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The Journey of a New Mom in Hollywood with Rachel Rosenbloom · Mommywood

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Welcome back to Mommy Wood, the podcast where we dive into the
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wild, beautiful and sometimes completely crazy world of being
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both a mom and a performer. I am your host Emily, and if
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you've ever found yourself running on coffee, passion, and
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the sheer willpower of a sleep deprived parent then you are in
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the right place. On this week's episode of Mommy
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Would. I'm so excited to have the
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opportunity to sit down and chat with a Rachel Rosenbloom.
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She is an actor, a voice over artist, coach, and a new mom to
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a six month old baby girl. You may know Rachel as the
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series regular on Good Trouble. You will probably also be seeing
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her soon. She's also in a little show,
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maybe you've heard of it, called Nobody Wants This on Netflix
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with Kristen Bell and Adam Brody, unless you're living
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under a rock. You also might see her on
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Apple's Platonic playing the role of Jenna alongside Seth
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Rogen and Rose Byrne. So Needless to say, Rachel is
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killing it. So it was so great to sit down
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and talk to her about how she is doing all this and being now a
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brand new mom. So talking about the
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juxtaposition of all of that and that whirlwind, we talk about
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what it's like to step into motherhood while keeping a
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thriving creative career going. We talk about the honest
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adjustments that really nobody told you about and the moments
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of joy that really make it all worth it.
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They really do somehow. So I know you were going to
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enjoy this episode of Mommy Wood with the Rachel Rosenblum.
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Rachel, thank you so much for being here.
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Having me. You are running on very little
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sleep. Yeah, baby.
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Yeah, though I'm not crazy about the word regression.
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That's where we are. Yeah, I've got she's in a growth
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spurt. She's a growth spurt.
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There you go. She probably learned a new
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talent. Definitely.
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And that talent is being awake. I've learned that I can do all
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this. So you're originally from
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Boston? I'm actually from Wisconsin, I
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went to school in Boston. Wisconsin.
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Yeah, yeah. Which was Curly.
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Yeah, I heard that. First Oh yeah, and I was just
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home seeing my mom, so it's it gets bad.
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Yeah. Yeah, but I did go to school in
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Boston. School in Boston.
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Gotcha. So what?
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When did you move out to LA? I, I went to Emerson, I went, I
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actually have AI graduated with a theatre education degree and
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so I stayed after I graduated to student Teach First semester.
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And even though a lot of Emersonians come to LA, there's
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like an LA program at La campus here and stuff.
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I did not do that because I wanted to teach and and then I
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kind of followed a, a boyfriend I had at the time up to Vermont
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for a year. It was like I just needed to get
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out of Boston. It was very like burned out post
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school. Yeah, it's beautiful lioness.
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Montpelier it was most like beautiful summer of my life.
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But I, But while I was there, I think it was life kind of
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flashed before my eyes like, do I want to be, do I want to be
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teaching 3rd grade right now and name my children Rosemary and
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Sage And you know, like, like at 23 or 22 or whatever.
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And I was like, I got to get out of here.
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And it was far more dramatic than that.
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And so I, I had visited my friends who had done the LA
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program out here. And so I came in and moved.
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Yeah. I was just like, I don't, I
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don't know what it was in me. That was just like, I miss
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acting. I think when I was in school, I.
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Wasn't teaching to more performing and auditioning then?
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Yeah. In school I was like, I was in
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AI, liked Emerson 'cause it like you, you had to audition to be
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in the program no matter what. Even if you were ABA, it wasn't
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just like a BFA. And then like Peter Studies,
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like I had to audition and I would be taking classes with
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other acting majors. But then at your two after your
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sophomore year, they they split. And so the BF as go re audition
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and they do the Conservatory. And then there's this like the
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people who were the acting majors have to pick a second
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emphasis. And I went full force into
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theater education. Yeah, not thinking of it as a
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backup, but just thinking of it as this, this piece of advice
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that I hate that they go. If you could see yourself doing
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anything else, you should do that.
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Me too advice. Me too, but I was like, well
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can't we all? Yeah, we have.
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Imaginations. Isn't that the whole?
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And that's why I, when I auditioned for the school, I,
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Ken Cheesman, professor and wonderful actor, had said, I
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remember he said to me, he was like, why didn't you do the BFA
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program? I'm just curious, you know, why
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didn't you audition with the BFA?
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And I was like, well, because I can see myself doing a lot of
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things. I like a lot of things.
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And so I did the year education. Yeah.
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But yeah, when I some somewhere in Vermont, I I think I was just
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burned out. I was burned out from teaching.
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I was burned out from, I was substitute teaching like full
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time. They were just, I was like long
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term sub in like a third grade in Montpelier, Vt.
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I was really like kind. Of.
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Stuck in this like, is this what my life is?
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And it just didn't feel right. And the last thing I remembered
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I like, it's not this is not a long time ago.
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So I was like, what did I feel was I had done some student
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films and I love doing that. It felt it felt like summer
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camp. It felt like we were all making
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this story together and like. You.
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Know and everybody and everybody had their little part to play
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like we were all these little gears in this little machine.
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And even though I didn't see myself as like AI was, I didn't
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really see myself as like a, an actor in the, in the sense that
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like my BFA counterparts, I always was like, oh, they're
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actors. I I just like it.
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It was like it was like they're the leads.
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I just, I just like it, you know, I'm just having fun.
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Yeah. I was like, I was never the lead
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of the player. I just was like I was just in
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it. So which I didn't at the time
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consider maybe as big as it was, you know, I would tell my I
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would maybe down tell my younger self, like, kid, you got in.
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That's a big deal. Yeah, doesn't matter.
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You didn't get the lead. I was like, I was never the
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lead. I was just.
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But I've always managed to get in there.
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Yeah. So and I think that served me
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really well moving out here because it was like, I know some
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people who had those, like they were always the lead of their
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play. Yeah, they come out and they're
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like, I'm the lead. And I was like, oh, I didn't.
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Oh, my self esteem was. Yeah.
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And then you're like, Oh well, I'm, I'm prepared.
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Now, Yeah, yeah, when they were like, it's not personal and I
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was like, don't worry, it could be I to where I'm beating myself
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already. It's not bringing.
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It to me it's it's totally fine. I'm totally fine.
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So did you meet your husband when you came out here?
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I. Did.
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Yeah. He's also Emerson, but we didn't
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know each other there. Oh my gosh, in the world.
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Yeah, yeah. There's such change.
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It was like through mutual friends.
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Yeah, we always see we got in like right before the online
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dating. How about you guys?
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Oh yeah, we we also random. It was very random, a mutual
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friend, but like so distant for both of us, like it was
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definitely meant to be the way we met because it it's very
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strange how we met or not strange how we met, but the fact
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that we met through this person. But but yeah, we've been
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together. I met him like a couple months
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after I moved out here 2012. Yeah, OK.
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Yeah, we're about to say. Yeah, Oh my gosh.
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We got a very similar, Yeah. It was back when, like, people
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were online dating, but it was just like OkCupid.
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And it was sort of like, is this OK?
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We don't know. Yeah.
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Yeah. Now we're like commit online.
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I'm like, yeah, of course that's now it's normal.
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But at the time it was like the only ones were like eHarmony.
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Yeah, if you're like meet in person, who how where are you
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meeting? So did you guys like know that
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you wanted kids or was it like a a surprise?
