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Wine Friends, Scorpio Moons, and Belonging IRL - 4/6 Manifesting Generator Adriana Keefe · Human Design IRL

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SPEAKER_00: Hi y'all, I'm Carly Arbuckle, Human Design Medium, and your guide for this podcast.
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SPEAKER_00: This is Human Design IRL.
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SPEAKER_00: And I can't wait to introduce you to the incredible woman on the other side of this intro.
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SPEAKER_00: Let's meet my guest.
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SPEAKER_00: God, did you have a rough time in middle school?
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SPEAKER_01: That's why when I first learned about human design, the manifesting generator part, I was like, oh my God, this is so me as a kid, right?
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SPEAKER_01: I get to the four line.
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SPEAKER_01: I was like, this is all wrong.
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SPEAKER_01: None of this is right.
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SPEAKER_01: You have the wrong birth time.
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SPEAKER_01: None of this is true.
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SPEAKER_00: Before we start the episode, I want to remind you that we talk about specific channels, gates, incarnation crosses, all the stuff in every episode.
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SPEAKER_00: All right, here we go.
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SPEAKER_00: Hi, I'm Carly Arbuckle, Human Design Medium, and this is the Human Design IRL Podcast.
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SPEAKER_00: Thanks for coming back.
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SPEAKER_00: You're welcome for coming back.
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SPEAKER_00: Today I've got Adriana Keefe, who is an OG catalyst for me in my journey as an entrepreneur in terms of making this my full-time priority.
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SPEAKER_00: I never thought it would be a business owner.
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SPEAKER_00: And I was in a position where I was like, oh man, I think this is what I'm supposed to do.
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SPEAKER_00: And then Spirit led me to an episode of Adriana's podcast.
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SPEAKER_00: And I thought, you know, I it the rest is sort of dominoes, but she is the human design priestess, which is so true.
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SPEAKER_00: When I work with Adriana, what I feel is that fiery, beautiful thing that Manny Gens have, um, which is this spark and this drive to do what they're passionate about, to push the boundaries in a way that for Adriana is liberating for other people.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's why it's a priestess.
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SPEAKER_00: You're translating what's happening in these ancient texts and turning it into being a catalyst for women.
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SPEAKER_00: And you hold this space in the magnetic rebellion that it's a really cool vibe in there.
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SPEAKER_00: The women are really awesome.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, you say it's a sanctuary for spiritual rebels and soul seekers.
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SPEAKER_00: She guides women to reclaim their inner power through ancient wisdom and modern intuition.
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SPEAKER_00: So yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Literally what you just said.
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SPEAKER_00: Literally.
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SPEAKER_00: So good.
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SPEAKER_00: It's translating.
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SPEAKER_00: Adriana, welcome.
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SPEAKER_00: Thanks for being here.
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SPEAKER_00: Um, if you want to do a quick intro and say hey to the people, that'd be great.
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SPEAKER_01: Sure.
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SPEAKER_01: And thank you so much for having me.
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SPEAKER_01: I love, love, love podcasting.
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SPEAKER_01: I mean, I have two of my own.
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SPEAKER_01: So literally I'm set.
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SPEAKER_01: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_01: The Nobius Human Design Podcast is how Carly found me.
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SPEAKER_01: And just as of late spring, I also have a different podcast with a co-host named Lindsay Robinson called Spiritual Kinks.
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SPEAKER_01: And this is, we just wanted a space to have fun and talk about spirituality in a sassy, kinky way because everything is so gatekeepy and we're not really about that.
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SPEAKER_01: So we're like, let's just bring all these conversations into more mainstream accessibility for everyone.
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SPEAKER_01: So it's fun, it's spicy, it's a nice little creative outlet for me.
3:44
SPEAKER_01: What about me?
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SPEAKER_01: Okay, I live in Massachusetts.
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SPEAKER_01: So I live in the Northeast New England.
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SPEAKER_01: I am a mom of three and a wife and business owner.
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SPEAKER_01: And honestly, I'm just a cross of contagion over here, just trying to do all the things that I love and bringing other people along for the ride with me.
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SPEAKER_01: If you're interested in astrology, I have a Taurus sun, Scorpio Moon, Leo rising.
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SPEAKER_01: So it's so fun that you brought up the fiery side of me.
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SPEAKER_01: I'm like, yeah, sounds like my Leo rising.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Well, that's and that's how I would meet you because it's your rising.
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SPEAKER_00: Also, she is a four-six manifesting generator.
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SPEAKER_00: That's something that's I'm so excited to talk to you about today because I've gone through a couple of specific centers and gates trying to break apart the body graph.
4:33
SPEAKER_00: But I think it's very interesting that you and I are both in similar spaces.
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SPEAKER_00: I mean, no one's in the same space, but we're in similar spaces.
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SPEAKER_00: We have the same profile, which I have to I want to ask you about.
4:48
SPEAKER_00: I want to honestly ask you about maybe people who are four lines can troubleshoot.
4:52
SPEAKER_00: So we are four six, and maybe we can go through that first to outline what that is.
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SPEAKER_00: So on your body graph chart, if you have it, there are two sides and mine, they're colored red and black.
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SPEAKER_00: What they are is two sets of astrology.
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SPEAKER_00: So you will see them labeled as design and personality.
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SPEAKER_00: The way that human design breaks it down is that it is the car that you're driving in and the driver in your car.
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SPEAKER_00: So the design side is the car and the personality is the driver.
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SPEAKER_00: I think the car is a good analogy.
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SPEAKER_00: So if you're driving in a vehicle, you don't see the vehicle when it's coming at other people.
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SPEAKER_00: You don't see the outside as much as you see the inside.
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SPEAKER_00: And as the driver, you'll be way more well-versed and understand yourself and how you feel in the car.
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SPEAKER_00: People have to get to the window and start to talk to you before they see the personality side.
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SPEAKER_00: But they the first thing they see is the vehicle.
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SPEAKER_00: So, what I think the gift in that is, and I think this is a huge theme in human design in general, is we show each other each other.
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SPEAKER_00: We all need each other to reveal all the beautiful parts of who we are.
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SPEAKER_00: But the first number in your profile is your personality.
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SPEAKER_00: So that's the one you'll be very familiar with.
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SPEAKER_00: And then the second line is the vehicle.
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SPEAKER_00: So other people will see it, they'll be very familiar with it.
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SPEAKER_00: You will know that it's there, but usually based more on feedback from other people, right?
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SPEAKER_00: So that's the one you'll be less familiar with if it doesn't make sense to you on your chart.
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SPEAKER_00: And we've gone through some of these in the previous episodes, but you and I are both four six.
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SPEAKER_00: First, we are a four-line.
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SPEAKER_00: Do you want to explain what a four line is in your words?
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SPEAKER_01: So you're how you experience it.
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SPEAKER_01: I love like four six is my favorite profile, but I'm also like, is it just biased?
6:41
SPEAKER_01: Because it's me.
6:42
SPEAKER_01: And I'm like, we're so heartled.
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SPEAKER_01: Like the four line, you know, in original human design, they'll call it the networker or the opportunist.
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SPEAKER_01: And don't love that because I think there's a misconception that it's like always going out there and networking.
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SPEAKER_01: And I used to be in real estate.
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SPEAKER_01: I did that kind of life.
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SPEAKER_01: I was like, that did not feel good for me at all.
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SPEAKER_01: There's no depth, there's no vulnerability.
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SPEAKER_01: All these other pieces weren't there.
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SPEAKER_01: So I was like, that can't be right.
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SPEAKER_01: What I've come to really see the four line as is a heart-led leader who always wants to, I'm gonna say put community first, not pushing your own needs to the wayside, but really the four line wants to show up and be like, how can we all do this together?
