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The Miracle Questionnaire vs. Bureaucratic Forms · Ryan's Journal

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  So, okay, like, imagine opening your mail, right?
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  And it is, it is jury duty.
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  They hand you this, this jury questionnaire, and it is all like,
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  you gotta fill this out or you are in trouble.
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  Legally in trouble, you know?
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  Mm, yeah.
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  It is totally mandatory compliance, right?
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  Like, fill this line, answer these questions, do it right now.
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  Yeah!
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  But I am looking at it like, wait a second, man.
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  Where is, uh, where is the questionnaire for, like, my miracles?
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  You know what I mean?
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  Like, where is the form where I list the things I actually survived before I answer
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  your court questions?
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  Right?
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  Like, where is the paper that asks, hey, how did you make it through sixteen months
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  straight of severe sleep deprivation and high heart rate emergency room visits?
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  Exactly!
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  I mean, I have survived, like, five or six near death experiences,
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  man.
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  A tractor accident, a crazy Pontiac accident, severe hives where my whole body broke
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  out.
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  But the system only sends me, like, a depression screening or a court summons.
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  It is like, oh, we wanna give you an evaluation on depression.
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  Okay.
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  But where is the evaluation on how I actually survived all that wild stuff?
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  It is so true, Justin.
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  It is what people in healthcare call a deficit bias.
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  Like, every routine intake form, every questionnaire from insurance companies or
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  agencies, it is engineered exclusively to track what is broken,
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  what risk factor you have, or what legal obligation you owe them.
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  Right, they narrow it down!
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  They wanna narrow everything down to, oh, are you depressed?
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  Are you compliant?
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  But they never narrow it down to, yo, how did you get through two nights in the ER
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  with your heart racing?
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  How did you keep going?
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  And when you are navigating, like, real physical crises or total exhaustion,
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  being handed a rigid form that only measures your deficits...
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  it feels like systemic erasure.
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  Like, all the unseen energy you expend just staying alive every single day is
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  completely ignored by the form in front of you.
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  It is crazy, right?
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  Like, they say, oh, you did not respond to the jury questionnaire,
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  you are in big trouble now.
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  And it is like, really?
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  I am the one in trouble?
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  I just survived eighteen months of continuous sleep deprivation and physical
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  turmoil, but I am in trouble because I did not check your little box?
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  Yeah, the disconnect is wild.
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  The institution demands this administrative box checking, while the actual human is
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  doing incredible invisible labor just to keep their head above water.
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  So, like, what if we just made our own form?
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  Like, seriously.
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  Before I fill out your jury stuff or your insurance assessment,
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  where is my miracle questionnaire?
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  I want to list everything, man.
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  The vaccinations that hurt, the hospital visits, the close calls,
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  even, like, surviving a UFO story if you have one!
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  Honestly, that idea of a self authored miracle questionnaire connects so well to
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  concepts in Narrative Therapy.
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  Clinical screeners like the PHQ nine, they flatten your whole experience into a
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  score.
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  But if you create a counter inventory of your survival milestones,
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  you rewrite the whole frame.
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  A counter inventory!
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  Yo, I love that term.
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  So instead of, like, sitting there stressing because an agency wants me to evaluate
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  my pain or my depression, I evaluate my endurance.
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  I break it down.
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  Right, exactly.
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  You catalog the physical feats that no clinic tracks.
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  Like, surviving an intense allergic reaction, or getting through a year and a half
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  of relentless insomnia without throwing in the towel.
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  It shifts you from a passive subject being evaluated for risks to the author of your
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  own resilience.
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  Yeah!
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  Because, like, nobody comes up to you on the street and asks,
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  hey, how did you survive all those close calls?
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  How did you get through it?
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  They just hand you a form for jury duty or a bill.
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  So asking yourself those questions...
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  it gives you your power back, you know?
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  It really does.
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  Instead of burning energy feeling angry at a bureaucratic intake sheet that does not
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  care about your lived history, you give yourself a grounding psychological reset.
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  You honor the miracles you actually lived through.
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  Man, next time someone hands me a standard form, I am gonna tell them,
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  hold on, check my miracle questionnaire first.
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  See how well I answer that one.
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  I love that.
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  That is the real assessment right there.