  Speaker 1: they they, I mean, all the groups I find.
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  Speaker 9: Is just I think they just need somebody, right, you know,
• 1:16:46
  Speaker 9: even if it's a one on one, they're they're all
• 1:16:49
  Speaker 9: together and they're all doing the same thing.
• 1:16:52
  Speaker 1: You see what I'm saying. So that's all they know,
• 1:16:55
  Speaker 1: but they don't they don't understand. They don't understand.
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  Speaker 9: So some of the dudes I try, they go in
• 1:17:00
  Speaker 9: and you know, and life and then you know, because
• 1:17:03
  Speaker 9: I love my Lucy sisters, you know, and and I
• 1:17:07
  Speaker 9: don't know if you realize I've just been seeing a
• 1:17:11
  Speaker 9: post of so many of them passing away, right, you.
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  Speaker 7: Know, we have I think, but I'm in a lot
• 1:17:24
  Speaker 7: of different lucles groups. So you don't get up there
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  Speaker 7: and say motivation things to have you have to because
• 1:17:33
  Speaker 7: you're right, they do opening there while I'm talking, I
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  Speaker 7: can't hose, but I was trying to listen in. Yeah,
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  Speaker 7: what I was gonna say is that it's up to us. Yeah,
• 1:17:49
  Speaker 7: it's gonna be challenged when we talk to other people
• 1:17:52
  Speaker 7: about it, and everybody friends. I have family members in
• 1:17:55
  Speaker 7: my family that deal with Luca's and we all experienced
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  Speaker 7: different things. Okay, but we remindful of that. Yes, me
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  Speaker 7: and you go lucky. But if we got here, we
• 1:18:08
  Speaker 7: got here through our own pain. And I look at
• 1:18:12
  Speaker 7: a bad relationship, it comes and goes. I could be
• 1:18:14
  Speaker 7: twitched on the podcast and I can go out of town.
• 1:18:18
  Speaker 7: I can go over here my family, what did you do?
• 1:18:21
  Speaker 7: So I have to remember that that sometimes we have
• 1:18:25
  Speaker 7: to balance it out. Now. I don't know who's to them,
• 1:18:29
  Speaker 7: I don't know who's encouraging them. I don't know that
• 1:18:31
  Speaker 7: relationship with God, but I do process with me. It
• 1:18:36
  Speaker 7: did not happen overnight crying. It took emotional, it took
• 1:18:42
  Speaker 7: me playing. So I look at everybody's journey is different,
• 1:18:46
  Speaker 7: and I believe putting it out here. I just want
• 1:18:50
  Speaker 7: to tell somebody right now, if you think about nothing else,
• 1:18:55
  Speaker 7: think about young lady who battled with lucas and cancer
• 1:18:58
  Speaker 7: at the same time and nothing help and heart fell
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  Speaker 7: and ready you one time and I'm still sitting here talking.
• 1:19:13
  Speaker 7: That's what I want you to anything else, don't even
• 1:19:16
  Speaker 7: say wow, just you know way God is doing for me,
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  Speaker 7: he could do for you that I trust him because
• 1:19:27
  Speaker 7: if I trusted everybody else, I want to be because
• 1:19:29
  Speaker 7: I used to go in there and when they was
• 1:19:32
  Speaker 7: putting you know, a treatments at one time, you going
• 1:19:34
  Speaker 7: to cancer, ciny, you will break down. Yeah, uh, we
• 1:19:39
  Speaker 7: lose a lot of great We lose our hair and
• 1:19:42
  Speaker 7: someone I can eat for two weeks and we can't eat.
• 1:19:48
  Speaker 7: You transform your mind. And I have a family member,
• 1:19:54
  Speaker 7: you know, offer with me on my friends. They was
• 1:19:58
  Speaker 7: with me constantly. They didn't me different. Whoever in your
• 1:20:02
  Speaker 7: family is going through anything, that key is don't treat
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  Speaker 7: them different.
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  Speaker 1: That's right.
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  Speaker 7: Was process I was like, And that's what my book says.
• 1:20:14
  Speaker 7: Life behind cancer. Don't let your mouth destroy your process,
• 1:20:20
  Speaker 7: because we kill ourselves what our mouth we do that
• 1:20:25
  Speaker 7: it don't matter how much I pray. I had the
• 1:20:28
  Speaker 7: belief and that and my life to deal with lupis
• 1:20:35
  Speaker 7: and cancer. And they told me I couldn't say time
• 1:20:39
  Speaker 7: that when I was getting the treatments and think about
• 1:20:41
  Speaker 7: I was getting eight treatments at one time, reduation plus
• 1:20:47
  Speaker 7: they was worrying about my heart because the key was
• 1:20:51
  Speaker 7: winning on my heart. I had my youngest one here
• 1:20:54
  Speaker 7: that I didn't tell at first. My other two was
• 1:20:57
  Speaker 7: in college for it was waning. So I'm a testimony.
• 1:21:02
  Speaker 7: This is not as you are walking miracle and the movie.