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SPEAKER_01: How can everyone else's needs become, I don't know, come together for everyone to learn together and find more vulnerability and more trust with each other and more depth.
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SPEAKER_01: That's what I've really found with the four line.
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SPEAKER_01: And we are natural super connectors.
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SPEAKER_01: Someone could be like, I need a plumber.
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SPEAKER_01: And instead of telling them to go Google, you're like, hold on, I got a guy, or let's look at reviews, let's call this person.
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SPEAKER_01: We're always connecting people.
7:48
SPEAKER_01: I thought of you recently when I did a chart reading with someone, I was like, Yeah, oh, you're you work with angels.
7:53
SPEAKER_01: Carly works with angels, you two should meet.
7:55
SPEAKER_01: And like most people don't do that or don't think to do that.
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SPEAKER_01: And it's been a lifelong lesson for me to be like, that's a gift of ours.
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SPEAKER_01: Not everyone else thinks like me.
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SPEAKER_01: It's okay.
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SPEAKER_01: Because I used to have a lot of bitterness towards other people for never connecting me, never, and it's still a thing, right?
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SPEAKER_01: Most most of my friends or people, they don't think to connect people with me or do that.
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SPEAKER_01: That's a gift of ours.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Interesting that you have a projector, not self-bitter theme in there.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
8:22
SPEAKER_01: Oh, yeah.
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SPEAKER_01: I have some projection energy in me, force.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: I mean, I I agree with you.
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SPEAKER_00: I think the first of all, the networker opportunist, I think, is such a turnoff when you're looking into this because I experience it the same way.
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SPEAKER_00: As a projector, I don't know if this is maybe I don't know if you feel like maybe a first different angles of the same thing.
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SPEAKER_00: Because I feel that pack energy the way that you do, relationships are our life.
8:49
SPEAKER_00: So the health of our relationships is a direct reflection of how our state of our being is.
8:55
SPEAKER_00: Which the shadow side, God, did you have a rough time in middle school?
9:01
SPEAKER_01: That's why when I first learned about human design, the manifesting generated part, I was like, oh my God, this is so me as a kid, right?
9:08
SPEAKER_01: I get to the foreline, I was like, this is all wrong.
9:11
SPEAKER_01: None of this is right.
9:11
SPEAKER_01: You have the wrong birth time.
9:13
SPEAKER_01: None of this is true.
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SPEAKER_01: Because my younger years, nope, I was not someone who was well connected.
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SPEAKER_01: I hated people.
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SPEAKER_01: I went to veterinary school because I did not like people.
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SPEAKER_01: But really, what that was is I was deeply afraid of rejection from people.
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SPEAKER_00: Yes, that's what it is.
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SPEAKER_00: Yes, it is.
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SPEAKER_00: That's I mean, I'm still in therapy for middle school.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm in my hometown and I actually purposely lived in a different district because I still have trauma from trying to belong.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Um, and from being rejected.
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SPEAKER_00: I think that maybe the the shadow side of this or what we were experimenting with, and we'll get into our sixth line in a second, is trying to build a network with our mind rather than with our body because you're so disconnected from your body at that point.
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SPEAKER_00: That's interesting also because I had a lot of aversion to or like anxiety about kissing boys when I was that age too.
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SPEAKER_00: And I wonder if that's because of the rejection fear, too.
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SPEAKER_02: Probably.
10:11
SPEAKER_00: But I found my people in theater in eighth grade in show choir.
10:16
SPEAKER_00: We had show choir parties on Fridays where we all hung out and just belonging to that kind of a group.
10:24
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
10:25
SPEAKER_00: There's never a relationship in my life that is surface.
10:31
SPEAKER_00: It's really hard to have that kind of a relationship.
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SPEAKER_00: It is hard, and it feels itchy.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
10:37
SPEAKER_01: It's hard for us to fake a relationship or just talk about the weather.
10:41
SPEAKER_01: I mean, I also have the Scorpio moon, which adds even more.
10:43
SPEAKER_01: Me too.
10:44
SPEAKER_01: I'm like, oh no, I forgot.
10:46
SPEAKER_01: So yeah, we're like, tell me about your deepest, darkest fears right now.
10:50
SPEAKER_01: What's happening?
10:50
SPEAKER_01: Are you drowning or are you okay?
10:52
SPEAKER_01: Can we talk about this?
10:54
SPEAKER_01: So yeah, it's very hard.
10:55
SPEAKER_01: And I found what's helped me, especially as a mom of three young kids, we are around a lot of other parents all the time.
11:01
SPEAKER_01: They do sports, right?
11:03
SPEAKER_01: And we love them all.
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SPEAKER_01: But that four line in me wants to be close to them all.
11:08
SPEAKER_01: And I've been disappointed a lot.
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SPEAKER_01: And so I've really had to, I want to say this was my therapist.
11:13
SPEAKER_01: See, here we go.
11:14
SPEAKER_01: Therapy.
11:15
SPEAKER_01: That's cool.
11:16
SPEAKER_01: Who reminded me of the different buckets of friends, A, B, C, D buckets.
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SPEAKER_01: You know, my A bucket.
11:21
SPEAKER_01: Most people only have they're lucky if they have two people in their A bucket.
11:24
SPEAKER_01: Right, right, right.
11:25
SPEAKER_01: And a lot of people are in my B, and then the more people are in my C bucket.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah, we hang out, we enjoy each other's company, but they won't go deep with me.
11:33
SPEAKER_01: So I found that to be helpful to be able to compartmentalize a little bit so that I don't completely shut off from people and go inward because I do that.
11:40
SPEAKER_01: I'm like, well, I don't belong.
11:42
SPEAKER_01: You're you care about what do you want from me?
11:45
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah.
11:46
SPEAKER_01: And so I have to remember those buckets exist and that that's okay.
11:50
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I think that's a definite shadow side of it, is really caring about status, about where you are, if you're included, yeah, what group you're included to, what that says about you.
12:01
SPEAKER_00: And then that also might be a defined G thing too.
12:04
SPEAKER_00: I don't know if labels are really important to you.
12:07
SPEAKER_00: They are to me.
12:08
SPEAKER_00: I like to get my name right.
12:11
SPEAKER_00: I like human design medium, I really focused on and tried to like what to articulate exactly what it is because I that's my identity as a business owner.
12:21
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
12:22
SPEAKER_00: Do you have the same thing?
12:23
SPEAKER_01: That's funny that you say that because my first reaction was no.
12:26
SPEAKER_01: I'm also Sun Gate 8.
12:28
SPEAKER_01: And so I'm kind of like, don't put labels on me.
12:31
SPEAKER_01: I'm just gonna always be rebellious.
12:33
SPEAKER_01: And so I hate I drink a lot less wine than I used to, or booze in general, but I don't consider myself sober because I just don't want to put a restriction on myself, you know?
12:41
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
12:42
SPEAKER_01: However, when it comes to my work, I did find it, I don't know if necessary is the right word, but I did really continue to chip away at what do I call myself?
12:52
SPEAKER_01: But that was really because people were like, I don't understand what you do.
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SPEAKER_01: Coach never felt right, mentor never felt right.
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SPEAKER_01: Yes, like none, like expert never felt right.
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SPEAKER_01: I was like, now experts, me just teaching at people.
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SPEAKER_01: And we go deep, we do the womb work together.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah, and when I discovered what a priestess was, my whole body just full on response.
13:10
SPEAKER_01: So that's probably the only place in my life that I really looked for a label.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I think it's social, it's a social thing because I don't want to be misunderstood.
13:21
SPEAKER_00: And that's a lot of the work I've done in therapy, is I can't control people's perceptions of me and being misunderstood.
13:27
SPEAKER_00: It's also an open throat thing, I think, for me.
13:29
SPEAKER_00: Um of being clear about what I do or how I, but I found that and I worked with someone closely who's an open G and she does not care.
