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INTERVIEW: Tiffany Haddish Speaks On Sobriety, Father Figures, New Book, New Music + More · The Breakfast Club

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  Speaker 1: Wake that ass up in the morning.
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  Speaker 2: Breakfast Club Morning, everybody's tej n V.
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  Speaker 3: Just hilarious.
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  Speaker 4: Chelamine the guy. We are the Breakfast Club. We got
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  Speaker 4: a special guest in the building. Good sister, Tiffany Haddish
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  Speaker 4: is back.
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  Speaker 5: Welcome.
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  Speaker 1: Hey boo. Yeah, I'm feeling fantastic. How are you feeling bless.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah?
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  Speaker 1: I feel good.
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  Speaker 5: There you go. Yeah, new book. I curse you with joy.
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  Speaker 5: Talk to me about it.
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  Speaker 1: But you know, it's funny. Everybody's calling it, I curse
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  Speaker 1: you with joy. But I call it because at the
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  Speaker 1: top of the page, if you look at the front
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  Speaker 1: page and say, Tiffany Hattish, I curse you with joy?
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  Speaker 5: Got you?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, Yeah, because I think that's important to be I
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  Speaker 1: need to say it. I need to say that. But
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  Speaker 1: you can say I curse you with joy.
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  Speaker 6: You've been saying that since I've known you. You always
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  Speaker 6: do that, like curse people with joy.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, because there's a lot of unhappy people. And I mean,
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  Speaker 1: if you look at the internet, you can see it's
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  Speaker 1: a lot of like it's a lot of hate and
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  Speaker 1: anger and sadness out there. And I could, like, you know,
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  Speaker 1: combat that with the same thing. Or I could say
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  Speaker 1: you know what, I curt you with some joy because
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  Speaker 1: you obviously are not happy. So I'm sharing some stories
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  Speaker 1: in this book. It's it's a series of essays, if
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  Speaker 1: you will. And then I'm sharing some dark things about
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  Speaker 1: my existence and how I find the bright side of it.
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  Speaker 4: You know what got you to the point to write
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  Speaker 4: the book? Was it a particular comment? Was it something
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  Speaker 4: that somebody said, or you just was all of the above.
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  Speaker 5: No.
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  Speaker 1: I had always wanted to do that, but because the
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  Speaker 1: first book, Tiffany hottis the Last Black Unicorn, that first
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  Speaker 1: one I had edited down when I had took a
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  Speaker 1: lot of stuff out because it was too long. I
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  Speaker 1: don't like super long, but I don't like them too
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  Speaker 1: long personally. If I'm not gonna read it, why would
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  Speaker 1: I expect somebody else to read it? Right? So I
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  Speaker 1: took a lot out on this next book. I curt
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  Speaker 1: you with joy. I you know, all the stuff that
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  Speaker 1: I had took out the first book I put in
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  Speaker 1: this book, plus more of the journey of being this,
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  Speaker 1: you know, shot out of a cannon star. I guess
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  Speaker 1: you would say, uh, it's it's been an interesting journey.
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  Speaker 1: You know. You guys have known me since the beginning
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  Speaker 1: of the journey. You guys have seen the whole ups
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  Speaker 1: and downs and all of that, and I'm like, this
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  Speaker 1: is the craziest roller coaster. And nobody gives you a
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  Speaker 1: manual on how to be famous. Nobody gives you a
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  Speaker 1: manual on how to handle certain things. And you have
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  Speaker 1: to figure that. You got to figure it out, and
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  Speaker 1: it's it is hard. It is very hard, but I'm
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  Speaker 1: having fun doing it.
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  Speaker 3: What was the most difficult part, you said you figured
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  Speaker 3: it out.
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  Speaker 1: The most difficult part was not rolling up on somebody
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  Speaker 1: and whipping the ass, right, because I'm from the nineteen
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  Speaker 1: hundred and we'll show up to your mama house and
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  Speaker 1: beat your ass. That's what it is like, the good
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  Speaker 1: old days.
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  Speaker 6: You know.
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  Speaker 1: Oh you're talking shit. Okay, I'm gonna come over there
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  Speaker 1: and beat you up. But you know one of my
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  Speaker 1: period come on, and I got some time. I will
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  Speaker 1: call people. I will make a phone call that.
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  Speaker 4: You were Actually I guess you found an app that
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  Speaker 4: you could actually find out where these people live or
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  Speaker 4: find their number.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, you can find you can find people. You know.
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  Speaker 1: I used to be married to a private investigator, so
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  Speaker 1: I know how to get your business if I want to.
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  Speaker 1: And so when the lady in the red dress show up,
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  Speaker 1: I become a little evil and I'll be having time.
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes sometimes I have time. And so then I decided
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  Speaker 1: to take that time to invest in people that like
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  Speaker 1: to talk shit and I and I and I'll put
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  Speaker 1: your business out there, not like docks you or nothing
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  Speaker 1: like that, but you know, I'll call you or I'll
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  Speaker 1: make comments on your page and you you won't know
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  Speaker 1: it's me, but I'll make comments about you know, police
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  Speaker 1: records and shit.
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  Speaker 5: So when you call these the trolls, you call saying
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  Speaker 5: this is Tiffany Hattis.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I'll be like, h is this blah blah blah,
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  Speaker 1: and they'd be like, yep, I'll be like this Tiffany Hattish.
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  Speaker 1: They'd be like what nah what, no, No, this is
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  Speaker 1: Tiffany Hattish. I saw. First of all, I want to say, uh,
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  Speaker 1: I know you loved me because you spent three hours
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  Speaker 1: making a video. Uh the video was three hours, so
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  Speaker 1: I know you spent at least six editing it and
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  Speaker 1: all of that, like searching for pictures and finally like
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  Speaker 1: thank you, I appreciate you. Or you know, I see
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  Speaker 1: your whole YouTube pages about me. So I just wanted
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  Speaker 1: to say thank you, and I wanted to let you
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  Speaker 1: know that I'm about to monetize your videos because you know,
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  Speaker 1: you use something my content in there, so I'm gonna
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  Speaker 1: need to get paid too. And they be like you crazy,
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  Speaker 1: ain't no way.
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  Speaker 5: This is you.
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  Speaker 1: No no, no, no no no, I'm not crazy. I'm
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  Speaker 1: not crazy. I have endometriosis. And so I'm telling you
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  Speaker 1: I'm using it. I'm using it. I'm using the energy
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  Speaker 1: towards something positive. So I just wanted to let you
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  Speaker 1: know how.
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  Speaker 7: I know you let me be therapeutic for you, don't
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  Speaker 7: like in any way. I don't know.
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  Speaker 1: I've been therapy so long. I don't know. I don't
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  Speaker 1: know if it was therapeutic. I felt like it was
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  Speaker 1: more so, uh, informative for others, like it was my
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  Speaker 1: way of sharing. For others, Uh, some parts are a
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  Speaker 1: little cathartic or whatever, But for me, it was more
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  Speaker 1: so like I want people to know they're not the
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  Speaker 1: only person going through what they're going through, and just
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  Speaker 1: because somebody's famous doesn't mean they're not a regular human being,
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  Speaker 1: and that they're not there's not good days. There's good days,
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  Speaker 1: but there's not like bad days. There's sometimes it's more
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  Speaker 1: bad days than good, especially like I don't know, dealing
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  Speaker 1: with the Greek. Losing my grandma really kind of just
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  Speaker 1: threw me for a loop, like and I feel like,
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  Speaker 1: I feel like my soul was like, look, we're gonna
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  Speaker 1: have we don't have too many losses at this point,
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  Speaker 1: so we're gonna have to sit down and deal with it.
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  Speaker 1: And if you don't sit down and deal with it,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna make you do things that's gonna
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  Speaker 1: have to make you sit down and deal with it. So, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: the one of those things that was always in the plan,
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  Speaker 1: that was always something I had been working on. I
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  Speaker 1: think getting arrested was one of those things that may go, oh,
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  Speaker 1: let me sit down there, let me look at this.
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  Speaker 1: That'll be all of that. All of those are rest
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  Speaker 1: stories will be in the next book. Tiffany had it.
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  Speaker 1: I'm still here, Bitch.
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  Speaker 5: Was the daddy issues chapter. Hard.
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  Speaker 1: That was the hardest one. That was the hard That
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  Speaker 1: was the hardest one. Even thinking about it is hard.
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  Speaker 1: That was the hardest one because I realized, like, man,
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  Speaker 1: this is it's hard not having a dad. And then
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  Speaker 1: like when I met my dad, it was like I
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  Speaker 1: was a little girl all over again, and like I
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  Speaker 1: remember everything about him, and you know, even though I
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  Speaker 1: was three years old the last time I saw him,
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  Speaker 1: I remember how he smelled, I remember what he sounded like,
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  Speaker 1: and I could just just hearing his voice, my whole
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  Speaker 1: soul lit up, like nobody sound like my daddy. Nobody
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  Speaker 1: could be my daddy. And so but there was years
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  Speaker 1: I was trying to find my dad, like, you know,
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  Speaker 1: through other men and through whatever I was doing stupid shit.
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  Speaker 1: I was done. And it's a lot of us out
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  Speaker 1: here like that. And yeah, but you can, you can
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  Speaker 1: pull past all that and grow and be successful. You
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  Speaker 1: about to make me cry?
