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SEASON 2 DA CREW PODCAST_ EPISODE _162_ HOST TRIVEDA HARRIS (1) · DA CREW Podcast

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Speaker 1: Good evening and welcome to Believe in the Journey podcast
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Speaker 1: where I am your host, Trevita Harris, and I have
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Speaker 1: a wonderful guest tonight that we are going to be
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Speaker 1: talking about her book. Her name is Miss Farren maclamore
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Speaker 1: and she is also a nominee for the Distinguished Author
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Speaker 1: the tenth, so you guys don't want to miss that.
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Speaker 1: But she has a very good book that she has
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Speaker 1: and it's called Shining Through My Journey with Incontinia Pigman
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Speaker 1: Tie And we're going to discuss that when she comes up.
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Speaker 1: But before we do anything, we definitely have to go
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Speaker 1: to God in prayer. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for
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Speaker 1: bringing us together as you do each and every time
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Speaker 1: we are in front of you. You let the word
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Speaker 1: of my mouth be content with the ears that are
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Speaker 1: listening in tonight. Also be with those who are in
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Speaker 1: the storm tonight. There's a hurricane that is over the
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Speaker 1: eastern part of the world, so please keep everyone safe
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Speaker 1: and out of harm's way. It is your will that
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Speaker 1: everything that we do is according to your plan and
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Speaker 1: your path.
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Speaker 2: That you have for us. Let us be in your
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Speaker 2: will and not in ours.
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Speaker 1: And let us get out of your way for everything
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Speaker 1: that you have that is destined for us. Let us
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Speaker 1: walk in the purpose that you have created each of
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Speaker 1: us to be, and let us not be shy for
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Speaker 1: what it is that you have called us to do.
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Speaker 2: And your person's and Holy name Jesus, I pray amen.
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Speaker 2: And now can we please bring up my guest.
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Speaker 1: Hello, Nay, how are you?
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Speaker 2: I am good? How are you?
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Speaker 1: I am blessed. Thank you so much for having me.
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Speaker 2: Of course, it is a wonderful thing to be here.
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Speaker 1: I want you to tell the guests a little bit
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Speaker 1: more about you, and then we're gonna talk about this book. Okay.
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Speaker 1: So my name is Sarren McLamore and I am a
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Speaker 1: first time self published author. So I wrote my first book,
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Speaker 1: Cause Shining through my journey with incontentity of pignity. So,
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Speaker 1: of course I'm sure you guys are like, what is that.
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Speaker 1: First of all, my passion is to uplift, inspire and
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Speaker 1: encourage people, So I wanted to look for a way
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Speaker 1: to be able to do that, and God definitely heard
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Speaker 1: my prayer because this was the way that I could
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Speaker 1: do that, not ever thinking that this would ever be
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Speaker 1: my own journey.
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Speaker 2: But.
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Speaker 1: Nevertheless it's a blessing to be able to do it.
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Speaker 1: The process for me was so smooth. And the inspiration
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Speaker 1: behind this book is my daughter. So my daughter was
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Speaker 1: born with this rare genetic condition, and I realized that
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Speaker 1: a lot of people just simply didn't know what it was.
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Speaker 1: I never heard of it, and I always felt like
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Speaker 1: I had a story to tell. So one day I
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Speaker 1: just said, I want to write a book. I want
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Speaker 1: to write a children's book. And I actually already had
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Speaker 1: a written out. Believe it or not, I felt like
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Speaker 1: I had, you know, let me just get these thoughts
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Speaker 1: on paper, all right. That is how this came along.
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Speaker 1: Never did I think I would be having me on
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Speaker 1: my first book, But it's been such an amazing, such
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Speaker 1: a rewarding experience, and the people that I've met, the
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Speaker 1: people that I've got to me being here with you,
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Speaker 1: it's just that the journey. Listen, I understand, like when
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Speaker 1: you want to tell people about something that you've been
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Speaker 1: going through yourself, you don't realize that you have all
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Speaker 1: of the information to write a book like you've done,
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Speaker 1: and you've put all of those information, all the information together,
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Speaker 1: and you put it in a way to where not
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Speaker 1: only younger kids can read it, but adults can get
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Speaker 1: a better understanding of what it is as well. And
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Speaker 1: that's the beautiful part about it is fun and it's
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Speaker 1: educational at the same time. And it also includes your
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Speaker 1: daughter in a way that she probably never thought that
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Speaker 1: she would have an impact on anybody either.
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Speaker 2: Right, But.
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Speaker 1: About it is that while it is a children's book,
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Speaker 1: I believe that it can impact or inspire anybody, you know,
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Speaker 1: especially though with differences. The whole goal is just to
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Speaker 1: teach that important concept of self love and just teach
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Speaker 1: people to embrace those differences because that's my life. I
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Speaker 1: have to teach my daughter to embrace this difference because
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Speaker 1: it's you know, it's something that she'll go through for
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Speaker 1: the rest of her life. So being able to just
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Speaker 1: encourage her encourages me too. So okay, well, Alaska, I
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Speaker 1: know that you mentioned that it is a genetic condition.
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Speaker 1: Did it come from it like, is it one gene
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Speaker 1: like father or is it mother?
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Speaker 2: Females that carry the trait for this condition.
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Speaker 1: So it is a exce link dominant, So the condition
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Speaker 1: is passed from mother to daughter, and fathers cannot pass
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Speaker 1: it to their daughters. It's very very rare for a
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Speaker 1: father to pass it to their daughter. Now what's interesting
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Speaker 1: is I got tested and I do not have the gene. Okay,
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Speaker 1: so she we're still just trying to figure out how
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Speaker 1: she got it, but at the same time, we've educated
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Speaker 1: ourselves about it. So the condition is it's a it's
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Speaker 1: a condition that impacts the skin, so it's a skin condition,
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Speaker 1: but it also can impact your eyes, so your eyesight.
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Speaker 1: It can also unpack your hair, so alopecia. It can
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Speaker 1: also unpack your like the way your teeth rows, so
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Speaker 1: you can have your seat teeth or pet shaped teeth,
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Speaker 1: or you can have like pitted or rough fingernails and
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Speaker 1: toe nails. And then of course it impacts the central
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Speaker 1: nervous system. So there's a mile to severe part of
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Speaker 1: the condition, and my daughter actually has a severe part
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Speaker 1: of it. So there's a lot of different steps that
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Speaker 1: we have to take for her just because she has
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Speaker 1: the more severe part of the condition. Okay, I know
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Speaker 1: that I was reading that that it starts in infancy
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Speaker 1: and then it goes into different stages through. Wow, and
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Speaker 1: I read about the alopecia, the teeth, the nails, and
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Speaker 1: all of those different things that come along with that.
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Speaker 1: That is a complicated and complex thing to deal with.
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Speaker 1: And I know when you first had the diagnosis, I
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Speaker 1: know that there was some overwhelmingness that you felt when
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Speaker 1: getting all of.
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Speaker 2: This information, and you're like, Okay, what is this?
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Speaker 1: How do I even start to tackle And when she's
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Speaker 1: old enough, how do I even explain to her what
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Speaker 1: it is that she's going to have to endure and
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Speaker 1: go through, And how am I going to explain it
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Speaker 1: in a way that's age appropriate for her.
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Speaker 2: I'm sure those were some of.
