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Rolling in the Grief with Kelley Flanagan · The Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous Podcast

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Speaker 1: This is the Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous podcast
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Speaker 1: with iHeartRadio.
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Speaker 2: Hey guys, we welcome to the Almost Famous Podcast. Today's
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Speaker 2: guest Day Love guest Day. Today it is Kelly flanagain.
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Speaker 2: You know that, you guys know her from Peter Weber's
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Speaker 2: season from back in twenty twenty and she was eliminated
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Speaker 2: in week seven, but then she dated Peter once or twice,
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Speaker 2: maybe three times.
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Speaker 3: We'll ask about it. Kelly, welcome to.
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Speaker 2: The show, and we just wanted to extend our sincere
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Speaker 2: condolences by the passing of your dad less than a
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Speaker 2: month ago.
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Speaker 4: We're so so sorry. I just can't imagine what you're
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Speaker 4: going through.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, thank you guys. Good to be on here. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: it's been my life has been in shambles the past
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Speaker 3: couple of months. So hopefully we get into that, but
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Speaker 3: it's it's definitely been a lot.
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Speaker 1: What do you.
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Speaker 5: Okay? I think with interviews with people like you, and
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Speaker 5: it's interesting. I remember I think it wasn't your last
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Speaker 5: time on the show, but your very first time on
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Speaker 5: the show was during COVID. I remember exactly where a sitting,
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Speaker 5: I remember a lot of what we talked about and
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Speaker 5: now when we interview people like you who have you know,
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Speaker 5: a few years removed from the show, obviously been through
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Speaker 5: a lot which will dive into I think one of
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Speaker 5: the most helpful things for listeners is like try to
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Speaker 5: give a relatability and a perspective, because you're probably going
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Speaker 5: through a lot of stuff that people are going through
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Speaker 5: listening to it, maybe not all at the same time,
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Speaker 5: but like people are going to be able to relate.
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Speaker 5: So when you say shambles, what do you mean by that?
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Speaker 5: Because this has been a this is like a the
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Speaker 5: last month for you, I cannot imagine and I don't
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Speaker 5: have words to like try to like console, but like
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Speaker 5: I just can't imagine, And so can you explain shambles
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Speaker 5: a little bit?
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Speaker 2: Yeah, and don't be afraid to cry like I've been.
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Speaker 4: I'd probably cry too same.
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Speaker 3: I've literally I've been trying to figure out like when
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Speaker 3: I could actually come out and speak about it, because
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Speaker 3: I who I thought I was like cool and I
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Speaker 3: was going to be like all right, No, it's like the.
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Speaker 2: Second anybody like you're like, okay, I can hatele those
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Speaker 2: and then like words starts trying to come out of
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Speaker 2: your mouth and I can't do it either.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, no, it's stuff. So I one, I I'll start
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Speaker 3: with this because this doesn't make me cry. I went
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Speaker 3: through a really really bad breakup and I was kind
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Speaker 3: of in a position where I was like I looked
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Speaker 3: back and the information that I was finding out a
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Speaker 3: lot through social media. I have never had this amount
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Speaker 3: of people reach out to me to tell me like
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Speaker 3: who I was dating and like what was going on
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Speaker 3: behind my backs or who they were truly. And I
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Speaker 3: think that's just like a really really confusing state because
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Speaker 3: I was with this person for almost like a year
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Speaker 3: and a half and I was just like I in
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Speaker 3: my own head gathered like, oh, this is who that
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Speaker 3: person is. And then after the fact, when I started
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Speaker 3: figuring out like the cheating and all of that stuff,
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Speaker 3: like what he was doing behind my back, that's like
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Speaker 3: minuscule to what I found out. Who I found out
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Speaker 3: like like what was going on and who he truly
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Speaker 3: was was a situation where it's probably the most confusing
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Speaker 3: state of mind you'll ever be in because you've convinced
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Speaker 3: yourself of like I know this person, I've been with
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Speaker 3: this person, I was living with this person, and to
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Speaker 3: find out like all of it or not all of it,
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Speaker 3: but a lot of it was like not true and
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Speaker 3: a lie. It definitely messes with your head. And I'll
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Speaker 3: sit here and say with that, it's more of like
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Speaker 3: it's a hard breakup at first because the confusion and
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Speaker 3: like you're in your head and you're like what just happened?
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Speaker 3: But then in the long run, you look back and
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Speaker 3: you're like, who thank God, Like that wasn't my life.
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Speaker 3: Thank God I got out of that situation. So that
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Speaker 3: was really hard for me. And if you guys want
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Speaker 3: me to go more into that, I can. But then
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Speaker 3: the second thing that happened is like right when that
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Speaker 3: was going on as well, my father got sick and
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Speaker 3: I was just like, WHOA, what's going on? What's going on?
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Speaker 3: And I always knew my dad was a bit older,
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Speaker 3: but like we were just here with him for Thanksgiving,
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Speaker 3: and like I remember he kept saying like I'm super cold,
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Speaker 3: I'm super cold. We're out to dinner. But he was
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Speaker 3: like in high spirits and like everything was good. And
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Speaker 3: then we got a call that like he was in
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Speaker 3: the hospital and we're like whoa, Like what's going on?
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Speaker 3: So I immediately I was unfortunately in Chicago for a funeral,
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Speaker 3: and so I had to like immediately fly down. And
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Speaker 3: for the next three weeks we were in the hospital
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Speaker 3: with him, and he had double pneumonia and the rhinovirus
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Speaker 3: I think, so it was just like a huge hit
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Speaker 3: on him. And then we just kind of kept thinking,
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Speaker 3: We're like, is there a recovery to this? Is there
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Speaker 3: a full recover to this? Like like what's going to happen?
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Speaker 3: And in those three weeks were they were hard, but
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Speaker 3: also I'm like really really grateful for them. Oh god, God,
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Speaker 3: I thought I was gonna be able to hold it together.
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Speaker 3: But I was grateful for those three weeks because like
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Speaker 3: we got to like spend like precious time with him
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Speaker 3: and like, oh my god, I can't.
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Speaker 4: Oh it's okay.
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Speaker 3: We were able to like tell him how much we
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Speaker 3: appreciated him and how great he was, and like just
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Speaker 3: how much we like valued him as like a father
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Speaker 3: and also like a person. And then every day was
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Speaker 3: like hard because he was in such a fragile state
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Speaker 3: in that hospital and like us kids were like taking
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Speaker 3: shifts and the smallest thing, like the smallest thing could
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Speaker 3: have made him pass. So we were like on top
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Speaker 3: of it, like you have five out of the six
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Speaker 3: kids or attorneys. So you have like a bunch of
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Speaker 3: attorneys in a room, but we don't know anything medical,
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Speaker 3: and we're just like trying to figure it out. Like
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Speaker 3: we learned about vitals, we learned about like medications and
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Speaker 3: like them interacting like his daily medication. Some of them
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Speaker 3: were interacting with the medication that he needed in the hospital.
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Speaker 3: And so we're like sitting there calling people nurses, doctors,
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Speaker 3: family friends. Like it's so crazy because I can't even
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Speaker 3: tell you how many people on social media, Like when
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Speaker 3: I was doing my post reached out to me and
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Speaker 3: they're like watch for this, watch for that, like helping me,
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Speaker 3: and I was like, whoa, this is crazy. Like social
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Speaker 3: media is a very very powerful place, and a lot
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Speaker 3: of other people like experienced the same thing that he
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Speaker 3: was going through. Like I remember one message was they're
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Speaker 3: like listen and my grandpa, I think it was, is
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Speaker 3: like ninety years old, had double pneumonia, was able to
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Speaker 3: come back from it. And we're like, damn, okay, so
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Speaker 3: it gives you hope, But yeah, it was. It was
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Speaker 3: a tough three weeks of us like being with him,
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Speaker 3: and I'm not gonna lie, it's like exhausting because you're
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Speaker 3: in fight or flight, Like if something happens, you're like,
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Speaker 3: oh my god, am I responsible? What do I do?
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Speaker 3: But I really appreciate like those three weeks like spending
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Speaker 3: with him.
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Speaker 5: You mentioned the rhinovirus. What is that?
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Speaker 3: No, I think it's like a new thing. Okay, whether
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Speaker 3: it's the flu, whether it's similar to COVID. I think
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Speaker 3: it's something along those lines, but I think it's a
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Speaker 3: little bit newer.
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Speaker 5: I'll say this, I'm in a weird emotional state myself
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Speaker 5: right now, where like two weeks away from having a
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Speaker 5: little girl. So it's I'm like on the edge of
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Speaker 5: breaking most moments. I'm sitting here and I'm watching you
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Speaker 5: and like, it's not fun obviously to come on an
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Speaker 5: interview and cry like you're apologizing. You shouldn't apologize at all.
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Speaker 5: That's kind of why we do it. And I'm also
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Speaker 5: thinking what better testimony, Well to have a daughter like you,
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Speaker 5: but then to know that your daughter is so emotional
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Speaker 5: over your like passing, Like what better way to like
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Speaker 5: remember him? Yeah, and what better way to like, you know,
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Speaker 5: if you just came on here, you're like, yeah, that
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Speaker 5: was really tough. That sucked. You want to talk about
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Speaker 5: a breakup, like it's I just want to tell you,
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Speaker 5: like this is this is an incredible like testament to
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Speaker 5: him as a father and as a person, that this
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Speaker 5: is what your reaction is.
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Speaker 3: Then I truly like have never met anyone like him.
