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Know Your Worth & Pursue Your Passion · Voice Notes After Dark

• MirandaFINAL: No no. Hello, hello, hello. Welcome to Voice Notes After Dark. We are here with Miss Miranda Parker, who is a everything app creator, script writer, author, podcast host. I mean, what what don't you do, Miranda, at this point? Is there anything? I I don't work well with technology. I think that's Do you juggle no kids? I don't juggle. No, I need to be taught. I need I need to be taught how to do that. Hello, everybody. It's so nice to have thank you so much for coming in and chatting with us. We really appreciate you being here. Thank you for having me. Yes, absolutely. And B and I are huge fans of your scripts. We love what you write. We love the way that you do things. We're going to talk about a few of our favorite projects that you've done. But let's just kind of start at the beginning and let you just kind of tell us a little bit about. How you got into this space? Were you a listener? Were you how long have you been writing? That kind of stuff. So it's kind of funny. I I didn't even realize that like smut was a thing. I mean I I f was definitely in the fifty shades of gray territory at one point and like, you know, a fan of Twilight and stuff like that. But I didn't know there was an actual genre for those kinds of books. and so I was scrolling through Instagram one night and I heard a voiceover of, you know, somebody was like cleaning their house and listening to a dirty audiobook. A novella called Scream for Us by Molly Doyle. I bought it, I listened to it nonstop for I kid you not, like over a week. I just had it on repeat and it changed my entire life. It I I just I was instantly in love with the way that You know, it it got spicy, but then there was some like suspense in it. It was a Halloween novella as well. It was it was a reverse harem with all three like serial killers like she's a she's out of yes, exactly. It was lady. Yeah. Why choose ghostface, Michael Myers, Jason? Like it was every single thing that I'd ever loved. Screaming for us by Molly Doyle. Yes. I mean I when I started, I jumped right in the deep end. I was like, let's let's go. I did the same. I did the same. My first one was Butcher and Blackbird and then Under Your Scars. But that was because a lawyer that I follow on YouTube kept talking about her second Audible account that she hides from the secret. So so yeah, I just I got I I I became like a completely different person just by listening to this book and it it was like there was a whole new side of me that came to light. And it somewhere in listening to that I was like, I could totally do this. Like I have great ideas, I should write them down. And I have a musical theater background and and so I'm I I'm a singer and I've always been into art and and creating in any fashion has always been something that I just absolutely love. And so I was like, I could totally do this. And I sat down and I started writing, and I wrote the first very rough draft of my novel. And I wrote it in like a week. I was I I could not put my phone down. I was typing every second I had. And Simultaneously while I was starting to do this, I was telling people about it. And I had a friend of mine at work who was like, it's kind of like Quinn. Have you ever heard of Quinn? And I was like, No, what's that? And she was like, let me teach. And boy, did she teach me. I mean, from the moment it it it was put in my ears, I consumed it regularly. And I I think everybody has a very similar story to this. Like once you start listening to it, you're just like, This is my whole life now. I'm like it's a freedom. Like it's it's so it's so freeing and it's it it really does open your eyes to so many different things. And yes, of course it's spicy. Yes, of course it's explicit, but at the same time I felt like I was finally being seen for the first time for who I really am inside. I was finally seeing yourself. Yes, exactly. And I was finally understanding some of the reasons I was like attracted to certain things and to certain people and to certain situations and I it it just it was a completely new world and it was all consuming. It it was all I could talk about, it was all I could think about. And then I found the community and I made really good friends and you know, instant friends because all of us were like, can we talk about this? Can we talk about it's one of those audio right now. It's like autism and like special interest, like hyperquin and then it's like, You are my friend. Hi. Yes, exactly. Immediately. We are my you are my people. Yes. Exactly. And so, yeah, that's the magic word. Like, as soon as you're like, Do you know Quinn? And you're like, Yes. Like, my gosh. and so I became friends with someone in the community, and we talked every day. We started like this whole friendship. excuse me. And she was toying with the idea of becoming a voice actor. And you know, I was all encouraging. I was like, absolutely, that sounds like such a fun thing. Like I would totally do that if I knew how to work technology. But I was like, I have no idea how to edit or do any of that stuff. So maybe I should just like try to write a little bit of it. Like I could totally write a script like that. And so while she was starting to kind of research how to become a voice actor and and figure out how to do that, I the same time kind of figured out how to do script writing. And I did a lot of research w reading through scripts on Reddit, reading through script formats. I read different types of scripts, female for female, male for female, male for male, just like all of these different things. I did so much research. Not to mention I was listening to audios 247. and trying to figure out it's re it's for science. Science exactly. as long as you've got a pen and a piece of paper, it's academic. Yeah, exactly. Exactly. So I was I was like really studying how the flow of a script would go and what different tropes like kind of started out as. And I eventually started to kind of get my own flow. And this this creator who became a voice actor, she was like, Can you write me something perhaps? Or do you have anything you could write for me? And I was like, Absolutely. I'll give it a shot. So I wrote a female for female narrative based on some of the characters from my book, and she recorded it. And if you haven't figured out who she is yet, it's Alice. It's Alice. I was waiting. I was waiting very, very impatiently. Can we just say that Alice is amazing? Let's just throw that out there. One of the best female voice actors on the planet. Stunning. And a stunning human being. Just a chef's kiss. All the way around. yeah, when when she recorded it and sent it to me for the first time, I cried in my kitch. I was cooking dinner. I cried in my kitchen listening to her bring my words to life. And I was just like, This is what I need to be doing right now. Yeah, so she she performed First Taste and she uploaded it onto Reddit and it was pretty successful and her voice obviously started to catch everyone's attention and Kind of all at the same time. She and Lux and I became really good friends. And then both of them got onto Quinn as voice actors. And then she became friends with Dr. Rapture and they started talking about doing a collab. And then fast forward a little bit, I wrote them their first collab. And that was my first debut on Quinn as a script writer. It was double booking. I love that. Wow. Talk about a Banger introduction to Quinn. Like Doc and Alice, come on. Again, I just went right for the deep end. Like there is no there is no stopping. There's like just just pass go and continue. Hey, that's like us, babe. Like here we are, first episode. We're we're bang it. We're talking to Atlas, our first episode ever. Like, I mean, you just you get the opportunity, you just fucking go for it. And you just absolutely like there's no other way to go. Absolutely. Yeah. Have panic attacks be damned. Exactly. You just br you breathe through that bitch and you just go. And that's how I've always been with pretty much everything. And when I find something that is a passion of mine, which script writing has become such a passion of mine. And I really didn't go into it expecting anything out of it. What I really wanted to do was just create something good that was sexy and fun and entertaining. And it became So much more than that. And now having done over ninety scripts on Quinn, I I hit over two million plays recently. I was gonna say I I wish we'd wow. Yeah. I I think I'm at ninety-two right now. do you have like a a playlist? I do. I do. You'll have to link you'll have to send off. Yeah, we'll link it. I'll put it in the notes because there is one. It's just