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Spiritual Awakenings & Shadow Work: How To Deal with Both · Spunky Spirit with Cari Mugz

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  Speaker 1: Welcome to the Spunky Spirit podcast. I'm your host, psychic
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  Speaker 1: medium Carrie Mugs. This is where we learn all things spirit,
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  Speaker 2: Oh, welcome to this episode a Spiky Spirit. I am
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  Speaker 2: psychic medium Carry Mugs and today we're going to talk
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  Speaker 2: about shadow work. And I know I've talked about this before,
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  Speaker 2: but I need to talk about it again. I feel
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  Speaker 2: really strongly that I need to talk about again because
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  Speaker 2: it's something that we work on throughout our whole lives.
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  Speaker 2: It's not just something we do and it's one and done.
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  Speaker 2: There's always healing to do in our lives. And sometimes
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  Speaker 2: when we think we've already healed from a trauma in
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  Speaker 2: our life or something in our life, we can go
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  Speaker 2: on for years and then go through something and have
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  Speaker 2: it be triggered again. And so that's why we constantly
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  Speaker 2: are working on our on ourselves and on our healing.
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  Speaker 2: And it's not something Spiritual growth is not something outside
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  Speaker 2: of you. Spiritual enlightenment, spiritual power, spiritual tepping into your
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  Speaker 2: gifts is not something outside of you. It's always something
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  Speaker 2: inside of you. And when it's inside of you, it's
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  Speaker 2: because you have to heal. You have to heal from
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  Speaker 2: you have to heal from stuff, and you have to
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  Speaker 2: heal from things that trigger you. And even if you
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  Speaker 2: had the best childhood ever, there's still some things in
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  Speaker 2: your life that you have to process and you have
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  Speaker 2: to get through. And this is called shadow work. There's
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  Speaker 2: lots of things. Nobody ever goes through this world unscathed.
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  Speaker 2: Even if you're the richest, most powerful, you know best life,
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  Speaker 2: there's things inside of your lifetime that you are learning
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  Speaker 2: because you wanted to learn those things. You put it
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  Speaker 2: on your blueprint before you came here that you wanted
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  Speaker 2: to learn and grow. And spiritual growth is an inside job.
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  Speaker 2: It's always always going on and so a lot of times,
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  Speaker 2: the way you know the difference between the dark and
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  Speaker 2: the light of healing is when you're triggered about something,
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  Speaker 2: or when somebody triggers you about something, like if you
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  Speaker 2: go to a healer and they bring a trigger to
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  Speaker 2: you or you and what I mean by trigger is
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  Speaker 2: you you something comes up again and you feel the
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  Speaker 2: feels and you feel the drowning or you feel the
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  Speaker 2: you know, the upsetness or the tension or the anxiety
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  Speaker 2: from a dark healer or somebody who's dark. The dark
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  Speaker 2: doesn't want you to process it. They want it to
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  Speaker 2: keep you down. They want you to dwell on it.
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  Speaker 2: They want you to the dark wants you to. You know,
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  Speaker 2: that's what anxiety is. Think about it all the time
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  Speaker 2: and dwell on it and dwell on it and deal
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  Speaker 2: with not deal with it, but just you know, like
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  Speaker 2: constantly think about it and dwell on it and not
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  Speaker 2: move from it and have it hinder you and have
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  Speaker 2: it have you stay put. It actually will lower your frequency.
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  Speaker 2: But if you go to a healer that's a light
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  Speaker 2: a healer that is you know, trying to help or
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  Speaker 2: trying to help heal, they'll help you deal and process
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  Speaker 2: the triggers and the anxiety and help you feel it,
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  Speaker 2: but move forward in it and move past it and
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  Speaker 2: move more. And so that's how you can tell the
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  Speaker 2: difference between when you do shadow work the light in
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  Speaker 2: the dark, because if you're processing it and you're moving
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  Speaker 2: it and you're you're raising your frequency. Then you know
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  Speaker 2: that's when you and that's when you know you're having
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  Speaker 2: kind of an awakening too. Is you want to learn more,
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  Speaker 2: you want to get better, you want to heal, you
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  Speaker 2: want to raise your frequency.
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  Speaker 3: If you're like stuck in this, if.
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  Speaker 2: You're not growing and you're not having you know, there's
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  Speaker 2: always growth, right, always, always always grow because without growth,
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  Speaker 2: we wouldn't without without change, we wouldn't have growth. And
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  Speaker 2: so there's always something to be learning about yourself, always
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  Speaker 2: something new. And the trick is is to love yourself
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  Speaker 2: and accept yourself with even all those dark triggers and
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  Speaker 2: all of that trauma and all of that, you know,
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  Speaker 2: all of that stuff that you think other people don't
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  Speaker 2: like about you, You love all the stuff that you
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  Speaker 2: think maybe you don't want anybody to know, or you know,
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  Speaker 2: those those thoughts that you have sometimes that you hope
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  Speaker 2: nobody knows about or about other people about yourself, all
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  Speaker 2: of that stuff. You have to realize that you are
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  Speaker 2: not alone and that you are beautiful inside and out.
