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The Trauma, The Silence, The Becoming: Prophet Marcus Thomas Tells The Truth · Love You Moore with Willie Moore Jr.

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  [SPEAKER_08]: Next, on the love of your worship.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: People in the world who I am, I'm a survivor.
• 0:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: The calling that is on my life didn't come from a schooling.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: It did not come from me knowing what was taking place initially.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't believe you can create a profit.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I believe a authentic prophet is born one and you can develop the one that is born a prophet after all the success.
• 0:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: The platform, everything.
• 0:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: Our struggle for years, trying to identify the wise of my life that I never got answered.
• 0:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: Five brothers, two serving of life sentence.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: One did.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: and I'm preaching the gospel.
• 0:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: Ministry became a coping mechanism for my deliverance.
• 1:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: Every man of God that I looked up to, I wanted a father and then.
• 1:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: Every woman of God that I looked up to, I wanted my mom in there.
• 1:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: I tried to live a consecrated life where the members of my body,
• 1:19
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's constantly being, you know, surrender back to God, right, you know, because without that level of concentration and conviction, I'd be all just leaving with everybody.
• 1:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I did it at one point.
• 1:32
  [SPEAKER_00]: I'm sorry.
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  [SPEAKER_00]: Right.
• 1:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: Like, yeah, preaching and sleeping with my assignment.
• 1:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hmm.
• 1:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: Prophecy and sleeping with my assignment.
• 1:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: because that was the template I was given.
• 1:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: I met people on the road, man, and they gave me a template that I subscribed to because I knew no better.
• 1:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: And now, when you get a little name, mature a little bit, those saying people that gave you this, this ungodly template would destroy you for the same template that they showed you.
• 2:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: Kill the prophet, kill the young prophet.
• 2:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: They're sleeping around, but we're seeing you sleeping around.
• 2:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: They drink in, but the first person I've seen with a drink was the person I looked up to.
• 2:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: Haven't women was acceptable, get a call and get by.
• 2:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: Not a wife, get a hold.
• 2:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: Was that too much for TV?
• 2:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, it's some people that I meet.
• 2:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: If they tell you a duck and pull the truck, hook it up.
• 2:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: Huh?
• 2:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm just telling you what I'm saying, huh?
• 2:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: And, you know, some people you meet, if they tell you a duck and pull the truck, you got a kind of question.
• 2:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: The next guess I tell you what, show no profit.
• 3:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Got an opportunity to see him at New Birth Online one time.
• 3:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: And he looked like he bought 19 years old.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, who is this new young boy on the scene?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Tarn him up for the kingdom of God?
• 3:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: Later on, I got an opportunity to learn a little bit more about this journey through a banter online with him and I.
• 3:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: We have a similar story that you'll get an opportunity to hear about very soon.
• 3:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: But right now, profit markets is in the house with us now.
• 3:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: What's going on, champion?
• 3:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, I can't complain.
• 3:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm excited to be here, man.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Yes, indeed.
• 3:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm excited to be here.
• 3:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, listen, for the first time in the history of the show.
• 3:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: I try not to come to the profits and the past is enough.
• 3:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: If I try not to get so deep into whatever culture is saying or doing so I don't do a real deep dive because I like to have pure intentions of pure heart because to the pure all things are pure.
• 3:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's right.
• 3:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Tell me a little bit about your journey essentially like do God just call the profit is it a profit school like because a lot of people want the profit to give they just be like yeah I'm profit such and such I'm overseeing such and such.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: That is one of the most powerful questions because I guarantee you it's not going to reflect the answer that the typical profit gives.
• 4:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: I got to be honest man.
• 4:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: The calling that is on my life didn't come from a schooling.
• 4:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was a young boy.
• 4:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was around maybe 11 years old.
• 4:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was a revival.
• 4:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was in revival at my foster parents' church.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And a man by the name,
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  [SPEAKER_01]: of prophet something man.
• 4:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't even remember his name.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: He said, young man, you're gonna see the world through Jesus Christ.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I didn't know what he was talking about.
• 5:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: Now, at this time, before I actually went into falsacare, my biological mom had, you know, went through a lot of stuff.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: She was a young woman with five boys.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And we were placed into falsacare.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And I was placed into a detention center, not because I was bad.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: at around six or seven years old, but because there was no beds for children.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, the foster care system, foster homes was overpopulated.
• 5:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: So when you, when they couldn't send you to a home, they placed you in a place called respite, or sometimes a center with beds.
• 5:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: Well, I was placing that place called saying a million's detention center Milwaukee was constant.
• 5:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was the first time I had an encounter with God.
• 5:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was one day I was sitting in the cafeteria.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I'll never forget it.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: There was a book.
• 5:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was a yellow book with a monkey on it called Curious George, sitting in the middle of the floor.
• 5:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: And immediately, the young lady Elizabeth who worked for saying a million's said it's time to go to your room.
• 6:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I said out of nowhere, your mom, Katherine,
• 6:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: is not going to survive cancer.
• 6:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: She's going to die tomorrow.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm six years old.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: They put me in a place called Cherry Hospital.
• 6:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: They took you from the place to be from St. Amir's Detention Center and put me in a place called Cherry Hospital is a mental institution.
• 6:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was a place where, you know, mentally ill people go.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: This I was crazy.
• 6:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was my first time operating in the prophetic.
• 6:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: Fast forward it, fast forward.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I was at universal piece of Christ church, a prophet came and that's when he said, you will see the world through Jesus Christ.
• 6:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's when my journey started.
• 6:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: It didn't start because someone said, you know, this is who you are, this what you're supposed to do, it started because of a word that was released that I didn't understand.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And my life kind of went before the word.
• 7:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: and it began to develop who I am today.
• 7:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: I didn't have particularly in the infancy stages of my ministry of mentor.
• 7:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: I grew up at the Stolic, Stricophastolic.
• 7:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: They didn't have profits that was overtly open about prophesying, matter of fact, when someone called them so prophesying in our local church at that time, everybody got silent.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Nobody explained what was going on.
• 7:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: And so that's kind of like how my start, it, how it happened.
• 7:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 7:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, you talked a little bit about foster care.
• 7:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: Of course, you know, I was adopted when I was three months old, you know, beautiful story, you know, my mother, 84 and now dad, 94.
• 7:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: But when you were a young boy, what story do you have to live with as a prophet of God doing all of these great things?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, when you talk about the little boy that lives on the inside of us, what story does Prophet Marcus have to wrestle with on the inside from his upbringing?
• 8:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: If I could be honest, trauma.
• 8:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: The stuff that I'm not willing or haven't been willing to deal with until about four
• 8:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: After all the success, the platform, everything I struggled for years, trying to identify the wise of my life that I never got answered.
• 8:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: And five brothers at the particular time, one in jail, two serving of life sentence, one
• 8:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: I hate it my family because when they gave refuge to some of my siblings, I was left.
• 9:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think ministry became a coping mechanism for my deliverance.