• 1:21:07
  Speaker 7: This is fat And even now when I go to
• 1:21:10
  Speaker 7: the doctor, it's the blood level. It's the playlist the low. Yes,
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  Speaker 7: So it doesn't matter. It's your mind correct with your
• 1:21:20
  Speaker 7: heart and right mine not right, it's the heart. This
• 1:21:25
  Speaker 7: is not a botal things. This is reality. So whoever
• 1:21:28
  Speaker 7: out here, whether before it, whether it's writing the book,
• 1:21:31
  Speaker 7: we are on. We can be on the billboard against God.
• 1:21:37
  Speaker 7: That is the favor of God. Many beautiful women. My
• 1:21:44
  Speaker 7: son was up there during the Knicks game. My hand
• 1:21:49
  Speaker 7: to put him up there to be in magazine. That's
• 1:21:53
  Speaker 7: just saying, okay, we in the we in the magazine,
• 1:21:58
  Speaker 7: we're on the block radio. This is is about the money.
• 1:22:02
  Speaker 7: How much money? Right right? I get the same thing.
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  Speaker 7: I get the same thing, A legend for the next generation,
• 1:22:12
  Speaker 7: for your kids, kids or you you the daughter saying wow,
• 1:22:18
  Speaker 7: I know her. Everyone said money, money, come and go,
• 1:22:22
  Speaker 7: but that legacy days forever. That the podcast, the magazine,
• 1:22:29
  Speaker 7: right right, but you get it today and it's doing,
• 1:22:40
  Speaker 7: doing and encouraging and follow God right away. No, you know,
• 1:22:54
  Speaker 7: you're right, You're right.
• 1:22:55
  Speaker 9: I've had a lot of people say, well, how much
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  Speaker 9: you know I'm gonna shoot chuck. No, that's because I
• 1:23:04
  Speaker 9: feel that it's a stepping stone. It's gonna be a
• 1:23:08
  Speaker 9: time everything's gonna have to be free until God field
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  Speaker 9: you're ready to move forward and be at that level
• 1:23:17
  Speaker 9: where people at oh you can charge you know, you
• 1:23:20
  Speaker 9: know what I'm saying. But right now I'm enjoying where
• 1:23:23
  Speaker 9: I'm at. Right I don't want no money, but I'm
• 1:23:27
  Speaker 9: enjoying where I'm at because I'm walking in the purpose
• 1:23:32
  Speaker 9: and the calling that He has on my life. Finally,
• 1:23:37
  Speaker 9: something I wasn't doing, you know, and all my family was,
• 1:23:41
  Speaker 9: like I said, try to push me, especially with my poetry.
• 1:23:44
  Speaker 9: I was trying to do everything else. I was gonna
• 1:23:46
  Speaker 9: just write a book just a I was actually go.
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  Speaker 1: And write a book about youpis about in twenty fourteen.
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  Speaker 1: It wasn't the time the book is finished. The book
• 1:23:56
  Speaker 1: went up, but I don't know, I don't know what happened,
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  Speaker 1: but I had to. I had to tell her to
• 1:24:07
  Speaker 1: put it down because the grandma was terrible. Everybody was.
• 1:24:12
  Speaker 9: I was getting bad reviews before I even had the
• 1:24:15
  Speaker 9: book in my head, you know, And I said that
• 1:24:19
  Speaker 9: it wasn't time.
• 1:24:20
  Speaker 1: It wasn't time, and who knows who knew that what
• 1:24:24
  Speaker 1: I wrote it on that.
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  Speaker 9: Was I wasn't even going to use that yet because
• 1:24:29
  Speaker 9: it's gonna be a time for that, and that's already done.
• 1:24:33
  Speaker 1: I probably would just have to just do some little mamovement,
• 1:24:36
  Speaker 1: you know, around and everything. But it wasn't times. And
• 1:24:40
  Speaker 1: I know, I'm definitely to believe it's God's time.
• 1:24:43
  Speaker 9: It's not all the time and at all, you know,
• 1:24:47
  Speaker 9: because I mean, people don't understand being all these billboards
• 1:24:52
  Speaker 9: and things of that sort, that's preparing us for even
• 1:24:56
  Speaker 9: something bigger.
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  Speaker 3: Right, But we gotta go of that.
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  Speaker 1: Like we said, we got to go through the process.
• 1:25:02
  Speaker 1: That's right into the process, and.
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  Speaker 7: We can't get a hag mm hmmm.
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  Speaker 13: I have.
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  Speaker 7: I got to show the world aspiring magazine books. So
• 1:25:14
  Speaker 7: that's right, let me go get it right there, just
• 1:25:18
  Speaker 7: bring us.
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  Speaker 9: All that's right, I said, you know, I'm in right now.
• 1:25:26
  Speaker 9: I was able to be blessed to be in charge
• 1:25:29
  Speaker 9: of the poetry section, like four pages.
• 1:25:33
  Speaker 1: I love it, you know.
• 1:25:35
  Speaker 9: So it's like almost like getting experienced in journalism, like
• 1:25:39
  Speaker 9: you know, and stuff like that.
• 1:25:40
  Speaker 1: So that's a blessing for me to be able to
• 1:25:43
  Speaker 1: put those things together.
• 1:25:44
  Speaker 9: But the real blessing is being able to spotlight other
• 1:25:50
  Speaker 9: people other than myself, you know what I'm saying, you know,
• 1:25:54
  Speaker 9: And it's not just about us, but other people on
• 1:25:58
  Speaker 9: the outside who I'm finding poetry.
