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Episode #171: Shifting from Victimhood to Spiritual Empowerment · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Hi, Welcome to tea Time with Amy and Bev. Hello, good day,
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  Hi, how are you doing fabulous? Wonderful? How are you well?
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  I'm doing great. Actually, you know, I've been going through this
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  journey of this path and where I'm at right now is rather interesting. Or
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  we're always saying follow your passions, and I decided to. I was asking
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  my spirits, you know, spirit guides and stuff to help me, like
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  what should I take this class with Susan Geeseman, you know, sign up
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  for this making the Connection as the class that I signed up for initially I
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  had sent out because they had a thing for scholarship. Well I could do
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  the right now, honestly. So it's like I I requested it or I
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  asked about I fired about it, and I said, is they're like a
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  discount you get because I think it was like one hundred and nine it was
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  almost like two hundred bucks for the class. And I thought, well,
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  hell, I'll just go ahead and submit, or you know, ask him
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  if it's something that we can do, if we can get a discount or
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  something like that, and they offered. They gave me a scholarship for fifty
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  percent off, which is freaking awesome. Nice, It's awesome. It is.
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  So it's like, okay, okay, I hear you. I'm going
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  to do this. I sit down for the first class with her talking,
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  and I had goosebumps the whole freaking time, and it's like, holy crap,
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  is this like it is this my confirmation? Possibly? Is it energies
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  higher? Possibly? Like there's so many possibilities. And I say that,
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  and I'm noticing out en if you've noticed my goosebumps though, like I would
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  always say, oh I got goosebumps. Well, now I'll notice during a
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  conversation it might totally only hit my right side. It might totally only hit
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  my left side of it. So for me, it's like, I'm listening
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  to the conversation, how is it? How is it associating in my body?
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  It'll go down my back, it might hit the whole lower half of
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  my leg. It's just the craziest thing and things I didn't know this,
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  We noticed this before and till now until I start paying attention and I'm noticing
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  how it's different. Now, what does it all mean? I don't know.
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  Help for me, right side means masculine, father, brother, all
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  those kind of energies doing the feminine sight is the left side, and that's
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  your mother intuition. You know this all that stuff, and it's and it's
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  combining the two, the yin and the end right. For in our human
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  experience, it's the combination of the two because otherwise we would consider this duality
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  in a lot of ways. But we all come together from a space of
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  love. So I'm listening to all this stuff and I'm recognizing these things,
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  and I thought, this is freaking crazy. I even sent to a message
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  like I cannot believe that I'm having I don't. I don't think I've ever
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  been in a conversation where I've had constant goosebumps. It's like constantly there,
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  like it's just a constant confirmation. So I'm doing that, and then this
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  morning and I'm like drawn to it, like I'm like, how can I
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  just not go to work this week and finish up these classes? Right,
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  I'm going to do all the above because I'm just an adults together. But
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  so I've been doing the classes and one of the classes this morning, and
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  I've done these classes before. So I'm telling you guys this because sometimes we
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  go through these experiences and we think, oh, I'm not going to listen
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  to that again. I never got anything in the last time. And it's
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  like, no, I'm going to listen to what she's got to say.
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  And she's talking to you, and she's guiding you on this meditation to meet
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  with your spirit guides and then really in one particular because it would be considered
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  your control, that's going to help you. This spirit guide's going to help
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  bring the spirits to you. The spirit guide's going to help you learn like
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  certain things like Suzanne Gatesman will use their hands to open up her open up
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  her hands really quick. If anybody's watching the video and it's like her,
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  she's saying that spirits letting her them know that since they transition, that their
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  eyes are wide open, they see things totally different. So it's just these
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  different things and that's what our guides help us with. She was even walking
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  through a meditation because I'll come back to that one. She was even walking
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  through a meditation for you to just kind of too into the energies and stuff
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  that are around you and tune into how you're feeling, and just there's just
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  so much that she's bringing forth. But in this one particular meditation. She's
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  bringing forth your spirit guides. And now I know one of her main spirit
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  guides or what her control is. It is called Boris and he's been around
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  since like the first time that she channeled, it like startled her because it
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  was like, she has this accent coming through and it hadn't. He had
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  a strong accent and he was strong, and he's like all this. So
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  I'm sitting there and I'm going through this, and this is how we start
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  to second guess things. I'm sitting there, I'm in my meditation, and
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  then all of a sudden, I feel, Okay, it's a masculine energy.
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  I feel a very masculine energy. And then I'm like, oh,
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  he's like Russian or something. And I'm thinking, oh, am I picking
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  up on her spirit guide. Look this is my mind. And then all
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  of a sudden, the name pops into my head Vladimir, and I thought,
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  what the hell? Like what? And so then I'm processing, right,
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  So I'm thinking about this, like really like that name. That's a
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  because it's not you're not asking them what their name is. You're asking them
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  what they would like you to call them. Because we're the ones that need
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  names. Correct. I believe, yes, that's correct. So she's talking
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  about this stuff and I'm feeling these things, and I thought, well,
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  I'm going to go look up this name. So I do go look up
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  the name because now I'm realizing, okay, of course I'm going to have
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  a strong dominant masculine energy coming through because that I'll respond better to that,
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  I'll listen better to that. And then it's it says to rule with greatness,
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  peaceful ruler, and ruler of the world. So like all this information
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  coming through and I thought, well that wow, like wow, right,
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  So well, I'm just going to see how it plays out, and then
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  you during the meditation it says like in the next few days, if you
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  can like bring the name forward or you know something, show me signs,
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  show me signs this is true and accurate, or you know, however we're
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  perceiving it. So that's been my experience so far. It's been super exciting,
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  and still watching it even today. Each video i'm watching, I've got
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  the goose bumps just just the whole time. And I'll go back to the
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  thing. It's not the stuff that we're pursuing, it's what's pursuing us because
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  really, I was kind of leaning this way and I thought, nah,
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  channeling, I could do channeling, right it maybe because channeling wouldn't put me
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  out there so much for the someone saying no, that's not right or you
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  know, that whole emotional feelings. But of course that's what the group meetings
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  has been bringing me into any ways. So it's like that all this stuff
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  is like transpiring and I'm starting to see like the pattern, and I can
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  feel with this excitement growing withinside of me so that I know that I'm on
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  this path where it goes from here. I don't know. Your guess is
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  as good as mine, or as good as the next interpretation or the next
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  message that I get or we get. So it's exciting. That's awesome.
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  I love it. Yeah, I love that too. And having the goosebumps
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  because I know, like watching podcasts or even I mean Suzanne Gieseman's stuff,
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  they'll say something and it just and I'm like, there's totally speaking truth there,
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  totally resonates with me or however it comes through in that moment. So
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  yeah, we gotta listen to those goosebumps, god bumps. Yeah, it's
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  just it's so interesting because it's like I I just you know, it's I've
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  taken a few different other classes on quantum healing, hypnosis, therapy, I've
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  done like so many other different things, and I guess I can do it,
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  but I don't feel like a passion towards it. But I do a
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  passion as far as the way I'm feeling with the goosebumps, like NonStop.
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  It's like it's constantly keeping me captivated, and I feel like, well,
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  that's for a reason. So I'm just devoting the time into it and following
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  it and seeing what it feels like. Because we're already all doing these things,
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  but sometimes it helps for us to fine tune, to get a little
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  bit more information, to have an understanding about what you're having. That's what
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  I started to say. She even took it into another meditation and asked,
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  like, okay, my spirit guys, like how show me what a no
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  is going to feel like? Or yes, it's going to feel like,
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  and then you look whatever however however it shows up in your body. There
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  was different people in the class. Some would actually hear yes, someone here,
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  no, Some would actually see like a green light then a red light.
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  Some would actually hear they would feel sensations in their body for me,
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  mind sensation right now, that's what it where it's at right now is how
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  they've gotten my attention and mind's through my like I'll feel it through my third
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  eye and up that that's yes, and then I'll fill a pull so which
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  tells me they've already been working with me. But now the difference is I
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  actually have an understanding about what's going on. And now it's not just I'm
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  making this stuff up, you know what I mean. I was still feeling
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  it and still going through it and still relying on it a lot of ways,
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  but not one hundred percent. So it's relying on that information a lot
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  more that comes through. And it's also recognizing I'm here to serve spirits and
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  that's not just spirit people, that's us too, but I'm here to serve
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  and it's and I'm going to honor them even if someone doesn't understand what I'm
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  saying when I in the way that I interpret it and the way that I
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  bring forth the information. If they don't understand and they don't get it right
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  that moment, that doesn't matter to me. It doesn't I'm less and less
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  concerned about that being right, and that's taken a while because that's clearing up
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  our craft. That's clearing up the I gotta be perfect, I gotta be
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  right all the time. That's clearing up the defensiveness. All that stuff was
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  part of the factor. And if you guys have been listening to us for
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  a while, you've heard me talk about my defensiveness, me being defensive,
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  that warriors there to protect me, and it's like, no matter what,
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  it was always there to protect me. It's like I don't need that protection
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  anymore, which takes me down to I can go into so many different ways.
