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Random Heathen Ramblings: S3, EP12 - Heathen Self-Care and... Danheim Is Racist??? · Random Heathen Ramblings

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Got a neat show lined up today. At least I hope it's going to be
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it's going to be a solo run. Not going to be having my friend
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really interesting and he's been the most frequent participant on
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this show. So unfortunately this week my
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brother and co-host dingo will not be joining, but I wanted to
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talk this week about, you know, something that you know, gets a
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lot of attention from A lot of different not just Heathen
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circles, but that is it is the topic of self-care, you know,
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especially with the way the world is going and, and has been
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going and continues to go the importance and the focus on
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taking care of ourselves as individuals.
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And what that kind of means from, at least this heathens
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perspective. Now, I haven't said it in a long
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time, but I do just want to reiterate, that, in case you're
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new to this channel, to this podcast.
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Cast to watching what I do listening to what I do that.
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You always remember that. This is just one person's
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perspective, you know, this is my take on things and this is
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how I've come to kind of view the world in my religious
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worldview in, in my spirituality, and they are two,
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very distinct and different things, you know, and so over
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time My view of the world has has changed and shifted a bit as
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I've grown, in my spirituality, as I've decided to kind of
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Polish and hone my spirituality in the way that I have decided
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to do so. And then that in turn changes
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and shifts my approach to how I practice this religion, and it
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is a religion. I will say that it's, you know,
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we are dealing with gods and Goddesses as well as Spirits.
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You know, that exist with us here in the profane space that
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we exist in call home here in midgard.
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But it's definitely a religion because we again, we're talking
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about our interactions with the Divine, or our interactions with
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the sacred. And so, that's what makes it a
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religion. And a lot of people that, don't
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think that it is a religion. Give it enough time and stick
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with it. And if you don't think it now
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then I think you will. You know, perceive it that way
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later, it's not the same as organized religion.
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It's not although some people, and some actual organizations
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want to make it as such, and it doesn't work that way, okay?
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Even the best intentions to try and, you know, organized this,
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what is the, you know, in modern times it gets lumped into a term
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also true, so true, whatever. It's a very, very modern term
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and then and it doesn't fit to, to organize to organize.
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This, you know polytheistic path, you know, Germanic
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polytheism Germanic paganism, Norse Heathen, whatever name you
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want to put to this, you know, it doesn't work that way.
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It doesn't work on a large scale, you know, even the best.
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And like I said, even the most noblest of intentions, As I've
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seen it, you know, I've and I've removed myself from large groups
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and large organizations because it's just don't work that way
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man. It just it this does not work on
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the large scale. So it's not an organized
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religion to that extent and even though people are trying to kind
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of make it that indifferent in varying ways, it just doesn't
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work. So anyway, going back to what I
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was saying. You know, this is my perspective
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on things is my view on things and what I'm sharing And with
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everybody here on this platform is that maybe my perspectives
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and on things can help shape your perspective.
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Maybe you're a newcomer to Heathen re and maybe you've been
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a pagan for so long and you've kind of found home or found your
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your, your your Heathen home as it were your Pagan home here in
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this line of polytheism. And maybe as you're navigating
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through Those Waters. And as your carving your own
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path and forging your own way that, you know, other people's
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ideas, perspectives research, studies, understanding
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knowledge, that they share. So people like myself may help
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you. So take with take what I say, as
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I've always said, you know, take it with a grain of salt and just
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realize that, you know what I'm saying?
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And what I'm perceiving is due to my own understanding of
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things as it stands right now, they might change in a year and
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my change in six months, it might change tomorrow.
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Based on what I learned and whatnot.
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But so, feisty suffice it to say and so far in the last, you
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know, about six, six going on, seven years of me, practicing
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this, you know, I'm not the same Pagan that I, that I was when I
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first came into this path and none of us are, you know?
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So with that being said, the the reason why I wanted to, you
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know, talk about this thing about self-care.
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This topic of self-care is we see a lot of things happening
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around us in the world. Whether it's what's on the news,
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what's happening in our own, family lives, personal
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relationships, you know, work whatever may be your health,
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both physical, and mental, you know, a lot of things take its
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toll on us. We are exposed so much around us
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in the world today, both near and far.
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When I say far, I mean the things that reach us over the
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internet, you know, social media mainly.
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There's so much out here that, that impacts Us in that
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influences us and makes us feel certain ways.
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You know, and a lot of those feelings are negative.
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And so, you get, you know, these feelings of being overwhelmed,
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you get these feelings of, you know, that you're worthless or
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that. You you, you don't value
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yourself because of what somebody said or what other
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people have said or what you know, societies trying to tell
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you, you should look like or think like or be and that sort
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of thing. All these influences, write all
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these things that impact us in a way and I had an experience
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recently that kind of sparked this whole thing because when
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we, when we hear about self-care, you know, a lot of it
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comes from the mint. People with that that suffer
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from and and deal with mental health issues and that struggle
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with their Mental Health, on a regular and day-to-day basis.