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  Speaker 2: And you've got to love yourself regardless, regardless of that
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  Speaker 2: and feeling not good enough, You've got to be happy
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  Speaker 2: where you're at in what you're doing because you know
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  Speaker 2: that there's always progression. If you are raising your frequency
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  Speaker 2: and raise in your life, there's always progression. Now, awakenings
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  Speaker 2: usually happen when you're going through some sort of trauma,
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  Speaker 2: either you've lost somebody to you know, a relationship or
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  Speaker 2: lost them to dying or in your grieving. Grief causes
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  Speaker 2: a lot of spiritual awakenings, and spiritual awakenings are kind
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  Speaker 2: of the start of deep night of the soul. Spiritual
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  Speaker 2: awakenings you know are true, you know you know truth,
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  Speaker 2: You see truth, you see past the lies of people
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  Speaker 2: and of the earth and all the things, and you
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  Speaker 2: start to question everything you've ever been taught, everything you've
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  Speaker 2: ever gone through, you start to question it and you
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  Speaker 2: try to start to heal from it. And so that
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  Speaker 2: can be dark knight of So tool you don't have
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  Speaker 2: to go through something super traumatic as a child, but
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  Speaker 2: even just growing up in a certain religion can can
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  Speaker 2: cause you know, you could have some spiritual growth there
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  Speaker 2: that could be triggered because you could be like, Okay,
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  Speaker 2: is this what I really thought it was? Is this
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  Speaker 2: what I'm supposed to be doing? And any type of
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  Speaker 2: thing that you've gone through that like doesn't let you
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  Speaker 2: be authentic or in your whole lifetime that you aren't
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  Speaker 2: allowed to be who you wanted to be, that which
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  Speaker 2: can cause any type of like trauma response or And
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  Speaker 2: I am not a counselor. I'm going to tell you
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  Speaker 2: this right now. I am not a counselor. I tell
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  Speaker 2: this to people all the time. What I do readings,
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  Speaker 2: I do not counsel This is just from my own
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  Speaker 2: opinion and from what I've seen. Because you know, honestly,
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  Speaker 2: spiritual wakenings can be very, very If you are going
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  Speaker 2: through spiritual wakening and you are going through the dark
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  Speaker 2: knight of the soul, I do recommend maybe going to
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  Speaker 2: a counselor who who also understands spiritual, spiritual sense or spiritualness.
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  Speaker 2: And because there is a fine line I've always said
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  Speaker 2: this between mental health and and spiritual health, and sometimes
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  Speaker 2: that line can be crossed if you ever feel like
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  Speaker 2: somebody or something is telling you to do something you
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  Speaker 2: don't want to, or if you feel like you're in
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  Speaker 2: the dark knight of sulin you don't want to try
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  Speaker 2: and get out of it, and you stay in that
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  Speaker 2: lower frequency, You're going to need help.
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  Speaker 3: And it's okay to ask for help. It really really is.
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  Speaker 2: Shadow work is no joke, and it sounds scary, and
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  Speaker 2: it sounds it sounds scary, and shadow works, I mean
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  Speaker 2: when I first heard of shadow work, I thought, like
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  Speaker 2: ghosts and demons and all that stuff, we're gonna like
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  Speaker 2: come after me. And that's not what it is. Shadow
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  Speaker 2: work is is you know, figuring out your shadow, your
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  Speaker 2: own demons, your own things that cause you to act
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  Speaker 2: a certain way or to cause you to not be
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  Speaker 2: yourself and who you want to be.
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  Speaker 3: And because.
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  Speaker 2: You need to figure out who you are and who
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  Speaker 2: you are authentically and what you love and what you
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  Speaker 2: love to do, not because somebody you to be like that.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, you think about it. When we're born, we're
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  Speaker 2: given a name, we're given a number, and we're given
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  Speaker 2: a religion and we are expected to believe in those things.
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  Speaker 2: And we do believe in those things because that's what
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  Speaker 2: we're taught. And so there's going to be lots of
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  Speaker 2: things that happen in your lifetime that are not aligned
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  Speaker 2: with who you are authentically, who you are deep down,
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  Speaker 2: because those things are just automatically given to you and
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  Speaker 2: they don't even give you time to grow and to
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  Speaker 2: expand before those things are handed down to you, So
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  Speaker 2: as you get older, you might decide that's not how
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  Speaker 2: I feel, or that's not how I feel, that's not
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  Speaker 2: what does that make sense? That's trying to explain it.
