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Brett Keane | The History of @brettkeane and Why Atheists Wish I Was Dead · Brett Keane and Eve Show

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  I am the way I am the Alpha and the Omega.
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  Hello, ladies and gentlemen, my name is Brett Keen from God TV
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  radio. I hope you're all having a
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  blessed day out there at 7 p.m. tonight.
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  I'm going to be doing a live show, I'll be putting out a
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  public link so anybody can participate providing that, they
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  have a microphone, you don't have to have a webcam and you
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  can come in and chat with me as well as all my friends.
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  Yep. If you'd also like to check out
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  some of my books, my music and my art, all links are in the
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  Corruption. Today, we're going to talk about
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  the history of brat Keen. I often get asked by
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  non-believers as well as some religious people out there.
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  Why is it that you were a famous atheist and nowadays?
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  It seems like compared to what you were.
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  You seem almost irrelevant as though you've lost Fame.
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  You've lost Fortune, you've lost some kind of, you know,
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  acknowledgement at least whenever it comes onto the The
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  internet and I think there's a pretty simple answer to that,
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  but a lot of people still want to know so I figured I would
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  respond to that. Also a question, I get asked all
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  the time to is. Why is it that atheists seem to
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  go after you all the time? Why is it that every other day?
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  They're making videos about you, and they're attacking you, and
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  just saying some of the most brutal things possible, and I'm
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  also aware of all that as well. Even though, I I don't watch any
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  of these videos. If I search my name I see all
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  the thumbnails and the nasty titles and absolutely violate
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  terms of service and Community guidelines, but I just mind my
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  own business and I go back to making my videos and doing what
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  I'm doing. I guess we should probably start
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  from the beginning. If you guys really, really want
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  to know the answer to this and plus this will make it easier
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  for me in the future. When people ask me this
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  question, which I am willing to bet, it'll be a question that is
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  asked to me all the way to the end of my life.
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  Unless something happens, like I won the lottery or some super
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  popular Christian ends up actually sharing my video or
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  talking about me or something and helping me, get some
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  assistance and some kind of you use.
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  But either way, that doesn't really matter.
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  That's not really why I'm here on YouTube.
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  And I'm going to explain what it is.
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  My true desire and ambition has always been even one of our Rosa
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  former atheist. When I first came to YouTube, I
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  was, we'll start with my personal life what was
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  happening. And my personal life, my wife
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  had just given birth to our second child, my daughter, and
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  my daughter had some major issues where the doctors didn't
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  even believe she was going to survive.
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  We were not sure what was going to happen.
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  It would affect our child's life as well as my wife and I see
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  future. It was the first time that there
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  was anything Really Intense or conflict.
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  And me, and my wife's marriage. Because of this, this was a
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  tough issue. We didn't know how to deal with
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  that. We didn't know how our sun, our
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  first child would react. If something happened to his
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  baby sister, it was a scruciating.
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  It was tough on the entire family, including me, and my
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  wife, well because of this my wife and I had to make a
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  decision. We had to make a decision on
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  who's actually going to be able to go out to work.
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  And who's going to To be able to stay home with a disabled child
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  and take care of them. Now, I was doing a lot of music
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  and I was also good at graphic design.
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  I was also getting paid to design websites and I was doing
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  a lot of stuff that involved internet things.
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  So logically and rationally, it made sense that I would be able
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  to use my mind and my intelligence and my creativity
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  to be able to do pretty interesting stuff on the
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  internet. And this is before I even came
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  to YouTube, I was good with computers.
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  I was It was scripting. There is this a lot of things
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  that I could do to actually help us financially in this way.
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  Unfortunately, the bills we didn't have Hospital, insurance,
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  and health insurance, and all this.
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  So we quickly started finding our self and debt as the months
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  went by, and we continued to try to get the medicines and having
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  to take our child into the hospital repeatedly because
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  something was wrong, or there was an issue and we felt it
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  needed to be taken care of. Of so financially, I was
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  starting to get pretty damn destroyed.
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  And that's no matter how hard my wife worked or how hard I worked
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  doing what I was doing at home. It seemed like we were, there
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  was no way from Sunday, aren't how we were going to survive and
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  deal with this and this caused a lot of issues.
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  Well, being that I was at home, I used to like listening to the
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  radio. I used to like listening to
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  music and all that, but I started up this habit of going
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  into something called you. Who chat room where I would
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  listen the Christians and atheists and people of all
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  different faiths talk about their views of their ideas or
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  just talk about their day for the longest time.
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  I just sat back and listened. I didn't respond.
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  I didn't say anything. I didn't argue with anybody, I
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  just simply listened and then, I would go change my daughter's
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  diaper, make her a bottle of milk.
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  Get her medicine, do these kind of things, and I had my speakers
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  up fairly loud. So I'd be able to hear what was
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  going on. They didn't have wireless
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  headphones back then. So you to turn up your speakers,
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  I had a little stereo system set up where it would pump out.
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  Pretty good where I can make it out cuz I was a former musician.
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  So of course you're going to have some form of speakers well
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  after listening and listening and listening.
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  I finally and I've got an entire recording on this if people want
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  to hear about it. But finally, obviously, there
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  was a point where I decided to engage Christians, as well as
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  non-believers and it didn't take long for people to tell me
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  brought you have a powerful radio like voice and obviously
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  non-believers would say bright, you're really smart and
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  intelligent, I appreciated all that, I appreciated, the
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  compliments from both groups, But I was extremely angry at the
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  concept of God back then, because I was dealing with a
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  child who had issues spending time with Christians, talking
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  about how God heals and performs Miracles and blessings made me
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  pissed off because I was constantly thinking, why is it
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  that you know my child's going to this?
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  Why does my wife had to work so hard?
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  Why do I have to put in all this extra, you know, level stuff in
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  order to be able to Survive and being basically buried in bills,
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  just got you more and more pissed off.
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  Well, for some reason, during all this mess, that was going on
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  in my personal life. And also engaging with people
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  with all different views, all over the world, I started
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  getting asked by people that I should go to YouTube and I
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  should start making videos and talk about the different topics.
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  People said, bright, you're extremely creative.
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  You're able to you, come up with stuff right on the spot.
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  If someone tried to roast me, I was known for being able to
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  absolutely mow their ass over because of Humor sense of humor,
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  creativity and all this. So people said I should go, they
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  said that especially the atheist.
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  He said there's not a lot of representation for atheist on
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  YouTube. There was about four or five
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  other non believers that were on YouTube at the time but they
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  weren't doing any actual atheist videos.
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  They were just being entertainers and silly, you
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  know, like Fred making stupid noises farting on the camera.
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  There was nobody having any actual debates over atheism
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  versus Christianity and atheists were looking for a mouthpiece.
