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Episode 1: We wouldn't have been friends before · Three Rebel Souls

• 1:18
  Well,
• 1:19
  here
• 1:19
  we
• 1:19
  are.
• 1:21
  Finally.
• 1:22
  We're
• 1:22
  doing
• 1:22
  the
• 1:22
  thing.
• 1:25
  People
• 1:25
  can't
• 1:26
  see
• 1:26
  that,
• 1:26
  can
• 1:26
  they?
• 1:29
  We
• 1:29
  can
• 1:29
  do.
• 1:29
  We
• 1:30
  can
• 1:30
  do
• 1:30
  YouTube
• 1:30
  version
• 1:31
  later.
• 1:34
  Oh,
• 1:34
  my
• 1:34
  goodness.
• 1:36
  How
• 1:37
  are
• 1:37
  you
• 1:37
  feeling?
• 1:38
  One
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  word.
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  Excited.
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  Happy.
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  Excited.
• 1:45
  Scared.
• 1:45
  Excited.
• 1:47
  The
• 1:48
  good
• 1:48
  kind
• 1:48
  of
• 1:48
  excited.
• 1:49
  Yeah.
• 1:51
  Yeah.
• 1:51
  I'm
• 1:52
  nervous,
• 1:52
  too.
• 1:53
  I'll
• 1:53
  get
• 1:54
  scared
• 1:54
  until
• 1:54
  we
• 1:54
  start.
• 1:56
  What?
• 1:57
  I
• 1:58
  won't
• 1:58
  be
• 1:58
  scared
• 1:58
  until
• 1:58
  we,
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  like,
• 2:00
  okay,
• 2:00
  let's
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  publish.
• 2:05
  Once
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  it
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  actually
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  goes
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  live.
• 2:07
  Yeah.
• 2:07
  Right
• 2:08
  now
• 2:08
  it's
• 2:08
  just
• 2:08
  us
• 2:08
  hanging
• 2:09
  out,
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  which
• 2:11
  we
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  do
• 2:12
  that
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  every
• 2:12
  week,
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  so.
• 2:13
  That's
• 2:13
  true.
• 2:14
  I'm
• 2:14
  happy
• 2:16
  now.
• 2:16
  We're
• 2:16
  just.
• 2:16
  Yeah,
• 2:16
  but
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  it
• 2:17
  was
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  so
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  much
• 2:17
  more
• 2:17
  intentional
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  this
• 2:18
  time.
• 2:19
  We're
• 2:20
  being
• 2:20
  more
• 2:20
  intentional
• 2:20
  this
• 2:21
  time.
• 2:21
  So
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  I'm
• 2:21
  like,.
• 2:24
  Well,
• 2:24
  the
• 2:24
  whole
• 2:25
  point
• 2:25
  is
• 2:25
  that
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  this
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  is
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  uncensored,
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  that
• 2:27
  there's
• 2:27
  no
• 2:27
  rules,
• 2:28
  that
• 2:28
  we
• 2:28
  are
• 2:28
  really
• 2:28
  just
• 2:29
  pressing
• 2:29
  record
• 2:29
  on
• 2:29
  our
• 2:30
  conversations
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  because
• 2:32
  we
• 2:32
  sort
• 2:32
  of
• 2:33
  felt
• 2:33
  this
• 2:33
  pull
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  to
• 2:34
  share
• 2:35
  our
• 2:36
  stories
• 2:37
  and
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  to
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  kind
• 2:38
  of
• 2:38
  model
• 2:39
  what
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  friendship
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  has
• 2:41
  looked
• 2:41
  like
• 2:41
  for
• 2:42
  us
• 2:42
  and
• 2:42
  how
• 2:42
  we've,
• 2:43
  like,
• 2:43
  kind
• 2:43
  of
• 2:43
  grown
• 2:43
  together.
• 2:44
  So
• 2:46
  where
• 2:46
  do
• 2:46
  we
• 2:46
  want
• 2:46
  to
• 2:47
  start?
• 2:48
  What
• 2:48
  does
• 2:48
  this
• 2:48
  mean
• 2:48
  to
• 2:48
  you?
• 2:49
  What
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  are
• 2:49
  you
• 2:49
  excited
• 2:49
  about?
• 2:50
  What
• 2:50
  are
• 2:50
  you
• 2:50
  scared
• 2:50
  about?
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  I'm
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  excited
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  to.
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  To
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  share
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  our
• 2:57
  conversations.
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  Right.
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  Like,
• 2:58
  the
• 2:58
  things
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  that
• 2:58
  we
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  talk
• 2:59
  about
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  because
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  is
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  what's
• 3:02
  helped
• 3:02
  me
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  so
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  much
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  in
• 3:03
  my
• 3:03
  growth.
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  And
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  I
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  guess
• 3:06
  I'm
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  scared.
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  Although
• 3:08
  not
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  as
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  scared
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  as
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  I
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  was
• 3:09
  in
• 3:10
  the
• 3:10
  past.
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  To
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  just
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  put
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  myself
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  out
• 3:11
  there,
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  like,
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  that's
• 3:12
  scary,
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  right?
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  To.
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  To
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  just
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  allow
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  everyone
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  to
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  see
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  me.
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  But
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  it's.
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  But
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  it
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  is
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  exciting
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  at
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  the
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  same
• 3:21
  time.
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  I
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  definitely
• 3:22
  feel
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  more
• 3:22
  comfortable
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  with
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  it
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  today.
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  Yeah.
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  To
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  be
• 3:25
  seen.
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  That's
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  definitely
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  the
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  scary
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  part,
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  too.
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  Especially.
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  Especially
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  since
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  a
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  lot
• 3:32
  of
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  what
• 3:32
  we
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  talk
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  about,
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  for
• 3:34
  me
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  has
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  been,
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  like,
• 3:35
  depths
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  that
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  I've
• 3:36
  never
• 3:37
  shared
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  with
• 3:37
  anyone
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  else.
• 3:38
  Mostly
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  because
• 3:39
  I
• 3:39
  felt
• 3:39
  like
• 3:39
  I
• 3:39
  couldn't.
• 3:40
  Right.
• 3:41
  That's
• 3:42
  why.
• 3:42
  I
• 3:42
  think
• 3:42
  that's
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  why
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  we
• 3:43
  knew
• 3:43
  that
• 3:44
  this
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  was,
• 3:44
  like,
• 3:45
  important.
• 3:46
  It's
• 3:46
  going
• 3:46
  to
• 3:46
  be
• 3:47
  hard,
• 3:47
  but
• 3:47
  it's
• 3:48
  important.
• 3:49
  And
• 3:50
  so
• 3:50
  I
• 3:50
  am
• 3:50
  excited
• 3:51
  for
• 3:51
  that
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  because
• 3:51
  I
• 3:52
  feel
• 3:52
  like
• 3:52
  the
• 3:52
  more
• 3:54
  that,
• 3:54
  like,
• 3:55
  I've
• 3:55
  gotten
• 3:56
  quote,
• 3:56
  unquote
• 3:57
  permission
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  from
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  others
• 3:59
  who
• 3:59
  are
• 3:59
  doing
• 3:59
  similar
• 4:00
  things
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  or
• 4:00
  kind
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  of
• 4:01
  stepping
• 4:01
  into
• 4:01
  their
• 4:01
  authenticity.
• 4:02
  And
• 4:04
  honestly,
• 4:04
  if
• 4:04
  this
• 4:05
  gives
• 4:05
  one
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  person
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  permission
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  to
• 4:08
  do
• 4:09
  the
• 4:09
  same,
• 4:09
  then
• 4:10
  I
• 4:10
  feel
• 4:10
  like,
• 4:10
  yeah,
• 4:11
  we
• 4:12
  did
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  a
• 4:12
  good
• 4:12
  job.
• 4:13
  Yeah,
• 4:13
  definitely.
• 4:14
  Right.
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  But
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  also,
• 4:16
  I
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  hope
• 4:17
  people
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  laugh
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  and
• 4:17
  I
• 4:18
  hope
• 4:18
  people
• 4:18
  enjoy.
• 4:20
  Right.
• 4:20
  The
• 4:21
  ridiculousness
• 4:22
  of
• 4:22
  our
• 4:22
  conversations
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  or.
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  Or,
• 4:24
  like,
• 4:24
  kind
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  of
• 4:25
  climb
• 4:25
  into
• 4:25
  the
• 4:25
  depths
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  with
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  us
• 4:26
  and
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  feel
• 4:29
  less
• 4:29
  alone.
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  Yeah.
• 4:31
  I
• 4:31
  was
• 4:31
  gonna
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  say
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  I
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  hope
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  that
• 4:32
  they
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  feel
• 4:32
  like
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  they're
• 4:32
  part
• 4:33
  of
• 4:33
  this.
• 4:33
  Right?
• 4:34
  Yeah.
• 4:35
  Yeah.
• 4:36
  Because
• 4:36
  they
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  are.
• 4:37
  They
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  will
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  be.
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  Yes,
• 4:39
  they
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  are.
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  Because
• 4:41
  I
• 4:42
  might
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  not
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  know
• 4:42
  you
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  or
• 4:43
  your
• 4:43
  name
• 4:44
  or
• 4:44
  what
• 4:44
  you
• 4:45
  do,
• 4:45
  where
• 4:45
  you're
• 4:46
  going,
• 4:46
  where
• 4:46
  you've
• 4:46
  been,
• 4:47
  but
• 4:47
  I
• 4:47
  love
• 4:47
  you,
• 4:48
  so.
• 4:49
  Yeah.
• 4:51
  And
• 4:51
  in
• 4:51
  some
• 4:52
  ways
• 4:52
  we
• 4:52
  do
• 4:52
  know.
• 4:53
  Right.
• 4:53
  In
• 4:53
  some
• 4:53
  ways
• 4:54
  we
• 4:54
  do
• 4:54
  know,
• 4:54
  because
• 4:54
  we've
• 4:55
  lived
• 4:56
  some
• 4:56
  of
• 4:56
  those
• 4:56
  things,
• 4:56
  and
• 4:57
  maybe
• 4:57
  the
• 4:57
  experience
• 4:57
  wasn't
• 4:58
  the
• 4:58
  same,
• 4:59
  but
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  maybe
• 5:02
  how
• 5:02
  we
• 5:03
  felt
• 5:03
  was
• 5:03
  the
• 5:03
  same.
• 5:03
  Maybe
• 5:04
  what.
• 5:04
  Maybe
• 5:05
  how
• 5:05
  we
• 5:05
  coped
• 5:05
  was
• 5:06
  the
• 5:06
  same.
• 5:07
  Right.
• 5:07
  And
• 5:10
  by
• 5:10
  us
• 5:10
  sharing
• 5:11
  those
• 5:11
  things,
• 5:11
  they're
• 5:11
  going
• 5:11
  to
• 5:12
  see
• 5:12
  themselves
• 5:12
  in
• 5:13
  that.
• 5:14
  Yeah.
• 5:14
  Just
• 5:14
  like
• 5:14
  we've
• 5:14
  seen
• 5:15
  parts
• 5:15
  of
• 5:16
  ourselves
• 5:16
  in
• 5:17
  each
• 5:17
  other's
• 5:18
  stories,
• 5:19
  even
• 5:19
  though
• 5:20
  they're
• 5:21
  not
• 5:21
  all
• 5:21
  exactly
• 5:22
  the
• 5:22
  same,
• 5:22
  there's
• 5:23
  similarities,
• 5:23
  and
• 5:24
  it's
• 5:24
  helped
• 5:24
  us
• 5:25
  feel
• 5:25
  less
• 5:25
  alone
• 5:26
  and
• 5:26
  kind
• 5:26
  of
• 5:26
  lean
• 5:26
  into
• 5:27
  this.
• 5:28
  This
• 5:29
  work
• 5:29
  and
• 5:29
  this
• 5:29
  friendship
• 5:30
  and
• 5:31
  everything
• 5:31
  that
• 5:31
  we've
• 5:31
  been
• 5:31
  able
• 5:32
  to
• 5:32
  build.
• 5:32
  So
• 5:33
  I
• 5:34
  love.
• 5:34
  Yeah.
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  Which
• 5:35
  is
• 5:35
  funny,
• 5:36
  because
• 5:36
  I
• 5:36
  feel
• 5:37
  like,
• 5:37
  you
• 5:37
  know,
• 5:39
  like,
• 5:39
  you
• 5:40
  just
• 5:40
  said,
• 5:40
  like,
• 5:40
  that
• 5:40
  we
• 5:40
  found
• 5:41
  ourselves
• 5:41
  in
• 5:42
  each
• 5:42
  other
• 5:42
  with,
• 5:42
  like,
• 5:43
  our
• 5:43
  stories,
• 5:43
  that
• 5:43
  we've
• 5:43
  had
• 5:43
  similar
• 5:44
  stories
• 5:44
  where
• 5:45
  if
• 5:45
  we
• 5:45
  hadn't
• 5:45
  known
• 5:46
  that
• 5:46
  about
• 5:46
  ourselves
• 5:47
  before,
• 5:50
  like,
• 5:50
  would
• 5:50
  we
• 5:51
  still
• 5:51
  be
• 5:51
  friends?
• 5:51
  Like,
• 5:52
  would
• 5:52
  we
• 5:52
  be
• 5:53
  friends?
• 5:53
  Would
• 5:53
  we
• 5:54
  have
• 5:54
  been
• 5:54
  friends
• 5:54
  when
• 5:55
  we
• 5:55
  didn't
• 5:55
  know
• 5:55
  that?
• 5:56
  When
• 5:56
  we
• 5:56
  hadn't
• 5:57
  started
• 5:57
  doing
• 5:57
  the
• 5:57
  work,.
• 5:58
  When
• 5:58
  we
• 5:58
  didn't
• 5:58
  know
• 5:58
  ourselves?
• 5:59
  Right.
• 6:00
  Exactly.
• 6:00
  I
• 6:01
  didn't
• 6:01
  like
• 6:01
  me,
• 6:02
  that
• 6:02
  is,
• 6:02
  years
• 6:02
  ago.
• 6:03
  I
• 6:03
  wouldn't
• 6:03
  expect
• 6:04
  y'
• 6:04
  all
• 6:04
  to
• 6:04
  like
• 6:05
  me
• 6:05
  six
• 6:05
  years
• 6:05
  ago.
• 6:07
  Yeah.
• 6:08
  Word.
• 6:12
  But
• 6:13
  I
• 6:13
  think
• 6:13
  that's
• 6:13
  just
• 6:14
  it,
• 6:14
  right?
• 6:15
  No,
• 6:15
  that's
• 6:16
  totally
• 6:16
  it.
• 6:16
  Yeah.
• 6:17
  Because
• 6:17
  the
• 6:17
  things
• 6:18
  that
• 6:18
  I
• 6:18
  see
• 6:18
  in
• 6:18
  you
• 6:19
  that
• 6:19
  I
• 6:19
  love
• 6:19
  so
• 6:19
  much
• 6:20
  now
• 6:21
  are
• 6:21
  things
• 6:21
  that
• 6:22
  are
• 6:22
  reflected
• 6:22
  back
• 6:22
  to
• 6:23
  me
• 6:23
  that
• 6:23
  I
• 6:23
  love
• 6:23
  about
• 6:24
  myself
• 6:24
  now
• 6:25
  or
• 6:25
  things
• 6:26
  that
• 6:26
  I
• 6:26
  hated
• 6:27
  because,
• 6:30
  like,
• 6:30
  I
• 6:31
  was
• 6:31
  telling
• 6:32
  Adriana
• 6:33
  yesterday,
• 6:34
  I'm
• 6:34
  like,
• 6:34
  you
• 6:34
  would
• 6:34
  have.
• 6:35
  I
• 6:35
  would
• 6:35
  have
• 6:35
  been
• 6:35
  so
• 6:36
  pissed,
• 6:36
  you
• 6:37
  know,
• 6:37
  because
• 6:37
  you
• 6:38
  just
• 6:38
  speak
• 6:38
  your
• 6:38
  mind
• 6:39
  and
• 6:39
  you're
• 6:39
  out
• 6:39
  there,
• 6:40
  you
• 6:40
  know,
• 6:40
  and
• 6:42
  it
• 6:42
  went
• 6:43
  like
• 6:44
  the.
• 6:45
  When
• 6:45
  I
• 6:45
  do
• 6:45
  that,
• 6:46
  people
• 6:47
  yell
• 6:47
  at
• 6:47
  me.
• 6:48
  They
• 6:49
  don't
• 6:50
  stay
• 6:51
  rowing.
• 6:52
  Don't
• 6:52
  do
• 6:52
  that.
• 6:52
  And.
• 6:53
  And
• 6:53
  just
• 6:53
  to
• 6:53
  be
• 6:54
  completely
• 6:54
  authentic
• 6:55
  here,
• 6:55
  I'm
• 6:56
  kind
• 6:56
  of
• 6:56
  transitioning
• 6:57
  in
• 6:58
  life
• 6:58
  still.
• 6:58
  I'm
• 6:59
  a
• 6:59
  little
• 6:59
  bit
• 6:59
  behind
• 7:00
  Adriana
• 7:01
  and
• 7:01
  Erica.
• 7:02
  So
• 7:02
  you're
• 7:03
  part
• 7:03
  of
• 7:03
  that
• 7:03
  for
• 7:03
  me.
• 7:04
  You're
• 7:04
  not
• 7:04
  behind
• 7:05
  trying
• 7:06
  on
• 7:06
  a
• 7:06
  new.
• 7:08
  Persona
• 7:10
  that
• 7:10
  I
• 7:10
  hope
• 7:10
  to
• 7:12
  grow
• 7:13
  into.
• 7:14
  So
• 7:14
  you
• 7:15
  might
• 7:15
  hear
• 7:15
  two
• 7:16
  different
• 7:16
  names.
• 7:21
  So
• 7:21
  don't
• 7:22
  get
• 7:22
  confused.
• 7:23
  Yeah.
• 7:24
  Or
• 7:24
  don't
• 7:24
  be.
• 7:28
  Yeah.
• 7:28
  You
• 7:28
  know,
• 7:28
  one
• 7:28
  thing
• 7:29
  that
• 7:29
  I
• 7:29
  was
• 7:29
  thinking
• 7:29
  that
• 7:29
  after
• 7:30
  we
• 7:30
  said
• 7:30
  that
• 7:30
  last
• 7:30
  night
• 7:32
  was
• 7:34
  how
• 7:34
  I
• 7:35
  think
• 7:35
  I
• 7:36
  see.
• 7:36
  For
• 7:37
  me,
• 7:37
  I.
• 7:37
  It's
• 7:38
  not
• 7:38
  so
• 7:38
  much.
• 7:38
  I
• 7:38
  wouldn't
• 7:39
  have
• 7:39
  been
• 7:39
  thinking
• 7:40
  so
• 7:41
  much
• 7:41
  like,
• 7:41
  oh,
• 7:41
  do
• 7:41
  you
• 7:42
  like
• 7:42
  me?
• 7:42
  Because
• 7:42
  I
• 7:42
  think
• 7:42
  I
• 7:42
  would
• 7:43
  have
• 7:43
  just
• 7:43
  been
• 7:43
  rejecting
• 7:44
  you
• 7:44
  off
• 7:44
  the
• 7:44
  bat,
• 7:45
  but
• 7:49
  not
• 7:49
  because
• 7:49
  I
• 7:50
  Wanted
• 7:50
  you
• 7:50
  to
• 7:50
  like
• 7:50
  me,
• 7:51
  but
• 7:51
  I
• 7:51
  would
• 7:51
  have
• 7:51
  made
• 7:52
  myself
• 7:52
  inferior
• 7:52
  to
• 7:53
  you,
• 7:55
  you
• 7:55
  know,
• 7:55
  because
• 7:56
  I
• 7:56
  would
• 7:56
  have
• 7:56
  seen
• 7:56
  Erica,
• 7:57
  and
• 7:57
  I've
• 7:57
  been
• 7:57
  like,
• 7:57
  oh,
• 7:57
  my
• 7:57
  gosh,
• 7:58
  she's
• 7:58
  so
• 7:58
  smart.
• 7:59
  And,
• 7:59
  you
• 7:59
  know,
• 8:00
  like,
• 8:00
  the
• 8:00
  way
• 8:00
  that
• 8:00
  she
• 8:00
  expresses
• 8:01
  herself
• 8:02
  and,
• 8:02
  you
• 8:03
  know,
• 8:03
  like,
• 8:03
  I
• 8:03
  just.
• 8:04
  I
• 8:04
  would
• 8:04
  have
• 8:04
  been
• 8:04
  like,
• 8:05
  I
• 8:05
  don't
• 8:05
  like
• 8:05
  her.
• 8:07
  You
• 8:07
  know
• 8:07
  what
• 8:07
  I
• 8:07
  mean?
• 8:08
  And
• 8:08
  then,
• 8:08
  like,
• 8:09
  say,
• 8:09
  like,
• 8:09
  you
• 8:10
  know,
• 8:10
  so
• 8:10
  it.
• 8:10
  So
• 8:11
  it's
• 8:11
  not
• 8:11
  so
• 8:11
  much
• 8:11
  of,
• 8:12
  like,
• 8:12
  looking
• 8:12
  like,
• 8:12
  oh,
• 8:12
  are
• 8:12
  you
• 8:13
  gonna
• 8:13
  like
• 8:13
  me?
• 8:13
  I'm
• 8:13
  just
• 8:13
  gonna
• 8:14
  reject
• 8:14
  you
• 8:14
  before
• 8:14
  you
• 8:15
  get
• 8:15
  the
• 8:15
  chance
• 8:15
  to
• 8:15
  reject
• 8:16
  me,
• 8:16
  you
• 8:16
  know?
• 8:18
  Yeah.
• 8:18
  And
• 8:19
  I
• 8:19
  mean,
• 8:19
  subconsciously,
• 8:20
  I
• 8:20
  would
• 8:20
  have
• 8:21
  done
• 8:21
  that,
• 8:21
  you
• 8:21
  know,
• 8:22
  And
• 8:22
  I
• 8:22
  think
• 8:22
  I
• 8:22
  would
• 8:22
  have
• 8:22
  done
• 8:22
  that
• 8:23
  with
• 8:23
  the
• 8:23
  same
• 8:23
  thing
• 8:24
  with
• 8:24
  Stacy.
• 8:24
  Like,
• 8:25
  she's
• 8:25
  so
• 8:25
  patient.
• 8:26
  She's.
• 8:27
  She
• 8:27
  really
• 8:27
  thinks,
• 8:28
  which
• 8:29
  is
• 8:29
  so
• 8:29
  not
• 8:29
  me
• 8:30
  before
• 8:30
  she
• 8:31
  speaks,
• 8:32
  you
• 8:32
  know,
• 8:33
  like,
• 8:33
  I
• 8:34
  have
• 8:34
  no
• 8:34
  filter.
• 8:34
  And
• 8:35
  I
• 8:35
  just.
• 8:36
  It
• 8:36
  just.
• 8:37
  I
• 8:37
  mean,
• 8:37
  I
• 8:37
  shouldn't
• 8:37
  say
• 8:37
  that.
• 8:38
  I
• 8:38
  think
• 8:38
  I've
• 8:38
  gotten
• 8:38
  a
• 8:39
  lot
• 8:39
  better,
• 8:41
  you
• 8:41
  know,
• 8:41
  about
• 8:41
  it.