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  Speaker 2: But because shadow work is just is intricate, and it's complicated,
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  Speaker 2: and it's something that lots of people don't know, don't
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  Speaker 2: know how, don't know how to get through it, and
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  Speaker 2: they don't want to do it, a lot of people
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  Speaker 2: will not attempt shadow work. And I'm just telling you
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  Speaker 2: right now, if you go to a healer or to
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  Speaker 2: somebody who you want to help with spiritually that you
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  Speaker 2: want them to be spiritually, if they haven't experienced shadow work,
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  Speaker 2: I'm not really sure if they should. I mean they
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  Speaker 2: if they go from like skip the steps of shadow
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  Speaker 2: work and all of that stuff. I don't want to
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  Speaker 2: because everybody has to start somewhere, right And I started
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  Speaker 2: before I went through a whole bunch of shadow work too.
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  Speaker 2: But I didn't really dwell on shadow work. I just did,
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  Speaker 2: like I connected to the other side. But now when
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  Speaker 2: I talk about this or when it comes through in
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  Speaker 2: readings that you need to process certain things, I get it.
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  Speaker 3: I get it.
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  Speaker 2: I understand it because shadow work is no joke. And
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  Speaker 2: I'm not saying you have to go through shadow work.
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  Speaker 3: I think you got it. I think everybody does.
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  Speaker 2: Everybody has to go through their own depth or their
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  Speaker 2: own dark knight of the soul, their own like, Oh
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  Speaker 2: my gosh, is this really? Is this really me? Is
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  Speaker 2: this really what I want to do?
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  Speaker 3: Is this?
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  Speaker 2: I mean, question everything about their existence and their life
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  Speaker 2: and how they were treated or what they believe. That's
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  Speaker 2: where false beliefs come through. That's where you know, how
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  Speaker 2: you were raised comes through. All of that comes through.
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  Speaker 2: And if there's not a time in your life where
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  Speaker 2: you don't you don't question that or you don't I mean,
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  Speaker 2: it could totally be healthy, but you always have to
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  Speaker 2: question everything. And that's a lot of times when shadow
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  Speaker 2: work will like appear is when you start to question.
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  Speaker 3: Your own beliefs.
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  Speaker 2: Then the things that you were taught or the things
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  Speaker 2: that you know, the things that you thought you stood for.
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  Speaker 2: The things that can help you get through shadow work though,
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  Speaker 2: are energy work, and I'm talking about you know, akoshia
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  Speaker 2: record readings and reiki and massages and footstones, typet and
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  Speaker 2: bowl massages. You know, even readings, any type of readings,
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  Speaker 2: because you know, your ancestors can come through sometimes and
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  Speaker 2: tell you things that you need to work on or
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  Speaker 2: process and as you know, and so that kind of
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  Speaker 2: will help too. But yeah, shadow work is the thing
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  Speaker 2: that's hard too about shadow work is some people think, well,
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  Speaker 2: I don't have anything to heal, and that's that's also
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  Speaker 2: not true. And I don't want you to create things
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  Speaker 2: to heal because if you're like in good mode right
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  Speaker 2: now and you're like, life is good, life is great
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  Speaker 2: because i've you know, you're When you don't, you don't
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  Speaker 2: know that there's a beyond or there's more to it.
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes you're like stuck in this in the matrix a
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  Speaker 2: little bit and you don't know, and so you think
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  Speaker 2: everything's fine, and then something happens and things start to
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  Speaker 2: shift and you start to question everything. You start to
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  Speaker 2: question all the things that you were ever taught and
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  Speaker 2: all of your childhood and other things, and that's what
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  Speaker 2: everything just kind of goes and it's it's kind of crazy.
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  Speaker 2: So I'm kind of I guess I'm kind of talking
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  Speaker 2: a little bit of awakenings too, because awakenings can can
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  Speaker 2: trigger shadow work because that's when you're like, what do
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  Speaker 2: I actually believe? And who am I actually and kind
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  Speaker 2: of do when you're stuck in this life of just
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  Speaker 2: being the same after day after day after day after day,
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  Speaker 2: and you're you kind of think, oh my gosh, do
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  Speaker 2: I really exist to wake up and go to work
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  Speaker 2: every day and come home and then do the same thing.
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  Speaker 2: When you kind of start to question that, you're you know,
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  Speaker 2: and there's some people that don't ever question that, And
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  Speaker 2: I think, you know, I think like my dad, I
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  Speaker 2: think he didn't, but I think he kind of did
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  Speaker 2: because I think that that's why he was an alcoholic,
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  Speaker 2: because I think, down deep he knew there was something different,
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  Speaker 2: but he didn't know how to grasp that or he
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  Speaker 2: didn't know how to find it, and so he would drink.