written by Miranda Parker. It's all on there, everybody's on there. worked with like I think gosh 16 voice actors maybe 16. and that was one of my goals when I started I really wanted to write for as many voice actors as possible and one of the main reasons was because obviously it would be a lot of fun to write for multiple people but I wanted to challenge myself to see if I could because writing for female voices is different than writing for male voices. Writing for a female audience is different than writing for a male audience and non-binary and you know, just all of the different tropes and everything. I mean, the same script writer can write the same script four different times and have it be a completely different experience if you have different actors performing it. So it's it's one of those things where I just was obsessed with the fact that I could create something in my own mind and put it down on paper and then have someone else interpret it in their own way and bring it to life in a way that I couldn't even think of. And so it was just You also from a musical theater background, aren't you? I am, I am. I so am. I mean that's something that I talk about all the time in the audio book space is that, you know, who who ta who voices something, how they act. How they portray how they interpret words on a page can completely change what looking at words on a page and hearing how that person interprets you can completely change your experience of any form of media. You're fine, babe. So I mean, like it's it's crazy how that happens. But you know, I've said a lot of times it's amazing what happens when women feel like they have permission to do something, like when they finally feel like they're free to do something. And it's something that's so special about women in general is that once we f there is no geek gatekeeping a lot of generally with women. Like we find something that we love that makes us feel happy and makes us feel good. And all we want to do is tell everyone else about it and participate in it as much as possible and give that gift that we've that we have to other people now. And that's exactly like it's almost infectious, like you You're like, I want everyone to feel the way I feel, you know? And it's it's like it's my Doctor Who Discord knows about it now. Like I'm just like, you'll never guess who Matt Sm where Matt Smith is right now. Yes, exactly. Exactly. No, I'm the I'm the same way. And when I did find all of this and I really found my passion for writing, it's all I could talk about. It's all I could think about. And you know, I really I I am a very passionate person and when I find something that I'm passionate about, I will fight tooth and nail for it and I will work hard at it. If I don't care about something, you cannot force me to do it. You just can't. And so when I started to get into the space and into the community and start reaching out to voice actors and pitching them these scripts of mine, which by the way, I have anxiety, much like most other people in the world. I I've never had stage fright though. That is one thing that I can say. I've never had stage fright. If I get up in front of a thousand people and sing, I'm totally fine. But if you get me in a room with two people that I have to say hi to you, no at it. Like people that you know as well. Yes. No. Exactly. Exactly. So it it was very difficult for me to start marketing myself and reaching out to people and especially voice actors that I had been listening to. And I was like, my God, am I actually going to send an email to this person? Am I going to DM someone that doesn't know me? And Exactly. This is like a celebrity to me. Trust me, girl. I get it. And and and and the thing is, like, and again, to bring it back to Alice, her main thing was always, what's the worst that could happen? Like all the worst that they can say is no, and then you're in the exact same spot that you were in. And then you just keep going. So I had that little void I had her little voice in my head and I started DMing people and I would just I had like this whole pitch written out and again I don't gatekeep. I have helped many writers figure out how to reach out to people. I I'm always very open about, you know, if you're gonna reach out to someone, say, Hi, hello, my name is so and so. Right. This is what I do. If you wanna see what I've done already, here's the link. Like so that you know I'm a real person. I'm really interested in working with you. Here's what I have. Like you just you just have to be genuine about it. And I was working with Alice, I was working with Lux. I worked with Dr. Rapture a few times. and I have I I've worked with so many others and and now I kind of have my own little roster of people that I work with regularly. I work with Adrian, I work with Miles, I work with Dolph, I work with Rum. And I I I have built up a rapport with them and a routine and kind of a reputation of giving my scripts to them at certain times or or when they need different things. And like we all have this very professional relationship. And it's funny because we're all still humans. We all still are like Hey, what's up? How you doing? You know, here here's what's going on. Here's a random meme of like Frodo screaming at nothing. You might like it. Yeah, and you form this bond, this trust like between the two of you because it really trust is so important in this space. And once you've found that trust with someone, you really do have to hold on to that, you know. And a hundred percent. Yeah. And and the main thing about writing a script for someone in in this particular genre. You're writing something so intimate. You're writing something so vulnerable. And and yes, most of the time it's character work. Like they're actors, they're reading a character, they're they're portraying a character. But at the same time, just like how I put a little bit of myself in each one of my scripts. Yep. They put a little bit of themselves in each one of their characters. And that's what's so wonderful about it is that's why they interpret it a certain way rather than if somebody else were to read it. And I don't always have a voice actor in mind when I'm writing a script. I sometimes will just write the script idea and be like, my gosh, this is the idea. And I just put it down on paper. And then I'm like, who would be good for this? And then sometimes if I'm writing, I will have an idea and I'm like, my gosh, this character is Perfect for rum. Like just absolutely perfect. And I've gotten to the place where I've listened to Rum enough and written for him enough to know his cadence and his style and what he likes and what what tags he goes for, what works for him in terms of numbers as well. Like what what kind of pushes his boundaries a little bit? What kind of Yes. you know, goes outside of the box of what his audience is looking for, if he's wondering about, you know, kind of exploring a new thing, but if it's gonna work. Like I pay attention to all of those things when it comes to writing for these main guys that I have. I do it with Miles, I do it with Dolph, I do it with Adrian. Like I really pay attention and focus on all of those details when I'm writing a script specifically for them because I want it to be successful. I want it to be successful for them. And Sometimes I will have an idea and I'm like, my god, this character is so rum or it's so Adrian. Do you ever like write a sentence like of them saying something and suddenly they're just it's they're in your head saying that sentence and you're like, yeah. Yeah, that's that's for them. A hundred percent. A hundred percent. I wrote a script last night, actually. I had an idea randomly pop into my head and I wrote the whole thing and I heard Rum's voice the whole time. And I was just like, okay, we'll see if he wants it. I don't know if he needs it or wants it, but this is like the tropes, the tags, everything. I was just like, okay, well, that that came out as rum. Yeah. We'll see if he likes it. If he doesn't like it, there are ways for me to tweak it and change it and manipulate it to be good for another voice actor's voice. I I know exactly how Miles would spin it. I know exactly how Adrian would spin it and make it their own and kind of what I would add or what I would change or tweak or things like that. And so it's it's it's never a guarantee that someone is going to perform a particular script. And that's what's so interesting and and what I've learned over the past two and a half years, I think, that I've been writing now, is that you can't hold on to it too tightly. You can't, you can't hold on to every single word and be like, you have to say this exactly how I wrote it. You have to do it exactly how I wrote it. the magic happens