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E 236: Recovering from Trauma Through Bodywork, Movement & Connection w/Blanca Rodriquez · Adult Child of Dysfunction

• 0:45
  Yeah.
• 0:47
  Well,
• 0:47
  hello
• 0:47
  everybody
• 0:48
  and
• 0:48
  welcome
• 0:48
  to
• 0:48
  another
• 0:49
  episode
• 0:49
  of
• 0:49
  Blanc
• 0:50
  of
• 0:50
  of
• 0:51
  Adult
• 0:51
  Child
• 0:51
  of
• 0:52
  Dysfunction.
• 0:52
  Today
• 0:52
  we
• 0:53
  have
• 0:53
  with
• 0:53
  us
• 0:53
  Blanca
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  Rodriguez.
• 0:55
  She
• 0:55
  is
• 0:55
  with
• 0:56
  us
• 0:56
  from
• 0:56
  sunny
• 0:56
  Florida
• 0:57
  as
• 0:57
  well.
• 0:57
  Are
• 0:57
  you
• 0:57
  in
• 0:58
  Florida
• 0:58
  right
• 0:58
  now,
• 0:58
  Blanca?
• 0:59
  Yes,
• 0:59
  yes,
• 1:00
  I
• 1:00
  am.
• 1:00
  Perfect.
• 1:01
  And
• 1:01
  she's
• 1:02
  the
• 1:02
  CEO
• 1:02
  of
• 1:03
  Wounded
• 1:03
  Healer
• 1:04
  llc.
• 1:04
  She's
• 1:05
  an
• 1:05
  accomplished
• 1:06
  speaker,
• 1:06
  storyteller,
• 1:07
  educator,
• 1:07
  a
• 1:08
  canine
• 1:08
  massage
• 1:09
  therapist
• 1:10
  and
• 1:10
  bestselling
• 1:10
  book
• 1:11
  co
• 1:11
  author.
• 1:12
  Blanca
• 1:12
  has
• 1:12
  dedicated
• 1:13
  her
• 1:13
  career
• 1:13
  to
• 1:13
  helping
• 1:14
  individuals
• 1:14
  understand
• 1:15
  the
• 1:15
  long
• 1:15
  term
• 1:16
  effects
• 1:16
  of
• 1:16
  untreated
• 1:17
  childhood
• 1:18
  trauma
• 1:18
  and
• 1:18
  how
• 1:19
  music,
• 1:19
  laughter
• 1:20
  and
• 1:20
  dance
• 1:20
  can
• 1:21
  provide
• 1:21
  a
• 1:21
  creative
• 1:22
  outlet
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  for
• 1:22
  healing
• 1:22
  and
• 1:23
  transformation.
• 1:24
  Blanca's
• 1:24
  contribution
• 1:25
  to
• 1:25
  the
• 1:25
  personal
• 1:25
  growth
• 1:26
  world
• 1:26
  has
• 1:26
  helped
• 1:26
  individuals
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  improve
• 1:27
  her
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  quality
• 1:28
  of
• 1:28
  life
• 1:29
  by
• 1:29
  helping
• 1:29
  them
• 1:29
  understand
• 1:30
  that
• 1:30
  life
• 1:30
  does
• 1:31
  not
• 1:31
  get
• 1:31
  better
• 1:31
  by
• 1:31
  chance.
• 1:32
  It
• 1:32
  gets
• 1:32
  better
• 1:33
  by
• 1:33
  change.
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  Is
• 1:34
  that
• 1:34
  your
• 1:34
  tagline?
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  Because
• 1:35
  I
• 1:35
  love
• 1:35
  that.
• 1:36
  Oh,
• 1:37
  yes,
• 1:38
  it
• 1:38
  is.
• 1:38
  Thank
• 1:39
  you.
• 1:39
  Thank
• 1:39
  you.
• 1:40
  I
• 1:41
  was
• 1:41
  gonna
• 1:41
  say
• 1:41
  because
• 1:41
  I
• 1:41
  know
• 1:41
  I
• 1:42
  hear
• 1:42
  a
• 1:42
  lot
• 1:42
  of
• 1:42
  them,
• 1:42
  but
• 1:42
  that
• 1:43
  definitely,
• 1:43
  like,
• 1:44
  I'm
• 1:44
  always
• 1:44
  like,
• 1:45
  you
• 1:45
  know,
• 1:45
  it's
• 1:45
  choice.
• 1:46
  You
• 1:46
  have
• 1:46
  to
• 1:46
  choose,
• 1:47
  you
• 1:47
  have
• 1:47
  to
• 1:47
  decide.
• 1:48
  But
• 1:48
  I
• 1:48
  like
• 1:48
  that
• 1:48
  it
• 1:48
  doesn't
• 1:49
  get
• 1:49
  better
• 1:49
  by
• 1:49
  chance,
• 1:50
  it
• 1:50
  gets
• 1:50
  better
• 1:50
  by
• 1:50
  change.
• 1:51
  And
• 1:51
  absolutely,
• 1:52
  I
• 1:53
  love
• 1:53
  it.
• 1:53
  And
• 1:53
  honestly,
• 1:54
  obviously
• 1:55
  change
• 1:55
  is
• 1:55
  what
• 1:55
  you
• 1:55
  help
• 1:56
  promote.
• 1:57
  So
• 1:58
  I'm
• 1:58
  going
• 1:58
  to
• 1:58
  jump
• 1:58
  right
• 1:59
  in
• 1:59
  because
• 1:59
  I
• 1:59
  want
• 1:59
  to
• 2:00
  ask
• 2:00
  you,
• 2:00
  how
• 2:00
  did
• 2:00
  you
• 2:01
  get
• 2:01
  into,
• 2:01
  or
• 2:02
  do
• 2:02
  you
• 2:02
  do
• 2:03
  on
• 2:03
  a
• 2:03
  regular
• 2:03
  basis,
• 2:04
  the
• 2:04
  canine
• 2:05
  massage
• 2:05
  therapy?
• 2:07
  Yes,
• 2:07
  I
• 2:08
  actually
• 2:08
  do.
• 2:09
  And
• 2:09
  this
• 2:10
  is
• 2:10
  very
• 2:10
  interesting
• 2:10
  and
• 2:11
  thank
• 2:11
  you
• 2:11
  for
• 2:12
  that
• 2:12
  question.
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  I've
• 2:14
  been
• 2:14
  a
• 2:14
  licensed
• 2:15
  massage
• 2:15
  therapist
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  for
• 2:16
  20
• 2:16
  years
• 2:17
  and
• 2:17
  as
• 2:18
  part
• 2:18
  of
• 2:19
  our
• 2:19
  licensing
• 2:20
  is
• 2:20
  our
• 2:20
  obligation
• 2:21
  to
• 2:22
  have
• 2:22
  continuing
• 2:22
  education
• 2:24
  courses
• 2:24
  every
• 2:24
  two
• 2:25
  years.
• 2:26
  I
• 2:26
  was
• 2:26
  looking
• 2:26
  for
• 2:27
  something
• 2:27
  more
• 2:28
  interesting
• 2:28
  to
• 2:28
  do.
• 2:28
  I've
• 2:29
  been
• 2:29
  doing
• 2:29
  this
• 2:29
  for
• 2:29
  20
• 2:30
  years
• 2:30
  already
• 2:31
  and
• 2:32
  I
• 2:32
  always.
• 2:32
  I'm
• 2:33
  an
• 2:33
  animal
• 2:33
  lover
• 2:34
  at
• 2:34
  heart.
• 2:34
  I
• 2:35
  grew
• 2:35
  up
• 2:35
  around
• 2:35
  animals.
• 2:36
  I've
• 2:37
  been.
• 2:37
  Dogs
• 2:38
  are
• 2:38
  my
• 2:38
  thing.
• 2:38
  Definitely
• 2:39
  I
• 2:40
  was
• 2:40
  looking
• 2:40
  for
• 2:41
  something
• 2:41
  new
• 2:41
  to
• 2:41
  do
• 2:41
  and
• 2:42
  there
• 2:42
  it
• 2:42
  was.
• 2:43
  Equine
• 2:44
  massage
• 2:45
  therapy.
• 2:45
  I'm
• 2:46
  like,
• 2:46
  well,
• 2:46
  I
• 2:46
  love
• 2:47
  horses,
• 2:48
  but
• 2:48
  horses
• 2:49
  are
• 2:49
  big,
• 2:50
  intimidating
• 2:51
  and
• 2:51
  their
• 2:51
  muscle
• 2:52
  mass
• 2:52
  is
• 2:52
  gigantic.
• 2:54
  So
• 2:54
  I
• 2:55
  saw
• 2:55
  in
• 2:56
  a
• 2:56
  random
• 2:57
  magazine
• 2:58
  it
• 2:58
  was
• 2:58
  a
• 2:58
  blessing.
• 2:59
  Canine
• 3:00
  massage
• 3:00
  therapy
• 3:01
  courses
• 3:01
  in
• 3:01
  Sarasota,
• 3:02
  Florida.
• 3:03
  And
• 3:03
  there
• 3:03
  I
• 3:04
  went.
• 3:04
  I've
• 3:05
  had,
• 3:05
  and
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  haven't
• 3:06
  stopped
• 3:07
  since
• 3:07
  then,
• 3:07
  10
• 3:08
  years
• 3:08
  of
• 3:08
  being
• 3:08
  a
• 3:09
  canine
• 3:09
  massage
• 3:10
  therapist.
• 3:11
  Canine
• 3:11
  massage
• 3:12
  therapist
• 3:12
  is
• 3:12
  a
• 3:12
  powerful
• 3:13
  practice
• 3:13
  that
• 3:14
  has
• 3:14
  been
• 3:14
  around
• 3:15
  since,
• 3:15
  since
• 3:15
  2700
• 3:16
  B.C.
• 3:17
  actually.
• 3:18
  But
• 3:18
  here
• 3:19
  in
• 3:19
  the
• 3:19
  Americas
• 3:20
  is
• 3:20
  a
• 3:20
  pretty
• 3:21
  young
• 3:21
  practice.
• 3:22
  People
• 3:22
  didn't
• 3:23
  really
• 3:23
  know
• 3:23
  about
• 3:24
  it
• 3:24
  until
• 3:24
  the
• 3:24
  1970s
• 3:26
  that
• 3:26
  it
• 3:26
  was
• 3:27
  introduced
• 3:27
  as
• 3:28
  equine
• 3:29
  massage
• 3:29
  therapy
• 3:30
  and
• 3:30
  then
• 3:31
  canine
• 3:31
  massage
• 3:32
  therapy.
• 3:33
  And
• 3:33
  the
• 3:33
  akc,
• 3:34
  or
• 3:34
  American
• 3:35
  Kennel
• 3:35
  Club,
• 3:35
  approve
• 3:36
  of
• 3:37
  the
• 3:37
  practices
• 3:37
  of
• 3:38
  massage
• 3:38
  therapy
• 3:38
  for
• 3:39
  better
• 3:39
  quality
• 3:40
  of
• 3:40
  life
• 3:40
  of
• 3:41
  our
• 3:41
  beloved
• 3:42
  dogs.
• 3:43
  So
• 3:43
  that's
• 3:44
  exactly
• 3:44
  what
• 3:44
  I
• 3:44
  do.
• 3:45
  As
• 3:45
  much
• 3:46
  as
• 3:46
  massage
• 3:47
  therapy
• 3:47
  is
• 3:47
  highly
• 3:48
  beneficial
• 3:49
  for
• 3:49
  us
• 3:49
  humans,
• 3:50
  it
• 3:50
  is
• 3:50
  equally
• 3:51
  beneficial
• 3:52
  for
• 3:52
  dogs
• 3:52
  because
• 3:52
  we
• 3:53
  both
• 3:53
  are
• 3:54
  mammals.
• 3:55
  We
• 3:55
  have
• 3:56
  nerves,
• 3:57
  arteries,
• 3:58
  body
• 3:58
  systems,
• 3:59
  muscle
• 4:00
  emotion.
• 4:02
  So,
• 4:02
  yes,
• 4:02
  that
• 4:03
  is
• 4:03
  definitely
• 4:04
  one
• 4:04
  of
• 4:04
  my
• 4:04
  biggest
• 4:05
  passions
• 4:06
  is
• 4:06
  canine
• 4:07
  massage
• 4:07
  therapy.
• 4:08
  No
• 4:08
  doubt.
• 4:08
  Well,
• 4:08
  it,
• 4:09
  it's
• 4:09
  funny
• 4:09
  you
• 4:09
  say
• 4:09
  that
• 4:10
  because
• 4:10
  I
• 4:10
  have
• 4:10
  a
• 4:10
  little
• 4:10
  pug
• 4:11
  and
• 4:11
  I
• 4:12
  always
• 4:12
  say,
• 4:12
  like,
• 4:13
  that
• 4:13
  is
• 4:13
  her
• 4:14
  happy
• 4:14
  place
• 4:14
  when
• 4:14
  she's
• 4:15
  sprawled
• 4:15
  on
• 4:15
  her
• 4:15
  back
• 4:16
  with
• 4:16
  her
• 4:16
  legs
• 4:16
  out
• 4:16
  and
• 4:17
  I'm
• 4:17
  rubbing,
• 4:18
  like
• 4:18
  massaging,
• 4:19
  like
• 4:19
  deep
• 4:19
  in,
• 4:19
  you
• 4:20
  know,
• 4:20
  those
• 4:20
  little,
• 4:20
  what
• 4:21
  I
• 4:21
  call
• 4:21
  her
• 4:21
  chicken
• 4:21
  legs.
• 4:25
  And
• 4:25
  I'm
• 4:26
  like,
• 4:26
  dog.
• 4:26
  And
• 4:26
  I
• 4:26
  always
• 4:27
  said
• 4:27
  dogs
• 4:27
  need
• 4:27
  massages
• 4:28
  too.
• 4:28
  It's
• 4:28
  not.
• 4:30
  Oh,
• 4:31
  that's
• 4:31
  great.
• 4:32
  So
• 4:32
  is
• 4:32
  that
• 4:33
  your
• 4:33
  business?
• 4:33
  Like
• 4:33
  your
• 4:34
  main
• 4:34
  business?
• 4:35
  Part
• 4:35
  of
• 4:35
  my
• 4:36
  business
• 4:36
  is
• 4:36
  canine
• 4:36
  massage
• 4:37
  therapy.
• 4:37
  Yes.
• 4:38
  And
• 4:38
  I
• 4:38
  do
• 4:38
  human
• 4:39
  massage
• 4:39
  therapy
• 4:40
  as
• 4:40
  well.
• 4:40
  Yeah.
• 4:40
  Okay,
• 4:41
  perfect.
• 4:42
  And
• 4:42
  you
• 4:42
  do
• 4:42
  that.
• 4:42
  I
• 4:43
  mean,
• 4:43
  massage
• 4:44
  is
• 4:45
  so
• 4:46
  beneficial.
• 4:46
  And
• 4:47
  a
• 4:47
  lot
• 4:47
  of
• 4:47
  people,
• 4:47
  I
• 4:47
  mean,
• 4:47
  you
• 4:47
  treat
• 4:48
  trauma
• 4:49
  and
• 4:50
  it
• 4:51
  just
• 4:51
  goes
• 4:51
  to
• 4:51
  reason,
• 4:51
  and
• 4:52
  we
• 4:52
  talk
• 4:52
  so
• 4:52
  much
• 4:53
  on
• 4:53
  this
• 4:53
  podcast
• 4:53
  about
• 4:54
  the
• 4:54
  fact
• 4:54
  that
• 4:55
  the
• 4:55
  trauma
• 4:55
  is
• 4:55
  not
• 4:56
  stored
• 4:56
  in
• 4:56
  your
• 4:56
  mind,
• 4:57
  it's
• 4:57
  stored
• 4:58
  completely
• 4:58
  in
• 4:59
  your
• 4:59
  body.
• 4:59
  I
• 4:59
  mean,
• 5:00
  it's
• 5:00
  in
• 5:00
  your
• 5:00
  mind
• 5:00
  too,
• 5:00
  but
• 5:01
  it's
• 5:01
  in
• 5:01
  your
• 5:01
  body.
• 5:02
  And
• 5:02
  until
• 5:02
  you
• 5:03
  get
• 5:03
  that
• 5:03
  out,
• 5:04
  you.
• 5:05
  So
• 5:05
  talk
• 5:05
  a
• 5:05
  little
• 5:05
  bit
• 5:06
  about
• 5:06
  that.
• 5:07
  Yes,
• 5:07
  absolutely.
• 5:08
  Thank
• 5:08
  you
• 5:08
  for
• 5:08
  that.
• 5:09
  Yes.
• 5:10
  I've
• 5:10
  been
• 5:11
  medical
• 5:12
  massage
• 5:12
  therapist
• 5:13
  for
• 5:14
  20
• 5:14
  years.
• 5:15
  This
• 5:15
  has
• 5:15
  been
• 5:16
  my
• 5:16
  scope
• 5:16
  of
• 5:16
  practice
• 5:17
  ever
• 5:17
  since
• 5:18
  I
• 5:18
  got
• 5:19
  license.
• 5:20
  I
• 5:21
  have
• 5:21
  worked
• 5:22
  in
• 5:22
  many
• 5:23
  environments,
• 5:24
  but
• 5:24
  one
• 5:24
  of
• 5:24
  the
• 5:25
  most
• 5:25
  powerful
• 5:25
  environments
• 5:26
  that
• 5:26
  I
• 5:26
  worked
• 5:27
  at
• 5:27
  was
• 5:27
  at
• 5:28
  rehab
• 5:28
  centers
• 5:28
  for
• 5:29
  drug
• 5:29
  abuse
• 5:29
  and
• 5:29
  alcohol
• 5:30
  abuse.
