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Detransitioner NOT happy · Brett Keane and Eve Show

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  An entire life that should have been mine.
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  That was my birthright. I don't know how this happened
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  to me and I'm just so angry. I was so sad.
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  I just don't know how this happened.
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  Like a virus or something. It just like.
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  Infected me and it happened so quickly.
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  It was like I was right there, like agreeing to every single
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  thing and I don't know how that happened then.
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  Now I can sit here and like look back and be like, why did I do
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  that? It.
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  Doesn't make any sense. None of it makes any sense.
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  If I just would have waited. If I just would have waited.
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  If I was just. Sort of waited and let myself
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  heal. I can't have kids.
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  I'll never lose my virginity like I feel like I'm left to.
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  Just like accept the scraps of the life that.
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  I. Could have had I had this full
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  life. That I'm now having.
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  To mourn while also living in the present moment.
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  With the life that like, feels just like.
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  The scraps of what could have. Been.
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  I don't know how to be happy at that, you know, I don't know how
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  to be OK with that. I hate when people are like,
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  everything happens for a reason. Like, no, this didn't happen for
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  a reason, you know? It's just a tragedy.
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  It is. Just call it what it is.
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  I don't want to use the word indoctrinated, but I was young
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  and I was sad and I was impressionable and I thought
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  this would fix everything. I don't know what to do with
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  like. Any of it.
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  I think I just feel a lot different also though from most
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  D trans girls because or D trans women, D trans girls and women
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  because I've had bottom surgery. Like every girl I know has it.
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  You know, they still have this, this part of them.
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  And I don't have that. Like, I don't have anything
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  anymore. It's just so sad.
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  Like it just sucks so bad. This is just something they
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  don't have to live with, you know?
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  There's like no fixing it. There's no making it better.
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  I have to live like this for the rest of my life and figure out a
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  way to be OK with it. I'm not making this video for
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  like sympathy or anything. It's just I'm wanting to express
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  what's honestly going on in my reality right now as AD trans
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  woman, as a woman who thought she was trans and transitioned,
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  lived as trans for eight years, had top surgery, a full
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  hysterectomy, bottom surgery, went all the way as far as one
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  can go. And then woke up and realized
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  that I made the biggest fucking mistake of my life.
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  I was so sure. You know this is crazy.