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Healing Hearts Medium: Past Lives, Protection, and Spirit Communication · PNW Haunts & Homicides

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  [MUSIC]
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  So I had a reading done for myself.
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  I come another medium that knew nothing about me,
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  nothing about my granddaughter.
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  And she says, oh, your granddaughter in spirit,
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  says, why haven't you written the book, grandma?
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  I knew right then and there, I was supposed to write the book.
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  And my daughter had no idea, wrote it.
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  Started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings,
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  illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it.
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  My daughter wasn't even pregnant yet.
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  [MUSIC]
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  Hi, Caitlyn.
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  Hi, Cassie.
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  All right.
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  So today we are joined by Theresa Watson from Healing Hearts Medium.
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  What kind of services do you offer, Theresa?
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  I do readings on the phone or in person.
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  I do Facebook and Zoom and all those.
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  I do one hour readings.
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  I also do mentorship for one hour or longer if people want.
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  Oh, what's involved with the mentorship?
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  Mentorship, I really love because I get to kind of make it all about them.
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  What, where they're at in their skill level, if they're even at the beginning of the
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  middle of the end or whatever it is.
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  And I help them understand what gifts they have, what I experienced with the same gifts,
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  or what friends of mine, just my experience of doing this for about nine years.
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  And really helping to understand where there are what their next step is.
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  That's such a great resource for anyone who thinks they might be a medium.
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  Yeah.
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  It can be that or they could just say I see spirits and I don't know what to do about it.
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  Or I'm having all this stuff happen in my house.
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  What can I do about it?
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  So it's just tailor-made to so many different subjects and said, "I want to be a medium."
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  And are you the right person to teach me?
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  Oh, that's amazing.
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  Can you also write books as well, you're an author?
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  I just wrote my first book and got it published this summer.
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  It was something that was really special to me.
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  My daughter lost my first grandbaby about two and a half years ago and she was seven months
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  pregnant.
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  And so it was pretty traumatic for the family.
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  And she wasn't sure if she wanted another baby.
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  And my granddaughter, past kept on talking about my future grandson and said, "I'm going
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  to have a brother.
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  I'm going to have a brother."
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  So I started to write it all down and I kept on looking like a book, like a children's story.
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  And I'm like, "Okay, that's just too weird.
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  I kept putting it aside because you get these visions and you just think I'm just crazy."
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  And so I had a reading done for myself.
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  I found another medium that you, nothing about me, nothing about my granddaughter.
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  And she says, "Oh, your granddaughter in spirit says why haven't you written the book, grandma?"
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  And I knew.
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  Oh, right.
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  That is so sweet.
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  I knew right then and there.
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  I was supposed to write the book.
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  So my daughter had no idea, wrote it, started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings,
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  illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it.
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  My daughter was even pregnant yet.
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  Oh, my goodness.
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  Did she read the book?
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  She got the book in July.
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  She came out and she had a brand new baby boy in her arms when she read it.
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  Oh, my gosh.
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  Healthy, just like my granddaughter kept on telling me, "I'm going to have a baby brother.
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  He's going to be fine.
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  He's going to be healthy.
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  Tell my mommy that.
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  Tell them I'm on me that."
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  It's a children's book about her being involved in the family still and all the things that she
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  thinks her daughter's going to miss.
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  She's not missing.
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  She's still with him.
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  It's just in a different way now.
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  My granddaughter's name was Adley, so I wrote the book as Adalie the Angel, Becomes a Sister.
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  That is so beautiful.
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  I personally know people who have lost children.
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  So it's, oh my God, I can't even, I don't have kids and I just cannot even imagine.
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  It's about the worst thing I think a family can experience.
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  It was a labor of love and I meant it just for my daughter, but as I was writing it, I do
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  a lot of readings for people who lost children because right after my granddaughter died, my
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  daughter put my information into a support group and didn't tell me.
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  And all of a sudden, all these women were getting in touch and contacting me about, "Will
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  you do a reading for me?"
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  And I was like, "I'm like, there's a baby, there's a baby, there's a baby, must have been
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  25 readings in a row, there's a baby."
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  And I told my daughter that I said, "Wow, it's just like baby after baby."
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  She goes, "Oh, I forgot to tell you.
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  I put your name inside of a group because so many people were getting ripped off my mediums
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  and I knew that you wouldn't do that because I have 100% money back guarantee.
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  And she knew I was valid, you know?
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  I was going to be valid with that."
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  And so my experience with that was going on.
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  So I told people about the book.
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  They're like, "Please write that book and please get me a copy.
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  You don't know how much that would mean to me."
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  And then I started realized, "Okay, this is more of a support book for other people, not
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  just a book for my daughter."
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  Yeah.
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  So I ended up getting it published on Amazon instead of self publishing it and just keeping
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  it as one book.
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  Oh, perfect.
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  So we can find it on Amazon.
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  Yes, yes.
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  It's on Amazon.
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  Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister.
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  Oh, that is so beautiful.
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  I just feel like, obviously, you were meant to do this.
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  Like this was your path, for sure.
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  When did you know that you were on this path of being a medium?
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  Definitely saw stuff as a child.
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  Didn't understand it because I had zero support.
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  I did not have the best support system growing up.
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  Single mom, four kids.
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  So I kind of mixed up in the chaos.
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  I lived in San Diego.
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  I was the only one that saw ghosts in the house and obviously it made me different.
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  So I didn't want to be different.
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  So I just shut up.
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  I didn't want to tell people what I saw.
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  And so that kind of carried through until I was about 12 and I started to really start seeing
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  them again, but mostly the intuition came.
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  It was such such strong intuition.
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  It scared people.
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  It was like, please don't go there.
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  Don't go.
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  There's something bad's going to happen and then something bad happened.
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  And so it was like, oh, okay, maybe we need to listen to her instead of ignoring her.
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  Yeah.
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  I was going to say, I hope people learn to listen and take that seriously.
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  The only ones, the only one in my whole life that that never did.
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  Was my now ex-husband.
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  Three times I told them not to go to work.
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  He got attacked by a pit bull.
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  He got in a truck accident and he got hit by a tree.
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  What?
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  You would think.
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  After the first time that he would pay attention.
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  But yeah, you would think that he took my feelings.
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  It was like gut instinct.
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  Like something bad's going to happen.
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  They please don't leave the house.
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  And I don't say that unless I really feel it, I would never scare someone on purpose.
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  Yeah.
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  That just that real gut instinct of, like my sweating profusely, I feel sick to my stomach.
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  Please don't leave the house today.
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  And if I tell people that, I can hopefully listen to my daughters do.
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  Good.
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  Good.
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  So I've always experienced this, but I've been experiencing it just like a ton.
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  Deja Vu.
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  Oh, yes.
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  How do you feel about it?
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  Do you have an explanation for it?
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  I get Deja Vu a lot.
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  And the way that I feel it, it's like we had a thought about it before and then it happens.
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  And it's almost like a, oh, this is supposed to happen like you're on the right track.
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  That's what it's always felt for me.
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  Like you're on the right track with that train the thought or what's going on.
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  And so it's like where you're supposed to be, where you're supposed to be at that point
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  of time.
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  There's okay.
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  Take it.
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  And I don't know why I think that no one's ever told me that.
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  I never read it that way.
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  It's just the way that internally feels.
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  That's what it feels like for me, too.
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  Yeah.
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  That's awesome.
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  We feel the same way.
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  We just have confirmation each.
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  Yes, it's very validating.
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  It is.
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  I love that.
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  And then I do have another question because it's something that has come up to and just
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  kind of random things I've been experiencing.
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  I haven't really talked a lot about it.
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  But past lives, do you ever do past life readings for anybody?
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  I have not, but they've come up in readings like I'll feel something very strong.
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  Like I feel like and I'll get a vision.
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  So really small things, but it's definitely something I'm going to put some energy into
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  the new year because I really feel like I have that ability.
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  I've had a past life regression myself with from Brian Weiss, Dr. Brian Weiss.
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  Famous, yes.
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  I went to one of his very large gatherings up in, I think it was Portland.
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  My sister came and joined me and we went up there and I had a really fantastic past life
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  regression.
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  And so when I saw that in my head, that's what I see when I'm doing reading.
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  So I know they're real.
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  Okay.
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  Like, oh, I wasn't thinking about that.
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  It was just what came in.
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  And so it's just no different really than doing a reading.
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  And I think we're so connected to our past and it just happens to be, you know, it's all
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  in there.
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  So whether I'm reading for somebody right there or reading for somebody that is from hundreds
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  of years ago, it doesn't matter.
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  It's the same soul.
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  Wow.
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  So that's how I see it.
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  That is so cool to me.
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  I don't know why I've been so interested in that lately.
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  And I haven't done any past life like meditations or anything like that.
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  So I feel like I need to start doing that.
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  Yeah.
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  You know, I think what happens is it really helps show where you are now from, can I share
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  my past life experience very shortly?
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  Yes.
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  If you want to.
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  So when he put us kind of in that meditative state when I was there years ago, gosh, this
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  must have been about six years ago.
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  I just visioned like it came so fast and it left so quickly that it was like, ah, but I
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  was in the little house in the prairie days.
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  Is it about the only way I can explain it?
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  Okay.
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  I get it.
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  It looked like that in the background with the hills and, you know, and I always loved
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  little house in the prairie.
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  And so it was like, that's like, oh, I was, I was very drawn to that era.
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  My mom said I was like glue to the TV as soon as it came on.
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  And I had a bonnet on my head.
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  I was a mom.
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  I had two daughters, which I do in this lifetime too.
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  I have two daughters.
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  One was in my arms.
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  She was a baby.
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  She had a bonnet on too.
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  We all were wearing white linen cloth outfits.
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  The other daughter had the bonnet on as well.
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  And she was right beside me.
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  We were running.
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  And I was like, run faster, run faster to my little girl.
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  And I couldn't hold her and the newborn too.
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  And we were just running as fast as we can.
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  My heart was racing.
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  I can feel it.
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  I was like, you've had this overwhelming fear and I kept looking back.