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  Speaker 5: Is it true? Women really look for that? And men like,
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  Speaker 5: do they look like look for somebody that's like their daddy?
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  Speaker 3: I don't.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know what other women looking for.
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  Speaker 1: I know what I was looking for. I was looking for.
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  Speaker 1: I was looking for like safety. I wanted to feel safe.
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  Speaker 1: I wanted to feel like no fear. For so many
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  Speaker 1: years growing up, it was like every day was scary,
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  Speaker 1: you know, just be scared every day. So then to
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  Speaker 1: decide like I'm not gonna be scared no more, and
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna find somebody that's gonna, you know, do this
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  Speaker 1: with me and protect me and love on me and
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  Speaker 1: hold me and like take care of me and kiss
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  Speaker 1: on me and tell me I'm doing good, you know. Uh,
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  Speaker 1: but I mayn't find that. It's hard to find. Also,
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  Speaker 1: I'm a little bit I'm a little difficulty. I'm sweet,
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  Speaker 1: though a little difficult. I want to do what I
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  Speaker 1: want to do because I never that's part of I
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  Speaker 1: think not growing up with the fathers, Like I don't
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  Speaker 1: know how to I know how to take orders right,
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  Speaker 1: and I know how to get things done. If you
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  Speaker 1: ask me to do something, I'm gonna get it done
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  Speaker 1: for you, but I'm gonna do it on my time
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  Speaker 1: when I feel like it. And if a man is
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  Speaker 1: like I need you to call me when you leave
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  Speaker 1: out of it, I want you to be here at
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  Speaker 1: this time whatever if you're not. If I'm not getting
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  Speaker 1: a paycheck, I'm gonna show up when I feel like it.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna be at your house when I feel like
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  Speaker 1: coming to your house. Uh. You know. That's I think
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  Speaker 1: that's been the biggest issue, is like I don't want
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  Speaker 1: to feel like I got an answer to this man,
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  Speaker 1: because you're not paying my mortgage, you're not. Like if
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  Speaker 1: I'm just humping on you, then like you're not. But
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  Speaker 1: if we're in a relationship, I feel like there's some
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  Speaker 1: common courtesy, right, But I don't have to I don't
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  Speaker 1: have to do back bends for you.
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  Speaker 6: If the man ain't making that kind of commitment, you
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  Speaker 6: got to make a real commitment.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, you need to be like my has been. Then
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  Speaker 1: I might be like, Okay, I'm gonna be, not even
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  Speaker 1: might I'm gonna be I'll mold myself into what I
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  Speaker 1: need to be if I need to even mold myself.
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  Speaker 1: But the fact that I'm saying mold myself means it's
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  Speaker 1: a problem. So you need to be okay with me
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  Speaker 1: being how I am and who I am, and if
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  Speaker 1: you don't like something I'm doing, inspire me to do different.
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  Speaker 7: So you've never had that type of relationship yet where
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  Speaker 7: you would be like, Okay, I'm gonna let this man lead.
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  Speaker 8: Like no one has ever shown you that they that
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  Speaker 8: I let.
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  Speaker 1: Men lead all the time. I let them lead, But
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  Speaker 1: that don't mean I'm gonna follow all the way. I'm
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  Speaker 1: start saying like this is not going I don't feel safe.
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  Speaker 1: This don't feel safe. I'm not gonna be like. You
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, I need to feel safe.
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  Speaker 1: I need to feel like. I need to feel like.
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  Speaker 1: This is where I'm gonna be. Like spiritually, I need
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  Speaker 1: to feel safe. Emotionally, I need to feel safe. Physically,
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  Speaker 1: I need to feel safe. Financially, I need to feel safe.
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  Speaker 1: And I don't don't need to be feeling like I'm
• 10:01
  Speaker 1: being used. If I feel any type of way, I'm
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  Speaker 1: being used or manipulated in some kind of way. Uh
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  Speaker 1: what like? No, And if you're using me, tell me
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  Speaker 1: you using me so I could use you to like, Oh,
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  Speaker 1: I can help you use me better. You know what
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  Speaker 1: I'm saying. I don't like being I don't like I
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  Speaker 1: don't I'm here to be used. We all are here
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  Speaker 1: to be used for some purpose something, right, So but
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  Speaker 1: tell me what you're using me for and I might
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  Speaker 1: help you get it done better. Don't don't sneak it.
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  Speaker 1: Don't do it sneakily or whatever. And like think I'm
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  Speaker 1: stupid because I'm not. I might be. I might be
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  Speaker 1: setting you up to get fucked.
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  Speaker 5: Use me, don't misuse me, Yeah, use me.
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  Speaker 1: Don't abuse me.
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  Speaker 4: Now you said something about you know, not having that
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  Speaker 4: father figure that you wanted in your life. So how
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  Speaker 4: have you dealt with it? Because you know, have you
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  Speaker 4: used somebody else? Is it your a sister figure, a brother.
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  Speaker 2: Or something else that you lean on when you have
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  Speaker 2: those feelings.
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  Speaker 1: When I have those feelings, I call my brothers. I
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  Speaker 1: call like, uh okay. Getting in a stand up for
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  Speaker 1: me was like I guess, building like a bunch of
• 11:01
  Speaker 1: like a force filled around me of men that I
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  Speaker 1: think will keep me safe right and a lot of
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  Speaker 1: them have a lot of them have protected me over
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  Speaker 1: the years, and I can get all the hugs I
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  Speaker 1: want and like words of encouragement that I need. Like
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  Speaker 1: That's why I love stand up so much. I remember
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  Speaker 1: being like sixteen years old going to like do a
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  Speaker 1: set on a regular night at the Live Factory and
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  Speaker 1: all the comics gave me hugs. Every single man gave
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  Speaker 1: me a hug, and I didn't feel like they was
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  Speaker 1: gonna do something to me.
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  Speaker 3: They didn't feel sexual, felt like.
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  Speaker 1: It felt like I just felt like yeah, it felt
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  Speaker 1: like family, like support, Like hey, I know how you feel.
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  Speaker 1: Like I'm here for you. I'm not trying to put
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  Speaker 1: my dick in you. That's what it felt like. People care,
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  Speaker 1: And that's what I guess kept me really in the
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  Speaker 1: comedy club. That's what kept me coming back is I
• 11:50
  Speaker 1: needed that support. I needed men to talk to about like,
• 11:53
  Speaker 1: am I am I crazy? Right now? Is does this
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  Speaker 1: make sense? Does this make like? And then I could
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  Speaker 1: call any of them at any time Charlotte and I'll
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  Speaker 1: randomly call and talk two fours on it like it's uh.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I got a ganga of big brothers
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  Speaker 1: and father figures like Tom dreeson All White Man. But
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  Speaker 1: he give me some of the best advice and he
• 12:14
  Speaker 1: like just He'll hope I'll be crying, He'll just hold me,
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  Speaker 1: you know all I like. I like bringing the I'll
• 12:20
  Speaker 1: bring the guys that I'm like dating by him, and
• 12:22
  Speaker 1: he'll be like that one's not gonna make it, Tiffany Dunk,
• 12:25
  Speaker 1: don't let that guy go. He's not gonna make it. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I do. At first, I didn't listen to him and
• 12:32
  Speaker 1: and and he was right every single time. He was like,
• 12:35
  Speaker 1: this man is not gonna be able to handle your grow.
• 12:37
  Speaker 1: You're growing, He's not gonna be able to grow with you.
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  Speaker 1: He's not gonna be able to handle your star power.
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  Speaker 1: Look how he's acting right now. And I'm like, no,
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  Speaker 1: he good, he good, he's protecting me. He's like, no,
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  Speaker 1: he's insecure. It's not gonna work for you.
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  Speaker 6: You keep using a word, and I think we don't
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  Speaker 6: use enough with your safety feel safe around each other? Right,
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  Speaker 6: Like that's the whole purpose of community, to make each
• 13:01
  Speaker 6: other feel safe.
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  Speaker 5: We're not making each other feel safe. What's the point.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, there's no point of me even spending time with
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  Speaker 1: you or talking to you, or wasting any energy on you.
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  Speaker 1: If I don't feel safe with you, I'm like, I
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  Speaker 1: don't want nothing to do with you. I'll ghost you.
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  Speaker 1: I'm on ghost you. I'll just be like I don't
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  Speaker 1: feel safe, and then I want to not answer no
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  Speaker 1: more phone calls.
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  Speaker 6: And that should be enough. You got a chapter called
• 13:22
  Speaker 6: How I Keep My ass in Check? If you're not
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  Speaker 6: the easiest person to keep in checks, who are keeping
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  Speaker 6: you in check?
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  Speaker 5: Me? Okay, okay, me?
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  Speaker 3: How you do it?
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  Speaker 1: How do I do it? I reprimand myself from time
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  Speaker 1: to time. I put myself on I do put myself
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  Speaker 1: on punishment times out uh, and I look at you know,
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  Speaker 1: sometimes you got to look at like certain behavior and
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  Speaker 1: be like, wow, okay, why did you do that on
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  Speaker 1: this day? Well, I know why I did it. The
• 13:48
  Speaker 1: world don't understand why you did it, but you know
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  Speaker 1: why you did it, and you know. And what I'm
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  Speaker 1: eating I noticed too, Like what I eat causes me
• 13:57
  Speaker 1: to act a certain kind of way. Too much sugar,
• 14:00
  Speaker 1: I get a little bit aggressive, and stuff too much alcohol.