• 8:42
  But
• 8:42
  in
• 8:42
  the
• 8:43
  past,
• 8:44
  no,
• 8:44
  I
• 8:44
  just
• 8:45
  blurted
• 8:46
  out
• 8:46
  whatever,
• 8:47
  and
• 8:47
  I
• 8:48
  think
• 8:48
  I
• 8:48
  just
• 8:48
  would
• 8:48
  have
• 8:49
  been
• 8:49
  like,
• 8:49
  I.
• 8:49
  I
• 8:49
  don't
• 8:49
  like
• 8:49
  her.
• 8:50
  I
• 8:50
  don't
• 8:50
  like
• 8:50
  her
• 8:51
  because
• 8:52
  she
• 8:52
  takes
• 8:53
  to.
• 8:53
  I
• 8:53
  don't
• 8:53
  have
• 8:53
  the
• 8:53
  patience.
• 8:55
  I
• 8:55
  don't
• 8:55
  have
• 8:55
  the
• 8:55
  patience.
• 8:55
  She
• 8:56
  takes
• 8:56
  too
• 8:56
  long
• 8:56
  to
• 8:56
  respond.
• 8:57
  And
• 8:57
  why
• 8:58
  is
• 8:58
  she
• 8:58
  thinking,
• 8:58
  like,
• 8:59
  doesn't
• 8:59
  she
• 8:59
  know.
• 8:59
  Just
• 9:00
  say
• 9:00
  it?
• 9:02
  You
• 9:02
  know
• 9:02
  what
• 9:02
  I
• 9:03
  mean?
• 9:03
  And
• 9:03
  I.
• 9:03
  And
• 9:03
  I
• 9:03
  would
• 9:03
  have
• 9:04
  just.
• 9:04
  I
• 9:04
  would
• 9:04
  have
• 9:05
  cut
• 9:05
  myself
• 9:05
  off
• 9:06
  from
• 9:06
  it.
• 9:07
  So
• 9:07
  I
• 9:07
  would.
• 9:07
  I
• 9:07
  wouldn't
• 9:07
  even
• 9:07
  thought.
• 9:08
  I
• 9:08
  wouldn't
• 9:08
  have
• 9:08
  thought,
• 9:08
  like,
• 9:10
  I
• 9:10
  guess
• 9:10
  unconsciously
• 9:11
  I
• 9:11
  was
• 9:11
  thinking
• 9:11
  that
• 9:11
  they're
• 9:12
  not
• 9:12
  going
• 9:12
  to
• 9:12
  like
• 9:12
  me
• 9:12
  because
• 9:13
  I
• 9:13
  was.
• 9:13
  I
• 9:13
  was
• 9:14
  actually
• 9:14
  putting
• 9:14
  you
• 9:14
  guys
• 9:15
  on
• 9:15
  a
• 9:15
  pedestal.
• 9:15
  Would
• 9:16
  have
• 9:16
  put
• 9:16
  you
• 9:16
  guys
• 9:16
  on
• 9:16
  the
• 9:17
  pedestal.
• 9:18
  And
• 9:19
  so
• 9:19
  I
• 9:19
  would
• 9:19
  have
• 9:19
  been
• 9:19
  like,
• 9:20
  oh,
• 9:20
  no,
• 9:20
  I'm
• 9:20
  just
• 9:20
  going
• 9:21
  to
• 9:21
  reject
• 9:21
  you
• 9:21
  first.
• 9:24
  That's
• 9:25
  funny.
• 9:25
  Yeah.
• 9:27
  See?
• 9:27
  And
• 9:28
  the
• 9:28
  thing
• 9:30
  now.
• 9:31
  Well,
• 9:31
  now
• 9:31
  that
• 9:31
  you
• 9:32
  say
• 9:32
  that,
• 9:32
  I
• 9:32
  feel
• 9:32
  like
• 9:32
  the
• 9:32
  thing
• 9:33
  that
• 9:33
  would
• 9:33
  have
• 9:33
  triggered
• 9:33
  me
• 9:34
  about
• 9:34
  you
• 9:34
  is
• 9:36
  the
• 9:38
  kind
• 9:38
  of,
• 9:38
  like,
• 9:39
  off
• 9:39
  the
• 9:40
  cuff
• 9:40
  or,
• 9:40
  like,
• 9:40
  the
• 9:40
  unapologetic
• 9:43
  nature
• 9:44
  of
• 9:44
  the
• 9:44
  way
• 9:44
  you
• 9:44
  communicate.
• 9:45
  Because
• 9:45
  I
• 9:46
  internalize
• 9:47
  every
• 9:48
  thing.
• 9:50
  And
• 9:50
  I
• 9:52
  have
• 9:52
  been
• 9:52
  afraid
• 9:53
  for
• 9:53
  most
• 9:54
  of
• 9:54
  my
• 9:54
  life
• 9:54
  to
• 9:55
  say
• 9:55
  the
• 9:55
  thing
• 9:57
  because
• 9:57
  of.
• 9:57
  Because
• 9:58
  of
• 9:58
  the
• 9:58
  old,
• 9:59
  like,
• 9:59
  people
• 10:00
  pleaser
• 10:00
  tendencies.
• 10:01
  So
• 10:01
  I.
• 10:02
  To
• 10:02
  your
• 10:02
  point,
• 10:03
  like,
• 10:03
  I
• 10:03
  think
• 10:03
  years
• 10:04
  ago,
• 10:04
  that
• 10:04
  would
• 10:05
  have
• 10:05
  triggered
• 10:05
  me
• 10:06
  not
• 10:06
  because
• 10:07
  I
• 10:07
  don't
• 10:08
  like
• 10:08
  that
• 10:08
  quote
• 10:09
  quality,
• 10:09
  but
• 10:09
  because
• 10:09
  I
• 10:09
  was
• 10:10
  envious
• 10:10
  of
• 10:10
  that
• 10:11
  quality.
• 10:11
  Right?
• 10:11
  Yeah.
• 10:13
  Oh,
• 10:14
  yeah.
• 10:15
  Yeah.
• 10:17
  But,
• 10:17
  yeah,
• 10:17
  very
• 10:17
  similar
• 10:18
  to
• 10:19
  Adriana
• 10:19
  is.
• 10:21
  I
• 10:21
  don't.
• 10:22
  I
• 10:23
  couldn't
• 10:23
  even
• 10:24
  count
• 10:24
  how
• 10:24
  many
• 10:25
  times
• 10:25
  I've
• 10:25
  said,
• 10:26
  oh,
• 10:26
  yeah,
• 10:27
  they
• 10:27
  don't
• 10:27
  like
• 10:27
  me.
• 10:35
  But
• 10:35
  it
• 10:35
  was
• 10:35
  a
• 10:35
  protective
• 10:37
  mechanism.
• 10:41
  I
• 10:42
  don't
• 10:42
  think
• 10:43
  so.
• 10:43
  I
• 10:43
  think
• 10:43
  that
• 10:44
  was
• 10:44
  me.
• 10:46
  I
• 10:46
  don't
• 10:46
  like
• 10:47
  me,
• 10:52
  So
• 10:53
  how
• 10:53
  could
• 10:53
  they?
• 10:54
  Wow.
• 10:55
  Yeah.
• 10:56
  And
• 10:56
  now
• 10:56
  I'm
• 10:56
  like,
• 10:57
  oh,
• 10:57
  yeah,
• 10:58
  they
• 10:58
  don't
• 10:58
  like
• 10:59
  me,
• 11:00
  and
• 11:00
  they
• 11:01
  love
• 11:01
  me.
• 11:01
  Now
• 11:02
  it's
• 11:02
  because.
• 11:03
  Now
• 11:03
  it's
• 11:04
  because
• 11:04
  I
• 11:04
  know
• 11:05
  me,
• 11:06
  and
• 11:06
  I
• 11:06
  know
• 11:06
  I
• 11:07
  can
• 11:07
  see
• 11:08
  how
• 11:09
  they
• 11:10
  are
• 11:12
  uncomfortable
• 11:13
  or
• 11:14
  I'm
• 11:14
  triggering
• 11:15
  them
• 11:15
  or
• 11:15
  do
• 11:16
  you
• 11:16
  know
• 11:16
  what
• 11:16
  I
• 11:16
  mean?
• 11:16
  And
• 11:17
  now
• 11:17
  it's
• 11:17
  not
• 11:18
  a
• 11:19
  reflection
• 11:19
  of
• 11:19
  me.
• 11:20
  It's
• 11:20
  a
• 11:20
  reflection
• 11:21
  of
• 11:21
  them.
• 11:26
  Yikes.
• 11:29
  Yeah.
• 11:31
  So
• 11:31
  that.
• 11:32
  So.
• 11:32
  And
• 11:32
  for
• 11:32
  you.
• 11:33
  The
• 11:33
  thing
• 11:34
  that
• 11:34
  I
• 11:34
  feel
• 11:34
  like
• 11:35
  would
• 11:35
  have
• 11:35
  triggered
• 11:36
  me
• 11:37
  previously
• 11:40
  was
• 11:40
  the.
• 11:41
  The
• 11:41
  lightness
• 11:42
  with
• 11:43
  which
• 11:43
  you
• 11:43
  approach
• 11:44
  hard
• 11:44
  things.
• 11:45
  Like,
• 11:46
  even
• 11:46
  just
• 11:46
  now
• 11:47
  when
• 11:47
  you
• 11:47
  were
• 11:47
  talking
• 11:47
  about
• 11:47
  that
• 11:48
  stuff,
• 11:48
  you
• 11:48
  have
• 11:48
  this
• 11:48
  adorable
• 11:49
  little
• 11:49
  giggle,
• 11:50
  and
• 11:51
  that
• 11:51
  would
• 11:51
  have
• 11:53
  probably
• 11:53
  triggered
• 11:54
  me
• 11:54
  because
• 11:54
  I
• 11:54
  take
• 11:54
  everything
• 11:55
  very
• 11:55
  seriously,
• 11:56
  and
• 11:56
  it's
• 11:56
  all
• 11:57
  about,
• 11:57
  like,
• 11:57
  precision
• 11:58
  and
• 11:58
  perfection,
• 11:59
  and
• 11:59
  I
• 12:00
  have
• 12:00
  a
• 12:00
  really
• 12:01
  hard
• 12:01
  time
• 12:03
  with
• 12:03
  play
• 12:04
  and
• 12:04
  joy.
• 12:05
  Like,
• 12:05
  I
• 12:05
  actually.
• 12:06
  I
• 12:06
  actually
• 12:06
  struggle
• 12:07
  with
• 12:07
  that.
• 12:07
  And
• 12:07
  I
• 12:07
  feel
• 12:08
  like
• 12:08
  I'm
• 12:08
  now
• 12:08
  attracted
• 12:09
  to
• 12:09
  people
• 12:09
  in
• 12:09
  this
• 12:09
  phase
• 12:10
  of
• 12:10
  my
• 12:10
  life
• 12:11
  who
• 12:11
  bring
• 12:11
  that
• 12:11
  out
• 12:12
  of
• 12:12
  me
• 12:13
  because
• 12:13
  I
• 12:13
  know
• 12:13
  that
• 12:14
  I
• 12:14
  need
• 12:14
  it.
• 12:14
  I
• 12:14
  know
• 12:14
  it's
• 12:15
  a
• 12:15
  thing
• 12:15
  that
• 12:15
  I
• 12:15
  have
• 12:15
  a
• 12:15
  hard
• 12:16
  time
• 12:16
  with.
• 12:16
  And
• 12:17
  so
• 12:17
  I
• 12:17
  love
• 12:19
  that,
• 12:19
  like,
• 12:20
  air
• 12:21
  of
• 12:21
  we
• 12:22
  take
• 12:22
  the
• 12:22
  work
• 12:22
  seriously,
• 12:23
  but
• 12:23
  we
• 12:23
  don't
• 12:23
  take
• 12:24
  ourselves
• 12:24
  seriously.
• 12:25
  And
• 12:25
  I
• 12:26
  think
• 12:26
  that's
• 12:26
  what's
• 12:26
  helped
• 12:27
  me
• 12:27
  find
• 12:27
  maybe
• 12:28
  a
• 12:28
  little
• 12:28
  bit
• 12:28
  more,
• 12:28
  like,
• 12:29
  joy
• 12:29
  or
• 12:29
  lightness
• 12:30
  in
• 12:30
  the
• 12:30
  journey.
• 12:31
  It's
• 12:31
  also
• 12:31
  the
• 12:31
  reason
• 12:32
  that
• 12:32
  I
• 12:33
  was
• 12:33
  attracted
• 12:34
  to
• 12:34
  my
• 12:35
  partner.
• 12:35
  Right.
• 12:35
  Like,
• 12:36
  it's.
• 12:36
  It's
• 12:36
  all
• 12:36
  about,
• 12:37
  like,
• 12:37
  play
• 12:37
  and
• 12:37
  fun
• 12:37
  and
• 12:38
  joy
• 12:39
  and
• 12:39
  silliness,
• 12:40
  like,
• 12:40
  not
• 12:41
  having
• 12:41
  to
• 12:41
  be
• 12:41
  so
• 12:41
  buttoned
• 12:42
  up
• 12:42
  all
• 12:42
  the
• 12:42
  time,
• 12:42
  because
• 12:43
  that's
• 12:43
  how
• 12:44
  we
• 12:45
  lived
• 12:45
  our
• 12:45
  lives
• 12:45
  when
• 12:46
  we
• 12:46
  were
• 12:46
  younger.
• 12:46
  It
• 12:46
  was
• 12:46
  all
• 12:47
  about
• 12:47
  the
• 12:47
  appearances.
• 12:48
  Right.
• 12:49
  It's
• 12:49
  all
• 12:49
  about,
• 12:50
  like,
• 12:50
  making
• 12:50
  sure
• 12:50
  that
• 12:51
  everything
• 12:51
  looked
• 12:51
  great
• 12:51
  from
• 12:52
  the
• 12:52
  outside,
• 12:53
  regardless
• 12:53
  of,
• 12:54
  like,
• 12:54
  the
• 12:54
  inner
• 12:54
  turmoil
• 12:55
  that
• 12:55
  caused
• 12:56
  or
• 12:56
  what
• 12:56
  it
• 12:56
  actually
• 12:57
  was
• 12:57
  on
• 12:57
  the
• 12:57
  inside,
• 12:59
  which
• 12:59
  I
• 12:59
  don't
• 13:00
  think
• 13:00
  is
• 13:00
  an
• 13:00
  un.
• 13:01
  I
• 13:01
  think
• 13:01
  it's
• 13:01
  actually
• 13:01
  a
• 13:02
  very
• 13:02
  common
• 13:02
  thing
• 13:03
  that
• 13:03
  a
• 13:03
  lot
• 13:03
  of
• 13:04
  folks
• 13:04
  in.
• 13:04
  In,
• 13:05
  like,
• 13:05
  our
• 13:05
  generations
• 13:06
  are
• 13:06
  coming
• 13:06
  to
• 13:06
  terms
• 13:07
  with
• 13:07
  now.
• 13:08
  That,
• 13:09
  like,
• 13:09
  shedding
• 13:09
  of
• 13:10
  the.
• 13:10
  The
• 13:10
  pleasing
• 13:12
  tendencies
• 13:13
  and
• 13:13
  the
• 13:14
  perfection.
• 13:15
  Like,
• 13:15
  keeping
• 13:16
  up
• 13:16
  appearances,
• 13:17
  like,
• 13:18
  being
• 13:18
  inauthentic.
• 13:21
  Yeah,
• 13:22
  yeah.
• 13:23
  Following
• 13:23
  someone
• 13:24
  else's
• 13:24
  rulebook
• 13:25
  or
• 13:25
  checklist.
• 13:26
  Yeah.
• 13:28
  Yeah.
• 13:30
  The
• 13:31
  things
• 13:31
  that
• 13:33
  I
• 13:33
  appreciate
• 13:34
  most
• 13:35
  about
• 13:35
  you
• 13:36
  guys
• 13:36
  now
• 13:36
  are
• 13:37
  the
• 13:37
  ways
• 13:37
  that
• 13:37
  you
• 13:38
  challenge
• 13:38
  me
• 13:39
  and
• 13:39
  hold
• 13:39
  me
• 13:39
  accountable.
• 13:40
  Yeah.
• 13:43
  Like,
• 13:43
  the
• 13:43
  number
• 13:44
  of
• 13:44
  times
• 13:44
  in
• 13:45
  our
• 13:45
  conversations,
• 13:46
  Adriana,
• 13:46
  where
• 13:47
  I've
• 13:47
  said,
• 13:47
  like,
• 13:47
  well,
• 13:47
  I
• 13:47
  just.
• 13:48
  I
• 13:48
  don't
• 13:48
  like
• 13:48
  that.
• 13:49
  I
• 13:49
  don't
• 13:49
  like
• 13:50
  that
• 13:50
  thing
• 13:50
  that
• 13:50
  you
• 13:50
  just
• 13:51
  said
• 13:51
  to
• 13:51
  me,
• 13:52
  which
• 13:53
  probably
• 13:53
  means
• 13:55
  I
• 13:55
  need
• 13:56
  to
• 13:56
  take
• 13:56
  a
• 13:56
  closer
• 13:57
  look
• 13:57
  at
• 13:57
  it,
• 13:57
  but
• 13:58
  whatever.
• 13:59
  Off.
• 14:00
  And
• 14:00
  then
• 14:00
  the
• 14:01
  number
• 14:01
  of
• 14:01
  times
• 14:01
  Stacy
• 14:02
  will
• 14:02
  just
• 14:02
  ask
• 14:02
  a
• 14:02
  very
• 14:03
  pointed
• 14:04
  question.
• 14:05
  Yeah,
• 14:07
  that
• 14:07
  just
• 14:07
  cuts
• 14:08
  right
• 14:08
  to
• 14:08
  my
• 14:08
  soul
• 14:08
  that
• 14:09
  I'm
• 14:09
  like,
• 14:09
  okay,
• 14:10
  well,
• 14:12
  the
• 14:12
  way
• 14:13
  you
• 14:13
  gently
• 14:13
  hold
• 14:14
  up
• 14:14
  the
• 14:14
  mirror
• 14:14
  with
• 14:15
  a
• 14:15
  very
• 14:15
  curious
• 14:15
  and
• 14:16
  pointed
• 14:16
  question.
• 14:18
  Yeah,
• 14:19
  I
• 14:19
  feel
• 14:19
  the
• 14:19
  same
• 14:19
  way.
• 14:20
  Those
• 14:20
  are
• 14:20
  the
• 14:21
  things
• 14:21
  I
• 14:21
  value
• 14:21
  the
• 14:21
  most.
• 14:24
  I
• 14:24
  love
• 14:25
  how
• 14:25
  you
• 14:25
  both.
• 14:30
  I
• 14:30
  just
• 14:30
  have
• 14:30
  accepted
• 14:31
  me
• 14:31
  as
• 14:31
  I
• 14:31
  am.
• 14:31
  Right.
• 14:32
  Like
• 14:33
  flaws
• 14:33
  and
• 14:33
  all.
• 14:34
  Like.
• 14:38
  The
• 14:38
  fact
• 14:38
  that
• 14:38
  I
• 14:39
  can
• 14:39
  be
• 14:39
  myself,
• 14:39
  even
• 14:40
  though
• 14:41
  I
• 14:41
  do
• 14:41
  feel
• 14:42
  that
• 14:42
  I
• 14:42
  hold
• 14:42
  back
• 14:43
  at
• 14:43
  times.
• 14:45
  But
• 14:45
  it
• 14:45
  has
• 14:45
  nothing
• 14:46
  to
• 14:46
  do
• 14:46
  with
• 14:46
  you
• 14:46
  guys.
• 14:47
  It
• 14:47
  just
• 14:47
  has
• 14:47
  to
• 14:47
  do
• 14:48
  with.
• 14:49
  With
• 14:50
  me,
• 14:50
  you
• 14:51
  know,
• 14:51
  with.
• 14:51
  You
• 14:51
  know,
• 14:52
  this
• 14:52
  is
• 14:52
  still
• 14:52
  having
• 14:53
  that
• 14:57
  as
• 14:57
  a
• 14:57
  fire
• 14:57
  sign
• 14:57
  of
• 14:58
  someone
• 14:58
  who's
• 14:58
  so
• 14:58
  honest
• 14:59
  and
• 14:59
  can
• 14:59
  be
• 14:59
  so
• 15:00
  blunt
• 15:00
  and
• 15:00
  just
• 15:01
  say
• 15:01
  things.
• 15:02
  I
• 15:03
  have
• 15:03
  been
• 15:03
  too
• 15:03
  much
• 15:03
  for
• 15:04
  a
• 15:04
  lot
• 15:04
  of
• 15:04
  people.
• 15:06
  And
• 15:06
  so
• 15:06
  it's
• 15:07
  almost
• 15:07
  like
• 15:07
  that's
• 15:08
  kind.
• 15:08
  That
• 15:08
  it's
• 15:09
  still
• 15:09
  somewhat
• 15:10
  there.
• 15:11
  And
• 15:11
  at
• 15:11
  times
• 15:12
  I'm.
• 15:12
  I.
• 15:12
  I
• 15:13
  second
• 15:13
  guess
• 15:13
  myself
• 15:13
  and
• 15:14
  I'm
• 15:14
  like,
• 15:14
  oh,
• 15:14
  that
• 15:14
  might
• 15:14
  be
• 15:14
  too
• 15:15
  much.
• 15:15
  So
• 15:15
  I
• 15:15
  hold
• 15:15
  back.
• 15:16
  Right.
• 15:16
  So
• 15:16
  it
• 15:16
  has
• 15:16
  nothing
• 15:17
  to
• 15:17
  do
• 15:17
  with
• 15:17
  anybody
• 15:18
  telling
• 15:18
  me
• 15:18
  or,
• 15:19
  like,
• 15:19
  I
• 15:19
  mean,
• 15:19
  you
• 15:20
  guys
• 15:20
  telling
• 15:20
  me
• 15:20
  that
• 15:21
  it's
• 15:21
  too
• 15:21
  much,
• 15:21
  but
• 15:23
  it's
• 15:24
  almost.
• 15:24
  That's
• 15:24
  still
• 15:24
  playing
• 15:25
  in
• 15:25
  my
• 15:25
  head
• 15:25
  a
• 15:25
  little
• 15:25
  bit.
• 15:26
  But
• 15:26
  I
• 15:26
  am
• 15:27
  way.
• 15:27
  I
• 15:28
  am
• 15:28
  the
• 15:28
  most
• 15:28
  comfortable
• 15:28
  with
• 15:29
  you
• 15:29
  guys
• 15:29
  that
• 15:29
  I've
• 15:29
  ever
• 15:29
  been
• 15:30
  with
• 15:31
  any
• 15:32
  friends.
• 15:34
  And
• 15:34
  it's
• 15:35
  just.
• 15:35
  And
• 15:35
  it's
• 15:35
  just
• 15:35
  because
• 15:36
  of
• 15:36
  all
• 15:36
  the
• 15:38
  growth
• 15:38
  that
• 15:38
  we've
• 15:39
  done
• 15:39
  together
• 15:40
  and
• 15:41
  the
• 15:41
  safe
• 15:42
  space
• 15:42
  that
• 15:43
  we've
• 15:43
  created
• 15:44
  for
• 15:45
  each
• 15:45
  other.
• 15:46
  So
• 15:47
  I.
• 15:47
  Yeah,
• 15:47
  I
• 15:48
  value
• 15:48
  that
• 15:48
  a
• 15:48
  lot.
• 15:49
  Well,
• 15:50
  I'm
• 15:50
  glad
• 15:50
  to
• 15:50
  hear
• 15:50
  that
• 15:51
  we're
• 15:51
  your
• 15:51
  favorite
• 15:52
  friends,
• 15:53
  since
• 15:53
  you're
• 15:54
  the
• 15:54
  only.
