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#001 - Transforming Through Grief and Trauma 🌿🕊️ · Beyond Sovereignty

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My greatest hope for you is that you fall deeply in love with yourself. And
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not only fall deeply in love with yourself, but you have every single tool,
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tip and trick to care for yourself beyond what
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you even imagine is possible. This podcast is
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to evolve your soul beyond whatever limitations that
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you have right now and help you create the legacy that
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you don't even know that you're here for yet. Your legacy is buried deep
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within your cells and we are going to unlock every block that is there within your
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cellular membrane so that it can be free to express its
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beauty. Grief is a pure portal for transformation. So,
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so many of us are scared to go there and I get it because you don't want to get lost
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in the grief. That grief, when you go into it and allow yourself to
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express all of your emotions, there'll be rage, there'll be sadness, there'll
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be terror, there'll be Anger, once you allow your body and
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your being to express that energy, you'll be able to go through it
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because it's... Welcome wisdom keepers, soul
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tribe and new earth leaders to Soul Temple, your haven
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for self-discovery and growth. I'm Blythe Langford and
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I am your guide to finding yourself and your true, true,
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true, true, true purpose. Together, let's shift from
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feeling stark and misaligned to living a life of purpose
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and prosperity. I am so excited to
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share messages from the bush where I live and really
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dive in with you in this first episode more into who
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the fuck I am and why I am here and why I am speaking
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to you and why this podcast may
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be of value to you. So I'm going to
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dive straight in and tell you a little bit about my past and my upbringing
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and what led me to believe the things that I believe.
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and what led me to want to share the messages that I
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feel are really important for this moment in time and
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hopefully for your soul to evolve and grow into the
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spaces and the places that you feel maybe suppressed or
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uncomfortable or just maybe not fully
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integrated in your being. Because let me tell you, Epic Legend, you
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are amazing. And I'm here to remind you of that. So
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I'm going to dive into my journey. I
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grew up in what I thought was the most amazing household.
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Mum, dad, I'm the eldest of four kids. and grew up
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camping in nature, in the bush, kayaking, fully
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connected with nature. My dad was an amazing, intuitive,
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really connected with the animals and really connected with
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the earth. And when I say connected with the animals, what
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I mean is he was like Dr. Doolittle, like legit like Dr. Doolittle.
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He could get wild animals to come and communicate, come and communicate with
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him. And he really allowed
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that to be part of my everyday existence. And
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so I thought I was growing up in a little magical land. And
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that is part of everything that I love to help
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people connect with. Because this world that we live in, a
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lot of people don't realize how fucking amazing and
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how incredible it is and how much magic there is available
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to you each and every day. So that's what I want to share through
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these podcasts as well. Because once you dive in
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and tune in and tap into that connection, you will always
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feel at home. You will always feel at home within yourself
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and know that you've got allies, you've got ancestors, you've got like this
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whole freaking team that is there to support you each and
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every day. So you'll go into every single day feeling fucking
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awesome. So that's a little bit about my dad. But
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also, I was in this deluded state of
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like living this amazing life up until I was in my 20s.
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And it wasn't until my sister actually pulled me aside one day and she's like,
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babe, I've got to, I've got to talk to you about something. I was like, okay, cool. Let
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it rip. She was like, I don't know where you
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grew up, but it wasn't in the same household as me. I was like, what
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are you talking about? She's like, we grew up in a really violent
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household where there was domestic violence and abuse. I
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was like, no, no, no, no, no. Like I
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grew up with the most amazing family and
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my parents were epic. I loved them. And we did all of these amazing experiences.
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She's like. I just want you to tune in for a minute because you
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may have forgotten and you may be like
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in a state of trauma that you've actually blocked out
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a lot of what has actually happened in your past. Dad
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used to, potentially, I don't, this is very vulnerable,
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so it's a very vulnerable share for me, but dad
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used to hurt mum. We used to get abused.