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And I don't think any of us are exempt.
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Some of us are affected and impacted by that way, more than
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others, right? So you know, some of us are
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medicated, some of us are You know what to call it.
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Unable to perform our daily functions.
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I'm able to hold down regular jobs, unable to do all these
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things because of, you know, our mental health and part of the
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way that I see a lot of the people in that I'm exposed to
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friends, and my friends of mine and, and stuff is too, you know,
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don't forget to take care of yourself.
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You know, self-care, take a mental health day from work.
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If you need to or take care of yourself, take a day, go for a
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walk through this that, and the other, right?
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And that's all well and good. And there's definitely a part of
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that and I wanted to talk a bit more about where I see that from
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my perspective, again my world, you my, the angle that I come
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from as a heathen and as, and then as a heathen, walking, this
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particular polytheistic path. The thing that happened to me
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was I've talked on this podcast a few times. about, you know,
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other well research than well, well known pagans that that do
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good for the community. You know, there's there's a lot
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of garbage out there that you have to sift through and so when
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people ask me, you know, what should I do?
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What should I read? What shouldn't I read?
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Who should I listen to? What video should I watch?
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Where should I stay away from this?
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That thing in the other? I've mentioned people like you
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know, ocean kill toy wolf, the red Eric sure.
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Even you know the Ravens call. Matt Petrie old UNS beard
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woodworking the jmo. Listen, the Ava tear workshop
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and various other people along the way.
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But those are the ones big ones that come to mind.
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You know, that these are people in the community that I've
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become either very close friends with or have built enough of a
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relationship up with and follow what they do enough to know that
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they are sincere and that they are good people to keep you know
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kind of keep your eyes on and watch what they're doing and
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follow them and support them because they're doing.
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Things and that led me to say well I you know I've talked
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about we're going to take you know, Wolf the red ocean Cal
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tie. Those those guys I've talked
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about that, you know, they have this Discord server and with you
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know thousands of people there And I got to think I'm like,
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wow, I'm telling all these people or, you know, maybe not
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telling all these people but I'm always referencing, you know, in
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my podcasts or videos, you know, that these are good pagans,
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right? And these are people that are
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doing good for the community and go ahead and support them.
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So I like why me go ahead and check out this this Discord
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server and see what it's all about, right?
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So I do and the first thing I noticed when I get in, there is
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first of all, I use a communication tool that that
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looks a lot like Discord if anybody's in like the IT
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industry or uses slack as a Communications and collaboration
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tool, it's a great tool but it like as soon as I saw The the
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Discord server is that was again you know, the first time that I
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had actively gone and done anything with it.
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Believe it or not. I was like, oh crap.
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I like I'm walking into the office almost just like I'm
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looking at stuff. That's you know, reminds me of
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work. I'm like uh, Whatever.
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So, kind of go through charge through and find the, you know,
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they got a bunch of channels, right, or whatever.
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And then on the server and found an introduction Channel, you
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know where people are introducing themselves.
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So I'd you know, you know, when I go on these like public forums
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and stuff, I'm usually going on there as midgard musings, you
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know Brandon referencing, what I do, And introducing people,
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here's who I am. Here's, you know, that sort of
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thing and introducing myself as such and I do that, right?
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And it didn't, it didn't take very long for one of the server
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mods, to let me know that. Hey, I'm deleting your
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introduction because we don't allow Self-promotion and stuff.
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Now, full transparency. What I did was I said, hi, my
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name is Jesse. This is my YouTube channel or
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actually, don't even think I linked the YouTube channel.
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So I, you know, make videos on YouTube.
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I have a podcast and it's called random even ramblings.
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And I've been a pagan 4X, many years and I live in Tennessee
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and I have a wife and three dogs in the lower, right?
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I didn't link anything that I can recall be honest, I don't
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recall ever doing that, but I did use one of my channel art
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Graphics as you know, No. Here's who I am.
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Looks like this is what I do and the mod said, hey, you know, you
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know, we don't allow that it's in the rules as it were.
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So I saw that and I go, huh. Okay.
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Whatever. I'm not promoting myself.
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I'm literally introducing myself as who I am.
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And what I do. If you want to call that
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self-promotion then whatever. I'm not going to argue it
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because again it's not my house. Not my rules are rules so they
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want me to play by them and fine.
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I broke a rule so I didn't really I didn't share anything
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back about it and then it was like the day after or so.
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Scrolling through Facebook and I know and I'm a part of or was a
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part of a of a Facebook group called The Heat and underground.
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Now the even underground is has been a page and also a, you
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know, a public page and a, I'm not sure what they're, what
16:55
they're classified as if they're a, you know, like an actual
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nonprofit organization. However, but they got, they got
17:02
a, you know, if you've been paying for any The time, you
17:05
know, kind of what they stand for and their-their staunchly,
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you know, anti-racist anti-fascist against bigotry,
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hatred discrimination, you know, and are and post a lot of stuff
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along those light along those lines.
