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The Insight of a Moderator | with Desiree Danielle | EP46 · Jess Ask

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what got me crowned that day. Alright, then, folks are ready,
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lego, lego. It's like we're already talking. So y'all see us because
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you are the press recorded you I might have already because you don't ever tell
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me when you anyway, Action action go. Hey, y'all, welcome to
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this week's episode of Just ass, where we create a safe space for influencers
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to decompress, half fun and just say baby was up. Hey, y'all
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see the girl face because ray that ra ain't been on here a couple of
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weeks. I mean you heard the voice. She's still alive. It's not
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a I I mean, I'm here you're your present. Yeah, you're you're
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here. We have moved. We we have moved, y'all. Y'all know
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how to speak French. Right when she moved, I moved, I moved.
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She listen, how you're feeling about this move? Sis, it's been
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good. I've been. I had tasted a couple of my close people this
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week, and I was, and I told them that I think I was
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trying to make myself emotional, like I was trying to like feel all the
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feels and cry and do all the things. But I ain't had none of
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that. I mean, I did you know some you know, like all
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I had was like gratitude. Right. So I was in the studio space.
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I had been in this space since twenty eighteen. But prior to then
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I had I had been in two salon suites, and so this space allowed
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me to grow into what God is calling me to do. So in the
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salon suites, I was literally just a hairstylist, right, And so as
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COVID hit in twenty twenty, that's when I've been actually like shooting off and
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on probably since two thousand and nine. Maybe I took my very first.
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I've always been creative, so I used to paint and draw. But when
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I was at UA B I took my first photography class and just kind of
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fell in love with the idea of being able to capture a moment in time,
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right, And so I do that well by the way. You capture
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the moments and you capture the time, grassiest day, not because baby,
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you look baby when I tell you every picture this is captured by the desiree
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and the Danielle is delightful. Oh, Jessica, thank you, thank you,
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Jessica, I'm receiving tea. I'm doing good, but received just straight
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like that, thank you, put your hands up, thank you? Can
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you can you say how I'm delightful? I'm delightful. But I fell in
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love with the idea of capturing the moment in time, and so I had
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an idea, like I'm like, oh, and this was probably like so,
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I've been a full time entrepreneur since twenty fifteen, and I had an
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idea in my mind. I was like, ooh, I'm gonna do hair,
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makeup and photography, right. I just didn't know what that was going
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to look like or what that even could possibly be, and just over time,
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God, that just can just started to lead me down, just opening
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up doors and different things, and this space just allowed me to grow into
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that. And so now that that chapter had closed, what he taught me
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was it's not about the space. Yeah right, the gifts that's on the
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inside of us go with us wherever you go. They're transferable, you know
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what I'm saying. And so that's what I had to learn because one of
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the things that he also showed me was I was grateful for the space,
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but my heart posture was, Ooh, if I have this space, it's
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gonna look like I'm doing what I said I was doing right, So gratefully,
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graciously, he's been along the journey and so now I'm just excited to
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see what he's gonna do. So right now we're in my catch all all
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the things, living, creative, prayer, hang out space, which he,
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you know, open up the door for me to be in this cool
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little spot. So here we are and it's and it's good. Here your
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finger looking good? Hey, Okay, we love it. It's a nice
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space. This couch is beautiful and comfortable. She told me. I was
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like, girl, you're getting this couch? Can I put my feet on
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it? Listen from California to Alabama. That's what it felt like that for
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real, y'all just took the journey from the from the leasing from the leasing
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office to let me, let me not even talk about sent directions that I
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followed and still got wrong. She did, they made it. I mean,
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let's not even talk about that. But what we a'all gonna talk about
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is I can say this might be like a fan request or I don't even
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want to say fan, a follower request of our family members that you know,
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watch us every week, listen to us every week. Y'all have really
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been asking about the journey of Tabitha Brown, how I've been feeling afterwards,
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and I hadn't really given them the process. The process. I mean,
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we've beat given a little tit to Tata. If you if you, if
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you watch us on the Insta in the ground, you're going to getting a
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little tit to Tata. But we're gonna give you the full story on this
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one, all right. So des A Ray, she gonna correct me on
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some stuff because she all. I mean, I have told this story a
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million times. Things about storytelling, there's different perspectives, different perspectives. That's
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why you got the Gospels, and not just the God because there Matthew,
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Martin and John saw it differently. Parallel situation going on, but that at
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different. Who am I You'm Pp? Well? Who am I? Matthew,
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Martin, Luther John? I think I'm John, I'm Little John.
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I'll be Matthew, I'll be okay, So Matthew and little John in the
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building. A. You know what I'm saying. So yes, So Tabitha
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Brown, First of all, I want to say thank you, miss Tabitha
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Brown and t tab Like the moment you asked, my life changed. Let
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me tell y'all something think y'all. If y'all think that lady ain't only man,
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listen, if y'all think that lady is not oily like she gotta she
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got the energy to fake it every day, you beyond yourself, okay,
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because she is the real deal. Okay, Tabitha Brown, I'm making a
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public service announcement. As a matter of fact, if you read the book
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I Did a New Thing, you would know it's really a TSA, which
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means the Tabitha tab Service Announcement. So a TSA for all you folks in
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the bike. She is the real and the deal okay, since she like,
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literally, you can't walk, you can't be that that oily and not
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affect somebody else's life. And I learned it. That's the good way,
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not the hard way, but the good way. And so we're gonna start
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from the beginning, okay. So and when I say the beginning, I
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mean literally it started way it was started. This process started before the post
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was made. Matter of fact, it started in before the year ended in
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twenty twenty three, in real life, in real life and real life.
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So I'm gonna pull this up real quick because I had even I hadn't even
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shared this on Facebook or anything like that. So if y'all listening, y'all
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getting some deep in the tail. Okay, so listen. So when missus
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Tabitha Brown dropped her that she was going to do the book tour, right,
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that she was going to do a new thing. I think this was
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December second when I saw it, and we I went ahead and got tickets.
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I bought four tickets. Yeah. Yeah, the technical person is not
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being technical. I mean, if y'all hit up old, that's there's a
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way. I got a date later, but anyway, I did not.
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But anyway, so I think it was December second, and she's announce that
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she was coming to Birmingham February or twenty twenty four, right, and so
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we get into it. We get into it, and I'm excited. I'm
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like, so I got I pick up four tickets, me and my sister,
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my other sister's slash line sister Stacey, and my pastor. Ye.
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Right, so I get four tickets. I already knew I was gonna be
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in the building. I literally sold my seed to be in the space.
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Okay. So I was so super super excited at the thought of her coming
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to Birmingham, and the Lord started placing it on my heart to reach out.