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  And when I looked back, I saw a man chasing us.
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  In my mind, I knew he was a husband, husband in that era.
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  But he was very mean, very angry.
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  We were running from him to save our lives.
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  And he came upon us, grabbed me by the hair that was sticking out the bonnet and pulled me
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  back through me on the ground, took our children out of my hands and sliced their fruits from
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  me.
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  And then when it didn't kill me, left me to live, so I had to witness it.
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  And I just remember, that's why I'm a helicopter, mom.
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  Yeah.
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  Mediate knowledge.
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  And I think that's a great thing about knowing about your past life.
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  Mediate knowledge of why you do the things now that you do.
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  Yeah.
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  And so it was like, oh my gosh, I'm always worried about my daughter's safety.
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  Both of them constantly, they're 25 and 29.
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  You think I'd like slow down a little bit.
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  And nope, it's still there.
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  Oh, man.
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  That's like why I don't want to have kids, because I just know I would just be anxiety constantly.
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  I feel like I just wouldn't be able to let it go.
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  It is.
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  It's one of those things that you have to have enough faith so that the fear can't come
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  in when you're raising them and just, you know, and when you're done raising them, you just
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  have to trust the universe to take care of them.
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  And it means that we just don't have enough faith.
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  It's like more fears coming in than the faith.
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  And it's really hard to do that.
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  It really is.
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  I'm having my own battle right now and getting through a lot of fear of a lot of different things.
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  So I think that's great.
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  Something that we don't work on enough and that brings, it comes up in everything we do.
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  I still have fears about doing readings.
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  I've probably done over 2,000 readings.
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  And when you look on, like sometimes I have to remind myself, I'm real.
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  I'm not an imposter.
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  It's really hard because we just get that imposter syndrome, you know, really quickly.
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  And I'll look back on my review sometime on my Facebook just to do.
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  I have like over 100 of five stars.
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  And I'm like that person loved me, that person, they've, I needed to hear that.
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  They really, and so I have to remind myself and my fear still comes up right before every
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  reading.
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  I feel like my failure, my failure and what I realize it really is just because I want
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  to be perfect and I can't be.
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  Exactly.
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  And that causes anxiety.
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  And so like I said, I have 100% money back in your tea.
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  When I started reading, it's the first thing I tell them, like, if it doesn't go well, don't
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  worry.
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  I'm going to stop the reading within like 10 or 15 minutes.
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  You don't owe me a thing or will reschedule.
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  I'll either refund or reschedule.
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  And that kind of draws my anxiety a little bit.
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  So we got to find little ways that work for us to let that anxiety go.
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  Like, why am I feeling this and what can I do to make sure it doesn't come back in
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  again?
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  But it's such a great way to combat other people's fear to coming in.
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  And like they can let go of a little bit of that fear because yeah, definitely.
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  And that's the first thing.
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  And I felt that from spirit about a year ago.
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  It's just like, do this.
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  And I was like, oh, okay.
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  And I wrote it down.
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  I'm like, oh, okay.
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  And it made me feel better.
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  I'm like, oh, I thought that.
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  And so when I listened to spirit, they always direct me in the right place.
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  I hope so.
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  I know you said you don't like to scare people, but has anything really scary ever come up
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  in someone's reading that you're like, ooh, I don't want to tell them.
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  It kind of even scares me.
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  I have not.
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  I only asked for spirits of the white light.
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  And I only asked for the highest and best good.
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  I'll get warnings.
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  And people can think that's frightening or the snap, but it's not.
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  For example, I probably probably about four years ago.
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  I was doing a reading for a gal.
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  And she just sat down and I went, ooh, your mother is not well.
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  Like I felt it come over me so strongly.
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  And I had to talk about her mother.
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  And she goes, oh, my mom's been fine.
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  And I go, they're really telling me you need to take her to the hospital.
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  Like this needs to be addressed.
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  And I was like, ooh, so I get like overheated and overwhelmed.
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  And she called me a couple days later and said, I took my mom to the hospital.
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  And she has stage four cancer.
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  She has about a month to live.
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  Wow.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.
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  I get something what they call peekaboo's.
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  Oh.
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  Peekaboo's spirits.
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  And it cracks the people up because what I'm seeing is they're a little behind me.
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  And I see their head kind of down and shame.
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  And they're looking around the corner like, is it okay?
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  Peekaboo.
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  Peekaboo and that's the feeling.
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  Those are the ones that have a lot more shame associated with their life and their
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  or their death.
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  Some spirits that have committed people have committed suicide will sometimes be back
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  there.
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  They've took responsibility for their own life, their own death.
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  And then people who have sexually assaulted, busted, physical, physical hitting and stuff
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  like that, they all these are coming up and they're behind me and they need permission
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  to come through because I've got the are spirits of the white light.
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  They're just in a lot more, you know, they're just learning.
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  They're learning on the other side about what they left behind and they have a lot of
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  shame left.
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  And so I have to get permission to bring those people through.
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  And 99.9% of the time people allow that to happen.
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  First thing they want is to apologize, apologize, apologize, apologize.
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  I am so sorry for this and they're right on.
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  They're like, they're talking about this, this, this and this and they're like, yep, yep,
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  yep, yep.
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  And they're like, thank you.
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  I needed to hear that.
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  Well, they didn't even, wow.
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  They needed it.
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  And that's the great thing about spirit.
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  Spirit knows what we need.
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  And so spirit will direct that whole thing.
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  It's crazy.
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  Yeah, I try to have to remind myself that all the time, like when there's something I'm not getting,
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  that I want.
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  And I'm like, uh, yes, it's not meant to be right now.
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  Yeah.
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  It's fine calm down.
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  I always tell people, this isn't me doing it.
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  I'm just a conduit.
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  I am that middle person.
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  And so when people sit down for reading with me, I always tell them, if I don't do a great
• 18:26
  job, it's not you and it's not spirit.
• 18:28
  It's me.
• 18:29
  It's, I'm, we're a triangle and I'm not feeling well that day.
• 18:33
  I will literally cancel the reading if I don't feel great because part of the triangle,
• 18:38
  I have to feel good.
• 18:39
  I have to, I have to be in a good place mentally, physically and spiritually to be able to connect
• 18:44
  to that spirit and do a great job.
• 18:46
  Yeah.
• 18:47
  We've experienced that on the show because I told you we do tarot readings on, in every
• 18:52
  episode.
• 18:53
  Nice.
• 18:54
  So one of the episodes I was doing and I was coming off of COVID and I was still really
• 18:58
  sick.
• 18:59
  Like I was whoo sweat and during the whole thing, I'm just not feeling good.
• 19:03
  And I pulled a card that was so opposite from the story.
• 19:06
  I was like, there's, this is an obvious sign that like something is wrong here and this
• 19:11
  is not the right card.
• 19:13
  And my co-host was like, well, I heard that when you're sick, your intuition or your psychic
• 19:19
  abilities might be blocked.
• 19:21
  And I was like, well, that's it.
• 19:23
  It's so true.
• 19:24
  Yeah.
• 19:25
  When I had COVID, the first thing I did was cancel all my readings for two weeks because
• 19:28
  I knew I would get the COVID brain, which I did.
• 19:31
  And with that COVID brain, it's like, you're still, spirit's still using me and I still
• 19:35
  have to process it and I have to use my brain to do it.
• 19:37
  A lot of people think, oh, we don't use my brain.
• 19:39
  Like, no, I'm thinking and I'm talking.
• 19:42
  So my brain is being used.
• 19:44
  It's just a different part of my brain is being used.
• 19:45
  It's not my logical thinking.
• 19:47
  I don't do logical while I'm reading because this is not logical to freaking--
• 19:51
  Yeah.
• 19:52
  --fair it's, you know?
• 19:53
  I always tell people, oh, there's nothing logical about speaking the spirit.
• 19:56
  So they don't use that part of it.
• 19:58
  And you've seen probably seen some of the mediums on TV that have gotten those little, you
• 20:03
  know, brain testing done.
• 20:05
  And the frontal lobe gets cleared out and kind of blue.
• 20:08
  It's almost like we're daydreaming when we're speaking.
• 20:12
  We're in kind of a dream state, but we're talking and we're very aware.
• 20:15
  Oh, that is cool.
• 20:17
  It's so cool.
• 20:18
  But it's so true because that's exactly how I feel.
• 20:20
  I feel like I'm in a different plane for a little while, but I'm so very aware of everything
• 20:24
  that's going on.
• 20:25
  Wow.
• 20:26
  Do you lose a dream, too?
• 20:29
  I do have very lucid dreams.
• 20:30
  Not all the time, but I do when I do.
• 20:32
  It's like, whoa, that was so cool.
• 20:37
  Do you think you help people in your dreams?
• 20:40
  I have had so many people say that I come to them in their dreams, but I have no memory of
• 20:44
  it.
• 20:45
  They're like, you helped me in my dream last night.
• 20:46
  Like, are you kidding me?
• 20:47
  I've had at least three people tell me that like you visit me in my dream.
• 20:50
  You helped me through this and you helped me through that.
• 20:52
  I'm like, I was busy last night.
• 20:54
  I thought I was, you know, but apparently I know how to do this, but I had no memory of
• 20:58
  it whatsoever.
• 20:59
  That is really cool.
• 21:01
  They were tapped into me.
• 21:03
  I was tapped into them.
• 21:04
  And I am connected to, you know, I think we're all connected, but I think I'm connected
• 21:08
  to certain people just a little bit more.
• 21:10
  And when they need me or I need them, I think that we're in our sleep state that we really
• 21:15
  do try to help each other.
• 21:17
  Why not, right?
• 21:18
  Right?
• 21:19
  We're not doing anything else.
• 21:20
  We need our bodies are what needs the rest, you know.
• 21:23
  We need our bodies need the sleep, but our spirit mind and our consciousness is going
• 21:28
  like, woo, you know, that was a place.
• 21:30
  That's what I feel like when I'm asleep, I feel like when I wake up, I've just been so
• 21:35
  active during the night and doing things and my doctor's like, it's probably because you're
• 21:40
  not sleeping well.