• 15:55
  You
• 15:55
  have
• 15:55
  other
• 15:56
  friends.
• 15:56
  One
• 15:56
  out
• 15:57
  of
• 15:57
  the
• 15:57
  three
• 15:57
  of
• 15:57
  us
• 15:57
  that
• 15:57
  has
• 15:58
  other
• 15:58
  friends
• 15:58
  out
• 15:59
  outside
• 15:59
  of
• 15:59
  this
• 16:00
  little
• 16:00
  circle
• 16:01
  of.
• 16:01
  Yeah,
• 16:03
  we
• 16:04
  always
• 16:04
  make
• 16:04
  fun
• 16:04
  of
• 16:05
  Adriana
• 16:05
  for
• 16:05
  having
• 16:06
  plans
• 16:06
  with
• 16:06
  other
• 16:07
  people
• 16:07
  besides
• 16:08
  the
• 16:08
  two
• 16:08
  of
• 16:08
  us.
• 16:09
  Also,
• 16:09
  we
• 16:09
  can't
• 16:09
  fault
• 16:10
  her
• 16:10
  because
• 16:10
  we
• 16:10
  live
• 16:11
  on
• 16:11
  complete
• 16:11
  different
• 16:12
  corners
• 16:12
  of
• 16:12
  the
• 16:13
  country.
• 16:13
  That's
• 16:14
  true.
• 16:14
  We
• 16:14
  live
• 16:14
  in.
• 16:15
  We
• 16:15
  all
• 16:15
  live
• 16:15
  in
• 16:15
  different
• 16:16
  states.
• 16:16
  You're
• 16:17
  allowed.
• 16:17
  You're
• 16:18
  allowed
• 16:18
  to
• 16:18
  have
• 16:18
  other
• 16:18
  friends,
• 16:19
  I
• 16:19
  guess,
• 16:20
  as
• 16:20
  long
• 16:20
  as
• 16:20
  we
• 16:20
  stay
• 16:21
  your
• 16:21
  favorite.
• 16:23
  I
• 16:23
  do
• 16:23
  have
• 16:23
  other
• 16:24
  friends,
• 16:24
  but
• 16:24
  they
• 16:24
  are
• 16:24
  also
• 16:25
  in
• 16:25
  other
• 16:26
  states,
• 16:26
  so
• 16:27
  I
• 16:28
  can't
• 16:28
  go
• 16:28
  out
• 16:28
  with
• 16:28
  them
• 16:29
  either.
• 16:29
  Right.
• 16:30
  Yeah.
• 16:31
  All
• 16:32
  right.
• 16:32
  I
• 16:32
  just
• 16:32
  don't
• 16:33
  have
• 16:33
  other
• 16:33
  friends.
• 16:34
  I'm
• 16:34
  kidding.
• 16:38
  I'm
• 16:38
  kidding.
• 16:40
  But
• 16:40
  I
• 16:40
  definitely.
• 16:41
  These
• 16:41
  are.
• 16:41
  You're
• 16:42
  my
• 16:42
  favorite
• 16:42
  friends.
• 16:43
  I'll
• 16:43
  say
• 16:43
  that.
• 16:43
  Yeah.
• 16:44
  Well,
• 16:44
  we've
• 16:45
  touched
• 16:45
  on
• 16:45
  it
• 16:45
  a
• 16:45
  tiny
• 16:46
  bit
• 16:46
  already,
• 16:47
  so
• 16:48
  really
• 16:48
  quick
• 16:48
  just
• 16:49
  to.
• 16:49
  To
• 16:50
  dig
• 16:50
  in
• 16:51
  a
• 16:51
  little
• 16:51
  bit
• 16:51
  more.
• 16:51
  And.
• 16:52
  And
• 16:53
  I'm
• 16:53
  going
• 16:53
  to
• 16:53
  answer
• 16:53
  my
• 16:54
  favorite
• 16:54
  things.
• 16:54
  About
• 16:54
  you
• 16:55
  guys
• 16:57
  and
• 16:57
  follow
• 16:58
  it
• 16:58
  with
• 16:59
  some
• 17:00
  astrology
• 17:01
  because
• 17:02
  we're
• 17:02
  referencing
• 17:03
  some
• 17:03
  elements
• 17:04
  and
• 17:05
  so
• 17:06
  maybe
• 17:06
  we
• 17:06
  could
• 17:06
  clue
• 17:06
  everybody
• 17:07
  in
• 17:07
  on
• 17:07
  that
• 17:07
  in
• 17:07
  a
• 17:08
  second.
• 17:08
  So.
• 17:10
  But
• 17:11
  yeah,
• 17:11
  Adriana,
• 17:11
  you
• 17:12
  know,
• 17:14
  my
• 17:15
  Aries
• 17:15
  moon
• 17:15
  would
• 17:16
  always
• 17:16
  say,
• 17:17
  never,
• 17:17
  ever
• 17:18
  hold
• 17:19
  back
• 17:19
  your
• 17:19
  fire.
• 17:20
  Like,
• 17:21
  bring
• 17:21
  it.
• 17:23
  I
• 17:23
  need
• 17:23
  more
• 17:24
  of
• 17:24
  that.
• 17:25
  The
• 17:25
  authenticity,
• 17:26
  the.
• 17:27
  In
• 17:27
  your
• 17:27
  face,
• 17:28
  blunt
• 17:28
  honesty
• 17:31
  to
• 17:31
  me
• 17:31
  is
• 17:32
  more
• 17:32
  valuable
• 17:34
  than
• 17:34
  any
• 17:35
  politely
• 17:36
  worded.
• 17:38
  That
• 17:38
  is
• 17:39
  definitely
• 17:39
  not
• 17:39
  me.
• 17:40
  Say
• 17:40
  the
• 17:40
  thing.
• 17:41
  Say
• 17:41
  it.
• 17:43
  And.
• 17:43
  And
• 17:47
  your
• 17:47
  water.
• 17:48
  Right.
• 17:48
  The.
• 17:49
  The
• 17:49
  deep
• 17:50
  feelers.
• 17:50
  It's
• 17:51
  okay
• 17:51
  to
• 17:51
  feel
• 17:52
  deeply.
• 17:54
  That's
• 17:54
  actually
• 17:55
  a
• 17:55
  superpower.
• 17:56
  Right.
• 17:57
  Like
• 17:57
  in.
• 17:58
  In
• 18:00
  seeing
• 18:02
  you
• 18:05
  live
• 18:06
  that
• 18:07
  so
• 18:08
  fully
• 18:09
  now.
• 18:09
  Like,
• 18:10
  as.
• 18:10
  Feel
• 18:11
  like
• 18:11
  I've
• 18:12
  been
• 18:12
  given
• 18:12
  permission
• 18:14
  to
• 18:14
  do
• 18:14
  that
• 18:14
  as
• 18:14
  well.
• 18:16
  They
• 18:17
  always
• 18:17
  had
• 18:18
  huge
• 18:18
  emotions.
• 18:19
  Like,
• 18:20
  they're
• 18:20
  just
• 18:21
  gigantic.
• 18:22
  I.
• 18:23
  I
• 18:23
  cried
• 18:24
  very
• 18:25
  easily
• 18:25
  as
• 18:25
  a
• 18:25
  child.
• 18:26
  In
• 18:26
  any
• 18:27
  situation,
• 18:27
  as
• 18:28
  Eric
• 18:28
  mentioned,
• 18:28
  I
• 18:29
  will
• 18:29
  laugh.
• 18:30
  It'll
• 18:30
  do.
• 18:30
  Especially
• 18:31
  if
• 18:31
  it's
• 18:31
  inappropriate.
• 18:37
  And
• 18:38
  especially
• 18:39
  if
• 18:39
  it's
• 18:39
  inappropriate.
• 18:40
  I
• 18:40
  love.
• 18:40
  Right.
• 18:41
  That's
• 18:41
  my.
• 18:42
  That's
• 18:42
  my
• 18:42
  first
• 18:43
  response
• 18:43
  to
• 18:44
  most
• 18:44
  things
• 18:44
  is
• 18:45
  laugh.
• 18:45
  It
• 18:46
  doesn't
• 18:46
  matter
• 18:46
  if
• 18:47
  it's
• 18:48
  awful
• 18:49
  or
• 18:50
  hysterical.
• 18:51
  I've
• 18:51
  had
• 18:51
  so
• 18:52
  many
• 18:52
  conversations
• 18:53
  with
• 18:53
  you
• 18:53
  where
• 18:53
  you
• 18:54
  were,
• 18:54
  like,
• 18:54
  deeply
• 18:55
  uncomfortable
• 18:56
  with,
• 18:57
  like,
• 18:57
  the.
• 18:58
  The.
• 19:00
  Not
• 19:00
  the
• 19:00
  topic
• 19:01
  of
• 19:01
  conversation,
• 19:01
  but
• 19:01
  the
• 19:02
  idea
• 19:02
  that,
• 19:02
  like,
• 19:02
  there's
• 19:03
  a
• 19:03
  growth
• 19:03
  opportunity
• 19:04
  there
• 19:04
  and
• 19:04
  there's
• 19:04
  some,
• 19:04
  like,
• 19:05
  challenge.
• 19:05
  Right.
• 19:05
  It's
• 19:06
  when
• 19:06
  you're
• 19:06
  in
• 19:06
  that
• 19:06
  stretch
• 19:07
  zone
• 19:07
  and.
• 19:08
  And
• 19:08
  all
• 19:08
  you
• 19:08
  can
• 19:09
  do
• 19:09
  is
• 19:09
  giggle
• 19:09
  because
• 19:10
  you're
• 19:10
  like,
• 19:10
  oh,
• 19:10
  this
• 19:10
  is
• 19:10
  the
• 19:11
  most
• 19:11
  uncomfortable.
• 19:14
  That's
• 19:14
  how
• 19:14
  I
• 19:14
  know
• 19:14
  you're
• 19:14
  uncomfortable
• 19:15
  is
• 19:15
  that
• 19:16
  there's
• 19:16
  like
• 19:16
  the
• 19:16
  little
• 19:16
  giggle.
• 19:20
  That.
• 19:21
  Laughter
• 19:21
  and
• 19:22
  anger
• 19:22
  are
• 19:23
  my
• 19:23
  easy
• 19:23
  go
• 19:24
  to's.
• 19:24
  Like,
• 19:25
  that's
• 19:26
  Stacy's
• 19:26
  feeling
• 19:27
  something.
• 19:28
  If
• 19:28
  she's
• 19:29
  laughing
• 19:29
  or
• 19:29
  she's
• 19:30
  pissed,
• 19:31
  there's
• 19:32
  deep
• 19:32
  emotion
• 19:33
  happening
• 19:34
  or
• 19:35
  crying.
• 19:37
  And
• 19:37
  then
• 19:37
  Erika,
• 19:39
  I'm
• 19:40
  a
• 19:40
  Gemini
• 19:40
  rising,
• 19:41
  Aries
• 19:41
  moon,
• 19:42
  Taurus
• 19:43
  sun.
• 19:44
  So
• 19:44
  you'd
• 19:45
  think
• 19:45
  I'm
• 19:45
  pretty
• 19:45
  grounded,
• 19:46
  but
• 19:46
  I
• 19:46
  work
• 19:46
  very
• 19:46
  hard
• 19:47
  at
• 19:47
  it.
• 19:47
  Actually.
• 19:48
  I
• 19:48
  was
• 19:48
  looking
• 19:49
  at
• 19:49
  my
• 19:49
  chart
• 19:49
  with
• 19:49
  Adriana
• 19:50
  yesterday,
• 19:50
  and
• 19:50
  it's
• 19:51
  mostly
• 19:51
  air
• 19:51
  and
• 19:51
  fire,
• 19:54
  but.
• 19:55
  Yeah.
• 19:55
  So
• 19:56
  Erika,
• 19:57
  Gemini,
• 19:58
  sun,
• 19:58
  and
• 19:59
  I.
• 20:00
  Yep.
• 20:01
  Fast
• 20:02
  minds.
• 20:02
  We
• 20:02
  have
• 20:03
  fast
• 20:03
  minds.
• 20:03
  And
• 20:04
  I
• 20:04
  love
• 20:04
  that
• 20:05
  we
• 20:05
  can
• 20:05
  just
• 20:07
  go
• 20:08
  that.
• 20:08
  And
• 20:08
  that's
• 20:09
  the
• 20:09
  pause.
• 20:10
  Right.
• 20:10
  Adriana
• 20:10
  is.
• 20:11
  It's.
• 20:11
  It's
• 20:12
  not
• 20:12
  actually
• 20:13
  that
• 20:13
  I'm
• 20:14
  not
• 20:14
  thinking.
• 20:15
  It's.
• 20:15
  I'm
• 20:15
  thinking
• 20:15
  so
• 20:16
  fast,
• 20:16
  I
• 20:16
  couldn't
• 20:17
  actually
• 20:18
  communicate
• 20:19
  what's
• 20:19
  going
• 20:20
  on
• 20:20
  in
• 20:20
  my
• 20:20
  brain
• 20:20
  at
• 20:21
  the
• 20:21
  same
• 20:21
  speed
• 20:21
  that
• 20:22
  it's
• 20:22
  happening
• 20:23
  because
• 20:23
  it's
• 20:23
  like
• 20:24
  you
• 20:24
  say
• 20:25
  something
• 20:25
  and
• 20:25
  then
• 20:26
  I'm.
• 20:27
  I'm
• 20:27
  running.
• 20:27
  I'm
• 20:28
  like,
• 20:28
  I'm.
• 20:29
  I'm
• 20:29
  in
• 20:29
  a
• 20:29
  sprint
• 20:30
  to,
• 20:30
  like,
• 20:31
  you,
• 20:31
  and
• 20:32
  I
• 20:32
  cover
• 20:32
  you
• 20:32
  Know
• 20:33
  much
• 20:33
  topics
• 20:34
  in
• 20:34
  my
• 20:34
  brain
• 20:34
  one
• 20:35
  time,
• 20:35
  and
• 20:35
  then
• 20:35
  I
• 20:35
  have
• 20:35
  to,
• 20:35
  like,
• 20:36
  back
• 20:36
  up
• 20:36
  and
• 20:36
  go,
• 20:36
  okay,
• 20:37
  how
• 20:37
  do
• 20:38
  I
• 20:38
  make
• 20:38
  this
• 20:38
  make
• 20:39
  sense?
• 20:41
  So
• 20:41
  I
• 20:41
  feel
• 20:41
  super
• 20:42
  comfortable
• 20:42
  with
• 20:42
  Erica
• 20:43
  and
• 20:43
  that
• 20:44
  I
• 20:44
  could
• 20:44
  probably
• 20:45
  start
• 20:45
  talking
• 20:46
  without
• 20:47
  fixing,
• 20:49
  like,
• 20:50
  trying
• 20:50
  to
• 20:50
  make
• 20:51
  it
• 20:51
  make
• 20:51
  sense.
• 20:51
  And
• 20:52
  she,
• 20:52
  like,
• 20:53
  completely
• 20:53
  follow
• 20:53
  everything
• 20:54
  I
• 20:54
  said.
• 20:56
  She
• 20:56
  definitely
• 20:57
  does.
• 20:58
  Yeah.
• 20:58
  The
• 20:58
  messy.
• 20:59
  Give
• 20:59
  me
• 21:00
  the.
• 21:00
  Like,
• 21:00
  I
• 21:01
  can
• 21:01
  see
• 21:01
  the
• 21:02
  whole.
• 21:03
  I
• 21:03
  can
• 21:03
  see
• 21:03
  the
• 21:03
  constellation,
• 21:04
  and
• 21:05
  my
• 21:05
  brain
• 21:05
  draws
• 21:06
  the
• 21:06
  lines
• 21:07
  with
• 21:07
  you.
• 21:08
  Like,
• 21:08
  I
• 21:09
  can
• 21:09
  already
• 21:09
  see
• 21:09
  the
• 21:09
  whole
• 21:10
  picture.
• 21:10
  I
• 21:10
  don't
• 21:11
  know,
• 21:11
  like,
• 21:11
  how
• 21:11
  to.
• 21:12
  That's
• 21:12
  a
• 21:12
  good
• 21:12
  way
• 21:12
  to
• 21:12
  articulate
• 21:13
  it,
• 21:13
  but
• 21:13
  it's
• 21:14
  like.
• 21:14
  It's
• 21:15
  not
• 21:15
  just
• 21:15
  like
• 21:16
  a
• 21:16
  connect
• 21:16
  the
• 21:16
  dots
• 21:17
  where
• 21:17
  we
• 21:17
  start
• 21:17
  at
• 21:17
  one
• 21:18
  and
• 21:18
  go
• 21:18
  to
• 21:18
  two
• 21:18
  and
• 21:18
  go
• 21:18
  to
• 21:19
  three.
• 21:19
  It's
• 21:19
  like,
• 21:19
  it
• 21:20
  all
• 21:20
  appears
• 21:20
  at
• 21:21
  once.
• 21:21
  And
• 21:21
  then
• 21:21
  I'm
• 21:21
  like,
• 21:22
  boom,
• 21:22
  there's
• 21:22
  the
• 21:22
  lines.
• 21:23
  I
• 21:23
  don't.
• 21:24
  Yep.
• 21:25
  That
• 21:25
  is.
• 21:26
  Yeah,
• 21:26
  we
• 21:26
  think
• 21:26
  that
• 21:27
  it's
• 21:27
  always
• 21:27
  been,
• 21:27
  like,
• 21:27
  a
• 21:28
  straight
• 21:28
  line,
• 21:28
  but
• 21:28
  it's
• 21:29
  really,
• 21:29
  like,
• 21:30
  topic,
• 21:30
  topic,
• 21:31
  topic,
• 21:31
  like,
• 21:32
  bouncing
• 21:32
  all
• 21:32
  over
• 21:33
  the
• 21:33
  place.
• 21:33
  Like,
• 21:33
  10
• 21:34
  topics
• 21:34
  pop
• 21:35
  up
• 21:35
  on
• 21:35
  the
• 21:35
  screen,
• 21:35
  and
• 21:36
  you're
• 21:36
  like.
• 21:36
  And
• 21:36
  they're
• 21:36
  all
• 21:37
  connected
• 21:37
  this
• 21:37
  way,
• 21:38
  and
• 21:38
  it's
• 21:38
  like,
• 21:38
  okay.
• 21:40
  It's
• 21:40
  not
• 21:40
  linear,
• 21:42
  but
• 21:43
  she
• 21:43
  can
• 21:43
  do
• 21:43
  that.
• 21:45
  So
• 21:45
  I
• 21:45
  mean.
• 21:45
  And
• 21:46
  I'm
• 21:46
  sorry.
• 21:46
  I
• 21:47
  don't
• 21:47
  mean
• 21:47
  to
• 21:47
  interrupt
• 21:47
  you.
• 21:47
  Are
• 21:47
  you
• 21:47
  done?
• 21:48
  Okay.
• 21:52
  Like,
• 21:52
  I.
• 21:52
  I
• 21:53
  love.
• 21:53
  I.
• 21:54
  I
• 21:54
  feel
• 21:54
  that
• 21:55
  you
• 21:55
  both
• 21:55
  give
• 21:55
  me
• 21:55
  permission
• 21:56
  to
• 21:56
  be
• 21:57
  who
• 21:57
  I
• 21:57
  am.
• 21:58
  And
• 21:58
  I
• 21:58
  feel
• 21:58
  with
• 21:58
  you,
• 21:58
  Stacy,
• 21:59
  too,
• 21:59
  like,
• 21:59
  is
• 21:59
  the,
• 22:00
  like,
• 22:00
  that
• 22:00
  fiery
• 22:01
  side
• 22:01
  of
• 22:01
  me
• 22:01
  like,
• 22:02
  that
• 22:02
  you
• 22:02
  get,
• 22:02
  Because
• 22:02
  I
• 22:02
  guess
• 22:03
  your.
• 22:03
  Your
• 22:04
  fiery
• 22:05
  moon
• 22:05
  gets
• 22:05
  me
• 22:06
  and
• 22:06
  your
• 22:06
  fiery
• 22:06
  Mercury
• 22:07
  gets
• 22:07
  me,
• 22:07
  but.
• 22:11
  So
• 22:11
  I
• 22:11
  love
• 22:11
  that
• 22:13
  because
• 22:13
  I
• 22:13
  can
• 22:14
  just
• 22:14
  bird
• 22:14
  things
• 22:14
  out.
• 22:15
  I
• 22:15
  mean,
• 22:15
  same
• 22:15
  with
• 22:15
  Erica.
• 22:16
  But
• 22:16
  one
• 22:16
  of
• 22:16
  the
• 22:16
  things
• 22:16
  with
• 22:17
  Erica
• 22:17
  is
• 22:17
  that
• 22:18
  I
• 22:18
  love
• 22:18
  that
• 22:19
  I
• 22:19
  have
• 22:20
  these
• 22:20
  intense
• 22:21
  feelings,
• 22:22
  and
• 22:22
  I
• 22:23
  always
• 22:23
  have
• 22:23
  a
• 22:23
  very
• 22:24
  hard
• 22:24
  time
• 22:24
  expressing
• 22:25
  what
• 22:25
  that
• 22:25
  is,
• 22:26
  and
• 22:26
  I.
• 22:26
  Sometimes.
• 22:27
  Erica
• 22:27
  always
• 22:27
  has
• 22:28
  the
• 22:28
  words
• 22:28
  for
• 22:28
  it.
• 22:29
  Like,
• 22:29
  I
• 22:29
  don't
• 22:29
  need
• 22:30
  to.
• 22:30
  I'm
• 22:30
  like.
• 22:30
  I'm
• 22:31
  always
• 22:31
  like.
• 22:32
  And.
• 22:33
  And
• 22:33
  this.
• 22:33
  And
• 22:33
  then
• 22:34
  she's
• 22:34
  like,
• 22:34
  oh,
• 22:34
  and
• 22:34
  you're
• 22:35
  feeling
• 22:35
  this,
• 22:35
  that,
• 22:35
  and
• 22:35
  the
• 22:35
  other.
• 22:35
  I'm
• 22:36
  like,
• 22:36
  that's
• 22:36
  it.
• 22:37
  That's.
• 22:37
  She,
• 22:37
  like,
• 22:37
  she
• 22:38
  puts
• 22:38
  words
• 22:38
  to
• 22:38
  my
• 22:38
  feelings,
• 22:39
  and
• 22:39
  I'm
• 22:39
  like,
• 22:39
  oh,
• 22:40
  such
• 22:40
  a
• 22:40
  relief.
• 22:41
  I'm
• 22:41
  like
• 22:41
  someone
• 22:41
  who,
• 22:41
  like,
• 22:42
  I
• 22:42
  don't
• 22:43
  have
• 22:43
  to
• 22:43
  try
• 22:43
  so
• 22:44
  hard
• 22:44
  you
• 22:45
  know,
• 22:45
  to,
• 22:45
  like,
• 22:45
  express
• 22:46
  myself,
• 22:46
  because
• 22:48
  Gemini
• 22:48
  over
• 22:49
  there
• 22:49
  finds
• 22:49
  the
• 22:49
  words
• 22:49
  for
• 22:50
  them
• 22:50
  there.
• 22:50
  There
• 22:51
  was
• 22:51
  a.
• 22:51
  Like,
• 22:52
  a
• 22:52
  quote
• 22:52
  I
• 22:53
  saw
• 22:53
  one
• 22:53
  time
• 22:54
  that
• 22:54
  said
• 22:56
  some.