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  So if there's something you want talk about, let's go that way.
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  Otherwise I'll start just running off and who knows, go ahead? What do
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  you got to say? Bring it on? That's the gosh, Well,
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  I probably should have just kept going because I got my thoughts in it.
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  She didn't even talked as far as she didn't even talked as far as so
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  anybody that's out there that's like trying thinking about medium ship or any of that
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  stuff or recognizing it. Really one of the great reasons to be doing it
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  is for us for your own personal use. Instead of going and relying on
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  a psychic medium. It's bringing that information for yourself. Now, a psychic
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  medium might be a person that you can go see to give you the confirmations,
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  but you're going to recognize when you start learning this suit like the goosebumps.
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  When I start learning all this stuff, then I'll have a better understanding
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  and I'm not relying on anything outside of me any longer. I'm relying on
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  this vessel and the information that I'm receiving from within my own heart. It's
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  just this path is so exciting to me. But it's like I said,
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  it's reminding us that we're all connected, and we we It's like picking up
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  the phone and you're making it. You're calling your loved ones even though they're
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  standing right in front of you. They're right next to you. And it's
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  like she said, if you've ever looked at she had a picture, But
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  if you ever look at an image, you know you have to Some of
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  those images you bring up close to your face and then you pull it farther
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  away, then you start seeing there was another image. They're all along.
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  That's the same way spirit is. We're so focused on this human experience that
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  we're not seeing all that's around us all the time. So it's a practice
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  and know that they're just then setting the intention of knowing that spirit is with
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  you. They're with you. It's just that simple. So it's this is
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  exciting, well a lot of I mean, when you think about any any
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  trying to think of the word, I'm going to say practice, but that's
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  not the word. I'm looking for. Anything that we do, we don't
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  We typically don't have the confidence in doing it. So it doesn't matter if
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  you're if you're a receptionist, a secretary and administrative assistant, a doctor or
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  going to school to be a doctor. You know, a coach, a
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  massage therapist, doesn't matter, doesn't matter what title you put in that sense
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  in that topic that we don't become truly confident until we've practiced for a while.
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  And then there's the other side of it as well, that when we
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  are living in our life from the space of not good enough, then we
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  always second guess ourselves because what if I make the wrong decision, what if
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  I say the wrong thing, what if I don't do the right thing right?
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  So we're always second guessing. Marcia, I did it my like my
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  entire life up until recent years, and there's still things that come up and
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  I question myself. And so when it comes to like reading cards for somebody
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  mediumship, we already know. I can't tell you how many times I went
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  to a psychic medium. One lady should come into our area about every three
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  or four months. She didn't live here, so when she would visit,
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  we would I would go see her and she would tell me, write down
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  your questions before you come. I would write down the questions. And between
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  the time that I wrote the questions down in the time that I actually sat
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  in front of her, I already had the knowingness of the answers to my
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  questions. I already had them. All she did was validated for me.
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  And after a while I was thinking, I mean, this way, I'm
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  paying this lady pretty good money to sit there and tell me the things I
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  allready knew. I already knew, but because I didn't have the confidence,
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  I needed her to tell me. And this is this is a lot of
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  people on the planet, because of our story of the not good enough and
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  always second guessing ourselves, not having the confidence of listening to ourselves, that
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  we need the external validation from somebody else for the things that we already know.
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  And that's why people go to psychics, that's why they go see mediums,
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  that's why they go for our card readings. I know that's exactly why
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  I did it. When I can pull out some cards and I can feel
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  into what the messages are coming through, and I'm like, Okay, I
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  listen more now because I like, I know it's already in me and I
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  and I have more confidence than I in myself. I don't need that external
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  validation. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I want or desire another perspective or maybe
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  there's more information that I'm not tuning into. But a lot of times when
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  I go see a reader or a medium, it's just out of curiosity.
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  What are they what are they gonna say? I'm not going to get validated
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  anymore. That's not that's that's not even a reason why I have a reading
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  done. So you know, I love if you're talking about it's in us,
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  and I totally agree with you. It's building the confidence in listening and
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  and following that information that you're getting, or digesting it, or knowing what's
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  resonating, knowing how to listen and discern those messages and the the sensations that
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  you might feel in your body, or the images that you might get,
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  or the dreams that you might have, so to get your attention. For
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  sure, it's funny. It's funny because as you're you're talking, I've been
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  doing the scribbling thing, right, And because I do that since you were
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  in the like you said, we talked about this, you were doing it
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  in the class, i'd have recognized it. I don't know if everybody noticed
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  it, but I noticed it. And then it's like you said, well,
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  it's not something you normally do, so and it's like it gave me
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  permission, so that I came home, right, I say gave me permission,
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  but it did it. It gave me permission and reminded me. So
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  I came home and started doing that. So as I'm doing this, I'm
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  listening to you and you're talking, and I can feel it's almost as if
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  I as if my eyes get a little bit blurring when it happens, and
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  I can fill it in my third eye area. And the thing is,
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  it's I was told it's been here all along. I wasn't listening, and
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  then you're talking about listening. So again, confirmation even in the conversation just
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  right now. I mean, I'm telling you, but I'm telling everybody.
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  Achievous is how it happens. And when we can be more free and honor
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  about what we're sensing and picking up, then we have confirmation right across from
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  us. And we're helping each other to get that confidence. Because the other
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  thing they told me is because I didn't have confident confidence. And that's why
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  Vladimir, Because Vladimir will come through. He's a ruler. He's a gentle
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  warrior or a peaceful servant basically, but he is He's more prominent, more
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  confident, and that's what I would would say that I've been lacking, but
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  that I'm gaining this confidence because I'm listening to the body and I'm listening to
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  the sensations that I'm picking up. And it was so interesting just to feel
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  that energy. Now. One of the things that she did in the class,
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  which I think is awesome. I don't know if you do this in
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  any of your classes. For this, she said, we're first going to
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  plot practice with psychic because psychic is this our natural thing. We're doing it
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  all the time. And when she was talking about this, I realized That's
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  what I do all the time with my clients. So when I'm working on
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  a client, I'm in their energy and I feel like I don't want to
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  live here on the planet anymore, I don't want to be in this experience
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  anymore. Or I'm feeling tired and I don't want to do this anymore.
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  I'm picking up their energy. I'm picking up that's the same it's the same
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  thing that you do with spirit. You would ask spirit to merge with you.
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  Well, this person's merging with me because they've given me permission to do
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  a massage, and I'm giving them a massage and we're sharing energy. So
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  I get this information. But what she did is she has like one person
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  that's a number one standing against the wall with they're back facing the person,
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  and there's there was women and men in the class. I think there was
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  only like three men that were in the class and then the rest were women.
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  So she's like, pretty much, you're gonna know it's mostly female.
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  You have three opportunities you know of it being a masculine energy. And she
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  said, even still, if you come through with a feminine energy, it
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  doesn't mean that that person maybe they're showing up there. So what did I
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  say a little while ago, Our left sides more of our intuition, and
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  our feminine side doesn't necessarily mean that this person is feminine, but they might
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  be. Maybe they're more in their intuition at that moment, because I think
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  at any given moment, we could read someone differently because psychic, right we're
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  picking up their energy. Psychically, you could pick up the energy what they
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  put in their vortex. There's a lot of stuff. There's a lot of
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  things that someone can do psychically that's not mediumship yet. So and then the
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  other person would stand behind her and wouldn't say anything to the person that was
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  number one. They'd stand behind with a notebook and they would write down every
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  single thing the person sang in front of them. So the person, the
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  number one person, with their face against the wall or face towards the wall,
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  is interpreting this energy that's now merged, its stepped into the back of
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  their energy, and they're filling this energy, and then they're describing everything they
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  feel like just what I said, Oh, the person doesn't want to be
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  here anymore, I said, I said that I felt like a masculine energy
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  stepped forward all of a sudden how do I know? It just felt masculine
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  and I could see like you would like you sit up straight when you were
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  that's like that that's a kind of energy that it felt like, and it
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  felt masculine. That's how it felt to me. That's how I that's where
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  I came up with a discernment of masculine energy. That's how it felt.