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  Speaker 2: And I think that some people are fine just living
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  Speaker 2: their lives, going to work and doing the same thing
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  Speaker 2: every every day and just live in the best life
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  Speaker 2: they can, and that's great. And I think that there's
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  Speaker 2: some some of people out there that want to know more.
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  Speaker 2: They want to go deeper, and they want to they
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  Speaker 2: want to know purpose, and they want to know, you know,
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  Speaker 2: what's really the truth and what's really out there and
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  Speaker 2: is there more, And that's when an awakening happens, and
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  Speaker 2: that's when the shadow work starts, because I mean when
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  Speaker 2: you're in the normal before I mean before awakening and
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  Speaker 2: after an awakening, Before and awakening, it's just you. There's
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  Speaker 2: some people out there that believe the more you suffer,
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  Speaker 2: the holier you are. Like you you want, there are
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  Speaker 2: some religions out there that believe that if you the
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  Speaker 2: more you suffer and the more trials you go through,
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  Speaker 2: the more worthy you are. And that is not true either.
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  Speaker 2: That is not true. Because we are in this world
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  Speaker 2: that we will find joy and authenticity, but to get there,
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  Speaker 2: we do have to really really peel back and figure
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  Speaker 2: out the truth, the truth about our lives, the truth
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  Speaker 2: about who we are. And sometimes that can be so
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  Speaker 2: hard because it's not what we were taught or it's
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  Speaker 2: not what we thought it was in our whole belief.
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  Speaker 2: It's like kind of like if you're driving in the
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  Speaker 2: car right now and you have little kids, you might
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  Speaker 2: want to skip this part, but it's kind of like,
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  Speaker 2: you know, you're taught about Santa Claus. You're taught that
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  Speaker 2: there's a Santa Claus, he comes to your house. You
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  Speaker 2: believe that and you believe that, and then when you
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  Speaker 2: find out the truth, it's kind of devastating and it's
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  Speaker 2: kind of like, Okay, what else is not real?
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  Speaker 3: Is Jesus not real?
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  Speaker 1: You know?
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  Speaker 2: You start questioning other things. That's kind of what a
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  Speaker 2: spiritual awakening is like. Is everything you're taught you're starting
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  Speaker 2: to fall into holes in it. You're starting to figure
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  Speaker 2: out things are different than what you thought. And it
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  Speaker 2: could be in a lot of things. It could be
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  Speaker 2: in your religion, your government, your family, anything. And then
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  Speaker 2: you start to question other things and you start to
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  Speaker 2: question inside. And then you start to question, you know,
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  Speaker 2: why did this happen to me?
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  Speaker 3: Or why?
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  Speaker 2: You know, because a lot of beliefs, if something does
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  Speaker 2: happen to you, like abuse or something in your life,
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  Speaker 2: you question why why did this happen? And as soon
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  Speaker 2: as you start to question, that's when the awakening starts
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  Speaker 2: to kind of come through. When you start to see truth,
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  Speaker 2: you start to see other other things, and then you
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  Speaker 2: get to process the trauma from it. You get to
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  Speaker 2: process you know, the the what do you call it
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  Speaker 2: when someone's disloyal, like you feel betrayed, the betrayal from
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  Speaker 2: all of it, the betrayal of what you were supposed
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  Speaker 2: to believe in and how things were supposed to to be.
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  Speaker 2: That's kind of where you start to grow and then
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  Speaker 2: you start to you know, because a lot of times
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  Speaker 2: when we do have trauma like that, we blame ourselves.
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  Speaker 2: We blame our own selves and then or sometimes we
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  Speaker 2: blame other people. And you know, an awakening can be
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  Speaker 2: that you take control of it yourself and you own it,
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  Speaker 2: or you realize that it wasn't your fault and it
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  Speaker 2: was you know, they're all kind of different. So so
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  Speaker 2: awakenings and shadow work can be very complicated and very hard.
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  Speaker 2: They can be, but I promise you they are so
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  Speaker 2: much worth it. On the other side, there's just so
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  Speaker 2: much more knowledge and so much more freedom, so much
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  Speaker 2: more freedom out on the other side of this, because
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  Speaker 2: you I mean, I'm not kidding you. When I was
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  Speaker 2: going through my first divorce, I thought it was the
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  Speaker 2: end of the world. I was devastated, I was depressed.
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  Speaker 2: I was like dark Knight of the Soul, couldn't function
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  Speaker 2: and it was just like darely.
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  Speaker 1: You know.