• 21:41
  And I'm like, I think it's, I think it's something more, but I don't know.
• 21:45
  I love it.
• 21:46
  I love getting visits from spirit that are associated with me.
• 21:50
  My father-in-law just passed away last month.
• 21:52
  We just did a several yesterday.
• 21:54
  And my husband actually said, he visited him in a sleep the other night and gave him a hug.
• 21:59
  And not particularly spiritual, like what I do.
• 22:04
  He's more Christian-based religion, and which I have no problems with whoever wants to do
• 22:09
  what they want to do.
• 22:10
  I am completely open to anybody being who they need to be.
• 22:13
  This is our life, our choices.
• 22:16
  So he doesn't make fun of me.
• 22:18
  I will make fun of him because we're different.
• 22:20
  And he said, oh, my dad gave me the biggest hug last night.
• 22:23
  And I wanted to say, of course, he did.
• 22:25
  That's what spirit does.
• 22:26
  You know, but I said, that's wonderful, honey.
• 22:28
  I'm so glad that you felt him.
• 22:29
  That's all that I, you just kind of have to stop sometimes.
• 22:33
  And I'm not here to convince people to believe what I believe.
• 22:37
  Yeah.
• 22:38
  You're just here to answer my questions and hope that someone will come along if they feel
• 22:44
  it.
• 22:45
  That's so true.
• 22:48
  I have a random question.
• 22:49
  Are you okay if I ask you like a personal question about one of my dreams?
• 22:52
  Absolutely.
• 22:53
  I don't know if you'll be able to answer it or not, but it was kind of weird.
• 22:57
  So I've had this recurring dream of a cemetery.
• 23:00
  And every time in there, I just, I love cemeteries anyway.
• 23:03
  But I just love this cemetery.
• 23:06
  It's so beautiful and big.
• 23:08
  And then there's this beautiful building I go in and I can like research things.
• 23:12
  I don't ever remember what I've been researching.
• 23:14
  But apparently I go through and I research things.
• 23:17
  But the other night, I hadn't had this dream in a while.
• 23:22
  And I was in the car with some people and we were coming around to corner and also and
• 23:25
  I see the cemetery from like a different view because usually I'm in it.
• 23:29
  And I see like pulling up and I just knew it's this cemetery.
• 23:32
  And I was like, I'm home.
• 23:35
  And I woke up and I was like, that was really cool.
• 23:38
  Like a great feeling.
• 23:39
  But it was also really like creepy.
• 23:41
  Why am I saying I'm home in a cemetery.
• 23:43
  Yeah.
• 23:44
  Somehow or another, I feel the past life you were connected to a cemetery or something similar
• 23:49
  to that.
• 23:50
  And you're just having kind of recall dreams, recall thoughts and stuff like that.
• 23:55
  So it's not a, it's not a coincidence that you like cemeteries.
• 24:00
  Okay.
• 24:01
  So I think you're connected to cemeteries.
• 24:03
  That's the first feeling that I got.
• 24:05
  Like you were connected to in some way.
• 24:08
  Cemeteries don't do anything for me.
• 24:09
  I don't get scared in them.
• 24:10
  I don't get happy in them.
• 24:12
  I don't get sad in them.
• 24:13
  I don't think of people being in them.
• 24:16
  I just see, I just feel, that's where all the dead bodies are.
• 24:19
  And I don't like cemeteries as far as not that I don't like cemeteries.
• 24:22
  I don't like the idea of being buried.
• 24:24
  I just want to be cremated and I don't want to be buried anywhere.
• 24:28
  And that's a personal thing because I don't want to take up space and on earth.
• 24:31
  That's just my feelings of it because I feel like there's just not going to be enough room
• 24:35
  down the line.
• 24:36
  Everything is cemetery everywhere.
• 24:37
  And people are like weird about it.
• 24:39
  And I'm like, oh, we just got too many of them.
• 24:41
  I think we should just get into it.
• 24:42
  Do you know?
• 24:43
  But that's my thought.
• 24:44
  I hear that a lot from almost everyone.
• 24:47
  And I'm just like, can you please build me a coffin from like random wood and bury me
• 24:54
  in a cemetery?
• 24:55
  And I want a beautiful headstone.
• 24:57
  And I want to become a skeleton.
• 24:59
  Is that?
• 25:00
  That's funny.
• 25:01
  So it's just like the appearance that you've had or like, you know, maybe that was a task
• 25:05
  that you were assigned to do in a past life where you prepared bodies and you took care
• 25:10
  of bodies.
• 25:11
  And it was very normal to you.
• 25:12
  So you've normalized it.
• 25:14
  That is really interesting because I've always wanted to be like a mortician.
• 25:17
  It just never, it just never happened.
• 25:20
  Maybe it could still happen.
• 25:22
  Funny.
• 25:23
  The funny thing is when I started school about, oh gosh, probably 14 years ago, I was trying
• 25:28
  to figure out what to be when I was going to grow up and I was 40.
• 25:32
  Right.
• 25:33
  Like all is 54 now, like, oh God.
• 25:35
  But I was 40 and I remembered going back to, I did go to college.
• 25:39
  And while I was there, you know, they gave those Myers Briggs testing to see where, what level
• 25:45
  you should, you know, what place you should go and focus your energy on.
• 25:51
  You know, logical thinking this and that.
• 25:53
  Mine kept on coming up as being a mortician.
• 25:55
  Oh, no.
• 25:56
  Pretty close.
• 25:58
  I did three of them.
• 26:00
  Oh my gosh, I should take one and see what it does.
• 26:03
  It's just like funeral home director or mortician.
• 26:06
  I'm like, I'm not doing that job.
• 26:08
  I don't like dead bodies per se.
• 26:10
  I talk about the dead, but I don't like dead bodies.
• 26:12
  And I really wasn't into this back then.
• 26:14
  It really wasn't.
• 26:15
  It was something that was like there.
• 26:17
  I knew it, but I was ignoring it.
• 26:18
  I really got into my mediumship about nine years ago.
• 26:21
  Oh, wow.
• 26:22
  Well, I was in my problem in my last semester of school and I was like, okay, I can't
• 26:28
  do night now.
• 26:29
  It's here.
• 26:31
  What made you say that?
• 26:33
  So my daughter's friend, they were still in, they were out of high school, but it was her
• 26:39
  high school friend.
• 26:41
  My daughter and her boyfriend had their own apartment and then they were done with that
• 26:45
  apartment and wanted to move.
• 26:46
  And so we were going to go do the clean out for her.
• 26:50
  So we were on the way over there.
• 26:52
  And she's, I'm going to ride with you, I'm going to ride with you.
• 26:54
  And we got stuck behind traffic.
• 26:55
  So we were there a little, you know, traffic a little longer than everybody else.
• 26:58
  And funny how spirit works that way.
• 27:00
  And she just kind of looked at me.
• 27:03
  I was driving and she goes, Teresa, she ever filmed my grandma and I looked at her and I
• 27:08
  said, I feel a lot of things.
• 27:10
  I just don't know who they are.
• 27:12
  And I said, so I can't honestly answer that question, sweetie.
• 27:15
  But if I ever do, I'll let you know, is that okay?
• 27:17
  And she goes, I would really love it if you could communicate with my grandma.
• 27:21
  I know that you see things and feel things because you know, all the kids always love my stories.
• 27:26
  And all the high schoolers, oh my God, we'd have the best Friday nights.
• 27:31
  Go stories now, but they were all real stuff and they were like, oh my God.
• 27:36
  And so we're at the apartment.
• 27:39
  She's upstairs and I'm downstairs.
• 27:40
  I'm back in.
• 27:42
  Back in has always been that white noise to me.
• 27:44
  That's always triggered.
• 27:47
  And funny thing is I had a house cleaning business while I raised my kids.
• 27:50
  Oh, wow.
• 27:51
  Okay.
• 27:52
  Back to me, my hands a lot.
• 27:53
  And so, you vacuum in.
• 27:54
  I'd be like, oh my God, they're all around me.
• 27:59
  Why is it?
• 28:00
  So I literally had to turn up music really loud, distract myself with like singing or something.
• 28:04
  So I went see and feel everything that I was seeing.
• 28:08
  So I was vacuuming and all of a sudden I was like, what was that?
• 28:12
  It was a new sensation I had never gotten before.
• 28:15
  It looked like a chalkboard in my head and somebody wrote a big letter on it.
• 28:19
  It was a new feeling that her B as an boy.
• 28:22
  And I went, what the heck was that?
• 28:24
  It was just like all of a sudden thing.
• 28:27
  And I'm screaming, per Katie to come downstairs because it scared the bacheezey's out of me.
• 28:32
  I'm on.
• 28:34
  And she comes running down the stairs because she's okay.
• 28:35
  She's out of got electrocuted or something because I was like, and she was, what's wrong?
• 28:41
  And I said, I don't know.
• 28:43
  Got this weird thing just in my head.
• 28:45
  But my eyes are open.
• 28:46
  And I'm seeing it in my head.
• 28:47
  And she goes, what would you see?
• 28:48
  And I said the big letter B. And she laughed and she goes, that was my grandma's name.
• 28:54
  We called her grandma B.
• 28:58
  And I was like, no, it's not that.
• 29:01
  It's not that.
• 29:02
  No.
• 29:03
  And she goes, it is.
• 29:04
  I just know it is.
• 29:05
  And then I said, okay, okay.
• 29:08
  And I said, I'm going to call myself down.
• 29:10
  And because I was pretty freaked out.
• 29:12
  It was a really new experience for me.
• 29:13
  This was something they were communicating with me.
• 29:15
  And I already freaked out when people, spirits are always around me anyway.
• 29:18
  I'm always like, oh, God, they're going to touch me.
• 29:22
  And so this was new.
• 29:24
  And so to my backup stairs and I'm going, all right, grandma B, if you're here, let me know
• 29:32
  if you're doing it a good way, doing it a good way.
• 29:34
  Don't touch me or anything like that.
• 29:36
  And I'm going to like to just show me that you're here.