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Oh, we should also mention you. You have one, lovely.
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Daughter. I have a daughter.
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She is five months old. Reya Reya.
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Reya. I say like, like via Pearlman,
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though not named after her. Will she be short?
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Probably. Of curly hair and Jewish and
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funny? Yeah.
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The answer is yes. Perfect, one would assume, as
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both my husband and I are who are funny.
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And well, we we think so, though she doesn't.
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We really. She hasn't laughed a lot yet.
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And we think, is this us? Is this the universe actually
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telling us that we're not funny? No, it's not like that.
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No, it's like. Turns out, as it turns out,
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we're not that funny. I feel like we it's like a.
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While to get some laughs. And then my daughter.
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Moser laughs at herself more than anything.
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But yeah, she's got her first little joke where she kind of
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like looks side eye and is like, I can eat your nose and it's a
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little like I've got a funny thing.
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It's very cute. But yes, did you guys know that
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you? Wanted kids or like, are were
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you one of those people who like dreamed of my family or were you
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like? Here's the thing.
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When I was young, yes, like I was like when people would ask,
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I was like, what do you want, kids?
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I was like, Oh, yes, I'm a, I'm the second of four kids.
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We're very spread out. So it was sort of like I raised
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my, my little sister. She's 11 years younger.
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I always feel like my older sister kind of raised a bit me
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and my brother. And then I really raised Lily,
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my little sister, and. That worked out the nature of
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the. Time and Alice said she just
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wanted one in diapers at a time and it worked out.
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And I always babysat and I'm such a kid person and I have an
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education degree. It's like I kids were always in
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like well, and kids seem to make sense to me.
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And I was a nanny full time when I moved out here.
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And I've been so many people's first babysitter that in my
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brain, I think there was always this like we advocate, we
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advocate. And, and I know Rob and I had my
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husband, Rob and I had, we, we talked about it, But for a long
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time, for many years, I feel like we've there was sort of
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this like daily, I don't know. And like, do we want to upend
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our lives? It was just like, do we want to
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upend our lives? And it was like, I don't know,
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actually. And my husband after the
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pandemic, got this opportunity to work in Amsterdam.
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So he was there for two years and went back and forth.
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I was here working on good trouble.
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And so there was also in the world, why didn't your parents?
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And so people were like, why didn't you move?
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And I was like, well, because I had this gig.
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It was you're not as of course, you know, like and my community
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and like my, my our friends and our friends are.
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I feel like out here, your friends are everything great
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because your friends are your family.
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We don't have family out here. And kids did feel more distant.
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There were several years where we were kind of really on the
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fence about it, I think especially with, you know,
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climate change, like, you know what I mean?
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Like I was like, yeah, the I was like the politics with the
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world. The I was like, this is
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ethically I kept, I kept kind of going to this.
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Like, it's not ethical. Yeah, but like I was going
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through this like moral dilemma. Not to mention the money which
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the whole other. Thing.
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My, my new thing is like, listen, if you are so privileged
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that you have either family money or you got family or
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you're from here, you got family in town because people get a
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little embarrassed if they have it.
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I'm like, enjoy it, Enjoy that privilege, my love, like all
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more power to you. I like, I, I want that for all
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of us. We still have it despite our
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many privileges that we've been allotted and and that kind of
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thing. We have plenty of privileges.
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Family money is not. It's like, so I think there was
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a lot of logistics too, just like when are we going to, when
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are we going to do this? And our, our fear kind of got,
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it's almost better of me for a long time and we're both really
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nervous about it. And so it was very long winded.
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But ultimately, I think while Rob was working in Europe and we
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were going back and forth. It's like it really gave me a
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lot of time alone in a way that I've never had.
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And it's wild that that time alone and kind of exploring like
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needs versus wants, right? I very much was raised in a
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family that's like, you don't and it's I feel like it's so
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Midwest. You don't say what you need ever
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unless it's unless you're like you're dying, right?
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You know, you don't ask for a glass of water unless you're
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dying of thirst. The idea would be like, Hey,
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would you like something to drink?
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Like in the Midwest be like, Oh, no, I'm good.
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Oh, no, I'm good. No, no, I'm good.
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It's like, you could literally be so thirsty and you wouldn't
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say that unless you're like, you know, I just came in from mowing
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the lawn and I'm dying from thirst.
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And then you would ask and like I especially doing long distance
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and we had to work on our communications so much and, and
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we would reunite and it would be everyone's like, Oh my God,
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isn't so amazing. You get to go see Rob and then
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you just have the best time. And it's like there's a weird
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transition where we have to reunite and then a weird
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transition where we have to protect ourselves and go be solo
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again and do that over and over and over and over and over.
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And I. Were you already married by the
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time he OK? Yeah.
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Yeah, yeah, we'd and we'd been together for, I don't know, a
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dozen years. Yeah.
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No. Or 10:10 because now it's a
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dozen. Now it's about a dozen.
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Yeah. It was like 8 years.
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I think 8 years around was around 8 years.
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Yeah. You know, I'm always like, yeah,
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I've been doing this for 15 years.
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I was like, no, you have. September will be my 15 in LA.
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That's crazy, right? Yeah.
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Maybe. No, if it's 14 or somewhere
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around there. Yeah.
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Yeah. So somewhere between we'll get a
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fact checker. Yeah.
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Yeah. Oh, Lord.
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But yeah, I really do think it was during that time that was
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sort of like, I can have. It was just like, I can have
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things that I want. And I really want a kid and I
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really want a kid with you. And.
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And then once he got back, he was unemployed for a long time
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because he couldn't. The job that took him there
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couldn't transfer back is a whole mess.
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Yeah. No, you're good.
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Actually, I'm gonna pause there 'cause I have a fear that we've
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stopped. Recording.
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You didn't. OK, gorgeous, let me put this
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on. No, you're good.
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We got babies. We.
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Need to he can get through. The desk to start with, he's too
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good. So you're like, I want a baby
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and I want one with you. My.
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Baby want to be with you. And he came back and he was
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unemployed and. And 'cause it was, he had come
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back and it was. He's also an entertainment, but
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not a performer. And he's more studio sag, Yeah.
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Right, 'cause he has like a full time and it's.
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New yeah. And so without that, he was sort
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of, I think there was this like also this chatter of like, well,
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we don't want to start trying till, till I get a job till but
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but that also helped me go wait a minute.
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We're under SAG health insurance right now.
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And I am one of these gifted people that is that currently
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qualified. I was like, talk about privilege
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that it was this like, and I remember getting like paid for a
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voice over gig that then pushed us so that we would have health
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insurance through the end of like 2025.
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And this was, you know, before I got pregnant.
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So 20, I don't know. It was around 20, the beginning
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of 2024. And and I kind of was like, hey,
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I know we want to wait. Yeah, I was like, I know we want
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to wait for you. And, and, and, and people always
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treat acting in, in the entertainment as like, so like
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as so fickle and so unreliable. But I was like, but I actually
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have this talk about it was like, yeah, this privilege.
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It was like, I have this beautiful nugget of health
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insurance that will get us through to the end of 2025
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guaranteed. Let's see if we can do this.
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And if we encounter troubles again, we also got extremely
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lucky getting pregnant. I like, you know, pretty pretty.
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Quickly like. And it worked.
