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Coachella Buzzkills and Barely Sleeping · Untraditionally Lala

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  Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. It's La La Kent. Welcome to untraditionally, La La,
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  Speaker 1: Hello gorgeous, Welcome back to untraditionally, La La. I'm finally
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  Speaker 1: feeling like a whole person again. Same. I start to
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  Speaker 1: lose my wits about me when I'm gone for too long.
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  Speaker 1: I've just come to the realization, and I've said this, like,
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  Speaker 1: there's going to become a point in time where like
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  Speaker 1: Mom's going to want to Like, who the hell am
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  Speaker 1: I kidding? Shit, She's never going to want to, but
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  Speaker 1: there will come a point in time where like you
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  Speaker 1: want to go and fly free after Yeah, and it'll
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  Speaker 1: happen and I know that. But today I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: need nobody to leave the gates of this house. Oh,
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  Speaker 1: it just sends me into panic. I don't like it.
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  Speaker 1: I'm happy you had a good time, No I did,
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  Speaker 1: But I will be honest. Should we talk about my festivities?
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  Speaker 1: I want to talk about I want to talk about
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  Speaker 1: your festivities, but I want that to into what Coachella,
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  Speaker 1: like what people were saying about week two and get
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  Speaker 1: your take on it. Easton went to Coachella, but he
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  Speaker 1: left on Thursday at like noon because traffic was what
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  Speaker 1: like four or five hours. I got home last. I
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  Speaker 1: got home on Monday night at eight thirty because traffic
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  Speaker 1: was it was like a three and a half four
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  Speaker 1: hour drive until then, so I just waited it out. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: and what you got home in two hours? I mean
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  Speaker 1: it was quick. By the time I had like gotten
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  Speaker 1: myself ready for bed. You walked in the door and
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  Speaker 1: I heard front door has been opened or whatever, and
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  Speaker 1: I was my favorite thing in the world, like haled
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  Speaker 1: ass out of bed. Every time every time I go
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  Speaker 1: out and like movie, go out with friends, my dog
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  Speaker 1: usually is in the main house. So I got to
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  Speaker 1: come and get the big the big guy Pablo.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, so I will open the front door and front
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  Speaker 2: door open and the first thing I see is just
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  Speaker 2: a door open and a headpop.
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  Speaker 1: She goes just making sure it's you, And it's like,
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  Speaker 1: if it wasn't, what's your game plan? Fuck you up?
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  Speaker 1: Obviously my body I turned into a raging woman. Dylan Sprouse, Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: did you hear about that? No? I just read about it. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: what happened his house? It was, Yeah, someone came in. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: something's going on in the world where people just think
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  Speaker 1: they can roll up in your house and only that
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  Speaker 1: streamers a whole bunch of like just like live streamers
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  Speaker 1: who a lot of people just watch throughout the day,
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  Speaker 1: who are going and doing this, we all know them.
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  Speaker 1: They're getting like attacked. Like there was just a dude
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  Speaker 1: live streaming in New York and a guy just comes
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  Speaker 1: up and punches him. What. Yeah, another Marlin who most
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  Speaker 1: people know, beautiful looking man and he's young, I want
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  Speaker 1: to say to Yeah, he's like twenty one, twenty three.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, no, but he's like in Paris, and like people
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  Speaker 2: come up to him in like mass and they're like
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  Speaker 2: pressing him and his girlfriend while they're like or this
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  Speaker 2: girl he's with, Like because.
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  Speaker 1: When you're live streaming, they know where to find you,
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  Speaker 1: right totally. I don't know if this is like a
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  Speaker 1: fab that's going on with just people like following and
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  Speaker 1: doing that. But like a lot of streamers and like
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  Speaker 1: the intruder I know, but famous people I feel like
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  Speaker 1: are just getting attacked right now. Yeah, No, it's scary.
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  Speaker 1: I mean a lot of a lot of housewives have
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  Speaker 1: experienced it. I mean I was watching the news today
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  Speaker 1: and there were a couple intruders that came into homes
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  Speaker 1: at night. So you would be with people home. You
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  Speaker 1: would be a Dylan Sprouse. I don't. I'm doing more
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  Speaker 1: than tackling you, buddy. Like I said, you'll be the
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  Speaker 1: one surprised because, like I said, you're going to roll
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  Speaker 1: in here, You're not gonna find shit because I don't
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  Speaker 1: keep anything in the house anymore. People all of the
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  Speaker 1: houses that you see like on Housewives and it's like
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  Speaker 1: so and so, God you know, had an intruder. I
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  Speaker 1: I don't. Uh, I don't feel comfortable in the world
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  Speaker 1: at this point in time. Yeah, but if you are
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  Speaker 1: that type of person, you should feel more uncomfortable with
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  Speaker 1: me if you enter my space. How did it lead
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  Speaker 1: to that? Okay, So Pablo's at the front door, hackles raised.
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  Speaker 1: Then he sees your face and he's like, so excited.
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  Speaker 1: I love everything. You know. The dogs actually really struggled
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  Speaker 1: while you were gone. Guys, can we talk about it?