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They're also very Reconstructionist, at least, the
17:28
material that I've seen them share is, as always been very
17:30
heavily focused on, you know, archaeological evidence
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reconstruction approach to the heathen.
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Bye. And I've actually learned a lot
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from researching, some of the articles that they share and,
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and doing my own research on stuff.
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So, you know, they've been a great source and it anyway, the
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Facebook group was one of the, one of the members of the group
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had posted a question. And if anybody is watching or
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listening goes back in there, in that grouping, to go back and
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look for it, you'll see because I didn't delete it, but it was a
18:00
question that somebody was posting about Nordic music. and
18:06
they specifically asked, you know, what music should I stay
18:08
away from because and they and they kind of censored the name,
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Don Heim Now, down Haim, as you know, you know, a lot of people
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know who done time is like, his name is Mike Olson.
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He's theirs in Denmark and he's a, you know, Nordic folk music
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composer and artist and that way and that way Anyway, in the
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Heathen underground group. You know, somebody was asking
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about music that is to avoid anything like Dan Haim because
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of Dan Himes. Ties to racism.
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Now, I've been following in listening to the Don Haim for
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years, you know, and I got, you know, I asked so you know, since
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when is Don Heim A racist or since when is done, I'm tied to
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racism in any way. Wearing.
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Oh and then that that question of mine, turned into a
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20-something long commented thread from the Heathen
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underground mods and admins and other members of the group who
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were pulling screenshots from Posts that Mike had made from,
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like years ago, some of which were Trying to like put it into
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words but might he had posted something about a law in Denmark
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or or something in Denmark. We're like the traffic signals,
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the traffic lights, where you walk and don't walk like The
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Pedestrian, symbols for pedestrian traffic, the lights,
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the symbols of those lights are going to be changed to be
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something of of a gender-neutral.
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Appearance. Right?
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And my ex post was like, don't we have more important things to
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be worried about than this sort of thing?
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And a lot of people took that to say that he's, you know,
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anti-trans and that he's, you know, he's anti-gay and and all
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this other kind of stuff and then there was something else.
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Oh how he kind of like supports what Jordan Peterson says.
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Now Jordan Pederson is a Pretty sure he's very far right,
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leaning Canadian, he's academic of sorts.
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I don't know what he's a doctor of what, or where his doctor is,
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if he's a doctor at all again, but he's got some pretty wild
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views on things and some of which I've listened to, and I'm
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like, kind of interesting, you know, the way you look at it
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but, you know, again, people take what they say, they're take
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what he says, or what not, what Don Jaime was saying about what
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Jordan Peterson had said and it Turns into this, you know, Don
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Heim is racist and he's he's bigoted and he hates trans
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people and, you know, don't support his music.
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So I sat back and I watched I didn't comment more on anything.
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I just kept watching what was going on and I realize that this
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is ridiculous. This is ridiculous.
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So I left everything there, I didn't delete it, and I dipped
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out and then at the same time, I had gotten a an email,
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notification saying, you know, Wolf the red or whatever goes by
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and Discord mentioned me and a channel and mention me in a
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comment on the Discord server. So, I went back in there to see
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what it was, and you realize, there's like 3,700 nearly 4,000
21:41
something like that. I mean, it's well over three
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thousand, three and a half thousand people in the hold, as
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it's called like a, you know, the server is called the hold
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and I get a, you know, he was asking.
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He said, hey, I saw you had a comment about Dan Haim or
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question about damn time. Did you get it sorted?
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Added. So then I'm like, well, we're
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friends on Facebook. Or on we file East, I follow him
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on Twitter. I posted it on Facebook and now
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it's being asked in Discord which my very first
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introduction. Comment got deleted on you know
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or the my very short introduction post was deleted
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and I didn't repost and then it says, hey did you get your
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question answered in Discord? So at that point I'm like okay I
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already know where I'm going. I already know where this is
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gonna go. So deleted all my Discord
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information and and canceled it. I'd like I'm not even I don't
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want to be This is not where I want to be.
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It's not what I want to be a part of and this is not What I'm
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looking for is not where I'm at with my spirituality.
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Now, how does this all tie into self-care?
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I'm going to come back to this in a minute, but I want to kind
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of reel it in to the, to the relative topic of the, of the of
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the podcast had. I engaged with the comments and
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try to, you know, have debate or or whatever in the Heathen
23:13
underground group. Before I removed myself from the
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group, Trying to reason with people who have such a dislike.
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Strong view on things and that aren't willing to, you know,
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obviously, you know, and this is political this is what its
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strong political views, political and social views will
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say it that. Well, we'll just kind of lump
23:37
them all in together. When people have such strong
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political and social views, there's almost nothing you can
23:43
do to dissuade them or make them think otherwise.
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And I'm not trying to make people think any other way.
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I'm not trying to dissuade anybody from feeling the way,
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they feel about something or to stand up for what they feel is,
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right. You know, a lot of people do
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that that are blatantly wrong. People stand up for things that
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are wrong, because they think they're, right?
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And I've been called a lot of things by making that approach
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and taking that stands like, you know what?