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Speaker 3: And I know a lot of people say that and
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Speaker 3: they're like my father was the best, this, that and
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Speaker 3: the other. But like that man, like what he like
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Speaker 3: gave us provided for us, like he would like literally
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Speaker 3: never see know to us. Like one of the things
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Speaker 3: he said to us, he was like, listen, I want
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Speaker 3: to give you guys an education and if you guys
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Speaker 3: want to go through that, like that's the one thing
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Speaker 3: I could give you that no one can take away.
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Speaker 3: Like he was just he just had like a genius mindset.
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Speaker 3: Like he was a smart guy, but not only a
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Speaker 3: smart guy, Like he didn't have an ego behind him.
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Speaker 3: Like he was always so kind to literally anyone, like
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Speaker 3: so generous, like generous in ways that like people don't
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Speaker 3: even think of. But the law firm that he created,
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Speaker 3: like those people were his family. Like people go to
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Speaker 3: work and people are like they they don't assume that
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Speaker 3: your boss is going to be like overly nice to
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Speaker 3: you or like treat you as if like your family,
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Speaker 3: Like my dad like that office, his family, all that stuff.
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Speaker 3: And what's crazier too, is he came from like a
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Speaker 3: broken family. Like this man didn't really know the definission
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Speaker 3: of family. Like he had a mom and a dad.
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Speaker 3: His dad had him in later years. His mom was
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Speaker 3: a bit younger, but she like abandoned him and his brother,
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Speaker 3: and he was like kind of on his own, was
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Speaker 3: being raised by his grandma for a little bit. He
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Speaker 3: always like glorified his dad, but like his dad wasn't
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Speaker 3: necessarily hands on. So my dad came from this broken family,
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Speaker 3: never thought he was going to have a family, Like
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Speaker 3: he was like I just don't think it's in my cards.
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Speaker 3: And he got married at forty eight, Like he got
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Speaker 3: married a lot later and my mom was thirty six,
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Speaker 3: so like they were an older couple. And then they
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Speaker 3: decide to have six kids in seven years.
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Speaker 2: I saw you post that on Instagram. I thought that
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Speaker 2: was really really special, right he started seting then he
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Speaker 2: was just like no, let's just keep it going.
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Speaker 3: And he just for my mom she really wanted, but
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Speaker 3: he was like down for it. He's like all right whatever,
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Speaker 3: like he was he wasn't like this very powerful guy
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Speaker 3: that had an ego behind him and was like you
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Speaker 3: do this, you do that. Like he was a really
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Speaker 3: powerful guy and like had a lot of success, but
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Speaker 3: like he like was never phased by anything. Like he
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Speaker 3: was like, all right, if you want to do that,
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Speaker 3: go ahead, like sure money, Like what do you want?
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Speaker 3: Like you just see a lot of people in power
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Speaker 3: these days have like this ego behind them where they're
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Speaker 3: like you listen to me, and these are the rules
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Speaker 3: and that and the other. And he just like let
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Speaker 3: my mom be who she was, do what she wants.
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Speaker 3: And my mom's like a little bit nutty. We love her,
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Speaker 3: but she's a little bit nutty. And he was just
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Speaker 3: like always rolling his eyes like, oh oh god, Connie,
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Speaker 3: like you're you're a special one, you know. So yeah,
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Speaker 3: it's just like looking back on the situation, like I
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Speaker 3: can't say, like how grateful I am.
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Speaker 2: You also have a testament of like how much you
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Speaker 2: all looked up to him because five of the six
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Speaker 2: of you became lawyers with him, as you know, your aspiration.
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Speaker 3: But he never like put pressure on us to be
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Speaker 3: like you guys have to be lawyers, Like it was
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Speaker 3: all our choices, which is really cool. Like he never
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Speaker 3: pressured us to do anything, Like even when I went
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Speaker 3: on The Bachelor, he was like, yeah, do what you want.
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Speaker 3: Like I don't understand it, but do what you want.
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Speaker 3: Talking about being an influencer, like he thought it was
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Speaker 3: the coolest thing in the world. He was like, I
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Speaker 3: don't get it, but he was like I think Kelly
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Speaker 3: like holds up a person, people like like the person,
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Speaker 3: then they buy it. Like he was so proud, like
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Speaker 3: telling all of his friends, and he was always like,
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Speaker 3: so many people look at this stuff, like I can't believe,
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Speaker 3: like the people that follow her, and like the amount
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Speaker 3: of numbers, Like he was always so intrigued, but like
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Speaker 3: was always so supportive and it was really cool.
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Speaker 4: That's so sweet.
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Speaker 2: He passed away on Christmas Day, Yeah, and you said
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Speaker 2: that he was just holding out for that because that
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Speaker 2: was his very holiday.
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Speaker 3: Yeah. So growing up, like again, he had like a
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Speaker 3: broken family and he would say things like some Christmases
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Speaker 3: like he didn't have anywhere to go. Man, I thought
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Speaker 3: it was going to be able to keep it together,
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Speaker 3: but he sometimes like didn't have anywhere to go for Christmas,
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Speaker 3: And so it kind of became a thing for him
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Speaker 3: when we were growing up, Like he would like panic,
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Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, he would like panic, and he just
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Speaker 3: wanted to make sure we all had like a good
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Speaker 3: Christmas growing up, and like he would do outrageous things,
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Speaker 3: like outrageous like he would get we had like a
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Speaker 3: living room in Chicago that had like a really tall ceiling.
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Speaker 3: He would get like trees from Wisconsin on these like
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Speaker 3: massive trucks like ship down to our house. That's so cool. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: to make sure like all of us had a great
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Speaker 3: Christmas because like because like he never did growing up,
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Speaker 3: but yeah, so like Christmas became just like huge to
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Speaker 3: him and he always like appreciated it and like wanted
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Speaker 3: to go so far out of his way to make
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Speaker 3: sure like everyone was happy and had a great Christmas
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Speaker 3: and like had a bunch of presents and like it
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Speaker 3: was just like our house was lit up like crazy,
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Speaker 3: like we always had Christmas lights everywhere. So I think
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Speaker 3: he just wanted to like give that to us. And
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Speaker 3: oh my gosh, I think he like knew so he
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Speaker 3: was we brought him home. One thing he wanted was
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Speaker 3: for him to be home, and he was like, I
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Speaker 3: don't want to be in this hospital anymore. And there
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Speaker 3: would be days where he'd be like doing super well,
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Speaker 3: so we were able to communicate with him, and a
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Speaker 3: lot of days he was like full fledged sleeping, but
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Speaker 3: sometimes it would be like hold your hand, like squeezer hand,
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Speaker 3: or like do this if like you want this, that
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Speaker 3: and the other. So he there was one day where
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Speaker 3: he just had like a lot of energy in him
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Speaker 3: and he's like, get me out at this place. I
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Speaker 3: don't want to be here. I don't want to be here.
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Speaker 3: I want to go home. I don't I want to
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Speaker 3: go home, and so we're like, all right, his goal
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Speaker 3: is he wants to be home. The only problem was
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Speaker 3: he was like in a really fragile state that we
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Speaker 3: didn't know if he could make it on the car
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Speaker 3: ride home because he was like he was on all
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Speaker 3: this oxygen and there was like little things that kept happening,
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Speaker 3: whether it was like his blood pressure dropping or his
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Speaker 3: respiratory was too high and we had to switch masks
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Speaker 3: and do all this oxygen stuff. So we're like, oh, man,
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Speaker 3: like are we going to be able to get him there?
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Speaker 3: And we got him here and the ride was fine,
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Speaker 3: even though a bunch of doctors were like telling us
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Speaker 3: otherwise we got him here, and he was here for
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Speaker 3: like a couple of days, and then when we told
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Speaker 3: him like Merry Christmas, like you made it to Christmas, like,
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Speaker 3: his vitals just started going.
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Speaker 5: We've talked about the like the importance of making it
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Speaker 5: to Christmas for him and the legacy that he has
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Speaker 5: left with you and the memories that he's left with you.
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Speaker 5: I guess because I don't have a lot of words
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Speaker 5: right now, Kelly, I think to kind of do a
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Speaker 5: very odd transition into a breakup. But before we do that,
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Speaker 5: I do want to ask you, with all that we've
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Speaker 5: just said, what, like what will this memory be now?
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Speaker 5: I mean, obviously Christmas Day was an important day to him,
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Speaker 5: It's going to be an important day to you for
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Speaker 5: many reasons now to remember, to celebrate, you know, to
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Speaker 5: pass that on. But as we now, you know heal
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Speaker 5: the best we can and move forward, like what will
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Speaker 5: the memory of your dad be that you want people
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Speaker 5: to remember?
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Speaker 3: I think I'm going to talk about something a little
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Speaker 3: bit different, just because I need to like keep it together,
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Speaker 3: and then we'll go to that. One thing I do
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Speaker 3: want to say is this was like a learning experience
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Speaker 3: for me that I've never dealt with and I know
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Speaker 3: a lot of people go through this. It's a way
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Speaker 3: of life. I personally just never knew like this kind
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Speaker 3: of pain existed. And again, like I just personally want
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Speaker 3: to thank every single person that reached out to me
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Speaker 3: through social media because I said, like I don't know
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Speaker 3: what this means, but like the amount of people that
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Speaker 3: like have experienced grief and was like messaging me and
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Speaker 3: like telling me all this stuff, Like then I never
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Speaker 3: like wish it upon anyone, and I know, again it's
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Speaker 3: a way of life, Like it's a really confusing state,
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Speaker 3: and like so many people who are messaging me, and
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Speaker 3: to be honest, like I was reading like all of it,
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Speaker 3: but I couldn't even respond to people because every time
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Speaker 3: I would just break down, like when I would go
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Speaker 3: to respond, but I was looking at all of it,
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Speaker 3: and it's just so crazy to me that like so
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Speaker 3: many people, especially at my age, I have even dealt
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Speaker 3: with something like this. And again, like I'm not naive.