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  And I would see like a presence kind of in a way, but it
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  was very matter of fact. I would say, like it's a loving,
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  a loving, nurturing, powerful guide. Like it's strong, it really is.
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  But it's like that's how we interpret things. And that's how do you
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  know when you stop and you start paying attention to your awareness, you start
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  practicing these things we've been talking which is funny, we've been talking about this
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  stuff kind of leading up to this, and that's because everybody can do it.
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  Start practicing, because when we start listening to our intuitions and we go
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  into that space, no longer you're no longer am I wanting to play any
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  games at all? I have zero desire for I mean, I'm I've found
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  myself and I'm paying attention to the energy when I'm playing it now. Now
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  it's a job because I'm finishing this job because I have to deliver these bushes
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  whatever. This is the game, right, I have to deliver these bushes
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  and make sure that I do my updates every single day that I've got to
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  because they've got us train. That's why I tell Freeman. I'm like,
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  well, I got us train pretty good. Here's your snack, here's your
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  treat, so up and give out your boy said, you know all this
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  stuff. But I'm feeling less inclined to be in this environment any longer.
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  And I'm seeing I'm seeing that transition of my energy of my space that's right
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  now. I feel like there might become a time that's in the very near
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  future, that we may not be able to be in that space any longer
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  that we share, because I feel like it's not going to be able to
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  encompass what we are bringing in at all. So that I find fascinating.
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  But I'm just listening to the step and that I know is Spirits way of
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  putting seeds in my mind. And then something else is going to come up,
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  and and I'm not going to be so holding on so tightly to what
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  was to what I believed so that I can allow what will, what can
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  be to come inside. That's where the listening has been coming in for me,
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  although I have not been showing that listening too much in this conversation.
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  But I'm just speaking whatever's coming through right now. That's how we move forward.
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  Well, what I wanted to bring up, though, is that you
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  said, you know, as I was talking, you're gribbling doing whatever you're
• 22:02
  doing, and I'm talking about what you're thinking about. And that is how
• 22:08
  messages get validated on the external. When you are in a class and you've
• 22:18
  been asking for an internal dialogue with source or whoever, and you're asking for
• 22:26
  guidance, You're asking for you know, what's my blocks, What's what's you
• 22:32
  know, what's keeping me from moving forward? What's how come I can't get
• 22:36
  more money in my bank account? It just seems right. So whatever questions
• 22:40
  and inquires that you might have about your life, and then you go to
• 22:44
  a class and the conversation is about what you have been internally asking, when
• 22:51
  these people that are in the class have no idea that you've been asking these
• 22:53
  questions or seeking this guidance. And so this is how message just come through
• 23:02
  externally to either provide the information so you can hear it to implement it,
• 23:11
  or you have received the answers and this is an external validation. So I
• 23:17
  just wanted to bring that forward. I'm not directing it at you, BEV.
• 23:19
  I'm directing at the audience to listen to the conversations that are happening around
• 23:26
  you and with you, because there's something in those conversations for you, because
• 23:33
  you're hearing it. I just feel like any everything's happening for a reason.
• 23:36
  If I'm overhearing a conversation, I'm like, oh, it's not you know,
• 23:42
  back in the day it was eavesdropping and you're getting all the details in
• 23:48
  the scoop so you could go spread it around town or tell your friends or
• 23:52
  now. I'm not into that. What I'm listening for is they're in earshot.
• 23:59
  I'm hearing their conversation. What is there anything in that conversation that's going
• 24:03
  to give me some kind of direction or answer to whatever I've got going on
• 24:10
  within myself, and its their words. It could be it could be their
• 24:15
  attitudes, it could be right body language, it could be anything. It
• 24:22
  could be coming through in any way. And so it's just interesting because I
• 24:26
  actually do this quite often with people. It's like they're having this internal thing
• 24:32
  going on, and here I come along and I'm like, let's do the
• 24:34
  last and they're like, oh my god, I was just thinking about that,
• 24:37
  or I've been wondering about that, or or well you know how to
• 24:41
  say the right things. I don't even know what's going on in them,
• 24:44
  right, And so it's just a similarity of what was happening just a few
• 24:48
  minutes ago. So I just gave a demonstration just you. Honestly, this
• 24:52
  great demonstration of being psychic. That's that's what it is. It's psychically knowing.
• 24:56
  And it's when you get that those nudges, those little tid bits of
• 25:00
  information, that's to act on it. It's not to ignore it. And
• 25:03
  even if someone doesn't exactly take you, if they don't take you exactly the
• 25:10
  way you're you and tendant it, it's not about you. It's but you're
• 25:12
  providing the information, and it's foud for thought. I have a client that
• 25:18
  contacted me yesterday and she's gone through a lot, her husband transitions last year.
• 25:23
  They're young, and she sends me a message yesterday. We have a
• 25:29
  group, another group coming up on Sunday and she sends me a message yesterday,
• 25:33
  Hey, I was thinking about you and I thought I really felt like
• 25:36
  she said, I kept thinking about you, and I knew that I had
• 25:37
  to respond. And she this is new, this, this information, this
• 25:42
  energy, all of it is new to her. So her guides are pushing
• 25:48
  her to contact me, and I'm sitting there because usually I'll have something that
• 25:51
  comes forward from me that will give her information that will uplift her. I
• 25:55
  was drawn a blank. I wasn't bringing anything, so I left it.
• 25:56
  I just let it be. I didn't send them mess until this morning,
• 26:00
  when I knew that I needed to invite her to that group. It's important
• 26:04
  for her because this is this is she's stepping out on this path that's new
• 26:08
  and she's she never meditate or did any of that stuff, but after her
• 26:14
  husband died, she struggled with sleeping and stuff, and she says, I
• 26:17
  have to meditate every single night, and with her meditation for her right now
• 26:21
  is taking breath work. It's just breathing, and that that's how she falls
• 26:25
  asleep and how she gets any rest right now. But not knowing that this,
• 26:30
  I'm like, that's just the gateway to everything. This is this is
• 26:33
  the beginning of your whole new experience, all because your husband transitions, because
• 26:37
  it's spurring you to ask for more. We want, we now, we
• 26:40
  want, we need to be soothed and feel satisfied and we're missing that and
• 26:44
  why aren't they here with us? And it's it's this whole grieving process,
• 26:47
  but going through that and recognizing we get message. We're getting messages all the
• 26:52
  time. And so I didn't have anything to offer yesterday. So if I
• 26:55
  didn't have anything to offer, I didn't offer up anything. I didn't try
• 26:57
  to make up something. I didn't try to think with my mom, because
• 27:00
  I know that I do better with that energy that just flows through, Because
• 27:03
  if I'm thinking about it, I'll sit and try to put out a message,
• 27:07
  and sometimes it just doesn't it just doesn't work. But when I'm not
• 27:10
  even thinking about a person, like maybe I talked to a friend that I
• 27:14
  haven't saw, had seen for a long time, like last week, and
• 27:18
  then all of a sudden, I'm getting up and I'm getting ready and put
• 27:19
  makeup on, and something pops into my head and the person's face pops in
• 27:22
  my head. I know that I'm to contact that person and just given that
• 27:26
  information because they need a little bit of a hand up. They need a
• 27:29
  little bit of help right now, and they've asked God and they've asked Spirit
• 27:33
  for help. And that's why it's so important for us to listen to both
• 27:36
  messages. Step up, because I've received that help and I want to be
• 27:40
  on the opposite side. My perspective on a lot of this stuff is so
• 27:42
  different now. It's like before serving it wouldn't have been about serving Spirit.
• 27:48
  I think it would have been about serving ego. Oh look at what I
• 27:49
  can do. Look what I did. This is look how I can bring
• 27:52
  forward this information. Everybody loves me, you know all that stuff, and
• 27:56
  it's not about that kind of stuff. It's about being there for spirit and
• 28:02
  it makes me emotional. But to be there for someone to uplift them,
• 28:06
  to give them a word or about loved one can come through and say something
• 28:10
  to them that changes them and they're not carrying around that that bag of crap
• 28:12
  anymore. That's awesome. If it gives them that reprieve for a few minutes,
• 28:18
  for a few days, or just enough to so they can listen for
• 28:21
  the next bit of information to come through. That's what I'm here for.
