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The Power of Reflection · Dr. Danielle Difference

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  Welcome
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  to
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  The
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  Crying
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  in
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  My
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  Cheesecake
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  podcast,
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  I
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  am
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  Danielle,
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  your
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  host
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  here,
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  and
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  welcome
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  to
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  2023.
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  Y'all,
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  we
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  made
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  it.
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  We've
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  made
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  it
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  yet
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  another
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  year
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  post
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  pandemic.
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  Post
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  the
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  crazy
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  world.
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  And
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  if
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  you're
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  an
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  elder,
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  millennial
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  or
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  Gen
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  Xer
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  like
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  me,
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  you,
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  may
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  realize
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  that
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  we
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  were
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  made
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  for
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  this
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  crazy
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  world,
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  and
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  I've
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  come
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  to
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  this
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  conclusion.
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  We've
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  not
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  known
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  a
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  world
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  without
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  crazy,
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  and
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  there
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  are
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  things
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  like,
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  I'm
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  just
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  gonna
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  walk
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  you
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  through
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  things
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  like
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  as
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  I
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  was
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  just
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  sitting
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  and
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  reflecting
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  about
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  2022
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  at
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  the
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  end,
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  I
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  was
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  thinking,
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  we've
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  had
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  things
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  like,
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  or
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  we've
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  experienced
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  the
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  AIDS
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  epidemic,
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  pandemic,
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  whatever,
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  whatever
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  the
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  correct
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  word
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  is.
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  We've
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  watched
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  Chernobyl
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  the
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  Berlin
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  Wall
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  fell,
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  we've
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  watched
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  Exxon
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  Valdez
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  spill,
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  the
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  Challenger
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  Explosion,
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  Iran
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  Contra
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  Affair,
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  "Just
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  Say
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  No"
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  campaign
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  and
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  this
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  is
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  just
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  the
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  80's
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  like
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  there
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  was
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  always
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  some
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  turmoil.
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  And
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  then
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  in
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  the
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  90's
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  we've
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  had
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  like,
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  this
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  is
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  just
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  in
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  the
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  top
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  of
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  my
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  mind.
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  The
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  Columbine
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  shooting,
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  the
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  Los
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  Angeles
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  riots,
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  the
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  Oklahoma
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  City
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  bombing,
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  Bosnia
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  Genocide,
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  Monica
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  Lewinsky
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  scandal,
• 1:00
  Eco
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  Siege,
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  the
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  Ruby
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  Ridge
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  Persian
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  Gulf
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  War,
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  Rwanda
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  Genocide,
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  Taliban
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  seized
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  Kabol,
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  Kaul,
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  Kabul,
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  hong
• 1:08
  Kong
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  was
• 1:09
  returned
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  to
• 1:09
  China.
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  Congress
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  impeached
• 1:11
  Bill
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  Clinton,
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  it
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  was
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  our
• 1:13
  president
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  and
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  like
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  the
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  first
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  time
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  I
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  knew
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  in
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  my
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  personal
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  life
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  that
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  I
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  witnessed
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  a
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  president
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  could
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  get
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  in
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  trouble.
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  Kosovo
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  War
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  Kosovo
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  War,
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  desert
• 1:21
  Storm,
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  the
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  apocalypse
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  of
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  Y2K
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  do
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  you
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  remember
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  that?
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  Do
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  you
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  remember
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  Y2K?
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  I
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  like
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  my
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  mom
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  is
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  not
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  into
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  parties.
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  I'm
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  actually
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  not
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  into
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  parties
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  either,
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  but
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  my
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  family
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  is
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  like,
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  Like
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  my
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  dad's
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  side
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  of
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  the
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  family
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  was
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  into
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  celebrating
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  the
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  New
• 1:34
  Year's
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  together,
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  and,
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  and
• 1:35
  we
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  never
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  went.
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  And
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  I,
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  anyway,
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  all
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  that
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  to
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  say,
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  like,
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  my
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  mom
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  actually
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  went
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  to
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  the
• 1:40
  New
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  Year's,
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  the
• 1:41
  New
• 1:41
  Year's
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  party,
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  the
• 1:42
  only
• 1:42
  New
• 1:43
  Year's
• 1:43
  party
• 1:43
  I've
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  ever
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  been
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  to
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  with
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  her,
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  when,
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  with
• 1:45
  my
• 1:45
  family
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  was
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  for
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  Y2K
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  because
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  we,
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  everybody
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  was
• 1:48
  so
• 1:48
  scared,
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  it
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  was
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  the
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  end
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  of
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  the
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  world
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  and,
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  you
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  know,
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  nobody
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  wanted
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  to
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  be
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  alone.
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  So,
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  but
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  that's
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  just
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  a
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  few
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  things.
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  I
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  remember
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  from
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  the
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  90's
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  and
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  as
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  if
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  the
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  90's
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  weren't
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  bad
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  or
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  crazy
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  enough,
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  the
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  2000's
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  said,
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  ho
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  hold
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  my
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  beer.
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  We
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  had
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  a
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  ship
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  bombed
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  named
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  the
• 2:03
  USS
• 2:04
  Cole,
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  we
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  had
• 2:05
  9/11.
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  We
• 2:05
  had
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  the
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  anthrax
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  scares.
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  You
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  remember
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  that?
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  Like
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  I
• 2:07
  was
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  in
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  high
• 2:08
  school,
• 2:08
  like
• 2:08
  worried
• 2:08
  about
• 2:09
  getting
• 2:09
  anthrax
• 2:10
  in
• 2:10
  my
• 2:10
  mail.
• 2:11
  Enron
• 2:11
  scandal,
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  a
• 2:12
  Department
• 2:12
  of
• 2:12
  Homeland
• 2:13
  Security
• 2:13
  was
• 2:13
  established.
• 2:14
  The
• 2:14
  priest,
• 2:15
  pedophilia,
• 2:15
  coverups.
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  I
• 2:16
  do
• 2:16
  wanna
• 2:16
  talk
• 2:16
  about
• 2:17
  that
• 2:17
  here
• 2:17
  in
• 2:17
  just
• 2:17
  a
• 2:17
  little
• 2:17
  bit,
• 2:18
  but
• 2:18
  priest,
• 2:18
  pedophilia,
• 2:19
  coverups,
• 2:19
  Shock
• 2:20
  and
• 2:20
  Awe,
• 2:20
  the
• 2:21
  invasion
• 2:21
  of
• 2:21
  Iraq.
• 2:22
  I
• 2:22
  remember
• 2:22
  this
• 2:22
  that
• 2:23
  I
• 2:23
  was
• 2:23
  dating
• 2:23
  my
• 2:23
  husband
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  at
• 2:24
  the
• 2:24
  time,
• 2:24
  I
• 2:24
  was
• 2:24
  still
• 2:24
  in
• 2:24
  high
• 2:24
  school,
• 2:25
  he
• 2:25
  was
• 2:25
  25,
• 2:26
  but
• 2:26
  I
• 2:26
  was
• 2:26
  dating
• 2:26
  my
• 2:27
  husband
• 2:27
  and
• 2:28
  we
• 2:28
  watched
• 2:28
  the
• 2:29
  Shock
• 2:29
  and
• 2:29
  Awe,
• 2:30
  the
• 2:30
  invasion
• 2:30
  of
• 2:30
  Iraq
• 2:31
  happen
• 2:31
  together
• 2:31
  on
• 2:32
  tv.
• 2:32
  The
• 2:32
  Columbia
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  exploded
• 2:34
  and
• 2:34
  an
• 2:34
  interesting
• 2:34
  story
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  about
• 2:35
  the
• 2:35
  Columbia;
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  it
• 2:36
  was
• 2:36
  a,
• 2:36
  a
• 2:36
  ship
• 2:37
  coming
• 2:37
  back
• 2:37
  from
• 2:38
  space
• 2:38
  and
• 2:39
  on
• 2:39
  that
• 2:39
  ship
• 2:40
  was,
• 2:40
  my
• 2:41
  husband's
• 2:42
  doctor's
• 2:42
  husband,
• 2:43
  and
• 2:44
  so
• 2:44
  he
• 2:45
  was,
• 2:45
  he
• 2:45
  exploded
• 2:46
  in
• 2:46
  that
• 2:46
  crash.
• 2:47
  My
• 2:47
  husband's,
• 2:48
  one
• 2:48
  of
• 2:48
  his
• 2:48
  grandfathers
• 2:48
  died,
• 2:49
  came
• 2:49
  around.
• 2:49
  I
• 2:49
  was
• 2:50
  one
• 2:50
  of
• 2:50
  the
• 2:50
  first
• 2:50
  people
• 2:50
  like
• 2:51
  in,
• 2:51
  is
• 2:51
  it
• 2:51
  2004
• 2:52
  maybe
• 2:53
  that
• 2:53
  Facebook
• 2:53
  was
• 2:53
  live
• 2:54
  and
• 2:54
  I
• 2:54
  got
• 2:54
  that
• 2:55
  when
• 2:55
  I
• 2:55
  was
• 2:55
  in
• 2:55
  college.
• 2:56
  Hurricane
• 2:56
  Katrina.
• 2:57
  The
• 2:57
  devastation
• 2:58
  from
• 2:58
  that
• 2:58
  is
• 2:58
  still
• 2:58
  around
• 2:59
  and
• 2:59
  you're
• 2:59
  still
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  seeing
• 3:00
  that,
• 3:00
  The
• 3:00
  Great
• 3:00
  Recession,
• 3:01
  the
• 3:01
  great
• 3:02
  recession
• 3:02
  happened.
• 3:03
  So
• 3:03
  that's
• 3:04
  just
• 3:04
  the
• 3:04
  2000's.
• 3:05
  2010,
• 3:06
  and
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  can't
• 3:06
  believe
• 3:07
  I've
• 3:07
  been
• 3:07
  alive
• 3:07
  this
• 3:07
  long
• 3:08
  for
• 3:08
  this
• 3:08
  many
• 3:08
  decades.
• 3:09
  We
• 3:09
  had
• 3:09
  WikiLeaks,
• 3:10
  we
• 3:10
  had
• 3:10
  Dow
• 3:10
  Jones
• 3:11
  Flash
• 3:11
  Crash.
• 3:12
  We
• 3:12
  had
• 3:12
  Occupy
• 3:13
  Wall
• 3:13
  Street,
• 3:13
  and
• 3:13
  I
• 3:13
  totally
• 3:14
  forgot
• 3:14
  about
• 3:14
  this,
• 3:15
  but
• 3:15
  it
• 3:15
  was
• 3:15
  a
• 3:15
  thing
• 3:15
  that
• 3:15
  whole
• 3:16
  1%
• 3:16
  strike
• 3:17
  thing,
• 3:17
  bin
• 3:17
  Laden
• 3:17
  was
• 3:18
  killed
• 3:18
  and
• 3:18
  so
• 3:18
  was
• 3:19
  Gaddafi.
• 3:20
  Our
• 3:20
  country,
• 3:20
  our
• 3:21
  country
• 3:21
  was
• 3:21
  still
• 3:21
  reeling
• 3:22
  from
• 3:22
  that
• 3:22
  financial
• 3:23
  crisis
• 3:23
  of
• 3:23
  2008.
• 3:24
  There
• 3:24
  was
• 3:24
  a
• 3:24
  Syrian
• 3:25
  Civil
• 3:25
  War,
• 3:26
  the
• 3:26
  Boston
• 3:27
  Marathon
• 3:27
  bombing,
• 3:27
  an
• 3:27
  Ebola
• 3:28
  virus,
• 3:29
  in
• 3:29
  refugee
• 3:30
  refugee
• 3:30
  crisis,
• 3:31
  the
• 3:31
  Brexit,
• 3:32
  Zika,
• 3:33
  more
• 3:33
  shootings
• 3:34
  in
• 3:34
  schools,
• 3:34
  churches,
• 3:35
  et
• 3:35
  cetera,
• 3:35
  like
• 3:36
  literally
• 3:37
  things
• 3:37
  crashing,
• 3:38
  whoops.
• 3:38
  Literally
• 3:39
  things
• 3:40
  just
• 3:41
  constantly
• 3:41
  going
• 3:41
  off.
• 3:41
  And
• 3:42
  for
• 3:42
  me,
• 3:43
  I
• 3:43
  was
• 3:44
  thinking
• 3:44
  about,
• 3:45
  oh,
• 3:45
  I
• 3:45
  haven't
• 3:46
  had
• 3:46
  a
• 3:46
  break
• 3:46
  in
• 3:46
  these
• 3:47
  last
• 3:47
  two
• 3:47
  years,
• 3:48
  so
• 3:48
  it's
• 3:48
  2023.
• 3:49
  When
• 3:49
  you're
• 3:50
  listening
• 3:50
  to
• 3:50
  this,
• 3:50
  I'm
• 3:50
  like,
• 3:51
  I
• 3:51
  haven't
• 3:51
  had
• 3:51
  a
• 3:51
  break
• 3:51
  in
• 3:51
  the
• 3:51
  last,
• 3:52
  we
• 3:52
  haven't
• 3:52
  had
• 3:52
  a
• 3:52
  chance
• 3:53
  to
• 3:53
  recover
• 3:54
  from
• 3:54
  the
• 3:54
  next
• 3:55
  crisis.
• 3:55
  Kind
• 3:55
  of
• 3:55
  like
• 3:56
  I,
• 3:56
  I
• 3:56
  attribute
• 3:56
  it
• 3:56
  to
• 3:57
  labor
• 3:57
  pains.
• 3:58
  We
• 3:58
  haven't
• 3:58
  had
• 3:58
  time
• 3:58
  to
• 3:59
  recover
• 3:59
  between
• 4:00
  the
• 4:00
  labor,
• 4:00
  the,
• 4:00
  you
• 4:00
  know,
• 4:01
  the,
• 4:01
  what
• 4:01
  is
• 4:01
  it?
• 4:01
  Is
• 4:02
  it
• 4:02
  labor
• 4:02
  pain,
• 4:03
  contractions?
• 4:03
  We
• 4:03
  haven't
• 4:03
  had
• 4:04
  time
• 4:04
  to
• 4:04
  cover,
• 4:04
  recover
• 4:05
  from
• 4:05
  the
• 4:05
  contractions.
• 4:06
  And
• 4:06
  then
• 4:06
  I
• 4:06
  started
• 4:06
  thinking,
• 4:07
  you
• 4:07
  know,
• 4:07
  like
• 4:07
  we
• 4:07
  had
• 4:08
  all
• 4:08
  these
• 4:08
  things
• 4:08
  happen
• 4:09
  for
• 4:09
  those
• 4:09
  three
• 4:09
  decades.
• 4:10
  Then
• 4:10
  we
• 4:10
  now
• 4:10
  have,
• 4:11
  the
• 4:11
  2020s
• 4:12
  the
• 4:12
  most
• 4:12
  recent
• 4:13
  pandemic
• 4:13
  of
• 4:13
  2020.
• 4:14
  The
• 4:14
  riots,
• 4:15
  the
• 4:15
  blatant
• 4:15
  sexualization
• 4:16
  of
• 4:16
  children,
• 4:17
  the
• 4:17
  continued
• 4:17
  enabling
• 4:18
  of
• 4:18
  feelings
• 4:18
  versus
• 4:19
  facts,
• 4:19
  the
• 4:19
  hiding,
• 4:20
  the
• 4:20
  questionable
• 4:21
  elections,
• 4:22
  the
• 4:22
  family
• 4:22
  demise.
• 4:24
  In
• 4:25
  school
• 4:25
  I
• 4:26
  was
• 4:26
  taught,
• 4:26
  it
• 4:26
  was
• 4:26
  so
• 4:26
  important
• 4:27
  to
• 4:27
  go
• 4:28
  back
• 4:28
  and
• 4:28
  reflect
• 4:28
  on
• 4:29
  what's
• 4:29
  happening
• 4:29
  in
• 4:29
  the
• 4:29
  past,
• 4:30
  with
• 4:30
  a
• 4:30
  2020
• 4:31
  vision.
• 4:32
  So
• 4:32
  like
• 4:32
  go
• 4:32
  back
• 4:32
  and
• 4:32
  reflect
• 4:33
  with
• 4:33
  a
• 4:33
  2020
• 4:33
  vision
• 4:34
  so
• 4:34
  that
• 4:34
  the
• 4:34
  past
• 4:34
  doesn't
• 4:35
  happen
• 4:35
  again.
• 4:36
  And
• 4:36
  yet,
• 4:36
  from
• 4:37
  what
• 4:37
  I've
• 4:37
  shared
• 4:37
  with
• 4:38
  you,
• 4:38
  it
• 4:38
  seems
• 4:39
  like
• 4:39
  there's
• 4:39
  this
• 4:39
  progression
• 4:40
  of
• 4:40
  things
• 4:40
  getting
• 4:41
  worse,
• 4:41
  isn't
• 4:41
  there?
• 4:41
  Like
• 4:42
  just
• 4:42
  more
• 4:42
  hits
• 4:43
  more
• 4:43
  frequently
• 4:44
  and
• 4:44
  the
• 4:44
  hits
• 4:45
  are
• 4:45
  no
• 4:45
  longer
• 4:46
  over
• 4:46
  there
• 4:47
  or
• 4:47
  something
• 4:47
  that
• 4:47
  we
• 4:47
  can
• 4:48
  hide
• 4:48
  from,
• 4:49
  the
• 4:49
  hits
• 4:49
  are
• 4:50
  really
• 4:51
  personal.
• 4:51
  Let's
• 4:51
  just
• 4:51
  take
• 4:51
  a
• 4:51
  look
• 4:52
  at
• 4:52
  viruses
• 4:52
  from
• 4:52
  the
• 4:52
  eighties
• 4:53
  to
• 4:53
  now.
• 4:53
  Back
• 4:54
  in
• 4:54
  the
• 4:54
  eighties,
• 4:54
  Reagan
• 4:55
  cut
• 4:55
  spending
• 4:56
  to
• 4:56
  social
• 4:56
  healthcare
• 4:57
  modalities,
• 4:58
  and
• 4:58
  then
• 4:58
  all
• 4:58
  of
• 4:58
  a
• 4:58
  sudden
• 4:59
  AIDS
• 4:59
  became
• 4:59
  a
• 4:59
  pandemic
• 5:00
  or
• 5:00
  epidemic,
• 5:01
  or
• 5:01
  whatever
• 5:01
  the
• 5:01
  correct
• 5:02
  verbiage
• 5:02
  is
• 5:02
  or
• 5:02
  the
• 5:03
  word
• 5:03
  is.
• 5:03
  When
• 5:03
  Trump
• 5:04
  came
• 5:04
  into
• 5:04
  office,
• 5:05
  he
• 5:05
  did
• 5:05
  the
• 5:05
  same
• 5:06
  thing
• 5:06
  and
• 5:07
  unleashed
• 5:07
  out
• 5:07
  of
• 5:07
  China
• 5:08
  was
• 5:08
  a
• 5:08
  bio
• 5:08
  weapon
• 5:09
  to
• 5:09
  control
• 5:09
  our
• 5:09
  population,
• 5:10
  whatever
• 5:10
  else
• 5:11
  it
• 5:11
  was
• 5:11
  designed
• 5:11
  for.
• 5:12
  But
• 5:12
  call
• 5:12
  me
• 5:12
  crazy,
• 5:14
  since
• 5:14
  2020,
• 5:15
  I
• 5:15
  have
• 5:15
  woken
• 5:16
  up
• 5:16
  and
• 5:16
  realized
• 5:17
  there
• 5:17
  are
• 5:17
  no
• 5:17
  coincidences.
• 5:18
  If
• 5:18
  you
• 5:19
  are
• 5:19
  a
• 5:19
  follower
• 5:19
  of
• 5:19
  Jesus,
• 5:20
  like
• 5:20
  we
• 5:20
  will
• 5:20
  always
• 5:20
  say
• 5:21
  in
• 5:21
  our
• 5:21
  little
• 5:21
  Christian
• 5:22
  circles,
• 5:22
  like,
• 5:22
  oh,
• 5:23
  I
• 5:24
  don't
• 5:24
  believe
• 5:24
  in
• 5:24
  coincidences.
• 5:25
  That
• 5:25
  must
• 5:26
  have
• 5:26
  been
• 5:26
  faith
• 5:27
  or
• 5:27
  fate,
• 5:27
  or
• 5:27
  it
• 5:28
  must
• 5:28
  have
• 5:28
  been
• 5:28
  God's
• 5:29
  plan.