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Speaker 3: I know it's a way of life, but it's so
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Speaker 3: hard because you have this person that like you love
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Speaker 3: and you're like okay, now, like how do I cope
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Speaker 3: with it? Like what do you do, and like people
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Speaker 3: would say, like you just always have this type of
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Speaker 3: grief like in you like this sadness, but like you
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Speaker 3: get stronger, so it like never goes away. And I
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Speaker 3: think what's different And like a breakup is like you're like, Okay,
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Speaker 3: I got out of that situation. You get some closure
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Speaker 3: in some sense, and then you're like then you move
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Speaker 3: on and you move on to like a next person
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Speaker 3: and you're like, okay, this is fine, Like you start
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Speaker 3: being grateful and you're like that person wasn't for me
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Speaker 3: and all of this stuff. With this, it's just like
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Speaker 3: a different kind of pain where you're like I love
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Speaker 3: that person, I didn't want them to go. You can't
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Speaker 3: necessarily like have closure to be like, well that person
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Speaker 3: wasn't good to me or this person you know that
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Speaker 3: person did this. Like with breakups, it's so different and
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Speaker 3: the pain is so different because you're just like you
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Speaker 3: get closure on that, but with this you don't. And
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Speaker 3: you can't sit there and be like, well my dad
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Speaker 3: was like not a good person and I'm so glad
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Speaker 3: that like this happened. Like it is, it's wild. It's
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Speaker 3: wild to deal with. But again, like social media is
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Speaker 3: a powerful place, and like people have been messaging me,
19:46
Speaker 3: like reaching out, like telling me how they dealt with
19:48
Speaker 3: it and all this stuff, and yeah, it's it's weird,
19:53
Speaker 3: but there are the first couple of days I was
19:56
Speaker 3: like a mess, like an absolute mess actually the first
19:59
Speaker 3: like week or two. But then you just like day
20:02
Speaker 3: by day get like stronger, and that's something that I learned,
20:07
Speaker 3: like it never goes away. And just.
20:10
Speaker 4: Thank you for sharing that, because yeah, I probably can't even.
20:14
Speaker 2: Talk right now either, but but like it's always been
20:17
Speaker 2: my biggest fear to lose one of my parents.
20:19
Speaker 6: And then you know, you get married and then like
20:21
Speaker 6: your biggest spirits love at your spouse, then you have kids,
20:25
Speaker 6: and then like your real biggest spirits was your kids.
20:28
Speaker 3: But like.
20:30
Speaker 6: I I've never experienced any of it. It's like the
20:33
Speaker 6: scariest thing ever. And I feel so much for what
20:35
Speaker 6: you're going through.
20:36
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, but like I can't be Ashley at the
20:42
Speaker 3: end of the day, Like I can't be so sad
20:45
Speaker 3: over it, because like we look back and we do
20:48
Speaker 3: have to be grateful. Like my dad was eighty seven
20:50
Speaker 3: years old, like he was at an older age. He
20:54
Speaker 3: has experienced so much in his life, like everything and
20:58
Speaker 3: it's like he experienced everything. He had so many kids,
21:00
Speaker 3: we all loved him, and then like he got to
21:03
Speaker 3: even be with some of his grandkids. He just had
21:07
Speaker 3: like a beautiful, beautiful life. So it's like he wasn't
21:09
Speaker 3: cut short of anything, and you have to like remind
21:13
Speaker 3: yourself of that to be like, he lived a beautiful,
21:17
Speaker 3: beautiful life. So yeah, it's like it's hard.
21:33
Speaker 5: There's an interesting statement you made there where the grief
21:37
Speaker 5: will always be inside of you, but you'll grow stronger
21:41
Speaker 5: because I think we could, we should would We would
21:44
Speaker 5: sit here with you and talk about this moment and
21:47
Speaker 5: your dad and who he was to you and your
21:49
Speaker 5: family for hours, and it wouldn't do it justice. We
21:54
Speaker 5: will make the very weird transition.
21:56
Speaker 3: I have a good transition point.
21:59
Speaker 2: Well, okay, okay, what did your dad think about your ex.
22:06
Speaker 5: Who wronged you?
22:07
Speaker 3: So, to be honest, my dad was never like a
22:11
Speaker 3: judgy person, Like that's more you know, my mom will
22:14
Speaker 3: have more of an outward voice on things, but my
22:17
Speaker 3: dad was like are you okay? Like he was never
22:21
Speaker 3: he never he like never talked shit.
22:23
Speaker 7: Yeah, it's like my dad, my dad, Can you just
22:26
Speaker 7: call someone out and they suck no.
22:29
Speaker 3: He was like, no, they're great, They're great like that.
22:33
Speaker 3: So it was you know, I think actually my mom
22:37
Speaker 3: was like, can you put your podcast up here on
22:39
Speaker 3: the TV and out of like all of it, like
22:42
Speaker 3: my parents watching it. I think some of my siblings
22:44
Speaker 3: were here too. He said, he was like, hell, you
22:47
Speaker 3: look great on TV, like good job. Like it was
22:51
Speaker 3: never like negative, you know, it was always like hell,
22:54
Speaker 3: like proud of you, You're amazing. So yeah, it was.
22:59
Speaker 3: It was pretty funny. But I think, listen, I don't
23:03
Speaker 3: think he's gonna have much to say unless I really
23:06
Speaker 3: got caught up. But I didn't. Like I was in
23:08
Speaker 3: a relationship and I got out. That's that's the gist
23:11
Speaker 3: of it.
23:12
Speaker 5: But there is some interesting like points here that I
23:14
Speaker 5: think to make sense of it.
23:17
Speaker 1: All.
23:19
Speaker 5: The last few months have been horrific no matter what.
23:22
Speaker 5: Like the fact you got out of this relationship is
23:24
Speaker 5: a good thing, right, well, but like it's not. It
23:27
Speaker 5: doesn't make the breakup any less of a breakup. It
23:32
Speaker 5: was still a separation.
23:34
Speaker 3: It weirdly like the amount of pain for my dad,
23:37
Speaker 3: like it was almost like, oh my god, that doesn't
23:39
Speaker 3: even matter to me. Like the breakup. I think it
23:42
Speaker 3: was just more confusing for me, Like when if you
23:45
Speaker 3: went through a breakup and you're like okay and it
23:47
Speaker 3: finished on like fine terms, like okay fine. I think
23:51
Speaker 3: the hardest part was like confused in your head and
23:54
Speaker 3: then you go through this. But at the end of
23:55
Speaker 3: the day, I'm very grateful that the breakup happened, and
23:58
Speaker 3: then on nfortunately my dad's stuff happened, because if it
24:02
Speaker 3: was reversed and I had someone by my side consoling
24:05
Speaker 3: me through this and then I found out what was
24:07
Speaker 3: truly going on, that would have been like terrible, you know.
24:11
Speaker 3: So even though they both suck, like you, I'm just
24:14
Speaker 3: trying to look for what to be grateful for in
24:17
Speaker 3: each setting. Again, my dad passing, like it sucks and
24:22
Speaker 3: it's really sad, but then like I just try to
24:24
Speaker 3: think positively, like he lived a great life, He did
24:27
Speaker 3: everything he wanted, Like we got those three weeks to
24:29
Speaker 3: spend with him in the hospital telling him how important
24:32
Speaker 3: he was to us and how much we loved him
24:34
Speaker 3: and all that stuff, Like it wasn't just like a
24:35
Speaker 3: sudden he's not there anymore. So there's like so many
24:41
Speaker 3: little blessings within the horrible circumstances.
24:45
Speaker 5: Does that make it easier. Hearder you think which part
24:49
Speaker 5: the three weeks leading up?
24:51
Speaker 3: Oh so my brother, My brother made a comment, he
24:55
Speaker 3: spoke about it, and he was like, man, he was like, honestly,
24:59
Speaker 3: like you got to be great full Dad was eighty seven.
25:01
Speaker 3: He lived a beautiful life. He was still like walking
25:03
Speaker 3: around and even though he was a bit weaker, he
25:05
Speaker 3: like still was living a great life until the till
25:08
Speaker 3: the end. And he was like he wasn't in a wheelchair,
25:11
Speaker 3: he wasn't like strictly on oxygen for years on end,
25:15
Speaker 3: like he was still functioning. And he was like the
25:19
Speaker 3: difference is I would want to almost like when I
25:22
Speaker 3: have to go, He's like almost have a heart attack
25:23
Speaker 3: and like go, Like I don't even want those three weeks.
25:25
Speaker 3: And I was like, no, I highly disagree. Those three
25:27
Speaker 3: weeks were like beautiful to me. So it's like you
25:33
Speaker 3: got to spend time with him. You got to take
25:35
Speaker 3: care of him, like you got to like tell him,
25:42
Speaker 3: like you got to like tell him how important he
25:48
Speaker 3: was too.
25:50
Speaker 7: So you definitely get more closure that way, like you
25:52
Speaker 7: can't like you're not going to look back and be
25:54
Speaker 7: like I wish I said this, I.
25:55
Speaker 3: Wish I said that yeah, exactly exactly.
25:58
Speaker 4: I think it's probably best for everybody feelings.
26:01
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I think those three weeks were like beautiful.
