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DEM DIVAS OF AIRWAVES -3-28-25 DELAYED BUT NOT DENIED BY LATONYA LITTLEJOHN · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Ms taft past.
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  Speaker 2: The Disney fast. This tasty starts us gift of grafts
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  Speaker 2: of us not pasts.
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  Speaker 3: Can y'all see us?
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  Speaker 4: Yes?
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  Speaker 3: Yes, can y'all see us? Now? Okay, Now I'm gonna
• 4:26
  Speaker 3: have to do some more figuring out. Okay, So, hey, welcome, Welcome, Welcome.
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  Speaker 3: You got Trevida, you got d D you got Latania,
• 4:36
  Speaker 3: I mean no, not Latania. You got Patrece and ya
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  Speaker 3: got me and we're sitting in for Latania on tonight. Y'all.
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  Speaker 3: I don't know what we were supposed to be talking about,
• 4:46
  Speaker 3: but y'all, for the last couple of fridays on her show,
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  Speaker 3: she been talking about relationships, So why not continue relationships
• 4:55
  Speaker 3: because that's what she's been talking about and all of
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  Speaker 3: us I can tell you, honey, relationship m hm, were
• 5:01
  Speaker 3: no deal with it. We don't be doing you want
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  Speaker 3: to start this conversation to night man? The birthday girls.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm getting raised to be that.
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  Speaker 6: I was looking at her.
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  Speaker 3: I always want to.
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  Speaker 5: Man, I'm mad.
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  Speaker 3: I'm underneath the sign of what I'm trying to get accomplished,
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  Speaker 3: what y'all trying to see? I'm trying to do this
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  Speaker 3: almost many years now, but you know what, I'm gonna
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  Speaker 3: be nice and be quiet.
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  Speaker 6: Put me under that, because I'm trying to do that too.
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  Speaker 7: Okay, I didn't please.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, Well you look that's my that's I'm trying to
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  Speaker 4: break free. I'm trying to do.
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  Speaker 6: I'm trying to get them tackled.
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  Speaker 8: The last ellis, yeah, no, I just been dealing with mine.
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  Speaker 9: Well, I was married for almost twenty one years and
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  Speaker 9: I filed for divorce last year. Okay, turned out I
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  Speaker 9: had to get legal lated. So when I sign up
• 6:32
  Speaker 9: for this year, she said, they fired him wrong. I said,
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  Speaker 9: why did the stuff before take it?
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  Speaker 4: She said, I don't know. Said, but we're gonna have
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  Speaker 4: to start all over.
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  Speaker 3: Oh, so you're in another state, right, You're in another state.
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  Speaker 4: Now right, I'm in Virginia.
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  Speaker 1: Hi.
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  Speaker 4: Are you in a state?
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  Speaker 3: So you know you can go by you can file
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  Speaker 3: in Virginia now since you went in Virginia.
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  Speaker 4: That's what I did it easy.
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  Speaker 6: I I didn't fo when I got here because my
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  Speaker 6: cousin helped me get here.
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  Speaker 4: So I'm out here. But when I filed, we sent
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  Speaker 4: it to the clerk office.
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  Speaker 6: And everything, and then the legal a lady said what
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  Speaker 6: it was?
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  Speaker 4: Fire wrong? I said, was in here for a whole year.
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  Speaker 4: What you mean to do with fire? Wrong?
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  Speaker 6: So she said we gotta start, we gotta hit couture
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  Speaker 6: good and do this over.
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  Speaker 9: I said, oh okay, I said, all right, now my
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  Speaker 9: two years down events over this, over this, like over.
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  Speaker 6: So my kick is that I told him, no, sorry, really,
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  Speaker 6: I cooked my kids. I told him, And he's gonna
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  Speaker 6: tell me, well.
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  Speaker 4: I guess this. You trying to pray about it. If
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  Speaker 4: you're praying about it, what to do?
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  Speaker 3: He got.
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  Speaker 6: He got up, who are you talking to about it?
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  Speaker 4: I don't talking to God. God never told me what
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  Speaker 4: to do. What you're talking about?
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  Speaker 3: I said, well, he's not trying to sign the papers
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  Speaker 3: to something, because that's the issue that that's so I'm
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  Speaker 3: just gonna be honest. I'm please if you hit this,
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  Speaker 3: if anybody know what shot Smith, please try to get
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  Speaker 3: him to sign these papers, because shot Mandrell Smith in Anderson,
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  Speaker 3: South Carolina. Y'all please try to convince him to find
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  Speaker 3: these papers. Oh my god, well you can't please convince
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  Speaker 3: him to sign these papers. When I got all how
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  Speaker 3: I had to.
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  Speaker 7: Get him to sign mine, I had to serve him myself.
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  Speaker 5: So that's told I can't even do that. Mine got remarried.
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  Speaker 3: Was he not even divorced?
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  Speaker 5: He got to go to jail, and I keep looking
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  Speaker 5: at the state that he's in.
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  Speaker 3: Their marriage records are not public records, so I have
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  Speaker 3: to now full out of it's not public.
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  Speaker 5: It's not public.
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  Speaker 3: Our marriages was public record, right too.
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  Speaker 5: Not in the state of Tennessee.
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  Speaker 10: Okay, Wow, I.
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  Speaker 3: Send the money orders to the vital records and I'm
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  Speaker 3: waiting for them to send me the information back.
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  Speaker 7: Wow lords, Wow, wow.
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  Speaker 3: Nothing.
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  Speaker 5: I just want to be able to go purchase a
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  Speaker 5: house and do what I need to do.
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  Speaker 3: You just want.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, you.
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  Speaker 3: Want back?
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  Speaker 2: Mhm.
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  Speaker 3: I need some I need some spousal support for that.
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  Speaker 3: You Donna did all that. I need some spouse and support.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, I feel like something. Yeah, now you're done.
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  Speaker 3: That's North Carolina because he in North Carolina. In North Carolina,
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  Speaker 3: he would have had to pay you.
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  Speaker 4: M m.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, he would have had to pay you, but cheated
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  Speaker 3: and did all that. He You see what Fantasia had
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  Speaker 3: to do. Listen, I know there's going to be alive
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  Speaker 3: tomorrow about me, but guess what, bruh, I am.
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  Speaker 5: I have no harm to you and your wife I
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  Speaker 5: just want to be.
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  Speaker 3: Out of us. I just want how he get married
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  Speaker 3: that okay, well his his his marriage is not legal
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  Speaker 3: because he never he never divorced you. So they're not married.
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  Speaker 3: So so what what you're talking about? They're not married.
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  Speaker 3: And the thing about it is, there's a video on YouTube.
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  Speaker 3: But you are a smart cookie. Want to put your
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  Speaker 3: face on that video?
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  Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I was shocked.
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  Speaker 3: There's a video about the wedding.
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  Speaker 4: The wedding.
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  Speaker 5: Wow, cook, I give you that much. I don't see
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  Speaker 5: what you say about this, but you smart as a cookie.
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  Speaker 3: Oh yeah, he's But I want to hear I want
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  Speaker 3: to hear the replay to this. I want to hear
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  Speaker 3: the replay to this, because he's gonna have to say something.
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  Speaker 5: Like I said, Bruh, I ain't trying to cause you
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  Speaker 5: or your girl no harm.
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  Speaker 3: I just trying to get out. I don't want to.
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  Speaker 5: Pay all that money while he.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, why don't he just signed the paper?
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  Speaker 6: Got to do sign?
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  Speaker 5: That's what you gotta do. Is I don't even I
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  Speaker 5: don't even know where you live at. I just know
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  Speaker 5: what county and I know what state.
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  Speaker 4: That's all I know.
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  Speaker 3: If I was you, brouh, I would try to get
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  Speaker 3: those papers and sign those papers.
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  Speaker 5: Brou if I dismissed by the court, was dismissed this
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  Speaker 5: all over again?
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  Speaker 7: Why was it dismissed?
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  Speaker 5: So the courts you know that three sixty five years?
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, what this?
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  Speaker 3: Well on a three sixty six the courts kind of
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  Speaker 3: like wipe it out. So when I went back and
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  Speaker 3: you can look on the clerk clerk of courts, it
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  Speaker 3: shows that it was dismissed.
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  Speaker 1: With that.
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  Speaker 3: Why was it dismissed?
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, like there has to be a reason, and.
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  Speaker 3: You're supposed to have a whole year.
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  Speaker 5: Well, remember now this is my mom. How long I
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  Speaker 5: think we're gonna get three possibly four and give up care.
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  Speaker 3: But again I'm gonna keep saying.
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  Speaker 5: No harm to you, brother, but I keep accent.
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  Speaker 3: Well, bro, text me bruh, please the right thing, brule,
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  Speaker 3: go ahead, and and I just want to lady, release
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  Speaker 3: this lady so you can go on and and and do.
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  Speaker 9: What and and do differ trying to do it anyway,
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  Speaker 9: trying to do it anyways, just trying to paper you
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  Speaker 9: already did it.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, why as you hold it on to her
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  Speaker 3: and you got somebody else you just I mean, really,
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  Speaker 3: what you're trying to do. What do you want to do?
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  Speaker 5: Who is going to get you in trouble?
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  Speaker 6: M But they could they couldn't put something in the paper.
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  Speaker 7: Life man still married or or what kind of lite
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  Speaker 7: did he tell?
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  Speaker 4: Girl?
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  Speaker 5: That is the master of manipulate off because.
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  Speaker 7: He got the gift of gabbing or whatever.
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  Speaker 5: Get no, No, that's that gift a gap, girl, that's
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  Speaker 5: that gift of gap.
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  Speaker 4: Wow.