• 28:23
  That's what I'm here for. However that looks and I don't know. I
• 28:26
  just know that we're here to serve. And if you watch my videos,
• 28:30
  probably in first year, when I would ever hear that you're to here to
• 28:33
  serve or anything like that, it's like, I don't have to buck a
• 28:36
  time for that. I don't And here I am with the upward because for
• 28:38
  me, that fits into that that timeframe, that's how it was at that
• 28:42
  time. So welcome back to taking a stroll down the seventies. No,
• 28:47
  it really wasn't that like that, but it's really here later She's kind of
• 28:52
  but that's kind of it goes. And it's like, I love that you
• 28:56
  trust your intuition and that you're listening to it, and you are. You
• 29:00
  do answer a lot of my questions as I'm talking. So that's the psychic
• 29:03
  part of it, right, the mediumship, the psychic part of it.
• 29:06
  You I basically emerged with that person. I basically took their sweater, their
• 29:10
  suit and put it on for a few minutes. And now I'm feeling all
• 29:11
  their you know, I'm feeling what they're going through. I'm feeling stuff psychic.
• 29:15
  Now, being a medium, a psychic medium, you're connecting with spirit,
• 29:19
  You're connecting with a spirit person. So when you think about that,
• 29:23
  that's it's there's really no difference. Besides, they're not crammed into a human
• 29:29
  little shell right now we are, So it's it's just it's so fun,
• 29:33
  it's so fun, and it's like just the different words about setting I've talked
• 29:37
  forever, just got it's so funny. It's hitting me right right now,
• 29:40
  but it's I've talked forever. You've got to ask questions, you got to
• 29:42
  do this, and it's like this has all been like part of the pathway
• 29:47
  to get to this. And there's a dream that I had Jim and I
• 29:51
  were together. I remember walking out into the living room and I know I've
• 29:55
  discussed this from before, but I was like, I looked in the mirror.
• 29:57
  I had this big old on the wall, and I looked in the
• 30:00
  mirror and there was all these people in the mirror like they were like you
• 30:03
  give, it's beyond the eye could see. There was people everywhere, like
• 30:07
  so many people. And then I turned around and I looked and there was
• 30:11
  nobody there. And I turned back and I looked, and then I recognized
• 30:15
  it was spirit. It wasn't for me to be afraid. And then I
• 30:18
  turned around and they're all talking at one time, and I told him that
• 30:22
  you guys can't all do this at one time. I can't. I can't
• 30:23
  talk to you all like this at one time. It's got to be one
• 30:26
  at a time. And it's funny because we're going to see how this transpires.
• 30:30
  You guys are on this journey with me, if you're watching this,
• 30:33
  and it's like recognizing that stuff was being planned. But I wasn't. I
• 30:37
  wasn't in a space of listening. I was so much in my story,
• 30:41
  so much in my hurts, so much in my traumas from childhood, victimhood,
• 30:48
  like I was in so much of the other stuff that it was.
• 30:51
  It could have been blurring me right in the face, and I would never
• 30:53
  have seen it because I was not. My vision was focused on everything that
• 30:57
  was here in the three D world staring me right in the face. It
• 31:00
  was not. I never looked beyond that piece of paper that's close to your
• 31:03
  face and took it out and saw that there was something else there the whole
• 31:07
  time. And that's the whole thing that I'm recognizing and I think that we're
• 31:11
  a lot of us have been doing that. It's not a bad thing,
• 31:14
  but we've been trained to focus on those other things. And now we're helping
• 31:18
  to show each of you that there's another way to do this. Then we
• 31:22
  can evolve and we can move forward. And the more that we come together.
• 31:26
  We've talked about it every week, it's a ripple effect. You're having
• 31:30
  an effect on everybody else. And just think it's almost like as if you're
• 31:33
  taking this plug from your heart center and you're finally plugging it into the spirit
• 31:38
  world. Like you're like, oh, that's right, we were never really
• 31:41
  disconnected. I disconnected because this is this is these things have become my focus.
• 31:47
  My focus have become that brand new truck, that brand new house,
• 31:49
  those new plates, the new clients, the new job, that all these
• 31:56
  things we focus on that aren't even they're distracting us from what we could be
• 32:01
  hearing, from the guidance that we could be getting through that piece of knowing
• 32:06
  that we're never alone for those nuggets that we always know that we're on the
• 32:10
  right path, and it can you can have the goosebumps the whole time and
• 32:15
  because that's your confirmation like, oh my god, this is where I haven't
• 32:17
  As soon as you kind of wander off it a little bit, you can
• 32:20
  recognize I've wandered off a little bit. And then it's a choice. Do
• 32:22
  I want to stay where I'm at right now and feel and have some experiences
• 32:27
  without being connected so that I have some more information to bring to my soul.
• 32:31
  I don't know. But if that is the case, if we look
• 32:34
  at it differently, it feels differently and it doesn't feel like we're being traumatized
• 32:37
  or victimized or punished. And for me, for my most of my life,
• 32:42
  I felt like I was being punished. So I was always defensive.
• 32:45
  Like when I was a kid, I was called Nicki, Nicki, what
• 32:47
  are you doing? And that's what I could feel like, Oh, well,
• 32:50
  I'm not doing anything, you know what I mean? Because you've become
• 32:52
  defensive. You learned it was a training that I had received. Did anybody
• 32:57
  mean to train me that way? No? But this is the result of
• 33:00
  Do I have to stay in that space? Absolutely not. That's my choice
• 33:05
  and it's my choice now to step into this this area that feels natural for
• 33:09
  me, that's given me goose bumps now, and who knows what it'll bring
• 33:13
  for me later on. And it's not even it's not even just for me,
• 33:17
  because everybody that I can help they helped us too. We helped the
• 33:22
  whole world, We helped the whole planetary system, We help everything. We
• 33:27
  evolve everything, and so do they. So they're helping us to evolve because
• 33:30
  we're helping them to evolve. The ebb and flow right the infinity symbol again,
• 33:37
  it's it's that whole flow that's constantly there until we want to be so
• 33:40
  caught up into what's going on right here. Then we just stopped that flow
• 33:44
  and we're just kind of hanging out on a raft in the middle of the
• 33:45
  water checking things out. We might be drowning a little bit sometimes and then
• 33:50
  somebody might come through and help pull you up. Someone says one little word,
• 33:53
  a little phrase, a little statement, whatever, and kind of raises
• 33:57
  your vibration and brings you ab out that waters. They're like, oh,
• 34:00
  gosh, it looks like, Oh there's some trees over there. That's awesome.
• 34:02
  Oh, I can see the beach. I'm pretty close. I'm safe.
• 34:07
  And it's just having that confirmation that those knowings, and then you have
• 34:09
  the knowings right then you know these things. It's like Suzanne Gieseman says that
• 34:15
  the place we want to get to is that knowing, and to get to
• 34:17
  that knowing is to first of all feel the knowing, recognize it, so
• 34:22
  you know what it feels like, just like filling the goose bumps and recognizing
• 34:24
  that there's something more to it than gosh, it's freaking one hundred and four
• 34:29
  degrees. And why am I getting the channels right now? You know,
• 34:31
  there's just things to catch your attention. So it's just fun. It's just
• 34:37
  fun if we want to go down this path this way. So while you
• 34:40
  were talking, what came to mind is, you know, we innocently clean
• 34:51
  slate come in to this lifetime, into our physical body and life experience,
• 35:00
  and the people around us start clouding the connection we have between our spirit and
• 35:08
  our body with source. And so like the image I got was imagining,
• 35:15
  like there's this huge giant mud puddle. It's not puddle. Me is bigger
• 35:22
  than a puddle. But and you're walking along and you're having a great day
• 35:28
  and somehow you get shoved into this giant pool of mud and immediately we go
• 35:37
  into who did that? Why did you do it? Right? The drama
• 35:40
  and trauma of it, Why would anybody do this to me? How an
• 35:47
  I was having a great day? What triggered this? And we just start
• 35:52
  going in this freak out mode, defensive mode and instead of oh, I
• 36:01
  got pushed into this giant pull of mud, how am I going to get
• 36:05
  out? Our first immediate go to thing is chaos and freak out and defensiveness.
• 36:15
  And so then we come out if when we get if, if we
• 36:22
  get into a solution oriented mindset, we get out, and then there's that
• 36:27
  breath of fresh air. But we're still all muddy, and maybe you have
• 36:34
  glasses on and the MUD's covering your glasses, you can't really see. Maybe
• 36:37
  you your glasses got knocked off and now your visions blurry. But the whole
• 36:43
  idea that getting solution oriented or seeking that clear path to safety, if you
• 36:53
  will, it takes a different mindset. So when you're living life, I
• 37:05
  call it victim mode. When you're staying in your victim mode and focused on
• 37:09
  all the problems and the reasons why you are the way you are and the
• 37:13
  reasons why your life is so crappy and the reasons why you're such a bitch.