26:05
Speaker 3: We got to like tell him everything we wanted to
26:10
Speaker 3: and and it's like this guy has like given us
26:17
Speaker 3: like everything, our whole life, like everything, Like he was
26:21
Speaker 3: so unselfish and it's like, how do you repay that?
26:26
Speaker 4: Not to be a Bachelor interviewer. But did Peter reach out?
26:31
Speaker 5: Uh?
26:31
Speaker 3: Yeah he did. He did, which was very nice. Yeah,
26:36
Speaker 3: he did. I mean he he was down here for
26:38
Speaker 3: the time that we were dating. You know, he knew
26:40
Speaker 3: my parents and my dad had his pilot's license and
26:44
Speaker 3: you know, Peter being a pilot, so they would have
26:47
Speaker 3: a conversation to talk about and it was like stupid
26:53
Speaker 3: little things. My dad has this old Jaguar, like a
26:55
Speaker 3: vintage car, and none of us, none of us kids
26:57
Speaker 3: know how to drive it, and Peter like knew how
26:59
Speaker 3: to drive stock. So like brand happiness that Peter might
27:03
Speaker 3: drive it around because no one else would appreciate it.
27:06
Speaker 3: You know, Peter reached out and that was very nice
27:08
Speaker 3: of them.
27:10
Speaker 5: The it's I didn't think about it that way, that
27:15
Speaker 5: this interesting season of life where you know, now you're
27:18
Speaker 5: sitting in something that's so much more important. You've talked
27:21
Speaker 5: about the the power of social media now in two
27:24
Speaker 5: different ways, uh, And I think that actually would be
27:27
Speaker 5: a very like unfamiliar experience for most people in the
27:32
Speaker 5: spotlight to have social media be used for two beneficial
27:36
Speaker 5: practice purposes, one communicating that the guy you're dating sucked,
27:40
Speaker 5: and then two coming in support of you and trying
27:44
Speaker 5: to share with you any insight that maybe would be
27:47
Speaker 5: helpful during this season of healing and processing and you know, loss,
27:54
Speaker 5: h Have you always had this kind of experience on
27:58
Speaker 5: social media? Is this or is this new?
28:01
Speaker 7: No?
28:02
Speaker 3: I mean not necessarily with the breakup. I think there
28:08
Speaker 3: was just a lot more details to give in this
28:10
Speaker 3: scenario that I just didn't know about. And that's maybe
28:13
Speaker 3: why it happened with my dad's situation in the social
28:18
Speaker 3: media Like it wasn't even the grief thing too, Ben,
28:21
Speaker 3: it was when we were in the hospital, the amount
28:24
Speaker 3: of people who were having like who had similar experiences
28:28
Speaker 3: that were like informing me and teaching me like NonStop,
28:31
Speaker 3: like whether it was hey, if he has double pneumonia,
28:34
Speaker 3: make sure like you're checking antibiotics. His body could respond
28:37
Speaker 3: poorly to this one, but it could like do this
28:39
Speaker 3: one better. Like they were just teaching me. And when
28:41
Speaker 3: it came to like the respiratory stuff him on oxygen,
28:44
Speaker 3: like people were telling me their past experiences and also
28:49
Speaker 3: just like helping, Like I was like messaging them back
28:51
Speaker 3: and I was like, hey, this is what's going on
28:52
Speaker 3: right now, Like what do you think it is? Whether
28:57
Speaker 3: his blood pressure dropped too low. We also had a
29:01
Speaker 3: family friend that we were calling and doctors and some
29:04
Speaker 3: of my girlfriends from Alabama. They were nurses that I
29:06
Speaker 3: was speaking to, but they're like, hey, if blood pressure
29:09
Speaker 3: is low and like his vitals are fine, like this
29:11
Speaker 3: is what could be going on. So I was like
29:13
Speaker 3: taking a picture of the vital sending it over to
29:15
Speaker 3: people and being like hey, like do you know what
29:18
Speaker 3: this means? And people were just like telling me. And
29:22
Speaker 3: then we would kind of tell the nurses like do
29:24
Speaker 3: you think it's just that and the other And we
29:25
Speaker 3: solved like a lot of problems with that. There was
29:30
Speaker 3: one point where his body was like two dehydrated and
29:34
Speaker 3: they need to get like a v an IV in
29:36
Speaker 3: him like asap, and that worked. And there was like
29:39
Speaker 3: another time where we thought we were going to lose him.
29:43
Speaker 3: They gave him too much of a diuretic, and like
29:46
Speaker 3: they're like we like the second doctor that came were
29:49
Speaker 3: like asked the nurse, like how much of a diuretic
29:51
Speaker 3: did they give him? And you saw his face he
29:53
Speaker 3: was like, oh shit. So I think, you know, there's
29:58
Speaker 3: there's things that can go wrong on a daily base
30:00
Speaker 3: there and it's not necessarily anyone's fault, but it's a
30:03
Speaker 3: kind of trial and error. So I was just learning
30:08
Speaker 3: like so much through social media with the grief, through
30:11
Speaker 3: the hospital experience. Yeah, and I guess the breakup, but
30:15
Speaker 3: it's it just made me think. I was like, man, like,
30:18
Speaker 3: social media is beyond powerful and I don't know if
30:23
Speaker 3: i've like ever. I feel like people have helped me
30:27
Speaker 3: in other scenarios too with this. This isn't like a
30:30
Speaker 3: one or two and done. I learn a lot from
30:35
Speaker 3: a lot of the people that follow me, and again
30:37
Speaker 3: I apologize for me not responding to everyone, but I
30:41
Speaker 3: was reading every single one of them and being like,
30:43
Speaker 3: how does this work? What's going on? But yeah, I
30:48
Speaker 3: think I don't know. Maybe I maybe I'm like pretty
30:52
Speaker 3: open with some things that are going on in my
30:54
Speaker 3: life and kind of ask and people respond, I don't know.
30:57
Speaker 3: I don't know, but yeah, I've like I've had I've
31:01
Speaker 3: learned a lot of other things too.
31:03
Speaker 2: Also weird transition. I think everything will be like a
31:05
Speaker 2: weird transition today. But like this is still on the
31:08
Speaker 2: topic of your family. Your sister's part of the Prince
31:11
Speaker 2: Harry and Megan Marvel produced series Polo on Netflix, and
31:16
Speaker 2: you appear in an episode.
31:17
Speaker 4: Did you guys ever interact with Harry and Meghan?
31:22
Speaker 3: They were at one So my sister and her husband
31:26
Speaker 3: do I don't know, once a year, twice a year,
31:29
Speaker 3: a couple of times a year, because they're in that world.
31:31
Speaker 3: I mean, I just go up there to do whatever,
31:34
Speaker 3: you know. My sister's like come to a game. There
31:36
Speaker 3: was one game that we went to that they were there,
31:38
Speaker 3: and like, if I wanted to, I could have gone
31:41
Speaker 3: and introduced myself with my sister, and but I was like, yeah,
31:45
Speaker 3: I just don't want to bombard them, you know, I
31:47
Speaker 3: just like, what am I going to say? Hi? So
31:51
Speaker 3: so yeah, no, they hosted a dinner, they hosted a
31:53
Speaker 3: game which I was at. They were around, but I
31:57
Speaker 3: was like, what would I even say?
32:00
Speaker 4: What about your sister?
32:01
Speaker 5: Does?
32:02
Speaker 2: She had more of a relationship or like can tell
32:06
Speaker 2: us like if which side is which side of Megan
32:09
Speaker 2: do we believe?
32:11
Speaker 3: I don't think she knows them well enough like that
32:15
Speaker 3: to like actually have an opinion when she's it's more
32:19
Speaker 3: of like dinners her husband playing games against them and
32:24
Speaker 3: they'll talk, but they're definitely not like close. Yeah, I
32:29
Speaker 3: think it's more so. And again, like Harry's not there
32:33
Speaker 3: on a day to day, like he's in that world
32:35
Speaker 3: and he'll play pullout here and there, but like he's
32:37
Speaker 3: not like has his own team playing and all these
32:40
Speaker 3: tournaments and all that stuff. Who's like in Wellington NonStop?
32:43
Speaker 3: You know, I don't I don't think. I don't know
32:46
Speaker 3: if he even has a place in Wellington, which is
32:47
Speaker 3: where they play. So I think it's more of pops
32:50
Speaker 3: and pops in and out.
33:02
Speaker 5: Just to be clear for anybody listening, I believe Kelly
33:04
Speaker 5: has a seagull that is chasing after something in the background.
33:08
Speaker 5: And so if you can hear a bird, Ashley has
33:11
Speaker 5: not gotten birds in her parents' house.
33:14
Speaker 6: It is a.
33:15
Speaker 5: Seagull saying hello to everybody listening. It looks like a
33:20
Speaker 5: beautiful place. By the way, I want to close this
33:25
Speaker 5: time with you out kind of going back to the
33:29
Speaker 5: question I asked earlier about kind of the legacy of
33:33
Speaker 5: your dad, because that never really got answered, and I
33:35
Speaker 5: want to make sure that gets answered answered. But I
33:37
Speaker 5: want to do at the very end because I don't
33:39
Speaker 5: want to obviously, like sandwich all of this up into
33:42
Speaker 5: like an emotional like bomb and then just make you,
33:46
Speaker 5: you know, have to sit in it. And so there
33:48
Speaker 5: are a few points that I want to pull out
33:50
Speaker 5: here that I think people are very curious about when
33:52
Speaker 5: it comes to the situation that happened a few months ago. Right,
33:57
Speaker 5: this made obviously a lot of headline. We covered it here,
34:02
Speaker 5: We talked about it here. It was very confusing for
34:05
Speaker 5: so many reasons, probably most confusing to you, Kelly. It
34:08
Speaker 5: sounds like you found out about your ex living. I
34:15
Speaker 5: don't know you put into your words, I'll put in
34:17
Speaker 5: the mind and you can correct me or tell me.