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  Speaker 1: I get aggressive. If I don't get enough sleep, I
• 14:08
  Speaker 1: will take a nap in a white community and the
• 14:10
  Speaker 1: police will show up. The police will show up, guaranteed,
• 14:16
  Speaker 1: and then and then I feel safe again. I do
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  Speaker 1: not feel safe, but Beverly Hills Police Station is beautiful.
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  Speaker 1: I did feel safe then. But yeah, I mean, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not perfect. I keep my myself in check as best
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  Speaker 1: I can. I treat everybody the way I want to
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  Speaker 1: be treated. When I do wrong, I admit. I admit
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  Speaker 1: to my mistakes, you know. I accept responsibility for my mistakes,
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  Speaker 1: and I grow from them. I'm not big on making
• 14:43
  Speaker 1: the same mistake twice, but I'm definitely working on boundaries,
• 14:48
  Speaker 1: like because I want to help everybody, And if you call,
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  Speaker 1: like if it's if you're somebody I care about and
• 14:53
  Speaker 1: you call like I need this, I need that, I
• 14:55
  Speaker 1: need help with this. I will come and help. It's funny,
• 14:58
  Speaker 1: like my immediate family, the people I care about more
• 15:00
  Speaker 1: than anybody, They'll barely calling me because they know that
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  Speaker 1: I'll like that I'll show up, or that I'll talk shit,
• 15:06
  Speaker 1: but I'll still show up. I only talk shit to them.
• 15:08
  Speaker 1: I don't talk shit to everybody else, just my immediate family.
• 15:11
  Speaker 6: What's been sick h what makes you feel safe or
• 15:15
  Speaker 6: what's been safe for Hollywood?
• 15:17
  Speaker 5: Or just like before Hollywood, like just being.
• 15:19
  Speaker 1: Ah being poor was way safer being being Like I
• 15:25
  Speaker 1: feel like I was hood famous anyway, so uh like
• 15:28
  Speaker 1: everybody in my community knew who I was. Everybody in
• 15:31
  Speaker 1: South Central I feel like knew who I was, so
• 15:33
  Speaker 1: I felt pretty safe. I could go to any gang
• 15:36
  Speaker 1: community and chill every I go to all the hood days.
• 15:40
  Speaker 1: I can't do that no more, I can't. I mean
• 15:43
  Speaker 1: I have done it. And what you're doing over here,
• 15:46
  Speaker 1: get out of here, like you can't be over here
• 15:48
  Speaker 1: on the hood day, like like fuck y'all, I'm over
• 15:50
  Speaker 1: here for like fifteen minutes and then I'm gonna go
• 15:52
  Speaker 1: this spot.
• 15:53
  Speaker 6: But and you know, everybody, I guess when you're in
• 15:57
  Speaker 6: the community, you know who's who. Yeah, I know this business,
• 15:59
  Speaker 6: you don't know who's who.
• 16:00
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you don't know who's who in this business. It's like,
• 16:03
  Speaker 1: you know, it's a bunch of wolves and sheep clothing,
• 16:06
  Speaker 1: and you just got to know how to smell out
• 16:08
  Speaker 1: the wolves. You gotta figure out who's who. And I
• 16:10
  Speaker 1: mean you can, you can figure out pretty quick. I
• 16:13
  Speaker 1: mean I feel like I have been able to figure
• 16:14
  Speaker 1: it out pretty quick. Like if they always asking you
• 16:16
  Speaker 1: to do something, but when you ask them to do something,
• 16:19
  Speaker 1: they not available for you, that's a problem. Even oh
• 16:24
  Speaker 1: you know what. It was crazy, like after I got arrested,
• 16:26
  Speaker 1: everybody was calling my phone, like if you need me,
• 16:29
  Speaker 1: if you need a right call me, call me, call me.
• 16:31
  Speaker 1: So everybody else said call me, send me those text messages,
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: you should have called me whatever. I wrote all their
• 16:35
  Speaker 1: names down, and then I start calling these motherfuckers at
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: two in the morning, when at twelve o'clock in the
• 16:40
  Speaker 1: night ten thirty they don't answer the phone. So then
• 16:44
  Speaker 1: I just start blocking them boundaries. I start blocking them,
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: blocking them because they always add those are the same people.
• 16:50
  Speaker 1: They always ask me for something, but never are available
• 16:53
  Speaker 1: for me. When I need something, so I just start
• 16:56
  Speaker 1: blocking them. So it's a lot of people out here
• 16:58
  Speaker 1: right now, probably like Dang I called, I ain't talked
• 17:00
  Speaker 1: to me since she got out of jail, Like, yeah,
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: because you don't answer my phone calls.
• 17:06
  Speaker 2: Now it says you haven't been drinking in seven months?
• 17:09
  Speaker 1: Has it been seven months?
• 17:10
  Speaker 6: No?
• 17:10
  Speaker 1: No, no, no, I haven't had sex since October. That's
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: seven months having drinks since November twenty When was the
• 17:19
  Speaker 1: twenty third? When Thanksgiving twenty third?
• 17:22
  Speaker 3: Yeah?
• 17:22
  Speaker 4: Yeah, How was it affecting your comedy? You know, sometimes
• 17:24
  Speaker 4: when you look at comedians or even rappers actors, sometimes.
• 17:28
  Speaker 3: That's that's what they use because they used to it.
• 17:30
  Speaker 2: They drink and they do a show. So the fact
• 17:32
  Speaker 2: that you haven't drink, it doesn't make your show.
• 17:34
  Speaker 3: Is it easier? Is it more difficult?
• 17:35
  Speaker 5: Though?
• 17:35
  Speaker 1: You see in clear room, I see everything more clear
• 17:38
  Speaker 1: for sure. And but I didn't really drink before shows.
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: I will probably drink during like while I'm on stage.
• 17:45
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have a drink while I'm on stage. But
• 17:47
  Speaker 1: like before, no, I didn't spoke, no we before none
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: of that, not before the show. But but maybe by
• 17:54
  Speaker 1: the second or third show at the night, I'm probably
• 17:56
  Speaker 1: I'm probably it ship because I started drinking on the
• 17:59
  Speaker 1: first show, but I notice now like by the but
• 18:03
  Speaker 1: if there's more than two shows in the night, by
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: the end of that second show, I'm sleepy. I'm so tired.
• 18:09
  Speaker 1: I'm so sleepy. I just want to go to bed,
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: like I want to go to bed at ten o'clock,
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: nine thirty. And you know, but comedy happens at night.
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: And then I've been getting up super early in the
• 18:17
  Speaker 1: morning working out, so I make sure I get my
• 18:20
  Speaker 1: after afternoon nap. If I'm getting on nap in the afternoon,
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty much fucked the rest of the evening. But
• 18:27
  Speaker 1: I feel like my comedy is I've been like I've
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: been listening to it because I record every set. I've
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: been recording every set for the last like five years,
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: and through my phones and my recording devices, and I
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: was listening to like before my grandma died, how much
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: joy was in my voice, and then like after my
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: grandma died, like I don't know, I'm about to like
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: maybe gd yeah, you know it when Jesus died was
• 18:54
  Speaker 1: before Jesus death, we see, Yeah, I don't know, but yeah,
• 19:03
  Speaker 1: BG AG yeah. Anyways, I just noticed there's a big
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: difference in like people like, oh, you're saying you look good,
• 19:09
  Speaker 1: you feeling good, like your energy is good. And I
• 19:11
  Speaker 1: do feel good and I am happy for the most part.
• 19:13
  Speaker 1: But I feel like this is huge grief hanging over me,
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: Like I just feel like grief normal.
• 19:19
  Speaker 8: Do you write on that?
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: Yeah? I write on that. Yeah, I talk. I talk
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: about it on stage, like deal with my grief. Like
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: some days it'd be so heavy. I'm like, oh, I
• 19:28
  Speaker 1: gotta do something for granny today, and I'll put a
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: picture of her up in the backyard. I put on
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: some music and I do rhythmic dance from gymnastics and
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: with ribbons and stuff, and I dance around in my
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: backyard and uh, I hope nobody ever sees. It's just
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: for my grandma.
• 19:46
  Speaker 5: To God, what do you think I got you more focused?
• 19:48
  Speaker 5: No dick or no alcohol, No dick, cause I wasn't.
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: I was drinking. It wasn't getting no dick. Still, no dick,
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: Keep you focused.
• 19:58
  Speaker 3: Good, you think about something.
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: I just had a flash of dicks in my head
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: and I'm just like mediums, stop smoking now I'm back
• 20:18
  Speaker 1: smoking weed. I started after my court date. I'm not
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna drink no more. I decided I'm never
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: I probably will never drink alcohol again until like I'm
• 20:31
  Speaker 1: engaged to get married just so he could see like
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: my full crazy Yeah, like there's no with like no restrictions.
