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045 - Book Seven Chapter Three · Brothers Karamazov

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Speaker 1: Chapter forty five of The Brothers Karamazov by Fayodor Dostoyevsky,
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Speaker 1: translated by Constance Garnet. This LibriVox recording is in the
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Speaker 1: public domain recording by Tony Addison. Chapter three an Onion
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Speaker 1: Grushenka lived in the busiest part of the town, near
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Speaker 1: the cathedral Square, in a small wooden lodge in the
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Speaker 1: courtyard belonging to the house of the widow Moretzov. The
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Speaker 1: house was a large stone building of two stories, old
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Speaker 1: and very ugly. The widow led a secluded life with
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Speaker 1: her two unmarried nieces, who were also elderly women. She
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Speaker 1: had no need to let her lodge, but everyone knew
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Speaker 1: that she had taken in Grushenka as a lodger four
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Speaker 1: years before solely to please her kinsman, the merchant Samsunov,
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Speaker 1: who was known to be the girl's protector. It was
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Speaker 1: said that the jealous old man's object in placing his
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Speaker 1: a favorite with the widow Moritzov was that the old
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Speaker 1: woman should keep a sharp eye on her new lodger's conduct.
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Speaker 1: But this sharp eye soon proved to be unnecessary, and
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Speaker 1: in the end the widow Moritzov seldom met Grushenka, and
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Speaker 1: did not worry her by looking after her in any way.
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Speaker 1: It is true that four years had passed since the
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Speaker 1: old man had brought the slim, delicate, shy, timid, dreamy
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Speaker 1: and sad girl of eighteen from the chief town of
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Speaker 1: the province, and much had happened since then. Little was
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Speaker 1: known of the girl's history in the town, and that
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Speaker 1: little was vague. Nothing more had been learnt during the
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Speaker 1: last four years, even after many persons had become interested
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Speaker 1: in the beautiful young woman into whom Agrafena Alexandrovna had
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Speaker 1: meanwhile developed. There were rumors that she had been at
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Speaker 1: seventeen betrayed by some one, some sort of officer, and
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Speaker 1: immediately afterwards abandoned by him.
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Speaker 2: The officer had gone away and afterwards married, while Grushenka
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Speaker 2: had been left in poverty and disgrace. It was said,
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Speaker 2: how however, that though Grushenka had been raised from destitution
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Speaker 2: by the old man Samsonov, she came of a respectable
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Speaker 2: family belonging to the clerical class. That she was the
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Speaker 2: daughter of a deacon or something of the sort.
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Speaker 1: And now, after four years, the sensitive, injured and pathetic
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Speaker 1: little orphan had become a plump, rosy beauty of the
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Speaker 1: Russian type, a woman of bold and determined character, proud
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Speaker 1: and insolent. She had a good head for business, was acquisitive,
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Speaker 1: saving and careful, and by fair means or foul, had succeeded.
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Speaker 1: It was said, in amassing a little fortune. There was
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Speaker 1: only one point on which all were agreed. Grushenka was
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Speaker 1: not easily to be approached, and except her aged protector,
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Speaker 1: there had not been one man who could boast of
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Speaker 1: her favors during those four years. It was a positive fact,
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Speaker 1: for there had been a good many, especially during the
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Speaker 1: last two years, who had attempted to obtain those favors,
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Speaker 1: but all their efforts had been in vain, and some
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Speaker 1: of these suitors had been forced to beat an undignified
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Speaker 1: and even comic retreat, owing to the firm and ironical
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Speaker 1: resistance they met from the strong willed young person. It
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Speaker 1: was known, too that the young person had, especially of late,
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Speaker 1: been given to what is called speculation, and that she
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Speaker 1: had shown marked abilities in that direction, so that many
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Speaker 1: people began to say that she was no better than
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Speaker 1: a jew. It was not that she leant money on interas,
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Speaker 1: but it was known for instance, that she had for
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Speaker 1: some time passed in partnership with old Karamatzov, actually invested
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Speaker 1: in the purchase of bad debts for a trifle a
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Speaker 1: tenth of their nominal value, and afterwards had made out
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Speaker 1: of them ten times their value. The old widower Samsonov,
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Speaker 1: a man of large fortune, was stingy and merciless. He
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Speaker 1: tyrannized over his grown up sons. But for the last year,
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Speaker 1: during which he had been ill and lost the use
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Speaker 1: of his swollen legs, he had fallen greatly under the
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Speaker 1: influence of his protegee, whom he had at first kept
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Speaker 1: strictly and in humble surroundings on lenten fair, as the
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Speaker 1: wit said at the time, But Grushenka had succeeded in
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Speaker 1: emancipating herself, while she established in him a boundless belief
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Speaker 1: in her fidelity. The old man, now long since dead,
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Speaker 1: had had a large business in his day, and was
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Speaker 1: also a noteworthy character, miserly and hard as flint. Though
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Speaker 1: Grushenka's hold upon him was so strong that he could
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Speaker 1: not live without her, it had been so especially for
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Speaker 1: the last two years. He did not settle any considerable
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Speaker 1: fortune on her, and would not have been moved to
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Speaker 1: do so if she had threatened to leave him, But
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Speaker 1: he had presented her with a small sum, and even
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Speaker 1: that was a surprise to everyone when it became known
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Speaker 1: a wench with brains. He said to her when he
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Speaker 1: gave her eight thousand roubles, and you must look after yourself.
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Speaker 1: But let me tell you that accept your yearly allowance
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Speaker 1: as before. You'll get nothing more from me to the
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Speaker 1: day of my death, and I'll leave you nothing in
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Speaker 1: my will either. And he kept his word. He died
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Speaker 1: and left everything to his sons, whom, with their wives
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Speaker 1: and children he had treated all his life as servants.
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Speaker 1: Grushenka was not even mentioned in his will. All this
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Speaker 1: became known afterwards. He helped Grushenka with his advice to
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Speaker 1: increase her capital and put business in her way. When
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Speaker 1: Fyodor Pavlovitch, who first came into contact with Grushenka over
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Speaker 1: a piece of speculation, ended to his own surprise by
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Speaker 1: falling madly in love with her, old Amsonov, gravely ill
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Speaker 1: as he was, was immensely amused. It is remarkable that
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Speaker 1: throughout their whole acquaintance, Grushenka was absolutely and spontaneously open
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Speaker 1: with the old man, and he seems to have been
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Speaker 1: the only person in the world with whom she was
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Speaker 1: of of late, when Dmitri too had come on the
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Speaker 1: scene with his love, the old man left off laughing.
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Speaker 1: On the contrary, he once gave Grushenka a stern and
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Speaker 1: earnest piece of advice. If you have to choose between
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Speaker 1: the two father or some you'd better choose the old man,
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Speaker 1: if only make sure the old scoundre will marry you
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Speaker 1: and settle some fortune on you beforehand. But don't keep
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Speaker 1: on with the captain. You'll get no good out of back.