• 5:29
  Like
• 5:29
  we
• 5:30
  say
• 5:30
  these
• 5:30
  things.
• 5:31
  In
• 5:32
  in
• 5:32
  our
• 5:33
  spiritual
• 5:33
  life
• 5:33
  and
• 5:33
  personal
• 5:34
  life.
• 5:34
  But
• 5:34
  what
• 5:34
  about
• 5:35
  like
• 5:35
  in
• 5:35
  real
• 5:36
  life?
• 5:36
  We
• 5:36
  don't
• 5:37
  think
• 5:37
  about
• 5:37
  that,
• 5:38
  but
• 5:38
  I've
• 5:38
  woken
• 5:38
  up
• 5:38
  and
• 5:38
  realized
• 5:39
  there
• 5:39
  are
• 5:39
  no
• 5:39
  coincidences,
• 5:40
  and
• 5:40
  yet
• 5:41
  we
• 5:41
  don't
• 5:42
  remember
• 5:42
  what
• 5:42
  happened
• 5:43
  in
• 5:43
  the
• 5:43
  80's
• 5:43
  anymore.
• 5:44
  And
• 5:44
  history
• 5:45
  doesn't
• 5:45
  lie.
• 5:46
  Events
• 5:46
  build
• 5:47
  upon
• 5:47
  each
• 5:47
  other.
• 5:48
  Let's
• 5:48
  move
• 5:48
  into
• 5:48
  the
• 5:48
  nineties
• 5:49
  when
• 5:49
  that
• 5:49
  pedophilia,
• 5:50
  was
• 5:50
  talking
• 5:50
  about
• 5:50
  the
• 5:50
  pedophilia
• 5:51
  was
• 5:51
  brought
• 5:51
  into
• 5:51
  light
• 5:52
  with
• 5:52
  the
• 5:52
  priest
• 5:52
  scandals
• 5:53
  and
• 5:53
  I
• 5:53
  remember
• 5:54
  these
• 5:54
  as
• 5:55
  my
• 5:55
  first
• 5:55
  real
• 5:56
  thought
• 5:56
  that
• 5:56
  adults
• 5:56
  could
• 5:57
  abuse
• 5:57
  children
• 5:58
  in
• 5:58
  disgusting
• 5:58
  ways.
• 5:59
  Not
• 5:59
  that
• 5:59
  physical
• 6:00
  or
• 6:00
  emotional
• 6:00
  mental
• 6:00
  abuse
• 6:01
  isn't
• 6:01
  disgusting,
• 6:02
  but
• 6:03
  it's
• 6:03
  truly,
• 6:03
  but
• 6:04
  to
• 6:04
  truly
• 6:04
  take
• 6:04
  away
• 6:05
  a
• 6:05
  child's
• 6:06
  ignorance.
• 6:06
  I
• 6:06
  cannot
• 6:07
  believe
• 6:07
  anyone
• 6:07
  would
• 6:08
  do,
• 6:08
  like,
• 6:08
  it,
• 6:08
  it's
• 6:09
  unfathomable,
• 6:10
  unfathomable.
• 6:11
  I'm
• 6:11
  pretty
• 6:11
  ignorant
• 6:12
  when
• 6:12
  it
• 6:12
  comes
• 6:12
  to
• 6:12
  the
• 6:13
  Catholic
• 6:13
  faith,
• 6:13
  and
• 6:13
  I'll
• 6:14
  be
• 6:14
  the
• 6:14
  first
• 6:14
  to
• 6:14
  say
• 6:14
  that,
• 6:15
  but
• 6:15
  I
• 6:15
  do
• 6:15
  have
• 6:15
  family
• 6:16
  and
• 6:16
  friends
• 6:16
  and
• 6:16
  mentors
• 6:17
  who
• 6:17
  belong
• 6:17
  to
• 6:17
  that
• 6:18
  faith,
• 6:18
  and
• 6:18
  I
• 6:18
  don't
• 6:19
  think
• 6:19
  this
• 6:19
  priest
• 6:19
  thing
• 6:20
  is
• 6:20
  something
• 6:20
  that's
• 6:21
  ha
• 6:21
  that
• 6:22
  is
• 6:22
  new.
• 6:23
  I
• 6:23
  think
• 6:23
  it
• 6:23
  is
• 6:23
  something
• 6:24
  that
• 6:24
  has
• 6:24
  happened
• 6:25
  over
• 6:25
  the
• 6:25
  centuries.
• 6:26
  I
• 6:26
  think
• 6:26
  it
• 6:26
  may
• 6:26
  be
• 6:26
  something
• 6:26
  that's
• 6:27
  always
• 6:27
  been
• 6:27
  there.
• 6:28
  I
• 6:28
  think
• 6:28
  that
• 6:28
  this
• 6:29
  situation
• 6:29
  speaks
• 6:30
  to
• 6:30
  a
• 6:30
  greater
• 6:30
  issue
• 6:31
  that
• 6:31
  sex
• 6:32
  abuse
• 6:32
  is
• 6:32
  there
• 6:33
  and
• 6:33
  it's
• 6:33
  being
• 6:34
  covered
• 6:34
  up.
• 6:34
  And
• 6:35
  for
• 6:35
  me
• 6:35
  that
• 6:35
  awakening
• 6:36
  was
• 6:36
  as
• 6:36
  a
• 6:36
  young
• 6:36
  child
• 6:37
  in
• 6:37
  the
• 6:37
  90's.
• 6:37
  I
• 6:37
  started
• 6:38
  kindergarten
• 6:38
  in
• 6:38
  1990.
• 6:39
  I
• 6:39
  had
• 6:39
  to
• 6:39
  go
• 6:39
  back
• 6:40
  and
• 6:40
  like
• 6:40
  figure
• 6:40
  this
• 6:40
  out.
• 6:41
  I
• 6:41
  started
• 6:41
  kindergarten
• 6:41
  in
• 6:42
  1990.
• 6:42
  I
• 6:42
  had
• 6:42
  tried
• 6:43
  to
• 6:43
  start
• 6:43
  in
• 6:44
  1989,
• 6:45
  but
• 6:45
  I
• 6:45
  failed
• 6:45
  my
• 6:45
  kindergarten
• 6:46
  test.
• 6:46
  Does
• 6:47
  anybody,
• 6:48
  send
• 6:48
  me
• 6:48
  a
• 6:48
  message,
• 6:49
  did
• 6:49
  anybody
• 6:49
  else
• 6:49
  take
• 6:50
  a
• 6:50
  kindergarten
• 6:50
  test
• 6:50
  in
• 6:50
  order
• 6:51
  to
• 6:51
  be,
• 6:51
  to
• 6:51
  be
• 6:51
  accepted
• 6:52
  into
• 6:52
  kindergarten?
• 6:53
  I
• 6:53
  don't
• 6:53
  even
• 6:53
  think
• 6:53
  they
• 6:53
  do
• 6:53
  that
• 6:54
  anymore.
• 6:54
  It's
• 6:54
  just
• 6:54
  expected
• 6:54
  you
• 6:55
  go
• 6:55
  no
• 6:55
  matter
• 6:55
  if
• 6:55
  you're
• 6:56
  ready
• 6:56
  or
• 6:56
  not.
• 6:56
  But
• 6:56
  I
• 6:57
  was
• 6:57
  five
• 6:57
  when
• 6:57
  I
• 6:57
  took
• 6:57
  that
• 6:58
  test.
• 6:58
  I
• 6:58
  was
• 6:58
  five
• 6:59
  when
• 6:59
  I
• 6:59
  took
• 6:59
  that
• 6:59
  test,
• 7:00
  and
• 7:00
  then
• 7:00
  when
• 7:01
  I
• 7:01
  turned
• 7:01
  six
• 7:02
  was
• 7:02
  when
• 7:02
  I
• 7:02
  actually
• 7:02
  passed
• 7:03
  the
• 7:03
  test,
• 7:03
  so
• 7:03
  I
• 7:03
  wasn't
• 7:04
  quite
• 7:04
  ready
• 7:04
  and
• 7:05
  I
• 7:05
  ended
• 7:05
  up
• 7:05
  being
• 7:05
  one
• 7:05
  of
• 7:05
  the
• 7:05
  older
• 7:06
  people
• 7:06
  in
• 7:06
  my
• 7:06
  class,
• 7:06
  which
• 7:07
  is
• 7:07
  a
• 7:07
  whole
• 7:07
  nother
• 7:08
  story
• 7:08
  for
• 7:08
  another
• 7:08
  time,
• 7:09
  but
• 7:09
  maybe
• 7:09
  that's
• 7:10
  where
• 7:10
  my
• 7:10
  test
• 7:10
  taking
• 7:11
  fright
• 7:11
  came
• 7:11
  from.
• 7:12
  And
• 7:12
  I
• 7:12
  just
• 7:12
  kind
• 7:12
  of
• 7:12
  had
• 7:12
  an
• 7:12
  epiphany
• 7:13
  there
• 7:13
  right
• 7:13
  alongside
• 7:14
  you
• 7:14
  that
• 7:14
  that
• 7:15
  might
• 7:15
  be
• 7:15
  my
• 7:15
  test
• 7:15
  taking
• 7:15
  problem
• 7:16
  anyway.
• 7:16
  You
• 7:16
  might
• 7:17
  say,
• 7:17
  well,
• 7:17
  how
• 7:17
  do
• 7:17
  you
• 7:17
  remember
• 7:18
  all
• 7:18
  this,
• 7:18
  you
• 7:18
  were
• 7:19
  so
• 7:19
  young?
• 7:20
  How
• 7:20
  do
• 7:20
  you
• 7:20
  remember
• 7:21
  any
• 7:21
  of
• 7:21
  these
• 7:21
  things
• 7:22
  from
• 7:22
  when
• 7:22
  you
• 7:22
  were
• 7:23
  five,
• 7:23
  six,
• 7:24
  and
• 7:24
  maybe
• 7:24
  even
• 7:24
  younger?
• 7:25
  And
• 7:25
  I
• 7:25
  would
• 7:26
  say
• 7:26
  to
• 7:26
  you,
• 7:26
  well,
• 7:27
  my
• 7:27
  friend,
• 7:28
  I
• 7:28
  may
• 7:28
  have
• 7:28
  been
• 7:28
  young
• 7:29
  based
• 7:29
  on
• 7:29
  age,
• 7:30
  but
• 7:30
  mentally
• 7:31
  I
• 7:31
  was
• 7:31
  probably
• 7:32
  at
• 7:32
  least
• 7:32
  10,
• 7:33
  20
• 7:33
  years
• 7:33
  older.
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  grew
• 7:34
  up
• 7:34
  with
• 7:34
  a
• 7:34
  cop
• 7:35
  as
• 7:35
  a
• 7:35
  father,
• 7:35
  and
• 7:36
  I
• 7:36
  heard
• 7:36
  the
• 7:36
  stories,
• 7:37
  heard
• 7:37
  lots
• 7:37
  of
• 7:37
  stories.
• 7:38
  I
• 7:39
  knew
• 7:39
  what
• 7:39
  was
• 7:39
  happening
• 7:40
  in
• 7:40
  society
• 7:41
  around
• 7:41
  me.
• 7:41
  I
• 7:41
  knew
• 7:42
  what
• 7:42
  was
• 7:42
  happening
• 7:42
  in
• 7:42
  government,
• 7:43
  like
• 7:43
  on
• 7:43
  the
• 7:43
  general.
• 7:44
  There
• 7:45
  was
• 7:45
  always
• 7:45
  news
• 7:45
  on,
• 7:46
  always
• 7:46
  had
• 7:46
  a
• 7:46
  police
• 7:46
  scanner
• 7:47
  go
• 7:47
  in
• 7:47
  my
• 7:47
  house
• 7:48
  and
• 7:48
  that's
• 7:48
  actually
• 7:48
  how
• 7:48
  I
• 7:49
  fell
• 7:49
  asleep.
• 7:49
  I
• 7:49
  don't,
• 7:50
  I
• 7:50
  can't
• 7:50
  go
• 7:50
  to
• 7:50
  sleep
• 7:51
  without
• 7:51
  noise
• 7:51
  in
• 7:52
  the
• 7:52
  background.
• 7:52
  And
• 7:53
  because
• 7:53
  I
• 7:53
  listened
• 7:53
  to
• 7:53
  my
• 7:54
  father
• 7:54
  on
• 7:54
  the
• 7:54
  scanner
• 7:55
  to
• 7:55
  go
• 7:55
  to
• 7:55
  sleep,
• 7:55
  so,
• 7:56
  I
• 7:57
  kind
• 7:57
  of
• 7:57
  attribute
• 7:57
  that
• 7:57
  to
• 7:57
  like
• 7:58
  bringing
• 7:58
  down
• 7:58
  my
• 7:58
  calm
• 7:59
  and
• 7:59
  that
• 7:59
  security,
• 8:00
  but
• 8:00
  I
• 8:00
  knew,
• 8:01
  I
• 8:01
  knew
• 8:01
  who
• 8:01
  was
• 8:02
  struggling.
• 8:03
  I
• 8:03
  know
• 8:05
  and
• 8:05
  still
• 8:05
  knew
• 8:05
  back
• 8:06
  then
• 8:07
  what
• 8:07
  to
• 8:07
  look
• 8:07
  for
• 8:07
  in
• 8:07
  a
• 8:08
  quote
• 8:08
  unquote
• 8:08
  bad
• 8:09
  guy
• 8:09
  or
• 8:09
  a
• 8:09
  quote
• 8:09
  unquote
• 8:10
  good
• 8:10
  guy.
• 8:10
  I
• 8:10
  knew
• 8:11
  how
• 8:11
  to
• 8:11
  get
• 8:11
  out
• 8:12
  of
• 8:12
  bad
• 8:12
  situations
• 8:13
  and
• 8:13
  how
• 8:13
  to
• 8:13
  always
• 8:14
  be
• 8:14
  alert.
• 8:15
  I
• 8:15
  knew
• 8:16
  about
• 8:16
  abusive
• 8:17
  kids
• 8:17
  because
• 8:17
  I
• 8:17
  heard
• 8:18
  about
• 8:18
  it.
• 8:19
  My
• 8:19
  favorite
• 8:19
  tape
• 8:19
  to
• 8:20
  rent
• 8:20
  at
• 8:20
  the,
• 8:20
  at
• 8:20
  the
• 8:21
  video
• 8:21
  store,
• 8:22
  again,
• 8:22
  this
• 8:22
  will
• 8:22
  date
• 8:23
  me
• 8:23
  and
• 8:23
  I
• 8:23
  don't
• 8:23
  know
• 8:23
  if
• 8:23
  anybody
• 8:24
  has
• 8:25
  any
• 8:25
  recollection
• 8:26
  of
• 8:26
  what
• 8:26
  this
• 8:27
  is,
• 8:27
  but
• 8:28
  if
• 8:28
  this
• 8:28
  gives
• 8:29
  you
• 8:29
  some
• 8:29
  of
• 8:29
  my
• 8:29
  personality
• 8:30
  from
• 8:30
  when
• 8:30
  I
• 8:30
  was
• 8:30
  a
• 8:30
  kid
• 8:31
  to
• 8:31
  even
• 8:31
  today.
• 8:33
  My
• 8:33
  favorite
• 8:33
  tape
• 8:33
  to
• 8:33
  go
• 8:34
  rent
• 8:34
  at
• 8:34
  the
• 8:34
  video
• 8:34
  store
• 8:35
  was
• 8:35
  called
• 8:35
  Winnie
• 8:36
  the
• 8:36
  Poo's
• 8:36
  Too
• 8:36
  Smart
• 8:37
  for
• 8:37
  Strangers.
• 8:38
  Too
• 8:38
  Smart
• 8:39
  for
• 8:39
  Strangers.
• 8:40
  Anyway,
• 8:41
  I
• 8:41
  don't
• 8:41
  need
• 8:41
  to
• 8:41
  be
• 8:41
  singing.
• 8:41
  If
• 8:42
  you've
• 8:42
  not
• 8:42
  ever
• 8:42
  heard
• 8:43
  of
• 8:43
  this,
• 8:44
  I'm
• 8:44
  totally
• 8:44
  going
• 8:44
  to
• 8:44
  link
• 8:45
  this
• 8:45
  down
• 8:45
  in
• 8:45
  the
• 8:46
  show
• 8:46
  notes,
• 8:46
  it
• 8:47
  is
• 8:47
  now
• 8:47
  on
• 8:47
  YouTube,
• 8:47
  but
• 8:48
  I
• 8:48
  would
• 8:48
  sit
• 8:49
  and
• 8:49
  not
• 8:49
  move
• 8:50
  during
• 8:50
  this
• 8:50
  whole.
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  think
• 8:51
  it
• 8:52
  was
• 8:52
  like
• 8:52
  a
• 8:52
  40
• 8:52
  minute
• 8:52
  movie
• 8:53
  maybe.
• 8:53
  And
• 8:53
  a
• 8:53
  side
• 8:54
  note,
• 8:54
  Winnie
• 8:54
  the
• 8:55
  Poo.
• 8:55
  I
• 8:55
  was
• 8:55
  not
• 8:55
  a
• 8:56
  cartoon,
• 8:56
  Winnie
• 8:57
  the
• 8:57
  Poo
• 8:57
  person.
• 8:57
  In
• 8:57
  fact,
• 8:57
  I
• 8:58
  would
• 8:58
  change
• 8:58
  it.
• 8:58
  I
• 8:58
  hated
• 8:58
  it
• 8:58
  even
• 8:59
  as
• 8:59
  a
• 8:59
  very
• 8:59
  young
• 8:59
  child.
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  liked
• 9:00
  the
• 9:00
  version
• 9:01
  of
• 9:02
  this,
• 9:02
  the
• 9:02
  two
• 9:02
  Smart
• 9:02
  First
• 9:03
  Strangers
• 9:03
  version,
• 9:04
  and
• 9:04
  it
• 9:04
  was
• 9:04
  on
• 9:04
  Disney
• 9:04
  Channel
• 9:05
  for
• 9:05
  a
• 9:05
  while.
• 9:05
  I
• 9:05
  think
• 9:05
  it
• 9:05
  was
• 9:06
  it
• 9:06
  called
• 9:06
  Poo's
• 9:06
  Corner,
• 9:07
  where
• 9:07
  the
• 9:07
  people
• 9:07
  were
• 9:07
  inside
• 9:08
  the
• 9:08
  costumes.
• 9:09
  I
• 9:09
  don't
• 9:09
  know
• 9:09
  if
• 9:09
  anybody
• 9:10
  remembers
• 9:10
  that.
• 9:10
  Is
• 9:10
  it
• 9:11
  just
• 9:11
  me?
• 9:11
  But
• 9:11
  all
• 9:11
  that
• 9:12
  to
• 9:12
  say
• 9:12
  I
• 9:12
  was
• 9:13
  a
• 9:13
  different
• 9:14
  personality.
• 9:15
  I
• 9:15
  was
• 9:15
  raised
• 9:16
  different
• 9:16
  than
• 9:16
  all
• 9:17
  of
• 9:17
  the
• 9:17
  children
• 9:17
  in
• 9:17
  my
• 9:18
  community
• 9:18
  in
• 9:18
  my
• 9:19
  age
• 9:19
  range.
• 9:19
  My
• 9:20
  mother
• 9:20
  is
• 9:21
  like
• 9:21
  the
• 9:21
  town's
• 9:21
  beautician
• 9:22
  basically,
• 9:22
  and
• 9:23
  or
• 9:23
  was
• 9:24
  mostly
• 9:24
  for
• 9:24
  the
• 9:24
  whole
• 9:25
  town.
• 9:26
  And
• 9:26
  we
• 9:26
  were
• 9:26
  very
• 9:26
  well
• 9:27
  known
• 9:27
  and
• 9:28
  I
• 9:28
  was
• 9:28
  just
• 9:28
  raised
• 9:29
  to
• 9:29
  be
• 9:29
  much
• 9:29
  more
• 9:29
  mature
• 9:30
  than
• 9:31
  my
• 9:31
  then
• 9:31
  number
• 9:32
  on
• 9:32
  my
• 9:33
  birth
• 9:33
  certificate
• 9:33
  allows
• 9:34
  me
• 9:34
  to
• 9:34
  be.