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  Speaker 1: Because we kept Bernice so we split the dogs up.
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  Speaker 1: Mm hmm. I missed you. I'm happy you're back. No,
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  Speaker 1: I miss you, guys. I think five days is the
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  Speaker 1: max limit that I can do without seeing my family.
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  Speaker 1: I think seven a whole week, that's a good amount.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, you miss you want to come home, but
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  Speaker 1: it's a nice Soli vacation the desert. Five days is plenty.
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  Speaker 1: That's how I was fled, especially like after a festival,
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  Speaker 1: it kind of felt like Vegas. It's like Friday afternoon,
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  Speaker 1: Sunday morning. Bye. Totally. So Sosa has been doing this thing.
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  Speaker 1: She is such a character, you guys. No, she is
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  Speaker 1: turning into the funnest human on the planet. And I've said,
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  Speaker 1: like she's very high strung, she's high maintenance, and she's
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  Speaker 1: still like all of those things. But she's got such
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  Speaker 1: a sweet and care free personality, just like a free spirit,
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  Speaker 1: which I don't think. I don't know how I was
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  Speaker 1: at her age, Like she's still very young. But when
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  Speaker 1: I describe Sosa, and this warms my heart because you
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  Speaker 1: guys know that I conceived her via donorant, so she
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  Speaker 1: was just a very well thought out process and very
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  Speaker 1: much wanted. Beyond words. She is just happy to be here.
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  Speaker 1: Like the way she looks at everybody, She's like, you
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  Speaker 1: know what, pretty happy My mom decided to do this. Now,
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  Speaker 1: every time every time she sees something, she's seen it
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  Speaker 1: for the first time. It feels like she's a brand
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  Speaker 1: new soul. But I mean like me. I'm just so
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  Speaker 1: obsessed with her now, and she walks around the house
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  Speaker 1: and she's so funny when she's just inverted. She loves
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  Speaker 1: wearing glasses. She loves wearing glasses, goes into Ocean's room,
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  Speaker 1: she puts them on, wears them around. They're rose colored,
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  Speaker 1: takes them off, goes who like she cannot believe the
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  Speaker 1: transition in like just color right, it's like rose colored glasses,
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  Speaker 1: real life puts them back on. Life truly is better
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  Speaker 1: through rose colored glasses. But she's been doing this thing
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  Speaker 1: because we talk. I say, Mama loves Sosa, and so
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  Speaker 1: I'll say Mama loves and she'll say Sosa. Now she
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  Speaker 1: has started saying I love me, and Easton thinks she's
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  Speaker 1: trying to say I love I love you, but she
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  Speaker 1: points at herself. I love because I'll say I love you,
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  Speaker 1: and she will I love me. They're good. Did come
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  Speaker 1: from Christ? Two of them know we are Sosa and
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  Speaker 1: I are the same person. Yeah, I can't wait. There
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  Speaker 1: we went. We were. Yeah, it's gonna be a lot,
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  Speaker 1: but there there was. We went to a playdate the
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  Speaker 1: other day and the dad of one of the kids
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  Speaker 1: looks at me and goes. Your kid is like annoyingly beautiful,
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  Speaker 1: like she makes other babies look ugly. I died because
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, obviously that's not true, but obviously that makes
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  Speaker 1: me feel really and you can't give credit to anybody
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  Speaker 1: but me. Right, well, there is somebody that we can
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  Speaker 1: We don't know him, and if you can't see him,
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  Speaker 1: he don't exist, right, Santa Claus, you can't see it.
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  Speaker 1: Don't let your kids listen to this. Don't be listening
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  Speaker 1: to this in the car. But I thought that that
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  Speaker 1: was really funny and also a weird thing. So Sosa
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  Speaker 1: is obsessed. She has four fake phones. You guys. There
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  Speaker 1: they make sounds like there's little beads in it. Exactly,
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  Speaker 1: it's a rat. She is so addicted to these phones.
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  Speaker 1: She has to have all four at all times, and
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  Speaker 1: when you take them from her, she loses her mind.
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  Speaker 2: Well, she's going to be a very We've got in
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  Speaker 2: person in due time, and she'll have all four phones.
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  Speaker 1: It was willing and Dylan in swim Less. Yes, I
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  Speaker 1: took the phone from her, put her in the pool.
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  Speaker 1: She would not stop crying. Finally we just gave her
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  Speaker 1: the phone to keep in the pool. She had a
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  Speaker 1: death grip on it. She would kick her legs, but
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  Speaker 1: anytime you had to use your arms, she wouldn't move there.
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  Speaker 1: And she was like pretending to use it, pretending in
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  Speaker 1: the pool and like taking hello, drowning me. That's not true.
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  Speaker 1: She was wheeling and dealing. But then I turn on
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  Speaker 1: the news because I'm like, what is it about this?