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Can your opinions are valid, your thoughts are valid, you are
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valid for being wrong. You can be 100% validated and
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wrong at the same time, okay? And I'm not here to stroke
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anybody's ego to think it would just because you're being
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validated that that means that you're right.
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Absolutely not. And I don't live that way and I
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don't want people to do that. To me, I don't want people to
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stroke my ego or say, well, it's because Jesse said it and, you
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know, He must be right? Hell, no, absolutely not.
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I'm wrong, I'm wrong. So anyway, when I saw that,
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that's how it was going to go in that I was like I'm going to get
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involved in stuff. The first of all, I'm not
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educated enough and I, you know, call me what you want, but I
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don't want to be involved. I don't want to take my Heathen
25:02
re, and I want to take my, My Religion, my spirituality and
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insert it into politics and and, and, and stuff like that.
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I just, I don't it's it doesn't work for me, okay?
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And I'm not in a position of my life, to want to be an advocate
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myself. You want to do that, you want to
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be a part of that find by all means, knock yourself out.
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That ain't me. It's never gonna be me.
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And I started to realize that that was where I was going to be
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going. If I stayed in the Heathen
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underground group and ocean and wolfs Discord server that
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because that's how it started all off for me.
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It started off as no. You can't say that.
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You can't, you can't post that post the way you posted.
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I'm removing it. And then the next day, I'm in
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like a totally different social media platform.
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And I'm getting asked about it somewhere else, like come to me
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and ask me, I guess is what I'm trying to say.
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Like it come to me and ask me if I got my question answered,
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don't put this out in front of me at 4,000, people, unless you
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want to make that a topic again, your house, your rules, your
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haul, your call your server. But I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna
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do that. I don't want to get involved in
26:13
that way, so I guess, you know, I did, I open myself up for it
26:17
by saying, well, since when is downtime a racist, sure.
26:20
I I opened myself up to the to the responses of that question,
26:23
but none of the responses that I got held any water.
26:26
It was all like Loosely based like screenshots that you can
26:30
interpret one way or the other. And it's like dude.
26:32
He wasn't flat out saying he hates trans people or that he's
26:34
against trans people, he was just saying the fact that then
26:37
the Danish government was was was talking about changing the
26:41
symbols of traffic lights to become gender-neutral and aren't
26:49
there more important things to Deal with.
26:53
It's not to say that the thing that heat that they're doing
26:55
isn't important but are there not more important things to
26:57
deal with? That's not a question that I'm
26:59
going to answer that. I feel I need to answer is just
27:02
that, that's what he was saying. So how did that get interpreted?
27:05
As him becoming, you know, transphobic or whatever?
27:09
Self care. That would have destroyed me.
27:12
I would have been eaten up with stress and they would have
27:15
angered me to the point where I would have been distracted from
27:18
other things that I've found more important to spend my time
27:23
focusing on. So this happens a lot right?
27:30
And I use this example because I guarantee you every single
27:33
person who's listening and watching this podcast right now
27:37
is going to have either have had instances.
27:41
Where they saw something like this on Facebook, or Twitter or
27:44
whatever. You know they they saw a news
27:45
article somebody posting about it.
27:47
Next thing you know it becomes something that everybody is
27:49
chiming in about. And oh yeah I have an opinion.
27:51
I'm going to put my opinion down here and then you're going to
27:54
get responses from. It's going to stress you out
27:55
because people aren't going to necessarily agree with you, or
27:58
they're not going to call you out on things or they're going
27:59
to and it's going to go on and on like the snowball just rolls
28:03
down the hill keeps getting bigger and bigger and bigger.
28:05
And next thing, you know, you're out of your mind, stressing out
28:10
about it. and it impacts your social life with people around
28:15
you it impacts your, your work, impacts your business, ethic
28:20
your work ethic, you know how reliable and how dedicated of a
28:24
person you are at least it can and it does for me So self-care,
28:28
right? What a lot of people like oh,
28:30
you know, go for a walk, you know.
28:33
You know, treat yourself to a nice meal doll yourself up
28:35
through this. And that it's very, you know,
28:37
great things, great advice. Sometimes you just gotta back
28:42
off. Sometimes you've got to walk
28:43
away. And know where you want to be in
28:48
life you know I don't want to be a wolf, the red I don't want to
28:52
be an ocean Kel toy. I don't want to be anybody
28:56
liking, you know. I don't want to be the Heathen
28:57
underground. I don't want to be out here, you
28:59
know, fighting against People and their opinions, I want to be
29:07
a heathen that heathens and does things with his tribe.
29:12
You know, I want to be the person that Learns more about my
29:18
spirituality, to benefit myself and to better myself and the
29:22
people around me. So, that way, I can be a better
29:25
better person, a better Chief than a better husband, a better
29:28
friend, a better, a better brother for those people, not.