• 9:34
  So
• 9:35
  we
• 9:35
  have
• 9:35
  this
• 9:35
  priest
• 9:36
  sex
• 9:36
  scandal
• 9:37
  brought
• 9:37
  into
• 9:37
  the
• 9:38
  news,
• 9:38
  and
• 9:38
  then
• 9:39
  it's
• 9:39
  just
• 9:39
  gone.
• 9:40
  Putting
• 9:41
  something
• 9:41
  out
• 9:41
  there
• 9:42
  gently
• 9:42
  begins
• 9:43
  to
• 9:43
  take
• 9:43
  away
• 9:43
  the
• 9:43
  sensitivity
• 9:44
  to
• 9:44
  such
• 9:45
  issues,
• 9:45
  I'm
• 9:45
  gonna
• 9:46
  say
• 9:46
  that
• 9:46
  again.
• 9:46
  That
• 9:46
  priest
• 9:47
  issue
• 9:47
  with
• 9:47
  the
• 9:47
  sex
• 9:48
  scandal
• 9:48
  was
• 9:48
  brought
• 9:49
  into
• 9:49
  the
• 9:49
  news
• 9:51
  and
• 9:51
  then
• 9:51
  was
• 9:51
  just
• 9:51
  gone.
• 9:52
  And
• 9:52
  putting
• 9:53
  something
• 9:53
  out
• 9:53
  there
• 9:53
  gently,
• 9:54
  like
• 9:55
  kind
• 9:56
  of
• 9:56
  just
• 9:56
  exposing
• 9:57
  that
• 9:58
  it
• 9:58
  begins
• 9:59
  to
• 9:59
  take
• 9:59
  away
• 9:59
  the
• 10:00
  sensitivity
• 10:00
  to
• 10:00
  such
• 10:01
  issues.
• 10:02
  Move
• 10:02
  into
• 10:02
  the
• 10:02
  2000's
• 10:03
  and
• 10:03
  the
• 10:03
  government
• 10:04
  is
• 10:04
  a,
• 10:04
  is
• 10:04
  funding
• 10:05
  abortions.
• 10:05
  We're
• 10:05
  seeing
• 10:06
  more
• 10:06
  and
• 10:06
  more
• 10:06
  kids
• 10:07
  killed
• 10:07
  by
• 10:07
  their
• 10:07
  parents
• 10:07
  because
• 10:08
  of
• 10:08
  whatever
• 10:08
  excuse
• 10:09
  there
• 10:09
  is
• 10:09
  and
• 10:10
  the
• 10:10
  campaigns
• 10:10
  of
• 10:10
  moms
• 10:11
  and
• 10:11
  dads
• 10:11
  seeking
• 10:12
  help
• 10:12
  and
• 10:12
  walking
• 10:12
  away
• 10:13
  to
• 10:13
  walk
• 10:13
  away
• 10:13
  and
• 10:13
  calm
• 10:14
  down.
• 10:14
  I
• 10:14
  remember
• 10:14
  this,
• 10:14
  you
• 10:15
  guys,
• 10:15
  I
• 10:15
  remember
• 10:15
  this,
• 10:16
  that
• 10:16
  there
• 10:16
  were
• 10:16
  commercials
• 10:17
  that
• 10:17
  if
• 10:17
  you're
• 10:18
  struggling
• 10:19
  as
• 10:19
  a
• 10:19
  parent
• 10:19
  to
• 10:20
  put
• 10:20
  the
• 10:20
  child
• 10:20
  in
• 10:20
  the
• 10:20
  crib
• 10:21
  and
• 10:21
  walk
• 10:21
  away
• 10:22
  before
• 10:22
  you
• 10:22
  lose
• 10:22
  control.
• 10:23
  We
• 10:23
  had
• 10:24
  like,
• 10:24
  this
• 10:25
  is
• 10:25
  when
• 10:25
  I
• 10:25
  was
• 10:25
  trying
• 10:26
  to
• 10:26
  think.
• 10:26
  The
• 10:27
  gal
• 10:27
  that
• 10:27
  killed
• 10:27
  her
• 10:27
  kids,
• 10:28
  like
• 10:28
  I'm
• 10:28
  thinking
• 10:29
  through
• 10:29
  this
• 10:29
  stuff
• 10:30
  like
• 10:30
  this
• 10:30
  is
• 10:30
  so
• 10:31
  real.
• 10:31
  Postpartum
• 10:32
  depression,
• 10:33
  all
• 10:33
  of
• 10:33
  these
• 10:33
  things
• 10:33
  we
• 10:34
  have
• 10:34
  set
• 10:34
  up
• 10:35
  in
• 10:35
  local
• 10:35
  governments
• 10:36
  and
• 10:36
  communities
• 10:37
  in,
• 10:37
  in
• 10:37
  the
• 10:37
  United
• 10:37
  States
• 10:38
  that
• 10:38
  I
• 10:38
  know
• 10:38
  of,
• 10:38
  at
• 10:38
  least
• 10:38
  in
• 10:39
  the
• 10:39
  Midwest,
• 10:39
  like
• 10:39
  safe
• 10:40
  harbor
• 10:40
  families
• 10:41
  to
• 10:41
  send
• 10:41
  your
• 10:41
  children
• 10:42
  to
• 10:42
  before
• 10:43
  you
• 10:43
  harm
• 10:44
  them.
• 10:45
  This
• 10:46
  is
• 10:46
  where
• 10:46
  we're
• 10:46
  at.
• 10:47
  We
• 10:47
  are,
• 10:48
  we
• 10:48
  are
• 10:48
  in
• 10:49
  a
• 10:49
  place
• 10:49
  where
• 10:50
  it's
• 10:50
  almost
• 10:50
  acceptable
• 10:52
  to
• 10:52
  not
• 10:52
  have
• 10:53
  to
• 10:53
  take
• 10:53
  self
• 10:53
  responsibility,
• 10:55
  to
• 10:55
  not
• 10:56
  reflect,
• 10:56
  to
• 10:57
  not
• 10:57
  see
• 10:58
  the
• 10:58
  bigger
• 10:58
  picture.
• 11:00
  And
• 11:00
  then
• 11:01
  we
• 11:01
  started
• 11:01
  this
• 11:01
  intersectionality
• 11:02
  thing,
• 11:02
  and
• 11:02
  I'm
• 11:03
  probably
• 11:03
  saying
• 11:03
  it
• 11:03
  wrong,
• 11:04
  intersections
• 11:05
  of
• 11:06
  life.
• 11:06
  Basically,
• 11:07
  this
• 11:07
  is
• 11:07
  all
• 11:07
  about
• 11:08
  identifying
• 11:08
  each
• 11:08
  other
• 11:08
  by
• 11:09
  our
• 11:09
  backgrounds
• 11:09
  and
• 11:09
  whatever
• 11:10
  we
• 11:10
  want
• 11:10
  that
• 11:11
  day.
• 11:11
  Basically
• 11:11
  saying,
• 11:12
  you
• 11:12
  can't
• 11:12
  understand
• 11:13
  me
• 11:13
  because
• 11:14
  you
• 11:14
  don't
• 11:14
  have
• 11:14
  the
• 11:14
  a
• 11:15
  same
• 11:15
  intersectionality
• 11:16
  or
• 11:17
  whatever
• 11:17
  is
• 11:17
  me.
• 11:18
  Then
• 11:18
  we
• 11:19
  move
• 11:19
  into
• 11:19
  the
• 11:19
  2000
• 11:20
  tens
• 11:20
  and
• 11:20
  we're
• 11:20
  putting
• 11:21
  kids
• 11:21
  in
• 11:21
  front
• 11:22
  of
• 11:22
  highly
• 11:22
  sexualized
• 11:23
  drag
• 11:23
  shows,
• 11:24
  letting
• 11:24
  them
• 11:25
  identify
• 11:25
  as
• 11:26
  whatever
• 11:26
  they
• 11:26
  want
• 11:26
  for
• 11:26
  that
• 11:27
  day.
• 11:27
  There
• 11:27
  are,
• 11:28
  as
• 11:28
  I
• 11:28
  speak
• 11:28
  now,
• 11:29
  I
• 11:29
  know
• 11:29
  of
• 11:29
  at
• 11:30
  least
• 11:30
  three
• 11:31
  school
• 11:31
  systems
• 11:32
  that
• 11:32
  have
• 11:32
  cat
• 11:32
  litter
• 11:33
  in
• 11:33
  their
• 11:34
  bathrooms.
• 11:35
  Kids
• 11:35
  wearing
• 11:35
  cat
• 11:36
  collars,
• 11:36
  leashes,
• 11:37
  other
• 11:38
  things,
• 11:39
  Balenciaga
• 11:40
  had
• 11:40
  their
• 11:40
  kids
• 11:41
  on
• 11:41
  the,
• 11:42
  the
• 11:42
  ads
• 11:42
  for
• 11:43
  this
• 11:43
  highly
• 11:44
  BDSM
• 11:45
  sexualized
• 11:46
  these
• 11:46
  children,
• 11:47
  and
• 11:48
  we
• 11:49
  have
• 11:49
  shows
• 11:49
  on
• 11:49
  Netflix
• 11:50
  that
• 11:50
  flaunt
• 11:51
  them
• 11:51
  or
• 11:51
  whatever.
• 11:52
  We
• 11:52
  are
• 11:52
  castrating
• 11:53
  our
• 11:53
  children.
• 11:55
  And
• 11:55
  all
• 11:55
  of
• 11:55
  this,
• 11:55
  in
• 11:56
  my
• 11:56
  opinion,
• 11:56
  is
• 11:56
  connected
• 11:57
  to
• 11:57
  population
• 11:58
  control.
• 11:58
  This
• 11:59
  behavior
• 11:59
  we've
• 12:00
  conditioned,
• 12:00
  been
• 12:01
  conditioned
• 12:01
  to
• 12:02
  is
• 12:03
  considered
• 12:03
  affirming,
• 12:04
  tolerant,
• 12:05
  and
• 12:05
  loving.
• 12:06
  But
• 12:06
  what's
• 12:06
  really
• 12:07
  happening
• 12:07
  is
• 12:08
  that
• 12:08
  we
• 12:08
  have
• 12:08
  been
• 12:08
  divided
• 12:09
  based
• 12:09
  on
• 12:09
  our.
• 12:10
  Intersections
• 12:11
  and
• 12:11
  labels
• 12:12
  as
• 12:12
  either
• 12:12
  an
• 12:12
  ally
• 12:13
  or
• 12:13
  a
• 12:13
  Christian,
• 12:14
  or
• 12:14
  a
• 12:14
  conservative,
• 12:15
  or
• 12:15
  a
• 12:15
  racist,
• 12:15
  or
• 12:16
  a
• 12:16
  bigot,
• 12:16
  or
• 12:16
  xenophobic,
• 12:17
  or
• 12:17
  transphobic
• 12:18
  or
• 12:19
  whatever
• 12:19
  else
• 12:19
  to
• 12:20
  remove
• 12:20
  the
• 12:20
  weight
• 12:21
  of
• 12:21
  the
• 12:21
  words
• 12:21
  from
• 12:21
  the
• 12:21
  person
• 12:22
  who
• 12:22
  doesn't
• 12:22
  align
• 12:23
  with
• 12:23
  the
• 12:23
  population
• 12:24
  control
• 12:24
  method
• 12:25
  of
• 12:25
  castrating
• 12:25
  children.
• 12:26
  The
• 12:26
  only
• 12:27
  difference
• 12:27
  for
• 12:27
  now
• 12:29
  is
• 12:29
  those
• 12:29
  who
• 12:30
  don't
• 12:30
  align
• 12:30
  with
• 12:30
  the
• 12:31
  cultural
• 12:31
  patterns,
• 12:32
  they
• 12:33
  aren't
• 12:33
  wearing
• 12:33
  a
• 12:33
  star
• 12:33
  on
• 12:33
  their
• 12:33
  chest.
• 12:35
  And
• 12:36
  as
• 12:36
  this
• 12:37
  cultural
• 12:37
  shift
• 12:37
  happens,
• 12:39
  I'm
• 12:39
  realizing
• 12:41
  what's
• 12:41
  actually
• 12:42
  happening
• 12:42
  is
• 12:42
  we
• 12:42
  are
• 12:42
  dividing
• 12:43
  people,
• 12:44
  we
• 12:44
  are
• 12:44
  dividing
• 12:45
  families.
• 12:46
  We
• 12:47
  are
• 12:47
  taking
• 12:48
  the
• 12:48
  idea
• 12:48
  of
• 12:48
  the
• 12:49
  family
• 12:49
  unit
• 12:49
  and
• 12:50
  just
• 12:50
  mixing
• 12:50
  it.
• 12:52
  You
• 12:52
  don't
• 12:52
  need
• 12:52
  to
• 12:52
  have
• 12:53
  a
• 12:53
  husband
• 12:53
  and
• 12:53
  a
• 12:53
  wife
• 12:54
  at
• 12:54
  home
• 12:54
  to
• 12:54
  raise
• 12:55
  children.
• 12:55
  A,
• 12:55
  a,
• 12:56
  a
• 12:56
  mom
• 12:56
  can
• 12:56
  do
• 12:56
  it
• 12:56
  all
• 12:57
  her
• 12:57
  own,
• 12:57
  or
• 12:57
  her
• 12:57
  dad
• 12:57
  can
• 12:57
  do
• 12:57
  it
• 12:57
  on
• 12:58
  there
• 12:58
  own.
• 12:58
  But
• 12:58
  that's
• 12:58
  not
• 12:58
  how
• 12:58
  we
• 12:59
  were
• 12:59
  designed.
• 12:59
  And
• 12:59
  we
• 13:00
  wonder
• 13:00
  why,
• 13:00
  why
• 13:01
  we're
• 13:01
  struggling.
• 13:01
  And
• 13:02
  this
• 13:02
  is
• 13:02
  cultural
• 13:03
  shift.
• 13:03
  All
• 13:03
  of
• 13:03
  this
• 13:04
  is
• 13:04
  happening,
• 13:04
  it
• 13:04
  seems
• 13:05
  so
• 13:05
  quickly
• 13:07
  yet
• 13:07
  this
• 13:07
  what
• 13:07
  I
• 13:08
  just
• 13:08
  went
• 13:08
  through
• 13:08
  from
• 13:09
  the
• 13:09
  80's,
• 13:09
  90's,
• 13:10
  2000's,
• 13:10
  2010's,
• 13:11
  and
• 13:11
  2020
• 13:12
  in
• 13:12
  my
• 13:12
  lifetime.
• 13:14
  I
• 13:14
  can
• 13:14
  see
• 13:14
  the
• 13:15
  progression
• 13:15
  each
• 13:15
  decade.
• 13:17
  I
• 13:17
  will
• 13:17
  not
• 13:17
  speak
• 13:17
  to
• 13:17
  the
• 13:17
  60's
• 13:18
  and
• 13:18
  70's
• 13:18
  because
• 13:19
  I
• 13:19
  wasn't
• 13:19
  alive
• 13:19
  then,
• 13:20
  but
• 13:20
  I'm
• 13:20
  sure
• 13:20
  those
• 13:20
  that
• 13:21
  read
• 13:21
  about
• 13:21
  those
• 13:21
  decades
• 13:22
  or
• 13:22
  have
• 13:22
  lived
• 13:22
  through
• 13:22
  those
• 13:23
  decades
• 13:23
  can
• 13:24
  even
• 13:24
  expound
• 13:25
  upon
• 13:25
  the
• 13:25
  decades
• 13:25
  that
• 13:25
  I
• 13:25
  just
• 13:26
  shared,
• 13:26
  can't
• 13:26
  you?
• 13:28
  The
• 13:29
  power
• 13:29
  of
• 13:29
  reflection
• 13:30
  is
• 13:30
  pivotal
• 13:31
  on
• 13:32
  a
• 13:32
  cultural
• 13:32
  basis,
• 13:33
  but
• 13:33
  it's
• 13:33
  becoming
• 13:34
  a
• 13:34
  lost
• 13:34
  art.
• 13:35
  I
• 13:35
  remember
• 13:35
  in
• 13:35
  school
• 13:36
  we
• 13:36
  learned
• 13:36
  so
• 13:36
  much
• 13:37
  about
• 13:37
  history
• 13:37
  or,
• 13:37
  and
• 13:37
  we
• 13:38
  were
• 13:38
  taught
• 13:38
  not
• 13:38
  to
• 13:39
  repeat
• 13:39
  it,
• 13:40
  but
• 13:40
  instead
• 13:41
  learn
• 13:41
  from
• 13:41
  it.
• 13:42
  Make
• 13:42
  this
• 13:42
  world
• 13:42
  a
• 13:43
  better
• 13:43
  one
• 13:43
  than,
• 13:44
  than
• 13:44
  we
• 13:44
  entered
• 13:44
  into,
• 13:45
  we're
• 13:46
  not
• 13:46
  doing
• 13:46
  that
• 13:46
  anymore.
• 13:47
  Everything
• 13:48
  is
• 13:48
  so
• 13:48
  selfish
• 13:48
  and
• 13:49
  so
• 13:49
  emotion
• 13:50
  based
• 13:50
  or
• 13:51
  whatever,
• 13:51
  like
• 13:51
  so
• 13:51
  based
• 13:52
  on
• 13:53
  self.
• 13:53
  The
• 13:54
  generation
• 13:55
  directly
• 13:55
  behind
• 13:55
  me
• 13:56
  was
• 13:56
  the
• 13:56
  generation
• 13:57
  of
• 13:57
  participation,
• 13:58
  trophies.
• 13:58
  Everyone
• 13:59
  got
• 13:59
  to
• 13:59
  play.
• 13:59
  Parents
• 14:00
  enabling
• 14:00
  their
• 14:00
  behavior,
• 14:01
  but
• 14:01
  not
• 14:01
  making
• 14:01
  them
• 14:02
  fight
• 14:02
  and
• 14:02
  find
• 14:03
  their
• 14:03
  way.
• 14:04
  They,
• 14:05
  they
• 14:05
  didn't
• 14:05
  have
• 14:05
  to
• 14:06
  earn
• 14:06
  their
• 14:06
  way.
• 14:08
  There
• 14:08
  is
• 14:08
  nothing
• 14:08
  in
• 14:09
  that
• 14:09
  generation
• 14:09
  that
• 14:09
  does
• 14:10
  not
• 14:10
  prove
• 14:10
  that
• 14:10
  they
• 14:10
  were
• 14:11
  not,
• 14:11
  that
• 14:11
  they
• 14:11
  were
• 14:12
  taught
• 14:12
  socialism
• 14:12
  by
• 14:13
  the
• 14:13
  way
• 14:13
  they
• 14:13
  were
• 14:13
  raised.
• 14:13
  They
• 14:14
  don't
• 14:14
  feel
• 14:15
  like
• 14:16
  they,
• 14:16
  that
• 14:16
  they
• 14:17
  wanna
• 14:17
  do
• 14:17
  something,
• 14:18
  so
• 14:18
  they
• 14:18
  don't,
• 14:19
  they
• 14:19
  cry,
• 14:20
  get
• 14:20
  upset,
• 14:21
  throw
• 14:21
  a
• 14:21
  fit,
• 14:22
  even
• 14:22
  as
• 14:22
  adults
• 14:23
  when
• 14:24
  they're
• 14:24
  held
• 14:24
  accountable
• 14:24
  for
• 14:25
  doing
• 14:25
  something
• 14:25
  they
• 14:25
  were
• 14:26
  supposed
• 14:26
  to
• 14:26
  do.
• 14:27
  What
• 14:27
  happens
• 14:28
  when,
• 14:28
  when
• 14:29
  mom
• 14:29
  and
• 14:29
  dad
• 14:29
  are
• 14:29
  gone
• 14:30
  and
• 14:30
  cannot
• 14:30
  enable
• 14:31
  that
• 14:31
  behavior
• 14:31
  anymore?
• 14:33
  These
• 14:33
  people
• 14:33
  are
• 14:33
  voting
• 14:34
  for
• 14:34
  a
• 14:34
  government
• 14:35
  to
• 14:35
  be
• 14:36
  their
• 14:36
  mommy
• 14:36
  and
• 14:36
  daddy.