• 1:26:00
  Speaker 1: We're trying to push it to them to take this copic.
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  Speaker 7: So because I gonna get the first words, free, can
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  Speaker 7: I go get the magazine because I want to share.
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  Speaker 1: Go ahead, good, okay, okay. I was like, and I'm
• 1:26:13
  Speaker 1: gonna get mine, but you can't throw it right guys,
• 1:26:21
  Speaker 1: I hope you're joining it.
• 1:26:23
  Speaker 9: This conversation that we're having and I want to thank
• 1:26:27
  Speaker 9: everybody who's out there now if if I think I
• 1:26:32
  Speaker 9: can see some of you all, but if you have questions,
• 1:26:35
  Speaker 9: you want to ask them something.
• 1:26:36
  Speaker 7: That was what magazine? Was that one? That was the one?
• 1:26:41
  Speaker 1: What mom.
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  Speaker 7: June? Yeah?
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  Speaker 1: Yes?
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  Speaker 7: And this one here it's Prices because my daughter is
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  Speaker 7: in here. See graduated with the bar one.
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  Speaker 9: See this is what the aspiring or this magazine is
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  Speaker 9: due inspite and people.
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  Speaker 7: Look at that, look look at this on the front
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  Speaker 7: of I'm not thank real briefly several of Miss Angela platforms,
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  Speaker 7: and I can tell you ninety seventy five cent the
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  Speaker 7: magazines I have at my house. I have been I
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  Speaker 7: have least one, two, three, four five, about six calendar
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  Speaker 7: to her I have and for my children to be.
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  Speaker 1: In her magazine, now, that's why that's a blessing.
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  Speaker 7: Not only that my son two weeks ago when the
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  Speaker 7: next one was in, he was on the billboard semi grant.
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  Speaker 7: See that's what I see. What I'm saying, legacy with
• 1:27:56
  Speaker 7: my younger son through his knees. So when we stopped
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  Speaker 7: look it up and look at what God is doing
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  Speaker 7: to our younger thoughts and picking at us and we
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  Speaker 7: need to show them. We need to show them we
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  Speaker 7: make mistakes. We need to show that we're not perfect.
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  Speaker 1: They have to see it.
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  Speaker 7: To illness because we're not. So when life come and
• 1:28:22
  Speaker 7: hit them, they right now. So it's up us chosen
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  Speaker 7: that we pray that we fast, that we get knocked
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  Speaker 7: off our right overnight, and that government, I pray it
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  Speaker 7: don't parted you exactly because we're losing them because we
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  Speaker 7: are not shaming. We we woke up and read the
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  Speaker 7: Boble and we ain't never done nothing wrong and the
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  Speaker 7: right right. So you prepare for a day like this.
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  Speaker 1: Because it's yepbo yep.
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  Speaker 7: Because I get excited, okay, I write along with you.
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  Speaker 1: I write it when you When I hear you talking
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  Speaker 1: about your son, I said, oh my god. You know
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  Speaker 1: my my granddaughter. She's three.
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  Speaker 9: My name is Mirrapool and I named her of course,
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  Speaker 9: and because she is a Liverpool they told pretty much.
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  Speaker 1: Told my daughter that almost like she had.
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  Speaker 9: Like a certain amount of percentage that she can would
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  Speaker 9: have a child, basically as if she.
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  Speaker 1: Wouldn't be able to right. Mirrorpool was born several months
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  Speaker 1: after my sister passed.
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  Speaker 9: I said, God knew what we was going to be
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  Speaker 9: going through and he birthed a bundle of joy to
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  Speaker 9: get us through it.
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  Speaker 7: That's right, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: So I said, I when I hear about your son,
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, why. I told my mama. I told her
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  Speaker 1: mother too.
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  Speaker 9: I said Mirorbool was gonna write a book. I'm gonna
• 1:30:01
  Speaker 9: wait till she get a little maybe about five.
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  Speaker 1: I could work with her.
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  Speaker 9: I could work with her now because my grandfather has
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  Speaker 9: this thing about I think she's gonna like the right too.
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  Speaker 1: But she just think about being happy. She wants everybody happy.
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  Speaker 1: You happy, you happy?
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  Speaker 12: This is her.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, don't don't tell me you ain't happy, you know
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  Speaker 1: what I mean.
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  Speaker 9: So I told her sister, I know her first book
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  Speaker 9: gonna be on be about you know, it's gonna be about.
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  Speaker 4: Who she is.
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  Speaker 1: You know, because I said, member gonna be on that
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  Speaker 1: billboard too.
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  Speaker 9: I gotta get with angel. I'm liver gonna be on
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  Speaker 9: that billboard about two more years.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 7: He was like, I'm being a bell boy and that's
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  Speaker 7: school that up in New York. But I was like, okay,
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  Speaker 7: I look at my journey because I was one that
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  Speaker 7: I never want kids.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, kids kids.
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  Speaker 7: But then I decided I wanted so when the doctor
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  Speaker 7: told me you have never had I was doing yeah
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  Speaker 7: right right, A lot of complications. And when you're older,
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  Speaker 7: the first thing they say, down syndron, because think about
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  Speaker 7: thirty four. Yes, yep, right, look at what God has done.