• 29:39
  And I got a very simple picture in my head of like the only way I can explain is like
• 29:44
  a jewelry box opening and closing.
• 29:48
  Okay.
• 29:49
  I knew it was a jewelry box because I had like the same one.
• 29:51
  They used my frames of references.
• 29:53
  I had a jewelry box as well, girl with a little ballerina.
• 29:56
  And that's what I saw.
• 29:58
  And I went, okay, that was not something that I would have thought about.
• 30:02
  So that's what doing a reading is.
• 30:04
  It's not my thoughts.
• 30:05
  So I called her back down.
• 30:08
  And I said, I think your grandma wants me to talk about a jewelry box.
• 30:13
  And Katie just fell to the floor crying.
• 30:18
  I just was walking up the stairs and in my head, I asked my grandma to please show her the
• 30:24
  jewelry box so that we know that it's her.
• 30:28
  That's when I, and they're doing it live time.
• 30:31
  Like I'm really feeling this at the exact same time they're saying it and showing it to me.
• 30:35
  So we just sat there both and just like, wow, and she goes, this is new on I go, it's
• 30:39
  freaking new.
• 30:43
  Oh my freaking God knew, you know, and I was like freaking out.
• 30:46
  And she was like, what else you got?
• 30:48
  What else you got?
• 30:49
  No, the thing I realized that day, I stopped being scared.
• 30:53
  Oh God.
• 30:54
  Here I've seen those pictures in my head and everything was gone.
• 30:59
  By the end of the day, I was seeing the last thing I saw got tons of stuff for her.
• 31:04
  It was very personal to her.
• 31:06
  I kept on seeing that puzzle that was incomplete.
• 31:09
  That was sitting on a flat surface and I called her up at the end of the day because it was
• 31:13
  after we dropped her off and I said, Katie, I see an incomplete puzzle.
• 31:16
  Does that mean anything to you?
• 31:18
  Because I don't know why I'm seeing it while I'm shopping at the grocery store.
• 31:21
  And she goes, wow, dad, she just saw the puzzle.
• 31:27
  And they're like, oh my God.
• 31:29
  And I'm like, oh my God, what I get, what I get.
• 31:31
  She was doing a puzzle on her lap when she was found dead on her chair.
• 31:35
  Oh my gosh.
• 31:36
  It was very specific to them.
• 31:39
  So I really realized that day that spirit really wanted me to communicate and sat in the hot
• 31:46
  tub, asked the spirit to guide me and let me know what's going on.
• 31:52
  And I looked at it was the night before.
• 31:54
  The night before I'd asked the spirit to kind of guide me because I was getting a lot of
• 31:58
  sensations and stuff when I was down in San Diego on a vacation.
• 32:01
  And that was the production the next day.
• 32:04
  12 hours after I asked for it to get stronger or go away, that happened.
• 32:09
  Wow.
• 32:10
  That was the most significant thing I think that changed my whole thing was.
• 32:13
  I asked for it.
• 32:14
  I did.
• 32:15
  For it to either go away, I was fine with it to go away or to make it stronger so I can understand
• 32:20
  it.
• 32:21
  And I asked the universe that 12 hours before she asked me about her grandmother.
• 32:24
  Wow.
• 32:25
  That's just crazy validation.
• 32:28
  Oh my God.
• 32:29
  Yes.
• 32:30
  And it's been a validation ever since.
• 32:32
  Wow.
• 32:33
  You know, some of the stuff is, you know, some of my experiences, not during readings or
• 32:39
  anything like that, but I've had experiences myself that could be so scary and that could
• 32:43
  totally shoot me away for what I'm doing.
• 32:46
  But I always stand very firm with anything negative and I'm like, you're not going to deter
• 32:51
  me from this.
• 32:52
  That's awesome.
• 32:53
  Yeah.
• 32:54
  It's like kind of how I am with negative stuff.
• 32:57
  I'm just like, no, you can't come in here.
• 33:01
  Yep.
• 33:02
  Yep.
• 33:03
  I've had quite a few of you want me to share those I can.
• 33:05
  Yes.
• 33:06
  If you feel comfortable sharing any, I would love for people to hear the really scary stuff
• 33:11
  and that you're still doing it and to hear all the good stuff.
• 33:15
  I just push it right through because I know that light is stronger than dark and I will
• 33:20
  always honor that.
• 33:22
  Just about maybe, let's see, must have been May.
• 33:25
  My daughter was in the hospital for about a month while she was in labor with this baby.
• 33:31
  The current ones, she ended up same issue and so they kept on the hospital for a month and
• 33:35
  she ended up being okay and he was okay, which was awesome.
• 33:38
  But so the whole month of May, she was in the hospital.
• 33:41
  So we live about 15 minutes from my daughter and I have about 30 minutes outside of town.
• 33:46
  So it was quite the hospital 30 minutes that way.
• 33:50
  Her house 15 minutes, both was that way, taking care of her animals and her home while
• 33:53
  she was in the hospital and going to take care of her and trying to work.
• 33:58
  So man, my due dead tired, just canceled all my readings for the month of May, just dead
• 34:03
  tired to the world.
• 34:05
  And those are the times when darker energies can really sneak in.
• 34:10
  So those are the times when you really need to protect yourself with that white light,
• 34:14
  do a meditation daily and really, really protect yourself.
• 34:17
  I wasn't doing it because I was just so exhausted and I was worried and I had not only the
• 34:23
  fear of losing another grandchild, losing my daughter because she would have lost another
• 34:28
  child, I would have lost my daughter.
• 34:30
  And it just, that big on my heart.
• 34:33
  So May sucked.
• 34:34
  So it wasn't that long ago, it was four or five months ago.
• 34:37
  And went to bed one night and I asked my husband, are you coming to bed too?
• 34:42
  Because it was getting pretty late and he says, yeah, I'm coming.
• 34:44
  And I could have sworn I heard him click off the TV.
• 34:46
  I just could have sworn I heard it, but you know, you just hear things and stuff.
• 34:50
  I walked down the hallway, we have a pretty long hallway to our bedroom and the room was
• 34:54
  really dark and I just kept it that way and slid right in and it's like, oh my god, I
• 34:58
  get to sleep, you know, for four hours before I have to do this all over again.
• 35:04
  And I felt the bed move.
• 35:08
  Nothing as far as lights changed or anything like that.
• 35:10
  I felt the bed moved.
• 35:12
  I felt the small of my back like a light touch.
• 35:15
  And I thought, oh, my head is a bit, I get to snuggle and I love snuggles.
• 35:19
  And so I'm kind of moving more towards his side, but with my back face there and all of
• 35:24
  a sudden I heard a growl, a very distinct, awful, horrible growl in my ear.
• 35:32
  I knew my husband would never in my, in his life growl like that.
• 35:35
  It was, it was nasty.
• 35:38
  And I turned around because when I have anything that happens to me negatively, I face it.
• 35:43
  I never, ever coward out because I know that that's what they want.
• 35:46
  So I turned and I was thinking, I'm going to see something pretty nasty right now, but it
• 35:52
  didn't show itself to me, but I felt its presence.
• 35:55
  And I just sat up in bed and my husband was still, I could still see the TV light down the
• 36:00
  hallway since I was looking that way now.
• 36:04
  And looked and I looked over there and I just went, get the hell out of my house and don't
• 36:08
  you ever fucking come back.
• 36:10
  And I'm screaming at it.
• 36:12
  And my husband's like, what honey and I go, oh, nothing, honey.
• 36:15
  I just, the cat ran across my face.
• 36:20
  And I got mad at the cat.
• 36:21
  You know, I had to pick up like a story really fast.
• 36:23
  I'm like, uh, uh, uh, uh, I'm reading an entity from his side of the bed and he's going to
• 36:27
  have to come to bed here all soon.
• 36:29
  It wasn't going to happen.
• 36:30
  And so I felt the presence leave like immediately and the shift and the air changed everything,
• 36:35
  but I was like, oh my God.
• 36:38
  And I knew immediately right then and there, I'm too tired.
• 36:41
  I need to take a little mental break and I need to get some really good sleep.
• 36:45
  So I kind of revenge my schedule will definitely the next day to meditate, to get some rest,
• 36:49
  and eat some good food and to, you know, really be a little better about not accepting that
• 36:55
  kind of energy in my home because of my fatigue.
• 36:58
  And so that's what we need.
• 37:00
  As light workers really need to be careful that we get broke down, they get a creep in.
• 37:06
  And so being a child, you can creep in all the time because children don't have those
• 37:10
  defense mechanisms.
• 37:11
  My daughter was, my daughter who had the baby was terrified by spirits as a child, by negative
• 37:17
  entities as a child.
• 37:19
  We went through a bottle of tons probably every two months in our house and it was because
• 37:23
  she had heartburn constantly.
• 37:25
  Aww.
• 37:26
  Or baby, I had no idea.
• 37:27
  I had no idea what was going on because she was, uh, unable to speak.
• 37:33
  So she got, I at such a young age that she really didn't get to develop and they didn't
• 37:37
  diagnose her until she was like two, that she was starting to speak and all of a sudden tongue
• 37:42
  twisted.
• 37:43
  And I talked to a few mediums down the line and they're like, that's from pure fear.
• 37:52
  That's from pure fear because she was talking and then all of a sudden it twisted.
• 37:54
  It wasn't, she was born that way.
• 37:56
  Her son was born with a tongue twist, which isn't just a tongue tie.
• 38:00
  And so she was not, she did not get diagnosed as a baby and she was talking.
• 38:04
  She was able to speak and then all of a sudden nothing.
• 38:07
  She just couldn't even get words out.
• 38:09
  So she couldn't speak to me.
• 38:11
  She wasn't speaking to therapy for three days a week for a year.
• 38:14
  So she couldn't speak to me and tell me what she was seeing.
• 38:17
  All she had was fear in her eyes all the time.
• 38:19
  And that is so heartbreaking.
• 38:21
  That is one of the, you know, one of the reasons I'm, I'm an advocate really for people who
• 38:28
  have been children with issues in the house.
• 38:31
  I will go to your house.