in the improv. Like Yeah, we were talking to so like a writer, I think it no, it was it was it was Storm and Atlas, wasn't it? Storm, yeah, and Atlas, yeah. And it was so, so awesome to hear how both of them thought of the script. Like, because he said that he improved a lot of the aftercare, but he also said that he felt like he had to do that because the intensity that he saw from the script that I he didn't know whether she'd actually that she knew that she wrote it that intense. Mm-hmm that And they did made it. It was just like, Well it's amazing because I've I I've had a script go out before and I'm like, okay, it was good. I liked it. I'm proud of it. I like I'm never gonna give something away to someone or or hand it off to someone if it's just mediocre. I I'm I'm always like good with it or satisfied with it and I've I've taken it to the to the point where I am like, okay, this is the way that I want it to be. Here you go. And I've had it performed before where I will send them a note and be like, my God. I have my script idea that there were so many levels to this or that there were so many layers to this character. my God. my God. my God. And And I have actually said, like, I am not speaking to the character that you are right now. I'm not speaking to Miles Dolph Rum, whomever. I am speaking to the actor behind this character because that was spectacular. Yep. I honestly thought Amazing. You were gonna say, I am not speaking to you right now. I have wanted to do that several times as well because Yeah. Just how dare you? How dare you be so good. How dare you? How dare you? We say that every day, like at least four or five times a day. Yeah. It's incredible. How dare you? Isn't it? Like increased. Speaking of that though, your latest one with Dolph. how dare you? How dare you? I had to go back and double check that there was only one voice in there. Because it was written so well that I was like You can hear it. It you Was it an MF? Or was it an Thank you. Thank you. That was incredible. I will say there are some scripts and you can ask my ba like I have a few beta readers and they're my ride or dies. And I yeah, when I give them my scripts, I'm always like, This is absolute shit. Can you help me? Can you help me? This is absolute shit. I don't know what I'm writing. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know where I'm going with this. And they'll come back with some notes and just be like, Here, tweak it a little bit this way, or this is Too disjointed, like figure this out. And this one about killed me. I will tell you that. I was screaming about this for so long. It felt like the technical ability of just writing that is insane. At no point did I wonder who he was talking to. So which one he was talking about. So happy. That is only the goal. It was That was fabulous, Murinos. Because I've never s I've never listened to an audio where it's like, for example, MM4F and there wasn't two voices. Or the actor didn't do both voices. Right. And it was fabulous. Thank you. Thank you. The vision that I had in my head, it it really was simply that a wife was gifting her husband something that he had been desiring for so long and they had talked about it for a really long time and then it was finally coming to fruition. And she was just simply going to sit back and enjoy it with him. Yeah. And and watch him enjoy this piece of himself that he didn't ever get to have before. Such a sweet concept to begin with. I just love how he was so he was so wanting to share that. He he wasn't only going like, you know, you need to You need to like kiss this guy. He was also like you need to mm my wife, mm, you need you need to get in on this. Yeah, exactly. No, it was beautiful. It was beautiful. Well, that was another thing too when I got into script writing is that I wanted things to mean something. I d even strangers to lovers or just like a random hookup or exes to livers or whatever. I wanted there to always be a level of truth within my scripts. Even if I make a fantasy one, like I made a werewolf one with Adrian last year and it was like Completely ridiculous. Or the Christmas one that I did with Alice and Dolph, where they were elves. Like I just like the absurdity. The absurdity of it. But there's always a level of genuine honesty within it. And I always want to at least have a message or some sort of connection because that's the whole point is having a connection. You have to have connection between the actors and the listener. You have to have connection between the actor and the actor if there are more than one in the scene. And and so I wanted people to hear my audios and feel something afterward. Like whether it be just giddiness or like bitter sweetness or or some sort of just that was so good. Like that is always my goal. And I and I think that that's what I've been able to achieve so far, which has been so unbelievably rewarding for me. And when people talk about my audios and they say that, you know, it it it touched them in this way or that way, it just it makes me so unbelievably happy to be able to continue doing that. And and that's the ultimate goal is to is is to make something beautiful and have people resonate with it for sure. You you are my dream guest. Like I All that I ever want on all that we ever want is to have someone who's pa as passionate about things as we are. And I love hearing I love hearing people talk about things that they love and things that they're passionate about. Because it's literally there's no time when anyone is more interesting than when they're talking about something that just means the world to them. And it bleeds out of you like how much you love what you do. And and Every person that I have personally spoken to the in this community, whether it be in a DM, whether it be in an interview, however the format, every single person has been touched by you in some way in this community. By you helping them, by you just supporting them, by you just being a cheerleader for them. Like your your voice in this community is so important to so many people. And I I I genuinely have s heard your name mentioned by so many people in so many private DMs about how much they appreciate your support or how much you give, you know, your opinions, how much you help other people. And that is a special thing. Because and it and it does come from passion. You know, like you like we were just talking about, when you are passionate about something, you don't mind sharing it with other people. You want to share it with other people. Like you want everyone to love it as much as you love it. And like I said, it just bleeds out of you. And I just like you are the kind of person that I I think is such a example of what this community can be and what it is for a lot of people. So just Know that you are so loved and so respected in this community. Thank you so much. This this community has given me so much back as well. And th the act from the actors to the other script writers to just the listeners and the community as a whole, I mean the obviously a lot of people have seen lately what I've been kind of going through and dealing with and it's gotten really hard for me to create. lately because I've been in a situation in my personal life where I haven't always been able to be myself. And when I discovered Quinn and discovered writing, a piece of myself finally blossomed and I was able to actually see who I was inside. I was able to connect with my own sexuality. I was able to connect with you know just being a woman in in general, it it it felt like I had been put into a box of, okay, you're a mom, you're a wife, you're a sister, you're a daughter, period. This is how you do this, this is how you do this, this is how life is going to be. And when I discovered that, you know, I I I I discovered that I was pansexual, actually. I I I at first said that I was bisexual, but I'm I'm more pansexual because Throughout all of this I have just realized how much I just love human beings. Like I really don't care where you come from, what you have between your legs, what is going on in your life. If I illustrious words of David, you know, it's not the wine it's not the label. It's you know, you don't care what it's no with the other thing Yes. I'm into the wine, not the label. Not the label. Exactly. Like I have because I literally don't care. Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. I if I connect with you on a human level, then you are who I want around me. Yep. And it it was something that I struggled with the first year that I was in this community because I had all these thoughts and feelings and and reactions to things and I was like, my God, is this normal? Like it is this is normal, right? Like Yeah. I'm questioning my sexuality right now, listening to female voices. Like this is totally normal. And so yeah, I had to I had to really do like my own journey throughout this whole thing. And it's it's it's been a journey. It has been a journey. And throughout that, it has created a new me. And I realized in my personal life that I was not being treated properly. And not just not being treated properly, but I was being treated poorly. And I figured out and was told actually somebody told me after I told them a story of something that happened with with my husband. They were like, wait, y you've been in an abusive relationship for how long? And I was just like, Well no, I'm not in an abusive relationship. This he just he just got mad and broke something. Like this is normal. Like I don't know what you're talking about. And they were like, no, no, that's not normal. And so I had to reevaluate just about everything that I had been going through, that I had been dealing with, and I came to the realization that I was in a domestic violence situation in in my marriage. And you know, it it's something that when you hear domestic violence, you immediately think, that he punches you to the ground or kicks you every day or hits you or whatever. No, it's It's so much more than that. It's gaslighting, it's manipulation, it's emotional abuse, it's it's putting you down, it's making you feel guilty, it's it's all of those things. And I had a story for every single one of those categories. And I had multiple stories for it. And so feeling isolated, feeling guilty for going out and doing anything for myself, like there was just so much and it all piled on and it kind of came to a head. in August, because my husband had a psychiatric break and mental health has a lot to do with it. Mental health, I I'm a big advocate for getting help for mental health issues. I am a huge advocate for it. I think that every single person in the world should be in therapy because it's so healthy to be in therapy, whether you feel like you need it or not. being able to speak to someone about what's going on inside of you is so important. And it it's that is a big proponent of everything that I went through. And so in August I had to take my three children and myself with basically nothing and leave. Yeah. For our own health and safety. And I there are legal things involved as well. Like there are a lot of legal situations happening right now and I basically went into hiding and we had nothing and I just I was at a loss. I had no clue what to do or where to go or what to even think. this stuff happened so quickly like your realization and then so quickly like just overwhelming. It's almost like Yeah, yeah. I feel like he knew that you were coming to that conclusion and it just kind of came to a head for him is what it sounds like. Absolutely. And and and I it like I said, yeah, exactly. It didn't happen overnight. I mean just last this last January is when he and I separated and it was because I was starting to realize like, you know, I need to be my own person. I need to do this for me. I am doing this for me. I need to be a healthier me for my kids, for myself, everything. And everything was okay for a couple months. I mean, obviously there was a little animosity here and there because if you are married to someone for so long, you're gonna be hurt if the other person wants to end it. but things just progressively got worse and and with his mental health it also just started to spiral. And like said, it came to a head in August and just all of the sudden that piece, I went from being home safe with my kids to not having a home with my kids and not having anything. And I am so unbelievably fortunate to have such a great support system with my family that I was able to go somewhere safe. But there are so many other people who don't have that safety net. and the fact that I work for myself and I can work when I can and I don't have a nine to five job that I had to miss or you know I didn't have things like that going on. I was so fortunate in so many ways, but I was terrified. I was so terrified. Absolutely. And then someone in the community I'm gonna mess up her her handle a maze Amazing. Maze I can't pronounce it in my Maze is amazing. I know. Maze. Maze. She's amazing. Yes. I I'm so sorry I messed up. Maze is amazing. She is. A maze is amazing. Yes. she set up a GoFundMe for me and the kids and fabulous. The amount of support from the community and from strangers like I mean, we're strangers on the internet. I feel connected to so many people in this community, like I've known them for years, it feels like. And most of them I've never even met, but the amount of love and support that I got from the community just it was so overwhelming and so beautiful and it I mean we all felt it as well. Yeah. It it made faith in humanity again. I'd see p stories from completely different people and each each one of them would have this GoFundMe on their on their stories and they would have a story about you and what you did for them and the community. It was just it was it was just so beautiful. Well it's like from a horrible, horrible situation. Yeah. It's so touching and and something else that shocked me is that almost every person that I talked to about this had a similar story. had a domestic violence situation, whether it got to the point of being a restraining order or a divorce or having to leave and go to a shelter or you know, just just having to leave, period. Yeah. Every single person, I'm getting chills, had a similar story. And so it's so much more common than anybody ever realized, any than I ever realized. And So much so that this yeah, this month, October is domestic violence awareness month. So if you or someone you know has situations like this where you feel small when you are done talking to somebody that you supposedly love or that they love you, if you feel small, if you feel less than, if you feel like your spirit has been crushed, that is a sign. That is a red flag. And there are so many things that are involved with domestic violence. Like I said, it's not just physical, it's financial, it's emotional, it's mental, it's it's everything. And If you need help, ask for it. That is that is the one thing that was the hardest for me actually was asking for help. Because I hate asking for help. Yes. It it is the last thing I want to do. And especially when it comes to money, I never ever ever want to feel like a a a burden. And and it's and especially when you're coming from a situation like that, you're trained not to ask for help. That's the whole point. Yeah. Like you've been you've been it's been hammered into you for years now. that you don't need help. Exactly. And the amount of I I haven't even processed all of the traumatic things that I've been through in the last couple of months because a lot of them are just so big psychologically. And And you gotta be a mom. I I have to be I have to be a mom to three little kids all all simultaneously. Like life keeps going. It doesn't stop. It doesn't feel like you don't have time to open that box. It maybe tomorrow and then Yeah. Yeah. But it's so funny because I, you know, reaching out to lawyers or talking to police or anybody and and they were like, Okay, have you done this? Have you done this? Have you done this? And I'm like, Yep, did that, filed that, went there, got them into therapy, got me into therapy, called this person, called that person they're like, Wow, you've done everything and I'm like, What what else was I supposed to do? I c I can't exactly just go to bed and be sad. I have to push through this and keep going because there's no other choice. And it's it's something that not everybody can do. Yeah. And I I I admire anyone and everyone who gets up every single day and keeps going. Yep. because it's hard. It is so unbelievably hard. And there are some days that are harder than others. I myself had a really difficult morning today and I almost rescheduled this because I was having such a moment of just I want to disappear and not function right now. But I knew that coming on here and talking to you guys and being able to talk about my passion was gonna make me feel better. And it has. I feel good now. I feel like I can handle the stuff that happened this morning and deal with it and move on and keep going. And that's what you have to do. You just have to keep going. And there are times when you can break down. And there are times when you have to buck up and just do it. And th that is that's where I am. And it it's been really, really challenging to write all throughout this. I definitely took a few weeks off basically where I just I let the voice actors know like, hey, I am going through some shit and I need a break. but at the same time I have