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SPEAKER_00: She does not care what her she she changes it all the time.
13:43
SPEAKER_00: They're so fluid, right?
13:44
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and I think there's no way that's not right.
13:47
SPEAKER_00: And if you for people who are listening, a G center is center of identity, direction, and love.
13:52
SPEAKER_00: So if it's defined or colored, and you have a just a certain way of loving life, loving people, loving in general, and you have a sense of direction that you know a way that you know that you're going and a sense of who you are, and that's important to you.
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SPEAKER_00: Like who you are, a sense of identity.
14:10
SPEAKER_00: If someone runs into you, you know, once 10 years ago and once in 10 years in the future, she's also a manny gen.
14:19
SPEAKER_00: She could look completely different.
14:20
SPEAKER_00: She could have a completely different vibe.
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SPEAKER_00: If you run into me, you will recognize me.
14:25
SPEAKER_00: That's how I explain that to people.
14:27
SPEAKER_00: Do you find that that's true for you?
14:29
SPEAKER_01: I like that.
14:29
SPEAKER_01: I have to sit with it more, but what I'm seeing right off the bat is my own husband.
14:33
SPEAKER_01: He's a generator, but he only has the sacral and spleen defined.
14:36
SPEAKER_01: So he's really open and very much has been a different human.
14:41
SPEAKER_01: We actually just had an hour and a half conversation the other night about how much he's lost himself.
14:46
SPEAKER_01: And he's been a very different person at multiple stages of his life.
14:50
SPEAKER_01: And so if anyone is open G struggling with who the fuck am I?
14:54
SPEAKER_01: Oh, sorry, do we swear here?
14:55
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, that is a very common open G thing that that I hear, but I think he gets a little bit more lost in the sauce because he's so open, like a demi-reflector almost.
15:06
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah, a demi-reflector.
15:08
SPEAKER_01: I love that.
15:09
SPEAKER_01: I didn't coin that.
15:09
SPEAKER_01: That was an Emma Dunwoody term.
15:12
SPEAKER_01: I love that.
15:12
SPEAKER_01: But it resonates, right?
15:14
SPEAKER_01: Like because they're so open, they're a generator, sure, but they're so fluid.
15:19
SPEAKER_01: Oh bad.
16:20
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
16:20
SPEAKER_00: I just interviewed a reflector for my own purposes the other day, and that was really interesting too.
16:24
SPEAKER_00: But she talks about there being a self outside and a self when you get home.
16:31
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
16:31
SPEAKER_00: Like when you're in your own energy.
16:33
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
16:33
SPEAKER_00: And so as a reflector, being aware that this piece of you is not wrong or not not you on the outside, versus this other entirely different entity.
16:44
SPEAKER_00: Um, but that's another another story for a different day.
16:47
SPEAKER_00: I found it fascinating.
16:48
SPEAKER_00: Yes, it is but we were talking about oh, identity, not as who you are, but as how you appear, I think, or how you show up or the direction that you're going.
17:01
SPEAKER_00: That's something I still wrestle with, is how to because I want people to know that it's not who you are.
17:07
SPEAKER_00: You don't, it's not that you don't know who you are if you have an open G center.
17:13
SPEAKER_00: It's just that you're not a consistent, I think about it in middle school, switching from goth to preppy to six line.
17:21
SPEAKER_00: Right.
17:22
SPEAKER_00: Right, right, right, right.
17:23
SPEAKER_00: Is that how you experienced?
17:25
SPEAKER_00: Oh, yeah.
17:25
SPEAKER_00: Three, that's also experimenting.
17:27
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
17:28
SPEAKER_00: Right?
17:28
SPEAKER_00: It's experimenting with identity.
17:30
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, totally.
17:31
SPEAKER_00: Okay, so we've gotten into this four-line.
17:34
SPEAKER_00: The difference that I see is not even difference.
17:36
SPEAKER_00: The way I would describe it is more I want to help.
17:40
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, super helpers.
17:42
SPEAKER_01: Oh, we just want to be of service all the time.
17:43
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, it's like to our own detriment.
17:45
SPEAKER_00: Right.
17:46
SPEAKER_00: And I feel like for yours, you're talking about like as a leader, like moving people.
17:51
SPEAKER_00: I want to help with efficiency, I guess is the way to put it.
17:55
SPEAKER_00: But I have these ideas of, but I have to be invited to to share them.
18:00
SPEAKER_00: I have the gate of ideas, so I have a ton of them.
18:02
SPEAKER_00: But it's more passive than what you described.
18:06
SPEAKER_00: So this is a cool thing to sort of pick apart.
18:09
SPEAKER_00: So you said, let's do this together, right?
18:12
SPEAKER_00: As a foreline.
18:14
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
18:15
SPEAKER_00: So does that show up as collaboration?
18:17
SPEAKER_00: Does that show up as picking people up intentionally along the way?
18:22
SPEAKER_00: How would you describe that as a generator type?
18:27
SPEAKER_00: Definitely both of those profile.
18:28
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
18:29
SPEAKER_01: Definitely both of those.
18:30
SPEAKER_01: Some great examples I have were from over this summer where my Sagir has been really engaged again, really alive.
18:37
SPEAKER_01: And I was obsessing over indigenous practices and really learning to live more with the land and less in the house, you know, being feral basically.
18:47
SPEAKER_01: And so I would just show up and I'd talk about this.
18:49
SPEAKER_01: So I see my cross-up contagion.
18:51
SPEAKER_01: Other people are catching on.
18:52
SPEAKER_01: They're like, oh my God, you're right.
18:53
SPEAKER_01: This does feel exciting.
18:54
SPEAKER_01: And then I was starting to get a lot of feedback that people wanted to start learning these things that I was learning, herbalism and being rewilded, rewilding is what people are calling it.
19:06
SPEAKER_01: And so I started to just whatever resources I had, which I have a lock, some four lines, friends who teach all this shit.
19:13
SPEAKER_01: I had been setting up for them to come teach me.
19:16
SPEAKER_01: And then other people who were also interested could also come and join.
19:19
SPEAKER_01: So I would have herbalism 101 at my house and that kind of stuff.
19:22
SPEAKER_01: So I would basically just be showing up talking about these things.
19:26
SPEAKER_01: Other people are naturally showing interest.
19:28
SPEAKER_01: I invite them along.
19:29
SPEAKER_01: We do pick them up along the way.
19:31
SPEAKER_01: I collaborate with people in my community who have these knowledge and this wisdom to bring because I'm not going to sit there and research forever to try and figure out the difference that way.
19:43
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
19:43
SPEAKER_01: When I go into transference, and I do that often, I show up as a line one and it's not healthy for me long term.
19:49
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
19:50
SPEAKER_01: But yeah, it's a community effort, honestly, from all the people in my Rolodex that I've met along the way.
19:57
SPEAKER_01: So all of the above, I think.
19:59
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
19:59
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
20:00
SPEAKER_00: I see that too.
20:01
SPEAKER_00: I I like bringing people with me.
20:03
SPEAKER_00: Um, I also think my closest friends, my closest contacts are people, not that we're trying to change the way things are, but there's a specific point of view for sure.
20:15
SPEAKER_00: As a pro and it, there's a time and a place for it.
20:17
SPEAKER_00: And that's why I work so well with Manny Gens because they'll invite me and then they have the energy to work with it, you know.
20:24
SPEAKER_00: But I think that's the main.
20:26
SPEAKER_00: I think it's just more passive in the way that I see it.
20:29
SPEAKER_00: For my network, my dream network, Adriana, is women in a group who are not allowed to buy each other's shit.
20:37
SPEAKER_00: You just show up and you share vulnerable and you be with each other in that space on a regular basis to take a time out and to just connect and think.