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  Speaker 1: Like fake phone? I could see kids getting addicted. Well,
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  Speaker 1: I'm curtailing that. And then also Los Angeles exactly, that's
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  Speaker 1: a computer, it's work. But you know, I understand that,
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  Speaker 1: I do get you. But I was watching the news
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  Speaker 1: today and and there's a bunch of parents who have
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  Speaker 1: banned together who are a part of the LA Unified
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  Speaker 1: School district. Their kids aren't in the in public schools
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  Speaker 1: where everyone's using an iPad, and these parents are very
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  Speaker 1: concerned because their kids are displaying basically symptoms of addiction
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  Speaker 1: when it comes to these So they're demanding pen to paper,
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  Speaker 1: no more electronics. And it has moved so far that
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  Speaker 1: we can just put money into it. Yes, to go back,
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  Speaker 1: because it could be the first school district to pass this.
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  Speaker 1: From what I understand, did you know that this? And
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to get this very wrong. But you can
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  Speaker 1: do you share it all, share it all, share half
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  Speaker 1: the data misinformation. This ain't Joe Rogan. This is the
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  Speaker 1: lowest test scores since like lower than their parents. And
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  Speaker 1: it's the first time that's ever happened. Like you're usually
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  Speaker 1: getting higher than your parents, you know, this is the
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  Speaker 1: first time they're starting to score lower than the generation
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  Speaker 1: before them. Well wow, wow, Then it's because technology.
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  Speaker 2: That's why they're going to pen and paper again, even
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  Speaker 2: though we just spent around like three billion dollars to
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  Speaker 2: put technology in the schools.
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  Speaker 1: Unless but no. But by the way, I think what
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  Speaker 1: these parents are going in is there's an age limit.
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  Speaker 1: There's gonna be an age limit now because Ocean is
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  Speaker 1: displaying little moments where she'll be on the iPad too
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  Speaker 1: much and then she catches mad attitude, she starts tweaking out.
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  Speaker 1: I told her today, she woke up and asked for
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  Speaker 1: the iPad and I gave it to her while I
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  Speaker 1: got so sab and when I told her, when I
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  Speaker 1: went to grab it, she like gripped it and like
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  Speaker 1: death stared at me. And I looked at her and
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  Speaker 1: I told her, I said, I'm not the one give
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  Speaker 1: me the iPad. I'm counting to three and I said one,
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  Speaker 1: and she yeah, most people do. So she hands it
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  Speaker 1: over at one. I didn't even have to two or three.
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  Speaker 1: And I go in her room. She's giving me attitude.
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  Speaker 1: I said, here's the deal, says, I'm gonna break this
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  Speaker 1: down for you. The iPad is no longer today. You're
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  Speaker 1: you're not having it at all today. This is a
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  Speaker 1: real problem. You become mean, you don't focus, you don't listen.
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  Speaker 1: I've had is done. And I was like very stern
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  Speaker 1: to where she was like, okay, mom, sounds good, okay,
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  Speaker 1: but like, but I am. I'm definitely bringing down the
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  Speaker 1: hammer on curtailing electronics, even the fake electronics. For Sosa
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  Speaker 1: when she is distracted, they're going in a drawer because
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  Speaker 1: what happens is she clocks them. It's almost like they
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  Speaker 1: have a relationship that's like they they it's like an
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  Speaker 1: alien being called to its mother ship between Sosa and
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  Speaker 1: the faux phones. Yeah, she knows exactly. It's like, yeah, nice,
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  Speaker 1: it's done. We're doing okay, So let's talk about Coachella.
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  Speaker 1: I heard that week two of the performances were way
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  Speaker 1: freaking better. So tell what you told me. Because I
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  Speaker 1: didn't know that. Like I knew there was obviously like
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  Speaker 1: differences from Weekend one and two, but I didn't know.
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  Speaker 1: I was talking to the Gaye yesterday because they came
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  Speaker 1: over to pool and I just asked them, like, uh,
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  Speaker 1: how did you feel about Coachella because I haven't seen
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  Speaker 1: them since Week one or Weekend one, and I said,
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  Speaker 1: I heard that the second weekend was way better, and
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  Speaker 1: they go, yeah, but there's no parties Weekend two. And
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  Speaker 1: I was like, oh, so is that why you guys go?
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  Speaker 1: And they're like, the festival's fun, but like week one
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  Speaker 1: is where like all the parties are happening and there's
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  Speaker 1: like really cool people there. Okay, so this is what
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  Speaker 1: I've this is what I've learned. Weekend one is for
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  Speaker 1: people who want to go to the parties and the
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  Speaker 1: activations and you know, all of these big brands and
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  Speaker 1: also the influencers, the convention where all the influencers are.