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  Speaker 7: Nobody to God. You can tell me a lot of
• 1:31:25
  Speaker 7: things in life, but I am one to tell you
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  Speaker 7: I have three. As soon as they over thirty, the
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  Speaker 7: first thing they say to you is down syndrone, and
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  Speaker 7: look at.
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  Speaker 1: God and look at God.
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  Speaker 7: You see all my children be ain't perfect, but they
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  Speaker 7: all in school.
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  Speaker 1: You tell you down syndrome and.
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  Speaker 3: This and that.
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  Speaker 7: And I had complications, but but God said your complication
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  Speaker 7: gonna be victree.
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  Speaker 1: That's right. You got trust God because we are That's right.
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  Speaker 9: You gotta trust God because these doctors tell me all
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  Speaker 9: of these things. The doctor told me when I and
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  Speaker 9: now I understand. You know, we have to be careful
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  Speaker 9: when we're young. We don't know what we allowed to
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  Speaker 9: get in our spirit, in our headcates, I will bishops
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  Speaker 9: to tell itself all the time. We have to be
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  Speaker 9: careful because we can be everywhere doing anything and everything with.
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  Speaker 1: You know, because we don't. We don't know, you know,
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  Speaker 1: we don't know. And the thing of it is, I
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  Speaker 1: had How can I say it?
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  Speaker 7: Mm hmm.
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  Speaker 1: You know, you start thinking about something and you feel
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  Speaker 1: it something coming.
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  Speaker 9: Up, so you're like, okay, no, I'm not gonna go there,
• 1:32:50
  Speaker 9: go there yet. But all like I say is God
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  Speaker 9: has blessed me, yes, but he's even bless my children.
• 1:33:01
  Speaker 9: Because the doctor did tell me when I was diagnosed,
• 1:33:06
  Speaker 9: I had the butterfly rats.
• 1:33:08
  Speaker 1: Never had no uh bombs or anything on my face.
• 1:33:13
  Speaker 1: And I'm like, what is God?
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  Speaker 15: What is going on?
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  Speaker 7: I was?
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  Speaker 1: I was praying God doings. I just praying that because
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  Speaker 1: my grandmother.
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  Speaker 9: Had lupid's right, but she had this right, so it
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  Speaker 9: showed on her her face. So the first thing I'm thinking,
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  Speaker 9: because I don't know anything about she don't even because
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  Speaker 9: she was older, she didn't know much about what her
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  Speaker 9: body was going through.
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  Speaker 1: But yes, that's the only thing I was worried about.
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  Speaker 9: I don't want to look like.
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  Speaker 7: That, you know what I mean?
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  Speaker 4: You know?
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  Speaker 1: But then as I got older, you know, you gotta
• 1:33:55
  Speaker 1: you gotta, you gotta baby.
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  Speaker 9: Yourself and those things people saying something wrong at you.
• 1:34:03
  Speaker 1: About and find out what it is right.
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  Speaker 9: You know, I tried to I was in books about
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  Speaker 9: Luca's I was about with the body, just to understand
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  Speaker 9: my body. You know, if I gotta be in his
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  Speaker 9: body and this is going on, you know, I'm going
• 1:34:20
  Speaker 9: to continue praying and I sayd God for my you know,
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  Speaker 9: with the healing and that.
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  Speaker 1: But he said, I'm healed anyway. We're here, you know,
• 1:34:29
  Speaker 1: through his strikes. I'm healed anyway. Because I'm gonna give
• 1:34:32
  Speaker 1: you a little testimony. My father always stated, you're not.
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  Speaker 9: That's what I was from the day day I was diagnosed,
• 1:34:43
  Speaker 9: was that when I was diagnosed, I was dignosed from
• 1:34:45
  Speaker 9: a genetologist. And the first thing he said to me,
• 1:34:50
  Speaker 9: you have lupus. Okay, And Denny said to me, lupus has.
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  Speaker 7: A ten Yeah.
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  Speaker 9: I think it was a ten year at that time
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  Speaker 9: because I was twenty. No a ten to twenty year
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  Speaker 9: life speak, Why did you tell me that? But I
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  Speaker 9: as I got older, you know, I realized what I
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  Speaker 9: thought I.
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  Speaker 1: Was gonna die at forty.
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  Speaker 9: Okay, I thought I was because I was twenty my
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  Speaker 9: diagnosed and my daughter was only a year old.
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  Speaker 1: So the first thing I'm worrying about, I know, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not going to be here twenty and I'm forty five. Now.
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  Speaker 1: Raise got to look at you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: We have to we have to trust.
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  Speaker 9: We have to trust God because that same thing that
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  Speaker 9: you they are counted me out so many times and.
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  Speaker 1: You know, I'm not going there until my.
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  Speaker 7: Time is up. Left. Let me tell you something.
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  Speaker 1: We got things to do?
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  Speaker 7: How we got things to do?
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  Speaker 1: This?
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  Speaker 7: Do I love in life? As we Sometimes people get
• 1:36:03
  Speaker 7: upset because they look at their lives when they see us,
• 1:36:07
  Speaker 7: and that's like, oh, they got this and they got that.
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  Speaker 7: I know they life ain't this and that you're right
• 1:36:13
  Speaker 7: because you know, do we have our moments yet?
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  Speaker 1: But I would sell anybody up here.
