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The silent agreement keeping you trapped | Ep. 16 · As A Man Awaketh Podshare

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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to another episode of the As A Man Awaketh pod share.
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  SPEAKER_00: It has been quite the ride, hasn't it?
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope you're doing well out there.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope that you're Staying healthy and safe in this crazy world that is getting
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  SPEAKER_00: and becoming more crazy every single day.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, as usual, I have nothing really planned to speak about.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just trust my heart and allow whatever wants to come through to come through.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well...
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  SPEAKER_00: I just came back from another medicine journey,
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  SPEAKER_00: and this one has been probably one of the most profound journeys so far
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  SPEAKER_00: that I've ever undertaken.
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  SPEAKER_00: In a nutshell,
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  SPEAKER_00: basically,
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  SPEAKER_00: it allowed me to Push love,
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  SPEAKER_00: and by love I don't mean the romantic kind of mainstream love that we're being fed
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  SPEAKER_00: or have been fed and continue to be fed every single day through movies and media
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  SPEAKER_00: and news even sometimes, but is the kind of love that is eternal.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've spoken about infinite love on my last episode and...
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  SPEAKER_00: This particular journey allowed,
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  SPEAKER_00: or I allowed love rather,
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  SPEAKER_00: to push into all,
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  SPEAKER_00: not all,
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  SPEAKER_00: but into the pain areas specifically that I've been holding around my father.
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  SPEAKER_00: And, you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm really,
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  SPEAKER_00: I can say I am really lucky to have had a great childhood, um, Now,
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  SPEAKER_00: my parents didn't get along most of the time,
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  SPEAKER_00: unfortunately,
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  SPEAKER_00: and my dad was traveling a lot and he had another family too from
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  SPEAKER_00: a previous marriage.
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  SPEAKER_00: So he's splitting his time between our two families back and forth.
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  SPEAKER_00: So
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  SPEAKER_00: what I grew up with As a child was really uncertainty as it came to fatherhood
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  SPEAKER_00: because I never really felt or understood where he was.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so that created a lot of insecurity in me.
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  SPEAKER_00: In regards to him and where his love stands in regards to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: And there were other things as well,
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  SPEAKER_00: like around my birth,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know, he didn't really want to have a child, another child.
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh.
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  SPEAKER_00: He wanted me and he embraced me as his child.
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  SPEAKER_00: But he was one of those dads that didn't really know how to express love.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I have spoken to so many people,
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  SPEAKER_00: not just on this healing journey, but just in general, all throughout my life.
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  SPEAKER_00: There seems to be a repeating pattern of dads not being able
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  SPEAKER_00: to express love properly, fully to their children.
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  SPEAKER_00: For me, it expressed itself in performance-based attention-seeking.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I became the performer.
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  SPEAKER_00: I became the jokester.
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  SPEAKER_00: I would play tricks and I was super active.
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  SPEAKER_00: And in my mind, I was thinking, well...
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  SPEAKER_00: Maybe if I'm just loud enough,
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  SPEAKER_00: maybe if I'm active enough,
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  SPEAKER_00: maybe if I perform enough, then he will give me love and attention.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, as you probably know, that didn't pan out so well.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not because he didn't want to pay attention to me,
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  SPEAKER_00: but he just didn't know how to be fully present.
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  SPEAKER_00: He had He had a lot going on.
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  SPEAKER_00: He was a businessman.
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  SPEAKER_00: He was running a pretty large business and,
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  SPEAKER_00: of course, splitting his time between two families, supporting two families.
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  SPEAKER_00: That was a lot on his plate.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, he also came from a rather unfortunate situation.
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  SPEAKER_00: Circumstance,
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  SPEAKER_00: not that he grew up in a dysfunctional family,
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  SPEAKER_00: but when he was six years old, his dad, my grandfather, was murdered, basically.
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  SPEAKER_00: So imagine that kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: impact on a six-year-old boy to lose his dad.
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  SPEAKER_00: Suddenly and violently,
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  SPEAKER_00: without notice, without being able to say goodbye, without sense-making.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was basically a bandit, a criminal that just came through town.
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  SPEAKER_00: And my grandpa was in the way, and so he was shot.
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  SPEAKER_00: And of course...
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  SPEAKER_00: The whole family suffered greatly from that.
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  SPEAKER_00: And of course, the children suffered greatly from it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So as I've been talking about this on several episodes,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you've been following, the way by which we...