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  They were looking atheists. Had been talking for years on
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  the internet about, we need to get a movement.
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  We need to build communities and all this kind of stuff.
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  Not to be honest with you, I didn't actually know where I fit
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  into all that. I had been a.
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  When I was a child, I was taught to believe in God.
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  So it never even crossed my mind.
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  Should I lack a belief or should I believe any of this stuff?
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  It just seemed like, it made common sense to me, but through
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  all the anger, and the rage and the tragedies losing people in
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  my life and then being buried under bills and then dealing
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  with a disabled child, the anger was starting to Peak.
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  Getting to the point where I was ready to explode, a lot of
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  animosity and me and unfortunately my wife works so
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  many hours and so much time and I was doing what I was doing.
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  We didn't have the time to be able to sit down and really talk
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  and work things out or be able to say honey I'm just fed up,
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  I'm sick of this. And usually, my wife was already
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  going through a lot of stress over at all.
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  So we spent most of our time listening to what her issues
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  were and what her problems were. I wanted to make sure she stayed
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  strong So when ends up happening, as I decided, okay,
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  I'll try YouTube out. I've told the story about this
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  specific deal, I came to YouTube, I made one single
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  video, and the next thing I knew I woke up a couple weeks later,
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  not even thinking that YouTube, but mattered or had any
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  relevance to it. And I had over 5,000 subscribers
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  and I had literally thousands of comments where people were
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  telling me that I'm off, Some and I'm great and it was really,
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  really felt good because it didn't have a whole lot of
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  family or people who were cheering me, arnor telling me
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  that I was a, you know, a good person.
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  I had not thought of myself as good or bad for the longest
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  time. I just thought of myself as
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  another human being, who was just trying to survive in the
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  world. And my only real concern is, as
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  my wife going to be all right? As my daughter going to survive?
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  Is she going to? Make it through the year.
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  These were the kind of things that we're going on in my mind
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  not being a part of some stupid politics or some kind of agenda
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  that atheist had. Well, when I got on the
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  internet, YouTube and started making videos.
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  I didn't just make videos where I went after the god concept, a
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  religion, but I shared some very personal things about my life.
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  I told people about the losses, how I dealt with death?
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  I got very personal with people and because of this, a lot of
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  people started feeling really close to me, really connected,
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  you know, a lot of atheists could really identify with me,
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  whenever it came to isolation. And, and Burdened and feeling
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  closed in are feeling trapped or feeling like there's nobody to
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  talk to and all this kind of stuff that's the way.
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  My life was at the time. Well.
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  Because of this, there were non-believers out there where
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  they could hear in my voice and some of my videos that I was sad
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  that I was getting very lonely and I was also feeling form of
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  desperation because of all that was taking place.
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  It just seemed like there was no light at the end of the tunnel
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  for me and I even had a lot of Christians who were reaching out
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  to me to, they were saying bright, you sound like you're in
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  a great deal of pain. Can we talk to you in all this?
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  Some of them attempted to preach to me and sermonize to me, which
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  actually pissed me off more. And for some reason, it felt
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  like they were antagonizing me and I wanted to get them some
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  shit, but some of them just wanted to talk to me.
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  Or they just wanted to allow me to vent and talk about my
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  feelings. These were usually Christian
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  women who behave, this way, where they actually wanted to
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  hear what I had to say. Not just come at me because they
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  thought I was at a long animal point in my life where they
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  could push Jesus army or something.
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  You got to understand that when you're going through this kind
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  of crap, you're going through this kind of pain, it's
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  extremely difficult to be able to accept that.
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  There's a God, that loves you in the universe.
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  It's really hard when ever you know that at any day, a bill
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  could be too high and you may not be able to get groceries
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  that you may not be able to pay your electric bill and then
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  everything gets turned off. And the next thing you know you
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  could lose your kid. Kids or just a number of
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  horrible things that can happen to you.
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  So I was pissed off at the world.
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  I was pissed off at the idea of God to me, I felt like it was a
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  fairytale that people told themselves in order to feel
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  better. When life went to shit, that was
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  my, I had basically become extremely nihilistic.
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  However, you go over to YouTube and you see these complement.
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  So Brett, these videos against God, Then against religion or so
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  great. They're so wonderful.
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  You've my goodness, you hit the, you know, the hammer on the
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  head. And I started noticing that
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  other atheists for coming out and they were parroting me.
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  They were repeating all my arguments, all my points, all my
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  debates. Everything I said they were
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  making copy videos, basically plagiarizing me and they still
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  do it even today. A lot of the things that you
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  hear atheist say today are exactly Word for word.
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  What I said in the past, I mean, just ask any of the atheists you
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  ever watched me. They'll tell you.
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  Brett Keen was a big-time atheist, they all acknowledge
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  that. They know that.
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  They also know that I was really at that point.
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  The only one that was there for them and their life.
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  So something fascinating happen. Because people felt so connected
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  and related and identified with me, especially non-believers.
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  And there were so many Christians out there.
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  Who felt Sad at what was happening with me, even though I
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  was popular and I was picking up unbelievable amount of
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  subscribers within less than a couple months.
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  I was in up to 10,000 subscribers and it was literally
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  no effort for me whatsoever. I was just hitting record on a
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  video and spouting out, you know, whatever the hell I came
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  up with within five minutes, I could make seventh I'm videos a
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  day because I literally, at that point, had nothing else that I
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  could do. There was nothing going on in my
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  life, except for sitting at home with a child who had a lot of
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  issues that I had to be there for.
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  That was my life. Just sitting there wondering
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  what the hell is going to happen?
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  Every once in a while? I got lucky someone would buy
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  some Arc from me or someone would Asked me to design or
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  organize a website. And some people said, bright,
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  you say you got all these Financial issues.
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  Why don't you put out a PayPal link?
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  I didn't even know what the hell that was.
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  I didn't know what PayPal was or anything that kind of garbage,
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  but someone said, put that out there and then people may help
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  you out by clicking on it and then they send you money or
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  whatever. So I tried it out and lo and
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  behold people did start supporting, I was able to take
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  care of some of my bills. I was able to take care of gas,
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  whenever I needed to get my girl to the hospital.
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  I was able to get a good amount of groceries, things were good.
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  It really felt like things were starting to fly along and even
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  Christians were donating money and they were supporting and all
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  that kind of stuff, which was greatly appreciated from both
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  sides. Sides that were doing all this.
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  Well, because of the connection and the relation I started
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  downloading programs, like Skype and other programs where what
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  this meant was people would be able to contact me directly.
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  I even gave up my real phone number.
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  People could call up anytime they want and ask me how I'm
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  doing, how I'm feeling and all this.