20:49
SPEAKER_00: That's my ultimate.
20:50
SPEAKER_00: And then maybe that's more up in my head and then rather down in doing things, you know.
20:55
SPEAKER_00: But hopefully that gives people some perspective in terms of how these things differ.
21:01
SPEAKER_00: We are very similar, and we also have a type that's different, you know.
21:06
SPEAKER_00: So the angle at which we're gonna see that is different.
21:09
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and spirit's showing me two sides of a ball.
21:14
SPEAKER_00: Also, God, what did you mention?
21:15
SPEAKER_00: Ah, and you mentioned wine.
21:17
SPEAKER_00: So the friend thing also, someone's described that to me as your friends are different to kinds of wine.
21:24
unknown: Yeah.
21:24
SPEAKER_00: So you have a Cabernet friend, you have a house wine friend, you have a champagne friend, you have a and they're all great.
21:31
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, but there's gonna be one that you're is your go-to.
21:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, one's for a certain occasion, right?
21:36
SPEAKER_00: And one's for like and so you're talking about buckets.
21:39
SPEAKER_00: I also think of them as wines and something that we enjoy.
21:42
SPEAKER_01: Wait, Carly, what wine would I be?
21:45
SPEAKER_00: Oh I wanna know.
21:47
SPEAKER_00: A deep.
21:51
SPEAKER_00: I'm thinking, so I haven't had wine in a while.
21:54
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
21:55
SPEAKER_00: But there's a nighthawk black or dark, I forget what it is.
22:01
SPEAKER_00: It was so this is a long time ago.
22:03
SPEAKER_00: So it was type of red, like a blue, yes.
22:06
SPEAKER_00: Um, but it's bold and rich and heavy.
22:12
SPEAKER_00: You know what I mean?
22:13
SPEAKER_00: Not that you're heavy, but it's like a no, I because my depth probably.
22:17
SPEAKER_00: Right.
22:18
SPEAKER_00: It's jammy, but also not sweet, but it's like rich body, full bodied.
22:25
SPEAKER_00: Full body, yeah.
22:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
22:27
SPEAKER_00: Um, but not too many tannins in that wine.
22:30
SPEAKER_00: I mean, and it doesn't taste like wet dog.
22:32
SPEAKER_01: I don't know how I'm gonna have to look up this wine.
22:37
SPEAKER_01: If I find it, I'm gonna send you a picture of me drinking it.
22:40
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah.
22:41
SPEAKER_00: Oh god, it's delicious.
22:42
SPEAKER_00: But I think it's in the box or something, so you're gonna have to prepare yourself.
22:45
SPEAKER_00: You're gonna have to get get some friends.
22:47
SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
22:47
SPEAKER_00: Um, but that's the one that I can or just a rich, jammy, dark.
22:53
SPEAKER_00: But see, the the problem is you're not a cavernet.
22:57
SPEAKER_00: Because caverns are They're not grounded enough.
23:03
SPEAKER_00: They're they're earthy, but in a pretentious kind of way.
23:07
SPEAKER_00: You know what I mean?
23:08
SPEAKER_00: It depends on the Cabernet.
23:09
SPEAKER_00: We're gonna get into it.
23:11
SPEAKER_00: This is my This is my my invitation as a projector to analyze what kind of wine we are.
23:17
SPEAKER_00: I like it.
23:18
SPEAKER_00: But yeah, but that's the first thing that came to mind.
23:20
SPEAKER_00: So look it up.
23:21
SPEAKER_00: It's Nighthawk.
23:22
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
23:22
SPEAKER_00: You're gonna look it up.
23:23
SPEAKER_00: I think it's about a box.
23:25
SPEAKER_00: Cool.
23:25
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's delicious wine.
23:26
SPEAKER_00: I haven't had it in a while because I haven't had four liters of wine to drink with someone in a while.
23:33
SPEAKER_01: What kind of wine would I be?
23:35
SPEAKER_01: Literally, I was like, she's gonna ask me this now.
23:37
SPEAKER_01: And I'm like, so for me, the first thing that's coming to mind is you kind of feel like a prisecolo where light and bubbly, you can definitely drink it on any occasion.
23:48
SPEAKER_01: It's not just a champagne occasion.
23:50
SPEAKER_01: It's like you have me friends for friends over for brunch or whatever.
23:54
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah.
23:54
SPEAKER_01: And it's not too heavy, it's just a nice little match.
23:58
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, I'm the opposite.
23:59
SPEAKER_01: No, you're which actually makes so much sense because as a priestess, I'm in the lineage I'm in.
24:05
SPEAKER_01: Not to get in too much detail, but I'm snake priestess, it's very animistic, it's very of the earth, and you work in the angelic realm, which yeah, very light and ethereal, and that's what Prosecco feels like for me.
24:17
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, well, thank you.
24:19
SPEAKER_00: I love I love Prosecco, and we do definitely we'll take Prosecco, yeah, and accessible.
24:24
SPEAKER_00: I feel like that's the important thing, too.
24:26
SPEAKER_00: You know, I've had I've had cristal on one occasion, it's delicious.
24:30
SPEAKER_00: Had that the light gold mine.
24:32
SPEAKER_00: Maybe when I go to parents next week, I'll try it.
24:34
SPEAKER_00: I mean, my daughter's godfather is was in investment banking, and so when I was in the delivery room, he's like, What you do, Dom Perignon or Cristal?
24:45
SPEAKER_00: Oh my god, both Adriana, I put it on ice in one of those urine things.
24:53
SPEAKER_00: Awesome.
24:55
SPEAKER_00: Motivation when I was pushing, and thought I could have it after it was delicious.
24:59
SPEAKER_00: I bet it was okay.
25:04
SPEAKER_00: So that's the four line, and you can also, I mean, also just what a great example of four lines, you know.
25:11
SPEAKER_01: Being four lines, right.
25:15
SPEAKER_01: Let me tell you my birth story, yeah.
25:17
SPEAKER_01: Right, yeah.
25:18
SPEAKER_01: Mm-hmm.
25:19
SPEAKER_01: And that's Scorpio Moon going into the moon.
25:21
SPEAKER_01: Oh god, like wait, we don't say surface level here.
25:23
SPEAKER_00: We go, we go deeper.
25:24
SPEAKER_00: What's this?
25:25
SPEAKER_00: No, and you know, well, I'll have to talk about this later of Scorpio moon.
25:28
SPEAKER_00: I've been thinking lately that I need to share more of my day-to-day self, and I feel like I don't because of the Scorpio moon.
25:36
SPEAKER_00: I want to be perceived in a certain way, or in terms of my social and stuff like that.
25:40
SPEAKER_00: I needed to be more off the cuff.
25:43
SPEAKER_00: I need to let people know me who don't know me already, but that's such a vulnerable place to be for a four-line too, because we've had that rejection.
25:50
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
25:51
SPEAKER_00: Um, yeah, which I really loved Brene's work.
25:56
SPEAKER_01: That helped me a lot.
25:57
SPEAKER_01: Still a work of progress.
25:58
SPEAKER_01: I think we'll always be working through this.
26:01
SPEAKER_01: How much do I want to share?
26:02
SPEAKER_01: I mean, I think I don't know if this is a four, this could be a four-six thing, what I'm about to say.
26:07
SPEAKER_01: I know for me, I was parentified at a really young age, and I had to process shit on my own.
26:13
SPEAKER_01: So even just now, I just had a very tragic and unexpected loss in August.
26:18
SPEAKER_01: And my therapist and my priestess mentor have to keep reaching out and be like, talk to me.
26:23
SPEAKER_01: Are you okay?
26:24
SPEAKER_01: Because we just we carry everything for everyone else.
26:28
SPEAKER_01: And so we are vulnerable.
26:29
SPEAKER_01: You asked me when I have my period.