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh.
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  SPEAKER_00: The conscious mind isn't there.
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  SPEAKER_00: So there's no filter.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is no active thinking about and interpretation about reality.
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  SPEAKER_00: So we have our mother and we have our father.
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  SPEAKER_00: And these two are the archetypes, the templates, the impressions that directly...
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  SPEAKER_00: How do we treat each other?
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  SPEAKER_00: What is love between two people?
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  SPEAKER_00: What is love inside a family?
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  SPEAKER_00: How does it express itself?
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  SPEAKER_00: And all, everything, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: So the impression from our mother and from our father and how they interact
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  SPEAKER_00: with reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: how they make decisions,
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  SPEAKER_00: not just between each other,
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  SPEAKER_00: but each individually, how do they make decisions about their own life?
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  SPEAKER_00: All of that gets imprinted and programmed into us directly without any kind
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  SPEAKER_00: of filter whatsoever.
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  SPEAKER_00: We accept it as truth.
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  SPEAKER_00: And agree to it and accept it and embody it and that becomes our operating system.
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  SPEAKER_00: It becomes a mesh between our mother and our father's operating system that
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  SPEAKER_00: then we basically get without a And then as our conscious mind starts
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  SPEAKER_00: to develop six, seven years old, now of course at that time you go into first grade.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you're not homeschooled, you go into, I went into public school, into elementary school.
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh.
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh.
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  SPEAKER_00: In that it's based on memorization,
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  SPEAKER_00: not on individual fostering of the unique talents and gifts of the child.
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  SPEAKER_00: So everyone gets the same books,
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  SPEAKER_00: everyone gets the same tests,
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  SPEAKER_00: and the better you are able to memorize and then perform under pressure during
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  SPEAKER_00: the testing period,
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  SPEAKER_00: the better you're going to do in the school and then with grading and all
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  SPEAKER_00: that stuff.
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  SPEAKER_00: So again, we have this performance-based
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  SPEAKER_00: If I perform well in school,
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  SPEAKER_00: then my parents are going to love me more or give me more attention
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  SPEAKER_00: or give me more approval or give me that toy I want it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Or give me the bike I wanted.
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  SPEAKER_00: Whatever the case may be.
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  SPEAKER_00: So it's again a performance-based system.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then of course when you move on, it only gets worse in school.
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  SPEAKER_00: Then of course you go into high school and the pressure becomes tighter.
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  SPEAKER_00: The stakes are becoming higher.
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  SPEAKER_00: So you have to graduate high school.
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  SPEAKER_00: So then you can move on to higher education.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so over and over and over again, we see this performance-based
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  SPEAKER_00: reality participation.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because then,
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  SPEAKER_00: of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: when you have graduated school and you are this memorization robot
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  SPEAKER_00: and performance-based worker...
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  SPEAKER_00: Then you enter the workforce and what do you encounter there?
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  SPEAKER_00: More performance based metrics, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: How well are you doing in the company?
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  SPEAKER_00: Are you meeting your goals?
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  SPEAKER_00: Are you meeting the deadlines?
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  SPEAKER_00: Are you meeting the quotas?
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  SPEAKER_00: Whatever you have, you know, there is a performance that you have to adhere to in your job.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you don't meet,
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  SPEAKER_00: The performance-based metrics that are set out by your company, then guess what?
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  SPEAKER_00: You are at risk to lose your job and then to lose your income.
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  SPEAKER_00: So all throughout life,
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  SPEAKER_00: we see this again and again and again that we have this performance-based
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  SPEAKER_00: living
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  SPEAKER_00: and performance-based being that In our world,
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  SPEAKER_00: in our society, it runs through everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: And of course, you know, the stock market performs.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when you have a portfolio and you get like your weekly summary,
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  SPEAKER_00: it can say you underperformed the market this week or you outperformed
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  SPEAKER_00: the market this week.
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  SPEAKER_00: You didn't do anything.
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  SPEAKER_00: You just picked a bunch of stocks and those companies and the market assigned value
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  SPEAKER_00: to those companies in that week.
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  SPEAKER_00: And maybe it went up, maybe it went down.
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  SPEAKER_00: But you yourself, you just picked the stock.
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  SPEAKER_00: You didn't perform anything.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I've noticed that this performance is built into almost every layer of our world.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's kind of a quiet, silent agreement that we're all operating under.