29:35
You know, an online community that I, you know, has people in
29:39
that I've never talked with face-to-face a day in my life
29:42
you know? And again nothing I have nothing
29:45
derogatory or bad to say about any one of those folks you know,
29:50
Ocean or or wolf, or anybody, great people, 100%, still
29:54
support them. I just realized that that place
29:56
wasn't for me. It's not for me at least not
29:59
right now. Maybe it will be in a year or
30:01
two years or three years who knows?
30:02
Maybe I'll, you know, you Just don't know.
30:05
I don't know. so, self care. From a human perspective.
30:18
We have to take care of ourselves because our worth is
30:22
placed upon us by our people. By the people who we interact
30:27
with, we are not worth anything. If no worth is placed on us by
30:33
our folk, and by our people and by our, you know, Kinsmen are
30:37
kindred's, our tribes are people, you know what I mean?
30:42
So for not taking care of ourselves for stressing out
30:45
about stuff that we have no control over for not eating
30:48
right. If we're not taking our
30:49
medicine, if we're not, you know, staying hydrated, if we're
30:52
not getting enough rest, if we're not doing all those
30:54
things, Physical things, you know, that will impact our whole
31:02
self, our whole selves, you know, and that kind of goes into
31:07
what is the self, what are we? There are many parts of us, you
31:13
know. So when we talk about self-care,
31:15
we're not just talking about one thing about ourselves that we
31:18
take care of, when don't, you know, take a mental health day
31:21
because we're, you know, our bodies are tired.
31:23
It's, you know, there's other things going on.
31:26
That make us who we are and if they do not just those things,
31:30
right? That's part of it.
31:31
That's part of us. But it takes more than just a
31:35
nap or takes more than just a shower or takes more than just,
31:39
you know, the physical things to do to make us.
31:44
Take care of ourselves, or to allow us to take care of
31:46
ourselves. So, one of the things that I
31:49
found very helpful in my self-care routine, if you want
31:53
to call it, that is moderate moderate.
31:57
What you do. Don't feel like you maybe have
32:01
to, you know, and again, let me before I go into this next, you
32:06
know, part of things. Let me, let me just kind of
32:08
offer disclaimer here. Is that I am by no means
32:10
somebody that you should. Put down on paper as well.
32:15
He said I should do this, right? I'm not a medical professional.
32:19
I am not a physician. I am not a mental health.
32:22
Professional, I'm not a psychiatrist psychologist.
32:24
Nothing like that. I don't, I don't suffer from
32:28
those things like a lot of other people do, I have my days, like,
32:32
we all do. But I'm not in that sort of way
32:37
suffering, or in any great, you know, doesn't affect me that
32:42
badly. Okay.
32:45
But it does other. So first and foremost, Make sure
32:49
that you're doing, what your doctors suggest that you do,
32:52
right? How you take care of yourselves,
32:53
whether it be your medication. You, those are kind of routines
32:57
that starts up. Listen to the people who are the
33:00
professionals that have decided to make it their livelihood to
33:05
study and understand how to treat these types of things.
33:09
Because I think that's not me. So, with that being said, things
33:17
that I helped find myself because, again, I'm the type of
33:20
person where I'm like, just because I'm having a bad day or,
33:23
you know, just because maybe, you know, feeling a bit down or
33:29
bid aggravated or stressed out or whatever, it's like, doesn't
33:32
mean that I'm on the verge of Going wacko or or needing
33:39
professional help? I'm just I'm having the day
33:41
having a bad day or a bad series of days.
33:43
Maybe there's just a lot going on in that has compounded and
33:48
been built on to me to where I'm just like feeling like I need to
33:53
offload a bit. You know?
33:55
Moderation, you guys know. I'm not shy about it.
33:59
I have drinks. I do drink.
34:05
And at a time I was drinking way too much.
34:09
I was I think I've even talked about it on this podcast before
34:12
last year, where I went on like a three-week-long purge where I
34:19
didn't Vape. I didn't smoke didn't drink.
34:22
I didn't, you know, very strict diet, limited Cal limited
34:26
everything. I mean, I like cleanse myself
34:29
from a lot of stuff that got me to where I was at that point,
34:32
and I did that, because I knew that, if I didn't do something
34:36
that drastic to fix it right then.
34:37
And there that I was Anna just steadily decline to a place
34:40
where it would I would need definite professional help to
34:44
get back out and I caught it early on with help from others
34:48
and didn't need that. But that did not, you know, that
34:56
wasn't the thing. That's like well, now, you're
34:58
clean and sober your straight edge, you know?
35:01
No, I will drink still, you know, and sometimes when I'm
35:06
with friends and in a safe and social environment, I will have
35:09
a little bit too much to drink. Now, I'm almost 40 year old
35:15
adult and I'm responsible enough to know that when I'm sitting at
35:19
home, when I'm with somebody in their Um, and we're not, you
35:21
know, going driving, we're not in public that.
35:23
If that, if you're going to do anything like that, then that is
35:26
the place to do it. Is that self-care, maybe, you
35:30
know, is it taking care of yourself?
35:32
Is it the healthiest thing to do?