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Speaker 1: These were the very words of the old Proplagate, who
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Speaker 1: felt already that his death was not far off, and
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Speaker 1: to actually died five months later. I will note too,
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Speaker 1: in passing that although many in our town knew of
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Speaker 1: the grotesque and monstrous rivalry of the Karamatzovs father and son,
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Speaker 1: the object of which was Grushenka, scarcely anyone understood what
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Speaker 1: really underlay her attitude to both of them. Even Grushenka's
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Speaker 1: two servants, after the catastrophe of which we will speak
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Speaker 1: later testified in court that she received Dmitri Fyodorovitch simply
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Speaker 1: from fear because he threatened to murder her. These servants
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Speaker 1: were an old cook in validish and almost death, who
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Speaker 1: came from Grushenka's old home, and her granddaughter, a smart
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Speaker 1: young girl of twenty who performed the duties of her maid.
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Speaker 1: Grushenka lived very economically and her surroundings were anything but luxurious.
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Speaker 1: Her lodge consisted of three rooms furnished with mahogany furniture
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Speaker 1: in the fashion of eighteen twenty, belonging to her landlady.
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Speaker 1: It was quite dark when Rakitin and Alyosha entered her rooms,
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Speaker 1: yet they were not lighted up. Grushenka was lying down
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Speaker 1: in her drawing room on the big, hard, clumsy sofa
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Speaker 1: with a mahogany back. The sofa was covered with shabby
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Speaker 1: and ragged leather. Under her head, she had two white
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Speaker 1: down pillows taken from her bed. She was lying stretched out,
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Speaker 1: motionless on her back, with her hands behind her head.
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Speaker 1: She was dressed as though expecting some one, in a
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Speaker 1: black silk dress with a dainty lace fichu on her
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Speaker 1: head which was very becoming. Over her shoulders was thrown
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Speaker 1: a lace shawl pinned with a massive gold broat. She
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Speaker 1: certainly was expecting someone. She lay as though impatient and wearied,
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Speaker 1: her face rather pale, and her lips and eyes hot,
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Speaker 1: restlessly tapping the arm of the sofa with the tip
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Speaker 1: of her right foot. The appearance of Rakitin and Alyosha
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Speaker 1: caused a slight excitement from the hall. They could hear
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Speaker 1: Grushenka leap up from the sofa and cry out in
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Speaker 1: a frightened voice, who's that? But the maid met the
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Speaker 1: visitors and at once called back to her mistress. It's
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Speaker 1: not he, It's nothing, only other visitors. What can be
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Speaker 1: the matter, it muttered Rakitin, leading Alyosha into the drawing room.
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Speaker 1: Grushenka was standing by the sofa as though still alarmed.
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Speaker 1: A thick coil of her dark brown hair escaped from
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Speaker 1: its lace covering and fell on her right shoulder, but
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Speaker 1: she did not notice it and did not put it
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Speaker 1: back till she had gazed at her visitors and recognized them. Ah,
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Speaker 1: it's you, Rakitin. You quite brightened me. Whom have you brought?
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Speaker 1: Who is this with you? Good heavens, you have brought him,
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Speaker 1: she exclaimed, recognizing Alyosha. Do send for candles, said Rakitin,
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Speaker 1: with the free and easy air of a most intimate
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Speaker 1: friend who is privileged to give orders in the house.
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Speaker 1: And candles, of course, candles. Fenya fetch my candle. Well,
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Speaker 1: you have chosen a moment to bring him, she exclaimed again,
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Speaker 1: Nodding towards Alyosha and turning to the looking glass. She
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Speaker 1: began quickly fastening up her hair with both hands. She
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Speaker 1: seemed displeased. Haven't I managed to please you, asked Rakitin, instantly,
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Speaker 1: almost offended. You've frightened me, Rakitin, That's what it is.
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Speaker 1: Grushenka turned with a smile to Alyosha. Don't be afraid
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Speaker 1: of me, my dear Alyosha. You cannot think how glad
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Speaker 1: I am to see you, my unexpected visitor. But you
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Speaker 1: frightened me, Rakitin. I thought it was Mitya breaking in.
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Speaker 1: You see, I deceived him just now. I made him
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Speaker 1: promise to believe me, and I told him alive. I
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Speaker 1: told him that I was going to spend the evening
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Speaker 1: with my old man Kutzma Kusmitch and should be there
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Speaker 1: till late counting up his money. I always spend one
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Speaker 1: whole evening a week with him making up his accounts.
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Speaker 1: We lock ourselves in, and he counts on the record
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Speaker 1: beads while I sit and put things down in the book.
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Speaker 1: I'm the only person he trusts. Mitya believes that I
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Speaker 1: am there, but I came back and have been sitting
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Speaker 1: locked in here expecting some news. How was it, Fenya?
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Speaker 1: Let you in, oh, Fenya, Fenya, run out to the gate,
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Speaker 1: open it and look about whether the captain is to
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Speaker 1: be seen. Perhaps she is hiding and spying. I am
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Speaker 1: dreadfully frightened. There's no one there, Agrafena, Alexandrovna. I've just
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Speaker 1: looked at I keep running to peep through the crack.
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Speaker 1: I am in fear and trembling myself. Other shutters fastened, Fenya,
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Speaker 1: and we must draw the curtains. That's better. She drew
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Speaker 1: the heavy curtains herself. He'd rush in at once if
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Speaker 1: be so light. I am afraid of your brother, Mitya.
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Speaker 1: To day Alyosha Grushenka spoke aloud, and though she was alarmed,
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Speaker 1: she seemed very happy about something. Why are you so
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Speaker 1: afraid of Mitya? To Day inquired Rakiatim. I should have
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Speaker 1: thought you were not timid with him. You'd twist him
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Speaker 1: round your little finger. I tell you I am expecting news,
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Speaker 1: priceless news, so I don't want Mitya at all. And
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Speaker 1: he didn't believe. I feel he didn't that I should
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Speaker 1: stay at Kutzma Kutzmitch's. He must be in his ambush
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Speaker 1: now behind Fyodor Pavlovitch's in the garden watching for me.
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Speaker 1: And if he's there, he won't come here. So much
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Speaker 1: the better. But I really have been to Kutzma Kutzmitch's.
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Speaker 1: Mitya escorted me there. I told him I should stay
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Speaker 1: there till midnight, and I asked him to be sure
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Speaker 1: to come at midnight to patch me home. He went away,
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Speaker 1: and I sat ten minutes with Kutzma Kutzmitch and came
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Speaker 1: back here again. Ah, I was afraid. I ran for
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Speaker 1: fear of meeting him. And why are you so dressed up?