• 14:38
  The
• 14:38
  generation
• 14:39
  behind
• 14:39
  that
• 14:39
  has
• 14:39
  lots
• 14:40
  of
• 14:40
  broken
• 14:40
  families
• 14:41
  and
• 14:41
  dad's
• 14:41
  not
• 14:41
  at
• 14:42
  home.
• 14:42
  Mom's
• 14:43
  trying
• 14:43
  to
• 14:43
  do
• 14:43
  both
• 14:43
  sides
• 14:44
  of
• 14:44
  the
• 14:44
  teaching
• 14:45
  while
• 14:45
  working
• 14:45
  two
• 14:45
  to
• 14:46
  three
• 14:46
  jobs
• 14:46
  or,
• 14:47
  or
• 14:47
  going
• 14:47
  to
• 14:47
  school
• 14:47
  because
• 14:48
  the
• 14:48
  mom
• 14:48
  needs
• 14:49
  to
• 14:49
  pro
• 14:49
  provide
• 14:50
  for
• 14:50
  that
• 14:50
  family,
• 14:51
  she's
• 14:51
  got
• 14:51
  to,
• 14:51
  they're
• 14:52
  independent
• 14:52
  and
• 14:53
  told
• 14:53
  that
• 14:54
  they're
• 14:54
  independent
• 14:55
  and
• 14:55
  don't
• 14:55
  want
• 14:55
  to
• 14:56
  work
• 14:56
  alongside
• 14:56
  others
• 14:57
  or
• 14:57
  these
• 14:57
  kids.
• 14:58
  They
• 14:58
  don't,
• 14:58
  they're
• 14:59
  independent.
• 14:59
  They
• 14:59
  don't
• 14:59
  wanna
• 15:00
  work
• 15:00
  alongside
• 15:00
  others,
• 15:01
  or
• 15:01
  they
• 15:01
  think
• 15:01
  their
• 15:02
  way
• 15:02
  is
• 15:02
  the
• 15:02
  only
• 15:02
  way
• 15:03
  because
• 15:04
  that's
• 15:04
  the
• 15:04
  safety
• 15:05
  they've
• 15:05
  learned
• 15:06
  to
• 15:06
  do
• 15:06
  that
• 15:07
  for
• 15:07
  their
• 15:07
  safety,
• 15:08
  for
• 15:08
  themselves
• 15:09
  to
• 15:09
  do
• 15:10
  for
• 15:10
  themselves.
• 15:11
  Then
• 15:11
  we
• 15:11
  move
• 15:11
  forward
• 15:12
  into
• 15:12
  pandemic
• 15:13
  kids.
• 15:14
  These
• 15:14
  kids
• 15:14
  are
• 15:14
  a
• 15:15
  whole
• 15:15
  new
• 15:15
  realm.
• 15:15
  These
• 15:16
  kids,
• 15:16
  let's
• 15:16
  just
• 15:17
  think
• 15:17
  about
• 15:17
  the
• 15:17
  kindergartners.
• 15:19
  They
• 15:19
  don't
• 15:19
  know
• 15:19
  how
• 15:19
  to
• 15:19
  socialize,
• 15:20
  especially
• 15:21
  those
• 15:21
  that
• 15:21
  just
• 15:21
  started
• 15:22
  because
• 15:22
  they
• 15:22
  don't
• 15:23
  know
• 15:23
  how
• 15:23
  to
• 15:23
  talk
• 15:23
  to
• 15:23
  others
• 15:24
  or
• 15:24
  even
• 15:24
  how
• 15:24
  to
• 15:24
  engage
• 15:25
  in
• 15:25
  play.
• 15:26
  They
• 15:26
  don't
• 15:26
  know,
• 15:27
  and
• 15:27
  it's
• 15:27
  heartbreaking
• 15:28
  when
• 15:28
  you
• 15:28
  look
• 15:29
  at
• 15:29
  it
• 15:29
  fully.
• 15:30
  It's
• 15:30
  separation,
• 15:31
  like
• 15:32
  I
• 15:32
  said,
• 15:32
  and
• 15:32
  the
• 15:32
  design
• 15:33
  of
• 15:33
  the
• 15:33
  family.
• 15:33
  Separation
• 15:34
  of
• 15:34
  the
• 15:34
  design
• 15:34
  of
• 15:34
  the
• 15:35
  family.
• 15:35
  It's
• 15:35
  population
• 15:36
  control,
• 15:37
  it's
• 15:38
  selfishness,
• 15:38
  it's
• 15:39
  greed.
• 15:39
  It's
• 15:39
  a
• 15:39
  broken
• 15:40
  world
• 15:41
  we
• 15:41
  live
• 15:41
  in.
• 15:42
  And
• 15:43
  you
• 15:43
  know,
• 15:43
  in
• 15:43
  an
• 15:43
  Old
• 15:43
  Testament,
• 15:44
  the
• 15:44
  word
• 15:44
  remember
• 15:45
  appears
• 15:45
  a
• 15:45
  ton.
• 15:46
  I
• 15:46
  used
• 15:46
  to
• 15:46
  know
• 15:47
  that
• 15:47
  number
• 15:47
  off
• 15:47
  the
• 15:47
  top
• 15:47
  of
• 15:48
  my
• 15:48
  head.
• 15:48
  I
• 15:48
  guess
• 15:49
  I
• 15:49
  need
• 15:49
  to
• 15:49
  remember
• 15:50
  right?
• 15:51
  Remember,
• 15:51
  in
• 15:52
  the
• 15:52
  Old
• 15:52
  Testament
• 15:52
  language,
• 15:53
  the
• 15:53
  Hebrew
• 15:53
  language
• 15:53
  means
• 15:54
  to
• 15:54
  pass
• 15:54
  through
• 15:55
  the
• 15:55
  lips,
• 15:56
  meaning
• 15:56
  it
• 15:56
  has
• 15:57
  to
• 15:57
  be
• 15:58
  uttered,
• 15:59
  spoken,
• 16:00
  talked
• 16:01
  about
• 16:01
  through
• 16:02
  our
• 16:02
  lips
• 16:02
  in
• 16:02
  order
• 16:03
  to
• 16:03
  remember.
• 16:04
  Because
• 16:04
  it's
• 16:04
  so
• 16:05
  easy
• 16:05
  to
• 16:05
  forget.
• 16:06
  It's
• 16:06
  so
• 16:06
  easy
• 16:07
  to
• 16:07
  forget
• 16:07
  that
• 16:07
  the
• 16:08
  God
• 16:08
  who
• 16:08
  lives
• 16:08
  in
• 16:09
  us
• 16:09
  parted
• 16:10
  that
• 16:10
  Red
• 16:10
  Sea.
• 16:11
  Didn't
• 16:11
  just
• 16:12
  have
• 16:12
  dribbles
• 16:13
  or
• 16:14
  mud
• 16:14
  that
• 16:14
  they
• 16:15
  had
• 16:15
  to
• 16:15
  walk
• 16:15
  across
• 16:16
  to
• 16:16
  save
• 16:16
  those
• 16:16
  Israelites,
• 16:17
  they
• 16:18
  had
• 16:18
  dry
• 16:19
  ground.
• 16:20
  Dry
• 16:20
  ground.
• 16:22
  It's
• 16:22
  so
• 16:22
  easy
• 16:23
  to
• 16:23
  forget
• 16:23
  the
• 16:23
  God
• 16:23
  who
• 16:24
  did
• 16:24
  that
• 16:24
  lives
• 16:24
  within
• 16:25
  us
• 16:25
  thanks
• 16:25
  to
• 16:26
  Jesus
• 16:26
  tearing
• 16:26
  that
• 16:26
  veil
• 16:27
  and
• 16:27
  dividing,
• 16:28
  or
• 16:28
  I'm
• 16:28
  sorry,
• 16:29
  and
• 16:29
  dying
• 16:29
  on
• 16:29
  that
• 16:30
  cross.
• 16:31
  It's
• 16:32
  so
• 16:32
  easy
• 16:32
  to
• 16:33
  forget
• 16:33
  what
• 16:33
  God
• 16:34
  did
• 16:34
  for
• 16:34
  us
• 16:34
  yesterday,
• 16:35
  how
• 16:36
  he
• 16:36
  provided
• 16:36
  for
• 16:36
  us
• 16:37
  in
• 16:37
  the
• 16:37
  past.
• 16:37
  So
• 16:37
  it's
• 16:37
  easy
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  forget
• 16:38
  when
• 16:38
  times
• 16:38
  are
• 16:38
  easy
• 16:40
  and
• 16:40
  when
• 16:40
  times
• 16:40
  are
• 16:40
  tough,
• 16:41
  that
• 16:41
  God
• 16:41
  is
• 16:41
  still
• 16:41
  with
• 16:42
  us
• 16:42
  and
• 16:42
  he's
• 16:43
  not
• 16:43
  surprised.
• 16:45
  Reflection
• 16:45
  allows
• 16:46
  us
• 16:46
  to
• 16:46
  an
• 16:47
  opportunity
• 16:47
  to
• 16:48
  remember.
• 16:50
  Last
• 16:50
  month
• 16:51
  I
• 16:51
  did
• 16:51
  something
• 16:51
  I've
• 16:51
  never
• 16:51
  done
• 16:52
  before,
• 16:52
  and
• 16:52
  that
• 16:52
  was
• 16:53
  that
• 16:53
  I
• 16:53
  hosted
• 16:53
  an
• 16:53
  end
• 16:54
  of
• 16:54
  year
• 16:54
  party,
• 16:54
  like
• 16:55
  a
• 16:55
  reflection
• 16:55
  party
• 16:56
  for
• 16:56
  my
• 16:56
  Wilderness
• 16:56
  of
• 16:57
  Wellness
• 16:57
  members.
• 16:57
  I
• 16:57
  invited
• 16:58
  the
• 16:58
  public
• 16:58
  into
• 16:59
  that,
• 16:59
  and
• 16:59
  I
• 16:59
  did
• 17:00
  that
• 17:00
  because
• 17:00
  I
• 17:00
  felt
• 17:01
  called
• 17:01
  to
• 17:01
  host
• 17:01
  this
• 17:02
  thing.
• 17:02
  Now,
• 17:02
  I'm
• 17:02
  not
• 17:03
  a
• 17:03
  party
• 17:03
  girl
• 17:03
  by
• 17:04
  any
• 17:04
  means,
• 17:04
  like
• 17:04
  we
• 17:04
  already
• 17:04
  talked
• 17:04
  about,
• 17:05
  I'm
• 17:05
  not
• 17:05
  a
• 17:05
  party
• 17:05
  girl
• 17:05
  by
• 17:06
  any
• 17:06
  means.
• 17:06
  I'll
• 17:07
  set
• 17:07
  up
• 17:07
  the
• 17:07
  party,
• 17:07
  participate
• 17:08
  in
• 17:08
  a
• 17:08
  party,
• 17:09
  but
• 17:09
  I'm
• 17:09
  just
• 17:10
  not
• 17:10
  a
• 17:10
  party
• 17:10
  gal.
• 17:10
  I'd
• 17:11
  rather
• 17:11
  be
• 17:11
  at
• 17:11
  home,
• 17:11
  my
• 17:11
  sweatpants
• 17:12
  with
• 17:12
  my
• 17:12
  family
• 17:13
  listening
• 17:13
  or
• 17:13
  watching
• 17:14
  some
• 17:14
  kind
• 17:14
  of
• 17:14
  crime
• 17:14
  drama
• 17:15
  TV
• 17:15
  show
• 17:15
  or
• 17:16
  whatever.
• 17:16
  Yeah.
• 17:16
  I
• 17:16
  hosted
• 17:17
  this
• 17:17
  end
• 17:17
  of
• 17:17
  year
• 17:17
  party
• 17:18
  because
• 17:18
  I
• 17:18
  know
• 17:18
  people
• 17:19
  need
• 17:19
  to
• 17:19
  reflect.
• 17:20
  We've
• 17:20
  had
• 17:20
  a
• 17:21
  long
• 17:22
  two
• 17:22
  years,
• 17:23
  it
• 17:23
  feels
• 17:24
  like
• 17:24
  2020
• 17:25
  and
• 17:25
  2021
• 17:26
  are
• 17:26
  just
• 17:26
  a
• 17:26
  dream
• 17:27
  or
• 17:27
  a
• 17:27
  nightmare,
• 17:28
  and
• 17:28
  we'll
• 17:28
  wake
• 17:28
  up
• 17:29
  soon.
• 17:30
  Sometime
• 17:30
  we'll
• 17:30
  wake.
• 17:31
  I
• 17:32
  wanted
• 17:32
  2023
• 17:33
  to
• 17:33
  be
• 17:33
  the
• 17:34
  wake
• 17:34
  up
• 17:34
  year
• 17:35
  to
• 17:35
  no
• 17:35
  longer
• 17:36
  be
• 17:36
  a
• 17:36
  victim,
• 17:37
  to
• 17:37
  no
• 17:37
  longer
• 17:38
  sit
• 17:38
  in
• 17:38
  the
• 17:38
  grief,
• 17:39
  no
• 17:39
  longer
• 17:40
  fall
• 17:40
  prey,
• 17:41
  but
• 17:41
  to
• 17:42
  actually
• 17:42
  take
• 17:42
  action.
• 17:43
  So
• 17:44
  I
• 17:44
  did
• 17:44
  it.
• 17:44
  I
• 17:44
  created
• 17:44
  a
• 17:44
  workbook
• 17:45
  to
• 17:45
  guide
• 17:45
  us
• 17:45
  through
• 17:45
  reflecting
• 17:46
  through
• 17:46
  the
• 17:46
  past
• 17:47
  year
• 17:47
  the
• 17:47
  things,
• 17:48
  the
• 17:48
  thing
• 17:48
  is,
• 17:49
  we
• 17:49
  can
• 17:49
  always
• 17:50
  find
• 17:50
  something
• 17:51
  bad,
• 17:51
  right?
• 17:51
  We
• 17:51
  can
• 17:51
  always
• 17:52
  find
• 17:52
  the
• 17:52
  bad.
• 17:52
  We
• 17:52
  can
• 17:53
  always
• 17:53
  find
• 17:53
  the
• 17:53
  hard.
• 17:54
  We
• 17:54
  can
• 17:54
  always
• 17:55
  find
• 17:55
  the
• 17:56
  disappointments.
• 17:57
  But
• 17:57
  what's
• 17:58
  hard
• 17:58
  to
• 17:58
  find
• 17:58
  are
• 17:58
  the
• 17:58
  good
• 17:59
  things,
• 17:59
  the
• 17:59
  lessons,
• 18:00
  the
• 18:00
  things
• 18:00
  that
• 18:00
  we
• 18:01
  will
• 18:01
  take
• 18:01
  with
• 18:01
  us
• 18:01
  forever,
• 18:02
  and
• 18:02
  we'll
• 18:02
  never
• 18:03
  have
• 18:03
  these
• 18:03
  lessons
• 18:04
  without
• 18:04
  going
• 18:05
  through
• 18:05
  2022,
• 18:06
  without
• 18:06
  going
• 18:06
  through
• 18:07
  2021,
• 18:08
  20.
• 18:10
  I
• 18:10
  thought
• 18:10
  it
• 18:10
  would
• 18:10
  be
• 18:10
  fun
• 18:11
  to
• 18:11
  share
• 18:11
  though
• 18:12
  what
• 18:12
  I
• 18:12
  learned
• 18:12
  each
• 18:13
  month
• 18:13
  in
• 18:13
  2022.
• 18:14
  I
• 18:14
  used
• 18:14
  to
• 18:14
  share
• 18:15
  these
• 18:15
  on
• 18:15
  my
• 18:15
  personal
• 18:15
  Instagram
• 18:16
  stories,
• 18:16
  but
• 18:16
  I
• 18:16
  no
• 18:16
  longer
• 18:17
  use
• 18:17
  my
• 18:17
  personal
• 18:17
  pages
• 18:18
  anymore,
• 18:18
  and
• 18:19
  I
• 18:19
  think
• 18:19
  this
• 18:20
  is
• 18:20
  probably
• 18:20
  the
• 18:20
  best
• 18:20
  place
• 18:20
  to
• 18:21
  put
• 18:21
  them,
• 18:21
  honestly,
• 18:21
  because
• 18:22
  you'll
• 18:22
  be
• 18:22
  able
• 18:22
  to
• 18:22
  feel
• 18:24
  and
• 18:24
  experience
• 18:26
  the
• 18:26
  lessons,
• 18:27
  the
• 18:28
  hardships,
• 18:29
  the
• 18:29
  good
• 18:30
  that
• 18:30
  comes
• 18:30
  from
• 18:32
  some
• 18:32
  troubles,
• 18:32
  right?
• 18:33
  So
• 18:33
  let's
• 18:33
  start
• 18:33
  with
• 18:33
  January.
• 18:34
  January,
• 18:36
  in
• 18:36
  january,
• 18:37
  2020
• 18:39
  was
• 18:39
  a
• 18:39
  shock
• 18:39
  to
• 18:39
  my
• 18:39
  system.
• 18:40
  2021
• 18:42
  had
• 18:42
  been
• 18:42
  a
• 18:42
  noose
• 18:43
  around
• 18:43
  my
• 18:43
  neck.
• 18:44
  So
• 18:45
  2022
• 18:45
  needed
• 18:46
  to
• 18:46
  be
• 18:46
  a
• 18:46
  year
• 18:46
  of
• 18:46
  growth,
• 18:47
  A
• 18:48
  year
• 18:48
  of
• 18:48
  yes,
• 18:49
  I
• 18:49
  said
• 18:49
  yes
• 18:49
  to
• 18:50
  so
• 18:50
  many
• 18:50
  things
• 18:50
  in
• 18:51
  2022.
• 18:52
  I
• 18:52
  knew
• 18:52
  2022
• 18:53
  was
• 18:53
  gonna
• 18:53
  be
• 18:54
  busy
• 18:54
  and
• 18:54
  hard
• 18:55
  mentally
• 18:55
  and
• 18:55
  physically,
• 18:56
  and
• 18:56
  that
• 18:56
  God
• 18:56
  had
• 18:56
  something
• 18:57
  to
• 18:57
  show.
• 18:58
  I
• 18:58
  needed
• 18:58
  to
• 18:58
  be
• 18:59
  patient,
• 19:00
  put
• 19:00
  my
• 19:00
  head
• 19:00
  down
• 19:01
  and
• 19:01
  get
• 19:01
  to
• 19:01
  work,
• 19:02
  that's
• 19:02
  exactly
• 19:03
  what
• 19:03
  I
• 19:03
  did.
• 19:04
  I
• 19:04
  followed
• 19:04
  through.
• 19:05
  I
• 19:05
  learned
• 19:06
  the
• 19:06
  importance
• 19:07
  of
• 19:08
  the
• 19:08
  follow
• 19:08
  through.
• 19:10
  February,
• 19:12
  I
• 19:12
  went
• 19:12
  into
• 19:12
  Dubai,
• 19:13
  I
• 19:13
  went
• 19:13
  to
• 19:13
  the
• 19:13
  United
• 19:14
  Arab
• 19:14
  Emirates.
• 19:15
  My
• 19:15
  first
• 19:15
  foreign
• 19:16
  experience
• 19:16
  other
• 19:16
  than
• 19:17
  Canada,
• 19:17
  I
• 19:17
  really
• 19:17
  don't
• 19:17
  call
• 19:17
  Canada
• 19:18
  Foreign,
• 19:19
  but
• 19:19
  I
• 19:19
  was
• 19:19
  truly
• 19:19
  more
• 19:20
  scared
• 19:20
  of
• 19:20
  Canada
• 19:21
  than
• 19:21
  Dubai
• 19:21
  for
• 19:21
  some
• 19:21
  reason.
• 19:22
  I
• 19:22
  went
• 19:23
  to
• 19:23
  Dubai
• 19:23
  as
• 19:23
  a
• 19:24
  mastermind
• 19:24
  trip
• 19:25
  for
• 19:25
  my
• 19:25
  business
• 19:26
  and
• 19:26
  I
• 19:26
  think
• 19:27
  I
• 19:27
  was
• 19:27
  there
• 19:27
  maybe
• 19:27
  six
• 19:27
  days.
• 19:28
  Six
• 19:28
  days.
• 19:28
  And
• 19:29
  I
• 19:29
  was
• 19:29
  scared
• 19:29
  of
• 19:29
  the
• 19:30
  flight.