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So I tell Desiree, and Desiree was like, shoot your shot,
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shoot your shot. Okay. So I was trying to be you know,
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first of all, I was scared, that's real. I mean, let's
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just call it space bad. I was scared, and I didn't want to
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do it, right, I don't say I didn't want to do it.
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I was scared of the rejection. If we get real, we we don't
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do stuff because we're afraid of the no. Well if and I'm learning now
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after this situation, if you get to know that means as side is not
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there. Yep, that your presence is not is not required there does not
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mean you're not good enough. It's gonna be this or something better. Come
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on now. So anyway, we're gonna preach through this thing because it's real
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oily right, and so watch this. So December second bought the tickets.
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If you go to my Instagram praige page, I have proof of this when
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I bought the tickets before December second. I think I did this post on
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December segment saying Hey, Birmingham, y'all need to go ahead and buy tickets
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because we need to sell out Jackson. How you're gonna let Jackson beat us?
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Like I was really adamant about Tabitha Brown saying something about Birmingham on her
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page and she had not Now watch this get we get through the process or
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whatever. And I'm about to read this. This is your dream, Yes,
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it's my dream. I'm about to read this to you guys, and
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I want to show you my phone. Y'all can see my phone and it's
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real, it's real time. So December twenty ninth, twenty twenty three,
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at sixteen am, in the dream, Tabitha Brown came in the studio for
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an interview with me and Desiree. Desiree was getting everything together as I introduced
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myself to Miss tab and her assistant slash pr person. There were a lot
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of white people that came in, but I am I'm not sure if they
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were a part of my team or hers, being that I apologized if it
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was too much for her. I also remember us walking in the space where
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we would interview and hosting everyone else in the green room, which I showed
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her prior to. At some point in the dream, she told me that
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she had something for me and requested my nail size. When we walked into
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the interview space, I remember both Mistab and I taken a deep breath,
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almost like a sign of relief. The studio we were and wasn't the same
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as we're using now. It was bigger. Each room served a different purpose,
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and the room we recorded in had so much space it was like almost
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or not as ill as just as big as the current building we're currently using.
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Again, this was deed Sumber twenty nine, twoenty twenty three. I'm
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a pause right here and tell you the importance if you are a dreamer,
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if you see visions if you if you hear certain things, if you get
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stirred, like write it down, voice recorded, document it in some way,
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because for one, that is the way God is like literally trying to
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tell you something's about to happen. He's trying to give you a peek into
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your future, y'all. I didn't know. I had no idea. I
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shared the dream with Desires. I think at the time she was the only
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person that had shared the dream with because I told dere's a ray. I
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think I told you. I was just like, I want home, just
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ask yeah, I won't. I won't when she comes to Birmingham. It
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made sense, you know what I'm saying, Like you were doing a tour.
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I know you're going because this is another thing. I went and studied
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the tour dates. I went and looked because I was thinking about going to
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both Oprah Likah and Birmingham. But I was like, no, that that
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Thursday is gonna be a lot, right, So I said, let me
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just I'm gonna settle for Birmingham. But I knew you weren't really staying in
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my mind. You you ain't staying open like all. If you if you
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know Oprah likah, you know my folks from down over that way shout out
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to Opacah. It was a book signing. It was just a book signing.
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It wasn't the whole whole program, as the church folks call it.
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It wasn't the whole program. And so in my mind, I'm like,
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well, she might have time in between, you know, she might be
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doing some twapping it out at everybody wanted. The first thing everybody want to
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do when they come to burn him is go to the Civil Rights Museum or
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something like that. Explore downtown, learn learn about that all right. Right,
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So I'm thinking this, and I was like, Okay, I'm gonna
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shot my shot. I'm gonna shot my shot. I finally shoot my shot
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January second, twenty twenty four. I sent there's a ray a screenshot.
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So this is the importance of partnership. This is the importance of accountability,
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right A witness Listen say that again. Oh and a witness and a witness
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coach d taught me. Taught me a long time ago. She said,
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in everything I do, I have a witness, whether good or bad,
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anything that's going on in my life, I have a witness. I have
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somebody that can verify. Everybody want a check mark, but this is my
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check mark right here, there's a ray shout out. I'm gonna put aka
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check mark about your name and my phone verified verified there go. So so
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January second, I shoot my shot m at, I mean in the wee
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hours of the night, right, and I send the email. Miss tab
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has a link that you know, you can request her service or not services,
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but quest her appearance. And I did that, and so I submitted
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that January second. So I'm like, okay, it's getting close today.
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I'm like, if it's if it's meant, it's meant. If it's not,
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then cool. So January sixteenth, y'all, this is supposed to be
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a snow day. This is supposed to be a snow day. Thank you
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girl, because you got a warming here. My god, Mike, y'all,
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y'all haven me gagging, like just just dope, just y'all. The
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woman guy I was, I wasn't gonna say nothing, and I think she
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knew mm hmm, I think she knew that I wasn't throwing you on the
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bus. Woman to God, I was just glad that you you caught on
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in the spirit that I was a little part. This is real time,
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y'all. This is real time. So back to January sixteenth, where I
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remember these dates because January is a beautiful month. We're gonna get them,
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all right. So January sixteenth, I I minded my business. It's a
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snow days and we look at these quote if you listen, snow day,
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if you're in Birmingham, you know, if you in Alabama itself a Huntsville.
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Huntsville really got snow that day, like it was horrible. But everybody
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on the Huntsville know what the quotations on the snow days because when they say
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snow, like the whole the whole operations, just everything shut down, everything,
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everybody, grocery, school, on the milk one, the brick on.
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You wouldn't think we got dinosaurs out here, like we're trying to stay
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at the house. Yeah, and it was just as sunny, but it
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way anyway, We're not gonna get into that Alabama weather. But it was
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a snow day and both of my coworkers had called out, so it's just
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me and the building. I'm so glad it was because baby I cut the
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fool up in that in that place. Okay, So I'm sitting here minding
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my business, all right, and my phone starts to blow up, so
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I'm a pause right here, Delierat, I'm gonna let you go because I
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was minded my biggessiness on this point. So jess good parent, it was
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my own business. I get a text message from a friend Diesel shout out
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to Diesel. This is in Dallas. Okay, this is in Dallas,
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Texas. She sends me a screenshot of miss Tabitha's post that said, hey,
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Birmingham, tag your favorite content creators, you know, looking to do
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a new thing. Blah blah blah. So she sends me a screenshot because
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she tagged my name, right, So I'll go to look at the post
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and at this time the screenshot, it had only been posted maybe like three
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minutes, yeah, at this time. So when I go to look for
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it, had I couldn't find it, And she texted me real quick and
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said, hey, uh, I guess maybe she made an edit on her
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or something like that. So then it was reposted. So when I went
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back to look for it, I saw it. I was like, oh,
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well, let me tell you Jessica names Jessica content creator. Let me
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you know, da da da da. So then I don't even know the
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span of time, but in my mind I was like, I know,
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Jessica working, she probably ain't like, you know, like actually doing my
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job, y'all. Like I was on the folks clock, I was actually
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doing my job, and her and Kendall were blowing my phone up, but
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proceed So I sent her to I sent her the screen, I sent her
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the message about what was going on, right, and so you know,
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I sent it. Now I'm bound because I was actually working too. I
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was working on my website and things, you know what I'm saying. And
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so then she face timed me. So I was like, okay, So
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now at this time, it's me, Kendall and Jessica on FaceTime, right,
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because both of them are trying to talk to me at the same time,
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and we just on at this point, we on the cutting up.