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  Speaker 2: There were times that I would lay in bed and
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  Speaker 2: the only reason I got out of bed is because
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  Speaker 2: I had four children. Then I also had to raise
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  Speaker 2: and it was so devastating, so much trauma in it
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  Speaker 2: and so much, so much just yuck. But then I
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  Speaker 2: got to the other side of it, and now now
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  Speaker 2: that I've like learned so much from it and become
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  Speaker 2: who I am, so much stronger, I'm so much just
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  Speaker 2: a better person, just awesome. And my you know, and
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  Speaker 2: I'm not My kids are probably going through counseling right
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  Speaker 2: now because of the trauma that they endured from some
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  Speaker 2: of that. But at the end of it, I would
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  Speaker 2: do it again. I would do it again in a
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  Speaker 2: heartbeat because I am such a stronger, more emotional, just
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  Speaker 2: an intact person and more confident and than I ever
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  Speaker 2: was when I was going through it, and so much better,
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  Speaker 2: so much better, so much more me more authentic and
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  Speaker 2: going through that and then also too, when I was
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  Speaker 2: going through my faith crisis with my pastor religion, same thing,
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  Speaker 2: I would so traumatic, so hard, so chaotic, so hurtful,
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  Speaker 2: like every day like I was just like, because you know,
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  Speaker 2: you have this huge belief system and you think you're
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  Speaker 2: going against the grain, you think you're going but then
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  Speaker 2: when you come out the other side of it, you
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  Speaker 2: realize that that was not, which it's just so worth it.
• 18:11
  Speaker 2: I want you to know that any kind of shadow
• 18:13
  Speaker 2: work you go through, any kind of awakening you go through,
• 18:17
  Speaker 2: may seem so hard, but you're not alone. And at
• 18:21
  Speaker 2: the end of it, you are so much more you
• 18:25
  Speaker 2: and authentic, and your frequency is so much higher, and
• 18:29
  Speaker 2: your love and compassion and all of that is so
• 18:32
  Speaker 2: much higher, your strong your commitment to who you are,
• 18:35
  Speaker 2: and you really a lot of times you're not selfish.
• 18:38
  Speaker 2: What we've been taught so much is to put everybody
• 18:41
  Speaker 2: else first. And you know, as long as you have compassion,
• 18:45
  Speaker 2: you don't have to have that. You know, you don't
• 18:48
  Speaker 2: have to put everybody else first. You can put you first,
• 18:51
  Speaker 2: so then you can you can put your oxygen mask
• 18:54
  Speaker 2: on first, so then you can help others, right, and so,
• 18:58
  Speaker 2: and it's okay if you don't certain relationships in your family,
• 19:03
  Speaker 2: and it's okay that you're self preserving. Now, there's a
• 19:07
  Speaker 2: difference between self preserving and punishing.
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: You.
• 19:11
  Speaker 2: If you're eliminating people from your family because you're punishing them,
• 19:14
  Speaker 2: that's one thing, and you probably need to work on
• 19:16
  Speaker 2: that more, and you need to do some more, you know,
• 19:18
  Speaker 2: some more soul searching on that. But if you're eliminating
• 19:22
  Speaker 2: people from your life for self preservation, to protect you
• 19:26
  Speaker 2: because there's so much trauma hurt there, then that's something
• 19:29
  Speaker 2: you need to also view and look at because you know,
• 19:34
  Speaker 2: this world is I hate to say this, but sometimes
• 19:37
  Speaker 2: this Earth is hard.
• 19:38
  Speaker 3: Earth can be hard.
• 19:39
  Speaker 2: But the trick is it's like a game and you
• 19:41
  Speaker 2: want to win it, right, Like you want to get passed,
• 19:45
  Speaker 2: you want to get pasted. It's like almost like, you know,
• 19:48
  Speaker 2: my son used to play Legend of Zelda and there
• 19:52
  Speaker 2: was you know, he'd go to different lands in the
• 19:55
  Speaker 2: game and there was one the Shadow Castle or something
• 19:58
  Speaker 2: like that that was kind of scared, but you had
• 20:01
  Speaker 2: to go through it to win the game. You had
• 20:04
  Speaker 2: to go through it. And so this is your shadow Castle.
• 20:07
  Speaker 2: You have to go through it. You have to face
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: your fears, you have to face all the shit you
• 20:12
  Speaker 2: have to you have to heal your shit, and you
• 20:15
  Speaker 2: have to face it so you can win the game.
• 20:17
  Speaker 3: That's exactly what you got to do, and it's so
• 20:22
  Speaker 3: profoundly worth it.
• 20:23
  Speaker 2: It can be scary because I remember the times when
• 20:25
  Speaker 2: he'd have to go through the shadow Castle on the game.
• 20:28
  Speaker 2: I would have to go in the room with him
• 20:29
  Speaker 2: and sit on the bed because you would kind of
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: scare him. It would be and it wasn't. It was
• 20:33
  Speaker 2: just like cartoonish. It was like Legend of Zelda. It
• 20:35
  Speaker 2: was a it's a game, and it would.
• 20:39
  Speaker 3: And so that's kind of how you do.