26:31
SPEAKER_01: I don't care talking about that.
26:32
SPEAKER_01: I'll talk about Yoni steaming.
26:33
SPEAKER_01: Like, I don't care.
26:34
SPEAKER_01: But like, it's not natural for me to just bring up all of my shit for you to hold me.
26:39
SPEAKER_01: We're always holding other people, you know what I mean?
26:42
SPEAKER_01: It could be some of that, yeah.
26:43
SPEAKER_00: It's well, it's the helper kind of thing to be enough service, forgetting ourselves, but because we feel so deeply too, I feel like I don't want to be disappointed.
26:55
SPEAKER_00: And I have been as we were growing up, and we'll talk about this as a sixth line.
26:59
SPEAKER_00: Okay, here's my latest hot take.
27:01
SPEAKER_00: Let me know what you think of this.
27:03
SPEAKER_00: So, six lines, ladies, and probably other ladies that are listening to this, is in three parts.
27:11
SPEAKER_00: You will read this all over the internet, so it's not something that is hard to find.
27:15
SPEAKER_00: You have first 30 years, which we live as a three-line, which means that we are experimenters.
27:22
SPEAKER_00: Everybody loves a three-line because they're up for everything, right?
27:26
SPEAKER_00: And they like to do everything themselves, there's no recommendations, they dive into it, and they have this resilience that makes them look at failure, like Alfred Einstein.
27:38
SPEAKER_00: Albert, Albert, not Alfred, God, Jesus Christ.
27:43
SPEAKER_00: Albert Einstein.
27:44
SPEAKER_00: I was a theater major, everybody.
27:45
SPEAKER_00: I wonder if he was a one-three, actually.
27:48
SPEAKER_00: I don't know.
27:49
SPEAKER_00: Really?
27:49
SPEAKER_00: That's cool now that they know his birth info.
27:51
SPEAKER_00: I've been I've seen it.
27:53
SPEAKER_00: I tend to look at, I think the easiest way for people to understand this is celebrities.
27:58
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
27:58
SPEAKER_00: Um, it would make sense.
28:00
SPEAKER_01: 1-3, I feel like, would make the most sense for him.
28:02
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I know he's a generator.
28:05
SPEAKER_00: Ooh, one four.
28:10
SPEAKER_01: That's what I've got in here.
28:11
SPEAKER_01: I wonder, I mean, profile can change so much throughout the day, so it really depends on what time people are pulling.
28:17
SPEAKER_00: Oh, and he's also a cross of Eden, according to this chart, which is what I am.
28:21
SPEAKER_00: But the reason I say that is because wasn't he the guy that said, I've just found 99 ways to not make a light bulb?
28:32
SPEAKER_00: Oh my god, I don't know.
28:33
SPEAKER_00: Probably.
28:34
SPEAKER_00: This is a random shit that sticks in my head as a projector.
28:37
SPEAKER_00: Because I I just like I suck up all this information that I'm not meant to suck up, and I don't know where I got it.
28:44
SPEAKER_00: But that's why I always think of him, whether he's a three-line or not, is that quote, oh well, I haven't failed, I've just found so many ways that don't work.
28:53
SPEAKER_00: And that is not the way six lines are built.
28:59
SPEAKER_00: We take failure very personally, and especially I think as a four-line to, you know, it's a struggle for six lines.
29:09
SPEAKER_00: I had a wonderful first 30 years, but it was not consistent.
29:13
SPEAKER_00: It was start and stop and chaotic, and I learned a lot.
29:17
SPEAKER_00: Um, then at 30 to about 50, we are on the roof, which means that our life slows down to a way that we can observe more what we learned.
29:26
SPEAKER_00: And this will be interesting to hear from you as a management.
29:29
SPEAKER_00: And then at 50, we become a guide, not by intentionally teaching others, but by being and embodying our full self and our full potential.
29:39
SPEAKER_00: You have to do the work to get there, you know.
29:42
SPEAKER_00: So it's cool to be a sixth line, but also the best six-line statement ever.
29:51
SPEAKER_01: It's cool to be a six-line, but also woof.
29:55
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, no.
29:57
SPEAKER_00: Um here's my latest hot take.
29:59
SPEAKER_00: Let me know what you think of this.
30:01
SPEAKER_00: The thing we learn in one through 30 is really flavored by whatever is in front of that six.
30:12
SPEAKER_00: Yep, I see that.
30:13
SPEAKER_00: So for you and I, it's about belonging, it's about relationships who are our people.
30:21
SPEAKER_00: That was my experience.
30:22
SPEAKER_00: What was your experience in that first 30 years?
30:25
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, well, definitely yes to that.
30:28
SPEAKER_01: I also had a lot of abuse and trauma that happened to me in my first 30 years.
30:32
SPEAKER_01: So there was a lot of aloneness, trigger warning.
30:36
SPEAKER_01: Fast forward 30 seconds if you feel like mental health is a trigger for you.
30:40
SPEAKER_01: My first 30 years, besides the abuse, also included such a deep loneliness that I tried to take my own life multiple times.
30:46
SPEAKER_01: There was a lot of depression, a lot of anxiety.
30:49
SPEAKER_01: But all of that I could see stemming from a deep sense of not belonging.
30:54
SPEAKER_01: And that is why I am so adamant about community and never feeling alone again because you're not alone, but we feel that's what I feel like depression is is this deep sense of being alone.
31:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I'm sorry to hear that.
31:07
SPEAKER_00: And I'm glad that you're here.
31:08
SPEAKER_00: Um thank you.
31:10
SPEAKER_00: So for you, it's turning into this community building, building those people around you.
31:16
SPEAKER_00: I would tell people when I and I still I think, but my deepest fear is is being alone.
31:22
SPEAKER_00: More than anything else.
31:23
SPEAKER_00: We were talking about the shadow side of the fora line, is trying to put yourself into all these groups, maybe joining like making teams was really important to me.
31:32
SPEAKER_00: I didn't really matter if I wanted to be on the team, I just or like what team it was.
31:36
SPEAKER_00: I wanted to be on it.
31:37
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you know, I wanted to feel like a part of things, but also knowing that you belong, even if you're weird.
31:44
SPEAKER_00: I mean, that was my experience really.
31:46
SPEAKER_00: I have rampant ADHD.
31:49
SPEAKER_00: And I mean, the amount of especially as a projector, like I would come with the weirdest shit.
31:57
SPEAKER_00: I was not invited, I was talking, you know what I mean?
32:00
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it could be like, well, have you ever thought about it this way?
32:03
SPEAKER_00: Like, and it's like to my teachers, like, God, multiple choice tests are like a fucking nightmare because I have so many ways of seeing it.
32:11
SPEAKER_01: See, those are my favorite, like give me the options to respond to so that way I can feel it better.
32:16
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, right.
32:17
SPEAKER_00: For me, I'm like, well, I could see it in a multitude of ways.
32:21
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's interesting that you like multiple choice questions.
32:24
SPEAKER_01: That's because I do not believe in standardized testing.
32:27
SPEAKER_01: It's so different.
32:30
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's another, I mean, that's another story for a different day.
32:34
SPEAKER_00: If you don't have children or you're not aware, our children are being asked to compare and contrast literature from kindergarten in nonfiction.
32:42
SPEAKER_00: So we're at a very testy point in our history.
32:45
SPEAKER_00: Um which is that good or bad?
32:47
SPEAKER_00: I don't know.
32:48
SPEAKER_00: So as a sixth line, my thought is if you're a two-six, you're what's you're learning more about what?
32:53
SPEAKER_00: Like being creative and learning about where you naturally actually, I talked to a a two-six and they had been taking on everything that they're good at in their first 30 years.
33:09
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
33:09
SPEAKER_00: They were doing it not because they wanted to, but because someone said you'd be good at it.