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  Speaker 1: Weekend two you go if you are really really down
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  Speaker 1: for the cause of what Coachella is and I participating
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  Speaker 1: in the lineup and all of the music that they
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  Speaker 1: have to offer, all of the activations that the brands
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  Speaker 1: put up are gone and you said something about they
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  Speaker 1: should do week one for people who care about the music,
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  Speaker 1: because by the time Week two comes, and then by
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  Speaker 1: the time stage Coach comes, the grounds are tore up,
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  Speaker 1: like no grass, just dirt. But I think they do
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  Speaker 1: it that way because all of the influencers are there
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  Speaker 1: the first week and they're getting all this content where
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  Speaker 1: it looks amazing exactly. So that's what I'm thinking. But
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  Speaker 1: I mean, give it to give it to the people
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  Speaker 1: who love the music. Give them the good grass while
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  Speaker 1: they're sitting in it and enjoying with their blanket and
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  Speaker 1: their significant other while they listen. And yeah, I don't know,
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  Speaker 1: that's just my take. Give the music goers who like
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  Speaker 1: are die hard the good grass. Well, stage coaches strictly
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  Speaker 1: for people who love music, because there's only there's one week.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, you come or you miss. I really
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  Speaker 1: enjoy Stage Coach. Stage Coach was fun. I took so
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  Speaker 1: so when she was in my belly. But weekend too,
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  Speaker 1: Madonna came out with Sabrina Carpenter. It was Olivia Rodrigo
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  Speaker 1: with Addison Ray. I can't believe how far Addison Ray
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  Speaker 1: has come from just being she was like tworking that
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  Speaker 1: ass on TikTok and sh ass on fucking stage. Big
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  Speaker 1: Sean came out with Justin Bieber and then brought Billie
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  Speaker 1: Eilish on stage, and Billy Eilish just turned into a
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  Speaker 1: puddle and sobbed, and then she took a picture of
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  Speaker 1: herself later and she was like, I'm still crying and
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  Speaker 1: it was just like a close up of her red eyes. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: she's been like a mega fan for a really long time.
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  Speaker 1: And isn't who isn't. No, we deeply here's the thing.
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  Speaker 1: I just streamed it, so we'll get into that. But
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  Speaker 1: was it amazing?
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  Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I saw clips. It's I don't know,
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  Speaker 2: it's like he was reborn.
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  Speaker 1: What do you mean in that moment in Weekend two
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  Speaker 1: or I know, just all of like just everything that
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  Speaker 1: he's gone through and I think like the Coachella stage
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  Speaker 1: was his reborn. Like he's reborn. He sold all of
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  Speaker 1: his old music. We get to see the new hymn
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  Speaker 1: he was replaying songs. It's almost like, look like what
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  Speaker 1: I sart, Like, look and see when I survived and
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  Speaker 1: I'm still here. Oh my gosh, I have chills. Yeah, wow,
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  Speaker 1: I have chills. Easton No, it was good. I wish,
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  Speaker 1: I wish I would have gone. Okay, I could have Pablo.
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  Speaker 1: I love you, dude. I felt too bad. We shouldn't
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  Speaker 1: split the dogs. That was you and Mom. You guys
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  Speaker 1: made that decision. And Mom was so concerned about Bernice.
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  Speaker 1: She thought that she was going to go. She kept
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  Speaker 1: going around the back side of the house and just
• 15:41
  Speaker 1: laying there. And if you guys have seen Marley and me,
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  Speaker 1: that's what she goes outside to a tree to die.
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  Speaker 1: I know that's what he was doing. We would get
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  Speaker 1: ready to go and we would go to like the
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  Speaker 1: house that was close to the grounds to go walk
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  Speaker 1: to him, or like they golf carted in and I
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  Speaker 1: was seconds away from getting on and I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I in good, Like I can't do it. I have
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  Speaker 1: to go back to him. Well, because there was a
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  Speaker 1: day I think you talked about where he thought everyone
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  Speaker 1: had left and you just heard him crying by me.
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  Speaker 2: So we all went to get coffee and one of
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  Speaker 2: my friends stayed back to start putting her makeup on
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  Speaker 2: and get ready, and she just heard Pablo like in the.
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  Speaker 1: Front room, just crying. Oh my gosh.
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  Speaker 2: And then she said, Pablo and she heard him sprinting
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  Speaker 2: to like the area, and then he went in and
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  Speaker 2: started kissing her and then just sat down by her.
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  Speaker 2: And when she and that was like Friday, oh no.
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  Speaker 2: And once I heard that, I was like, I'm never
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  Speaker 2: I can't leave this animal.
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  Speaker 1: The next time, just leave him out. Yeah, well, mom
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  Speaker 1: love her to death.
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  Speaker 2: But she was like, Eastern with my ham like and
• 16:47
  Speaker 2: Lawrence are two dogs is like.
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  Speaker 1: A lot with Lawrence surgery having like five weeks ago.
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  Speaker 2: This is what I've been told, And she just said
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  Speaker 2: it's just a lot. Do you would you mind taking one?
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  Speaker 2: I was like yeah, all right, yeah, no, never again.
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  Speaker 1: But then you also said that you were about to
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  Speaker 1: go and you like went to this house party or
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  Speaker 1: something as like a pre game. There's points where I
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  Speaker 1: was like, I'm going to the festival and then I
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  Speaker 1: would go to the pregame and like they're drinking, they're
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  Speaker 1: doing extratracurricular activities, and deep down I was like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: this is kind of what the whole night entails. Then
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  Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, I Am gonna go home,
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  Speaker 1: hang out with my dog. I got my fix of
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  Speaker 1: hanging out with the people with the pregame, and then
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  Speaker 1: I would go home and stream it, and can I
• 17:33
  Speaker 1: tell you the when I would see people's tiktoks when
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  Speaker 1: they were like, Justin Bieber got done two hours ago,
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: still waiting for the bus to get out, I was like,
• 17:45
  Speaker 1: very happy I didn't go. They're just people who are
• 18:01
  Speaker 1: down for the cause and people who are not, And
• 18:03
  Speaker 1: it makes it much easier to be down for the
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: cause when you help ahead win no, and when you're
• 18:08
  Speaker 1: also a little fucked up. I did Coachella in my
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: twenties when I had first moved out here pretty much
• 18:14
  Speaker 1: every year, and there was nothing like it. It was magical,
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: but I was also heavily intoxicated, popping edibles, dancing around
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: the grounds, cackling my ass off, having the best time.