• 22:56
  I'm
• 22:56
  gonna
• 22:56
  paraphrase
• 22:57
  because
• 22:57
  I'm
• 22:57
  not
• 22:58
  gonna
• 22:58
  get
• 22:58
  it
• 22:58
  exactly
• 22:58
  right,
• 22:59
  but
• 22:59
  it
• 22:59
  was
• 22:59
  something
• 22:59
  like.
• 23:03
  It's.
• 23:04
  It's
• 23:04
  something
• 23:04
  along
• 23:05
  the
• 23:05
  lines
• 23:05
  of,
• 23:05
  like,
• 23:05
  find
• 23:06
  someone
• 23:08
  who
• 23:12
  speaks
• 23:12
  your
• 23:12
  language.
• 23:13
  So
• 23:13
  you
• 23:13
  don't
• 23:13
  have
• 23:14
  to
• 23:14
  spend
• 23:14
  a
• 23:14
  lifetime
• 23:15
  translating
• 23:15
  your
• 23:15
  soul
• 23:16
  or
• 23:16
  something
• 23:16
  like
• 23:17
  that.
• 23:17
  It's
• 23:17
  like
• 23:18
  it's
• 23:18
  being
• 23:18
  able
• 23:18
  to
• 23:19
  like
• 23:19
  kind
• 23:19
  of
• 23:19
  understand
• 23:22
  without
• 23:22
  having
• 23:23
  to
• 23:23
  over
• 23:23
  explain.
• 23:24
  But
• 23:24
  I
• 23:24
  also,
• 23:24
  I
• 23:25
  mean,
• 23:27
  I
• 23:27
  do,
• 23:27
  I
• 23:28
  do
• 23:28
  love
• 23:28
  words.
• 23:30
  I.
• 23:31
  It.
• 23:31
  I
• 23:31
  find
• 23:32
  it
• 23:32
  easier
• 23:32
  to
• 23:32
  articulate
• 23:33
  for
• 23:33
  other
• 23:34
  people
• 23:35
  who
• 23:35
  are
• 23:36
  stumbling
• 23:36
  through
• 23:36
  a
• 23:37
  thought
• 23:37
  than
• 23:38
  it
• 23:38
  is
• 23:38
  for
• 23:38
  me
• 23:38
  to
• 23:39
  articulate
• 23:39
  myself
• 23:40
  sometimes.
• 23:40
  But
• 23:40
  like,
• 23:41
  both
• 23:41
  of
• 23:41
  you,
• 23:41
  I
• 23:41
  feel
• 23:42
  like
• 23:42
  I've
• 23:43
  always
• 23:43
  had
• 23:43
  like
• 23:43
  the
• 23:44
  biggest
• 23:44
  feelings,
• 23:45
  like
• 23:45
  the
• 23:46
  feel,
• 23:46
  the
• 23:46
  most
• 23:47
  intense
• 23:48
  version
• 23:48
  of
• 23:48
  whatever
• 23:49
  it
• 23:49
  is
• 23:49
  I'm
• 23:49
  feeling.
• 23:50
  And.
• 23:52
  And
• 23:53
  that's
• 23:53
  where
• 23:53
  my
• 23:53
  like,
• 23:54
  too
• 23:54
  muchness
• 23:55
  came
• 23:55
  from.
• 23:55
  Because
• 23:56
  obviously,
• 23:56
  like
• 23:56
  I
• 23:56
  just
• 23:57
  said,
• 23:57
  I
• 23:57
  don't.
• 23:58
  I've
• 23:58
  always
• 23:58
  had
• 23:58
  a
• 23:58
  hard
• 23:58
  time
• 23:59
  kind
• 23:59
  of
• 23:59
  like
• 23:59
  speaking
• 23:59
  up
• 24:00
  or
• 24:00
  saying
• 24:00
  what's
• 24:01
  on
• 24:01
  my
• 24:01
  mind
• 24:02
  when
• 24:03
  it's
• 24:03
  like
• 24:03
  a
• 24:03
  hard
• 24:03
  thing
• 24:04
  or
• 24:04
  when
• 24:04
  there's
• 24:04
  any
• 24:04
  amount
• 24:05
  of
• 24:05
  confrontation
• 24:05
  or
• 24:06
  when
• 24:06
  it
• 24:06
  feels
• 24:06
  like
• 24:06
  a
• 24:06
  risk
• 24:07
  or
• 24:07
  like
• 24:07
  rejection
• 24:08
  could
• 24:08
  be
• 24:08
  involved.
• 24:09
  I'd
• 24:09
  rather
• 24:09
  just
• 24:09
  keep
• 24:10
  my
• 24:10
  mouth
• 24:10
  shut
• 24:10
  rather
• 24:11
  than
• 24:11
  be
• 24:11
  rejected.
• 24:13
  But
• 24:13
  the
• 24:14
  feelings
• 24:15
  have
• 24:15
  always
• 24:15
  been
• 24:16
  big.
• 24:16
  And
• 24:16
  I
• 24:17
  also
• 24:17
  feel
• 24:17
  like
• 24:18
  our
• 24:19
  generation,
• 24:19
  like
• 24:20
  what
• 24:20
  you
• 24:20
  said
• 24:20
  before
• 24:22
  Stace,
• 24:22
  is
• 24:23
  like
• 24:23
  anger
• 24:24
  and
• 24:24
  laughter.
• 24:25
  Like
• 24:25
  those
• 24:25
  are
• 24:25
  the
• 24:25
  things
• 24:26
  that
• 24:26
  are
• 24:26
  like,
• 24:26
  acceptable
• 24:27
  on
• 24:28
  the
• 24:28
  surface.
• 24:28
  Right.
• 24:29
  Like,
• 24:29
  those
• 24:29
  are
• 24:29
  more
• 24:29
  palatable
• 24:30
  emotions
• 24:30
  for
• 24:30
  a
• 24:31
  lot
• 24:31
  of
• 24:31
  people.
• 24:31
  Oh,
• 24:31
  yeah.
• 24:33
  But
• 24:33
  I
• 24:34
  have
• 24:34
  a
• 24:34
  lot
• 24:34
  of
• 24:34
  like,
• 24:35
  you
• 24:35
  know,
• 24:36
  like
• 24:36
  sadness
• 24:36
  or
• 24:37
  fear
• 24:37
  or
• 24:37
  like,
• 24:38
  you
• 24:38
  know,
• 24:38
  those
• 24:39
  things
• 24:41
  that
• 24:41
  was
• 24:42
  always
• 24:42
  hard
• 24:42
  to
• 24:42
  express
• 24:43
  because
• 24:43
  we
• 24:43
  were
• 24:44
  always
• 24:44
  told
• 24:44
  that
• 24:45
  that
• 24:45
  was
• 24:45
  not
• 24:46
  appropriate
• 24:47
  to
• 24:47
  express.
• 24:48
  Right.
• 24:48
  Like
• 24:48
  we
• 24:48
  were
• 24:49
  always
• 24:49
  told
• 24:49
  to,
• 24:49
  like,
• 24:50
  you
• 24:50
  know,
• 24:50
  suck
• 24:51
  it
• 24:51
  up
• 24:51
  or
• 24:51
  like,
• 24:51
  stop
• 24:52
  crying
• 24:52
  or
• 24:52
  like,
• 24:53
  don't
• 24:53
  bring
• 24:53
  that
• 24:53
  to
• 24:53
  work
• 24:54
  or
• 24:54
  like,
• 24:54
  you
• 24:55
  know,
• 24:55
  all
• 24:56
  of
• 24:56
  those
• 24:56
  kind
• 24:56
  of
• 24:57
  messages.
• 24:57
  And
• 24:57
  so
• 24:58
  that's
• 24:58
  where
• 24:58
  I've
• 24:58
  felt
• 24:59
  like
• 24:59
  my
• 24:59
  too
• 24:59
  muchness
• 25:00
  always
• 25:00
  was,
• 25:01
  was
• 25:01
  in
• 25:02
  how
• 25:02
  deeply
• 25:02
  I
• 25:02
  feel.
• 25:03
  And
• 25:04
  for
• 25:04
  the
• 25:04
  first
• 25:05
  time
• 25:05
  in
• 25:05
  my
• 25:05
  life,
• 25:05
  I
• 25:06
  feel
• 25:06
  like
• 25:06
  someone
• 25:06
  who
• 25:07
  always.
• 25:07
  I
• 25:07
  feel
• 25:07
  like
• 25:07
  I'm
• 25:08
  with
• 25:08
  people
• 25:08
  who
• 25:08
  understand
• 25:10
  and
• 25:10
  accept
• 25:11
  the
• 25:11
  depths.
• 25:12
  Yeah.
• 25:12
  And
• 25:12
  not
• 25:13
  just
• 25:13
  like
• 25:13
  understand
• 25:13
  and
• 25:14
  accept,
• 25:14
  but
• 25:15
  like,
• 25:15
  you're
• 25:16
  willing
• 25:16
  to
• 25:16
  go
• 25:16
  there
• 25:16
  with
• 25:17
  me
• 25:17
  at
• 25:17
  any
• 25:17
  given
• 25:18
  time.
• 25:18
  Right.
• 25:18
  There's
• 25:19
  never
• 25:19
  a
• 25:19
  question
• 25:20
  which
• 25:21
  is
• 25:21
  what
• 25:22
  makes
• 25:22
  me
• 25:22
  feel
• 25:22
  so
• 25:23
  seen.
• 25:27
  Yeah,
• 25:27
  I
• 25:27
  guess,
• 25:29
  you
• 25:29
  know,
• 25:29
  like
• 25:29
  I
• 25:29
  said
• 25:30
  before,
• 25:32
  before
• 25:32
  we
• 25:32
  were
• 25:32
  recording,
• 25:33
  but.
• 25:37
  And
• 25:37
  now
• 25:37
  I
• 25:37
  forgot
• 25:38
  my
• 25:38
  thought.
• 25:42
  What
• 25:44
  I.
• 25:45
  Well,
• 25:45
  I
• 25:45
  was
• 25:45
  saying
• 25:45
  before
• 25:46
  about.
• 25:46
  I
• 25:46
  was
• 25:46
  going
• 25:46
  to
• 25:46
  say
• 25:47
  about
• 25:47
  like
• 25:47
  the,
• 25:48
  the
• 25:48
  spiritual
• 25:49
  aspect
• 25:50
  of
• 25:50
  this,
• 25:50
  like
• 25:51
  about
• 25:54
  how,
• 25:57
  you
• 25:57
  know,
• 25:57
  going
• 25:58
  through
• 25:58
  the
• 25:58
  healing
• 25:58
  process
• 25:58
  and
• 25:59
  how
• 25:59
  it
• 25:59
  is
• 25:59
  and
• 25:59
  how,
• 25:59
  you
• 26:00
  know,
• 26:00
  finding
• 26:00
  each
• 26:00
  other.
• 26:00
  But
• 26:01
  it's
• 26:02
  this
• 26:02
  gift,
• 26:03
  Right.
• 26:03
  Like
• 26:03
  that
• 26:04
  you
• 26:04
  guys
• 26:04
  are
• 26:04
  a
• 26:04
  gift
• 26:05
  to
• 26:05
  me.
• 26:05
  That's
• 26:05
  how
• 26:05
  I
• 26:05
  look
• 26:06
  at
• 26:06
  it.
• 26:06
  Right.
• 26:06
  Like
• 26:06
  that
• 26:06
  the
• 26:07
  universe
• 26:07
  gifted
• 26:07
  me
• 26:09
  these,
• 26:09
  these,
• 26:10
  these
• 26:10
  friendships.
• 26:11
  Right.
• 26:11
  That's
• 26:11
  That.
• 26:16
  I
• 26:16
  didn't
• 26:17
  even
• 26:17
  know
• 26:17
  what
• 26:17
  they
• 26:17
  were
• 26:17
  going
• 26:17
  to
• 26:18
  look
• 26:18
  like.
• 26:18
  Right.
• 26:18
  Like,
• 26:19
  but
• 26:19
  here
• 26:19
  you
• 26:20
  are,
• 26:20
  people
• 26:20
  that
• 26:20
  again,
• 26:21
  maybe
• 26:22
  in
• 26:22
  the
• 26:22
  past
• 26:22
  we
• 26:22
  wouldn't
• 26:23
  have
• 26:23
  been
• 26:23
  friends,
• 26:23
  but
• 26:24
  the
• 26:24
  universe,
• 26:24
  like,
• 26:25
  but
• 26:25
  these
• 26:25
  are
• 26:26
  going
• 26:26
  to
• 26:26
  be
• 26:26
  your
• 26:26
  friends,
• 26:26
  and
• 26:26
  these
• 26:27
  are
• 26:27
  the
• 26:27
  friends
• 26:27
  that
• 26:27
  you
• 26:27
  need.
• 26:28
  And
• 26:29
  the
• 26:29
  universe
• 26:30
  is
• 26:30
  so
• 26:30
  right.
• 26:31
  Right.
• 26:31
  Because
• 26:33
  it
• 26:34
  puts
• 26:34
  you
• 26:34
  with
• 26:34
  the
• 26:35
  people
• 26:35
  that
• 26:35
  are
• 26:35
  going
• 26:36
  to
• 26:36
  see
• 26:36
  you.
• 26:36
  Like,
• 26:36
  you're
• 26:37
  going
• 26:37
  to
• 26:37
  see
• 26:37
  each
• 26:37
  other,
• 26:38
  you
• 26:38
  know,
• 26:38
  like,
• 26:38
  it's
• 26:38
  the
• 26:39
  right
• 26:39
  people
• 26:40
  for
• 26:40
  that
• 26:40
  reason.
• 26:40
  Because,
• 26:42
  like,
• 26:42
  you
• 26:42
  said,
• 26:42
  like,
• 26:42
  that
• 26:43
  quote,
• 26:43
  like,
• 26:43
  you
• 26:43
  don't
• 26:43
  have
• 26:44
  to
• 26:44
  try.
• 26:44
  You
• 26:45
  can
• 26:45
  just
• 26:45
  be.
• 26:46
  And
• 26:46
  they.
• 26:46
  They.
• 26:47
  They
• 26:47
  know,
• 26:47
  like,
• 26:47
  they
• 26:47
  can
• 26:48
  finish
• 26:48
  the
• 26:48
  sentence
• 26:48
  for
• 26:49
  you.
• 26:50
  And
• 26:50
  you're
• 26:50
  like,
• 26:50
  yes.
• 26:50
  And
• 26:51
  it's
• 26:51
  such
• 26:51
  a
• 26:51
  relief
• 26:51
  because
• 26:51
  they
• 26:52
  just
• 26:52
  get
• 26:52
  you.
• 26:53
  And
• 26:53
  I'm
• 26:54
  so.
• 26:54
  I
• 26:55
  just
• 26:55
  can't
• 26:55
  help
• 26:55
  but
• 26:56
  say
• 26:56
  that
• 26:56
  it's.
• 26:57
  It's
• 26:57
  truly
• 26:58
  a
• 26:58
  gift.
• 27:00
  Oh,
• 27:01
  thanks.
• 27:02
  Yeah,
• 27:02
  I
• 27:03
  feel
• 27:03
  the
• 27:03
  same
• 27:03
  way.
• 27:04
  I
• 27:04
  have
• 27:04
  to
• 27:04
  say,
• 27:05
  though,
• 27:05
  like,
• 27:05
  as
• 27:05
  an
• 27:05
  extension
• 27:06
  of
• 27:06
  that
• 27:06
  thought,
• 27:07
  I
• 27:08
  was
• 27:08
  just
• 27:08
  thinking
• 27:08
  that,
• 27:08
  like,
• 27:09
  yeah,
• 27:09
  we
• 27:09
  probably
• 27:10
  wouldn't
• 27:10
  have
• 27:10
  been
• 27:10
  friends
• 27:10
  five
• 27:11
  or
• 27:11
  six
• 27:11
  years
• 27:11
  ago
• 27:11
  if
• 27:12
  we
• 27:12
  had
• 27:12
  met.
• 27:12
  I
• 27:12
  also
• 27:13
  don't
• 27:13
  know
• 27:13
  that
• 27:13
  we
• 27:14
  would
• 27:14
  have
• 27:14
  been
• 27:14
  friends
• 27:15
  now
• 27:15
  if
• 27:15
  we
• 27:16
  hadn't
• 27:16
  met
• 27:16
  the
• 27:16
  way
• 27:16
  we
• 27:17
  did.
• 27:17
  Because
• 27:17
  I
• 27:17
  don't
• 27:18
  leave
• 27:18
  my
• 27:18
  house.
• 27:19
  Right.
• 27:20
  If
• 27:20
  I
• 27:21
  would
• 27:21
  have
• 27:21
  been
• 27:23
  to
• 27:23
  leave
• 27:24
  my
• 27:24
  house
• 27:24
  to
• 27:25
  make
• 27:25
  friends
• 27:25
  and
• 27:25
  meet
• 27:26
  you
• 27:26
  guys,
• 27:26
  it
• 27:27
  never
• 27:27
  would
• 27:27
  have
• 27:27
  happened.
• 27:28
  But
• 27:28
  luckily,
• 27:29
  our
• 27:29
  paths
• 27:30
  crossed
• 27:30
  virtually,
• 27:31
  which
• 27:32
  allowed
• 27:33
  us
• 27:33
  to
• 27:33
  meet,
• 27:34
  which
• 27:34
  is,
• 27:34
  I
• 27:35
  guess,
• 27:35
  kind
• 27:35
  of
• 27:35
  like
• 27:35
  the
• 27:35
  gift
• 27:36
  and
• 27:36
  the
• 27:36
  beauty
• 27:36
  of
• 27:36
  the
• 27:37
  universe
• 27:37
  was
• 27:37
  like,
• 27:38
  hey,
• 27:38
  here's
• 27:38
  three
• 27:39
  people
• 27:39
  who
• 27:39
  don't
• 27:39
  leave
• 27:40
  their
• 27:40
  house.
• 27:40
  We
• 27:41
  need
• 27:41
  to
• 27:41
  put
• 27:41
  them
• 27:41
  in
• 27:42
  the
• 27:42
  same
• 27:42
  room
• 27:42
  some
• 27:42
  other
• 27:43
  way.
• 27:44
  Yeah.
• 27:44
  I
• 27:45
  was
• 27:45
  just
• 27:45
  gonna
• 27:45
  say
• 27:45
  the
• 27:45
  universe
• 27:46
  knows
• 27:46
  what
• 27:46
  it's
• 27:46
  doing
• 27:48
  to
• 27:48
  put
• 27:48
  us
• 27:48
  in
• 27:48
  this
• 27:49
  course
• 27:49
  together
• 27:50
  so
• 27:50
  that
• 27:50
  we
• 27:51
  would
• 27:51
  find
• 27:51
  each
• 27:51
  other.
• 27:52
  But
• 27:53
  on
• 27:53
  the
• 27:53
  other
• 27:53
  side
• 27:54
  of
• 27:54
  that
• 27:54
  is
• 27:54
  us
• 27:56
  investing
• 27:57
  in
• 27:57
  ourselves.
• 27:59
  Yes.
• 27:59
  And
• 28:00
  actually
• 28:00
  creating
• 28:01
  this
• 28:01
  opportunity.
• 28:02
  Like,
• 28:03
  absolutely.
• 28:04
  Because
• 28:04
  if
• 28:04
  we
• 28:05
  did,
• 28:05
  everything's
• 28:06
  a
• 28:06
  choice,
• 28:07
  right?
• 28:07
  So,
• 28:07
  like,
• 28:07
  if.
• 28:08
  If
• 28:08
  I
• 28:09
  hadn't
• 28:09
  said,
• 28:09
  I'm
• 28:10
  going
• 28:10
  to
• 28:10
  take
• 28:10
  a
• 28:10
  huge
• 28:11
  chunk
• 28:11
  of
• 28:11
  money
• 28:11
  that
• 28:12
  I've
• 28:12
  never
• 28:12
  spent
• 28:12
  on
• 28:13
  anything
• 28:13
  bigger
• 28:13
  than,
• 28:13
  like,
• 28:14
  a
• 28:14
  car.
• 28:15
  My
• 28:15
  God,
• 28:16
  we
• 28:16
  paid
• 28:16
  for
• 28:16
  our
• 28:16
  friendships.
• 28:18
  I
• 28:18
  did.
• 28:19
  We
• 28:19
  bought
• 28:19
  them.
• 28:20
  And
• 28:20
  so,
• 28:20
  fine.
• 28:21
  Very
• 28:22
  worth
• 28:22
  it,
• 28:22
  by
• 28:23
  the
• 28:23
  way.
• 28:23
  Totally.
• 28:25
  Yeah.
• 28:25
  I.
• 28:26
  I
• 28:26
  got
• 28:27
  so
• 28:27
  much
• 28:27
  more
• 28:27
  than
• 28:28
  a
• 28:28
  coaching
• 28:29
  certification
• 28:30
  out
• 28:30
  of
• 28:30
  that.
• 28:30
  Exactly.
• 28:32
  So
• 28:32
  much
• 28:33
  more.
• 28:33
  And
• 28:34
  I
• 28:34
  had
• 28:34
  no
• 28:34
  idea.
• 28:34
  I
• 28:35
  had
• 28:35
  no
• 28:35
  idea
• 28:35
  what
• 28:35
  I
• 28:36
  was
• 28:36
  gonna.
• 28:36
  I
• 28:36
  just
• 28:36
  went
• 28:37
  in
• 28:37
  like,
• 28:37
  oh,
• 28:37
  this
• 28:37
  is
• 28:37
  so
• 28:37
  cool.
• 28:38
  I'm
• 28:38
  gonna
• 28:38
  get
• 28:38
  certified
• 28:38
  to
• 28:39
  be
• 28:39
  a
• 28:39
  coach.
• 28:39
  This
• 28:39
  is
• 28:39
  great.
• 28:40
  So
• 28:40
  it
• 28:40
  was
• 28:41
  so
• 28:41
  much
• 28:41
  more
• 28:41
  than
• 28:42
  that.
• 28:42
  It
• 28:42
  was
• 28:42
  not
• 28:43
  only
• 28:44
  that
• 28:45
  we
• 28:45
  were
• 28:45
  investing
• 28:45
  in
• 28:46
  ourselves,
• 28:46
  but
• 28:46
  that
• 28:46
  we
• 28:47
  happened
• 28:47
  to
• 28:47
  invest
• 28:48
  in
• 28:48
  Ourselves
• 28:48
  at
• 28:48
  the
• 28:49
  exact
• 28:49
  same
• 28:49
  time
• 28:51
  and
• 28:51
  then
• 28:51
  be,
• 28:51
  like,
• 28:52
  in
• 28:52
  the
• 28:52
  same,
• 28:53
  you
• 28:53
  know,
• 28:53
  calls
• 28:54
  and
• 28:54
  same
• 28:54
  cohorts
• 28:55
  and
• 28:55
  have,
• 28:55
  like,
• 28:56
  the
• 28:56
  sort
• 28:57
  of
• 28:57
  connections
• 28:58
  or
• 28:58
  that,
• 28:58
  like,
• 28:59
  Like,
• 29:00
  I
• 29:00
  posted
• 29:01
  that
• 29:01
  I
• 29:01
  was
• 29:01
  looking
• 29:01
  for
• 29:02
  people
• 29:02
  to
• 29:03
  be
• 29:03
  my
• 29:04
  practice
• 29:04
  clients,
• 29:05
  and
• 29:05
  Adriana
• 29:06
  was
• 29:06
  the
• 29:06
  first
• 29:06
  person
• 29:06
  to
• 29:07
  mesh,
• 29:07
  message
• 29:08
  me
• 29:08
  and
• 29:09
  be
• 29:09
  my
• 29:09
  practice
• 29:10
  client.