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  Now, when Christians would call, they usually called because they
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  wanted to know how I was doing, how I was feeling and all this,
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  when a Is called they usually called because they had bad shit
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  going on in their own life. And they wanted to tell me about
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  it and basically have a friend or somebody that they can talk
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  to a lot of them were lonely. A lot of them didn't feel as
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  though they were connected to the world that they were
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  isolated. That their families didn't love
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  them or that they didn't have any true friends that they could
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  trust or share their stuff with many of them said, I can't talk
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  to other people on the Not because I don't want videos made
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  about me where people embarrass me or, you know, mop me from my
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  problems and my issues. And that was very sad but also I
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  could understand the logic and rationality in that.
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  So what happens is For the next couple years.
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  Not only was, I have popular famous atheist on the internet
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  who was spewing out all kinds of bullshit.
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  About my thoughts about something I supposedly didn't
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  believe in I was still sharing all kinds of personal things and
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  I was my life was like an open book and the more and more.
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  I did that the more multitudes and masses of people kept
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  wanting to call me and contact me.
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  It was starting to get to the point where people were pissed
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  off at me because they try to call me but some other atheists
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  would have already called me earlier and they couldn't get
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  through because it was busy. I remember being told so many
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  times. Brett you said that you'd be
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  here for me. You said that you would listen
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  and every time I call you you're busy and I'm like, I am so
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  sorry. I've got thousands of people who
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  were calling me on the horn repeatedly are getting a hold of
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  me on the computer. And on top of that I'm taking
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  care of my child. I'm taking care of trying to
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  survive over here. I'm sorry.
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  People get so mad it gets so angry.
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  And I wanted to be there for them, I wanted to listen to
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  them. And of course, I had other
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  atheists who would call me out, and they would try to sell me
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  shit. I've advertised things.
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  They'd be like, Brett. You're a super popular YouTuber?
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  Can you advertise? My content?
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  Can you like, give me a shout out?
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  Can you mere my videos on your channel?
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  So I can get tons of views and all that kind of stuff because
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  I'm having a hard time too. And if you promote me, then I'll
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  make my And I'll be able to get advertise and people blah blah
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  blah blah blah, blah. And now the more popular I got
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  the more it seemed like people were reaching out to me because
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  of what they perceived as Fame where I didn't give a shit about
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  that to me when I looked at the subscribers.
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  I see nothing but numbers. All I cared about was, what was
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  going on in my home? And the people that were
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  actually talking to me in real life not what was happening on
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  the internet and giving them, what's it matter.
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  If you've got a million or a billion subscribers on the
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  internet, whenever you've got a disabled child, who might die, I
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  mean, what who gives a shit about what the internet has to
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  say, or what it What it has to offer.
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  I tried of course doing like Google ads and all that kind of
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  stuff and that didn't help Google actually according to
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  Google. They owed me, thousands of
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  dollars. But whenever it was time to pay
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  me the week before, they were supposed to process the money
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  and send it to me, they shut my shit down.
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  They said that I could no longer be monetized.
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  So Google actually screwed me out of thousands of dollars and
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  this was when Google actually bought YouTube from a company
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  that originally started, YouTube Google took over.
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  So I knew that YouTube didn't offer me any kind of financial F
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  it, I knew that there was nothing there.
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  It was just a matter of doing video so it was definitely not
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  about money. You don't stick around on
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  YouTube for 20 years for money. When in the first two years,
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  you're told, nope. We're not paying you or not
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  giving you any money so that wasn't what it was for.
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  Interestingly enough, what ends up happening is You get a lot of
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  non-believers who they want you to promote their videos.
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  So being the nice guy that I was, I went to some of these
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  different YouTube channels. And there were some atheists who
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  are really funny and there were some that made really great
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  arguments, but then there were others who are racist and
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  homophobic. There were some who were
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  extremely hateful, they would call Christians, the n-word are,
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  they would call Christians. Fa GS or custom out at a really
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  horrible way. And I was starting to get to the
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  point where I had spent so much time talking to Christians as
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  well as atheist that I cared about both groups.
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  I cared about the welfare of both, although I felt like
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  religion was a shitty deal. I felt like, not everybody.
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  That's a part of Christianity is horrible.
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  Just like not. Every atheist is a horrible
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  person. That every group has its good
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  people. It's good.
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  Apples and it's bad apples. That's my logic.
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  But what ends up happening is, I told some of these atheist, I'm
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  sorry, but your videos are unacceptable, they're
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  inappropriate. And it's not really what I'm
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  trying to promote. And they go, we're trying to
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  promote the atheist movement though.
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  And I said, no, you're promoting yourself.
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  You don't give a damn about atheism, you don't you Don't
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  care about intellectual honesty or truth, you're not even making
• 24:12
  an argument, then your videos, your cussing people out, and
• 24:16
  you're yelling and screaming and acting like a loon tune.
• 24:19
  You're not, you're not trying to help anybody.
• 24:23
  Now, remember the atheist who did make good videos and good
• 24:27
  arguments, and good points. I gave them numerous shoutouts,
• 24:31
  I promoted them, I talked about them and all this that people
• 24:35
  should go check them out. That was the first time I
• 24:40
  started making enemies on YouTube.
• 24:44
  And I think it's also one of the reasons why famous people kind
• 24:49
  of isolate themselves away from their audience, like the go out
• 24:52
  and I'll do the show but they won't take any of the fans home
• 24:56
  with them because that's just what they are.
• 24:59
  They're either there because they love you for some fake-ass
• 25:03
  reason because they think they know you by watching a video or
• 25:07
  they're wanting something out of you.
• 25:09
  They're not really wanting to be your friend.
• 25:11
  They're not really wanting to help.
• 25:14
  Help with a label or the representation of what you're
• 25:18
  part of, they want themselves to be promoted.
• 25:22
  And I started realizing by being around people like this, that
• 25:26
  there was a lot of narcissistic people.
• 25:29
  I spoke to a lot of atheists, who suffered from autism, which
• 25:33
  is a spectrum disorder. According to the Google, it's a
• 25:37
  developmental disability caused by differences in the brain.
• 25:41
  It causes them to lack empathy, not understand people's
• 25:46
  feelings. They usually have social
• 25:48
  disorders. They also have delayed language
• 25:52
  Mint and pretty persistent repetition of words or phrases
• 25:56
  on the internet. This is referred to, as
• 25:59
  parenting. You notice, you see a lot of
• 26:01
  videos out there where atheist, as well as some religious people
• 26:06
  repeat themselves over and over and over.
• 26:08
  And they say the same things Non-Stop and they use the same,
• 26:12
  catchphrases are the same means, One of the problems with
• 26:16
  autistic atheist and religious folks is resistant to minor
• 26:21
  changes in routine or surroundings, basically they
• 26:24
  don't like changes, they hate it, they prefer organization and
• 26:28
  things to be set up in a certain way or they become extremely
• 26:32
  hostile or uncomfortable. I also learned that there was a
• 26:36
  lot of atheists that I was dealing with that.