• 38:32
  I will talk to you for an hour on the phone.
• 38:34
  I will do anything to help that child.
• 38:36
  I do not want that.
• 38:38
  I do not want that for children because my child lived it.
• 38:40
  I lived it.
• 38:41
  No one understood what I was seeing.
• 38:43
  I didn't have the ability to communicate to my family about what was going on.
• 38:47
  We were living in dire situations with, you know, being very poor.
• 38:54
  There was no resources for that kind of stuff.
• 38:55
  And I didn't understand it anyway.
• 38:56
  So I just zipped it and shut it and didn't speak about it.
• 39:01
  But my daughter couldn't speak.
• 39:02
  I was the worst thing about it, you know.
• 39:05
  So I like to give children voices if possible.
• 39:08
  Yeah.
• 39:09
  Oh, that is so amazing.
• 39:11
  Kids shouldn't have to do with that.
• 39:13
  They got enough going on.
• 39:14
  They just do not need that.
• 39:16
  So yeah, it's, it's a gift when, when we can help the little ones.
• 39:21
  That's for sure.
• 39:22
  It is.
• 39:23
  And it's nice to know that there's another option too of something to look at.
• 39:27
  Even if you don't necessarily believe in it, maybe just even look at it as an option to
• 39:33
  help if you've gone, you know, and tried to do everything else.
• 39:36
  Right.
• 39:37
  If we can just offer any advice or say anything to them to give them any kind of guidance or
• 39:41
  help, definitely.
• 39:42
  I'm currently helping this little little lady in my town, she's 97.
• 39:46
  And her family got ahold of me through social media and put it out there saying, I'm looking
• 39:52
  for a meeting in the area, please don't judge me kind of a thing.
• 39:56
  But if anybody can contact in, I guess my name was mentioned on there quite a few times
• 40:00
  because I live in a pretty small, you know, area, Eugene, Oregon.
• 40:03
  And it's not tiny, but it's not huge.
• 40:06
  But a lot of people that put me down and so she contacted me and I'm so glad she did.
• 40:10
  Her mother's so sweet, 97 years old, lives by herself still and wants to.
• 40:15
  But from the best of what I can become is she has a portal in her house.
• 40:20
  She keeps on getting spirits and keeps visiting her different ones every night.
• 40:23
  And she looks at me and I like it out of my house and they'll get up and walk right out
• 40:27
  of the closet.
• 40:28
  It's always the closet.
• 40:29
  So you got a little portal going on in her closet.
• 40:32
  Why is it always the closet?
• 40:33
  Oh no, my daughter was horrified by her closet.
• 40:36
  But I'm going to go over there this week since I'm back from being out of town and all that
• 40:41
  kind of stuff on the stage.
• 40:42
  I'm going to put some crystals out.
• 40:44
  And but I've been given the family advice with like salt to do all the, you know, openings
• 40:48
  being very verbal about this is what I don't want.
• 40:51
  This is what I want.
• 40:52
  And it has been helping.
• 40:53
  There has been some less activity, but I want it gone.
• 40:57
  97 year old woman doesn't need to be faced with that kind of stuff.
• 41:01
  It's just, you know, hard enough to get up in the morning and deal with it and everything
• 41:04
  in her ailments.
• 41:05
  But she's very with it, you know, and she's just like, they just sit at the end of my
• 41:09
  bed and they stare at me and I'm like, oh, yeah, I know that one.
• 41:13
  I had a house with a portal.
• 41:15
  So I understand.
• 41:16
  Oh, and they just stare at you from the hallway and they under your bed and had that
• 41:20
  grown up too.
• 41:21
  And you wake up and you're seeing spirit just staring at you.
• 41:25
  Why?
• 41:26
  I know why.
• 41:28
  I've never seen anything during, like, during my waking time that I know of anyway.
• 41:36
  But I've had, I had really bad sleep paralysis dreams, which now I've just, I've explained
• 41:42
  away by science now, but it's so freaky.
• 41:47
  But one of them was like, I would wake up and be seeing my room, but I like knew my eyes
• 41:53
  were closed, but I could still see my room.
• 41:55
  And I saw like a little creepy girl standing at the end of my bed staring at me and I was
• 42:00
  just like, seriously.
• 42:02
  It got so bad with my daughter, we were public and she would say, she's probably about eight.
• 42:07
  She looked over a side of her eyes and looked over and she go, do you see that?
• 42:11
  And I go, I do.
• 42:12
  And she goes, okay.
• 42:14
  And she'd be like, I just want to make sure she was real.
• 42:16
  It got so bad because she was seeing so many and that she was being really bombarded by
• 42:21
  spirit.
• 42:22
  She has a lot of PTSD today because of it.
• 42:24
  She admitted.
• 42:25
  Like, I can't go there mom.
• 42:26
  I don't want to talk about it.
• 42:27
  Just way too much PTSD.
• 42:29
  She was probably one of the most horrific things.
• 42:31
  She was about 16.
• 42:32
  So very aware, very much awake, middle of the day, towards the end of the day, but it's
• 42:37
  about maybe like five, six o'clock in the evening.
• 42:40
  And her then, then boyfriend now ex-boyfriend was in the bathroom.
• 42:44
  We had a very long hallway.
• 42:46
  He was in the bathroom in the middle of the hallway.
• 42:49
  Her bedroom was at the far end of the hallway at the left.
• 42:53
  And I was in the kitchen way over here.
• 42:55
  So was like, you know, quite a distance away from me, but I heard the blood-curdling screen
• 42:59
  that I'd never heard before.
• 43:01
  And he pops his head out of the bathroom like, what was that?
• 43:05
  So I know he didn't scare her.
• 43:06
  It was like, there was no way within that immediate.
• 43:08
  I was right there.
• 43:10
  And he's like, like, go, like, go to her.
• 43:13
  You know, you can get there faster than I do.
• 43:14
  I was trying to get to her.
• 43:16
  And by that time she ran across a man in a my room.
• 43:19
  And she was, she couldn't speak.
• 43:22
  She was so hysterical.
• 43:25
  She couldn't speak.
• 43:26
  She couldn't breathe.
• 43:27
  She was turning blue.
• 43:28
  I was just like, just breathe.
• 43:30
  And she was just breathing.
• 43:31
  And she was trying to get the words out and finally got a calm down.
• 43:35
  And she was standing at the edge of the bed, grabbing a few things off the top of the bed.
• 43:40
  And something underneath the bed grabbed and hung onto her ankle.
• 43:44
  No.
• 43:45
  There are the bed.
• 43:46
  And she's 16.
• 43:47
  She's not like a little five-year-old saying and making this up.
• 43:51
  She was horrible.
• 43:52
  My kid, she never lied about that kind of stuff.
• 43:54
  I had never once ever thought she was faking it or anything like that.
• 43:58
  She didn't want to, especially that kind of attention.
• 44:01
  And a new her boyfriend couldn't have done it because of where he was.
• 44:04
  He couldn't have got under a bed and got that, no matter the second.
• 44:07
  And so I'm just like, it's okay.
• 44:08
  It's okay.
• 44:09
  Mommy will take care of it.
• 44:10
  And she's like, you can't take care of something like that.
• 44:13
  You're never walking in that room again.
• 44:15
  And she was hysterical.
• 44:17
  I took her and taking him home.
• 44:18
  And she came back, slept in my room.
• 44:21
  And the next day, I went and got him while she was at work.
• 44:24
  I said, you're helping me rid whatever's in there.
• 44:27
  He goes, I'm not going there there.
• 44:29
  I'm not going to your house ever again.
• 44:31
  I'll break up with her.
• 44:32
  I don't care.
• 44:33
  But you come with me.
• 44:36
  And he agreed to come with me to the house and we got the sage out.
• 44:40
  And I had about a 1,600 square foot house.
• 44:41
  So we started at one end and worked our way there because we were both very much feeling
• 44:46
  it.
• 44:47
  And he's as sensitive as well.
• 44:49
  He picked a boy from that had the same gussets her at a best friend with the same guss.
• 44:53
  So there was a lot of stuff going on because we were all feelers and seers.
• 44:57
  Yeah.
• 44:58
  Oh my god.
• 44:59
  Back it be bad.
• 45:00
  So we went around the whole house and ended up in her room.
• 45:02
  I did under the bed, the couch, opened up, I had the windows and the whole house opened
• 45:06
  doors, everything.
• 45:08
  And I say, I say, get out of my house.
• 45:10
  You're not welcome.
• 45:11
  Anything of the white light can stay.
• 45:12
  I want everything else gone.
• 45:13
  And we both felt it like the back of your neck hair.
• 45:17
  And he was looking at his arm and he was like, it's not gone.
• 45:22
  It's not gone.
• 45:23
  And he goes, this isn't going anywhere.
• 45:25
  And I remember something that my son and law has said to me, his family from Mexico.
• 45:31
  He said they scream at them that they scream at the dark energy that the dark entities
• 45:36
  to get out their house and they scream in Spanish really, really loud.
• 45:40
  And I was like, you know, I'm going to try that.
• 45:42
  Why not?
• 45:43
  I'm mad.
• 45:44
  I'm mad at this point.
• 45:45
  It's not leaving.
• 45:46
  It's my daughter's room and we need to have the space.
• 45:47
  I'm a bear.
• 45:48
  I'm a bear came out full force.
• 45:49
  So I screamed some very, very loud words and stage underneath the bed one more time.
• 45:57
  And then we were standing at the closet with our white sage and he goes, oh my God.
• 46:03
  And I looked over and through the mattress.
• 46:05
  I'm talking through the mattress, a dark swirl of smoke came through and sage is white
• 46:12
  light, white, white smoke.
• 46:13
  We were nowhere near it.
• 46:14
  And it was coming through the mattress.
• 46:16
  And I'm looking at him.
• 46:17
  He's looking at me and he goes, keep looking at it.
• 46:21
  And he just like keep looking at it and I go, you're right.
• 46:23
  We need to tell it like it doesn't belong here.
• 46:26
  It all came through and then it just hovered right above her bed and it hovered.
• 46:30
  It was like testing me.