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Speaker 1: What a curious cap you've got on? How curious you
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Speaker 1: are yourself, Rakitin. I tell you I am expecting a message.
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Speaker 1: That the message comes, I shall fly, I shall gallop
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Speaker 1: away and you will see no more of me. That's
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Speaker 1: why I am dressed up so as to be ready.
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Speaker 1: And where are you flying too? If you know too much,
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Speaker 1: you'll get old too soon. Upon my word, you are
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Speaker 1: highly delighted. I've never seen you like this before. You
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Speaker 1: are dressed up as if you were going to a ball.
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Speaker 1: Rakitin looked her up and down. Much you know about bulls?
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Speaker 1: And do you know much about them? I have seen
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Speaker 1: a ball the year before last, kutz Mak, Kutzmitch's son
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Speaker 1: was married, and I looked on from the gallery. Do
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Speaker 1: you suppose I want to be talking to you, Rakitin,
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Speaker 1: while a prince like this is standing here, such a visitor?
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Speaker 1: Aw you, I share, my dear boy. I gaze at
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Speaker 1: you and can't believe my eyes. Good heavens, can you
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Speaker 1: have come here to see me? To tell you the truth,
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Speaker 1: I never had a thought of seeing you, and I
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Speaker 1: didn't think that you would ever come and see me.
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Speaker 1: Though this is not the moment. Now, I am awfully
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Speaker 1: glad to see you sit down on the sofa here.
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Speaker 1: That's right, my bright young moon. I really can't take
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Speaker 1: it in even now, eh Rakitin, if only you had
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Speaker 1: brought him yesterday or the day before. But I am
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Speaker 1: glad as it is. Perhaps it's better he has come
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Speaker 1: now at such a moment, and not the day before. Yesterday.
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Speaker 1: She gaily sat down beside Alyosha on the sofa, looking
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Speaker 1: at him with positive delight, And she really was glad.
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Speaker 1: She was not lying when she said so. Her eyes glowed,
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Speaker 1: her lips laughed, but it was a good hearted, merry laugh.
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Speaker 1: Alyosha had not expected to see such a kind expression
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Speaker 1: in her face. He had hardly met her till the
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Speaker 1: day before. He had formed an alarming idea of her,
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Speaker 1: and had been horribly distressed the day before by the
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Speaker 1: spiteful and treacherous trick she had played on Katerina Ivanovna.
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Speaker 1: He was greatly surprised to find her now altogether different
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Speaker 1: from what he had expected, and crushed as he was
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Speaker 1: by his own sorrow, his eyes involuntarily rested on her
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Speaker 1: with attention. Her whole manner seemed changed for the better
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Speaker 1: since yesterday. There was scarcely any trace of that mawkish
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Speaker 1: sweetness in her speech, of that voluptuous softness in her movements.
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Speaker 1: Everything was simple and good natured. Her gestures were rapid, direct, confiding.
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Speaker 1: But she was greatly excited. Dear me, how everything comes
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Speaker 1: together to day? She chatted on again, And why I
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Speaker 1: am so glad to see you Alyosha, I couldn't say myself.
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Speaker 1: If you asked me, I couldn't tell you. Come. Don't
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Speaker 1: you know why you're glad, said Rakitin, grinning. You used
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Speaker 1: to be always best ring me to bring him. You'd
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Speaker 1: some object. I suppose I had a different object once,
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Speaker 1: but now that's over. This is not the moment I say,
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Speaker 1: I want you to have something nice. I am so
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Speaker 1: good natured. Now you sit down to Rakitin. Why are
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Speaker 1: you standing I've sat down already. There's no pair of
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Speaker 1: Rakitin's forgetting to look after himself. Look, Alyosha, he's sitting
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Speaker 1: there opposite us, so offended that I didn't ask him
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Speaker 1: to sit down before you. H Rakitin is such a
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Speaker 1: one to take offense, laughed Grushenka, don't be angry, Rakitin.
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Speaker 1: I'm kind to day. Why are you so depressed, Alyosha,
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Speaker 1: are you afraid of me? She peeped into his eyes
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Speaker 1: with merry mockery. He's sad the promotion has not been given,
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Speaker 1: boomed rak What promotion? His elder stings. What you are talking?
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Speaker 1: Some nonsense? You want to say something nasty? Be quiet,
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Speaker 1: you stupid. Let me sit on your knee. Alyosha like this.
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Speaker 1: She suddenly skipped forward and jumped, laughing on his knee
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Speaker 1: like a nestling kitten, with her right arm about his neck.
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Speaker 1: I'll cheer you up, my pious boy. Yes, really, will
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Speaker 1: you let me sit on your knee? You won't be
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Speaker 1: angry if you tell me, I'll get up. Alyosha did
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Speaker 1: not speak. He sat afraid to move. He heard her words,
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Speaker 1: if you tell me, I'll get up, but he did
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Speaker 1: not answer. But there was nothing in his heart such
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Speaker 1: as Rakitin, for instance, watching him malignantly from his corner,
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Speaker 1: might have expected or fancied. The great grief in his
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Speaker 1: heart swallowed up every sensation that might have been aroused.
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Speaker 1: And if only he could have thought clearly at that moment,
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Speaker 1: he would have realized that he had now the strongest
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Speaker 1: armor to protect him from every lust and temptation. Yet,
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Speaker 1: in spite of the vague irresponsiveness of his spiritual condition
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Speaker 1: and the sorrow that overwhelmed him, he could not help
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Speaker 1: wondering at a new and strange sensation in his heart.
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Speaker 1: This woman, this dreadful woman, had no terror for him now,
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Speaker 1: none of that terror that had stirred in his soul
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Speaker 1: at any passing thought of woman. On the contrary, this
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Speaker 1: woman dreaded above all women, sitting now on his knee,
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Speaker 1: holding him in her arms, aroused in him now are
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Speaker 1: quite different, unexpected, peculiar feeling, a feeling of the intensest
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Speaker 1: and purest interest, without a trace of fear of his
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Speaker 1: former terror. That was what instinctively surprised him. You talk
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Speaker 1: nonsense enough, cried Rakitin. You'd much better give us some champagne.
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Speaker 1: You owe it me, You know you do? Yes, I
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Speaker 1: really do, Do you know? Alyosha? I promised him champagne
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Speaker 1: on the top of everything. If he'd bring you, I'll
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Speaker 1: have some two fenya, fenya, bring us the bottle, mitya
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Speaker 1: left look sharp, though I am so stingy as stand
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Speaker 1: a bottle not for you, Rakitin, you're a toadstool, but
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Speaker 1: he's a falcon. And though my heart is full of
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Speaker 1: something very different, so be it. I'll drink with you.