34:18
Speaker 5: I'm living a different life a second, like a whole
34:22
Speaker 5: nother life through social media to go back to that,
34:26
Speaker 5: but it sounds like this all kind of came in
34:28
Speaker 5: at the same Like from what I'm hearing from you
34:30
Speaker 5: is all these like messages started coming in at a
34:32
Speaker 5: similar time. And I want to know what sparked that,
34:35
Speaker 5: because if this was like a routine for him, if
34:38
Speaker 5: this wasn't something new to him, then why all of
34:42
Speaker 5: a sudden did multiple people reach out at the same time.
34:46
Speaker 3: I don't even know what. So I had a burner
34:49
Speaker 3: account messaged me and was like, if you're still again,
34:52
Speaker 3: like we weren't. We weren't in. We weren't in like
34:55
Speaker 3: a great place over the summer. But we broke up
34:58
Speaker 3: and I was like, all right, I need to get
35:00
Speaker 3: out of that. I need to get out and he's like, no,
35:02
Speaker 3: you know, give me another shot, give me another chance.
35:05
Speaker 3: So I just stopped posting him so much on social
35:07
Speaker 3: media because I was like, I don't know where this
35:10
Speaker 3: is going to go. I don't want to put the pressure,
35:11
Speaker 3: like outside pressure on this, Like I want to figure
35:13
Speaker 3: it out myself without an outside pressure. But I would
35:17
Speaker 3: I wasn't hiding anything. I would still post that I
35:20
Speaker 3: was in Philadelphia. I would still post that he would
35:23
Speaker 3: be in some of my photos. It's just like I
35:25
Speaker 3: just changed the trajectory to not being like this is
35:28
Speaker 3: my relationship twenty four to seven. So people would keep
35:31
Speaker 3: seeing those photos and then that's when I got someone
35:33
Speaker 3: message me to be like if you're still dating him,
35:36
Speaker 3: like he's essentially cheating on you, and I was like what,
35:41
Speaker 3: And so then I saw I started putting things together
35:45
Speaker 3: in my head and I was like what, Like there
35:47
Speaker 3: was other sketchy things that were going on that I
35:50
Speaker 3: probably was writing off in my head because I genuinely
35:53
Speaker 3: thought this person would like never be a cheater and
35:56
Speaker 3: like I was fooled, But there was other things going
35:59
Speaker 3: on where I remember this influencer she started following him
36:05
Speaker 3: this summer and I asked about it. I was like,
36:07
Speaker 3: because they had like a previous past. And I asked
36:10
Speaker 3: about it because I kept seeing her at events like everywhere.
36:12
Speaker 3: And I was never rude, I was never malicious. I
36:15
Speaker 3: just really would just like not not like give her
36:17
Speaker 3: the time of day, Like I wasn't gonna run up
36:19
Speaker 3: to her and say hi, I was just doing my thing.
36:23
Speaker 3: And then I said something to him about it, and
36:25
Speaker 3: I was like, you know what, I keep seeing this
36:27
Speaker 3: girl at all these events we have mutual friends. I
36:29
Speaker 3: feel bad that, like we were in a group circle
36:32
Speaker 3: and she was like standing out of it and it
36:34
Speaker 3: made me feel bad. So I said something along the
36:36
Speaker 3: lines of like I'm just gonna start being nice to her,
36:39
Speaker 3: and I noticed that tipped and I noticed that something
36:42
Speaker 3: was off, being like he was like why, you know
36:44
Speaker 3: why why? And it was like the energy was off
36:47
Speaker 3: with the way he responded, and I was like, I
36:49
Speaker 3: think there's something more going on here. So I went
36:52
Speaker 3: to her page and there was like a reel, and
36:56
Speaker 3: the reel said something along the lines of like, I
36:58
Speaker 3: ran into a guy that I used to have a
37:01
Speaker 3: thing with, and I don't think the reason for running
37:03
Speaker 3: into him is because we are going to date, but
37:05
Speaker 3: I but it just goes to show you that you
37:07
Speaker 3: could run into anywhere, anyone, any place, and like, I
37:10
Speaker 3: didn't expect to run into him. And I was like,
37:14
Speaker 3: why would she make the comment of I don't think
37:17
Speaker 3: running into him was the reason why we're going to date.
37:19
Speaker 3: If he openly told her we were openly dating, that
37:21
Speaker 3: wouldn't even cross her mind. So I knew something was off.
37:25
Speaker 3: So I reached out to a mutual friend and I said, Hey,
37:29
Speaker 3: are you close with this girl? Will you figure out
37:30
Speaker 3: what's going on? She was like that girl's a girl's girl.
37:32
Speaker 3: Reach out yourself, She'll tell you everything you want to hear.
37:34
Speaker 3: So then when I reached out to her, We got
37:36
Speaker 3: on the phone real quick and she's like, what do
37:38
Speaker 3: you want to know? And I told her this situation
37:40
Speaker 3: and she was like, holy shit, you've been dating him
37:42
Speaker 3: like this whole summer. I said yeah, and she was like, well,
37:45
Speaker 3: this is what's going on. And she sent me like
37:47
Speaker 3: receipts of everything and.
37:48
Speaker 2: Like there was something going on between her and him.
37:51
Speaker 3: So he would like keep it up in the air
37:53
Speaker 3: to be like, you know, I'm single, but I talked
37:58
Speaker 3: to Kelly today and I really love her, but who
38:02
Speaker 3: knows if we're going to get back together. So he
38:04
Speaker 3: was like keeping her on her toes, but he was
38:06
Speaker 3: like sending her black cars to come to a party
38:08
Speaker 3: and making them. He took her phone and was like,
38:13
Speaker 3: let's take a selfie together, very handsy with her and
38:15
Speaker 3: all that stuff. But she was the one. She was like,
38:17
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna lie. If I allowed it, something would
38:21
Speaker 3: have happened. But she was like there would be times
38:24
Speaker 3: where he made it like seem like it wasn't one
38:26
Speaker 3: hundred percent over and I just didn't want to overstep.
38:28
Speaker 3: That was one scenario. Okay, that was just one. So
38:32
Speaker 3: then I started researching and I was the one. I
38:34
Speaker 3: was like, I don't care how crazy I look. I'll
38:36
Speaker 3: reach out to anyone I can. And so I started
38:39
Speaker 3: reaching out to girls that like other sketchy things have
38:41
Speaker 3: happened with them around, whether it's friends or girls that
38:44
Speaker 3: I met, And then that's when it started really coming down.
38:48
Speaker 3: And then when I announced it, like it was like
38:50
Speaker 3: the flood gates opened. So that's kind of how it worked.
38:55
Speaker 3: And then this girl that he had sex with in
38:58
Speaker 3: California when I did the podcast, she reached out to
39:02
Speaker 3: me and she's like, give me all you want, and
39:03
Speaker 3: I said, okay, what happened? And she told me everything
39:07
Speaker 3: that he was like using my name to like pick
39:09
Speaker 3: them up, to being like this girl and like showing
39:11
Speaker 3: in my Instagram. This girl broke my heart. She broke
39:13
Speaker 3: my heart.
39:14
Speaker 2: No, this is all coming out after you did the
39:17
Speaker 2: Chicks in the Office interview, So like you would are
39:21
Speaker 2: you were already so screwed over by not screwed over,
39:23
Speaker 2: but you know, he was just totally unfaithful seeming going
39:26
Speaker 2: into that podcast. Podcast comes out, and then even more
39:30
Speaker 2: women come out of the woodwork.
39:31
Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, So she sent me like all the receipts
39:35
Speaker 3: and she told me what happened, and yeah, he was
39:37
Speaker 3: like using my name to pick them up, and but
39:41
Speaker 3: it's it's crazy, Like it's not only that, Like I
39:44
Speaker 3: was finding out even more stuff, like I found out
39:46
Speaker 3: that he was logged into my like personal Gmail account
39:51
Speaker 3: for over a year, and I was like, what the hell,
39:54
Speaker 3: Like every uber that I've taken, all my contacts, all
39:57
Speaker 3: of my like calendar, everything I would ever just like
40:01
Speaker 3: was on his phone, so like just creepy behavior like that.
40:08
Speaker 3: And he kind of like outed himself on that because
40:10
Speaker 3: I went to go log in and it was like
40:13
Speaker 3: a double authentication thing and he was like, by the way,
40:16
Speaker 3: like this popped up on my phone. I was like,
40:18
Speaker 3: why are you logged into my email? This was like
40:20
Speaker 3: when we were breaking up, and he was like, I
40:21
Speaker 3: don't know, like you must have logged in. I was like,
40:23
Speaker 3: I never logged in on your phone. And then I
40:27
Speaker 3: went to go look when that device was logged in
40:30
Speaker 3: and it was like October twenty twenty three, So I
40:32
Speaker 3: was like, this guy has had access to my personal
40:35
Speaker 3: email account for the past year. Like it just like weird,
40:41
Speaker 3: weird behavior. And I was finding out even more stuff,
40:45
Speaker 3: like I just genuinely had no idea who this person was.