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And it's sticking, too. I was very.
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Yeah. I mean, I was cracking jokes for
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the first several months about, you know, like, I was like, my
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body, my choice. You know, we don't have to keep
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this, you know, like, I would kind of turn it over and I'd be
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like, just so, you know, still early.
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We could, we could jump ship. You know, some people did not
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think that was funny. Yeah, sure.
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But I had a good time. And.
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And I think it was my way of protecting myself, too.
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You know it was. Like, I mean, that's, that's
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fear we got to do. What we got to do to protect our
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minds? In the situation because you
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know what is it one of three or yeah aren't crazy or it's like,
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oh, I was pregnancy. Loss so I just it's only my
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friends had so I was just very like I'm just going to kind of
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keep my arms length. I'm also superstitious.
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I don't know. I think it's cultural.
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I was always like did. You have like your family.
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Did you ever feel like pressure from your family since like
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being in the Midwest? Were they always like?
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Were they ever like there was an?
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Assumption that I would have a kid.
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For sure. Yeah.
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But they weren't like, there was no like pressuring of that.
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Not too much. Because both my parents are
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warriors and I know, I think my mom knew I would like, knew I
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would get there. And my dad, I think was also
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like is such a realist and a reverse.
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And he would be like, well, yeah, the money.
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And obviously, you know, like, I can understand why you wouldn't
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want to. But he was very encouraging.
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I mean, he was very much, my dad was very much like, it's not
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stopping other people like, like the state of the world.
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So he was a little bit like, you're a good person.
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You shouldn't. Get, you know, Yeah, yeah,
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right. He has like more good people
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should have kids and maybe. Yeah.
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Things that was sort. Of his.
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I remember him kind of giving me a pep talk about it at one point
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when I was on the fence. Yeah.
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So what was your reaction then when you found out you were
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pregnant of like and how did you being superstitious, did you
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keep it to yourself for a while or like like we.
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Told reps or yeah we I found out while I was back home in the
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Midwest. I had been shooting this little
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indie pilot in Minnesota and then, and then I went to
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Wisconsin and my mom lives on a farm and has these big dogs and
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my husband's really, really allergic.
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So when we go there, we now stay at a hotel really close by to
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her. If, if, if he's with me, if I'm
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not, I'll stay there. But so we were at this hotel and
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I had all those like, you know, those pee strips and stuff.
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And I was just like, I had just like taken 1 and I was like, oh
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shit, it's, oh, it's positive. Like it was just such a like, it
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was sort of like a nod event. And I was like.
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Yeah. Oh, babe, I'm so sorry.
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Like, well, you probably just weren't like, I wasn't saying
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it. Yeah, 'cause I was like, oh, I
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really need my throat, you know, like I was kind of feeling, I
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was like a little crampy. Like I did not, I didn't, you
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know, my lips didn't hurt. I didn't have, like, I wasn't
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nauseous, any of those things that you kind of think.
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And so when it came up positive, I was like.
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What? Let me and So what was really
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cool was my one of my childhood best friends like came to the
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farm to like meet us for brunch. And then I was like, I was like,
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it's really, do you wanna come just like see me at Walgreens
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with me and Rob, We're gonna go get like a real pregnancy, some
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real pregnancy tests and come back hotel.
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There was something about it felt like we were, I don't know,
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we were 15 buying hair. Yeah.
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And then she was like, is it okay?
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But I'm here and we're like, and we were both.
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It's really nice that you're here.
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She has two kids who are much older.
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So that was also nice to kind of be like.
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Able to ask her some other questions and like we were like
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this is normal. Is this happening?
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What did I what do we do who who can we tell what did we like in
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in leaning on her? And I know Rob appreciated that
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too because she kept being like, do you guys want to do this
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privately? Yeah, right.
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I'm sure we're like. You know, we're anxious people.
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We'd prefer. Yeah, we'd.
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Prefer you there, so sorry. You're good girl, you have a 5
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month old. Yeah.
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I no apologies. Well, that's nice that you had
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that you had. I like to I was you forgot the
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same where I was like, wait, what?
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Wait, what? I because I also was very, very
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lucky. The first pregnancy I ever took
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in my life was positive and I was like, but I was like, I
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didn't. I took it like it was the first
20:57
time we tried. It was the first.
20:59
It was like the day after my missed period and I was like, I
21:04
don't know, it's like a day. But I always see the videos of
21:09
people like, yeah, and then waiting.
21:13
What were you waiting for? Mine said right away.
21:15
Mine said like. Like like this COVID test when
21:18
you were like, oh. Yeah, you know, and it was like.
21:20
But you think I'm positive Like no, no, when you're positive,
21:23
it's. Like it's like, yeah, but I.
21:24
Was like, yeah, my pregnancy test was like like a COVID test.
21:29
Like just right away. Oh shit.
21:32
OK. Yeah, I have the same.
21:34
I was like, oh, I wish I would have like.
21:36
I know there was some thought. About this, 'cause I see people
21:38
have these like videos of the whole thing and I was just like,
21:42
Oh my God, yeah, no idea. So you worked while you were.
21:49
Pregnant. I did, I did quite a bit, Yeah.
21:51
When you're like, what did you do when you found out you were
21:53
pregnant? It was this kind of wild.
21:55
I started doing the math. It's kind of.
21:59
I was so like, he didn't know that I was shooting Season 2 of
22:03
Platonic and I had like just gotten my dates, which was like
22:09
they were going to kind of be blocked shooting the whole
22:11
season. So it might be needed at any
22:13
given time between like August and October.
22:15
Yeah, because I was going to ask because I feel like that full.
22:17
Trimester. And then also she must have
22:20
been. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
22:22
And Oh yeah, there were definitely some.
22:24
Platonic Apple TV. Platonic Apple TV season 2 I'm
22:29
also at the end of season 1, but season 2 is where it gets juicy
22:34
and. So you were doing the math,
22:38
found the math, you were like. How you were gonna will I be
22:41
while I'm shooting this show? How far ahead did you know that
22:44
you were gonna be shooting? That like, oh, OK, we'd been
22:49
waiting like once there was like a season 2 that there was season
22:53
2. Gotcha.
22:53
Because originally it was like supposed to be a limited like
22:57
anthology series. Yeah.
22:58
And so when I got cast, it was like, oh, I got cast this cute
23:01
little 2 episode guest star, which was amazing for me.
23:03
I mean, truly mind blowing. Yeah, that's a whole other
23:06
story. I was in Amsterdam.
23:07
I auditioned from Amsterdam visit while I was visiting.
23:09
Rob flew back for it. That was still COVID.
23:12
I was like, yeah, flew on a Saturday, got to cope this on a
23:15
Monday, got a fitting on a Monday, and then we're shooting
23:18
on a Tuesday. And then we shut down for two
23:19
weeks because of COVID. So I hung out here, you know,
23:21
like it was wild. But so that in of itself was a
23:24
wild thing. But this one was we're just sort
23:27
of, you know, you're just waiting.
23:29
No, like sort of like it's nobody's fault.
23:33
But I was really, you know, I'm. Not I wasn't.
23:36
I know I I. Said this with like love for
23:37
myself. I wasn't important to know to,
23:39
you know, way out. You know what I mean?
23:41
Like though, but yeah, I know, I guess like kind of I feel like
23:44
when you're and. Then how pregnant?