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  SPEAKER_00: That we have to perform certain things.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if we don't perform right, then we're not worthy enough.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I've noticed that in myself too,
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  SPEAKER_00: that if I don't perform certain things that I set out to do for myself,
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  SPEAKER_00: certain goals I'm working towards,
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  SPEAKER_00: then if I miss a deadline that I set out for myself,
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  SPEAKER_00: then I'm starting to feel inadequate about myself.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because I set out to do something, so I needed to perform in order to get there.
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  SPEAKER_00: But if I didn't make it, Then I'm punishing myself in my own mind.
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  SPEAKER_00: I mean, isn't that crazy?
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  SPEAKER_00: And now that I see this, I can start seeing it in everyone.
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  SPEAKER_00: We're all doing it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's not really the fault of anyone,
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  SPEAKER_00: but it's just that the system that we've grown up in,
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  SPEAKER_00: because it is,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you've been following the sovereignty law space and the freedom law space,
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  SPEAKER_00: whatever you want to call it,
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  SPEAKER_00: If you're part of the Sacred Honor Educational Fellowship,
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  SPEAKER_00: then we talk about this a lot,
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  SPEAKER_00: is that this economy,
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  SPEAKER_00: this world really runs on commercial law through the banking system.
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  SPEAKER_00: Why?
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  SPEAKER_00: Because if any country has a central bank,
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  SPEAKER_00: then that country is basically functioning under bankruptcy law.
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  SPEAKER_00: At some point in your country's history,
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  SPEAKER_00: no matter where you're listening from,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you have a central bank,
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  SPEAKER_00: At some point,
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  SPEAKER_00: your government went into bankruptcy and the central bankers bailed them out
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  SPEAKER_00: and said, okay,
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  SPEAKER_00: we're going to save your government and we're going
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  SPEAKER_00: to give you these fiat reserve notes.
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  SPEAKER_00: I mean, here they're called federal reserve notes.
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  SPEAKER_00: In other countries,
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  SPEAKER_00: they're called differently, but at the end of the day, it's all the same thing.
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  SPEAKER_00: They're fiat promises, fiat paper money promises to pay, IOUs basically.
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  SPEAKER_00: And what is it backed by?
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  SPEAKER_00: What is it backed by the people?
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not backed by gold.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not even backed by oil.
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  SPEAKER_00: Some say, yeah,
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  SPEAKER_00: it's backed by war, but that really only depends on if your country is good at that.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're basing a currency, not money, those two things are very distinct things.
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  SPEAKER_00: So you're basing a fiat currency on the performance of your country's people.
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  SPEAKER_00: How well are they going to perform in the economy?
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  SPEAKER_00: How much economic value,
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  SPEAKER_00: how much economic commercial value are they going to be contributing to
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  SPEAKER_00: the system throughout their lifetime?
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  SPEAKER_00: And so that's how,
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  SPEAKER_00: The social security in this country and the birth certificate can be collateralized
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  SPEAKER_00: as financial instruments.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just as,
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  SPEAKER_00: for example,
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  SPEAKER_00: when a farmer gets a cow,
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  SPEAKER_00: a dairy farmer gets a cow,
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  SPEAKER_00: and there's a process by which you can estimate how much that cow is going
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  SPEAKER_00: to produce over its lifetime.
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  SPEAKER_00: How much milk it's going to produce or how much meat it's going to produce at
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  SPEAKER_00: the end of its life.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then you can assign a value to that.
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  SPEAKER_00: So it's the same thing with us.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's basically how the system has been flipped from birth to death.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's all about measuring your economic performance.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when we add the credit score to it,
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  SPEAKER_00: Now you actually have an active number tracking your economic performance
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  SPEAKER_00: in relationship to credit, debt and loans.
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  SPEAKER_00: So it was such a trip that as children, we grow up.
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  SPEAKER_00: Most of us learning that we need to perform a certain way in order to get love
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  SPEAKER_00: and approval from our parents.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when we're adults,
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  SPEAKER_00: that is simply replaced by the economy, our job, government, society, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: The agreement, the silent social economic agreement, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: That we enter because we don't know any better.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's just how we grew up.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's just how we learned how to be in the world in relationship to others.
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  SPEAKER_00: If I get good grades, then my parents are going to reward me.
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  SPEAKER_00: If I exceed or if I meet or exceed my sales quota for my company, then I'm going to get a bonus.
