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The Secret to Leadership (Featuring Greg Riley) · Jess Ask

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  Hey, it's your girl, Jess. You've just entered a safe space for
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  questions so we can keep the conversation going. Now, let's get into this
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  week's episode. Okay, wait, hold up, wait, wait, wait,
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  trying to get up another way. He not my man. We got
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  to do them yet. We haven't even down the hyper answer nothing start already
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  yet if the white goal one one five two fold five seven, we in
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  the mic, the MC high we are we already in them leading and then
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  already okay, yeah her vote, just go ahead. Yeah, let me
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  introduce hey people, YouTube world, YouTube, all Spotify, Apple, Apple
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  podcasts, all the folks. I heart radio. What if y'all listening to?
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  I had to introject because I had my brother here. I can't even
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  call him my friend anymore at this point, I have my brother, the
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  Gregory Riley. Greg Riley's is short. Um, I'm super excited for you
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  to be here, man, like, oh you, I just really wanted
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  him to get back into what he was about to say before he like,
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  this is those I want to do pro you know a church people gotten told
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  but let people know what voice they're hearing. So um, man, we
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  what youre do? We well, we didn't know of each other yea,
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  yeah we um. Our relationship started in twenty nineteen. Yeah, around the
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  time my grandmother back. Yeah. I was like, it's twenty nineteen.
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  I know you always remember because that was a yeah, so um gregy and
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  not funny story. And when we're gonna d them getting up too, because
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  I'm the top on the top about that traumatic experience. Oh don't be of
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  being my manager transforming into the leader right, because I think I can.
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  I think it's fair for me to say I came in a transformative time for
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  you understanding from manage it. Wow. Yeah, you came at the time
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  and I was transitioning from being an elite salesperson to realizing that my gift towards
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  and helping King Poopa come a week. That's good. So we we're probably
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  them being is today because de'sl Ray has already experienced the conversation started before the
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  cameras. See this seems like just seems like what's going on. It's working
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  for one shout out to my girl. That's Alrey Danielle. If y'all haven't
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  gone on, make sure you can click the link that's attached to YouTube album
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  music, whatever you're listening to, you're seeing us. Let sun click that
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  link. The big girl, but the girl dising gimp in the show,
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  y'all. Yeah, all right, So I'm gonna let you introduce yourself and
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  then we're going to go back into that fertile ground no more different. Yeah,
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  my name Greg Riley, Motivation to speaker, Leadership development coach. I'm
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  a father, I'm a son, I'm an uncle, I'm a husband,
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  I'm a brother, and all those titles are very important to me because each
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  one of us do something different. And one of the things about me is
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  I really believe in self development because I think that as people, we can't
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  get to where we are without there. And so that's who I am.
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  Yeah, so who you are. We're gonna spoll some more because my gun,
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  my boy, my boy, oily And it's such a pleasure to like
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  it be able to one host you on my platform, like I'm super brookol.
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  So y'all, this is one Okay, y'all. When I said that
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  I was gonna do just ass you were still at the branch right where you
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  still at the branch transition, You were transition, okay. So I didn't
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  start it until after you left, so it were it did not okay.
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  So there was a lot of transition going on, all right. So his
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  promotion led to my promotion, and now we get to have an even more
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  unique relationship because I understand now what he was actually talking about back in the
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  day. That don't don't even comment on that end, don't even come it
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  out, that don't do it, don't do it, don't do it,
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  don't comment on it. So h bank to the podcast. I know I've
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  mentioned till you deservate last week some week ago that father Howard was pushing me
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  to do the podcast and I told you, and you was like, yo,
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  Jay, you gotta do it, Jess, you gotta do it.
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  And I'm like, anytime I doubt myself his if he if he cust,
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  he would he would cust me straight out. And that's how you can be
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  starting. I mean, Greg, I don't like it at the time where
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  it isn't because it's because it's a thing. Right. You have a gift
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  that sometime you hesitate to believe in you, right. And I feel that
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  God put people in our lives to help us find the courage to believe in
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  their guilt could courage me in doing it. The phrase so we need people
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  to push us to do it a phrase and you definitely did that. So
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  he pushed me to the point where he got on my last nerve. This
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  is one person I know I saw brought in ballot like people that support me.