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Speaker 1: Your questions, you know what, You hit it right on it, like,
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Speaker 1: I couldn't even have said that better. Because she's my
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Speaker 1: first born, so being the first mother, there were no
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Speaker 1: warning signs. There were no warning signs that hey, something's
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Speaker 1: going to be different, you know when she comes. So
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Speaker 1: the first couple of days of her life, like the
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Speaker 1: first three days. You know you're having your baby and
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Speaker 1: you're leaving in three days, right, But for us that
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Speaker 1: wasn't the case. The first day was wonderful. That was
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Speaker 1: second that's when things just started to change, and we
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Speaker 1: noticed she actually had a stroke the second day. Oh wow, Yeah,
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Speaker 1: she had a stroke the second day, and then also
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Speaker 1: the third day, the nurses noticed that she was a
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Speaker 1: little fussier than normal and she had air and her intestines,
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Speaker 1: oh and which I've never heard of. So I can
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Speaker 1: imagine me being the first time, like I said, hearing
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Speaker 1: these things, and emotions, of course were all over the place.
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Speaker 1: I had to have an emergency C section with her. Okay, yeah,
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Speaker 1: I was in labor for forty eight hours and I
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Speaker 1: ended up spiking of fever and that aft her heart
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Speaker 1: rate to go up and her to be distressed. So
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Speaker 1: of course I had to have So that was also
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Speaker 1: devastating because you know, you go in with the plan. Yeah,
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Speaker 1: I had a completely different plan.
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Speaker 2: All three of them had a different one day child.
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Speaker 1: But you know, after hearing it, obviously it definitely was
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Speaker 1: something that we didn't want to happen. But at the
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Speaker 1: same time, you know, we're we're grateful. I'm grateful that
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Speaker 1: it was me they got to experience it because it
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Speaker 1: just within my relationship and God stood in my face
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Speaker 1: a walk. I had to turn to him like that
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Speaker 1: was the only way that I was going to get
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Speaker 1: through it. While sometimes people say, you know, why me,
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Speaker 1: but also why not me? Because he also both my
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Speaker 1: heart and my passion is to to help people. So
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Speaker 1: whether it's ear, I always say I can give the
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Speaker 1: best advice, but great and so able to just shed
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Speaker 1: like you know, on the condition and then just also
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Speaker 1: to help other parents and other mothers and fathers suit
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Speaker 1: because they go through it too, right, you know, through
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Speaker 1: it and just be able to share my journey while
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Speaker 1: also encouraging. It's never easy. You know, you don't want
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Speaker 1: to your kids, you know, struggle, you don't want to
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Speaker 1: see your you know, you don't want to see any
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Speaker 1: of that. But it look to God be the glory.
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Speaker 1: He literally is carrying us through it. And even with
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Speaker 1: this book being able to tell the story, it's so rewarning.
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Speaker 1: I've included her in the entire process. It's bringing her
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Speaker 1: confidence out, which is it's so rewarding because it's even
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Speaker 1: bringing you know, making her confidence. And she calls it
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Speaker 1: our book, which I love it too, yes, yes, yeah,
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Speaker 1: so yeah, you definitely hit that right on the head.
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Speaker 1: It's been a journey. That's why I call it Shining
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Speaker 1: through my journey because it's journey always yeah, and it's
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Speaker 1: definitely going to be one that continues.
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Speaker 2: The thing that you said.
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Speaker 1: Is it's been a blessing for you because it's always
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Speaker 1: when you start to go through something that you don't
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Speaker 1: understand why you've been put in that situation, and it's
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Speaker 1: always that first question that we go to and.
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Speaker 2: Say, well, why is this happening to me? But instead of.
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Speaker 1: Doing that and wallowing in that, you turn to God
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Speaker 1: and said, Okay, I'm glad that you gave this to me,
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Speaker 1: because I'm the one that's going to be able to
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Speaker 1: deal with it in a way that's not only only
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Speaker 1: going to be beneficial for me, but.
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Speaker 2: For all others around me.
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Speaker 1: And that's one thing that I tell people about myself
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Speaker 1: is that having a stroke and also having KIRII my information,
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Speaker 1: having that at thirty years old, it was my blos
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Speaker 1: lessing and my curse, you know, And it's been able
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Speaker 1: to push me into spaces that I never thought I
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Speaker 1: would be in me talking to you right.
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Speaker 2: Now on this podcast.
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Speaker 1: Child, Now, I'm gonna tell you this was never something
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Speaker 1: I thought I would be doing in a million years
15:17
Speaker 1: because I'm not a people person per se when it
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Speaker 1: comes to this kind of stuff. I can talk to anybody,
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Speaker 1: that's not a problem. But being in a space to
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Speaker 1: where this is the norm for me, oh no, I'm
15:32
Speaker 1: gonna be in a back corner waiting for somebody to
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Speaker 1: actually interact with me. And I'm like, okay, because when
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Speaker 1: I was going through all of that at one time,
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Speaker 1: because I was told that I had a stroke, I
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Speaker 1: was told that I had a brain aneurysm, I was
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Speaker 1: told that I have.
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Speaker 2: Keyr information, all in the span of thirty days, and
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Speaker 2: it was like, Okay, what am I supposed to do
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Speaker 2: with this information?
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Speaker 1: No one has ever heard of this condition number one
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Speaker 1: that I know of.
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Speaker 2: I don't even know how to spell it.
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Speaker 1: I don't even know how to really say it right,
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Speaker 1: And now I gotta deal with this.
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Speaker 2: But then realizing I have.
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Speaker 1: Been dealing with this my whole life because this is
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Speaker 1: a genetic condition as well, but there's no cure for it. Also,
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Speaker 1: it's like, okay, you do who, what, when?
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Speaker 2: Where?
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Speaker 6: Why?
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Speaker 1: All of these questions, And so I started doing research
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Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, well this makes sense, this makes sense.
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Speaker 2: Okay, this is here, this is there.
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Speaker 1: But you go and you learn that God has not
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Speaker 1: put you in a place that he's not gonna provide
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Speaker 1: you with everything that you need to get through it.
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Speaker 1: And when we start to understand no matter what we're
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Speaker 1: going through in this life, God has already planned out
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Speaker 1: every step of what it is that we're gonna encounter
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Speaker 1: and what we're gonna go through. So everything that you
16:50
Speaker 1: need is already inside of you. You just got to
16:53
Speaker 1: figure out how he wants you to utilize it. And
16:56
Speaker 1: when you start walking and paying attention to what He's
16:59
Speaker 1: telling you to do, you start to move in that direction,
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Speaker 1: which is what led you to writing this book, so
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Speaker 1: you can also help other people but also be in
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Speaker 1: a space to where you're helping and healing and learning
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Speaker 1: along the way.
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Speaker 2: Is that something that you felt when.
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Speaker 1: You were going through this process and beginning the process
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Speaker 1: of actually compiling the book and putting it together, because
17:25
Speaker 1: you had wrote it a long time ago when you
17:27
Speaker 1: started doing your research, you just didn't really know what
17:30
Speaker 1: you had. You know what, It's great that you say that,
17:34
Speaker 1: because I found a notebook that probably I want to
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Speaker 1: say after actually why she was the NICKI So while
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Speaker 1: she was I had already started writing just from the beginning,
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Speaker 1: and that I was able to go back to refer to.
17:53
Speaker 1: The crazy part about it is when I reached out.
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Speaker 1: So of course I didn't I didn't know nothing about writing.
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Speaker 1: I didn't know the first step, but I just knew that,
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Speaker 1: you know, I've heard people talk about self publishing. So
18:08
Speaker 1: I ended up reaching out to a couple people and
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Speaker 1: the company that I chose to go with, ex Leeblers Publishing.