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We were scared and terrified a lot of the time. every
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single night at our dinner table was like a war zone and
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you may have forgotten that and you may have forgotten how
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hard and scary it actually was growing up in
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our household and that's why you think that
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you grew up in this beautiful wonderland. And
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this was fucking shocking for me, because I was like, what do you
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mean? And then all of these memories started to tune
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in and become present. And like, I remembered these
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violent scenarios in my past. And I remembered, you
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know, bruises on my body that I used to cover up when I went to school. And
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yeah, like every single night at our dinner table, we were
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not allowed to leave that dinner table until everybody's meals were
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finished. And I used to finish my siblings' meals so that they
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didn't get beat or hit. And I remembered myself stepping
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in front of my dad when he was raging out
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and going to hit my little brother and sister. So
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then it all came back. And that's when my
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life took a different turn. And
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I realized that I was suppressing a lot of grief
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and terror and trauma. And
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my parents, whilst I fucking
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loved them and they did their absolute best, were,
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had no idea of what they were doing raising children, like so
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many other parents that are emotionally unavailable
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for their kids. So this
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led me down a different path, but
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I'll come back to this because I want to just dive into
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what actually happened in my teens that you might
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find connection with. Now,
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primary school, as I said, was this epic little wonderland where I
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thought I was, you know, part of nature and living Dr. Doolittle's life.
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And then going to high school, I went to a private girl's school
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in Australia, in Sydney. And it was like a
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suppressive wonderland where everybody was just
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trying to impress each other with all of these you
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know, all of the consumerism and all of these things. And like,
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I wasn't even into any of that. Like, I used to play soccer with the boys at primary
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school. Like, I wasn't into any of the girly stuff. Like, I was a tomboy to
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the max. And going to high school, I
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remember the first day somebody being like, I love your watch. It was literally like
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the movie Clueless, if you're as old as me, my 40s. And I
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was like, OK, cool, thanks, whatever.
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And then it was literally like, what kind of sneakers do you have? What kind of watch do you have? Where do you
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live? How much pocket money do your parents give you? What does your parents do?
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All of that kind of stuff. And I was just like, what the
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fuck is this place? And PS, where are all the
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boys? Because they don't have all of this shit going on. And
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I remember in
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one of my classes saying to one of my teachers, so
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like, because when I went from my public primary school into my
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private high school, they put you into the bottom class. And
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I was like, how do I accelerate and get into the top class? And
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they're like, sweetheart. You're in the bottom class because you've come
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from a public primary school. You'll never get into one of those top classes. You're
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not in special ed. You're not doing extra advanced work. You'll
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never get there. You're always going to be at the bottom. Now,
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I was a really good student, like great student in my primary school. And
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this changed the trajectory of my life. I was
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like, really? I'm going to be at the bottom? Well,
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I'm going to be at the bottom so fucking good. I'm going
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to rebel and be your worst student. I'm going to be the best at
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being the worst." I found
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people that were like-minded and we were just naughty,
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rebellious little shits. I'm talking there
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was pretty much me or one of my best friends in the principal's office
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every freaking day. You know, by grade eight,
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the second year of high school, we'd figured out how to get the cops to come to our
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school by the things that we were doing. So we were just rebelling
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to the max, having the best time ever. whilst
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breaking and poisoning ourselves and losing every
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brain cell that we could possibly in that moment in time. Like I'm
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talking drinking, smoking, whatever we could do, whatever
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we could find, drugs, alcohol at school
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and on the weekends, we were doing it like to the
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best of our abilities. To the point where
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when I was 16 years old, I had
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this boyfriend who I absolutely was infatuated with.
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And he died of a heroin overdose. Youngest person
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in Australia to die of a heroin overdose. In the papers, everything. And
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I remember getting the phone call from one of my friends at home and She
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was like, Blythe, Lawrence is dead. He had an overdose.
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We couldn't invite you to the funeral because we knew how upset you would be. And that
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would devastate his mother. So we haven't invited you. We're
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really sorry. We know that you loved him so much. I remember hanging up
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the phone and just being hysterical, crying,
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screaming. My mum rushes upstairs and she's like, what's going on?