• 46:32
  I had never seen anything like that in my life.
• 46:35
  I felt it though.
• 46:36
  It was awful.
• 46:37
  Ugly energy.
• 46:39
  And I just did one more scream.
• 46:40
  I said, get the fuck out of my house and don't you ever come back and I point at the window
• 46:45
  and that's where it went.
• 46:47
  That is amazing.
• 46:48
  And so he looked at me.
• 46:49
  I looked at him.
• 46:50
  We couldn't have got out that room fast enough.
• 46:52
  We were stumbling each other through the doorway all the way.
• 46:55
  I must have fallen down the hallway.
• 46:58
  We made it to the other side of the house and he goes, what the hell was that?
• 47:01
  And I go, that is what grabbed my daughter yesterday.
• 47:04
  He goes, you got rid of it.
• 47:06
  And I go, well, you helped.
• 47:10
  But we got rid of it.
• 47:11
  She came home from work.
• 47:12
  She never knew up until a month ago or so.
• 47:15
  She was 16.
• 47:16
  She was 25 now.
• 47:18
  She didn't know until about a month ago that I did that.
• 47:20
  Oh wow.
• 47:21
  She came home and she took a deep breath down the hallway because she needed to get something
• 47:25
  on the room and she took a deep breath at the doorway.
• 47:28
  And I was standing right there and I go, you're fine.
• 47:30
  Everything's fine.
• 47:31
  She went in there and she goes, it feels different.
• 47:34
  And then she never told me why it felt different.
• 47:36
  I never told her that I did that.
• 47:37
  He never told her.
• 47:38
  But yeah, she found out about a month ago.
• 47:40
  I had posted something.
• 47:42
  And she saw it and she goes, in my room.
• 47:45
  And I'm like, oops.
• 47:48
  I forgot to tell you that one.
• 47:50
  Yeah, just slipped my mind.
• 47:52
  I didn't think you can handle it back then, honey.
• 47:54
  You were pretty stressed out.
• 47:55
  But I don't want to talk about it.
• 47:57
  I don't want to talk about it.
• 47:58
  And I never did.
• 47:59
  She never asked about it.
• 48:00
  Oh, yeah.
• 48:01
  She was like, that would make me feel so protected though that I had a mother who
• 48:06
  was that powerful against something so dark.
• 48:09
  It felt really good to be able to be that mom that my mom couldn't because she didn't understand
• 48:14
  it.
• 48:15
  But I could be this mom to her until she was older.
• 48:18
  I wasn't able to help when she was younger.
• 48:19
  And I think that's why I love helping the little.
• 48:22
  I just, I feel like that's just something that's part of me.
• 48:26
  And like, you know, from past experiences, past lives, whatever it is, it's just something
• 48:31
  in me.
• 48:32
  But that dark energy, you know, some people don't believe in dark energy.
• 48:35
  I don't care what they believe.
• 48:36
  I said, I'm not here to convince anybody.
• 48:38
  I just know my own experiences.
• 48:40
  And that was the really nasty experience.
• 48:42
  Yeah.
• 48:43
  Oh my gosh.
• 48:44
  So how do you feel about Ouija boards?
• 48:47
  I actually stay away from anything like that.
• 48:49
  My friend actually made a spirit board.
• 48:53
  He called it.
• 48:54
  And so it's very similar to a Ouija board.
• 48:55
  It was blessed.
• 48:56
  And he was a, he's still practices being a Buddhist monk, but he is a medium.
• 49:01
  So it's kind of a contradictory of terms.
• 49:03
  Oh, okay.
• 49:04
  That's really cool though.
• 49:05
  He's my walking, talking contradiction of a friend, of a Buddhist monk.
• 49:10
  We have a lot of laughs together.
• 49:12
  But he actually made this board and had it blessed.
• 49:14
  And he blessed it as making it.
• 49:15
  And this, and I actually used it one time during a reading for a friend.
• 49:20
  And names were coming through and this and that.
• 49:22
  But it's just a tool.
• 49:24
  It's just a tool.
• 49:25
  I don't think Ouija boards is something that most people should play with.
• 49:29
  If it's used as a tool for people who already know what they're doing, it could be okay.
• 49:34
  But I don't think people should use it because I think anything could come through, but
• 49:38
  anything could come through with a lot of things.
• 49:40
  Yeah.
• 49:41
  But more of an opportunity is what I'm saying.
• 49:44
  You know, you get tired.
• 49:45
  The spirit and dark spirit can come through.
• 49:47
  You have a lot of grief.
• 49:49
  Dark spirits can come through.
• 49:50
  This is just another way for it to come through by using a board.
• 49:54
  Yeah, I was kind of wondering why it's always seems to be dark energy coming through
• 49:59
  Ouija board.
• 50:00
  I don't think I've had a good story about Ouija board.
• 50:04
  Yeah.
• 50:05
  Because it's not something that most people should play with.
• 50:11
  They don't have the ability to communicate with spirit.
• 50:15
  Why are they communicating with spirit on a board?
• 50:17
  I can be.
• 50:18
  You have to go the proper way.
• 50:19
  Learn a technique.
• 50:20
  Do it and see what you get.
• 50:22
  But don't use something that can just so easily trick you and manipulate you.
• 50:26
  Always cracks me up when I hear people say.
• 50:29
  All mediums and stuff.
• 50:31
  You guys are just all, you know, you're just getting a mold of dark energy and they're fooling
• 50:35
  you and this and that.
• 50:37
  My take on that is this and my grandma actually said it to me.
• 50:40
  She was very religious before she died.
• 50:42
  She says, I actually like that you're a medium and I actually believe that you do have this
• 50:46
  gift and I commend you for moving forward on your gift.
• 50:50
  And she died about six years ago.
• 50:51
  So I was, you know, kind of newer but not too new.
• 50:55
  But she said, she asked because she asked me this one day.
• 50:57
  She always called me baby Terry.
• 50:59
  She said, baby Terry, do you ever feel anything negative when you do a reading?
• 51:03
  I said, absolutely not.
• 51:04
  She goes, do they leave feeling good?
• 51:06
  And I said, absolutely.
• 51:07
  And she goes, then that's your answer.
• 51:10
  She says anything negative.
• 51:12
  She says the dark, dark energy is, she called it the devil wherever you want to call it,
• 51:18
  is never going to make people feel better.
• 51:20
  Right.
• 51:21
  So if you're doing something that makes people feel better, keep doing what you're doing.
• 51:26
  And I will always, always 100% feel that way.
• 51:30
  I love that so much.
• 51:32
  That's beautiful.
• 51:33
  So how do you feel about tarot cards and stuff like that?
• 51:36
  Is it the same as like a Ouija board or do you?
• 51:39
  No, I actually love tarot readings.
• 51:41
  I have a deck but I really don't use my use oracle cards because I feel that they're same
• 51:45
  thing.
• 51:46
  Yeah.
• 51:47
  The tool, it's just a tool.
• 51:49
  If the person doing it is a medium, it's just a tool to use to get that same message
• 51:53
  that they're going to get from feeling spirit and from seeing spirit and communication.
• 51:58
  It's just a different way of communication.
• 51:59
  I don't have any odd feelings or negative feelings about tarot at all.
• 52:03
  Oh, that's awesome.
• 52:04
  Yeah, because we have some people, we don't have a lot of people say it, but I just know
• 52:08
  that there's people out there that think it's evil and people are always going to have
• 52:12
  their opinion, right?
• 52:14
  That scared the crap out of me when you moved your phone.
• 52:19
  It sounded like a breathing and I was looking down and I was like, was it the
• 52:23
  evil?
• 52:24
  I love it.
• 52:25
  That's so funny.
• 52:29
  So I actually brought my moon oracle deck today.
• 52:34
  Should I pull a card?
• 52:35
  Yeah, sure.
• 52:36
  Let's do it.
• 52:37
  I can pull one too if you want me to.
• 52:38
  Yeah.
• 52:39
  What do you have?
• 52:40
  I got mystical journey.
• 52:41
  Ooh, I love it.
• 52:42
  Yeah.
• 52:43
  Those are so pretty.
• 52:44
  I love this deck.
• 52:46
  Yeah, this one would not let me leave the store without it.
• 52:51
  I tried and I was like, no, I had to take it home.
• 52:55
  Got to do it.
• 52:56
  Got to do it.
• 52:57
  I love that.
• 52:58
  Yeah.
• 52:59
  We've had a beautiful relationship ever since.
• 53:01
  And these are my colors.
• 53:02
  I was very drawn to the colors.
• 53:04
  These are just when you're drawn to color and you're drawn to different artwork and stuff.
• 53:09
  Like, speaking to you, like, oh, you got to do that.
• 53:13
  That's going to be something.
• 53:14
  That's what I pay attention to.
• 53:16
  Who already had a card that popped.
• 53:19
  Oh, you're dead.
• 53:22
  Yeah.
• 53:23
  You're more talented than me.
• 53:25
  My flip, flip, flip, it flips right out.
• 53:28
  It'll fall on the floor.
• 53:29
  Also my lap.
• 53:30
  It's crazy.
• 53:31
  People have seen it.
• 53:32
  They're like, oh, my stars.
• 53:34
  That's crazy how fast that comes through.
• 53:36
  And it's usually two, three in.
• 53:38
  And I got a card.
• 53:39
  Oh, I love that.
• 53:40
  Yeah.
• 53:41
  That happens to me sometimes.
• 53:42
  I don't think of somebody during the day too, like my stepdaughter down to San Diego.
• 53:45
  I'll be thinking of her and I'll be like, oh, I got a full record card, like immediately.
• 53:49
  And I'll go do her and send the card and send a picture of the book.
• 53:54
  And she goes, you have zero idea right now.
• 53:57
  How flip and much I needed to hear those words.
• 53:59
  Like, it is always spot on and try to on Facebook every Saturday.
• 54:03
  I pull, I put out three cards and I put them upside down.
• 54:07
  And I say, pick one that you're drawn to from just the energy.
• 54:11
  And then on Sunday, generally, I turn it around and I take a picture of it and I give
• 54:16
  the message down below.