23:46
How pregnant? Were you and was I when we
23:47
finished? I was what, four or five months?
23:51
I mean I was showing. OK, and what was that like?
23:55
So I. Or did.
23:56
You tell wardrobe, OK? Wardrobe was who I told right
23:59
away. Yeah, and I told wardrobe like I
24:01
think before I told my dad, because we were still at that
24:05
like. You knew?
24:06
Yeah. Yeah, my, my, my might.
24:09
Need to be a little bit. I feel like all my close friends
24:11
knew early on because I'm so I hate the don't tell people that
24:16
you're pregnant because it's like I'm then you're.
24:18
Alone in this situation it yeah tell.
24:20
The people in my life, I want to know what's going on with us and
24:24
what's going on with me. And then if something, if it
24:26
doesn't work out, then those are the people that we want
24:30
fireside, you know, for sure. But I hadn't like I hadn't tell
24:36
some of my family because I didn't want to get their hopes
24:38
up. And you know, it was a little
24:39
bit more like I don't I would maybe tell them after the fact
24:42
if it didn't work out, but I was like, maybe I won't.
24:46
I don't want us to get too ahead of ourselves.
24:48
And but I told wardrobe right away.
24:54
Our amazing like costume designer Candy Lennox, who's
24:56
currently noted for an Emmy for the studio.
24:58
She's mind blowing. Oh my God I just finished that
25:02
show. So good too.
25:03
So good. So good.
25:05
And they, that whole crew had just come off of shooting in the
25:08
studio and then was coming up to shoot platonic.
25:10
And I told her right away. And I remember she went Rachel,
25:14
if you knew how many people don't tell me, but it's like, I
25:18
know she was a mom too. She's a mom too.
25:19
So she just was like, she's like wardrobe.
25:21
No, she was like, is this weird? Like, why are you hiding it?
25:25
But the fact that I told them up front was she also immediately
25:28
started doing the math. She was like, OK, so how many
25:29
weeks are you OK? And she had a kid herself, too.
25:31
So she was like, OK, so I was like, will I be showing?
25:33
I don't know how this works. And she was like, you probably
25:35
will by the end. And she's like, OK, let's see,
25:38
we're probably shooting this episode this time.
25:39
And so she was like, you know what?
25:41
So we'll just get multiple sizes of this.
25:43
Wardrobe. This piece, this piece, this
25:45
piece. And so that's how we did it and
25:47
I but she was like, so. Yeah, great.
25:49
I hope she was pretty bad. Yeah, I think so.
25:50
Ahead of time. Exactly.
25:52
Like nobody was scrambling or being like cool, that was a.
25:55
Story Birch from last. Season for your golf outfit and
25:58
now we can't get it anymore. So I think that was the other
26:00
thing is like being able to tell them wasn't just helpful was
26:05
helpful so that like they had the opportunity to go get.
26:07
Yeah, what they needed to. And then I didn't deal anybody
26:12
else. Well, I told my makeup artist
26:15
knew she like kind of. I told her.
26:16
And she was. Like I'm sitting.
26:17
Here too, which I also I feel like it was like the people who
26:21
I told her her parents were like we knew but I was sitting in
26:26
her. Makeup chair every you.
26:27
Know every time I was there and she was kind of seeing me like,
26:30
you know, so of course she's like, yeah, I figured you were
26:33
pregnant. And we'd talked about people who
26:35
had asked if I wanted kids and because that just comes up.
26:38
I'm 36. It's like also I, I, I have a
26:44
tendency to ask, but I'm like, oh, do you have kids?
26:46
You know, like I get very I love.
26:47
Kids and so. It's something that I feel
26:49
comfortable talking about to you.
26:50
And so it would always come back, like, oh, do you guys have
26:52
kids? Oh, do you want kids?
26:53
And he'd be like, my response was always, we're working on it.
26:56
All right, Matt. Where?
26:58
Where's he? Yeah, well, yeah, so.
27:02
But then, yeah, I told everybody at the by the end of production,
27:05
everybody knew, yeah. That's so excited.
27:08
Did that make you feel well, I guess coming off of 'cause you
27:13
were had long run on good trouble.
27:17
So did you feel did that help you like as an actor having
27:23
kids? Did that help you be like, OK, I
27:27
feel secure ish in my career or like 'cause?
27:33
It. Cause seeing it, it's like, oh,
27:36
she's like from the outside. I'm like, oh, she's, she's, she
27:41
must feel secure. And like I.
27:44
Get. It, you know, yeah, I what was
27:46
nice was like I felt secure in the same way I felt secure about
27:50
like, OK, we have health insurance, right, Right.
27:53
It was like we have this window and having platonic felt like
27:56
this. I mean, it felt like a gift for
27:58
a million reasons. But if we're really talking just
27:59
like mommy would reasons, right? True mommy would reasons.
28:04
I felt secure to have a job doing something I love working,
28:10
working my butt off. I, I everyone keeps asking like
28:14
if I was nervous and I was like, oh, I was so nervous.
28:15
But my teacher John Rosenfeld gave me the best reframe, which
28:21
was he was like, Rachel, you're nervous because you care.
28:24
And so every time I'd get really nervous, I'd be like.
28:26
I care a lot. A lot.
28:28
I care so much. And so it's like, was it fun?
28:30
And it was like, it was fun and I cared so much.
28:34
Yeah. So this would be nerve.
28:37
Wracking. It's a big.
28:39
Yeah, it was, it was and, and I had fun, of course I had fun.
28:43
It was, you know, but it was like first and foremost was that
28:46
feeling of I care so much and I, I want to do everything I can to
28:51
put this put this puzzle together as my part of the
28:54
puzzle anyway for these extraordinary people, to keep
28:59
the the game analogy going for the extraordinary people who
29:01
build puzzles all the time. But I did feel like it was like
29:07
that feeling of like, OK, I feel secure in that I have this
29:10
thing. Yeah, while I'm pregnant.
29:12
And so it did it. I feel like it took off.
29:16
It took off me feeling like I need to book work.
29:19
I need to book work. After that was done, though, I
29:23
still I was teaching at John Rosenfeld Studios.
29:26
Oh, OK. Yeah.
29:27
I was going to ask if you was like, I teach, I coach.
29:30
Gotcha. Yeah.
29:31
I do some e-mail like marketing. I've always had a side.
29:34
I've always had a side hustle. I'm such a believer in Inside.
29:37
Hustles. My friends who don't have them,
29:40
who have been, again, amazing to be able to live off their
29:44
acting, which I I could have been some little moments.
29:47
Yeah, I never let go of those, sometimes to my detriment.
29:50
I think it's like I'm like overdoing it.
29:53
I'm like sitting in my trailer being like I'm just working on
29:55
this MailChimp one SEC, you know, trying to navigate all of
29:59
the little jobs. But but ultimately, I'm so
30:04
grateful I have them because it's it has felt like I have
30:06
some a little safety. Yeah.
30:08
Did you find that that anything changed for you when it came to
30:14
like auditioning, like while you're pregnant or since you've
30:20
had her? Have you been auditioning since
30:22
you've had her? Because you're still still
30:26
suffice. Yeah.
30:28
I so I do voice over and I've been doing voice over for many
30:33
years now. Yeah.
30:34
So that was the thing I was holding on to while I was
30:36
really, really pregnant. Even though like, like when kind
30:39
of theatrical, I was like, I couldn't hide it anymore.