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  Speaker 7: Woman must talk to God and see where he wants
• 1:36:26
  Speaker 7: to do at because you don't know, you know, because
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  Speaker 7: maybe you can't deal with what I did. Maybe you can't.
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  Speaker 7: So you got to find out what works for you
• 1:36:37
  Speaker 7: for you. You learn what works for you, be okay.
• 1:36:43
  Speaker 7: But when you start saying, well her life, that you
• 1:36:48
  Speaker 7: might be absolutely right. That's how I wrote this book
• 1:36:51
  Speaker 7: right here behind my door. Okay hurts people, hurt the kids.
• 1:36:59
  Speaker 7: That's so I wrote the book. All my books something
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  Speaker 7: behind closed doors. I have another book grows in darkness
• 1:37:13
  Speaker 7: because of the dark knife behind stupid. When I tell something,
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  Speaker 7: I can't tell your story. Like I told you, I
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  Speaker 7: made a lot of mistakes forgets. What's one person to hear?
• 1:37:28
  Speaker 7: Think about it. I had to go in stores and
• 1:37:31
  Speaker 7: McDonalds them, I didn't have any Wi Fi and I
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  Speaker 7: wrote half. I just got to this point. It has
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  Speaker 7: been anombertainly. But if anything in life we do, if
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  Speaker 7: you look at it, it's don't belong to us anyway.
• 1:37:52
  Speaker 1: So it is that's right, right?
• 1:37:58
  Speaker 7: Say, well, you know, God don't want you to share.
• 1:38:00
  Speaker 7: God don't want you to do this. We share everything else.
• 1:38:03
  Speaker 7: Let me tell some people like my game. Parents will
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  Speaker 7: standing in line all day on the holiday and buy
• 1:38:11
  Speaker 7: a five hundred dollars game, but you won't invest in yourself. Yes, right,
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  Speaker 7: got to get that right. I don't want to do that.
• 1:38:20
  Speaker 7: I don't want to give them this dollar you But
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  Speaker 7: you'll pay five dollars for a game. That's gonna be
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  Speaker 7: another way.
• 1:38:26
  Speaker 1: What we do.
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  Speaker 7: But I teach my if you're gonna invest invest something
• 1:38:33
  Speaker 7: that's gonna help somebody else. Mm hmm, get our mindset
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  Speaker 7: right within our fel and stop thinking, well everybody else business,
• 1:38:47
  Speaker 7: why you're doing this, or you should be making a
• 1:38:50
  Speaker 7: lot of money because you got books or you a mansion.
• 1:38:55
  Speaker 7: It's about a legacy. So while you want to wow
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  Speaker 7: and you're paying all your bills, I'm not going to
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  Speaker 7: condemn you because you gotta do what you gotta do.
• 1:39:04
  Speaker 7: But we need to stop and look at what are
• 1:39:07
  Speaker 7: we building in a kingdom? What are we wanting? What
• 1:39:10
  Speaker 7: are we building? Because when you work at these jobs
• 1:39:12
  Speaker 7: twenty thirty years, they can file you at any time.
• 1:39:15
  Speaker 7: Why I mean, you give them your own You're giving
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  Speaker 7: them every day whether my family passed to stay. So
• 1:39:28
  Speaker 7: when the people are trying to do well, we need
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  Speaker 7: to encourage one another to fire. That's right because at
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  Speaker 7: the end of the day, at the end of the day,
• 1:39:40
  Speaker 7: it can all be taken.
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  Speaker 1: Away, taken away.
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  Speaker 7: Do that.
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  Speaker 9: Like they say, when you're working, you'll you'll one shake
• 1:39:49
  Speaker 9: away from being homeless.
• 1:39:51
  Speaker 7: I done did it all. So when I was saying,
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  Speaker 7: why not motivate someone, tell the younger people you experience,
• 1:40:01
  Speaker 7: they will make the same such mistake. Thank go night,
• 1:40:06
  Speaker 7: I can go to sleep and say I told them right. Listen,
• 1:40:12
  Speaker 7: God believest I know as a mother of I told you.
• 1:40:16
  Speaker 7: You told them for I know some of them gonna
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  Speaker 7: go do what they're gonna do.
• 1:40:22
  Speaker 1: We go and I say, they all kids don't go
• 1:40:25
  Speaker 1: through you know, at some point they do have to
• 1:40:27
  Speaker 1: learn on their own.
• 1:40:29
  Speaker 7: But like you said, are we.
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  Speaker 9: Planning to them once God give it to me, I
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  Speaker 9: give it to them. It's out of my hands now
• 1:40:35
  Speaker 9: I did and said what I needed to say. So
• 1:40:40
  Speaker 9: we're dealing with a totally different Jenner.
• 1:40:45
  Speaker 1: What this situation is. But I all we can do
• 1:40:49
  Speaker 1: is pray, pray for me.
• 1:40:51
  Speaker 7: Well, we're different. So let me just say this when
• 1:40:53
  Speaker 7: you say that it's not the children, it's and what
• 1:40:58
  Speaker 7: I mean by that growing up you know, up Northcombe
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  Speaker 7: to the stomach along sto. Sure, there's certain things that
• 1:41:06
  Speaker 7: were not allowed that it's allowed now, right right, And
• 1:41:12
  Speaker 7: that's another thing. You got that abuse. Now we got whooping.