• 37:20
  When you're focused on all of that, that creates that disconnect between you
• 37:24
  and source, and you and sources where that connection is to receive clear information,
• 37:30
  to receive the guidance and the love and the support and answers to what
• 37:44
  you're seeking. But because you're letting life experiences cloud or keep the mud the
• 37:54
  dirty vision, then you can't have that clear connection. And because you're stuck
• 38:06
  in the stories, there's no room for you to allow information to come.
• 38:17
  And people don't want to hear this. I'm gonna say it anyway. Takes
• 38:22
  forgiveness for yourself and others. It takes some emotional healing, It takes the
• 38:29
  mindset shift, It takes changing the way you're treating your body. It takes
• 38:34
  a spiritual some form of spiritual connection to me that is love based. So
• 38:39
  having that package that you are on opening right, because that's many layers,
• 38:47
  there's a lot of gifts in that. And when you're opening those packages.
• 38:53
  The more you unravel or open or tear open these packages of gifts that are
• 39:00
  being delivered from spirit, the more you want it, and the more you
• 39:04
  want it, the more you get Because that's where your focus is. I
• 39:07
  hope that made sense because I was just letting stuff flow through. I'm like,
• 39:13
  all right, here we go in mud. We're going to the mud.
• 39:17
  And when you were talking about that, when we talk about even coming
• 39:20
  in, we're this being that's going to come into this body of you know,
• 39:25
  our mother. However we came into the world, but to come into
• 39:30
  this being now we're taking on the energy of both our mother and our father.
• 39:34
  So we're we're are automatically we're downloading their information into our experience. And
• 39:42
  then it's like, are we operating from our experience at that time or are
• 39:45
  we operating from their experience? And I would say from their experience depending on
• 39:51
  how you're raised. Now, if you're raised in a loving, nurturing environment
• 39:53
  with parents that knew all these this information and then some that we're kind of
• 39:58
  talking about, you would raise your children's totally different than what you would have
• 40:02
  raised them from how I had raised or maybe even how you raise or anybody
• 40:07
  else. But it's that connection when we're doing those things that totally changes everything.
• 40:12
  And it's it's not to blame like, oh well, if my mom
• 40:15
  wasn't this way or my dad wasn't that way. It doesn't even matter if
• 40:17
  your dad was only there for a few minutes, or he was there for
• 40:22
  a couple of years, or vice versa, or the mom was. You
• 40:27
  still get there, You still get whatever their energy had. That's like downloaded
• 40:30
  into you. That's like parting your template of how you're going to go about
• 40:34
  experiencing life. And that's why it's so important important for us to evolve,
• 40:37
  because we don't want to evolve, not necessarily. I mean, I didn't
• 40:42
  want to evolve with my perspective. My biological father was egotistical, was all
• 40:51
  about the ladies all the time. You know, it was a I could
• 40:57
  I could see all that kind of stuff and then see how other family members
• 41:01
  might have gravitated towards more of that energy, because that was the energy that
• 41:06
  we're familiar with, no matter how long that energy was in your life.
• 41:09
  It like, your mom and dad have a big influence on us. And
• 41:14
  it's not to be like I don't want to be anything like them. It's
• 41:15
  to be like, how can I grow and evolve and to be my own
• 41:21
  individual person from a space of love for the greater good of all, that's
• 41:24
  all. It's not to put blame on the other person, because if we're
• 41:28
  blaming somebody else, we're still holding on to something that we can learn from
• 41:31
  that will stay there until we do learn from it, until we can become
• 41:36
  neutral to it. So it's like, it's awesome that you brought that up,
• 41:38
  because I feel like there is such It does have a it does play
• 41:42
  a big role. And then now you're thinking about now if you've discussed this
• 41:46
  in classes too, then you go back to their parents, like their parents,
• 41:51
  where were they when they had them? And if there's so much information
• 41:54
  that can come forward, it's information that can come forward, but it doesn't
• 41:58
  mean it's information that we got to ring forward any longer. Once we have
• 42:00
  an awareness and we can recognize that we could do things differently, things could
• 42:05
  feel differently, we could be a lot easier on ourselves and evolved through us
• 42:09
  and realize, oh, well, that was an experience. That was an
• 42:13
  experience. So I got to experience what it felt like to be separate from
• 42:15
  God, or separate from my spirit guide, separate from my own connection of
• 42:20
  within myself, separate from that love like all those things. And when I
• 42:23
  say that, all being separate from all that stuff, really does feel heavy,
• 42:28
  dark and dank. It really does. You go through a lot of
• 42:30
  stuff. I went through my own stuff growing up with that anger, and
• 42:36
  I'm also recognizing that story is like I am so over it, like I
• 42:42
  don't even have to discuss it anymore. That doesn't if someone comes into the
• 42:45
  group that it might be beneficial for it. And I say that group,
• 42:47
  any group even on here. If it's if that part of my energy would
• 42:52
  step forward and needs to be broadcasted because that other person can hear that better
• 42:59
  when it's broadcast through that those voice patterns, those words, those whatever,
• 43:05
  then that's what's going to come forward. And I'm not going to beat myself
• 43:07
  up for it. I'm just going to recognize this is the way that they
• 43:09
  could hear me right now. And if they heard if I said the F
• 43:13
  word and it got your attention and then you started listening to the next things
• 43:16
  like oh I didn't like that, but you start listening to the next things,
• 43:19
  that's all that it mattered. It brought you to now and now you're
• 43:22
  paying attention to what information is coming forward because it's probably something valuable for you.
• 43:27
  We don't just talk randomly about weird stuff. It's just whatever flows through
• 43:32
  us, because whoever is listening to it needs to hear this. We do
• 43:36
  too. That's why we have these conversations because it helps me. It helps
• 43:39
  me put into words like what have I been experiencing already? This has been
• 43:45
  in my experience. Everything I'm talking to you about today has been in my
• 43:47
  experience. This is what I have been experiencing, This has been my I
• 43:52
  can only lead by this as my example right now where I'm at. One
• 43:58
  of the things I saw on social the other day was a meme, and
• 44:02
  it says, when something bad happens, quote I'm gonna say quote unquote bad.
• 44:08
  Personally, I don't think anything's bad. It's just the way we judge
• 44:12
  things. When something bad happens, you have three choices. You can either
• 44:16
  let it define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it
• 44:21
  strengthen you. If you're gonna let it define you, that is saying that's
• 44:29
  pointing the finger, right, that's blaming the other person. Well, because
• 44:31
  my mom and dad did this, that's the way I'm the way I am,
• 44:37
  and Bev just talked about it. When you're blaming other people, you're
• 44:40
  saying that they have the power and control over me. And until they change,
• 44:47
  I can't change. And so this is the way I am. And
• 44:52
  either you like it or you don't like it, well, I'll tell you
• 44:54
  right now. If your energy doesn't feel good to me, we're not spending
• 44:58
  time together. I'm just gonna tell you that right now, there's every distance
• 45:05
  between us. You can let it, Yeah, you can let it destroy
• 45:08
  you, so to that you know grow You know, maybe you grew up
• 45:15
  in an abusive home and that led you to drugs and alcohol. That's going
• 45:22
  to destroy you. You're not, You're just you're deteriorating your body, your
• 45:27
  mind, life. So and then you can let it strengthen you. You
• 45:34
  grew up in an abusive situation, you know you don't You didn't like it.
• 45:38
  You know it didn't feel good. You know that it wasn't a nice
• 45:44
  way to treat people. And because of that, now you're completely opposite of
• 45:49
  that. You love people. You nurture them, you you pour into them,
• 45:53
  You treat them as if you would want to have had been treated when
• 45:58
  you were growing up in this right, So what are you gonna do?
• 46:02
  This is just the question what are you doing with the information? That's all
• 46:05
  it is. It's just information gathered. And I'm gonna just touch on artificial
• 46:12
  intelligence right now because I listened to a video from ed my Lett and he
• 46:16
  was interviewing a gentleman Mo Godact, and they were talking about artificial intelligence and
• 46:23
  that that it's it's advances and it's created based on the informations that is put
• 46:36
  into it. That's what we are. We are created based on the information
• 46:45
  that has poured into us. And then because we are human, we have
• 46:50
  a brain, we get to think, we get to change, we get
• 46:52
  to do all these different things. What are you gonna do with the information
• 46:55
  that's been poured into you? So if you think about the white supremacists,
• 47:04
  they've had information poured into them. You think about the Democrats, they've had
• 47:09
  information poured into them. The Republicans, the liberals, the politicians, the
• 47:15
  accountants, the judges, the doctors, they're operating based on the information that's
• 47:22
  impoured into them, which was what I call programming. And that programming started
• 47:29
  from childhood. And as bad mentioned, you know, two people came together
• 47:35
  so that you could be created, and the energy of those two people is
• 47:39
  your and your energy, right, so you get these three blended energies coming
• 47:44
  into this world and then you got to figure shut out and you've got to
• 47:47
  figure it out based on the information that's been poured into you. But like
• 47:52
  any program, when you make a change to the coding, it changes,
• 47:58
  it gives different output it what are you going to do with the information?