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: I feel like though I have more restrictions. I was
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: like I was way too nice. I feel like when
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: I would be drinking, I'd be way too nice, way
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: too accommodating, and probably way too loud because alcohol make
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: you death. Uh but uh yeah, and I think I'm
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: a little meaner now. I'm quick to tell people no.
• 20:59
  Speaker 5: Now you just the boundaries.
• 21:01
  Speaker 1: Yeah, boundaries. I feel like boundaries is mean. Now it
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: can be.
• 21:05
  Speaker 5: It can be.
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: I know I'm protecting it. I'm protecting it, and it
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: may have be. It may have been.
• 21:11
  Speaker 7: Something that you learned is that it's okay to have
• 21:14
  Speaker 7: boundaries and be selfless, I mean, be selfish sometimes, because
• 21:17
  Speaker 7: when you're too selfless, that's how people take advantage of you. Yeah,
• 21:21
  Speaker 7: you're saying you're too nice. No, that's that's you actually
• 21:24
  Speaker 7: putting that boundary in place.
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: That's good.
• 21:27
  Speaker 8: It's hard to be mean a little bit.
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: M Like I talked to dude last night that was
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: trying to take a picture with me. Hell no, taking
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: no picture with you. You was talking ship about me
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: somebody you know, somebody I've seen online talking ship and like,
• 21:39
  Speaker 1: oh my god, get a picture. I was like, no, now,
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: I don't want to take no picture with you. Where
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: was you at? None of your.
• 21:51
  Speaker 5: Boundaries? But this is somebody you remember from seeing on Instagram.
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: I've seen them on Instagram talk of ship. I started
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: doing a report on them. I was gonna call, but
• 22:01
  Speaker 1: I decided not to. I got busy. I got photos
• 22:06
  Speaker 1: on niggas.
• 22:07
  Speaker 5: Do you get what you give? Chapter?
• 22:08
  Speaker 1: M oh yeah, so do you get what you give? Chapter?
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: It's all about, like, you know, whatever you're giving out,
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: that's what's coming back. And it's really about I think
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: what you're giving to yourself, like how you talk to yourself,
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: how you treat yourself. I notice, like things go bad
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: or people attack me in the world when I've been
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: already attacking me for like a week. I already been
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: talking mess about myself and like and then I'm like, dang,
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: why the world going on for me? I'm like, oh wait, wait,
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: wait wait, I started this. I started it. I started
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: going off on me. First, I was upset, you know,
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: or going you know, ham on me, talking crazy to
• 22:42
  Speaker 1: myself in the mirror, like oh, look at you. Your
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: nose is big. This is that, you know? Like oh
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: your eyes this? Yeah, you know, like just going off.
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: And one I noticed when I start talking positive about myself,
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: when I start saying, get up in the morning, look
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: at myself in the mirror, and go, I love you, Tiffany.
• 22:59
  Speaker 1: I'm proud of you. You, Tiffany, you are killing it girl.
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: I love and approve of you, Tiffany. How this you
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: are doing very well today? Yes, you are. When I
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: go outside, that's what I'm getting back, and that's what
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: I'm seeing online. But I can always tell. I can
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: always tell, like, oh yeah, my cycle coming. Because I'm
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: being mean to me, I'm being mean to others. Like
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: when I figure out the cure to endometriosis, I'm going
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: to be a much happier person. What is that again,
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: endometrio si? I forgot inflammation of the uterirow extra lining. Yes, yes,
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: that's why I likes mediums.
• 23:32
  Speaker 5: But don't that make all penises feel big?
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: Mm hmm, yeah, I got Well, yeah I don't. I
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: haven't had all penises.
• 23:42
  Speaker 3: Yeah, that with your hand when as that question.
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: Man times that sex hurts, Yes, it could be painful.
• 23:57
  Speaker 5: Little guys out there, you don't moan for it, and
• 23:59
  Speaker 5: they think they got it.
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: They do got it with me?
• 24:02
  Speaker 5: Okay, okay, okay.
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: Yeah he got it with me.
• 24:05
  Speaker 5: I get it. I get it.
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: It's somebody for everybody.
• 24:08
  Speaker 5: You remember when you was doing a little dick joke.
• 24:10
  Speaker 6: Remember you was when you was gonna stay saying how
• 24:12
  Speaker 6: much you loved this medium, keep bringing the pen.
• 24:17
  Speaker 5: Was the person you were dealing with at that time upset.
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: I don't think so.
• 24:23
  Speaker 8: M she ain't even checked.
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: That's that's part of my problem in relationship. I'm doing
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: my job. I don't ask you, you know up commenting
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: on how you're doing your job. I'm doing my job.
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: I did not ask. I do not know U. I'm
• 24:40
  Speaker 1: gonna ask him. He's still trying to come around. So
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: I don't think it was Oh yeah really yeah yeah,
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: apartment building manager, that's right. I can't do it. His
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: credit is going to get enough. No more car. This
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: car got repossessed. I to close.
• 24:58
  Speaker 5: Damn you on.
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: No, no, I'll never spend more than twenty dollars on
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: a man.
• 25:03
  Speaker 3: Damn, that wasn't gonna get his car.
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: No, I ain't gonna get his car. But he got it.
• 25:08
  Speaker 1: He got it out on his own.
• 25:08
  Speaker 5: You never spend more than twenty dollars on a man.
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: Yeah, because he a man. I'm a woman, and I
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: want him to feel like a man.
• 25:17
  Speaker 6: Even when you, Tiffany had his who you are and
• 25:19
  Speaker 6: he's the apartment manager, you got more than him, You
• 25:23
  Speaker 6: still want to spend twenty dollars.
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: You still want I'm gonna make sure I look good, Okay,
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna make sure I'm pretty. So that's expensive. He
• 25:30
  Speaker 1: not buying my clothes and getting my nails done and stuff,
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: and buying all these wigs and shit.
• 25:34
  Speaker 5: I am So what does he have to take you? Like?
• 25:37
  Speaker 5: What do you expect from him as the apartment.
• 25:40
  Speaker 1: I expect fun and adventures. So like we went to
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: like our boretums, we went to like Island's restaurant, cool
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: little you know, family restaurants and stuff. Whatever he can afford.
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: That's fun.
• 25:52
  Speaker 7: And then if you want an apartment manager, a building manager,
• 25:55
  Speaker 7: why you can't get your car up.
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: Because he didn't pay his rent. I mean he didn't
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: pay his car though.
• 26:01
  Speaker 5: Because you don't own the building.
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: No, you don't own the building. He live in rent
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: Free Oh wow yeah yeah, Oh my god.
• 26:14
  Speaker 5: Why still be trying to come around? Then?
• 26:17
  Speaker 8: So although you are celeivent, you don't you don't talk
• 26:20
  Speaker 8: to nobody right now?
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: You know, I'm talking to like five dudes.
• 26:22
  Speaker 8: Okay, okay, So how is that?
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: It's fun?
• 26:28
  Speaker 5: Okay?
• 26:28
  Speaker 8: We have a good time, good and they know like, no,
• 26:31
  Speaker 8: I'm not getting no ways like I'm not.
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: They know that. Well, there's always a potential. I mean,
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: but I'm not like I'm not putting myself in positions
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: to do that either. Okay. I mean I tried one
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: of them. I've been trying to fuck for a long time,
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: and then it was like, you know what, let me
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: just stop. Okay.
• 26:46
  Speaker 8: And that's because you're like no, sometimes you get timpted.
• 26:49
  Speaker 8: But then you're like no, no, no, no.
• 26:53
  Speaker 1: I don't know if he gay or not. I don't know,
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: So you still got to I'm confused. Okay, he said
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: you not Okay, you asked him? Mm hmmm.
• 27:04
  Speaker 2: Do you try to hollerlight at me? Wouldn't even be
• 27:05
  Speaker 2: like are you gay?
• 27:07
  Speaker 5: No? No, y'all go out?
• 27:11
  Speaker 1: Yeah, trips and all kind of stuff.
• 27:14
  Speaker 8: Is there mannorisms?
• 27:15
  Speaker 5: Is this something that you know?
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: We be in the same bed. I'm like, why, like you, oh,
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: why haven't.
• 27:20
  Speaker 5: You know a little?
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: You know, put my booty on him and then everything
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: and I walk around but naked and stuff. I'm like,
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: is he gay?
• 27:27
  Speaker 3: He put his head up. What do you walking around?
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: But the look he looked, he'd be looking.
• 27:32
  Speaker 5: If you a screen for a person, you ask everybody everything.
• 27:34
  Speaker 5: Why you asked him? I'm sure I asked him and
• 27:37
  Speaker 5: what did he say? What was his answer?
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: And he said he respects me and he values our
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: friendship and that, you know, like he don't want to
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: mess up our friendship. And I'm like, mess this friendship up.
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: Fuck this friendship, this friendship hard. I could tell you
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: it's medium. Oh my god, I could tell I can
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: look at his hands to tell this medium.
• 28:06
  Speaker 5: That is so interesting. I wonder why you don't want
• 28:08
  Speaker 5: to take things to the next level. But you got
• 28:10
  Speaker 5: to respect it.
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: I respect it, I respect it, and so so now
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, and then I start doing that with everybody.
• 28:18
  Speaker 5: So that line the guy gave you, yeah, respect our friends.
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: I don't want to respect our friendship. We have so
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: much fun together. We do all kinds of fun adventurers stuff.