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Speaker 1: I just shared, I wrote through. Like I said, I
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Speaker 1: wrote the rough draft and I didn't really you know,
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Speaker 1: proof read. I just want to get my thoughts out
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Speaker 1: and even sharing the story with her, I just get
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Speaker 1: this long email about how much that it just impacted
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Speaker 1: her and just helped her. And it was even then
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Speaker 1: it blew my mind because a lot of people may
18:41
Speaker 1: think of like the monetary part of a book, but
18:44
Speaker 1: for me, it was never that. It was I want
18:48
Speaker 1: to I just want to educate people about this, about this.
18:53
Speaker 1: I want to be able to just encourage those people,
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Speaker 1: those parents, because you know, sometimes stuff like this it's
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Speaker 1: hard to accept, it's hard to take, it's hard to accept.
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Speaker 1: And just being able to say, hey, like I understand,
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Speaker 1: like I'm here with you. So I think that just
19:13
Speaker 1: creates that community for people. And I think that That's
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Speaker 1: what we need because at first, a lot of people
19:19
Speaker 1: didn't even know the full story. They just knew that
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Speaker 1: she had this weird condition. They didn't know about the
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Speaker 1: strokes and the seizures, and she had to have a
19:28
Speaker 1: colossity bad because she the air in antestine, that she
19:32
Speaker 1: had a hole in the rectum like those things. A
19:35
Speaker 1: lot of people they don't know the details. And this
19:40
Speaker 1: is just the beginning. Because you know, I wanted to
19:43
Speaker 1: I wanted to be a children but I didn't want
19:45
Speaker 1: it to be a long but I wanted to introduce it.
19:48
Speaker 1: I wanted to introduce my daughter. I wanted to introduce
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Speaker 1: the condition. So yes, the ability to just be able
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Speaker 1: to say, hey, I can help heal somebody. I can help,
19:58
Speaker 1: you know, help somebody get through it. Period, even though
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Speaker 1: you know you have a condition, that doesn't mean you
20:05
Speaker 1: can't win. It doesn't mean right, that doesn't mean that
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Speaker 1: you can't you can't you know, succeed. It might be
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Speaker 1: a different it might take a different journey, it might
20:16
Speaker 1: take a little bit longer, but you keep going in
20:21
Speaker 1: as long as you have that support system, which my
20:24
Speaker 1: support system has been phenomenal, Like I cannot even though
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Speaker 1: it's family, my church family. I make sure, I say
20:31
Speaker 1: think because they don't have to support. They don't have to,
20:36
Speaker 1: but it means so much just to have that behind me,
20:41
Speaker 1: just being able to share this and to be able
20:44
Speaker 1: to you know, get this out there. Yeah, that's a
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Speaker 1: major thing I think that helps when you are dealing
20:51
Speaker 1: with health issues is the support that you have that's
20:54
Speaker 1: behind you, because it will make or break you in
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Speaker 1: some sense. It's because you're carrying the way of dealing
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Speaker 1: with it on one end, and then if you don't
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Speaker 1: have that support, it's like, Okay, what am I supposed
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Speaker 1: to do When there's a day where you don't even
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Speaker 1: have anything to give in any capacity, But you have
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Speaker 1: that support around you, that's gonna uplift you and they're
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Speaker 1: gonna start refilling that battery, refilling that cup and doing
21:22
Speaker 1: everything that you need to say. Okay, I thank you
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Speaker 1: for coming in and being what I couldn't be in
21:29
Speaker 1: that moment, for giving me what I needed to get
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Speaker 1: over here in this space to be where I needed
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Speaker 1: to be for her. Also, the other thing is the
21:40
Speaker 1: education part is always the one that we seem to.
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Speaker 2: Get so wrapped up in. It's trying to.
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Speaker 1: Make sure that it's we give the education in a
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Speaker 1: space to where that it's going to be understood, to
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Speaker 1: where it's not overwhelming, not using a lot of medical terminology,
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Speaker 1: because people don't understand when you're using medical terminology, especially
22:04
Speaker 1: if you work in the medical field. Like I work
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Speaker 1: in the medical field, but I don't like to talk
22:09
Speaker 1: to people with medical terms because just because I know
22:13
Speaker 1: what this word means doesn't mean that you're gonna know
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Speaker 1: what it means. So I could say, Okay, you got
22:17
Speaker 1: a laceration on your femur.
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Speaker 2: Who knows all of that? You know?
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Speaker 1: You cut your leg, you know, and you need some stitches.
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Speaker 1: You don't need all this extra mumbo jumble. Just tell
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Speaker 1: me how many stitches you're gonna put in my leg?
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Speaker 1: Are you gonna use stitches? Are you gonna use staples?
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Speaker 1: Like that's what you need.
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Speaker 2: Know, you don't need to know how the extra stuff.
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Speaker 2: Just get to the point.
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Speaker 1: So when you're talking and education, educating people on what
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Speaker 1: it is that you're dealing with, it can get overwhelming
22:49
Speaker 1: in a sense of am I saying this in a
22:52
Speaker 1: way that it can be relatable and they're not so
22:56
Speaker 1: confused on what I'm talking about? Because you don't want
23:00
Speaker 1: to leave them in a space to where they're asking
23:02
Speaker 1: more questions than they started out with. Like they have
23:07
Speaker 1: four questions to begin with, now they got fifteen, and
23:11
Speaker 1: you're like, Okay, I thought I was very direct in here,
23:16
Speaker 1: but then you added seventeen other little spaces and now
23:19
Speaker 1: they don't got to these fifteen questions and you I
23:22
Speaker 1: just started out with four. That's all I want these
23:26
Speaker 1: four questions answer. But now that you intrigue me enough
23:29
Speaker 1: to where Okay, I gotta read some more, I gotta
23:33
Speaker 1: do some more research.
23:34
Speaker 2: I gotta do this, and I gotta do that.
23:36
Speaker 1: But rare conditions are always so complicated.
23:41
Speaker 2: And I tell people all the time, with me.
23:43
Speaker 1: If anything can be complicated, it's going to be with me,
23:47
Speaker 1: because I am number one.
23:48
Speaker 2: I am four eight, so I'm very short.
23:52
Speaker 1: So when it comes to that it's going to be
23:55
Speaker 1: a rare condition, it's going to be me that has it.
23:58
Speaker 1: If it's going to be something that has to do
24:00
Speaker 1: with something that you've never ever heard of, never seen,
24:03
Speaker 1: never tried, I never done any Oh, it's.
24:05
Speaker 2: Gonna be with me.
24:06
Speaker 6: Because one other thing.
24:07
Speaker 1: Like I have the hiccups every single day. My hiccups
24:10
Speaker 1: are not normal. They sound like I can't breathe, and
24:14
Speaker 1: when people hear them, they want to call and they
24:18
Speaker 1: won't call nine one one and get me some help.
24:20
Speaker 2: And I'm like, no, you don't need to do that.
24:22
Speaker 6: I'm fine.
24:23
Speaker 2: I promise you. I'm talking to you.
24:24
Speaker 1: You're good. But they're like, no, that's not a normal hiccup.
24:27
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, for me, it's normal. You know, you're
24:29
Speaker 1: not supposed to have hiccups every day. Yeah, I understand that,
24:32
Speaker 1: But for me, I've had them every day for the
24:34
Speaker 1: last twenty three years.
24:36
Speaker 2: If I drink cold water, I'm gonna get the hiccups.
24:39
Speaker 1: So I just have to have my water room temperature.
24:41
Speaker 1: I can't have nice cold otherwise you're gonna hear me
24:43
Speaker 1: hiccup all day. And I tell you, if you stay
24:45
Speaker 1: close to me long enough, you gonna have hiccups too.