to continue to make money. This is my job. I I created this job from nothing and I have created my own business essentially. And if I don't work, I don't make money. So it it's it's just a challenge that goes round and round and round, right? But you also have the you also have the blessing of perspective, Miranda. Like so like you can write Now to comfort so many people and touch so many people that would never even that that you probably would never even know at this point now, just from pulling from your own experiences and putting what you've dealt with out there and letting VAs comfort other people who may be going through similar situations. I don't think that the value of that can be understated. Like your perspective. Yeah. The amount of the amount of ideas that I have in my head of what I want to hear or need to hear in these heavy moments that I think, maybe somebody else needs to hear this as well and needs to hear it from a man or needs to hear it from a woman or needs to hear it from someone that they know and trust and and that can Pierce that part of their brain where they finally are like having that light bulb moment of I am worth so much more than this, and I've been allowing this person to treat me. That was my big thing. I realized my worth. I am worth so much more than I was allowing myself to to have or to get. And I chose myself. I chose myself. I chose to move forward and work on myself and not be held back anymore because of what they wanted control over. And it's it I having been gone now and on my own and I'm definitely like single moming it every single day, all day long. You reap a Macintone. I am. I am. exactly. sorry. Sorry, B. That's a that's a that's a very American joke. Excuse me, sorry. my gosh. She has about it bee. I'll play that song for you later, baby. Yes. Sorry. But I it's it's amazing because I was pretty much a married single mom for years, right? I did most of it anyway. But having now b been on my own doing it on my own. I have that feeling of almost like when you're eighteen and you finally move out of your parents' house and you're officially an adult and you're on your own and you're like, my God, I'm an adult. Like I can do whatever I can ask you for breakfast. Exactly. And there's almost an there's almost an aspect of it that's actually not easy, but easier. You know, because you so much you have easy is not the right word, but it is the agency that you have now freeing. Yes. Yeah. It's yeah you don't have to worry about somebody else's Attitude to the things that you want to plan for the group. Yes. You don't have to worry about I I used to worry about every single move I would make, I would worry about the reaction I would get. And it was constantly walking on eggshells. It was constantly adjusting my behavior and the kids' behavior because I didn't know which reaction we would get. And now You're like perpetually in fight or flight, aren't you? Yes, perpetually up here. Hyper vigilance. Exactly. And now I get to choose what I make for dinner and it's what's for dinner. Like I don't need anyone else's opinions about it. I get to And you don't have somebody else kind of letting the kids know that it's okay to say that you don't want that for dinner. Right. Like the influence that that he had on them as well is just it I I can see it clearly now. I can see clear. I'm gonna say it's one of those things where it really is like you just it's it's kind of like the wool has been pulled out up from over my eyes and I'm seeing so many things that I put up with and I'm just like, How did I so many consequences that you didn't even know about, like that you weren't even aware of yet? Exactly. And yeah, and the amount of happiness that I have on a day to day basis is more than I've had in the last five years. And that's saying so much. Yeah. Because on paper I owned a house. I had two cars. I had three kids. I was married. I had land. I had animals. Like I had my dream job. I had everything. And on paper, that is a dream. And you guys saw all my videos every single day. I would wake up, I would go to the sunshine, I would smile, and I would be like, take a deep breath, drink your water, charge your devices. You know, I would do all of that. And and and I don't want to say that it was all fake because those moments were me. Those were me moments that I took for myself at five o'clock in the morning every day. Right. But but the That was you fighting for your life. Like that was you just Yeah. Yes. And taking what you could. When all of it literally crumbled, that was my biggest fear. That was my biggest fear was losing my house, was losing my land, was losing everything. And I did. I lost everything. I still don't have all of my stuff back. I still don't have access to my house. And I still have to go to court and deal with all of the legalities of er of everything that's happened. But at the same time, I have never felt so free and alive than what I do right now. And I would choose this moment and this me over any other one that I've had so far. And the this this community and being able to come back to it when I have those moments of like, my God, I really just need some good smut. Yeah. I really just need some good support from women to get it. Or men who get it or anybody who gets it, who who listened to a new audio on Friday or Tuesday, and it like what's a recommendation that I can have? And I just I have those little moments now where I'm like, I don't have to feel guilty about enjoying my life and enjoying the little things here and there. And I have a community that I can tap into and just be like, Hi guys, what are you doing today? Yeah. Yeah. What's the latest teaser that everybody's crashing out over? Right? Yeah what is everybody's Well tweet the screening What's with the books that are going on right now? What what what's going on? And you know, I I started Revel as well. Revel is my company. Revel in Pleasure online. You can look it up Revel in Pleasure and and be on there. It's dot com. Yes, Revel and Pleasure dot com. Link in the show notes. Yes. we're an audio erotica company and what our goal is is to fill in the gaps of everything that's kind of missing in other places. So we want to put, you know, LGBTQ plus and women and people of color and and get more more visualization and and more audios out there for those particular groups. And we want to make sure that everyone is feeling more included and everyone's kind of in the room with us. Like you're invited. Everybody. Come on. Come on. and there this this is the main point that I want to make. There is room for everyone. The things that Quinn has are gonna be different than what Magic Wave has and Patreon and Dipsy and Revel and all of these other like there is room for everyone. If you can't find it over here, go over here and look for it. It's not a competition in our minds. We're not trying to compete. We're not trying to be the best. of of moaning into your ears. we wanna make sure that we keep creating. We wanna make sure that people have a place to go when they need something a little specific, like, I really want this right now. Is there somewhere I can go for this? So it it's it's all inclusive. We're trying our very best to be as as open about everything as we possibly can. And obviously in the real world you cannot please everyone. That is one thing that I also learned as a script writer. I I've had my fair share of people who are like, mm, I didn't like that. That's okay. You're allowed. Like the fact that you listened and that you were like, I don't like that. And then you voiced it, great. Tell me. That's fine. If it's not for you, it's not for you, fine. Yeah, because if you sort of say I didn't like this because in a kind of I say approachable way. The chances that the person you're asking will go, Well, actually, if you like the opposite of that, have all of something else. Like Right. It's constructive criticism. It's saying, you know, I didn't really like that, but I did like this element. okay. Well, if you didn't like it in this particular audio, go try this audio. It has more of that element and less of this one. So that that was another thing that wouldn't When I became a script writer, I was like, I want to be across the board. with just about as much as I possibly can. So not only did I want to write for every voice, I wanted to write every trope that I possibly could. And obviously there are places where I feel more comfortable in my writing. the Friends to Lovers is one of my absolute favorite tropes. And I write a lot of Friends to Lovers because that is just where my heart lies. I am the forever unrequited love friend of so many people. I love you. Yes. I mean, I get it. Yeah, that's fair. There is there is love. There's such deep love in friendship. And I think that if you are someone who truly cherishes and feels that kind of love in friendships, not everyone does, but if you are one of those people, it's that's a it's it's only natural to have that. It's it's such a different level of love. It's it's knowing someone on That they wouldn't necessarily tell other people. Exactly. Even someone that they are romantically involved in. Exactly. Exactly. So that that friendship piece really does change the dynamic so much. Absolutely. And I I think the majority of my audios are friends to lovers, I would say. Probably the majority of them. I mean, I've I don't know. I haven't looked at the stats, I guess. But Friends to Lovers is definitely the trope that I kind of fall into the most. because it's just so it's so good to write. There's so much. It's natural for you. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. but I have pushed myself, I have challenged myself to write a lot of different things. I mean, I wrote my my first audio with Rum was Pegging for Forgiveness, and I had never I I did not even realize what pegging was until I had that Hoy. I'm telling you. Girl, that's impressive. That name popped into my head. I was like pegging for forgiveness. That's hilarious. And like I knew what pegging was, obviously, but I had never explored it. I had never really researched it or anything like that. And I think I even reached out to a couple other people and I was like, Can you tell me like a little bit about like what what you do in this situation or like how this situation would come about or you know, I I did my research and that's the main piece that you have to remember is that if you're writing about kinks, specifically kinks, if you're writing about something like pegging or or anal or anything like that, you have got to research it. If you've never done it, fine. However, you better hope that you get enough information in your brain To put it in a script, especially if you're going to be sending it out to people who I've also maybe never done it or who have done it or who have, yeah. You better hope that you've done your research so that you don't give misinformation because misinformation can be very dangerous. Dangerous. And so especially in this space where a lot of people like like you or me, like they didn't have that kind of Yeah, but yeah. And so it's kind of their only source and sometimes it's their only safe source. Like they can't just go Google something because somebody you know, like well that's why when I that's why when I wrote that one specifically, I did so much research and I also got somebody who had done it before to read the script for me because I was like, I need to know if this is normal. or if I'm writing it at the right pace, or if they're, you know, I I need to know. And it was definitely I definitely got some notes. They were like, please use lube. Like more lube than you think you will ever need in your life. Right. Please use it. And so I was like, right. I have to put that in the script. Like that makes sense. I have to put it in a script. And so Yeah, because you don't some so you you must not think sometimes. Like it obviously it must get a lot easier as you go along. But yeah, like for the first time you're still thinking visually, aren't you? Like yes. Yes. And so I have a theater and TV and film background, and so I am a very visual person. And so switching to auditory is sometimes very difficult. But the thing that helped me with that, and I tell everybody this, I will tell everyone this, especially script writers. Read your script out loud. Read it out loud. Perform it for yourself because you will hear. the spaces, you will hear the pacing, you will hear the pauses, you will hear how fast you're writing. You will hear how you go from, my God, I love it so much insertion. And then you're just you're like, wait a minute. that's not how that goes. Well you'll hear what something you'll hear what yeah. You'll hear what you're missing. Yes. Exactly. You'll hear the flow of the conversation and it It's very challenging. And and that's another thing that I always say too. Not everyone can write audio erotica. Not everyone can perform audio erotica. Everyone can try it. I encourage you to try it. Go for it. But not everyone can and not everyone should. And if you try it and it doesn't work, that's okay. At least you tried it. But know enough about yourself to pull back or to stop doing it if that's something that doesn't work out for you. And I'm not in any way discouraging anyone from writing or performing. Like if if it's a passion of yours, work at it, get better at it. That is something that you definitely should do. But you have to like if you think about an audio erotica script, it's anywhere from 15 to 60ish minutes, right? You have to go from Introducing two characters, one of which doesn't speak. One of which doesn't speak yeah, exactly. Two characters that have a story arc where you have to set the scene, get them into a spicy situation, get them out of the spicy situation, and then resolve the scene all within that short amount of time. And if you think about it, think about a stranger's lovers. You have to establish a whole whole situation. Like so I mean, you have to think about the logistics of what you're doing. And that's why I encourage people to read things out loud. That's why I encourage people to record it for yourself, even if you don't show it to anybody or listen to it ever again. Record it or or read it out loud because it will change the way you look at scripts, it will change the way you read scripts, it will change the way you realize voice actors look at scripts. That's the that's the key right there. As a voice actor, you have to be able to read a script and think, okay, I can work with this or this has got a good flow or this has a good arc or whatever. If if you just give them something that they can't really work with very well, it it's challenging. It's more challenging for them. Yeah. It's a niche. It's an it's such a like speci specific talent as well though. Like not just audio erotica, but like there's the audio drama aspect of it. You have to describe everything that's around you without sounding stupid. Without being like, I'm walking through a door or I'm bringing up my glass of water now. And you have to do that like with with one less person than you would an audio drama. Well and and that's hard. Adding to that, like my newest audio with Dolph with the two listeners, I I I I did that to myself. First of all. And thank you. Thank you for I will I I will tell you guys this. I don't know if it will be out before this drops or not, but I have another audio that's coming out that has two listeners, basically. Two two other characters involved that are not voiced. And the challenge that I'm having right now is making it so the actor doesn't address them by a stupid nickname too many times. You know, like I have I ha I have him going, so and so you do this, so and so you do that. And I'm like, this sounds so dumb. Like people are gonna get so annoyed with hearing this stupid nickname over and over again. And I love nicknames, of course, but it it just you have to make it so that it makes sense and so that it doesn't get redundant and so that it doesn't sound like you're directing, like, move over here now. Okay, you like your like your main characters directing a porn in your Exactly Exactly. So again, I'm in the same situation that I was with for my birthday. And and I'm like, I again I'm telling my beta readers, I'm like, this is absolute shit. What did I do to myself? Why did I do this to myself? But I know that the end result is going to be You absolutely killed it. No. It's just you ever have to force yourself to Accept that the asset that the the effects will Finish that like help that part along. Like sort of say, I've got to describe this, but then you know that the editor is going to put in the rustling of bedsheets or footsteps and you have to kind of stop yourself. It depends on the voice actor that I'm writing it for. If it's a newer voice actor that I'm not as familiar with or that I haven't worked with before. I go heavy on the descriptions within my script. And so I I use brackets just to do like action words or or direction. And if it's someone I haven't really worked with very often or if it's someone brand new, I always go heavier on the description of what emotion I want them to portray or what action I want them to do and what special effects I want them to do. Now I am a big, big proponent of using less sound effects. Because I think that if you add too many sound effects, it is it it's too convoluted and it makes your brain kind of like tr process too heavily in the moment. And