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I'm like, Lawrence is dead. No, no, no. She's like, how did he die? Drug
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overdose, oh my gosh, like heroin overdose. And
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my mum, the most beautiful woman, also
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a complete narcissist, lost her
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shit. And she was like, that's it. You've got 20 minutes. Go
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down to the park. I want you to bawl your eyes out, do whatever
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the fuck you need to do. But you are never to bring this up in our house
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again. Never. Never speak of this again. I
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was like, okay. So I went to the end of the street, went to the park, cried my eyes out
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and got my shit together. Cause I didn't want to be beat when I come home and
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got my shit together, came home and never spoke about it again. This
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was pretty much every part of our upbringing, whatever you were feeling and you got
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like a certain amount of time to get over it and then never speak about
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it again. Now I was devastated, obviously. And
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then I've partied the next few years. I got a, fake
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ID so that I could get into nightclubs because back in the 90s you could get into a nightclub with
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just fake ID. I started working in a nightclub when I was 17 during
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my HSC. I like literally would go to school and
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from the nightclub get dropped off by a boyfriend who
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was obviously a drug dealer. He had to have a car, had to be a drug dealer,
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had to have a car because that's what I needed in order to get my
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needs met. and get dropped off at school, sign my
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name in, sign my test
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and everything like that and then leave because he'd be waiting at the front and we'd go and do something awesome
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and fun for the day. I literally sold my textbooks in
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high school so that I could make money. I literally found
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weed and drugs and sold them at school as well.
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I had multiple jobs all the same time. I used to do cleaning and babysitting,
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dealing a little bit of drugs, all different kinds of things. I was an
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entrepreneur quite young. because even though I went to a
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private high school, my parents made sure that I was
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able to fend for myself and they were also entrepreneurs. So
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I had that as my upbringing, which I was very, so,
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so fucking grateful for. And then
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I remember my mum walking
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outside the house one day and literally being like, Blithe,
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what do you want to do when you've left school? What do you want to do? I was
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like, Mum, I'm going to own a nightclub. It's going to be fucking sick. And she's
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like, you know that drug dealers and
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bikies and all of those kind of people limit people
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that own clubs and you have to pay them and all of these shit things." I
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was like, my mum, it's okay. Don't worry. All of those guys are my friends.
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They will be totally cool. So don't even worry about it. And she
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was like, lost her shit being a narcissist and handed me the phone. She's
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like, Blithe, you need a fucking career and your career is
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going to be a hairdresser. Here is the, here is the phone.
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She literally dialed the number of the hairdressing association, handed
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me the phone and some dude answered and was like, hello.
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And I was like, my mom wants me to be a hairdresser. He's like, amazing. Where do you live? I'm like, I
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live in Ryde in Sydney, Australia. It was like, that's amazing. I've
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got a friend who's looking for a first year apprentice. And I called
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that guy and he was like, amazing. You can come in tomorrow for
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your interview. And I was like, fuck. And mom's like, you're going. So
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I went in the next day and it was
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the day before my 18th birthday. And
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he said, look, I want you to start tomorrow. You've done the interview
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great. Everything that we're looking for, I want you to start tomorrow. I
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was like, dude, it's my 18th birthday. I am not going to
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be in the state to actually work. I just want to
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let you know. And he said, oh, no, no, no, sweetie, don't worry.