• 54:18
  I tell you, almost every single person that ever partakes in that, they're like, it's
• 54:26
  like spot on me for this, what's going on this weekend, what's going on my life when
• 54:29
  I'm anticipating tomorrow blah, blah, blah, blah.
• 54:31
  This is like, how was that so?
• 54:32
  And it's just like, because you drew it.
• 54:34
  Yeah.
• 54:35
  You felt the energy.
• 54:36
  You felt the energy.
• 54:37
  You went to it.
• 54:38
  So we have more power than we know.
• 54:41
  We need to realize that we do have a lot of power.
• 54:44
  Everybody has this gift.
• 54:45
  It's just act upon it.
• 54:46
  Yeah.
• 54:47
  We're all connected.
• 54:50
  So we all obviously have the same gifts.
• 54:52
  We just have it in different levels and different ways because some of us actually study
• 54:57
  it and move forward with it.
• 54:59
  I mean, I decided to practice it as soon as it started becoming more real like that one
• 55:03
  day with my daughter, Shron Katie.
• 55:05
  It was like, well, I guess this is what I am now.
• 55:09
  So they're to get on the ball and start doing it.
• 55:13
  I guess this is my life now.
• 55:15
  You're like, you know, hard to just a date when you're in medium.
• 55:18
  Oh my gosh.
• 55:19
  I bet.
• 55:20
  I could write a book on that.
• 55:22
  Oh my gosh.
• 55:23
  My current husband, we've been together for four years now.
• 55:27
  When we went our first date a little over four years ago, he was going to be my last date.
• 55:31
  I put out to the universe.
• 55:32
  I don't want to date anymore.
• 55:34
  If this is the one, make it happen otherwise, I'm done.
• 55:36
  And he was the one.
• 55:38
  And he had said, he pretty much said the same thing.
• 55:40
  He was like, feeling the same way.
• 55:41
  He was just like, I hate this dating stuff.
• 55:43
  It's just, yeah.
• 55:44
  This is too hard, especially when you're in your 50s or we were both in our late 40s.
• 55:48
  I think he just turned 50.
• 55:49
  I was turning 50.
• 55:50
  And so he started talking about his past and this and that.
• 55:55
  And I was like, thank you for sharing.
• 55:57
  That is such a hard thing to share.
• 55:59
  And I said, can I share something about me?
• 56:01
  He said, sure.
• 56:02
  I said on the medium and he goes, oh, you look more like a small.
• 56:08
  Where I fell in love with him that night.
• 56:09
  Oh, good answer.
• 56:10
  Good answer.
• 56:11
  Good answer.
• 56:12
  And I go, do you know what a medium is?
• 56:14
  And he goes, not particularly, but I didn't want to insult you.
• 56:19
  You look like a small.
• 56:20
  That is so freaking cute.
• 56:21
  That is because I wasn't trying to be cute.
• 56:24
  It just felt right to say it.
• 56:26
  Oh my gosh.
• 56:27
  And I absolutely was falling in love with him that night.
• 56:29
  It was so funny.
• 56:30
  I thought it was so sweet.
• 56:32
  Oh my goodness.
• 56:33
  So I did have a card pop out.
• 56:37
  So I was, you know, doing shopping and it popped out.
• 56:40
  Nice.
• 56:41
  It was authentic.
• 56:42
  I love it.
• 56:44
  I love it.
• 56:46
  Which I feel like totally relates to what we were talking about today.
• 56:50
  Definitely.
• 56:51
  So I'm going to go to the little page here and see what it says.
• 56:57
  So these have a quote in here.
• 56:59
  So it says authentic.
• 57:01
  The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.
• 57:05
  CJ Young.
• 57:07
  I love that.
• 57:08
  Yes.
• 57:09
  This is so perfect.
• 57:11
  I love it.
• 57:12
  So true because, you know, to be your authentic self and really push forward.
• 57:17
  And if you know you have a gift and you want to do something in life, if you don't use
• 57:21
  it, it's just like wasting this lifetime of this time.
• 57:24
  You need to be able to do things like, like I said, I'm very drawn to helping children
• 57:28
  and this and that.
• 57:29
  I feel like I was supposed to be here to help with that.
• 57:33
  It's like that is a huge purpose of mine and giving children a voice.
• 57:38
  That's actually my next book I'm working on.
• 57:41
  And so it's really important to me.
• 57:44
  So you've got to take what you already are feeling and then you've got to push forward.
• 57:49
  Even if you do it in such a small way or a very magnified way, does it matter?
• 57:53
  You still use it.
• 57:54
  Yeah.
• 57:55
  You know, like it's help people, even if you just fall into your time and you do this,
• 57:58
  da da da da, you're using that gift.
• 58:00
  You're helping develop something inside of you and others and that's really what being
• 58:05
  authentic is.
• 58:06
  Yeah.
• 58:07
  And start small.
• 58:08
  Don't put any pressure on it.
• 58:09
  Certainly.
• 58:10
  There's times like, I mean, some days, some months are just reading after reading after reading
• 58:16
  after reading and then other months it's like really slow and I take pride in that I take.
• 58:21
  I'm like, oh thank god it's slow right now.
• 58:23
  I can breathe again for a little while and I kind of look forward to the down moments.
• 58:27
  And then there's sometimes I feel like I don't want to do this anymore.
• 58:30
  I'm too busy or this is going on and I just remember and I go back and I'm like, no,
• 58:35
  I'm supposed to do this.
• 58:36
  It's just that means life is talking to me right now and I need to step back a little bit.
• 58:39
  And I'm in a step back period right now.
• 58:42
  It's been a busy year.
• 58:43
  We've had a lot of losses here.
• 58:44
  I've lost, follow my mom.
• 58:46
  My nephew, my whole thing with my daughter having the baby, all these things came up and
• 58:51
  said, just hold them out of time.
• 58:54
  That's just been since May.
• 58:55
  And it's only in October and it's just was one thing after that.
• 58:59
  I haven't had a lot of time to breathe.
• 59:01
  And so stepping back from what your gift is is, okay, it doesn't mean you're never going
• 59:06
  to do it again.
• 59:07
  It just means you need a breather.
• 59:08
  We're only human.
• 59:09
  We're in this body.
• 59:11
  We need to take care of this body.
• 59:12
  Otherwise we can't do what we're doing.
• 59:14
  Exactly.
• 59:15
  That's really important.
• 59:17
  So my card would love.
• 59:20
  My card was take back your power.
• 59:21
  Oh, I love that.
• 59:23
  These like totally go together.
• 59:25
  Black, it mine doesn't have a short little thing, but the action card, the action at the end
• 59:32
  is use the symbol of the water lily as encouragement to speak your truth and acknowledge
• 59:36
  how you really feel.
• 59:38
  When you speak up and honor your soul, if you don't speak up and stay underwater, you
• 59:43
  cannot shine your true light.
• 59:45
  Oh, that's so beautiful.
• 59:47
  Oh, then tick.
• 59:49
  Seriously.
• 59:50
  Okay, easy.
• 59:51
  This has more to it.
• 59:52
  It has a whole little page and I think I should read it now.
• 59:55
  You should.
• 59:56
  You should.
• 59:57
  Yeah, mine has a whole page.
• 59:58
  I just said the last part too.
• 59:59
  Oh, okay.
• 1:00:00
  Yeah, let's see.
• 1:00:01
  Okay.
• 1:00:02
  So the keywords are shed and brace and true begin to peel away your layers.
• 1:00:07
  Try to reverse and go back from adulthood to childhood to discover your authentic self.
• 1:00:13
  Unfortunately, society can influence us slowly molding us into cookie cutter humans.
• 1:00:18
  By the time we reach adulthood, we have often lost sight of our genuine selves.
• 1:00:23
  Your peer and raw being is safely tucked away in your deepest core where you protect it
• 1:00:29
  from others.
• 1:00:31
  Be brave and do not let others unnecessarily influence you, your beliefs, values and opinions.
• 1:00:38
  Stay true to yourself.
• 1:00:39
  Embrace your private thoughts and entertain your passions.
• 1:00:43
  Oh, my God.
• 1:00:44
  Celebrate all that you have learned from your life's experiences.
• 1:00:48
  Carry your own unique and individual torch high with pride.
• 1:00:52
  Oh, yeah.
• 1:00:54
  And the intention says, like go of the facade, you may be wearing to please others.
• 1:00:59
  Purify, feel your freedom and embrace your true self.
• 1:01:03
  Wow.
• 1:01:04
  Wow.
• 1:01:05
  Wow.
• 1:01:06
  It likes to talk to me about tracks like five times.
• 1:01:09
  I'm like, whoa, whoa.
• 1:01:10
  It's so true and it's taking back the power card that I pulled is so similar that authentic
• 1:01:16
  self.
• 1:01:18
  I'll read a little bit more to the water lily because it's a water lily on there.
• 1:01:22
  Oh, I love that.
• 1:01:24
  The water lily is an ancient symbol that signifies hope, rebirth and purification.
• 1:01:27
  It represents your earth bound human self reaching for the light on this card.
• 1:01:31
  The lily roots are very deep in the mud, which symbolizes your earth life.
• 1:01:35
  The beautiful flowers emerge from the water and reach towards the sky, embodying your
• 1:01:39
  yearning to connect with your higher self.
• 1:01:41
  In this image, the woman's soul is being tethered by pillars because she is not expressing
• 1:01:45
  her needs.
• 1:01:46
  Stop being authentic.
• 1:01:47
  Wow.
• 1:01:48
  Our people and herself small can be hesitancy to speak your truth.
• 1:01:53
  Instead, you say silent in an effort to keep the peace and minimize conflict.
• 1:01:57
  Speaking up means being true to yourself and taking back your power.
• 1:02:01
  Maybe you are scared of making a mistake of making some changes or finding yourself alone.
• 1:02:05
  The taking back your power card appears when you need to say something you've been wishing
• 1:02:08
  to verbalize for a long time.
• 1:02:10
  Remember who you truly are.
• 1:02:12
  For your soul knows that if you speak your truth, you will not only survive, but will
• 1:02:16
  thrive.