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: We go cool places like come on, let's not fuck
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: that friendship.
• 28:37
  Speaker 5: So you're not celibate, you just I just haven't.
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: I just haven't. I mean I've been making out and stuff.
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: I got fingered. Does that come?
• 28:50
  Speaker 8: Oh my god, I got fingered.
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: I haven't seen this e I n number yet. I
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: don't know. You know, I need to do a full
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: background check. I can't just let him in.
• 29:10
  Speaker 8: So he didn't want to do nothing else.
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: No, he wanted to do us stuff. But I was like, no, man.
• 29:23
  Speaker 5: About it.
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: I don't like the way you did that, Like that
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: first boy, that looks painful, and your nails might be
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: a little too long for me right here. That's not
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: that's not giving. That's not giving at all. That's not
• 29:40
  Speaker 1: that's definitely that's not getting. That's not gonna make me
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: take my panties off.
• 29:44
  Speaker 5: That's for sure.
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: They to the side, and now I'm gonna pulling them
• 29:47
  Speaker 1: back over clothed. This ship, no bring big tip energy
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: is about where the I was doing stand up and
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: I was struggling and I did this one podcast and
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: the guy gave me a prosthetic penis. Uh, and it
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: was like a limp point and I was like, what
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: the hell am I gonna I'm gonna do with this?
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: And he's like, oh, just take it. Like so I
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: took it. And I started noticing like, just like the
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: comedy scene is so male dominated, right, and the men
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: always looking out for the other men, And I'm like,
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: why they not looking out for me? Like I'm cool,
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: I show up on time. I know I'm I might
• 30:30
  Speaker 1: not be the funniest, but I'm definitely funny. And it's like,
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: but they look out for their whomever, right, And so
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: one day I was just like, I'm gonna just I'm
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: gonna just see what's up. And so I don't know
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: why I did it, but I know why I did it,
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: but it's in the book where I did it. But
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: I put the prosthetic limp penis in my panties and
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: I started walking around with it and I would go
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: to the comedy club with it in. Now I didn't
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: tell nobody was in. It's just like, I don't know,
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: maybe I walked different, I don't know, but the men
• 30:55
  Speaker 1: start treating me different. Everybody started treating me a little different,
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: booking me for more and stuff like you know, just
• 31:01
  Speaker 1: like what up tip giving me better hugs. I don't
• 31:03
  Speaker 1: know if they're trying to fill my dick. I don't
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: know if they could feel the energy. Maybe I had
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: big dick energy. I don't know, so we call big
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: tip energy. And maybe I was just walking different. My
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: confidence was different. My comedy got funnier. And I don't
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: know if it's because I had some dangling there, but
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: it's just that's what I'm talking about. That flame, No,
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: I had already met flame, flame, flak, flame, TITTI is
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: the only female titties I ever like touched.
• 31:28
  Speaker 7: That wasn't my own, of my mama's soft They was nice.
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: I was jealous. I was like, it's my titties. Ever,
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: don't grow that big never never flames titties is nice.
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: Flames got really nice titties. I think my dick bigger
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: than flamestick.
• 31:49
  Speaker 6: Yours isn't real. So have you and Monique had a
• 31:55
  Speaker 6: conversation since she was on a club station.
• 31:58
  Speaker 1: No, we have not had no conversation. We barely ever
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: had a conversation ever. I've you know, tried to talk
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: to her here and there or whatever, but no, we
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: haven't had no conversation. I slid in nor DM since
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: she got my number if.
• 32:10
  Speaker 5: She checked, mhm, oh you just sent her your number.
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: I said to her, statement, Yeah, and here's my number
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: two and here's my number if you want to talk
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: about it.
• 32:22
  Speaker 5: What do you think? What do you think of that?
• 32:23
  Speaker 6: The whole state of black comedy since the top of
• 32:25
  Speaker 6: the year, it's like, since kat Wims did that interview,
• 32:27
  Speaker 6: it feels like everybody just been kind of at each other.
• 32:30
  Speaker 5: Like it's almost like you go to club just to
• 32:33
  Speaker 5: get that other comedians.
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know about that. Uh, Godfrey didn't go
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: at other Brell didn't go at other comedians just a
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: little bit, just a little bit. I don't know. I
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: I feel like that's something we do in the club,
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: Like if you got some beef with somebody, you like
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: tell them to they face. I mean, I know I have.
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: I've definitely gone up to people in their face and
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: said I don't like you, you know, or what you
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: did was fucked up. I ain't feeling that, Like I
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: haven't had to do it too often because there's not
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: too many people that like really get on my nerves
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: like that. Just a few people, just a few people
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: but I mean that's comedy like you're supposed to. It's
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: a little challenge. But I don't know about doing it
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: in front of the world like that. I don't know
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: about all that.
• 33:20
  Speaker 4: It seemed like it was a bunch this weekend. I
• 33:21
  Speaker 4: think a Netflix brunch. Yeah, I was dead, like everybody
• 33:26
  Speaker 4: that that was beefing with each other were all in
• 33:28
  Speaker 4: the same room.
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: Yeah, but you know what was crazy. You know what
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: was crazy. We was outside, Okay, so we wasn't in
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: the same room. We was outside, and everybody was there,
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: and Kat was there, and he was looking very interesting.
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: He was looking very interesting, very shiny, and it was
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: super cool, and he's talking to everybody, moving around, moving
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: around the room and stuff, talking to everybody. And then
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: as soon as Kevin got there, nobody could find Kat.
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: I don't know where Kat went, but then he did
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: perform live. So but it was like like one.
• 34:02
  Speaker 5: In the afternoon.
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: Yeah, the brush started at twelve and then I think
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: Kevin got there like one one in then cav was gone.
• 34:11
  Speaker 2: I see you, I see Dave Chappelle, I see Cat,
• 34:14
  Speaker 2: I see keV, I seen.
• 34:16
  Speaker 4: I seemed like all the comedians that were quote unquote
• 34:18
  Speaker 4: beef we were all in the same place where I
• 34:20
  Speaker 4: was like, oh, maybe they all.
• 34:21
  Speaker 3: Yeah, we took a.
• 34:22
  Speaker 1: Big class picture too. We took a big old picture,
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: but no Cat was not there. Kat left, okay, mm hmm,
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: right as Kevin pulled up.
• 34:32
  Speaker 7: Yeah, if y'all took a picture before Cat, before Kevin
• 34:35
  Speaker 7: got there, you think he.
• 34:37
  Speaker 8: Would have been in the picture.
• 34:39
  Speaker 3: Did you speak the cat?
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: No? No, I smiled and waved you cursed him with joy.
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: He looked at me. I don't think he recognized me
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: because I had a wig on, so I don't think
• 34:51
  Speaker 1: he realized it was me. That's what I'm telling myself.
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: Or he just was like, I ain't fucking with her
• 34:56
  Speaker 1: right now? Talk crazy too.
• 34:58
  Speaker 6: But that's fine though. Yeah, everybody put their boundaries up.
• 35:01
  Speaker 6: I rather y'all not speak than see each other in
• 35:04
  Speaker 6: public and be cursinate.
• 35:05
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't. First of all, I love me some cat.
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: Me and Cat ain't got no beef. I mean, he
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: do like saying my name, and I think it's because
• 35:11
  Speaker 1: my name garnishes clicks for some reason, especially if you
• 35:15
  Speaker 1: say like one negative thing around my name. Everybody's clicking
• 35:17
  Speaker 1: on like, oh fuck, what the fuck she do?
• 35:18
  Speaker 6: Now?
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: What she do now what she do now? So like,
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: and I think he knows that he's a genius. So
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: he's like, Okay, what's gonna get me the clicks? What's
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: gonna get the you know, she's just randomly say my
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: name and don't say shit else, just tiviny hattish and
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: live aftery and then let me tell you about this nigga.
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: Kenny's like, he's like, I'm the one that put her
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: on she was in school dance for me. And I'm like,
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: I never said that you that you didn't put me
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: on it that you did, But Nick Cannon did put
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: me in school dance for that road, not Cat Williams.
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: But we did kill that shit together. Like we did
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: that together and that was fucking awesome and it's like
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: a viral moment online and and I love Cat. I
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: sent him a script and he's like, we gotta we
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: gotta work on that, writing on this script. Okay, let's
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: work on it. Who do you want to write? Like whatever, Like,
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: let's make it happen, let's make a movie. Like I
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: love him. I think he's super talented. It is strange
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: when people try he do get on my motherfucking nerves
• 36:15
  Speaker 1: sometimes It.
• 36:16
  Speaker 5: Is strange when people act like you didn't.
• 36:18
  Speaker 6: You didn't come come up, come up like everybody else,
• 36:21
  Speaker 6: like you was in the comedy clubs. You busted your ass,
• 36:23
  Speaker 6: you did all of that.
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, can't put me out, can't put me out?
• 36:26
  Speaker 1: The club TOLLI Withoo Parkerssino. I was underage and he
• 36:31
  Speaker 1: was doing the Hollywood Parkasino every week, and I was
• 36:34
  Speaker 1: too young to be in there, and he put me
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: out like you ain't got no idy, you can't be
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: in here, and like you put me out there. Finally
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: I gotta you know, I was old enough and uh,
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: he let me perform, and then he commenced to roast
• 36:45
  Speaker 1: me for like probably twenty minutes after I got off stage,
• 36:48
  Speaker 1: and I felt so proud. I was like, God, what
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: is this talking about? He was roasting me back then
• 36:56
  Speaker 1: he roasted the ship out of me, and I'm like,
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: do you remember this? He's like, no, I remember this.