40:48
Speaker 3: I found out that a big part of his career
40:55
Speaker 3: and success as they owned like strip clubs and he
40:58
Speaker 3: was helping manage them. Not once did I ever hear that,
41:02
Speaker 3: And it was like years of his life and I
41:06
Speaker 3: never knew any of that. Like I was under the
41:08
Speaker 3: impression that this guy hated strip clubs. Little did I know,
41:11
Speaker 3: like he was working them owning them, like and that's
41:16
Speaker 3: like equivalent to me dating someone for a year and
41:18
Speaker 3: a half and me never telling them that I'm an
41:20
Speaker 3: attorney or went to law school. Like it was like
41:22
Speaker 3: a prevalent time in his life and he would just
41:27
Speaker 3: like tell me that he didn't like them. So it
41:30
Speaker 3: was just like it just goes to show you, like
41:32
Speaker 3: I knew nothing, Like I thought this person was this way,
41:37
Speaker 3: and then like I just found out like almost every
41:41
Speaker 3: content and even when he cheated on me with the
41:43
Speaker 3: girl in California, like he told me he was out
41:47
Speaker 3: there for a conference with all of his like these
41:50
Speaker 3: buddies in this group that he's in. He told me
41:52
Speaker 3: he was out there for a conference, So I thought
41:53
Speaker 3: he was at these events for a conference. She's like, no,
41:55
Speaker 3: I met him at Delilah's. We went to a strip
41:57
Speaker 3: club together after, and then I went home with him
42:02
Speaker 3: on a day to day Like I didn't know what
42:04
Speaker 3: he was up to. It was like lies. I thought
42:06
Speaker 3: he was at these party conferences his past history. I
42:11
Speaker 3: didn't know anything about it. I thought he was managing restaurants,
42:15
Speaker 3: which I think they were also doing. But there was
42:18
Speaker 3: a lot of parts, whether it was past present that
42:22
Speaker 3: I just I didn't know anything. Like I again, I
42:26
Speaker 3: just had people reaching out to me telling me, like
42:28
Speaker 3: all of these crazy, crazy stories, and honestly, there's a
42:31
Speaker 3: lot that I don't even feel comfortable talking about, but
42:35
Speaker 3: it just goes to show you that, like I had
42:38
Speaker 3: no clue of who I was with.
42:40
Speaker 4: I'm just so surprised girls didn't reach out before.
42:44
Speaker 3: So I like asked that, And a lot of girls
42:48
Speaker 3: are under the assumptions that, like an influencer won't see it,
42:51
Speaker 3: or they were under assumption of you never know, she
42:54
Speaker 3: might be on a break with him and they might
42:55
Speaker 3: not be together. But a lot of the same thing
43:00
Speaker 3: was one, I didn't think you would see it, and
43:02
Speaker 3: then two like I didn't know where your relationship stood,
43:05
Speaker 3: and we didn't want to get involved and then a
43:08
Speaker 3: lot of people were like, we thought he changed. So
43:12
Speaker 3: between those it was that was like kind of the
43:16
Speaker 3: same answers.
43:18
Speaker 5: How did you guys meet through.
43:20
Speaker 3: Mutual friends, which I thought you could? Yeah, And with
43:27
Speaker 3: that too, I think our mutual friends knew more than
43:32
Speaker 3: I did and maybe didn't fully indulge. And then when
43:40
Speaker 3: the whole influencer thing happened, I actually called one of
43:43
Speaker 3: them and said, you were there, do you know anything?
43:47
Speaker 3: And she said no, but yeah, maybe they just don't
43:54
Speaker 3: want to get involved. I'm not sure, but I don't
43:56
Speaker 3: think I was getting the whole truth on that. That
44:00
Speaker 3: like kind of hurt me that I was like, ah, shit,
44:02
Speaker 3: like I value some of those people.
44:07
Speaker 5: This is the wildest like I mean, I know it's
44:11
Speaker 5: the like cliche comparison. It's like not only a TV show,
44:14
Speaker 5: but it's like the there's many TV shows I could
44:18
Speaker 5: like name right now that would make me think of
44:20
Speaker 5: this scenario, and none of them would be good. It's creepy,
44:25
Speaker 5: it's weird, it's deceitful, it's unfaithful, it's all these things
44:30
Speaker 5: and so and.
44:31
Speaker 3: What's even weirder too, is like again I was under
44:35
Speaker 3: the impression where you know, he would tell me things
44:37
Speaker 3: like me doing social media. It would be things like, oh, well,
44:43
Speaker 3: where I want my future to be is I want
44:44
Speaker 3: a flip phone. I don't even want to be on
44:46
Speaker 3: social media. I don't want it, like any of this stuff.
44:48
Speaker 3: And one I was like, well, this is my job
44:51
Speaker 3: and I actually really like it, like whether people make
44:53
Speaker 3: influencers or all. Like, I genuinely, truly truly enjoy what
44:57
Speaker 3: I do. And I'm like always so grateful day to
44:59
Speaker 3: day that I'm capable of doing this. But it always
45:03
Speaker 3: kind of made me feel like a little shitty that
45:05
Speaker 3: that was like completely different, Like he wanted this super
45:09
Speaker 3: private life and then I'm doing this and I was like, man,
45:11
Speaker 3: like I felt like you knew who I was coming
45:14
Speaker 3: into this, Like it's not like it just came to
45:16
Speaker 3: me while I was dating you.
45:18
Speaker 2: Yeah, he also probably wanted a very private life because
45:22
Speaker 2: the more you posted about him, the more likely he
45:25
Speaker 2: was going to get caught.
45:26
Speaker 3: Well what's crazy, Ashley is like, So he would say
45:29
Speaker 3: those things, but then when we break up, he went
45:31
Speaker 3: and bought like twenty five thirty thousand fake followers. So
45:35
Speaker 3: I'm like, do you understand how confusing that is for me?
45:38
Speaker 3: Like I have someone telling me like, no, I want
45:40
Speaker 3: nothing to do with this life. But then like.
45:44
Speaker 4: This is a liar.
45:46
Speaker 3: It just like that those things that like truly don't
45:50
Speaker 3: add up in your head. That's what like confuses you.
45:52
Speaker 3: But in the long run, like even now, especially going
45:55
Speaker 3: through my dad's stuff, like I just look back and
45:58
Speaker 3: I'm like thank the Lord, Like, can you imagine if
46:00
Speaker 3: I actually settled down with this and this became my life,
46:04
Speaker 3: like I would have been really bad, Like it would
46:07
Speaker 3: have been bad.
46:08
Speaker 4: Could you mention if you're with him during that vulnerable
46:11
Speaker 4: part of life.
46:12
Speaker 5: Was like the consoling and like and so what you're
46:15
Speaker 5: saying is the timing actually for his like messies. It
46:18
Speaker 5: seems actually it feels like it worked out in your
46:21
Speaker 5: favor in terms of like getting out of that.
46:24
Speaker 3: I could not imagine. I could not imagine if it
46:28
Speaker 3: happened like during or after. Like it again, everything happens
46:31
Speaker 3: for a reason. And even though everything was like so
46:35
Speaker 3: close together and it was really confusing in a really
46:37
Speaker 3: hard time for me, and like still a hard time
46:40
Speaker 3: with like my dad's stuff, but yeah, I'm very grateful
46:45
Speaker 3: that it happened before.
46:57
Speaker 2: Well, Kelly, between that story and just you know, the
47:01
Speaker 2: way you carry yourself, and you've always been so graceful
47:03
Speaker 2: and poised and so smart, and I you know, I
47:08
Speaker 2: don't know if it's something that would interest you, but
47:09
Speaker 2: I really do feel like you'd be really hard to
47:12
Speaker 2: beat as the Bachelorette for the next season, Like, come on,
47:15
Speaker 2: try to find a better candidate than you. I feel
47:18
Speaker 2: like everybody would love it. I think that you bring
47:19
Speaker 2: a lot of viewership back to the show. So I'm
47:22
Speaker 2: putting in my boucher for Kelly.
47:24
Speaker 5: So outside of the Bachelorette campaign, which we'll start here
47:29
Speaker 5: on the Almost Famous podcast, we'll be totally fine doing that.
47:33
Speaker 5: Would you say yes to it if they asked?
47:36
Speaker 4: I don't know perfect age thirty two.
47:40
Speaker 3: I think I'm a little bit older, you know what
47:42
Speaker 3: I mean.
47:42
Speaker 4: I don't think that everybody would like that.
47:44
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's true, but I don't think it's ever really
47:47
Speaker 3: been done. Like I'm thirty two. I would need guys
47:49
Speaker 3: that are like older. You know, you usually see the
47:52
Speaker 3: guys that's like twenty four to twenty five, but like
47:54
Speaker 3: my guys would have to be like late thirties, like
47:57
Speaker 3: maybe some forties that really.
47:59
Speaker 4: Thirty Hell of that we would love to see.
48:01
Speaker 3: It and actually, yeah, I don't know. I don't know, Ben,
48:07
Speaker 3: I never has never even like gone.
48:10
Speaker 5: There, well will now I'm guarantee there's gonna be a
48:14
Speaker 5: headline out tomorrow that says something similar to that. So uh,
48:20
Speaker 5: outside of the Bachelorette that we're very much in favor of,
48:24
Speaker 5: and it makes a lot of sense. And sometimes we
48:26
Speaker 5: say that and it's like, yeah, I don't know, I
48:27
Speaker 5: actually really like this idea. You, Kelly, We've obviously been
48:34
Speaker 5: a part of multiple you know, I love stories of yours, obviously,
48:40
Speaker 5: I don't know, Like Ashley said, is it Peter one,
48:42
Speaker 5: two or three? I don't I can't track how many
48:44
Speaker 5: times it's come back.