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Speaker 1: I long for some dissipation. But what is the matter
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Speaker 1: with you? And what is this message?
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Speaker 2: May I ask?
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Speaker 1: Or is it a secret? Rakitin put in inquisitively, doing
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Speaker 1: his best to pretend not to notice the snubs that
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Speaker 1: were being continually aimed at him. Eh, it's not a secret,
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Speaker 1: and you know it too, Krushenka said in a voice
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Speaker 1: suddenly anxious, turning her head towards Rakitin and drawing a
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Speaker 1: little away from Alyosha, though she still sat on his
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Speaker 1: knee with her arm round his neck. My officer is coming, Rakitin,
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Speaker 1: My officer is coming. I heard he was coming. But
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Speaker 1: is he so near? He is at Mokroe. Now he'll
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Speaker 1: send a messenger from there, so he wrote. I got
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Speaker 1: a letter from him to day. I am expecting the
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Speaker 1: messenger every minute. You don't say, so why at Mokro.
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Speaker 1: That's a long story. I've told you enough. Metrou'll be
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Speaker 1: up to something. Now, I say, does he know or
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Speaker 1: doesn't he? He No, of course he doesn't. If he knew,
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Speaker 1: there would be murdered. But I am not afraid of that. Now,
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Speaker 1: I am not afraid of his knife. Be quiet, Rakitin,
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Speaker 1: don't remind me of Dmitri Pyodorovitch. He has bruised my
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Speaker 1: heart and I don't want to think of that. At
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Speaker 1: this moment. I can think of Alyosha. Here, I can
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Speaker 1: look at Alyosha, smile at me, my dear, cheer up
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Speaker 1: smile at my foolishness of my pleasure. Ah, he's smiling,
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Speaker 1: he's smiling, how kindly he looks at me. And you know, Alyosha,
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Speaker 1: I've been thinking all this time. You were angry with
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Speaker 1: me because of the day before yesterday, because of that
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Speaker 1: young lady. I was a cur that's the truth. But
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Speaker 1: it's a good thing. It happened. So it was a
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Speaker 1: horrid thing, but a good thing too. Grushenka smiled dreamily,
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Speaker 1: and a little cruel lying showed in her smile. Mitya
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Speaker 1: told me that she screamed out that I ought to
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Speaker 1: be flogged. I did insult her dreadfully. She sent for me.
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Speaker 1: She wanted to make a conquest of me, to win
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Speaker 1: me over with her chocolate. No, it's a good thing.
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Speaker 1: It did end like that. She smiled again. But I
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Speaker 1: am still afraid of your being angry. Yes, that's really true.
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Speaker 1: Rakkeiton put in suddenly with genuine surprise, Alyosha, she is
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Speaker 1: really afraid of a chicken like you. He is a
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Speaker 1: chicken to you, Rakitin, because you've no conscience. That's what
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Speaker 1: it is, you see. I love him with all my soul.
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Speaker 1: That's how it is. Alyosha, do you believe I love
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Speaker 1: you with all my soul? Ah? You shameless woman. She
25:37
Speaker 1: is making you a declaration Alexei, Well, what of it?
25:41
Speaker 1: I love him? And what about your officer and the
25:46
Speaker 1: priceless message from Mokro? That is quite different. That's a
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Speaker 1: woman's way of looking at it. Don't you make me angry?
25:56
Speaker 1: Rakitin Grushenka got him up hotly? This is quite a
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Speaker 1: I love Alyosha in a different way. It's true, Alyosha,
26:05
Speaker 1: I had sly designs on you before, for I am
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Speaker 1: a horrid, violent creature. But at other times I've looked
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Speaker 1: upon you, Alyosha, as my conscience. I've kept thinking, how
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Speaker 1: any one like that must despise a nasty thing like me.
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Speaker 1: I thought that the day before yesterday as I ran
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Speaker 1: home from the Young Ladies. I have thought of you
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Speaker 1: a long time in that way, Alyosha, and Mitya knows.
26:32
Speaker 1: I've talked to him about it. Mitya understands. Would you
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Speaker 1: believe it? I sometimes look at you and feel ashamed,
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Speaker 1: utterly ashamed of myself. And how and since when I
26:44
Speaker 1: began to think about you like that? I can't say.
26:47
Speaker 1: I don't remember Benya came in and put a tray
26:52
Speaker 1: with an uncorked bottle and three glasses of champagne on
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Speaker 1: the table. Here's the champagne, cried Rakki. You're excited, Agrippina, Alexandrovna,
27:03
Speaker 1: and not yourself. When you've had a glass of champagne,
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Speaker 1: you'll be ready to dance. Eh, they can't even do
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Speaker 1: that properly, he added, looking at the bottle. The old
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Speaker 1: woman's poured it out in the kitchen, and the bottles
27:18
Speaker 1: being brought in warm and without a cork. Well, let
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Speaker 1: me have some anyway. He went up to the table,
27:26
Speaker 1: took a glass, emptied it at one gulp, and poured
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Speaker 1: himself out another. One doesn't often stumble upon champagne, he said,
27:37
Speaker 1: licking his lips. Now, Alyosha, take a glass, show what
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Speaker 1: you can do. What shall we drink to the gates
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Speaker 1: of paradise? Take a glass, Grushenka, you drink to the
27:48
Speaker 1: gates of paradise too? What gates of paradise? She took
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Speaker 1: a glass, Alyosha took his, tasted it and put it back. No,
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Speaker 1: I'd better not, he smiled gently. And you bragged, cried Rakitin. Well,
28:08
Speaker 1: if so, I won't either, chimed in. Grushenka, I really
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Speaker 1: don't want any You can drink the whole bottle alone, Rakitin.
28:17
Speaker 1: If Alyosha has some, I will what touching sentimentality, said
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Speaker 1: Rakitin tauntingly. And she's sitting on his knee too. He's
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Speaker 1: got something to grieve over. But what's the matter with you?
28:34
Speaker 1: He is rebelling against his guard and ready to eat sausage.
28:39
Speaker 1: How so his elder died to day, father Zassima the
28:43
Speaker 1: sain so father Zassima is dead, cried Grushenka. Good God,
28:49
Speaker 1: I did not know she crossed herself to badne Goodness?
28:54
Speaker 1: What have I been doing sitting on his knee like
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Speaker 1: this at such a moment. She stared up, as though
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Speaker 1: in dismay. I instantly stepped up his knee and sat
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Speaker 1: down on the sofa. Alyosha bent a long, wondering look
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Speaker 1: upon her, and a light seemed to dawn in his face. Rakitin,
29:13
Speaker 1: he said suddenly, in a firm and load voice, don't
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Speaker 1: taunt me with having rebelled against God. I don't want
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Speaker 1: to feel angry with you, so you must be kinder too.