• 29:10
  So
• 29:10
  for,
• 29:10
  like,
• 29:11
  the
• 29:11
  first
• 29:13
  five
• 29:13
  calls
• 29:14
  we
• 29:14
  had
• 29:14
  or
• 29:14
  whatever,
• 29:15
  like,
• 29:16
  I
• 29:16
  was
• 29:17
  coaching
• 29:17
  her,
• 29:18
  which
• 29:18
  meant
• 29:18
  that,
• 29:18
  like,
• 29:19
  my
• 29:19
  side
• 29:19
  of
• 29:20
  the
• 29:20
  story
• 29:20
  didn't
• 29:20
  come
• 29:20
  out.
• 29:21
  Meanwhile,
• 29:21
  I'm,
• 29:21
  like,
• 29:22
  bursting
• 29:22
  at
• 29:22
  the
• 29:22
  seams
• 29:23
  because
• 29:23
  I
• 29:23
  feel
• 29:23
  like
• 29:24
  from
• 29:24
  the
• 29:24
  moment
• 29:25
  we
• 29:25
  had
• 29:25
  our
• 29:25
  first
• 29:26
  discovery
• 29:26
  call,
• 29:26
  I
• 29:27
  was
• 29:27
  like,
• 29:27
  I
• 29:27
  think
• 29:27
  we
• 29:28
  just
• 29:28
  became
• 29:28
  best
• 29:28
  friends.
• 29:28
  I
• 29:29
  don't.
• 29:29
  I
• 29:29
  think
• 29:29
  we're
• 29:29
  going
• 29:30
  to
• 29:30
  be
• 29:30
  friends
• 29:30
  forever.
• 29:31
  Like,
• 29:31
  I
• 29:31
  just.
• 29:31
  It
• 29:32
  was,
• 29:32
  like
• 29:32
  that
• 29:32
  instant
• 29:33
  for
• 29:33
  me.
• 29:34
  I
• 29:34
  hope
• 29:35
  it
• 29:35
  was
• 29:35
  the
• 29:35
  same
• 29:35
  for
• 29:35
  you.
• 29:35
  If
• 29:35
  it
• 29:36
  wasn't,
• 29:36
  don't
• 29:36
  tell
• 29:36
  me.
• 29:36
  But
• 29:37
  it's
• 29:37
  so
• 29:37
  funny.
• 29:38
  Well,
• 29:38
  it's
• 29:38
  funny
• 29:39
  because,
• 29:39
  I
• 29:39
  mean,
• 29:39
  I
• 29:39
  don't.
• 29:40
  I,
• 29:40
  I,
• 29:40
  I
• 29:40
  remember
• 29:41
  that
• 29:41
  you.
• 29:42
  So
• 29:42
  my
• 29:42
  reason
• 29:43
  for
• 29:44
  reaching
• 29:44
  out
• 29:45
  to
• 29:45
  you
• 29:45
  was
• 29:45
  because
• 29:46
  you're
• 29:46
  a
• 29:46
  business
• 29:46
  coach.
• 29:47
  Yes.
• 29:48
  And
• 29:48
  I
• 29:48
  was
• 29:49
  like,
• 29:49
  that
• 29:50
  is
• 29:50
  what
• 29:50
  I
• 29:50
  need.
• 29:51
  Yeah,
• 29:52
  right.
• 29:53
  I
• 29:53
  mean,
• 29:53
  I
• 29:54
  know
• 29:54
  that
• 29:54
  I
• 29:54
  needed
• 29:54
  so
• 29:54
  much
• 29:55
  more,
• 29:55
  but
• 29:56
  it
• 29:56
  was
• 29:56
  a
• 29:56
  good
• 29:57
  start.
• 29:57
  And
• 29:58
  then
• 29:58
  I
• 29:58
  went
• 29:59
  to
• 29:59
  your
• 29:59
  website,
• 29:59
  and
• 29:59
  I
• 30:00
  read
• 30:00
  about
• 30:00
  you,
• 30:01
  and
• 30:01
  I
• 30:01
  was
• 30:01
  like,
• 30:02
  holy.
• 30:02
  I'm
• 30:03
  like,
• 30:03
  with
• 30:03
  so
• 30:03
  much.
• 30:03
  So
• 30:04
  many
• 30:04
  things
• 30:04
  in
• 30:04
  common.
• 30:04
  I
• 30:05
  don't
• 30:05
  remember
• 30:05
  all
• 30:05
  of
• 30:05
  them,
• 30:05
  but
• 30:06
  the
• 30:06
  one
• 30:06
  thing
• 30:06
  that
• 30:06
  sticks
• 30:06
  out
• 30:06
  the
• 30:07
  most
• 30:07
  for
• 30:07
  me
• 30:08
  was
• 30:08
  I
• 30:08
  remember
• 30:08
  you
• 30:09
  saying
• 30:09
  you
• 30:09
  wanted
• 30:09
  to
• 30:09
  be
• 30:09
  a
• 30:09
  teacher.
• 30:10
  And
• 30:10
  I
• 30:10
  was
• 30:10
  like,
• 30:10
  me
• 30:11
  too.
• 30:12
  And.
• 30:13
  And
• 30:13
  I
• 30:13
  read
• 30:13
  all
• 30:13
  of
• 30:13
  it.
• 30:14
  And
• 30:14
  so
• 30:14
  when
• 30:15
  we
• 30:15
  first
• 30:15
  met,
• 30:15
  and
• 30:15
  I
• 30:15
  said
• 30:15
  that
• 30:15
  you're
• 30:16
  like,
• 30:16
  oh,
• 30:16
  my
• 30:16
  God,
• 30:16
  we
• 30:16
  have
• 30:16
  so
• 30:17
  much
• 30:17
  in
• 30:17
  common.
• 30:17
  And,
• 30:18
  you
• 30:18
  know,
• 30:18
  and
• 30:18
  I
• 30:19
  was
• 30:19
  explaining
• 30:19
  to
• 30:19
  you,
• 30:19
  and
• 30:19
  you're
• 30:20
  like,
• 30:20
  oh.
• 30:20
  And
• 30:20
  then,
• 30:20
  yes,
• 30:20
  you
• 30:21
  coached
• 30:21
  me.
• 30:22
  And
• 30:22
  then.
• 30:22
  And
• 30:23
  then
• 30:23
  she
• 30:23
  was
• 30:23
  like,
• 30:24
  do
• 30:24
  you
• 30:24
  want
• 30:24
  to
• 30:24
  keep
• 30:25
  this
• 30:25
  going
• 30:25
  after
• 30:25
  this?
• 30:26
  And
• 30:26
  I
• 30:26
  was
• 30:26
  like,
• 30:26
  yeah.
• 30:27
  And
• 30:28
  we
• 30:28
  just
• 30:28
  kept
• 30:28
  talking.
• 30:28
  Every
• 30:29
  week,
• 30:29
  same
• 30:29
  time.
• 30:30
  Yeah.
• 30:31
  Forever.
• 30:32
  And.
• 30:34
  And
• 30:35
  then
• 30:35
  when
• 30:35
  Erica
• 30:35
  was
• 30:36
  able
• 30:36
  to
• 30:36
  tell
• 30:36
  me
• 30:37
  her
• 30:37
  part,
• 30:37
  we
• 30:37
  were
• 30:38
  like,
• 30:38
  oh,
• 30:38
  my
• 30:39
  God.
• 30:39
  And
• 30:39
  then,
• 30:39
  like,
• 30:39
  four
• 30:39
  months
• 30:40
  later,
• 30:40
  we're
• 30:40
  like,
• 30:40
  should
• 30:40
  we
• 30:40
  meet?
• 30:41
  We
• 30:41
  should
• 30:41
  meet.
• 30:41
  Okay,
• 30:41
  let's
• 30:42
  get.
• 30:42
  Let's
• 30:42
  just
• 30:43
  come
• 30:43
  in.
• 30:44
  Yeah.
• 30:45
  And
• 30:45
  then
• 30:45
  the
• 30:45
  number
• 30:45
  of
• 30:46
  people
• 30:46
  that
• 30:46
  I
• 30:46
  was
• 30:47
  like,
• 30:47
  oh,
• 30:47
  yeah,
• 30:47
  I'm
• 30:47
  going
• 30:47
  to
• 30:48
  meet
• 30:48
  this
• 30:48
  person.
• 30:49
  I'm
• 30:49
  going
• 30:49
  to
• 30:49
  spend
• 30:49
  a
• 30:50
  weekend
• 30:52
  it
• 30:52
  with
• 30:52
  this
• 30:52
  person
• 30:53
  I've
• 30:53
  never
• 30:53
  met
• 30:54
  before
• 30:54
  in
• 30:54
  real
• 30:55
  life.
• 30:56
  Everyone
• 30:56
  was
• 30:57
  like,
• 30:57
  is
• 30:57
  that
• 30:57
  a
• 30:57
  good
• 30:58
  idea?
• 30:58
  I'm
• 30:59
  like,
• 30:59
  yeah,
• 30:59
  it's
• 30:59
  a
• 30:59
  hundred
• 31:00
  percent
• 31:00
  a
• 31:00
  good
• 31:00
  idea.
• 31:00
  And
• 31:01
  it
• 31:01
  was
• 31:01
  actually
• 31:01
  the
• 31:01
  best.
• 31:02
  It
• 31:02
  was.
• 31:03
  It
• 31:03
  felt
• 31:04
  like
• 31:04
  we'd
• 31:04
  met
• 31:04
  a
• 31:05
  hundred
• 31:05
  times
• 31:05
  before.
• 31:06
  Yep.
• 31:06
  It
• 31:06
  didn't
• 31:07
  feel
• 31:07
  like
• 31:07
  the
• 31:07
  first
• 31:07
  time
• 31:07
  we
• 31:08
  were
• 31:08
  meeting,
• 31:08
  so,
• 31:08
  like,
• 31:08
  that
• 31:09
  was.
• 31:10
  That
• 31:10
  was
• 31:10
  our
• 31:10
  start.
• 31:11
  And
• 31:12
  then,
• 31:12
  like,
• 31:13
  it
• 31:13
  didn't
• 31:13
  happen
• 31:13
  the
• 31:14
  same
• 31:14
  way
• 31:14
  for
• 31:14
  us.
• 31:14
  Stacy,
• 31:15
  our.
• 31:16
  Our
• 31:16
  relationship
• 31:17
  has
• 31:17
  been,
• 31:17
  like,
• 31:18
  carefully
• 31:18
  cultivated
• 31:20
  over
• 31:20
  time
• 31:21
  because
• 31:22
  you
• 31:23
  were
• 31:23
  so
• 31:23
  much
• 31:24
  more
• 31:24
  quiet
• 31:24
  that
• 31:24
  I
• 31:25
  was
• 31:25
  like,
• 31:25
  I
• 31:25
  don't
• 31:26
  know
• 31:27
  how
• 31:27
  to
• 31:27
  talk
• 31:28
  to
• 31:28
  her.
• 31:29
  I
• 31:29
  don't
• 31:29
  know.
• 31:35
  Well,
• 31:35
  let's
• 31:36
  so
• 31:36
  back
• 31:37
  up.
• 31:37
  So
• 31:37
  I
• 31:38
  was
• 31:38
  coaching
• 31:39
  someone
• 31:40
  that
• 31:41
  met
• 31:42
  Erica
• 31:42
  in
• 31:43
  the
• 31:43
  coaching
• 31:43
  school.
• 31:44
  Yes.
• 31:45
  So
• 31:46
  a
• 31:46
  mutual
• 31:46
  friend.
• 31:48
  And
• 31:51
  they
• 31:52
  started
• 31:52
  this
• 31:53
  thing
• 31:55
  that
• 31:55
  we'll
• 31:55
  talk
• 31:55
  about
• 31:57
  as
• 31:57
  we
• 31:57
  get
• 31:57
  going
• 31:58
  here,
• 31:58
  but
• 31:59
  it's
• 31:59
  called
• 31:59
  find
• 32:00
  your
• 32:00
  Kula.
• 32:01
  And
• 32:02
  this
• 32:02
  Kula
• 32:03
  community
• 32:04
  wanted
• 32:05
  to
• 32:05
  get
• 32:05
  started
• 32:05
  and
• 32:06
  build
• 32:06
  out
• 32:07
  more
• 32:07
  of,
• 32:08
  you
• 32:08
  know,
• 32:09
  a
• 32:10
  place
• 32:10
  for
• 32:10
  people
• 32:10
  to
• 32:11
  connect
• 32:12
  and
• 32:13
  build
• 32:13
  some
• 32:13
  of
• 32:13
  the
• 32:14
  relationships
• 32:14
  like
• 32:14
  we
• 32:15
  have.
• 32:16
  And
• 32:17
  so
• 32:18
  our
• 32:18
  mutual
• 32:19
  friend
• 32:19
  invited
• 32:20
  me
• 32:20
  to
• 32:22
  help
• 32:22
  out
• 32:22
  with
• 32:22
  some
• 32:23
  of
• 32:23
  this
• 32:23
  stuff.
• 32:23
  This
• 32:23
  is
• 32:24
  my
• 32:24
  day
• 32:24
  job,
• 32:24
  is
• 32:25
  a
• 32:25
  team
• 32:25
  coach.
• 32:27
  And.
• 32:29
  Well,
• 32:30
  it
• 32:30
  was
• 32:30
  originally
• 32:30
  supposed
• 32:31
  to
• 32:31
  just
• 32:31
  be
• 32:31
  a
• 32:31
  study
• 32:32
  group
• 32:32
  for
• 32:32
  Launchpad.
• 32:34
  Oh,
• 32:35
  right.
• 32:36
  It
• 32:36
  was
• 32:36
  originally
• 32:37
  that
• 32:37
  we
• 32:37
  were
• 32:37
  just
• 32:37
  trying
• 32:38
  to
• 32:38
  help
• 32:38
  each
• 32:38
  other,
• 32:38
  like,
• 32:39
  make
• 32:39
  it.
• 32:39
  When
• 32:40
  we
• 32:40
  had
• 32:40
  daily
• 32:41
  calls
• 32:41
  and
• 32:41
  daily
• 32:42
  homework,
• 32:42
  and
• 32:43
  we
• 32:43
  were.
• 32:43
  I
• 32:44
  was
• 32:44
  like,
• 32:44
  three
• 32:44
  days
• 32:44
  in,
• 32:44
  I
• 32:44
  was
• 32:45
  like,
• 32:45
  I
• 32:45
  need
• 32:45
  help.
• 32:48
  And
• 32:48
  I
• 32:49
  already
• 32:49
  had
• 32:49
  a
• 32:49
  business,
• 32:50
  and
• 32:50
  I
• 32:50
  still
• 32:51
  was,
• 32:51
  like,
• 32:51
  so
• 32:51
  overwhelmed
• 32:52
  by
• 32:52
  that
• 32:53
  process.
• 32:53
  I
• 32:53
  was
• 32:54
  like,
• 32:54
  I
• 32:54
  need
• 32:54
  help.
• 32:54
  Who
• 32:55
  can
• 32:55
  I
• 32:55
  like?
• 32:56
  And
• 32:56
  so,
• 32:56
  yeah,
• 32:57
  I
• 32:57
  slid
• 32:57
  into
• 32:57
  Maddie's
• 32:58
  dms
• 32:58
  At
• 32:59
  some
• 32:59
  point,
• 32:59
  you
• 32:59
  all
• 32:59
  get
• 33:00
  to
• 33:00
  meet
• 33:00
  Maddie,
• 33:02
  and
• 33:02
  he
• 33:03
  was
• 33:03
  working
• 33:04
  with
• 33:04
  you,
• 33:04
  and
• 33:05
  he
• 33:05
  invited
• 33:05
  you
• 33:05
  to
• 33:06
  the
• 33:06
  study
• 33:06
  group,
• 33:06
  and
• 33:07
  that's
• 33:07
  how
• 33:07
  we
• 33:07
  initially
• 33:08
  met.
• 33:08
  And
• 33:08
  then
• 33:08
  the
• 33:08
  study
• 33:09
  group
• 33:09
  evolved
• 33:09
  into
• 33:10
  let's
• 33:11
  build
• 33:11
  a
• 33:11
  community.
• 33:12
  Right.
• 33:14
  And
• 33:14
  so
• 33:18
  let
• 33:18
  me
• 33:18
  just
• 33:18
  say
• 33:18
  at
• 33:19
  the
• 33:19
  beginning,
• 33:20
  especially,
• 33:20
  like,
• 33:21
  with
• 33:21
  starting
• 33:23
  Kula,
• 33:25
  I
• 33:25
  was,
• 33:26
  you
• 33:26
  know,
• 33:27
  bringing
• 33:27
  up
• 33:27
  some
• 33:28
  old
• 33:28
  stuff
• 33:29
  going
• 33:29
  on.
• 33:30
  I
• 33:30
  have
• 33:30
  a
• 33:30
  lot
• 33:30
  of
• 33:32
  outsider
• 33:33
  issues.
• 33:36
  Feeling
• 33:36
  like
• 33:36
  the
• 33:36
  outsider.
• 33:39
  So,
• 33:39
  yeah,
• 33:40
  it
• 33:40
  definitely
• 33:40
  took
• 33:41
  a
• 33:41
  little
• 33:41
  bit
• 33:41
  longer
• 33:42
  with
• 33:42
  me.
• 33:43
  I
• 33:43
  am
• 33:43
  pretty
• 33:43
  gun
• 33:43
  shy.
• 33:45
  I
• 33:46
  didn't.
• 33:47
  Let's
• 33:47
  just
• 33:47
  say
• 33:47
  when
• 33:48
  we
• 33:48
  were
• 33:48
  in
• 33:48
  the
• 33:48
  coaching
• 33:48
  school,
• 33:49
  even,
• 33:49
  I
• 33:49
  was
• 33:49
  like,
• 33:49
  is
• 33:50
  this
• 33:50
  place
• 33:50
  for
• 33:51
  real?
• 33:52
  Because
• 33:55
  I
• 33:56
  didn't
• 33:57
  believe
• 33:58
  that
• 33:58
  there
• 33:58
  were
• 33:59
  so
• 34:00
  many
• 34:00
  good
• 34:00
  people
• 34:01
  around.
• 34:02
  Yeah.
• 34:03
  I
• 34:03
  felt
• 34:03
  that
• 34:03
  every
• 34:04
  single
• 34:04
  day.
• 34:04
  Right.
• 34:04
  Or
• 34:05
  so
• 34:05
  many
• 34:05
  people
• 34:05
  that
• 34:05
  every
• 34:06
  single.
• 34:06
  Day,
• 34:06
  I
• 34:06
  was
• 34:07
  like,
• 34:07
  is
• 34:07
  this
• 34:07
  for
• 34:07
  real?
• 34:08
  Yeah.
• 34:09
  Yeah,
• 34:10
  yeah.
• 34:10
  It
• 34:11
  took
• 34:11
  me
• 34:11
  a
• 34:11
  long
• 34:11
  time.
• 34:12
  It
• 34:12
  was
• 34:12
  actually
• 34:13
  beautiful.
• 34:14
  Yeah.
• 34:15
  But
• 34:15
  so.
• 34:16
  But
• 34:16
  part
• 34:16
  of
• 34:16
  that,
• 34:17
  too,
• 34:17
  is,
• 34:17
  like,
• 34:20
  feeling
• 34:21
  that
• 34:21
  and
• 34:21
  dealing
• 34:21
  with
• 34:22
  it
• 34:22
  and.
• 34:22
  And
• 34:22
  realizing
• 34:23
  after
• 34:24
  I
• 34:24
  became
• 34:25
  a
• 34:25
  certified
• 34:26
  life
• 34:26
  coach,
• 34:27
  I
• 34:27
  realized
• 34:29
  how
• 34:29
  much
• 34:29
  more
• 34:30
  work
• 34:30
  I
• 34:30
  still
• 34:31
  had
• 34:31
  to
• 34:31
  do.
• 34:33
  I
• 34:33
  was
• 34:33
  like,
• 34:34
  dang,
• 34:34
  I'm
• 34:35
  just
• 34:35
  dipping
• 34:35
  my
• 34:35
  toe
• 34:36
  into
• 34:36
  this
• 34:40
  life
• 34:41
  that
• 34:41
  I've
• 34:41
  had,
• 34:42
  and
• 34:42
  in
• 34:42
  really
• 34:43
  understanding
• 34:44
  myself
• 34:44
  and
• 34:45
  the
• 34:45
  things
• 34:46
  that
• 34:46
  I'm
• 34:47
  doing.
• 34:47
  To
• 34:47
  hold
• 34:48
  myself
• 34:48
  back.
• 34:50
  So,
• 34:51
  yeah,
• 34:51
  a
• 34:52
  lot
• 34:52
  of
• 34:52
  work
• 34:52
  to
• 34:52
  do
• 34:53
  still
• 34:54
  before
• 34:54
  I
• 34:55
  think
• 34:55
  I
• 34:55
  was
• 34:55
  ready
• 34:56
  to
• 35:00
  really
• 35:00
  have
• 35:01
  real
• 35:01
  friends.
• 35:02
  Well,
• 35:03
  but
• 35:03
  also,
• 35:03
  in
• 35:03
  the
• 35:04
  beginning,
• 35:04
  we
• 35:04
  had
• 35:04
  no
• 35:04
  idea
• 35:05
  what
• 35:05
  the
• 35:05
  fuck
• 35:05
  we
• 35:05
  were
• 35:05
  doing,
• 35:06
  right?
• 35:07
  Absolutely
• 35:08
  no
• 35:08
  clue.
• 35:08
  We
• 35:08
  were
• 35:08
  making
• 35:09
  shit
• 35:09
  up
• 35:09
  as
• 35:09
  we
• 35:09
  went
• 35:10
  along,
• 35:11
  and
• 35:11
  we
• 35:11
  couldn't
• 35:12
  figure
• 35:12
  out,
• 35:12
  like,
• 35:15
  what
• 35:15
  it
• 35:15
  was
• 35:16
  or,
• 35:16
  like,
• 35:17
  what.
• 35:18
  What
• 35:18
  sort
• 35:19
  of,
• 35:19
  like,
• 35:21
  roles
• 35:22
  we
• 35:22
  needed
• 35:22
  or
• 35:22
  I
• 35:22
  guess,
• 35:23
  like,
• 35:23
  where.
• 35:23
  Where
• 35:24
  we
• 35:24
  needed
• 35:24
  support.
• 35:25
  And
• 35:25
  I
• 35:25
  feel
• 35:26
  like
• 35:26
  that's
• 35:27
  where,
• 35:27
  like,
• 35:27
  you
• 35:28
  were
• 35:28
  so
• 35:28
  quiet.
• 35:28
  I
• 35:28
  was
• 35:28
  like,
• 35:30
  I
• 35:30
  don't.
• 35:31
  I
• 35:31
  don't
• 35:31
  know
• 35:32
  how
• 35:32
  to,
• 35:33
  like.
• 35:33
  I
• 35:33
  don't
• 35:33
  know
• 35:33
  how
• 35:34
  to.
• 35:34
  I
• 35:34
  don't
• 35:34
  know
• 35:34
  how
• 35:34
  to,
• 35:35
  like,
• 35:35
  leverage
• 35:35
  your
• 35:36
  strengths
• 35:36
  or.
