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The Attachment Style That's Sabotaging Your Intimacy · Intimacy With Lauren

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  SPEAKER_00: There is a pattern running in the background of your intimate life that you probably did not choose and may not even be aware of.
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  SPEAKER_00: It shapes whether you pursue or pull away from closeness, whether vulnerability feels safe or dangerous, whether intimacy feels like home or a threat.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it developed before you had language for it, before you had any ability to choose it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it has been running in every relationship you have ever had, including this one.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is your attachment style and it has more to do with your current desire than most people realize.
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  SPEAKER_00: By the end of this video, you will understand the four main attachment patterns, how each one affects desire differently, and what awareness of your pattern makes possible.
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  SPEAKER_00: You feel like your reactions and intimacy are out of proportion or hard to control.
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  SPEAKER_00: You shut down when you didn't expect to.
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  SPEAKER_00: You pursue when you wish you felt more settled.
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  SPEAKER_00: You want closeness and resist it at the same time.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nobody has connected these patterns to how you learn to attach in your earliest relationship.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm Lauren Wolfe, registered psychotherapist and sex therapist.
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  SPEAKER_00: Attachment theory is foundational to how I understand intimacy.
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  SPEAKER_00: The patterns we form in early attachment relationships do not disappear when we grow up.
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  SPEAKER_00: They migrate into our adult intimate relationships, where they play out often invisibly until we name them.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'll walk you through the four primary attachment patterns, how each one shows up in desire and intimacy, and what you can do with this awareness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Securely attached people, experienced caregivers who were consistently responsive, available, and attuned.
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  SPEAKER_00: As adults, they generally feel comfortable with closeness.
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  SPEAKER_00: They can express needs directly and can tolerate their partner's needs without feeling overwhelmed.
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  SPEAKER_00: And they experience intimacy as a source of comfort and pleasure rather than a threat.
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  SPEAKER_00: For securely attached women, desire loss is usually about current conditions, stress, life stage, maybe some relationship dynamics rather than deep attachment wounding.
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  SPEAKER_00: The good news is that secure attachment is also the pattern that most benefits from direct changes to conditions and communication.
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  SPEAKER_00: Secure attachment does not mean no problems with desire, though.
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  SPEAKER_00: It means the problems are usually about current conditions, not early wounding.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of secure attachment like having a solid home base.
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  SPEAKER_00: When you have one, you can venture out into the world, into vulnerability, into intimacy, into difficulty without the fear of being fundamentally unsafe.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know the base is there.
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  SPEAKER_00: For securely attached women, the desire work is about what is happening now, not what was laid down early.
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  SPEAKER_00: The foundation is solid.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are looking at the weather, not the ground.
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  SPEAKER_00: But most women did not get a perfectly secure attachment.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the patterns that formed instead show up in intimacy in very specific ways.
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  SPEAKER_00: Anxiously attached people experienced caregivers who were inconsistently responsive, sometimes attuned, sometimes not, creating a nervous system that is always on alert for signs of abandonment.
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  SPEAKER_00: In adult intimacy, this shows up as hypervigilance to the partner's emotional state, difficulty with their own needs, seeking constant reassurance, and using sex as a way to manage the fear of rejection or abandonment.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire for anxiously attached women can become entangled with anxiety, wanting intimacy to feel secure, not because they genuinely want connection in that moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is exhausting and it's unsatisfying for everyone.
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  SPEAKER_00: Anxious attachment uses sex to manage fear.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is not desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is survival, dresses desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: Women with anxious attachment describe initiating sex when they feel insecure in the relationship.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not because they want sex, but because they want reassurance and then feeling empty afterward because the intimacy did not actually provide safety.
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  SPEAKER_00: The underlying need is not physical, it is attachment security.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sex was the vehicle, but it was never going to deliver what was actually needed.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of anxious attachment like checking your phone obsessively for a text from someone you're not actually sure about.
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  SPEAKER_00: Each check is a bid for reassurance, and even when the text comes, the relief lasts only for a few minutes before the anxiety returns.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sex used for reassurance works the same way.
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  SPEAKER_00: It provides momentary relief, the feeling of being wanted, of being close, but the anxiety underneath is not addressed.
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  SPEAKER_00: So the cycle repeats.
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  SPEAKER_00: Avoidant attachment moves in the opposite direction, but creates just as many problems in intimacy.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you are starting to recognize yourself in these patterns, subscribe.
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  SPEAKER_00: I post weekly on desire and the deeper patterns that shape it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this kind of awareness changes everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: Avoidantly attached people experience caregivers who are consistently emotionally unavailable or dismissive of needs.
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  SPEAKER_00: They learn to deactivate their attachment system, to manage by not needing and not wanting and not asking.
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  SPEAKER_00: In adult intimacy, this often shows up as discomfort with closeness, a preference for emotional distance, difficulty receiving care or vulnerability, and a body that guards against full presence in intimate moments.
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  SPEAKER_00: For women with avoid and attachment, low desire is often related to an unconscious protection against that very vulnerability that intimacy requires.
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  SPEAKER_00: Closeness feels threatening.
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  SPEAKER_00: The body guards against it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Avoid an attachment does not mean not wanting closeness.
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  SPEAKER_00: It means your nervous system learned that closeness was dangerous or suffocating or undeserved.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your body is protecting you from something that used to be a threat.
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  SPEAKER_00: I worked with a woman who we'll call her Claire, who described feeling fine about her relationship in theory, but finding herself inexplicably irritated whenever her husband was affectionate.
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  SPEAKER_00: She did not consciously want to pull away.
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  SPEAKER_00: She just did.
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  SPEAKER_00: Every time he reached for her, something tightened.
