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- Sue: One of the blankets covering my emotional life up until recently was that of self-shame and self-blame. That kind of vibration, frequency-reducing vibe that can permeate your whole life. It might be the way that you grew up. You may have had a figure in your life that was important to you, a loved one, friend, mentor, whatever, who always seemingly kept you grounded. That's how you looked at it, wasn't it? You know, the... person with whom you shared your latest great if greatest triumph news with who then made the comment that sort of settled things with you is to keep you not getting a big head such as, yeah, that was a really fast race you run, but it... It wasn't a world record, it wasn't a track record, whatever diminutive vibe on your success. And it might be something that you even put on yourself that nobody spoke to you, as in my case. There was, I think, what they call imposter syndrome, where you're feeling like, ⁓ my goodness, I'm working alongside all of the people that I consider to be legends in my profession and now I'm being treated in an equal. How did I get here? Do I deserve to be here kind of vibe? Or... When that project ends and you're no longer working with your legends, you revert to the vibe of blaming yourself for not having an ongoing relationship with those legends to, you know, bolster your ego up that you are professionally at the top of your game. And when you're not doing that kind of work, you blame yourself. ⁓ There's a lot of competition for the kind of work that I do and unbeknownst to me, somebody else is getting all of the work and it's because of X, Y, and Z. Or it's because, well, I don't pursue it A, and C. Or, you know, I don't know what factors are involved that other people are getting the work that I'm not. Must be something within me. Well, yes, of course it's something within you. Your perception of yourself is off because all of those external factors you can't control. You can only control you. So why are you blaming yourself? Why are you shaming yourself for not being the hottest, the greatest, the most winningest? Well, there's no reason to do that. It's the perception of understanding that you now have. That's an incoming negative energy projected on you. According to this projection, you're meant to doubt yourself. You're meant to blame yourself. You're meant to shame yourself for your success or feeling as though you haven't accomplished as enough as you should with that kind of success that you've experienced. Well, guess what? That may well be attached to something that was a curse placed on your bloodline spiritually for hundreds of years. You don't have any clue which one of your bloodline ancestors received that curse initially. And that may be the part of the problem here, is that it has no relevance in your life, but you accept it, perhaps, because others in your family have felt this sort of self-blame and self-shame energy embarrassed for your success. Family's been a prosperous family for years. You've decided to become the black sheep by pursuing a creative career instead. Now look at where it's got you. Really? You're gonna accept that about yourself? No, I say. But understanding that it might have been something spiritually that was cast on your bloodline without your knowledge or even in your immediate timeline, now that you see it as that with you, and by acknowledging it as seen as a curse, something that is out of your control, other than to repel it. You know, you don't have to keep your spiritual stoma open all the time to receive this stuff. You can close your stoma temporarily and be positive. You don't have to keep accepting these kind of less than energies and self-doubting energies at all. Are you the greatest thing since sliced bread? I don't know. Who cares? Do you think you are? Well, maybe you are. But that's not the relevant part. It's all about understanding that when you see these negative energies for what they are, and you don't really have to understand the how and the why behind them. just to understand that they're lurking around in your energy and they have been for such a long time that it's normal to you. And now that you see it as being abnormal and see it for what it is, which is something that has nothing other than an ancestral line of some sort, a cord to which you are unbeknownst to you until now, attached to, by seeing it, you can cut it. And when you cut it, it also means that others who are similarly cursed, because you're not gonna be the only one. Once you recognize that this is such sort of business as usual for whomever like to participate in these kind of spiritual rituals, whomever they may be as a friendship group, I don't know, but they're out there covertly grouping together to pray for prosperity in their lives. And in order for that to happen, because everything in the universe has to balance, that means that somebody else has to go without, you see? Well, once you recognize that you're gonna be no longer going without, not only breaks the curse for you, but everybody else that's been receiving these projections, even if they're unaware of it. It's not our business to tell other people what they're experiencing, but to recognize that if this resonates with you, that you have always felt as though you have blamed yourself for your success or that you are shamed for having success where others don't, drop that. Don't feed that anymore. There are energies out there that need to feed off. your negative vibes in order for them to exist. I might be diabolic in nature, I don't know. I'm not suggesting or asking you to project of that. Look, I'm just saying that my experience has been that anybody that truly accepts you for who you are aren't going to have any interest in pulling on your energy