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Big Day For Me... · Billy & Lisa in the Morning: The After Show

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  Speaker 1: All right, let's go. I'm feeling extra chippy today. It
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  Speaker 1: is Wednesday, June twenty fourth. Yes, my anniversary is today,
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  Speaker 1: my clean date, eighteen years. It's just kind of like
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  Speaker 1: every other day, but it is a day of celebration
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  Speaker 1: for me. You know, it's a day of remembrance and
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  Speaker 1: reflecting on my life, my recovery, my journey, and gratitude
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  Speaker 1: really for all that I've done, how far I've come,
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  Speaker 1: and what I've been able to accomplish. So shout out
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  Speaker 1: to everybody that reached out to me, DMS, calls, talkbacks.
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  Speaker 1: I really really do appreciate it.
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  Speaker 2: Justin I just want to say thank you. You have
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  Speaker 2: been an inspiration to me. I've been sober for six
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  Speaker 2: weeks and one day after forty years of drinking too
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  Speaker 2: much and struggling period. And I have thought to myself
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  Speaker 2: so many times when I hear you, if he can
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  Speaker 2: do it, I can do it, period. So thank you
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  Speaker 2: for everything, and.
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  Speaker 1: Congrats congratulations to you, because one day is a miracle.
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  Speaker 1: And I love getting those messages. I love hearing that
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  Speaker 1: you know this is a terrible disease. You know, it's
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  Speaker 1: a terrible, terrible, terrible disease. Addiction is one of the
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  Speaker 1: hardest things to overcome. So many of my friends, so
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  Speaker 1: many members of my family, are still struggling that cannot
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  Speaker 1: find a way out, that can't get one day clean.
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  Speaker 1: I share a lot about that on this podcast. So
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  Speaker 1: to get one day is a really America And I
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  Speaker 1: say that all the time because I never thought I
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  Speaker 1: could get one day. That's what it was. I was stuck.
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  Speaker 1: I couldn't get one day. And then when I got
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  Speaker 1: one day, then it was like, well you can get
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  Speaker 1: two days, and then it goes on and on and on,
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  Speaker 1: you know. And I've had lengths of time and relapsed, right,
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  Speaker 1: I had six months before and I relapsed, or you know,
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  Speaker 1: if I was in jail and I wasn't using there
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  Speaker 1: a little bit of time, but I always went back
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  Speaker 1: because I never did the work on myself. You know,
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  Speaker 1: the work is what carries you through. If you don't
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  Speaker 1: change anything in your life, then things aren't going to change.
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  Speaker 1: They're going to stay the same and you're going to
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  Speaker 1: revert back to you know, old behaviors. Character defects all
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  Speaker 1: those things.
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  Speaker 3: Good morning, justin. I woke up this morning and realized
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  Speaker 3: it was Wednesday, and the first thing that crossed my
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  Speaker 3: mind is it is your clean date. So I just
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  Speaker 3: wanted to send you a talk back say congratulations, We're
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  Speaker 3: all proud of you and inspired by you, and keep going.
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  Speaker 1: Ah, thank you, thank you, thank you so much. You know.
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  Speaker 1: I did get so many dms too about a Monday's
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  Speaker 1: podcast about my son and the Father's Day gift and
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  Speaker 1: his baseball tryouts, and then yesterday the Power of Recovery. Guys.
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  Speaker 1: You know, I don't do this podcast. I don't intentionally
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  Speaker 1: make it emotional. I'm really just sharing. That's just really
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  Speaker 1: what it is. I'm just being honest and I'm being
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  Speaker 1: open because I think that being transparent matters. You know,
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  Speaker 1: I don't want to get on here and put on
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  Speaker 1: and you know I'm honest on the air too, but
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  Speaker 1: you know, you limited it on what you can say
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  Speaker 1: in how deep you can go on things. And I
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  Speaker 1: feel like the after Show podcast and you guys, the
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  Speaker 1: Apter Show Army, you know, I can share more about
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  Speaker 1: my life and recovery is like the biggest thing in
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  Speaker 1: my life. My family's the biggest thing in my life.
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  Speaker 1: All those things matter, you know, and that's what I
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  Speaker 1: talk about on this podcast. And I love hearing from
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  Speaker 1: you guys, especially people that struggle and they hear the
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  Speaker 1: message like I got one earlier. Oh my god, this
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  Speaker 1: one's crazy. I want to save it for Maddie and Damon,
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  Speaker 1: but I'll play it now.