29:26
Speaker 1: I've lost a treasure such as you have never had,
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Speaker 1: and you cannot judge me. Now you had much better
29:33
Speaker 1: look at her. Do you see how she has pity
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Speaker 1: on me. I came here to find a wicked soul.
29:40
Speaker 1: I felt drawn to evil because I was base and
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Speaker 1: evil myself. And I've found a true sister. I have
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Speaker 1: found a treasure, a loving heart. She had pity on me.
29:52
Speaker 1: Just now, Agrafena, Alexandrovna, I am speaking of you. You've
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Speaker 1: praised my soul from the depth. Alyosha's lips were quivering
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Speaker 1: and he caught his breath. She has saved you, it seems,
30:08
Speaker 1: laughed Rakitin spitefully, and she meant to get you in
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Speaker 1: her clutches. Do you realize that? Stay, Rakitin, Grushenka jumped up.
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Speaker 1: Hush both of you now, I'll tell you all about it. Hush, Alyosha.
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Speaker 1: Your words make me ashamed, for I am bad, not good,
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Speaker 1: That's what I am. And you hush Rakitin because you
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Speaker 1: are telling lies. I had the low idea of trying
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Speaker 1: to get him in my clutches, but now you are lying.
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Speaker 1: Now it's all different, and don't let me hear anything
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Speaker 1: more from you, Rakitin. All this Grushenka said with extreme emotion.
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Speaker 1: They are both crazy, said Rakitin, looking at them with amazement.
30:50
Speaker 1: I feel as though I were in a madhouse. They
30:53
Speaker 1: both getting so feeble. They'll begin crying. In a minute,
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Speaker 1: I shall begin to cry. I shall Peter Grushenka. He
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Speaker 1: called me his sister, and I shall never forget that.
31:05
Speaker 1: Only let me tell you, Rakitin, though I am bad,
31:08
Speaker 1: I did give away an onion. An onion? Hang it? Oh,
31:13
Speaker 1: he really are crazy, Rakitin wondered at their enthusiasm. He
31:19
Speaker 1: was aggrieved and annoyed. Though he might have reflected that
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Speaker 1: each of them was just passing through a spiritual crisis
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Speaker 1: such as does not come often in a lifetime. But
31:30
Speaker 1: though Rakitin was very sensitive about everything that concerned himself,
31:36
Speaker 1: he was very obtuse as regards the feelings and sensations
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Speaker 1: of others, partly from his youth and inexperience, partly from
31:46
Speaker 1: his intense egoism. You see, Alyosha Grushenka turned to him
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Speaker 1: with a nervous laugh. I was boasting when I told
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Speaker 1: Rakitin I had given away an onion. But it's not
32:02
Speaker 1: to boast, I tell you about it. It's only a story,
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Speaker 1: but it's a nice story. I used to hear it
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Speaker 1: when I was a child, from Matriona, my cook, who
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Speaker 1: was still with me. It's like this. Once upon a
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Speaker 1: time there was a peasant woman, and a very wicked
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Speaker 1: woman she was, and she died and did not leave
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Speaker 1: a single good deed behind. The Devil's caught her and
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Speaker 1: plunged her into the lake of fire. So her guardian
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Speaker 1: angel stood and wondered what good deed of hers he
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Speaker 1: could remember to tell to God. She once pulled up
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Speaker 1: an onion in her garden, said he, and gave it
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Speaker 1: to a beggar woman. And God answered, you'd take that onion,
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Speaker 1: then hold it out to her in the lake, and
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Speaker 1: let her take hold and be pulled out, And if
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Speaker 1: you can pull her out of the lake, let her
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Speaker 1: come to paradise. But if the onion breaks, then the
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Speaker 1: woman must stay where she is. The angel ran to
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Speaker 1: the woman and held out the onion to her. Come,
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Speaker 1: said he catch hold, and I'll pull you out. And
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Speaker 1: he began cautiously pulling her out. He had just pulled
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Speaker 1: her right out when the other sinners in the lake,
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Speaker 1: seeing how she was being drawn at, began catching hold
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Speaker 1: of her so as to be pulled out with her.
33:27
Speaker 1: But she was a very wicked woman, and she began
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Speaker 1: kicking them. I'm to be pulled out, not you. It's
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Speaker 1: my onion, not yours. As soon as she said that,
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Speaker 1: the onion broke and the woman fell into the lake,
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Speaker 1: and she is burning there to this day. So the
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Speaker 1: angel wept and went away. So that's the story, Alyosha,
33:49
Speaker 1: I know it by heart, for I am that wicked
33:52
Speaker 1: woman myself. I boasted to Rakitin that I had given
33:56
Speaker 1: away an onion. But to you, I'll say I've done
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Speaker 1: nothing but give away one onion all my life. That's
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Speaker 1: the only good deed I've dumb. So don't praise me, Alyosha,
34:08
Speaker 1: don't think me good. I am bad. I am a
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Speaker 1: wicked woman, and you make me ashamed if you praise me. Hey,
34:16
Speaker 1: I must confess everything. Listen, Alyosha, I was so anxious
34:23
Speaker 1: to get hold of you that I promised Rakitin twenty
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Speaker 1: five roubles if he would bring you to me, stay
34:29
Speaker 1: Rakitin wait. She went with rapid steps to the table,
34:34
Speaker 1: opened a drawer, pulled out a purse, and took from
34:38
Speaker 1: it a twenty five rouble note. What nonsense. What nonsense,
34:42
Speaker 1: cried Rakitin, disconcerted. Take it, Rakitin, I owe it you.
34:48
Speaker 1: There's no fear of your refusing it. You asked for
34:50
Speaker 1: it yourself, and she threw the note. Do him likely
34:54
Speaker 1: I should refuse it, boomed Rakitin, obviously ashamed, but carrying
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Speaker 1: up his confusion with a swagger. That twould come in
35:03
Speaker 1: very handy. Fools are made for wise men's profit. And
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Speaker 1: now hold your tongue, Rakitin. What I am going to
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Speaker 1: say now is not for your ears. Sit down in
35:14
Speaker 1: that corner and keep quiet. You don't like us to
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Speaker 1: hold your tongue? What should I like you for? Rakitin snarled,
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Speaker 1: not concealing his ill humor. He put the twenty five
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Speaker 1: rouble note in his pocket, and he felt ashamed at
35:30
Speaker 1: Alyosha's seeing it. He had reckoned on receiving his payment
35:34
Speaker 1: later without Alyosha's knowing of it, and now feeling ashamed,
35:39
Speaker 1: he lost his temper. Till that moment, he had thought
35:43
Speaker 1: it discreet not to contradict Grushenka too flatly in spite
35:48
Speaker 1: of her snubbing, since he had something to get out
35:50
Speaker 1: of her. But now he too was angry, one loves
35:55
Speaker 1: people for some reason, But what have either of you've
35:59
Speaker 1: done for me? Aim you should love people without a reason,
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Speaker 1: as Alyosha does. How does he love you? How has
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Speaker 1: he shown it that you make such a fuss about it.