• 20:41
  Speaker 2: So you know, if you need someone to help you
• 20:43
  Speaker 2: go through the castle, then confide in somebody who's not
• 20:46
  Speaker 2: already going through the castle and that has the capacity
• 20:49
  Speaker 2: to help you go through the castle.
• 20:50
  Speaker 3: Right.
• 20:51
  Speaker 2: So, but I'm telling you, if you want to grow spiritually,
• 20:59
  Speaker 2: then you you have to go through the castle.
• 21:01
  Speaker 3: You do.
• 21:02
  Speaker 2: It's not spiritual enlightenment. Spiritual gifts are not an outside job.
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: They're all inside. And when people say that, they mean
• 21:10
  Speaker 2: you have to go through your shits. You have to
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: heal your shits before you can get it. And that's
• 21:16
  Speaker 2: just the beauty of it because when you do go
• 21:20
  Speaker 2: through that, you get to know who you are and
• 21:22
  Speaker 2: you get to love yourself unconditionally, no matter what you've
• 21:26
  Speaker 2: gone through or went through or have done in the past.
• 21:29
  Speaker 2: And so that's why shadow work is so important to
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: grow spiritually, and shadow work and I think in awakening
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: kind of go hand in hand because I think awakening,
• 21:38
  Speaker 2: your first awakening, there's.
• 21:40
  Speaker 3: More than just one awakening.
• 21:41
  Speaker 2: I feel like I feel like there's a The first
• 21:43
  Speaker 2: awakening is like is like rabbit hole, Like you're going
• 21:46
  Speaker 2: down this rabbit hole, going what the heck? The second
• 21:48
  Speaker 2: awakening and then you kind of go through some trauma
• 21:50
  Speaker 2: and you heal your trauma, you figure out what you're
• 21:53
  Speaker 2: trying to heal, and then the second awakening is just
• 21:55
  Speaker 2: I just feel like their frequency raises, it's pretty much
• 21:57
  Speaker 2: what they are. Every time you raise your frequency, you
• 21:59
  Speaker 2: go through something. You have to go through something, and
• 22:02
  Speaker 2: sometimes it's just about having confidence in yourself, because it
• 22:06
  Speaker 2: could be something as small as you getting teased by
• 22:11
  Speaker 2: someone you liked in grade school, and that diminishing your
• 22:14
  Speaker 2: confidence to do other things throughout the whole throughout the
• 22:18
  Speaker 2: you know your eternity. And I tell this story all
• 22:20
  Speaker 2: the time about my grandma. When she was in second grade,
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: she went up to the chalkboard to do a math problem,
• 22:26
  Speaker 2: and while she was up there doing the math problem,
• 22:28
  Speaker 2: her pants filed down, and she was devastated because all
• 22:31
  Speaker 2: the kids laughed at her. And that followed her throughout
• 22:33
  Speaker 2: her life and for little things like she was afraid
• 22:36
  Speaker 2: to get up in front of public. She was afraid
• 22:39
  Speaker 2: she lost her confidence, and she didn't ever like to
• 22:41
  Speaker 2: wear loose clothing because she was afraid it was going
• 22:43
  Speaker 2: to fall off. Just so many things that it affected
• 22:46
  Speaker 2: that she didn't even realize. And it wasn't even like
• 22:48
  Speaker 2: anybody hurt her. It wasn't like she was abused, It
• 22:51
  Speaker 2: wasn't like it was just something she carried throughout the
• 22:53
  Speaker 2: rest of her life. That was pretty traumatic for her.
• 22:56
  Speaker 2: And you know, she was a public speaker, she was
• 22:59
  Speaker 2: like the County treasure and it affected her for the
• 23:05
  Speaker 2: rest of her life. So just little things like that,
• 23:07
  Speaker 2: and you don't know, you don't know what. You don't
• 23:09
  Speaker 2: know until you go through it, until you go through
• 23:11
  Speaker 2: the shadow work and figure out where it came from.
• 23:13
  Speaker 2: So when you do get triggered and you're like, why
• 23:15
  Speaker 2: is that making me so mad? Why is this bothering me?
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: And you figure out and you go down the process,
• 23:21
  Speaker 2: this is bothering me because of this from so long ago.
• 23:26
  Speaker 2: That's like ninety percent of the healing, right, ninety percent
• 23:29
  Speaker 2: of the healing.
• 23:30
  Speaker 3: And sometimes you think you know where it came from.
• 23:32
  Speaker 2: Or you think you know, Okay, I feel like this
• 23:34
  Speaker 2: because of this, sometimes it could be something completely different.
• 23:37
  Speaker 2: Now I'm not telling you to create shadow work, and
• 23:40
  Speaker 2: I'm not saying okay, So if you're in a spot
• 23:43
  Speaker 2: right now where things are good and you feel good,
• 23:45
  Speaker 2: keep going, keep going. Shadow work will find you. Honestly,
• 23:48
  Speaker 2: shadow work will find you because you'll go through something
• 23:51
  Speaker 2: and you'll be like, oh my gosh, why is that
• 23:53
  Speaker 2: bothering so much? Why am I getting depressed right now?