• 48:01
  Like, I'm getting so passionate about this because it makes so much sense.
• 48:08
  But because you're a bit you're focused on the information that you gathered from zero
• 48:14
  to seven years old, and you're still living your life at thirty forty,
• 48:19
  fifty eighty years old. You're still living your life based on that information from
• 48:22
  that timeframe of zero to seven, and you're not choosing to do anything different.
• 48:35
  That's on you. That's not your parents' responsibility. It's not your teacher's
• 48:39
  responsibility, is not the responsibility of the little boy who said you're ugly in
• 48:44
  the second grade. It's not anybody's responsibility but yours. To change the coding
• 48:51
  that's in you, you have to take that step. And we're just here.
• 48:55
  We come here and have these conversations because we're like, well, this
• 49:00
  worked, and I experienced this, and this is what I did, and
• 49:02
  these are the tools that I gained from it, and this is how it
• 49:05
  strengthened me, and this is what it did into with my life. You
• 49:10
  gotta do something different. That's a mindset. You have to do something different
• 49:15
  if you want, if you want to tap into this stream of intelligence that
• 49:22
  we are innately connected to, which is the source of all things like we
• 49:29
  have, we have connection to everything and anything that's ever been created and will
• 49:35
  be created. We have the opportunity or we have the ability to tap into
• 49:38
  that. And that's what Bev's talking about is but we got to open ourselves
• 49:44
  up. But we can't open yourself up if you're clouded with your history.
• 49:50
  So yeah, you gotta let it strengthen. You make the changes so that
• 49:53
  you can do something different and tap into this this connection that is so valuable
• 50:02
  and that is so important to utilize in knowing, having that knowingness of what
• 50:08
  feels good and what doesn't feel good, you'll be able to tap into that
• 50:13
  person's energy. Just like I said a while ago, if your energy is
• 50:17
  not a good feeling energy, I didn't say your eyes. I didn't say
• 50:22
  you're the way you look or the way you dress, or the way you
• 50:25
  talk. If your energy does not feel good to me. There's going to
• 50:30
  be distant. We're not hanging out because we doesn't resonate. I mean,
• 50:35
  when that happens, you just don't resonate with that person, place, or
• 50:38
  thing. There's no resonance at that time. Doesn't mean that we will never
• 50:43
  be a resonance. No, it doesn't mean that, because things change all
• 50:45
  the time. Something that kind of came forward. I don't remember who I
• 50:51
  was listening to what they talked about. You know, if you talk,
• 50:52
  if you go around the world and you hear people's different perspectives, everybody thinks
• 50:55
  they're right. So what if they are? What difference is that are based
• 51:00
  on their information? It's true, it's true, and it's like, but
• 51:04
  we get caught up in this place, Well, but I'm right. How
• 51:07
  if I'm right? How could they be right? Because we can all be
• 51:08
  right. We all have different perspectives, we all have different experiences. And
• 51:13
  it's like you could go across the world and someone else might their whole belief
• 51:16
  system might be totally against what we believe in because that's what they believe,
• 51:21
  and that that doesn't make them right or wrong, but that's what's right to
• 51:23
  them. That's what resonates with them until it doesn't right. I've been talking
• 51:29
  to different people about things religions, and I would put it in that religions.
• 51:32
  I would put in their witchcraft, white witches, black witches, whatever,
• 51:37
  satanic worship. I've put all that stuff in there. All that stuff
• 51:42
  is in there, and it's like a control spirituality can go on that too,
• 51:45
  depending on where you're going with it. But it's it doesn't mean that
• 51:49
  it's right or wrong. It's like be open to the interpretation that you're receiving
• 51:53
  instead of being so fixed on thinking that you're right about something. We don't
• 51:58
  have to be right about something. We can There's so much valuable information that
• 52:00
  we received that I couldn't receive before because I was so busy defending myself and
• 52:07
  being right and thought I had to be right about everything. I felt like
• 52:10
  I had to be right about everything, and that I was right about everything.
• 52:15
  My opinion, my ideals were the right ideals, and if you weren't
• 52:20
  going along with that, we're probably not going to get along too well.
• 52:23
  And back then, it wasn't a matter of does the rest or does it
• 52:27
  not. It's like I don't like you, and if I didn't like you.
• 52:30
  I never liked you, you know what I mean? It was that
• 52:32
  that way, But now it's more open. It's more open because if we
• 52:36
  can take the time to see that person's soul instead of what we're seeing again,
• 52:42
  it's the same I go back to that piece of paper, you know
• 52:44
  what I mean. It's it's the same thing that's right in front of your
• 52:45
  face. And you think this is what you're seeing. But when you stand
• 52:49
  back away from it a little bit, you start seeing that there's something totally
• 52:52
  different there. There's an amazing soul standing in front of you that you might
• 52:55
  be crossing passing judgment on the standing right in front of you, just because
• 53:00
  you don't agree with what they're saying. And if you don't agree with what
• 53:02
  they're saying, isn't that interesting is to show them my experience because it's an
• 53:07
  opportunity for a trigger. Oh wait a minute, I'm not neutral about this.
• 53:10
  What is that about? And it's asking yourself questions why because it's coming
• 53:15
  to the service right now, and it's an opportunity for us to move past
• 53:19
  that step. And once you move past it, you don't like put it
• 53:21
  down on a list. Okay, check got through that part, and I'm
• 53:24
  going to remember this forever. No when you, when you, when the
• 53:28
  solution comes, there's no longer a problem, there's no longer a thought about.
• 53:31
  It is completely wiped away. It's like gone, thank you, thank
• 53:37
  you for taking the time to I mean I could just from me from a
• 53:42
  different perspective, thank you to me for like taking the time to actually take
• 53:45
  a look at this stuff, to feel like I didn't have to defend myself
• 53:49
  against it, to feel like I wasn't going to be burned at the stake
• 53:53
  all these other feelings, like all these feelings, to feel all those things.
• 53:55
  I'm not going to be persecuted for my beliefs anymore. And if people
• 54:00
  don't get me, they don't get me, it's okay. It's okay.
• 54:02
  If people that do get me are going to start coming around or I plan
• 54:06
  to see, that's all that matters. And it's not to force my beliefs
• 54:09
  on to someone else, because it's I'm not saying that I'm right. I'm
• 54:13
  just saying this is what's been showing up for me. This is what resonates
• 54:15
  for me right now. Would this resonate with me in five years from now?
• 54:20
  I don't know. I'll let you know in five years, right,
• 54:22
  like, stick around and we'll see what happens. But that's all, that's
• 54:25
  all I have. That's that's what we've got right now. And we can
• 54:29
  get so caught up in this. I'm right, I'm perfect. This vehicle
• 54:34
  is better in your vehicle. Okay, great, But it's like, how
• 54:38
  does that serve you? How does it serve you in your growth? Well,
• 54:42
  it did serve me. It served me in a lot of ways,
• 54:44
  but we don't know those things until you start asking questions. It's like it's
• 54:49
  just helping you to remove all the layers that of these desires and once that
• 54:53
  you have God, I remember, if I probably I would probably feel like
• 54:57
  akst if I listen to back to our videos. But I really didn't know
• 55:00
  what I wanted to do. And even still it's not a matter of like
• 55:04
  knowing what I want to do. I do, but it feels different,
• 55:08
  it's not. It's and when I say knowing what I want to do,
• 55:10
  it wasn't even there was definitely no knowing back there for anything like that.
• 55:15
  I've tried all kinds of different things to kind of get to her. I'm
• 55:19
  at right now because that's the process it took for me. Doesn't have to
• 55:22
  be that long for anybody else, But that's the process it took for me
• 55:25
  to get to that point where I can have these understandings and even have these
• 55:29
  conversations with anybody else, let alone myself. To be able to put those
• 55:32
  emotions and feelings into words that I might be feeling within my within sight of
• 55:36
  myself. That's a practice. I'm still practicing that one because sometimes some of
• 55:40
  the stuff is hard to swallow, or even being excited about Vladimir, like
• 55:46
  that was my that's the that's the name that came up, because I'm like,
• 55:49
  did I make that up? Did I? Did I hear the name
• 55:51
  recently? Somewhere? Has it been in my experience? It hasn't. I
• 55:54
  can't isolate anything, but I was trying to, you know, the left
• 55:58
  side of the brain comes forward, it's like this is true, and then
• 56:01
  it's trying to find something that might have said, yeah, that's true.