30:42
You know, it was like, right, And we're going out for like a
30:44
commercial where I was like, OK, I have this big blazer on and I
30:48
can't tell that I'm pregnant from the front.
30:50
And it was like, what if I turned sideways and.
30:52
Can really see you and. Then I had AI had a very rough
30:56
third trimester. I had cholostasis of the liver,
31:00
the liver condition, but I did not know about it's genetic man.
31:05
I didn't know Brandon, my family anyway, it's I had itchy hands
31:08
and feet, especially at night, and it was such a bizarre
31:12
specific symptom. I immediately Googled it and it
31:14
was like liver issue. And I was like, OK, well, let's
31:17
not rely on Google. Call my doctor the next morning
31:19
and he was like, you have a liver condition?
31:22
And I was like, oh, hi. It was so specific.
31:24
There was basically there was bile in my blood and it's like
31:28
having a mosquito bite on the inside.
31:31
It was. Atrocious.
31:33
Awful. I slept more during the newborn
31:35
phase than I did during my last trimester.
31:38
I was more comfortable in the new form of days than I was
31:42
during my last trimester. So during the third trimester,
31:44
at one point, Rob sees me get out of the voiceover booth after
31:49
like spending an hour. I was like shaking because I,
31:51
he's itchy and so unheardable. Spending an hour on something
31:55
that normally would have taken me 15 minutes.
31:57
Oh God. And he's like, what are you
31:59
doing? And I was like, I just, you
32:01
know, I just, I just, I got this good game.
32:03
I just wanted to get, I just want to get that audition.
32:05
And he's like, Can you imagine if you booked that job right
32:08
now? And I was like, right, I'll send
32:12
my agents an e-mail. And they were so supportive.
32:14
They were like, of course, Rachel, take care of yourself.
32:16
Oh my God. Like.
32:17
You know, we're sending our best like they were so.
32:20
I feel like we put so much pressure on our cells.
32:22
I can do this. It's like.
32:24
People are like. This is rude, no?
32:26
For the love of God, please take care.
32:28
Of yourself, yeah. So I but I went back to Vio a
32:31
few months ago. OK.
32:32
And what's the 1st that has felt a couple months felt a little
32:38
insane 'cause it's like sneaking in, doing it, sneaking in after
32:44
bedtime, which changes all the time.
32:46
I'm like, it really feels like, oh, Rachel's career aspirations
32:50
are at the bottom of the totem pole.
32:52
Not because my husband's doing anything wrong, but it's like he
32:54
has nine to five hours that are not movable in the same way.
32:57
This is this sort of movable thing and like.
33:04
And what made you feel like you were ready to like, I mean, I
33:08
guess besides I missed it financially.
33:10
Oh OK, I missed it. That's nice, I missed it.
33:14
I and I currently miss acting so much.
33:18
I'd been in an acting class both as a student and a teacher.
33:22
Well, as a teacher for many for a handful of years, but as a
33:24
student pretty much consistently taking a few months off the
33:28
holidays and blah blah blah for the past 10 years.
33:30
Yeah. And that they always say like,
33:33
how much are you acting during the week?
33:35
And I, whether or not I was on set, even when I would be on set
33:38
for good trouble, I remember like say to my classmates, I was
33:41
like, I miss class. And they were like, what are you
33:43
talking about? You're on set.
33:44
I miss, I miss being in the lead with you guys.
33:46
I miss doing, you know, being a being a coaster against her is
33:52
an amazing, amazing privilege and a gift and saying one line
33:59
over the course of 12 hours, it isn't going to fulfill your
34:02
creative like ability to like connect with another human the
34:06
same way that like doing a full scene or doing several scenes or
34:09
watch other. People.
34:10
Connect or work, rehearse and all that stuff.
34:12
It's like that's the goods. So but VO felt like this thing I
34:17
could return to first because no matter what I look like, you
34:23
know how my body felt. It's like, let me see if I and
34:26
it was almost this like, let me see if I can do it.
34:29
Yeah. And now a few months in, I
34:30
actually just booked a little commercial this week and I was
34:33
able to record that in my agents in their booth, which is so
34:39
there's. I love them so much and.
34:43
Oh. They have a booth.
34:45
They have a booth. I do auditions at home, yet like
34:49
the fact I'd never done, I'd never done a job that they were
34:51
like, you can come to use our booth and I was like, yeah.
34:53
I can. I love you.
34:54
Because I was, it was that like how long I get up with the baby
34:56
and like, I keep her quiet and trying to figure this out and
34:59
they're all so supportive and yeah, they got up here.
35:03
Quiet, yeah. Yeah, So yeah, VO has felt now.
35:09
Now VO feels good. And even though I'm tired and
35:12
I'll finish the day and I'm like, I got to be able to do.
35:14
And I'm like, oh, wait, let me do this.
35:16
Wait, let me do this. Like it's fun.
35:18
I like it. And I just went back to
35:19
commercials. Yeah, I'm going to tell you
35:21
right now, we're in the messy middle of commercials.
35:23
I taped a couple. I had my first call back, but
35:26
I've taped A handful and they it's like we just moved.
35:31
My taping setup doesn't feel right yet.
35:32
I don't really have a rhythm of doing the hair and the makeup.
35:35
Yeah. Like I did pre.
35:36
You're in the growing. Growing pains.
35:38
Yeah, it feels like I'm back. To, you know, when you first
35:42
move out here, we first start doing self tapes and every time
35:44
you get one you're like, oh God, how what am I going to do?
35:46
Where am I going to go? I don't have a set up yet.
35:48
It. Kind of feels like I'm back in
35:50
that feeling. Yeah.
35:52
Even though I'm like I know what to.
35:54
Do I get that? Yeah, yeah, that.
35:57
Feels like being a mom now. It's like everything feels.
36:00
Well, everything is constantly changing the sleep schedule.
36:05
Then it's like once you figure something out, then something
36:08
else changes. And then it's like, oh, I can't
36:11
self tape in her room now because now she's in her room
36:14
and now I have to have a self tape in the living room and now
36:18
I have to. But now she's sleeping this
36:20
time. It's like we've gone backwards
36:22
to where we were like at the beginning of our careers when we
36:24
didn't have those things figured out.
36:25
Yeah, that's what. Yeah, that's what momming and
36:28
auditioning I feel like, but I haven't heard.
36:31
I have not auditioned actually yet.
36:34
And it's sort of my talking to my therapist about it that I was
36:36
like, it's my hope that this, all these, I'm just calling them
36:41
rusty feelings and trying not to be like, I feel like shit, but
36:47
that's what they are. And it's like, I feel like shit.
36:48
Rusty feelings. You're like, oh, I don't want to
36:49
do. This they're like, oh, this is
36:51
bad or like. Why am I not asleep right now or
36:54
like, why am I sending this in? This is terrible.
36:57
Like all of those feelings are all back.
36:59
And I'm like a little hoping that commercials are in some
37:03
ways they're lower. They are they're lower stakes.
37:06
They're certainly they're for me, not for everybody, but
37:08
they're certainly lower stakes for me.
37:10
And they're usually shorter and you don't have to memorize
37:13
things so that I can have the growing pains of that.
37:16
But I, no, I know. I'm pretty certain that the
37:18
first theatrical I go back to will feel, you know, that like
37:22
rusty. Rusty.