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: I showed them a picture. He was like, oh that
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: was your skinny ass. Yeah that was me, bro Like
• 37:08
  Speaker 1: so I feel honored. You know. It's funny because some
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: people don't even like I remember them, but they don't
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: remember me. They like, no, we just met. I'm like, no,
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: we met back in two thousand and one at this
• 37:21
  Speaker 1: place and they're like no. And then I show them
• 37:22
  Speaker 1: a picture and they're like, oh shit, like yeah, and
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: you were kind of mean, but now you're nice.
• 37:28
  Speaker 5: So I'm cool a nice because you are who you
• 37:31
  Speaker 5: are exactly.
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: Yeah, exactly. But I've been around a long time since
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: nineteen ninety six. Yeah yea, or damn I could have
• 37:42
  Speaker 1: been your babysitter. I would have. I would have braided
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: your hair. And I've been like, girl, let's we finla go,
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: we finla go to the swap meat. Okay, we think
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: of the swat meat. I need you to be like,
• 37:54
  Speaker 1: hold on my hand and say, I'm a good mom.
• 37:58
  Speaker 8: What's up with this adult problem?
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: Are you throwing an adult Yeah, I'm throwing an adult
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: prom May thirty first for the she Ready Foundation. And
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: it's now like our gala, that's our thing, like we
• 38:10
  Speaker 1: did it last year. It was super dope. Snoop came,
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: Paris Hilton came, Mario showed up and sang like in
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: a Snoop performed and Paris DJ and Jimmy Kimmel was there,
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: and Burt Kreischer and Joe Croy and like all my favorite,
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: like some of many of my favorite people, Jason Lee
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: was there. We honored him for like all the work
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: he'd been doing in the community, and we had so
• 38:35
  Speaker 1: much fun. We raised a bunch of money.
• 38:37
  Speaker 3: Rail was there.
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: He bought a trip to Africa. I don't even know
• 38:39
  Speaker 1: if he took the trip to Africa yet or not.
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: But we auction off these really cool trips and fun things,
• 38:44
  Speaker 1: and it's a good time. It's a good time, and
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: it's for all the people. Like I decided to go
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: with the prom thing because I've been to three Primes.
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: I've been a Prime bunch of times. But a bunch
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: of people in this industry, in the Hollywood industry and
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: adults just in general, have never been Prime. They never
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: got to go. Maybe they was gay and they couldn't
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: go with they love No seriously, in nineteen hundreds, like
• 39:07
  Speaker 1: you know, they couldn't like when by the time you
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: went to Prime, it probably.
• 39:11
  Speaker 7: Was cool, right, It wasn't really many geese, It wasn't
• 39:15
  Speaker 7: that many gays. Twenty ten, I guess people were still scared.
• 39:18
  Speaker 1: Okay, Okay.
• 39:20
  Speaker 7: When I was in high school, I went to a
• 39:21
  Speaker 7: predominantly white high school. How many people were gay that
• 39:24
  Speaker 7: I knew of that?
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: You knew? Yeah? Okay, well in California, for sure, there
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: was it was some gas. Yeah, you was in Baltimore.
• 39:32
  Speaker 5: I was.
• 39:32
  Speaker 8: Yeah, I grew up Baltimore, born in Rieze.
• 39:35
  Speaker 7: But then my mom I got into a lot of
• 39:37
  Speaker 7: trouble when she sent me to school in Pennsylvania. Yea,
• 39:40
  Speaker 7: so I went to a predominantly white house. You was
• 39:42
  Speaker 7: in a boarding school Pennsylvania. It was a college preparatory school.
• 39:45
  Speaker 1: So you was I boortant school. No where did you
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: sleep at in my house? And I woke up and
• 39:53
  Speaker 1: went to school? Okay? Pennsylvania is right there next to
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: Baltimore like that, Like how way you're Pensylvania. It was
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: like an hour away straight up there, So you have
• 40:03
  Speaker 1: to go hour to school every day.
• 40:05
  Speaker 7: No, my mom, we moved up there. She bought a
• 40:07
  Speaker 7: house there and they and she still had a house
• 40:09
  Speaker 7: in Baltimore. She and my dad would commute back and
• 40:12
  Speaker 7: forth from Baltimore Pennsylvania.
• 40:14
  Speaker 1: I love that, Yeah, because there's homeowners. Yes, so you
• 40:17
  Speaker 1: got an inheritance?
• 40:19
  Speaker 8: Yes, I guess.
• 40:23
  Speaker 1: Why are you upset about your inheritance?
• 40:26
  Speaker 8: Because now I'm thinking about it like, no, I ain't
• 40:29
  Speaker 8: hairy ship like from them.
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: No, I ain't got no. No, they still they're still alive, yeah, both.
• 40:36
  Speaker 8: Of my parents.
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: Yeah, and they still own the homes, right.
• 40:38
  Speaker 8: Yeah, they still own them.
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: Yeah yeah yeah, so if something happens to them, it's
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: gonna come to you hopefully. Yes, let's see. I don't
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: feel about that. They give me something? Did they did?
• 40:50
  Speaker 1: They do a living will and trust? I bet they?
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: I bet they have. Yeah, as long as they did
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: the living will and they left it to you got
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: sisters and brothers two you you was thinking about that.
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: I was thinking about it. There's three of us all together.
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: I just don't know who.
• 41:04
  Speaker 5: You know.
• 41:04
  Speaker 7: Sometimes when people died, the people who think they're gonna
• 41:08
  Speaker 7: get something, they probably don't.
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: Yeah, are you the oldest, No, you're the middle child. Okay,
• 41:15
  Speaker 1: so then so then what happens usually is it's like, uh,
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: you know, yeah, you want to make sure that get
• 41:21
  Speaker 1: a wheel or like a not a whell, but a trust,
• 41:25
  Speaker 1: because if it's a will, that can still go to probate. Right,
• 41:28
  Speaker 1: but if it's a trust, now whatever they say. They
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: control the money from the grave, okay, control it from
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: gravy and then whatever they say in there, that's who
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: we go to, right, and then you and your sister
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: and brother because they decided to sell it, but y'all shuld't.
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: Y'all shoul turn it into income property. And then y'all
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: have money coming in all the time, no matter what.
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: And when y'all struggling or whatever, y'all can always pull
• 41:48
  Speaker 1: a heet lock out, or you know, a more little
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: mortgage is something out on that house, and then y'all
• 41:52
  Speaker 1: always have somebody go to jail. Boom boom. We got
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: a house here that we can put up, you know
• 42:00
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying, and we can keep you up out
• 42:02
  Speaker 1: of here and get you a good lawyer, you know
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying, and then if you beat the case,
• 42:06
  Speaker 1: maybe we might get some of that money back. Trying
• 42:08
  Speaker 1: not to, you know, I try to. You know, you
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: like no no bail bonds. You put the money up
• 42:16
  Speaker 1: like that. If the money is in the family, we
• 42:18
  Speaker 1: put the money up, and then we can get that back, teach.
• 42:21
  Speaker 1: And then then when we get that back, then we
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: put that in your hands and you better not go
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: to jail again, bitch.
• 42:25
  Speaker 2: And we're jumping you right uptract you.
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: We're gonna jump you. Yeah, we got the.
• 42:37
  Speaker 3: You gotta get the book. I gotta ask you.
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: Uh huh.
• 42:40
  Speaker 2: A lot going on, Uh huh, Drake Kendricks got to
• 42:44
  Speaker 2: ask you to the court.
• 42:48
  Speaker 5: But then you Jewish too.
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: I'm a Jewish business woman, and I'm about what's entertaining,
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: and if I'm going with the entertain payment factor of
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: it all, Kendrick is killing that ass. Like I am,
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: very entertained. He got all the good punchlines. Drake got
• 43:06
  Speaker 1: good punchlines and all that too. And I just want
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: to give Drake you doing a good job. I'm proud
• 43:11
  Speaker 1: of you because you know he's sensitive. He went off
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: on me before. No, not in my DMS, in my face.
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: He told me. He told me, I didn't like that.
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: That hurt my feelings.
• 43:25
  Speaker 5: Is that.
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I will talk I will not talk about
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: that no more. Although I did tell you I was
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: gonna talk about that, and he said it hurt his feelings,
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: and I said, okay, I'm sorry.
• 43:35
  Speaker 5: What did you talk about him?
• 43:36
  Speaker 1: I talked about how his daddy. I told him I
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: wasn't gona talk about it no more, but I'm gonna
• 43:39
  Speaker 1: talk about him his daddy, his daddy be trying to Yeah,
• 43:43
  Speaker 1: his daddy be trying to holler. He don't like that.
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: I said, I much rather be your your baby mama
• 43:49
  Speaker 1: than your step mama. Mmm. That hurt his feelings.