• 56:05
  And then I came up with nothing. But then I had to go with
• 56:07
  the information and I knew, like just to look it up because I'm all
• 56:12
  about meanings. I'm everything's a message. Everything is a message. And if
• 56:17
  we can go that way in our life, will start receiving a lot more
• 56:21
  message and we'll start recognizing things. And it's not something we have to go
• 56:23
  look up on our phone, although I do look up on my phone,
• 56:27
  because I'm not in a habit of saying, well, what is it?
• 56:29
  Okay, well that's what I read that it means? Does that resonate with
• 56:31
  me? What does it mean to me? What message is trying to come
• 56:35
  through to me right now? And if it's scribbling on a piece of paper,
• 56:38
  if it's sitting quietly taking some breaths, which I love to do,
• 56:43
  just taking three breaths, you know, doing three breasts in a row,
• 56:46
  and really just taking taking deep breaths in and blowing them out and really clearing
• 56:51
  yourself, clearing your energy. It's it's amazing. It's amazing the things that
• 56:54
  we can do that we have control over that people think that we don't have
• 56:58
  this, these possibilities. I don't have to go see a doctor. A
• 57:01
  doctor doesn't have to give me some medicine, doesn't have to give me antidepressants.
• 57:06
  It doesn't happen because I when we're connected, we don't need all that
• 57:08
  stuff. We realize there's a connection there. And if I need something more,
• 57:14
  my team's gonna help me out because I'm going to ask for help.
• 57:16
  And that's remembering that too, to ask for help and then allowing however it
• 57:22
  shows up because the help has showed up, had shown up for me with
• 57:25
  the class that And it's funny because that class this stuff to sign up for.
• 57:30
  I been on my mind prib the last few months, and I just
• 57:32
  wouldn't do it. I wouldn't do it because of the money. Let's go
• 57:36
  to money for a minute. Listening to Athena and Truth, and Athena and
• 57:40
  Truth is talking about she's a channel she channels I think her name's Robin.
• 57:45
  She channels Athena and Truth and that was for her confidence. This a theen
• 57:49
  of this powerful presence that came through her. But she's talking about money,
• 57:52
  and she says that we talk about spending money, that we're spending money.
• 57:57
  And when we're spending money, there's no like return on it. It's just
• 58:00
  that you're spending like it's never going to be. It's like once it leaves,
• 58:02
  that's it. But she said, if you do it as an exchange,
• 58:06
  you're always exchanging energy, always it's an exchange of energy. She said
• 58:10
  that you'll notice a huge difference in the flow how it flows to you,
• 58:15
  how your abundance flows to you, because you're not putting the same old vibes,
• 58:20
  your mom and dad's vibes that you picked up from them when you came
• 58:23
  into this world. You're no longer picking up on that anymore. You're putting
• 58:28
  new tools in your tool chest, right, new toys in the toybox.
• 58:30
  It's this whole experience. It's just opportunities and it's just an experience, it
• 58:37
  really is, And it's like, what do you want to do with it?
• 58:39
  I want to make it freaking fun. It's what I want to do.
• 58:42
  I want it to be fun and exciting and goose bumpy all day long.
• 58:45
  Bring it on right. And it's about evolution because whatever's gonna whatever's gonna
• 58:52
  get you through today's probably not gonna be the same thing that gets you through
• 58:55
  in a year from now. Yeah. I mean, Bev and I I've
• 59:00
  evolved over the years of the tools that we use and how we I mean,
• 59:07
  it takes a level of focus and concentration to channel. So Bev can't
• 59:14
  be sitting there thinking about her past and beating herself up about it and expect
• 59:19
  to channel Vladimir. I guess that's not gonna happen. So we got to
• 59:23
  clear that path. And so Bev's path has been her journey to where she's
• 59:30
  at, and all the tools, all the teachings, all the reading,
• 59:37
  all the listening has contributed to her being where she's at and being able to
• 59:43
  tap into this energy that's coming forward that's bringing even more information for her to
• 59:49
  listen to and being in service right sharing that information with all of us.
• 59:55
  So evolution is part of it. So if you think about the things they're
• 1:00:02
  talking about these days, it's just so fascinating to me because we've been taught
• 1:00:08
  through our history books and conversations that life people are only like five thousand years
• 1:00:16
  old, and now they're finding that the people existed twenty thousand years ago,
• 1:00:22
  and they're still finding more information, and so now all that negates what we've
• 1:00:29
  been taught and it's okay. It's okay to me. I'm like, well,
• 1:00:36
  is it that cool? I'm not cool to know that people's been here
• 1:00:38
  for people have been on this planet for way longer than we ever knew.
• 1:00:44
  I think that's awesome. But then you have the other people who are totally
• 1:00:49
  against hearing anything new because now it's going to put a damper on their belief
• 1:00:58
  system and everything they've been taught totally destroys, almost can destroy their foundations.
• 1:01:04
  Right, So that's scary, that's scary. But now right now life,
• 1:01:08
  everything about life becomes questionable and now it's oh, I've been like to So
• 1:01:14
  what happens now is that they take the new information and instead of embracing it
• 1:01:21
  and going okay, well, everything I've learned has been handed down to me
• 1:01:27
  by generational beliefs and saying, well, now we know this isn't a true
• 1:01:35
  story, and now I can change that story. Now I can change those
• 1:01:38
  beliefs. Now I can learn something new. To me, that's embracing it.
• 1:01:45
  But instead many people are getting defensive and denial. And to me,
• 1:01:52
  you're not evolving, You're staying stuck. You're staying in the big, huge
• 1:01:57
  mud pool and not one to do anything different. So you just got to
• 1:02:02
  decide where where are you? Where are you finding yourself? Are you getting
• 1:02:07
  defensive and feeling victimized every corner you turn, or are you like, oh,
• 1:02:15
  there's more information for me to digest and then be and do better because
• 1:02:22
  of it. It's really just a choice. When we say it's almost every
• 1:02:25
  week, it's just a choice. So what we do with the information.
• 1:02:29
  And you're the one programming your container, your your computer system, your brain,
• 1:02:36
  your body, your nervous system. So evolution is happening every single time
• 1:02:44
  you take a breath. Your body is going through an evolution, like every
• 1:02:49
  seven years. It actually reproduces new organs and new skin and know all this
• 1:02:53
  stuff. But then it's a matter of how are we maintaining it by our
• 1:03:00
  thoughts, our words, our emotions, what we're ingesting. So you get
• 1:03:07
  to choose, you know. I've been listening to Alan Watts, and a
• 1:03:13
  lot of people have heard of Alan Wats. She's got a whole bunch of
• 1:03:16
  I think his son's name is Mark Watts has put out a lot of his
• 1:03:21
  videos, his dad's videos, and they're awesome videos. They're awesome because it's
• 1:03:25
  like it we've talked about this kind of before, but like how we've kind
• 1:03:30
  of discounted creativity and and and our day dreaming and stuff like that, because
• 1:03:36
  that's our creating. But if we recognize a lot of times I'll catch myself
• 1:03:42
  in a conversation that's maybe kind of heavy and dark at that time, and
• 1:03:46
  until I tuned into it, would I wouldn't have recognized it because I might
• 1:03:51
  feel like I'm I feel like I was in a great mood, but you
• 1:03:53
  know, but if I was really listening, I would see that there was
• 1:03:55
  something underlying there that was there. There was a conversation that was happening.
• 1:03:59
  And he talks about like really going into that space and like thinking in the
• 1:04:02
  in the and I say that space like going into your creative space. Go
• 1:04:06
  into that space and start creating from that space every single day, not the
• 1:04:12
  story that you've experienced already, because we know that we've we've we've created that
• 1:04:15
  experience, so that experience showed up for us, and we can say in
• 1:04:18
  that loop of that whole experience, or we can start creating right now.