• 5:30
  I
• 5:31
  work
• 5:31
  at
• 5:31
  two
• 5:32
  of
• 5:32
  these
• 5:33
  powerful
• 5:34
  facilities.
• 5:35
  And
• 5:36
  the
• 5:37
  most
• 5:37
  important
• 5:38
  part
• 5:39
  of
• 5:39
  this
• 5:39
  is
• 5:39
  that
• 5:40
  in
• 5:40
  these
• 5:41
  places,
• 5:42
  people
• 5:42
  have
• 5:43
  nothing
• 5:44
  to
• 5:44
  lose
• 5:44
  because
• 5:44
  they
• 5:45
  lost
• 5:45
  it
• 5:46
  all.
• 5:47
  And
• 5:48
  the
• 5:48
  one,
• 5:49
  the
• 5:49
  place
• 5:50
  where,
• 5:50
  I
• 5:51
  mean,
• 5:51
  that
• 5:51
  is
• 5:51
  filled
• 5:52
  for.
• 5:52
  With
• 5:52
  strangers,
• 5:53
  where
• 5:53
  I
• 5:55
  experience
• 5:56
  more
• 5:56
  brutal
• 5:57
  honesty
• 5:57
  than
• 5:57
  anywhere
• 5:58
  else
• 5:58
  in
• 5:58
  my
• 5:59
  life
• 6:00
  was
• 6:00
  in
• 6:00
  these
• 6:00
  centers.
• 6:01
  And
• 6:02
  most
• 6:02
  of
• 6:03
  the
• 6:03
  time,
• 6:03
  I
• 6:03
  could
• 6:03
  say
• 6:04
  like
• 6:04
  98%
• 6:06
  of
• 6:06
  the
• 6:06
  time
• 6:07
  that
• 6:08
  people
• 6:09
  get
• 6:09
  numbed
• 6:10
  by
• 6:10
  drugs,
• 6:11
  alcohol
• 6:11
  abuse,
• 6:12
  whatever
• 6:12
  the
• 6:12
  case
• 6:13
  may
• 6:13
  be,
• 6:13
  whatever
• 6:13
  the
• 6:14
  addiction
• 6:14
  may
• 6:14
  be,
• 6:15
  the
• 6:15
  root
• 6:16
  cause
• 6:16
  of
• 6:16
  it
• 6:17
  is
• 6:17
  childhood
• 6:19
  trauma.
• 6:19
  There's
• 6:20
  no
• 6:21
  doubt
• 6:21
  about
• 6:22
  that.
• 6:22
  I
• 6:22
  come
• 6:23
  from
• 6:23
  childhood
• 6:23
  trauma.
• 6:24
  And
• 6:24
  all
• 6:25
  I
• 6:25
  needed
• 6:25
  to
• 6:25
  do
• 6:25
  is
• 6:26
  say,
• 6:26
  how
• 6:26
  are
• 6:26
  you
• 6:27
  feeling
• 6:27
  today?
• 6:28
  And
• 6:28
  the
• 6:29
  box
• 6:29
  will
• 6:29
  open.
• 6:30
  And
• 6:30
  definitely,
• 6:31
  if
• 6:32
  there
• 6:32
  is
• 6:32
  something
• 6:32
  that
• 6:33
  all
• 6:33
  patients
• 6:34
  that
• 6:34
  I
• 6:36
  took
• 6:36
  care
• 6:36
  of
• 6:36
  in
• 6:36
  these
• 6:37
  years,
• 6:38
  it
• 6:39
  was
• 6:39
  this.
• 6:40
  They
• 6:40
  felt
• 6:41
  better
• 6:42
  with
• 6:42
  a
• 6:43
  seven
• 6:43
  minute
• 6:44
  massage
• 6:45
  than
• 6:45
  they
• 6:46
  felt
• 6:46
  in
• 6:46
  a
• 6:47
  full
• 6:47
  session
• 6:47
  of
• 6:48
  psychotherapy.
• 6:49
  Yeah.
• 6:50
  And
• 6:50
  they
• 6:50
  failed
• 6:51
  with
• 6:51
  having
• 6:52
  pills
• 6:52
  to
• 6:52
  numb
• 6:53
  their
• 6:53
  pain
• 6:54
  because
• 6:54
  that's
• 6:55
  a
• 6:55
  big
• 6:55
  problem
• 6:56
  with
• 6:56
  recovery
• 6:57
  centers
• 6:57
  here
• 6:58
  in
• 6:58
  the
• 6:58
  state
• 6:58
  of
• 6:58
  Florida,
• 6:59
  is
• 6:59
  that
• 6:59
  they
• 7:00
  substitute
• 7:02
  an
• 7:02
  addiction
• 7:03
  with
• 7:03
  another
• 7:03
  addiction.
• 7:04
  Right.
• 7:04
  They
• 7:05
  numb
• 7:05
  people
• 7:05
  with
• 7:06
  pills
• 7:07
  so
• 7:07
  they
• 7:07
  can
• 7:07
  supposedly
• 7:08
  recover.
• 7:09
  To
• 7:09
  me,
• 7:10
  that
• 7:10
  is
• 7:10
  not
• 7:11
  the
• 7:11
  answer.
• 7:11
  That
• 7:12
  is
• 7:12
  not
• 7:12
  the
• 7:12
  road.
• 7:13
  They
• 7:13
  have
• 7:13
  feel.
• 7:14
  And
• 7:14
  I
• 7:14
  can
• 7:14
  confirm
• 7:15
  this
• 7:15
  because
• 7:16
  I
• 7:16
  took
• 7:16
  care
• 7:16
  of
• 7:17
  three,
• 7:17
  over
• 7:18
  3,000
• 7:19
  people
• 7:20
  in
• 7:20
  one
• 7:20
  year.
• 7:21
  And
• 7:22
  what
• 7:22
  they
• 7:22
  will,
• 7:22
  almost
• 7:23
  all
• 7:23
  of
• 7:23
  them
• 7:23
  will
• 7:23
  say
• 7:24
  is
• 7:24
  like
• 7:24
  a
• 7:24
  massage
• 7:25
  did
• 7:25
  much
• 7:25
  better
• 7:26
  than
• 7:26
  me,
• 7:26
  than
• 7:26
  the
• 7:26
  damn
• 7:27
  pill.
• 7:28
  And
• 7:28
  definitely
• 7:30
  it
• 7:30
  was
• 7:30
  a
• 7:30
  great
• 7:30
  help
• 7:31
  to
• 7:31
  their
• 7:31
  recovery
• 7:32
  process.
• 7:33
  Yes,
• 7:33
  emotions
• 7:34
  are
• 7:34
  stored
• 7:35
  in
• 7:35
  the
• 7:35
  body.
• 7:36
  Stress
• 7:36
  levels
• 7:36
  that
• 7:37
  we
• 7:37
  have
• 7:37
  in
• 7:37
  our
• 7:37
  mind
• 7:38
  will
• 7:38
  reflect
• 7:39
  directly
• 7:40
  in
• 7:40
  our
• 7:40
  body
• 7:41
  in
• 7:41
  the
• 7:41
  weakest
• 7:42
  points
• 7:42
  that
• 7:42
  we
• 7:43
  have.
• 7:43
  For
• 7:43
  example,
• 7:44
  you
• 7:45
  have,
• 7:45
  have
• 7:45
  the
• 7:45
  tendency
• 7:46
  to
• 7:46
  have
• 7:46
  migraines.
• 7:47
  You
• 7:47
  get
• 7:47
  stressed
• 7:48
  out,
• 7:48
  guess
• 7:48
  what's
• 7:48
  going
• 7:49
  to
• 7:49
  happen.
• 7:49
  A
• 7:49
  migraine
• 7:50
  will
• 7:50
  follow.
• 7:51
  And
• 7:51
  like
• 7:51
  this,
• 7:52
  so
• 7:52
  many
• 7:53
  other
• 7:53
  parts
• 7:54
  of
• 7:54
  our
• 7:54
  bodies
• 7:54
  that
• 7:55
  yes,
• 7:55
  the
• 7:56
  body
• 7:56
  keeps
• 7:56
  a
• 7:56
  score
• 7:57
  and
• 7:58
  we
• 7:58
  may
• 7:58
  have
• 7:59
  some
• 7:59
  kind
• 7:59
  of
• 7:59
  trauma
• 8:00
  when
• 8:00
  we
• 8:00
  were
• 8:01
  even
• 8:01
  babies.
• 8:02
  And
• 8:02
  your
• 8:03
  body
• 8:03
  will
• 8:03
  remember
• 8:04
  for
• 8:05
  the
• 8:05
  rest
• 8:05
  of
• 8:05
  your
• 8:06
  life.
• 8:06
  Now
• 8:07
  how
• 8:07
  are
• 8:07
  we
• 8:07
  going
• 8:08
  to
• 8:08
  address
• 8:09
  these
• 8:10
  challenges?
• 8:11
  That's
• 8:11
  another
• 8:11
  story.
• 8:12
  And
• 8:12
  massage
• 8:12
  therapy
• 8:13
  is
• 8:13
  a
• 8:13
  beautiful,
• 8:14
  powerful
• 8:14
  way
• 8:15
  to
• 8:15
  address
• 8:17
  being
• 8:17
  in
• 8:17
  touch
• 8:18
  with
• 8:18
  our
• 8:18
  bodies,
• 8:19
  recognizing
• 8:20
  that
• 8:20
  our
• 8:20
  bodies
• 8:21
  deserve
• 8:22
  to
• 8:23
  feel
• 8:23
  better,
• 8:24
  to
• 8:24
  heal
• 8:24
  in
• 8:25
  some
• 8:25
  other
• 8:25
  way
• 8:26
  versus
• 8:28
  regard,
• 8:28
  I
• 8:28
  mean,
• 8:29
  besides
• 8:31
  a
• 8:31
  medication.
• 8:32
  Because
• 8:32
  medication
• 8:33
  is
• 8:33
  a
• 8:33
  temporary
• 8:35
  fix
• 8:35
  for
• 8:36
  a
• 8:36
  permanent
• 8:38
  issue.
• 8:38
  And
• 8:39
  definitely
• 8:40
  we
• 8:40
  got
• 8:41
  to
• 8:41
  be
• 8:41
  very,
• 8:41
  very
• 8:41
  aware
• 8:42
  and
• 8:42
  create
• 8:43
  that
• 8:43
  mindfulness
• 8:45
  about
• 8:45
  how
• 8:46
  are
• 8:46
  we
• 8:46
  going
• 8:46
  to.
• 8:46
  What
• 8:47
  is
• 8:47
  going
• 8:47
  to
• 8:48
  work
• 8:48
  better
• 8:49
  for
• 8:49
  me?
• 8:49
  Is
• 8:50
  it
• 8:50
  going
• 8:50
  to
• 8:50
  be
• 8:51
  taken
• 8:51
  on
• 8:51
  a
• 8:51
  leave
• 8:52
  because
• 8:52
  I
• 8:52
  have
• 8:53
  a
• 8:53
  headache
• 8:53
  or
• 8:54
  is
• 8:54
  it
• 8:54
  going
• 8:55
  to
• 8:55
  be,
• 8:55
  let
• 8:55
  me
• 8:55
  book
• 8:55
  a
• 8:56
  massage
• 8:56
  with
• 8:56
  this
• 8:57
  person
• 8:57
  because
• 8:58
  my
• 8:58
  full
• 8:58
  upper
• 8:59
  back
• 8:59
  is
• 8:59
  hurting
• 9:00
  and
• 9:02
  when
• 9:03
  the
• 9:03
  leaf
• 9:03
  is,
• 9:03
  the
• 9:03
  effect
• 9:04
  is
• 9:04
  gone,
• 9:04
  then
• 9:05
  the
• 9:05
  pain
• 9:05
  will
• 9:06
  come
• 9:06
  straight,
• 9:06
  right,
• 9:06
  right
• 9:07
  back.
• 9:07
  So,
• 9:07
  and,
• 9:08
  and
• 9:08
  not
• 9:08
  only
• 9:09
  that,
• 9:09
  but
• 9:09
  like
• 9:09
  you
• 9:10
  said,
• 9:10
  if
• 9:10
  you
• 9:10
  go
• 9:10
  into
• 9:10
  a
• 9:11
  recovery
• 9:11
  center,
• 9:12
  I
• 9:12
  mean,
• 9:12
  these
• 9:12
  people
• 9:13
  are
• 9:14
  stuck
• 9:15
  and
• 9:15
  trying
• 9:15
  to
• 9:16
  break
• 9:16
  the
• 9:16
  habit
• 9:17
  of
• 9:17
  turning
• 9:17
  to
• 9:18
  something
• 9:18
  external
• 9:19
  when
• 9:19
  things
• 9:20
  are
• 9:20
  not
• 9:20
  going
• 9:20
  as
• 9:21
  well
• 9:21
  or
• 9:21
  when
• 9:21
  they
• 9:21
  can't,
• 9:22
  when
• 9:22
  they
• 9:22
  can't
• 9:22
  cope.
• 9:23
  You
• 9:23
  know,
• 9:23
  it's
• 9:23
  very
• 9:23
  easy.
• 9:24
  We
• 9:24
  want,
• 9:24
  we're,
• 9:25
  we're
• 9:25
  a
• 9:25
  quick
• 9:25
  fix
• 9:26
  kind
• 9:26
  of
• 9:26
  nation.
• 9:27
  We
• 9:27
  wanted
• 9:27
  just
• 9:28
  a
• 9:28
  quick,
• 9:28
  quick
• 9:28
  fix.
• 9:29
  And
• 9:30
  sometimes,
• 9:31
  yeah,
• 9:31
  I
• 9:31
  mean,
• 9:31
  yes,
• 9:32
  that
• 9:32
  pill,
• 9:32
  I
• 9:32
  mean
• 9:32
  sometimes
• 9:33
  even
• 9:33
  just
• 9:33
  holding
• 9:34
  that
• 9:34
  pill
• 9:34
  and
• 9:35
  getting
• 9:35
  ready
• 9:35
  to
• 9:35
  hand
• 9:35
  it
• 9:36
  to
• 9:36
  someone
• 9:36
  has
• 9:36
  been
• 9:37
  shown
• 9:38
  to
• 9:38
  lower
• 9:38
  their
• 9:38
  cortisol
• 9:39
  levels.
• 9:39
  Like
• 9:39
  their
• 9:40
  stress
• 9:40
  like
• 9:41
  drops
• 9:41
  because
• 9:41
  they
• 9:41
  know
• 9:41
  they're
• 9:42
  going
• 9:42
  to
• 9:42
  get
• 9:42
  it.
• 9:42
  But
• 9:43
  what
• 9:43
  if
• 9:43
  we
• 9:43
  could
• 9:44
  take
• 9:44
  them
• 9:44
  outside
• 9:44
  and
• 9:45
  run
• 9:45
  them
• 9:45
  around
• 9:46
  or
• 9:46
  like
• 9:46
  you
• 9:46
  say,
• 9:46
  dance
• 9:47
  with
• 9:47
  them,
• 9:47
  play
• 9:47
  with
• 9:47
  them,
• 9:48
  distract
• 9:49
  them
• 9:49
  in
• 9:49
  another
• 9:49
  way
• 9:50
  and
• 9:51
  let
• 9:51
  them
• 9:51
  just
• 9:52
  get
• 9:52
  it
• 9:52
  out
• 9:52
  of
• 9:52
  their
• 9:53
  body.
• 9:53
  It
• 9:54
  was,
• 9:54
  I
• 9:54
  was
• 9:54
  talking
• 9:55
  to
• 9:55
  my
• 9:55
  husband
• 9:55
  the
• 9:55
  other
• 9:56
  day
• 9:56
  and
• 9:56
  we
• 9:56
  were,
• 9:56
  he
• 9:57
  said
• 9:57
  something
• 9:57
  about,
• 9:58
  I
• 9:58
  wish
• 9:58
  I
• 9:58
  could
• 9:58
  shake
• 9:58
  like
• 9:59
  a
• 9:59
  dog.
• 9:59
  And
• 9:59
  so
• 9:59
  we
• 10:00
  got
• 10:00
  in
• 10:00
  that
• 10:00
  conversation
• 10:01
  about
• 10:01
  how
• 10:01
  the
• 10:01
  dogs
• 10:02
  shake
• 10:02
  to
• 10:02
  reset
• 10:03
  nervous
• 10:03
  systems.
• 10:04
  I'm
• 10:04
  like,
• 10:05
  sometimes
• 10:05
  you
• 10:05
  need
• 10:05
  to,
• 10:06
  sometimes
• 10:06
  you
• 10:06
  just
• 10:06
  need
• 10:06
  to
• 10:06
  like,
• 10:07
  like
• 10:08
  shake
• 10:08
  it
• 10:08
  like
• 10:09
  crazy.
• 10:10
  That's
• 10:10
  right.
• 10:11
  You
• 10:11
  know,
• 10:12
  I
• 10:12
  mean,
• 10:12
  it's
• 10:12
  just
• 10:12
  so,
• 10:13
  so
• 10:13
  vitally
• 10:14
  important.
• 10:15
  So,
• 10:17
  so
• 10:17
  your,
• 10:18
  your
• 10:18
  work
• 10:19
  is
• 10:19
  the
• 10:19
  trauma.