• 19:30
  I
• 19:30
  was
• 19:30
  afraid
• 19:30
  of
• 19:30
  gonna
• 19:31
  claustrophobic,
• 19:32
  but
• 19:32
  I
• 19:32
  wasn't.
• 19:32
  It
• 19:33
  was,
• 19:33
  it
• 19:33
  was
• 19:33
  a
• 19:34
  fast,
• 19:34
  fast
• 19:34
  flight
• 19:35
  there.
• 19:35
  A
• 19:35
  fast
• 19:35
  flight
• 19:36
  home,
• 19:36
  and
• 19:36
  it
• 19:36
  was
• 19:37
  enjoyable.
• 19:38
  I
• 19:38
  got
• 19:38
  there
• 19:39
  in
• 19:39
  the,
• 19:40
  it
• 19:40
  smelled
• 19:41
  like
• 19:41
  oil
• 19:42
  it
• 19:42
  smelled
• 19:42
  like
• 19:43
  oil
• 19:43
  there.
• 19:43
  If
• 19:43
  you're
• 19:43
  not
• 19:43
  sure
• 19:44
  where
• 19:44
  Dubai
• 19:44
  is,
• 19:44
  it's
• 19:45
  on
• 19:45
  the
• 19:45
  continent
• 19:46
  that
• 19:46
  Saudi
• 19:46
  Arabia
• 19:47
  is
• 19:47
  on.
• 19:47
  And
• 19:48
  I
• 19:48
  encountered
• 19:49
  the
• 19:49
  nicest
• 19:50
  people,
• 19:51
  the
• 19:51
  kindest
• 19:52
  people
• 19:53
  that
• 19:53
  had
• 19:53
  each
• 19:53
  other's
• 19:54
  back.
• 19:54
  I
• 19:54
  encountered,
• 19:55
  and
• 19:55
  I'm
• 19:55
  not
• 19:55
  talking
• 19:56
  the
• 19:56
  people
• 19:56
  just
• 19:57
  from
• 19:57
  my
• 19:57
  group,
• 19:57
  I'm
• 19:57
  talking
• 19:57
  about
• 19:58
  the
• 19:58
  people
• 19:58
  of
• 19:59
  Dubai.
• 19:59
  I
• 20:00
  encountered
• 20:01
  a
• 20:01
  open
• 20:01
  mindset.
• 20:02
  An
• 20:02
  open
• 20:03
  mindset
• 20:03
  that
• 20:04
  my
• 20:04
  way
• 20:04
  is
• 20:05
  not
• 20:05
  always
• 20:06
  the
• 20:06
  right
• 20:06
  way,
• 20:06
  and
• 20:07
  I
• 20:07
  do
• 20:07
  need
• 20:07
  to
• 20:07
  ask
• 20:08
  for
• 20:08
  help.
• 20:08
  I
• 20:08
  heard
• 20:09
  the,
• 20:09
  the,
• 20:10
  the
• 20:10
  prayer,
• 20:11
  calls
• 20:11
  to
• 20:11
  prayer,
• 20:12
  the
• 20:12
  five
• 20:12
  calls
• 20:13
  to
• 20:13
  prayer
• 20:13
  every
• 20:13
  day,
• 20:14
  and
• 20:15
  it
• 20:15
  was
• 20:16
  a
• 20:16
  reminder
• 20:17
  that
• 20:17
  I
• 20:17
  need
• 20:18
  to
• 20:18
  have
• 20:18
  a
• 20:18
  call
• 20:19
  to
• 20:19
  prayer
• 20:19
  if
• 20:20
  it
• 20:20
  is
• 20:20
  tradition
• 20:21
  and
• 20:21
  customary
• 20:22
  for
• 20:22
  the
• 20:22
  Muslims
• 20:22
  why
• 20:23
  am
• 20:23
  I
• 20:23
  not
• 20:23
  doing
• 20:23
  that?
• 20:24
  Why
• 20:25
  am
• 20:25
  I
• 20:25
  only
• 20:26
  flippantly
• 20:26
  praying?
• 20:28
  Why
• 20:28
  do
• 20:28
  I
• 20:28
  not
• 20:28
  stop
• 20:29
  my
• 20:29
  life
• 20:30
  to?
• 20:32
  Where
• 20:32
  is
• 20:32
  my
• 20:33
  priority?
• 20:34
  You
• 20:34
  know,
• 20:34
  the
• 20:35
  people
• 20:35
  in
• 20:35
  Dubai
• 20:35
  are
• 20:36
  very
• 20:36
  wealthy
• 20:36
  and
• 20:37
  people
• 20:37
  told
• 20:37
  me,
• 20:38
  oh,
• 20:38
  it's
• 20:38
  so
• 20:38
  expensive
• 20:39
  there,
• 20:39
  and
• 20:39
  actually
• 20:39
  it's
• 20:39
  not,
• 20:39
  I
• 20:40
  was
• 20:40
  actually
• 20:40
  quite
• 20:40
  surprised.
• 20:41
  I
• 20:41
  was
• 20:41
  quite
• 20:41
  surprised
• 20:42
  at
• 20:42
  how
• 20:42
  not
• 20:42
  expensive
• 20:43
  it
• 20:43
  was,
• 20:44
  but
• 20:44
  everybody
• 20:45
  there.
• 20:45
  Well,
• 20:45
  you
• 20:46
  knew
• 20:46
  some
• 20:46
  people.
• 20:46
  You
• 20:46
  could
• 20:47
  tell
• 20:47
  some
• 20:47
  people
• 20:47
  flaunted
• 20:48
  their
• 20:48
  money.
• 20:48
  I
• 20:48
  mean,
• 20:49
  that's
• 20:49
  okay.
• 20:50
  But,
• 20:51
  what
• 20:51
  I
• 20:51
  noticed
• 20:52
  is
• 20:52
  that
• 20:52
  everybody
• 20:53
  was
• 20:53
  slow.
• 20:54
  They
• 20:54
  took
• 20:54
  their
• 20:54
  time
• 20:55
  at
• 20:55
  meals.
• 20:56
  They
• 20:56
  took
• 20:56
  their
• 20:56
  time
• 20:57
  except
• 20:57
  on
• 20:57
  the
• 20:58
  roads.
• 20:58
  Oh
• 20:58
  my
• 20:59
  gosh,
• 20:59
  I
• 20:59
  thought
• 21:00
  I
• 21:00
  was
• 21:00
  gonna
• 21:00
  die
• 21:00
  sometimes.
• 21:02
  Everybody
• 21:02
  took
• 21:03
  their
• 21:03
  time.
• 21:03
  No
• 21:04
  one
• 21:04
  was
• 21:04
  in
• 21:04
  a
• 21:04
  hurry.
• 21:05
  And
• 21:05
  I'm
• 21:05
  like,
• 21:06
  why
• 21:06
  am
• 21:06
  I
• 21:06
  always
• 21:06
  in
• 21:06
  a
• 21:07
  hurry?
• 21:07
  Why
• 21:08
  am
• 21:08
  I
• 21:08
  rushing?
• 21:09
  Why
• 21:09
  is
• 21:09
  everything
• 21:10
  I
• 21:10
  do
• 21:11
  a
• 21:11
  rush?
• 21:12
  I
• 21:12
  had
• 21:12
  24
• 21:13
  hours
• 21:13
  there,
• 21:14
  just
• 21:14
  like
• 21:15
  I
• 21:15
  have
• 21:15
  24
• 21:15
  hours
• 21:15
  here.
• 21:16
  Why
• 21:17
  am
• 21:17
  I
• 21:17
  rushing?
• 21:19
  I
• 21:19
  also
• 21:19
  learned
• 21:20
  some
• 21:20
  things
• 21:20
  that
• 21:20
  I
• 21:20
  needed
• 21:21
  to
• 21:21
  let
• 21:21
  go
• 21:21
  of,
• 21:22
  some
• 21:22
  things
• 21:22
  I
• 21:22
  needed
• 21:22
  to
• 21:23
  let
• 21:23
  that
• 21:23
  there
• 21:23
  were
• 21:24
  some
• 21:24
  things
• 21:24
  that
• 21:25
  I
• 21:25
  could
• 21:25
  automate
• 21:26
  in
• 21:26
  my
• 21:26
  life.
• 21:26
  I
• 21:27
  could
• 21:27
  delete
• 21:28
  or
• 21:28
  I
• 21:28
  could
• 21:29
  delegate.
• 21:29
  And
• 21:29
  so
• 21:30
  I
• 21:30
  let
• 21:30
  those
• 21:31
  kind
• 21:31
  of
• 21:31
  marinate
• 21:32
  in
• 21:32
  my
• 21:32
  brain
• 21:32
  and
• 21:33
  I
• 21:33
  was
• 21:33
  able
• 21:33
  to
• 21:33
  start
• 21:34
  in
• 21:34
  seeing
• 21:34
  those
• 21:34
  in
• 21:34
  my
• 21:35
  actual
• 21:35
  life
• 21:35
  in
• 21:36
  the
• 21:36
  summer,
• 21:36
  and
• 21:37
  I'll
• 21:37
  talk
• 21:37
  about
• 21:37
  that
• 21:37
  here
• 21:37
  in
• 21:37
  a
• 21:37
  little
• 21:38
  bit.
• 21:39
  In
• 21:39
  March,
• 21:40
  March
• 21:41
  of
• 21:41
  2022.
• 21:42
  Teaching
• 21:42
  is
• 21:42
  one
• 21:42
  of
• 21:42
  my
• 21:42
  favorite
• 21:43
  things
• 21:43
  to
• 21:43
  do.
• 21:44
  Creating
• 21:44
  a
• 21:44
  lesson
• 21:45
  from
• 21:45
  a
• 21:45
  theme,
• 21:46
  researching,
• 21:47
  organizing
• 21:47
  my
• 21:47
  thoughts
• 21:48
  and
• 21:48
  putting
• 21:48
  together
• 21:48
  a
• 21:48
  solid
• 21:49
  presentation
• 21:49
  is
• 21:50
  one
• 21:50
  of
• 21:50
  my
• 21:50
  favorite
• 21:50
  processes
• 21:51
  to
• 21:51
  go
• 21:51
  through.
• 21:52
  It's
• 21:53
  edifying
• 21:53
  when
• 21:53
  months
• 21:54
  later,
• 21:54
  people
• 21:54
  still
• 21:55
  talk
• 21:55
  about
• 21:55
  how
• 21:55
  impactful
• 21:56
  the
• 21:56
  lesson
• 21:56
  was
• 21:56
  in
• 21:56
  their
• 21:57
  lives.
• 21:57
  But
• 21:57
  for
• 21:58
  me
• 21:58
  though,
• 21:58
  it's
• 21:59
  that
• 21:59
  careful
• 22:00
  research,
• 22:00
  the
• 22:00
  connecting
• 22:01
  of
• 22:01
  my
• 22:01
  story
• 22:01
  to
• 22:01
  the
• 22:02
  research
• 22:02
  to
• 22:02
  build
• 22:02
  that
• 22:03
  bridge
• 22:03
  across
• 22:03
  for
• 22:04
  people
• 22:04
  to
• 22:04
  access
• 22:05
  the
• 22:05
  knowledge
• 22:06
  and
• 22:06
  apply
• 22:06
  it
• 22:06
  to
• 22:06
  their
• 22:06
  lives.
• 22:07
  That's
• 22:08
  what's
• 22:08
  beautiful
• 22:08
  to
• 22:09
  me.
• 22:09
  The
• 22:09
  process
• 22:10
  is
• 22:10
  bigger
• 22:11
  than
• 22:11
  me.
• 22:11
  The
• 22:12
  knowledge
• 22:12
  I
• 22:12
  gain
• 22:13
  is
• 22:13
  useless
• 22:14
  unless
• 22:14
  I
• 22:14
  share
• 22:15
  it
• 22:15
  with
• 22:15
  others
• 22:16
  in
• 22:16
  an
• 22:16
  impactful.
• 22:18
  April
• 22:19
  running
• 22:20
  hard
• 22:21
  runs
• 22:21
  me
• 22:21
  into
• 22:21
  the
• 22:21
  ground.
• 22:22
  From
• 22:22
  January
• 22:22
  to
• 22:22
  April,
• 22:23
  my
• 22:23
  husband
• 22:23
  and
• 22:23
  I
• 22:24
  were
• 22:24
  like
• 22:24
  two
• 22:24
  ships
• 22:25
  passing
• 22:25
  in
• 22:25
  the
• 22:25
  night,
• 22:26
  flying
• 22:26
  out
• 22:26
  of
• 22:26
  town,
• 22:27
  out
• 22:27
  of
• 22:27
  country
• 22:27
  from
• 22:28
  one
• 22:28
  another,
• 22:28
  it
• 22:28
  was
• 22:29
  lonely
• 22:30
  and
• 22:30
  it
• 22:30
  was
• 22:30
  hard.
• 22:31
  So
• 22:31
  we
• 22:32
  took
• 22:32
  our
• 22:32
  first
• 22:32
  family
• 22:33
  trip
• 22:33
  to
• 22:33
  Hawaii,
• 22:34
  mine
• 22:34
  and
• 22:34
  my
• 22:35
  kids,
• 22:35
  first
• 22:35
  time.
• 22:36
  My
• 22:36
  husband's
• 22:36
  been
• 22:36
  there
• 22:37
  multiple
• 22:37
  times.
• 22:38
  We
• 22:38
  went
• 22:38
  and
• 22:38
  spent
• 22:39
  two
• 22:39
  weeks
• 22:39
  there.
• 22:40
  I
• 22:40
  sat
• 22:40
  on
• 22:41
  the
• 22:41
  beach.
• 22:42
  I
• 22:42
  hate
• 22:42
  some
• 22:42
  great
• 22:42
  food.
• 22:43
  I
• 22:43
  think
• 22:44
  I
• 22:44
  read
• 22:44
  four
• 22:44
  or
• 22:44
  five
• 22:45
  books,
• 22:46
  and
• 22:46
  I
• 22:46
  don't
• 22:47
  ever
• 22:47
  do
• 22:47
  that
• 22:47
  cuz
• 22:47
  I
• 22:48
  don't
• 22:48
  ever
• 22:48
  make
• 22:48
  the
• 22:48
  time
• 22:48
  to
• 22:48
  do
• 22:49
  that.
• 22:49
  I
• 22:49
  was
• 22:49
  at
• 22:49
  peace
• 22:51
  and
• 22:52
  what
• 22:52
  I
• 22:52
  noticed
• 22:52
  was
• 22:53
  the
• 22:53
  first
• 22:53
  three
• 22:53
  days
• 22:54
  I
• 22:54
  wanted
• 22:54
  to
• 22:55
  work,
• 22:56
  the
• 22:56
  first
• 22:56
  three
• 22:56
  days
• 22:57
  I
• 22:57
  felt
• 22:57
  this
• 22:57
  like
• 22:58
  aching,
• 22:58
  this
• 22:59
  pain,
• 22:59
  this,
• 22:59
  this
• 23:00
  rush
• 23:00
  of
• 23:00
  like
• 23:00
  nervous
• 23:01
  energy
• 23:01
  through
• 23:02
  my
• 23:02
  body.
• 23:03
  But
• 23:03
  on
• 23:03
  that
• 23:03
  next
• 23:03
  day,
• 23:04
  because
• 23:04
  I
• 23:04
  sat
• 23:05
  and
• 23:05
  I
• 23:05
  chose
• 23:06
  to
• 23:06
  soak
• 23:07
  in
• 23:07
  the
• 23:08
  calm
• 23:08
  and
• 23:08
  the
• 23:08
  peace
• 23:09
  that
• 23:09
  is
• 23:09
  aloha,
• 23:12
  I
• 23:12
  was
• 23:12
  at
• 23:12
  peace.
• 23:14
  I
• 23:14
  had
• 23:14
  tears
• 23:15
  in
• 23:15
  my
• 23:15
  eyes
• 23:16
  at
• 23:16
  the
• 23:16
  airport
• 23:17
  to
• 23:17
  return
• 23:17
  home.
• 23:18
  I
• 23:18
  have
• 23:18
  never
• 23:19
  done
• 23:20
  that
• 23:20
  before.
• 23:20
  I've
• 23:20
  always
• 23:21
  wanted
• 23:21
  to
• 23:21
  go
• 23:21
  home
• 23:22
  wherever
• 23:23
  I
• 23:23
  was.
• 23:24
  But
• 23:24
  leaving
• 23:25
  that
• 23:25
  airport,
• 23:26
  I
• 23:26
  was
• 23:26
  in
• 23:26
  tears.
• 23:28
  This
• 23:28
  trip
• 23:28
  reminded
• 23:29
  me
• 23:30
  I
• 23:30
  need
• 23:30
  to
• 23:30
  find
• 23:31
  aloha
• 23:32
  in
• 23:32
  my
• 23:33
  everyday
• 23:33
  life
• 23:33
  here
• 23:34
  on
• 23:34
  the
• 23:34
  mainland.
• 23:35
  At
• 23:35
  the
• 23:35
  end
• 23:35
  of
• 23:36
  April
• 23:36
  also,
• 23:36
  one
• 23:37
  of
• 23:37
  my,
• 23:38
  I
• 23:38
  had
• 23:38
  a
• 23:38
  crushing
• 23:38
  blow.
• 23:39
  Naomi
• 23:40
  Judd
• 23:40
  took
• 23:41
  her
• 23:41
  own
• 23:41
  life.
• 23:41
  Naomi
• 23:42
  Judd
• 23:42
  and
• 23:42
  Winona
• 23:43
  Judd,
• 23:43
  they
• 23:43
  are,
• 23:44
  they've
• 23:44
  been
• 23:44
  there
• 23:44
  my
• 23:44
  whole
• 23:45
  life.
• 23:45
  Like
• 23:45
  literally
• 23:45
  in
• 23:46
  1984
• 23:46
  when
• 23:47
  I
• 23:47
  was
• 23:47
  born,
• 23:48
  that's
• 23:48
  when
• 23:48
  they
• 23:48
  had
• 23:48
  their
• 23:48
  first
• 23:49
  hit
• 23:49
  on
• 23:49
  the
• 23:49
  record
• 23:50
  or
• 23:50
  on
• 23:50
  the
• 23:50
  radio
• 23:50
  stations.
• 23:51
  And
• 23:52
  I
• 23:52
  think
• 23:52
  about
• 23:52
  that
• 23:53
  and
• 23:53
  they've
• 23:53
  been
• 23:54
  there
• 23:54
  my
• 23:54
  whole
• 23:54
  life.
• 23:56
  I
• 23:56
  realized
• 23:56
  a
• 23:56
  whole
• 23:56
  generation
• 23:57
  is
• 23:57
  leaving,
• 23:58
  a
• 23:58
  whole
• 23:59
  generation
• 23:59
  is
• 23:59
  leaving
• 24:00
  me.
• 24:01
  In
• 24:01
  May.
• 24:02
  May,
• 24:02
  I
• 24:02
  came
• 24:03
  home
• 24:03
  with
• 24:04
  pure
• 24:04
  rest
• 24:05
  and
• 24:05
  peace
• 24:05
  and
• 24:05
  I
• 24:06
  learned
• 24:06
  that
• 24:06
  it
• 24:06
  allows
• 24:07
  me
• 24:07
  to
• 24:07
  hit
• 24:07
  the
• 24:07
  ground
• 24:08
  running
• 24:08
  with
• 24:09
  a
• 24:09
  focused
• 24:09
  mind
• 24:09
  and
• 24:10
  a
• 24:10
  renewed
• 24:10
  energy
• 24:11
  in
• 24:11
  spirit.
• 24:11
  Coming
• 24:12
  from
• 24:12
  ho,
• 24:12
  from
• 24:13
  coming
• 24:13
  home
• 24:14
  from
• 24:14
  Hawaii
• 24:14
  was
• 24:15
  a
• 24:15
  high
• 24:15
  like
• 24:15
  no
• 24:16
  other.
• 24:16
  I
• 24:16
  moved
• 24:17
  through
• 24:17
  the
• 24:17
  days
• 24:17
  better.
• 24:18
  I
• 24:18
  listened
• 24:19
  better.