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: You think I'm worried about what time the bus gets here.
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: I don't even know where I am, let alone do
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: I understand the concept of time and how it works,
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: and sun ups, sun down all the same thing to me,
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: Like I want a different planet. That would be nice.
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: But I'm all here, baby, and I'm only thinking while
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: I'm watching the concert, or while if I would have
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: been watching it, I would have been thinking getting out
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: of here is going to suck. Exactly and then I
• 18:52
  Speaker 1: wouldn't even enjoy what's going on. Yeah, so I just
• 18:54
  Speaker 1: enjoyed it for myself. Basically, sobriety is living so far
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: beyond the moment you go into a panic and you
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: just end up staying home. It's great. I even at
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: the house too.
• 19:06
  Speaker 2: I walked to my buddy and I was like, I
• 19:09
  Speaker 2: don't want to be like a party pooper, but.
• 19:12
  Speaker 1: I may go home. And they were like, dude, do
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: you man? All of them were like you are such
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: an amazing guy, like to do that for your were
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: getting sober. That is the one thing. They were like, dude,
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: you want anything. I was like no, I'm like I didn't.
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: I'm not like, yeah, I'm sober. I was like, no,
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: I don't need anything. And then they'd ask you again,
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: and then I was like, I'm sober. And then after
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: thirty minutes, do you want to shot her anything? I'm sober? Oh? Yeah,
• 19:40
  Speaker 1: thirty minutes, so you need oh sober? Right, I'm gonna
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: get the fucking sober guy to go home. Bro. The
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: sober guy said he's leaving. Fuck. Yeah, You're like, fuck, dude, Yeah,
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: you're such a good guy. Enjoy that you're such a
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: go to your dog. Dude, you're fucking amazing. He left.
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: They were like, God, the fucking buzz kill. By the way,
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: I get it. I was killing it. I've been a
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: drinker and all the things, and the moment someone would
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: come in and be like, yeah, I'm just not gonna
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: drink tonight, I'm like, how do we get them? Oh,
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: I'm never calling them again. I did. They killed my
• 20:16
  Speaker 1: buzz before the real fun even kicked intch. So we
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: went to Senjara, which was so fun. They did have
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: like patron little cute lanyard things that they filled up
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: so you could wear it around your neck and it
• 20:31
  Speaker 1: looked like a little patron. So they walked up, they
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: grabbed him and they go and I was like, all right,
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: start chugging. And the guy looked at me and he goes,
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: are you sober? I was like, oh no, back to it.
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: Doesn't know. Yeah, I know. I'll make other people drink.
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: I'll be the first one to get everybody because everyone
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: I'm fun not drinking, but like, you need so much exactly,
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: I feel the exact same way, Like you don't have
• 20:52
  Speaker 1: to tell me. Okay, So how was that party? Apparently
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: they do that every weekend. It was Froday Saturday, Sunday. No,
• 21:01
  Speaker 1: but they do it every weekend in the desert. There's
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: always a party there. It was I mean, it was fun.
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: If I'm not a big d M or what is
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: the other one, like house music type stuff, house music.
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: I can get along with a house music electronic dance music.
• 21:18
  Speaker 2: I think house is not as aggressive as e DM. Okay,
• 21:22
  Speaker 2: correct me if I'm wrong.
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know, but I'm not like into
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: like the diplo or marshmallow or like meat meat meat,
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: meat meat eat. It's like, oh god, So that was
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: going on. It was fun.
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: It was really fun, but like lights are blaring. I'm
• 21:39
  Speaker 2: guessing if you were on drugs, it was that's what
• 21:41
  Speaker 2: it's meant for.
• 21:42
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so me sober. I had another sober homie. Okay,
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: so we were just like walking around and after like
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: an hour and a half, I was like, I want
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: to get the hell out of here or what.
• 21:52
  Speaker 2: And it's what was so crazy is I was talking
• 21:55
  Speaker 2: to the other friends we were with and I looked
• 21:57
  Speaker 2: at them and the clock is at two o'clock in
• 21:59
  Speaker 2: the morning. The party closes at four, but then they
• 22:03
  Speaker 2: have an after right next to it that opens at five. Yeah,
• 22:06
  Speaker 2: so people were just going to that and I was like,
• 22:08
  Speaker 2: what's crazy is I'm looking at the clock thinking it
• 22:11
  Speaker 2: is two am. They were looking at it panning, like
• 22:15
  Speaker 2: it's only two am.