• 10:20
  Do
• 10:20
  you
• 10:20
  still
• 10:20
  work
• 10:20
  in
• 10:21
  the
• 10:21
  recovery
• 10:21
  centers
• 10:22
  or
• 10:22
  no?
• 10:23
  No,
• 10:23
  I
• 10:23
  don't
• 10:23
  work
• 10:23
  in
• 10:24
  the
• 10:24
  recovery
• 10:24
  centers
• 10:25
  anymore,
• 10:26
  but
• 10:27
  I
• 10:27
  work
• 10:27
  in
• 10:27
  a
• 10:28
  wellness
• 10:28
  center.
• 10:29
  And
• 10:29
  this
• 10:29
  wellness
• 10:30
  center
• 10:30
  is
• 10:31
  more
• 10:31
  of
• 10:31
  a
• 10:31
  holistic
• 10:32
  approach
• 10:33
  to
• 10:34
  medicine.
• 10:34
  There
• 10:35
  is
• 10:35
  a
• 10:35
  nurse
• 10:35
  practitioner,
• 10:36
  there's
• 10:36
  a
• 10:36
  medical
• 10:36
  doctor,
• 10:37
  and
• 10:37
  then
• 10:37
  there
• 10:38
  is
• 10:39
  me,
• 10:39
  and
• 10:40
  then
• 10:40
  there
• 10:40
  is
• 10:40
  a
• 10:40
  nutritionist.
• 10:42
  Holistic
• 10:42
  life
• 10:42
  coaching.
• 10:43
  I
• 10:43
  do
• 10:43
  holistic
• 10:43
  life
• 10:43
  coaching
• 10:44
  too.
• 10:45
  Mental
• 10:45
  health
• 10:45
  counselor.
• 10:46
  It's
• 10:46
  a
• 10:47
  beautiful
• 10:47
  facility
• 10:48
  that
• 10:49
  offers
• 10:50
  whatever
• 10:50
  works
• 10:51
  for
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  in
• 10:51
  a
• 10:52
  holistic
• 10:52
  way.
• 10:53
  East
• 10:53
  meets
• 10:54
  West.
• 10:55
  If
• 10:55
  you
• 10:55
  need
• 10:56
  your
• 10:56
  medication
• 10:57
  for
• 10:58
  whatever
• 10:58
  the
• 10:58
  case
• 10:58
  may
• 10:59
  be,
• 10:59
  but
• 11:00
  you
• 11:00
  can
• 11:00
  have,
• 11:00
  have
• 11:01
  the
• 11:01
  help
• 11:02
  of
• 11:02
  a
• 11:02
  massage,
• 11:03
  of
• 11:03
  a
• 11:04
  meditation
• 11:05
  session,
• 11:05
  reiki
• 11:06
  session,
• 11:06
  energy
• 11:06
  work
• 11:07
  that
• 11:07
  is
• 11:07
  so
• 11:07
  powerful,
• 11:08
  then
• 11:08
  it's
• 11:09
  more
• 11:09
  than
• 11:09
  welcome
• 11:10
  as
• 11:10
  well.
• 11:11
  But
• 11:11
  yes,
• 11:12
  what
• 11:12
  the,
• 11:12
  the,
• 11:13
  the
• 11:14
  mission
• 11:15
  that
• 11:15
  I
• 11:15
  fulfilled
• 11:16
  in
• 11:17
  these
• 11:18
  recovery
• 11:19
  centers
• 11:19
  was
• 11:20
  the,
• 11:21
  one
• 11:21
  of
• 11:21
  the
• 11:21
  most
• 11:21
  impactful
• 11:22
  things
• 11:22
  that
• 11:23
  I
• 11:23
  have
• 11:23
  ever
• 11:23
  done
• 11:23
  in
• 11:23
  my
• 11:24
  career
• 11:24
  as
• 11:24
  a
• 11:24
  massage
• 11:25
  therapist.
• 11:25
  Because
• 11:26
  I
• 11:27
  was
• 11:27
  in
• 11:27
  that
• 11:28
  trauma.
• 11:28
  I
• 11:29
  was
• 11:29
  that
• 11:30
  loss
• 11:30
  for
• 11:31
  many
• 11:31
  years
• 11:31
  of
• 11:32
  my
• 11:32
  life.
• 11:32
  I
• 11:33
  was
• 11:33
  depending
• 11:34
  on
• 11:34
  alcohol
• 11:34
  and
• 11:35
  drugs
• 11:35
  to
• 11:36
  numb
• 11:36
  my
• 11:37
  own
• 11:38
  pain.
• 11:38
  So
• 11:39
  I
• 11:40
  know
• 11:40
  exactly
• 11:41
  where
• 11:42
  these
• 11:42
  people
• 11:42
  come
• 11:43
  from
• 11:43
  when
• 11:43
  it
• 11:43
  comes
• 11:44
  to,
• 11:44
  it's
• 11:44
  like,
• 11:44
  okay,
• 11:45
  I
• 11:45
  am
• 11:45
  lost
• 11:46
  in
• 11:46
  my
• 11:46
  silence.
• 11:47
  I
• 11:47
  am
• 11:47
  lost
• 11:47
  in
• 11:47
  my
• 11:48
  shame.
• 11:48
  How
• 11:49
  am
• 11:49
  I
• 11:49
  going
• 11:50
  to
• 11:51
  channel
• 11:51
  all
• 11:52
  of
• 11:52
  these?
• 11:52
  How
• 11:52
  am
• 11:53
  I
• 11:53
  going
• 11:53
  to
• 11:53
  let
• 11:53
  it
• 11:53
  out
• 11:53
  if
• 11:54
  I
• 11:54
  even
• 11:54
  let
• 11:55
  it
• 11:55
  out?
• 11:56
  And
• 11:56
  it
• 11:57
  takes
• 11:57
  hard
• 11:57
  work
• 11:58
  and
• 11:58
  dedication
• 12:00
  to
• 12:01
  start
• 12:01
  the
• 12:02
  speaking
• 12:02
  process,
• 12:02
  to
• 12:03
  start
• 12:03
  the
• 12:04
  long
• 12:05
  recovery
• 12:05
  process,
• 12:06
  because
• 12:06
  recovery
• 12:07
  is
• 12:07
  not
• 12:07
  like
• 12:08
  a
• 12:08
  quick
• 12:08
  fix
• 12:08
  like
• 12:09
  you
• 12:09
  just
• 12:09
  said.
• 12:10
  Recovering,
• 12:11
  recovering.
• 12:11
  It
• 12:11
  takes
• 12:12
  most
• 12:12
  likely
• 12:12
  the
• 12:12
  rest
• 12:13
  of
• 12:13
  our
• 12:13
  lives
• 12:14
  to
• 12:14
  recover.
• 12:15
  The
• 12:15
  triggers
• 12:16
  will
• 12:16
  come
• 12:16
  when
• 12:16
  you
• 12:16
  least
• 12:17
  expecting.
• 12:18
  Now,
• 12:19
  how
• 12:19
  do
• 12:19
  you
• 12:20
  address
• 12:20
  them?
• 12:20
  That's
• 12:21
  a
• 12:21
  whole
• 12:22
  different
• 12:22
  story,
• 12:22
  right?
• 12:23
  And
• 12:23
  definitely,
• 12:24
  you
• 12:24
  know,
• 12:24
  in,
• 12:25
  in
• 12:25
  my
• 12:25
  process
• 12:26
  of
• 12:26
  healing
• 12:27
  from
• 12:27
  childhood
• 12:28
  trauma,
• 12:28
  from
• 12:29
  untreated
• 12:29
  childhood
• 12:30
  trauma
• 12:30
  for
• 12:30
  so
• 12:31
  long.
• 12:32
  I
• 12:32
  understand
• 12:33
  that
• 12:33
  the
• 12:34
  triggers
• 12:34
  are
• 12:35
  there.
• 12:35
  The
• 12:36
  triggers
• 12:36
  will
• 12:36
  come.
• 12:38
  But
• 12:38
  I
• 12:38
  am
• 12:39
  safe,
• 12:40
  right?
• 12:41
  I
• 12:41
  am
• 12:41
  safe.
• 12:42
  I
• 12:42
  am
• 12:42
  okay.
• 12:43
  It's
• 12:44
  going
• 12:44
  to
• 12:44
  be
• 12:44
  okay.
• 12:45
  Life
• 12:46
  is
• 12:46
  different
• 12:47
  now.
• 12:47
  I
• 12:47
  am
• 12:48
  not
• 12:48
  at
• 12:48
  risk
• 12:49
  like
• 12:49
  I
• 12:49
  was.
• 12:50
  I
• 12:50
  am
• 12:50
  not
• 12:50
  living
• 12:50
  around
• 12:51
  chronic
• 12:52
  untreated
• 12:52
  mental
• 12:53
  illnesses
• 12:53
  like
• 12:53
  I
• 12:54
  used
• 12:54
  to.
• 12:54
  It's
• 12:55
  a
• 12:55
  whole
• 12:55
  different
• 12:55
  ball
• 12:56
  game.
• 12:56
  I,
• 12:57
  I,
• 12:58
  I,
• 12:58
  every
• 12:58
  time
• 12:59
  that
• 13:00
  I
• 13:00
  feel
• 13:00
  a
• 13:00
  little
• 13:01
  bit
• 13:01
  shaky,
• 13:02
  so
• 13:02
  to
• 13:02
  speak,
• 13:02
  it's
• 13:03
  like,
• 13:03
  okay,
• 13:04
  is
• 13:04
  time
• 13:04
  to
• 13:04
  do
• 13:05
  some
• 13:05
  breathing
• 13:05
  exercises
• 13:06
  and
• 13:06
  meditation.
• 13:07
  And
• 13:08
  that
• 13:08
  to
• 13:08
  me,
• 13:09
  that
• 13:09
  is
• 13:09
  one
• 13:09
  of
• 13:10
  the
• 13:10
  best
• 13:11
  medicines
• 13:11
  that
• 13:12
  I
• 13:12
  Still
• 13:13
  use
• 13:13
  to
• 13:13
  this
• 13:13
  day,
• 13:14
  and
• 13:14
  I
• 13:14
  use
• 13:14
  it
• 13:14
  every
• 13:15
  single
• 13:15
  day.
• 13:16
  I
• 13:16
  take
• 13:17
  care
• 13:17
  of
• 13:17
  a
• 13:17
  lot
• 13:18
  of
• 13:18
  people
• 13:18
  in
• 13:18
  my.
• 13:19
  In
• 13:19
  this
• 13:19
  beautiful
• 13:20
  career
• 13:20
  of
• 13:20
  mine.
• 13:21
  So
• 13:22
  taking
• 13:22
  care
• 13:23
  of
• 13:23
  myself
• 13:23
  is
• 13:24
  the
• 13:24
  rooting
• 13:25
  of
• 13:25
  it
• 13:25
  all.
• 13:26
  Because
• 13:26
  if
• 13:26
  I
• 13:26
  don't
• 13:27
  take
• 13:27
  care
• 13:27
  of
• 13:27
  myself,
• 13:28
  how
• 13:28
  am
• 13:28
  I
• 13:28
  going
• 13:29
  to
• 13:29
  be?
• 13:30
  You
• 13:30
  know,
• 13:30
  expressing
• 13:31
  to
• 13:31
  people
• 13:31
  and
• 13:31
  communicating
• 13:32
  to
• 13:32
  people
• 13:33
  is
• 13:33
  like,
• 13:33
  oh,
• 13:33
  you
• 13:33
  got
• 13:34
  to
• 13:34
  take
• 13:34
  care
• 13:34
  of
• 13:34
  yourself,
• 13:35
  because
• 13:35
  the
• 13:36
  effects
• 13:36
  are
• 13:36
  great,
• 13:37
  because
• 13:37
  you
• 13:37
  will
• 13:38
  have
• 13:38
  better
• 13:39
  quality
• 13:39
  of
• 13:39
  life.
• 13:40
  I
• 13:40
  gotta
• 13:40
  practice
• 13:41
  what
• 13:41
  I
• 13:41
  preach,
• 13:41
  man.
• 13:42
  Otherwise
• 13:43
  it's
• 13:43
  all
• 13:43
  for
• 13:43
  nothing.
• 13:44
  Yeah,
• 13:45
  exactly.
• 13:45
  And
• 13:46
  just
• 13:46
  the
• 13:46
  fact
• 13:46
  that,
• 13:47
  I
• 13:47
  mean,
• 13:47
  like
• 13:47
  you
• 13:47
  said,
• 13:47
  if
• 13:48
  you're
• 13:48
  not
• 13:48
  feeling
• 13:48
  safe
• 13:49
  there,
• 13:49
  the
• 13:49
  people
• 13:49
  that
• 13:50
  you're
• 13:50
  working
• 13:50
  with
• 13:50
  are
• 13:51
  feeling
• 13:51
  that
• 13:51
  you're
• 13:51
  not
• 13:52
  feeling
• 13:52
  safe
• 13:52
  as
• 13:52
  well.
• 13:54
  It's
• 13:54
  super
• 13:55
  important.
• 13:56
  So
• 13:56
  you
• 13:57
  talked
• 13:57
  about
• 13:57
  breathing,
• 13:57
  you
• 13:57
  talked
• 13:58
  about
• 13:58
  meditation.
• 13:59
  I
• 13:59
  mean,
• 13:59
  I
• 13:59
  think
• 14:00
  that's
• 14:00
  the
• 14:00
  biggest
• 14:00
  thing.
• 14:00
  And
• 14:01
  a
• 14:01
  lot
• 14:01
  of
• 14:01
  people,
• 14:01
  especially
• 14:02
  listening
• 14:02
  to
• 14:02
  this
• 14:03
  podcast,
• 14:03
  it's
• 14:03
  called
• 14:04
  Adult
• 14:04
  Child
• 14:04
  of
• 14:05
  Dysfunction,
• 14:05
  they're
• 14:06
  kind
• 14:06
  of
• 14:06
  at
• 14:06
  the
• 14:06
  starting
• 14:07
  point.
• 14:07
  They
• 14:07
  kind
• 14:08
  of
• 14:08
  understand,
• 14:08
  like,
• 14:09
  wow,
• 14:09
  yes.
• 14:09
  Oh,
• 14:10
  my
• 14:10
  gosh,
• 14:10
  Tammy,
• 14:11
  you
• 14:11
  said
• 14:11
  something
• 14:11
  to
• 14:11
  me
• 14:11
  the
• 14:12
  other
• 14:12
  day,
• 14:12
  or
• 14:12
  you
• 14:12
  said
• 14:12
  something
• 14:13
  on
• 14:13
  your
• 14:13
  podcast
• 14:13
  and
• 14:14
  I
• 14:14
  felt
• 14:14
  like
• 14:15
  you
• 14:15
  were
• 14:15
  talking
• 14:15
  to
• 14:15
  my
• 14:16
  soul.
• 14:16
  But
• 14:16
  what.
• 14:17
  Where
• 14:17
  do
• 14:17
  I
• 14:18
  go?
• 14:18
  What
• 14:18
  do
• 14:18
  I.
• 14:18
  Where
• 14:19
  do
• 14:19
  I
• 14:19
  start?
• 14:19
  You
• 14:20
  know,
• 14:20
  that's
• 14:20
  a
• 14:20
  lot
• 14:21
  of
• 14:21
  the
• 14:21
  times,
• 14:21
  the
• 14:21
  big
• 14:22
  question.
• 14:22
  And
• 14:23
  a
• 14:23
  lot
• 14:24
  of
• 14:24
  people
• 14:24
  aren't
• 14:24
  ready
• 14:24
  to
• 14:25
  jump
• 14:25
  into
• 14:25
  therapy.
• 14:25
  A
• 14:26
  lot
• 14:26
  of
• 14:26
  people
• 14:26
  are
• 14:26
  kind
• 14:26
  of
• 14:26
  still
• 14:27
  battling
• 14:27
  with
• 14:27
  that.
• 14:28
  I
• 14:28
  can't
• 14:28
  say
• 14:29
  anything.
• 14:29
  Or
• 14:31
  if
• 14:31
  they're.
• 14:31
  If
• 14:31
  you're
• 14:31
  just
• 14:32
  in
• 14:32
  the
• 14:32
  starting
• 14:32
  point,
• 14:33
  what
• 14:33
  would
• 14:33
  you
• 14:34
  suggest
• 14:34
  would
• 14:34
  maybe
• 14:34
  be
• 14:35
  a
• 14:35
  first
• 14:35
  step?
• 14:37
  Well,
• 14:37
  I
• 14:37
  can
• 14:38
  tell
• 14:38
  you
• 14:38
  of
• 14:39
  what
• 14:39
  works
• 14:40
  for
• 14:40
  work
• 14:40
  for
• 14:41
  me.
• 14:41
  I
• 14:42
  was
• 14:42
  in
• 14:42
  the
• 14:43
  world
• 14:43
  of
• 14:44
  silence
• 14:44
  for
• 14:45
  47
• 14:45
  years
• 14:46
  of
• 14:46
  my
• 14:46
  life.
• 14:46
  That's
• 14:47
  a
• 14:47
  long
• 14:47
  time.
• 14:48
  And
• 14:49
  what
• 14:50
  worked
• 14:50
  for
• 14:50
  me,
• 14:51
  little
• 14:52
  by
• 14:52
  little,
• 14:52
  because
• 14:53
  now
• 14:53
  we
• 14:53
  have
• 14:53
  this
• 14:54
  age
• 14:54
  of
• 14:54
  technology.