35:35
No, but I know that and I'm not trying to sit here and telling
35:37
you that you know sometimes man you just gotta you know, get
35:41
twisted. That's that's not taking care of
35:45
yourself. It's not you know it's masking
35:49
the the issues that you're trying to cope with and in your
35:53
you're not dealing with them. But what I have gone into did
35:57
send just you know, done is again, moderation, right?
36:01
It can be used enough to point that you or I, you know, loosen
36:12
up a bit and again in the right company and with the right,
36:16
people be able to offload my frustrations and offload, my
36:22
feelings and externalize them in a way that is healthy enough
36:27
again, without getting obliterated that, you know, I
36:34
can, I can navigate through those, those Waters a bit
36:37
easier, Now, in a much healthier alternative to that again, I'm
36:45
not sitting here telling people, you just have a few drinks
36:47
everything, every, every night. No, that's where I'm at in my
36:53
life and what I do and how I do it has been through trial,
36:56
tribulation and error. Mostly learning just where my
37:01
sweet spot is kind of thing. But one thing that I have gotten
37:05
into recently has been burning resin smoke sessions and And
37:11
letting the resin breathing in some of those, those those fumes
37:15
in the Smoke, it's very therapeutic actually.
37:18
I'm especially when you get into such things like frankincense or
37:21
culpable myrrh. And some of these other really
37:26
medicinal And I don't want to say they're psychoactive, but
37:31
they do when you breathe in the smoke, when they're burning like
37:34
that, like they do have a calming effect, they do have it
37:36
like a, they do have an effect on how you feel inside.
37:39
So, I'll use an example, you know, earlier this week, I, you
37:47
know, had a smoke session and it's like a ritual for me, you
37:52
know, I pick out what resins, I want to burn, you know, kind of
37:57
mix them up together in the I will cut that.
37:59
I have that I've burned or follow-on to, you know, and I
38:07
mix the resin in there and then I, you know, set up a little
38:11
just, you know, station wherever I'm doing, it's usually Outdoors
38:15
because when these resins burn if you're indoors and it's not a
38:18
well ventilated area me, it's going to be like TP smoke Hut,
38:24
man. It's going to be, like, it's
38:26
intense. It's a lot.
38:28
It's almost too much for a closed-in space without proper
38:31
ventilation. So I'm usually outside but I've
38:34
got a hood, you know, a hooded cloak that I wear and I lit the
38:38
smoke kind of billow and it around my vicinity and just kind
38:43
of meditate a bit and it helps calm me and it helps release me
38:48
while. I'm still sober helps his kind
38:50
of allows me to release. All that stress and stuff.
38:54
So, maybe you think about, you know, things that you can do how
38:56
to take care of yourself without hurting yourself, you know,
39:00
without potentially getting into destructive habits.
39:04
Because like I said, before, a lot of these friends of mine, a
39:07
lot of people who I know that I've been battling with mental
39:12
health, their whole lives have come from addiction, you know,
39:18
and still battle with addiction because it's a never-ending.
39:21
Saying it's a never-ending battle, you know?
39:23
So I guess I definitely don't. I'm being very free with what
39:32
I'm saying here but like, don't don't sacrifice one thing for
39:35
the other, you know, don't try to take care of yourself and
39:37
then put yourself into a tendency or addiction to
39:43
substances that could kill you. So the smoke resin burning the
39:51
smoke sessions with resin burning that has helped me a lot
39:54
because again, it's very holistic, it comes in my body
39:59
and my mind it's like a whole package deal.
40:02
Everything about me just relaxes when I can sit outside and here.
40:08
The crackling of the Embers or I can smell the, the various
40:12
resins burning, you know, lights and candles, Ambience warmth,
40:17
you know, everything. Like it's all of the senses are
40:20
engaged at that point, you know, and it's very therapeutic and
40:24
it's very healing walking out in nature, you know, getting back
40:29
into nature and a lot of people who maybe Urban heathens that
40:34
are, you know, closer to cities and don't have, you know, woods
40:37
and stuff that they Can I guarantee you know, you can
40:40
connect with nature some form or fashion.
40:42
Even if it's just you know, the grass on your apartment Lon you
40:48
know or or that sort of thing. I mean there's there's lots of
40:53
Earth all around us. There's there's no excuse as far
40:58
as that goes but getting back in touch with nature, even, you
41:00
know, taking off your shoes. Barefoot walking through the
41:03
grass. Walking through the ground,
41:05
routing yourself back to the Earth, that sort of thing.
41:10
I went on like a 5-mile walk this past weekend, so for like,
41:16
those of you that are following me on my social media sites,
41:20
Facebook Twitter, Instagram, you've seen the photos and video
41:24
or videos of where I, where I was this past week and I kind of
41:32
I didn't wear the right Footwear, you know?