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  Speaker 3: I will say this, when you are on yours and
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  Speaker 3: you can be the most wonderful person is. But then
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  Speaker 3: there's that other side.
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  Speaker 7: Mm hmm, yeah, in those situations where we meet the
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  Speaker 7: nice and lovable side. But it also I feel like
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  Speaker 7: most of us women we tend to overlook the signs
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  Speaker 7: in the beginning because we're always and we tend to
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  Speaker 7: overlook them because number one, we see the potential. We
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  Speaker 7: see past all of their imperfections and their flaws, and
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  Speaker 7: then we're like, Okay, we we can work on this,
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  Speaker 7: we can grow, we can get.
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  Speaker 3: But because we think we can, we think that we
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  Speaker 3: can we can help manipulate the change and we can
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  Speaker 3: help kind of empower them.
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  Speaker 6: We that we.
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  Speaker 4: Can.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and in part that that we have in us,
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  Speaker 3: you know, we think we can we create some of
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  Speaker 3: the stuff that we do and some of the stuff, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: we think we can just deposit it in them. But again,
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  Speaker 3: if they don't got it, we have.
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  Speaker 4: That we can do.
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  Speaker 7: And we overlooked that.
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  Speaker 4: You know what that's called.
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  Speaker 3: You know what that's called that what we're doing, we're
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  Speaker 3: we are called enablers, yeah, because what we do is
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  Speaker 3: we try to fix people and we may yes, yes,
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  Speaker 3: and when we're and we're just making it worse. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: we're just making the problem worse because we can in
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  Speaker 3: the other end of it.
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  Speaker 7: Because you know, and when I look back over on
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  Speaker 7: my marriage, and this is one thing, like, like I said,
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  Speaker 7: we were sixteen and seventeen when we got together. We
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  Speaker 7: had Kyla first, and we were seventeen, had Michael, we're
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  Speaker 7: twenty one, got married when we were twenty one, then
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  Speaker 7: had Nick around age twenty three. And the thing that
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  Speaker 7: I look back over all of it is like when
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  Speaker 7: we got married, like y'all, to this day, I still
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  Speaker 7: don't know the amount of money for our gifts that
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  Speaker 7: we got. I have no idea because I never saw it.
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  Speaker 7: I saw all of the cards, but any money that
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  Speaker 7: was inside. And we went on a little trip. We
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  Speaker 7: didn't go too far, and he had all the money. Now,
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  Speaker 7: this goes to everything that we went through, Like when
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  Speaker 7: I got pregnant with Micah. You know, he was working,
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  Speaker 7: I was working, but I ended up having to stop
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  Speaker 7: working because I was having complications and everything, and he
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  Speaker 7: was still working, going shopping and I'm like, dude, we
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  Speaker 7: got a baby coming. We gotta get the necessities. We
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  Speaker 7: gotta get the crib, we gotta get this. He's coming
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  Speaker 7: home with new shirts, new shoes, new But I'm like, dude,
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  Speaker 7: we got stuff that we gotta be getting. And so,
• 17:03
  Speaker 7: you know, eventually we did get the things, and it
• 17:06
  Speaker 7: was like, well, don't worry, I'm gonna get it this time.
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  Speaker 7: And then the next time, and I think the kids
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  Speaker 7: were we had moved again, like we did a lot
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  Speaker 7: of movie and that that kind of let me know too.
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  Speaker 7: And I'm still, you know, we're having a hard time.
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  Speaker 7: We gotta move here, we gotta move there. And I'm
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  Speaker 7: still trying to be supporter. But the thing of it was,
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  Speaker 7: it was like I never knew that things were that
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  Speaker 7: bad because he always had a good convincing story as
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  Speaker 7: to here the money was going, and you know, and
• 17:44
  Speaker 7: I'm like, dude, all my money comes into this household.
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  Speaker 7: You know, we we ended up like having separate bank
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  Speaker 7: accounts because that first time we had a joint one
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  Speaker 7: and it was overdrawn and I'm trying to get groceries
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  Speaker 7: for the kids. Yeah, sir, no, no, no, I'm posing
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  Speaker 7: that's all yours. I'm taking my name off of this
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  Speaker 7: because I'm not doing that. So it went from there
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  Speaker 7: to Okay, I see you're struggling. I see you having
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  Speaker 7: some issues with not being able to plug into the family.
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  Speaker 7: So listen, let me go ahead and tell you. We
• 18:19
  Speaker 7: are at this age, we're about twenty five, and I'm like, okay,
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  Speaker 7: we've been together for a long time. You want to
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  Speaker 7: hang out, you want to go to the clubs, you
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  Speaker 7: want to do all that stuff.
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  Speaker 5: That's not me.
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  Speaker 7: But if that's what's floating your boat, then serve, by
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  Speaker 7: all means, go and do that. You are free to
• 18:34
  Speaker 7: go and do that. I'm still gonna be at the
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  Speaker 7: house because I don't even like people like that. You
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  Speaker 7: gonna do that, you know, I'm not that. That wasn't
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  Speaker 7: my thing. And so he was like, well, what are
• 18:43
  Speaker 7: you trying to say, sir? I need you to go
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  Speaker 7: on and do what you need to do. But I
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  Speaker 7: also need you. If you want to go and sow
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  Speaker 7: your wild olds, go experience life outside of me, Go
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  Speaker 7: ahead and do that. I'm still gonna be at the
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  Speaker 7: house with the kids because that's that's where my heart is,
• 18:58
  Speaker 7: you know. And I told him, I said, if that's
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  Speaker 7: what you want to do, by all means, go and
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  Speaker 7: do that. I'm still gonna be here. That's not an
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  Speaker 7: open invitation to say, yeah, I'm gonna be out here
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  Speaker 7: cheating or whatever, because I still got stuff I gotta do.
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  Speaker 7: My kids are more important. But if that's what you
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  Speaker 7: need to do, then go ahead and do that. Just
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  Speaker 7: understand that if you don't take this out that you know,
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  Speaker 7: I need you to plug in. I need you to
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  Speaker 7: be the leader of this family. I need you to
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  Speaker 7: be my husband. I need you to actually put on
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  Speaker 7: the pants to lead. But if not, I don't know
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  Speaker 7: what you want me to do in this. And he
• 19:35
  Speaker 7: ended up lying to where it cost us to it
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  Speaker 7: was the final straw. I had to leave because our
• 19:45
  Speaker 7: guess had gotten turned off, so we didn't have any
• 19:48
  Speaker 7: hot water. I was borning water for myself and my
• 19:51
  Speaker 7: children to take a bath. But he was getting up
• 19:54
  Speaker 7: because he was working third shift at this time. He
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  Speaker 7: was getting up or coming home, going to see leave,
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  Speaker 7: going to his mama's house to take a shower. But
• 20:02
  Speaker 7: never once did he say, hey, get the kids so
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  Speaker 7: we can go to mom's house and take a shower.
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  Speaker 7: It was always him doing it by himself. But then
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  Speaker 7: he would make it to he had his family believing
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  Speaker 7: that I was the one that wasn't working, that I
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  Speaker 7: wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing, like
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  Speaker 7: he painted me out to be such a bad person
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  Speaker 7: until after him and I split up, and it took
• 20:29
  Speaker 7: probably about two to three years for his family to
• 20:33
  Speaker 7: really figure out that it was not me, and they
• 20:37
  Speaker 7: wondered why I would never argue with them. I would
• 20:40
  Speaker 7: never defend myself against anything that he was saying. Now,
• 20:44
  Speaker 7: during this time, he ended up meeting another lady, having
• 20:50
  Speaker 7: a baby with this lady and everything, and so they
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  Speaker 7: were like so everything he would say and was not
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  Speaker 7: the truth, right, everything he was saying was not the truth.
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  Speaker 7: But I let you go with what you were hearing
• 21:07
  Speaker 7: because that was your child. You wanted to believe, and
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  Speaker 7: as mom, that's what you're you're supposed to stand beside
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  Speaker 7: your child. But when you realize that what I was
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  Speaker 7: saying was my truth, I'm not defending the truth. There's
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  Speaker 7: no reason for me to defend my truth. My truth
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  Speaker 7: is gonna be the truth no matter how many times
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  Speaker 7: I tell that story. That story does not change. That
• 21:28
  Speaker 7: life gonna change over and over again, because you got
• 21:31
  Speaker 7: to try to remember what you were saying, and we
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  Speaker 7: can change. And my story has never changed. It's always
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  Speaker 7: been consistent and it's always been the same. And so
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  Speaker 7: it was also he would try to He would tell
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  Speaker 7: the kids one thing, and the kids would come home,
• 21:47
  Speaker 7: well daddy said this. Okay, if that's what your daddy said,
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  Speaker 7: that's cool.
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  Speaker 1: You know.
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  Speaker 7: And me and my oldest son were talking the other day.
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  Speaker 7: He was like, you know, Mom, like you always told
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  Speaker 7: us that at the end of the day, that's our
• 21:59
  Speaker 7: dad and we have to respect him. And I was like, yeah,
• 22:02
  Speaker 7: that's your dad. You do have to respect him. And
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  Speaker 7: that's how I've always raised them, regardless of how we
• 22:09
  Speaker 7: are together, that's your father first, and you respect him
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  Speaker 7: regardless of if you don't agree with what he's saying
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  Speaker 7: or whatever. You still have respect for him. And those
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  Speaker 7: bitter baby mamas I can't relate to them for the
• 22:25
  Speaker 7: simple fact of that's your daddy here he got a
• 22:28
  Speaker 7: new girlfriend. Hay, girl, listen, you need me to watch
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  Speaker 7: your child bring him over. And I was always like that,
• 22:35
  Speaker 7: so and like the lady that he has the baby.