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  He hasn't listened and I'm not gonna get emotional. Nope, nope.
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  By the place, by the place, wha um. He has listened to
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  every episode, good or bad. It's true, good or bad. And
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  he's the lason why I did I get some good feedback? I trust him.
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  Like if if I didn't have an episode come out a j watter episode,
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  is that like these a few weeks that you had to wait, I
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  went here and call him and say, hey, guess what happened there?
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  So I would not get a fall call of why haven't you done this?
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  Right? And so I I'm so honored that you're hearing because out of every
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  out all them, a lot of people in my life, do you definitely
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  deserve to be your So I'm so happy that you're allowing me to host you
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  on my platform and so the new support so you get to hear your voice
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  on about it. It's gonna be weird. So let's get back. Let's
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  tap vacanto. What we were talking about when we was talking about the last
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  comment you made was basically being a mobile fertile ground. Yeah, so same
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  people. They are fertile story, So they're able to walk in the presence
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  of others and you immediately feel their presence and when they walk up, you
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  already agitated. It's some people, when they walk into the room, your
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  spirit already starts to move. And when you start to feel their agitation,
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  that's the opportunity to renew and revive. Now you get the opportunity to choose.
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  One of the things that I've come to realize is when somebody says something
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  to me, may have good intentions or their impure person and it starts to
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  agitate the way I think about things. They need to listen. Like if
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  I start to feel like how may need to lean in a little bit more
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  to pray to gather the understanding, so I then ant can apply the wisdom.
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  And some people are able to be fertile ground for others because they understand
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  their ability to serve and so they realize that by me being fertile ground,
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  I don't need nothing from you because I'm covering from God. So it's nothing
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  that you can do for me in this moment. I need to beat fertile
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  sawyer to you. And that goes into a lot of people know how to
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  give for not many, but know how to receive. We we talked about
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  that. I love Okay, I get a lot of back ground. Um
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  education for my boy, like to read if y'all want to books a million
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  on the route my boy. My boy read like, Um, was it
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  man good father bad father Wood? What's that father book? Good son versus
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  bad? So it's about a man. Oh yeah, I was reading the
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  book about fatherhood father which one of you, Oh no, it's rich dad,
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  poor dad. Don't think about rich dad, rich dad. Point dad
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  helped me to get started in the real estate. Yeah. So, um,
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  we won't get into your story because you have a unique story, right
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  because you go from shout out to jack Jackson, Mississippi. Lady, he
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  don't rip that damn. But you come from you come from Jackson, Mississippi.
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  You took a step of faith or leap of faith. It's living comfortably
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  by the way because you you you like money and you you like wedding.
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  You know some people and there's nothing wrong with that, like some people white,
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  which you know, you gotta talk music. It's like we're talking about
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  traier and so you took a leagal faith with our our NINETI five right,
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  and you went to a town where you had nobody, you knew no one,
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  nobody but God right. And one of the things I was thinking about,
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  like, okay, lord, like you know, me and my dude
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  we talked about everything, like you know, you know some stuff. So
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  where do you want this conversation to go? And one of the things that
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  he was showing me was a candle and you being in an apartment with a
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  candle, do you know don't go away? Yeah? I used to let
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  the counters at my apartment yep, And that was my space where I got
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  my thoughts together. Can we talk about that time, like what what?