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We're like, man, look at the post the people tagging cat. And
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then in the midst of this conversation, and in the midst of the conversation,
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were on FaceTime, were on a group FaceTime. Okay, me,
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Jessica and Kendall. You know how no vacations go. That's the sound for
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it. So I see because I'm a man. No, Jessica's uh page
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for you know, podcasting things. I see the this literally, this is
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what I see. It was like at the same like were in the middle
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of conversation. Yeah, no, no, no, I said Jessica.
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I said, go check your messages. I mean I stopped breathing. I
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said, my sister. She's like, oh my gosh, what's going on?
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What is going on? Y'all? Y'all? Kendle was flipping. She
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was like, damn me, tell me what's going on? Tell me what's
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going on? Somebody tell me. I'm like, I can't even breathe.
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There's a ray, like, Jessica, go check your messages. And the
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first message says, hello, Hello, can you please send me your email?
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No, she said, what's your email? Let me, y'all,
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ain't finna get our whole conversation. I'm gonna tell you that because some stuff
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is sacred, okay, some stuff some such state. But I'm gonna give
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you enough to give you the picture of it. And who gets who popped
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back on my Instagram Miss Tabitha Brown, Hey, she doing she's doing this,
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And what's funny is I don't I don't really I don't look at just
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the messages. No, she does. I just I'm just on there just
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the post stuff, right, and so but I showed reading them. I
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showed I was floored here. And let me be clear, this was January
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sixteenth, and I want you to pay pay attention to the numbers. Okay,
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I'm big. God will speak through you to you through anything, Okay.
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Literally January sixteenth, at one twenty pm, she says, hello there,
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Jessica, do you have an email that my team can contact you?
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So then she sends a voice message. Okay, wait, back up,
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because I need the people to know how nervous i'm or excited. I literally
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told de Ray, I said, what's my email? She did? I
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said, I said, I said, that's Ray, what is my email?
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And then my hands were shaken. So I said say hello, yes,
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hello, hello, and I tell her so I said, thank you
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so much for reaching out? Or did you say that? I think you
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probably did, because I was like, I didn't think to say thank you.
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Okay, I was just like, what I'm not going she voiced,
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I'm not letting you. I'm a parapet so and this was and this was
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I love this part because it's just a testament to you just never know who
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was watching, and you never know why your digital footprint is so important.
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It's so important how you show up online, like I mean, people were
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wrong, right, So you can post, you can do you want to,
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you know what I'm saying, But it's so important that you represent where
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you're going. I'm gonna say that, right. That's so, that's so
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good that we show up and we represent where we're going. So she says,
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you know, hello, what she said Hello there? This is how
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she do how you do it? Yes, So I get back on.
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Well, we're still on the phone at this point, right, and so
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I'm sending a message and immediately she says, the voice recording she starts because
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it's multiple voice recordings because they limit you on how long you voice record.
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So I was like, y'all, y'all, I gotta get off the phone.
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I listened to the phone, the voice going all I hear is hello.
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I'm at this point, I fall to my knees just because she did.
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I literally fell to my knees so much so I'm probably I probably I
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think that's how I got a bruise on my leg. I had a bruise
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on my leg for like three weeks afterwards, but that was a good bruise.
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And she expl because you won't be telling this part right at least,
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let me say. Remember I'm John, you Matthew, Okay, John,
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take the time. Yeah. So she goes, hello, there, this
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is this is well. She was like, I just want to let you
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know this is not a scam, that this is not a scam. And
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I'm like, I'm like, I like, I can't even hear anything else,
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and this is what I heard. I'm gonna let hunt her. She
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heard it too. Let hut still what she said. But she said it
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wasn't a scam. And then she told me. She told me that she
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was she had been searching for a moderator for her Birmingham show and the people
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was her people were sending her people. That's ray, I'm gonna let you
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take this over. Because she said, I say this part wrong all the
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time. I leave. You got to say this part. This is very
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it's important. It's important. But you I like how you see it.
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Go ahead. So she says that she made a post that she was looking
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for a moderator. I keep in mind the post actually said that she was
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looking for a content creator, yeah, not a moderator. So to me,
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content content creator and a moderator are different. Like I could say,
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Hey, I'm a content creator. I create content, you know the podcast,
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I do photos, I do X, Y and Z. I don't
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consider myself a moderator. Yeah, you know what I'm saying. A moderator
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is somebody who's who was an oracle that can be able to help facilitate a
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conversation. You know what I'm saying. So, she says that she was
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looking for a moderator and her team had been sending her people and they just
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didn't sit well with her spirit. Somebody tagged your name I'm talking to like,
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I'm her, right, somebody tagged your name. I clicked on it
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and I went looking through your page and the Holy Spirit confirmed that it was
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you. She felt confirmed. She felt confirmed, and John, it's a
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little John, okay, if you're gonna get it right. Yeah. So
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after hearing that, she asked me that she she asked me to be her
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moderator for the Birmingham show. And I'm gonna let y'all hear hear my response.
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I can't let y'all hear my response. If y'all if they can hear
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it, because I was so beyond myself. Hold on, listen, let
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me see missus Tabitha brown A Ka Auntie tab You don't understand. I am
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so grateful you. Yes, yes the answer. Yes, Oh my God,
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thank you so much. Oh thank you God. I thank God.