33:15
SPEAKER_00: And they felt like they needed to do that.
33:18
SPEAKER_00: And that's the learning curve of a six line is that you're going to try things out, and it's going to really feel like rejection or failure when it happens.
33:27
SPEAKER_01: Mm-hmm.
33:28
SPEAKER_01: Yep.
33:29
SPEAKER_01: And the other weird thing that I sense that I've heard from multiple people in my readings too, as a four-six, is like we have this deep sense of wanting to belong and wanting people to see us.
33:40
SPEAKER_01: And even when we have these really intimate, great relationships, we still feel like we're like pulled back.
33:47
SPEAKER_01: Like people don't actually really see us entirely.
33:50
SPEAKER_01: It's like this feel like I can never really give all of myself to someone.
33:55
SPEAKER_01: Do you feel that too?
33:56
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
33:57
SPEAKER_01: Even best friends, even husband, like yes.
34:00
SPEAKER_01: Like you still don't really know all of me, though.
34:03
SPEAKER_01: That's also a Scorpio moon thing.
34:05
SPEAKER_01: It might be, yeah.
34:06
SPEAKER_00: Because it's vulnerable to give someone yourself.
34:09
SPEAKER_00: I think that's something in entrepreneurial ship that I've really learned with my husband because I went from six-figure marketing directors to entrepreneur.
34:20
SPEAKER_00: You know, I'm starting my own stuff.
34:22
SPEAKER_00: And he and I are very, we we have been very communicative throughout our marriage.
34:28
SPEAKER_00: But I he keeps saying, like, I'm so proud of you.
34:31
SPEAKER_00: I'm so proud of the example that you're setting for our girls.
34:34
SPEAKER_00: He's really showing up, but there's this hesitancy of like, if you really knew, then I don't know.
34:42
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
34:42
SPEAKER_00: So I resonate with that.
34:44
SPEAKER_00: But also, like I told you, I didn't kiss my first boyfriend for a year.
34:48
SPEAKER_00: And he broke up with me.
34:49
SPEAKER_00: And it was not because I didn't want to, it's because I was so nervous I would do it wrong or be rejected.
34:56
SPEAKER_00: Oh, yeah.
34:57
SPEAKER_00: And so I don't know if there's also that, and I also don't have a sacral, so that's how it shows up for me in terms of intimacy, both emotionally and physically, I guess.
35:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I get that.
35:10
SPEAKER_00: Do you talk about that in your kinks podcast?
35:12
SPEAKER_00: About which part?
35:14
SPEAKER_00: Um, just about sex drive and about like oh yeah, just wounds, I guess.
35:21
SPEAKER_00: And I wonder if that Scorpio, that need for connection is connection actually as a four line, is a almost as a lifeline.
35:32
SPEAKER_00: So taking a risk in your relationship is really taking a risk for your world.
35:38
SPEAKER_01: Yes, yes.
35:39
SPEAKER_01: I mean, for me with sex, I will say I have 59 in my south node, and how I see that showing up for me in most of my younger years was trying to belong or trying to feel, granted, I also have a history of abuse, trying to feel through sex.
35:56
SPEAKER_01: And so I would overgive of sex or withhold sex.
35:59
SPEAKER_01: And so it was a little bit different for me.
36:01
SPEAKER_01: And I definitely see a lot of that 59 in there of trying to break barriers by the use of sex or putting up walls by withholding sex or codependent issues.
36:11
SPEAKER_01: That's how it showed up for me sexually in the first half.
36:15
SPEAKER_01: How old am I?
36:16
SPEAKER_01: First 20-something years of my life.
36:18
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
36:19
SPEAKER_00: I mean, that's interesting because I have the six, and what we're talking about for people is oh, right, because you're cross of Eden.
36:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
36:26
SPEAKER_00: This is the six gate and the 59 gate, which the way that was taught to me is if you look at your chart and if it's lit up for you the yellow triangle and then the orange square, and then the other off yellow triangle, it kind of looks like ovaries and a uterus.
36:44
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, it totally does.
36:45
SPEAKER_00: And the way I've heard is the 659 is it's like getting pregnant.
36:51
SPEAKER_00: And the gate is the gate of shock, right?
36:54
SPEAKER_00: And together they're the channel of mating.
36:56
SPEAKER_00: So maybe I'm I just was doing all the analytical things, or it's interesting because I I'm missing the part that you have, and you're missing the part that I have obsessing about it.
37:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
37:05
SPEAKER_00: And of you know, trying to figure it out first.
37:09
SPEAKER_00: Then you've got the 2750, which is like the nurturing what you've built.
37:14
SPEAKER_00: So if you think about it as like a birth canal, six through 59 is getting pregnant, and then 27 through 50 is birthing and carrying.
37:21
SPEAKER_01: Oh my god, I love that.
37:22
SPEAKER_01: I've never heard that.
37:23
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's how it was presented to me.
37:25
SPEAKER_00: And it's it's a lot.
37:26
SPEAKER_00: If you have a six gate and someone's like, You're the penis, like you know, you're the you're the thing that creates life, it's really just a gate of intimacy.
37:39
SPEAKER_00: I feel like that's the thing where I over speak and I over-share and me too.
37:45
SPEAKER_00: That's who we know.
37:46
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
37:47
SPEAKER_00: Okay, I know we are approaching, I could get into so much with you.
37:52
SPEAKER_00: I know, right?
37:53
SPEAKER_00: Is there anything else that you want to talk about that you feel like in your chart you think people misinterpret?
38:01
SPEAKER_00: They as they talk about it as practitioners.
38:05
SPEAKER_00: Ultimately, we don't have people who are talking about this don't have all of the things, so they're not talking from first-hand experience, which is why I love this podcast.
38:14
SPEAKER_00: Anything you feel?
38:16
SPEAKER_01: Huh, okay.
38:17
SPEAKER_01: So things that other human design people or practitioners tend to misinterpret and my from my eyes, that's what you're asking.
38:24
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, or anything you feel like the cross of contagion says this, even just in your when people look this up on the internet and they get a definition of what we were talking about, the four line as network, as you know, and you're like, I hate networking.
38:38
SPEAKER_00: I like being at home with three people.
38:41
SPEAKER_00: That's not me, but that actually is, you know, that's exactly it.
38:45
SPEAKER_00: Is there anything else in your chart that you feel like that before we leave, or anything else you want to say?
38:49
SPEAKER_01: Well, one of the things that's jumping out at me is with the sixth line, I think that what a lot of people miss in talking about, or maybe because this isn't original human design, this is something that I've just come to know and I'm curious if you're gonna agree with it.
39:07
SPEAKER_01: This sixth line tends to just be more mature than everyone else and tends to hang out with people who are older than them, and they just come into this world with such wisdom that in my eyes, they're the oldest of old souls, probably nearing towards the end of whatever their soul contracts are.
39:26
SPEAKER_01: And when they come into this world, something that I've seen is we tend to have this outlook or perspective where we're almost, it feels very Aquarious energy.
39:35
SPEAKER_01: People are doing dumb shit and we're here being like, can we just get it together?
39:40
SPEAKER_01: Can we just stop fighting?
39:41
SPEAKER_01: Can we be more mature?
39:43
SPEAKER_01: There's just this level of withdrawn maturity to us that can also lead to not feeling like we belong.
39:51
SPEAKER_01: Does that make sense?
39:53
SPEAKER_01: Yes, it makes sense too.
39:54
SPEAKER_00: And actually, what I was thinking about from a spiritual, from a mediumship perspective, is because your soul chooses how you come in.
40:01
SPEAKER_00: And it's almost like you come in and you are humbled by your first 30 years, yeah, with what you think you know, and that's like an introduction to the human experience.