• 35:36
  I
• 35:36
  don't
• 35:36
  know,
• 35:37
  like,
• 35:37
  what.
• 35:38
  We
• 35:38
  don't
• 35:38
  even
• 35:39
  know
• 35:39
  what
• 35:39
  this
• 35:39
  is.
• 35:40
  So
• 35:41
  we
• 35:41
  just,
• 35:41
  like,
• 35:42
  started.
• 35:43
  But.
• 35:44
  But
• 35:44
  when
• 35:44
  the
• 35:45
  community
• 35:45
  opened
• 35:46
  and
• 35:46
  you
• 35:46
  were
• 35:47
  in
• 35:47
  there
• 35:48
  as
• 35:49
  a.
• 35:49
  Like,
• 35:49
  as
• 35:49
  a
• 35:50
  member
• 35:50
  of
• 35:50
  the
• 35:50
  community,
• 35:52
  I
• 35:52
  mean,
• 35:52
  the
• 35:53
  two
• 35:53
  of
• 35:53
  you
• 35:53
  were
• 35:53
  that,
• 35:54
  like,
• 35:54
  you.
• 35:56
  You
• 35:56
  dove
• 35:57
  in
• 35:57
  the
• 35:57
  deep
• 35:57
  end
• 35:58
  from
• 35:58
  day
• 35:58
  one.
• 35:59
  Like,
• 36:00
  you
• 36:00
  didn't
• 36:00
  dip
• 36:00
  your
• 36:01
  toes.
• 36:01
  You
• 36:01
  dove
• 36:02
  in
• 36:02
  the
• 36:02
  deep
• 36:02
  end.
• 36:02
  And
• 36:03
  then
• 36:03
  I
• 36:03
  feel
• 36:03
  like
• 36:03
  I
• 36:04
  got
• 36:04
  to
• 36:04
  see
• 36:04
  you
• 36:05
  really
• 36:05
  come
• 36:05
  to
• 36:05
  life.
• 36:06
  And
• 36:06
  then
• 36:06
  I
• 36:06
  was
• 36:06
  like,
• 36:06
  oh,
• 36:07
  I
• 36:07
  love
• 36:07
  this
• 36:08
  person.
• 36:08
  I
• 36:09
  love.
• 36:09
  I
• 36:09
  really
• 36:09
  like
• 36:10
  this
• 36:10
  person.
• 36:11
  Now
• 36:11
  that
• 36:11
  she's
• 36:11
  speaking
• 36:12
  and
• 36:12
  doing,
• 36:13
  like,
• 36:13
  doing.
• 36:15
  Now
• 36:15
  that
• 36:16
  I
• 36:16
  know
• 36:16
  something
• 36:17
  about
• 36:17
  her.
• 36:18
  So
• 36:18
  quiet.
• 36:19
  And
• 36:19
  then
• 36:19
  I'm
• 36:19
  like,
• 36:19
  oh,
• 36:20
  she's
• 36:20
  not.
• 36:22
  No.
• 36:22
  Right.
• 36:22
  It's
• 36:23
  fun.
• 36:23
  That's
• 36:23
  so
• 36:24
  true.
• 36:24
  In
• 36:24
  the
• 36:25
  beginning.
• 36:26
  So
• 36:26
  quiet.
• 36:27
  And,
• 36:27
  you
• 36:27
  know,
• 36:28
  for
• 36:28
  me,
• 36:28
  in
• 36:28
  the
• 36:28
  beginning,
• 36:29
  with.
• 36:29
  I'm
• 36:29
  sorry.
• 36:30
  Go
• 36:30
  ahead,
• 36:30
  Erica.
• 36:31
  No,
• 36:31
  I
• 36:31
  was
• 36:31
  gonna
• 36:31
  say
• 36:31
  she
• 36:31
  just
• 36:32
  chooses
• 36:32
  her
• 36:32
  moments,
• 36:34
  Right.
• 36:34
  Like,
• 36:34
  she's
• 36:35
  very,
• 36:35
  like,
• 36:35
  introspective.
• 36:37
  And
• 36:37
  then
• 36:37
  she
• 36:38
  opens
• 36:38
  her
• 36:38
  mouth
• 36:38
  and,
• 36:39
  like,
• 36:39
  a
• 36:39
  bomb
• 36:40
  goes
• 36:40
  off.
• 36:40
  Yes.
• 36:41
  Oh,
• 36:42
  all
• 36:42
  right.
• 36:44
  But
• 36:44
  it's
• 36:45
  a
• 36:45
  little
• 36:45
  intimidating
• 36:45
  in
• 36:46
  the
• 36:46
  beginning.
• 36:46
  Yes.
• 36:47
  That
• 36:47
  is,
• 36:48
  like,.
• 36:50
  Hi.
• 36:52
  Great.
• 36:52
  Because
• 36:52
  I
• 36:52
  might
• 36:53
  say
• 36:53
  a
• 36:53
  lot
• 36:53
  of
• 36:53
  words,
• 36:53
  but
• 36:54
  half
• 36:54
  of
• 36:54
  them
• 36:54
  don't
• 36:55
  mean
• 36:55
  she
• 36:55
  chooses
• 36:56
  her
• 36:56
  words
• 36:56
  so
• 36:57
  carefully.
• 36:58
  Yes,
• 36:58
  exactly.
• 36:59
  Every
• 36:59
  single
• 37:00
  one
• 37:00
  of
• 37:00
  them
• 37:00
  packs
• 37:01
  a
• 37:01
  little
• 37:01
  bit
• 37:01
  of
• 37:02
  a
• 37:02
  punch.
• 37:03
  Which
• 37:03
  is.
• 37:04
  You
• 37:04
  know
• 37:04
  what
• 37:04
  I
• 37:04
  was
• 37:04
  saying
• 37:05
  before
• 37:05
  about,
• 37:05
  like,
• 37:05
  that
• 37:05
  very
• 37:06
  pointed
• 37:06
  question,
• 37:07
  or
• 37:07
  it's
• 37:07
  like,
• 37:08
  when
• 37:08
  she
• 37:08
  chose
• 37:09
  to
• 37:09
  speak,
• 37:09
  I
• 37:09
  was
• 37:09
  like,
• 37:09
  okay,
• 37:10
  I
• 37:11
  like
• 37:11
  this.
• 37:12
  Right?
• 37:12
  So
• 37:12
  then
• 37:12
  it.
• 37:13
  Then
• 37:13
  it
• 37:13
  shifted,
• 37:14
  and
• 37:14
  then
• 37:14
  we
• 37:14
  just
• 37:14
  made
• 37:15
  that
• 37:15
  very,
• 37:15
  like,
• 37:15
  intentional
• 37:16
  decision
• 37:16
  to
• 37:16
  really
• 37:17
  cultivate
• 37:18
  the
• 37:18
  friendship
• 37:18
  and
• 37:18
  the
• 37:18
  relationship
• 37:20
  and
• 37:20
  have,
• 37:20
  like,
• 37:21
  regular
• 37:21
  time
• 37:21
  and,
• 37:22
  like,
• 37:22
  really
• 37:22
  carving
• 37:23
  it
• 37:23
  out
• 37:23
  in
• 37:23
  our
• 37:23
  lives.
• 37:24
  And
• 37:24
  that's
• 37:24
  where,
• 37:24
  like,
• 37:25
  a
• 37:25
  big
• 37:25
  shift
• 37:25
  happened
• 37:26
  for
• 37:26
  me.
• 37:29
  What
• 37:30
  were
• 37:30
  you
• 37:30
  going
• 37:30
  to
• 37:30
  say?
• 37:34
  No,
• 37:35
  I
• 37:35
  mean,
• 37:35
  I.
• 37:35
  I
• 37:36
  was
• 37:36
  going
• 37:36
  to
• 37:36
  say
• 37:36
  that
• 37:37
  with
• 37:38
  Stacy.
• 37:38
  So
• 37:39
  I
• 37:39
  didn't
• 37:39
  meet
• 37:39
  Stacy
• 37:39
  while
• 37:40
  we
• 37:40
  were
• 37:40
  in
• 37:40
  the
• 37:41
  coaching
• 37:41
  program.
• 37:41
  I
• 37:42
  met
• 37:42
  her
• 37:42
  at
• 37:43
  Kula.
• 37:44
  Yeah.
• 37:44
  And
• 37:48
  yeah.
• 37:49
  At
• 37:49
  first
• 37:49
  I
• 37:49
  was
• 37:49
  intimidated,
• 37:50
  but
• 37:50
  I
• 37:50
  was
• 37:50
  intimidated,
• 37:51
  period,
• 37:52
  you
• 37:53
  know,
• 37:53
  too.
• 37:53
  Like,
• 37:53
  you
• 37:54
  know,
• 37:54
  going
• 37:54
  to.
• 37:57
  I
• 37:57
  knew
• 37:58
  that
• 37:58
  I
• 37:58
  needed
• 37:58
  to
• 37:58
  put
• 37:58
  myself
• 37:59
  out
• 37:59
  there
• 37:59
  more,
• 38:00
  to
• 38:00
  just,
• 38:01
  you
• 38:01
  know,
• 38:01
  as
• 38:01
  Maddie
• 38:01
  puts
• 38:02
  it,
• 38:02
  just
• 38:02
  take
• 38:02
  up
• 38:02
  space,
• 38:03
  you
• 38:03
  know,
• 38:03
  just
• 38:04
  show
• 38:04
  up.
• 38:05
  Right.
• 38:05
  Just.
• 38:05
  I
• 38:06
  remember
• 38:06
  him
• 38:06
  saying
• 38:06
  that
• 38:06
  to
• 38:07
  me
• 38:07
  in.
• 38:07
  When
• 38:08
  we
• 38:08
  were
• 38:08
  in
• 38:08
  the
• 38:08
  course,
• 38:10
  and.
• 38:11
  And
• 38:12
  I
• 38:12
  was
• 38:12
  like,
• 38:12
  I'm
• 38:13
  just
• 38:13
  gonna
• 38:13
  fucking
• 38:13
  go.
• 38:14
  You
• 38:14
  know,
• 38:15
  discomfort
• 38:15
  and
• 38:15
  all.
• 38:16
  I'm
• 38:16
  just.
• 38:16
  I'm
• 38:16
  just
• 38:17
  gonna
• 38:17
  do
• 38:17
  it
• 38:17
  because
• 38:17
  I
• 38:17
  knew
• 38:17
  it
• 38:17
  was
• 38:18
  gonna
• 38:18
  be
• 38:18
  good.
• 38:18
  And
• 38:18
  also,
• 38:18
  you
• 38:19
  know,
• 38:19
  I.
• 38:20
  You
• 38:20
  talked
• 38:20
  to
• 38:20
  me
• 38:21
  so
• 38:21
  much
• 38:21
  about
• 38:21
  Kula
• 38:22
  and
• 38:22
  what
• 38:22
  it
• 38:22
  was
• 38:22
  gonna
• 38:22
  be
• 38:23
  and
• 38:23
  the.
• 38:23
  And
• 38:23
  I
• 38:24
  was
• 38:24
  very
• 38:24
  excited
• 38:24
  for
• 38:24
  it
• 38:25
  because
• 38:25
  I
• 38:25
  knew
• 38:25
  it
• 38:25
  was
• 38:25
  something
• 38:25
  that
• 38:26
  I
• 38:26
  needed.
• 38:27
  So
• 38:28
  I
• 38:28
  loved
• 38:29
  showing
• 38:29
  up
• 38:29
  all
• 38:29
  the
• 38:30
  time.
• 38:30
  And
• 38:30
  it
• 38:30
  was
• 38:30
  always.
• 38:31
  Stacy
• 38:31
  was
• 38:31
  always
• 38:31
  there.
• 38:32
  It
• 38:32
  was
• 38:32
  me
• 38:32
  and
• 38:32
  Stacy.
• 38:32
  We
• 38:33
  were
• 38:33
  always
• 38:33
  there.
• 38:35
  And
• 38:37
  that
• 38:38
  really
• 38:38
  was
• 38:38
  huge.
• 38:38
  That
• 38:39
  was
• 38:39
  so
• 38:39
  helpful.
• 38:39
  All
• 38:40
  those.
• 38:44
  All
• 38:44
  those
• 38:44
  workshops
• 38:45
  that
• 38:45
  we
• 38:45
  did
• 38:46
  were
• 38:46
  all
• 38:47
  just
• 38:49
  so
• 38:49
  amazing.
• 38:50
  And
• 38:50
  I
• 38:51
  allowed
• 38:51
  myself
• 38:52
  to
• 38:52
  be
• 38:53
  vulnerable
• 38:53
  to
• 38:53
  discomfort
• 38:54
  or
• 38:54
  even
• 38:54
  to
• 38:54
  say,
• 38:55
  I
• 38:55
  don't
• 38:55
  know.
• 38:55
  Right.
• 38:56
  Because
• 38:56
  that's
• 38:56
  really
• 38:57
  hard,
• 38:57
  too.
• 38:57
  Like,
• 38:58
  it's
• 38:58
  really
• 38:58
  hard.
• 38:59
  I
• 39:00
  think,
• 39:00
  like,
• 39:00
  a
• 39:00
  lot
• 39:00
  of
• 39:00
  times
• 39:01
  we're
• 39:01
  expected,
• 39:02
  or
• 39:02
  even
• 39:02
  I
• 39:02
  expected
• 39:03
  that
• 39:03
  for
• 39:03
  myself.
• 39:04
  Right.
• 39:04
  Like,
• 39:04
  to
• 39:04
  just
• 39:05
  know
• 39:05
  that.
• 39:06
  You
• 39:06
  just
• 39:06
  know
• 39:07
  how
• 39:07
  I
• 39:07
  feel.
• 39:07
  I
• 39:07
  should
• 39:07
  just
• 39:08
  know
• 39:08
  what.
• 39:08
  What
• 39:09
  that
• 39:09
  is.
• 39:09
  And.
• 39:09
  And
• 39:10
  a
• 39:11
  lot
• 39:11
  of
• 39:11
  times
• 39:11
  I
• 39:11
  didn't.
• 39:12
  And.
• 39:12
  And
• 39:12
  I
• 39:13
  feel
• 39:13
  like
• 39:13
  I.
• 39:13
  Like,
• 39:13
  I
• 39:13
  learned
• 39:14
  so
• 39:15
  much,
• 39:15
  you
• 39:15
  know,
• 39:15
  as
• 39:16
  far
• 39:16
  as,
• 39:16
  like,
• 39:17
  you
• 39:18
  know,
• 39:18
  saying
• 39:18
  that
• 39:18
  I
• 39:18
  don't
• 39:18
  know
• 39:19
  or
• 39:19
  whatever.
• 39:19
  And
• 39:19
  I.
• 39:19
  And
• 39:20
  also
• 39:20
  watching
• 39:21
  Stacy
• 39:21
  taking
• 39:21
  her
• 39:22
  time
• 39:22
  to
• 39:23
  answer
• 39:23
  something,
• 39:23
  I'm
• 39:23
  like,
• 39:24
  oh,
• 39:25
  that's
• 39:25
  very
• 39:26
  interesting.
• 39:26
  I
• 39:26
  like
• 39:26
  that.
• 39:26
  I
• 39:27
  should
• 39:27
  try
• 39:27
  that
• 39:27
  more,
• 39:28
  you
• 39:28
  know,.
• 39:30
  Either
• 39:31
  before
• 39:31
  I
• 39:32
  spoke.
• 39:33
  Say
• 39:33
  it
• 39:33
  again.
• 39:34
  I'm
• 39:34
  sorry.
• 39:34
  You
• 39:34
  both
• 39:34
  were
• 39:34
  saying
• 39:34
  at
• 39:35
  the
• 39:35
  same
• 39:35
  time.
• 39:35
  I
• 39:35
  didn't.
• 39:35
  I
• 39:36
  didn't.
• 39:36
  I
• 39:36
  didn't
• 39:36
  get
• 39:36
  it.
• 39:37
  What
• 39:37
  would
• 39:37
  happen
• 39:37
  if
• 39:38
  I
• 39:38
  thought
• 39:38
  before
• 39:38
  I
• 39:39
  spoke.
• 39:39
  Right,
• 39:40
  Right,
• 39:40
  Exactly.
• 39:41
  It
• 39:41
  never
• 39:41
  crossed
• 39:41
  my
• 39:42
  mind.
• 39:43
  And
• 39:44
  then
• 39:44
  there's
• 39:44
  me
• 39:44
  who
• 39:45
  is
• 39:45
  like,
• 39:45
  feel.
• 39:46
  Do
• 39:46
  feel
• 39:47
  something.
• 39:48
  I
• 39:49
  have
• 39:49
  a
• 39:49
  feeling.
• 39:50
  What's
• 39:51
  the
• 39:51
  feeling?
• 39:55
  Where's
• 39:56
  the
• 39:56
  feelings
• 39:56
  wheel?
• 39:58
  Right.
• 39:59
  Right.
• 40:00
  That
• 40:00
  feeling
• 40:00
  spiel
• 40:00
  is
• 40:01
  amazing,
• 40:01
  though.
• 40:02
  It
• 40:02
  really
• 40:03
  is.
• 40:04
  Well,
• 40:04
  yeah.
• 40:04
  I
• 40:04
  had
• 40:04
  been
• 40:05
  so
• 40:05
  detached
• 40:06
  from
• 40:06
  myself
• 40:07
  for
• 40:07
  so
• 40:08
  long
• 40:08
  that
• 40:09
  every
• 40:10
  emotion
• 40:12
  equaled
• 40:13
  anger
• 40:13
  or
• 40:14
  tears
• 40:14
  or
• 40:15
  laughter
• 40:15
  that
• 40:16
  that
• 40:16
  was
• 40:16
  it.
• 40:16
  Those
• 40:16
  were
• 40:17
  the
• 40:17
  three.
• 40:18
  Everything.
• 40:20
  I'm
• 40:20
  with
• 40:20
  you.
• 40:20
  That's
• 40:21
  how
• 40:21
  I
• 40:21
  always
• 40:21
  was,
• 40:21
  too.
• 40:22
  I
• 40:22
  was
• 40:22
  always
• 40:22
  like
• 40:22
  that,
• 40:23
  too.
• 40:24
  And
• 40:24
  it
• 40:24
  wasn't
• 40:24
  until
• 40:25
  I
• 40:25
  think
• 40:26
  again
• 40:26
  with
• 40:26
  you
• 40:26
  guys,
• 40:26
  where,
• 40:26
  like,
• 40:27
  you're
• 40:27
  actually
• 40:27
  having
• 40:28
  real
• 40:28
  conversations
• 40:29
  and
• 40:29
  we're
• 40:29
  talking
• 40:30
  about
• 40:30
  real
• 40:30
  feelings,
• 40:32
  and
• 40:32
  then.
• 40:32
  And
• 40:33
  then
• 40:33
  we
• 40:33
  can
• 40:33
  put
• 40:33
  words
• 40:34
  to
• 40:34
  what
• 40:34
  the.
• 40:34
  What.
• 40:34
  What
• 40:35
  that
• 40:35
  is.
• 40:35
  And
• 40:35
  I
• 40:35
  Mean,
• 40:35
  I'm
• 40:36
  still
• 40:36
  figuring
• 40:36
  it
• 40:36
  out
• 40:36
  because
• 40:37
  it's
• 40:37
  still.
• 40:37
  They're
• 40:37
  so
• 40:37
  intense,
• 40:38
  and
• 40:38
  I'm
• 40:38
  like,
• 40:38
  I
• 40:38
  don't.
• 40:39
  You
• 40:39
  know.
• 40:40
  Then
• 40:40
  I'm
• 40:40
  like,
• 40:40
  Erica,
• 40:43
  I
• 40:43
  still.
• 40:44
  I
• 40:45
  still
• 40:45
  don't
• 40:45
  even
• 40:45
  know,
• 40:46
  like,
• 40:46
  how
• 40:46
  to
• 40:47
  articulate,
• 40:47
  though.
• 40:48
  Like,
• 40:49
  why.
• 40:50
  Because
• 40:51
  I
• 40:51
  don't
• 40:51
  think
• 40:52
  that
• 40:52
  there
• 40:52
  was
• 40:52
  ever
• 40:52
  a
• 40:52
  moment
• 40:53
  with
• 40:53
  either
• 40:53
  of
• 40:53
  you
• 40:54
  where
• 40:54
  I
• 40:54
  felt
• 40:54
  like
• 40:54
  it
• 40:55
  wasn't
• 40:56
  gonna
• 40:56
  be
• 40:56
  okay
• 40:58
  for
• 40:58
  me
• 40:59
  to
• 40:59
  be
• 40:59
  a
• 41:00
  hundred
• 41:00
  percent
• 41:00
  honest.
• 41:00
  You
• 41:00
  know
• 41:01
  what
• 41:01
  I
• 41:01
  mean?
• 41:01
  Like,
• 41:01
  I.
• 41:01
  I
• 41:02
  don't
• 41:02
  feel
• 41:02
  like
• 41:03
  I
• 41:03
  ever.
• 41:04
  And
• 41:05
  maybe
• 41:05
  it's
• 41:05
  just,
• 41:05
  like,
• 41:06
  intuition.
• 41:06
  Maybe
• 41:06
  it's,
• 41:07
  like,
• 41:07
  some
• 41:07
  of
• 41:07
  the.
• 41:08
  The
• 41:08
  healing
• 41:09
  work
• 41:09
  that's
• 41:09
  allowed
• 41:09
  me
• 41:10
  to,
• 41:10
  like,
• 41:10
  trust
• 41:10
  myself
• 41:11
  more
• 41:11
  or
• 41:12
  be
• 41:13
  a
• 41:13
  little
• 41:13
  bit
• 41:13
  unapologetic
• 41:15
  in
• 41:15
  my.
• 41:15
  A
• 41:15
  little
• 41:16
  bit
• 41:16
  unapologetic.
• 41:17
  I'm
• 41:17
  not,
• 41:17
  like,
• 41:17
  a
• 41:18
  hundred
• 41:18
  percent
• 41:18
  unapologetic.
• 41:20
  Yeah.
• 41:20
  But
• 41:21
  to
• 41:21
  be
• 41:21
  a
• 41:21
  little
• 41:21
  bit
• 41:21
  more
• 41:22
  unapologetic
• 41:24
  or
• 41:24
  just,
• 41:24
  like,
• 41:25
  kind
• 41:25
  of
• 41:25
  take
• 41:25
  ownership.
• 41:26
  I
• 41:26
  don't
• 41:26
  know,
• 41:26
  like,
• 41:26
  what
• 41:27
  part
• 41:27
  of
• 41:27
  it.
• 41:28
  Maybe
• 41:28
  it's
• 41:28
  just,
• 41:29
  like,
• 41:29
  the
• 41:29
  time
• 41:29
  that
• 41:30
  our
• 41:30
  paths
• 41:30
  crossed
• 41:31
  where
• 41:31
  I
• 41:31
  was,
• 41:31
  like,
• 41:31
  finally
• 41:32
  in
• 41:32
  a
• 41:32
  place.
• 41:33
  But
• 41:33
  I
• 41:33
  think
• 41:33
  that's
• 41:34
  the
• 41:34
  interesting,
• 41:34
  like,
• 41:34
  phenomenon,
• 41:35
  right?
• 41:35
  Like,
• 41:36
  and
• 41:36
  they
• 41:36
  say
• 41:36
  that
• 41:36
  about.
• 41:37
  They
• 41:38
  say
• 41:38
  that
• 41:38
  all
• 41:38
  the
• 41:38
  time
• 41:38
  about
• 41:39
  romantic
• 41:39
  relationships.