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: Wait? Really? Yeah, That's when I knew I had to
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: get home. We were on different rails, Like, I was like,
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: iddi's and two and they were like, yeah, it's only two.
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: It's like, oh, we're different boats. Different boats. You know
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: what's wild is. I don't know if it's sobriety, if
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: it's children, if it's a combination. But I look back
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: and think like I used to be so much fun,
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: And now when I look at the clock and let's
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: just say it says seven forty five, and I think
• 22:45
  Speaker 1: it's a coming, I'm gonna watch Housewives. That's the game plan.
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna catch up on Housewives. And it's seven forty five,
• 22:51
  Speaker 1: I think that's gonna put me at eight forty five
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: almost nine. Rap time. Then I want to do my
• 22:59
  Speaker 1: nighttime routine, which is three hours for me. It's a
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: long time. I just bitter pattern here. Yeah. I dick around.
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: I dick around until I dig around. I go in
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: and out of my bathroom probably a hundred times, and
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: I don't even know why. I'll put a movie on.
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: I'll walk in my bathroom and it'll make me laugh,
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: and I'll go back out rewind it and rewatch it
• 23:25
  Speaker 1: while I'm like doing something, and then I'll walk back
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: in laughing. Yeah. Like I'll look and see a split
• 23:29
  Speaker 1: end and I'm like, I'm gonna trip my split ends now.
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: And then I'm like, you know what, I'm gonna put
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: some oil in my hair. You know what, I'm gonna
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: do some sort of T Tree mask, like T Tree
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: oil mask. I have the best time, but by the
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: time I think about all of that, then I'm exhausted.
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: Like I don't have to I don't have time to
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: watch Out's Wife. I got to start now the dicking around.
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: And by the way, you guys know, I've had a
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: huge addiction to Unison for the past. I want to say,
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: like once my life took a turn and I just
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: couldn't sleep, Unison became my best friend. And I've never
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: experienced like especially when like I'm having a very very
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: stressful day and I know how it's going to end,
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be able to sleep. I'll finally fall asleep,
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: wake up with a pit in my stomach, sheer panic
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: around three am, and then the whole entire night of
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: sleep is shot. Anyway, I have been back and forth
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: with my liver enzymes being extremely high. And what's wild
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: is when I go in to have the initial blood draw,
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: it comes back with them being super high, and so
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: then they go back and test it and they've dropped
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: to normal. And this happened twice. It happened when I
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: had to up my insurance or my life insurance for
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: the kids, and then when I had my surgery, and
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: I let them know, like I haven't had a drink
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: in over seven and a half years, so like, let's
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: also take that into consideration, and then all of my Actually,
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: when I was talking to my guy for the lif
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: life insurance, he was like, Lala, like you got you
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: can tell me if you've been drinking. And I was like, no,
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: I have not had a sip of alcohol. I was like,
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: I'm actually concerned about that because something's going on. So
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: I went to a specialist and he was like, what
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: are you taking? And I told them all of my
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: supplements and I said, and I've been taking Unison and
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: he said, and how long have you been taking unis
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: on for I gave him the timeline. He goes, Okay,
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: that's not going to affect the liver, but like you
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: should definitely stop doing that because there's something in it
• 25:25
  Speaker 1: where consecutive use, long term use their you know, science
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: is showing that you could get early onset dementia. I
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: was like, whoa, holy shit, don't love that. You know,
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: we have no control over what the fuck is going
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: to happen to us in the future. So I'm going
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: to try to like curtail it as much as I
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: possibly can. Anyway, I have this concoction that I take. Now,
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: you guys are going to die. So I started off
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: right before I brush my teeth with two Lemmy sleep gummies,
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: brush my teeth, get into the bed, get prepped right
• 26:04
  Speaker 1: put my show on. Take two magnesium. I like Thorn Brand,
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: Thorn with an E. I take all of their vitamins.
• 26:11
  Speaker 1: It's like my new brand, take two. And then right
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: before I know, it's like time to close the eyes,
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: I'm ask sign fell down to volume five on the
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: TV no, because it just clocks out. It just it
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: just stops playing. Are you still watching? And you're not,
• 26:30
  Speaker 1: and I'm I have the mask on, so I don't
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: fucking know. I take one more, so I'm on two
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: let me sleep coummies. Three magnesium. Yeah, maybe we talk. Wait,
• 26:40
  Speaker 1: really is that bad I take? I take two sleep
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: gummies because it says to take two. Yeah, and that's
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: all I take when I take thirty minutes before bed
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: and if I can't sleep, well whatever. The magnesium is
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: fine because on the bottle it says take four a day.
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: Uh oh, I don't take that. Have you ever tried
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: z quill. I'm not taking z there's an alcohol in it.
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: It doesn't matter if there's alcohol in it, I trust.
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: I just don't know that that would be literally for sleep.
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: It's for sleep. But what the problem is, Easan is
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: I have a problem sleeping every single night. So taking
• 27:19
  Speaker 1: zquill is for people who maybe have a rough night
• 27:23
  Speaker 1: of sleep like that also is not for long term use.