• 26:39
  Suffered from what is called history onic Behavior.
• 26:44
  It means that people are overly concerned about their physical
• 26:48
  appearance. Use their physical appearance to
• 26:50
  draw attention to themselves by wearing bright colored clothing
• 26:54
  are very revealing clothes. How many times have you seen
• 26:58
  females on the internet? Where they show their breasts
• 27:01
  off, our they show their bodies and everything like that and
• 27:05
  then they're the first ones to get pissed off.
• 27:07
  Whenever people basically sexualize them are talk about
• 27:11
  their boobs as opposed what they're saying in the video.
• 27:14
  It's because they deliberately put their you know tips right
• 27:19
  out on the screen or show off their ass in order to get the
• 27:22
  subs and Views in the first place.
• 27:24
  And for some reason think they're going to earn some form
• 27:27
  of respect after a while which never actually happens.
• 27:34
  Histrionic people usually go out of their way to make fools of
• 27:38
  themselves in order to get attention, YouTube rewards.
• 27:41
  This type of behavior by paying Paying people that have views
• 27:46
  and subscribers, at least that's what a lot of people think.
• 27:49
  So, people go out of their way to get past the Thousand
• 27:52
  subscriber Mark, so they can get clicks and Views and yada yada
• 27:56
  yada. And so on, It never hardly
• 28:00
  works. I've seen over 500,000 people on
• 28:04
  YouTube, lose their monetization and also have the exactly the
• 28:10
  same thing that happened to me where they're supposed to get
• 28:13
  paid, and then Google screws up. It's a beautiful thing.
• 28:17
  Corporations to make you work your ass off, break your back
• 28:21
  and then at the end of the day you get nothing for it.
• 28:24
  But people still take the chance they have that hope they're that
• 28:28
  faith. That the Going to treat them
• 28:30
  fairly and right. So I got my first enemies from
• 28:36
  not promoting some of these type of people, narcissistic
• 28:39
  behavior, antisocial disorders. And some of these people started
• 28:43
  making videos about me and they would call me everything under
• 28:47
  the sun, basically, I'm a liar. I only do YouTube for PayPal and
• 28:53
  money and blah blah blah. Even though sad to say every
• 28:57
  single one of these people who accuse me of this shit, had a
• 29:00
  Paypal link or an Amazon wish list himself.
• 29:03
  And if you look around on any YouTubers Channel nowadays,
• 29:07
  everybody's got a PayPal account.
• 29:09
  Everybody's got a patreon. Everybody's got some kind of,
• 29:13
  you know, go to High star.com and donate Bitcoin to me or
• 29:18
  whatever type of finances they want, everybody does.
• 29:24
  But for some reason, these people who hated me, they made
• 29:28
  it out to be like it was something else like I was a
• 29:31
  snake oil. A Salesman or something like
• 29:34
  that, and it was because they didn't get what they wanted out
• 29:37
  of me. They didn't get a promotion,
• 29:40
  people weren't giving them shoutouts.
• 29:42
  So you became the enemy And they also noticed by making videos
• 29:48
  about someone who was famous or Popular by putting your name in
• 29:52
  their title. It brought them more views so
• 29:56
  they started realizing, wait a minute, I don't have the talent
• 30:00
  to get any views on the internet.
• 30:03
  I don't have any Charisma but if I put a famous person's name in
• 30:09
  the title that's an instant 300 views for me and if they're
• 30:14
  monetized and they're going to be getting I paid at the end of
• 30:16
  the month, maybe if Google comes through with them are not So you
• 30:22
  see this is the reason why bullies and cyberbullies and
• 30:26
  trolls started to become a big thing.
• 30:30
  And within five years time on YouTube, they were being
• 30:33
  rewarded and they benefited from negative behavior negative
• 30:37
  interactions with other people on the internet.
• 30:42
  And why would they stop and ask yourself that?
• 30:45
  Why would somebody stop if you're getting paid?
• 30:49
  If you're getting a lot of money, if you're getting a lot
• 30:52
  of subscribers simply by making an entire YouTube channel,
• 30:56
  dedicated to someone that you think is a piece of trash or
• 31:02
  Garbage, why not? It works for them so they're not
• 31:08
  as long as it works. Why you try to fix something
• 31:11
  that's broken? Well, the other issue is that I
• 31:17
  found because I am self-aware, I acknowledge what's happening.
• 31:21
  Obviously after a couple years of doing this, I was never one
• 31:28
  of these type of people who just simply went along with what
• 31:31
  authorities said or the experts or anything like this.
• 31:35
  I always was a very opinionated person.
• 31:39
  I wasn't one of these type of people who watch television or
• 31:42
  the some kind of animal channel and said, well, this person said
• 31:48
  this, so I must believe it. I whenever it came to science or
• 31:52
  anything, I was a skeptic about everything in the world.
• 31:55
  As far as I was concerned, Concerned.
• 31:56
  The world was full of shit and most people have some kind of
• 32:01
  altar reason why alter motive or agenda why they say the things
• 32:06
  they do. So I never was one of these
• 32:11
  people who could just be led or talked into some crap and
• 32:14
  everything. Just because someone claim to be
• 32:17
  an expert or a professional my logic was, I don't know these
• 32:21
  people. How do I know that they're not?
• 32:24
  Just saying something so they can end up on a magazine cover?
• 32:28
  I'd already dealt with thousands of people who wanted popularity
• 32:31
  and fame, how far will somebody go in order to get popular or
• 32:35
  famous or can be considered important even if it's in a
• 32:39
  science Community or get some benefit of reward from politics,
• 32:44
  that was always my way of thinking and that's really not
• 32:47
  changed at all. Well.
• 32:54
  The problem with groups and labels as whether it's atheist
• 32:59
  or religious is people become inclusive.
• 33:04
  You'll find that it's extremely challenging to make friends with
• 33:07
  both Christians as well as atheists and some groups.
• 33:11
  Because atheists have this kind of set idea of what type of
• 33:15
  person you have to be, what kind of person that believes our
• 33:20
  thanks like them. They want the wolf pack
• 33:23
  mentality, they want the, they want followers and they want
• 33:27
  people, that will agree with them on things.
• 33:29
  They don't want the conflict of having to debate or argue with,
• 33:33
  One. Who's on supposed to be
• 33:35
  according to them on their own team.
• 33:37
  Now they'll say that they're they're about individualism that
• 33:41
  they're about thinking for themselves and being a critical
• 33:45
  thinker. But the truth is everybody wants
• 33:47
  to be on a team and they want to be on the winning team.