• 9:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: until I started to realize that my non-deliverance or non-dilling with these factors that are important, didn't sprue out in my gift, but it sprue out in my character.
• 9:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: you're seeking for fulfillment in relationship that God never intended for you to seek fulfillment in that area, you know, in those different peoples, you know what I'm saying?
• 10:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: So every man of God that I looked up to, I wanted a father and them.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Every woman of God that I looked up to, I wanted my mom and them.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: The tragedy in that is,
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  [SPEAKER_01]: it's not a dual expectation or it's not a dual reciprocation in that, you know what I'm saying?
• 10:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: So it's a lot of disappointment that comes from that.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: It's a lot of not met, you know, fulfillment.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Totally on the same.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And you know what I'm saying?
• 10:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: And so yeah, that's how I've navigated if I could be quite honest.
• 10:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 10:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I appreciate you.
• 10:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you so much for sharing.
• 10:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: I relate to that more than you ever know.
• 10:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I often say that I was really good in my gift, but it was just so many things that I was fighting and nobody actually knew I had gloves on.
• 11:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like fighting for somebody to love me.
• 11:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: They were like imaginary gloves.
• 11:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like everybody in the neighborhood is my brother.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: That's my love.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I was always one of the brothers.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Like I was just my brother.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, yes, it's a real brother.
• 11:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like, yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: in school.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, most like most popular.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Most of this is deep inside fighting the battle.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Nobody knows what an amazing conversation.
• 11:21
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• 11:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hearing my brother called me, I never forget, man.
• 11:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: He was, he was shipped, my little brother was shipped all the way to Wisconsin and to hear, at remember, I remember him calling me, said, bro, I'm being molested.
• 12:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I remember the social worker shipping us, shipping me to visit my brother during respite time
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  [SPEAKER_01]: at about six, seven years old, and him teaching me a song that I'll never forget.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: After telling me all this stuff was happening him if I was to get mad.
• 12:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: My daddy served in the army.
• 12:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: He lost his radar, he threw a flag in the air.
• 12:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: On the day that he died, he told my father, my mother, my sister and me, to grow up in the land of the free.
• 12:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was a Caucasian environment.
• 12:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: So, you know, he was on a farm, and that's all he knew.
• 12:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: Very removed from society of African-American culture and at the same time being raped.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: But it's foster prayer.
• 12:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: But it's foster prayers.
• 12:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: I struggle with that.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I struggle with building God, giving me a platform that I really think was premature, man.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: that's real.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: That's so real.
• 13:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: My prayer was in my, as I matured, how do I reach the top of a mountain at 1819 years old and there's nowhere else to go driving a Bentley at 19
• 13:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: reach the top of a mountain.
• 13:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: What do you do when you reach the top of a mountain?
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  [SPEAKER_01]: And there's no where else to go?
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Can't go up.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: So something will try to bring you down.
• 13:51
  [SPEAKER_01]: Especially when you have bad character.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Gift it.
• 13:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: Know how to navigate through relationships when you get too close, cut it off.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, we, we good.
• 14:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: They do that.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what we do every foster kid, every doctor kid, one thing we know how to do.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Let's protect our heart.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: As long as it's surface, as long as you show me some sign that
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  [SPEAKER_01]: You don't, you ain't gonna be here forever.
• 14:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm actually okay with that.
• 14:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm okay with that.
• 14:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: But if love, if you start to feel love, you save that space for real love, for who you deemed in your head, you want to save you.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I want to my mom to save me.
• 14:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: I wanted my dad to save me.
• 14:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: So anybody else that invaded that space, you cut it off.
• 14:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: I've destroyed, I've destroyed, and the emphasis stages of my life, and ministry, many relationships, and ministry naturally, because if it felt too good to be true, Marcus believed that it wasn't true.
• 14:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 15:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: So, even with the beautiful power, prophecy and discernment, it's like
• 15:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: Are you not able to, to kind of see who's for you, who's not, I know probably now because you've done it, but back in those stages, I guess you weren't really looking through that particular lens.
• 15:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: No, really more.
• 15:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: Can I tell you something?
• 15:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I'm telling my mind is a little different.
• 15:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: There's two areas of life that God don't speak to me concerning.
• 15:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: And this may really be like crazy icebreaker.
• 15:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: My marriage.
• 15:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was married to my daughter's mom, and God has never spoke to me, all thebly, visibly concerning her life.
• 15:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: Ever.
• 15:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: How old were you when you got married?
• 15:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got married.
• 15:47
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got married at,
• 15:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: God, 22, something like that.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: God married it, 22, and I just never audibly heard God concerning her.
• 16:05
  [SPEAKER_01]: I can hear, and she says it all, she's like, you hear God about everybody else.
• 16:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: What does God say about me?
• 16:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I couldn't lie, but the truth was, he said nothing.
• 16:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: And the next area that I have to be honest, I never heard God speak to me concerning.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Wasn't me, I get convicted, right?
• 16:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: I feel God, I hear God, God gives me inspiration.
• 16:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: He speaks to me concerning everybody else, but there's been times of struggle with asking God specifically about myself and he've left me in silence.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So my question is, you know, and I mean, no, does she expect, but how do you, you know, the net?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: How do you, how do you not selfishly fill away that the God that can speak life to everybody else in a sense leaves you lonely without a word?
• 17:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: I struggle in confidence, knowing that my calling
• 17:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: which is God's agenda, it's greater than my selfish ambition.
• 17:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think about a Christ that is on a cross.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: How is it that he is sacrifice for people that didn't believe?
• 17:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: While knowing all at the same time, he could have come down.
• 17:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: in the world would still be lost.
• 17:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: Exactly.
• 17:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: What kind of mindset you got to be in to know that you're getting ready to die?
• 18:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: And you could change it, not just opening up your mouth.
• 18:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, not as fangs.
• 18:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: But I couldn't be about my father's business.
• 18:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think the burden of the profit I have to deal with the fact of constantly being misunderstood.
• 18:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think the biggest misconception when it comes to prophet Marcus Thomas is that people desire me to be what God has not called me to be.
• 18:50
  [SPEAKER_01]: And that is contrary to my convictions.
• 18:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I think it's a misconception.
• 18:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think they don't think I'm human.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I think out of all of the 21st century prophetic voices, I'm kind of like on the island.
• 19:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't have a click.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I didn't grow up in the church.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I was born into this.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: island, this isolation.
• 19:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: I know what it means to struggle from a child, but also my heart is extremely pure, the ministry.
• 19:28
  [SPEAKER_01]: I love God's people and I will not, I will not, I will not
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I think that's the misconception.
• 19:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: I refuse to follow the trend.
• 19:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: I just want to do what God says.
• 19:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 19:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, you know, a learn with like following the trend to be honest a lot of times it's it's in our culture because it's like most of times the the word at large has no idea what the trends are who's high who's in our it's like in my opinion sometimes we have these big guys in a pond that are selected if you get the opportunity to know so when you talk a little bit about being on that island.