• 23:55
  Speaker 2: Why am I doing this? And it's because that's so
• 23:58
  Speaker 2: shadow of work will find you so fine and everything's
• 24:01
  Speaker 2: great right now, keep that up. If you're in a
• 24:03
  Speaker 2: happy you know, everything is bliss the kind of going
• 24:07
  Speaker 2: on right now, just stay in there, stay in that
• 24:09
  Speaker 2: happy moment for as you know, as long as you can.
• 24:12
  Speaker 3: Don't go looking for shadow work.
• 24:14
  Speaker 2: I mean, you can always like look to heal, you
• 24:17
  Speaker 2: can always like look to heal, but when you and
• 24:19
  Speaker 2: you can go to I feel like everybody needs counseling
• 24:22
  Speaker 2: all the time, whether they're not going through shadow work
• 24:24
  Speaker 2: or not. But because that's that, you know, that crutch
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: that you can help that helps you get through the castle.
• 24:31
  Speaker 2: But yeah, if you're good, if you're in a good
• 24:34
  Speaker 2: place right now, and everything seems really good, then don't
• 24:35
  Speaker 2: go mess with that. Don't go mess with that. Just
• 24:38
  Speaker 2: enjoy enjoy it while it lasts. And then when you
• 24:41
  Speaker 2: do go through a time when you're like, what's wrong
• 24:43
  Speaker 2: with me right now? Why am I feeling like this?
• 24:45
  Speaker 2: Where is this coming from? Then start looking at where
• 24:48
  Speaker 2: that goes. And if you like, there's there's a pattern
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: of that, then maybe start looking where that comes from. So, yeah,
• 24:55
  Speaker 2: shadow work's a complicated thing, and you can find lots
• 24:57
  Speaker 2: and lots of stuff online about it, but there's no
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: way I think there's even books written on it, but
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: there's no one hundred percent this is the right way
• 25:06
  Speaker 2: to do it. Shadow Work is like different for everybody.
• 25:10
  Speaker 2: Healing is different for everybody. I heal by talking about it,
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: some people heal by doing e you know, energy work.
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: I'm very visual, so I can't have to, you know,
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: process it that way, and lots of people are different.
• 25:25
  Speaker 2: So there's no right or wrong way to do it.
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: As long as you can get through it and be
• 25:31
  Speaker 2: able to like see things and have it not bother
• 25:34
  Speaker 2: you or cause anxiety or cause intrusive thoughts. Song as
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: you can start working on it and know why those
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: things happen, then it will eliminate. It'll start eliminating those things,
• 25:44
  Speaker 2: the anxiety, the intrusive thoughts, the depression, and then it
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: will be like you'll come out on the other side
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: of it. And it's just like, you know, there's things
• 25:52
  Speaker 2: I feel like now that I you know, that divorce
• 25:55
  Speaker 2: thing that I was talking about, I feel like I've
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: like healed from it.
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: I feel like I've moved forward. But then when my.
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: Kids kind of go through some of their healing process summit,
• 26:04
  Speaker 2: it pulls other things out that I'm like, oh, yeah,
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: I remember that, and that does bug me and I
• 26:11
  Speaker 2: need to probably process that because so so shadow work
• 26:15
  Speaker 2: finds you when you're ready for that. So there's some
• 26:19
  Speaker 2: things that I've already processed for different things, like for
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: the divorce, there's something's already processed, but now spirit may think, Okay,
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: now she's ready to process this part. So so don't
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: go looking. Don't be like, Okay, I want to process
• 26:32
  Speaker 2: everything for my divorce and do it now. It will
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: happen throughout your lifetime. Just know what it is when
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: it comes right. I guess that's what I really want
• 26:39
  Speaker 2: you to know. It's a lifetime experience, and just know
• 26:43
  Speaker 2: that it's not going to be a one and done thing,
• 26:45
  Speaker 2: and it's going to happen throughout your lifetime. And you
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: can think you've already, you know, processed something from a
• 26:51
  Speaker 2: trauma that you had, and it will come up again
• 26:53
  Speaker 2: later and that's okay. It's because you weren't ready for
• 26:55
  Speaker 2: it then, but now you are, so you know, And
• 26:59
  Speaker 2: just don't go looking for it because even if you
• 27:01
  Speaker 2: go looking for it, like let's say I want to
• 27:04
  Speaker 2: go in and say, okay, this is what happened during
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: my divorce and I want to heal from it right now, Well,
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: spirit's gonna be like, okay, you can hear from this
• 27:11
  Speaker 2: part of it, but you're not ready for this part.
• 27:14
  Speaker 3: So that's kind of how it works.