• 24:19
  I
• 24:19
  was
• 24:19
  motivated
• 24:20
  to
• 24:20
  do
• 24:20
  things
• 24:20
  I
• 24:21
  normally
• 24:21
  wouldn't
• 24:21
  have
• 24:22
  time
• 24:22
  for.
• 24:24
  In
• 24:24
  June,
• 24:25
  June,
• 24:25
  I
• 24:25
  learned
• 24:25
  or
• 24:26
  learned
• 24:26
  I
• 24:26
  can
• 24:26
  learn
• 24:27
  new
• 24:27
  things,
• 24:28
  hard
• 24:28
  things,
• 24:29
  and
• 24:29
  still
• 24:30
  enjoy
• 24:30
  it.
• 24:30
  I
• 24:31
  joined
• 24:31
  Olympic
• 24:31
  Lifting
• 24:32
  Club
• 24:32
  at
• 24:32
  an
• 24:32
  Olympic
• 24:33
  li,
• 24:33
  an
• 24:33
  Olympic
• 24:34
  lifting
• 24:34
  club,
• 24:34
  and
• 24:35
  started
• 24:35
  working
• 24:35
  out
• 24:35
  on
• 24:35
  the
• 24:35
  skills
• 24:36
  and
• 24:36
  the
• 24:36
  sport
• 24:37
  of
• 24:37
  Oly
• 24:37
  lifting
• 24:38
  and
• 24:38
  I
• 24:38
  loved
• 24:38
  it.
• 24:39
  I
• 24:39
  wanted
• 24:39
  to
• 24:39
  be
• 24:39
  pushed.
• 24:40
  I
• 24:40
  wanted
• 24:40
  to
• 24:41
  cut
• 24:41
  out
• 24:41
  of
• 24:41
  my
• 24:41
  comfort
• 24:42
  zone,
• 24:42
  but
• 24:42
  my
• 24:42
  pelvic
• 24:43
  floor
• 24:43
  gave
• 24:43
  out
• 24:44
  that
• 24:44
  first
• 24:44
  week.
• 24:45
  It
• 24:45
  seized
• 24:45
  up
• 24:46
  in
• 24:46
  ways
• 24:46
  that
• 24:46
  you
• 24:47
  don't
• 24:47
  wanna
• 24:47
  experience
• 24:48
  rendering
• 24:49
  me
• 24:49
  not
• 24:50
  able
• 24:50
  to
• 24:50
  stand
• 24:50
  up,
• 24:50
  let
• 24:50
  alone
• 24:51
  walk.
• 24:52
  It
• 24:52
  scared
• 24:52
  me.
• 24:54
  I
• 24:54
  and
• 24:54
  I,
• 24:55
  tears
• 24:55
  flew
• 24:56
  from
• 24:56
  my
• 24:56
  eyes,
• 24:57
  not
• 24:57
  necessarily
• 24:57
  from
• 24:57
  the
• 24:58
  pain,
• 24:58
  like
• 24:58
  the
• 24:58
  pain
• 24:58
  was
• 24:59
  awful,
• 24:59
  but
• 25:00
  tears
• 25:00
  flew
• 25:01
  from
• 25:01
  my
• 25:01
  eyes.
• 25:03
  I
• 25:03
  wondered
• 25:03
  why
• 25:03
  I
• 25:03
  was
• 25:04
  so
• 25:04
  emotional
• 25:04
  about
• 25:05
  it
• 25:05
  and
• 25:05
  on
• 25:05
  the
• 25:05
  way
• 25:05
  home,
• 25:06
  God
• 25:06
  sweetly
• 25:07
  reminded
• 25:07
  me,
• 25:08
  you
• 25:09
  don't
• 25:09
  wanna
• 25:09
  be
• 25:09
  held
• 25:09
  back
• 25:10
  by
• 25:10
  your
• 25:10
  body.
• 25:11
  You've
• 25:11
  seen
• 25:11
  your
• 25:11
  dad
• 25:12
  held
• 25:12
  back
• 25:12
  by
• 25:12
  his
• 25:13
  for
• 25:13
  decades.
• 25:14
  The
• 25:14
  hurt
• 25:14
  it
• 25:14
  caused
• 25:15
  you
• 25:15
  and
• 25:15
  your
• 25:15
  family,
• 25:16
  the
• 25:16
  things
• 25:17
  you
• 25:17
  missed
• 25:17
  out
• 25:17
  on
• 25:17
  because
• 25:18
  of
• 25:18
  it,
• 25:18
  the
• 25:18
  things
• 25:19
  he
• 25:19
  missed
• 25:19
  out
• 25:19
  on
• 25:19
  it
• 25:19
  because
• 25:20
  of
• 25:20
  it.
• 25:20
  Are
• 25:20
  you
• 25:21
  willing
• 25:21
  to
• 25:21
  put
• 25:21
  in
• 25:22
  the
• 25:22
  work
• 25:22
  to
• 25:22
  not
• 25:23
  be
• 25:23
  held
• 25:23
  back
• 25:23
  by
• 25:23
  yours
• 25:24
  now?
• 25:24
  And
• 25:24
  that
• 25:24
  hit
• 25:25
  me
• 25:25
  like
• 25:25
  a
• 25:25
  ton
• 25:25
  of
• 25:25
  bricks
• 25:26
  because
• 25:26
  I'd
• 25:26
  already
• 25:27
  lost
• 25:27
  the
• 25:27
  weight
• 25:27
  put
• 25:28
  on
• 25:28
  muscle
• 25:28
  and
• 25:28
  I
• 25:28
  was
• 25:29
  the
• 25:29
  fittest
• 25:29
  I'd
• 25:29
  been
• 25:30
  in
• 25:30
  probably
• 25:30
  ever
• 25:31
  actually
• 25:32
  yet.
• 25:32
  I
• 25:32
  realize
• 25:32
  my
• 25:33
  body
• 25:33
  is
• 25:33
  always
• 25:34
  a
• 25:34
  work
• 25:34
  in
• 25:34
  progress,
• 25:35
  it's
• 25:35
  never
• 25:36
  done.
• 25:36
  It's
• 25:36
  never
• 25:37
  finished
• 25:37
  until
• 25:37
  I
• 25:37
  meet
• 25:38
  Jesus
• 25:38
  face-to-face.
• 25:40
  If
• 25:40
  I
• 25:40
  want
• 25:40
  something
• 25:40
  new,
• 25:41
  I'll
• 25:41
  need
• 25:41
  to
• 25:41
  do
• 25:42
  maintenance
• 25:42
  and
• 25:43
  things
• 25:43
  that
• 25:43
  are
• 25:43
  hard
• 25:43
  to
• 25:44
  attain
• 25:44
  that
• 25:44
  new,
• 25:45
  and
• 25:45
  I
• 25:45
  think
• 25:45
  that
• 25:45
  that
• 25:45
  leads
• 25:46
  me
• 25:46
  into
• 25:47
  how
• 25:47
  I've
• 25:48
  started
• 25:48
  to
• 25:48
  change
• 25:48
  my
• 25:49
  business
• 25:49
  the
• 25:49
  way
• 25:49
  I've
• 25:49
  looked
• 25:50
  at
• 25:50
  my
• 25:50
  business.
• 25:50
  God
• 25:51
  has
• 25:51
  been
• 25:51
  in
• 25:51
  every
• 25:51
  bit
• 25:52
  of
• 25:52
  this.
• 25:52
  Moving
• 25:53
  forward
• 25:53
  to
• 25:53
  July,
• 25:54
  my
• 25:54
  grandmother
• 25:54
  passed.
• 25:55
  My
• 25:56
  last
• 25:56
  living
• 25:56
  grandmother
• 25:57
  passed.
• 25:57
  She
• 25:57
  had
• 25:57
  been
• 25:58
  in
• 25:58
  the
• 25:58
  nursing
• 25:58
  home
• 25:58
  for
• 25:58
  at
• 25:58
  least
• 25:59
  seven
• 25:59
  years
• 25:59
  with
• 26:00
  Alzheimer's
• 26:00
  and
• 26:01
  her
• 26:01
  body,
• 26:02
  except
• 26:02
  for
• 26:02
  the
• 26:02
  last
• 26:02
  few,
• 26:03
  like
• 26:03
  the
• 26:03
  last
• 26:03
  year
• 26:04
  or
• 26:04
  so.
• 26:04
  Her
• 26:04
  body
• 26:04
  still
• 26:05
  looked
• 26:05
  like
• 26:05
  she
• 26:05
  was
• 26:05
  able,
• 26:06
  her
• 26:06
  mind
• 26:06
  was
• 26:07
  gone
• 26:07
  and
• 26:09
  it
• 26:09
  was,
• 26:09
  it
• 26:10
  was.
• 26:10
  Something
• 26:11
  I
• 26:11
  never
• 26:12
  expected
• 26:12
  to
• 26:12
  be
• 26:12
  so
• 26:12
  miserable.
• 26:13
  My
• 26:13
  grandmother
• 26:14
  was
• 26:14
  the
• 26:14
  one
• 26:14
  who
• 26:14
  was
• 26:15
  at
• 26:15
  my
• 26:15
  wedding,
• 26:15
  the
• 26:16
  one
• 26:16
  who,
• 26:16
  when
• 26:16
  no
• 26:16
  one
• 26:17
  wanted
• 26:17
  anything
• 26:17
  to
• 26:17
  do
• 26:17
  with
• 26:18
  me,
• 26:18
  she
• 26:18
  was
• 26:18
  there.
• 26:18
  My
• 26:19
  grandmother
• 26:19
  was
• 26:19
  not
• 26:20
  perfect,
• 26:20
  but
• 26:20
  she's
• 26:21
  the
• 26:21
  one
• 26:21
  who
• 26:21
  showed
• 26:21
  me
• 26:21
  the
• 26:22
  perfect
• 26:22
  one
• 26:23
  in
• 26:23
  Jesus.
• 26:24
  She
• 26:24
  continued
• 26:24
  to
• 26:25
  encourage
• 26:25
  me
• 26:26
  to
• 26:26
  get
• 26:26
  to
• 26:26
  church,
• 26:27
  to
• 26:27
  read
• 26:27
  my
• 26:27
  Bible,
• 26:28
  to
• 26:28
  study,
• 26:28
  to
• 26:28
  do
• 26:29
  more,
• 26:29
  to
• 26:29
  stand
• 26:30
  up,
• 26:30
  do
• 26:30
  the
• 26:30
  hard
• 26:30
  things,
• 26:30
  be
• 26:31
  the
• 26:31
  woman
• 26:31
  that
• 26:32
  no
• 26:32
  one
• 26:32
  that
• 26:33
  you
• 26:33
  don't
• 26:33
  need
• 26:33
  a
• 26:33
  man,
• 26:34
  but
• 26:34
  you
• 26:34
  get
• 26:34
  to
• 26:35
  enjoy
• 26:35
  the
• 26:35
  company
• 26:36
  of
• 26:36
  a
• 26:36
  man,
• 26:36
  that
• 26:36
  you're
• 26:37
  a
• 26:37
  partner.
• 26:38
  She
• 26:38
  taught
• 26:38
  me
• 26:38
  my
• 26:38
  role
• 26:39
  in
• 26:39
  life.
• 26:40
  She
• 26:40
  taught
• 26:40
  me
• 26:40
  a
• 26:40
  lot
• 26:40
  of
• 26:41
  things,
• 26:41
  and
• 26:41
  I
• 26:41
  think
• 26:41
  I'm
• 26:42
  gonna
• 26:42
  do
• 26:42
  a
• 26:42
  full
• 26:42
  episode
• 26:43
  dedicated
• 26:43
  to
• 26:43
  her,
• 26:43
  but
• 26:44
  I'm
• 26:44
  gonna
• 26:44
  leave
• 26:44
  that
• 26:44
  there.
• 26:45
  It's
• 26:45
  one
• 26:45
  thing
• 26:45
  that
• 26:45
  when
• 26:45
  you
• 26:46
  know
• 26:46
  your
• 26:46
  grandmother
• 26:46
  is
• 26:46
  gone,
• 26:47
  but
• 26:47
  it's
• 26:47
  another
• 26:47
  thing
• 26:47
  when
• 26:47
  she
• 26:48
  really
• 26:48
  is
• 26:48
  gone.
• 26:49
  I'm
• 26:49
  grateful
• 26:49
  for
• 26:49
  the
• 26:49
  opportunity
• 26:50
  that
• 26:50
  I
• 26:50
  got
• 26:50
  to
• 26:51
  FaceTime
• 26:51
  with
• 26:51
  her
• 26:51
  before
• 26:51
  she
• 26:51
  passed
• 26:52
  and
• 26:53
  thank
• 26:53
  her
• 26:53
  for
• 26:53
  that.
• 26:54
  Thank
• 26:54
  her
• 26:54
  for
• 26:54
  what
• 26:55
  her
• 26:55
  role
• 26:55
  was
• 26:56
  in
• 26:56
  my
• 26:56
  life,
• 26:56
  and
• 26:57
  I
• 26:57
  think
• 26:57
  that
• 26:57
  was
• 26:58
  very
• 26:58
  helpful.
• 26:58
  One
• 26:59
  thing
• 26:59
  that's
• 26:59
  got
• 26:59
  me
• 26:59
  really
• 26:59
  emotional
• 27:00
  is
• 27:00
  when
• 27:00
  I
• 27:00
  think
• 27:00
  about
• 27:01
  the
• 27:01
  last
• 27:01
  times
• 27:02
  with
• 27:02
  my
• 27:02
  grand
• 27:02
  or
• 27:02
  the
• 27:02
  last
• 27:03
  week,
• 27:03
  my
• 27:03
  grandmother,
• 27:04
  a
• 27:04
  few
• 27:04
  days
• 27:04
  my
• 27:04
  grandmother
• 27:05
  was
• 27:05
  alive.
• 27:05
  My
• 27:05
  father
• 27:06
  is
• 27:06
  not
• 27:06
  well
• 27:06
  enough
• 27:07
  to
• 27:07
  go
• 27:07
  see
• 27:07
  her
• 27:08
  and
• 27:08
  hasn't
• 27:08
  been
• 27:08
  well
• 27:09
  enough
• 27:09
  to
• 27:09
  go
• 27:09
  there
• 27:09
  in
• 27:09
  a
• 27:09
  while.
• 27:11
  And
• 27:11
  so
• 27:11
  he
• 27:12
  called
• 27:13
  the
• 27:13
  nursing
• 27:14
  home
• 27:14
  or
• 27:14
  whatever
• 27:14
  it's
• 27:15
  called
• 27:15
  and
• 27:15
  asked
• 27:16
  if
• 27:16
  he
• 27:16
  could,
• 27:16
  if
• 27:17
  a
• 27:17
  nurse
• 27:17
  would
• 27:17
  FaceTime,
• 27:18
  FaceTime
• 27:18
  him
• 27:19
  to
• 27:19
  talk
• 27:19
  to
• 27:19
  his
• 27:19
  mother,
• 27:20
  and
• 27:21
  my
• 27:21
  grandmother
• 27:21
  had
• 27:21
  been
• 27:21
  unresponsive
• 27:22
  for
• 27:22
  a
• 27:22
  few
• 27:23
  days
• 27:23
  at
• 27:23
  that
• 27:23
  point.
• 27:24
  As
• 27:24
  soon
• 27:24
  as
• 27:24
  my
• 27:24
  dad
• 27:25
  said,
• 27:25
  Hey,
• 27:26
  mom,
• 27:26
  as
• 27:26
  a
• 27:26
  mom
• 27:27
  with
• 27:27
  my
• 27:27
  first
• 27:28
  child
• 27:28
  being
• 27:28
  a
• 27:29
  son,
• 27:30
  just
• 27:30
  how
• 27:30
  important
• 27:31
  that
• 27:31
  relationship
• 27:32
  is
• 27:32
  between
• 27:32
  a
• 27:32
  mom
• 27:32
  and
• 27:32
  her
• 27:33
  firstborn
• 27:33
  son,
• 27:33
  especially
• 27:34
  when
• 27:34
  you
• 27:35
  have
• 27:35
  a
• 27:35
  tumultuous
• 27:36
  upbringing
• 27:36
  or
• 27:37
  tumultuous
• 27:37
  family
• 27:38
  life.
• 27:38
  The
• 27:39
  responsibility
• 27:39
  of
• 27:39
  that
• 27:39
  son
• 27:40
  and
• 27:40
  almost
• 27:40
  that
• 27:40
  partnership
• 27:41
  between
• 27:41
  the
• 27:42
  mom
• 27:42
  and.
• 27:43
  Son
• 27:43
  is
• 27:43
  huge.
• 27:44
  So
• 27:45
  that
• 27:45
  was
• 27:45
  a
• 27:45
  blessing.
• 27:46
  I
• 27:46
  mean,
• 27:46
  it
• 27:46
  felt
• 27:46
  very
• 27:46
  peaceful
• 27:47
  to
• 27:47
  experience,
• 27:49
  but
• 27:49
  July
• 27:50
  also
• 27:50
  reminded
• 27:51
  me
• 27:51
  and
• 27:51
  taught
• 27:52
  me
• 27:52
  that
• 27:52
  being
• 27:52
  so
• 27:53
  busy.
• 27:53
  That
• 27:54
  I
• 27:54
  cannot
• 27:54
  volunteer
• 27:55
  at
• 27:55
  my
• 27:55
  kids'
• 27:55
  activities
• 27:56
  is
• 27:56
  unacceptable.
• 27:57
  I
• 27:57
  missed
• 27:57
  out
• 27:58
  on
• 27:58
  activities,
• 27:59
  moments
• 27:59
  of
• 27:59
  their
• 27:59
  fun,
• 28:00
  laughter,
• 28:00
  light
• 28:01
  bulbs,
• 28:02
  et
• 28:02
  cetera.
• 28:03
  Because
• 28:03
  I
• 28:03
  am
• 28:03
  so
• 28:04
  busy
• 28:04
  with
• 28:04
  my
• 28:04
  work,
• 28:05
  because
• 28:05
  I'm
• 28:05
  so
• 28:06
  available
• 28:07
  to
• 28:07
  everyone
• 28:07
  else,
• 28:08
  because
• 28:08
  I
• 28:08
  put
• 28:08
  my
• 28:08
  work
• 28:09
  above
• 28:09
  them,
• 28:10
  and
• 28:10
  it
• 28:10
  may
• 28:11
  sound,
• 28:11
  you
• 28:11
  may
• 28:11
  be
• 28:11
  like,
• 28:12
  oh,
• 28:12
  Danielle,
• 28:12
  you're
• 28:13
  with
• 28:13
  your
• 28:13
  kids
• 28:13
  all
• 28:13
  day
• 28:13
  every
• 28:14
  day.
• 28:14
  You
• 28:14
  homeschool
• 28:15
  them,
• 28:15
  you're
• 28:15
  with
• 28:15
  them.
• 28:16
  But
• 28:16
  I
• 28:16
  get
• 28:16
  them
• 28:16
  for
• 28:17
  a
• 28:17
  few
• 28:17
  short
• 28:18
  18
• 28:18
  years
• 28:20
  and
• 28:20
  I'll,
• 28:20
  I'll
• 28:20
  get
• 28:20
  to
• 28:20
  this
• 28:21
  eventually,
• 28:21
  but
• 28:22
  my
• 28:22
  oldest
• 28:22
  son
• 28:23
  is
• 28:23
  12
• 28:23
  and
• 28:23
  he,
• 28:24
  this
• 28:24
  past
• 28:24
  month
• 28:25
  asked
• 28:25
  me,
• 28:25
  "Hey
• 28:25
  mom,
• 28:26
  will
• 28:26
  you
• 28:26
  volunteer
• 28:27
  at
• 28:27
  my
• 28:27
  middle
• 28:28
  school
• 28:28
  ministry?"
• 28:28
  And
• 28:28
  I'm
• 28:29
  like,
• 28:29
  well,
• 28:29
  why?
• 28:30
  And
• 28:30
  the
• 28:30
  reasons
• 28:31
  why
• 28:31
  he
• 28:31
  wants
• 28:31
  me
• 28:31
  to
• 28:32
  do
• 28:32
  it
• 28:32
  is
• 28:32
  because
• 28:32
  he
• 28:32
  knows
• 28:33
  like
• 28:33
  it's
• 28:33
  not,
• 28:34
  he
• 28:34
  said
• 28:34
  he
• 28:34
  claims
• 28:35
  his
• 28:35
  very
• 28:35
  wild
• 28:35
  and
• 28:36
  just
• 28:36
  not
• 28:37
  structured
• 28:37
  very
• 28:37
  well
• 28:37
  and
• 28:38
  whatever,
• 28:38
  and
• 28:38
  he
• 28:38
  knows
• 28:39
  that
• 28:39
  his
• 28:39
  mama.