• 22:38
  Speaker 7: By the he's fourteen now. I invited them to my
• 22:42
  Speaker 7: house when he was small, and I invited them over
• 22:46
  Speaker 7: because I was like, listen, they're gonna be in the
• 22:47
  Speaker 7: same town. They need to know each other. This is
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  Speaker 7: their sibling. This child is fourteen. He still loves to
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  Speaker 7: come to my house.
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  Speaker 1: You know.
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  Speaker 7: I'm mama t to him, you know, and I on
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  Speaker 7: him about his grades. You would have thought he was
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  Speaker 7: my child, because that's just I'm not. I'm not that person.
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  Speaker 1: You know.
• 23:08
  Speaker 7: If your child is in my persons, that's my baby.
• 23:10
  Speaker 7: I may not have gave birth to him, but they mine,
• 23:12
  Speaker 7: and I'm gonna treat them as such. You got some
• 23:14
  Speaker 7: bad grades, honey, We're finna talk about because he got
• 23:16
  Speaker 7: in trouble with me at the walmart and got he
• 23:19
  Speaker 7: called Nay. It was like, your mama, don't got on
• 23:21
  Speaker 7: me at the Walmart. I surely did, because you know,
• 23:24
  Speaker 7: what's you're supposed to be in the house.
• 23:26
  Speaker 4: I don't know who you think you is because you
• 23:27
  Speaker 4: know you know better, you know better.
• 23:30
  Speaker 7: I can't talk about but it was such an answer.
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: No, m.
• 23:37
  Speaker 3: That's a real good thing. And I tell you, I
• 23:42
  Speaker 3: tell people all the time everything I went through with
• 23:44
  Speaker 3: my daughter's father, I will never talk anything bad in
• 23:49
  Speaker 3: front of her.
• 23:51
  Speaker 10: Get around.
• 23:52
  Speaker 5: My sister's the mahome girl. We might talk mad trash,
• 23:56
  Speaker 5: but to her in front of me, the king knowing
• 24:01
  Speaker 5: did well.
• 24:02
  Speaker 3: In the back of my mind, thinking you're getting on
• 24:04
  Speaker 3: my very last nerve and you say things to her
• 24:08
  Speaker 3: about me mad, But I in this life because guess what,
• 24:14
  Speaker 3: you didn't tell me to sleep with him.
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: I did.
• 24:17
  Speaker 5: Yeah.
• 24:18
  Speaker 7: And see my kids when they would be with their dad,
• 24:20
  Speaker 7: and you know, people would be complimenting on how well
• 24:24
  Speaker 7: behaved and well mannered they were, and he would always
• 24:27
  Speaker 7: try to take credit. My kids would be like, you
• 24:29
  Speaker 7: didn't raise us. My mama did this, you know, so
• 24:32
  Speaker 7: you can't take credit for her. She's not here, but
• 24:34
  Speaker 7: were gonna take her credit because you.
• 24:36
  Speaker 5: Didn't raise us.
• 24:39
  Speaker 7: When they do that, and so I was like, wow,
• 24:42
  Speaker 7: that's when they tell my mom and I would always say,
• 24:44
  Speaker 7: don't don't do that, and they like, ma, he didn't
• 24:47
  Speaker 7: raise us. We're not feinna lie for him and make
• 24:49
  Speaker 7: him look good if he didn't do it. You raised
• 24:51
  Speaker 7: us by yourself, and you did that while you were
• 24:54
  Speaker 7: sick too, So he don't get to take the credit
• 24:56
  Speaker 7: for us having manners and being considerate and sean compassion
• 25:01
  Speaker 7: for other people. He don't get that credit. And I'm like,
• 25:05
  Speaker 7: I get it, you know, I understand. And we've got
• 25:09
  Speaker 7: into a space now that him and I are cordial.
• 25:12
  Speaker 7: We talk, we laugh and joke. We are friends because
• 25:17
  Speaker 7: that's where we started at before. Now will we ever
• 25:21
  Speaker 7: get back together now that that boat sell seanp whatever
• 25:26
  Speaker 7: it ain't, it's nonexistent, But we are now in a
• 25:29
  Speaker 7: space to where we are adults. I can deal with him.
• 25:33
  Speaker 3: Now.
• 25:33
  Speaker 7: Will I still call him stupid? Yes, of course I will,
• 25:37
  Speaker 7: and he knows I will. You know it ain't No
• 25:40
  Speaker 7: if ain't. But about that you're doing a saying some
• 25:43
  Speaker 7: stupid now you know it might become an artists in there,
• 25:48
  Speaker 7: and I do it, But I mean you to.
• 25:52
  Speaker 3: Get there because I'm gonna kid you now, he's a
• 25:55
  Speaker 3: great provider for you are provider.
• 26:02
  Speaker 5: The relationship between me and him ooh, girl, just some time.
• 26:08
  Speaker 7: It didn't It didn't happen overnight. It took a couple
• 26:10
  Speaker 7: of years. It took some years. And I think, what
• 26:15
  Speaker 7: really did it? I think Nathan was about twelve, and
• 26:20
  Speaker 7: I happened to be over at his mom's house and
• 26:25
  Speaker 7: he walked in the door. His mama looked at me
• 26:27
  Speaker 7: and she's like, na, be, don't start.
• 26:31
  Speaker 6: And I was like, what you mean.
• 26:33
  Speaker 7: I ain't saying nothing to this man. I ain't doing nothing.
• 26:36
  Speaker 7: I'm minded my business. She was like, yeah, but I
• 26:39
  Speaker 7: know you. I said, Okay, that's true. You have known
• 26:43
  Speaker 7: me since I was sixteen seventeen. I get it, I said,
• 26:47
  Speaker 7: But I don't have that energy to be that way
• 26:50
  Speaker 7: with him. I said, it's not worth it. I said,
• 26:53
  Speaker 7: So you know, now, if he say something out the
• 26:56
  Speaker 7: way or something stupid, then yeah, I'm a say, you know,
• 26:59
  Speaker 7: do that. But outside of that, and we were having
• 27:02
  Speaker 7: a my son was having a pool party at his
• 27:06
  Speaker 7: grandma's house and his dad happened to come over. Not
• 27:10
  Speaker 7: that he wasn't invited, it's just the fact.
• 27:12
  Speaker 5: That that's what it was.
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: And so.
• 27:18
  Speaker 7: He would be I would be over there and then
• 27:20
  Speaker 7: he would just show up and then his new girlfriend
• 27:24
  Speaker 7: that he was dating would be there, and so I
• 27:29
  Speaker 7: would just be at the house, you know, and eventually
• 27:33
  Speaker 7: we started having slow conversations because I'm over there cooking
• 27:37
  Speaker 7: or I'm doing something, and then you know, he would
• 27:40
  Speaker 7: ask a question about like one of the kids, or
• 27:43
  Speaker 7: if something was going on with one of them, we
• 27:45
  Speaker 7: would have a conversation about them. And then now my
• 27:49
  Speaker 7: kids are like this, if he tries to overstep or
• 27:54
  Speaker 7: look at me in any kind of way that they yeah,
• 28:00
  Speaker 7: like uh uh. Because he asked I think it was
• 28:03
  Speaker 7: Kyle's twenty fourth birthday. I asked him to get the
• 28:06
  Speaker 7: balloons for her birthday, and so he text Nate and
• 28:12
  Speaker 7: said he was outside. So I went to the patio
• 28:15
  Speaker 7: door to get the balloons or whatever, and as I'm
• 28:20
  Speaker 7: standing on the porch, Nate goes out the front door
• 28:23
  Speaker 7: to actually go get the balloons, and he's like he
• 28:27
  Speaker 7: asked me, He said, so, do you ever think about us?
• 28:30
  Speaker 7: And I was like, sir, in what capacity?
• 28:32
  Speaker 4: What do you mean?
• 28:33
  Speaker 7: He was like, do you ever think about us?
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: Back?
• 28:36
  Speaker 7: And you know, when we were together high school this
• 28:39
  Speaker 7: and Nathan came around the cone, y'all, and this is
• 28:43
  Speaker 7: what Nate said, and I couldn't do nothing but laugh
• 28:47
  Speaker 7: because before I could answer, he said, man, hell no,
• 28:55
  Speaker 7: he said, don't nobody think about.
• 28:57
  Speaker 4: You like that?
• 28:58
  Speaker 7: Come, no, man gone back in the house because he's tripping.
• 29:02
  Speaker 3: I got him.
• 29:03
  Speaker 7: I was like, you do all that he talk about,
• 29:07
  Speaker 7: ain't nobody thinking about brad in ninety six, ninety five,
• 29:11
  Speaker 7: ninety four, none of that man gone in the house,
• 29:14
  Speaker 7: gone down in the house. He said, do you that
• 29:17
  Speaker 7: that boat sailed that? Don't don't even don't even look
• 29:20
  Speaker 7: at my mama like that. No more, don't don't even
• 29:23
  Speaker 7: do that. I was like, that's your daddy. Though he
• 29:25
  Speaker 7: talked about, well, if he was doing right, y'all still
• 29:28
  Speaker 7: be together, y'all.
• 29:31
  Speaker 5: Question, I said, all right, let me going in the house.
• 29:34
  Speaker 7: I ain't got time.
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: I ain't.
• 29:35
  Speaker 7: I ain't got time, you know, so anytime like and
• 29:40
  Speaker 7: he'll ask if I'm cooking or something like that. They like,
• 29:43
  Speaker 7: not for you, like not for you, like y'all can't
• 29:48
  Speaker 7: agree with you, daddy like that. They don't want to
• 29:49
  Speaker 7: feed him if I'm cooking something. And it's plenty to
• 29:52
  Speaker 7: take that, uh.