• 1:41:16
  Speaker 7: Say oh God. What I'm saying is the mindset is different.
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  Speaker 7: You can't things that was allowed to stay that then
• 1:41:31
  Speaker 7: you can't certain things on one hand is good and
• 1:41:35
  Speaker 7: one hand is bad. You have more dance out of
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  Speaker 7: the house now and even when it out of the house,
• 1:41:43
  Speaker 7: we have Uncle Ralph and pay comes through. We have
• 1:41:47
  Speaker 7: lost community love, yes we have, and we don't have
• 1:41:52
  Speaker 7: God in our homes. Say that in our home and
• 1:41:58
  Speaker 7: the community is out of order. The younger generation is
• 1:42:03
  Speaker 7: out of order because of we are present in our
• 1:42:08
  Speaker 7: own homes. Because you want God out of our homes
• 1:42:12
  Speaker 7: and out of my hose. Wait reading the world in
• 1:42:18
  Speaker 7: our homes all day? Everything everything dystrunctional to warfare going
• 1:42:30
  Speaker 7: is going to be What are we just as a whole?
• 1:42:36
  Speaker 7: What are we doing as individual? When I kids saying
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  Speaker 7: the fool? What are we saying or were saying, you're
• 1:42:42
  Speaker 7: gonna be like your dad or you're gonna be like
• 1:42:45
  Speaker 7: are we getting on that needs keep saying because he
• 1:42:49
  Speaker 7: did it for me, that's right, that's right. I'm not
• 1:42:55
  Speaker 7: gonna sing until nobody on Facebook. I had a perfect family,
• 1:42:58
  Speaker 7: my kids and stop craziness. Don't go on. But I
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  Speaker 7: know a guy, if he can transform, he could do
• 1:43:06
  Speaker 7: it anybody. You're right, we don't see everything they do,
• 1:43:13
  Speaker 7: but I do know I do what I need to do.
• 1:43:17
  Speaker 7: I got a chance, just like just like with the
• 1:43:23
  Speaker 7: stuff that we're doing in the magazines that Miss Angela
• 1:43:27
  Speaker 7: is doing collaboration and we stepped out of our cousin zone.
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  Speaker 7: We won't know. I don't know her. I don't have
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  Speaker 7: time to do this. I'm not gonna share.
• 1:43:41
  Speaker 1: If we don't make.
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  Speaker 7: How we gonna know? And we just had something about
• 1:43:47
  Speaker 7: them with me. I think the Lord because with skin
• 1:43:51
  Speaker 7: loopers that can happen. You know, people were rational all
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  Speaker 7: over their faith h m hm. And and like I said,
• 1:44:02
  Speaker 7: lupas a bad relationship, it comes to go. So sometimes
• 1:44:06
  Speaker 7: I might say, sure, you gotta step back for two
• 1:44:08
  Speaker 7: three days. We gotta know too. You can't. You can't
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  Speaker 7: give a good word. If the word now in us
• 1:44:16
  Speaker 7: and we've running around like a chicken. I want to die.
• 1:44:21
  Speaker 7: I was on the ads podcast.
• 1:44:22
  Speaker 1: I was.
• 1:44:25
  Speaker 7: There, You're going to the hospital now, what good is
• 1:44:28
  Speaker 7: all them? And Mama sick? Damn? I just said it down.
• 1:44:39
  Speaker 7: Yeah I have to because period, I have to. And
• 1:44:45
  Speaker 7: we got to watch what we eat. And lucas is
• 1:44:49
  Speaker 7: different cancer, your hair fall out, you get Yeah, deeper
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  Speaker 7: killer loopis people don't know got it until they know you.
• 1:45:02
  Speaker 1: Until they know you, that's right, That's why they caught it.
• 1:45:05
  Speaker 9: The invisible disease because you're walking around looking like us
• 1:45:10
  Speaker 9: and people don't know what we're going through inside all dyes,
• 1:45:14
  Speaker 9: it's a fight every single day and they don't one
• 1:45:19
  Speaker 9: thing for me. And I'm sure it's happened to you
• 1:45:22
  Speaker 9: that a lot of times people don't swing roub you
• 1:45:27
  Speaker 9: I have.
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  Speaker 1: It's real for seak no fortigue.
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  Speaker 9: You're gonna It's like, no matter what you do, what
• 1:45:39
  Speaker 9: you take is that you always have that fatigue.
• 1:45:43
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying.
• 1:45:44
  Speaker 9: So you gotta do what you gotta do and make
• 1:45:47
  Speaker 9: yourself feel the way you need to feel so you
• 1:45:50
  Speaker 9: can get.
• 1:45:50
  Speaker 1: Up every morning, you know what I'm saying. And and
• 1:45:54
  Speaker 1: just keep God, keep God in your heart and keeping me.
• 1:45:59
  Speaker 9: Your life because without him, I know I would not
• 1:46:01
  Speaker 9: be here today. I wouldn't be here today because you know,
• 1:46:07
  Speaker 9: when I was younger, I wanted to take my life right.
• 1:46:12
  Speaker 1: I understand what that meant. But I did, and I'm
• 1:46:17
  Speaker 1: here now. You know it wasn't glory glory to God.