• 33:53
  And me. As far as I was concerned, the
• 33:58
  only one that was on my team was my family and my daughter that
• 34:04
  was it. I wasn't thinking about internet
• 34:07
  teams and groups and all that kind of stuff that was never my
• 34:11
  thought process. I did care about atheists being
• 34:15
  able to be more accepted in society.
• 34:19
  I made many videos about how I felt that atheists were treated.
• 34:23
  Unfairly how People should treat each other with respect, how we
• 34:28
  should throw away labels and titles and all that kind of
• 34:31
  crap. And for some reason, some people
• 34:35
  didn't like that either. They didn't like it whenever you
• 34:38
  want after their groups or one after what they considered, or
• 34:42
  perceived as their own team as an atheist.
• 34:46
  You do not go after the other atheist, you don't say, no.
• 34:52
  I don't think this is the right way to go especially if you got
• 34:55
  one. That's that feels, they're
• 34:57
  really Alpha and they are intent on having a an army behind them
• 35:02
  to support. The Martin, whatever the hell
• 35:04
  they say or do. There was an atheist that I
• 35:11
  became extremely good friends with he, someone that hates me
• 35:16
  nowadays, in, which was, I was dead, an extremely, a very
• 35:22
  popular, a Pious back in the day, who's becoming more and
• 35:25
  more irrelevant nowadays. But this person and I, we were
• 35:30
  good friends and we talked a lot, they would ask me for ideas
• 35:33
  for topics for their videos. They would tell me about their
• 35:38
  problems and their issues. I ended up finding out that this
• 35:42
  person used to be a part of Christianity.
• 35:45
  I found out that their father used to actually run a church.
• 35:50
  And then, I ended up finding out that the father ran a diploma
• 35:53
  Mill where they were ripping kids off here.
• 35:57
  I am a father who's dealing with a disabled child, and I am told
• 36:03
  that this kid is basically the spawn of A preacher who ripped
• 36:08
  people off and Christianity destroyed.
• 36:11
  Their complete Futures and took away their savings and their
• 36:14
  income. Well, the same kid, I felt real
• 36:18
  sorry for him even though he was super smart and funny and he
• 36:22
  made really good atheist videos. He would do blogs and he would
• 36:27
  make videos where he said. That he was raped and abused.
• 36:33
  He made it clear that he'd been watching me for over a year.
• 36:37
  When we talked and pride that he said, I've been watching you for
• 36:39
  a year and he would ask me questions.
• 36:43
  Like, how much money do you make by talking about the pain in the
• 36:47
  abuse that you went through? Brett.
• 36:49
  And I told him, basically, what Christians, as well as atheists
• 36:53
  have done for me because of some of my problems and I think a
• 36:58
  light bulb went off in his head. He thought, well, if I make
• 37:01
  videos and I tell people Pull that I'm suffering and going
• 37:05
  through pain, then people will give me whatever I want.
• 37:10
  And he made it clear in one of his videos that he would do
• 37:13
  anything to become rich, wealthy and famous.
• 37:20
  So I started becoming a little bit more suspicious of his
• 37:22
  behavior and attitude and for good reason, well, one day, he
• 37:28
  went on a Blog and I was watching him and he was telling
• 37:32
  people that he was raped by church members, as well as
• 37:35
  family members. It was the most horrible thing
• 37:38
  I've ever seen. And then, right after he did
• 37:41
  that, he asked for people to send him money.
• 37:45
  What you would end up buying himself a car by himself a new
• 37:49
  coat and all these things, bunch of pretty toys for himself.
• 37:56
  I spoke to him in private and I said to him listen ma'am.
• 38:01
  When you and I first started talking you you didn't say
• 38:06
  anything about actually being abused or hurt.
• 38:10
  You never said anything about any of this stuff but now you're
• 38:14
  going on blogs and you're saying that and the reason why I
• 38:18
  brought it up to him was not to put him on Hot Seat, but it was
• 38:22
  because I wondered why it is that we talking privately.
• 38:26
  And he didn't tell me any of this stuff and we were friends,
• 38:29
  but he would tell strangers out on the internet, all this stuff.
• 38:34
  Unfortunately, for him, I recorded the conversation and it
• 38:38
  is up on YouTube and it has been up for a while.
• 38:42
  He said, Brett, I never got abused.
• 38:45
  Nothing ever happened to me. Nothing dark like that ever
• 38:48
  happened because I just wanted to make money.
• 38:50
  I wanted to get attention. Well.
• 38:56
  Lo and behold that person got everything they wanted, they got
• 39:00
  super popular and they were also endorsed and supported by the
• 39:04
  atheist community. And I'll be honest with you,
• 39:08
  seeing that person launched through the Stars.
• 39:11
  Like they did, knowing that they were corrupt knowing that they
• 39:14
  were a liar knowing that they were willing to go so far that
• 39:18
  they would basically throw dirt in the face of their family
• 39:22
  members and Christianity knowing that.
• 39:25
  Nothing Ever happened to them just so they could make a buck
• 39:28
  off of people's empathy and sympathy it was upsetting for me
• 39:32
  it was painful, it was painful because I knew that there were
• 39:36
  actual atheist and religious people out there who did suffer
• 39:39
  who did hurt who have been abused and they needed help.
• 39:44
  But instead somebody like this, who was scandalous and duplessis
• 39:49
  was willing to use them and abuse them for everything they
• 39:52
  had well, I wasn't going to sit back and be quiet about it.
• 40:02
  I'm a person who actually cares about humans.
• 40:05
  I'm a person who cared about atheist and their lives.
• 40:09
  I cared about religious people. So I made videos where I talked
• 40:13
  about this and the person obviously felt that they needed
• 40:19
  to defend themself, but they had an advantage over me that I did
• 40:23
  not. The advantage was that they were
• 40:27
  willing to lie and say, whatever it took in order to bury me in
• 40:31
  the ground, as where I had the fight by the rules.
• 40:35
  I had to fight fair because I was an honest, good person and
• 40:39
  honest could persons, they don't get to put nails in their boxing
• 40:43
  glove. They don't get to say, the most
• 40:46
  horrible terrible things that there is, if you're going to be
• 40:50
  a good person, you can't fight like an evil person.
• 40:53
  You Can't Fight Fire With Fire. Fire.
• 40:55
  And unfortunately, in that exchange I didn't do too well.
• 40:59
  It turned out that a lot of people weren't as moral and
• 41:02
  ethical as they claim to be and people were starting to get to
• 41:06
  the point where they found more entertainment from lies than the
• 41:10
  truth. Eventually.
• 41:20
  I continued to love atheist and religious people.
• 41:24
  I continued to console non-believers, I would still get
• 41:28
  thousands of calls and I'd still be listening and trying to help
• 41:32
  people and support people the best I could promote people
• 41:37
  listen to their problems. There's many many times where,
• 41:42
  like I had an atheist female who called and she said, my husband
• 41:46
  died. And I got a baby and I can't get
• 41:52
  diapers. I can't get baby food.