• 28:40
  Can
• 28:40
  take,
• 28:40
  take
• 28:41
  names
• 28:41
  and
• 28:42
  probably
• 28:42
  handle
• 28:42
  it
• 28:42
  all
• 28:42
  herself.
• 28:43
  But
• 28:43
  I'm
• 28:43
  like,
• 28:44
  buddy,
• 28:44
  I
• 28:44
  would
• 28:44
  love
• 28:45
  to
• 28:45
  volunteer
• 28:45
  and
• 28:45
  I'm
• 28:46
  going
• 28:46
  to
• 28:46
  figure
• 28:46
  out
• 28:46
  where
• 28:46
  I
• 28:47
  belong
• 28:47
  and
• 28:47
  I
• 28:47
  will,
• 28:48
  I
• 28:48
  will
• 28:48
  do
• 28:49
  my
• 28:49
  best
• 28:49
  to
• 28:49
  get
• 28:49
  in
• 28:50
  there.
• 28:50
  And
• 28:50
  so
• 28:51
  I'm
• 28:51
  making
• 28:51
  steps
• 28:52
  for
• 28:52
  that.
• 28:52
  But
• 28:52
  notice
• 28:53
  that
• 28:53
  was
• 28:53
  July.
• 28:54
  July,
• 28:54
  I
• 28:54
  learned
• 28:55
  that,
• 28:55
  but
• 28:55
  I
• 28:55
  wasn't
• 28:56
  able
• 28:56
  to
• 28:56
  start
• 28:56
  making
• 28:57
  steps
• 28:57
  in
• 28:57
  that
• 28:58
  until
• 28:58
  a
• 28:58
  few
• 28:58
  months.
• 29:00
  Moving
• 29:00
  forward
• 29:00
  into
• 29:01
  August.
• 29:01
  Oh,
• 29:02
  I'm
• 29:02
  not
• 29:02
  done
• 29:02
  With
• 29:02
  July.
• 29:03
  July,
• 29:03
  also,
• 29:04
  I
• 29:04
  was
• 29:04
  given
• 29:04
  a
• 29:04
  text
• 29:05
  from
• 29:05
  my
• 29:05
  mother
• 29:05
  saying
• 29:06
  that
• 29:06
  there's
• 29:07
  nothing
• 29:07
  more
• 29:07
  that
• 29:07
  they
• 29:07
  can
• 29:07
  do
• 29:08
  for
• 29:08
  my
• 29:08
  father's
• 29:08
  heart
• 29:09
  that
• 29:10
  what
• 29:10
  is
• 29:10
  happening
• 29:11
  with
• 29:11
  his
• 29:11
  heart
• 29:11
  is
• 29:11
  all
• 29:12
  needing
• 29:12
  to
• 29:12
  be
• 29:12
  managed
• 29:13
  with
• 29:14
  his
• 29:14
  medicines
• 29:15
  and
• 29:15
  that's
• 29:16
  all
• 29:16
  they
• 29:16
  have
• 29:16
  left.
• 29:17
  And
• 29:17
  there's
• 29:17
  a
• 29:17
  lot
• 29:17
  of
• 29:17
  discouragement
• 29:18
  in
• 29:18
  that,
• 29:18
  but
• 29:18
  also
• 29:19
  a
• 29:19
  lot
• 29:19
  of
• 29:19
  empowerment
• 29:20
  and
• 29:20
  reminder
• 29:21
  why
• 29:22
  I
• 29:22
  am
• 29:22
  here
• 29:22
  doing
• 29:23
  what
• 29:23
  I
• 29:23
  do.
• 29:25
  Why
• 29:25
  I'm
• 29:26
  here
• 29:26
  doing
• 29:26
  what
• 29:26
  I
• 29:26
  do.
• 29:27
  Moving
• 29:28
  forward
• 29:28
  to
• 29:28
  August.
• 29:29
  I
• 29:29
  learned
• 29:29
  that
• 29:29
  when
• 29:29
  a
• 29:29
  dau,
• 29:30
  when
• 29:30
  my
• 29:30
  daughter
• 29:30
  asked
• 29:30
  me
• 29:30
  for
• 29:31
  a
• 29:31
  girl's
• 29:31
  day,
• 29:31
  I
• 29:31
  need
• 29:32
  to
• 29:32
  do
• 29:32
  it
• 29:32
  and
• 29:32
  I
• 29:32
  need
• 29:33
  to
• 29:33
  be
• 29:33
  all
• 29:33
  in.
• 29:34
  I
• 29:34
  want
• 29:34
  to
• 29:34
  be
• 29:35
  a
• 29:35
  mother
• 29:35
  that
• 29:35
  knows
• 29:36
  her
• 29:36
  kids.
• 29:37
  It's
• 29:37
  so
• 29:37
  easy
• 29:38
  to
• 29:38
  love
• 29:38
  our
• 29:38
  kids.
• 29:39
  It's
• 29:39
  so
• 29:39
  easy
• 29:39
  to
• 29:39
  do
• 29:40
  that,
• 29:40
  but
• 29:40
  it's
• 29:40
  hard
• 29:41
  to
• 29:41
  know
• 29:41
  them,
• 29:43
  hard
• 29:43
  to
• 29:43
  get
• 29:43
  into
• 29:44
  the,
• 29:44
  their
• 29:44
  interests,
• 29:45
  especially
• 29:45
  if
• 29:45
  they
• 29:45
  are
• 29:46
  so
• 29:46
  different
• 29:46
  from
• 29:47
  your
• 29:47
  own.
• 29:47
  I
• 29:48
  will
• 29:48
  be
• 29:48
  present
• 29:49
  with
• 29:49
  my
• 29:49
  children.
• 29:50
  No
• 29:50
  matter
• 29:50
  what
• 29:51
  I
• 29:52
  also
• 29:53
  met
• 29:53
  some
• 29:53
  of
• 29:53
  my
• 29:53
  favorite
• 29:53
  people
• 29:54
  in
• 29:54
  August
• 29:54
  in
• 29:54
  Boise,
• 29:55
  Idaho.
• 29:56
  I
• 29:56
  walked
• 29:56
  into
• 29:56
  an
• 29:56
  event
• 29:57
  center
• 29:57
  and
• 29:57
  knew
• 29:57
  I
• 29:58
  was
• 29:58
  with
• 29:58
  my
• 29:59
  people.
• 30:00
  You
• 30:00
  know
• 30:00
  what
• 30:00
  it's
• 30:00
  like
• 30:00
  when
• 30:00
  you
• 30:00
  walk
• 30:01
  into
• 30:01
  a
• 30:01
  room
• 30:01
  and
• 30:01
  you're
• 30:01
  like,
• 30:02
  these
• 30:02
  are
• 30:02
  my
• 30:02
  people.
• 30:03
  The
• 30:03
  feeling,
• 30:03
  the
• 30:04
  feeling
• 30:04
  of
• 30:04
  being
• 30:04
  valued,
• 30:05
  seen
• 30:05
  and
• 30:05
  known,
• 30:06
  having
• 30:06
  the
• 30:06
  same
• 30:06
  worldview
• 30:07
  is
• 30:07
  so
• 30:07
  empowering,
• 30:08
  and
• 30:09
  I
• 30:09
  vowed
• 30:09
  to
• 30:09
  continue
• 30:10
  meeting
• 30:10
  and
• 30:10
  fulfilling
• 30:11
  this
• 30:11
  need
• 30:11
  regularly
• 30:12
  with
• 30:12
  these
• 30:12
  people.
• 30:13
  In
• 30:13
  September,
• 30:14
  remember
• 30:14
  talking
• 30:14
  about
• 30:14
  what
• 30:15
  I
• 30:15
  learned
• 30:15
  in
• 30:15
  July
• 30:16
  about
• 30:16
  being
• 30:17
  so
• 30:17
  busy
• 30:17
  in
• 30:17
  September.
• 30:19
  Do
• 30:19
  I
• 30:19
  even
• 30:20
  see
• 30:20
  my
• 30:20
  children's
• 30:21
  eyes
• 30:21
  anymore?
• 30:22
  Why
• 30:22
  is
• 30:22
  my
• 30:22
  house
• 30:23
  a
• 30:23
  nightmare?
• 30:24
  Why
• 30:24
  am
• 30:24
  I
• 30:24
  so
• 30:24
  overwhelmed?
• 30:25
  Something
• 30:26
  has
• 30:26
  to,
• 30:26
  something
• 30:27
  has
• 30:27
  to
• 30:27
  change
• 30:28
  and
• 30:28
  I
• 30:28
  don't
• 30:28
  even
• 30:29
  know
• 30:29
  what
• 30:29
  it
• 30:29
  is.
• 30:30
  September
• 30:31
  was
• 30:31
  a
• 30:31
  very
• 30:31
  rough
• 30:32
  month
• 30:32
  for
• 30:32
  me.
• 30:33
  I
• 30:33
  was
• 30:33
  ready
• 30:33
  to
• 30:33
  just
• 30:33
  be
• 30:34
  done
• 30:34
  with
• 30:34
  my
• 30:34
  business
• 30:34
  and
• 30:35
  go
• 30:35
  back
• 30:35
  to
• 30:35
  being
• 30:35
  quote
• 30:36
  unquote
• 30:36
  just
• 30:36
  a
• 30:36
  mom
• 30:37
  and
• 30:37
  a
• 30:37
  wife.
• 30:38
  but
• 30:38
  what
• 30:38
  was
• 30:39
  underneath
• 30:39
  was
• 30:39
  a
• 30:39
  nightmare.
• 30:40
  I
• 30:40
  was
• 30:41
  working
• 30:41
  too
• 30:41
  much.
• 30:41
  I
• 30:42
  was
• 30:42
  not
• 30:42
  only
• 30:42
  the
• 30:42
  c
• 30:43
  e
• 30:43
  o
• 30:43
  of
• 30:43
  crying
• 30:43
  to
• 30:43
  my
• 30:43
  cheesecake,
• 30:44
  but
• 30:44
  I
• 30:44
  was
• 30:44
  the
• 30:44
  employee
• 30:45
  and
• 30:45
  I
• 30:45
  had
• 30:45
  no
• 30:45
  room
• 30:46
  to
• 30:46
  dream
• 30:46
  anymore,
• 30:47
  let
• 30:47
  alone
• 30:47
  take
• 30:48
  care
• 30:48
  of
• 30:48
  my
• 30:48
  family
• 30:48
  and
• 30:49
  house.
• 30:49
  There
• 30:49
  was
• 30:49
  also
• 30:50
  more
• 30:50
  death
• 30:50
  that
• 30:50
  month,
• 30:51
  the
• 30:51
  Queen
• 30:52
  died,
• 30:52
  there
• 30:52
  were
• 30:52
  people
• 30:53
  that
• 30:53
  I
• 30:53
  grew
• 30:53
  up
• 30:53
  with
• 30:54
  again,
• 30:54
  that
• 30:54
  generation
• 30:54
  I
• 30:55
  said,
• 30:55
  that
• 30:55
  is
• 30:55
  passing.
• 30:55
  They're
• 30:56
  all
• 30:56
  passing.
• 30:57
  There
• 30:57
  was
• 30:57
  so
• 30:58
  much
• 30:58
  death
• 30:59
  that
• 30:59
  happened.
• 31:00
  In
• 31:00
  October.
• 31:01
  I
• 31:01
  learned
• 31:01
  I
• 31:01
  needed
• 31:02
  to
• 31:02
  slow
• 31:02
  down.
• 31:03
  I
• 31:03
  am
• 31:04
  a
• 31:04
  woman,
• 31:04
  a
• 31:04
  helpmate.
• 31:05
  I
• 31:05
  am
• 31:05
  not
• 31:05
  wired
• 31:06
  to
• 31:06
  be
• 31:06
  the
• 31:06
  provider
• 31:07
  of
• 31:07
  my
• 31:07
  family,
• 31:07
  and
• 31:07
  I
• 31:08
  don't
• 31:08
  need
• 31:09
  to
• 31:09
  be
• 31:09
  the
• 31:09
  provider
• 31:09
  of
• 31:09
  my
• 31:09
  family.
• 31:10
  The
• 31:10
  people
• 31:11
  who
• 31:11
  get
• 31:11
  my
• 31:11
  time
• 31:12
  must
• 31:12
  earn
• 31:13
  it
• 31:13
  as
• 31:13
  time
• 31:14
  with
• 31:14
  me
• 31:15
  is
• 31:15
  an
• 31:15
  elite
• 31:15
  opportunity
• 31:16
  for
• 31:16
  people
• 31:17
  outside
• 31:17
  of
• 31:17
  my
• 31:17
  home,
• 31:18
  outside
• 31:19
  of
• 31:19
  my
• 31:19
  husband
• 31:19
  and
• 31:20
  children.
• 31:20
  Anyone,
• 31:21
  anytime
• 31:21
  someone
• 31:22
  meets
• 31:22
  with
• 31:22
  me,
• 31:22
  anytime
• 31:23
  someone
• 31:23
  pays
• 31:24
  ti
• 31:24
  for,
• 31:24
  pays
• 31:25
  me
• 31:25
  for
• 31:25
  time,
• 31:27
  it
• 31:27
  should
• 31:27
  be
• 31:27
  a
• 31:27
  top
• 31:27
  dollar
• 31:28
  because
• 31:28
  every
• 31:29
  moment
• 31:29
  I'm
• 31:29
  with
• 31:30
  someone
• 31:30
  else.
• 31:31
  I'm
• 31:31
  taking
• 31:31
  away
• 31:32
  from
• 31:32
  my
• 31:32
  home
• 31:33
  and
• 31:33
  the
• 31:33
  eyeballs
• 31:34
  of
• 31:34
  my
• 31:34
  children.
• 31:35
  I
• 31:35
  need
• 31:35
  to
• 31:35
  have
• 31:36
  extreme
• 31:36
  boundaries
• 31:37
  to
• 31:37
  protect
• 31:38
  my
• 31:38
  time,
• 31:38
  my
• 31:38
  heart,
• 31:39
  my
• 31:39
  family,
• 31:39
  my
• 31:39
  health.
• 31:40
  I
• 31:40
  was
• 31:40
  also
• 31:40
  re
• 31:41
  reminded
• 31:41
  the
• 31:41
  importance
• 31:42
  of
• 31:42
  a
• 31:42
  healthcare
• 31:43
  team
• 31:43
  around
• 31:44
  me
• 31:44
  that
• 31:44
  I
• 31:44
  can
• 31:45
  trust
• 31:45
  to
• 31:45
  support
• 31:45
  my
• 31:46
  wellness
• 31:46
  needs
• 31:47
  because
• 31:47
  I
• 31:47
  was
• 31:47
  two
• 31:48
  months
• 31:48
  away
• 31:49
  from
• 31:49
  a
• 31:49
  heart
• 31:49
  attack
• 31:50
  from
• 31:50
  stress.
• 31:51
  Not
• 31:51
  because
• 31:51
  there's
• 31:51
  plaque
• 31:52
  in
• 31:52
  my
• 31:52
  arteries,
• 31:53
  not
• 31:53
  because
• 31:53
  I'm
• 31:54
  eating
• 31:54
  wrong,
• 31:54
  not
• 31:55
  because
• 31:55
  of
• 31:55
  anything
• 31:56
  but
• 31:56
  stress.
• 31:57
  I
• 31:57
  was
• 31:57
  two
• 31:58
  months
• 31:58
  away
• 31:59
  from
• 31:59
  my
• 31:59
  very
• 31:59
  first
• 32:00
  heart
• 32:00
  attack.
• 32:01
  I
• 32:01
  would've
• 32:01
  beaten
• 32:01
  my
• 32:01
  father.
• 32:02
  My
• 32:02
  father
• 32:03
  had
• 32:03
  his
• 32:03
  first
• 32:03
  heart
• 32:03
  attack
• 32:04
  at
• 32:04
  42.
• 32:05
  I
• 32:05
  would've
• 32:05
  had
• 32:05
  one
• 32:06
  at
• 32:06
  38
• 32:06
  or
• 32:06
  39
• 32:07
  years
• 32:07
  old.
• 32:08
  I
• 32:08
  would've
• 32:08
  beaten
• 32:08
  him,
• 32:09
  and
• 32:09
  that's
• 32:09
  what
• 32:09
  I'm
• 32:09
  here
• 32:10
  to
• 32:10
  fight.
• 32:10
  I'm
• 32:10
  here
• 32:10
  to
• 32:10
  fight
• 32:11
  heart
• 32:11
  disease
• 32:11
  and
• 32:12
  diabetes
• 32:12
  with
• 32:12
  everything
• 32:13
  I
• 32:13
  have.
• 32:14
  I'm
• 32:14
  here
• 32:15
  to
• 32:15
  also
• 32:15
  help
• 32:16
  other
• 32:16
  people
• 32:16
  that
• 32:17
  have
• 32:17
  other
• 32:17
  ailments
• 32:18
  that
• 32:18
  they
• 32:18
  want
• 32:18
  to
• 32:18
  fight
• 32:19
  and
• 32:19
  beat
• 32:19
  and
• 32:20
  not
• 32:20
  be
• 32:20
  that
• 32:20
  statistic.
• 32:22
  And
• 32:22
  typically
• 32:22
  the
• 32:22
  first
• 32:23
  thing
• 32:24
  that
• 32:24
  that
• 32:25
  will
• 32:25
  set,
• 32:25
  if
• 32:26
  everything
• 32:26
  is
• 32:26
  perfect,
• 32:26
  we're
• 32:26
  working
• 32:27
  out,
• 32:27
  we're
• 32:27
  eating
• 32:28
  right,
• 32:28
  we've
• 32:28
  got
• 32:29
  the
• 32:29
  right
• 32:29
  supplements,
• 32:29
  we're
• 32:30
  doing
• 32:30
  everything
• 32:30
  we're
• 32:31
  supposed
• 32:31
  to
• 32:31
  do.
• 32:31
  If
• 32:32
  our
• 32:32
  lifestyle
• 32:32
  management
• 32:33
  is
• 32:33
  not
• 32:33
  there
• 32:34
  it
• 32:34
  doesn't
• 32:35
  matter.
• 32:36
  It
• 32:36
  throws
• 32:36
  it
• 32:36
  all
• 32:37
  away.
• 32:37
  But
• 32:38
  the
• 32:38
  best
• 32:38
  thing
• 32:38
  with
• 32:38
  lifestyle
• 32:39
  management
• 32:39
  is
• 32:39
  it
• 32:39
  can
• 32:39
  be
• 32:39
  corrected
• 32:40
  quickly.
• 32:41
  And
• 32:41
  I'm
• 32:42
  happy
• 32:42
  to
• 32:42
  say
• 32:43
  that
• 32:43
  I
• 32:43
  am
• 32:43
  healthy.
• 32:44
  I'm
• 32:44
  working
• 32:45
  toward,
• 32:45
  I'm
• 32:45
  working
• 32:46
  toward
• 32:46
  more
• 32:46
  health
• 32:46
  and
• 32:47
  better
• 32:47
  stress
• 32:48
  management
• 32:48
  techniques
• 32:49
  moving
• 32:49
  into
• 32:49
  November.
• 32:50
  It's
• 32:51
  time
• 32:51
  for
• 32:51
  help.
• 32:51
  I
• 32:51
  tell
• 32:52
  everyone
• 32:52
  it's
• 32:52
  okay
• 32:53
  to
• 32:53
  ask
• 32:53
  for
• 32:53
  help.
• 32:54
  So
• 32:54
  it's
• 32:54
  my
• 32:55
  turn.
• 32:55
  I
• 32:55
  hired
• 32:56
  a
• 32:56
  one-to-one
• 32:56
  business
• 32:57
  mentor.
• 32:58
  Absolutely
• 32:58
  adore
• 32:59
  her
• 32:59
  and
• 32:59
  applied
• 33:00
  and
• 33:01
  was
• 33:01
  accepted
• 33:01
  into
• 33:02
  a
• 33:02
  high
• 33:02
  level
• 33:02
  mastermind
• 33:03
  to
• 33:03
  support
• 33:03
  my
• 33:04
  business.