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You're going to be a hairdresser. It doesn't matter how you
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show up. As long as you can clean the floor and sweep, it's
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okay. Bring your own CDs. We don't care how fucked up you
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are. Because the first thing that you're going to have to do for me when you come in is
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go and get me a six shot coffee. Because I'll probably be even
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worse than you. I was like, really? He's like, yeah, it's
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totally cool here. I was like, really? I think
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I found my people. OK, I'm going to come in. It
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doesn't matter how I am. And I did. I went in fucked off
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my head and literally had the funnest day
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ever and then went out for my 18th birthday and
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partied all night and showed up at work on the Monday and started my
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career in hairdressing. And it was drugs,
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partying, loud music and learning a
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trade whilst being off your head. And because I am a perfectionist, I
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did really, really well at it. Bypass a
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few years and I realised that there was this company called Tony and
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Guy and they were winning all the awards. They
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were the best, not only in Australia, but worldwide. And
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I was like, I think, I
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think, I think I might And then my mum comes in, and you know she's
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a narcissist. And she was like, Blythe, this salon, they
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are winning all the awards. They are freaking awesome. And they've
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got a job going in the Parramatta salon. I was like, mum, I don't want to work
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out West. Like, seriously, I don't want to do that. And she's like, Blythe, they are winning all
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the awards. And so went in, got a job there. And I
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was an apprentice. And they were like, look, your skills are actually really good, which
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obviously I needed being 19 and all about the ego. And
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I was like, cool, great. And they're like, we'll have you, we'll take you on as
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a senior straight away. We'll put you into extra training so that you
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can actually be the best. And then we'll take you on as a senior. And
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it was amazing. This company was fantastic. Joined
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this epic company. And for the first 10 years, it was
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out of this world. I could party, I could do all these things. And then
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I decided to buy a salon, which was amazing. And
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then it turned into not
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so great. I realised that the company, there
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was just a lot of like
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sexual harassment and it was really egoic and, you
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know, they really wanted to do things like keep you limited
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in their approach with everything. And I was all about evolving
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as much as I could, evolving my teams as much as I could. You know, I'd
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done all this personal development, I'd educated all of my staff and
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they were fucking killing it. They were like, you know, the top in
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our company. There was 30 Salons in Australia. They were like at the tops, doing
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amazing. We'd done all of these, like taught them all about sales
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and they were killing it. And it was really limited. And as
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an owner, I realised that there wasn't a lot of ability
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to take money out of the company. Everything was very limited.
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So I started to look outside of the company for
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other things that were really fulfilling my passions and my journey. And
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it wasn't until I was 27 that I
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had an incident in Tony and Guy. Somebody was trying to pressure me into
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sleeping with another person and it rocked
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me. And they were also going to pay me to
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sleep with this other person and like a lot of money, like a million dollars,
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give me whatever I wanted. And I was like, fuck no.
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Like I realized that I actually had a lot of integrity and I
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was just not willing to do anything like that. And it
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was also the same year that My salons, I'd
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only had them for about a year and a half, started doing seven figures. In
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this year, I also found out that my partner was pregnant with another woman,
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and I got cervical cancer after having a cervical cancer vaccine. Needless
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to say, it was the fucking biggest year of my life.
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made the most money ever, yet my health was deteriorating. And
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so everything needed to shake up, and it literally transformed my
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life. I went from being hustle mentality, all
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about the money, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, into, wow,
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if I don't get healthy, the money means fuck all. So,
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I started to look into alternative health. I
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spent the next 10 years literally studying naturopathic nutrition.
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I studied my sister's and my cousin's medical journals because
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they were doctors, everything to do about physiology of
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the body and anatomy and everything
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that I could find, healing herbs. I traveled the world from India to
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America to Thailand to all different countries to
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learn as much as I possibly could. I
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got over the cancer, I got through it without any
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mainstream drugs, just minimal help from the mainstream
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and it changed my life forever. I
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first of all was extremely sick and then I remember walking
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through Pyrmont in
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the city and it was an Indian festival and this man
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grabbed me out of nowhere because I was extremely sick like I was in
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so much pain every day like I didn't have cancer but digestively And
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something just wasn't right in my body. I couldn't figure it out. And I'd had all
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of the tests to see what was going on in my body. And nobody
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could figure it out. I didn't have cancer anymore. They had brain scans and all
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of the things. And they couldn't figure it out. But walking through this Indian
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festival, this man grabbed me. And he said, I
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just want to let you know that your gut is extremely inflamed.