• 41:54
  So I wired her a bunch of money. There were atheists who told me
• 41:59
  they were going to be evicted or they were going to lose their
• 42:02
  homes and all that and I helped them And I started losing more
• 42:07
  and more money by trying to help other people.
• 42:10
  I wasn't Rich wasn't wealthy, but because I was getting
• 42:14
  donations and support from some people, it gave me a little bit
• 42:18
  more leeway to build. Help out other people basically
• 42:21
  give back. Two people.
• 42:26
  I felt like people to help me. Why not help back.
• 42:29
  That's what I wanted to do. so, Smoking a vapor over here.
• 42:39
  Folks, if you're wondering, I've been trying to lay off from the
• 42:44
  cigarettes. One day, I'll just lie, there
• 42:49
  was a time after much much conversation and pondering and
• 42:56
  deliberation. After losing many atheist
• 43:00
  friends to suicide and not knowing what kind of suggestions
• 43:04
  or advice. I could give people who didn't
• 43:06
  believe there was any meaning or purpose in the world.
• 43:10
  I started realizing that as an atheist has very limited on how
• 43:14
  I could help people. I didn't have an Actual
• 43:17
  community. In reality.
• 43:19
  I didn't have an organization that could help support or help
• 43:23
  atheist. I realized that I was still in a
• 43:29
  bind. And I started also pondering a
• 43:34
  lot of things like the universe. And what is my place in it?
• 43:39
  What is my purpose? Is there more to existence?
• 43:44
  I also started to feel more positive about some things
• 43:48
  because my daughter seem to be getting stronger and stronger,
• 43:51
  and she was healing. And I myself so much time had
• 43:57
  passed. I started healing from the
• 43:59
  deaths and the tragedies that happened in my own life.
• 44:04
  I started being able to wake up in the morning and I actually
• 44:07
  feel good about myself and about my life.
• 44:14
  There's something about like picking your daughter up and
• 44:19
  just listening to her giggle and laugh and all that and looking
• 44:23
  happy and seeing the spark in her eye knowing that she's not
• 44:27
  going to die that really moves and it warms the heart of a man
• 44:32
  a father. And because of this, I started
• 44:36
  to believe that maybe there's a possibility of Miracles.
• 44:39
  The doctors, you know, the experts the authorities.
• 44:43
  They had all told me that she wasn't going to make it but she
• 44:47
  was getting stronger and better every day.
• 44:49
  She was starting to be able to walk.
• 44:52
  She was able to be able to communicate And my son was
• 44:57
  getting older. He was getting stronger.
• 44:59
  He was starting school and I was starting to be able to really
• 45:05
  pay my bills and get my life together to young parents, me
• 45:09
  and my wife. We're finally starting to do
• 45:13
  something in our life. We were finally to a point where
• 45:18
  we were able to talk to each other and not have to work.
• 45:21
  So damn hard that we were able to spend more time with our kids
• 45:25
  and ourselves and really be able to learn more about each other.
• 45:32
  And the more and more time we spend with each other, the more
• 45:35
  and more, we loved each other and the stronger.
• 45:38
  My family became and I started feeling more and more like, That
• 45:46
  some of these Christians might actually have a point that
• 45:49
  there's something out there. That cares, something good is
• 45:52
  happening. I ended up having a weird dream.
• 46:01
  And that's all it was was a dream.
• 46:03
  It wasn't some kind of physical manifestation of God.
• 46:07
  It wasn't some kind of like magical thing that appeared in
• 46:11
  front of me, was just a dream I had.
• 46:13
  And I am self aware enough to know that dreams are just that
• 46:18
  their dreams, but something odd happened.
• 46:22
  I had a dream that God was speaking to me.
• 46:27
  And I was basically told in the dream Brad, if you remove all
• 46:32
  your atheist videos and all the things that you said, over the
• 46:35
  past couple of years, if you stop doing that and you accept
• 46:41
  me and you accept what I'm about, your life, won't always
• 46:46
  be easy, but it won't feel impossible.
• 46:51
  You won't be alone anymore. I'll be there for you.
• 46:55
  And I love you, but you have to make a sacrifice, you have to,
• 47:00
  you have to change, you have to get rid of this stuff.
• 47:06
  The dream went on for a long time where God, basically told
• 47:10
  me that I wasn't doing any good for the atheist anymore.
• 47:16
  That. That wasn't going to, there was
• 47:20
  no future for atheists whatsoever that I need to
• 47:24
  actually look beyond that Beyond these labels and groups.
• 47:28
  And I need to consider all human beings, not just try to
• 47:32
  represent one human being or a group.
• 47:34
  So, when I woke up after this dream, I pondered and I pondered
• 47:43
  it and I spoke to my wife and I said, honey, I'm going to remove
• 47:47
  all the videos that I did having to do with atheism.
• 47:52
  And she said, why? And I said, well, I explained
• 47:56
  the dream to her. I told her about it.
• 47:59
  And she goes well, maybe just, maybe it was God.
• 48:03
  That talk to you. A lot of good things have been
• 48:06
  improving and I said, well, how do you feel about that?
• 48:10
  And she goes well, honey, I'm not sure.
• 48:12
  I believe in the same way, a lot of Christians do or religious
• 48:15
  people. But I do believe there's
• 48:17
  something out there that's been watching us something out there
• 48:20
  that cares. And I said, well honey, why
• 48:23
  didn't you ever tell me this? Why didn't you ever tell me that
• 48:27
  you believe that something was out there for all these years?
• 48:31
  I've been doing these atheist videos and you never said
• 48:34
  anything. About it and she said well you
• 48:38
  were going through a lot of pain when your mother died.
• 48:40
  You were going through a lot of pain dealing with the loss of
• 48:43
  your grandmother. And also with our daughter and
• 48:48
  it seemed like you were very irritated with religious ideas
• 48:52
  and beliefs. So I didn't I didn't know if it
• 48:55
  was a good idea or appropriate to tell you where I'm at on
• 48:59
  that. and I realized that, All that time.
• 49:07
  Having the narrow-minded view of atheism and so much anger and
• 49:11
  animosity that my own wife didn't feel like she could share
• 49:16
  something that important or significant in her perspective
• 49:20
  with me because she didn't know how I'd react. that we couldn't
• 49:25
  be fully 100% honest with each other as long as I held onto
• 49:29
  this ridiculous concept that we're alone in the universe that
• 49:35
  there's nothing to it but there's no meaning and purpose
• 49:38
  of it's all nihilistic So, I went over to my computer and I
• 49:45
  collect, select all are in all my videos.
• 49:48
  I deleted them. And shortly after after I
• 49:53
  relaxed and calm down, I made myself a cup of coffee and I
• 49:57
  made a video basically telling the world I believe in God.