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  SPEAKER_00: You see how this is layered into every section?
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  SPEAKER_00: And then relationships too.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's performance-based relationships.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you have a friend or a partner,
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  SPEAKER_00: and there's maybe a sticking point that you don't like about her, let's say.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you tell her over and over again, I don't like when you do this.
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  SPEAKER_00: But she keeps doing it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So then you start to get frustrated because your love,
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  SPEAKER_00: your relationship now is based on her performance.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if she doesn't perform according to your specifications,
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  SPEAKER_00: now your relationship, your emotions are in jeopardy.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are basically creating a mathematical equation in your head that
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  SPEAKER_00: if she doesn't do this, then I'm going to love her less.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is no heart in this equation, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: And now,
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  SPEAKER_00: first of all,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you are in such a conditional relationship,
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  SPEAKER_00: then you probably should reconsider the relationship to begin with
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  SPEAKER_00: because that's not real love.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so let's talk about love, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: So again, we have been taught that love Love is conditional.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's based on a checklist.
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  SPEAKER_00: If my partner has these and these and these and these qualities,
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  SPEAKER_00: then I'm going to love them, more or less, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Or when you're single and you're looking for a partner,
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  SPEAKER_00: you have this checklist in your mind that says, okay,
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  SPEAKER_00: my partner has to have this and this and this and this,
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  SPEAKER_00: and then I'm going to even consider going out with that person,
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  SPEAKER_00: with that man or woman.
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  SPEAKER_00: So again, it's performance-based love.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I don't know how this was introduced,
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  SPEAKER_00: but again,
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  SPEAKER_00: this seems to be a subconscious,
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  SPEAKER_00: silent contract instilled and programmed into us since birth that
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  SPEAKER_00: if we don't perform well,
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  SPEAKER_00: we're not going to do well in the world,
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  SPEAKER_00: in the physical world,
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  SPEAKER_00: with anything, relationships, money, jobs, career, you name it, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Right?
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  SPEAKER_00: So that was a big aha,
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  SPEAKER_00: a major aha moment that I'm still grappling with and that I'm still processing.
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  SPEAKER_00: And some of the stuff I'm even starting to process as I'm speaking right now,
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  SPEAKER_00: which is kind of weird.
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  SPEAKER_00: But now what's the solution then?
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  SPEAKER_00: How do we get out of this hamster wheel of performance-based life?
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  SPEAKER_00: How do we get off this train that we've been put on against our will?
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: this is of no fault to our parents because they grew up in the same system
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  SPEAKER_00: and they had to basically do the same thing to get where they are.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the solution...
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  SPEAKER_00: And this brings it back to the shadow work because this performance-based love
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  SPEAKER_00: and living and being,
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  SPEAKER_00: I noticed in myself is definitely part of my shadow and therefore part of my ego.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I have,
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  SPEAKER_00: like I said,
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  SPEAKER_00: during this past journey, Plant medicine journey, I
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  SPEAKER_00: undid a lot of that.
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  SPEAKER_00: In fact, it was so big, I don't fully understand the gravity of it yet.
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  SPEAKER_00: It just felt like the twin towers coming down inside of my psyche.
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  SPEAKER_00: That kind of earth-shattering revelation.
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  SPEAKER_00: What's what it felt like.
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  SPEAKER_00: So the solution then is, okay,
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  SPEAKER_00: if I'm stuck in performance-based living and being and relationship building
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  SPEAKER_00: and decision-making,
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  SPEAKER_00: That is all part of the brain, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: It's all a mental calculation and perception of reality.
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  SPEAKER_00: So if I'm stuck in my head with this performance-based whatever,
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  SPEAKER_00: then the only way to break out of that is to go back into the heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have to find a way to,
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  SPEAKER_00: number one,
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  SPEAKER_00: recognize where I'm trapped in the performance-based mindset and living and being.
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  SPEAKER_00: Then, how can I make a decision,
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  SPEAKER_00: hopefully right there in the moment,
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  SPEAKER_00: to approach the moment, approach the situation from the heart?
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  SPEAKER_00: If you haven't done a lot of shadow work yet,
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  SPEAKER_00: then that's going to be probably a lot more difficult to you than if you had.
• 21:39
  SPEAKER_00: I know that Some of my readers and listeners here on Substack, you are on the healing journey.