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And that's why you are having so much pain in your body. And I
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was like, yeah, whatever, dude. And he was like, I know
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how much pain you're in. And if you went vegan for
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one month, it will clear up all of the inflammation that
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is in your body." And I was like, mm.
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And he's like, I know that you were crying last night because you could not sleep because of
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the pain you're in. I was like, who are you, psychic man?
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And he's like, I'm a psychic. That's what I do. And I know that you're in so much pain, so
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just try this. And I was like, mm, I will. I will try
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it for one month because I was paleo and I was all about the meat. Within
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three days, my pain went away and I could
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sleep, I could eat any vegan food and
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I felt so much better in my body. I
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remember feeling connected to the land. I
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remember feeling more kind.
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Everything started to change in my world. And I was like, oh, this
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dude, he's onto something. So one month went away,
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one month went by and I kept on another month,
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another month and everything started to get better in my life and
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my world dramatically. My health, but
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then also synchronicity started to come in and it
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was epic and amazing. Fast forward a few years and
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I went to a detox center in Thailand. Now
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this is where I didn't
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really read the fine print about this place. And it
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turned out that it was a fasting retreat. Now, this is before coconuts and
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kale were in the supermarket, right? So nobody was talking about fasting. There
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was none of that shit around. Day one, we get there
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and they're like, okay, so you are going to be, this will
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be your last meal. And I was like, What?
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Are you guys, like, you're going to kill me? What? Like, what the fuck's going on? It's going
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to be my last meal. And they were like, you're not eating for
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the week. I was like, but if you don't eat, you die. And they
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were like, no, no, no, no. Like, you'll be fine. I was like, OK.
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OK. And I, like, grabbed a coconut, went back to my bedroom, opened
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it up, cracked it open with a rock, ate the meat. I was like, oh my god, I might die here.
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What the fuck is going on? I came to learn about nutrition. had
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a sleep, realised that nobody's been dead before, that everybody that
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was coming to this place, they were going there because they were curing AIDS, they were curing cancer,
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they were curing tumours, brain disease that nobody else
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could cure. I was like, I'm in the fucking right place. This chick Hillary, she knows
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her shit. It'll be okay. And Hillary taught me
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everything and I fucking am so grateful because I learned all about organics.
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I learned about healing herbs to save you from anything. I
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learned that generally whatever you've got going on in your body, there
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is something within a two kilometer radius that can heal you. Like this earth
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does not make mistakes, right? I was like, fuck yes, Hillary. Thank you. So
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that was amazing. And then in
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my thirties, my mother, Well,
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actually, from that experience, a few years later, all of my
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clients in my salon started to ask me about the
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changes that I had made in my life, if I could coach them
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through their health concerns. Because just like that psychic a
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few years ago, I started to see disease in people's
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bodies. I started to see energy. I
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started to be able to see the energy in plants. When people had disease in their body, it
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would shine green. I started to have psychic
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abilities. All of these magical things started happening. I'm like, what the fuck's going
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on? Oh my God. And it was cool as fuck.
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And I started to understand and being able to read and tap
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into people's intuition, into their problems, into
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whatever was going on in their lives and be able to source
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the right ingredients to be able to help them with the diseases or
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with the depression or with the anxiety that they were going through. developed
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a detox product that was able to
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help people with all different kinds of things. It was fucking epic. And
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I made my parents swear on my life that if they ever got any disease to
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do with their gut or anything like that, that they would try this product. A few
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years later, my mum got pancreatic cancer and I was like, sweet, well, you're just
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going to do this detox. Within two weeks, you'll be sweet. This is what the detox is for. She's
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like, nope. Blithe, I'm going mainstream. And
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I was like, what the fuck, mom? You know that we can help you get over this. And
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she literally turned to me one day after being sick for quite a while, and she was like,
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life? I'm
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not going to be here to watch your father die. I'm going to go
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first. I was like, what? She's like, I
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need to go first. I can't watch your father die. Because
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my dad was a smoker, he had emphysema. I was like, fuck. So
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you don't want me to help you? You don't want to get better? She's like, I don't want to get better, blood. I'm done. Just
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let me go. I was like, whoa. You're
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my favourite person. What am I supposed to do? Am
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I just supposed to love you and not help you? She's like, yeah, that'd
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be great. So I moved in with her
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for 18 months, supported her through her last years. And
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it was such a different experience. And her
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passing was beautiful because
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she chose it and she'd been in so much pain. So
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it was amazing. Then
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fast forward a few more years, and I'd
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really been stuck in Tony and Guy. I couldn't get out of it. I
25:02
wanted to leave and just concentrate on health and well-being, but I was really
25:06
stuck in there with my business partners. And I didn't want to walk away from
25:10
the money that I had invested. My salons were worth a lot of money. And
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I didn't want to walk away from that cash and start up base level.