• 43:55
  Speaker 6: That hurt his feeling That's kind of like playing hating
• 43:57
  Speaker 6: on your daddy though a little bit right, Like why
• 43:58
  Speaker 6: you caught blocking your daddy if you daddy trying to
• 44:00
  Speaker 6: holler while you mad.
• 44:01
  Speaker 1: I don't like it. I like his dad, but not
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: like that.
• 44:07
  Speaker 5: His feelings.
• 44:09
  Speaker 1: Because I talked about it on stage. I talked about it.
• 44:13
  Speaker 7: It was at comminat that then since you talked about
• 44:16
  Speaker 7: it on stage and it got back.
• 44:17
  Speaker 1: To his daddy's interesting but no, they interesting.
• 44:26
  Speaker 6: No.
• 44:26
  Speaker 1: I see him at different events and stuff in different
• 44:28
  Speaker 1: like he'd be at Jewish stuff and all that. His
• 44:30
  Speaker 1: daddy be around, Like I don't know if you're looking
• 44:32
  Speaker 1: for his next Jewish backend mother what but he outside,
• 44:35
  Speaker 1: he'd be outside so and uh, I don't know. But
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: as far as the beef goes, uh, the rap battle,
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: I'm loving it. I'm here for it. I think I'm
• 44:46
  Speaker 1: so proud of Kendrick. I'm so proud of him, Like, uh,
• 44:50
  Speaker 1: he's killing it and he's like in the lap, just
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: bringing it in. The punchlines are there, like he's killing it.
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: I'm proud of him. And I'm proud of Drake too.
• 44:59
  Speaker 1: He has a an airplane. Airplane. Now, I think it's
• 45:04
  Speaker 1: a little they're getting a little they going a little
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: blow the belt, but they're going. Yeah, it's it's deep. Yeah,
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: but it's it's like a real rat batter, you know
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Like we did it at a safe
• 45:18
  Speaker 1: for us.
• 45:19
  Speaker 8: Yeah, we had one of these in a long time.
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: Yeah, a real good one. Yeah. I feel like I'm
• 45:23
  Speaker 1: back on the school bus. And oh, that was a
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: great experience for me. I went there because I wanted
• 45:31
  Speaker 1: to see all the stuff I read about in the
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: Bible and the tour in the Kuran and so, and
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: I got to see all those things, all those places.
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: It's it's a very spiritual place. Everybody in their mama there.
• 45:44
  Speaker 5: You know.
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: I thought I was just gonna see like people that
• 45:46
  Speaker 1: look like you know, just you know, just you know,
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: Middle Easterns. But no, no, everybody. In a moment. I
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: saw Do making tacos on the side of the road.
• 45:54
  Speaker 1: He was Mexican and the tacos was fire. There's a
• 45:58
  Speaker 1: lot of black people. That the African American diaspora is
• 46:02
  Speaker 1: huge out there. A lot of them live in Demona
• 46:05
  Speaker 1: and they Jewish and so I was hanging out with
• 46:08
  Speaker 1: them and that was super awesome. You by yourself, Yeah,
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: I met up with some friends out there. I met
• 46:14
  Speaker 1: up with some people out there, and I went outside
• 46:17
  Speaker 1: with all the Ethiopian Jews and that was really good
• 46:20
  Speaker 1: and informative. And what I learned is that no matter
• 46:25
  Speaker 1: where you are, when you black, you get shitted on.
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: Because they going through the same things. It felt, the
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: weather and everything and the way things looked, it felt
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: kind of like California to me. And as they're describing
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: the lifestyle and what's going on over there for them,
• 46:40
  Speaker 1: it sounds like la It sounds like the same shit,
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: except they they game bankers come from another place and
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: they come over there. But it is what it is.
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: It's it's life. It's in the shit. I'm very disappointed
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: in like what's going on. I don't support that stuff.
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: I'm about peace and all these lives. It's just it's
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: kind of depressing. It's very depressed, and not even kinda
• 47:09
  Speaker 1: it's very depressed and it's very sad, but it's something
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: that's been going on for thousands of years over there.
• 47:13
  Speaker 1: When I went, I learned about like how the Romans
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: came in and did stuff, and how the Ottoman Empire
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: came in and did what they did, and like even
• 47:21
  Speaker 1: King David came over there, like when he got Jerusalem
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: what he did, and I mean I remember reading about
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: it in the Bible, but like actually seeing it and
• 47:28
  Speaker 1: how he like went for the Canaanites heads and all that.
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: Like I'm just like yo, to see it, it makes
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: it resonate different, right, like and then everything I learned
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: in world history, Like I went to Masada, I went
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: to I went to Soknt. I went to the dead Sea.
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: Uh not the dead sea. No, it's it's the saltwater. Yeah,
• 47:53
  Speaker 1: that's the Dea sy but it ain't dead. That salt
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: is growing up all kinds of stuff. But when I
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: went there, it's like all the stuff that I would
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: learned in World History, I'm seeing it for real life,
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: and it made it hit different. Like I love listening to,
• 48:06
  Speaker 1: uh the history teacher tell us stuff, but I did
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: not like reading this stuff because I couldn't read that
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: good in no ways. But I used to love to
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: hear it right and you and it always stayed in
• 48:16
  Speaker 1: my mind. And then when I go there, it's like, oh,
• 48:18
  Speaker 1: this is where the Romans were and this is where
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: this is. And like I read an article where they
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: said Israel's paying all this money to build thousands of
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: tunnels and stuff. I don't know about the thousands of
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: tunnels in Israel, but I know about that one tunnel
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: in Israel that they where they excavated the uh they
• 48:36
  Speaker 1: excavated the Mikvah and the mikfah's like where they do,
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: like where they would come and clean themselves, Like that's
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: where baptism started. And it's two Olympic sized pools and
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: they they the arche archaeology, archaeologist archaeologists, the archaeologists dug
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: it up. And then there's this this walkway that you
• 48:54
  Speaker 1: go up. There's kind of like a mall. It feels
• 48:55
  Speaker 1: like you're in a mall, and it goes it leads
• 48:58
  Speaker 1: up to the temple and that's the same path is
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: where Jesus came every year. He would come there. Everybody,
• 49:05
  Speaker 1: every Jew came there every year and they would jump
• 49:08
  Speaker 1: in that migvh and they would share news and all that,
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: and then they would go up, they would go up
• 49:12
  Speaker 1: that trail to the temple, and that's the same path
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: that Jesus was His real name is your Shua, the
• 49:19
  Speaker 1: Romans name of Jesus like years later, his name is
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: your Shua. It's the same path that your Shoa walked
• 49:25
  Speaker 1: to go be assassinated. And it was really powerful for me.
• 49:29
  Speaker 1: I don't know why. I felt like I was like
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: in a mall, slash around a bunch of ancestors and
• 49:34
  Speaker 1: it's something. There's a rock that the Muslim mosque is
• 49:38
  Speaker 1: built around, and the walls up against where the Jews
• 49:41
  Speaker 1: go pray in the Catholic Church, in the Protestant church,
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: is like three different Christian churches right there is and
• 49:47
  Speaker 1: the churches are built right where Jesus was crucified, and
• 49:52
  Speaker 1: then the mosque in the wall is around this rock
• 49:55
  Speaker 1: where Abraham was gonna sacrifice his son, right And I
• 49:59
  Speaker 1: don't know what's in that rock, but it was so powerful,
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: like I could feel it right now. And maybe I'm
• 50:05
  Speaker 1: just you know, sensitive or whatever, but it's something there
• 50:08
  Speaker 1: and they say it's God, and I'm not sure, but
• 50:13
  Speaker 1: it feel like it is. Feel if it's with me,
• 50:18
  Speaker 1: like it was so powerful, and I prayed at the wall,
• 50:22
  Speaker 1: and I went by the mosque, and I went in
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: all the churches, and they said, this is where Jesus
• 50:26
  Speaker 1: was laid to rest when they put him down, like
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: after they took them off the cross. I'm not sure
• 50:31
  Speaker 1: if that's real or not, but there's some energy there.
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: And I don't know if it's the energy of all
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: the ancestors and all the people that went there, or
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: if I felt the way I felt because I did
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: all this research and I saw how black Jerusalem was,
• 50:44
  Speaker 1: even I found videos in the library of the nineteen
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: twenties in the thirties, and it was all black and
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: they all looked like Ethiopians. They all Ethiopian. It was
• 50:56
  Speaker 1: so beautiful and it's still beautiful, but you can see
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: all the wars, you can see the stuff in it
• 51:03
  Speaker 1: that I went to the ki boots where the three thousand,
• 51:07
  Speaker 1: that three thousand Palestinians came in to take over, take
• 51:11
  Speaker 1: the people and whatnot. And it's it's sad. Yeah, it's
• 51:16
  Speaker 1: so sad that you know, we can't be better, Like
• 51:20
  Speaker 1: like three thousands of years, it's the same thing, keep
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: repeating itself. Why why watch so much hate towards each other.
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: We all bled the same, we all whatever. We just
• 51:31
  Speaker 1: worship God different. You hate me because of how I
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: worship God, just because I don't get it. I don't
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: understand it. I'm confused still. But I'm learning all the
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: time and I want to go back and learn more.
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: And I want to help. I want to help rebuild.
• 51:47
  Speaker 1: I want to help in whatever way that I can.