• 14:55
  And
• 14:55
  yes,
• 14:56
  there
• 14:56
  are
• 14:56
  many
• 14:56
  bad
• 14:56
  things,
• 14:57
  but
• 14:57
  there's
• 14:58
  many
• 14:58
  things
• 14:58
  that
• 14:59
  are
• 14:59
  within
• 15:01
  reach,
• 15:02
  which
• 15:02
  are
• 15:03
  many
• 15:04
  people.
• 15:04
  And
• 15:05
  YouTube.
• 15:05
  YouTube
• 15:06
  University,
• 15:07
  to
• 15:07
  me,
• 15:07
  is
• 15:08
  a
• 15:08
  powerhouse.
• 15:09
  I
• 15:10
  listened
• 15:11
  to
• 15:11
  Brene
• 15:12
  Brown.
• 15:12
  Brene
• 15:13
  Brown
• 15:13
  is
• 15:13
  a
• 15:13
  powerhouse.
• 15:14
  This
• 15:14
  woman
• 15:15
  I
• 15:15
  went
• 15:16
  to,
• 15:17
  to
• 15:18
  Anthony
• 15:18
  Robbins,
• 15:19
  unleashed
• 15:19
  Unleash
• 15:20
  the
• 15:20
  power
• 15:20
  within.
• 15:21
  That
• 15:21
  was
• 15:21
  the
• 15:21
  first
• 15:22
  big
• 15:23
  event
• 15:23
  that
• 15:24
  I
• 15:24
  did
• 15:24
  of
• 15:25
  personal
• 15:25
  development
• 15:26
  and
• 15:26
  healing.
• 15:27
  And
• 15:27
  it
• 15:27
  was
• 15:28
  online
• 15:29
  while
• 15:29
  the
• 15:30
  Pand
• 15:31
  was
• 15:31
  happening.
• 15:32
  And
• 15:32
  it
• 15:32
  was
• 15:33
  transformational
• 15:35
  in
• 15:35
  my
• 15:35
  life.
• 15:35
  And
• 15:36
  I
• 15:36
  was
• 15:37
  alone
• 15:38
  in
• 15:38
  a
• 15:38
  room
• 15:39
  going
• 15:39
  through
• 15:40
  this
• 15:40
  healing
• 15:40
  process.
• 15:42
  I
• 15:42
  didn't
• 15:43
  really
• 15:43
  reach
• 15:43
  out
• 15:43
  to
• 15:44
  nobody
• 15:44
  because
• 15:44
  that
• 15:45
  was.
• 15:45
  I
• 15:45
  mean,
• 15:45
  for
• 15:45
  me,
• 15:46
  that
• 15:46
  was
• 15:46
  the.
• 15:46
  My
• 15:46
  biggest
• 15:47
  fear
• 15:48
  was,
• 15:48
  how
• 15:49
  am
• 15:49
  I
• 15:49
  going
• 15:49
  to
• 15:49
  reach
• 15:50
  to
• 15:50
  anybody
• 15:51
  when
• 15:51
  I
• 15:51
  don't
• 15:52
  feel
• 15:52
  worthy
• 15:52
  about
• 15:53
  it?
• 15:53
  Because
• 15:54
  I
• 15:54
  didn't
• 15:54
  feel
• 15:55
  that
• 15:55
  I
• 15:55
  was
• 15:55
  worth
• 15:56
  anybody's
• 15:57
  help.
• 15:58
  I
• 15:58
  didn't
• 15:58
  feel
• 15:58
  that
• 15:59
  I
• 15:59
  was
• 15:59
  worth
• 16:00
  every.
• 16:00
  Anybody's
• 16:01
  attention.
• 16:02
  Support,
• 16:03
  support.
• 16:03
  Being
• 16:04
  there
• 16:04
  for
• 16:04
  me,
• 16:05
  helping
• 16:05
  me
• 16:06
  navigate
• 16:07
  through
• 16:07
  all
• 16:07
  of
• 16:08
  these
• 16:09
  things
• 16:09
  and
• 16:10
  challenges
• 16:10
  that
• 16:11
  I
• 16:11
  went
• 16:11
  through,
• 16:12
  all
• 16:12
  through
• 16:12
  these
• 16:13
  very
• 16:13
  dark
• 16:13
  seasons
• 16:14
  in
• 16:14
  my
• 16:14
  life
• 16:15
  that
• 16:15
  lasted
• 16:16
  so
• 16:16
  long.
• 16:17
  How
• 16:17
  am
• 16:17
  I
• 16:17
  gonna
• 16:18
  start
• 16:19
  with
• 16:19
  so
• 16:20
  much
• 16:20
  information
• 16:21
  that
• 16:21
  I
• 16:21
  had
• 16:21
  within
• 16:22
  me?
• 16:22
  And
• 16:23
  I
• 16:24
  started
• 16:24
  with
• 16:25
  just
• 16:26
  jumping
• 16:26
  in
• 16:27
  and
• 16:28
  YouTube
• 16:28
  for
• 16:29
  me
• 16:29
  was,
• 16:29
  it's
• 16:29
  like,
• 16:29
  you
• 16:30
  know
• 16:30
  what
• 16:30
  I
• 16:30
  need
• 16:31
  to
• 16:31
  listen
• 16:32
  to
• 16:33
  words
• 16:33
  of
• 16:34
  wisdom,
• 16:34
  to
• 16:35
  words
• 16:35
  of
• 16:36
  comfort,
• 16:36
  to
• 16:37
  words
• 16:37
  from
• 16:37
  the
• 16:37
  professional.
• 16:38
  Let
• 16:39
  me,
• 16:39
  let
• 16:39
  me
• 16:39
  approach
• 16:40
  the
• 16:40
  best
• 16:40
  of
• 16:41
  the
• 16:41
  best
• 16:41
  when
• 16:42
  it
• 16:42
  comes
• 16:43
  to
• 16:43
  this
• 16:44
  healing
• 16:44
  journey
• 16:45
  that
• 16:45
  has
• 16:46
  been
• 16:46
  so
• 16:46
  rocky,
• 16:47
  so
• 16:47
  silent,
• 16:48
  so
• 16:49
  lonely
• 16:50
  because
• 16:50
  I
• 16:50
  was
• 16:51
  on
• 16:51
  my
• 16:51
  own.
• 16:52
  I
• 16:52
  grew
• 16:52
  up
• 16:53
  in
• 16:53
  an
• 16:53
  environment
• 16:54
  of.
• 16:54
  Shh.
• 16:55
  You
• 16:56
  don't
• 16:56
  talk
• 16:56
  about
• 16:56
  the
• 16:57
  dead.
• 16:57
  What
• 16:57
  does
• 16:58
  an
• 16:58
  8
• 16:58
  year
• 16:58
  old
• 16:59
  girl
• 17:00
  understand
• 17:01
  upon
• 17:01
  the
• 17:01
  tragic
• 17:02
  death
• 17:02
  of
• 17:02
  her
• 17:02
  father
• 17:03
  and
• 17:03
  not
• 17:03
  being
• 17:04
  able
• 17:04
  to
• 17:04
  talk
• 17:04
  about
• 17:04
  the
• 17:05
  dead?
• 17:05
  Well,
• 17:05
  I
• 17:05
  cannot
• 17:06
  talk
• 17:06
  about
• 17:06
  anything
• 17:07
  wrong
• 17:07
  then.
• 17:08
  And
• 17:09
  that
• 17:09
  was
• 17:09
  my
• 17:10
  mindset.
• 17:11
  And
• 17:12
  I
• 17:12
  did
• 17:12
  it.
• 17:12
  I
• 17:13
  survived
• 17:13
  it
• 17:13
  on
• 17:14
  my
• 17:14
  own.
• 17:14
  I
• 17:14
  didn't
• 17:15
  know
• 17:15
  how
• 17:15
  to
• 17:15
  grief.
• 17:15
  I
• 17:15
  had
• 17:16
  to
• 17:16
  figure
• 17:16
  it
• 17:16
  out
• 17:16
  on
• 17:17
  my
• 17:17
  own
• 17:17
  because
• 17:17
  those
• 17:18
  were
• 17:18
  the
• 17:18
  years
• 17:18
  of
• 17:18
  silence,
• 17:19
  a
• 17:19
  world
• 17:20
  of
• 17:20
  silence.
• 17:20
  And
• 17:21
  it
• 17:21
  was,
• 17:22
  it
• 17:22
  was
• 17:22
  a
• 17:22
  hard
• 17:23
  road,
• 17:23
  but
• 17:23
  it
• 17:24
  taught
• 17:24
  me
• 17:25
  so
• 17:26
  many
• 17:26
  lessons.
• 17:28
  And
• 17:29
  that's
• 17:29
  one
• 17:29
  of
• 17:29
  the
• 17:30
  reasons
• 17:30
  why
• 17:30
  I'm
• 17:30
  here,
• 17:31
  sitting
• 17:31
  with
• 17:32
  you
• 17:32
  today
• 17:34
  to
• 17:34
  help
• 17:34
  others.
• 17:35
  It's
• 17:35
  like
• 17:35
  if
• 17:35
  you've
• 17:36
  been
• 17:36
  in
• 17:36
  the
• 17:36
  world
• 17:36
  of
• 17:36
  silence,
• 17:37
  hey,
• 17:37
  let's
• 17:38
  talk.
• 17:39
  Because
• 17:39
  I
• 17:40
  was
• 17:40
  there
• 17:40
  for
• 17:40
  decades
• 17:41
  upon
• 17:41
  decades
• 17:42
  of
• 17:42
  my
• 17:42
  life.
• 17:43
  But
• 17:43
  definitely
• 17:44
  the.
• 17:44
  To
• 17:44
  me,
• 17:45
  the
• 17:45
  first
• 17:45
  step
• 17:46
  was
• 17:47
  say
• 17:47
  to
• 17:47
  myself,
• 17:48
  I
• 17:48
  cannot
• 17:49
  do
• 17:49
  this
• 17:49
  alone
• 17:49
  anymore.
• 17:50
  I
• 17:51
  can't.
• 17:52
  Nope,
• 17:52
  you
• 17:52
  have
• 17:52
  to
• 17:52
  surrender.
• 17:53
  You
• 17:53
  have
• 17:53
  to
• 17:54
  surrender
• 17:54
  and
• 17:54
  realize
• 17:55
  that
• 17:55
  it's
• 17:55
  bigger
• 17:56
  than
• 17:56
  you.
• 17:56
  It's.
• 17:57
  You
• 17:57
  can't.
• 17:57
  Yeah,
• 17:58
  no,
• 17:58
  you
• 17:58
  absolutely
• 17:59
  can't.
• 17:59
  I
• 17:59
  know,
• 17:59
  because
• 18:00
  I
• 18:00
  tried.
• 18:00
  I
• 18:00
  tried
• 18:01
  for
• 18:01
  about
• 18:01
  25
• 18:01
  years
• 18:02
  and
• 18:02
  I
• 18:02
  was
• 18:02
  like,
• 18:02
  this
• 18:02
  is
• 18:03
  not
• 18:03
  working.
• 18:04
  Yeah,
• 18:05
  yeah,
• 18:05
  I
• 18:06
  was
• 18:06
  going,
• 18:06
  I
• 18:06
  was
• 18:06
  going
• 18:06
  in
• 18:06
  that
• 18:07
  vicious
• 18:07
  circle
• 18:07
  of,
• 18:08
  oh,
• 18:08
  yeah,
• 18:08
  I
• 18:08
  can
• 18:09
  do
• 18:09
  it.
• 18:09
  Oh,
• 18:09
  I
• 18:09
  can
• 18:09
  do
• 18:10
  it
• 18:10
  on
• 18:10
  my
• 18:10
  own.
• 18:11
  No,
• 18:12
  no,
• 18:12
  you,
• 18:13
  you
• 18:13
  cannot
• 18:14
  do
• 18:14
  it.
• 18:14
  And
• 18:14
  there's
• 18:14
  certain.
• 18:15
  There's
• 18:15
  so
• 18:15
  many
• 18:15
  things
• 18:16
  in
• 18:16
  life
• 18:16
  that
• 18:17
  why
• 18:18
  try
• 18:18
  to
• 18:18
  do
• 18:18
  it
• 18:19
  on
• 18:19
  your
• 18:19
  own
• 18:19
  when
• 18:20
  there's
• 18:21
  a
• 18:21
  lot
• 18:21
  of
• 18:21
  people
• 18:22
  like
• 18:22
  ourselves,
• 18:23
  willing
• 18:23
  to
• 18:23
  lend
• 18:24
  a
• 18:24
  hand,
• 18:25
  willing
• 18:25
  to
• 18:26
  listen
• 18:27
  to
• 18:27
  what
• 18:28
  you're
• 18:28
  saying
• 18:29
  and
• 18:29
  give
• 18:30
  you
• 18:30
  a
• 18:30
  word
• 18:31
  of
• 18:31
  comfort,
• 18:32
  of
• 18:33
  wisdom,
• 18:34
  maybe
• 18:36
  an
• 18:36
  experience
• 18:37
  that
• 18:37
  I
• 18:37
  had,
• 18:38
  maybe
• 18:38
  can
• 18:38
  help
• 18:39
  someone
• 18:39
  out
• 18:39
  there,
• 18:40
  right?
• 18:40
  And
• 18:41
  this
• 18:41
  is
• 18:41
  why
• 18:41
  we're
• 18:42
  here
• 18:42
  today.
• 18:42
  Because
• 18:42
  maybe
• 18:43
  all
• 18:43
  of
• 18:43
  these
• 18:43
  things,
• 18:44
  all
• 18:44
  of
• 18:44
  the
• 18:44
  childhood
• 18:45
  trauma,
• 18:45
  all
• 18:46
  of
• 18:46
  the
• 18:46
  darkness,
• 18:47
  all
• 18:47
  of
• 18:48
  the
• 18:48
  silence,
• 18:49
  the
• 18:49
  drug
• 18:49
  abuse,
• 18:50
  the
• 18:50
  alcohol
• 18:50
  abuse,
• 18:51
  jumping
• 18:51
  from
• 18:51
  person
• 18:52
  to
• 18:52
  person
• 18:53
  will
• 18:53
  help
• 18:54
  someone
• 18:55
  out
• 18:56
  there.
• 18:57
  Maybe
• 18:57
  Our
• 18:57
  openness
• 18:58
  will
• 18:58
  help.
• 18:59
  One
• 18:59
  person,
• 19:00
  two,
• 19:01
  a
• 19:01
  million.
• 19:02
  Oh,
• 19:02
  even
• 19:02
  better.
• 19:03
  Even
• 19:04
  better.
• 19:04
  Yeah.
• 19:04
  Oh,
• 19:05
  yeah.
• 19:05
  And.
• 19:06
  And
• 19:06
  without.
• 19:06
  And
• 19:07
  listening.
• 19:07
  Len,
• 19:07
  you
• 19:07
  said
• 19:08
  everybody's,
• 19:08
  you
• 19:08
  know,
• 19:08
  there's
• 19:09
  people
• 19:09
  out
• 19:09
  there
• 19:09
  to
• 19:09
  listen.
• 19:10
  There's
• 19:10
  people
• 19:10
  out
• 19:10
  there
• 19:10
  to
• 19:10
  listen
• 19:11
  and
• 19:11
  not
• 19:11
  judge.
• 19:12
  That's
• 19:12
  the
• 19:12
  thing,
• 19:12
  too,
• 19:13
  is
• 19:13
  because
• 19:14
  I
• 19:14
  know
• 19:14
  when
• 19:14
  you
• 19:14
  grow
• 19:14
  up
• 19:15
  like
• 19:15
  that,
• 19:15
  you're
• 19:15
  just
• 19:15
  like
• 19:16
  you
• 19:16
  said
• 19:16
  you
• 19:16
  didn't.
• 19:17
  You
• 19:17
  were
• 19:17
  in
• 19:17
  silence
• 19:17
  for
• 19:18
  47
• 19:18
  years
• 19:18
  because
• 19:20
  not
• 19:20
  only
• 19:20
  did
• 19:20
  you
• 19:20
  not
• 19:21
  feel
• 19:21
  that
• 19:21
  you
• 19:21
  were
• 19:21
  worthy,
• 19:22
  but
• 19:23
  you
• 19:23
  don't
• 19:23
  want
• 19:23
  to
• 19:23
  be
• 19:23
  shamed
• 19:24
  again.
• 19:25
  And
• 19:25
  it
• 19:25
  is,
• 19:25
  you
• 19:25
  know,
• 19:26
  you
• 19:26
  don't
• 19:26
  want
• 19:26
  to
• 19:26
  be
• 19:26
  judged
• 19:27
  again.
• 19:27
  You
• 19:27
  don't
• 19:27
  want
• 19:27
  to
• 19:27
  be
• 19:28
  laughed
• 19:28
  at
• 19:28
  again.
• 19:28
  You
• 19:28
  don't
• 19:29
  want
• 19:29
  to
• 19:29
  be
• 19:29
  told
• 19:29
  that
• 19:29
  your
• 19:29
  feelings
• 19:30
  don't
• 19:30
  matter
• 19:30
  or
• 19:31
  that,
• 19:31
  you
• 19:32
  know,
• 19:32
  nobody's
• 19:33
  doing
• 19:33
  that
• 19:34
  now.
• 19:34
  Like,
• 19:34
  if
• 19:35
  those
• 19:35
  are.
• 19:35
  If
• 19:36
  somebody's
• 19:36
  doing
• 19:36
  that,
• 19:36
  those
• 19:37
  are
• 19:37
  not
• 19:37
  your
• 19:37
  people
• 19:37
  anyway.