• 20:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you think it stands from.
• 20:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: foster care, and isolation, and having to be, nobody doesn't just like to have this perpetual question mark on why.
• 20:34
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, why wasn't I with my mom?
• 20:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: Why wasn't I with my, my father?
• 20:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: I understand.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I found myself in so many occasions.
• 20:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: feeling even in the room.
• 20:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, okay, well, I guess I got to perform a little bit.
• 20:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, let me get everybody moving and grove and they took me 40 years to be able to be able to say, I don't cool sometimes I'm just going to be quiet.
• 20:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't have to be the center of attention.
• 20:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: But then when I look back kind of in my early 30s, I often felt isolated in the industry that I didn't really feel like I was supposed to be a part of.
• 21:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like I was just happy to be here because I'm like, if you knew what I would do with my anger,
• 21:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: Every foster kid every adopted kid they got this thing on the inside that is just like okay Thank God for Jesus like I just prayed that this thing lies dorming long enough or just get rid of it's a thorn in the side I think I actually isolated myself because of my own fear of someone hurting me
• 21:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you think, because I see people rally around, you know, I just watch you on social media.
• 21:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, I just like, man, dude, look, cool it.
• 21:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I sound like my hair, probably look cool it, look at it lying and what?
• 21:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I mean?
• 21:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: I get excited and like, oh, he, he, he, a fresh voice, fresh annoying.
• 21:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: But do you think sometimes your own personal heart posture kind of isolates people away?
• 21:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Or do you think that's just something that you do?
• 21:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: No, I agree, I think it stems from, I think it stems from my childhood, my upbringing.
• 22:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: I have had to become one with isolation.
• 22:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: I've had to, I don't know no other way.
• 22:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, those that are in my space,
• 22:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: I value, I love, you give what I'm saying.
• 22:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: And it's very few that I allow in that space.
• 22:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, I'm very critical of myself.
• 22:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm very critical of those that I allow to be in my space and so I guard it.
• 22:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: But isolation, most definitely stems from my childhood, my upbringing.
• 22:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think I've just always been alone.
• 22:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: And it's been a lonely journey.
• 22:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: What's been the biggest difficulty being this new fresh prophetic voice?
• 22:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because there's a lot of prophets that I've seen, prophet Lovey, who I've never met, but loved to watch him online.
• 22:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I had prophet Brian Corn.
• 22:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's just one show, no prophet I've seen, who is his name, Jamaican Green.
• 22:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: If that wasn't your duck and pull the truck, baby, go and hook it up.
• 22:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: You hear me?
• 23:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's the prophet prophet right there.
• 23:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Shout out to Jamaican Green.
• 23:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: And then
• 23:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I got a chance to see you at new birth.
• 23:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, do you all come together as prophets to help each other?
• 23:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because I've seen a certain level of failure in the prophetic office.
• 23:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you all have the humility that maybe gets together to make sure that some of the pitfalls that happen before?
• 23:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, don't happen again or is it just isolation?
• 23:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: Everybody got their own mountain that they sit on and nobody really communicates or their prophetic voices that prophets actually speak to and like, hey man,
• 23:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, as always, like, hey, man, profit was a name, got one of them holes breaking us up.
• 23:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 23:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like, what happened?
• 23:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, do you all not bend together, like a football team, to say, hey, man, we represent Christ, bro.
• 23:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, let me hold you up.
• 23:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: I know I got accountability partners that are, you know, in the media industry.
• 23:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, hey, will you got a divorce this time?
• 23:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: Don't get a divorce again, bro.
• 23:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I need the me the do you all hold each other accountable?
• 24:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: in today's era of the prophetic culture, society.
• 24:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: church separates people.
• 24:19
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think for myself and I can speak for myself, it's always been my desire to connect with prophetic voices.
• 24:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think I love the gift.
• 24:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: I love prophetic vessels.
• 24:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's very well difficult because everyone has their own agenda.
• 24:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: You give what I'm saying.
• 24:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: I am no different than anybody else.
• 24:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I can put this out here and I have no shame.
• 24:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: Man, in my infancy stages of ministry, I have done some crazy immature things in the flesh.
• 24:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: You go to him saying, I have done it, I am human.
• 25:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: If you cut me now, I bleach it's like in the mirror.
• 25:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, what I'm saying, so that's a part of growing.
• 25:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't think it changed.
• 25:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: When Jesus called me, when He called me before the foundation of the world, before I was even born, I was a prophet.
• 25:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: All right, I ain't never, and I have a difficult time with school of the prophets.
• 25:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: I ain't never been to a school of the prophet.
• 25:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: None of that.
• 25:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: God, that exists.
• 25:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was just joking.
• 25:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: Man, listen.
• 25:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was like, did you go to school of the prophet?
• 25:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was like, you kind of look.
• 25:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: I just break up, but it exists for real.
• 25:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Well, yes.
• 25:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, there's people that subscribe to that.
• 25:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't.
• 25:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't.
• 25:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: School of the Ministry, yes.
• 25:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: School of the prophet.
• 25:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hmm.
• 25:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: I just don't believe a prophet.
• 25:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't believe you can create a prophet.
• 25:51
  [SPEAKER_01]: I believe a authentic prophet is born one and you can develop the one that is born a prophet.
• 25:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: Right.
• 25:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's what I believe.
• 26:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: Got it.
• 26:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: Okay.
• 26:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: And so humanistically,
• 26:05
  [SPEAKER_01]: I mean, I've encountered many different failures like anybody else.
• 26:10
  [SPEAKER_01]: I just thank God, you know what I'm saying?
• 26:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: Didn't get out.
• 26:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's actually great, great, great.
• 26:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's great.
• 26:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: Thank God for grace and mercy.
• 26:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, what I'm saying?
• 26:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: They got to get, it didn't get out.
• 26:19
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I try to live a consecrated life where the members of my body,
• 26:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: is constantly being, you know, surrender back to God, right?
• 26:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, because without that level of consecration and conviction, I'll be all you're sleeping with everybody.
• 26:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I did it at one point, let me tell you about it.
• 26:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: Right, I'm glad I, yeah, preaching and sleeping with my assignment, prophesy and sleeping with my assignment.
• 26:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: Because that was the template I was given.
• 26:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, they're my brother's city.
• 27:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was the template I was given.
• 27:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: Mm-hmm.
• 27:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: As a foster kid, I hungered to be trained.
• 27:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: I hungered to be tutored.
• 27:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: Old man, Leo Stahl, where from New York City, 136 furniture to the boulevard, he taught me how to fast three times a year.
• 27:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: We were fast, man.
• 27:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: Seven days straight.
• 27:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: Carried juice, 100% apple juice, and Alaveira Jail, who fast.
• 27:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: He taught me how to surrender my body back to God.
• 27:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: But then, I met people on the road, man, and they gave me a template that I subscribed to because I knew no better.