• 50:02
  I believe that there is some kind of higher power I believe
• 50:05
  that there's more to this than just what atheism declares or
• 50:09
  claims and the next thing I knew I had a bunch of Christians,
• 50:16
  say, praise God bless you, Brett.
• 50:20
  I always knew you were going to be a warrior for Christ, and I
• 50:23
  mean, just unbelievable amount of support from religious folks.
• 50:28
  Of course, there were some Christians, he didn't buy it,
• 50:31
  they figured it was April Fool's or something, it was some kind
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  of prank why they were being played, because Christians are
• 50:38
  not stupid. They're not just going to jump
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  right on it and be like, yay, and five minutes.
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  They got to see your fruit, they got to see your actions.
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  They got to see what you're going to do.
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  You know, they had been lied to by so many atheists out there
• 50:55
  pretending to be Christians and trolled so many times that they
• 50:59
  just simply weren't going to buy that you believe in God in five
• 51:04
  minutes. Not after all the bad
• 51:05
  experiences they had with non-believers before.
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  Well obviously, I still had a massive following of atheist to
• 51:14
  had been watching me. And the phone started, ringing
• 51:21
  off the hook Skype started beeping, and beeping and
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  beeping. And I remember seeing that one
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  of my best friends in the whole wide world called himself, Adam
• 51:35
  lore. Wanted to talk to me.
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  So I pride or a ties. The people that I knew the best,
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  our new, the longest, at least, do the internet know how and I
• 51:48
  clicked on him and I said, how you doing there?
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  Adam, what's going on? And he goes, what are you
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  fucking retarded brat. Are you stupid, what the hell's
• 51:57
  wrong with you? You stupid.
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  And I said, what's the problem there at him?
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  And he goes, man, what the fuck are you?
• 52:09
  And I said, Adam, what do you can you be more specific?
• 52:13
  And he goes, what do you mean? You believe in god, what is
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  this? You've been an Atheist for all
• 52:19
  this time and I said, but Adam, you and I we talked and I told
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  you many times, I've been pondering and that I think that
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  atheism might not be the best position for me.
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  I said, I've been questioning us for a while and I've been honest
• 52:35
  with you about that. He goes this is stupid brat.
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  This is retarded. And he told me I don't ever want
• 52:42
  to talk to you again and he hung up on me.
• 52:46
  About a week later, he would eventually call me back and we'd
• 52:50
  talk and he'd call me names and that took quite a few months to
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  finally get him to chill. The hell out.
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  Be able to talk to me like a friend again.
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  But I realized at that point that I was in serious trouble.
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  I realized that these people who claim to be my friends, some of
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  them were only claiming to be my friend because they believed I
• 53:16
  was like them. A carbon copy of themself that
• 53:22
  they didn't actually care about me for who I was some people
• 53:27
  felt betrayed because they used me for like a psychiatrist or
• 53:32
  Internet, shrink who they could talk to you for hours on end
• 53:37
  about their problems. But since they had anxiety, and
• 53:40
  did not trust Christians. And here, I am believing in God.
• 53:45
  They didn't feel like they could trust me anymore.
• 53:47
  I didn't feel like you could talk.
• 53:48
  Talk to me. So the calls started getting
• 53:52
  less and less, it wasn't thousands of calls anymore, and
• 53:56
  if I did get a call it was fucked.
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  You Brett, you're a piece of shit.
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  Fuck you bright, you need to die.
• 54:04
  You know, just it got bad got really, really rough.
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  And then finally, it just kept getting to the point where I was
• 54:11
  like that where I had to change my phone number and I ended up
• 54:16
  start using Google Voice, instead of giving people, my
• 54:19
  home, phone number, Google Voice, made it to where people
• 54:23
  had to leave a message first and then I'd call him back because I
• 54:27
  didn't want to get on the line with somebody in real time and
• 54:29
  be abused and verbally attacked for this.
• 54:34
  But I ended up losing a lot of people who are supposedly my
• 54:37
  friend. And people would say to me, but
• 54:42
  you're never going to be famous again.
• 54:44
  You're never going to be popular.
• 54:45
  You're never going to have big subscribers.
• 54:47
  You never never. Never never.
• 54:50
  And I said, well then you never knew me to have did you because
• 54:53
  this was never about subscribers and Views.
• 54:55
  This was about making it in my life and finding the truth.
• 55:00
  Finding what's good for me and my family.
• 55:03
  This isn't about Trying to help some movement or some kind of
• 55:08
  political agenda. It's about my life.
• 55:17
  So obviously a lot of these people, they have their own
• 55:22
  YouTube channels and a lot of atheists.
• 55:26
  Now, realize they couldn't call me to get their videos promoted
• 55:29
  because I'm not going to put an atheist video up on a channel
• 55:32
  that promotes our endorses God. I mean, he'll I wouldn't even
• 55:35
  allow my own atheist videos Fiat there anymore.
• 55:38
  So, how could anybody expected? I was going to promote or
• 55:41
  endorse any non-believer content where they dumped on God, right?
• 55:49
  And immediately within months, I had over 500 videos made about
• 55:56
  me. People are making podcasts and
• 55:59
  shows where they attacked me. They would call me a liar.
• 56:03
  A deceiver, they would say things like Brett's only a
• 56:07
  Christian because he gets paid. They give him a lot of money
• 56:11
  Brett's this way, this way this way.
• 56:14
  But the truth was Christians weren't given me a lot of money.
• 56:18
  I mean, it was enough each month to maybe take care of a bill or
• 56:22
  two and we're talking like a water bill that's like 30 bucks
• 56:25
  or maybe an electric bill that if it was good.
• 56:29
  Weather outside, maybe 120 bucks for you could do this.
• 56:32
  I wasn't making big money. I wasn't making like in the
• 56:35
  thousands or something. But I was making enough to for
• 56:39
  our lives to be more comfortable.
• 56:43
  And we would save everything that we had that didn't go into
• 56:47
  bills or groceries or hospital bills and all that kind of
• 56:51
  stuff. But atheist had all kinds of
• 56:53
  theories and ideas and why they could not accept that.
• 56:58
  I logically and rationally took the position of God because I
• 57:02
  actually believed it was true. It had to be that I was
• 57:05
  trolling, it had to be that I was a deceiver, it had to be
• 57:08
  because I was a bad person. And you all here, all these
• 57:12
  videos of these atheists, who say things like, you know,
• 57:16
  Brett, he's really good at, you know, seeming like he's nice and
• 57:20
  that he's a good guy and then you find out that he's a liar
• 57:24
  and a betrayer and, you know, he burns his friends, he hurts
• 57:29
  people and all this. Well.