• 29:53
  Speaker 4: Him getting on the yo.
• 29:57
  Speaker 3: Did right when he got the chance. You had the chance,
• 30:05
  Speaker 3: so now.
• 30:05
  Speaker 7: You like, and then they'll be like, okay, like if
• 30:10
  Speaker 7: I made lasagna or something like that, or either Sunday dinners,
• 30:13
  Speaker 7: usually when I was cooking a lot, and they be like,
• 30:16
  Speaker 7: he come over to pick up his youngest son from
• 30:20
  Speaker 7: the house because you've been on spend the weekend. You'd
• 30:22
  Speaker 7: be like, you're cooking the day, Nate, or might be like,
• 30:25
  Speaker 7: she ain't cooking them for you. No, now you got
• 30:29
  Speaker 7: you got a wife at home, she.
• 30:30
  Speaker 5: Could cook for you.
• 30:31
  Speaker 7: I know you don't like her cooking or whatever, but
• 30:34
  Speaker 7: now you can't have this. I'm like, y'all need to stop.
• 30:37
  Speaker 7: Don't do that, don't do that, don't do that.
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: With that.
• 30:46
  Speaker 7: Yeah, they like. Now, I'm like, well, take your daddy
• 30:51
  Speaker 7: a play. Now I'm taking myself a play, because if
• 30:53
  Speaker 7: they go out there to visit and I cook, they
• 30:57
  Speaker 7: may be like this my plate and debb but not
• 31:00
  Speaker 7: asked for nothing because I ain't sure. I'm like, you
• 31:02
  Speaker 7: could give us. Nope, they don't play that they like
• 31:13
  Speaker 7: and now we got now so whenever, like, the only
• 31:17
  Speaker 7: time he really gets cooking from me is if like
• 31:21
  Speaker 7: the last time he was here was for Scott's first
• 31:24
  Speaker 7: birthday party and I had made pasta salad, and of
• 31:28
  Speaker 7: course I baked her cake and we had some pizza
• 31:31
  Speaker 7: or something and he was like, you made this post.
• 31:34
  Speaker 7: I was like, yeah, you're talking about Okay, you baked
• 31:37
  Speaker 7: this cake too. Yep, sure did. Or even if his
• 31:40
  Speaker 7: mama was having something, and she always wanted me to cater,
• 31:43
  Speaker 7: he would get the food over there. And so she
• 31:46
  Speaker 7: was like, you only over here because we cooked. That's
• 31:49
  Speaker 7: the only reason you over here.
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: And I'm like, so yeah.
• 31:57
  Speaker 7: And they very territorial about it. You don't get it.
• 32:02
  Speaker 4: Mm hm wow wow.
• 32:06
  Speaker 3: So pat is yours? Your kids dad remarried one of
• 32:15
  Speaker 3: them is, and a great thing about her she was
• 32:19
  Speaker 3: she's beautiful. That's my son's stepmom. She is beautiful.
• 32:25
  Speaker 5: She is so sweet.
• 32:27
  Speaker 3: She became to the library and I helped her out
• 32:29
  Speaker 3: and we talked and there's nothing and I and I
• 32:33
  Speaker 3: even tell her, I thank you because they.
• 32:35
  Speaker 5: Got married when he was in no she was around.
• 32:40
  Speaker 3: They wasn't married it when he was in middle school,
• 32:44
  Speaker 3: high school, Okay, wonderful, no problem.
• 32:48
  Speaker 5: She's a beautiful person. She has twin daughters. And I
• 32:53
  Speaker 5: just wish that. I mean, me and him do not talk.
• 32:58
  Speaker 5: We have no reason to.
• 32:59
  Speaker 3: Mm hm, I just wish that I can have some
• 33:03
  Speaker 3: type of quardial relationship with my daughter's father.
• 33:07
  Speaker 4: That's just.
• 33:10
  Speaker 7: Listen. I'll just continue to pray about that. It'll work
• 33:13
  Speaker 7: itself out if it's meant to be. But if not,
• 33:16
  Speaker 7: you ain't no love lost. As long as he's doing
• 33:19
  Speaker 7: what he needs to do for your daughter, then keep
• 33:22
  Speaker 7: it at that.
• 33:23
  Speaker 5: And I will he does that. And because he watches
• 33:27
  Speaker 5: my page and he watches everything, you do that.
• 33:30
  Speaker 4: And I'm not.
• 33:31
  Speaker 3: Gonna say your name, but I personally thank you for
• 33:34
  Speaker 3: being a great provider and a good dad, but a
• 33:41
  Speaker 3: cool parent. You are the worst thing in America, totally honest.
• 33:48
  Speaker 7: Truth is the truth, and most of the time they
• 33:50
  Speaker 7: don't want to hear the truth about themselves. But what
• 33:52
  Speaker 7: I realize is that when men act like that, and
• 33:56
  Speaker 7: even women, sometimes it's some deep seated and deep rooted
• 34:01
  Speaker 7: hurt that never even had anything to do with you.
• 34:04
  Speaker 7: But since they don't know how to deal with it,
• 34:07
  Speaker 7: the person the next person gets to fill the raft
• 34:11
  Speaker 7: of that, and it's not fair. And you know, I
• 34:15
  Speaker 7: was thinking about this the other day, and it's like, Okay,
• 34:18
  Speaker 7: we want to be able to speak to the king
• 34:21
  Speaker 7: and the queen in our lives that we value so much,
• 34:26
  Speaker 7: But sometimes they're so hurt that they can't even acknowledge
• 34:31
  Speaker 7: the fact that we're not there to damage, We're there
• 34:35
  Speaker 7: to lift them up. But they can't see past that
• 34:39
  Speaker 7: little girl who in that little boy who was hurt
• 34:43
  Speaker 7: so young, so long ago, that they don't know how
• 34:46
  Speaker 7: to bring that forth and to speak on it. And
• 34:50
  Speaker 7: when they are dealing with unhealed versions of themselves, anything
• 34:56
  Speaker 7: that brings up a trigger for them in any they
• 35:01
  Speaker 7: take it out on the current person instead of actually
• 35:05
  Speaker 7: identifying what it was that caused them to be in
• 35:09
  Speaker 7: that frame of mind, because they get so used to
• 35:12
  Speaker 7: saying this is just how I am. No, that's not
• 35:16
  Speaker 7: just how you are. There is something in your life
• 35:19
  Speaker 7: that happened to condition you to be this way. And
• 35:23
  Speaker 7: until you confront that part of you that is still
• 35:27
  Speaker 7: willing to be healed, to be heard, to be let free,
• 35:32
  Speaker 7: you're going to continue to hurt the people who are
• 35:34
  Speaker 7: coming there to help you heal and thrive and move
• 35:38
  Speaker 7: past that. That is the part that we don't ever
• 35:41
  Speaker 7: want to talk about, We don't ever want to bring
• 35:44
  Speaker 7: forth because we feel like nobody's gonna hear us. Nobody's
• 35:48
  Speaker 7: gonna want to help me unpack my baggage. But there
• 35:53
  Speaker 7: is somebody that you currently have in your life right
• 35:56
  Speaker 7: now who sees that little girl or that little boy
• 36:00
  Speaker 7: that's been hurt and that's been damaged, and there is
• 36:03
  Speaker 7: no blinders, And if you truly allow that person to
• 36:08
  Speaker 7: see that version of you and help you to heal
• 36:12
  Speaker 7: that version, there's nothing that you will not be able
• 36:17
  Speaker 7: to get through. Because I say, my last relationship, I
• 36:24
  Speaker 7: saw him as that hurt little boy. I didn't see
• 36:29
  Speaker 7: him as the wall that he put up for protection,
• 36:34
  Speaker 7: you know, And so every time I got closer to him,
• 36:40
  Speaker 7: he would pull away and we had this conversation and
• 36:43
  Speaker 7: it was always, yeah, you're exactly right, and I'm like, okay,
• 36:48
  Speaker 7: but I didn't cause that hurt. That's not something that
• 36:52
  Speaker 7: I did. But I see you and I hear you,
• 36:56
  Speaker 7: but I can't come any closer because you put the
• 36:59
  Speaker 7: wall up, And every time you put the wall up,
• 37:02
  Speaker 7: you distance yourself from me because you feel the vulnerability,
• 37:06
  Speaker 7: You feel your wall coming down, and you don't know
• 37:09
  Speaker 7: how to confront that feeling that you have because you're
• 37:12
  Speaker 7: so used to pushing it down, so you don't want
• 37:15
  Speaker 7: to have to deal with it because it's it's too painful.
• 37:19
  Speaker 7: But in order to heal from it, you gotta confront it.
• 37:23
  Speaker 7: You can't keep covering up a wound and expecting it
• 37:26
  Speaker 7: to heal. If it never gets air, you know, you
• 37:29
  Speaker 7: gotta deal.
• 37:30
  Speaker 3: And and a lot of us we don't. We don't
• 37:33
  Speaker 3: want to heal because we don't want to own up
• 37:36
  Speaker 3: to now our part that we played in it. Because
• 37:39
  Speaker 3: a lot of times we we are we are a
• 37:44
  Speaker 3: lot of our own problem. Because if we sit back
• 37:47
  Speaker 3: and we analyze ourselves and in many situations and different things,
• 37:55
  Speaker 3: what what part did you play? Well?
• 37:57
  Speaker 4: What did you allow?
• 38:00
  Speaker 3: Where did you see the red flag? And look over it?