• 19:38
  So,
• 19:39
  again,
• 19:39
  you
• 19:39
  know,
• 19:40
  there's
• 19:40
  so
• 19:41
  many
• 19:41
  people
• 19:41
  out
• 19:41
  there
• 19:41
  that
• 19:42
  care
• 19:42
  and
• 19:42
  there's
• 19:43
  so
• 19:43
  many
• 19:43
  people.
• 19:43
  I
• 19:44
  tell
• 19:44
  people,
• 19:45
  you
• 19:45
  know,
• 19:45
  although
• 19:45
  your
• 19:46
  experience
• 19:46
  was
• 19:47
  very
• 19:47
  unique
• 19:47
  to
• 19:48
  you,
• 19:48
  there's
• 19:49
  so
• 19:49
  many
• 19:49
  people
• 19:49
  out
• 19:50
  there
• 19:50
  that
• 19:50
  have
• 19:51
  traveled
• 19:51
  a
• 19:52
  very
• 19:52
  parallel
• 19:52
  path,
• 19:53
  that
• 19:53
  have
• 19:53
  had
• 19:54
  the
• 19:54
  same
• 19:54
  experiences
• 19:55
  just
• 19:55
  in
• 19:55
  a
• 19:56
  different
• 19:56
  version.
• 19:57
  So
• 19:57
  people
• 19:57
  get
• 19:58
  it.
• 19:58
  Like,
• 19:59
  nothing.
• 20:00
  You
• 20:00
  tell
• 20:00
  me
• 20:00
  whatever
• 20:01
  shocked
• 20:01
  me.
• 20:03
  That's
• 20:03
  right.
• 20:04
  That
• 20:05
  is
• 20:05
  right.
• 20:06
  And
• 20:06
  to
• 20:07
  me,
• 20:07
  in
• 20:07
  my
• 20:08
  experience
• 20:08
  with
• 20:09
  the
• 20:09
  rehab
• 20:10
  centers,
• 20:11
  there
• 20:12
  were
• 20:12
  so
• 20:12
  many
• 20:12
  stories.
• 20:13
  And
• 20:13
  yes,
• 20:14
  just
• 20:14
  like
• 20:14
  you
• 20:14
  said,
• 20:14
  the
• 20:15
  parallels
• 20:15
  of
• 20:16
  our
• 20:16
  stories
• 20:16
  is
• 20:17
  like,
• 20:17
  wow,
• 20:17
  we
• 20:17
  are.
• 20:17
  We
• 20:18
  meet
• 20:18
  here.
• 20:19
  And
• 20:20
  out
• 20:20
  of
• 20:20
  everywhere
• 20:21
  else
• 20:21
  that
• 20:21
  we
• 20:22
  could
• 20:22
  be
• 20:22
  in
• 20:22
  this
• 20:22
  planet,
• 20:23
  here
• 20:23
  we
• 20:23
  are
• 20:24
  together.
• 20:25
  And
• 20:25
  it's
• 20:26
  for
• 20:26
  a
• 20:26
  mission.
• 20:27
  It's
• 20:27
  for.
• 20:27
  It's.
• 20:28
  It
• 20:28
  is
• 20:28
  part
• 20:28
  of
• 20:29
  the
• 20:29
  plan.
• 20:29
  I'll
• 20:30
  never
• 20:30
  take
• 20:31
  it
• 20:31
  for
• 20:31
  granted
• 20:32
  because
• 20:33
  the
• 20:33
  same
• 20:33
  way
• 20:34
  that
• 20:34
  these
• 20:36
  beautiful
• 20:37
  humans
• 20:37
  learn
• 20:38
  something
• 20:38
  from
• 20:38
  me,
• 20:39
  I
• 20:39
  surely
• 20:40
  learn
• 20:41
  a
• 20:41
  tremendous
• 20:42
  amount
• 20:43
  with
• 20:43
  them.
• 20:44
  And
• 20:44
  definitely
• 20:45
  every
• 20:46
  single
• 20:46
  day
• 20:46
  I
• 20:47
  will
• 20:47
  go
• 20:47
  in
• 20:48
  grateful.
• 20:49
  I'm
• 20:49
  grateful
• 20:49
  because
• 20:50
  it's
• 20:51
  not
• 20:51
  for
• 20:51
  everybody
• 20:52
  to
• 20:52
  work
• 20:53
  at
• 20:53
  a
• 20:53
  rehab
• 20:53
  center.
• 20:54
  It's
• 20:54
  not
• 20:54
  for
• 20:54
  everybody
• 20:55
  because
• 20:55
  the
• 20:56
  things
• 20:56
  that
• 20:56
  I
• 20:56
  saw
• 20:57
  and
• 20:57
  heard
• 20:58
  were
• 20:58
  very,
• 20:59
  very
• 20:59
  intense.
• 21:00
  They're
• 21:00
  not
• 21:00
  to
• 21:01
  be
• 21:01
  repeated
• 21:02
  and.
• 21:02
  And
• 21:02
  talked
• 21:03
  about
• 21:03
  here.
• 21:04
  But
• 21:04
  it's
• 21:05
  part
• 21:05
  of
• 21:05
  the
• 21:05
  huge
• 21:06
  lesson.
• 21:06
  It's
• 21:06
  part
• 21:06
  of
• 21:07
  something
• 21:07
  bigger
• 21:07
  than
• 21:08
  myself
• 21:09
  that
• 21:09
  I
• 21:09
  was
• 21:09
  doing
• 21:09
  there
• 21:10
  is
• 21:10
  like,
• 21:10
  wow,
• 21:11
  all
• 21:11
  of
• 21:11
  this
• 21:12
  dark.
• 21:12
  The
• 21:13
  dark
• 21:13
  season
• 21:13
  that
• 21:13
  I
• 21:13
  have,
• 21:14
  which
• 21:14
  lasted
• 21:14
  a
• 21:15
  long
• 21:15
  time
• 21:15
  of
• 21:16
  self
• 21:16
  sabotaging
• 21:18
  and
• 21:18
  not
• 21:18
  taking
• 21:19
  care
• 21:19
  of
• 21:19
  myself
• 21:20
  and
• 21:21
  undermining
• 21:21
  myself
• 21:22
  and
• 21:22
  not
• 21:23
  bad.
• 21:23
  I'm
• 21:24
  not
• 21:24
  giving
• 21:24
  myself
• 21:24
  any
• 21:25
  value.
• 21:25
  Definitely
• 21:26
  a
• 21:26
  turn
• 21:27
  around
• 21:28
  in
• 21:28
  180
• 21:29
  degree
• 21:29
  turn.
• 21:30
  When
• 21:30
  I
• 21:31
  landed
• 21:32
  this
• 21:32
  very
• 21:33
  important
• 21:34
  job
• 21:34
  with
• 21:35
  these
• 21:35
  people,
• 21:36
  definitely.
• 21:37
  And
• 21:38
  I
• 21:38
  would
• 21:38
  talk
• 21:39
  to
• 21:39
  patients
• 21:40
  and
• 21:40
  I
• 21:40
  will
• 21:40
  tell
• 21:41
  them
• 21:41
  part
• 21:41
  of
• 21:41
  my
• 21:41
  story.
• 21:41
  And
• 21:42
  it's
• 21:42
  like,
• 21:42
  well,
• 21:42
  you
• 21:43
  definitely
• 21:43
  seem
• 21:44
  like
• 21:44
  you
• 21:44
  never
• 21:44
  had
• 21:45
  a
• 21:45
  problem.
• 21:45
  Like.
• 21:46
  Exactly,
• 21:48
  exactly.
• 21:50
  This
• 21:50
  is
• 21:50
  why.
• 21:51
  It's
• 21:51
  like,
• 21:51
  wow,
• 21:51
  this
• 21:52
  is
• 21:53
  one
• 21:53
  of
• 21:53
  the
• 21:53
  most
• 21:53
  powerful
• 21:54
  reasons
• 21:54
  why
• 21:54
  I
• 21:55
  was
• 21:55
  there
• 21:55
  is
• 21:56
  to.
• 21:57
  For
• 21:57
  them
• 21:57
  to
• 21:58
  see.
• 21:58
  It's
• 21:58
  like,
• 21:59
  wow,
• 21:59
  you
• 21:59
  were
• 21:59
  there.
• 22:00
  Wow,
• 22:00
  you
• 22:00
  did
• 22:01
  that.
• 22:01
  And
• 22:02
  look
• 22:02
  at
• 22:02
  where
• 22:02
  you
• 22:02
  are
• 22:02
  now.
• 22:03
  And
• 22:03
  like,
• 22:04
  bingo.
• 22:05
  Yeah.
• 22:05
  Yes.
• 22:06
  I
• 22:06
  mean,
• 22:06
  you're
• 22:06
  a
• 22:06
  walking
• 22:07
  test.
• 22:07
  Really
• 22:07
  is
• 22:07
  possible.
• 22:08
  Yeah.
• 22:09
  And
• 22:09
  I,
• 22:09
  I
• 22:10
  look
• 22:10
  at
• 22:10
  that
• 22:10
  and
• 22:10
  I
• 22:10
  say,
• 22:11
  that's
• 22:11
  what
• 22:11
  our
• 22:11
  job
• 22:11
  is.
• 22:11
  Our,
• 22:12
  our
• 22:12
  job
• 22:12
  is
• 22:12
  to
• 22:13
  be
• 22:13
  walking
• 22:13
  testimonies
• 22:14
  that
• 22:14
  you
• 22:14
  can
• 22:14
  come
• 22:15
  from
• 22:15
  a
• 22:15
  really
• 22:15
  deep,
• 22:16
  dark
• 22:16
  place
• 22:16
  and
• 22:17
  you
• 22:17
  can
• 22:17
  do
• 22:17
  the
• 22:17
  work
• 22:17
  and
• 22:18
  you
• 22:18
  can
• 22:18
  certainly,
• 22:19
  you
• 22:19
  can
• 22:19
  be
• 22:19
  happy.
• 22:20
  You
• 22:20
  can
• 22:20
  find
• 22:21
  that
• 22:21
  inner
• 22:21
  peace
• 22:21
  that
• 22:22
  so
• 22:22
  many
• 22:22
  people
• 22:22
  struggle
• 22:23
  with.
• 22:23
  I
• 22:24
  know,
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  remember.
• 22:24
  And
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  don't
• 22:25
  know
• 22:25
  who
• 22:25
  the
• 22:25
  psychologist
• 22:25
  was,
• 22:26
  and
• 22:26
  I,
• 22:26
  I
• 22:26
  said
• 22:27
  this
• 22:27
  a
• 22:27
  couple
• 22:27
  times.
• 22:27
  So
• 22:28
  if
• 22:28
  you,
• 22:28
  if
• 22:28
  you're
• 22:28
  out
• 22:29
  there
• 22:29
  listening
• 22:29
  and
• 22:29
  you've
• 22:29
  already
• 22:29
  heard
• 22:30
  this,
• 22:30
  I'm
• 22:30
  sorry,
• 22:30
  but,
• 22:31
  you
• 22:31
  know,
• 22:31
  and,
• 22:32
  and
• 22:32
  she
• 22:32
  says
• 22:32
  just
• 22:33
  that,
• 22:33
  that
• 22:33
  one
• 22:33
  piece
• 22:34
  of
• 22:34
  that
• 22:34
  unworthiness,
• 22:35
  because
• 22:35
  that's
• 22:35
  where
• 22:36
  it
• 22:36
  all
• 22:36
  stems
• 22:36
  from.
• 22:37
  It
• 22:37
  all
• 22:37
  stems
• 22:37
  from
• 22:38
  that,
• 22:38
  that
• 22:39
  belief
• 22:39
  that
• 22:39
  you're
• 22:39
  not
• 22:39
  worthy
• 22:40
  from
• 22:40
  whatever
• 22:40
  was
• 22:41
  fed
• 22:41
  to
• 22:41
  you
• 22:41
  as
• 22:41
  a
• 22:42
  child.
• 22:42
  That's
• 22:42
  really
• 22:42
  what
• 22:43
  it
• 22:43
  is.
• 22:44
  And
• 22:44
  she
• 22:45
  said,
• 22:45
  you
• 22:45
  know,
• 22:45
  picture.
• 22:46
  She
• 22:46
  goes,
• 22:46
  picture
• 22:47
  your
• 22:47
  favorite
• 22:47
  ice
• 22:47
  cream
• 22:48
  and
• 22:48
  think
• 22:48
  about
• 22:48
  how
• 22:49
  that
• 22:49
  feels
• 22:49
  in
• 22:49
  your
• 22:49
  body.
• 22:50
  And
• 22:50
  it
• 22:50
  feels
• 22:51
  warm,
• 22:51
  right?
• 22:51
  You
• 22:52
  picture
• 22:52
  your
• 22:52
  favorite
• 22:52
  food
• 22:53
  or
• 22:53
  curling
• 22:53
  up
• 22:54
  on
• 22:54
  the
• 22:54
  couch
• 22:54
  with
• 22:54
  a
• 22:54
  bowl
• 22:54
  of
• 22:55
  ice
• 22:55
  cream,
• 22:55
  whatever
• 22:55
  it
• 22:55
  is,
• 22:55
  and
• 22:56
  it
• 22:56
  feels
• 22:56
  warm
• 22:56
  and
• 22:56
  fuzzy
• 22:57
  and
• 22:57
  happy,
• 22:57
  right?
• 22:58
  And
• 22:58
  then
• 22:58
  say
• 22:59
  to
• 22:59
  yourself,
• 22:59
  I
• 23:00
  deserve
• 23:00
  all
• 23:00
  good
• 23:00
  things.
• 23:01
  And
• 23:02
  sit
• 23:02
  with
• 23:02
  that
• 23:02
  for
• 23:03
  a
• 23:03
  second,
• 23:04
  because
• 23:04
  some
• 23:05
  people
• 23:05
  go
• 23:05
  like,
• 23:05
  I'm
• 23:05
  over
• 23:06
  it.
• 23:06
  I
• 23:06
  did
• 23:06
  it.
• 23:06
  I
• 23:07
  did
• 23:07
  the
• 23:07
  work.
• 23:07
  I'm
• 23:07
  over
• 23:07
  it.
• 23:08
  But
• 23:08
  when
• 23:08
  they
• 23:09
  do
• 23:09
  that
• 23:09
  one
• 23:09
  little
• 23:10
  test
• 23:11
  and
• 23:11
  then
• 23:11
  all
• 23:11
  of
• 23:11
  a
• 23:11
  sudden
• 23:12
  they
• 23:12
  get
• 23:12
  that
• 23:12
  little
• 23:12
  twinge
• 23:13
  in
• 23:13
  their
• 23:13
  stomach
• 23:13
  or
• 23:14
  their
• 23:14
  back
• 23:14
  tenses
• 23:15
  or
• 23:15
  their
• 23:15
  jaw
• 23:15
  tightens,
• 23:16
  it's
• 23:16
  like
• 23:17
  you
• 23:17
  still,
• 23:18
  you
• 23:18
  still
• 23:19
  don't
• 23:19
  feel
• 23:19
  100
• 23:20
  worthy.
• 23:21
  So
• 23:21
  that's,
• 23:21
  you
• 23:22
  know,
• 23:22
  it's
• 23:22
  kind
• 23:22
  of
• 23:22
  like
• 23:22
  a
• 23:23
  very
• 23:23
  good,
• 23:23
  easy,
• 23:24
  quick
• 23:24
  test
• 23:25
  to
• 23:25
  see
• 23:26
  where
• 23:26
  you're
• 23:26
  at.
• 23:26
  You
• 23:27
  can
• 23:27
  do
• 23:27
  it
• 23:27
  with
• 23:27
  anything.
• 23:28
  Like
• 23:28
  you
• 23:28
  said,
• 23:28
  your
• 23:28
  body
• 23:29
  keeps
• 23:29
  score.
• 23:30
  So
• 23:30
  any
• 23:30
  question,
• 23:31
  it's
• 23:31
  like
• 23:31
  muscle
• 23:32
  testing.
• 23:32
  Any
• 23:33
  question
• 23:33
  you
• 23:33
  ask
• 23:33
  yourself,
• 23:34
  you're
• 23:34
  going
• 23:34
  to
• 23:34
  get
• 23:35
  some
• 23:35
  kind
• 23:35
  of
• 23:35
  physiological
• 23:36
  reaction.
• 23:37
  That's
• 23:37
  right.
• 23:38
  That
• 23:38
  is
• 23:38
  absolutely
• 23:40
  right.
• 23:40
  Without,
• 23:42
  without
• 23:42
  question.
• 23:43
  I
• 23:43
  love
• 23:44
  essential
• 23:44
  oils.
• 23:45
  I
• 23:45
  love
• 23:45
  aromatherapy.
• 23:46
  And
• 23:46
  as
• 23:46
  an
• 23:47
  aromatherapist,
• 23:48
  the
• 23:49
  first
• 23:49
  thing
• 23:50
  that,
• 23:51
  the,
• 23:51
  the
• 23:51
  first
• 23:51
  approach
• 23:52
  for
• 23:52
  aromatherapy
• 23:53
  is
• 23:53
  this.
• 23:54
  You
• 23:54
  show
• 23:55
  the
• 23:55
  bottle
• 23:55
  to
• 23:55
  the
• 23:56
  person
• 23:56
  and
• 23:56
  then
• 23:57
  it's
• 23:57
  like,
• 23:57
  okay,
• 23:58
  smell
• 23:58
  the
• 23:58
  scent.