• 27:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: And now, when you get a little name, mature a little bit,
• 27:50
  [SPEAKER_01]: those saying people that gave you this, this ungodly template would destroy you for the same template that they showed you.
• 28:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: Kill the prophet, kill the young prophet.
• 28:07
  [SPEAKER_01]: They're sleeping around, but we're seeing you sleeping around.
• 28:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: They drink in, but the first person I seen with a drink was the person I looked up to.
• 28:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: having women was acceptable, get a talk about it.
• 28:28
  [SPEAKER_01]: Not a wife, get a hold.
• 28:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hmm.
• 28:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Was that too much for TV?
• 28:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: Okay.
• 28:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: Are you talking about it?
• 28:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I'm making sure.
• 28:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yes, sir.
• 28:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was the template.
• 28:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's so God had to put people in my life to purge the influence of people
• 28:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: that created hungers in me, that was not safe, was not good.
• 28:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: Had to be purged from hungers, cause I thought that was what it was, Doc, I was 17, 18, driving a Bentley in the Rose Royce.
• 29:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: Where in dive hats, custom clothes, having all the money, but at some point,
• 29:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: somebody had to show me this is what it meant to be a prophet, not to be a voice of God, not to be God's trusted vessel.
• 29:28
  [SPEAKER_01]: But at some point in my ministry, I equated the prophetic gift with riches and fame.
• 29:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: I looked to, that I thought was holy, that I thought was influential and powerful when God gave me platform and I got access to proximity, I found out that all of them was flawed.
• 30:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: And what happens when flawed becomes the very thing that kills you.
• 30:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: When you said the part about as a foster child, like we desire your mental issue, like I don't know man, I really hit my heart so much because most of the time, the level of gifting that we walk in because of the trial from inception, we usually become the leaders needing
• 30:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: They're looking for the answers to come out of you.
• 30:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: But you look in that their example, like, okay, cool, I'm here.
• 30:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't want to tell nobody that I like this is all new to me like that because, you know, whether it's prior to whatever.
• 30:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: And then you're looking around trying to find an example and then all of the examples, you know, that create a pathway that may not necessarily be as healthy and holy as it's supposed to be.
• 31:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: How do you, how do you break that mindset?
• 31:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because of course we can't place the blame on someone else for our own personal actions.
• 31:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: We just send an example.
• 31:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like God gives us cognizant dissonance to be able to say, hey man, that ain't really good for me.
• 31:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, at this age, like, I'm like, now I can't hit them gummings like that.
• 31:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I'll loan that, what's in them thing?
• 31:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: We're 30 years later, I don't know.
• 31:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: But you're young.
• 31:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, you 17 though.
• 31:28
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, when you, when you, when you, when I just got on the, on the field,
• 31:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: I kind of disagree with that statement.
• 31:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: When you're just getting on that cognizant thought pattern is not there.
• 31:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: When you 17 and you in a limo with some of the most notable leaders in my country and how you get here.
• 31:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: Your pure and a drinking crown and coat.
• 32:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Well, I guess I mean, but I guess that's a part of the job.
• 32:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: This part of what we do, that's true.
• 32:07
  [SPEAKER_01]: When they whisper to you, it makes you get that money.
• 32:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: Get the money.
• 32:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: Get the money.
• 32:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: Plants, not, not, not, not save a soul.
• 32:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: Get the money.
• 32:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: Get the money.
• 32:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: To see, it's templates.
• 32:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'll get it.
• 32:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: I Marcus Thomas at this juncture in my life, 35 years old, I absolutely, and 100% pure about my operation.
• 32:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: Miss understood, but pure.
• 32:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: I've been purged to this place though, real counseling.
• 32:58
  [SPEAKER_01]: I went through real counseling.
• 33:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: I meet with a doctor right now, Bishop, Julia McMillan, out of Tampa, Florida, change my life, change my life.
• 33:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: And you had to work through it?
• 33:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: Every Thursday.
• 33:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: She said, you've met three categories of people in your life, son.
• 33:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: And all of them have failed you.
• 33:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 33:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Bishop David Michael Copeland, San Antonio, I met him in Detroit, Michigan, preaching for predominant leader there, sitting down at the table of influential pastors.
• 33:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm about 18, 19.
• 33:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: He asked me a question that embarrassed the heck out of me.
• 33:49
  [SPEAKER_01]: He said, what was your text?
• 33:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I'm gonna make a major point.
• 33:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: I said, the law would be good.
• 33:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: That was your text.
• 34:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: The law, yeah, the law, I preached the law would be good.
• 34:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: He said, that was your text, all the business started laughing.
• 34:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was humiliated because I realized they only wanted me for my gift and that's when this man became my bishop.
• 34:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: He said, that's not your text, that's your subject.
• 34:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: What was your scripture, that's the text.
• 34:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: We had to say, Motel, Western Southfield at three in the morning.
• 34:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: I go knocking on his room door.
• 34:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: Never knew his room number.
• 34:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: The prophetic is working.
• 34:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, you all.
• 34:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: I said, call your wife.
• 34:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: She's dealing with cramps in a lower belly.
• 34:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: God's going to heal her.
• 34:50
  [SPEAKER_01]: He called her.
• 34:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: She's dealing with that in the moment.
• 34:54
  [SPEAKER_01]: Flew me to San Antonio.
• 34:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: Change my life.
• 34:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: The problem is, his culture was a culture of integrity
• 35:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: I had gifted this, but I had no character.
• 35:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: I had no discipline.
• 35:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: So when you join a community of character in integrity, it will quickly show that you don't possess those things.
• 35:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: So I made a lot of mistakes.
• 35:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: Flat with women in a church.
• 35:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: Had a baby in a church.
• 35:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: One of my daughters.
• 35:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: How many stars do you have?
• 35:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: I have two.
• 35:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: I have three children.
• 35:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Three children.
• 35:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: Marcus Junior, Jaden Simone, and Olivia J. Olivia J. J.
• 35:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's the younger.
• 35:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's the one that got you a little bit.
• 35:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: He's a Olivia.
• 35:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, he got a little bit of a heart.
• 35:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: He love him all, totally.
• 35:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: You get it while you love him all.
• 35:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's just like a meal, I got, I got, Khalil, I got Peyton, I got Princeton, and I got Peyton.
• 35:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's not my that last one, Olivia got me that's gonna be right now.
• 35:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm leaving the show.
• 36:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: Exactly.
• 36:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm losing me.
• 36:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I hold up one second, cut the camera, basically one sub, but no, I understand.
• 36:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: So what does love look like now that, and here's the thing.
• 36:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: Number one, let me, let me, let me dig her.
• 36:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you for sharing.
• 36:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yes sir.
• 36:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: I just want to just say in that moment.
• 36:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was so glad that Holy Spirit allowed me not to do research and do all the other stuff.
• 36:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because I just wanted to meet the man.
• 36:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was like, let me just meet the brother.