• 33:04
  Once
• 33:05
  my
• 33:05
  business
• 33:05
  is
• 33:05
  supported
• 33:06
  and
• 33:06
  running
• 33:06
  the
• 33:06
  way
• 33:06
  I
• 33:06
  want
• 33:07
  it
• 33:07
  to
• 33:07
  run,
• 33:08
  not
• 33:08
  what
• 33:08
  a
• 33:08
  brick
• 33:08
  and
• 33:09
  mortar
• 33:09
  business
• 33:09
  runs
• 33:10
  and
• 33:10
  how
• 33:10
  they
• 33:10
  run,
• 33:11
  I
• 33:11
  will
• 33:11
  have
• 33:12
  more
• 33:12
  time
• 33:12
  to
• 33:13
  live
• 33:13
  the
• 33:13
  life
• 33:14
  I
• 33:14
  want,
• 33:15
  that
• 33:16
  I
• 33:16
  want
• 33:16
  and
• 33:16
  need
• 33:18
  this
• 33:18
  year
• 33:18
  was
• 33:18
  about
• 33:19
  growth.
• 33:19
  I
• 33:19
  knew
• 33:19
  growing
• 33:20
  was
• 33:20
  fun,
• 33:20
  but
• 33:21
  also
• 33:21
  would
• 33:21
  be
• 33:21
  painful.
• 33:22
  In
• 33:22
  December,
• 33:23
  I
• 33:23
  realized
• 33:23
  I
• 33:23
  had
• 33:24
  experienced
• 33:24
  both.
• 33:25
  I
• 33:25
  grew
• 33:25
  as
• 33:25
  a
• 33:26
  person
• 33:26
  and
• 33:26
  my
• 33:26
  business
• 33:27
  grew
• 33:28
  astronomically.
• 33:28
  Thanks
• 33:29
  to
• 33:29
  impart
• 33:29
  mostly
• 33:30
  to
• 33:30
  you.
• 33:30
  Then
• 33:31
  it
• 33:31
  was
• 33:31
  time
• 33:31
  for
• 33:31
  a
• 33:31
  season
• 33:32
  of
• 33:32
  pruning.
• 33:33
  I
• 33:33
  didn't
• 33:34
  realize
• 33:34
  some
• 33:34
  of
• 33:34
  the
• 33:34
  pruning
• 33:35
  had
• 33:35
  happened
• 33:35
  by
• 33:35
  itself
• 33:36
  without
• 33:36
  me
• 33:36
  having
• 33:36
  to
• 33:36
  physically
• 33:37
  do
• 33:37
  it.
• 33:37
  But
• 33:37
  also
• 33:38
  I
• 33:38
  realized
• 33:38
  how
• 33:39
  painful
• 33:39
  pruning
• 33:40
  is.
• 33:41
  I've
• 33:41
  had
• 33:41
  to
• 33:41
  prune
• 33:42
  pieces
• 33:43
  of
• 33:43
  my
• 33:43
  business,
• 33:43
  prune
• 33:44
  people
• 33:44
  from
• 33:44
  my
• 33:45
  business,
• 33:45
  prune
• 33:46
  people
• 33:46
  from
• 33:46
  my
• 33:46
  life,
• 33:47
  prune
• 33:48
  activities
• 33:49
  from
• 33:49
  my
• 33:49
  life,
• 33:50
  and
• 33:50
  all
• 33:50
  that
• 33:51
  means
• 33:51
  is
• 33:51
  I
• 33:51
  have
• 33:51
  no
• 33:52
  more
• 33:52
  baggage
• 33:52
  holding
• 33:53
  me
• 33:53
  down
• 33:53
  to
• 33:53
  truly
• 33:54
  flourish
• 33:54
  next
• 33:55
  year
• 33:55
  or
• 33:55
  this
• 33:56
  next.
• 33:57
  For
• 33:57
  example,
• 33:57
  something
• 33:58
  that
• 33:58
  was
• 33:58
  painful
• 33:58
  for
• 33:58
  me
• 33:59
  was
• 33:59
  was
• 33:59
  the
• 33:59
  realization
• 34:00
  of
• 34:00
  how
• 34:01
  many
• 34:01
  people
• 34:01
  that
• 34:02
  have
• 34:02
  naturally
• 34:02
  pruned
• 34:03
  themselves
• 34:03
  for
• 34:03
  my
• 34:03
  life.
• 34:04
  We
• 34:04
  moved
• 34:04
  to
• 34:04
  Ohio
• 34:05
  about
• 34:05
  four
• 34:05
  and
• 34:05
  a
• 34:05
  half
• 34:05
  years
• 34:06
  ago,
• 34:06
  and
• 34:06
  before
• 34:07
  that
• 34:07
  I
• 34:07
  had
• 34:07
  a
• 34:07
  huge
• 34:08
  network
• 34:08
  of
• 34:08
  people
• 34:08
  I
• 34:08
  was
• 34:08
  associated
• 34:09
  with
• 34:09
  in
• 34:09
  Indianapolis,
• 34:10
  Indiana.
• 34:11
  I
• 34:11
  lived
• 34:11
  in
• 34:11
  Indianapolis
• 34:12
  since
• 34:12
  I
• 34:12
  was
• 34:12
  about
• 34:12
  19
• 34:13
  years
• 34:13
  old,
• 34:13
  and
• 34:14
  it
• 34:14
  was
• 34:14
  the
• 34:14
  first
• 34:15
  time
• 34:15
  ever
• 34:16
  having
• 34:16
  to
• 34:16
  build
• 34:16
  my
• 34:16
  own
• 34:17
  roots,
• 34:18
  my
• 34:18
  own
• 34:18
  communities,
• 34:19
  my
• 34:19
  own
• 34:19
  people
• 34:20
  around
• 34:20
  me.
• 34:21
  There
• 34:21
  was
• 34:21
  a
• 34:21
  time
• 34:21
  I
• 34:21
  could
• 34:22
  not
• 34:22
  leave
• 34:22
  my
• 34:22
  house
• 34:22
  without
• 34:23
  someone
• 34:23
  knowing
• 34:23
  me
• 34:24
  anywhere
• 34:24
  in
• 34:24
  the
• 34:24
  city.
• 34:25
  I
• 34:25
  realized
• 34:25
  I've
• 34:26
  only
• 34:26
  had
• 34:26
  three
• 34:27
  people
• 34:27
  visit
• 34:28
  me
• 34:28
  since
• 34:29
  I
• 34:29
  moved,
• 34:30
  and
• 34:30
  none
• 34:30
  of
• 34:30
  them
• 34:31
  were
• 34:31
  from
• 34:31
  Indianapolis.
• 34:32
  One
• 34:32
  of
• 34:33
  them
• 34:33
  was
• 34:33
  my
• 34:33
  cousin
• 34:34
  who
• 34:34
  was
• 34:34
  my
• 34:34
  best
• 34:35
  friend,
• 34:35
  but
• 34:36
  yeah.
• 34:36
  Isn't
• 34:37
  that
• 34:37
  crazy?
• 34:38
  It's
• 34:38
  interesting
• 34:39
  to
• 34:39
  look
• 34:39
  back
• 34:39
  on
• 34:39
  how
• 34:40
  much
• 34:40
  I
• 34:40
  needed
• 34:40
  those
• 34:40
  people
• 34:41
  to
• 34:41
  build
• 34:41
  my
• 34:41
  roots
• 34:42
  and,
• 34:42
  and
• 34:42
  the
• 34:42
  confidence.
• 34:43
  And
• 34:43
  now
• 34:43
  we
• 34:43
  have
• 34:44
  nothing
• 34:44
  in
• 34:44
  common
• 34:45
  anymore.
• 34:45
  It
• 34:45
  doesn't
• 34:46
  make
• 34:46
  any,
• 34:46
  any
• 34:46
  of
• 34:46
  us
• 34:47
  bad
• 34:47
  or,
• 34:48
  or
• 34:48
  anything
• 34:48
  like
• 34:48
  that.
• 34:48
  It
• 34:49
  just
• 34:49
  means
• 34:49
  that
• 34:49
  we
• 34:50
  were
• 34:50
  there
• 34:50
  for
• 34:50
  each
• 34:50
  other
• 34:51
  at
• 34:51
  the
• 34:51
  perfect
• 34:51
  time,
• 34:52
  and
• 34:52
  the
• 34:52
  perfect
• 34:52
  time
• 34:53
  is
• 34:53
  no
• 34:53
  longer
• 34:54
  needed.
• 34:54
  It's
• 34:54
  sad,
• 34:56
  but
• 34:56
  it's
• 34:56
  also
• 34:56
  exciting
• 34:57
  because
• 34:57
  it
• 34:57
  is
• 34:57
  less
• 34:58
  to
• 34:58
  hold
• 34:58
  me
• 34:58
  down
• 34:59
  and
• 34:59
  means
• 34:59
  I
• 35:00
  can
• 35:00
  flourish
• 35:01
  and
• 35:01
  so
• 35:02
  can
• 35:02
  they.
• 35:04
  I
• 35:04
  also
• 35:04
  learned
• 35:04
  what
• 35:04
  true
• 35:05
  brotherhood
• 35:05
  and
• 35:05
  sisterhood
• 35:06
  looks
• 35:06
  like
• 35:06
  for
• 35:07
  the
• 35:07
  first
• 35:07
  time
• 35:07
  this
• 35:08
  month.
• 35:09
  I
• 35:09
  have
• 35:09
  two
• 35:09
  couples
• 35:10
  that
• 35:10
  I
• 35:10
  feel
• 35:10
  like
• 35:10
  are
• 35:10
  my
• 35:10
  brothers
• 35:11
  and
• 35:11
  sisters
• 35:11
  to
• 35:11
  me.
• 35:12
  They
• 35:12
  drove
• 35:13
  two
• 35:13
  hours
• 35:13
  each
• 35:14
  way
• 35:14
  just
• 35:14
  to
• 35:14
  spend
• 35:14
  four
• 35:15
  hours
• 35:15
  with
• 35:15
  me
• 35:15
  and
• 35:15
  my
• 35:15
  husband.
• 35:17
  I
• 35:17
  do
• 35:17
  not
• 35:17
  deserve
• 35:17
  that
• 35:17
  kind
• 35:18
  of
• 35:18
  love.
• 35:19
  And
• 35:19
  honestly,
• 35:20
  I
• 35:20
  don't
• 35:21
  know
• 35:22
  if
• 35:22
  I've
• 35:22
  ever
• 35:22
  had
• 35:22
  that
• 35:23
  kind
• 35:23
  of
• 35:23
  brotherly
• 35:23
  sisterly
• 35:24
  love.
• 35:25
  They
• 35:25
  were
• 35:25
  the
• 35:26
  first
• 35:26
  people
• 35:26
  from
• 35:26
  the
• 35:26
  central
• 35:27
  Indiana
• 35:27
  area
• 35:27
  to
• 35:27
  visit
• 35:28
  me,
• 35:29
  but
• 35:29
  were
• 35:29
  not
• 35:29
  just,
• 35:30
  and
• 35:30
  we
• 35:30
  were
• 35:30
  not
• 35:31
  friends
• 35:31
  before
• 35:32
  I
• 35:32
  move.
• 35:33
  We
• 35:33
  became
• 35:34
  family
• 35:34
  after
• 35:35
  I
• 35:35
  moved
• 35:35
  away.
• 35:36
  While
• 35:36
  2022
• 35:37
  has
• 35:37
  allowed
• 35:37
  me
• 35:37
  to
• 35:37
  see
• 35:37
  Dubai,
• 35:38
  California,
• 35:39
  Florida,
• 35:39
  Hawaii,
• 35:40
  Idaho,
• 35:40
  and
• 35:41
  a
• 35:41
  lot
• 35:41
  of
• 35:41
  growth.
• 35:42
  I
• 35:43
  was
• 35:43
  also
• 35:43
  awoken
• 35:44
  to
• 35:44
  what
• 35:44
  I
• 35:44
  didn't
• 35:45
  get
• 35:45
  to
• 35:45
  see
• 35:45
  much
• 35:45
  of
• 35:46
  my
• 35:46
  kids'
• 35:47
  eyes,
• 35:47
  my
• 35:47
  house
• 35:47
  was
• 35:48
  a
• 35:48
  mess,
• 35:48
  I
• 35:48
  had
• 35:48
  clutter
• 35:49
  everywhere
• 35:50
  and
• 35:50
  I
• 35:50
  was
• 35:50
  always
• 35:50
  behind
• 35:51
  on
• 35:51
  laundry.
• 35:51
  Someone
• 35:51
  was
• 35:52
  always
• 35:52
  needing
• 35:52
  underwear.
• 35:54
  The
• 35:54
  thing
• 35:54
  is,
• 35:55
  if
• 35:55
  I
• 35:55
  didn't
• 35:55
  sit
• 35:56
  to
• 35:56
  reflect
• 35:56
  on
• 35:56
  2022,
• 35:57
  I'd
• 35:57
  have
• 35:57
  missed
• 35:58
  out
• 35:58
  on
• 35:58
  the
• 35:58
  good
• 35:59
  that
• 35:59
  came
• 35:59
  from
• 35:59
  it.
• 36:00
  I'd
• 36:00
  be
• 36:00
  stuck
• 36:00
  on
• 36:00
  the
• 36:01
  negatives
• 36:01
  of
• 36:01
  this
• 36:01
  year
• 36:02
  when
• 36:02
  really
• 36:03
  there
• 36:03
  are
• 36:03
  a
• 36:03
  lot
• 36:03
  of
• 36:04
  exciting
• 36:04
  things
• 36:04
  that
• 36:04
  happened
• 36:05
  and
• 36:05
  things
• 36:06
  that
• 36:06
  need
• 36:06
  to
• 36:06
  carry
• 36:07
  over,
• 36:08
  and
• 36:08
  now
• 36:09
  2023
• 36:10
  is
• 36:10
  set
• 36:10
  for
• 36:10
  intentionality.
• 36:11
  So
• 36:11
  my
• 36:11
  question
• 36:12
  is,
• 36:12
  do
• 36:13
  you
• 36:13
  reflect
• 36:13
  well?
• 36:14
  Do
• 36:14
  you
• 36:14
  have
• 36:15
  a
• 36:15
  system
• 36:15
  in
• 36:15
  place
• 36:15
  to
• 36:15
  support
• 36:16
  you
• 36:16
  in
• 36:16
  your
• 36:16
  endeavors,
• 36:17
  to
• 36:17
  celebrate
• 36:17
  your
• 36:17
  wins,
• 36:18
  your
• 36:18
  breakthroughs,
• 36:19
  and
• 36:19
  to
• 36:19
  sit
• 36:20
  with
• 36:20
  you
• 36:20
  in
• 36:20
  your
• 36:20
  struggles
• 36:21
  and
• 36:21
  lead
• 36:22
  you
• 36:22
  out?
• 36:23
  Here
• 36:23
  at
• 36:23
  Crying
• 36:24
  in
• 36:24
  my
• 36:24
  cheesecake,
• 36:24
  we
• 36:24
  offer
• 36:25
  you
• 36:25
  support
• 36:26
  when
• 36:26
  you
• 36:27
  need
• 36:27
  it
• 36:28
  and
• 36:28
  when
• 36:28
  you
• 36:28
  don't.
• 36:29
  The
• 36:29
  Wilderness
• 36:30
  of
• 36:30
  Wellness
• 36:30
  is
• 36:30
  a
• 36:30
  social
• 36:31
  community
• 36:31
  that
• 36:31
  provides
• 36:32
  you
• 36:32
  all
• 36:32
  you
• 36:33
  need
• 36:33
  when
• 36:33
  it
• 36:33
  comes
• 36:33
  to
• 36:33
  your
• 36:34
  physical,
• 36:34
  mental,
• 36:34
  spiritual,
• 36:35
  and
• 36:35
  emotional
• 36:35
  health.
• 36:36
  Having
• 36:36
  a
• 36:36
  community
• 36:36
  there
• 36:37
  for
• 36:37
  your
• 36:37
  for
• 36:37
  you
• 36:38
  regularly
• 36:38
  with
• 36:38
  live
• 36:39
  meeting.
• 36:40
  With
• 36:40
  practical
• 36:41
  tools,
• 36:42
  with
• 36:42
  a
• 36:42
  team
• 36:43
  surrounding
• 36:44
  you,
• 36:45
  with
• 36:45
  every
• 36:46
  area
• 36:46
  of
• 36:46
  wellness
• 36:47
  addressed,
• 36:48
  this
• 36:48
  is
• 36:48
  what
• 36:49
  that
• 36:49
  community
• 36:50
  is
• 36:50
  for
• 36:50
  you.
• 36:51
  If
• 36:51
  you're
• 36:51
  interested
• 36:52
  in
• 36:52
  learning
• 36:52
  more
• 36:53
  about
• 36:53
  the
• 36:53
  Wilderness
• 36:53
  of
• 36:53
  Wellness
• 36:54
  in
• 36:54
  this
• 36:54
  community
• 36:54
  that
• 36:55
  we
• 36:55
  provide,
• 36:55
  that
• 36:55
  we're
• 36:56
  constantly
• 36:56
  bettering
• 36:56
  each
• 36:57
  other.
• 36:57
  We're
• 36:57
  constantly
• 36:58
  talking
• 36:58
  about
• 36:58
  our
• 36:58
  goals.
• 36:58
  We're
• 36:59
  constantly
• 36:59
  being
• 36:59
  authentic
• 37:00
  and
• 37:00
  vulnerable
• 37:01
  and
• 37:01
  peeling
• 37:01
  away
• 37:01
  the
• 37:02
  onion.
• 37:02
  Then
• 37:02
  look
• 37:03
  at
• 37:03
  the
• 37:03
  links
• 37:03
  below
• 37:04
  in
• 37:04
  the
• 37:04
  show
• 37:04
  notes,
• 37:05
  and
• 37:05
  you
• 37:05
  can
• 37:05
  check
• 37:05
  that
• 37:05
  out
• 37:06
  there.
• 37:06
  Or
• 37:06
  just
• 37:06
  go
• 37:06
  to
• 37:06
  cryinginmycheesecake.com
• 37:08
  and
• 37:08
  check
• 37:09
  that
• 37:09
  out.
• 37:09
  The
• 37:09
  website
• 37:09
  at
• 37:10
  this
• 37:10
  time
• 37:10
  of
• 37:10
  recording
• 37:11
  is
• 37:11
  currently
• 37:11
  being
• 37:11
  updated,
• 37:12
  so
• 37:12
  I'm
• 37:12
  not
• 37:12
  sure
• 37:13
  if
• 37:13
  it'll
• 37:13
  all
• 37:13
  be
• 37:13
  the
• 37:13
  same.
• 37:14
  So
• 37:14
  we
• 37:14
  also
• 37:15
  have
• 37:15
  a
• 37:15
  high
• 37:15
  level.
• 37:16
  So
• 37:16
  option
• 37:17
  one
• 37:17
  is
• 37:17
  the
• 37:17
  wilderness
• 37:18
  of
• 37:18
  wellness.
• 37:19
  Walking
• 37:19
  into
• 37:19
  that
• 37:19
  wilderness
• 37:20
  is
• 37:20
  kind
• 37:21
  of
• 37:21
  scary
• 37:21
  sometimes
• 37:21
  and
• 37:22
  kind
• 37:22
  of
• 37:22
  lonely.
• 37:22
  But
• 37:23
  when
• 37:23
  you
• 37:23
  get
• 37:23
  inside,
• 37:23
  we've
• 37:24
  got
• 37:24
  your
• 37:24
  hands
• 37:25
  and
• 37:25
  we
• 37:25
  will,
• 37:25
  we
• 37:25
  will
• 37:25
  walk
• 37:26
  alongside
• 37:26
  you.
• 37:27
  We
• 37:27
  also
• 37:27
  have
• 37:27
  a
• 37:28
  high
• 37:28
  level,
• 37:29
  secondly,
• 37:29
  a,
• 37:29
  a
• 37:29
  high
• 37:30
  level
• 37:30
  intensive
• 37:31
  support
• 37:31
  package
• 37:32
  specifically
• 37:32
  for
• 37:32
  your
• 37:33
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