• 23:59
  If
• 23:59
  your
• 23:59
  body
• 24:00
  backs
• 24:01
  off,
• 24:01
  you
• 24:02
  don't
• 24:02
  need
• 24:02
  it.
• 24:03
  But
• 24:04
  if
• 24:04
  you're
• 24:04
  like,
• 24:05
  oh,
• 24:05
  my
• 24:05
  God,
• 24:05
  that
• 24:06
  smells
• 24:06
  so
• 24:06
  good,
• 24:07
  then
• 24:07
  your
• 24:08
  body
• 24:08
  is
• 24:08
  receiving
• 24:09
  it
• 24:09
  because
• 24:10
  it
• 24:10
  needs
• 24:11
  that.
• 24:11
  That.
• 24:11
  It
• 24:12
  needs
• 24:12
  that
• 24:12
  essence.
• 24:13
  So
• 24:13
  it's.
• 24:13
  It's
• 24:14
  very
• 24:14
  interesting
• 24:15
  how,
• 24:15
  yes,
• 24:15
  our
• 24:16
  body
• 24:16
  really
• 24:17
  does
• 24:17
  keep
• 24:17
  the
• 24:17
  score.
• 24:18
  There's
• 24:18
  even
• 24:18
  a
• 24:18
  book
• 24:19
  that
• 24:19
  is
• 24:19
  called
• 24:20
  the
• 24:20
  Body
• 24:20
  Keeps
• 24:20
  its
• 24:21
  score.
• 24:21
  Love
• 24:21
  it
• 24:22
  highly.
• 24:22
  Oh,
• 24:23
  my
• 24:23
  God.
• 24:23
  That
• 24:24
  was.
• 24:24
  That
• 24:24
  was
• 24:25
  one
• 24:25
  of
• 24:25
  the.
• 24:25
  This.
• 24:26
  Okay.
• 24:26
  Another
• 24:26
  wake
• 24:27
  up
• 24:27
  call.
• 24:27
  And
• 24:27
  another
• 24:28
  wake
• 24:28
  up
• 24:28
  call
• 24:28
  is
• 24:29
  like,
• 24:29
  yeah,
• 24:29
  absolutely,
• 24:30
  Absolutely.
• 24:31
  I.
• 24:32
  I'm
• 24:32
  a
• 24:33
  sexual
• 24:33
  violence
• 24:34
  surv
• 24:35
  myself,
• 24:36
  and
• 24:37
  I
• 24:37
  had
• 24:39
  issues
• 24:39
  with
• 24:39
  my
• 24:40
  reproductive
• 24:40
  system.
• 24:41
  And
• 24:41
  yesterday
• 24:42
  I'm.
• 24:42
  I'm
• 24:43
  sharing
• 24:43
  this
• 24:43
  with
• 24:43
  you
• 24:44
  because
• 24:44
  it's
• 24:44
  very
• 24:45
  important.
• 24:46
  Yesterday
• 24:46
  I
• 24:47
  went
• 24:47
  to
• 24:48
  a
• 24:48
  OBGYN
• 24:49
  for
• 24:49
  the
• 24:49
  first
• 24:50
  time
• 24:51
  in
• 24:51
  many
• 24:51
  years,
• 24:52
  because
• 24:52
  I
• 24:52
  was
• 24:53
  running
• 24:53
  away
• 24:54
  from
• 24:54
  going
• 24:54
  to
• 24:55
  an
• 24:55
  obgyn,
• 24:56
  feeling
• 24:57
  baited
• 24:57
  with,
• 24:58
  going
• 24:59
  there
• 24:59
  against
• 24:59
  my
• 25:00
  will,
• 25:01
  being
• 25:02
  seen
• 25:03
  against
• 25:03
  my
• 25:04
  will,
• 25:04
  being
• 25:05
  tested
• 25:05
  against
• 25:06
  my
• 25:06
  will.
• 25:07
  For
• 25:07
  the
• 25:07
  first
• 25:08
  time
• 25:09
  in
• 25:09
  my
• 25:10
  life,
• 25:10
  I
• 25:11
  told
• 25:11
  the
• 25:11
  practitioner,
• 25:12
  hey,
• 25:13
  I'm
• 25:13
  a
• 25:14
  sexual
• 25:14
  assault
• 25:14
  survivor.
• 25:15
  Please
• 25:16
  be
• 25:16
  gentle
• 25:17
  with
• 25:17
  me.
• 25:18
  And
• 25:18
  it
• 25:18
  was
• 25:19
  one
• 25:19
  of
• 25:19
  the
• 25:19
  most
• 25:20
  liberating
• 25:21
  experiences
• 25:22
  that
• 25:22
  I
• 25:22
  had
• 25:22
  in
• 25:23
  my
• 25:23
  life.
• 25:23
  And
• 25:23
  I
• 25:23
  was
• 25:23
  like,
• 25:24
  wow,
• 25:24
  I
• 25:25
  never
• 25:25
  did
• 25:25
  this
• 25:25
  before.
• 25:25
  I
• 25:26
  told
• 25:26
  the
• 25:26
  practitioner
• 25:27
  even.
• 25:27
  It's
• 25:27
  like,
• 25:27
  I
• 25:27
  never
• 25:28
  told
• 25:28
  anybody,
• 25:29
  anybody.
• 25:30
  So.
• 25:30
  So
• 25:30
  this
• 25:31
  is
• 25:31
  about
• 25:31
  still
• 25:32
  breaking
• 25:32
  my
• 25:33
  silence
• 25:33
  at
• 25:34
  age
• 25:34
  60.
• 25:35
  I'm
• 25:35
  still
• 25:36
  breaking
• 25:36
  my
• 25:37
  silence
• 25:37
  with
• 25:38
  something
• 25:38
  as
• 25:39
  intimate
• 25:39
  as
• 25:40
  it
• 25:40
  is
• 25:41
  going
• 25:41
  to
• 25:41
  the
• 25:41
  doctor.
• 25:42
  I
• 25:42
  spend
• 25:43
  my
• 25:43
  whole
• 25:43
  menopausal
• 25:44
  stages
• 25:45
  on
• 25:45
  my
• 25:45
  own.
• 25:46
  I
• 25:46
  did
• 25:46
  everything
• 25:47
  on
• 25:47
  my
• 25:47
  own.
• 25:48
  Everything.
• 25:48
  And
• 25:49
  honestly,
• 25:50
  my
• 25:50
  menopause
• 25:50
  stages
• 25:51
  was
• 25:51
  not
• 25:51
  that
• 25:51
  bad.
• 25:52
  I
• 25:52
  just
• 25:53
  followed.
• 25:53
  And
• 25:54
  I
• 25:54
  do.
• 25:54
  I
• 25:54
  did
• 25:54
  a
• 25:55
  lot
• 25:55
  of
• 25:55
  research.
• 25:55
  I
• 25:55
  did
• 25:56
  my
• 25:56
  own
• 25:56
  homework.
• 25:57
  I
• 25:57
  don't
• 25:57
  recommend
• 25:58
  that
• 25:58
  everybody
• 25:59
  does
• 25:59
  what
• 25:59
  I
• 25:59
  did.
• 25:59
  Don't
• 25:59
  do.
• 26:00
  I
• 26:00
  did.
• 26:00
  But
• 26:01
  definitely,
• 26:02
  you
• 26:02
  know,
• 26:02
  that
• 26:03
  was
• 26:03
  a
• 26:03
  big
• 26:03
  stepping
• 26:04
  stone
• 26:04
  in
• 26:04
  my
• 26:04
  life
• 26:05
  to
• 26:05
  let
• 26:05
  the
• 26:06
  nurse
• 26:06
  practitioner
• 26:07
  know
• 26:07
  where
• 26:08
  I
• 26:08
  was,
• 26:08
  where
• 26:08
  my.
• 26:09
  My
• 26:09
  trauma
• 26:10
  comes
• 26:10
  from.
• 26:10
  And
• 26:11
  she
• 26:11
  was
• 26:11
  extremely
• 26:12
  gentle.
• 26:12
  And
• 26:14
  I
• 26:14
  felt
• 26:15
  safe.
• 26:16
  Here
• 26:16
  we
• 26:16
  go
• 26:16
  again.
• 26:17
  I
• 26:17
  felt
• 26:18
  safe
• 26:18
  in
• 26:19
  this
• 26:19
  woman's
• 26:19
  hands.
• 26:20
  And
• 26:20
  I'm
• 26:20
  very
• 26:20
  grateful
• 26:20
  for
• 26:20
  that.
• 26:21
  Yep.
• 26:22
  And
• 26:22
  no.
• 26:22
  And
• 26:22
  that's.
• 26:23
  It's
• 26:23
  huge.
• 26:25
  That's
• 26:25
  a
• 26:25
  huge
• 26:25
  step.
• 26:26
  And
• 26:26
  it
• 26:26
  just
• 26:26
  goes
• 26:27
  to
• 26:27
  show
• 26:27
  you
• 26:27
  it
• 26:27
  doesn't
• 26:28
  matter
• 26:28
  how
• 26:28
  old
• 26:28
  you
• 26:28
  are,
• 26:28
  which
• 26:29
  I'm
• 26:29
  still
• 26:29
  blown
• 26:29
  away
• 26:29
  by
• 26:29
  the
• 26:30
  fact
• 26:30
  that.
• 26:30
  Fact
• 26:30
  that
• 26:30
  you're
• 26:30
  60,
• 26:30
  because
• 26:31
  if
• 26:31
  anybody
• 26:32
  that's
• 26:32
  out
• 26:32
  there,
• 26:32
  if
• 26:32
  you're
• 26:32
  watching
• 26:33
  this
• 26:33
  on
• 26:33
  YouTube,
• 26:35
  should
• 26:35
  look
• 26:36
  60.
• 26:36
  Right?
• 26:37
  Thank
• 26:38
  you.
• 26:38
  Thank
• 26:38
  you.
• 26:39
  When
• 26:39
  you
• 26:39
  said
• 26:40
  last
• 26:40
  time
• 26:40
  we
• 26:40
  talked
• 26:40
  and
• 26:41
  you
• 26:41
  said,
• 26:41
  I've
• 26:41
  been
• 26:41
  keeping
• 26:42
  my
• 26:42
  silence
• 26:42
  for
• 26:43
  47
• 26:43
  years,
• 26:43
  and
• 26:44
  I'm
• 26:44
  like,
• 26:44
  so
• 26:45
  pre
• 26:45
  birth,
• 26:48
  I
• 26:48
  was
• 26:48
  like,
• 26:49
  I
• 26:49
  wasn't
• 26:49
  gonna
• 26:49
  question
• 26:50
  you
• 26:50
  on
• 26:50
  it
• 26:50
  because
• 26:50
  I'm
• 26:50
  like,
• 26:50
  okay,
• 26:51
  I
• 26:51
  just
• 26:51
  met
• 26:51
  her,
• 26:51
  so
• 26:51
  I'm
• 26:52
  not
• 26:52
  gonna
• 26:52
  say
• 26:52
  anything,
• 26:52
  but,
• 26:53
  yeah,
• 26:54
  thank
• 26:54
  you.
• 26:55
  That,
• 26:56
  that
• 26:56
  was
• 26:56
  great.
• 26:57
  But,
• 26:57
  no,
• 26:57
  I
• 26:57
  mean,
• 26:57
  it
• 26:58
  makes
• 26:58
  a
• 26:58
  difference.
• 26:58
  And
• 26:58
  think
• 26:59
  about
• 26:59
  now,
• 26:59
  like,
• 27:00
  if
• 27:00
  you're
• 27:00
  out
• 27:00
  there
• 27:00
  listening
• 27:01
  and
• 27:01
  you're
• 27:01
  younger
• 27:02
  and
• 27:02
  you're
• 27:02
  not
• 27:02
  60,
• 27:04
  have
• 27:04
  those
• 27:04
  conversations
• 27:05
  now.
• 27:05
  Sometimes
• 27:06
  those
• 27:06
  conversations
• 27:07
  are
• 27:07
  the
• 27:07
  hardest
• 27:08
  to
• 27:08
  have.
• 27:08
  But
• 27:09
  how,
• 27:10
  like
• 27:10
  you
• 27:10
  said,
• 27:10
  how
• 27:11
  liberating.
• 27:12
  Yes.
• 27:12
  And
• 27:12
  had
• 27:13
  you
• 27:13
  done
• 27:13
  that
• 27:13
  when
• 27:13
  you
• 27:13
  were
• 27:14
  25,
• 27:15
  your
• 27:15
  whole.
• 27:15
  The
• 27:16
  whole
• 27:16
  trajectory
• 27:16
  of
• 27:17
  doctors
• 27:17
  and,
• 27:17
  and
• 27:18
  having
• 27:19
  that
• 27:19
  annual
• 27:19
  exam
• 27:19
  and
• 27:20
  all
• 27:20
  of
• 27:20
  those
• 27:20
  things
• 27:20
  would
• 27:21
  have
• 27:21
  probably
• 27:21
  been
• 27:21
  100
• 27:22
  different.
• 27:23
  Absolutely.
• 27:23
  100
• 27:24
  different.
• 27:24
  Absolutely.
• 27:25
  Without
• 27:25
  a
• 27:25
  doubt.
• 27:26
  Without
• 27:26
  a
• 27:26
  doubt.
• 27:27
  That
• 27:27
  was
• 27:27
  an
• 27:27
  open
• 27:27
  door
• 27:28
  for
• 27:28
  me.
• 27:29
  I
• 27:29
  mean,
• 27:30
  it
• 27:30
  was
• 27:30
  really,
• 27:30
  really
• 27:31
  liberating.
• 27:32
  It
• 27:32
  was
• 27:32
  empowering
• 27:33
  in
• 27:34
  a
• 27:34
  big
• 27:34
  way
• 27:34
  that
• 27:35
  I
• 27:35
  finally
• 27:35
  tell
• 27:36
  a
• 27:36
  practitioner
• 27:38
  that
• 27:39
  this
• 27:39
  happened
• 27:39
  to
• 27:39
  me,
• 27:40
  so
• 27:40
  please
• 27:40
  be.
• 27:41
  Be
• 27:41
  gentle.
• 27:42
  And
• 27:42
  it
• 27:42
  was
• 27:43
  very
• 27:43
  empowering.
• 27:44
  Definitely.
• 27:44
  I'm
• 27:44
  very,
• 27:45
  very
• 27:45
  grateful
• 27:46
  for
• 27:46
  that
• 27:46
  moment.
• 27:46
  I
• 27:47
  mean,
• 27:47
  in
• 27:47
  a
• 27:47
  big
• 27:47
  way,
• 27:48
  I
• 27:48
  feel
• 27:48
  like
• 27:48
  I
• 27:49
  kind
• 27:49
  of
• 27:49
  needed
• 27:50
  this.
• 27:51
  Yeah,
• 27:51
  I.
• 27:51
  I
• 27:52
  needed
• 27:52
  that.
• 27:52
  And
• 27:53
  it's
• 27:53
  like,
• 27:53
  this
• 27:53
  is
• 27:53
  another
• 27:55
  step
• 27:56
  to
• 27:56
  my
• 27:56
  recovery
• 27:57
  at
• 27:57
  this
• 27:58
  age.
• 27:58
  So
• 27:59
  remember,
• 27:59
  everybody
• 28:00
  out
• 28:00
  there,
• 28:01
  there
• 28:01
  is
• 28:01
  no
• 28:01
  certain
• 28:02
  age
• 28:03
  for
• 28:03
  recovery.
• 28:04
  You
• 28:04
  can
• 28:04
  recover.
• 28:05
  You
• 28:05
  can.
• 28:06
  You
• 28:06
  can
• 28:06
  restart
• 28:07
  that
• 28:07
  button
• 28:07
  at
• 28:08
  any
• 28:08
  age,
• 28:08
  no
• 28:09
  matter
• 28:09
  what.
• 28:10
  You're
• 28:11
  worth
• 28:11
  it.
• 28:12
  Yes,
• 28:13
  absolutely.
• 28:13
  And
• 28:13
  I
• 28:13
  think
• 28:13
  that's
• 28:14
  the
• 28:14
  biggest
• 28:14
  message,
• 28:15
  and
• 28:15
  that's
• 28:15
  the
• 28:15
  biggest
• 28:15
  message
• 28:16
  I
• 28:16
  try
• 28:16
  to
• 28:16
  share
• 28:16
  with
• 28:16
  people
• 28:17
  is
• 28:18
  just
• 28:19
  every.
• 28:20
  Every
• 28:20
  single
• 28:21
  step
• 28:21
  you
• 28:21
  make
• 28:21
  forward
• 28:22
  is
• 28:22
  worth
• 28:22
  it.
• 28:22
  And
• 28:23
  also
• 28:23
  to
• 28:23
  remind
• 28:23
  people,
• 28:24
  too,
• 28:24
  that
• 28:24
  it's
• 28:25
  not.
• 28:25
  It's
• 28:25
  not
• 28:26
  linear.
• 28:26
  How
• 28:26
  many
• 28:27
  times
• 28:27
  during
• 28:27
  your
• 28:27
  recovery
• 28:28
  did
• 28:28
  you
• 28:28
  go
• 28:29
  forward
• 28:29
  and
• 28:29
  then
• 28:29
  five
• 28:30
  step
• 28:30
  back,
• 28:30
  steps
• 28:31
  back.
• 28:31
  That's
• 28:31
  right.
• 28:32
  That's
• 28:32
  right.
• 28:33
  Yeah.