• 1:46:25
  Speaker 1: That's that's That's all I can say. But I'm trying
• 1:46:30
  Speaker 1: to see. I don't I saw some people saying some things.
• 1:46:34
  Speaker 1: I think I can see a little bit. I know.
• 1:46:38
  Speaker 1: I think my sister's on I mean she's I know,
• 1:46:43
  Speaker 1: she said earlier.
• 1:46:45
  Speaker 9: The village like we don't have the village anymore. You
• 1:46:49
  Speaker 9: don't have a village, definitely don't.
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  Speaker 7: You don't have a l You don't know what like
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  Speaker 7: the pain behind the scene. You gotta be judge. You
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  Speaker 7: my struggles to night, then I don't know that lupas
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  Speaker 7: So when I get it to go and pose and
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  Speaker 7: say it can stay a day, it can stay two.
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  Speaker 7: But what I have to do now is cut myself
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  Speaker 7: and I take my bite or help like I take
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  Speaker 7: my for me because it helps me and I help
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  Speaker 1: Yes, yeah has products and you know for us, I
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  Speaker 9: So that's something that anyone is interested in any products
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  Speaker 9: last thinking that no here, I wanted to tell everyone
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  Speaker 9: where where they can reach you.
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  Speaker 7: Okay everybody. First of all, I want to thank everybody
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  Speaker 7: who came. I want to thank miss Keisha. I want
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  Speaker 7: to thank Patrees and and allow me once again to
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  Speaker 7: do on the platform and thank you Lord for allowing
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  Speaker 7: us to be here tonight to share. You can find
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  Speaker 7: Instagram and say Northern La Grand. And I'm more on
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  Speaker 7: TikTok to say Survival sixty six. I'm also trying to
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  Speaker 7: get on other platforms because it's time to grow into
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  Speaker 7: a different area. I'm connected to a queen collaboration. Can
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  Speaker 7: find me on any one of her pages. We are
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  Speaker 7: on from a prime magazine to the legacy. I mean,
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  Speaker 7: we are on so many different platforms. So when you
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  Speaker 7: see one, you see all. I also have another book
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  Speaker 7: coming out that is already out. Surprised me some other
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  Speaker 7: beautiful sisters. It's already done. It's already on Amazons that book.
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  Speaker 7: If I could say one thing, it's surely been humbling
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  Speaker 7: and breastful and grateful. I tell anybody wants to again,
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  Speaker 7: whatever your situation is, it's not a bragging like a
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  Speaker 7: god like and so many others that connected to Miss
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  Speaker 7: Andrew Thompson Smith. There's no judgmental, it's nothing beloved and collaboration.
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  Speaker 7: He could do it for you. Start with you. You
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  Speaker 7: heard our story might not be poor, she might not
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  Speaker 7: be a book. Whatever it is. You don't let your
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  Speaker 7: gifts go because my past even said it last week.
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  Speaker 7: When we do that, we lose our gift. I ain't
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  Speaker 7: say no, but it's true. Yeah, but we use it,
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  Speaker 7: you lose it. That's what the world if for our
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  Speaker 7: He could do it, do you know our behind the scenes.
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  Speaker 9: Know you do not do.
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  Speaker 7: You know our pain and our struggles. You know you
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  Speaker 7: do not do. And we can't tell you.
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  Speaker 1: It's own God, that God stuff that we're doing our
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  Speaker 1: place of God.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, step out, write that book.
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  Speaker 1: That's right, that's right. I hold my sister listening and
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  Speaker 1: hear that. Right, that's what you're the whole.
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  Speaker 9: I got somebody to help you, We got you, We
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  Speaker 9: got the collaboration and the connections now, and I know
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  Speaker 9: she's gonna do it.
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  Speaker 1: When the Lord said I was ready, I know that.
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  Speaker 1: But you know what I learned to show that.
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  Speaker 9: We'll never be ready for anything. We'll never feel ready
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  Speaker 9: to step out to anything.
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  Speaker 1: We just have to do it.
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  Speaker 15: We have to.
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  Speaker 9: We have to do it afraid. I'm learning that we
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  Speaker 9: have to do it afraid. And then once we get
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  Speaker 9: through that, it's it's smooth. It's smooth, Salem. It's smooth Salem.
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  Speaker 9: And I want to thank also it is Patrice and
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  Speaker 9: a bourse of Queen Angela for this opportunity, you know,
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  Speaker 9: And I wanted to tell tell you when I first
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  Speaker 9: did me Queen.
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  Speaker 1: Angela, she didn't didn't even know me, but she knew
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  Speaker 1: my story.
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  Speaker 7: The first book.
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  Speaker 9: I was with her and she did a tribute to
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  Speaker 9: my sister.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, yes you did. Yes you think I forgot that.
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  Speaker 1: I ain't forgot about that. And it was like it
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  Speaker 1: was just something that when she did that, Yes, you
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  Speaker 1: know what I mean, that just attached me to I said, oh,
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  Speaker 1: now this is wow.
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  Speaker 4: You know.
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  Speaker 1: It wasn't about him, it wasn't about her, and and
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  Speaker 1: I love it. And if you're on here, please get
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  Speaker 1: connected with us. Angela.
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  Speaker 7: What is Angela?
• 1:53:23
  Speaker 1: You can follow well her name Angela Thomas Smith.