• 36:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, it's in our eyes.
• 36:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, when I, you know, yeah, yeah, you been through it too.
• 36:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 36:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like you said in our eyes, so I can definitely tell my little cousin who just left you and get changed to meet him.
• 36:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: But he was adopted too.
• 36:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: My mother and my mother.
• 36:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: My father and his father are brothers.
• 36:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: So it's like my first kind of my little brother so and it's all if you To say him you back up.
• 36:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: He won't have us it's all in our eyes What does love look like now after you've been through so much like you in this culture of an integrity you in this culture of You know good character you make some mistakes.
• 36:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you have to leave that church and get away from San Antonio?
• 37:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like what all of these different hard breaks like maybe go back to that moment and then tell me what love looks like in the future.
• 37:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: Did you have to leave the church that they kick you out was that a good exit or what was that like well, okay.
• 37:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: So right now up to date 2025.
• 37:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm a single man.
• 37:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: I have three children divorce four years ago.
• 37:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: But I'm healed.
• 37:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: I've taken my counseling serious.
• 37:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I'm an advocate, man, traveling all over the world is still needed to do personal work.
• 37:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hearing God, but couldn't hear God for myself.
• 37:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: Notable across the world, Africa, all over the world.
• 37:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: And majority of my past depression has been my anger toward a God.
• 37:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: that will speak to me, if everybody else, but not speak to me.
• 37:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's been my anger.
• 38:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: Only to find out that he hallelujah.
• 38:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: Only to find out that he wanted to speak to me and I wasn't making myself available to the source he wanted to speak through.
• 38:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: I expected the voice of God to come from a familiar area or a familiar person.
• 38:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: But the voice that God has utilized has been my counselor.
• 38:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: And she has been a symbol of God's voice in the earth for me.
• 38:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: But because somebody navigated me through that, I forgave my daddy.
• 38:54
  [SPEAKER_01]: Thank you, dear.
• 38:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: I forgave.
• 38:57
  [SPEAKER_00]: Thank you, dear.
• 38:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: I forgave the younger version of me.
• 39:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: I forgave the younger version of me, man.
• 39:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yep.
• 39:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 39:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 39:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, I'm proud of you, little bro.
• 39:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 39:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: For real.
• 39:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't think nobody understands how much at some point.
• 39:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: I hate it the younger version of me.
• 39:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 39:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, I'd stop putting blame on everybody else.
• 39:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: I just deal with it.
• 39:43
  [SPEAKER_05]: The
• 39:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: my strength is back, my strength is that I would declare all over the world, Jesus Lord, I had to come to grips and when I came to grips, I met peace.
• 40:05
  [SPEAKER_01]: My brother, nobody would understand our assignment, but I had to understand they're not called to understand
• 40:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: If God speaks to me right now and tell you something, nobody in this studio may understand it, but that don't stop my assignment to deliver it.
• 40:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: If I could ever get that, do some of the people say, man, it'll be a better, it'll be a better, it'll be better.
• 40:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: Trust me, I question God sometimes.
• 40:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: Why you want me to say that?
• 40:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: Why you want me to move like that?
• 40:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: But my counseling helped me to realize man that God loved me, he cared about me.
• 40:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: When I learned his voice and seen how his voice was for other people and that, and me seeing their lives change,
• 41:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: And me constantly going through adversity, and my council said adversity produces power.
• 41:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: If the more you go through, the more powerful you become, became at peace.
• 41:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's good.
• 41:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: I expect trials, I expect to be disliked.
• 41:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: The little boy hates being disliked.
• 41:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: Did you want to say the little boy hates not being loved?
• 41:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: The foster kid hates not being accepted.
• 41:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: The foster kid hates not feeling like you have a father or mother.
• 41:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: The foster kid hates that.
• 41:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: But the man understand that this is necessary for your life's assignment.
• 42:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's the way that I carry.
• 42:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm sure there's like really like this to hear you say with power is really really dope.
• 42:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I am still having a very hard difficulty fighting with that little boy.
• 42:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: I would be a liar to say that I don't, I don't like not being light.
• 42:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because I don't have not an impure bone in my body.
• 42:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: However, when being misunderstood through the love of Jesus Christ, I've learned how to pull down new tools from Holy Spirit to communicate in the way that will represent him.
• 42:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: But deep on the inside, like I'm burning.
• 42:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: You don't know what I've been through and you have no idea how treacherous this could be if you get out of line, like I'm the Christian who needed Jesus.
• 43:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I think the difference, I think the difference to you is and I said it on a vlog yesterday, I was like, you hate me because you want this.
• 43:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't even want to be a singer.
• 43:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: I want it to be a hustler.
• 43:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: I know what I wanted to do.
• 43:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: I have my plan.
• 43:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm going to have me a few clubs and then he called me.
• 43:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: He had picked me.
• 43:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: I've done everything I could to sabotage what he called me to and hope that he would take the call away.
• 43:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 43:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's like it hurts so bad when people like hate you because of
• 43:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, I was like, I ain't talking.
• 43:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I might start talking even more crazy because the pride in me, like, you ain't gonna do nothing about it.
• 43:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like what you gon' do, because I know he with me, you not gonna, you know, so I fight with this thing.
• 43:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: And so I will say that helped me so much to know that.
• 43:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: like you understand, I know that that's that I didn't find it the 12 year old, the 16 year old, the 19 year old, the 24 year old boy, because when I go all the way to the wrong side of the pill, I know that's 21.
• 44:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because that was, that was when I'm in the, I'm really identity crisis.
• 44:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: I really think I'm hard.
• 44:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I really think I can hurt you.
• 44:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: And then I'm like, no, lean to Jesus, lean to Jesus.
• 44:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I got to keep remembering James, too.
• 44:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, Jay is one, two, two, four, this.
• 44:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: When you face the trials and many crimes, keep your, it's like all this stuff is going in, but all this stuff is going on and in the midst of it, I'm looking like this.
• 44:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, no, it's fine.
• 44:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I have all this stuff going on on the inside.
• 44:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I don't think I've ever heard anybody else to be able to put into words.
• 44:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, that little boy hate this, but that Christian man is like, settle down to whatever you're all, settle down 18 year old.
• 44:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: 21, he hard to take because he's the guy that I have to go back in and repent and say I'm sorry for because he's going to curse you out.
• 44:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: He's going to mess everything up and he's going to give you a call shoulder.
• 45:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: Even as we speak now, I have to communicate some things to someone to let them know why the energy is shifted because I've been fighting this 21 year old boy.
• 45:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: This 21 year old boy,
• 45:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: He continues to plague me and he, he saved, but he just don't know Jesus.
• 45:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like he's supposed to.
• 45:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, yeah, thank you for bringing it on, like to him.
• 45:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 45:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: For sure.
• 45:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 45:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: So what do you, what do you do with all of these different tug of wars that you have to face?
• 45:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: But then you're called to a marketplace ministry that requires people who may potentially hurt you.