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  SPEAKER_00: She assumed something was wrong with her or with him.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we traced it back, what emerged was that she had grown up in a household where emotional need was dismissed.
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  SPEAKER_00: Don't be so sensitive.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're fine.
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  SPEAKER_00: Until she stopped bringing her needs to anyone, her body learned that closeness was something to manage, not something to lean into.
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  SPEAKER_00: In intimacy, that early lesson was running the show.
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  SPEAKER_00: Ask yourself, do I feel an inexplicable irritation or urge to pull away when my partner initiates closeness?
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  SPEAKER_00: Does vulnerability and intimacy feel uncomfortable or even threatening, even when I trust my partner?
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  SPEAKER_00: Do I find it easier to manage my own emotions than to allow my partner to be present with them?
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  SPEAKER_00: Disorganized attachment occurs when caregivers were both a source of comfort and a source of fear.
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  SPEAKER_00: The person learns a closeness is simultaneously needed and dangerous.
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  SPEAKER_00: In adult intimacy, this creates a profound internal conflict, wanting closeness and being terrified of it simultaneously, pursuing and then fleeing, opening and then abruptly shutting down.
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  SPEAKER_00: For women with this pattern, desire and fear become entangled in ways that make intimacy feel confusing and destabilizing.
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  SPEAKER_00: This pattern often has roots in early trauma or abuse and typically benefits from professional support to entangle.
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  SPEAKER_00: Disorganized attachment does not make you broken.
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  SPEAKER_00: It makes you someone whose nervous system learned that love and danger came from the same source.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is an understandable response to an impossible situation.
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  SPEAKER_00: Imagine being desperately thirsty but afraid of water because every time you approached it, something frightening happened.
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  SPEAKER_00: You need the water.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are drawn to it and you are also terrified of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You approach and retreat, approach and retreat.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is the internal experience of disorganized attachment and intimacy, the pull towards closeness and the fear of closeness existing simultaneously, creating a pattern that looks chaotic but is actually deeply logical given what was learned.
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  SPEAKER_00: Stop treating your reactions in intimacy as random or out of your control.
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  SPEAKER_00: Stop using intimacy to manage attachment anxiety, seeking reassurance rather than genuine connection.
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  SPEAKER_00: And stop withdrawing from intimacy without understanding that withdrawal as a protective pattern.
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  SPEAKER_00: Start naming your pattern when you notice it operating.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am pursuing because I feel anxious or I am pulling away because closeness feels unsafe right now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Start getting curious about the attachment need underneath your intimacy response, not just the behavior.
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  SPEAKER_00: And start seeking therapeutic support if the pattern feels deeply rooted or is significantly affecting your relationship.
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  SPEAKER_00: Here's what changes when you can name your pattern.
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  SPEAKER_00: You gain a pause between the trigger and the reaction, and that gives you information and knowledge and strength and power.
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  SPEAKER_00: Before awareness, the pattern runs automatically.
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  SPEAKER_00: You pursue or you pull away or you oscillate between the two without understanding why.
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  SPEAKER_00: But after awareness, you have a moment of recognition.
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  SPEAKER_00: I know what this is, I know where it came from, and I have a choice about what I do next.
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  SPEAKER_00: That pause is where change begins.
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  SPEAKER_00: Attachment patterns are not destiny, they are learned responses that can shift with awareness, new experiences, and often therapeutic support.
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  SPEAKER_00: You cannot change what you cannot see.
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  SPEAKER_00: Seeing your pattern is the beginning of changing your relationship to it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of your attachment pattern like the current of a river.
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  SPEAKER_00: Before you know it is there, you just get swept along.
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  SPEAKER_00: You end up downstream and you do not know how you got there.
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  SPEAKER_00: Once you can feel the current, once you can name it, you can start to swim at an angle to it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You do not have to fight it directly.
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  SPEAKER_00: You just have to know it is there and adjust.
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  SPEAKER_00: Over time, you can change where you land.
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  SPEAKER_00: So tonight, do this.
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  SPEAKER_00: Identify your pattern.
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  SPEAKER_00: When intimacy feels threatened or uncertain, do you move toward?
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  SPEAKER_00: That's anxious.
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  SPEAKER_00: Do you move away?
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  SPEAKER_00: That's avoidant.
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  SPEAKER_00: Or do you oscillate in between both?
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  SPEAKER_00: That's disorganized.
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  SPEAKER_00: Ask yourself honestly, is my desire and intimacy connected to genuinely wanting connection, or is it serving another function?
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  SPEAKER_00: Am I seeking reassurance?
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  SPEAKER_00: Am I avoiding closeness or managing fear?
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  SPEAKER_00: Write down one moment this week where you noticed your attachment pattern operating in your intimate life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just naming it begins to loosen its grip.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you recognize significant disorganized attachment patterns, consider reaching out to a therapist who specializes in attachment or trauma.
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  SPEAKER_00: This work is worth doing with support.
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  SPEAKER_00: Attachment patterns operate invisibly until you make them visible.
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  SPEAKER_00: The naming itself is an intervention.
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  SPEAKER_00: It creates the observer position, the part of you that can watch the pattern without being fully inside it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that observer position is where choice begins to exist.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your attachment style was formed before you had any choice in the matter.
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  SPEAKER_00: It developed as the best possible adaptation to your earliest relationships, but it may not be serving you well in your current intimate life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Naming it, understanding how it operates and starting to work with it rather than against it is how attachment wounds begin to heal and how desire begins to have room to exist on its own terms.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you want to understand how to have the kind of conversations that begin to shift these patterns, watch how to talk to your partner about sex without it turning into a fight.
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  SPEAKER_00: Understanding your attachment pattern is only useful if you can begin to communicate across it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that video shows you how.