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I thank God. I emailed you and I reached out to you on January
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second through your link about tickets and for God to take me from being on
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being on the floor and just experiencing you, the opportunity to be just this,
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the thought, the thought I can't even get my map, my words
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trait, the thought of just being beside you, communicate with you on this
26:51
level. It's just so honorable, honorable, and I just appreciate you so
26:55
much. And another thing, my birthday is Saturday. So this is the
26:59
best first thank gift ever. Oh my gosh. So you was excited,
27:07
gentlemen through it may like hearing that again. I haven't listened to that in
27:15
a while up until I listened to it like every day for probably like two
27:22
weeks. Wow. I listened to that all the messages, her messages and
27:26
mine for like two weeks because I couldn't believe that I was living this Like
27:36
I couldn't believe that my that a request turned into this reality that I was
27:48
asking her to be on my platform, my little platform. You know what
27:52
I'm saying, Like people say, don't say it little no no, no
27:55
no no to don't the spy small beginnings because at the end of the day,
27:59
we're still growing and we got room to grow some more, okay,
28:03
and we're gonna continue to grow. However, my platform compared to her platform,
28:07
and she brought me on her platform. And I even been doing this
28:12
for a long time. Yeah, I literally just invested in myself in this
28:18
idea of podcasting. Last year at the Podcast Summit, the first podcast Summon,
28:26
shout out to coach Day, you know we're gonna be there. We're
28:30
gonna be there July fourth through the fifth in Atlanta, Georgia. If you,
28:36
if you even thinking about doing a podcast, if you, if you
28:38
are, if you have a business, I mean that that being in that
28:44
space changed my life. Being in that space got me the opportunity or prepare
28:52
and prepared. I feel like it got me the opportunity and it prepared me
28:56
for the opportunity for tab because because I didn't just invest in the summit.
29:03
I went further and I'm a part of the seven figure podcast community. Back
29:07
check me if I'm wrong, baby, because I'm in now. I'm in
29:11
now, Okay. And so what happened was I literally invested in my craft
29:18
and and I have I have the oil to back up the craft. What
29:26
do I mean by that? So everybody has it's called to their mountain,
29:30
right, I literally just had this conversation today. Everybody is called to their
29:34
mountain. And I learned and accepted that I have the mountain of the responsibility,
29:41
with the mountain of influence, the mount of entertainment. Like I am
29:47
accepting that. And the reason why I didn't accept that is because of what
29:51
everybody else told me that I was, how everybody else explore or tried to
29:57
tell me what I wasn't and what I was and what I wasn't, but
30:02
how they responded to me, And so I never walked fully into this thing.
30:10
Now back up, What I always bring this fact up is that desil
30:15
Ray motivated me, her partnership, her agreement motivated me to keep going because
30:21
I had no idea that I was going to be going to a podcast summit.
30:25
I really went. If I'm being honest, I really went to so
30:27
I thought I was going to support Marshall Fox. Shout out to you,
30:30
coach, Marshall you all the go. He was my coach. Well he's
30:33
still my coach. I could still him a coach. But he coached me
30:37
through graphic designing because I thought I was about to be doing that, but
30:41
it taught me a lot. He is responsible for the logos and everything that
30:48
you see that David Shan has, that's Marshall Fox. And so he spoke
30:52
at the podcast summit, right, and so I'm like, Ooh, I
30:56
haven't met him in person. I would love to see him. I would
30:59
love to support him, and I got a podcast so this I might learn
31:02
something. I went by myself. I literally went by myself on this on
31:07
this business trip. This was my first business conference experience, and I would
31:14
not have I have not changed that for a world like I I'm so excited
31:18
about this one that's coming up, and so that I'm I'm she got to
31:25
be exposed to the to the investment of me who I feel I feel God
31:30
on this. She got to be exposed to the investment in myself. So
31:36
when I invested in myself. God could blow on that thing, my goodness,
31:41
God could literally he literally took my seed of going to a foreign land.
31:47
I don't know these people. I didn't know a soul when I went
31:51
to this place. I went on faith. Literally didn't even have the money
31:53
for it. If I'm quite honest, if I'm if I'm really, if
31:57
I'm really honest, I didn't. I went on faith. Everything about this
32:01
Tabitha story is a faith story. It's a faith journey. And what I'm
32:05
here to tell you is the things that are stirring up in you right now,
32:08
the things that you cannot stop thinking about, the things that you you
32:13
stay up at night. That is God trying to tell you, Hey,
32:15
this is where you supposed to be. And when you keep wanning up away
32:20
from it, you're running to the well, the mouth of the well.
32:22
You are literally saying that I didn't do what I did, I didn't make
32:28
you correctly, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm trying to You keep
32:31
experiencing depression, you keep this experiencing lack because you're not looking at your mountain.
32:37
And another thing that has convicted me in this process is that now now
32:42
that I know my mountain. I'm seeing it move. Watch this. I've
32:45
always had the faith. Oh my goodness, it says you, if you
32:49
have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can speak to the mountain
32:52
and it's got to move, right, it has to move. But there's
32:57
different mountains. So sometimes we might be speaking to the wrong mountain and we
33:04
get discouraged because it's not moving. But God, you gotta say, God,
33:07
what mountain do I get to speak to? Because I got authority here,
33:12
we gotta be mindful of that. We have to be mindful of that.
33:15
Where my authority lies, that's where that's where my power resides. I'm
33:20
gonna say that again, where my authority lies, that's where my power resides.
33:24
And so I'm not gonna speak to the mountain of culinary. I'm not
33:29
gonna speak to the mountain of retail because guess what, that's not my mountain.
33:35
I'm not there no fashion about me. Okay, So so let me
33:43
let me let me tell you this. So I went to the podcast summit.
33:49
I invested in it. I invested in the seventh Figure podcast. Of
33:53
course, right, I'm learning all these things. Dave is telling us to
33:59
research these interviewers. I'm doing what the man said. I'm doing what he's
34:02
saying. This course, they got a course in here. I'm taking these
34:06
courses. But at this point we are I have a level of an expert
34:10
because she's doing the things that she's willing, and I'm doing the things i'm
34:14
willing. When I say her that's desiree, so desiree, sound audio,
34:17
all that stuff like that, I didn't have to worry about that anymore because
34:20
she took that I could focus on my craft. This is so good.
34:23
I could focus on my craft. And so now that I'm able to focus
34:29
on my craft, then the exposure is better. My resemblance, my residue,
34:37
the reflection looks good, it's presentable. And so when tab I don't
34:42
know what video she saw, but I'm pretty confident that she didn't go scrolling
34:46
all the way down. She didn't go scrolling all the way down trying to
34:52
see something. What I had been putting out was what we were producing here.
34:59
That's what I have been putting out. That's all I had in me
35:00
at that point, because I understand as a country creator it gets discouraging.
35:06
As a counting creator, you say, can guess yourself as a country creator.
35:08
You feel like it's oversaturated. Listen, I'm still thinking about these.