• 45:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: You understand who your refuge is, as a child, there was a native and natural desire for God.
• 45:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: That couldn't be taught.
• 46:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: It was planted, not by a particular person, just by the life of the spoon, I was dealt
• 46:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: at conception out of all of my family, siblings, everything, desire, a closeness with a God, this God, Elohim, El Shadai, Yeshua, Humbershia.
• 46:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I've always leaned into that refuge.
• 46:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: as a place of comfort, even if I was wrong, if I was right, if I was confused, and that which is indifferent, I just leaned into that, man, to speak to what you were talking about
• 47:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: how much the hand of God was on my life until adversity took place.
• 47:10
  [SPEAKER_01]: Facts, I didn't realize.
• 47:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: So, I didn't realize until my ministry became a comparison to other ministries because others had starts through people.
• 47:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: I had to start through God.
• 47:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: You can track me back to a big organization.
• 47:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: Where did this guy come from?
• 47:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: Who he trying to be like?
• 47:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: Not knowing that, man, you don't even understand.
• 47:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: What you see in me is somebody that is every evolving, because that's what I've had to be as a falseer kid.
• 47:51
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's twenty one false thorns.
• 47:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: I had to read just a lot.
• 48:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: a lot, to restart a lot.
• 48:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: And you'll be upset because people think they know you and they don't.
• 48:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: They think they know prophet Marcus Thomas, but they don't.
• 48:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know the yielded version of me.
• 48:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's all you get to experience.
• 48:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: All you get to experience is prophet Marcus Thomas.
• 48:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: The yielded vessel.
• 48:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: I only make myself available.
• 48:54
  [SPEAKER_01]: to give what God wants me to give and expects me to give.
• 48:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: And my life assignment, he speaks, I speak.
• 49:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's it.
• 49:08
  [SPEAKER_01]: If he tells me to tell you to jump six times.
• 49:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: So you're not understanding.
• 49:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: But the Bible says, use the full of things of the world to come down the wild.
• 49:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: Jump and I am convinced that that jumping is going to get you a miracle.
• 49:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: Will it more I had to believe that survival had to happen on my life, survive it, survive it.
• 49:40
  [SPEAKER_01]: My family came and got my brother.
• 49:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: The second oldest, I survived that.
• 49:49
  [SPEAKER_01]: My oldest.
• 49:51
  [SPEAKER_01]: ran away doing it.
• 49:53
  [SPEAKER_01]: I survived that.
• 49:54
  [SPEAKER_01]: My youngest molested survived.
• 49:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: I stayed in it.
• 49:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: I wasn't cut like them either.
• 50:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, they were still in cars.
• 50:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was just sitting here.
• 50:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, I, you know, I like to be here.
• 50:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: I like, you know, I like, you know, I wasn't cut like that.
• 50:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: Right.
• 50:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's a little more soft than you know.
• 50:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: Right.
• 50:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know, but I survived it.
• 50:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: So I made a
• 50:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: people know who I am.
• 50:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm a survivor.
• 50:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: You want to know who I am.
• 50:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's what it was.
• 50:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was saying that I was like, oh, no, one.
• 50:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because you know, like, I was, it was a threat.
• 50:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: It was like, man, what's up with dude?
• 50:33
  [SPEAKER_01]: Like, because I say them, and then when I say it, I was like, bro, bro, understand what it is.
• 50:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's what you want.
• 50:39
  [SPEAKER_01]: You want to know why I'm I'm a survivor.
• 50:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: Forget about all that.
• 50:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: Even when I remember when I was taping that man, I got so emotional.
• 50:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: I can't talk about this too long.
• 50:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: Like, it, it, I
• 50:51
  [SPEAKER_01]: because I'm so thankful, I'm so thankful that I survive losing my mind.
• 51:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm thankful, I'm pretty hard.
• 51:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: be yelling and hollering.
• 51:10
  [SPEAKER_01]: You're right.
• 51:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: Jumping around.
• 51:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: Come, I really be like, I got, I tell you, I got spiritual tricks.
• 51:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: You want them to just get it.
• 51:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: I get it, get it, get it, get this.
• 51:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: Cause you ain't bent through half of it.
• 51:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: You're, yeah.
• 51:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, what you think is bad.
• 51:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 51:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 51:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: Looking in the mirror and wondering why people make choices that they make.
• 51:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: And for me specifically, looking in the mirror having all of these gifts would never knew where it came from.
• 51:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't want to, you know, that's really tough.
• 51:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 51:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 51:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think the beauty of the conversation is that you survived it.
• 51:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Wow.
• 51:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's like,
• 51:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: I appreciate people who can take personal accountability for missteps in there in their wall.
• 51:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's those people who try to jazz step by step, I mean, it's a whole lot more healing that you have to do.
• 52:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was on this conversation.
• 52:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: In this thing called tonight's conversation.
• 52:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: and his guy walked up and he was so gung-ho about what the woman did and what the woman did and I was like, I don't really care what she did.
• 52:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's hard to see the picture when you're the firing bro.
• 52:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like you have to take personal accountability for your own action and that's when the healing process actually starts.
• 52:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Then this is the perpetual journey we're going to continuously walk down this road.
• 52:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: But I'm really grateful that I'd get an opportunity to see a profit with so much humility to be able to share because the gift is superhuman.
• 52:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: It comes from God.
• 52:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: The man is still flawed and working through everything that he had to go through.
• 52:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I appreciate you being able to simplify and make us differentiate the man and the vessel.
• 52:49
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 52:50
  [SPEAKER_01]: I think that's a loss art.
• 52:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: Every time I see those that I like, I hear this guarded vessel with guarded, because we don't know when it's safe to not be guarded, because we're misunderstood.
• 53:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: We don't know, is this podcast safe to let our guys have?
• 53:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: Because no matter what is produced of this, somebody is going to find something.
• 53:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: Just a year to say, the guess what?
• 53:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm okay with that.
• 53:34
  [SPEAKER_01]: If I survived that, I survived this.
• 53:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, probably more than I'm telling you true, man.
• 53:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: I would tell people the best and worst thing God ever told me is that even in the midst of my struggle he wouldn't leave.
• 53:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm all.
• 53:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it gave me a confidence now.
• 53:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm all.
• 53:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: That I can be do whoever whatever he called me to be.
• 53:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was with my son.
• 53:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: They was that, because I was preaching all around the country before the voice and people, you know, we were relationship goals and they after the ask, they're like, are you preaching steel?
• 54:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Cause it was so good.
• 54:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: We all said I preach every night, Monday through Friday to an audience of four.
• 54:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm the pastor of my home.
• 54:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: And we're in the most beautiful series ever right now because I got a 17 year old.
• 54:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: And we were going through Philippians and we were looking at Paul's what I call his, I have a dream speech.
• 54:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: And when he was talking and we pulled out some things and he said to rejoice, request and think on these things and he gave us a plethora list and then he got real bold.