24:48
Speaker 1: It's a sympathy thing. I don't know what it is,
24:50
Speaker 1: but somebody else is gonna get the hiccups.
24:52
Speaker 2: So I try to warn you ahead of time that
24:54
Speaker 2: that's what's gonna happen to be, so.
24:56
Speaker 1: You know that's just what it is. Anyway, I like
25:01
Speaker 1: I told to her, I'm still a boofy. We're gonna
25:03
Speaker 1: have a good time at the end of the day.
25:05
Speaker 2: But I know it has been a journey for her
25:09
Speaker 2: to learn this stuff about herself.
25:11
Speaker 1: And I'm pretty sure that she's telling her other friends
25:15
Speaker 1: and everything and educating them about what she's going through
25:19
Speaker 1: and what she's encountered. And I know that has to
25:21
Speaker 1: be a wonderful feeling for you to watch her blossom
25:24
Speaker 1: into a different child from being I would say, unsure
25:32
Speaker 1: of herself in a sense of I don't know, and
25:35
Speaker 1: I know that I'm different than other people in this sense,
25:38
Speaker 1: but I'm still good at in this space, and I
25:42
Speaker 1: can still do.
25:42
Speaker 2: Everything that you do.
25:44
Speaker 1: It's just I got a different detour and I got
25:46
Speaker 1: a different path that I have to do to get there.
25:49
Speaker 2: But we still gonna get to the finish line together.
25:50
Speaker 1: But girl, let me tell you, I gotta go over
25:52
Speaker 1: here so I could get to this one over here.
25:54
Speaker 6: So I know that you have a joy in watching
25:57
Speaker 6: her do that.
25:59
Speaker 1: You know what it's been, It's been amazing. I I
26:04
Speaker 1: actually went to her classroom to read my book, so
26:10
Speaker 1: her teacher also has a disabled child, so she that's
26:16
Speaker 1: what I loved. I said, Okay, you you know you
26:17
Speaker 1: would understand. And so where I was the author and
26:21
Speaker 1: I wrote a book you know about Camaia. My daughter's
26:24
Speaker 1: name is Camaia, okay. In the book, she's my ino.
26:28
Speaker 1: And I told her, I said, do you mind if
26:31
Speaker 1: I come and read to your class? That way your
26:34
Speaker 1: class can understand her a little bit more. And when
26:37
Speaker 1: I tell you, it blew my mind. How so she's
26:40
Speaker 1: in third grade? Mind how much they understood and questions
26:47
Speaker 1: that they asked. I'm like, how are you what the
26:54
Speaker 1: little girl said to me? She said, it must have
26:57
Speaker 1: been hard for you as parents to see her go
26:59
Speaker 1: through that too. And I'm little girl, you know, and
27:09
Speaker 1: it's just been I think that also just kind of
27:13
Speaker 1: shed light, you know, for them on her. She is
27:17
Speaker 1: I call her my little natural nurture. So she she loves,
27:20
Speaker 1: She loves to help every like her little brother was
27:24
Speaker 1: her baby. Like she has already carry my little niece.
27:30
Speaker 1: She's carrying her on her hip. But I love to
27:37
Speaker 1: see it because, like I said, she's coming out of
27:39
Speaker 1: her shell. And I've included her like the war show.
27:44
Speaker 1: She will be there in her gold now. She will
27:48
Speaker 1: be there because if this is just as much as
27:52
Speaker 1: about her as it and I want to make sure
27:56
Speaker 1: people know that, and yeah, just you know it is.
28:01
Speaker 1: It is rewarding because, like I said, the confidence, her
28:04
Speaker 1: confidence is increasing, she is getting to know herself more.
28:09
Speaker 1: With her like me, it's it's on the severe side.
28:12
Speaker 1: So sometimes the comprehension is not all the way there.
28:18
Speaker 1: You know how to communicate with her, that's that's the
28:20
Speaker 1: thing you learn and her and you you do that,
28:25
Speaker 1: And that was the most frustrating thing before. It's like,
28:29
Speaker 1: how am I going to get through this when we
28:32
Speaker 1: know so we literally just tackled Let's just learn how
28:35
Speaker 1: she learns, Let's learn how we talk to her. Let's
28:38
Speaker 1: just learn these things. So now it's like a walking apart.
28:42
Speaker 1: Like sometimes you know the comprehension piece, but we know
28:45
Speaker 1: how to direct it in a way that stands. And
28:50
Speaker 1: even when people talk to her ask her certain things
28:53
Speaker 1: like usually we're there and she'll kind of look at
28:56
Speaker 1: I don't understand, and then we can stand there and
28:59
Speaker 1: say what you know, what is this?
29:01
Speaker 2: You know?
29:02
Speaker 1: Or you know, we can kind of read break the
29:04
Speaker 1: questions because if you look at her, you really won't
29:06
Speaker 1: know that there's anything wrong because she's such a bright girl.
29:12
Speaker 1: She's you know, she's always bubbly, and so you wouldn't know.
29:16
Speaker 1: So the biggest thing is I think she just kind
29:18
Speaker 1: of you know, grasp a hold of it, but just
29:23
Speaker 1: you know, the constant conversations, the constant reminders of you know,
29:27
Speaker 1: just making sure that she is comfortable with the person
29:31
Speaker 1: that she looks at in the mirror is what we want,
29:34
Speaker 1: and that she embraces that person without any doubt and
29:38
Speaker 1: without any fear. So that's what that's because you know,
29:43
Speaker 1: they're thankfully there hasn't been any bullying because of it,
29:48
Speaker 1: thankfully because we you know, we we pray against that
29:52
Speaker 1: because but at the same time, should that ever happen,
29:57
Speaker 1: you know, she knows what to do. Questions we asked her,
30:01
Speaker 1: you know, how was your day in school? Is there
30:02
Speaker 1: anything you want to talk about? Is there anything that
30:05
Speaker 1: happened that made you feel sad or uncomfortable? You know,
30:08
Speaker 1: those things we have to ask because we want to
30:11
Speaker 1: make sure she understands if it do happen, you would
30:14
Speaker 1: know that it's happening. Yeah, yeah, that's always a good thing.
30:19
Speaker 1: I'm just really happy for her and happy for you
30:23
Speaker 1: because it's a beautiful journey to see your child come
30:27
Speaker 1: out of a space and then.
30:29
Speaker 2: To educate other people.
30:31
Speaker 1: And I know I haven't met her at all, but
30:35
Speaker 1: she's had some really good parents who have instilled in her.
30:39
Speaker 2: And that's that's.
30:40
Speaker 1: A commanding thing for you and your and your husband
30:43
Speaker 1: as well, because if you, guys, would have been so
30:49
Speaker 1: overwhelmed and frustrated and not being able to look past
30:54
Speaker 1: your own personal emotions and feelings to actually pour into
30:59
Speaker 1: her to let her know, Yeah, you may be a
31:01
Speaker 1: little different, but God created you in a space and
31:04
Speaker 1: a way that you're gonna be able to bless other
31:08
Speaker 1: people beyond what we see and what we know. And
31:11
Speaker 1: so for you, guys, to pour into her and to
31:13
Speaker 1: let her know that, yeah, you might be different, but
31:16
Speaker 1: you're still great, and you're still gonna be awesome. You're
31:18
Speaker 1: still gonna be able to do everything that you're supposed
31:21
Speaker 1: to do in a matter of what God has called
31:25
Speaker 1: you to do. So just because you're a little different
31:27
Speaker 1: and it might take you a little minute to get
31:29
Speaker 1: here and there, girl, you awesome anyway. And so for
31:32
Speaker 1: you guys, pouring into her like that, that is why
31:35
Speaker 1: she is that nurturer. That is why she's able to
31:38
Speaker 1: be in the spaces that she's in and have no
31:41
Speaker 1: fear about it. And I know when she walks in
31:44
Speaker 1: a room, she lights it up and she she's.