• 27:16
  Speaker 2: It's just a whole whole life.
• 27:19
  Speaker 3: It's a whole life.
• 27:20
  Speaker 2: There's lots of castles in the game that you're gonna
• 27:23
  Speaker 2: have to go through, and just know that it's part
• 27:25
  Speaker 2: of the process. And every castle that you go through,
• 27:28
  Speaker 2: every dark castle you go through, is gonna be so
• 27:30
  Speaker 2: worth it as long as you raise the frequency. The
• 27:33
  Speaker 2: thing is is, don't stay in the castle. Don't stay
• 27:35
  Speaker 2: in that dark, dark castle. Don't stay in there with
• 27:38
  Speaker 2: the shadows. Don't just meet. Just conquer the castle and
• 27:42
  Speaker 2: then move forward and keep going in the bright sun
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: like Zelda, and go to other farms in the villages,
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: and then when you come across another castle, go in
• 27:51
  Speaker 2: and process it and then move on to the next one.
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: So I hope that's a good analogy.
• 27:56
  Speaker 3: I don't know.
• 27:56
  Speaker 2: It's just that I want you to know that you're
• 27:59
  Speaker 2: loved and you're not doing it alone. You have so
• 28:02
  Speaker 2: many ancestors with you and so many spirit guides. They're
• 28:05
  Speaker 2: helping you the whole time during this and it is hard,
• 28:10
  Speaker 2: but it's also something that you you felt like in
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: spirit before you came here on your on your you know,
• 28:17
  Speaker 2: your blueprint that you wanted to experience that you needed
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: to process. So some of these castles could be from
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: past lives that you don't know about too. That's why
• 28:24
  Speaker 2: Akashak record ratings are kind of awesome too. So some
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: of those, you know, some castles are from stuff you've
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: gone through on this earth in this lifetime, and some
• 28:34
  Speaker 2: of those castles are from past lives, but usually they're
• 28:37
  Speaker 2: parallel to each other. They're usually if the castle is
• 28:42
  Speaker 2: a past life castle or trauma or you know, shadow work,
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: then it's because it's affecting you somehow on this lifetime.
• 28:49
  Speaker 2: They don't usually pull a path life trauma or a
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: past life castle and put you through it if it
• 28:55
  Speaker 2: has nothing to do with this lifetime. So if, if
• 28:59
  Speaker 2: if the path life has something to do with this
• 29:01
  Speaker 2: lifetime or a lesson that you wanted to learn, then
• 29:03
  Speaker 2: it's going to come here in this lifetime too. So
• 29:08
  Speaker 2: I hope that makes sense. I hope you guys like
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: I say, though, everything you need is already inside of you.
• 29:14
  Speaker 3: The trick is is to.
• 29:15
  Speaker 2: Not You can't rush spiritual growth. You can't say okay,
• 29:19
  Speaker 2: I want to be psychic, and be psychic. You've got
• 29:22
  Speaker 2: to work on it. It's something you've got to work
• 29:24
  Speaker 2: on constantly all the time. Just like if you want
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: to lose weight and have a toned body, you've got
• 29:29
  Speaker 2: to go to the gym all the time.
• 29:30
  Speaker 3: You got to work on it.
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: And this is something, your spiritual growth you're healing, is
• 29:34
  Speaker 2: something you got to work on every day, every day,
• 29:37
  Speaker 2: and it's it's worth it because it's you, right and
• 29:40
  Speaker 2: you're worth it. So it's something you need to work
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: on every single day and it's not selfish, and you
• 29:47
  Speaker 2: are loved. And the trick is is you need to
• 29:49
  Speaker 2: figure out how to love yourself. And I know that's
• 29:51
  Speaker 2: so cliche, but it's such the truth. You've got to
• 29:54
  Speaker 2: learn how to know that you are good enough and
• 29:56
  Speaker 2: you are worthy, and you are loved, and you're loved unconditionally,
• 30:01
  Speaker 2: and it doesn't really matter by who, because you need
• 30:04
  Speaker 2: to love yourself so regardless of all the castles that
• 30:08
  Speaker 2: you've been through. So I love you guys so so much.
• 30:12
  Speaker 2: And I do have a gallery coming a gallery reading
• 30:15
  Speaker 2: in Idhoe Falls coming up on April twenty six. I
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: know and Carrie connects, I said August, but I met
• 30:19
  Speaker 2: April twenty six. I also have a spirit guide. I know,
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: Meet your Spirit Guides class coming up on March twenty ninth,
• 30:26
  Speaker 2: and I hope Falls. I am working on doing some
• 30:29
  Speaker 2: of these classes online, but.
• 30:32
  Speaker 3: We're working that out.
• 30:33
  Speaker 2: So I love you guys, and I will see you
• 30:35
  Speaker 2: next not next week, but the week after that.