48:46
Speaker 2: Together making fun of you for that either, No, just
48:49
Speaker 2: like you.
48:50
Speaker 3: It's it's just like I find it funny. What am
48:55
Speaker 3: I doing?
48:56
Speaker 5: What with the lessons learned and romantically good and bad?
49:02
Speaker 5: Kind of where is your mind at right now when
49:05
Speaker 5: it comes to dating? What are you looking for? What
49:08
Speaker 5: have you kind of learned that you should be looking for?
49:11
Speaker 3: I listen. I usually I never regret any relationship, no
49:16
Speaker 3: matter how bad it is, I never regret it because
49:19
Speaker 3: there is always a silver lining of me learning something
49:23
Speaker 3: throughout all of them, So even like some of the
49:25
Speaker 3: hardest ones and all of that, like I won't regret it.
49:31
Speaker 3: But I think a lot of things that I've realized
49:34
Speaker 3: is I tend to go for I'm kind of a homebody.
49:39
Speaker 3: I don't really I don't really drink. It's a rarity
49:42
Speaker 3: for me. I'm a homebody. I probably should should get
49:48
Speaker 3: out more than I do. I think I'm like so
49:52
Speaker 3: reserved that it's like almost not healthy in that manner.
49:55
Speaker 3: So I need to like start going out more and
49:56
Speaker 3: socializing more. But I tend to date people that are
49:59
Speaker 3: like really really big partiers, are always out, extremely social,
50:05
Speaker 3: like kid not really sit in much. That's one thing
50:09
Speaker 3: I learned is like maybe stop going for someone who's
50:14
Speaker 3: put so much value on that. I think that's like
50:17
Speaker 3: been my lesson through some of them. Another thing I
50:24
Speaker 3: learned is it's gonna sound weird, but like I just
50:30
Speaker 3: want someone that I could just like laugh with and
50:33
Speaker 3: like has more of an easier going personality, like kind
50:37
Speaker 3: of my dad and my brother, my brother Tom, I'm
50:40
Speaker 3: like his biggest fan right now, just saying like all
50:42
Speaker 3: the stuff that he did for my dad and like
50:44
Speaker 3: how like loyal he was, and like how like he's
50:47
Speaker 3: just like a good person. He's not like super reactive.
50:52
Speaker 3: He's just like always in high spirits. And it's something
50:54
Speaker 3: I really value in him, and I valued in my
50:57
Speaker 3: dad that I've noticed, like some of my siblings are
51:00
Speaker 3: a little bit more harsh and rash and just like
51:03
Speaker 3: on a day to day, like I like never fight
51:06
Speaker 3: with him, and I just like really value his mindset.
51:11
Speaker 3: And I've been in relationships where people maybe were more
51:15
Speaker 3: explosive one and I've learned, like I don't do well
51:22
Speaker 3: with that personality, and I guess I just like I
51:28
Speaker 3: just want to have fun. I just want someone who's
51:31
Speaker 3: like not so reactive, because like I really don't do
51:34
Speaker 3: well with that, and maybe someone who's not necessarily like
51:38
Speaker 3: super social, super social partier, like NonStop, you're going.
51:42
Speaker 5: To be the coolest wife ever. Because once I got
51:46
Speaker 5: married Ashley and I joke about this, it's either thirties
51:49
Speaker 5: or its marriage. There's very few evenings that I'm not
51:53
Speaker 5: in bed by eight point fifteen, and I could not
51:56
Speaker 5: be happier. Like it is a dream. It just seems
51:59
Speaker 5: to happen. Once you find that person, I think you're
52:02
Speaker 5: onto something there. I actually think it's a key element
52:04
Speaker 5: in a relationship. When you find that human who is
52:08
Speaker 5: like so happy just being with you, which typically means
52:14
Speaker 5: you're married. It is like the most like amazing experience,
52:18
Speaker 5: and I want that for you because it changes things.
52:20
Speaker 5: And going out now seems like the most massive feat
52:24
Speaker 5: you can Actually it's the biggest.
52:27
Speaker 4: Unless it's like going out to dinner. That's the one thing.
52:29
Speaker 4: Oh my god, they're going to a party.
52:30
Speaker 5: Oh good goodness, going to a bar.
52:33
Speaker 4: Oh my god. I tell you, when the last time
52:36
Speaker 4: that happened?
52:37
Speaker 3: I know, and I don't. I'm just like I feel
52:39
Speaker 3: like I'm an old soul, but yeah, I don't know.
52:43
Speaker 3: But I'm telling you I'm almost unhealthy the other way,
52:46
Speaker 3: Like I'm almost like never want to leave, never want
52:49
Speaker 3: to do anything. I'm like a little reclue. So I
52:53
Speaker 3: think I did that in the past like a year
52:55
Speaker 3: and a half, two years or something. But I was like, Okay,
52:57
Speaker 3: I need to start pushing myself to get out to
52:59
Speaker 3: do things because I'm just like happy by myself and
53:05
Speaker 3: doing It's awesome. You guys have no idea how much
53:09
Speaker 3: I love plans like I love Yeah.
53:14
Speaker 5: You're in it. You're like fully dove in headfirst and
53:16
Speaker 5: I love it.
53:17
Speaker 3: Thirty like a family we have like a family farm.
53:21
Speaker 3: And by the way, I want to give a shout
53:23
Speaker 3: out because Kelsey Weir is guys, I don't know if
53:26
Speaker 3: you know her well, but truly the greatest human I
53:29
Speaker 3: have met on this entire earth. I've never met someone
53:32
Speaker 3: so supportive. I've never met someone who is just like
53:36
Speaker 3: there for you and like truly just like a great
53:39
Speaker 3: human being.
53:40
Speaker 4: You guys are roommates for a while.
53:42
Speaker 3: She I'm not going to speak on it, but she
53:46
Speaker 3: she came back to the US for a little bit,
53:48
Speaker 3: and yeah, she came to visit me in Miami and
53:51
Speaker 3: she we like spend months with each other whether whatever
53:55
Speaker 3: is going on. But yeah, her, she like immediately flew in.
53:59
Speaker 3: When we had the few her up in Chicago for
54:01
Speaker 3: my dad, she like immediately flew in. My brother is
54:05
Speaker 3: married and they're on their third kids. So life has
54:08
Speaker 3: just been like hectic for all of us. And Kelsey
54:12
Speaker 3: came in. She was like, all right, I'm cooking dinner
54:13
Speaker 3: for everyone. I'm doing this like anything that she could
54:16
Speaker 3: to get like everyone's mind off of whatever. Like we
54:19
Speaker 3: needed to write their obituary. We needed to like plan flowers,
54:21
Speaker 3: like there's a lot that you have to do for
54:22
Speaker 3: a funeral, and that girl came in just like a powerhouse,
54:25
Speaker 3: being like where can I help? What can I do?
54:29
Speaker 3: And just like literally I'll be on the phone just
54:31
Speaker 3: crying and she'll be like, it's okay, it's okay. I
54:35
Speaker 3: think sometimes I know that I just hide my emotions
54:39
Speaker 3: sometimes or maybe run away from them, and she was like,
54:42
Speaker 3: it's okay, cry it out, like speak about it. Like
54:45
Speaker 3: she's just she's very, very supportive and sweet and I
54:50
Speaker 3: couldn't ask for like a better friend.
54:53
Speaker 5: She's been in. Yeah, and it's nice that it comes
54:56
Speaker 5: from the show.
54:57
Speaker 3: Is like that's the thing that I'm most grateful for
55:00
Speaker 3: or like coming out of that show is her. But
55:03
Speaker 3: her and I are like little Grandma's together. We go
55:05
Speaker 3: and we guard. I don't think she likes the gardening
55:07
Speaker 3: as much as n she's like a truer with it. So, yeah,
55:13
Speaker 3: we do some boring things. In her thirties.
55:15
Speaker 4: Oh, she's known for her crying, so she definitely understands yours.
55:18
Speaker 3: You know what's crazy? Ashley from who Kelsey was shown
55:23
Speaker 3: on TV versus Who Kelsey is Maybe now I don't
55:27
Speaker 3: know if it was growth within her or if like
55:30
Speaker 3: she triggered on the show. She is a com She's
55:33
Speaker 3: probably one of the most stable people in certain senses.
55:37
Speaker 3: She loves her, she loves her what is it called
55:41
Speaker 3: conspiracy things, and she'll go on ransom but truly like
55:46
Speaker 3: a stable person. And then if I were to go
55:49
Speaker 3: back and watch the show, I'll be like, I don't
55:50
Speaker 3: even recognize that girl, Like it is like completely far fetched.
55:54
Speaker 3: I don't know if she was triggered on the show
55:56
Speaker 3: or if she's learned a lot and she's like, but yeah,
55:59
Speaker 3: she's nowhere near Like she's really not a big crier
56:03
Speaker 3: like I've since the show. I think she's maybe cried
56:06
Speaker 3: to me like two or three times. If that, it's
56:10
Speaker 3: just like a whole different person crazy.
56:14
Speaker 5: I kind of have that with my co host Ashley
56:16
Speaker 5: was known for crying, and she's very stable mom of two,
56:19
Speaker 5: like keeps life together. Now you can still get her going.
56:25
Speaker 4: Obviously, Yeah, but.
56:28
Speaker 2: Yeah, I would agree, I'm not like I cry, probably
56:31
Speaker 2: a little bit more on your average girl my age,
56:33
Speaker 2: but I wouldn't say it's very off.
56:37
Speaker 4: From the norm.