31:47
Speaker 2: Gonna command the space.
31:48
Speaker 1: I can see that that's probably the personality that she has.
31:56
Speaker 1: It was crazy because it was she she was very shy.
32:01
Speaker 1: I mean she still is a little bit. But I
32:03
Speaker 1: had my first book. When I first wrote the book,
32:06
Speaker 1: one of my friends through me book signing event. Okay,
32:11
Speaker 1: even in that event, like I watched this little girl
32:14
Speaker 1: greet people at the door, Hi, how are you? Every
32:17
Speaker 1: time I write the book, she's right there and I'm
32:20
Speaker 1: like the little girl that always like when you say
32:23
Speaker 1: something to her, she just but that day she was like, again,
32:30
Speaker 1: this is our book, and it was just it was
32:34
Speaker 1: it was so good to see and that's why I'm
32:36
Speaker 1: I'm so happy that like during the process, even the
32:39
Speaker 1: illustration part, like I showed her like this is this
32:42
Speaker 1: is what it is when you know when I order
32:44
Speaker 1: books and they come in the mail, you know, like
32:46
Speaker 1: I said, she let her start signing books with me.
32:51
Speaker 1: So yeah, So I had went to a vendor event
32:54
Speaker 1: and people were okay with her signing the book too,
32:58
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, So from now on, you know, get.
33:01
Speaker 2: Her own pans set so she can sign her books.
33:04
Speaker 1: Hey all, this might not right here, and then you
33:10
Speaker 1: sign after me.
33:11
Speaker 2: You know this, this mine right here.
33:14
Speaker 1: So excited to do it. So that that's like I said,
33:17
Speaker 1: that that means the world to me. And I know that,
33:20
Speaker 1: you know, we still have because she's nine, and I
33:22
Speaker 1: know that we still have, you know, a journey to go.
33:26
Speaker 1: But you know, like I said, keeping God first in
33:29
Speaker 1: it and just for that direction, and it's what's keeping
33:35
Speaker 1: us and it is what's helping us to continue. And
33:38
Speaker 1: so it's I have no complaints. Like before when it
33:42
Speaker 1: was tough, and even when the first time mom and
33:47
Speaker 1: and I had an emergency c section, I couldn't even
33:49
Speaker 1: focus on healing because my baby right itself going down
33:57
Speaker 1: in the window. When you had kids, you'll be like, okay,
34:00
Speaker 1: I got.
34:00
Speaker 2: To make sure the baby is fine.
34:02
Speaker 6: I'll be all right. Just don't worry about that. Focus
34:05
Speaker 6: on baby.
34:06
Speaker 2: Okay, give me get all this together and then we
34:09
Speaker 2: be five.
34:11
Speaker 1: It's still like that. And so another thing about the
34:13
Speaker 1: condition is that it's lethal and boys, so it's passed
34:19
Speaker 1: to a boy. The pregnancy is likely to end in
34:24
Speaker 1: the miscarriage. So I have a son, and so when
34:28
Speaker 1: I was pregnant with him, we did the genetic testing
34:31
Speaker 1: that eight weeks okay, I did not have the gene.
34:35
Speaker 1: And then of course when he was born, we just
34:37
Speaker 1: kind of looked at him to see if there was
34:39
Speaker 1: anything that we noticed on for Maya okay, and so
34:47
Speaker 1: I was able to get my boy. I prayed for
34:49
Speaker 1: my boy. But you know, boys are.
34:52
Speaker 2: I got two of them to look.
34:57
Speaker 1: The boy.
34:58
Speaker 2: Okay.
35:00
Speaker 1: I don't think that a lot of people don't know
35:04
Speaker 1: about it. And then if boys do, some boys do
35:07
Speaker 1: survive with it, but some they said that it could
35:11
Speaker 1: be more severe. So the support group and Continuity of
35:17
Speaker 1: Pigmanity support group okay, and there are stories where you know,
35:26
Speaker 1: they are some boys are living, and then there are
35:29
Speaker 1: stories where they're getting ready to miscarry. Which it's so yeah,
35:36
Speaker 1: because what I've learned is that you can either terminate
35:41
Speaker 1: the pregnancy. Some doctors let you terminate the pregnancy if
35:44
Speaker 1: they see that gene, or let you terminate the pregnancy.
35:48
Speaker 1: You have to wait until you're miss hearing, which I'm
35:52
Speaker 1: very devastating, but yeah, it's so hard. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
36:03
Speaker 1: that's anyway I'm gonna leave that up to him and
36:07
Speaker 1: how he want to.
36:08
Speaker 2: I will stay out of that space.
36:11
Speaker 1: God, whatever your will is in that space, that that's
36:14
Speaker 1: what is gonna be, because I Lord, I can't make
36:17
Speaker 1: that decision.
36:18
Speaker 2: I ain't gonna.
36:19
Speaker 1: Terminate and whatever you assign, that's what it's gonna be,
36:24
Speaker 1: and that that's how it goes. God. And having to
36:29
Speaker 1: you know, make that decision, I've seen it. And even
36:34
Speaker 1: in the groups, just you know, supporting and letting them
36:37
Speaker 1: know that you know, I wrote this book. The feedback
36:40
Speaker 1: has been phenomenal because a lot of people are like,
36:43
Speaker 1: thank you for shedding light on this, Yeah, because nobody
36:47
Speaker 1: really has. And so it's just been boarding in that
36:52
Speaker 1: way that I can shine. And then you know, just
36:55
Speaker 1: seeing all the beautiful IP babies because it's I P
36:58
Speaker 1: for IP, so you know, you know, just doing the
37:01
Speaker 1: beautiful IP babies and just you know, know that I'm
37:04
Speaker 1: not alone. You know, I'm not alone, and you know
37:08
Speaker 1: we can go to that group to you know, ask
37:10
Speaker 1: questions and the stories are very similar or you know,
37:15
Speaker 1: because there's so many different things that you know, it
37:18
Speaker 1: depends on if you have a mild or severely. Some
37:20
Speaker 1: people don't have the brain part of it. They just
37:23
Speaker 1: have like the skin condition or the tea condition, they
37:26
Speaker 1: don't have the brain part. So my daughter has the
37:30
Speaker 1: brain part. So you know, there's different testing that we
37:32
Speaker 1: do EEG s m ories, some neuros psychological testing that's
37:38
Speaker 1: just to see where she is in school. So that
37:43
Speaker 1: neuropsychological testing is what's gonna make sure that she has
37:46
Speaker 1: everything she needs in the IP to get that help.
37:50
Speaker 1: So there's so many things. There's so many things life.
37:54
Speaker 1: It's busier than mine. Yeah, well, she gonna keep you
37:59
Speaker 1: all your toes. That's why God sent her to you,
38:02
Speaker 1: is to keep you on your toes. You never know
38:05
Speaker 1: why God does something, and there's always gonna be that
38:09
Speaker 1: one question, at least once or twice you're gonna ask God,
38:12
Speaker 1: why did you put this on me? God will definitely
38:16
Speaker 1: give you an answer. And as you go through your journey,
38:19
Speaker 1: and as you've seen, He's answered your question over and
38:22
Speaker 1: over again that if it was not you, it was
38:26
Speaker 1: going to be someone else and they may not have
38:29
Speaker 1: handled it in the way that you've been handling it.