35:13
I'm like, ooh God, I have to fight my I have to fight
35:15
my mind my flesh every day to post something, to post something, even
35:22
if it's just on my story, even if it's just commenting on somebody on
35:27
somebody paying a story or or a page or picture. I was like,
35:30
I was one of the ones that's saying, Oh, they gonna they ain't
35:34
gonna look at my They're not gonna look at my page, or they're not
35:36
gonna look at my coming. They're not gonna respond to me like Alice's good
35:43
energy coming in on a coming I made today. And I look, if
35:46
y'all don't know who he is, he's a wonderful man in the transportation industry,
35:51
mainly like doing eighteen Willers. He teaches how people how to dispass and
35:54
everything like that. If you're in the truck and industry, I would advise
35:58
you to go look at him like he is a brilliant man. And I
36:00
follow him because he is so brilliant, and I think I have an interest
36:05
in eventually doing that one day. Well, having had always own the ship
36:09
in trucks one day because there's there's a lucrative industry, right And so I
36:14
follow him and he made this post and I've never come in on his stuff
36:20
before, and he responded and I was just like, you know what,
36:22
Lord, it was. It was the confirmation I needed to know that I'm
36:25
not I'm not hitting anymore. Like God has literally positioned me to be like
36:31
in a place where I'm seeing. But what I got, Oh, this
36:36
is so good. And I hope this frees somebody. And I'm gonna get
36:37
back to the story in a minute, but I really feel God on this.
36:40
What had to happen is that I had to work in my hiding so
36:45
I could be prepared for the revelation. That's good, Jess. I had
36:50
to work in my hiding, and what the enemy did was made me feel
36:52
like I wasn't good enough to be revealed. But I'm here to tell you
36:58
right now. I don't know who's listening, but I hope you get this.
37:00
That you're hiding place is your place of preparation, and what God is
37:07
doing is equipping you so that when your Tabitha com Oh my God, when
37:14
your Tabatha come, you will be ready. Let me tell you something.
37:17
So we're gonna get to this. Let me calm down, because I feel
37:21
I feel my I feel, I feel my churching is coming out of me.
37:28
I thought you thought it was the mic with his couch and the mic
37:30
coming listen, and it's how hot it is in here too anyway, So
37:37
I got to get out of there. So we communicate with misstabed, I
37:44
communicate with her team. I'm back and forth with her team. Everybody's excited.
37:49
Yeah, everybody's excited. I'm crying. It's just a lot of things
37:55
happening at the same time, and something else happens during this time. That's
38:02
how Allly Tabitha is. I thank God for her life. I really do,
38:07
because her her request of me. I've been through some some changes quickly,
38:15
stuff like I'm trying to see how I'm going to announce this these changes.
38:22
But she definitely told me, like literally her book. Her book is
38:24
called I Did a New Thing. You think you're gonna moderate or serve me
38:30
and not do a new thing? Everything in my life is new at this
38:34
point, literally literally everything to the point where right now my position at my
38:40
job is new in the past thirty days, like it's happened quickly, like
38:47
aim is not. It's happening so fast my head is swimming. And so
38:52
we're communicating, we're preparing. Shout out to coach CJ. That's a that's
38:59
an another coach in the seventh Figure podcast community. He helped me out so
39:04
much. He reminded me not to. He was like, they're not and
39:08
he said, and I got this, so if y'all take offense to this,
39:12
you might want to check your heart. But he told me, he
39:15
was like, they're not there to come see you. They're coming there to
39:20
come see her. And I had to remember, and that reminded me that
39:24
I was there to serve. The one thing I do well is as I
39:28
serve. I served, and I served well. I served my coach design
39:34
Rey and I serve each other. I've served my sister. I have no
39:38
problem with serving. And so when he said that, it actually gave me
39:43
a call because I know that level. I have an understanding of serving of
39:47
servitude, and so I was able to do well because I wanted to do
39:54
well in serving this Tabitha. I took this on this okay, giving me
40:00
this assignment, how can I make sure that I bring the best out of
40:04
her. How can I be sure be a part of her shine. You
40:07
get what I'm saying, Not to take away or benefit from it, although
40:10
I did, but I was making sure. Hey, let me make sure
40:15
I'm in alignment with the woman of God. So I'm praying. Y'all don't
40:17
understand like I took this moderation thing seriously. People saw the residue. I
40:22
hope y'all hearing me. Good people, y'all saw the residue. If you
40:27
was there, shout out to everybody that was there at the soul out event,
40:30
baby, because yeah it was Lenny. It well Lenny. But people
40:35
saw the residue of my prayers. I was literally fasting. I fasted that
40:39
week, me and my sister went vegan. I prayed. I prayed for
40:45
Miss tabb. I prayed for the audience. I prayed for her team.
40:49
I pray for every city that she went to. Like literally, if y'all
40:52
say, y'all want it, everybody want it. Everybody want to be on
40:55
a But when God give you an assignment, you gotta take the responsibility of
41:00
the assignment. Oh I don't know who this is for, but I feel
41:02
this so good. In the spirit you have to take responsibility of that assignment.
41:07
What does that mean? You have to do everything unseen first. You
41:13
gotta take care of the unseen matters first. And because I took care of
41:17
the call in the unseen moments where people didn't even know, Oh this is
41:23
so good. People didn't even know that Tab had already called my name.
41:29
Who I'm trying to stop in this place because we our neighbor us. Listen.
41:34
People didn't even know this Tab had called my name yet, but I
41:37
knew. And because I knew, I had to act on the assignment before
41:43
my assignment was ready to present itself to the world, before I was about
41:47
to expose myself in the newness my style and the newness thereof. And so
41:52
watch this. I'm trying not to get tourch of, y'all, but this
41:54
is this. This moment changed my life internally and a eternally. Y'all get
42:00
the benefactors of the external uh, the external exposure. I'm changing inside on
42:07
my inside, like my confidence is like crazy. Right now, I'm taking
42:12
my shot. I'm not like all neck, what's up? I'm soled listen.
42:23
So I'm preparing. I prepared me and there's a rail back and forth.
42:30
I didn't cry like I had dice of crying. I don't think I
42:32
slept two weeks straight. I had my anxiety was high like I was.
42:37
I was just all over place. I'm just being transparent because this is a
42:40
major, a major thing. I'm on a platform with someone that is loved
42:45
by the world. M hmm, that is loved by the world, and
42:51
no one knows me, no one knows who I am. And she and
42:57
she took a risk on me and selecting me right. But because she so,
43:01
she trusts the God in her. I knew that she was confident even
43:06
when I wasn't. And so so the during a lot of things happen because
43:13
because of the annointiness on miss Tabs life, it called things to change swiftly
43:20
in mind. And she don't she don't even know this. It caused things
43:25
to change swiftly in mind. So I'm going through I'm having to obey God
43:30
and some things, some new things like literally the book, the book literally
43:36
talks about my transition. And so we get to the day, right,
43:42
we get to the day and shout out to Dorcas. What's Dorcas's last name?