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A few years later, I went to Peru. doing a DDHR, I
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got really into plant medicine because I was trying all of these things to get me out
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of the salons. I had no way of leaving.
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My business partners didn't want me to leave because I was making really good money for them.
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I turned a lot of salons around. I turned a lot of three salons that
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were in dire, turned them into seven figures, got
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the teams running amazing and had these staff being
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the best in our company. And my
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business partners would not let me leave. So of course, what do you
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do? You go to Peru. Peru will figure it all out for you because you can't walk
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away going to Pap Medicine. I had
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an accident over there. After we'd done our,
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you know, two week retreat, I was
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on a motorbike and smashed
26:06
into a concrete wall and I remember waking up and this
26:09
beautiful woman, local woman, was wiping
26:13
all the blood off my body and I was like, whoa, you're so nice.
26:17
I don't know if I would do that for somebody. Like, wow. That was
26:21
my thoughts. Anyway, the lady that was running the retreat was like, you? are
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going to go back to the hotel room. You wait there, blah, blah, blah. And I was like,
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I think I need to go to the hospital. I think I've broken my legs. She's like,
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no, we don't have time for this shit. We're going on a tour. You go back to the room and
26:37
we will come and take you to the hospital when we're ready. I was like, I
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don't think I can walk. Hey, like, I'm not okay. Can I
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go to the hospital? She was like, no, we're in the jungle. Like, nobody will speak
26:46
English. Just go back to the hotel room. We'll take you later. Anyway, I
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got to the doctor two weeks later and it turns out that I'd broken my
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arm in 15 places and shattered my elbow into a million pieces. And
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I needed to go home to Australia straight away. I was permanently disabled in
27:02
my right arm and I
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could never do hairdressing again. One part of me
27:09
was like, fuck yes, this is my exit. And
27:13
then another part of me was like, wow, I'm never going to be able to do yoga again. I'm
27:16
never going to go kayaking or rock climbing. Those are the reasons
27:20
that I chose to not have children. And now I can't even do those things.
27:23
I was fucking devastated. Fucking
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crushed in so many places. Needed a prosthesis for
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my arm. Never be able to stretch my arm again. Maybe never be able to grab anything. Not
27:34
be able to brush my teeth. Not be able to hold a baby. Wow. Wow.