38:32
Speaker 1: And so it was for your purpose and it's for
38:34
Speaker 1: your journey. Now I got a question for you. Are
38:37
Speaker 1: this is this gonna be like a series or is
38:41
Speaker 1: it gonna be just this one book and then you're
38:44
Speaker 1: gonna venture off into something else, or is I feel
38:48
Speaker 1: like it should.
38:49
Speaker 2: Be like a series kind of thing. That's what I'm feeling.
38:54
Speaker 1: So trust me. I thought about it so because I'm
38:57
Speaker 1: sure you want a follow right, because again, things change
39:04
Speaker 1: literally stay with this condition. But what I want to
39:09
Speaker 1: do next is either a memoir, so I want to
39:14
Speaker 1: share my side of it, right, okay, my side of
39:18
Speaker 1: it from mothers and fathers are experiencing something like this,
39:24
Speaker 1: whether it's IP, whatever it is. I also want to
39:29
Speaker 1: do a compilation book which is going to give other
39:33
Speaker 1: mothers the opportunity to share their.
39:35
Speaker 2: Story mythology going on there.
39:41
Speaker 1: A little bit. So I'm trying to you know. So, yeah,
39:46
Speaker 1: if you're a mother of you know, a child with
39:49
Speaker 1: a disability, and you're okay, we're sharing your story, I
39:52
Speaker 1: would love to connect because I think it's important just
39:56
Speaker 1: to have that support group and be able to share
39:58
Speaker 1: that because I know what it was like for me.
40:00
Speaker 1: I know the dark thoughts. I know where if you
40:05
Speaker 1: sat in your thoughts it could lead you that you know,
40:08
Speaker 1: down a rabbit hole.
40:11
Speaker 2: It's a whole rabbit hole.
40:13
Speaker 1: Yeah, but you know you have to learn to shift
40:17
Speaker 1: that and and there was things that I just did
40:22
Speaker 1: that and I've already started writing, so because here it's
40:26
Speaker 1: been up here, so I've already started writing. So either
40:31
Speaker 1: way that's going off, it's just you know, a memoir
40:33
Speaker 1: by myself or if it's a compilation book, I still
40:39
Speaker 1: would like to do either one, just because I think
40:41
Speaker 1: it's important just to share that my thoughts and journey
40:46
Speaker 1: first time mom, you know, emergency c section, just the
40:50
Speaker 1: things that I thought, just the things that I felt,
40:55
Speaker 1: just to be able to you know again encourage or
40:59
Speaker 1: you know, uplift. That's three books right there. That's that's
41:04
Speaker 1: three books right there. So you've already started writing. So however,
41:11
Speaker 1: you get your titles together, but there's three books right there,
41:14
Speaker 1: so just go ahead and you know, get your little
41:17
Speaker 1: outlines and stuff together, get that roll and because that
41:21
Speaker 1: is that's really three books right there, because you got
41:24
Speaker 1: and also your husband has his perspective as well, so
41:28
Speaker 1: that's love for you know, you got that in there
41:31
Speaker 1: first time. IM dealing with this and the memoirs and
41:36
Speaker 1: the supportive factor. Then you and your husband together collectively
41:41
Speaker 1: then also other parents. That's quote on that's about five.
41:48
Speaker 1: So if I keep going, it's gonna be a whole.
41:51
Speaker 1: So yeah, I see like a little series going on
41:54
Speaker 1: into here, and.
41:55
Speaker 2: This is the start of it.
41:57
Speaker 1: So with it being her first time, this is God's
42:02
Speaker 1: plan for you all along. And that's one of the
42:05
Speaker 1: things like we never see what God has half the time.
42:08
Speaker 1: We're too busy trying to run from what it is
42:11
Speaker 1: that he's calling us to do anyway, because it's like, Okay, God,
42:14
Speaker 1: yeah that ain't for me. I don't know who you
42:17
Speaker 1: sent that vision for, but that is not my story,
42:20
Speaker 1: you know. And God be like, Okay, yeah, I heard you,
42:22
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna send it right back to you because
42:24
Speaker 1: you're gonna do what I said to do.
42:26
Speaker 2: It's like we're that rebellious.
42:28
Speaker 1: Child that God is like, Okay, yeah, I know that
42:31
Speaker 1: you're trying to go over there and be all worldly
42:33
Speaker 1: and everything, but I'm gonna get you to turn around
42:35
Speaker 1: and do this.
42:36
Speaker 2: You turn and you're gonna be right. Well I told
42:38
Speaker 2: you to be.
42:39
Speaker 1: So yeah, God already knew what he had in store
42:43
Speaker 1: for you with this part of your life and your
42:46
Speaker 1: journey and first time motherhood. It's always those different things
42:51
Speaker 1: that it was like God, sir, listen, I don't know
42:58
Speaker 1: exactly certainly said I need to talk to you because
43:03
Speaker 1: I don't think you heard me when I asked this
43:06
Speaker 1: question this way, So let.
43:07
Speaker 6: Me try to reword it and see if you're gonna
43:09
Speaker 6: hear me a little better this.
43:10
Speaker 1: Time, because and I know I'll be like gud, Look,
43:14
Speaker 1: I know I talked to you early.
43:15
Speaker 2: This morning, but I need to talk to you again.
43:17
Speaker 1: I don't need you to put me on hold and
43:19
Speaker 1: nothing like that, because I really got a question right now.
43:21
Speaker 1: And I know you got other people that you're trying
43:23
Speaker 1: to talk to, but I need you right now, sir,
43:26
Speaker 1: So so can you listen. And I know he'll be
43:29
Speaker 1: like this guy right here, don't got on my nerves today.
43:34
Speaker 1: Sometimes you gotta have them on speed down, okay, Because yeah,
43:39
Speaker 1: but I talked to God just about all day long.
43:42
Speaker 1: I love you. Know you need that guyance, you need
43:45
Speaker 1: that wisdom and everything that you do before you do it.
43:49
Speaker 1: I think that's important to seek him first. So yeah,
43:53
Speaker 1: I think even in this journey, I asked him to
43:57
Speaker 1: order my footsteps. And you know, a lot I hear
44:01
Speaker 1: a lot of people's journey about self publishing to be
44:05
Speaker 1: a little rocky. But I can't say that for like
44:08
Speaker 1: I can I say like I made a decision to write,
44:13
Speaker 1: I went through the publishing company, and here we are.
44:16
Speaker 1: So it wasn't it wasn't anything that I you know, regret.
44:21
Speaker 1: It wasn't anything that I would have done different. I
44:24
Speaker 1: think this is where I'm supposed to be. So I'm
44:27
Speaker 1: just happy to be able to you know, be able
44:31
Speaker 1: to show it. And I'm like you so I talk
44:35
Speaker 1: all the time, I can talk about it. When it
44:38
Speaker 1: comes to this, I'm like, it's like you've been put
44:44
Speaker 1: on a spine and it's like, oh my all eyes
44:47
Speaker 1: on me.
44:50
Speaker 2: I don't know what I was supposed to say, Like
44:52
Speaker 2: I don't know how I'm supposed to go, like, Okay,
44:55
Speaker 2: you want me to do what?
44:56
Speaker 5: Do?
44:56
Speaker 1: What?
44:57
Speaker 2: Who? That ain't for me, that's what somebody else.
45:00
Speaker 1: But it's always I'm like, God, look here, let me
45:03
Speaker 1: just go ahead and do what you told me to do.
45:06
Speaker 2: Be in the space and where you're supposed to be.