• 28:34
  You
• 28:34
  know,
• 28:35
  it
• 28:35
  doesn't
• 28:35
  come
• 28:35
  with
• 28:35
  an
• 28:36
  instruction
• 28:36
  book,
• 28:36
  that's
• 28:37
  for
• 28:37
  sure.
• 28:38
  No.
• 28:38
  And
• 28:39
  there's
• 28:39
  no
• 28:39
  shame
• 28:39
  in
• 28:40
  57
• 28:40
  years
• 28:40
  old
• 28:41
  getting
• 28:41
  triggered
• 28:41
  by
• 28:42
  something
• 28:42
  and
• 28:42
  having
• 28:42
  to
• 28:42
  work
• 28:43
  through
• 28:43
  something.
• 28:43
  Like
• 28:44
  you
• 28:44
  said,
• 28:44
  that's
• 28:44
  just
• 28:44
  a.
• 28:45
  You
• 28:45
  know,
• 28:45
  I
• 28:45
  truly
• 28:46
  believe
• 28:46
  that
• 28:46
  God
• 28:46
  doesn't
• 28:47
  give
• 28:47
  you
• 28:47
  any
• 28:47
  more
• 28:47
  than
• 28:47
  you
• 28:48
  can
• 28:48
  handle.
• 28:49
  So
• 28:50
  as
• 28:50
  you
• 28:50
  get
• 28:50
  stronger,
• 28:51
  he
• 28:51
  unravels
• 28:52
  a
• 28:52
  couple
• 28:52
  more
• 28:52
  layers
• 28:53
  here.
• 28:54
  And
• 28:55
  that's
• 28:55
  why
• 28:55
  it's
• 28:56
  a
• 28:56
  lifelong
• 28:56
  thing.
• 28:57
  It's
• 28:57
  not,
• 28:58
  you
• 28:58
  know,
• 28:58
  you
• 28:58
  don't
• 28:58
  see
• 28:59
  a
• 28:59
  stop
• 28:59
  sign
• 28:59
  up
• 29:00
  four
• 29:00
  years
• 29:01
  from
• 29:01
  now
• 29:01
  and
• 29:01
  go,
• 29:01
  oh,
• 29:02
  when
• 29:02
  I
• 29:02
  get
• 29:02
  to
• 29:02
  that
• 29:02
  stop
• 29:03
  sign
• 29:03
  four
• 29:03
  years
• 29:03
  from
• 29:04
  now,
• 29:04
  I'm
• 29:04
  going
• 29:04
  to
• 29:04
  be
• 29:04
  good.
• 29:05
  Because
• 29:06
  that's.
• 29:06
  That's
• 29:07
  not
• 29:07
  what
• 29:07
  it's
• 29:07
  about.
• 29:07
  But
• 29:07
  like
• 29:08
  you
• 29:08
  said,
• 29:08
  it's
• 29:08
  about
• 29:08
  being
• 29:09
  able
• 29:09
  now
• 29:09
  to
• 29:09
  take
• 29:10
  something
• 29:10
  that
• 29:10
  triggers
• 29:10
  you
• 29:11
  and
• 29:11
  very
• 29:11
  easily
• 29:12
  and
• 29:12
  safely
• 29:13
  cope
• 29:13
  with
• 29:14
  it
• 29:14
  and
• 29:14
  deal
• 29:14
  with
• 29:15
  it.
• 29:15
  Absolutely.
• 29:16
  Big
• 29:16
  time.
• 29:17
  Absolutely.
• 29:17
  Without
• 29:18
  a
• 29:18
  doubt.
• 29:18
  Yesterday
• 29:19
  was.
• 29:20
  I
• 29:21
  mean,
• 29:21
  I
• 29:21
  was
• 29:21
  triggered,
• 29:22
  and
• 29:22
  I
• 29:23
  am
• 29:23
  so
• 29:23
  thankful
• 29:23
  that
• 29:24
  I
• 29:24
  have
• 29:25
  an
• 29:25
  amazing
• 29:25
  husband
• 29:26
  that
• 29:26
  I
• 29:26
  can.
• 29:27
  He's.
• 29:28
  He's
• 29:28
  my
• 29:28
  best
• 29:29
  friend,
• 29:29
  and
• 29:29
  he.
• 29:30
  He
• 29:30
  knows
• 29:30
  my
• 29:30
  story
• 29:31
  entirely.
• 29:32
  And
• 29:32
  I
• 29:32
  called
• 29:33
  him
• 29:33
  and
• 29:33
  I
• 29:33
  told
• 29:33
  him,
• 29:34
  listen,
• 29:34
  I
• 29:34
  am
• 29:35
  not
• 29:36
  good
• 29:37
  with
• 29:37
  this
• 29:37
  appointment
• 29:38
  that
• 29:38
  I'm
• 29:38
  going
• 29:39
  to.
• 29:39
  And
• 29:39
  he
• 29:40
  was
• 29:40
  there
• 29:40
  to
• 29:40
  support
• 29:41
  me
• 29:41
  and.
• 29:42
  Definite
• 29:43
  feeling
• 29:43
  that
• 29:43
  support,
• 29:44
  especially
• 29:44
  from
• 29:44
  a
• 29:45
  man,
• 29:45
  it's.
• 29:46
  It's
• 29:46
  a
• 29:46
  very
• 29:47
  important
• 29:47
  part,
• 29:48
  Very
• 29:48
  important
• 29:48
  part
• 29:49
  of
• 29:49
  my
• 29:49
  recovery.
• 29:49
  I'm
• 29:50
  grateful
• 29:50
  for
• 29:50
  him.
• 29:51
  Yeah,
• 29:51
  tremendously.
• 29:52
  Yeah.
• 29:53
  And
• 29:54
  hopefully,
• 29:54
  hopefully
• 29:55
  everybody
• 29:55
  out
• 29:55
  there
• 29:56
  listening
• 29:56
  has
• 29:56
  that
• 29:56
  one
• 29:57
  person.
• 29:57
  And
• 29:58
  it
• 29:58
  doesn't
• 29:58
  always
• 29:58
  have
• 29:59
  to
• 29:59
  be
• 29:59
  your
• 29:59
  spouse.
• 29:59
  It
• 30:00
  can
• 30:00
  be
• 30:00
  a
• 30:00
  best
• 30:00
  friend.
• 30:00
  It
• 30:01
  can
• 30:01
  be
• 30:01
  a
• 30:01
  therapist,
• 30:02
  it
• 30:02
  can
• 30:02
  be
• 30:02
  a
• 30:03
  coach.
• 30:03
  It
• 30:03
  can
• 30:04
  be
• 30:04
  anybody.
• 30:04
  It
• 30:05
  can.
• 30:05
  It
• 30:05
  can
• 30:05
  be
• 30:06
  the
• 30:06
  crossing
• 30:07
  guard
• 30:07
  that.
• 30:07
  When
• 30:08
  you
• 30:08
  walk
• 30:08
  your
• 30:08
  kids
• 30:08
  to
• 30:09
  school.
• 30:09
  Yep,
• 30:10
  that's
• 30:10
  right.
• 30:11
  That's
• 30:11
  right.
• 30:11
  You
• 30:11
  just
• 30:12
  want.
• 30:12
  Everybody
• 30:13
  needs
• 30:13
  that
• 30:13
  one
• 30:13
  person,
• 30:14
  especially
• 30:14
  when
• 30:14
  you're
• 30:15
  younger.
• 30:15
  And
• 30:17
  they
• 30:17
  say
• 30:17
  that
• 30:17
  even
• 30:18
  with
• 30:18
  children
• 30:18
  that
• 30:18
  are
• 30:19
  going
• 30:19
  through
• 30:19
  that
• 30:19
  kind
• 30:19
  of
• 30:20
  trauma,
• 30:20
  if
• 30:20
  every
• 30:20
  child
• 30:21
  had
• 30:21
  one,
• 30:23
  one
• 30:23
  supportive,
• 30:24
  at
• 30:25
  least
• 30:25
  one
• 30:25
  where
• 30:26
  they
• 30:26
  could
• 30:26
  go
• 30:26
  to
• 30:26
  with
• 30:27
  absolutely
• 30:27
  everything,
• 30:28
  the
• 30:28
  trajectory
• 30:29
  of
• 30:29
  your
• 30:29
  life
• 30:29
  would
• 30:30
  be
• 30:30
  a
• 30:30
  hundred
• 30:30
  percent
• 30:30
  different.
• 30:31
  I
• 30:32
  didn't
• 30:32
  have
• 30:32
  that
• 30:32
  person.
• 30:32
  You
• 30:33
  probably
• 30:33
  have
• 30:34
  that
• 30:34
  person.
• 30:35
  Yeah.
• 30:36
  So
• 30:36
  I
• 30:36
  can.
• 30:37
  I
• 30:37
  can
• 30:37
  remember
• 30:37
  saying
• 30:38
  to
• 30:38
  my
• 30:38
  kids,
• 30:38
  you
• 30:38
  know,
• 30:38
  hey,
• 30:39
  if
• 30:39
  you
• 30:39
  don't
• 30:39
  feel
• 30:39
  safe
• 30:40
  coming
• 30:40
  to
• 30:40
  tell
• 30:40
  me
• 30:40
  something,
• 30:41
  find
• 30:42
  someone.
• 30:42
  Find
• 30:43
  someone.
• 30:43
  You
• 30:43
  can
• 30:43
  tell
• 30:44
  if
• 30:44
  it's
• 30:44
  a
• 30:44
  teacher,
• 30:45
  if
• 30:45
  it's
• 30:45
  a
• 30:45
  guidance
• 30:45
  counselor,
• 30:46
  whoever
• 30:46
  it
• 30:46
  is,
• 30:46
  if
• 30:47
  you
• 30:47
  don't
• 30:47
  trust
• 30:47
  me
• 30:48
  with
• 30:48
  it,
• 30:48
  trust
• 30:48
  someone
• 30:49
  with
• 30:49
  it.
• 30:50
  Absolutely.
• 30:50
  So
• 30:51
  that's
• 30:51
  what
• 30:51
  I.
• 30:51
  I
• 30:51
  tell
• 30:51
  my
• 30:52
  kids,
• 30:52
  too.
• 30:52
  They
• 30:52
  are
• 30:53
  full.
• 30:53
  They're.
• 30:54
  They're
• 30:54
  adults
• 30:54
  and
• 30:55
  they
• 30:55
  live
• 30:55
  their
• 30:55
  own
• 30:56
  lives.
• 30:56
  But
• 30:56
  definitely
• 30:57
  I
• 30:57
  tell
• 30:57
  them,
• 30:58
  I
• 30:58
  always
• 30:58
  tell
• 30:58
  them
• 30:58
  I'm
• 30:59
  here
• 31:00
  to
• 31:00
  lend
• 31:00
  a
• 31:01
  hand.
• 31:01
  I'm
• 31:01
  here
• 31:02
  to
• 31:02
  listen.
• 31:03
  I'm
• 31:03
  here
• 31:03
  to
• 31:03
  make
• 31:04
  you
• 31:04
  company,
• 31:04
  even
• 31:05
  if
• 31:05
  you
• 31:05
  don't
• 31:05
  want
• 31:06
  to
• 31:06
  speak
• 31:06
  a
• 31:06
  word.
• 31:07
  I'm
• 31:08
  just
• 31:08
  here
• 31:08
  because
• 31:08
  I
• 31:09
  want
• 31:09
  you
• 31:09
  to
• 31:09
  know
• 31:10
  that
• 31:10
  you
• 31:10
  don't
• 31:11
  have
• 31:11
  to
• 31:11
  go
• 31:11
  through
• 31:11
  this
• 31:11
  alone.
• 31:12
  But
• 31:12
  if
• 31:13
  you
• 31:13
  have
• 31:13
  a
• 31:13
  friend,
• 31:13
  if
• 31:14
  you
• 31:14
  have
• 31:14
  a
• 31:14
  therapist,
• 31:14
  if
• 31:15
  you
• 31:15
  have
• 31:15
  a
• 31:15
  co
• 31:15
  worker,
• 31:15
  if
• 31:15
  you
• 31:16
  have
• 31:16
  whatever
• 31:16
  the
• 31:17
  case
• 31:17
  may
• 31:17
  be,
• 31:18
  but
• 31:18
  make
• 31:18
  sure
• 31:18
  that
• 31:19
  it's
• 31:19
  someone
• 31:20
  that
• 31:21
  will
• 31:21
  give
• 31:21
  you
• 31:22
  words
• 31:22
  of
• 31:23
  support,
• 31:24
  not
• 31:25
  criticism.
• 31:26
  Right.
• 31:27
  Because
• 31:27
  when
• 31:27
  it
• 31:27
  comes,
• 31:28
  when
• 31:28
  criticism
• 31:29
  and
• 31:29
  bullying
• 31:30
  is
• 31:30
  in
• 31:31
  the
• 31:31
  equation,
• 31:31
  then
• 31:32
  you
• 31:33
  rather
• 31:33
  not
• 31:33
  go
• 31:34
  that
• 31:34
  route.
• 31:34
  I
• 31:35
  mean,
• 31:35
  that's
• 31:35
  why
• 31:35
  I.
• 31:35
  I
• 31:36
  come
• 31:36
  from
• 31:36
  a
• 31:36
  very
• 31:36
  big
• 31:37
  family.
• 31:37
  I'm
• 31:38
  Puerto
• 31:38
  Rican,
• 31:38
  and
• 31:38
  it
• 31:39
  was
• 31:39
  a
• 31:39
  huge
• 31:39
  family.
• 31:40
  And
• 31:41
  I
• 31:41
  had
• 31:41
  all
• 31:42
  of
• 31:42
  these
• 31:42
  cousins,
• 31:43
  uncles,
• 31:43
  aunties.
• 31:44
  Everybody
• 31:44
  was
• 31:45
  there,
• 31:46
  and
• 31:46
  still
• 31:46
  I
• 31:47
  felt
• 31:48
  that
• 31:48
  I
• 31:48
  was
• 31:48
  the
• 31:49
  only
• 31:49
  person
• 31:50
  in
• 31:50
  the
• 31:50
  middle
• 31:51
  of
• 31:51
  that
• 31:52
  room.
• 31:53
  And
• 31:53
  nobody
• 31:54
  will
• 31:54
  reach
• 31:54
  out
• 31:55
  to
• 31:55
  Menahan.
• 31:56
  Nobody
• 31:56
  will
• 31:57
  say
• 31:57
  Nothing
• 31:57
  about,
• 31:58
  hey,
• 31:58
  I'm
• 31:58
  here
• 31:58
  for
• 31:59
  you,
• 31:59
  that
• 31:59
  really,
• 31:59
  really
• 32:00
  didn't
• 32:00
  happen.
• 32:01
  And
• 32:01
  that
• 32:02
  I
• 32:02
  take
• 32:02
  as
• 32:03
  a
• 32:03
  less
• 32:04
  as.
• 32:05
  As,
• 32:05
  you
• 32:06
  know,
• 32:06
  words
• 32:06
  of
• 32:06
  wisdom
• 32:07
  for
• 32:07
  someone
• 32:07
  that
• 32:08
  is
• 32:08
  like,
• 32:08
  no,
• 32:08
  don't
• 32:08
  do
• 32:09
  it
• 32:09
  alone,
• 32:09
  because
• 32:10
  it's
• 32:10
  not
• 32:10
  easy.
• 32:11
  The
• 32:11
  world
• 32:12
  gets
• 32:12
  much
• 32:12
  more
• 32:13
  complicated
• 32:13
  than
• 32:13
  that
• 32:13
  when
• 32:14
  you
• 32:14
  even
• 32:14
  try
• 32:15
  to
• 32:15
  do
• 32:16
  things
• 32:16
  alone.
• 32:16
  Because
• 32:16
  it's
• 32:17
  not
• 32:17
  real.
• 32:17
  Definitely.
• 32:18
  It's.
• 32:18
  It's
• 32:19
  not
• 32:19
  real.
• 32:19
  Yeah.
• 32:20
  No.
• 32:21
  And
• 32:21
  also,
• 32:22
  you
• 32:22
  know,
• 32:22
  we
• 32:22
  don't
• 32:23
  know
• 32:23
  what
• 32:23
  we
• 32:23
  don't
• 32:24
  know.
• 32:24
  So
• 32:25
  what
• 32:25
  you're
• 32:25
  thinking
• 32:25
  is,
• 32:26
  you
• 32:26
  know,
• 32:26
  especially
• 32:26
  when
• 32:27
  you
• 32:27
  start
• 32:27
  on
• 32:27
  the
• 32:27
  journey
• 32:28
  and
• 32:28
  all
• 32:28
  of
• 32:28
  your
• 32:28
  feelings,
• 32:29
  all
• 32:29
  of
• 32:29
  your
• 32:29
  emotions,
• 32:30
  everything
• 32:30
  is
• 32:30
  wrapped
• 32:30
  up
• 32:31
  in.
• 32:31
  In
• 32:31
  memories
• 32:32
  or
• 32:33
  what
• 32:33
  was
• 32:34
  kind
• 32:34
  of
• 32:34
  dictated
• 32:35
  to
• 32:35
  you.
• 32:36
  Right.
• 32:37
  You
• 32:37
  know,
• 32:37
  it's
• 32:37
  like
• 32:37
  I
• 32:37
  tell
• 32:38
  people,
• 32:38
  it's
• 32:38
  even
• 32:38
  like
• 32:38
  when
• 32:39
  you
• 32:39
  start
• 32:39
  affirmations,
• 32:40
  it's
• 32:41
  good
• 32:41
  to
• 32:41
  have
• 32:41
  somebody
• 32:42
  to
• 32:42
  be.