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Is that the reason I went to Peru? I don't know. Anyway. said
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to my business partners, okay, look, I can't do hairdressing anymore. I've got to fucking leave. Like, this
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is it. This is my exit. They're like, no, you can run reception. You'll be fine. I was like, fucking
27:54
hell, let me go guys. That
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didn't work. Then a few years later, decided to
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go to Mexico, was running a retreat in Mexico. Epic, epic retreat
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with my teachers. And then was
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on the top of this amazing mountain, Wirrakuta, to
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the Native Americans over there. It's like the most spiritual place in the entire
28:17
world. On the top of this mountain, I'd taken my phone out
28:20
to take a picture, and my business partner was
28:24
calling. I'm like, fucking hell! I'm so
28:27
high right now! What the fuck? And
28:31
I'd accidentally answered it. He was like, Blithe, are you running
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your retreat? And I was like, no, because I was not. I'd finished the
28:38
retreat. And then, thank God,
28:41
the reception cut out and I was like, the polarities, I'm having the
28:44
best experience of my life and this motherfucker is still part of it. Anyway,
28:49
we were flying home after my one month initiation in the jungle in
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Mexico and COVID happened and the
28:56
whole world got shut down. And that was my exit out
28:59
of the salons. I
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had a friend that literally called me and was like, Blythe, let's
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move up to the jungle. And I moved up to the rainforest in
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northern New South Wales, and it was the most amazing experience of
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my life. And fast forward a few years,
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my dad came and joined me up here. found
29:21
this amazing property. He's like, Blithe, I'm coming up for three days and
29:24
we're going to find a beautiful property. I was like, amazing, cool. We
29:28
found this epic property. He's like, you know what? It's got a few houses on it. Why
29:32
don't you come and live in one of the houses, do it up and you can run your retreats from
29:35
there rather than running your retreats around the world anywhere else. I
29:38
was like, OK, epic. He's like, you know, this place has got thousands of
29:41
fruit trees. It's literally your dream because you're a real vegan. Who
29:45
else is going to fucking love trees like you do? I was like, yes. OK, cool.
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And lived here for one year with him. And it was the best
29:53
year of our lives. Dad got really fit and healthy. We were
29:56
doing life together. It was so much fun. We just blinged to blues
30:00
first, having the best time ever. And then dad got this random infection. And
30:04
within a few days, he passed away. And
30:10
I was crushed. To make it even worse, my
30:14
family blamed me. To make it even worse, one of my business partners
30:17
was working behind my back and fucked up my business. And
30:21
my whole world just collapsed. And
30:26
again, I got to rebuild myself, but it
30:29
was just the polarities again. It was like, fuck, I love my
30:33
dad and all of these things. I'm losing my family. I literally lost everything.
30:37
And Through being able to express
30:42
myself and express my grief, then
30:46
the nature here and the land held me and
30:49
just recalibrated my soul, recalibrated my spirit and
30:53
recalibrated my life. And I'd also learnt a lot of other tools
30:56
along the way that really helped me. Rebirthing breathwork, which is a trauma release
30:59
breathwork, which I'm a facilitator in. I swear without
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that and the raw food and being connected with nature, I
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would have lost my whole life. But that literally allowed me
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to recalibrate. And now
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we're here, getting people onto our land, reliving
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my dad's legacy and my legacy so that we can help people return to
31:21
nature and find out their mission and their purpose and
31:26
why they're here on this earth and recalibrate their spirit and
31:29
their soul with nature. With this podcast, my greatest hope
31:32
for you is that you fall fucking deeply in love with yourself. And
31:36
not only fall deeply in love with yourself, but you have every single
31:40
tool, tip and trick to care for
31:43
yourself beyond what you even imagine is
31:47
possible. Because once you learn and desire
31:51
to respect your fucking beautiful body and
31:54
your mind and everything that's going on in your life beyond
31:58
what you ever thought is possible then your life will change for
32:01
the better and you will be able to naturally all
32:05
of these synchronicities will come into you. Your dream life will
32:08
unfold and that is my hope for you that your dream life unfolds that
32:12
you are on a frequency and a
32:15
vibration that attracts in everything that you want, the relationships that
32:18
you want, the love that you want, the wealth that you want, the groundedness
32:22
that you want, the joy that you want. So
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this podcast is to evolve your soul beyond whatever.
32:30
limitations that you have right now and help you create
32:33
the legacy that you don't even know that you're here for yet. Your
32:37
legacy is buried deep within your cells and we are going to unlock every
32:40
block that is there within your cellular membrane so
32:44
that it can be free to express its beauty because this
32:47
year, this planet has only got 80 years left and
32:51
it's up to you to tap into your unique purpose
32:54
and gift and legacy so that we can fucking change this planet forever.
32:59
Thank you for joining me on Soul Temple. If
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33:12
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33:16
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