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  Speaker 3: Congratulations Justin on eighteen years sober.
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  Speaker 2: I am fifteen days today and a lot of that
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  Speaker 2: is because of the.
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  Speaker 3: Commercials that you guys run for Power of Recovery.
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  Speaker 1: So I appreciate you guys, and congratulations. Yeah, it's it's
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  Speaker 1: a happy day, but it's emotional as well. So you know,
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  Speaker 1: the first like five years, ten years, you know, I
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  Speaker 1: would like make a big celebration about it because it is.
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  Speaker 1: It is a big day you should celebrate every year.
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  Speaker 1: And I will celebrate, you know, in a sense like
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna go to a meeting not till you lie,
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  Speaker 1: because I'm gonna go after the fourth of July. But
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  Speaker 1: you know, we used to have these big, big celebrations
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  Speaker 1: with like cake and we go out to dinner, and
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  Speaker 1: you know, everyone's lives have kind of changed. The honest
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  Speaker 1: to God's truth is most of the people that I
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  Speaker 1: got clean with are not clean anymore. You know, they're
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  Speaker 1: not here anymore. Some of them have passed on. Some
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  Speaker 1: of them, you know, have started drinking or smoking weed
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  Speaker 1: or are literally on the street. It's all different things
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  Speaker 1: that are happening. You know. So many times in my
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  Speaker 1: eighteen years, I would build a crew and then the
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  Speaker 1: crew would disband, you know, because we have a disease
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  Speaker 1: that wants us to go. Man, it wants us to go,
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  Speaker 1: and it's really hard, you know. So I got a
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  Speaker 1: couple of my day ones, and you know, I have
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  Speaker 1: a few of my friends, really really close friends that
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  Speaker 1: I got clean with that left recovery. You know, And
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  Speaker 1: because you leave recovery does not mean and this is
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  Speaker 1: this was a hard pill for me to swallow, right
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  Speaker 1: because I was always all in. That's who I am
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  Speaker 1: as a person. That's the kind of addict I am.
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  Speaker 1: I can't be I have one foot in and one
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  Speaker 1: foot out, meaning I can't like drink hair there, or
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  Speaker 1: smoke weed hair there, or a pill hair or there.
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  Speaker 1: I got to be like all in. That's just how
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  Speaker 1: I am. And not everyone is like that. There are
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  Speaker 1: people who get clean and leave recovery and start drinking
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  Speaker 1: or they start smoking weed, and they continue on with
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  Speaker 1: their life. Now that doesn't mean at some point the
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  Speaker 1: addiction in the disease is going to come after them again.
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  Speaker 1: That could very well happen. It is a big, big risk.
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  Speaker 1: And that's what I tell people that make that decision
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  Speaker 1: or are thinking about making that decision. If you are clean,
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  Speaker 1: you are in recovery and you kind of get bored
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  Speaker 1: with it, or you know, your head's telling you. You know,
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  Speaker 1: I can drink, I can be normal. I want to
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  Speaker 1: be social. I want to go out on the weekends.
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  Speaker 1: I want to have a drink on a hot summer day.
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  Speaker 1: You know, I say that to them. That's all well
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  Speaker 1: and good. You are your own human. You can make
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  Speaker 1: your own decision. But is it worth the risk? That's
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  Speaker 1: always what I say. For me, it's not I don't
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  Speaker 1: want to lose this, so I don't fuck around with it.
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  Speaker 1: But yeah, all of my friends, really close friends, made
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  Speaker 1: that decision, and you know what, they're still living their
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  Speaker 1: lives like they haven't been messed up. You know, they're
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  Speaker 1: still going to work and they have families and they
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  Speaker 1: have jobs, and I still see them. You know, they
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  Speaker 1: don't like do that stuff around me, and you know
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  Speaker 1: our relationship isn't as close as it was, you know,
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  Speaker 1: because when they have free time right, when they're not working.
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  Speaker 1: We have busy lives, they have kids and jobs. When
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  Speaker 1: they're not working and spending time, you know, they want
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  Speaker 1: to like relax and have a drink. And they're not
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  Speaker 1: having a drink at Justin's house, you know what I mean.