• 38:03
  Speaker 3: Because as I look back over a lot of things,
• 38:07
  Speaker 3: a lot of relationships, a lot of things that I've done,
• 38:10
  Speaker 3: you know, I was one of those people that said,
• 38:13
  Speaker 3: you know, I remember seeing the burning bed, and I
• 38:15
  Speaker 3: remember seeing different movies and I said, oh no, that
• 38:18
  Speaker 3: would never be me. I wish they would, which they would,
• 38:22
  Speaker 3: And that was that was again I got in that situation,
• 38:27
  Speaker 3: and then here I am, and then I go through
• 38:30
  Speaker 3: this situation and then here it is. Now you you
• 38:33
  Speaker 3: have this wall up where you don't want nobody to
• 38:36
  Speaker 3: know that you went through this, So then you got
• 38:39
  Speaker 3: to accept and own up to what part did you
• 38:44
  Speaker 3: play for me? When when I went through domesticized, It's like,
• 38:47
  Speaker 3: how did I get there? Like you just didn't wake
• 38:50
  Speaker 3: up there? How did you get there? Like? Where did
• 38:54
  Speaker 3: where did you? Where did you allow yourself to get
• 38:58
  Speaker 3: in this this, this this place? Where? Where where did
• 39:01
  Speaker 3: you go wrong? Where? Where did you stop feeling that
• 39:05
  Speaker 3: that boldness, that whatever it was that you said you
• 39:09
  Speaker 3: were not going to allow this to happen to you?
• 39:11
  Speaker 3: Where did you get to that dark place? And then
• 39:14
  Speaker 3: you go back and you start looking and you start
• 39:16
  Speaker 3: looking at you know, things just piling up, things just
• 39:20
  Speaker 3: adding up, and then start adding up year after year
• 39:24
  Speaker 3: after year after year until you get in this space.
• 39:26
  Speaker 3: And then once you're in this space, you've lost yourself.
• 39:31
  Speaker 4: Yep.
• 39:32
  Speaker 7: Now you've got to do that word.
• 39:34
  Speaker 3: Now you have to find yourself. You have to find
• 39:38
  Speaker 3: out who you are, why you got there? You know,
• 39:41
  Speaker 3: when you find out why you got there, how did
• 39:44
  Speaker 3: you allow this to happen to you? Because I'm just
• 39:46
  Speaker 3: speaking for me, because I had to do that for me.
• 39:48
  Speaker 3: I had to I had to find out, Angela, how
• 39:53
  Speaker 3: did you even get to this place where you even
• 39:57
  Speaker 3: could be in a position to even be in domestic violence?
• 40:01
  Speaker 3: Like where did you get to the place to where
• 40:04
  Speaker 3: you felt like you needed somebody to to to to
• 40:07
  Speaker 3: to vindicate you or to make you feel like you
• 40:11
  Speaker 3: were somebody? When did you get to that place? Like
• 40:16
  Speaker 3: I just looked back over my life and I'm just like, like,
• 40:19
  Speaker 3: where did you get there? And then when I went
• 40:23
  Speaker 3: through and did the work to see a lot of
• 40:25
  Speaker 3: us we don't want to do the work realize that
• 40:30
  Speaker 3: we have issues, we have stuff going on. We realized
• 40:33
  Speaker 3: that there's something right there, but we don't want to
• 40:36
  Speaker 3: figure out what it is. And how I didn't want
• 40:39
  Speaker 3: to keep going through, Like how can I be healed
• 40:42
  Speaker 3: so that I don't push this off on somebody? And
• 40:46
  Speaker 3: how do I how do I get to a place
• 40:48
  Speaker 3: where I don't continue to carry this baggage? I don't
• 40:52
  Speaker 3: continue to care what was was was was imparted in
• 40:56
  Speaker 3: me from another relationship, because soul ties are real, and
• 40:59
  Speaker 3: people don't understa that with just as with whoever the
• 41:03
  Speaker 3: person was with before you and before you and before
• 41:07
  Speaker 3: you and before you and before you and all of that,
• 41:10
  Speaker 3: and all those people just think if you were with
• 41:13
  Speaker 3: somebody and they've been with five people, you don't know
• 41:15
  Speaker 3: who those sides before that, they could have been with
• 41:18
  Speaker 3: five people a piece. That's twenty five spirits you're dealing with.
• 41:22
  Speaker 3: And then we wonder sometime why we having these move
• 41:25
  Speaker 3: sweeds while we haven't we're dealing with all this different stuff.
• 41:29
  Speaker 3: But when we spend time with ourselves and we can
• 41:33
  Speaker 3: figure out these different things, we can learn the triggers,
• 41:37
  Speaker 3: we can learn what makes us get in these these situations,
• 41:42
  Speaker 3: how we can go through these situations, and how we
• 41:45
  Speaker 3: can get to the other side of these situations. And
• 41:49
  Speaker 3: it's all of our truly knowing your worst and understanding
• 41:56
  Speaker 3: truly who you are. Like you didn't get dropped out
• 41:59
  Speaker 3: of the sky. You were. You was perfectly placed. You
• 42:02
  Speaker 3: was purposely place here. He fearfully and wonderfully made you
• 42:05
  Speaker 3: in his image. He didn't he didn't place us here
• 42:09
  Speaker 3: to be punching bags. He didn't place us to be
• 42:11
  Speaker 3: here to be less than anything. He made us in
• 42:16
  Speaker 3: his image. So we we are great, So we should
• 42:21
  Speaker 3: we should never be taught to. That's one thing about
• 42:25
  Speaker 3: He would never put anything on you that would bring
• 42:27
  Speaker 3: you home, that would caut you harm. So when people
• 42:31
  Speaker 3: are making you feel lessing and you know that ain't
• 42:33
  Speaker 3: for you. So when they show you themselves the first time,
• 42:37
  Speaker 3: know that that's who they are, and take them to
• 42:40
  Speaker 3: who they are and count your loss and keep alone.
• 42:44
  Speaker 3: If I had a done that, if I had it
• 42:46
  Speaker 3: ad that a couple of times, and I'm glad. You know,
• 42:49
  Speaker 3: sometime we got to go through these things so that
• 42:52
  Speaker 3: we can get to this place, so that we can
• 42:55
  Speaker 3: be able to, you know, help ourselves on this journey
• 42:58
  Speaker 3: and then help some other people alone. Because everything that
• 43:01
  Speaker 3: we went through, you know now that we can look
• 43:03
  Speaker 3: back over the reason for us we had to go
• 43:06
  Speaker 3: through it. He knew we could handle it. He knew
• 43:08
  Speaker 3: that we will be able to get through it, because
• 43:11
  Speaker 3: if if he didn't think we could, he wouldn't go
• 43:16
  Speaker 3: through it.
• 43:17
  Speaker 5: You know what.
• 43:21
  Speaker 3: It's gonna be. You really know what the end it's
• 43:23
  Speaker 3: gonna be. So it is seeing how you go through.
• 43:27
  Speaker 3: He want to judge your character. He want to see
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: if you're gonna if you're gonna praise me through it,
• 43:33
  Speaker 3: if you're gonna maintain your joy, or if you allow
• 43:37
  Speaker 3: them to get to you. And that's what he want
• 43:39
  Speaker 3: to see. He want to see your character. He want
• 43:41
  Speaker 3: to see how you're gonna get through this exactly how
• 43:44
  Speaker 3: you're gonna.
• 43:47
  Speaker 4: Now.
• 43:48
  Speaker 3: And that's what I tell people.
• 43:50
  Speaker 5: It is a test just for a moment, so you have.
• 44:00
  Speaker 3: Only for a moment, only for a moment, and.
• 44:03
  Speaker 5: It may feel like, oh my God.
• 44:05
  Speaker 3: When I was going through it, it felt like an
• 44:08
  Speaker 3: I remember Angela have me one time.
• 44:12
  Speaker 5: She was trying to talk to me and I'm listening,
• 44:13
  Speaker 5: I'm thinking, you just don't understand all.
• 44:18
  Speaker 3: Apologize that work came out, apologized, and I had another
• 44:25
  Speaker 3: girl She's telling me to wash my face, and it
• 44:27
  Speaker 3: was like she was using that as an example. A boy,
• 44:31
  Speaker 3: when you're going through it, gonna feel like faver.
• 44:34
  Speaker 6: But when you get through it, when I get on
• 44:42
  Speaker 6: the other side of that, it's all.
• 44:45
  Speaker 3: About you gotta want it you. Yeah, this is the
• 44:48
  Speaker 3: thing I keep telling people. This is the thing I
• 44:50
  Speaker 3: keep telling people. Put it in your heart, put it
• 44:53
  Speaker 3: deep in your heart. If you really want a baby,
• 44:55
  Speaker 3: put it down in your heart. Because let me tell
• 44:57
  Speaker 3: you what God do. God attend to the things of
• 44:58
  Speaker 3: your heart. He never fails. He has never failed.
• 45:02
  Speaker 7: And his word says that exactly. And if you want it,
• 45:08
  Speaker 7: you're gonna go through it, and you're going when you
• 45:11
  Speaker 7: start to ask yourself when you're going through whatever it
• 45:14
  Speaker 7: is that you're going through, when you start to ask God,
• 45:17
  Speaker 7: what are you teaching me during this time? When you
• 45:21
  Speaker 7: ask that question and stop asking Lord, why am I
• 45:24
  Speaker 7: going through this? And yeah that when you stop that
• 45:30
  Speaker 7: and start what is it that you're teaching me in
• 45:32
  Speaker 7: this moment? It opens up a whole new world for
• 45:36
  Speaker 7: you to see things in a different capacity, because God's
• 45:39
  Speaker 7: not gonna put you in something that He's not gonna
• 45:42
  Speaker 7: see you through at all, no matter what it is.