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  Speaker 9: Yes, Angela tom and Smith followed everything that she does
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  Speaker 9: because I guarantee you you may find something that you'll
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  Speaker 9: get blessed with like we have. You're not.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, that's clean up collaborations. Yes, and she.
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  Speaker 7: Blocked. You cannot say she anything that you want to
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  Speaker 7: do is your choice. She has several. Because I'm telling
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  Speaker 7: you about your daughter, let me tell you the way
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  Speaker 7: God use Angela.
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  Speaker 1: It'll be giving me anxiety, okay, because the thing of
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  Speaker 1: it is what I love about her is everything she starts,
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  Speaker 1: she completes.
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  Speaker 9: I have and I said that was that's nothing but
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  Speaker 9: the favorite, that's all her life. My God, that's nothing
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  Speaker 9: but the faith of her life, because there's no way
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  Speaker 9: in the world I can do all of these, you know,
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  Speaker 9: different things and have all these projects doing at the
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  Speaker 9: same time and complete then or if not all the time.
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  Speaker 1: She don't have a team, she don't have.
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  Speaker 7: I think she's trying to give you another song, miss angel.
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  Speaker 7: You're trying to get Oh it's for us.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, you guys.
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  Speaker 3: He brist stand still, bides it, still gray, riding our start,
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  Speaker 3: walk in good, bide a day answer, We let the
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  Speaker 3: truth come through, tell the already clouds.
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  Speaker 1: We sell the brady can let your boye say true change.
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  Speaker 9: We honor you.
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  Speaker 7: Wow a shallow were the shallow.
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  Speaker 2: We came to fire, came through rain, turned out fresh,
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  Speaker 2: our hands to braids, pissing our hands, faith in our feet,
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  Speaker 2: moving to a holy beat.
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  Speaker 1: Kiss a day brings the voice of.
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  Speaker 2: The light speaking power whole fair lie General stands with
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  Speaker 2: grace so strong.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm with the victory song.
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  Speaker 14: Oh it's speaking authors a right legacy, create a.
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  Speaker 3: Sign song from the page to the mic.
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  Speaker 6: We pull the whole word.
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  Speaker 3: Nason, Sorry, somebody saw a legacy too. Still stand still,
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  Speaker 3: rise and still getting God rayed us story.
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  Speaker 7: I love it, and so we let the truth thought
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  Speaker 7: through that.
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  Speaker 3: Let your house, We set the braid.
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  Speaker 1: He's a day boy, swing through, share up. We are.
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  Speaker 13: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: This is for savimas who refuse to fall. For every
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  Speaker 1: poet answering the call for authers.
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  Speaker 3: With a chapter two released, So found the Joynties. Every
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  Speaker 3: star has a sound, every tear can turn around.
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  Speaker 7: We don't have what we've been through.
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  Speaker 3: We testify and making dude and love sharahs and let
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  Speaker 3: long joy speak right the guys again.
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  Speaker 1: With Dona stories.
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  Speaker 3: Dever stand up. If you're a falling, steak up, if
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  Speaker 3: you're an augu if.
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  Speaker 2: You build a legacy, stay stop, keep.
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  Speaker 3: Shuting, shut, keep speaking, life showing. He'p shining bride. We're
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  Speaker 3: still sad and still ride stores walk, So let to come.
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  Speaker 3: We said, let your voice be true.
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  Speaker 7: Cheer up. Thanks for stopping by the Poetic Lounge.
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  Speaker 16: See you next time, Stay blessed, stay inspired, to make
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  Speaker 16: sure you stay connected to the voice of tie.
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  Speaker 7: Oh, we can give you my same song.
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  Speaker 15: Oh, thank you, yes, beautiful, I love it.
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  Speaker 1: I love her. Whoa that was all sound?
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  Speaker 7: Oh my god.
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  Speaker 9: I don't know where she comes from with these things,
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  Speaker 9: but I believe she probably created that while we was
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  Speaker 9: here talking. I really believe, because that's that's what she does,
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  Speaker 9: That's exactly what she does.
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  Speaker 1: But I think we still on and I just want
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  Speaker 1: to tell everybody to make sure that you also if
• 2:00:04
  Speaker 1: you're a poet an author, we have so many things.
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  Speaker 1: Angela has some store for you.
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  Speaker 9: If you want to seek it and see what's going on,
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  Speaker 9: what we're doing with the you can join and I'll
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  Speaker 9: put it on my.
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  Speaker 7: Page as well.
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  Speaker 9: The Poetic Lounge, it's a group nothing but poetic and
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  Speaker 9: we are definitely working together with each other. So I
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  Speaker 9: encourage you if you're an author, writer or looking to
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  Speaker 9: be on that journey, we here, we here, and it's
• 2:00:35
  Speaker 9: the DA Poetry Lounge. And also make sure you connect
• 2:00:41
  Speaker 9: to missus Green Angela, which is Angela Thomas Smith and
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  Speaker 9: you all know me. You can find me on all
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  Speaker 9: of my platforms Keisha Johnson and Pray or Beautiful Butterfly,
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  Speaker 9: I Love You and good night Shall I love you?
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  Speaker 12: M m hmm.
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  Speaker 10: I'm becoming you.
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  Speaker 1: The journey of rebirth, rising through healing