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  SPEAKER_00: You have done lots of ceremonies with plant medicine and you are working
• 21:52
  SPEAKER_00: to untangle yourself from the ego and its structures.
• 21:57
  SPEAKER_00: So kudos to you,
• 21:58
  SPEAKER_00: first of all,
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  SPEAKER_00: for doing that work because 99% of the people on this earth are not doing this work
• 22:04
  SPEAKER_00: and that's why the earth is the way it is.
• 22:06
  SPEAKER_00: That's why we have the kind of leaders that we do.
• 22:11
  SPEAKER_00: So, again, it's the journey from the mind into the heart.
• 22:19
  SPEAKER_00: So, ask yourself,
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  SPEAKER_00: where in your life are you acting out of performance-based approval-seeking
• 22:28
  SPEAKER_00: or attention-seeking or, you know, approval-seeking attention...
• 22:34
  SPEAKER_00: Sorry.
• 22:36
  SPEAKER_00: So many words.
• 22:38
  SPEAKER_00: The...
• 22:40
  SPEAKER_00: Skill to break out of that and move back into the heart really comes from awareness,
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  SPEAKER_00: which is all we are.
• 22:48
  SPEAKER_00: We're just awareness in a 3D meat suit, a temporary meat suit.
• 22:53
  SPEAKER_00: So that is the question then, okay,
• 22:56
  SPEAKER_00: where in my life am I acting on performance-based love,
• 23:02
  SPEAKER_00: relationships, Living, being, call it whatever you will.
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  SPEAKER_00: Where do I let performance run my life?
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  SPEAKER_00: And then see what happens.
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  SPEAKER_00: Meditate on it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have a journey about it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Journal around it.
• 23:20
  SPEAKER_00: And see what comes up.
• 23:22
  SPEAKER_00: Um...
• 23:24
  SPEAKER_00: Ideally, you can do this in real time by observing yourself.
• 23:28
  SPEAKER_00: I'll talk about the observing self in another episode because it's kind of a bigger topic.
• 23:33
  SPEAKER_00: But for now,
• 23:35
  SPEAKER_00: just as a nutshell,
• 23:36
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
• 23:37
  SPEAKER_00: there is these third-person video games where the camera is behind the character,
• 23:43
  SPEAKER_00: right?
• 23:44
  SPEAKER_00: So think of it that you can actually observe yourself from behind, right?
• 23:50
  SPEAKER_00: And so you have to put a piece of your consciousness,
• 23:52
  SPEAKER_00: a piece of your awareness outside of yourself to watch yourself and catch yourself
• 23:59
  SPEAKER_00: when you are stuck in performance-based life.
• 24:05
  SPEAKER_00: And that should ring a few bells and raise a few flags when you find yourself in those moments.
• 24:15
  SPEAKER_00: So anyway, thank you so much for listening.
• 24:17
  SPEAKER_00: And I want to give a big shout out to Thank you so much for listening, for reading.
• 24:22
  SPEAKER_00: I see you.
• 24:22
  SPEAKER_00: I hear you.
• 24:23
  SPEAKER_00: I would love to hear more of you.
• 24:24
  SPEAKER_00: Like what kind of topics do you want me to talk about?
• 24:26
  SPEAKER_00: What do you want to talk about?
• 24:36
  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to be really expanding this pot share.
• 24:40
  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to invite other guests soon, including my wife.
• 24:45
  SPEAKER_00: So she's a bit on the fence about it,
• 24:46
  SPEAKER_00: but yeah,
• 24:49
  SPEAKER_00: I plan on doing Asamanawaketh,
• 24:50
  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh.
• 25:05
  SPEAKER_00: We'll get to that when we have on the pod share.
• 25:07
  SPEAKER_00: So anyway,
• 25:07
  SPEAKER_00: let me know in the comments, please,
• 25:09
  SPEAKER_00: or in DMs or whatever,
• 25:10
  SPEAKER_00: however you prefer,
• 25:11
  SPEAKER_00: in the notes, how you would like to explore As A Man Awaketh into different topics.
• 25:19
  SPEAKER_00: What do you want to do?
• 25:23
  SPEAKER_00: I will work on another episode soon where I get more into the lawful remedy stuff.
• 25:29
  SPEAKER_00: I know that's always popular.
• 25:31
  SPEAKER_00: So anyway, thank you so much for being here.
• 25:33
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for listening and I'll see you on the next episode.