41:33
So like my got, like a blister on my heel that's kind of giving
41:37
me grief, but that's my on stupidity my own fault, but
41:41
again, that was very therapeutic, you know, just
41:42
being able to go and Be surrounded by trees and by
41:49
nature and hearing the birds and listening to the water of the
41:52
river and drum a bit, you know, like I brought my drum with me
41:56
and it's not, you know, our drum that's the drum that's with me
41:59
right now. But it's our tribes drum, our
42:02
tribal drum in that that, you know, that helped, you know,
42:06
just sitting out there and kind of sitting by the river by the
42:09
creek, whatever drum in a little bit.
42:13
Meditating closing listening to the activity, the chatter of the
42:18
forest, you know? Breathing in that fresh air, you
42:24
know what I'm saying? Like, that's all stuff that
42:27
helps. Make you feel good and takes
42:32
care of yourself in a very good way doing something artistic,
42:38
you know. Like, sometimes I'll find myself
42:42
It's raining outside or whatever, you know, can't really
42:44
go out and I guess you could get soaking wet.
42:48
That's another very invigorating feeling.
42:50
But if you're not really up for that, doing something artistic
42:54
even if it's just, you know, drawing coloring, I'll make
42:57
runes. I recently made a room set. that
43:03
is made of seashells, you know, and The. the the process of just
43:15
sitting there and, you know, and then painting or carving or
43:20
burning something, you know, something, artistic drawing,
43:22
whatever it puts the focus of your mind into the into the
43:28
creation of something new, you know, starting with something
43:32
and turning that into something else.
43:37
The next thing, you know, all the things that you were
43:38
stressed about all the things that you're worried about, they
43:43
don't necessarily go away. But the perspective of things
43:50
it's like wow you know I shouldn't there's nothing really
43:53
to be stressed about. There's nothing new really to be
43:55
worried about too much. Like I thought I should had to
43:58
worry about it. And that's another thing too man
44:02
like over the years and more or less recently.
44:08
What I've come to learn is that, you know, most of the time the
44:10
things that were Stressing about.
44:16
Are not worth it, you know. There's nothing his nothing's
44:22
permanent man. Nothing nothing.
44:24
Here is his permanent that we see physically around us, you
44:28
know like it's all going to. We're going to move on something
44:31
else someday eventually We're going to transition away from
44:37
this as we know it on to something else somewhere else.
44:41
Maybe we'll be here, partly, but other parts of will not be and
44:46
so Perspective is another thing to, you know, like that's one
44:50
thing that has really helped in my spirituality specifically is
44:56
realizing that all of the stuff. My job was his bill, as a big
45:01
one, man. My job used to stress me out so
45:03
bad. Nothing.
45:05
I hated it. It wasn't like, I hate my job.
45:07
I actually love my job but there were things about my job and
45:11
even recently like there were things about my job that just
45:14
get on my ever loving nerve like you know, I can't stand it when
45:19
somebody says a certain thing or does a certain thing or I find a
45:21
certain thing that the other, right?
45:23
I got to go back and fix it like it's your job, man.
45:27
That's what you get paid to do. You know, stressing about it.
45:33
Ain't gonna I'm going to fix it, you know?
45:36
So That's what's helped me not taking things.
45:42
So seriously, and then when I do feel, like things are getting
45:46
take, seriously, what I am taking things too, seriously.
45:49
Find a way to moderately. Again, moderation, moderately
45:55
reset things, you know, reset my perspective reset, my point of
46:00
view, you know. So Like that, you know?
46:10
Phone calls coming in. I am not around.
46:14
I am not available. I'm doing something here and I'm
46:18
enjoying myself and I'm not going to be worried about stuff
46:22
that doesn't pertain to. What I'm doing here right now,
46:26
my wife's home, she's safe. So she's not the one calling me,
46:31
so therefore, I don't have to worry about it, you know, I have
46:34
to worry about anything else. so, keep calling, but I'm not
46:48
going to answer, don't answer the call man.
46:50
You don't always have to answer the call.
46:52
You always have to pick up the phone.
47:00
Out there in the son of a bitch off keeps up.
47:05
And that's okay because I'm not the only one out here that has
47:08
an answer for things. You've got other people too.
47:12
Call and reach out to but when off topic a little bit, so yeah.
47:18
Anyway, guys, um, self-care, you know, is that really?
47:22
I mean, is that there's this is it really Heathen the way I'm
47:27
looking at things. Probably not largely, it's just
47:34
Just the way I am, you know? I want my worth to be great to
47:43
my people. I want my people to find good
47:45
worth in me and to be an event to be trustworthy, you know, to
47:52
my people, to My Kinsman, to my tribes invent.
47:56
And I mean that, you know, gender neutral e right, tribes
47:59
men and women my friends of all genders And non gender, binary,
48:08
whatever everybody support them. and I want them to know that
48:14
they have, you know, somebody of worth that they can trust and
48:19
I'm too worried about, you know, what's said in this Heathen
48:21
group From hundreds of people who I don't even know or if I'm
48:26
too worried about what you know being said about.
48:31
Don't post this post that don't post it this way.
48:34
Post it that way. How did you get your answer
48:35
questions? You get your question there.
48:40
Excuse me to get your question answered.
48:45
You know. Bye.