45:08
Speaker 1: And I look at it like this, I'm never in
45:09
Speaker 1: a space where I'm not supposed to be because God
45:11
Speaker 1: has already ordered my steps and as long as I'm
45:14
Speaker 1: paying attention to the directions that he gives, I'll never
45:16
Speaker 1: be out of place and I'll never be.
45:17
Speaker 2: Off the path that he has for me.
45:20
Speaker 1: And so when I'm obedient to his the instructions, his directions,
45:24
Speaker 1: no matter what it is, even if I don't agree
45:26
Speaker 1: with it, because I'm like, I don't know if I'm supposed.
45:30
Speaker 2: To be on this right path. But God, I want
45:34
Speaker 2: to take a a detour. I want to go somewhere else,
45:36
Speaker 2: but you keep saying go straight.
45:39
Speaker 1: Well, God, I think I need to go left, and
45:40
Speaker 1: he like, no, no, no, I need you to go
45:42
Speaker 1: straight because what I need you to see and what
45:44
Speaker 1: I need you to do is straight ahead. Don't be
45:47
Speaker 1: trying to vent you off to the left, because that
45:49
Speaker 1: ain't what I said. And I'm like, okay, right, I'm
45:51
Speaker 1: gonna keep going straight, but if it don't look right,
45:55
Speaker 1: I'm gonna have to, you know, And then I end
45:57
Speaker 1: up trying to venture off, and then you know, he'll
46:00
Speaker 1: slap you on the back of the neck and be like,
46:01
Speaker 1: I can't tell you to go that way.
46:03
Speaker 2: So you get that's hard.
46:06
Speaker 6: God gonna tell you.
46:08
Speaker 1: You know, I didn't tell you to go that way
46:11
Speaker 1: I told you to go straight, and now you're trying
46:13
Speaker 1: to venture off. Get back on the path, Get back
46:16
Speaker 1: on the right place where I told you. Because when
46:19
Speaker 1: I wrote my first book, I was self published. Also,
46:23
Speaker 1: I didn't have a clue on what I was doing.
46:25
Speaker 1: I didn't know anything in the first but I was
46:28
Speaker 1: obedient to what He told me to do. Now did
46:30
Speaker 1: I get a lot of criticism, of course, But like
46:33
Speaker 1: people said, they was like, well, I would have never
46:35
Speaker 1: put my name on that. Well, it wasn't your assignment,
46:37
Speaker 1: So of course you're not gonna put your name on
46:38
Speaker 1: something that doesn't.
46:39
Speaker 2: Belong to you.
46:40
Speaker 1: So if it doesn't belong to you, I could care
46:42
Speaker 1: less about what you think about it.
46:43
Speaker 2: It wasn't for you.
46:44
Speaker 1: I was doing what God told me to do, and
46:46
Speaker 1: I did it how he told me to do it.
46:48
Speaker 1: And the path that from that first moment to where
46:53
Speaker 1: I am now is all because I was obedient to what.
46:56
Speaker 2: He told me to do when he told me to
46:58
Speaker 2: do it.
46:59
Speaker 1: Now, had I done it when I wanted to, baby,
47:03
Speaker 1: we wouldn't even be here right now.
47:08
Speaker 2: Don't be honest with you. We would not be here.
47:10
Speaker 6: Right now had I done it on my time. According
47:13
Speaker 6: to my will because got.
47:17
Speaker 1: Look here, h sir, I ain't read that. When you know,
47:25
Speaker 1: when I decided to write a book, you know, most
47:28
Speaker 1: people will you know, share with people that they're writing
47:33
Speaker 1: a book. They would, you know, tell friends, and I did,
47:36
Speaker 1: you know? It was a couple of people that I told,
47:39
Speaker 1: mainly because I wanted to see it through. I wanted
47:43
Speaker 1: to somebody accountable. Yeah, and then I also didn't, you know,
47:48
Speaker 1: because sometimes people can put their negativity on you. Why
47:52
Speaker 1: would you what would you talk about? I didn't want.
47:56
Speaker 1: I knew what I wanted to do, and I told
47:59
Speaker 1: people that you know, I knew would be like, okay,
48:02
Speaker 1: do it. But I told they do it and that's
48:07
Speaker 1: all I need it. I do it and okay, right,
48:13
Speaker 1: like I said, even and I kind of thought, like
48:17
Speaker 1: would that change things, because you know, some people they
48:19
Speaker 1: promote their books before it released. But it didn't. It
48:24
Speaker 1: didn't because I'm a nominee and I'm on platforms where
48:31
Speaker 1: I can share, and yeah, I've never seen it coming
48:34
Speaker 1: like this because you know, you asked me what I
48:37
Speaker 1: wanted to be when I was a little girl. It
48:39
Speaker 1: wasn't an author. And I never thought I was gonna
48:45
Speaker 1: be an author. But I'm thoroughly enjoying it and a
48:50
Speaker 1: lot of times it's it's surreal, you know, like and
48:55
Speaker 1: I have to shout out that, and I have to
48:57
Speaker 1: shout out Gina and doctor Stevens because respect that they
49:01
Speaker 1: put on your name like exactly you know what I mean,
49:05
Speaker 1: like addressed author McLamore or author farn like they just
49:11
Speaker 1: the respect that they have. It's been and it just
49:15
Speaker 1: helps you be like, Okay, I am, I am, and
49:22
Speaker 1: I am happy to see it in that. And you know,
49:25
Speaker 1: I was talking to my apostle, was also an author.
49:30
Speaker 1: You know. He embrace the fact that you're here, and
49:33
Speaker 1: I'm like, yes, you're right, And so I'm learning to
49:37
Speaker 1: embrace that. I'm learning to embrace.
49:40
Speaker 6: The fact that I'm still.
49:49
Speaker 1: But you know, when I tell you this is how
49:53
Speaker 1: you know that God is answering my prayers. I asked
49:55
Speaker 1: him that this would be a year of connection, like
49:57
Speaker 1: I want to divide connection. I wanted people who I
50:00
Speaker 1: could connect with who was doing the same thing that
50:04
Speaker 1: would help me and help you elevate. And then he
50:08
Speaker 1: bought me Dad, and I'm like, okay, like and so
50:11
Speaker 1: and like you said, I sometimes you know, you shy
50:14
Speaker 1: to the back, but I asked him bring me to
50:16
Speaker 1: the front and let me walk. That prayer was.
50:21
Speaker 2: A very specific prayer.
50:23
Speaker 1: And my favorite, you know scripture is you know, he
50:27
Speaker 1: didn't give me the spirit of fear, but of power
50:30
Speaker 1: and love and the sound mind. And so every single
50:32
Speaker 1: time I used to be like before these, I would
50:36
Speaker 1: have like the jitters and I was like, oh my goodness,
50:38
Speaker 1: oh my goodness. But for this particular one, I said, girl,
50:41
Speaker 1: this is your story. There's no wrong way to tell it.
50:44
Speaker 1: This is your journey, and believe in that and walk
50:47
Speaker 1: in there. So this one for me has been like
50:50
Speaker 1: even though I've been nervous, the other ones that you
50:52
Speaker 1: probably say I can't tell, I can tell I was,
50:55
Speaker 1: but you know, that prayer has just been you know,
51:00
Speaker 1: I don't want to walk in here. I want to
51:02
Speaker 1: move and operate how you called me to be. So
51:05
Speaker 1: that has just been, like I said, I'm blowing my
51:09
Speaker 1: own mind cause I'm like me, look when you go
51:13
Speaker 1: back and look at all the things that you've done,
51:15
Speaker 1: it's like, Okay, I was on a podcast not too
51:18
Speaker 1: long ago and I had to send my bio and
51:21
Speaker 1: as I was writing it out, I have not even
51:25
Speaker 1: acknowledged half of the stuff that I had done, Like
51:27
Speaker 1: I've never celebrated a lot of the things that I've accomplished.