• 57:34
  I'm sorry that all these atheists feel like I betrayed
• 57:37
  them because I became a Christian but the truth is is I
• 57:42
  didn't hang up on you. I didn't tell you that you
• 57:46
  couldn't call me anymore. In fact I was more than willing
• 57:50
  to continue to council atheist. I was more than willing to
• 57:53
  continue to be their friend. I even had some young atheist
• 57:58
  who used to call and say, I wish you were my dad or I wish you
• 58:01
  were my uncle and all this kind of stuff.
• 58:04
  I cherished those times of being able to help a non-believer.
• 58:10
  I cherish those times that I could make somebody go from
• 58:14
  being suicidal, the feeling like they can live another day.
• 58:19
  I cherish the time that I had with non-believers even though I
• 58:25
  considered them friends and I love them.
• 58:29
  They were the ones who actually turned on me.
• 58:34
  Now, some Christians out there, you may claim.
• 58:37
  Well, they didn't They didn't walk away from you because
• 58:41
  you're a bad person but they they hate you because they hate
• 58:44
  Jesus. It's biblical.
• 58:47
  Now, I really believe some of these people feel like they're
• 58:50
  betrayed. You can hear it in some of their
• 58:53
  videos, they say things like he pretends to be your friend.
• 58:57
  Are he pretends to care about you and then he turns out to be
• 59:01
  blah blah blah blah. I mean, where do you think they
• 59:04
  come up with that crap from Or do you think they come up with
• 59:08
  that nonsense? There are people in my past that
• 59:13
  I did end up shutting down and I stopped being friends with.
• 59:18
  I gave you an example of one of the most popular people was
• 59:22
  going around telling people that they were sexually abused by
• 59:25
  their family and Christians, And then they admitted to me that
• 59:30
  they lied in order to get attention and money.
• 59:32
  So yeah. What else was I supposed to do?
• 59:37
  I also had other people who lied and we're trying to do some kind
• 59:41
  of pyramid schemes and do some bull crap and they wanted me to
• 59:46
  participate in their help. And I told them no, there are
• 59:49
  people, I didn't promote and they considered that a, like a
• 59:53
  personal attack on their person for not doing what they wanted
• 59:58
  me to do. A lot of atheists are very
• 1:00:00
  controlling, they don't get what they want.
• 1:00:04
  Then you're the bad guy. And because they don't believe
• 1:00:07
  in the Forgiveness of Jesus. They just want to see your
• 1:00:11
  throat slit. I mean, I could give hundreds of
• 1:00:24
  examples of why these people behave the way they do.
• 1:00:28
  Why it is they make videos where they lie about me, they say
• 1:00:32
  everything from. I'm a plagiarist even though my
• 1:00:35
  books have been up on Barnes and Nobles and Amazon for just as
• 1:00:40
  many years as I've been on YouTube, except for the newer
• 1:00:44
  books, obviously that I got up there, those haven't been around
• 1:00:48
  as long obviously, because they're new.
• 1:00:51
  Front of my music, making fun of the way I look, they used to
• 1:00:56
  tell me that. I had a powerful voice and now
• 1:00:58
  they make videos where they mock my voice.
• 1:01:02
  Basically every single thing that they did like about me, or
• 1:01:05
  they loved about me that they told me they cared about is the
• 1:01:09
  very thing that they hate now because I'm not the person that
• 1:01:13
  they wanted me to be. I'm not an atheist like them.
• 1:01:18
  And nowadays, they might have convinced himself that that has
• 1:01:21
  nothing to do with it. Nowadays they say well I look at
• 1:01:25
  other peoples videos and people say a lot of stuff about you and
• 1:01:30
  a lot of people who know you but the truth is ladies and
• 1:01:33
  gentlemen is that these people know me about as well as they
• 1:01:36
  know you personally in real life, you know that when you
• 1:01:40
  turn off your video You go on to exist in reality and on the
• 1:01:46
  Internet it's all nothing but a game.
• 1:01:48
  It's a bunch of crap. Bunch of people who are
• 1:01:51
  pretending to be something, they're not.
• 1:01:54
  It's a bunch of people who clean up real pretty when they're
• 1:01:56
  usually not like that at all. It's men who put on makeup just
• 1:02:00
  so they can get it some attention on a video.
• 1:02:04
  This is fantasy world. So, I hope that I've answered
• 1:02:10
  everything. I think after this big long
• 1:02:16
  video, this will really well. Who am?
• 1:02:20
  I kidding, a lot of you. You, the the fact is some of you
• 1:02:25
  don't even give a shit about the truth.
• 1:02:27
  You don't even want to know what reality actually is about any of
• 1:02:31
  this. Some of you've deluded yourself
• 1:02:34
  into believing shit about yourself today and even true.
• 1:02:37
  So if you are going to do that to yourself, and how could I
• 1:02:39
  even imagine for a moment that you'll understand?
• 1:02:44
  Or comprehend, where I'm coming from.
• 1:02:49
  Some of you, I suppose we'll get it a few of you here and there
• 1:02:53
  doesn't really matter and I'll tell you why.
• 1:02:56
  It's not because I don't care what you think.
• 1:02:59
  It's because what really matters is what I think about myself and
• 1:03:03
  what I know the truth that I actually know, that's what's
• 1:03:07
  important. And that's the reason why I'm a
• 1:03:08
  Christian because I know that God is real, I know that God
• 1:03:13
  exists and I know that a lot of these people out here they
• 1:03:17
  believe in God. To, but they're pissed and
• 1:03:20
  they're angry and some of them do it for money, some of them,
• 1:03:24
  do it for cash, some of it do, some of them do it to sell
• 1:03:28
  products. Some of them do it to inflate
• 1:03:31
  their ego period. And I know that for a fact,
• 1:03:35
  because I've talked to thousands of these people, I consoled
• 1:03:40
  them. I was their friend and the only
• 1:03:45
  reason why we're not friends now is because One.
• 1:03:49
  I'm not going to be friends with Liars or thieves.
• 1:03:53
  Idolaters adulterers people who cheat but I'm also not going to
• 1:03:58
  be friends with fake people and even though I'm not as famous
• 1:04:03
  and I'm not as popular as I used to be.
• 1:04:07
  I am so much more happier than I've ever been.
• 1:04:10
  I have two healthy children, a beautiful, fantastic wife and
• 1:04:15
  the friends I do have, I know I can trust.
• 1:04:19
  I know that they're real and I'm going to say this, I'd rather
• 1:04:23
  have five good people in my life with big hearts than a billion,
• 1:04:28
  deceptive evil assholes who are on their way to hell.
• 1:04:34
  Ladies and gentlemen, at 7 p.m. tonight, I'll be doing a live
• 1:04:37
  show. The link will be made public
• 1:04:39
  anybody, and everybody is welcome to come in.
• 1:04:41
  I hope you enjoyed the video.