• 1:04:23
  What does your world look like to you? What do you want it to
• 1:04:26
  look like? How does it feel to you? Are you walking up to
• 1:04:28
  your house and picking off a piece of the house and eating it? Like
• 1:04:30
  seriously, I want you to go that kind of crazy with it, because
• 1:04:33
  that's how we actually create things, That's how we change our experiences and it's
• 1:04:39
  been it's actually been very enlightening. One of the things that he said is
• 1:04:45
  something along the lines we want we want the children that come into the world
• 1:04:47
  to spontaneously just do exactly what we think they should do while they're here,
• 1:04:53
  so that they're they're not burdensome or distracting or any of these things. Even
• 1:04:58
  though when they're distracting, they're trying to distract you from the mood or the
• 1:05:01
  place that you're in right now, it's an opportunity and they're displaying to you
• 1:05:06
  maybe this is how you're feeling on the inside right now, but you're not
• 1:05:10
  able to give words to it right now, but you can have an understanding
• 1:05:13
  with what's being shown to you and be like, oh, he's not misbehaving
• 1:05:17
  or she's not throwing a temper tantrum. I feel this way inside. It's
• 1:05:21
  a great opportunity for me to go take a break and sit with this for
• 1:05:25
  a while, or just to go breathe for a few minutes and then come
• 1:05:28
  back to this and not be in that same space. But it's just I
• 1:05:31
  want people to kind of be in a space of really recognizing their creativity,
• 1:05:35
  really recognizing what do you want to what do you want to create? It's
• 1:05:40
  really whatever you want to create, It's whatever showing up in your experience that
• 1:05:43
  you've been giving your attention to. If I've been giving my attention and a
• 1:05:45
  gratitude, I'm not going to be having anger facing me all day long.
• 1:05:48
  I'm going to have gratitude because that's what I'm tuned into. And that's the
• 1:05:53
  thing. What are you tuned into? And then are you even tuned into
• 1:05:57
  yourself? Because like I said, there's times where I don't even recognize that
• 1:06:00
  I've gone down that path already until I start I tune into myself and I'm
• 1:06:03
  like, wait a minute, where is this coming from. I thought these
• 1:06:08
  monkeys had left already. I did, because it's still in town, right,
• 1:06:14
  So you just embraced them, and for me, I just embrace them.
• 1:06:16
  I just give them love because that's another another way of looking at my
• 1:06:20
  inner child, meeting that attention and constantly, you know, chidening in what
• 1:06:26
  exactly they're here, but also recognizing again, we're a result of the energies
• 1:06:30
  that we came in from. We're so much bigger than that. But when
• 1:06:33
  we came into the human experience, we took on a lot of their roles
• 1:06:38
  and that's what brought into us. So if I'm having this self talk without
• 1:06:41
  I haven't. I haven't talked to my biological fathers, so I don't know.
• 1:06:44
  And I haven't talked to my mom about this stuff because she transitions before
• 1:06:46
  I was in this space. But these are questions that I would be talking
• 1:06:49
  about. I would be asking about how they felt. Do you feel like
• 1:06:51
  you're a lot like a lot of mind chattering, you know, going on?
• 1:06:55
  Do you have a negative self talking? It would just be interesting because
• 1:06:59
  I kind of trace it back and recognize I love you and I forgive you,
• 1:07:02
  but I also forget myself because I didn't have to take it on,
• 1:07:04
  but I did. It wasn't I didn't have to take on that role because
• 1:07:09
  we still had us, Like you said, when we came in, we
• 1:07:12
  still had us and we had them too, But somehow we got trained into
• 1:07:15
  focusing on them and we forgot about this, which brings me to the to
• 1:07:21
  the next thing. Something that happened to me last week after after I think
• 1:07:25
  it was Saturday or Sunday. What came forward was I choose me. I
• 1:07:31
  choose me over upset clients if they decide they're unhappy because I'm no longer doing
• 1:07:36
  it. I choose me over my grandchildren. I love my grandchildren. I
• 1:07:41
  would totally take a bullet for them. I would do whatever I had to
• 1:07:44
  do to protect them. But I got to choose me. If I'm not
• 1:07:47
  choosing me, then I'm then I'm then I'm you know, I'm my parents,
• 1:07:53
  I'm my my environment, I'm I'm not me at all. I'm choosing
• 1:07:57
  everybody else's opinions. If I make a decision, like I really feel like
• 1:08:00
  this is the path I'm going on. Does it mean I'm going to be
• 1:08:03
  a psychic medium? Not necessarily. Does it mean that I'm tapping in,
• 1:08:08
  tuning in and tapping into that collective consciousness, to the spirit realm, to
• 1:08:13
  my guides, to the angels, to God, Oh you're muted? Ever
• 1:08:19
  comes forward, it dettert. All those things are fine. It's all part
• 1:08:25
  of the program, and it's all part of me learning to what do I
• 1:08:29
  want to keep around and what don't I want to keep around? And I
• 1:08:31
  like the way that I'm going now. I like that I'm more open.
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  I'm not I'm not holding on to one thing saying this is it I'm I'm
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  realizing this is part of my training. This is part of the training.
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  Where does it go from here? We'll find out. That's the same for
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  everybody. I want to have an expectation for it, but I do know
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  that there's something else going on, and how am I going to get there?
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  I gotta choose myself because if I'm putting it, if I'm I have
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  been running around like a freaking chicken, and my efforts wouldn't come out.
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  When I'm like this is that it represents the energy. So for me,
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  it's like more tools right, running around like crazy, trying to make sure
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  I have enough time to see my grandkids, running around, to make sure
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  I have time to see my clients running around. I'm in running from a
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  time I leave the house like hurry, I'm in. There's a hurry going
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  on the whole time to get everything accomplished in one day. And at the
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  bottom of that list, where's me. So that's one thing I've recognized recently
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  and I'm working on that because what does that mean entirely? I don't know
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  for sure yet, Like how do I live that entirely? I don't know
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  for sure yet, But I just know that when that thought popped into my
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  head that I had to choose me, things started changing. I felt an
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  emotional response, and it was it's not like a sad, like depressed feeling,
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  because I would my eyes would start watering. And even when I was
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  listening to this first video, when I was listening to that first video,
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  at the goosebumps my eyes like we're streaming, they're streaming. I'm like,
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  like, what the hell is going on here? But I also know from
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  what I've learned that this is this another way of your soul comes through you.
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  And it's like, yes, this is where, this is where it's
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  going to bring you, that that soul, that that feeling of just being
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  in bliss, that's that feeling of I'm not alone and there's everything is possible
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  and I'm so limitless. Like that's where that space is that and those reactions
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  are aren't depressing or sad there, it's just like, oh, yes,
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  you, we love you so much, we see you. You're you're looking
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  at how far you've come. Look what you're doing right now. That's what
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  I what it's about. It's like, yes, this is they want you
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  to know. This is where it feels good. So you know, to
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  come back to the same place again so that you can keep continue growing,
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  so you can continue coming to the fountain of youth and continue partaking from that,
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  and but having gratitude with it, having love and expect not expectation,
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  like a child that's always wanting. Okay, well I got a pencil.
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  Okay, how about a pair of glasses? Oh, I want that crystal
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  over there too. You know what I mean. It's like it's you want
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  want, because every time you get one thing, you want the next thing.
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  And then now it's not that way now it's more of an even flow.
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  It just it is. It's not I don't spend all my time of
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  all these things that I want, but I do, in my creativity have
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  an idea where I would like to see things go, and it's like I
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  make it bigger and bigger every single time. It's like ridiculous. It's not.
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  If I was sustained a three D it would be unachievable. But from
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  the three D world it would be unachievable. But from an open, limitless
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  mindset connected to collective consciousness and all that is, it's limitless. It's whatever
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  you wanted to be. It can be whatever I want it to be,
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  all the way down to you know, the universe, Jim whatever, showing
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  me a huge butterfly that was like traced out in the sky and colored in
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  just like as if it was on an etch a sketch. Huge, huge,
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  So it's this is my experience, These are my confirmations. What resonates
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  with me. And all I'm trying to do is give you permission to step
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  on that path. Not you particularly, because you're already doing it, and
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  everybody else is if they're listening to this, you're already doing it. You're
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  already on that path. It's just more tools, it's more possibilities, it's
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  limitless. There you have it. I said, get on the path,
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  Get on it, Get on it, and stay on it. All right,
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  friends, there's a lot we unpacked in this little over an hour,
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  and so take what resonates, Take what feels good, implement, make the
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  changes, change the mindset, give attention to yourself mentally, emotionally, physically,
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  and spiritually. It's the whole package. And start tuning in, tuning
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  into that divine guidance that is readily available to you, and build this confidence
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  in listening to those messages. As they come through. Any final words make
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  a badgetable week following your inituation. You can car, I can carry.
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  I love it all right friends, We'll see you next week. Fine,