• 54:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: And then he was like, man, I don't really care and you know it's the Willie Mojoever.
• 54:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: He like, bro, man, I really care what state I'm in and brother, I don't been up by them,
• 54:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it was the part that stuck out to me, but I can do all the things come on, come on, do cry.
• 54:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 54:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: who strengthens me and I think the beauty of it the reason why you can be free and the reason why somebody on the other side of that camera can be free is because you understand that God is with you.
• 54:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: The best and worst thing in the world that like that guy show me that in a midst of a worst thing to the world that I've ever done not the secret stuff that nobody knows about.
• 55:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was like, y'all think that's some boy, I wish you knew what the secrets were.
• 55:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I mean?
• 55:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 55:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: But to what they thought was bad and then his presence was there.
• 55:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was like, oh, I'm never letting this go.
• 55:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: I let you out before I let this go.
• 55:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm gonna be obedient to what he's saying no matter what.
• 55:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't have those desires.
• 55:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: I laugh at the man that you made for another.
• 55:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because I'm no longer him.
• 55:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's a share of a man.
• 55:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: This man is chasing hold in this.
• 55:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: Hey family, listen, so grateful and thankful that you're watching this amazing conversation that we're having.
• 55:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: But are you a business owner?
• 55:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you have an organization that you feel with a line with a friend?
• 55:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: family, or a unit culture that does this best to be as edgy as possible because we have real conversation.
• 55:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: But of course, this is for people who went through hurts habits, hangups, and breakups, and their journeys to loving themselves more.
• 55:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: Does your business or organization align with us?
• 55:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: Well, maybe there's an opportunity to engage with us with one of the most influential audiences in the kingdom.
• 56:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: If that's you, make sure that you click this email or click the little link in this YouTube description.
• 56:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: I
• 56:11
  [SPEAKER_01]: My daughter's mother says something to me that was life long impacting.
• 56:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: Life long impactful, I love it.
• 56:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, she says something, I mean, just for the rest of my life, I remember.
• 56:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: I actually, here's what I said.
• 56:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: What is it about me that you like?
• 56:30
  [SPEAKER_01]: Because you know,
• 56:32
  [SPEAKER_01]: dating is difficult and and right now I'm on the dating scene.
• 56:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm trying to date him.
• 56:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I'm trying to fight you.
• 56:37
  [SPEAKER_01]: You know somebody.
• 56:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: All right, if we go way, man, two seconds.
• 56:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: I just got a question on this, I wouldn't go to the door.
• 56:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: Don't ask to this, but like what does date look like as a private?
• 56:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: You just got to look at it, be like, got me like, but we talk about that.
• 56:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: What does date look like a private?
• 56:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Go back to what does she say?
• 56:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: Cause I want to know that, but I do want to know dating as a private.
• 56:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: I might want to put Kevin's over.
• 56:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: And just.
• 56:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: It'll be a good show.
• 56:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: Wouldn't you have your life, probably what'd you see?
• 57:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's a woman in front of him.
• 57:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know.
• 57:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: We got to get the Florida, put the cameras in Florida.
• 57:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: I go here, go here now.
• 57:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's a great show, though.
• 57:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: Go here, go here.
• 57:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, so I am one of these things I've seen.
• 57:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm one of the day you've seen.
• 57:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: I got some considerations going on.
• 57:14
  [SPEAKER_01]: Come on, my God.
• 57:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hey, I fucked that.
• 57:16
  [SPEAKER_01]: Oh.
• 57:17
  [UNKNOWN]: Yeah.
• 57:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, one, one, one, I'm leaning on one.
• 57:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hey, more than the other, you know.
• 57:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: But, um,
• 57:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: My daughter's mother said some very powerful.
• 57:28
  [SPEAKER_01]: She's an amazing teacher, a powerful woman of God.
• 57:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: And she said to me, I actually, I said, what do you, what do you like about me?
• 57:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: She says, what I love about you most love.
• 57:42
  [SPEAKER_01]: I said, like she said, what I love about you most is your faith.
• 57:50
  [SPEAKER_01]: She says, I've watched you,
• 57:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: against whatever odds, believe what out of the shot of it out when my faith was adrenaline, you know, you believed that God would symbolize that.
• 58:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: And one that I was in meditation and consecration and God told me, your greatest attribute to life will be your faith.
• 58:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: And he told me it started when I was a kid.
• 58:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: I've taught you how to believe when nothing you seen was believable.
• 58:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: And if you would say who am I today?
• 58:38
  [SPEAKER_01]: Not just a survivor, I'm a faith walker.
• 58:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: I believe even if everything I see is unbelievable, I believe.
• 58:52
  [SPEAKER_01]: I believe, man, that those that I sick will be healed even if it's unbelievable to them.
• 59:02
  [SPEAKER_01]: I believe those that are broken can be repaired even if it's unbelievable to them.
• 59:10
  [SPEAKER_01]: And I super believe that for myself.
• 59:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's how I'm survived.
• 59:17
  [SPEAKER_01]: God, there has to be a God.
• 59:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Bye.
• 59:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Simple.
• 59:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: So...
• 59:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm gonna go back to this dating scene.
• 59:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: I gotta just grab it because they was waiting on it.
• 59:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: I can feel it like, you know, we over here in the spring, like the Lord, like his goal is one of the Lord, but I know the general conversation falls to go this way.
• 59:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not gonna blame God.
• 59:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, yeah.
• 59:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: But I gotta go here because I said I would.
• 59:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 59:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: Is it tough dating like as a profit?
• 59:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, okay, let me just say this food is closed.
• 59:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 59:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Not a profit.
• 59:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 59:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't think I'm a profit.
• 59:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 59:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: But prophetically, once I get in that flow, we go on, we go on, we go on, we go on, we go on, we go on, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go, we go
• 1:00:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: He don't do that for me, I'm just, I'm just being honest.
• 1:00:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: He don't do that for me, listen, I've never made it.
• 1:00:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: Let me say this, I've never made a bad decision when I was weak, I've always made a bad decision when I was strong.
• 1:00:44
  [SPEAKER_01]: T-Sh.
• 1:00:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's good.
• 1:00:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: You haven't been pretty good, that's so good.
• 1:00:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I've never, that is so contrary to what we believe.
• 1:00:54
  [SPEAKER_01]: Man, come on.
• 1:00:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: Doc, anytime I wanted to warn me, it was in my strength.
• 1:01:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: I got him.
• 1:01:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: Now, the mature version of me.
• 1:01:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 1:01:07
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't, and this is how I made, I think this sounds bad, but I got to say it, because I'm just truth teller.
• 1:01:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't think I desire church women,
• 1:01:15
  [SPEAKER_01]: Come on, hey, no, no, really I know this is bad.
• 1:01:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, no, just listen to this out To walk together, let's they agree, you know, don't mind a minute.
• 1:01:24
  [SPEAKER_01]: It's a lot.