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Speaker 1: Grushenka was standing in the middle of the room. She
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Speaker 1: spoke with heat and there were hysterical notes in her voice. Hush, Rakitin,
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Speaker 1: you know nothing about us, and don't dare to speak
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Speaker 1: to me like that again? How dare you be so permeliate?
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Speaker 1: Sit in that corner and be quiet as though you
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Speaker 1: were my footman. And now, Alyosha, I'll tell you the
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Speaker 1: whole truth that you may see what a wretch I am.
36:39
Speaker 1: I am not talking to Rakitin, but to you. I
36:42
Speaker 1: wanted to ruin you, Alyosha, that's the holy truth I
36:46
Speaker 1: quite meant to I wanted to do so much that
36:49
Speaker 1: I've bribed Rakitin to bring you. And why did I
36:52
Speaker 1: want to do such a thing? You know nothing about it, Alyosha.
36:56
Speaker 1: You turned away from me. If you passed me, you
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Speaker 1: dropped your eyes. And I've looked at you a hundred
37:03
Speaker 1: times before to day I began asking every one about you.
37:08
Speaker 1: Your face haunted my heart. He despises me. I thought
37:13
Speaker 1: he won't even look at me, and I felt it
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Speaker 1: so much at last that I wondered at myself for
37:19
Speaker 1: being so brightened of a boy. I'll get him in
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Speaker 1: my clutches and laugh at him. I was full of
37:26
Speaker 1: spite and anger. Would you believe it? Nobody here dares
37:31
Speaker 1: talk or think of coming to Agraphena Alexandrovna with any
37:36
Speaker 1: evil purpose. Old Kuzma is the only man I have
37:41
Speaker 1: anything to do with here. I was bound and sold
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Speaker 1: to him. Satan brought us together, but there has been
37:48
Speaker 1: no one else. But looking at you, I thought I'll
37:51
Speaker 1: get him in my clutches and laugh at him. You
37:55
Speaker 1: see what a spiteful cour I am. And you called
37:58
Speaker 1: me your sister. And now that man who wronged me
38:01
Speaker 1: has come. I sit here waiting for a message from him.
38:05
Speaker 1: And do you know what that man has been to me?
38:08
Speaker 1: Five years ago, when Cusma brought me here, I used
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Speaker 1: to shut myself up that no one might have sight
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Speaker 1: or sound of me. I was a silly slip of
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Speaker 1: a girl. I used to sit here sobbing. I used
38:19
Speaker 1: to lie awake all night thinking where is he now?
38:22
Speaker 1: The man who wronged me, he is laughing at me
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Speaker 1: with another woman. Most likely if only I could see him,
38:29
Speaker 1: if I could meet him again, I'd pay him out.
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Speaker 1: I'd pay him out. At night, I used to lie
38:34
Speaker 1: sobbing into my pillow in the dark, and I used
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Speaker 1: to brood over it. I used to tear my heart
38:40
Speaker 1: on purpose and gloat over my anger. I'll pay him out,
38:45
Speaker 1: I'll pay him out. That's what I used to cry
38:47
Speaker 1: out in the dark. And when I suddenly thought that
38:51
Speaker 1: I should really do nothing to him, and that he
38:54
Speaker 1: was laughing at me then, or perhaps had utterly forgotten me,
38:58
Speaker 1: I would fling myself on the floor, melt into helpless tears,
39:03
Speaker 1: and lie there shaking till dawn. In the morning, I
39:06
Speaker 1: would get up more spiteful than a dog, ready to
39:10
Speaker 1: tear the whole world to pieces. And then what do
39:13
Speaker 1: you think I began saving money. I became hard hearted,
39:18
Speaker 1: grew stout, grew wiser. Would you say, No, no one
39:24
Speaker 1: in the whole world sees it, no one knows it.
39:27
Speaker 1: But when night comes on, I sometimes lie as I
39:30
Speaker 1: did five years ago, when I was a silly girl,
39:33
Speaker 1: clenching my teeth and crying all night, thinking I'll pay
39:37
Speaker 1: him out. I'll pay him out. Do you hear well?
39:42
Speaker 1: Then now you understand me. A month ago a letter
39:46
Speaker 1: came to me. He was coming. He was a widower,
39:49
Speaker 1: he wanted to see me. It took my breath away.
39:52
Speaker 1: Then I suddenly thought, if he comes and whistles to
39:55
Speaker 1: call me, I shall creep back to him like a
39:57
Speaker 1: beaten dog. I couldn't believe myself. Am I so abject?
40:02
Speaker 1: Shall I run to him or not? And I've been
40:05
Speaker 1: in such a rage with myself all this month that
40:08
Speaker 1: I am worse than I was five years ago. Do
40:10
Speaker 1: you see now, Alyosha, what a violent, vindictive creature I am.
40:15
Speaker 1: I have shown you the whole truth I played with
40:18
Speaker 1: Mitya to keep me from running to that other hush rakitin.
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Speaker 1: It's not for you to judge me. I am not
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Speaker 1: speaking to you. Before you came in. I was lying here, waiting, brooding,
40:30
Speaker 1: deciding my whole future life. And you can never know
40:33
Speaker 1: what was in my heart. Yes, Alyosha, tell your young
40:37
Speaker 1: lady not to be angry with me for what happened
40:40
Speaker 1: the day before yesterday. Nobody in the whole world knows
40:45
Speaker 1: what I am going through now, and no one can
40:48
Speaker 1: ever know for perhaps I shall take a night with
40:52
Speaker 1: me to day. I can't make up my mind. And
40:56
Speaker 1: at this tragic phrase, good Shenka broke down, hid her
41:02
Speaker 1: face in her hands, flung herself on the sofa pillows,
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Speaker 1: and sobbed like a little child. Alyosha got up and
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Speaker 1: went to Rakitin Misha. He said, don't be angry. She
41:16
Speaker 1: wounded you, but don't be angry. You heard what she
41:19
Speaker 1: said just now. You mustn't ask too much of human endurance.