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: I go to bed actually pretty late. Yeah, I just
• 27:32
  Speaker 1: like to start the unwind process, getting in my zone,
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: like looking at my schedule for the next day, getting everything.
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: Because I was about to.
• 27:41
  Speaker 2: Say, because me and you have been like texting at
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: like ten thirty or eleven even just about like podcasts.
• 27:46
  Speaker 2: So I'm like, wow, you went to bed at nine,
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: but she's still up to all right.
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't feel as bad. No, the unwine process
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: and you guys know, who are parents like when you
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: have to be boots on the ground all day long
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: and the kids had a fucking long day yesterday it
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: was like swim lessons gymnastics. When I tell you Sosa
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: was knocked out by six ocean in bed by six
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: forty five and completely knocked out. I had a heyday.
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: I was like, this is the best time of my life.
• 28:17
  Speaker 1: But you like, you need that downtime. No, yeah, you
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: really do.
• 28:21
  Speaker 2: But that's why revenge sleep is actually a term because
• 28:25
  Speaker 2: everybody's doing it.
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: You all need some U time. We all need us time.
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: Do you feel like once you left Coachella and now
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: that you're home that you are powered down? Like I
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: know you had a great time, but do you feel
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: like you really yeah, like that's so yeah. I've been
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: telling you though, like I needed to do things like this,
• 28:45
  Speaker 1: you know, like I E, yeah, you're identifying. Yeah, but no,
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: it was fun.
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: I got I did the best of everything I did
• 28:52
  Speaker 2: the little pregame, so I got like everybody's energy, good conversation.
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: Once it started to loop, I was the fuck out. Yeah.
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: And then after you know, there were there were like
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: little after parties, and even if there weren't, we would
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: go to somebody's house and just like hang out and
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: chill for a bit, and a couple of people came
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: over to the house and we sat in the hot tub,
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: like four or five of us. So there were just
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: like little things that we did. But like I was
• 29:13
  Speaker 1: usually asleep by one. So you feel like you got
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: the best of both worlds. You got to like go
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: out and have social time, experience things that Coachella had
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: to offer, but also took time to retreat.
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: And yes, do you're saying and I think that, I
• 29:27
  Speaker 2: mean not even when we went to Salt Lake for
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: like nine days or I did.
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: Oh my god.
• 29:33
  Speaker 2: Yeah, Like there is I like being around a lot
• 29:36
  Speaker 2: of people, but I also like being around no one.
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: Yeah. It's like you reverted extrovert, where like you you
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: can be a social butterfly, but you take on a
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: lot of energy, so once it's over, you have you
• 29:50
  Speaker 1: recharge alone. Yeah. Yeah, so I'm that same way, and
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: Mom's not. She can have twenty four to seven together daylight.
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: I need to just like go and decompress alone, I know,
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: So I had to have that. I was like, I
• 30:02
  Speaker 2: don't need to go with all of that.
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: Right, Like I my time with you guys.
• 30:06
  Speaker 2: Yeah, and like like we said, there's they're all on something.
• 30:09
  Speaker 2: I'm not trying to put in twenty thousand steps to
• 30:13
  Speaker 2: like just be you know, twenty thousand sits always. But yes,
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: I feel recharged. I feel rejuvenated. I feel very creative
• 30:22
  Speaker 2: because I was like doing that and just like yeah,
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: meandering on the computer.
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel good. I feel great good. Yeah that
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: makes me happy.
• 30:29
  Speaker 2: I feel bad because when I came home, I was
• 30:31
  Speaker 2: like just for next week, and I was like, all right,
• 30:34
  Speaker 2: that's why I feel bad about because Lisa's hip surgery
• 30:38
  Speaker 2: and I'm like, well, I just had this weekend.
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: Yeah she's having but yeah, but that's different because you're
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: only going to be gone a few hours. And I
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: have heard so our mom's having hip surgery. She's got
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: like bone on bone arthritis type shit happening. And I've
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: heard that the surgery is actually great and life changing.
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: But obviously surgery is scary to go, Like, yeah, put
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: in I had to get her like a toilet seat
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: that's elevated, and I had to get her like it's
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: a workout step stool to get out of the bed.
• 31:08
  Speaker 1: Something for the couch so that she doesn't ever move
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: her legs higher than a ninety degree angle. You didn't
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: need to worry about that anyway. No, when you sit,
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: when you sit down in your leg your bum kind
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: of goes down in your legs when you puts your legs. Yeah.
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: So no, I'm glad that you had the best time.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: We missed you. I've been in a funky spot. I'm
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: hoping to get out of it. Yeah you know what, Yeah,
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: well it's fine. Hopefully I made you feel better. Yes,
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: I told you. I heard the door open and I
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: was like, well, no, even just be being me with
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: just over just guys being guys. You know. Yeah, it's
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: a lot though. I'm like, how was I so open
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: for the universe to bring me something? Then? And it
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: brings me something and I'm like, really, this is what
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: you brought No, it's great. It's just when you open
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: yourself up to like bringing another person into your world.