• 1:01:25
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, that's good.
• 1:01:26
  [SPEAKER_01]: But I think That's good at daddy.
• 1:01:31
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I think It's a big age.
• 1:01:35
  [SPEAKER_01]: I met now.
• 1:01:36
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah I want somebody to understand markers
• 1:01:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: We can develop the understanding of the profit.
• 1:01:43
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm moody, all that I could train you on that.
• 1:01:46
  [SPEAKER_01]: Maybe training is a bad word.
• 1:01:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: But I mean, introduce, introduce, introduce that part.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, introduce, yeah, I just, I want a friend.
• 1:01:55
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want somebody.
• 1:01:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm just reading the Bible with every day.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Thanks.
• 1:01:59
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm just being honest.
• 1:02:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: Thanks.
• 1:02:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want somebody.
• 1:02:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm praying all day with it.
• 1:02:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm just being idle.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: Not me.
• 1:02:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: I pray enough.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: I got us.
• 1:02:06
  [SPEAKER_01]: I got us.
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  [SPEAKER_01]: No, no.
• 1:02:09
  [SPEAKER_01]: I want you to be able to pray.
• 1:02:10
  [SPEAKER_01]: But you hear me say, I'm just being honest.
• 1:02:12
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't.
• 1:02:13
  [SPEAKER_01]: I want somebody I can go to the movies with.
• 1:02:18
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, church is good.
• 1:02:19
  [SPEAKER_01]: I want to go to church you a little church.
• 1:02:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: I am, I'm, I'm the church.
• 1:02:23
  [SPEAKER_01]: I passed her great church in Marshall, Texas.
• 1:02:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: I'm coming to you.
• 1:02:27
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, please not there, too.
• 1:02:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: Come on.
• 1:02:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: You, you got me in your back pocket like a wallet.
• 1:02:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: No, no, no.
• 1:02:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm so proud of you.
• 1:02:34
  [SPEAKER_02]: And don't know you like this.
• 1:02:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 1:02:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, but I'm talking about like, he meant you like, I got this proud.
• 1:02:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You're man fight like I got this.
• 1:02:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: I got you.
• 1:02:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: Don't worry about it.
• 1:02:47
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, so my prayer has been send me a friend send me a friend send me a friend I'm praying for your good friend.
• 1:03:00
  [SPEAKER_01]: I don't want someone that love the prophet and don't want to get to know Marcus That's fair that's what we all these women is attracted to the prophet and the attributes of the prophet and they leave the man lonely
• 1:03:19
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's all real.
• 1:03:20
  [SPEAKER_01]: You got them saying?
• 1:03:21
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yes, sir.
• 1:03:22
  [SPEAKER_01]: That's why it's easy to expose these jokers, because you didn't let your guard down.
• 1:03:29
  [SPEAKER_01]: It hurts, so I want, I, I, I, I want somebody that when you see us walk through the airport, leave us alone, we, we own it.
• 1:03:41
  [SPEAKER_01]: We're going to can't go having us a motel.
• 1:03:45
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, because I'm on the mic to your mouth.
• 1:03:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: Are you on the car to your problem?
• 1:03:48
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 1:03:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: I left it out all alone.
• 1:03:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Me too.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Every bad decision.
• 1:03:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was in the car to your house too.
• 1:03:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I'm done.
• 1:03:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's right.
• 1:03:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't make good decisions on them, guys.
• 1:03:56
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.
• 1:03:57
  [SPEAKER_01]: I was making great decisions on the car.
• 1:03:59
  [UNKNOWN]: But, what?
• 1:04:01
  [SPEAKER_01]: But I ain't no cocktail, I'm on my own.
• 1:04:03
  [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, I'm rockin' now, you're coming.
• 1:04:04
  [SPEAKER_01]: Raise God.
• 1:04:05
  [SPEAKER_01]: Hell, I'm safe.
• 1:04:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: Feel the Holy Ghost.
• 1:04:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm on.
• 1:04:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: So, private, I usually do this motivational moment.
• 1:04:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what?
• 1:04:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm gonna do it right here.
• 1:04:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: Here go the thing.
• 1:04:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you for watching.
• 1:04:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Here's the thing that I've learned, and I'm just gonna put this in a really cool bulb.
• 1:04:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: Um, we gotta protect our children who we are louder than to be exposed to.
• 1:04:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Wow, that's just just what I believe, you know, as he was talking, of course, he was put in a room full of pastors because he understood his call to very young guys.
• 1:04:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I was put in a room full of musicians because, you know, I'm a musician.
• 1:04:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: I want to do music and...
• 1:04:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I realized now that a lot of the attributes of hip hop had it bled into my thought process of what a woman was, how I should be a man, and I thought I had a really great father.
• 1:04:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Sometimes all things kind of over influence my decision making, and I realized that a lot of those seeds that were planted, they took root to my thirties, and you know, I
• 1:05:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was taught that you have a woman for every need, and this is what you need, and Biscum Snoop Dogg said, women ain't butt and tricks.
• 1:05:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, so I never trust you.
• 1:05:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: And so I think I took on that attitude, and I just let that thing take the wheel instead of letting the Holy Spirit allow me to be humble enough to see that some people are just not like that.
• 1:05:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I appreciate his transparency.
• 1:05:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: To all my foster children out there, to all my dup deez out there,
• 1:05:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: Listen, this month has been a really great month, but I want to tell you that you are special, that you are love, God allowed us to go through so much at the early age, so we could be successful and really good at a semi-younger age, like you can get it now.
• 1:05:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: However, I want you to fix that little boy and it's impossible to fix that little boy or that little girl without the love of Jesus Christ.
• 1:05:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: It is literally impossible to take on what you went through without submitting that to a loving God.
• 1:05:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: My challenge to every false apparent, to every adoptive parent, and to every child, has been in false security, and been adopted.
• 1:06:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: Just surrender, man.
• 1:06:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: This is a God thing, and because it's a God thing.
• 1:06:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: He really wants to engage with you guys.
• 1:06:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: And so my challenge is no matter what your metaphysical orientation.
• 1:06:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't do this often, but I won't you, specifically you, to just say yes to Jesus, bro.
• 1:06:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, that's the only way we got here to be able to communicate and be okay to survive.
• 1:06:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, I know that you would probably sometimes think, like, how could the loving God make me go do so much?
• 1:06:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because he trusted you with it.
• 1:06:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: He just trusted you with it.
• 1:06:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's the way I look at him.
• 1:06:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, oh God, you trust me so much that you knew that I can survive and steal where I look close, late on in my life.
• 1:06:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: Who won't wanna serve a guy like this?
• 1:06:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: I know you got a smile on your face, but make sure you get to know this Jesus that we speak of.
• 1:06:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not talking about culture and religion.
• 1:06:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm talking about a guy who loves you now because you're so good, but because he's so good.
• 1:07:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: Get to know him here, and don't forget to love yourself more.
• 1:07:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: Glad I.