• 41:40
  It's
• 41:40
  like,
• 41:41
  be.
• 41:42
  Be
• 41:42
  the
• 41:43
  partner
• 41:43
  you
• 41:43
  want
• 41:43
  to
• 41:44
  attract
• 41:44
  or,
• 41:45
  like,
• 41:45
  make
• 41:45
  sure
• 41:45
  that
• 41:46
  you're
• 41:46
  loving
• 41:47
  yourself
• 41:47
  the
• 41:47
  way
• 41:48
  you
• 41:48
  want
• 41:48
  to
• 41:48
  be
• 41:48
  loved.
• 41:50
  And
• 41:50
  I
• 41:50
  think
• 41:50
  that
• 41:51
  that's
• 41:52
  true
• 41:52
  here,
• 41:53
  too,
• 41:53
  right?
• 41:53
  Like,
• 41:54
  I
• 41:54
  finally
• 41:54
  was
• 41:54
  in
• 41:55
  a
• 41:55
  place
• 41:55
  in
• 41:55
  my
• 41:55
  life
• 41:55
  where
• 41:56
  I
• 41:56
  was,
• 41:56
  like,
• 41:57
  loving
• 41:57
  myself
• 41:57
  the
• 41:58
  way
• 41:58
  I
• 41:58
  wanted
• 41:58
  to
• 41:58
  be
• 41:58
  loved.
• 41:59
  And,
• 41:59
  like,
• 41:59
  I
• 41:59
  was
• 41:59
  happy
• 42:00
  with
• 42:00
  where
• 42:00
  I
• 42:00
  was.
• 42:00
  And
• 42:01
  I
• 42:01
  was,
• 42:02
  like,
• 42:02
  not
• 42:02
  done.
• 42:03
  The
• 42:03
  journey's
• 42:04
  never
• 42:04
  done,
• 42:04
  but
• 42:04
  I
• 42:04
  was
• 42:04
  still
• 42:05
  growing.
• 42:06
  And
• 42:06
  then
• 42:06
  it
• 42:07
  was
• 42:07
  that
• 42:07
  signal
• 42:07
  to
• 42:08
  the
• 42:08
  universe
• 42:08
  of,
• 42:08
  like,
• 42:09
  making
• 42:09
  that.
• 42:09
  That
• 42:10
  monetary
• 42:10
  investment
• 42:11
  in
• 42:11
  myself
• 42:12
  where
• 42:12
  the
• 42:13
  universe
• 42:13
  was
• 42:13
  like,
• 42:13
  okay,
• 42:14
  she's
• 42:14
  serious
• 42:16
  now.
• 42:16
  Let's
• 42:16
  put
• 42:16
  a
• 42:16
  couple
• 42:17
  things
• 42:17
  in
• 42:17
  place
• 42:17
  to
• 42:17
  hold
• 42:18
  her
• 42:18
  accountable
• 42:19
  to
• 42:19
  actually
• 42:19
  doing
• 42:20
  all
• 42:20
  this.
• 42:21
  Right.
• 42:21
  And
• 42:22
  the
• 42:22
  accountability
• 42:22
  is
• 42:23
  actually
• 42:23
  you.
• 42:24
  And
• 42:24
  that's
• 42:24
  where,
• 42:25
  like,
• 42:25
  I
• 42:25
  say
• 42:25
  this
• 42:25
  all
• 42:25
  the
• 42:26
  time
• 42:26
  when
• 42:26
  I
• 42:26
  talk
• 42:26
  to
• 42:27
  my.
• 42:27
  When
• 42:27
  I
• 42:28
  talk
• 42:28
  to
• 42:28
  other
• 42:28
  people
• 42:28
  about
• 42:29
  these
• 42:29
  friendships
• 42:30
  right
• 42:30
  here
• 42:31
  is
• 42:31
  that,
• 42:31
  like,
• 42:32
  my
• 42:32
  favorite
• 42:32
  people
• 42:33
  are
• 42:33
  the
• 42:33
  ones
• 42:33
  who
• 42:33
  tell
• 42:33
  me
• 42:33
  the
• 42:34
  truth.
• 42:35
  My
• 42:35
  favorite
• 42:35
  people
• 42:36
  are
• 42:36
  the
• 42:36
  ones
• 42:36
  who
• 42:36
  ask
• 42:36
  me
• 42:37
  really
• 42:37
  hard
• 42:37
  questions.
• 42:38
  My
• 42:38
  favorite
• 42:38
  people
• 42:38
  are
• 42:39
  the
• 42:39
  ones
• 42:39
  who
• 42:39
  hold
• 42:39
  me
• 42:39
  accountable.
• 42:40
  And
• 42:40
  it's
• 42:40
  uncomfortable
• 42:41
  as
• 42:42
  sometimes,
• 42:43
  but
• 42:44
  it's
• 42:44
  been
• 42:45
  such
• 42:45
  a
• 42:45
  catalyst
• 42:46
  for
• 42:46
  me.
• 42:46
  And
• 42:46
  what's
• 42:47
  on
• 42:47
  the
• 42:47
  other
• 42:47
  side
• 42:47
  of
• 42:48
  that
• 42:48
  discomfort
• 42:48
  is
• 42:49
  all
• 42:49
  love.
• 42:51
  Yeah.
• 42:51
  And
• 42:51
  I
• 42:51
  was
• 42:51
  just
• 42:51
  gonna
• 42:52
  say,
• 42:52
  too,
• 42:52
  is
• 42:52
  that
• 42:52
  it's
• 42:53
  done
• 42:53
  with
• 42:53
  love.
• 42:54
  Right?
• 42:54
  Like,
• 42:54
  the.
• 42:55
  The
• 42:55
  holding
• 42:56
  someone
• 42:56
  accountable.
• 42:56
  It's
• 42:57
  like,
• 42:57
  in
• 42:57
  the
• 42:57
  questioning
• 42:58
  is
• 42:58
  done
• 42:58
  with
• 42:58
  love.
• 42:59
  It's
• 42:59
  not
• 42:59
  doing
• 42:59
  it
• 42:59
  to,
• 43:00
  like,
• 43:01
  no
• 43:01
  judgment
• 43:02
  judge.
• 43:02
  Yeah,
• 43:03
  yeah.
• 43:03
  It's
• 43:03
  the
• 43:04
  loud
• 43:04
  judge.
• 43:04
  Or
• 43:04
  to,
• 43:05
  like,
• 43:05
  throw
• 43:05
  a
• 43:05
  dig
• 43:05
  at
• 43:06
  you.
• 43:06
  You
• 43:06
  know
• 43:06
  what
• 43:06
  I
• 43:07
  mean?
• 43:07
  It's
• 43:07
  like.
• 43:07
  It's
• 43:07
  not
• 43:08
  like
• 43:08
  that.
• 43:08
  It's
• 43:08
  like,
• 43:08
  it's
• 43:08
  all
• 43:09
  out
• 43:09
  of
• 43:09
  love.
• 43:09
  It's
• 43:09
  because.
• 43:10
  It's
• 43:10
  because
• 43:10
  we
• 43:10
  want
• 43:11
  the
• 43:11
  best
• 43:11
  for
• 43:11
  you.
• 43:12
  And
• 43:13
  also,
• 43:13
  you
• 43:13
  know,
• 43:13
  another
• 43:13
  thing
• 43:14
  that
• 43:14
  I
• 43:14
  was
• 43:14
  going
• 43:15
  to
• 43:15
  say
• 43:15
  before
• 43:16
  is
• 43:16
  about
• 43:17
  that
• 43:17
  you
• 43:17
  were
• 43:17
  saying
• 43:17
  about,
• 43:18
  like,
• 43:18
  the
• 43:18
  three
• 43:18
  of
• 43:18
  us
• 43:19
  and
• 43:19
  how
• 43:19
  honest
• 43:20
  we
• 43:21
  can
• 43:21
  be
• 43:21
  or
• 43:21
  the.
• 43:22
  The
• 43:22
  most
• 43:22
  honest
• 43:22
  you've
• 43:22
  ever
• 43:23
  been
• 43:23
  is
• 43:23
  also,
• 43:24
  I
• 43:24
  think
• 43:24
  it's
• 43:25
  like,
• 43:25
  it's
• 43:25
  an
• 43:25
  energy,
• 43:26
  right?
• 43:26
  It's
• 43:26
  an
• 43:26
  energetically
• 43:27
  aligned.
• 43:28
  And
• 43:29
  because
• 43:29
  of
• 43:29
  that,
• 43:30
  it's
• 43:30
  also
• 43:31
  our
• 43:31
  nervous
• 43:32
  systems
• 43:32
  are
• 43:33
  aligned,
• 43:33
  right?
• 43:33
  Like,
• 43:33
  our
• 43:34
  nervous
• 43:34
  systems
• 43:34
  around
• 43:35
  each
• 43:35
  other.
• 43:35
  Like,
• 43:36
  we
• 43:37
  don't
• 43:37
  disrupt
• 43:38
  that
• 43:38
  we
• 43:39
  actually
• 43:40
  calm.
• 43:41
  Which
• 43:41
  I
• 43:41
  never
• 43:41
  knew.
• 43:42
  I
• 43:42
  never.
• 43:42
  My.
• 43:43
  My
• 43:43
  nervous
• 43:43
  system
• 43:44
  has
• 43:44
  always
• 43:44
  been
• 43:45
  completely
• 43:46
  irregular,
• 43:47
  you
• 43:48
  know,
• 43:48
  but
• 43:49
  it
• 43:49
  wasn't
• 43:49
  until
• 43:49
  just
• 43:50
  recently
• 43:50
  and,
• 43:50
  you
• 43:50
  know,
• 43:51
  the
• 43:51
  day
• 43:51
  it
• 43:51
  was.
• 43:51
  But
• 43:52
  I'm
• 43:52
  not
• 43:52
  going
• 43:52
  to
• 43:52
  say
• 43:52
  it
• 43:53
  today
• 43:54
  after.
• 43:55
  I'll
• 43:55
  just
• 43:55
  say
• 43:56
  that
• 43:57
  where
• 43:57
  we
• 43:57
  were
• 43:57
  talking
• 43:58
  and
• 43:59
  I
• 43:59
  was
• 43:59
  like,
• 43:59
  oh,
• 43:59
  my
• 44:00
  God,
• 44:00
  this
• 44:01
  is
• 44:01
  what
• 44:01
  it's
• 44:01
  like
• 44:01
  to
• 44:03
  be
• 44:03
  around
• 44:03
  people
• 44:03
  that
• 44:04
  regulate
• 44:04
  your
• 44:04
  nervous
• 44:05
  system.
• 44:05
  Yeah.
• 44:06
  I
• 44:06
  never
• 44:07
  knew
• 44:07
  what
• 44:07
  that
• 44:07
  was
• 44:07
  like
• 44:07
  before
• 44:08
  ever
• 44:09
  with
• 44:09
  anyone.
• 44:11
  And.
• 44:13
  Go
• 44:13
  ahead.
• 44:14
  Yeah.
• 44:14
  No.
• 44:14
  You
• 44:14
  know
• 44:14
  what's
• 44:15
  so
• 44:15
  funny
• 44:15
  about
• 44:15
  that
• 44:15
  is
• 44:15
  I
• 44:16
  even
• 44:16
  think
• 44:16
  about,
• 44:16
  like,
• 44:17
  so
• 44:17
  Adriana
• 44:18
  and
• 44:18
  I
• 44:18
  live
• 44:19
  the
• 44:19
  closest
• 44:19
  together.
• 44:20
  We're
• 44:20
  about
• 44:21
  two
• 44:21
  and
• 44:21
  a
• 44:21
  half,
• 44:21
  like,
• 44:22
  three
• 44:22
  hours
• 44:22
  apart.
• 44:22
  So
• 44:23
  we
• 44:23
  do
• 44:23
  see
• 44:23
  each
• 44:23
  other
• 44:23
  more
• 44:24
  frequently
• 44:24
  than
• 44:24
  we
• 44:25
  get
• 44:25
  to
• 44:25
  see
• 44:26
  Stace.
• 44:26
  So
• 44:27
  when
• 44:27
  I
• 44:27
  go
• 44:27
  to
• 44:28
  Adriana's
• 44:29
  house
• 44:29
  and,
• 44:29
  like,
• 44:29
  spend
• 44:30
  the
• 44:30
  weekend
• 44:30
  there,
• 44:31
  there's
• 44:32
  no.
• 44:33
  There's
• 44:33
  nothing,
• 44:34
  like,
• 44:34
  performative
• 44:35
  about
• 44:35
  it.
• 44:35
  There's
• 44:35
  no
• 44:36
  itinerary.
• 44:36
  There's
• 44:37
  no
• 44:37
  schedule.
• 44:38
  There's
• 44:38
  no,
• 44:38
  like.
• 44:39
  There's
• 44:40
  no
• 44:41
  anything.
• 44:41
  What?
• 44:43
  Anxiety,
• 44:44
  right?
• 44:45
  None.
• 44:46
  It
• 44:46
  is
• 44:47
  the
• 44:47
  most
• 44:47
  relaxing
• 44:48
  weekend,
• 44:49
  and
• 44:50
  we
• 44:50
  just
• 44:50
  go
• 44:50
  with
• 44:51
  the
• 44:51
  flow
• 44:51
  and,
• 44:51
  like,
• 44:52
  hang
• 44:53
  out
• 44:53
  and
• 44:53
  talk
• 44:53
  about
• 44:54
  everything
• 44:54
  and
• 44:55
  Nothing
• 44:55
  and
• 44:56
  watch
• 44:56
  YouTube
• 44:57
  videos
• 44:57
  and.
• 44:58
  Or
• 44:59
  movies
• 44:59
  or
• 45:00
  entire
• 45:00
  bags.
• 45:02
  Like,
• 45:02
  it
• 45:02
  doesn't.
• 45:02
  It
• 45:03
  doesn't
• 45:03
  fucking
• 45:03
  matter.
• 45:04
  But
• 45:04
  it's
• 45:04
  because
• 45:05
  there's
• 45:05
  no.
• 45:07
  There's
• 45:07
  no,
• 45:08
  like,
• 45:08
  expectation,
• 45:09
  and
• 45:10
  there's
• 45:10
  no,
• 45:10
  like.
• 45:11
  There's
• 45:11
  none
• 45:11
  of
• 45:11
  that.
• 45:12
  There's
• 45:12
  no
• 45:13
  ulterior
• 45:13
  motive.
• 45:14
  Yes.
• 45:15
  Right.
• 45:15
  And
• 45:15
  that's
• 45:16
  just
• 45:16
  being
• 45:16
  together.
• 45:17
  And
• 45:17
  that's
• 45:17
  also
• 45:17
  how
• 45:18
  it
• 45:18
  felt
• 45:18
  when
• 45:18
  we
• 45:19
  finally
• 45:19
  got
• 45:19
  to
• 45:19
  meet
• 45:20
  Stacy
• 45:20
  in
• 45:21
  person
• 45:21
  this
• 45:21
  year
• 45:22
  at
• 45:22
  the
• 45:22
  lake
• 45:22
  house,
• 45:23
  too.
• 45:23
  Like,
• 45:23
  that
• 45:23
  weekend
• 45:25
  was
• 45:26
  amazing
• 45:27
  because
• 45:28
  we
• 45:28
  just
• 45:28
  got
• 45:28
  to
• 45:28
  be
• 45:29
  present
• 45:29
  with
• 45:29
  each
• 45:29
  other
• 45:30
  and
• 45:30
  we
• 45:30
  did
• 45:30
  some
• 45:30
  fun
• 45:30
  shit,
• 45:31
  but
• 45:31
  we
• 45:31
  also
• 45:31
  just
• 45:32
  got
• 45:32
  to
• 45:32
  be
• 45:32
  present
• 45:32
  with
• 45:33
  each
• 45:33
  other,
• 45:33
  and
• 45:33
  there
• 45:33
  was
• 45:33
  no.
• 45:34
  Like,
• 45:35
  we
• 45:35
  also
• 45:35
  watched
• 45:36
  the
• 45:36
  Entire
• 45:36
  fucking
• 45:37
  season
• 45:37
  of
• 45:38
  Nobody
• 45:38
  wants
• 45:38
  this.
• 45:39
  Oh
• 45:39
  my
• 45:39
  God.
• 45:39
  That's
• 45:39
  right.
• 45:40
  Season
• 45:40
  two.
• 45:41
  That's
• 45:41
  right.
• 45:42
  In
• 45:42
  a
• 45:43
  three
• 45:43
  day
• 45:43
  period
• 45:44
  on
• 45:44
  top
• 45:44
  of
• 45:44
  doing
• 45:45
  other
• 45:45
  things.
• 45:46
  Because
• 45:47
  it's
• 45:47
  just
• 45:48
  that
• 45:48
  it's
• 45:48
  like
• 45:48
  being
• 45:49
  able
• 45:49
  to
• 45:49
  like
• 45:50
  pause
• 45:50
  it
• 45:50
  and
• 45:50
  talk
• 45:51
  about
• 45:51
  the
• 45:51
  episodes
• 45:51
  and
• 45:52
  like
• 45:52
  talk
• 45:52
  about
• 45:52
  what
• 45:52
  we're
• 45:53
  seeing,
• 45:54
  what
• 45:54
  we're
• 45:54
  feeling
• 45:54
  and
• 45:55
  like.
• 45:55
  But
• 45:56
  it
• 45:56
  was
• 45:56
  easy,
• 45:58
  right?
• 45:58
  It's
• 45:58
  effort.
• 45:59
  Comfortable.
• 46:00
  Yes.
• 46:01
  Like,
• 46:01
  it's
• 46:02
  easy.
• 46:02
  Yeah.
• 46:03
  No
• 46:03
  one
• 46:03
  comfortable.
• 46:04
  Yeah.
• 46:04
  No
• 46:04
  one's
• 46:04
  catering
• 46:05
  to
• 46:05
  anyone.
• 46:05
  Right.
• 46:06
  Like,
• 46:06
  we're
• 46:06
  all.
• 46:06
  We.
• 46:07
  I
• 46:07
  feel
• 46:07
  like
• 46:07
  we
• 46:08
  were
• 46:08
  all
• 46:08
  like
• 46:08
  responsible
• 46:09
  for
• 46:09
  ourselves
• 46:10
  and
• 46:10
  at
• 46:10
  the
• 46:10
  same
• 46:11
  time
• 46:12
  enjoyed
• 46:13
  each
• 46:13
  other.
• 46:14
  Yeah,
• 46:14
  yeah.
• 46:14
  Also
• 46:15
  supportive.
• 46:15
  Yeah,
• 46:16
  yeah.
• 46:16
  Like,
• 46:16
  I
• 46:17
  got
• 46:17
  there,
• 46:17
  which
• 46:18
  was
• 46:18
  awesome,
• 46:19
  by
• 46:19
  the
• 46:19
  way,
• 46:20
  because
• 46:20
  I
• 46:21
  tend
• 46:21
  to
• 46:21
  feel
• 46:22
  a
• 46:22
  lot
• 46:22
  of
• 46:22
  anxiety
• 46:23
  when
• 46:23
  traveling.
• 46:23
  But
• 46:24
  in
• 46:24
  this
• 46:24
  situation
• 46:25
  I
• 46:25
  was
• 46:25
  like,
• 46:26
  I
• 46:27
  don't
• 46:27
  care.
• 46:28
  I'm
• 46:29
  going
• 46:29
  to
• 46:29
  be
• 46:29
  there.
• 46:29
  And
• 46:30
  I
• 46:30
  finally
• 46:31
  get
• 46:31
  to
• 46:31
  spend
• 46:31
  time
• 46:32
  with
• 46:32
  these
• 46:32
  people,
• 46:32
  like
• 46:33
  in
• 46:33
  physical
• 46:34
  proximity
• 46:34
  with
• 46:35
  them,
• 46:35
  because
• 46:36
  I
• 46:36
  literally
• 46:36
  live
• 46:36
  across
• 46:37
  the
• 46:37
  country
• 46:37
  from
• 46:38
  them
• 46:38
  and.
• 46:41
  But
• 46:41
  I
• 46:41
  got
• 46:41
  there
• 46:42
  and
• 46:42
  I
• 46:42
  got.
• 46:43
  I
• 46:44
  don't
• 46:44
  know
• 46:44
  if
• 46:44
  it
• 46:44
  was
• 46:44
  motion
• 46:45
  sickness
• 46:45
  from
• 46:45
  driving
• 46:46
  through
• 46:46
  the
• 46:46
  hills
• 46:47
  and
• 46:47
  winding
• 46:47
  along
• 46:48
  the
• 46:48
  lake.
• 46:48
  And
• 46:48
  then
• 46:50
  I
• 46:50
  look
• 46:50
  out
• 46:50
  the
• 46:50
  window
• 46:51
  and
• 46:51
  the
• 46:51
  movement
• 46:52
  of
• 46:52
  the
• 46:52
  water
• 46:53
  drop
• 46:53
  down
• 46:54
  to
• 46:54
  the
• 46:54
  lake
• 46:55
  that
• 46:55
  I'm
• 46:55
  looking
• 46:55
  out
• 46:56
  over
• 46:56
  it,
• 46:56
  it's
• 46:56
  like
• 46:56
  so
• 46:57
  beautiful.
• 46:58
  Motion
• 46:59
  sickness
• 47:00
  and
• 47:00
  vertigo
• 47:01
  and
• 47:01
  it's
• 47:02
  like
• 47:02
  I
• 47:02
  spent
• 47:03
  the
• 47:03
  entire
• 47:04
  first
• 47:04
  night
• 47:05
  facing
• 47:05
  into
• 47:06
  the
• 47:06
  house.
• 47:07
  I
• 47:08
  didn't
• 47:08
  have
• 47:08
  to
• 47:08
  like,
• 47:09
  vomit
• 47:10
  all
• 47:10
  over
• 47:10
  the
• 47:11
  place.
• 47:11
  And
• 47:12
  I
• 47:12
  was.
• 47:13
  I
• 47:13
  didn't
• 47:14
  feel
• 47:14
  guilty.
• 47:16
  Yeah,
• 47:17
  I
• 47:17
  forgot
• 47:17
  about
• 47:18
  that,
• 47:18
  actually.
• 47:18
  I
• 47:19
  didn't
• 47:19
  even.
• 47:19
  I
• 47:19
  forgot
• 47:19
  that
• 47:20
  that
• 47:20
  happened
• 47:20
  because
• 47:20
  it
• 47:21
  did
• 47:21
  not
• 47:21
  affect
• 47:22
  me.
• 47:22
  And
• 47:22
  I
• 47:22
  come
• 47:22
  in
• 47:22
  and
• 47:23
  shake
• 47:23
  her
• 47:23
  up
• 47:24
  because.
• 47:24
  No,
• 47:24
  that
• 47:24
  to
• 47:25
  me,
• 47:25
  like,
• 47:26
  that's
• 47:27
  one
• 47:27
  of
• 47:27
  my
• 47:27
  triggers
• 47:28
  because
• 47:29
  I
• 47:29
  had
• 47:29
  a
• 47:29
  health
• 47:29
  issue
• 47:30
  where
• 47:30
  I
• 47:30
  just
• 47:30
  felt
• 47:31
  sick
• 47:31
  all
• 47:31
  the
• 47:31
  time.
• 47:32
  Like,
• 47:33
  all
• 47:33
  the
• 47:33
  time
• 47:33
  I
• 47:34
  was
• 47:34
  sick
• 47:34
  all
• 47:35
  the
• 47:35
  time
• 47:35
  and
• 47:35
  it
• 47:36
  was
• 47:36
  awful.