43:45
Pitman Dorcas Pittman. Dorcas Pittman gets to do this interview with Tabitha Brown.
43:52
I'm gonna let Desireate tell this part. Like how unique this part is?
43:58
Like, because not only did Deil Ray serve me that day, does
44:04
a Ray went? Oh this is so powerful? Does a Ray went ahead
44:07
of me? She was able to peep out the land before me. So
44:12
I had a level of confidence because my partner was able to see everything that
44:17
was going around. We ain't have to guess if I she was prepared.
44:22
So because she was prepared, I was prepared. It was like, Okay,
44:27
if anything, if anything needs to be arranged, or she needs to
44:30
tell me anything, she gonna let me know. Yeah. Right, So
44:32
how did how did dorkyas get in so long? Dorcas is, she's one
44:37
of my she's a sorority sister, but I also am you got a camera
44:42
on you right now? Oh my god, thank you? Here she goes
44:44
not pressing the wood I forgot or whatever? Here I am, so I
44:51
shoot her cover. She has a magazine called Women of Hope Magazine and so
44:55
this is the coming up to the fourth issue that's gonna be released an April.
45:00
And so she saw the post earlier as we talked about shooting our shot
45:05
and you know, just obeying God. She saw the earlier post, but
45:09
she did not see that she had made another post that she had already found
45:14
her moderator. So she was just following the unction of the Lord to shoot
45:17
her shot. So she had recorded a video and literally just asked Miss Tabitha
45:24
to be the cover of her next issue of her magazine. Okay, And
45:30
the next day her team reached out to her. They saw it, well,
45:35
she saw it because she she manages her own stuff, right, Let's
45:38
be clear. Let's be clear, she manages her own stuff. She saw
45:42
it and sent it to her team. Her team reached out to Dorcas the
45:45
next day and they offered her an exclusive interview VIP tickets to go backstage to
45:52
do an interview with her for her magazine. And so she called me because
45:55
they gave her two tickets, and she called me and was excited, and
46:01
I was excited for her, and she wanted me to come with her to
46:06
help her with the interview. And I was like, at this point,
46:09
you know, it hadn't been announced who the who the moderator was, so
46:13
I just said I was excited. I told the congratulations, I said,
46:16
coincidentally, I'm already be there because one of my clients. This is how
46:21
I said, one of my clients got the moderator position. She was like,
46:23
Oh my gosh, this is amazing. I was like, Lord,
46:27
this is crazy. What is the I'm like, what are the odds of
46:32
these two people that I know? Right? Who I work with, who
46:37
I serve, who I you knows as the Holy Spirit? The way he
46:40
gave me was to help the help her, right, I'm like, man,
46:45
what are the crazy coincidence that she's coming to Birmingham and these are the
46:49
two people that she chose that I know. So I thought, I was
46:52
like, I'm gonna be there. And so I was like, hey,
46:54
you know, let's see if since I'm going to be there, if they
46:58
will allow me to assist you with the interview and you can bring somebody along
47:00
who you want to have this experience with. Right. So that's pretty much
47:04
what happened. And so we got to go ahead of time and she did
47:07
her interview and it's gonna be man, it's so dope, and it's just
47:12
it's just so dope. And I'm very what what what was coming up while
47:17
you were talking, Jessica, was that if we believe that our steps are
47:27
already ordered, it's like if we believe that he already knows the plan that
47:31
has already been set ahead of us, we're literally just walking out what that
47:36
has already been playing, right, But we have to walk it out.
47:37
That's where faith comes from because we can't see it. We can't we can't
47:42
see none of this right. The only thing that we can see are our
47:45
circumstances. The only things that we can see are the things that we have
47:49
been through in our past. So sometimes because of the things that we've gone
47:52
through, it's hard for us to even imagine or fantom that amazing opportunities can
47:58
be for us. So that that's why we have to one stay in prayer,
48:02
right, stay in prayer, but just continue to take those face steps.
48:07
Because one, if you wouldn't have said yes to me, m hm,
48:09
that's you, right, if you wouldn't have said yes to me,
48:13
I'm allowed for us to partner, partner together and go that's a step like
48:17
right, he said, your steps are ordered, So we have to take
48:22
one step at a time, and we may not understand the step. The
48:23
step may not even make sense. Right, But as we continue to journey
48:28
along, right, he's processing us like there's things that he's put put putting
48:32
in, there's things that he's pulling out because he knows what the next what
48:36
the next point is, it's the next point. Because I didn't if y'all
48:42
paid attention to the podcast, I told y'all, I did not want to
48:45
tell Deserae. Yees, she didn't. I didn't because and what was gonna
48:50
I'm gonna tell you something. I'm gonna look you dead in your eye if
48:52
you're watching on YouTube and hear me. If you on any other platform,
48:57
your pride will be the death of you. Your pride will keep you from
49:02
the dreams that God has given you. You're in your own way, and
49:07
I can look you squared in your eyes because I'm telling you that I was
49:12
once in my own way, and it took it took the grace of God,
49:17
the love of God for me to say, Okay, God, I
49:22
know I hear you. God. I don't want her to think that that
49:25
I'm using her. So I need you, I need you to confirm this
49:30
heart, this heart posture, this this connection. And he continuously confirms it.
49:36
We go through seasons together. Okay, we haven't been doing this together
49:38
full a year yet. I think it'll be a year and a couple months.
49:42
Maybe April. Maybe April makes our first our full year together. Yea,
49:45
because I'm April. And then I think you went too the podcast.
49:47
Yeah, I went to the podcast summit in August. Is the end of
49:51
July. August, right, so at that at this point, make like
49:58
get out of your way. You will be the living dead. You will
50:02
be a zombie because you have decided to hold pride over purpose. You have
50:10
decided that I don't want to submit to the plan of God because I'm too
50:16
prideful and I want to hold onto the emotion of a thing, the thought
50:21
of a thing. Well, you're gonna die in your thinking if you do
50:29
not put pride down and just say, you know what, I'm gonna do
50:32
it, and I'm gonna do it scared, I'm gonna do it, but
50:35
I'm gonna do it by faith. I'm gonna do it, and I'm i'm
50:37
gonna trust God that even if even if it wasn't the right thing, it's
50:42
still got to be used for my good. Even if it was the wrong
50:45
thing, it's still got to be used for the good. Even I've made
50:47
plenty of wrong decisions, but it worked out what for my good. And
50:52
I'm here to tell you that my starting point to tall did not start a
50:58
tap. Y'all see he tabed, but you didn't. You don't understand that
51:02
tab was the blessing of my obedience. Come on, Oh my God,
51:07
miss tab seeing me was the blessing of my obedience. Come on. I
51:12
had to obey God to say yes the desiree because I ain't want to do
51:15
it. I didn't. I had to obey God to go to the podcast
51:19
summit because I didn't have no money to do it, but God provided.