so I always say less is more and I always, always, always put in my scripts, please feel free to use whatever sound effects you feel are important here. If not, that's okay. Like they are suggestions. Like using them as punctuation marks instead of like whole sentences. Exactly. So i if it is something very specific, I will write that in there. I will say, you know, like add wet sounds here or whatever. Which I am very particular about wet sounds also. I you can't give somebody a monologue while they're breathing heavily during sex. And like if you think about real sexual acts, you don't talk ever really. Like if you actually think about when you're having sex in the middle of the thick of it, you're not over there going, my god, you look so beautiful and this is what's happening and this is how I'm feeling how I'm feeling and this blah blah. Like now I'm like I want I w I would I would quite I would quite like that I've just deleted something. I fully agree with you with it there needs to be more dirty talk, but there is a time and a place and like when you're really in the middle of it. It's more yeah, yeah. Not so much right in the middle. Yeah, I mean Rumbles kind of prove that, don't they? Like the brain melts. Yes. Yeah. Yes. And at some point it's just grunts. At some point we're just grunting. And that's okay. That's okay. The and that's what I tell newer script writers. I'm like, it's okay to have silent moments in your script. It's okay to not fill every bit of space. Yeah. That that little bit of space that you leave hanging there you're like, I don't know what they're gonna say, I don't know what they're gonna do, I don't know what's happening. It it can be a split second or it can be an extra second, and that is what creates those moments of anticipation. Yes. The magic is in the pauses. Those pauses so good. So good. I write in pauses sometimes for actors. a voice actor that can master the perfect amount of pause for a response. And the exact cadence of that response and you can fucking hear it in your head. Like it's so good. It's like Yeah. It's funny sometimes like when I when I listen to Miles sometimes I'll message him and I'll be like, Dude, what did you just do to me? He's so good at it. You just made you j wow. And he's like, thanks, buddy. And I'm like, Yeah, dude, like that was good. Like Flynn's I I mean Flynn's really good at it too. Like we've talked about this with with Flynn before. He's so good at like managing those pauses and like Yeah. Because because he's such a word nerd, like he knows exactly like how to w what how long it takes to say this or to it's ridiculous. Yeah. And you can hear Flynn on Revel. I know. I know. Friend of the podcast is Flynn. Our our buddies good good old buddy old pal Flynn. Yeah. What I love about those pauses though is how these voice actors can make it so obvious that whether they're pausing for the listener talking or pausing because there's hesitation or a just a genuine pause of everything. And you can tell the difference. It still blows my mind. And I'm it's it's interesting because now having gone from listener to writer, I definitely for a while there I was kind of straddling that line of being a listener versus being a professional in the space. And I had a really hard time for a while s making that switch because once you do start getting involved with the professional side of it, like DMing voice actors and you know it's hard to be a listener charging for things and and that when there's money exchange you become coworkers kind of a thing. There's there's a lot of things involved. And sometimes it's hard then to go back into that fan space and listen to your now coworker. There are so many people we can't listen to anymore. It's so sad Miranda like one of our best friends. We can't listen to anything he does. Well, it's one of those things where like I am still a listener. I am still a fan of of Audio Erotica, but my my list of people that I listen to regularly has changed. It's not the same people that I listened to a couple years ago. And and I I do still listen to everyone that I write for, obviously because I listen to the scripts that they write of mine. But I I I come from a totally different place for it now. And I it's an analytical space. Yeah, is it do you find it difficult to like listen to audios without going I wonder how they did that. Like sometimes how they did that pool. It's it's funny. I always I need Yeah, I I always use the phrase, now that I know how the sausage gets made, it it it's a little bit difficult to To do that sometimes. Every now and then I will have a moment where I'm just like, my god, what? Like I I think I messaged I messaged a voice actor recently and I was just like, the switch. it there it is. and then I was like I was like, wait a minute, you just did that transition so well. And so I go back into the technical side of it because I I I also don't want them to be like, Ew, that's weird. Why are you But it adds to the magic? Doesn't like for me anyway, it really does. And like and adds to it. Absolutely. Absolutely. And I don't I'm not one of those writers who like gives notes line by line. a lot of times the voice actors don't even send me the audio until the day before or until they've already submitted it, or sometimes not even at all. And I just listen to them first on Quinn when they drop or on Reddit or wherever. And I I always give feedback saying, you know, I really loved how you did this line or I loved how you captured the character in that space. And and again I or how dare you again though when I send off my script I kind of know that I'm like that ship is sailing and it's no longer in my hands and whatever comes out of it is now their creation. Their baby. And it's their baby, exactly. And so we have collaborated, we've done this together and it makes whatever comes out is what comes out. And You know, I can honestly say I've never given a script to someone and been like, What did you do to this? like you did you did what did you do this? Yeah. You cut the wrong tone or whatever. Yeah. I will say, I will say that I had one script that I gave to someone, and I don't know if I should name him or not. I gave okay, I'll I'll just say it. It was my safer work script for Doc. it's called Showering with Affection, I think is what it's called. It was my first and only Safe for Work script. I gave it to Doc. It took him like eight months to record it because he's so booked up. And when he gave it back to me, when he sent me the audio, I was like, Did I actually write this? Like, did you just what he he improved so much. But what was fantastic is that he kept the through line, he kept the characters, he kept the main lines that I wanted him to keep. But it was almost as if I didn't even have to tell him which ones I wanted him to keep specifically. And he just weaved his rapture way around it all and made it his own, but still had the essence of my words. And it was fantastic I was just I I balled my eyes out. He's with that. I love the man just knows how to manipulate Words into feelings. Like I don't even know how he does it. And he's so intuitive. He's so intuitive about how to make how someone needs to feel. Like honestly. He is so good at attaching emotion to words and it's ridiculous. And that right there is what an artist is. Absolutely. True artist. And I and everybody I've worked with is a true artist. honestly, on on all different levels. I mean yeah some of some of the things that they have created with my words, I'm just I'm in awe of every single one of them and I'd I can't I can't thank them enough for giving me the opportunity to work with them and still work with them and continue to write for them because it is spectacular. And so I mean it it must be like a big thing having like the Doc did that as well. Like he trusted A, he trusted you enough to do that and for him to be like, I did a thing. I did a thing. Yeah. Looky looky when it's also that he felt comfortable enough in your writing to do that. It's just it's so awesome. Yeah. Well the connection between Yeah, the connection between a voice actor and a writer is extremely important. And that's why when you write for someone new, you definitely want to Again, do your research, listen to their audios, find their cadence, find their their key words that they like to repeat. What I love to do is I love to listen to a voice actor's audios that they've written or their rambles. And obviously rambles are a totally different story, but yeah. At the same time, you get to hear what they actually say and sound like exactly. And so that's why writing for some of these guys, I can just bang it out because I'm like, I know he would say this in this moment and I because they need to feel