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: This is what makes me nervous. Is it's like, oh,
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: there are times that like I'm gonna be let down
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: and I have no control. And there are couples who
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: have been together for twenty plus years, and I'm sure
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: after twenty plus years there are moments that each person
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: could recall to be like, yeah, I was disappointed at
• 32:18
  Speaker 1: in that moment, or yeah, I've contemplated divorce at that moment,
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: and then they work through it and then I wrote
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: it out. Yeah. Yeah. But because I am kind of
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: new to this, there are sometimes curveballs where I'm like,
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: I've been operating by myself for so long, like even
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: with my ex, like he was never fucking around. I've
• 32:39
  Speaker 1: I've been emotionally single, I feel for probably ten years,
• 32:44
  Speaker 1: like real single for going into the fifth So when
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: you're by yourself, like no one rocks being a third
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: wheel better than I do. I thrive as a third
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: wheel and now that pressure no pressure. But also like
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: even when I had my person, I was kind of alone,
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: so it just still still third wheeling, not even associated
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: with this guy. Yeah, but now I'm going into this
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: new phase of life where I'm like, Okay, this is
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: what we told the universe that we were open to,
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: and I'm having to do a lot of learning and
• 33:14
  Speaker 1: relearning and trauma work. And I'm obviously not perfect. I
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: can stop the yard pretty fucking quick when I feel
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: a certain way. All I'm having now to reel it
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: in because I certainly don't want to traumatize anybody. Just
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: a lot. It's just a lot. I'm tired. I would like,
• 33:33
  Speaker 1: I don't want to traumatize anyone. Welcome back. Do you
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: have an ache and relief t T I'm going to
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: start us off, Yeah, start us off, Start us off.
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: So my ache was definitely having one of the members
• 33:57
  Speaker 1: of the family gone. You were missed, your energy was missed. Yeah,
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: there were so many times I'm like, I just need
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: to like go to the backhouse and just like talk
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: it out with Easton. Not the same. And then I
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: want to say that my relief was WrestleMania, which I
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: told you all about and I want to go every year.
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: It was a magical experience. I appreciated the fans, like
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: that those fans are fucking everything and very welcoming. Yeah.
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: Amber and I were like, we've never been, and they
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: were like, oh my gosh, it's amazing. Let us know
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: if you have any questions. They were like so cute.
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: I love that, and there were a lot of like
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: pro athletes that are into wrestling, like football players and
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: basketball players. I was looking around. I was like, she
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  Speaker 1: was near my future wife and had no idea. Oh
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  Speaker 1: the influencer girl who's like she just just beautiful as
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  Speaker 1: could be. Okay, I didn't see her. How is it
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: I've never been Would you take me? Would you? We're
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  Speaker 1: going next year? Okay? What's your ache and relief? My
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: ache is? Can I be honest? I don't know I
• 35:08
  Speaker 1: would have on cloud nine? Wow, that is I really
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  Speaker 1: was thinking of one, and it's like I could make
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  Speaker 1: up one, but I really don't have an ache, and
• 35:17
  Speaker 1: you don't even have an ache to relief? No, Like
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: my body feels good. I got my shoulder taken care of.
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  Speaker 1: Like there's like I've been we got.
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  Speaker 2: That are little things cooking in the pot that I've
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  Speaker 2: been working on.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, life's fucking great. This is why you don't go
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: out and date, because your happiness is contingent on you
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: and only you. No, I will say, I get it.
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  Speaker 2: I there's been times after like you know when we chat,
• 35:45
  Speaker 2: all of us, and then we dismissed to our own rooms,
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: Like I feel terrible when I'm like, I'm laying in bed.
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  Speaker 1: And like, yeah, I think of you, and I'm like,
• 35:53
  Speaker 1: oh broken. I know, but I don't even know why
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: it is what it is, I know why you put
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: yourself out there and then you feel like it It's
• 36:03
  Speaker 1: almost like when you your house get gets robbed, like
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: you feel like it was a personal attack. So like
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: you feel like when you put yourself out there.
• 36:10
  Speaker 2: You feel personally, even though it may not been anything
• 36:13
  Speaker 2: to do with you, it feels personal, you know. Yeah,
• 36:16
  Speaker 2: So you're like, why would I put myself out there
• 36:18
  Speaker 2: to be hurt or to overthink the things that I
• 36:20
  Speaker 2: already overthink.
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  Speaker 1: Right, we'll have a bounce back. I just you know
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: what it is. I have trauma from other places, and
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: when something triggers that that's new, I immediately just who
• 36:33
  Speaker 1: I am, put the guard back up, and yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: Well my relief is being home with you guys, to
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: be honest to you. Great. I love that. Yeah, perfect,
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: being home back into the the pod. Yeah, the daily routine.
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: Yeah that's nice. I'm a routine guy. I found it. Oh,
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: I get it you guys. Thank you for listening to
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: another episode of Untraditionally La La. I love you. Remember
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: we have a bonus that comes out on Mondays. You
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: can catch a regular old episode on Wednesdays and reminder
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: and unlikely Affair with Myself and my exes ex Amber
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  Speaker 1: Childers drops Thursday nights Friday mornings. We'll catch you there,
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  Speaker 1: Love you bye,