51:23
I had to obey God in the moment that at the podcast summit they were
51:28
offering a seven figure podcast, and and and and what's so what's so beautiful
51:32
about that? Is? I sat there and I said, God, they
51:36
tell they saying it. If they say it's this price, I'm gonna do
51:39
it. I can't even remember. I think it was probably like fifteen,
51:43
around fifteen hundred dollars, and lo and behold I had the money. Now
51:49
I ain't have money get to get down there. But all of a sudden
51:52
that money came that day. That's a that's a whole other testament. But
51:57
they said one price that was like more than that price, and I was
52:01
like, okay, God, that means it wasn't meant. But then Dave
52:05
come back and say, hold on, but today, my God, but
52:08
today we'll do We'll do it for the fifteen hundred dolls. I think it
52:15
was a fifteen hundred dollars. So you don't think I acted on that.
52:19
Now, I gotta act on what I said I was gonna do. All
52:21
right, I'm going a lot of ways. So I'm trying to get back
52:23
to the story. And let me get back to the sport. Because of
52:24
preaching me coming out, we had let me stay the podcast, let me
52:30
say the podcast. So the day of y'all and we're gonna wrap. We're
52:34
gonna I'm trying to wrap this up. But the day of y'all we get
52:38
there. I'm I'm well, I'm fast forwarded. My sister does my hair
52:43
shine out to Kendah mac Williams. She's the owner of Kendle's Dreadheads. Simon
52:50
does my my makeup beauty mark. I'll take them all in here, beauty
52:54
marked in Birmingham. Please remind me of the later name we did my nails
53:01
her her name is a one touch art. Oh my gosh, they gonna
53:08
tell me because I can't. That was the first time she did my nails,
53:10
and she did on a maze and job Nikki, Nikki did my nails.
53:16
Nikki did my nails. What any art touch? A touch of art?
53:23
Thank you, thank you, Sorry, Nikki, I love you,
53:25
baby Nikki at a touch of art and baby she was anointed to herself and
53:30
so I get all my glam squad and shout out to I can't forget because
53:35
baby, Faith be getting all the anxiety. You know how I get this
53:38
ray? You know how I get when I get anxiety. Faith Leonard got
53:49
my entire wardrobe together. Right. So everybody's been asking me, who put
53:53
your outfit out? But go to her page. She put on her page
53:57
what I wore, where she got it from? What inspired she said something?
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She said something to me about candy out for I don't know no about
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that. Just do your job, do what you do your purpose and I'm
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gonna do math because my purpose ain't the fast. Okay, lit Babe.
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She made me look good and I was comfortable. That's my biggest thing.
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I'm gonna be cute, but I'm gona be comfortable. I'm not gonna be
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comfortable in front of these boats now. And so that my glam squad,
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I appreciate you guys. Y'all did excellent. And so I get there.
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My mom and my sister are driving me, and shout out to my sister.
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She served me so well. She did so good job. It was
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her first time serving me and she did an amazing job. And so my
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pastor, Pastor Kareem Gardner, and my coach slash spiritual mother, coach Defunby,
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they were there. They prayed for me. I'm gonna have to i'ma
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have to show some of those pictures. But they pray for me while we
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was in the green room and we go up there. First of all,
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let me tell y'all this, I looked so good. Shout out to my
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squad that when I walked down the aisle, they was in VI I P
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and the line was just going and its tail. She looked at me,
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she looked at me in a double look. She was like, oh,
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Jessica didn't come to play this. I said, maybe I had the master
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and child the master. So when the when the woman that God can ask
55:17
me, I was like, oh, I look good. So my companies
55:21
boosted up a little bit. It went on up, went on up,
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and it was like skyrocket and I thought it was so cute after that,
55:28
so he was man, I was so like, I was bad that ponytail
55:32
did. It was the pony tail, like Ken was amazing. She's annointed
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and listen like literally Kendle, let me tell y'all so funny, so desireting
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Kendall in the room. Ken is doing my ponytail right. And all of
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a sudden, I'm reading reading the introduction and I just bust out on the
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tongue. I'm speaking in tongue. I'm praying, and Kendall's still doing my
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health y'all gotta know how I pray. I prayed hard. I pray.
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I pray real hard when I'm I'm you know, praying, And at that
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moment, I think I was praying for miss Tail. Was I you start?
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You was praying for everybody? Everybody. I pray everybody. I prayed
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for everybody, the audience, the audience, Mistail, her team, everybody.
56:14
It was more so like you know, you was praying that you know
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that that people haven't experience and they don't leave the same listen, but you
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say, have witness. Yeah, I got witness. And if you see,
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it's in the video clip that kim To put up and somebody said it
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in the coming. They was like, it's the press to me. For
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me, they couldn't even what I'm saying, but I praying whole So she
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was able to get the pointytail with me speaking in tongue. And so another
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fun fact I share with y'all, I was so nervous well before I left
56:45
the hotel, I had to literally play webbe g Ish. Yeah I did.
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The West Side of Burnham came by me. I'm an unapologetical about it.
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Okay, y'all. The Saints might can't handle it, but I'm handling
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it. Okay. I had to play that the clean version now because I
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kept hearing tell me what you know about me? A W W E B
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B. And I just kept saying it to myself because I feel like,
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tell me what you know about me? These folks don't know me, but
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I'm gonna tell you, Like I just kind of like rolls up in there.
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And so that was something that calmed me down. The thought of my
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dad seeing me execute calmed me down. And so y'all, so I meet
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I meet Miss tab. We get with the first of all mis taped team,
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Miss tap team. Amazing, beautiful, amazing. When I say the
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residue, it goes from it starts on the head and goes on that period
57:50
like excellent, chick mark very fast. I love Selena baby, I love
57:59
Khalil, both of them. They have my heart. So they they they
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got us together. They gave us a rundown on the show. And we
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get on stage and I'm on stage by myself after the Voice of God introduces
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me. Y'all, who man, what was going through your mind? I
58:22
can't get off the stage. I think I was just like, I'm I'm
58:28
on the stage now, yep, this is the same, Like it's real.
58:30
They had pushed plate. Okay, we was we was live, and
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I just I took a deep breath. I was like, I had to
58:37
tell myself before I got on the stage. I told myself, when you
58:44
walk out, smile and wave. I think that helped me out really good.