37:25
Call it rusty. Yeah, Rusty.
37:28
What do you feel like has surprised you most?
37:31
Because like you said, there are random things like I didn't know
37:34
about the itchy hands things or like there's always things where
37:37
you're like I didn't know this was the thing.
37:39
What surprised you most about motherhood thus far?
37:46
I mean some of the like, there's like little like the logistics
37:49
of it all of like so many folds, this little chalk and, and you
37:55
got to especially for a girl, for a girl, so many folds.
37:58
And we, you know, really dive in it.
38:01
It's like, how'd you get poop there?
38:03
How, how, how, how and and just like, you know, we, we do bath
38:10
every night. That's just like hard for our
38:12
bedtime routine and like, but then like the next day, I'll
38:15
like they'll be like a crease on her thigh and I'll be like, oh,
38:17
it's a little red there. Oh my gosh, did we not get soap
38:19
out? Oh my gosh, yeah, we got to put
38:21
diaper cream there. Like, were we not washing under
38:23
her neck? Like how many folds does she
38:25
have under that little? Does she even have a neck?
38:27
Like so that stuff is the stuff that I think kind of constantly
38:31
just being like, did you check all the folds?
38:38
Oh, she sounds like she must be scrutious.
38:40
She is. A marshmallow?
38:43
Yeah, she's got kings, Hawaiian rolls up and down those arms
38:47
number down. Those legs beat.
38:49
Her up. Oh my God, that's so short.
38:51
And then the others, the surprising, perhaps more
38:54
emotional pieces is it's only happened a couple times, but
39:02
when there have been moments where I feel a little conviction
39:06
about knowing my child, it's a level of confidence that I feel
39:10
like I maybe wasn't attuned to. Before.
39:14
Like, even like the platonic premiere, we'd been trying to
39:18
see if we can get a babysitter who, like, came over to, like,
39:20
try it out and stay with, you know, while I was home so that
39:24
Rob could come with me. And we did finally, a trial
39:27
where I left the house just four months.
39:30
I'm just a little, little baby. And it didn't work for you.
39:36
Like it wasn't just she screamed.
39:37
We knew she was going to cry like.
39:38
Of course, yeah. But Rob happened, he was in the
39:41
office and working. And so he had told her.
39:43
And she was like, we were very like, we know she's going to
39:45
cry. And everybody was so sweet.
39:46
And she's like, yeah, I know she's going to cry.
39:47
Like we're ready. And he was like, and I'm in
39:51
meetings, but if, of course, if there's an emergency, come get
39:53
me. And he said when I got back that
39:56
he like came out and he was like, she was crying so hard
39:59
that she her face was red and splotchy and her eyes were like
40:02
swollen shut. And he's like, I've never heard
40:05
that cry before. And I was sort of grateful that
40:09
he was there to hear it because then he went, I'm not going.
40:12
To go, Yeah. You go, this is your, you know
40:16
your, it's a career moment for you and enjoy it.
40:19
And you can also rest easy knowing that I'm home with our
40:21
daughter. And yeah, because that would be
40:23
a whole other thing. He's gone and worried about it.
40:26
And his babysitter was so sweet. She even, she came.
40:29
Well, I got glammed up like while I had a hair and make up
40:31
person, she was there with me. So it was like she was still
40:33
able to help. She's like, I'm sorry.
40:34
We were like, no, no, you're doing nothing wrong.
40:37
Bree's not ready yet And and that's OK and that's OK.
40:42
And it was like, just because I'm ready, she's not.
40:45
Yeah. And I think once we knew that,
40:48
it was like, I'm not going to do that.
40:50
I'm not going to leave her. And I got a lot of advice, like,
40:53
it's good for her. Just do it, you know, or like,
40:55
and it was like, and maybe that would be true down the line.
40:58
It's not right now. And yeah, so I feel like getting
41:03
and we're still just at the beginning like getting very
41:06
like, what do you what do you need kiddo?
41:09
And that's got to be a balance rate of like I imagine I there's
41:12
like you no more I. Was like, not I'm like, yeah,
41:14
don't look at me. I don't know.
41:16
But just like, what are things we want to teach you?
41:19
And there's going to be boundaries and structure around
41:21
that. And that also, where are some
41:23
moments where she's going to tell us what she needs?
41:26
And we go, all right kiddo. Yeah.
41:28
That's it, all right. It doesn't matter if I want this
41:30
to be the case. It's not right now.
41:31
So yeah, I feel like that confidence, like you said as a
41:36
mom knowing, knowing your kid a little bit is like, has that
41:45
confidence been able to like show up and other ways at all?
41:49
Like, yeah, I think around. Auditioning like if we like if.
41:53
We're yes or no that like do you find it easier to be like that
41:59
you. I haven't turned anything down
42:01
yet. I hate saying careless but.
42:04
Just like I was able to like I had AI had coffee with one of my
42:08
with my theatrical agent and after all that happened.
42:11
And so I was able to say to him like, hey, I thought I thought
42:16
we were all systems go. Not so much.
42:21
Yeah. Like, I don't know that I don't
42:23
know that she's ready, or that we're both ready to, or that
42:26
both her and I are as ready as I thought we were, you know?
42:29
But you. Were able to have that
42:30
conversation with your reps and they're not like.
42:33
No, it's, but I have heard stories of people losing the
42:36
reps for that reason too. It's like, it's not that.
42:37
It's certainly not a guarantee, you know, I just happen to have,
42:39
I guess you're. You've been working well for
42:42
them. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
42:43
So I was like, yeah, we're in a yeah, I'm certainly in a, again,
42:48
a privileged position, yeah. But it is nice for you to know
42:52
like, OK, I'll do the voice over.
42:55
I'll start here. I'll do commercials and then
42:59
like. And I've said to.
43:00
Them like. Listen, if there's something
43:02
that shoots next spring, yeah, like there's a film that's not
43:06
the cause. It's like, when do we ever get
43:07
that amount of time? Right.
43:08
But it basically it's saying like, I can't.
43:10
No, I listen, would I love to go into high potential shooting
43:13
next week? You bet you're Yeah, but or any
43:17
of the other shows they're casting right now, you know,
43:19
like, yeah, Satan's medical. I was just like I cook people
43:22
and you know, we all know who what's on shooting right now.
43:24
Would I love to go out for those things?
43:25
Yes. That shoots next week.
43:29
Is that logistically going to work out for my family?
43:31
I don't think so, yeah. Which is so.
43:35
Hard to so hard. It's so hard because then I
43:38
yeah, not because I want, no, I would love to go do those
43:42
things. I would love it.
43:43
But not necessarily that you're saying no to the things you're
43:47
getting. It's just like knowing that you
43:49
are not there yet. Yeah, it's been really hard.
43:54
And that's it's. Probably easier or at least a
43:57
better thing to like know that you're not there yet instead of
44:00
like getting the auditions and be like this would be amazing.
44:04
But actually, it's kind of. But then secretly not wanting it
44:07
or like secretly hoping you don't get it or something like
44:09
that. Yeah, put that.
44:11
Energy on Yeah, and then it's going to start.
44:14
Auditioning. After I made the mistake.
44:18
Of I just went right, right back.
44:21
Right on back I have a a photo. I feel like I should share it I
44:28
guess on. Open Zoo.