41:22
Speaker 1: One must be merciful. Alyosha said this at the instinctive
41:27
Speaker 1: prompting of his heart. He felt obliged to speak, and
41:31
Speaker 1: he turned to Rakitin. If Rakitin had not been there,
41:35
Speaker 1: he would have spoken to the air. But Rakitin looked
41:38
Speaker 1: at him ironically, and Alyosha stopped short. You are so
41:44
Speaker 1: primed up with your elder's teaching last night that now
41:47
Speaker 1: you have to let it off on me. Alexey man
41:51
Speaker 1: of God, said Rakitin, with a smile of hatred. Don't laugh, Rakitin,
41:57
Speaker 1: don't smile. Don't talk of the dead. He was better
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Speaker 1: than any one in the world, cried Alyosha, with tears
42:05
Speaker 1: in his voice. I didn't speak to you as a judge,
42:09
Speaker 1: but as the lowest of the judge. What am I
42:13
Speaker 1: beside her? I came here seeking my ruin and said
42:18
Speaker 1: to myself, what does it matter in my cowardliness? But she,
42:24
Speaker 1: after five years in torment, as soon as any one
42:28
Speaker 1: says a word from the heart to her, it makes
42:31
Speaker 1: her forget everything, forgive ever a thing in her tears.
42:36
Speaker 1: The man who has wronged her has come back. He
42:38
Speaker 1: sends for her, and she forgives him everything, and hastens
42:42
Speaker 1: joyfully to meet him. And she won't take a night
42:45
Speaker 1: with her. She won't. No, I am not like that.
42:49
Speaker 1: I don't know whether you are, Misha, but I am
42:51
Speaker 1: not like that. It's a lesson to me. She is
42:54
Speaker 1: more loving than we have. You heard her speak before
42:58
Speaker 1: what she has just told us, No, you haven't. If
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Speaker 1: you had, you'd have understood her long ago. And the
43:04
Speaker 1: person insulted the day before yesterday must forgive her too.
43:08
Speaker 1: She will when she knows, and she shall know. This
43:12
Speaker 1: soul is not yet at peace with itself. One must
43:15
Speaker 1: be tender with it. There may be a treasure in
43:18
Speaker 1: that soul. Alyosha stopped because he caught his breath in
43:25
Speaker 1: spite of his ill humor. Rakitin looked at him with astonishment.
43:30
Speaker 1: He had never expected such a tarade from the gentle Alyosha,
43:35
Speaker 1: she's bound someone to plead her cause, why are you
43:38
Speaker 1: in love with her? Agrafena, Alexandrovna, our monks really in
43:43
Speaker 1: love with you. You've made a conquest, he cried with
43:46
Speaker 1: a coarse flab. Grushenka lifted her head from the pillow
43:51
Speaker 1: and looked at Alyosha with a tender smile shining on
43:54
Speaker 1: her tear stained face. Let him alone, Alyosha, my cherub,
44:01
Speaker 1: you see what he is. He is not a person
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Speaker 1: for you to speak to. Mihail Ossypovitch. She turned to Rakitin.
44:10
Speaker 1: I meant to beg your pardon for being rude to you,
44:13
Speaker 1: but now I don't want to. Alyosha, come to me.
44:16
Speaker 1: Sit down here, she beckoned to him with a happy smile.
44:20
Speaker 1: That's right, Sit here, tell me. She shook him by
44:24
Speaker 1: the hand and peeped into his face, smiling. Tell me,
44:28
Speaker 1: do I love that man or not? The man who
44:30
Speaker 1: wronged me? Do I love him or not? Before you came,
44:34
Speaker 1: I lay here in the dark, asking my heart whether
44:38
Speaker 1: I loved him. Decide for me Alyosha, the time has come.
44:42
Speaker 1: It shall be as you say, Am I to forgive
44:45
Speaker 1: him or not? But you have forgiven him already, said Alyosha, smiling, Yes,
44:54
Speaker 1: I really have forgiven him. Grushenka murmured thoughtfully, What an
44:59
Speaker 1: ab object heart, to my abject heart. She snatched up
45:04
Speaker 1: a glass from the table, emptied it at a gulp,
45:08
Speaker 1: lifted it in the air, and flung it on the floor.
45:12
Speaker 1: The glass broke with a crash. A little cruel line
45:17
Speaker 1: came into her smile. Perhaps I haven't forgiven him, though,
45:22
Speaker 1: she said, with a sort of menace in her voice,
45:26
Speaker 1: and she dropped her eyes to the ground, as though
45:29
Speaker 1: she were talking to herself. Perhaps my heart, he's only
45:35
Speaker 1: getting ready to forgive. I shall struggle with my heart.
45:40
Speaker 1: You see, Alyosha, I've grown to love my tears in
45:45
Speaker 1: these five years. Perhaps I only love my resentment, not him.
45:52
Speaker 1: Well I shouldn't care to be in his shoes, hissed Rakitin.
45:57
Speaker 1: Well you won't be, Rakitin. You'll never be in his shoes.
46:02
Speaker 1: You shall black my shoes, Rakitin, that's the place you
46:06
Speaker 1: were fit for. You'll never get a woman like me,
46:09
Speaker 1: and he won't either. Perhaps won't he then, why you
46:14
Speaker 1: dressed up like that? Said Rakitin with a venomous sneer.
46:20
Speaker 1: Don't don't me with dressing up, Rakitin, you don't know
46:23
Speaker 1: all that is in my heart. If I choose to
46:26
Speaker 1: tear off my finery, I'll tear it up at once
46:28
Speaker 1: this minute, she cried in a resonant voice. You don't
46:33
Speaker 1: know what that finery is for, Rakitin. Perhaps I shall
46:36
Speaker 1: see him and say, have you ever seen me look
46:39
Speaker 1: like this? Before? He left me? A thin, consumptive cry
46:43
Speaker 1: baby of seventeen. I'll sit by him, fassinate him and
46:47
Speaker 1: work him up. Do you see what I am like? Now?
46:51
Speaker 1: I'll say to him, Well, and that's enough for you,
46:55
Speaker 1: my dear sir. There's many a sliptoost that cup on
46:58
Speaker 1: the lip that may be what the finery is for, Rakitin.
47:03
Speaker 1: Grushenka finished and with a malicious laugh. I'm violent and resentful, Alyosha.
47:10
Speaker 1: I'll tear off my finery. I'll destroy my beauty. I'll
47:13
Speaker 1: scotch my face, slash it with a knife and turned beggar.
47:17
Speaker 1: If I choose, I won't go anywhere now to see
47:20
Speaker 1: any one. If I choose I'll send Kutzma back all
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Speaker 1: he has ever given me to morrow, and all his money,
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Speaker 1: and I'll go out chowering for the rest of my life.
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Speaker 1: You think I wouldn't do it, Rakitin, that I would
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Speaker 1: not dare to do it. I would, I would, I
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Speaker 1: could do it directly. Only don't exasperate me, and I'll
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Speaker 1: send him about his business. I'll snap my fingers in
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Speaker 1: his face. He shall never see me again. She uttered
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Speaker 1: the last words in an hysterical scream, but broke down again,
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Speaker 1: hid her face in her hands, buried it in the pillow,
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Speaker 1: and shook with sobs. Rakitin got up. It's time we
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Speaker 1: were up, he said, it's late. We shall be shut
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Speaker 1: out of the monastery. Grushenka leaped up from her place.