56:39
Speaker 3: Oh all right, well, we do want to finish.
56:41
Speaker 2: With you giving a little bit of a debdication to
56:43
Speaker 2: your dad, even though I know that this is very hard.
56:47
Speaker 5: Well, yeah, and the reason is because you you started
56:50
Speaker 5: the show off. You came on here and you said, Hey,
56:52
Speaker 5: I thought I was in a place I wanted the
56:54
Speaker 5: opportunity to talk about it is what you said, and
56:56
Speaker 5: you thought you were in a place that you could
56:58
Speaker 5: do it. You know, I don't know what you expected,
57:00
Speaker 5: like without emotion, but I don't know if that's ever
57:02
Speaker 5: going to exist. It's a sweet testament. I see it
57:06
Speaker 5: as like the most pure, sweetest testament. So I did
57:09
Speaker 5: we do want to give you the opportunity as we
57:11
Speaker 5: close out here to kind of send us off with
57:13
Speaker 5: a message of what you wanted to say, like why
57:16
Speaker 5: did why did you want the opportunity to speak about
57:18
Speaker 5: this moment?
57:19
Speaker 3: Yeah? I think I just want to speak about this
57:21
Speaker 3: is because one again, like I didn't know this kind
57:26
Speaker 3: of pain existed, and going through this experience, I have
57:31
Speaker 3: learned that it is probably one of the most painful
57:34
Speaker 3: experiences anyone will ever experience. And I personally want to
57:41
Speaker 3: say that like I feel and I now understand like
57:46
Speaker 3: people that have experiences I now could like understand what
57:52
Speaker 3: they've gone through, and before that, I had no clue, Like,
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Speaker 3: no clue. You always here like someone's parent passing and
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Speaker 3: you're like, man, I feel bad for them, but like
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Speaker 3: until you experience it yourself, I genuinely don't think people
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Speaker 3: understand the pain. And again I've been learning, and I
58:16
Speaker 3: think the most important thing is again, it'll never go away,
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Speaker 3: but you do get stronger, and just like, be easy
58:28
Speaker 3: on yourself. Don't sit here and think like I need
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Speaker 3: to get over this. I need to get over this
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Speaker 3: I have right now. I thought I was strong enough
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Speaker 3: to do this, but I can't keep it together. But
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Speaker 3: sometimes I try to push those emotions off and it's
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Speaker 3: like no, no, no, it's healthy to feel them, feel them,
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Speaker 3: and it's okay. And it almost goes to show you
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Speaker 3: how much I appreciated this man, because like he's done
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Speaker 3: everything for us. But I feel for anyone going through this,
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Speaker 3: and I'm thankful that a lot of people have helped
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Speaker 3: me through this, some people I don't even know, just
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Speaker 3: social media connections and teaching me about grief and teaching
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Speaker 3: me like how its what the trajectory of this looks like.
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Speaker 3: You can't just sit there and say like oh, I'm
59:18
Speaker 3: gonna move on from this like a relationship and have
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Speaker 3: closure there, like like you want him here, like you
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Speaker 3: didn't want him to pass, Like you don't ever sit
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Speaker 3: there and think like negative things towards him, if anything,
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Speaker 3: You're like, I love you, like I don't want you
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Speaker 3: to go, but I guess you just like learn how
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Speaker 3: to live with it.
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Speaker 2: I just can't imagine being like that getting over that
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Speaker 2: thought of like I can't FaceTime him, like I can't
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Speaker 2: just tell him this or that, and it's like he's
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Speaker 2: never gonna.
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Speaker 4: Sit in that chair in the failure room with us
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Speaker 4: and stuff like that.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, And it's actually crazy because you a lot of
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Speaker 3: people who like reach out and have like a lot
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Speaker 3: to say are people who have experienced this. For example,
1:00:03
Speaker 3: like Hannah Ann her husband's father just passed away, so
1:00:09
Speaker 3: super super supportive, like super supportive, sending flowers, like sending
1:00:13
Speaker 3: me these messages. Again, Kelsey is like my Diehart hero
1:00:17
Speaker 3: that I owe her the world. But you have other
1:00:21
Speaker 3: people that have experienced this, and like when things like
1:00:23
Speaker 3: this happen, you like they come in strong and you
1:00:26
Speaker 3: never you never suspect some of them. But it's just
1:00:30
Speaker 3: crazy how a lot of people that like showed up
1:00:33
Speaker 3: to my dad's wake, even a lot of them were
1:00:36
Speaker 3: people who have lost a parent, and like understand the pain. Again,
1:00:40
Speaker 3: Like before this, I was naive to it. I had
1:00:42
Speaker 3: no idea what it felt like. And you hear someone
1:00:45
Speaker 3: losing a parent, You're like, oh, I feel bad for them,
1:00:47
Speaker 3: and but you really really don't understand it until you
1:00:51
Speaker 3: experience it. And then I think, just like, lean on
1:00:57
Speaker 3: your family, lean on your friends to get over to
1:01:01
Speaker 3: get over some of the grief and to learn how
1:01:04
Speaker 3: to deal with it. My family has like a very
1:01:08
Speaker 3: sarcastic way of you know, saying his jokes or all
1:01:12
Speaker 3: of this stuff. But we just like keep living through
1:01:16
Speaker 3: him with a lot of the things that he does,
1:01:18
Speaker 3: and even things that he would get like upset about
1:01:21
Speaker 3: will be like running around and we'll say and it'll
1:01:23
Speaker 3: make us laugh instead of getting like really really sad
1:01:26
Speaker 3: and the dumps about it. We just keep trying to
1:01:29
Speaker 3: keep it like super super lighthearted and it helps a
1:01:33
Speaker 3: little bit. And I think the one thing too, that
1:01:35
Speaker 3: I learned from this experience is like something that really
1:01:38
Speaker 3: helps is people that knew him and people that message
1:01:43
Speaker 3: you like stories about the experiences that they had about
1:01:47
Speaker 3: him or with him, those like take a little bit
1:01:51
Speaker 3: of the pain away because you're like, oh my god,
1:01:52
Speaker 3: like other people saw it too, or like it brings
1:01:55
Speaker 3: you back to like a memory that other people have
1:01:57
Speaker 3: experienced with him, and it's like it brings like a
1:02:00
Speaker 3: smile to your face. That I have learned. And then
1:02:04
Speaker 3: another thing I've learned is when this happens, like you,
1:02:10
Speaker 3: none of us wanted to leave the couch. We didn't
1:02:11
Speaker 3: want to leave the couch. I could like barely eat.
1:02:15
Speaker 3: I could like didn't want to get up and like
1:02:17
Speaker 3: make myself food, and some of our neighbors like brought
1:02:20
Speaker 3: over like homemade lasagna are like food. And one of
1:02:24
Speaker 3: the things that I've learned is like if one of
1:02:26
Speaker 3: my friends has to unfortunately deal with this, which everyone will,
1:02:30
Speaker 3: but like at an age like mine, it it just
1:02:34
Speaker 3: kind of sucks even more. But food, Sending food is
1:02:38
Speaker 3: like one of the best things you could do in
1:02:40
Speaker 3: this scenario, because like the last thing people want to
1:02:43
Speaker 3: do is like get up and start like making food.
1:02:45
Speaker 3: So sending food to us was just like huge. I
1:02:50
Speaker 3: was like, all right, I'm popping into lasagna in and
1:02:51
Speaker 3: like we're good to go, and I would like take
1:02:53
Speaker 3: some bites, but you just learn certain things. And I
1:02:57
Speaker 3: think what those two things is, you know, do give
1:03:00
Speaker 3: Sending them food really helps. But then also people who
1:03:04
Speaker 3: are sending like a memory that they had with him
1:03:06
Speaker 3: is like takes a little bit off.
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Speaker 5: Kelly, you said something that will stick with me, hopefully forever.
1:03:15
Speaker 5: My memory isn't always great, but it hopefully will. You
1:03:17
Speaker 5: said that in moments of this type of pain, the
1:03:21
Speaker 5: grief may never leave you, but you're just going to
1:03:23
Speaker 5: grow stronger. Kelly. I think you are in the midst
1:03:25
Speaker 5: of that, and I think you're a testament to that,
1:03:29
Speaker 5: and I believe it to be true because I'm seeing
1:03:32
Speaker 5: it in you. Thank you for coming on here, thank
1:03:35
Speaker 5: you for having this conversation. Thank you for speaking into
1:03:37
Speaker 5: the people out there listening who have probably gone through
1:03:40
Speaker 5: something similar and as you said, it's a part of life.
1:03:43
Speaker 5: We all will at some point. And thank you for
1:03:45
Speaker 5: giving us some words of love and wisdom. And again,
1:03:51
Speaker 5: there aren't a lot of words in this moment too,
1:03:56
Speaker 5: there's no words to make you know any of this better,
1:03:58
Speaker 5: but we are thinking about you. You and the family.
1:04:00
Speaker 5: Please pass that on, and we appreciate you coming on
1:04:06
Speaker 5: keep doing you. You've been through a lot, and I
1:04:10
Speaker 5: guess I just want to tell you, probably like Kelsey
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Speaker 5: told you, it's okay to feel it, because goodness gracious
1:04:19
Speaker 5: you have you've been through it in the last few months.
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Speaker 5: So thanks for sharing your story.
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Speaker 3: All right, guys, thanks for having me.
1:04:28
Speaker 4: Oh, thanks for being here and for sharing.
1:04:31
Speaker 3: Yeah.
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Speaker 4: Sending you so much love, Bye bye, guys.
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