• 47:36
  And
• 47:37
  so
• 47:37
  that's
• 47:37
  one
• 47:37
  of
• 47:38
  my
• 47:38
  triggers
• 47:38
  is
• 47:38
  being
• 47:39
  sick.
• 47:39
  And
• 47:41
  to
• 47:41
  be
• 47:41
  in
• 47:42
  that
• 47:42
  situation
• 47:43
  with
• 47:43
  you
• 47:43
  guys
• 47:44
  and
• 47:45
  feeling
• 47:45
  kind
• 47:46
  of
• 47:46
  icky
• 47:46
  and
• 47:47
  you're
• 47:47
  just
• 47:47
  like,
• 47:47
  how
• 47:47
  can
• 47:48
  we
• 47:48
  help
• 47:48
  you?
• 47:48
  What
• 47:49
  can
• 47:49
  we
• 47:49
  do
• 47:49
  to
• 47:49
  support
• 47:50
  you?
• 47:50
  What
• 47:50
  do
• 47:50
  you
• 47:50
  need
• 47:51
  in.
• 47:51
  In
• 47:52
  not
• 47:52
  feeling
• 47:52
  uncomfortable
• 47:53
  and
• 47:53
  knowing
• 47:54
  that
• 47:54
  if
• 47:54
  I'd
• 47:54
  been
• 47:54
  like,
• 47:54
  I'm
• 47:55
  gonna
• 47:55
  borrow
• 47:55
  a
• 47:55
  few
• 47:55
  to
• 47:56
  grab
• 47:56
  the
• 47:56
  bag
• 47:56
  and
• 47:56
  hold
• 47:57
  my
• 47:57
  hair.
• 47:57
  You
• 47:57
  know
• 47:57
  what
• 47:57
  I
• 47:57
  mean?
• 47:58
  Like,
• 47:59
  it
• 47:59
  was
• 48:00
  so
• 48:02
  outside
• 48:02
  of
• 48:03
  anything
• 48:03
  I've
• 48:03
  ever
• 48:04
  experienced
• 48:04
  in
• 48:04
  my
• 48:05
  life.
• 48:06
  Because
• 48:06
  you
• 48:06
  know
• 48:06
  why?
• 48:08
  Because
• 48:08
  we
• 48:08
  are
• 48:08
  givers
• 48:09
  and
• 48:09
  we
• 48:09
  finally
• 48:10
  found
• 48:10
  other
• 48:11
  givers.
• 48:12
  Oh,
• 48:13
  that's
• 48:13
  so
• 48:13
  true.
• 48:14
  You
• 48:14
  know,
• 48:14
  there's
• 48:15
  so
• 48:15
  much,
• 48:15
  like,
• 48:16
  reciprocity
• 48:17
  in
• 48:17
  this.
• 48:19
  And
• 48:19
  again,
• 48:19
  like,
• 48:20
  no
• 48:20
  expectation,
• 48:21
  though.
• 48:22
  There's
• 48:22
  no,
• 48:23
  like,
• 48:23
  expectation.
• 48:24
  It's
• 48:24
  Just.
• 48:26
  Well,
• 48:26
  again,
• 48:27
  because
• 48:27
  it
• 48:27
  goes
• 48:27
  back
• 48:27
  to
• 48:28
  getting
• 48:28
  each
• 48:28
  other.
• 48:29
  Like,
• 48:29
  you
• 48:29
  get
• 48:29
  each
• 48:29
  other.
• 48:30
  So
• 48:30
  everything
• 48:30
  just
• 48:30
  fits
• 48:31
  right
• 48:31
  where.
• 48:33
  I
• 48:33
  know
• 48:33
  that
• 48:33
  we.
• 48:34
  I.
• 48:34
  I
• 48:34
  speak
• 48:34
  for
• 48:35
  all
• 48:35
  three
• 48:35
  of
• 48:35
  us
• 48:35
  when
• 48:36
  I
• 48:36
  say
• 48:36
  that
• 48:38
  we
• 48:38
  were
• 48:39
  givers
• 48:40
  to
• 48:40
  other
• 48:40
  people
• 48:41
  where
• 48:41
  we
• 48:41
  didn't
• 48:42
  get
• 48:42
  that
• 48:42
  back.
• 48:43
  Yeah.
• 48:44
  So
• 48:45
  it's
• 48:46
  nice
• 48:46
  to
• 48:46
  meet
• 48:47
  people
• 48:49
  like
• 48:49
  ourselves.
• 48:51
  It
• 48:52
  just
• 48:52
  makes.
• 48:53
  It's
• 48:54
  just
• 48:54
  a
• 48:54
  whole
• 48:54
  nother
• 48:54
  level.
• 48:55
  But
• 48:55
  to
• 48:56
  finish
• 48:56
  talking
• 48:56
  about
• 48:56
  Stacy
• 48:57
  and
• 48:57
  getting
• 48:57
  to
• 48:57
  know
• 48:57
  Stacy.
• 49:02
  Yeah.
• 49:03
  Like,
• 49:03
  I.
• 49:03
  I
• 49:03
  loved
• 49:04
  doing.
• 49:05
  I
• 49:06
  feel
• 49:06
  like.
• 49:08
  I
• 49:08
  mean,
• 49:08
  we
• 49:09
  didn't
• 49:09
  talk
• 49:09
  a
• 49:09
  lot,
• 49:09
  but
• 49:10
  it
• 49:10
  was.
• 49:10
  It
• 49:10
  was.
• 49:10
  It
• 49:11
  was
• 49:11
  just
• 49:11
  us.
• 49:12
  So
• 49:12
  we.
• 49:12
  We
• 49:12
  shared
• 49:13
  so
• 49:13
  much
• 49:13
  of
• 49:14
  ourselves
• 49:15
  in
• 49:15
  that
• 49:16
  that
• 49:16
  we.
• 49:16
  We
• 49:16
  got
• 49:16
  to
• 49:17
  know
• 49:17
  each
• 49:17
  other
• 49:18
  in.
• 49:18
  In
• 49:19
  that.
• 49:19
  But.
• 49:19
  But
• 49:20
  then
• 49:20
  we
• 49:20
  started
• 49:20
  talking
• 49:21
  outside
• 49:21
  of
• 49:21
  that
• 49:21
  a
• 49:21
  little
• 49:22
  bit.
• 49:22
  And
• 49:22
  at
• 49:22
  first,
• 49:22
  it
• 49:22
  was
• 49:23
  a
• 49:23
  little
• 49:23
  hard
• 49:23
  for
• 49:23
  me
• 49:23
  because
• 49:26
  I
• 49:26
  can
• 49:26
  talk,
• 49:27
  but
• 49:27
  you
• 49:27
  were
• 49:27
  a
• 49:27
  little
• 49:28
  quieter,
• 49:28
  and
• 49:28
  I
• 49:28
  was
• 49:29
  like,
• 49:29
  oh,
• 49:29
  I
• 49:29
  don't.
• 49:30
  I
• 49:30
  don't.
• 49:30
  It
• 49:30
  made
• 49:31
  me
• 49:31
  uncomfortable.
• 49:31
  Right.
• 49:32
  Like,
• 49:32
  I
• 49:32
  was
• 49:32
  uncomfortable
• 49:33
  with
• 49:33
  it.
• 49:34
  But.
• 49:36
  But
• 49:37
  I
• 49:37
  liked
• 49:37
  you,
• 49:37
  and
• 49:37
  I
• 49:38
  was
• 49:38
  like,
• 49:38
  I
• 49:38
  know
• 49:38
  we're
• 49:38
  gonna.
• 49:39
  You
• 49:39
  know,
• 49:39
  like.
• 49:40
  And
• 49:40
  then,
• 49:40
  you
• 49:40
  know,
• 49:41
  but.
• 49:41
  But.
• 49:42
  So
• 49:43
  it's
• 49:43
  funny
• 49:43
  because
• 49:45
  where
• 49:45
  I.
• 49:45
  I
• 49:46
  mean,
• 49:46
  talk
• 49:46
  about,
• 49:46
  like,
• 49:46
  never
• 49:47
  leaving
• 49:47
  the
• 49:47
  house,
• 49:48
  I.
• 49:48
  Not
• 49:48
  only
• 49:49
  do
• 49:49
  I
• 49:49
  never
• 49:49
  leave
• 49:50
  the
• 49:50
  house,
• 49:51
  almost
• 49:52
  never,
• 49:54
  I
• 49:54
  also
• 49:54
  don't
• 49:54
  talk
• 49:55
  to
• 49:55
  anybody.
• 49:58
  Like,
• 49:58
  what,
• 49:59
  Talk,
• 49:59
  Text?
• 49:59
  What?
• 50:00
  Now?
• 50:00
  So.
• 50:01
  But
• 50:02
  I
• 50:02
  lived
• 50:03
  by
• 50:03
  myself.
• 50:03
  That
• 50:03
  was
• 50:03
  also
• 50:04
  me.
• 50:04
  Yeah.
• 50:05
  I
• 50:05
  could
• 50:05
  go
• 50:05
  actual
• 50:06
  days
• 50:06
  without
• 50:07
  speaking
• 50:07
  to
• 50:07
  another
• 50:08
  human
• 50:08
  being.
• 50:09
  Like,
• 50:09
  I
• 50:09
  think
• 50:09
  I'm
• 50:10
  like,
• 50:10
  yeah,
• 50:10
  like,
• 50:11
  Monday
• 50:11
  morning,
• 50:11
  we're
• 50:11
  coming
• 50:11
  on
• 50:11
  my.
• 50:12
  And
• 50:12
  I'd
• 50:12
  start
• 50:12
  talking
• 50:12
  at
• 50:13
  work
• 50:13
  and
• 50:13
  be
• 50:13
  like,
• 50:13
  oh,
• 50:13
  my
• 50:13
  God,
• 50:13
  I
• 50:13
  haven't
• 50:14
  heard
• 50:14
  my
• 50:14
  voice
• 50:14
  since
• 50:14
  Friday.
• 50:18
  Oh,
• 50:18
  that's
• 50:18
  what
• 50:18
  I
• 50:19
  sound
• 50:19
  like.
• 50:19
  Although,
• 50:20
  I
• 50:20
  mean,
• 50:20
  I
• 50:21
  shouldn't
• 50:21
  say
• 50:21
  that.
• 50:21
  Sometimes
• 50:22
  I
• 50:22
  do
• 50:22
  talk
• 50:22
  to
• 50:22
  myself
• 50:23
  or
• 50:23
  laugh
• 50:23
  or
• 50:23
  yell
• 50:24
  or.
• 50:24
  Good
• 50:24
  for
• 50:24
  you.
• 50:25
  Yeah.
• 50:26
  So.
• 50:28
  But
• 50:28
  Stacy
• 50:28
  would
• 50:29
  text,
• 50:29
  like,
• 50:29
  what
• 50:29
  are
• 50:29
  you
• 50:29
  doing?
• 50:29
  And
• 50:29
  sometimes
• 50:30
  we
• 50:30
  would
• 50:30
  text
• 50:30
  back,
• 50:30
  and
• 50:30
  then
• 50:31
  it
• 50:31
  turned
• 50:31
  into,
• 50:31
  like,
• 50:32
  conversations,
• 50:33
  and
• 50:33
  it'd
• 50:33
  be
• 50:33
  like,
• 50:33
  we
• 50:34
  talk
• 50:34
  for
• 50:34
  an
• 50:34
  hour,
• 50:34
  and
• 50:34
  then
• 50:35
  two
• 50:35
  hours,
• 50:35
  and
• 50:36
  then,
• 50:36
  like,
• 50:36
  three
• 50:36
  hours.
• 50:37
  And
• 50:38
  then
• 50:38
  we're
• 50:38
  like,
• 50:38
  well,
• 50:38
  we're
• 50:38
  just
• 50:38
  gonna
• 50:39
  do
• 50:39
  this
• 50:39
  on
• 50:39
  Zoom
• 50:39
  for
• 50:40
  an
• 50:40
  hour.
• 50:40
  Two
• 50:41
  hours.
• 50:41
  Three
• 50:42
  hours.
• 50:43
  Yeah.
• 50:44
  And
• 50:44
  then
• 50:44
  sometimes
• 50:45
  the
• 50:45
  only
• 50:45
  time
• 50:46
  we
• 50:46
  stop
• 50:46
  is
• 50:46
  because
• 50:47
  I.
• 50:47
  I
• 50:48
  get
• 50:48
  into
• 50:48
  the
• 50:48
  phase
• 50:49
  of,
• 50:49
  like,
• 50:50
  I'm
• 50:51
  so
• 50:52
  hungry,
• 50:52
  I'm
• 50:52
  about
• 50:53
  to
• 50:53
  turn
• 50:53
  into
• 50:53
  a
• 50:54
  different
• 50:54
  person.
• 50:54
  Right.
• 50:55
  So
• 50:55
  it's
• 50:56
  probably
• 50:56
  best
• 50:56
  if
• 50:56
  I
• 50:57
  go
• 50:57
  feed
• 50:57
  myself.
• 50:59
  Well,
• 50:59
  I
• 51:00
  mean,
• 51:00
  you
• 51:00
  do
• 51:00
  get
• 51:00
  up
• 51:00
  at
• 51:01
  the
• 51:01
  crack
• 51:01
  of
• 51:01
  dawn,
• 51:01
  so
• 51:02
  you're,
• 51:02
  like,
• 51:02
  on
• 51:02
  your
• 51:02
  third
• 51:03
  meal.
• 51:03
  By
• 51:03
  the
• 51:03
  time.
• 51:04
  By
• 51:04
  that
• 51:04
  time
• 51:05
  I'm
• 51:06
  having
• 51:06
  breakfast,
• 51:06
  you're
• 51:06
  like,
• 51:07
  on,
• 51:07
  like,
• 51:07
  your
• 51:08
  midday.
• 51:09
  That's
• 51:09
  snack.
• 51:12
  That's
• 51:13
  you're,
• 51:13
  like,
• 51:13
  on
• 51:13
  your
• 51:13
  afternoon
• 51:14
  snack.
• 51:14
  Our
• 51:15
  rhythms
• 51:15
  are
• 51:15
  definitely
• 51:16
  different.
• 51:18
  I'm
• 51:18
  the
• 51:18
  early
• 51:18
  riser.
• 51:22
  I
• 51:22
  think
• 51:22
  we're
• 51:22
  over
• 51:23
  45
• 51:23
  minutes
• 51:24
  now,
• 51:24
  so
• 51:24
  I
• 51:25
  just
• 51:25
  want
• 51:25
  to
• 51:25
  do
• 51:25
  a
• 51:25
  quick
• 51:26
  time
• 51:26
  check
• 51:26
  and
• 51:26
  see
• 51:27
  is
• 51:27
  there
• 51:27
  anything
• 51:28
  else
• 51:28
  we
• 51:28
  want
• 51:28
  to
• 51:28
  cover
• 51:29
  before
• 51:29
  we
• 51:29
  wrap
• 51:30
  up.
• 51:31
  The
• 51:32
  only
• 51:32
  thing
• 51:32
  that
• 51:33
  I
• 51:33
  was
• 51:33
  just
• 51:33
  thinking
• 51:34
  because
• 51:34
  I
• 51:34
  was
• 51:34
  looking
• 51:34
  at
• 51:34
  the
• 51:35
  same
• 51:35
  thing
• 51:35
  is
• 51:36
  like,
• 51:37
  okay,
• 51:37
  well,
• 51:38
  we
• 51:38
  know.
• 51:39
  Like,
• 51:40
  we
• 51:41
  know
• 51:41
  now
• 51:43
  how
• 51:43
  we
• 51:44
  met
• 51:44
  and
• 51:45
  why
• 51:46
  we
• 51:46
  like
• 51:46
  each
• 51:46
  other
• 51:47
  now,
• 51:47
  but
• 51:47
  what
• 51:47
  are
• 51:47
  we
• 51:47
  really
• 51:48
  doing
• 51:48
  here
• 51:48
  and
• 51:49
  what,
• 51:49
  like,
• 51:49
  what's
• 51:50
  going
• 51:50
  to
• 51:50
  come
• 51:50
  in
• 51:51
  our
• 51:51
  next
• 51:52
  few
• 51:52
  episodes?
• 51:53
  So
• 51:55
  maybe
• 51:56
  we
• 51:56
  just
• 51:56
  tee
• 51:56
  that
• 51:57
  up.
• 51:57
  Yeah.
• 51:59
  I
• 51:59
  think
• 52:00
  what's
• 52:01
  next
• 52:01
  is.
• 52:02
  I
• 52:02
  think
• 52:02
  we're
• 52:02
  gonna
• 52:04
  dive
• 52:04
  a
• 52:04
  little
• 52:05
  deeper
• 52:06
  into
• 52:06
  each
• 52:06
  of
• 52:06
  us
• 52:07
  individually.
• 52:07
  So
• 52:09
  a
• 52:09
  little
• 52:10
  bit
• 52:10
  more
• 52:10
  about.
• 52:11
  Yeah.
• 52:11
  Our
• 52:12
  journeys
• 52:12
  and
• 52:13
  who
• 52:13
  we
• 52:13
  are,
• 52:14
  who
• 52:15
  we've
• 52:15
  been,
• 52:16
  maybe
• 52:17
  who
• 52:17
  we
• 52:17
  want
• 52:17
  to.
• 52:17
  Be,
• 52:19
  who
• 52:19
  we
• 52:19
  have
• 52:20
  been,
• 52:20
  who
• 52:20
  we
• 52:20
  are
• 52:20
  and
• 52:21
  who
• 52:21
  we
• 52:21
  wanna
• 52:22
  be.
• 52:23
  Yeah.
• 52:24
  So
• 52:24
  that'll
• 52:25
  be
• 52:25
  the
• 52:25
  next
• 52:26
  few
• 52:26
  episodes,
• 52:26
  and
• 52:27
  then
• 52:27
  after
• 52:27
  that,
• 52:27
  we'll
• 52:27
  really
• 52:28
  get
• 52:28
  into
• 52:29
  maybe
• 52:29
  a
• 52:30
  little
• 52:30
  bit
• 52:30
  more
• 52:30
  about
• 52:30
  Kula.
• 52:31
  Definitely
• 52:31
  talk
• 52:31
  about
• 52:33
  our
• 52:33
  values.
• 52:35
  Oh,
• 52:35
  yeah.
• 52:36
  Oh,
• 52:36
  we
• 52:36
  should
• 52:37
  talk
• 52:37
  about
• 52:37
  the
• 52:37
  values.
• 52:38
  About
• 52:38
  our
• 52:39
  mission
• 52:39
  and
• 52:39
  our
• 52:40
  values.
• 52:40
  Yeah,.
• 52:43
  Maybe
• 52:44
  we
• 52:44
  should
• 52:44
  talk
• 52:44
  about
• 52:44
  that
• 52:44
  next
• 52:45
  and
• 52:45
  then
• 52:46
  about
• 52:46
  our.
• 52:46
  About
• 52:47
  our
• 52:47
  own
• 52:47
  stories.
• 52:49
  No,
• 52:50
  I
• 52:50
  think
• 52:51
  our.
• 52:51
  I
• 52:51
  think
• 52:51
  part
• 52:52
  of
• 52:52
  our
• 52:54
  values
• 52:55
  conversation
• 52:55
  will
• 52:56
  probably
• 52:56
  connect
• 52:57
  back
• 52:57
  to
• 52:57
  our
• 52:57
  stories.
• 52:58
  Okay.
• 52:59
  Why
• 53:00
  those
• 53:00
  things,
• 53:00
  like,
• 53:00
  surfaced
• 53:01
  as
• 53:01
  being
• 53:02
  the
• 53:02
  most
• 53:02
  important
• 53:03
  to
• 53:03
  us.
• 53:04
  That
• 53:04
  makes
• 53:04
  sense.
• 53:05
  I
• 53:05
  can't
• 53:05
  believe
• 53:05
  it's
• 53:06
  39.
• 53:07
  I
• 53:07
  know.
• 53:09
  That
• 53:09
  was
• 53:09
  fun,
• 53:09
  though.
• 53:10
  As
• 53:10
  usual.
• 53:11
  I'm
• 53:11
  very
• 53:11
  hungry,
• 53:12
  so
• 53:13
  I
• 53:13
  gotta
• 53:13
  go.
• 53:13
  I
• 53:13
  mean,
• 53:14
  to
• 53:14
  go.
• 53:16
  As
• 53:16
  usual,
• 53:17
  we
• 53:17
  lose
• 53:18
  all
• 53:18
  concept
• 53:18
  of
• 53:19
  time
• 53:19
  when
• 53:19
  we're
• 53:19
  together.
• 53:20
  Yeah.
• 53:21
  Yeah.
• 53:21
  And
• 53:21
  that's
• 53:21
  okay.
• 53:23
  That
• 53:23
  was
• 53:23
  good,
• 53:23
  though.
• 53:24
  That
• 53:24
  was
• 53:24
  awesome.
• 53:24
  That's
• 53:24
  awesome.
• 53:25
  Yeah.
• 53:26
  I'm
• 53:26
  very
• 53:26
  excited
• 53:27
  to
• 53:27
  do
• 53:27
  this
• 53:27
  with
• 53:27
  you
• 53:27
  guys.
• 53:28
  Me
• 53:28
  too.
• 53:29
  And
• 53:29
  I'm
• 53:29
  excited
• 53:30
  for.
• 53:31
  For
• 53:31
  our
• 53:32
  little
• 53:32
  round
• 53:32
  robin
• 53:33
  storytelling
• 53:34
  story
• 53:34
  time
• 53:36
  where
• 53:36
  each
• 53:36
  of
• 53:36
  us
• 53:37
  has
• 53:37
  a
• 53:37
  chance
• 53:37
  to
• 53:37
  share.
• 53:39
  We'll
• 53:39
  let
• 53:39
  Stace
• 53:40
  help
• 53:40
  us
• 53:40
  experiment
• 53:41
  with
• 53:41
  the
• 53:41
  format
• 53:42
  for
• 53:42
  these
• 53:42
  three,
• 53:45
  and
• 53:45
  then
• 53:45
  we'll
• 53:45
  go
• 53:45
  from
• 53:45
  there.
• 53:46
  Okay.
• 53:47
  Okay.
• 53:48
  Yay.
• 53:49
  One
• 53:49
  down.
• 53:50
  We
• 53:50
  did
• 53:50
  it.
• 53:51
  I
• 53:51
  actually
• 53:52
  think
• 53:52
  that
• 53:52
  was
• 53:52
  so
• 53:52
  good.
• 53:53
  That
• 53:53
  was
• 53:53
  so
• 53:53
  good.
• 53:54
  It
• 53:54
  was
• 53:54
  much
• 53:54
  more
• 53:55
  natural.
• 53:57
  I
• 53:57
  tried
• 53:57
  to
• 53:57
  do
• 53:58
  this.
• 53:58
  Yeah,
• 53:59
  it
• 53:59
  was.
• 53:59
  It
• 54:00
  felt
• 54:00
  very
• 54:00
  natural.
• 54:00
  Yes.
• 54:02
  Okay.
• 54:03
  Good
• 54:03
  shit,
• 54:03
  ladies.
• 54:04
  Awesome.
• 54:05
  Okay,
• 54:05
  go
• 54:05
  eat.
• 54:06
  Okay.
• 54:07
  Love
• 54:07
  you.
• 54:08
  Love
• 54:08
  you.
• 54:08
  Good
• 54:09
  night.
• 54:09
  Bye.