• 45:45
  Speaker 7: And when I learned that for myself, not just what
• 45:49
  Speaker 7: other people were saying. When I learned it for myself
• 45:53
  Speaker 7: and I experienced it for myself, it was like, Okay, God,
• 45:57
  Speaker 7: I see what you're doing. You know, I know I'm
• 45:59
  Speaker 7: still gonna be a little hard headed from time to time.
• 46:02
  Speaker 3: I got it, you know that.
• 46:03
  Speaker 7: And you know I'm still gonna be like God, you're
• 46:06
  Speaker 7: sending me some.
• 46:07
  Speaker 3: Sir, what is this?
• 46:10
  Speaker 7: We gotta talk about this, you know, because he gonna
• 46:14
  Speaker 7: put you in some situations and you like, God, look,
• 46:17
  Speaker 7: I know I asked for this, but this don't look
• 46:22
  Speaker 7: like what I asked, like, can ingredients or subtract something?
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: Now that is?
• 46:30
  Speaker 7: And he like, nah, you can't.
• 46:33
  Speaker 6: You need you what I said?
• 46:34
  Speaker 7: You ray like, how you gonna correct my vision? My
• 46:41
  Speaker 7: vision is perfect. I just need you to do what
• 46:43
  Speaker 7: I said. But I hee like, I ain't ask you
• 46:48
  Speaker 7: for your opinion. You asked me for my head, my guidance.
• 46:52
  Speaker 7: So if you asking me how you gonna question it?
• 46:57
  Speaker 7: If I already know what the purpose and the outcome
• 47:01
  Speaker 7: is gonna be, you don't need to question it.
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: Just do it.
• 47:04
  Speaker 7: Follow the instructions to the t. And when you do that,
• 47:09
  Speaker 7: my timing is never off. My placement is never wrong.
• 47:13
  Speaker 7: The location you're supposed to be in is always where
• 47:17
  Speaker 7: it's supposed to be. And I'll be like, okay, yeah,
• 47:20
  Speaker 7: I see what you was doing. Now I understand. Now
• 47:23
  Speaker 7: it makes sense. I was trying to go up the
• 47:26
  Speaker 7: hill when you say go cross the street, and I
• 47:29
  Speaker 7: didn't need to go up to hell, but I was
• 47:30
  Speaker 7: trying to see how much now you trying to endure
• 47:34
  Speaker 7: what I didn't have for you. Sometimes we try to
• 47:39
  Speaker 7: endure more because we think God ain't listening. But God
• 47:42
  Speaker 7: hurt us the first time He and you know you
• 47:45
  Speaker 7: keep going over there asking it. God, don't negotiate, he
• 47:49
  Speaker 7: don't bater, He don't do this. He ain't negotiating nothing.
• 47:53
  Speaker 7: His plan is silent. His plan for us has always
• 47:56
  Speaker 7: been true. It's up to us to go through everything
• 48:01
  Speaker 7: that we are meant to go through. Now we do
• 48:03
  Speaker 7: get hard headed, we do feel like we know what
• 48:06
  Speaker 7: the GPS is gonna do beforehand, and try to go
• 48:09
  Speaker 7: on and and go another way, and it be like
• 48:13
  Speaker 7: re routing rerouting. That's God saying, so back over here,
• 48:17
  Speaker 7: because I told you, you know.
• 48:21
  Speaker 5: You know, a hard head, make a soft my how
• 48:34
  Speaker 5: you kind of like buck up? Now we have all got.
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: Like you just.
• 48:41
  Speaker 7: Jesus heard everything.
• 48:51
  Speaker 5: I have.
• 48:52
  Speaker 7: I have a question you like because the question you're
• 48:57
  Speaker 7: Finn asked, I already answered the question to weeks ago,
• 49:01
  Speaker 7: and you're still over here trying to negotiation. I told
• 49:04
  Speaker 7: you know is what I ain't. Go ahead, go ahead,
• 49:12
  Speaker 7: back of your head.
• 49:14
  Speaker 5: You got to hit me and I tell you behind,
• 49:24
  Speaker 5: just get.
• 49:26
  Speaker 7: That flipped up copy on the back of the head
• 49:29
  Speaker 7: like I.
• 49:29
  Speaker 1: Told you not to do that.
• 49:32
  Speaker 7: Not man, I'm sorry, I'm so but you know, we
• 49:41
  Speaker 7: all got to go through these lessons, and you know,
• 49:44
  Speaker 7: relationships are hard, no matter if it's uh significant other,
• 49:49
  Speaker 7: your mom, your dad, your brothers, your sisters, or whatever.
• 49:52
  Speaker 7: All relationships take work, and we experienced trauma on all fronts.
• 49:58
  Speaker 7: And when we understand and that we do also play
• 50:02
  Speaker 7: a major part in those relationships too, Like you got
• 50:06
  Speaker 7: to learn how to accept accountability and accept what it
• 50:10
  Speaker 7: is that you contributed to making the relationship the way
• 50:13
  Speaker 7: that it was. My relationship was not perfect. Did I
• 50:16
  Speaker 7: make mistakes, Yes, I own up to my mistakes. I
• 50:19
  Speaker 7: know where my faults were in my marriage, you know,
• 50:23
  Speaker 7: and I accept full responsibility you know, all my relationships.
• 50:29
  Speaker 7: Now I get it. I also understand that my thing
• 50:33
  Speaker 7: is I've been stuck in survival mode my whole life,
• 50:36
  Speaker 7: you know, and having someone to come in and be like,
• 50:44
  Speaker 7: I got this sit down, I don't know how to
• 50:47
  Speaker 7: receive that just yet. I'm working on it in this
• 50:50
  Speaker 7: new relationship. I'm working on it, and it's difficult. It's
• 50:54
  Speaker 7: definitely difficult. However, I am acknowledging that, and I'm grateful
• 51:00
  Speaker 7: for the patience that he has with me during this
• 51:03
  Speaker 7: time because he understands. But he did ask me a question,
• 51:06
  Speaker 7: and I'm still you. I'm still trying to figure I
• 51:07
  Speaker 7: how to answer and that and it's a simple question,
• 51:12
  Speaker 7: and it caught me off guard because I didn't, like
• 51:16
  Speaker 7: I said, I still don't know how to answer that question.
• 51:18
  Speaker 7: And the question was why did I not feel that
• 51:24
  Speaker 7: I deserve the love that I get? Who Yeah, I'm.
• 51:37
  Speaker 5: I've had that that question asked to me. Yeah, everything
• 51:42
  Speaker 5: that was.
• 51:44
  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean you just have to be honest
• 51:47
  Speaker 3: with yourself and honest and just understand that, you know, hey,
• 51:52
  Speaker 3: maybe I do have a while up. You know, we
• 51:54
  Speaker 3: have to look at that, you know, yeah, and and
• 51:57
  Speaker 3: and and people sometimes would ask me that why why
• 52:00
  Speaker 3: won't I let people get close closer to me? You know,
• 52:07
  Speaker 3: these things said we just have to look at because
• 52:10
  Speaker 3: you know, we not intentionally, but sometimes we still have
• 52:16
  Speaker 3: up that little piece of a wall. Yeah, we thought
• 52:20
  Speaker 3: we had let go of, but we thought that we
• 52:24
  Speaker 3: had moved past and it's still there because you know,
• 52:27
  Speaker 3: we don't want to get hurt. We don't want we
• 52:29
  Speaker 3: always want to have that little piece of something.
• 52:34
  Speaker 4: You know.
• 52:35
  Speaker 3: You know, you don't all you don't want to totally
• 52:38
  Speaker 3: let your guard all the way down. But you know,
• 52:43
  Speaker 3: at some point, some point, I feel like you you
• 52:48
  Speaker 3: got to get to a point to where you feel
• 52:51
  Speaker 3: comfortable enough to be loved again, because you truly should
• 52:56
  Speaker 3: be at a point to where you are when you
• 52:58
  Speaker 3: truly know your worth and truly value yourself and understand
• 53:04
  Speaker 3: who you are. Yeah, and that you are, regardless of
• 53:08
  Speaker 3: what you've been through, that you still are deserving to
• 53:13
  Speaker 3: be treated with the utmost respect and love beyond, because
• 53:18
  Speaker 3: there is somebody out there that will love you just
• 53:22
  Speaker 3: like you're supposed to be loved. Yeah, and you have
• 53:26
  Speaker 3: to be willing to accept that. So, you know, just
• 53:32
  Speaker 3: believing that it's still out there, you know that it
• 53:35
  Speaker 3: still is this just having that faith, you know. We
• 53:38
  Speaker 3: we have faith in everything else. We get in these cars.
• 53:43
  Speaker 3: We believe that these cars are gonna.
• 53:44
  Speaker 4: Take us where we need to go.
• 53:46
  Speaker 3: We believe that that bridge is gonna hold us as
• 53:48
  Speaker 3: we go over it to get to the other side
• 53:50
  Speaker 3: of that water. We believe that these ships are going
• 53:52
  Speaker 3: to take somewhere we need to go. These planes we
• 53:55
  Speaker 3: get on, we put our trust in all of that,
• 53:57
  Speaker 3: But we won't put our trust in us. He put it,
• 54:03
  Speaker 3: I have value.