51:31
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, dang, I did this, I
51:35
Speaker 1: did this, I did this. Okay, all right now with
51:38
Speaker 1: me doing my first one, Like my best friend came
51:41
Speaker 1: to me after she did hers and she was like,
51:44
Speaker 1: you need to do your book and yeah. That was
51:46
Speaker 1: in like April of twenty nineteen, and I was like, yeah, okay, whatever,
51:51
Speaker 1: that ain't that. I'm not ready for none of that stuff.
51:54
Speaker 4: I'm just not.
51:55
Speaker 2: And so come January.
51:57
Speaker 1: Twenty twenty, I was just like, okay, I got to
51:59
Speaker 1: be over into what God said do He said to
52:02
Speaker 1: Now is the time to do it. Whatever happens, happens,
52:05
Speaker 1: and if the book gets accepted, whatever, then I'll keep
52:10
Speaker 1: going because this is what you told me to do,
52:12
Speaker 1: and this is how you told me to do it.
52:14
Speaker 1: And so at the end, I'm going to tell you
52:16
Speaker 1: this prayer that I prayed, and you'll understand why I
52:19
Speaker 1: understand your prayer in the way that you've prayed. The
52:23
Speaker 1: end of twenty of twenty nineteen going into twenty twenty,
52:27
Speaker 1: my prayer was on December the thirty first was right
52:31
Speaker 1: before midnight. God, connect me to the people that are
52:34
Speaker 1: connected to the destiny and what you have for me.
52:37
Speaker 1: Help me to step out of my comfort zone and
52:39
Speaker 1: into the space in which I've been called to be.
52:43
Speaker 1: And what I tell you, he has brought me out
52:46
Speaker 1: of my comfort zone have I've been I did A
52:49
Speaker 1: first thing I did was a virtual event with sharing
52:55
Speaker 1: my poetry, something I had never done, like reading it
52:59
Speaker 1: out loud to other people on a platform that was
53:03
Speaker 1: virtual during COVID.
53:05
Speaker 2: Okay, God, all right, that's the first thing.
53:08
Speaker 1: Like I wanted to say no to that thing, but
53:10
Speaker 1: I accepted it before I realized I had accepted it.
53:13
Speaker 2: That was nobody but God.
53:15
Speaker 1: The second thing was in then a virtual monologue, something
53:19
Speaker 1: I had never done.
53:20
Speaker 2: And then the part that I got.
53:22
Speaker 1: Originally was a no speaking part, so then I had
53:26
Speaker 1: to extend the part to a speaking part. So it
53:30
Speaker 1: was like, okay, all right. So he has definitely answered
53:34
Speaker 1: the prayer. And I've been obedient to everything that He's
53:37
Speaker 1: called me to do, and I'm continuing to do that now.
53:41
Speaker 2: Like I said, I do. Sometimes won't go on over
53:43
Speaker 2: there to the backside and be like I ain't ready
53:46
Speaker 2: for that.
53:47
Speaker 1: But when you're specific in your prayers, God will lead
53:49
Speaker 1: you into the past and where you're supposed to be,
53:52
Speaker 1: and you're never going to be in a space where
53:53
Speaker 1: you're not supposed to be. So when people ask me
53:56
Speaker 1: why they don't see me, because God didn't direct me
53:59
Speaker 1: to be there, that's why I'm not there. So I'm
54:01
Speaker 1: not gonna be in space as that God hasn't directed
54:04
Speaker 1: me or showed me that I'm supposed to be. Like
54:07
Speaker 1: this year, the prayer that I prayed was to take
54:10
Speaker 1: me in places.
54:12
Speaker 2: That I have to travel too.
54:15
Speaker 1: Now with me saying that, the very first thing he
54:18
Speaker 1: kept showing me these places.
54:20
Speaker 2: He showed me a place in Atlanta, and I was like, God,
54:23
Speaker 2: I don't know. I'm not going to know Atlanta. That's
54:26
Speaker 2: just not for me. And so lo and behold.
54:29
Speaker 1: I get a text message from author and she was
54:33
Speaker 1: having an event in Atlanta, and I was like, okay,
54:36
Speaker 1: God showed me this in January.
54:39
Speaker 2: This was June. The event was in jail. I said, okay, God,
54:42
Speaker 2: I got you.
54:43
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go and I've been obedient ever since. Now
54:48
Speaker 1: I got one more question and then we're gonna wrap
54:50
Speaker 1: this up.
54:51
Speaker 2: But we'll talk all night if it was left up
54:54
Speaker 2: to me.
54:56
Speaker 1: But how can they purchased you book and how can
55:01
Speaker 1: they get in contact with you? Yes, so I so
55:06
Speaker 1: you can search, so you can go to fairmaclimore dot com.
55:09
Speaker 1: So it's my first name, first name dot com. You
55:12
Speaker 1: can that allows you to purchase the book directly from
55:15
Speaker 1: the publisher. I am also on barz and Noble, so
55:19
Speaker 1: you can search my name or the title of the book.
55:22
Speaker 1: I always say you just do my first name because
55:23
Speaker 1: it's a long title. Also on Amazon, same way, so
55:28
Speaker 1: fair and Maclamore or Shining through my Journey within Continency
55:32
Speaker 1: of Pigment. And then I am on the social media
55:36
Speaker 1: so Facebook, I have author fair and Maclamore. That's my
55:40
Speaker 1: author page where you can see updates and you can
55:44
Speaker 1: just continue the journey with me. Or my personal page
55:47
Speaker 1: Marion Maclamore. I do both. Instagram is just fairn dot maclimore,
55:52
Speaker 1: so it's all it's always just my name, Farmac, you
55:57
Speaker 1: right there with me, because I ain't got all these
55:59
Speaker 1: extras and all that stuff.
56:01
Speaker 2: I ain't got count for that. People already have a
56:03
Speaker 2: hard time trying to say my name.
56:05
Speaker 1: So so girl, we're right now on the same street together,
56:10
Speaker 1: I understand, I'll feel you.
56:12
Speaker 2: But I thank you so much for being here and
56:15
Speaker 2: sharing your story, your journey and everything. And don't forget
56:19
Speaker 2: that we are still gonna be in touch, so you're
56:21
Speaker 2: gonna get used to seeing me and hearing from me. Okay.
56:24
Speaker 1: This was just our first inuential meeting. We've had little
56:27
Speaker 1: messages back and forth. But baby, here we go. Okay,
56:34
Speaker 1: but yes, we're here. We're family now. So okay, don't
56:38
Speaker 1: be thinking like I'm gonna get on your nerves. Okay,
56:41
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna let you know that, Okay, So just
56:43
Speaker 1: be prepared that you've already been worn, that you got
56:47
Speaker 1: me for life.
56:47
Speaker 2: Okay, Well, I appreciate you.
56:50
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for having me. Course, thank you, yes, ma'am.
56:58
Speaker 1: Now before I go, y'all know this is how I
57:00
Speaker 1: close out my show, and that is.
57:03
Speaker 2: Stay out of God's business.
57:05
Speaker 1: The only thing God needs you to do is be
57:06
Speaker 1: obedient to what He's called you to do until next time.
57:09
Speaker 2: I'll see you guys later. I love you. Good night.
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Speaker 4: Quickly thee sweeze, sweeze