safe too. They need to feel safe. They need to feel comfortable. They need to feel like yeah. Yeah. So I mean made for them. It's more catered to them for sure. Yeah. Yeah. Do you ever like message them and say, do is there a particular like, do you want more direction or less direction? What makes you feel the most comfortable in a script? Like 'Cause even if you know somebody, maybe they feel more comfortable with a lot of SFX just so that they can visualize it better. Sometimes it depends on the script. if I'm just writing kind of and I hate to say it like this, like your standard friends to lovers or coworkers to lovers or, you know, established relationship or something, those are kind of like the quote unquote standard ones. Like they have kind of a formula in your head when you're writing them. Yeah. So you kind of already know how they're gonna go. There's not gonna be a whole lot of special effects. There's not really a big theme surrounding it unless it's unless it's very specific to like if there's if it's a Halloween audio, you're gonna want a little bit more of those elements. if it's acting to activate right. It it it just it really depends. I have kind of I don't know what to call them, but I I I have like little meetings with each voice actor sometimes where I'm like, I have this idea. Are you cool with this kind of a thing or are you Are you okay with me adding a little bit more of this into it or would you rather me do it this way? I definitely check in with them beforehand. because I wanna make sure that A, they're okay with it and B, they're willing to do that because adding more special effects takes more time. And if they don't have the time to do it or the resources to do it, I I don't wanna give them a complicated script and then they're like, Yeah, I didn't know it was if they do their own as opposed to Right. And and sometimes their schedules change. And I know that Adrian for for some of his stuff, he'll do it like overnight. And and he'll be like, I have to get this done. And they'll get it done like overnight. And I'm just like, You for one thing are spectacular with your timing. I don't know. Well like that. Sometimes right. Like sometimes they can just do it at the very last second. And and that kind of helps push them because they're like, okay, if I'm under the wire. I can get this done, baby. And do it. but you know, if if I gave them a really heavily special effects audio to perform or a script to perform, they don't really have that luxury of being able to do it last minute if they wanted to or if their schedules don't allow it. And so I I always check in, I always make sure to just give them a heads up if something's happening. I always check in and give them a timeline if I can. most of them are just kinda like, Yeah, it's cool. Just give me give it to me whatever and whatever. some of them will be like, I want to drop it on this date at this time, on on you know, at this location. Here here's this coordinate. Here's how we should organize. Teach me the ways. And I'm like, Okay. How do I know what day it is? Right. And some of them are like, Yeah, cool, send it to me whenever. And then I don't hear from them for like weeks and I'm like, Are you still alive? Yeah. No, fair. Yeah, they're definitely all different people. Yes, they are. And but they're every single one of them is spectacular. And I have it's funny I have a favorite audio from each and every one of them that I've done and it's it's so much fun. Okay, Miranda. Just tell us what your favorite ones are. Wait, wait, hold on. So here's the thing, Miranda. We have a heart out. You have to go get your kids. I know in two seconds I gotta go. Here's the thing. This is not over. There's no way this can be over. We we have to do we have to do this again. and we didn't even get to do anything funny or silly. We just talked about everything amazing that you do, and I loved every second of it, and we're there has to be more seconds. So yes, we're definitely gonna have to do this again. We'll make another we'll make another appointment whenever it's convenient for you. But I do want to just say real quickly, thank you so much for being so vulnerable with us, being so open with us. And I just cannot understate how much I think you doing this today is gonna help so many people. it's really special that you are doing this. We will put the link for the GoFundMe in our show notes. There is it's still there, it's still going, and it will still be helpful for Miranda. So please, if you can do anything, go ahead. I freaking love you and you're like one of my favorite people on the planet now. I we say this all the time. So much fun. I could talk for days. Could you just talk? Yeah, and I'm Once you're here Once you've been here, you're family. So you are a part of the family now. We will have you back. This is not over, but it is Miranda's gotta go get her kiddos. So we absolutely love you. Put my mom hat on. Thank you so, so, so, so much, Miranda. And we will definitely do this again. So thank you so much. We're not done with you. Appreciate it. Thank you, thank you. And B to answer your question, a couple of my favorite ones. I would have to say I'll be quiet. For Adrian. It's an for I saw that one today. Hat Trick obviously is one of my favorite ones. It was the and the and the prequel to Hat Trick, which is called Power Play. Pegging for Forgiveness has a soft spot in my heart just because it it was my first rum audio, and getting to work with rum was like my dream come true at that moment. First rum. You did pegging. Come on. I love. I love being Go big or go home. I'm telling you. Go big or go home, baby. Go big or go home. If you're gonna go for rum, then you better go big because Go broke. Go for rum, go for broke. The fact that that yeah, like side note, the fact that he so he had posted somewhere, he was like, I want more subby audios. And I was like, I have to think of something spectacular to give him. What kind of subbiness can I give him? And pegging for the name popped into my head when I was doing dishes one day. And I was like, I have to run with this. And I was like, what if he forgot her birthday? Like, what could he possibly do to make it up to her? And that thus pegged this audio. I cannot wait. I'm running. When I sent it to him, I was like, hi. And I was so I I like. Hyperventilated after I sent him my first note saying, like, hi, this is who I am. I have a script for you. I think you'd be really good for it. Here you go. I'm gonna go run away. I've done that so many times. I was so nervous to send Just close the laptop, just so he can't reply. Yeah. Well, the fact that he did reply and then he was like, Yeah, that sounds really fun. I was just like, What is happening right now? And and now like it's it's rum and I'm like, What's up, dude? Like I got a script for How's it? Yeah, exactly. Like what's yeah, like how you doing? How's your kid? so it's i it's brilliant because he and he is such a sweet human being. my god, he is such a sweet human being. and a fantastic performer. Just spectacular. Absolutely incredible. Yeah, that one that one is definitely one of my favorites. Thunder Rolls. By Timmy that was performed by Timmy. That was another one of my my favorite ones. And Take a Chance is a Friends to Lovers one that I did with Eli. my god. this guy Eli, he's fantastic. Like I did a ghost one with him last year. I mean, there's so many. and then of course the the Santa Claus one, I can't think of what it is. Don't tell Santa. That one was with Dolph and Alice. the one with their elves. Yeah. They're elves. Yeah. the camping one that I just did with Rum is I I I listen to that one actually like on repeat sometimes because I just want to feel that character around me. Like he's so sweet. He's so freaking sweet. And I I sent Rum so many notes afterwards, I was like, he's so sweet. I was like doing that voice. It's like he you did such a good job making him so sweet and precious. So comforting sometimes. Yeah. Yeah. But I but I mean I have I have so many. I I can't believe I'm at ninety two. Well, write down. Write down. More more are coming, so write down. We're gonna do this again. Don't worry. I because there's no way I'm done talking to you. There's no way. There's no way. It's just not Thank you guys so much. Thank you. I had so much fun, so I appreciate you being here so much and we absolutely love you and adore you and yeah, you'll be back. I love all of you. I love all of you. Yeah. My my baby And everyone loves you, Miranda. Everyone loves you. No one I've not everyone. Everyone. So anyways. that's so sweet. Thank you. Go get your kitties and we love you. Thank you for being here. Thank you so much for having me. I'll talk to you guys. Bye everybody.