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  Speaker 1: They're not coming to my house and firing up a
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  Speaker 1: joint or smoking a bowl or whatever they do. They're
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  Speaker 1: not doing that at my house. So the time we
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  Speaker 1: spent together eliminated. But it doesn't matter, Like I don't
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  Speaker 1: love them any less. I don't judge them for that.
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  Speaker 1: And early on in my recovery, I did you know,
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  Speaker 1: I was very hardcore. You know they they talk about
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  Speaker 1: you know, when I tell my story, I talk about
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  Speaker 1: the three people that I've been you know, in my life,
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  Speaker 1: you know, in my recovery.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 1: And I got this from like one of my biggest
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  Speaker 1: mentors in recovery. It's like when you when you get clean,
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  Speaker 1: your attict man, right, three men. I was attic man
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  Speaker 1: when I got clean, meaning I was the craziest addict
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  Speaker 1: all my jail stories, et cetera, et cetera. Like that's
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  Speaker 1: that was my identity. I was attic man. Right, And
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  Speaker 1: then you get into recovery, and that switches and then
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  Speaker 1: and then the the active addiction stuff and drug talk
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  Speaker 1: and prison talk. That doesn't cut it anymore because you know,
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  Speaker 1: you're trying to stay clean and you don't live that
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  Speaker 1: life anymore. And then you become recovery man, right, and
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  Speaker 1: now you're speaking all the time, and you're helping people,
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  Speaker 1: and you're sponsoring people, and you're you know, you're just
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  Speaker 1: giving the message away. Recovery is everything. I had t shirts,
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  Speaker 1: I had socks. My wife had had panties that said
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  Speaker 1: keep coming. That's one of the phrases that we say
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  Speaker 1: to people, keep coming, keep coming back, so get it.
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  Speaker 1: It's kind of dirty little thing. Anyway, she had that thong.
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  Speaker 1: And then eventually you move past recovery man, and then
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  Speaker 1: you just realize that you're human, right, is that you're
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  Speaker 1: not You're not recovery man, You're not attic man. You're
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  Speaker 1: just a human being trying to live your life and
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  Speaker 1: be a good person. You know. So when I was recovered,
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  Speaker 1: when I was recovery man, I used to judge those
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  Speaker 1: people like, if you relapsed, you were done for. I
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  Speaker 1: did not believe that you were going to make it.
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  Speaker 1: And it's just not true. Everybody recovers differently. You need
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  Speaker 1: to find out what works for you. And if you're
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  Speaker 1: listening to this and you're like that person that has
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  Speaker 1: fifteen days clean and you just heard me say that,
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  Speaker 1: and you think to yourself, well maybe I can be
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  Speaker 1: one of those people. Well, the next thought you need
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  Speaker 1: to ask yourself. The next question you need to ask
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  Speaker 1: yourself is it worth the risk? Think about that you
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  Speaker 1: pain that you felt leading up to you getting sober,
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  Speaker 1: Think about that bottom, think about when you lost something,
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  Speaker 1: lost everything, the pain, the suffering, drinking or using against
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  Speaker 1: your will. Is the risk worth going back to that?
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  Speaker 1: That's what you need to ask yourself and answer that
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  Speaker 1: question honestly. If you still think that the risk is
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  Speaker 1: worth it is worth that pain again, then try it.
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  Speaker 3: But I.
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  Speaker 1: Really discourage you from doing that. So I just want
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  Speaker 1: to say thank you to all the well wishes. I really, really,
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  Speaker 1: really really appreciate it so so much. I love this podcast.
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  Speaker 1: I love the after show Army and if you missed
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  Speaker 1: Power of Recovery yesterday, please listen to it. It was
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  Speaker 1: really good. I really liked Maddie's story. It was fantastic
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  Speaker 1: to see where he came from and you know, we
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  Speaker 1: got clean around the same time. And to see you know,
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  Speaker 1: me grow in the entertainment business and him grow in
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  Speaker 1: the recovery world and everything that I've accomplished and he's accomplished,
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  Speaker 1: you know, very similar. It's a really really cool story.
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  Speaker 1: So if you missed it, go check it out and
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  Speaker 1: enjoy this beautiful day. Everybody, I love you, Goodbye.