• 54:05
  Speaker 7: That that was a question. But the thing of it
• 54:09
  Speaker 7: is is I know my value. I know what my
• 54:12
  Speaker 7: work is. It was just one of those moments where
• 54:15
  Speaker 7: it's like, I've always focused on making sure that the
• 54:20
  Speaker 7: people that are in my presence are around me, that
• 54:23
  Speaker 7: they know the value that I have for them and
• 54:27
  Speaker 7: that I appreciate them in that capacity. And now to
• 54:30
  Speaker 7: be on the receiving end, it's new and it's different,
• 54:35
  Speaker 7: and it's like, Okay, you actually don't care about my
• 54:40
  Speaker 7: attitude when I have one, Like he really ignores me
• 54:45
  Speaker 7: and he's like, okay, yeah you're mad, Okay, all right, cool,
• 54:49
  Speaker 7: five minutes you're good. Okay, what we're going to get
• 54:52
  Speaker 7: something to eat? What we're gonna do?
• 54:55
  Speaker 1: You know.
• 54:55
  Speaker 7: It's like he's like, yeah, I know you're gonna get
• 54:58
  Speaker 7: mad at such and such, but I'm gonna give you
• 55:00
  Speaker 7: five ten minutes. We're gonna talk about something else. He's
• 55:03
  Speaker 7: gonna make me laugh and then I'm gonna forget why
• 55:05
  Speaker 7: I'm mad. And I'm like, no, I want to be mad,
• 55:07
  Speaker 7: and he's like, yeah, I know you want to be mad.
• 55:10
  Speaker 5: Yeah, I just want to go to.
• 55:13
  Speaker 3: The opposite of what I'm going through.
• 55:14
  Speaker 5: Man, he would stay mad.
• 55:17
  Speaker 7: Oh No, I'm like, he won't do that.
• 55:20
  Speaker 5: I get he now he.
• 55:22
  Speaker 3: Caught on because I was like, yes, cat, He's like,
• 55:28
  Speaker 3: I know you'd be saying that. It's not like I'm
• 55:30
  Speaker 3: trying to blow you off. It's that I just don't
• 55:32
  Speaker 3: want to dwell in that area. Yeah.
• 55:37
  Speaker 7: I told him, listen, if we're having an argument and
• 55:41
  Speaker 7: I say stop talking to me, stop talking to me, don't, don't, don't,
• 55:46
  Speaker 7: don't talk to me. He's like, okay, I'll be quiet
• 55:50
  Speaker 7: for like five minutes, but I'm coming back. And I'm like, no,
• 55:54
  Speaker 7: I don't want you to come back. Let me come
• 55:56
  Speaker 7: back to you. So that he's like, now, because if
• 55:58
  Speaker 7: I let you come back to me, you ain't gonn
• 56:00
  Speaker 7: come back. You're gonna still be mad tomorrow. And I'm
• 56:03
  Speaker 7: trying to be over this in five minutes. And I'm like,
• 56:06
  Speaker 7: but it ain't gonna be five minutes that I want
• 56:07
  Speaker 7: to get over it, So you give me my space.
• 56:10
  Speaker 7: He like, yeah, okay, whatever, all right, you go in
• 56:14
  Speaker 7: the other room. See he got back up because my
• 56:19
  Speaker 7: boys usually will back him up and they're like, oh,
• 56:22
  Speaker 7: she's just being sensitive today. And I'm like, you know what,
• 56:26
  Speaker 7: all y'all can go.
• 56:27
  Speaker 5: Out, go out.
• 56:32
  Speaker 7: Like I don't care nothing about none of that. So
• 56:34
  Speaker 7: he has back up.
• 56:36
  Speaker 3: Wow.
• 56:37
  Speaker 7: So I'm like, you know what, that's cool. I'm still
• 56:40
  Speaker 7: gonna be mad. And they like, give her five minutes.
• 56:43
  Speaker 7: Tell her you're gonna take it against him to you
• 56:44
  Speaker 7: got some chocolate. She'll be all right, yeah, because they know,
• 56:52
  Speaker 7: look y'all, I.
• 56:53
  Speaker 5: Got my recent pieces right here, but in the other room.
• 57:03
  Speaker 3: But I got.
• 57:10
  Speaker 1: It's not me.
• 57:11
  Speaker 5: I want some deal pickle sunflower seeds.
• 57:16
  Speaker 7: Deal pickled some flower seeds.
• 57:18
  Speaker 5: Now, that's all.
• 57:26
  Speaker 3: Salad. I take a nice salad.
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: Now.
• 57:29
  Speaker 7: See that's that's how my that's that's that's.
• 57:31
  Speaker 3: That's how Cornell is that he's gonna get to me.
• 57:33
  Speaker 3: He said, Oh, I'm just gonna get you a nice salad.
• 57:35
  Speaker 4: That's what he thinks.
• 57:38
  Speaker 7: That chocolate and some fruit. You give me a fresh
• 57:41
  Speaker 7: ball fruit. You ain't got to worry about it is good.
• 57:47
  Speaker 7: I don't eat a lot of red minna.
• 57:49
  Speaker 5: Trim the fat because I want all the fat.
• 57:55
  Speaker 3: I don't blood blood.
• 57:58
  Speaker 7: You good you you good time.
• 58:02
  Speaker 6: Way I'm trying to get obviously, because I ain't got nobody.
• 58:05
  Speaker 7: Ain't doing none of that, you know, and and when
• 58:11
  Speaker 7: but don't rush yourself. I will say that, don't rush yourself.
• 58:15
  Speaker 7: Understand that when it's supposed to happen and when it's
• 58:19
  Speaker 7: our day by God, and God is in the midst
• 58:21
  Speaker 7: of it because we do have.
• 58:24
  Speaker 1: Us.
• 58:27
  Speaker 4: Oh, come on, just when, just when she was about
• 58:31
  Speaker 4: to leave good devil is a liar?
• 58:35
  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think she accidentally hit us.
• 58:39
  Speaker 4: Hit you think got it good?
• 58:49
  Speaker 3: I would like to do something that I told her
• 58:51
  Speaker 3: I would do. I don't think she thought that was
• 58:53
  Speaker 3: really you thought it was kidding.
• 58:57
  Speaker 5: Had the birthday.
• 59:01
  Speaker 6: To you, bang girl, had birthday.
• 59:08
  Speaker 4: To you.
• 59:10
  Speaker 7: Right now, Happy birthday.
• 59:15
  Speaker 1: To you.
• 59:18
  Speaker 10: Happy birthday girl, Yes.
• 59:29
  Speaker 5: Happy bird.
• 59:32
  Speaker 3: And I would like to say my happy birthday out
• 59:35
  Speaker 3: to Cherub Northern loren Ha. Happy birth.
• 59:51
  Speaker 5: I know y'all thinking, who's these people will see?
• 59:54
  Speaker 3: That's that one hundred office group that we've been trying
• 59:57
  Speaker 3: to get y'all in for the longest time.
• 59:59
  Speaker 4: I don't know why all will come on in around?
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 6: Come all through, right, do any type of poetry?
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 4: Come on through? We gotta for you, we gotta.
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 3: Place so and if you are in the East Point
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 3: Atlanta Riverdale College Park, Moorrow area, April the fifth, I
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 3: want you to come on to twenty seven eighty one
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 3: May Street, east Point jiaujia three or three folk folk.
• 1:00:32
  Speaker 3: Come on and y'all, he may turn into a day party.
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 4: Stuff.
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 5: When I can't come because I got to work.
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 3: It may turn into a day party. So I tell
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 3: you you may want to be in the building. I
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 3: tell you, if I'm excited, I'm excited, I'm excited, may
• 1:00:51
  Speaker 3: put some people on the spot and all of that
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 3: good stuff. But if you're in the area, I encourage
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 3: you to come out join us, which kicking it off
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 3: at eight a m. Yes, eight a m. We're gonna
• 1:01:03
  Speaker 3: start off with a prep breakfast. We're gonna feature your
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 3: spirit in your physical body, so we want you to
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 3: come on by join us, and then we're gonna transition
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 3: right on end to the book event. So I encourage
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 3: you guys to come on now meet some of these
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 3: amazing authors, poets, business owners, and have a good time.
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 4: Y'all.
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 3: We're gonna have some cake, have a photo booth. I'm
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 3: gonna have live d J y'all. Yeah, we're gonna be
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 3: in the building.
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 7: Let me make sure I get my knees so so
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 7: I can, you know, do a little line dancer to.
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 3: So we're gonna have some fast, We're gonna have some
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 3: fans for your fast.
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 5: Yeah, we're gonna have some fans.
• 1:02:00
  Speaker 3: Tell ya bring your cowboy.
• 1:02:02
  Speaker 4: Hat, Oh my goodness.
• 1:02:06
  Speaker 3: And then that night, y'all, we're gonna wrap it up
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 3: at the Painted Pins. We're going bowling. We're going to
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 3: a boot bowling.
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 4: Boot.
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 5: I am heting, I'm I'm up in the corner. Heyton,
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 5: So y'all come on now and and chill with us.
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 3: Man, it's okay. We were coming your way to we're
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 3: gonna we're gonna make it.
• 1:02:39
  Speaker 6: I'm are we coming that way too.
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 3: You may have to come to New York, but we're coming.
• 1:02:46
  Speaker 4: Listen, I will, I will.
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 3: The one hundred after movement is we on the move.
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  Speaker 3: So y'all look out.
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  Speaker 5: Were coming to a sitting there you soon, So be on.
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  Speaker 3: The lookout and be ready. If you are a part
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  Speaker 3: of the movement, I tell you you better stay ready
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  Speaker 3: so you ain't got to get ready when I may
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  Speaker 3: call upon you. So be ready so you don't have
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  Speaker 3: to get ready. Yes, well, she don't mind, Yes she will.
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  Speaker 1: She will.
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  Speaker 7: You know you, baby, she might even make up a
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  Speaker 7: name to call you. But she's gonna una do.