44:30
Because I took a picture of myself, I did, I think it, I
44:34
think it was like a commercial. I didn't have anything like.
44:38
Of. Substance, we'll say for a bit,
44:41
but I did commercial and I don't know just I think it was like 2
44:48
weeks after and I put AI had my pants were fully unbuttoned to
44:54
here and I had a shirt over it and then I took a picture.
44:58
I was like, this is ridiculous. What am I doing?
45:00
I can't, I mean, what am I ever going to wear pants?
45:04
But just in my head of like having that visual of like I'm
45:10
not ready. What?
45:11
Am I? What am I?
45:12
Doing but yeah, but I went and but yeah, I don't know if that
45:22
was this smart. Is it a spoiler?
45:24
I did not book it. Yeah, and it was.
45:28
Probably because I wasn't ready and I was putting it like, what
45:32
if I do get those? But I definitely think that
45:34
seeing I remember running into my friend Ziggy.
45:38
I think she just remember like her second baby at a commercial
45:41
edition and I was like, Gee, what are you doing here?
45:43
Like at 200 S of the rain? I was like, what are you doing
45:45
here? Just her baby.
45:46
And she's like, I did, I did, but I'm back, baby.
45:50
And like, and it seeing her do that, though, like made me feel
45:54
like I could have a kid like that.
45:57
It wasn't because I think the story I was telling myself was
46:00
like, if I have a kid, this all stops.
46:02
Yeah, if I have a kid, this is over.
46:04
If I. Have a kid too, doesn't.
46:06
Yeah, she's too. Yeah.
46:07
And she works. There's only so many Segas.
46:09
Yeah, Yeah. Oh, yeah.
46:10
Yeah. And she makes that mom count,
46:12
too. Yeah.
46:14
But like, and a gal, I had been on good trouble with this gal,
46:17
Shannon. I remember seeing Shannon back
46:20
in an audition room and I was like, did you just have a baby?
46:23
She's like, I did. And I was like, show me a
46:24
picture. You know, it was like I did.
46:26
And I think seeing I think my brain had separated my friends
46:34
with kids and my friends from Wisconsin and my friends from
46:36
home. And then I have a few friends
46:37
that had kids here, but I kept kind of like pushing those
46:42
people. I'd be like, oh, well, they have
46:43
family who live in town or Oh well, they have this or well,
46:45
that's why this works for them or that's why this works for
46:47
them. And I couldn't because then you
46:51
know, it won't work out. It won't work out, it won't work
46:53
out. All of those things that go into
46:54
your head of like This is why it won't work.
46:56
And so I think it was so, so even though you weren't ready, I
46:59
even go like, you know, anybody you ran into at that early time,
47:03
like seeing my friends who I ran into at that, that maybe they
47:06
went back and maybe I don't know if they felt they went back to
47:08
early or not. They certainly seemed like they
47:11
were ready to be were really inspiring for me to go got it.
47:14
You can't have a baby and then come back.
47:16
Yeah. And I'm just still really in the
47:20
middle of figuring out, yeah, what that looks like.
47:24
Well, I think that's the trick to knowing that I feel like I
47:30
always thought I, you know, I feel like most of us, it's like
47:33
the older you get, the more you realize, Oh, nobody knows what
47:36
they're doing. And that's why because I started
47:40
mommy would like, I think May was two months because I was
47:43
like. What?
47:45
Are people doing where I could see like, oh, well, this is easy
47:50
to defend. Like they're like super
47:53
successful. I can see like how this works
47:56
'cause they have the resources or I could see, oh, they have
48:00
parents or whoever nearby. And then I was like, no, there
48:04
have to be more people in my situation where we're not
48:10
necessarily, you know, superstars here yet.
48:15
But then it's like, how are, how is that?
48:20
Yeah, happening? And it's like, yeah, we're all
48:22
just figuring it out. All of us were on like the
48:23
picket lines. You feel like there's some big
48:25
kids on the picket lines and you're like the I think this
48:30
industry can be so like there are there's so many people in
48:33
this, in this chunk in this, in this, people who work sometimes
48:40
and it and it I don't even think it's like sometimes people are
48:42
like you either make your living on it or you don't.
48:44
And I was like, no, you can't you get a nice check and
48:46
sometimes that just pays your rent and and, and there are
48:49
times in my life where that that the check from acting was was
48:52
like paid for the treats was like a special like I booked a
48:55
job. This is treat money.
48:56
And now acting money is more like, OK, cool, this is rent
48:58
money when I work. And so that has shifted.
49:03
But like I said, I was like, I've always kept those side jobs
49:05
so that, you know, we're and I feel like, and I also like voice
49:10
over to me is also like, though it is part of the acting
49:13
umbrella. It feels like that's his other
49:14
right. That's that's within that
49:18
because I don't feel like not everybody who does theatrical
49:22
needs to do voice over. People are always like, should I
49:24
get into voice over? And I was like, if you're good
49:26
at tech, if you would tell me they don't know how to edit
49:29
something on their phone, I was like, you should not do those.
49:31
Oh man. Yeah, no, I feel like people
49:34
think it's so much. Easier.
49:38
Because. Because you don't.
49:39
Have to memorize. Don't have to memorize and you
49:41
don't have to. You don't necessarily get
49:42
dressed, but it's like. Do you have to edit your own
49:45
stone? No, no, you are your own sound
49:47
engineer. It's not the same.
49:49
And once like people are people are doing it like, oh, I feel.
49:57
Like at the bottom of the barrel of Vio still, even though I now
49:59
have like, you know, I've done a handful of cartoons or like
50:04
video games. It's like, Oh no, I'm a Vio
50:06
artist. And I'm like, I bowed down to
50:07
your skill set. That is easy to just play
50:10
career. And I'm just like, I'll just do
50:14
flights over. It's like you're ready to go
50:16
against people who do it 24/7, you know, like, yeah, yeah, the
50:20
same with the FA, right? It's like if you're not.
50:23
It's hard to get into. It yeah, for sure, just like
50:26
everything. Just like everything.
50:28
All right, we're gonna do a rapid fire.
50:30
Oh sweet. OK, cool all.
50:32
Right. But I can also just like talk to
50:35
you. I know that's how it happens
50:36
sometimes. Lovely.
50:38
I'm like, did we? Did we say anything useful?
50:41
I know I always do that. And then I'm like, oh, I should
50:43
like ask you some, OK. Hit me.
50:47
After bedtime or nap time or anytime coffee or wine.
50:53
Coffee. Yeah, what's more, nerve racking
50:57
auditions or the sleep training? Right now we're at Sleep, sleep,
51:02
sleep 5. Seven.
51:04
OK, if you have to memorize, memorize lines or fold laundry,
51:09
which one's coming first? I'm going to read the lines into
51:13
a voice memo, including all the actions and all the other
51:15
characters lines. I'm going to listen to it while
51:16
I'm doing laundry. Moms are multi town a self tape
51:22
setup 10 minutes. Two hours, 10 minutes.
51:27
Yeah. What's the cute thing your kids
51:31
doing right now? I love everything.
51:35
Yeah. I mean, everything she, well,
51:39
it's just changed now. She's waking up crying
51:40
sometimes, but very often in the morning, it's like when she
51:43
wakes up and you're like, open the blinds, she'll look at me
51:46
with this big smile, like you're here again.