• 51:50
  Speaker 1: And I don't know. The world got on me because
• 51:53
  Speaker 1: I said what I always say when I leave the country.
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: I always said, I've been saying that. When I went
• 51:58
  Speaker 1: to Iraq to go do comedy for the troops, nobody
• 52:00
  Speaker 1: he said, sh And I said the same thing. Maybe
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: I'll meet a man. No, you know, but I went
• 52:04
  Speaker 1: to go make the trups laugh, and nobody said nothing.
• 52:07
  Speaker 1: In America was over there killing way more. We killed
• 52:10
  Speaker 1: a lot of people.
• 52:11
  Speaker 5: But what happened at Where were you at an outside
• 52:15
  Speaker 5: joke appearance?
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so I was at the Netflix is not a joke.
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: Netflix not a joke. I was at a show outside Netflix.
• 52:26
  Speaker 5: Went on college protest.
• 52:27
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I went off because people were saying, you know,
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: they were saying what they were saying, and they was like,
• 52:34
  Speaker 1: you got to support the colleges, and I'm like, I
• 52:36
  Speaker 1: don't want to. I don't want to support people tearing
• 52:38
  Speaker 1: up a school. I don't think that's the way to
• 52:42
  Speaker 1: go about it. If you really want the if you
• 52:44
  Speaker 1: want stuff like this to stop happening, if you're protesting
• 52:47
  Speaker 1: the genocide that's going on and you want that to
• 52:50
  Speaker 1: stop happening, I think there's some better ways to go
• 52:53
  Speaker 1: about making it stop happening. Blocking people from going to
• 52:56
  Speaker 1: class is not going to be the thing. I don't
• 52:58
  Speaker 1: think that's gonna be the thing, because that's what with
• 53:00
  Speaker 1: the I mean, that's what the Nazis did. They blocked
• 53:02
  Speaker 1: the Jews, they blocked the Jehovah witnesses. They killed a
• 53:06
  Speaker 1: lot of people. They didn't just kill Jews. They was
• 53:08
  Speaker 1: killing everybody that was not like them. So like uh,
• 53:13
  Speaker 1: and they were blocking them from getting their education, blocking
• 53:15
  Speaker 1: them from being able to have a living. They were
• 53:17
  Speaker 1: they were hurting them and so like to me, if
• 53:21
  Speaker 1: if you really want to be changed, you want to
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: make change, you really want to be effective, you really
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: want this to stop, then start learning, get get yourself educated,
• 53:29
  Speaker 1: and get in there and change the laws, change how
• 53:32
  Speaker 1: we how get become get in NATO or whatever, the
• 53:35
  Speaker 1: international or whatever. You got to be on Senate all that,
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: like change the laws, change how we move. Yeah, that's
• 53:44
  Speaker 1: that's what I would do. That's what if you really
• 53:46
  Speaker 1: wanted to change, Like be effective in get involved in government.
• 53:50
  Speaker 6: I think the protesting to get those legislators attention those legislators.
• 53:55
  Speaker 1: But become a lobbyist. Go be a lobbyist and get
• 53:59
  Speaker 1: their attention. You get their attention better if you take
• 54:01
  Speaker 1: them to dinner. You know what I'm saying. You can
• 54:04
  Speaker 1: be a lot those lobbyists. And they make good money too.
• 54:07
  Speaker 1: Like if you want to change things, like corporations hire
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: lobbyists to change laws so they can do what they
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: want to do. Right, So if you want to change something,
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: go talk to them, show up at the office. Don't
• 54:21
  Speaker 1: tear up the school and block somebody else from getting
• 54:23
  Speaker 1: an education. And I'm looking they run around with you know,
• 54:26
  Speaker 1: trash can shields, running into the police and stuff, and
• 54:28
  Speaker 1: I'm just thinking to myself, this is our future. This
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: is these are our future. Professors, our lawyers, our doctors, like,
• 54:36
  Speaker 1: this is our future. And then they're yelling stuff. They
• 54:39
  Speaker 1: don't even understand why the war is happening. They don't
• 54:42
  Speaker 1: even know the history of it, what's behind it, like
• 54:45
  Speaker 1: and they're just you know, in an outrage. And then
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: you yelling for that for Gaza, but you ain't saying
• 54:51
  Speaker 1: nothing for the Congo twelve million people being killed over there.
• 54:55
  Speaker 1: You ain't saying shit about all these black people that's
• 54:57
  Speaker 1: been getting culled for one hundred years. Let's just go
• 55:00
  Speaker 1: the last hundred years we've been getting slaughtered over there
• 55:04
  Speaker 1: and nobody saying anything. There was a war in my
• 55:06
  Speaker 1: father's country for thirty years and nobody said shit about it.
• 55:11
  Speaker 1: In America, y'all in protest, y'all in nothing because it
• 55:14
  Speaker 1: was black people straight up and Cameroon nigs over there
• 55:18
  Speaker 1: killing just just slaughtering them. Y'all didn't say shit. Y'all
• 55:21
  Speaker 1: didn't do nothing. Nobody cared. It was on social media
• 55:25
  Speaker 1: for a second, Like I pay attention to what's going
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: on where we at, Like how were we doing like
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: black people? We wasn't doing so good in gossip, Okay,
• 55:36
  Speaker 1: we wasn't doing so good over there. There's slavery. They're
• 55:39
  Speaker 1: is slavery still, there's slavery, and and it's a lot
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: of us still in slavery and there's a lot of
• 55:47
  Speaker 1: us being killed. So for me, I'm like, if you
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: want to protest like that, I want to see you
• 55:52
  Speaker 1: protesting like that for the twelve million that's being that's
• 55:55
  Speaker 1: been killed just in the Congo.
• 55:59
  Speaker 5: Protest. Agree with how they protest.
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: How they protesting is not don't. I don't agree with
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: how they're protesting. Yeah, protests, yes, Protests yes. If you
• 56:07
  Speaker 1: think that's gonna make it change. Yeah, if you think
• 56:09
  Speaker 1: it's gonna make a difference, you're gonna it's gonna make
• 56:11
  Speaker 1: people pay attention. Yeah, But the way y'all going about it,
• 56:14
  Speaker 1: I don't think this is right. I don't think you're
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: spray paying the library is gonna really make anything change.
• 56:19
  Speaker 1: I know Nigga's been spray paying the library for years
• 56:22
  Speaker 1: and they just shut the library down. That's all they did.
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: Like so no, I don't think that's the way to
• 56:28
  Speaker 1: go about it. I think the way to go about
• 56:30
  Speaker 1: it is to get into legislation, to show up to
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: your congressman's office, show up to your senator's office, show up,
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: sit outside they office, and protest. Put the pressure on
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: them doing it at the schools ain't putting no pressure
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: on them. They're just like, oh, they up there at
• 56:44
  Speaker 1: the school cutting up whatever, like and we like, as
• 56:48
  Speaker 1: a twenty something year old, like do you invigorate it, teenager? Yeah,
• 56:52
  Speaker 1: Like that's protest. It's been happening every decade. It's always happened.
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: Women was out there burning they bras. But y'all out
• 56:59
  Speaker 1: here angry about you know what's going on over there
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: in Gaza, and it's genocide. When they're about to make
• 57:06
  Speaker 1: pass laws over our bodies, women's bodies, we ain't gonna
• 57:09
  Speaker 1: be able to have no choice in what we do,
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: and like, yeah, like hello, we need to be paying
• 57:16
  Speaker 1: attention to distraction is real, Like, you're not gonna it's
• 57:19
  Speaker 1: gonna be Handmad's tail out here. When you start really
• 57:21
  Speaker 1: read reading all the legislative read everything, like it's about
• 57:25
  Speaker 1: to be Handmad's tail out here, You're about to be
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: like it's gonna be crazy, Like you voluntarily want to
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: be pregnant. Yeah, it's a voluntary thing, Like, but there's
• 57:34
  Speaker 1: gonna be situations where it's gonna be involuntary, Like I mean,
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: if you read the legislations and I'm not I might
• 57:41
  Speaker 1: not be articulating it's the best, but I'm concerned. I'm
• 57:43
  Speaker 1: concerned for our future, and I'm concerned when our youth
• 57:47
  Speaker 1: are all their knowledges coming from TikTok and Instagram and
• 57:52
  Speaker 1: they not really like doing the real research and really reading.
• 57:55
  Speaker 1: They just taking some some bloggers word for it. It's like, no,
• 58:00
  Speaker 1: go look the ship up, go to the go look
• 58:03
  Speaker 1: up these legislations and if you want, like, there's no
• 58:06
  Speaker 1: doubt there's a there is a genocide happening, there's no
• 58:09
  Speaker 1: doubt about that. But like that's not the only one
• 58:11
  Speaker 1: that's happening right now. So if we're gonna be protesting genocide,
• 58:14
  Speaker 1: if we against genocide, we need to be against all
• 58:16
  Speaker 1: the genocides, not just the lighter genocide, all the like
• 58:20
  Speaker 1: the black, the the brow, everybody, everybody. We're not it.
• 58:27
  Speaker 1: Don't need to just be from the river to this.
• 58:28
  Speaker 1: You need to be like, uh, recycle these cell phones
• 58:31
  Speaker 1: and stop can killing the Congolesese Like yeah, but don't
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