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  Speaker 3: Bye bye bye bye birthday. Yeah, we just like to
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  Speaker 3: have on and that's one thing. And that's what I
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  Speaker 3: like for people to understand. People think podcasting is all serious,
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  Speaker 3: but sometimes it's just about having fun and just you know,
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  Speaker 3: there's a space where you can come and enjoy yourself and.
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  Speaker 4: And like that.
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  Speaker 3: That's one of the most important things. You know, people
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  Speaker 3: are so sometimes folks are so professional and down then
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  Speaker 3: we can't I can't even get your message across.
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  Speaker 7: But yes, and filtered version of me, because that's the
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  Speaker 7: only one I know, because I ain't got time to
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  Speaker 7: be trying to hide behind because.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm still trying to I'm still trying to figure
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  Speaker 3: me out.
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  Speaker 4: So it's hard.
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  Speaker 3: It's hard trying to be somebody else.
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  Speaker 7: I ain't trying to tell nobody else is live, because honey,
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  Speaker 7: I'm not. Because you don't told them.
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  Speaker 5: You are a sem foot sem or.
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  Speaker 7: Somebody and you do this and you fly airplanes and
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  Speaker 7: your drive yachts on the week. Maybe it ain't even
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  Speaker 7: got a pin toole.
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  Speaker 5: Went to the pin.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, they ain't even got that, but they've been doing
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  Speaker 7: all this other stuff. They're like, baby, come on, now,
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  Speaker 7: you're driving your your uncle's car. Oh got now, But
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  Speaker 7: you don't be perpetrating for the longest I actually come
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  Speaker 7: pick me up. You say, well, hold on, I got
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  Speaker 7: such such to do. I'beata and it be three weeks.
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  Speaker 7: It's okay, it's all right.
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  Speaker 5: Half of the ride.
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  Speaker 7: Just like just say you're gonna pay for the uber
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  Speaker 7: what you know, Just just say that it's okay. Ain't
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  Speaker 7: nobody mad at you.
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  Speaker 5: It's all right.
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  Speaker 1: You know.
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  Speaker 3: Well, I want to tell I have I have enjoyed
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  Speaker 3: y'all tonight and is watching. We appreciate you, look, we
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  Speaker 3: we we hope we did you some justice tonight. But
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  Speaker 3: we just wanted to do our home and make sure
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  Speaker 3: that you know, we're doing what we're supposed to do
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  Speaker 3: as hosts and as a network, to make sure that
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  Speaker 3: we are providing an outlet in the space because we
• 1:06:44
  Speaker 3: never know who may have tuned in tonight and needed
• 1:06:47
  Speaker 3: to just needed this laugh because you know, because we've
• 1:06:50
  Speaker 3: been able to laugh, you know, And I that that
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  Speaker 3: when when when when people heal, when they allow themselves
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  Speaker 3: to heal, then they can help others heal. So that
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  Speaker 3: that is what it's all about. So thank you guys
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 3: for you know, your willingness to be a part of
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  Speaker 3: the show and to continue to make the show go
• 1:07:11
  Speaker 3: forth even in Latanya's absence, you know, truly representing and
• 1:07:16
  Speaker 3: showing up and you know, letting people know that family.
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  Speaker 3: We family, you know, you know, we we got each
• 1:07:26
  Speaker 3: other's back and we support each other and that's what
• 1:07:29
  Speaker 3: we do over here. So with that being said, let
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 3: me do another Let me do another commercial real quick.
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  Speaker 3: With that being said, y'all, we still have we still
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  Speaker 3: have three available spots right here on this amazing network.
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  Speaker 3: So if you are that would like to allow your
• 1:07:49
  Speaker 3: voice to be heard and you would like to be seen, y'all,
• 1:07:53
  Speaker 3: we are on our hearts Spotify, Listen no Amazon, you
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  Speaker 3: can go on to Amazon, use it and download on
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  Speaker 3: the audible for free. Yeah, y'all over there, I don't Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: I've been sharing, y'all, y'all, and so many other platforms.
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  Speaker 3: If you are looking for an outlet and then you
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 3: have all these amazing sisters that would support you, will
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  Speaker 3: help you. We're just here to help you amplify your voice,
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  Speaker 3: to allow your voice to speak, and to be an
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  Speaker 3: outlet for that other person that may need a space.
• 1:08:27
  Speaker 3: We want to be able to provide a safe place
• 1:08:30
  Speaker 3: for people to be able to share and to be themselves.
• 1:08:32
  Speaker 3: So that's what we're doing. You are interested. We do
• 1:08:37
  Speaker 3: have three available slots. We have second and fourth Wednesday.
• 1:08:40
  Speaker 3: We have first and fourth month, first Sunday and fourth Monday.
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  Speaker 3: We have four third Sunday and second Thursday. Oh, I
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  Speaker 3: remember that spots available, y'all. We have those three slots available,
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  Speaker 3: and I tell you we will. We will train you.
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  Speaker 3: We would do hands on training. We will walk you
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  Speaker 3: through the process of what we're expecting, what it'll be
• 1:09:20
  Speaker 3: like if you are a part of this network, and
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 3: then we never leave you. We're always here. We have
• 1:09:25
  Speaker 3: a group chat where we're in constant chat. We're always
• 1:09:29
  Speaker 3: there for each other. We pray for each other, we
• 1:09:33
  Speaker 3: substitute for each other, whatever we need to make sure
• 1:09:36
  Speaker 3: that we are being the best version of ourselves that
• 1:09:39
  Speaker 3: we can be. That's what we're doing over here on
• 1:09:42
  Speaker 3: the Crew podcast. Them leave us of the airwaves. We're
• 1:09:45
  Speaker 3: trying to be the best version of ourselves that we
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 3: can be while helping others do that same thing. So
• 1:09:51
  Speaker 3: if you're looking for a home, we're here. We're also
• 1:09:55
  Speaker 3: looking to help some guys that want to start their
• 1:09:59
  Speaker 3: own podcast. Ask because I've had some interest. So we
• 1:10:02
  Speaker 3: are also looking for some guys that are looking to
• 1:10:06
  Speaker 3: have their own podcasts during the six o'clock hour, So
• 1:10:10
  Speaker 3: if you're interested, reach out. If we have enough interest,
• 1:10:14
  Speaker 3: we will be launching a Yes. So if you're out there,
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  Speaker 3: reach out and come on and and and join them.
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  Speaker 3: Kings of the Them, Kings of the l we always represent.
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  Speaker 3: We're always trying to be a voice. We're always trying
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  Speaker 3: to be that change that we desired to see in
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  Speaker 3: this world because that's all we know to do. So
• 1:10:43
  Speaker 3: with that being said, before we close, I have to
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  Speaker 3: go around the room and allow each one of these
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  Speaker 3: amazing queens to share something positive for you guys to
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  Speaker 3: take you through this weekend. Starting with Ms.
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  Speaker 1: D d.
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  Speaker 9: Well, I want to thank you ladies for coming out
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  Speaker 9: and you know, partying with you. Basically, Yeah, this weekend,
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  Speaker 9: I just would say, is peak God, keep God and
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  Speaker 9: everything you do because that's the only way you're gonna
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  Speaker 9: get through. You mean, but Kanya, I hope you feel
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  Speaker 9: bad it baby, love you.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, Yeah, I'm gonna say rest. We forget about that
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  Speaker 3: and we do everything else. But ladies, gents, if it's
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  Speaker 3: just an hour, sit back and just rest.
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  Speaker 4: M hm.
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  Speaker 3: You mean.
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  Speaker 7: The only thing I want to day to everybody is
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  Speaker 7: to understand that the position you have in your life
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  Speaker 7: right now is the position that you've prayed for. So
• 1:11:53
  Speaker 7: own it, be in it, and understand that everything that
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  Speaker 7: you've prayed for is on its way. It's not are delayed,
• 1:12:01
  Speaker 7: nor is it to not. Everything is coming. So even
• 1:12:07
  Speaker 7: if it looks hard, even if it looks like it's
• 1:12:09
  Speaker 7: not working out for your good, all the pieces are
• 1:12:12
  Speaker 7: falling into place. So stay the course, stay focused, and
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  Speaker 7: God's got you.
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  Speaker 3: And I say, just do it. Whatever it is you
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  Speaker 3: want to do, just do it.
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  Speaker 5: Enjoy life.
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  Speaker 3: We get one chance, said it. Don't let life happen
• 1:12:31
  Speaker 3: around you, but be a part of life. Let me
• 1:12:34
  Speaker 3: tell you, if you want to live life, learn how
• 1:12:37
  Speaker 3: to love more, learn how to inspire more, and remind
• 1:12:43
  Speaker 3: yourself that you have the fear of God. That nothing, nothing, nothing,
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  Speaker 3: nothing can stop you because you have the fear of God.
• 1:12:52
  Speaker 3: And He's not giving you the fear the spirit of fear,
• 1:12:56
  Speaker 3: but you have the fear of God. And once you
• 1:13:00
  Speaker 3: have the fear of God, you are capable to do
• 1:13:03
  Speaker 3: all things. And how do you do that? You do
• 1:13:06
  Speaker 3: that through the E three experience, Educate and power and
• 1:13:10
  Speaker 3: encourage y'all. I love you guys, and I pray that
• 1:13:14
  Speaker 3: you have a great weekend and we will see you
• 1:13:16
  Speaker 3: guys on Sunday. Y'all, we don't have shows on Saturdays because,
• 1:13:20
  Speaker 3: guess what, we want to spend time with our family.
• 1:13:22
  Speaker 3: So y'all have a great weekend and we'll see y'all
• 1:13:26
  Speaker 3: back on Sunday.
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  Speaker 7: By bye, goodbye.