58:47
I said myself in my mind said, okay, when you walk out,
58:51
smile at the people because I would have a poker face or y'all,
58:54
my facial expressions are just bad. Sometimes I'm working on that. I'm working
59:00
on it. So I told myself in my head, okay, Jessica,
59:04
when you go on stage, smile and way okay. And I did that
59:09
and it helped me get through the introduction. And baby I did the introduction.
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I was like, you know what I'm saying, and it felt like
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everybody was participating in the introduction. So we finally get there and we're interviewing.
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I'm talking to her like literally, people ask I'm telling y'all. People
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ask me what was going through my mind. I was literally listening for things,
59:31
and I was listening for what, asking Holy Spirit, what do you
59:34
want me to ask her? Nixt I had some que cards. But fun
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fact, all those questions that I asked her if you were there, they
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weren't. They weren't preregistered questions because they encouraged us. I say, preregistered
59:47
questions, prescripted questions, and so they actually encouraged me to be genuine in
59:54
the conversation. As nervous as I was, I was like, Holy Spirit,
1:00:00
get my mind together. And it was a point where I got stuck
1:00:02
and I had to make a hard switch, and people told me, oh,
1:00:06
I can't tell. I couldn't tell. I couldn't tell. I couldn't
1:00:08
tell. And I was just so grateful that I was like, God,
1:00:10
God, you did not bring I told him, I said, you did
1:00:14
not bring me here to make me a little stupid. So let's go,
1:00:15
because I'm I put it on you that you got me here. So this
1:00:20
us okay, And so it went well, and Miss Tail gave me words
1:00:30
of affirmation. She told the people she was like, don't she look like
1:00:32
she belonged here? And that confirmation, that affirmation. She told me to
1:00:40
get used to holding the mic. She said a lot of things up there
1:00:45
at the end and even backstage, just confirming. She said, you made
1:00:50
not one mistake. I'm sorry, y'all. That just thinking about that,
1:01:04
because when you've messed up so many things, if somebody tell me you may
1:01:12
not want man, it's not even about the perfectionism. It's just the well
1:01:19
done, my good and faithful service. I ain't got to die here that.
1:01:23
Oh come on, I'm trying to get off here, y'all. I'm
1:01:28
trying to end this episode. But I'm telling you this experience like really showed
1:01:36
me that God can trust me with what he created me to be nothing else.
1:01:45
And when we operate outside of that operation, God can't blow on that.
1:01:52
God couldn't blow on that and allow me to be with tab If I
1:01:54
had not tested this waters of podcasting, if I and not trusted with others,
1:02:01
the assigned people that could really see into into what my development by my
1:02:06
crafting things that I was running away from. I had to trust, have
1:02:13
a level of trust and willingness to submit to get through this process. And
1:02:19
so the aftermath is that I'm I am, I'm much better. I'm bolder,
1:02:24
babe. I'm seeing like I'm literally taking my shot on everything, on
1:02:30
everything. Literally there's I tell I tell I think I taxt the Desiray every
1:02:36
day. Hey, I wrote this person, I wrote this person. I
1:02:39
think I wrote Calvin Grinds the other day. If y'alln't know who is he's
1:02:45
hilarious. He stopped folks at the store putting wigs on the head. I
1:02:51
reached out to him. You get what I'm saying. I'm reaching out and
1:02:53
I'm intentially reaching out to people that I'm I admired because I think it'll be
1:03:04
the most genuine thing to do. I really do. I'm not trying to
1:03:07
be ingenuine. I'm not trying to chase after the followers. I'm not trying
1:03:09
to do all that. Sherry Brown said on this couch. I'm gonna tell
1:03:14
y'all something Chay Brown said on this couch. We challenged her and now she's
1:03:16
going all in all the creativity and Cherry, we bless you like we are
1:03:23
just asked. The podcast desiate that, yil Oh, we support you.
1:03:28
So whatever whatever we can do in our capacity, we support you. You
1:03:31
might be sitting on the couch again so we can promote if you don't have
1:03:35
can't keep can't keep some I think it's just what it's called can't keep doing
1:03:37
this. I just listened to it on the way here. Can't keep doing
1:03:42
this? No, no, I love. It's all saints, y'all.
1:03:46
Not that's not might that might not be one for you to download, if
1:03:50
you really really to oiling, it might not be one for you to download.
1:03:54
But my girl did that. Okay, she got merged. She got
1:03:58
a lot of things happening, and so she said on this couch she don't
1:04:01
have a four million yet, she don't have a four million yet. So
1:04:04
it's not about it's not about the numbers. It's about the influence. It's
1:04:10
about the people that are going after what God has ordained them to go after.
1:04:15
That's good and on this platform, that is what we promote, that
1:04:19
is what we push, and I feel like that's why we could connect with
1:04:24
someone as great as Talent, And so I'm grateful for the opportunity I want
1:04:30
to land. It's a lot of things I probably left out because the experience
1:04:33
is still experiencing for sure, Sure, for sure, that's right. For
1:04:40
sure. Listen, look at the couch for sure. Okay. Kind of
1:04:44
like just like there's some some things that have happened in the last you know,
1:04:49
month or so when you just have to make a decision to go,
1:04:51
like like God is doing something in this earth, and he's doing it expeding
1:04:57
expediently. Okay, and if if you, if you, you just gotta
1:05:04
trust him. That's all I got. You just gotta trust him, because
1:05:08
I mean, you can you can stay over here and load the ball if
1:05:10
you want to, or you can go to the land of plenty. I'm
1:05:13
trying to get over there with I'm trying to get with the God with God,
1:05:15
God Man. So I'm just gonna say yeah, y'all. So I
1:05:18
hope y'all enjoyed my reflection of Tabitha Brown. For those that say, oh,
1:05:24
she's just gonna ride it, I am. I'm gonna ride it to
1:05:27
the wheels far off. In my jazzmine sullen voice, you just mad because
1:05:31
you can't ride this wave. I'm just saying, like, I don't say
1:05:35
that in the mean way. I'm just saying, check your heart, because
1:05:40
I I can ride it. I can ride this wave, and God annointed
1:05:46
me for this one. So I just I want to go and let you
1:05:50
know, not ending on a neggive note, but in and of a whole
1:05:54
bowl one baby, because back then I want to done it. I am
1:06:00
the Jessica s. Smith. I appreciate you for lending me your ears until
1:06:04
next week. Life could be much more simple if you just ask. See
1:06:10
you later. Hey, y'all, thank you for listening to just ask.
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1:06:27
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1:06:31
your girl, Jess until next time.