• 32:42
  To.
• 32:42
  To
• 32:43
  validate
• 32:43
  even
• 32:43
  those
• 32:44
  affirmations,
• 32:44
  because
• 32:45
  you
• 32:45
  can
• 32:45
  say,
• 32:45
  oh,
• 32:46
  you
• 32:46
  can
• 32:46
  wake
• 32:46
  up
• 32:46
  in
• 32:46
  the
• 32:47
  morning
• 32:47
  and
• 32:47
  you
• 32:47
  could
• 32:47
  look
• 32:47
  at
• 32:47
  a
• 32:48
  picture
• 32:48
  of
• 32:48
  yourself
• 32:48
  on
• 32:48
  the
• 32:48
  mirror
• 32:49
  and
• 32:49
  say,
• 32:49
  I
• 32:49
  am
• 32:49
  beautiful.
• 32:50
  I'm
• 32:50
  amazing.
• 32:50
  I
• 32:51
  am
• 32:51
  good.
• 32:51
  I
• 32:51
  am.
• 32:52
  I
• 32:52
  am
• 32:52
  worthy.
• 32:53
  I'm
• 32:53
  going
• 32:53
  to
• 32:53
  stand
• 32:54
  up
• 32:54
  for
• 32:54
  myself.
• 32:55
  But
• 32:55
  the
• 32:56
  first
• 32:56
  time
• 32:56
  the
• 32:56
  rubber
• 32:57
  hits
• 32:57
  the
• 32:57
  road
• 32:57
  and
• 32:57
  you
• 32:57
  got
• 32:58
  to
• 32:58
  make
• 32:58
  a
• 32:58
  decision,
• 32:58
  you're
• 32:59
  not.
• 32:59
  Not
• 32:59
  now
• 33:00
  going.
• 33:01
  Coming
• 33:01
  from
• 33:02
  that
• 33:02
  logical
• 33:04
  person
• 33:04
  that
• 33:04
  just
• 33:05
  said
• 33:05
  all
• 33:05
  those
• 33:05
  things,
• 33:05
  you're
• 33:06
  coming
• 33:06
  from
• 33:06
  your
• 33:06
  subconscious,
• 33:07
  and
• 33:07
  so
• 33:07
  you're
• 33:08
  going
• 33:08
  to
• 33:08
  act
• 33:08
  differently.
• 33:09
  Yeah.
• 33:10
  So
• 33:10
  that's
• 33:11
  why
• 33:11
  I
• 33:11
  think
• 33:11
  that's
• 33:11
  one
• 33:12
  of
• 33:12
  the
• 33:12
  biggest
• 33:12
  reasons.
• 33:12
  And
• 33:13
  having
• 33:13
  that
• 33:13
  support
• 33:14
  system,
• 33:14
  too,
• 33:14
  is
• 33:14
  that
• 33:15
  what
• 33:16
  you
• 33:16
  see
• 33:16
  is
• 33:16
  your
• 33:17
  normal.
• 33:17
  Yeah.
• 33:18
  So
• 33:18
  you
• 33:18
  think
• 33:18
  you're
• 33:19
  just
• 33:19
  going
• 33:19
  to
• 33:19
  continue
• 33:19
  those
• 33:20
  patterns
• 33:20
  because
• 33:20
  it's
• 33:20
  your
• 33:21
  norm.
• 33:22
  Yeah,
• 33:22
  that's
• 33:22
  right.
• 33:23
  That's
• 33:23
  right.
• 33:23
  Until.
• 33:24
  Until
• 33:24
  you
• 33:24
  get
• 33:25
  out
• 33:25
  of
• 33:25
  that
• 33:25
  comfort
• 33:26
  zone
• 33:26
  and
• 33:26
  start
• 33:27
  breaking
• 33:27
  the
• 33:28
  chains
• 33:28
  of
• 33:29
  generational
• 33:30
  trauma.
• 33:31
  That
• 33:31
  is
• 33:32
  a
• 33:32
  big,
• 33:32
  profound,
• 33:34
  lengthy
• 33:35
  process,
• 33:36
  that
• 33:36
  is
• 33:37
  for
• 33:37
  sure.
• 33:38
  Yes.
• 33:38
  Yes.
• 33:39
  And
• 33:39
  like
• 33:40
  I
• 33:40
  said,
• 33:40
  though,
• 33:40
  and
• 33:40
  I
• 33:41
  think
• 33:41
  you've
• 33:41
  already
• 33:41
  said,
• 33:41
  too,
• 33:42
  every
• 33:42
  step
• 33:42
  forward
• 33:43
  is
• 33:43
  so
• 33:43
  worth
• 33:43
  it.
• 33:44
  It's
• 33:44
  every
• 33:45
  single
• 33:45
  tiny
• 33:45
  step.
• 33:46
  So
• 33:46
  I
• 33:46
  always
• 33:46
  ask
• 33:46
  people,
• 33:47
  you
• 33:47
  know,
• 33:47
  what's
• 33:48
  one.
• 33:48
  One
• 33:49
  little
• 33:49
  tiny
• 33:50
  thing
• 33:50
  you
• 33:50
  can
• 33:50
  do
• 33:50
  today
• 33:51
  to
• 33:52
  just
• 33:52
  go
• 33:52
  a
• 33:52
  little
• 33:53
  forward?
• 33:53
  You
• 33:54
  know?
• 33:54
  That's
• 33:54
  right.
• 33:55
  Stand
• 33:55
  up
• 33:55
  for
• 33:55
  yourself
• 33:55
  a
• 33:56
  little
• 33:56
  more.
• 33:57
  Be
• 33:57
  a
• 33:57
  little
• 33:57
  more
• 33:57
  the
• 33:58
  person
• 33:58
  you
• 33:58
  want
• 33:58
  to
• 33:58
  be.
• 33:59
  Take
• 33:59
  care
• 33:59
  of
• 33:59
  yourself
• 33:59
  a
• 34:00
  little
• 34:00
  more
• 34:00
  every
• 34:01
  day,
• 34:01
  do
• 34:01
  one
• 34:01
  little
• 34:02
  thing,
• 34:02
  and
• 34:02
  that
• 34:02
  just.
• 34:03
  It
• 34:03
  compounds.
• 34:04
  Yes,
• 34:05
  absolutely.
• 34:05
  Literally
• 34:06
  compounds.
• 34:07
  Absolutely.
• 34:08
  Well,
• 34:08
  Blanca,
• 34:08
  I
• 34:09
  could
• 34:09
  talk
• 34:09
  to
• 34:09
  you
• 34:09
  all
• 34:09
  day
• 34:10
  long,
• 34:10
  but
• 34:11
  I
• 34:11
  know
• 34:12
  you
• 34:12
  do.
• 34:12
  You're
• 34:12
  here
• 34:13
  in
• 34:13
  Florida.
• 34:13
  Do
• 34:14
  you
• 34:14
  work
• 34:14
  remotely?
• 34:15
  Do
• 34:15
  you
• 34:15
  work.
• 34:15
  Do
• 34:15
  you
• 34:15
  have
• 34:15
  an
• 34:16
  office?
• 34:16
  I
• 34:16
  mean,
• 34:16
  obviously
• 34:17
  for
• 34:17
  animal
• 34:18
  massage,
• 34:18
  you
• 34:18
  need
• 34:19
  an
• 34:19
  office,
• 34:19
  but
• 34:20
  so
• 34:21
  for
• 34:21
  animal.
• 34:22
  Massage
• 34:22
  and
• 34:23
  a
• 34:24
  human
• 34:24
  massage.
• 34:25
  I
• 34:25
  have
• 34:25
  an
• 34:25
  office
• 34:26
  for
• 34:26
  animal
• 34:26
  massage.
• 34:27
  I
• 34:27
  go
• 34:27
  to
• 34:27
  the
• 34:28
  animal
• 34:29
  house
• 34:29
  because
• 34:30
  that's
• 34:30
  where
• 34:30
  they
• 34:30
  feel
• 34:31
  safer
• 34:31
  and
• 34:32
  more
• 34:32
  at
• 34:33
  ease.
• 34:33
  So
• 34:33
  I
• 34:33
  go
• 34:34
  to.
• 34:34
  I
• 34:34
  do
• 34:35
  home
• 34:35
  calls
• 34:36
  for
• 34:36
  dog
• 34:36
  massage.
• 34:37
  Not
• 34:37
  for
• 34:37
  humans
• 34:38
  humans.
• 34:38
  They
• 34:39
  go
• 34:39
  to
• 34:39
  the
• 34:40
  office
• 34:40
  where
• 34:40
  I
• 34:40
  am
• 34:41
  at
• 34:41
  here
• 34:42
  in
• 34:42
  Stuart,
• 34:43
  Florida.
• 34:43
  And
• 34:44
  I
• 34:44
  work
• 34:44
  remotely
• 34:45
  for
• 34:45
  people
• 34:46
  with.
• 34:46
  For
• 34:46
  holistic
• 34:47
  life
• 34:47
  coaching.
• 34:48
  I
• 34:48
  do
• 34:48
  that
• 34:48
  remotely.
• 34:49
  And
• 34:50
  I
• 34:50
  have
• 34:50
  my.
• 34:50
  I
• 34:51
  see
• 34:51
  most
• 34:51
  of
• 34:51
  my
• 34:51
  clients,
• 34:52
  I
• 34:52
  see
• 34:52
  them
• 34:52
  online
• 34:53
  actually.
• 34:53
  I'm
• 34:54
  a
• 34:54
  group
• 34:54
  fitness
• 34:54
  instructor
• 34:55
  as
• 34:55
  well.
• 34:56
  So
• 34:56
  I
• 34:57
  do
• 34:57
  Sumba
• 34:58
  classes
• 34:58
  for
• 34:59
  populations
• 35:00
  55
• 35:01
  plus.
• 35:02
  So
• 35:02
  I
• 35:02
  am
• 35:03
  very
• 35:03
  happy
• 35:03
  to
• 35:04
  do
• 35:04
  that.
• 35:04
  I'm
• 35:04
  a
• 35:05
  speaker
• 35:06
  educator.
• 35:06
  I
• 35:07
  do
• 35:07
  my
• 35:07
  authorship.
• 35:08
  But
• 35:08
  yes,
• 35:09
  all
• 35:09
  of
• 35:09
  these
• 35:10
  hats
• 35:11
  that
• 35:11
  I
• 35:11
  wear
• 35:12
  are
• 35:12
  all
• 35:12
  with
• 35:12
  the
• 35:13
  same
• 35:14
  exact
• 35:15
  purpose,
• 35:16
  to
• 35:16
  help
• 35:17
  others
• 35:17
  improve
• 35:18
  their
• 35:18
  quality
• 35:19
  of
• 35:19
  life,
• 35:19
  no
• 35:19
  matter
• 35:20
  what
• 35:20
  age
• 35:21
  we
• 35:21
  are.
• 35:22
  And
• 35:22
  I
• 35:22
  am
• 35:22
  very
• 35:23
  humble,
• 35:23
  grateful
• 35:24
  and
• 35:24
  honored
• 35:25
  that
• 35:26
  all
• 35:26
  of
• 35:27
  these
• 35:27
  different
• 35:27
  craft
• 35:29
  that
• 35:29
  I've
• 35:30
  been
• 35:30
  building
• 35:30
  over
• 35:30
  the
• 35:31
  years,
• 35:31
  they
• 35:31
  came
• 35:31
  in
• 35:32
  together
• 35:33
  into
• 35:33
  one
• 35:34
  umbrella
• 35:34
  that
• 35:34
  is
• 35:35
  called
• 35:35
  Wounded
• 35:35
  Healer.
• 35:36
  So
• 35:36
  I'm,
• 35:36
  I'm
• 35:37
  very
• 35:37
  happy
• 35:37
  about
• 35:37
  that.
• 35:38
  Very
• 35:38
  proud
• 35:39
  and
• 35:39
  I
• 35:39
  think,
• 35:40
  yes,
• 35:40
  that's
• 35:40
  great.
• 35:40
  So
• 35:41
  if
• 35:41
  people
• 35:41
  want
• 35:41
  to
• 35:41
  reach
• 35:41
  out,
• 35:42
  find
• 35:42
  you,
• 35:42
  how
• 35:42
  is
• 35:43
  the
• 35:43
  best
• 35:43
  place
• 35:43
  to
• 35:44
  find
• 35:44
  you?
• 35:45
  Yes,
• 35:45
  you
• 35:46
  can
• 35:46
  call
• 35:46
  me
• 35:46
  at
• 35:47
  772-475-0126
• 35:49
  or
• 35:50
  my
• 35:51
  website,
• 35:51
  www.
• 35:53
  Woundedhealer.us.
• 35:56
  Okay.
• 35:56
  And
• 35:56
  I
• 35:57
  will
• 35:57
  put
• 35:57
  that
• 35:57
  in
• 35:57
  the
• 35:57
  show
• 35:57
  notes.
• 35:58
  So
• 35:58
  if
• 35:58
  you
• 35:58
  just
• 35:58
  tried
• 35:59
  to
• 35:59
  listen
• 35:59
  to
• 35:59
  that
• 35:59
  real
• 36:00
  quick
• 36:00
  and
• 36:00
  try
• 36:00
  to
• 36:00
  write
• 36:01
  it
• 36:01
  down,
• 36:02
  don't
• 36:02
  worry
• 36:02
  about
• 36:02
  it.
• 36:03
  It'll
• 36:03
  be
• 36:03
  in
• 36:03
  the
• 36:03
  show
• 36:03
  notes
• 36:05
  so
• 36:05
  you
• 36:05
  can
• 36:05
  get
• 36:06
  hold
• 36:06
  of
• 36:06
  Blanca.
• 36:07
  And
• 36:07
  I
• 36:08
  so
• 36:08
  appreciate
• 36:08
  you
• 36:09
  coming.
• 36:10
  Thank
• 36:10
  you.
• 36:10
  Tammy,
• 36:11
  thank
• 36:11
  you
• 36:11
  so
• 36:11
  much
• 36:11
  for,
• 36:11
  for
• 36:12
  having
• 36:12
  me.
• 36:12
  What
• 36:12
  an
• 36:13
  honor
• 36:13
  has
• 36:13
  been
• 36:13
  to
• 36:13
  be
• 36:14
  here.
• 36:14
  What
• 36:14
  a
• 36:14
  joy.
• 36:15
  Well,
• 36:15
  you
• 36:16
  have
• 36:16
  a
• 36:16
  most
• 36:16
  wonderful
• 36:17
  day.
• 36:17
  And
• 36:18
  for
• 36:18
  everybody
• 36:18
  else
• 36:18
  out
• 36:19
  there
• 36:19
  listening,
• 36:19
  like
• 36:19
  she
• 36:20
  said,
• 36:20
  just
• 36:20
  one
• 36:20
  step
• 36:21
  at
• 36:21
  a
• 36:21
  time.
• 36:21
  There's.
• 36:22
  There's
• 36:22
  so
• 36:22
  many
• 36:22
  different
• 36:22
  things
• 36:23
  you
• 36:23
  can
• 36:23
  do.
• 36:24
  I
• 36:24
  think
• 36:24
  she
• 36:24
  mentioned
• 36:25
  reiki,
• 36:25
  she
• 36:25
  mentioned
• 36:26
  massage,
• 36:27
  she
• 36:27
  mentioned
• 36:27
  aromatherapy,
• 36:28
  she
• 36:29
  mentioned
• 36:29
  all
• 36:29
  of
• 36:29
  these
• 36:30
  things
• 36:31
  and
• 36:32
  they're
• 36:33
  all
• 36:33
  good.
• 36:33
  Everything
• 36:34
  works.
• 36:34
  It's
• 36:35
  a
• 36:35
  body,
• 36:35
  mind
• 36:35
  and
• 36:35
  spirit.
• 36:36
  You
• 36:36
  have
• 36:36
  to
• 36:36
  integrate
• 36:37
  it
• 36:37
  all
• 36:37
  together.
• 36:38
  You
• 36:38
  can't
• 36:38
  just
• 36:38
  fix
• 36:39
  one.
• 36:39
  It's
• 36:39
  a
• 36:39
  big
• 36:40
  package
• 36:40
  deal.
• 36:40
  That's
• 36:41
  why
• 36:41
  having
• 36:41
  these
• 36:42
  wonderful
• 36:43
  people
• 36:44
  that
• 36:45
  have
• 36:45
  encompassed
• 36:46
  it
• 36:46
  all
• 36:46
  in
• 36:46
  their
• 36:47
  training
• 36:47
  is
• 36:47
  amazing.
• 36:48
  So
• 36:48
  she
• 36:48
  has
• 36:48
  quite
• 36:49
  a
• 36:49
  box
• 36:49
  of
• 36:49
  tools
• 36:50
  and
• 36:50
  we
• 36:50
  appreciate
• 36:51
  you
• 36:51
  coming
• 36:52
  and
• 36:53
  everybody
• 36:53
  else,
• 36:54
  as
• 36:54
  always,
• 36:54
  if
• 36:54
  you
• 36:55
  have
• 36:55
  any
• 36:55
  questions,
• 36:55
  if
• 36:56
  any
• 36:56
  of
• 36:56
  this
• 36:56
  resonates
• 36:56
  with
• 36:57
  you,
• 36:57
  please
• 36:57
  reach
• 36:58
  out.
• 36:58
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• 36:58
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• 36:58
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• 37:03
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• 37:03
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• 37:03
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