40:12
SPEAKER_00: I am also a Capricorn rising, so I always have felt like I have not had enough fun.
40:17
SPEAKER_00: Um, or I didn't when I was younger, I didn't break any rules.
40:22
SPEAKER_00: I didn't like I didn't nothing.
40:28
SPEAKER_00: I don't know how to play.
40:29
SPEAKER_00: Like I've had to learn how to play, yeah.
40:31
SPEAKER_00: And to have fun and to just have that be enough.
40:34
SPEAKER_00: So I think that also speaks to what you're talking about.
40:37
SPEAKER_00: What I don't want to have people think is like I feel like they are immature, you know what I mean?
40:45
SPEAKER_00: Right, yeah, it's not that, it's a level of wanting to understand for me nature of the human existence.
40:56
SPEAKER_00: I've wondered about that.
40:57
SPEAKER_00: That's the 30 to 50 something gap.
41:00
SPEAKER_01: That's what they talk about.
41:01
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, pull inward and you're like, who do I want to be?
41:04
SPEAKER_00: Because you're being told who to be, and you're failing like a mofo in the first 30 years.
41:10
SPEAKER_00: So I've always had this.
41:11
SPEAKER_00: We just opened a time capsule with my family from the year 2000.
41:16
SPEAKER_00: And the kids all answered this prompt.
41:21
SPEAKER_00: I hope in 2025 there will be my cousins like rocket ships, and I hope that there will be TVs that you can talk through.
41:33
SPEAKER_00: Cause this was do you remember it was called the Y2K bug?
41:37
SPEAKER_00: To sleep because we were all scared shitless.
41:39
SPEAKER_00: I my cousin kept referring it to it as the Y2K bug.
41:43
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
41:43
SPEAKER_00: And I was like, Yeah.
41:46
SPEAKER_00: Silly humans.
41:47
SPEAKER_00: That's a six-line thing to say to look silly human.
41:50
SPEAKER_00: To look back at myself and just be like, golly, that's so human.
41:53
SPEAKER_00: Um, you know, but mine was like, hunger would cease to exist.
41:59
SPEAKER_00: And this is 11, 12-year-old me.
42:02
SPEAKER_00: And actually, it was really good inner child work because I have that part of me that hates that seventh grader for not belonging, for not fitting in, for being weird.
42:10
SPEAKER_00: And she was like, I hope there will be peace on earth.
42:13
SPEAKER_00: I hope people will get to know each other and work together.
42:17
SPEAKER_00: It was so humanitarian.
42:20
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:20
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:21
SPEAKER_00: But it's that's what you're talking about in terms of, I think, you know, and there's a little bit of projectory vision in there, but it's also just this humanitarian perspective, I feel like is a big is a way to put that.
42:37
SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
42:37
SPEAKER_00: That is, I am always thinking about human evolution and politics.
42:45
SPEAKER_00: I'm a big fat liber, and you can love me or hate me.
42:48
SPEAKER_00: I love lots of people who voted for Donald Trump.
42:51
SPEAKER_00: I don't agree with them, but I love them.
42:53
SPEAKER_00: And I always tell my girls who I mean, politics has infiltrated school in a really hateful way.
43:01
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
43:02
SPEAKER_00: I don't know if you've noticed.
43:03
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, my oldest is only 11, and I saw that last year.
43:06
SPEAKER_00: That's my oldest.
43:07
SPEAKER_00: And she just told me that there is an anti-LGBTQ plus table at lunch.
43:13
unknown: Oh my God.
43:14
SPEAKER_00: And she comes home and she's like, I hate Donald Trump.
43:16
SPEAKER_00: I hate him.
43:17
SPEAKER_00: I wish he doesn't exist.
43:18
SPEAKER_00: And I'm always like, Yes, I understand exactly what you're saying.
43:23
SPEAKER_00: And he's made decisions that I don't agree with, that I, you know, it, but honey, half the country put him there.
43:31
SPEAKER_00: And what we need to focus on is how we can understand each other better so we don't do this again.
43:38
SPEAKER_00: So people aren't suffering like this.
43:41
SPEAKER_00: And could like that's the perspective that I take is like, oh, ultimately we back up and it's humanity.
43:47
SPEAKER_00: I'm a part of humanity.
43:49
SPEAKER_00: I also voted Trump Donald Trump into office, like not it literally, but I am a part of the collective that did.
43:59
SPEAKER_00: You know, and I think distancing yourself from the collective, that's is that what you're talking about?
44:03
SPEAKER_00: That sort of humanitarian Totally.
44:06
SPEAKER_00: The distance.
44:07
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
44:07
SPEAKER_01: It's like no matter how much you also try to get closer and be in and yeah, be alongside, there's still this withdrawn.
44:17
SPEAKER_00: I understand.
44:18
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's weird.
44:19
SPEAKER_00: I understand, and I think that's the guide part too.
44:22
SPEAKER_00: You and I are not five lines, and five lines are built to be leaders, like in a way of sharing what they know and leading people along that way and speaking to masses, and like that's built into them.
44:39
SPEAKER_00: And us, we are it's more of a quiet leadership by doing, by just living, yeah.
44:47
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yep.
44:49
SPEAKER_00: So yeah, that got heady really quick.
44:51
SPEAKER_00: I hope people it's all all the six lines really listen to that.
44:55
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, they lean in deeper.
44:56
SPEAKER_01: Everyone else is like, the fuck.
44:58
SPEAKER_00: You're just like, okay, well, can.
45:00
SPEAKER_00: We get back to sex, please.
45:01
SPEAKER_00: Can we get to like how go to Adriana's podcast for that?
45:06
SPEAKER_00: Spiritual kinks.
45:07
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
45:08
SPEAKER_01: Those are some of our highest downloaded ones, too.
45:10
SPEAKER_01: Anything about womb wisdom, sex, magic, like those are the highest downloaded on spiritual kinks.
45:15
SPEAKER_01: So I think we need more of that right now.
45:17
SPEAKER_00: Well, because we've all been taught bringing it back to human design to use and reason with our heads.
45:22
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
45:22
SPEAKER_00: And I've got my head and my ajna defined and that hanging six.
45:27
SPEAKER_00: So, you know, for me, it's really heady.
45:30
SPEAKER_00: I have to get into my body.
45:32
SPEAKER_00: And you're open-minded.
45:33
SPEAKER_00: So maybe it's the opposite.
45:35
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
45:36
SPEAKER_01: Well, I find myself going into the head too.
45:39
SPEAKER_01: This is actually part of why I'm taking September off, is I'm can't get out of here.
45:42
SPEAKER_01: And I have forgotten to just stay down.
45:45
SPEAKER_01: Or I'm not not forgetting to stay down.
45:47
SPEAKER_01: I struggle to stay in my body.
45:50
SPEAKER_01: Like it's been interesting.
45:51
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
45:52
SPEAKER_00: Because you're around so many strong thinking people, you think?
45:54
SPEAKER_01: Or I think there's just the normal pressures of owning a business, my husband having to take a job that pays him less.
46:01
SPEAKER_01: The everyday societal pressures, I think, have really gotten to me and pulled me out of the body.
46:07
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
46:08
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
46:09
SPEAKER_00: I always say, and this is a Brene thing, she's like, it's not going to help someone in a hole if you get down in the hole with them.
46:16
SPEAKER_00: That's not empathy.
46:18
SPEAKER_00: And the angels have told me too.
46:19
SPEAKER_00: Like when I've asked, what the fuck?
46:23
SPEAKER_00: On certain occasions, like, how is this meant to happen?
46:26
SPEAKER_00: How is this for oven for the highest good?
46:29
SPEAKER_00: How do I help beyond prayer?
46:31
SPEAKER_00: And they talk about vibration and high vibration.
46:34
SPEAKER_00: And if you are not experiencing the humanic or humanic, humanic, I'm making it up, humanic suffering.