in that way. In order for them to feel prosperous, you got to feel like you're in some sort of turmoil, ashamed of yourself. They take that energy and transmute it. But the thing is, when you see it now, that's number one, important. Number two, you take that energy, that grinding, wrenching, emotional energy, make something positive of it. I mean, it's like you're given this gift. Somebody's giving you free energy. In my view, The thing to do is to turn it around and make a piece of music because once it's posted online, for me, someone else may see and hear it and take away that vibe of positivity. And when it gets in that soul, even if only for that minute and a half or so that that track plays, they're lifted a bit in their mood. And then the people immediately around them feel that. You know, it's all about engagement, if you will, for those couple of moments to that positive energy. That's all it takes. As to who... is actually behind all of those projections. Well, it's probably likely a group of people who feel that through some traditional coming together of a group that has a philosophical view on how the world should be, that they can exert their spiritual power on things and bend the universe to their will. And ⁓ yeah, don't look at the people that are suffering as a result of it. ⁓ no, that's just collateral damage, isn't it? You know, some of these energies projected at me have been so intense, like they wanted me to end my life cycle. I'm not that type of personality, never have been. Never even thought that I should do that, because in the end, I just have this sense of wonderment and curiosity about the world that I just don't want it to end ever. So... Why would I believe that that incoming energy is going to manifest into something real? But these people think that, which is to say that that energy they manifested is going to rebound in their direction. As to what, I don't know. I don't judge. My job isn't to judge in this universe. My job is to share truth. And the truth of it is, energy's got to go somewhere. So when you summon up those diabolic energies with the intent to plant a suggestion for someone else to end their life cycle as an internal monologue of self-shame and self-blame, and those souls go through with it? No, absolutely not. By acknowledging that that energy and that curse has been seen for what it is means that others now can recognize that happening in their own life potentially. And if it resonates with you, all I could suggest to you is do that thing that gives you the most passion and joy when you recognize that that has been a part of your life, if that's the case, and do something positive and keep doing it. Maybe for once, do something different when you do your meal preparation that just gives you a little extra sense of self-worth. Maybe instead of ordering the French fries pre-cooked and prepared, you at least buy some frozen ones and bake them in the oven and add the favorite spices you like. Use that dark energy for whatever it is that you think adds positive energy to you and your life. Because when you do that, like not only do you deprive the haters from having that energy land, you're turning it into something positive for yourself, which is just fueling yourself up a bit more, making yourself stronger, making that self-shame and self-blame seem such like the ridiculous energies that they are. Are you the bestest and the greatest at what you do? Yeah, you might be. It doesn't matter. You've just taken something that is meant to be bad and turned it into something good just by seeing it for what it is, forgiving everybody that's involved. Because you'll never meet these people, right? It doesn't matter. There's no one to blame. All you have to do is understand what to do with the energy and just making something good for yourself out of it that just elevates your mood a little bit. That's all it takes. And if you resonate with this, I'd be curious to know because I know I'm not that special to get all of that energy projected onto me solely, to my soul. I postulate, and this is my opinion that I'm expressing on my own blog. I postulate that people have been doing this for generations. You can see it every day between those that have and those that don't have. And I postulate that some of those that have are using these ritualistic traditions as a prosperity gospel, confirmation with leaf blower. to keep themselves above everyone else and whatever that materializes. Could be money, could be feelings of self-worth, entitlement. You'll see it though, because by now they have sent out so much negative energy they'll be lurking in it. So they'll have an arrogant view, an entitled view, a holier than thou view. Might not be verbalized, it'll be in their body language. I invite you to experience my body language by listening to some music on my playlist. I've had some engagements so far with my request. for affirmations and descriptive words. I'm really grateful. The idea that there is a connection being made, I'll view as a positive development, whatever that connection evolves to, who knows? Nonetheless, it's strengthening the bridge of positivity with those connections. And when we do that, source and universe and however you view. This world, if there is such a master creator that you believe in, sees that, adds it into the universe, and multifractually expands on it for the better good of everyone. Little o' you, what are the more reasons to stop shaming yourself and blaming yourself? Because what you didn't realize is that something as innocuous as just engaging by replying to my request has created more positive energy. That airplane flew right over my head. I'll take that as a confirmation that that's a good thing. Take flight, soar, and above all, thanks for your engagement. Thanks for listening. you