• 1:02:17
  Express how you feel even if you are scared or you run the risk of losing your spirit.
• 1:02:22
  Woo!
• 1:02:23
  Wow.
• 1:02:24
  Those are good.
• 1:02:25
  How did we get such connected cards and how far apart are we?
• 1:02:31
  Right.
• 1:02:32
  Isn't that crazy?
• 1:02:33
  Yeah.
• 1:02:34
  And we're really talking about that about being true to who we are and being honest about,
• 1:02:39
  you know, being a medium and being who I am and helping kids speak their truth.
• 1:02:43
  It's like, that's the authentic.
• 1:02:45
  I want kids to be authentic.
• 1:02:47
  I want little girls, little boys to grow up and just be their authentic self no matter what
• 1:02:51
  it is.
• 1:02:52
  You know, giving our little ones the power, I think, is the most important thing we can do
• 1:02:57
  for them right now.
• 1:02:58
  I love that.
• 1:03:00
  And I also think we always say we do tarot on the show.
• 1:03:04
  You know, we're a true crime and paranormal podcast.
• 1:03:06
  So it kind of goes tarot with the paranormal side, but we don't really see that a lot, but
• 1:03:12
  everyone always asks why we want to incorporate the tarot readings just to be unique.
• 1:03:16
  But it was mostly just because that's just who we are.
• 1:03:20
  So we just want to do what we do every day.
• 1:03:24
  Yes.
• 1:03:25
  You want to do what makes you feel right.
• 1:03:27
  You also want to have an audience and you need to be able to relate to many people.
• 1:03:30
  And, you know, like, you know, with me working with the light, I can't help but the dark
• 1:03:35
  tries to get me sometimes, you know, I don't sometimes have a choice.
• 1:03:40
  But, you know, we got to remember the light and the dark are always there.
• 1:03:44
  They're best of each other.
• 1:03:46
  But so yeah, I stick with the white light, but look at the dark stuff.
• 1:03:50
  So it tries to sneak in.
• 1:03:51
  I can't help that.
• 1:03:53
  Yeah.
• 1:03:54
  We all just have to be strong and remember that we have the power we can do.
• 1:03:58
  Yes.
• 1:03:59
  Absolutely.
• 1:04:00
  The power is truly the most important gift that we can give them because that will last
• 1:04:06
  a lifetime.
• 1:04:07
  It's like the old saying with teacher man to fish, you know, so he can he can fend for
• 1:04:12
  himself for lifetime.
• 1:04:14
  It's the same thing.
• 1:04:15
  Giving somebody the power to be able to protect themselves.
• 1:04:19
  I've done many, many, many little small clips and I even did a class one time about protecting
• 1:04:26
  yourself, protecting your energy and how to do it.
• 1:04:29
  One of the main things is to keep the light around you and that is taking care of yourself,
• 1:04:34
  self-care wise, going into nature and really absorbing nature, eating well, meditating daily,
• 1:04:42
  keeping those vibration levels up because that when I realized that that dark entity had
• 1:04:46
  gone through and growled in my ear, I realized that my vibrational level must have been so
• 1:04:51
  low that he's like, oh, I'm going to match you.
• 1:04:54
  You're right at my level now because I was so down deep and dark.
• 1:04:58
  And what I realized at that time too is with my daughter being in the hospital, I was having
• 1:05:04
  so much fear because of what happened before to her losing that baby and what it was going
• 1:05:09
  to do to her.
• 1:05:10
  And so my granddaughter actually stepped in one night when all this was going on and she
• 1:05:18
  had me remember, grandma, you can't have faith in fear in your heart at the same time.
• 1:05:24
  Figure out which one you want and keep that one.
• 1:05:26
  And so my daughter was actually in the ER when this was happening right before she got
• 1:05:31
  put in the hospital for 30 days.
• 1:05:33
  She was in the ER for a scare and that's when my granddaughter came to me and she goes, grandma
• 1:05:38
  she's going to be okay.
• 1:05:41
  I told her I'm going to have a brother and he's going to be okay.
• 1:05:44
  And so I had to take that fear out of my heart and I had to replace it with that faith
• 1:05:49
  and I just knew.
• 1:05:50
  And ten minutes later she called and she says, oh, I'm good.
• 1:05:53
  They're sending me home.
• 1:05:55
  And I was like, okay.
• 1:05:57
  Thank you, Adalie.
• 1:05:59
  Thank you.
• 1:06:01
  Also, I noticed while you were saying that this kind of, it's like a pink moon and it kind
• 1:06:06
  of looks like, you know, the little, what are those called above baby's cribs?
• 1:06:11
  Oh, the little mobile.
• 1:06:12
  Yeah.
• 1:06:13
  It looks like a mobile up there.
• 1:06:14
  He loves mobile.
• 1:06:15
  Oh my God.
• 1:06:16
  He just, there looks at those mobiles.
• 1:06:19
  He's, I swear, he sees a sister when I'm sure.
• 1:06:22
  The face is going everywhere.
• 1:06:24
  He looks over.
• 1:06:25
  They have a memorial stand in the corner and he dares at that memorial stand ever since he
• 1:06:30
  was two months old.
• 1:06:31
  He just stares at it, stares at it.
• 1:06:32
  And I'm like, my God, he sees her and he's done the whole, what do you do around me?
• 1:06:39
  And I, God, I love seeing that.
• 1:06:41
  I'm like, it's so beautiful.
• 1:06:45
  It's so beautiful.
• 1:06:46
  It is amazing.
• 1:06:48
  It's truly amazing to be able to do a reading for somebody who's lost a baby.
• 1:06:52
  To me has been one of the greatest gifts of being a medium because they get to not only
• 1:06:57
  know that their baby stays with them in spirit and is always with them, but I mean, I got names
• 1:07:02
  and I remember saying one time I was like doing one.
• 1:07:05
  I'm like, she wants to say Lily, Lily, Lily, I keep on and she was just like, she goes,
• 1:07:11
  that was supposed to be our little girl's name when we changed the name.
• 1:07:14
  And you wait at that.
• 1:07:15
  They're like, they're like all over.
• 1:07:18
  You're trying to like, she'll know if you say Lily.
• 1:07:23
  And so I love it because they get that immediately crocodile tears are going, but it's of joy.
• 1:07:28
  And so it's like they aren't with me, huh?
• 1:07:29
  I'm like, they're with you and don't worry.
• 1:07:31
  There's another baby coming out.
• 1:07:33
  I usually know and there's another baby coming.
• 1:07:35
  There's been some tragedy and stuff like that with some, you know, cases, but I only feel
• 1:07:39
  what I feel like there's another baby coming that I can't always know exactly.
• 1:07:44
  I'm not a, you know, not a fortune teller.
• 1:07:48
  But I feel like these pregnant, I've definitely felt that I've even guessed a baby name one
• 1:07:56
  time.
• 1:07:57
  Oh my gosh.
• 1:07:58
  My friend of mine's her sister was pregnant and they just found out that it was a girl and
• 1:08:02
  they had a girl name picked out.
• 1:08:04
  Nobody knew the name and she was like, touch my belly.
• 1:08:06
  And I'm like, okay.
• 1:08:07
  And she goes, see if you know.
• 1:08:08
  And I'm like, this isn't going to work.
• 1:08:10
  I don't know what you're talking about.
• 1:08:12
  There's a girl.
• 1:08:13
  I'm like, you're not, I'm not going to know this.
• 1:08:15
  And I'm like, oh my god.
• 1:08:17
  I started to get the letters.
• 1:08:19
  I started to get the letters.
• 1:08:20
  And I'm like, I don't want to say it.
• 1:08:21
  She was just saying it.
• 1:08:22
  Just say it.
• 1:08:23
  And I said the name and she was just like, no.
• 1:08:27
  And everybody's like in the family because only two people knew her and her husband, nobody
• 1:08:32
  else.
• 1:08:33
  Like, is that her name?
• 1:08:34
  They're like, oh my god.
• 1:08:36
  And I want that.
• 1:08:38
  I don't think it was a baby telling me.
• 1:08:39
  I think it was grandma telling me.
• 1:08:41
  Grandma, I think spirit was telling me.
• 1:08:43
  It could have been the baby, but I don't know.
• 1:08:45
  I don't know how that works.
• 1:08:48
  But the babies are just amazing.
• 1:08:50
  Baby energy really is.
• 1:08:51
  I just want people to know their babies don't leave them.
• 1:08:54
  Their babies don't leave them.
• 1:08:56
  That's why I wrote that book.
• 1:08:57
  Their babies don't leave them.
• 1:09:00
  Thank you so much for sharing all of those very personal stories with us.
• 1:09:05
  I'm an open book, literally.
• 1:09:07
  And that's why, my life, I'm an open book.
• 1:09:10
  And I feel like, if I share my story with others, then they won't be.
• 1:09:15
  So apprehensive of sharing theirs.
• 1:09:17
  And we are all of one.
• 1:09:18
  We're all supposed to be just, we're all connected.
• 1:09:21
  Let's connect more, you know?
• 1:09:23
  And that way they don't live in fear.
• 1:09:25
  That's the last thing I want anybody to do is live in fear for the rest of their life in
• 1:09:28
  this world.
• 1:09:29
  It's not worth it.
• 1:09:30
  It's too much time.
• 1:09:31
  Takes too much energy.
• 1:09:32
  Seriously.
• 1:09:33
  Thank you so much.
• 1:09:34
  Is there anything else that you wanted to talk about or share or plug?
• 1:09:38
  My healingheartsmedium.com page.
• 1:09:42
  That's my website, healingheartsmedium.com and Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister.
• 1:09:47
  It's on Amazon.
• 1:09:49
  Perfect.
• 1:09:50
  Yay, thank you so much.
• 1:09:51
  I was so great to talk to you.
• 1:09:53
  I was so great to talk to you.
• 1:09:54
  I appreciate this time.
• 1:09:55
  You have a wonderful afternoon.
• 1:09:57
  You too.
• 1:09:58
  Have a creepy ass day.
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