48:49
Whoever by whatever like doesn't matter, I don't need to know, I
48:55
don't care. It doesn't matter.
48:59
Which, by the way, I mean, I still haven't seen anything of
49:05
solid proof to me that that Hime is racist.
49:08
Matter of fact, my very, very close friend made an instrument
49:12
board then Haim and he knows and talks to the guy talks to Mike,
49:16
you know enough. I don't think that somebody who
49:21
is racist would want to work with or vice versa.
49:25
I don't think that them that this friend of mine would want
49:27
to wear, it was someone's like who was actually racist, you
49:31
know. So you know what you can Things
49:34
you can, you can take things and misunderstand, things all the
49:37
time from people's social media posts.
49:40
Happens all the time and I'm not here for it.
49:44
I'll be as cut and dry as possible.
49:46
I will be 100% up in from upfront and honest, you know,
49:51
but I'm not going to sit here and repeat myself.
49:54
There's enough dead horses that have been beaten to death, if I
49:57
decide to just repeatedly get beaten because it's like, well,
50:02
you know, about here's this, you know, I gotta remember, remind
50:04
everybody that we are not for, you know, bigoted approaches to
50:09
things. We are anti-racist, we are anti
50:11
this, we are anti that. Good say it one time and be done
50:14
with it. Now, move on and now be Heathen.
50:17
Do the thing You know. Why we all have to wait?
50:22
Why is it have to be something that we just repeat, repeat,
50:24
repeat, repeat over and over and over and over and over again.
50:28
Live it, do it. Let your actions speak for you
50:32
for yourself. So, anyway, like I said, is
50:37
this, is this particularly a heathen approach to the
50:40
self-care? Maybe not entirely, but it's
50:47
kind of reason why I wanted to bring this up.
50:49
Is there's a lot of heathens out here than I know that that
50:51
struggle with taking care of themselves.
50:55
You know, it could be a dangerous path.
50:58
Do you know you can, you can become so you can go far the
51:02
other way. You can become.
51:04
So isolated to yourself that you turn that it turns into being
51:10
selfish and being selfish. Is it is?
51:17
It's a fine line. You know, you walk and you walk
51:21
a very thin path, may be selfish because yes, you need to take
51:25
care of yourself. And yes, you need to be of good,
51:29
use and good work to yourself before.
51:31
You can be of good use and Worth to others.
51:35
But again it's a treacherous path to the stay on because you
51:38
can become. So isolated you become so
51:39
rootbound you can become so, you know, it's not, it's not good to
51:42
stay in Esau for too long because you get Frozen and you
51:48
can get, you don't allow yourself to grow.
51:54
So be careful, you know, when you're taking care of yourself
51:57
that you're not neglecting the reasons why you're taking care
52:02
of yourself, right? And that's what it is about.
52:05
That's what it's about for me, you know, I can't stay.
52:08
I can't stay stuck in my own pity.
52:12
You know, for too long. I can't be.
52:14
I can't be absorbed in myself for too long without, you know,
52:20
pulling my head out of my own ass.
52:23
And put my boots on the ground and getting shit done and that's
52:25
just being visceral and that's being real.
52:28
And that's, you know, going to change how this video gets a
52:32
monetized for sure and how the plot you know, the podcast
52:35
probably gets distributed but it is what it is.
52:37
That's life. Life is visceral, and life is
52:43
unforgiving at times and unrelenting.
52:49
So, you know, you all take care of yourselves.
52:52
Every part of yourselves, the parts of yourself that you can't
52:55
even see the parts of yourself that only, you know, maybe the
52:59
parts of yourself that your nearest and dearest loved ones
53:02
and yourself only know, because there is that part.
53:07
And sometimes, you know, the taking care of yourself requires
53:10
and the inclusion of others, you need your people.
53:14
You need your tribe. You need your Kinsmen, you need
53:17
your kith, you need the extension of your family.
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And Maybe you don't have them physically, but maybe, you know,
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online platforms have helped and then that light, you know,
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things like the hold, you know, oceans and wild wolves Discord
53:36
server. Are there or these other various
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Facebook groups, or social media, sites and stuff.
53:47
This happened the last time too. I think I was doing a podcast
53:49
and my phone wouldn't shut up. I think I'm going to keep it out
53:53
away from me. It's gonna be like one of those
53:56
old radio stations right? When the lights on and says on
53:59
air, that means everybody else can bugger off because we're
54:04
doing things here. And yeah.
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So That's about it guys. You know, I really would have
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loved to have dingo co-host with me to talk more about this,
54:15
because he's one, man that I, that I put a lot of worth two
54:21
and hold a lot of work to, you know, he's been a tremendous
54:23
help for me and he's a great Goethe, a great tribesmen of
54:28
mine, and I love him to death. So you'll see this and I know he
54:32
will. So rather, I love you and maybe
54:37
we'll get you on the next one. Make this more.
54:38
A regular thing. So that about sums it up today
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boys and girls, ladies and gentlemen and
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Non-gender-specific folks. You're all awesome.
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55:32
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55:42
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