51:52
And I always thought, oh, yeah, it's good to see you.
51:55
And she just gives me this big smile and it's just, I melt.
51:59
Oh my God, I'm going to ask you for so many pictures after this.
52:04
What do you feel like your biggest mom fail has been so far
52:07
and your biggest mom win? I feel like your babysitting
52:11
moment was a win, but I'll let you answer.
52:14
Yeah, that was a good. That was a win.
52:17
I'm like, like you said that. I was like, oh man, I put her in
52:20
the high chair this week and I hit her in the head with the
52:24
tray. I just felt such an ass.
52:26
I know my husband survived. She was fine.
52:29
She didn't even ever breathe the next day.
52:30
But I was like, I'm so sorry. And like my nails were long
52:33
after the premiere. I'd like got a manicure and and
52:37
she jerked her head forward because we're in a really jerky
52:40
head movement and like my finger went into her mouth and she got
52:44
cut and I just was like, it's those moments when I'm just
52:46
like, Oh my God, I'm so sorry. She was she just that it's like
52:52
she has that like she looks at me before she cries like what
52:55
just happened? You know, I just want to do to
52:58
me. So those have felt terrible.
53:01
Oh my gosh. And my yeah, mom went
53:04
definitely. I was like, Oh, yeah, you're
53:06
knowing that the premiere stuff, like knowing that.
53:09
And then sometimes I feel like such AII feel like such a like
53:16
it's such a win win. Like I'll be like, oh, she needs
53:19
this. She needs food or she needs, oh,
53:22
she just needs her pacifier. Like from like across the room
53:24
or from downstairs. I'll be like, oh, I think she
53:26
needs to be held right now. And he'll be like, OK, or like,
53:31
or like with my mom or I'm like, oh, I think she probably wants
53:34
this. And like when, when those are
53:35
right, I'm like, I think she probably wants some tummy time.
53:37
My mom's like, OK, and we went back home and it was like she
53:40
did those feel like such twins. You're like, I know my girl, I
53:44
know her. This.
53:46
Would not happen all the time and it's like.
53:50
We're usually in the in between. What is always in your diaper
53:55
bag besides diapers? Yeah, diapers.
54:00
Her little sunglasses, which she loves and are honestly really
54:04
great for when she falls asleep in the because then they they
54:07
black out. Like it makes darkness smart and
54:10
they're still cute. Smart.
54:13
OK. During nap time, are you
54:15
napping? Are you doing stuff?
54:19
I up until a week ago I would have said I was doing everything
54:23
doing laundry and meal prep and and my other jobs and VO and but
54:29
this last week has been a very like this girl needs we're
54:32
napping this some regulation. It's more like I'm so I'm
54:36
regulating my kid. Yeah, so I need to lay down with
54:38
her. Yeah, yeah.
54:40
It's hard. When people are like, nap when
54:42
nap, when the baby nap. It's like, yeah.
54:44
Yeah, yeah, with my art. Position this way.
54:46
And my boob out and like leaning in this direction and then I'm
54:49
like trying to hit like the timer on my phone to be like,
54:51
she's napping now. OK, I would love to be napping.
54:55
But yes, right now we're regulating.
54:58
Yeah, good. Each other.
55:00
Regulate yourself. You should.
55:02
OK, this is not a rapid fire. But last question for you.
55:08
OK, if you're looking back at yourself years from now, what do
55:12
you? Oh my God, I'm going to cry.
55:14
I'm such a mom. I hate it.
55:16
I do this all the time. What do you want your kids to
55:20
remember? Oh, I made him cry too, because
55:27
it's like when they're babies. That I, I started wondering now
55:31
I'll give you time to think because I've started wondering
55:33
now I'm like, now that my daughter's three, I'm like, oh,
55:36
she's going to probably start remembering stuff and I'm like,
55:38
what's going to be her like first memory?
55:41
Well, I did turn to my husband last week and I was like, did
55:43
you feel listened to as a child? And he was like, I don't think
55:47
so. And I was like, add that to the
55:48
list, OK, you know? Right.
55:50
It's like, what do I focus on? What did my parents not do that
55:53
I'm going to do? What am I missing?
55:56
Yeah, my one of my best friends from from home, Erin always says
56:00
she's like, she goes. I don't mind if my boys go to
56:02
therapy. I just hope it's for a different
56:03
reason than me. I kind of like that.
56:05
Yeah. What was the question?
56:09
What if you look at? Years from now, looking back,
56:12
what do you hope your diarrhoea remembers?
56:15
Remembers like she. Remembers laughing and dancing
56:19
and and cooking is one of my favorite things I like already I
56:24
already love dancing and giggling with her and we're like
56:29
just the very beginning of solids.
56:32
You know, we had some avocado and, and trying to like, so I I
56:40
hope she has good memories of that.
56:43
Yeah, like of of being silly. And what would you tell another
56:51
new actor, mom or actor who's thinking of becoming a mom?
56:57
That's. A good question.
57:00
Let's go with actor who's thinking of becoming a mom.
57:03
OK, an actor who's thinking of becoming a mom.
57:11
I I'm like I would say I'm I'm like I'm still I'm almost like
57:17
I'm still learning what I would say to them that I think my best
57:22
guess is somewhere between is like rely on like ask for help,
57:30
ask for help, ask for help, rely on your friends.
57:33
I'm so bad at asking for help and having kids change the way I
57:38
how Ioffer help too. Like it's made me be like, Oh my
57:42
God, I'm never going to say if you need anything let me know.
57:44
I'm going to Instead, I'm going to say, hey, I'll be over at
57:47
your house. Is Thursday or Friday better for
57:50
me to drop off a meal. That's how ioffer help.
57:52
Now we don't say whenever you need it.
57:54
Let me know. I know.
57:55
You'll never find out. Yeah, you'll never hear back.
57:59
But I the way our village has shown up for us is so
58:04
remarkable. And so I think it's in a lot of
58:06
ways not dissimilar from how I think you survive this business
58:10
and acting in general, which is community and I I mean, and in
58:18
this political climate, I go, what do you mean?
58:21
What? Everything's great.
58:23
What do you mean fascism? I had to do it.
58:27
And but I think how we survive as each other.
58:31
And so again, if you're lucky enough to have family, awesome,
58:34
you know them, but also community.
58:39
I think that's how we do it. I think I even when I put out
58:45
the call for like, Hey, anybody have any babysitters?
58:47
The amount of friends who said, you know, if you're in a pinch,
58:48
you'd let me know. If you're in a pinch, you'd let
58:50
me know. And I wrote all those people.
58:52
I wrote all your names down on an excel sheet and I cried.
58:56
It's like, it's so amazing. And I think that's I, it's, I'm,
59:03
and I'm hoping that I'm hoping that what I'm saying is is how I
59:06
will do it because we're still just at the beginning.
59:09
We're and I am scared about when that theatrical booking comes
59:17
because I do, because I do have enough belief in myself that the
59:20
next that it will come. I don't know when.
59:24
And not knowing when is always the like the heart, the heart of
59:28
it all. But but when it does that, we'll
59:32
have to figure it out. And I feeling the answer will be
59:35
in in each other. Yeah, yeah.
59:38
I love that. Well, thank you for being so
59:41
much everyone. It's been so lovely.
59:45
Talking to you and that's our episode.
59:48
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59:51
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