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Speaker 1: Surely you don't want to go Alyosha, she cried in
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Speaker 1: mournful surprise. What are you doing to me? You stirred
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Speaker 1: up my feeling, tortured me, and now you'll leave me
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Speaker 1: to pace this night alone. He can hardly spend the
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Speaker 1: night with you, though, if he wants to let him,
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Speaker 1: I'll go alone. Rakitin scoffed, jeeringly, hush, evil tongue Grushenka
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Speaker 1: cried angrily at him. You never said such words to
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Speaker 1: me as he has come to say. What is he
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Speaker 1: said to you so special? Asked Rakitin irritably. I can't say.
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Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know what he said to me.
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Speaker 1: It went straight to my heart. He has wrung my heart.
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Speaker 1: Here's the first, the only one who has pitied me.
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Speaker 1: That's what it is. Why did you not come before you? Angel?
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Speaker 1: She fell on her knees before him, as though in
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Speaker 1: a sudden frenzy. I've been waiting all my life for
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Speaker 1: some one like you. I knew that someone like you
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Speaker 1: would come and forgive me. I believe that, nasty as
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Speaker 1: I am, someone would really love me, not only with
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Speaker 1: a shameful love. What have I done to you? Answered Alyosha,
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Speaker 1: bending over her with a tender smile and gently taking
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Speaker 1: her by the hands. I only gave you an onion,
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Speaker 1: nothing but a tiny little onion. That was all. He
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Speaker 1: was moved to tears himself as he said it. At
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Speaker 1: that moment, there was a sudden noise in the passage.
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Speaker 1: Someone came into the hall. Grushenka jumped up, seeming greatly alarmed.
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Speaker 1: Fenya ran noisily into the room, crying out, Mistress, Mistress darling,
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Speaker 1: A messenger has galloped up. She cried, breathless and joyful.
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Speaker 1: A carriage from Mokro. For you to movate the driver
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Speaker 1: with three horses. They are just putting in pressor says
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Speaker 1: a letter. Here's the letter, Mistress. A letter was in
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Speaker 1: her hand, and she waved it in the all the
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Speaker 1: while she tooked Grushenka snatched the letter from her and
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Speaker 1: carried it to the candle. It was only a note,
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Speaker 1: a few lines. She read it in one instant. He
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Speaker 1: has sent for me. She cried, her face white and
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Speaker 1: distorted with a wan smile. He whistles, crawled back, little dog,
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Speaker 1: but only for one instant. She stood as though hesitating.
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Speaker 1: Suddenly the blood rushed to her head and sent a
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Speaker 1: glow to her cheeks. I will go, she cried, five
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Speaker 1: years of my life, goodbye, goodbye, Alyosha. My fate is sealed.
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Speaker 1: Go go leave me, all of you. Don't let me
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Speaker 1: see you again. Grushenka is flying to a new light.
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Speaker 1: Don't you remember evil against me either? Rakitin, I may
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Speaker 1: be going to my dad. Ah. I feel as though
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Speaker 1: I were drunk. She suddenly left them and ran into
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Speaker 1: her bedroom. Well, she has no thought for us now,
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Speaker 1: grumbled Rakitin. Let's go, or we may hear that feminine
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Speaker 1: shriek again. I am suck of all these tears and cries.
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Speaker 1: Alyosha mechanically let himself be led out. In the yard
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Speaker 1: stood a covered cart. Horses were being taken out of
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Speaker 1: the shafts. Men were running to and fro with a lantern.
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Speaker 1: Three fresh horses were being led in at the open gate.
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Speaker 1: But when Alyosha and Rakitin reached the bottom of the steps,
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Speaker 1: Grushenka's bedroom window was suddenly opened, and she called in
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Speaker 1: a ringing voice after Alyosha, Alyosha, give my greetings to
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Speaker 1: your brother Mitya, and tell him not to remember evil
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Speaker 1: against me, though I have brought him misery. And tell
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Speaker 1: him too in my words, Grushenka has fallen to a scoundrel,
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Speaker 1: and not to you, noble heart. And add too that
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Speaker 1: Grushenka loved him only one hour, only one short hour
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Speaker 1: she loved him. So let him remember that hour all
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Speaker 1: his life, say, Grushenka tells you to. She ended in
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Speaker 1: a voiceful of sobs. The window was shut with a slam,
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Speaker 1: growled Rakitin, laughing, she murders your brother Mitya and then
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Speaker 1: tells him to remember it. Olizni what ferosted? Alyosha made
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Speaker 1: no reply. He seemed not to have heard. He walked
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Speaker 1: fast beside Rakitin, as though in a terrible hurry. He
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Speaker 1: was lost in thought, and moved mechanically. Rakitin felt a
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Speaker 1: sudden twinge, as though he had been touched on an
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Speaker 1: open wound. He had expected something quite different. By bringing
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Speaker 1: Grushenka and Alyosha together, something very different from what he
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Speaker 1: had hoped for had happened. He is a pole, that
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Speaker 1: officer of hers, he began again, restraining himself. And indeed
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Speaker 1: he is not an officer at all.
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Speaker 2: Now.
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Speaker 1: He served in the customs in Siberia, somewhere on the
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Speaker 1: Chinese frontier. Some punal, little beggar of a pole, I
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Speaker 1: expect lost his job. They said, he's hurt now that
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Speaker 1: Grushenkas saved a little money, so he's turned up again.
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Speaker 1: That's the explanation of the mystery. Again, Alyosha seemed not
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Speaker 1: to hear. Rakitin could not control himself. Well, so you
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Speaker 1: have saved the sinner, he laughed, spitefully, have you turned
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Speaker 1: the Magdalene into the true path? Driven out the seven,
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Speaker 1: devil said, so you see the miracles you are looking
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Speaker 1: out for just now have come to pass hush Rakitin.
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Speaker 1: Alyosha answered with an aching heart. So you despise me
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Speaker 1: now for those twenty five rubles I've sold my friend,
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Speaker 1: you'd think. But you are not Christ, you know, and
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Speaker 1: I'm not judas oh Rakitin. I assure you I'd forgotten
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Speaker 1: about it, cried Alyosha. You remind me of it yourself.
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Speaker 1: But this was the last straw for Rakitin. Damn nash
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Speaker 1: take you all in, each of you, he cried suddenly,
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Speaker 1: Why the devil did I take you up? I don't
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Speaker 1: want to know you from this time forward. Go alone.
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Speaker 1: There's your road, and he turned abruptly into another street,
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Speaker 1: leaving Alyosha alone in the dark. Alyosha came out of
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Speaker 1: the town and walked across the fields to the monastery
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Speaker 1: and of Chapter forty five,