46:41
SPEAKER_00: And the humania, if you will.
46:44
SPEAKER_00: Like humanic.
46:45
SPEAKER_00: Right.
46:45
SPEAKER_00: Mechanic and human.
46:47
SPEAKER_00: Right.
46:47
unknown: Right.
46:48
SPEAKER_00: It's like frustration, is what I say for Manny Jens.
46:52
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
46:53
SPEAKER_00: If you're not experiencing it, the best thing you can do is step into your truth and into your highest vibration, which feels counterintuitive from our minds.
47:01
SPEAKER_00: We should be sad.
47:02
SPEAKER_00: We should be angry, but that's actually adding to the Yeah.
47:05
SPEAKER_01: You can hold space for someone without getting down in the dumps with them.
47:09
SPEAKER_01: It's two very different things.
47:11
SPEAKER_00: And in fact, go out and do something that you love so that your vibration is higher.
47:16
SPEAKER_00: That's a way you can help them is balancing out the collective by doing something that lights you up for me that I'm already doing because I'm a splenic projector.
47:25
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
47:26
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
47:27
SPEAKER_00: Thank you for being here.
47:29
SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
47:29
SPEAKER_01: I mean, this is a fun conversation.
47:31
SPEAKER_01: It's not every day I get to just nerd out on this kind of stuff with people.
47:35
SPEAKER_00: I love it too.
47:35
SPEAKER_00: Well, I love it because it's also I didn't have to explain.
47:38
SPEAKER_00: I hope people took from this that we are very similar.
47:41
SPEAKER_00: And if you find someone in your profile, you will get along with them really well.
47:46
SPEAKER_00: Um, because they are going through the same things in a different way than you are going through, like Spirit said, two sides of the same ball.
47:53
SPEAKER_00: But yeah, anything else?
47:55
SPEAKER_00: Where can people find you?
47:56
SPEAKER_00: Adriana also gives readings, human design readings that are excellent.
48:00
SPEAKER_00: I got to, as an opportunity of my abundance academy from Sarah Walton, which is also an excellent program.
48:07
SPEAKER_00: Um, was able to have coaching with her throughout that and understanding my design more and what was being triggered.
48:14
SPEAKER_00: And so she's excellent for that.
48:16
SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
48:17
SPEAKER_00: What else?
48:19
SPEAKER_01: So, besides the podcast, you can usually find me a lot on Instagram.
48:23
SPEAKER_01: It's probably a little bit less right now, except for when I'm in France.
48:25
SPEAKER_01: I'll probably be cross of contagioning all over that thing.
48:28
SPEAKER_01: We, we, we, we.
48:28
SPEAKER_01: No, we on Instagram.
48:30
SPEAKER_01: My handle is Adriakeefe, A D R I Keith, or my website, adriatic.com.
48:36
SPEAKER_01: Feel like that's really the gist of everything right now.
48:41
SPEAKER_01: What's laying you up right now?
48:45
SPEAKER_01: Overall, let's see, because I'm if I'm thinking back to yesterday, it was like the deep dive on my ancient DNA that I went into.
48:51
SPEAKER_01: But overall, what's lighting me up is really having space to process or just exist right now.
48:58
SPEAKER_01: My youngest child of three finally went off to kindergarten.
49:03
SPEAKER_01: I, for the first time in 12 years, have cheers.
49:07
SPEAKER_01: I know, cheers.
49:08
SPEAKER_01: Where's that prosecco and that nighthawk?
49:10
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, I'm happy to be a prosecco for you.
49:12
SPEAKER_01: Cheers.
49:13
SPEAKER_01: I hadn't realized how exhausted I was just from child rearing for 12 years.
49:21
SPEAKER_01: Like, oh, that's that's a lot of my life.
49:24
SPEAKER_01: I'm only 37.
49:25
SPEAKER_01: So it's um, I'm just taking a breath right now to literally do house projects.
49:30
SPEAKER_01: My husband and I are actually selling the house at the end of the school year and moving out of the country.
49:34
SPEAKER_01: That is the plan.
49:35
SPEAKER_01: Where?
49:36
SPEAKER_01: Where?
49:36
SPEAKER_01: So right now we're looking at Costa Rica, Spain, or France, if he can get a work visa since his company is over there.
49:43
SPEAKER_01: So all of that, I just finished my nodal return, and it's been a hell of a two years.
49:48
SPEAKER_01: It's been the hardest two years of my whole life, and I've gone through some shit.
49:52
SPEAKER_01: Um, so we are just uprooting, upending everything, and basically just starting over.
49:57
SPEAKER_01: And it's gonna feel really good.
49:59
SPEAKER_01: So all the pieces of that puzzle are my projects.
50:02
SPEAKER_01: That's amazing.
50:03
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's amazing.
50:04
SPEAKER_00: Good for you.
50:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, thanks.
50:06
SPEAKER_00: It's gonna feel nice.
50:08
SPEAKER_00: Using your, I think there's a did your Jupiter return happen yet?
50:12
SPEAKER_00: I think mine happened with us.
50:14
SPEAKER_00: Uh I'm 37 right now, too, but I'm at a mine was a little a little while ago.
50:18
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, was that a year and a half ago?
50:20
SPEAKER_01: Jupiter.
50:21
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, we're pretty similar.
50:22
SPEAKER_00: I you're May of 89.
50:25
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
50:26
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
50:26
SPEAKER_00: How are you?
50:27
SPEAKER_00: Am I 38 right now?
50:28
SPEAKER_00: Maybe I'm 38 right now.
50:29
SPEAKER_00: I thought I was.
50:30
SPEAKER_01: Were you born in 88?
50:31
SPEAKER_00: No, 87.
50:33
SPEAKER_01: When's your birthday?
50:35
SPEAKER_01: December?
50:36
SPEAKER_01: No, I'm definitely 38 right now.
50:38
SPEAKER_01: So you're gonna be 39.
50:42
SPEAKER_01: I get it.
50:43
SPEAKER_01: The other day someone asked how old I was, and I was like, uh, I don't know.
50:47
SPEAKER_00: Somewhere in my 30s.
50:48
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you know, weird, weird.
50:50
SPEAKER_00: Um well, good luck.
50:51
SPEAKER_00: And I'm sure I'll talk to you before then.
50:54
SPEAKER_00: But thank you for being here.
50:55
SPEAKER_00: And thank you for having me.
50:56
SPEAKER_00: Everybody, look it up, follow her.
50:59
SPEAKER_00: The episode that I just listened to that was great if you are a practitioner.
51:03
SPEAKER_00: What is it called?
51:04
SPEAKER_00: Um that just aired about me shutting down the podcast for a bit.
51:07
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
51:07
SPEAKER_01: Um, something about how to know if you need more spaciousness versus strategy, something like that.
51:12
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, God, it was good and it's so resonant.
51:14
SPEAKER_00: Um, so thank you for that, and thank you for your work.
51:17
SPEAKER_00: You're welcome.
51:18
SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
51:20
SPEAKER_00: Well, that was fun.
51:22
SPEAKER_00: Thanks for being here.
51:23
SPEAKER_00: If you find yourself wanting to be in the hot seat to know more about your design, to connect to your spirit team so you can feel grounded and confident in who you are.
51:31
SPEAKER_00: Feel free to check out my website, www.humandesignmedium.
51:35
SPEAKER_00: I've got programs, I've got plans, I've got a free design calculator to use when you visit.
51:41
SPEAKER_00: Girl, you are unconditionally loved, supported, and cherished by spirit.
51:45
SPEAKER_00: You are who and how you're meant to be.
51:48
SPEAKER_00: I'm just here to help you see yourself more clearly.
51:52
SPEAKER_00: Woo! How's that for a Midwestern goodbye?