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  Why did you make the decision to leave Jackson because you you you know you
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  had it I was I say you had it made because you were in a
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  predicament where you could say where you would you minimalized your your outgoing or what
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  was coming from out your responsibilities basically h and your bills or whatever. And
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  you were winning, like you were winning where you were. But you took
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  a leap of faith and said, Okay, I'm going to stretch. Yeah,
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  it's a promotion. But there was a promotion somewhere in a foreign in
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  foreign territory. So how did you get to that space and what happened in
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  that in that space? Well, I can't tell this story without first give
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  an honor to my mother and my father. My mom is a school teacher,
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  so all she known all her life the servant and my father has been
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  a community leader back in our city because I can remember, and so having
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  them in my life and having them to push me and being the oldest and
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  not getting everything I wanted and built something in me that were the word no
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  I used for a building block to success. And one of the things about
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  me I love challenges. So when I get to a place if I'm dominating
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  or if this I feel it has become easy, I get bored, and
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  then the other part that there too is I did start to understand that Jackson
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  needs help. At some point I wanted to be able to go back and
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  help. And my thought process was, if I can go out and learn
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  from other places, what can I then bring back when it's time to be
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  able to help my city. So that was my thought process on leaving this
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  city, going out on my own. It was a hard time for me.
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  I left and went to Montgomery in January. In the April of twenty
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  eighteen, and in November twenty seventeen, I found out that my mom had
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  cancer, and so was a very trying time for me. While I honestly
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  did not want to leave and sob my mom had a very good relationship,
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  and I expressed that I had the opportunity to promote and I said, hey,
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  I really don't want to leave. I want to leave you, and
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  she said, if I'm the reason I hold you back, I never better
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  deal with it. And as bad as I did not want to go,
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  at their point, I had a stamp of approval and now I knew that
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  I had to go and do something. Once I always told my mom,
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  I said mom, I'm wanted to go pro. I used to think it
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  was going to be the NBA, the nfield. When I started to realize
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  I'm gonna go pro in life, right, and so that looks like something
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  totally different than what I ever imagine and me being up under her wing mean
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  being up under my mom, bunder my father. That entire time I realized
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  what level of pro was I going to reach? Because the reality is,
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  as much as I love my parents, it's a selling to where their mindsets
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  and they thought process are And how am I to break the ceiling by being
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  on in the same roof to hold them? He said, he that did
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  you gotta isn't gonna saying like, hey, I am so this? Oh,
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  because all the folks to when't use pro in life and yell they
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  used to like suck pro life fine in pro life, they don't think.
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  They don't say I am I am going pro in light like? What does
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  that look like? What does that even mean for somebody that is not as
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  fluent invert virtual like you will? So essentially what that looks like is one
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  of the things that we have to do is define what we want. One
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  of the hardest things I'd like to do isn't define what you want wants.
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  You define what you want everything else come become easy because you can find somebody
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  else to did what you did right. And so one of the things that
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  I've come to note isn't the way that I impact people in the way people
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  impact me. And so the first step for me going pro in life was
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  being able to uplift those around me. And so when I was a leader,
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  which I thought I wasn't leader, let me preface that, when I
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  thought that I was leading and people wasn't following me, I thought it was
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  them and not me. But the Book of Life wants tell me that Bible
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  said in order to lead people around you, you got to first lead your
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  home first. So going pro in life, let's like lead my marriage.
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  That's so good. It's leading my brother, it's leading a sister. It's
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  being a rock or anchor for my mom and my dad. It's being an
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  uncle that can lead the family. It first starts being able to lean those
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  a ground. That's the first stept for me to go on pro in life.
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  So what is that? How how did you do that? And you
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  mentioned that thought you was leading. What's the difference from when you thought to
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  you understanding that you actually are, Like, what's that seeing when you when
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  you think you're leading? It is all about you. See I thought I
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  was leaning because I was doing well. But were the people around me doing
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  well? That's something? Why What wasn't the opportunity that I had while helping
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  people get in other positions so they can do well as well. See,
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  it's not enough when I'm just doing well. It's in different between running the
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  hunting me to dash in the track and running the four about four hundred meter
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  dash. Jes, you in the line four about four you got to make
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  sure when you hand off the beton somebody else there to receive. Let me
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  warn y'all. He talked to the sports languages like it's sports me sports metaphors.
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  So we might get some Lebron James stuff, some Kobe that's his guy,
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  Kobe. I was. I was with you when Kovid passed away.
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  Oh he would hurt listening picks. He would hurt. And so what was
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  a working? I don't know what I thought I was gonna do with.
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  Yeah, he speaks in sports, so I didn't learned a lot of sports
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  in at the four So I mean track so when you when you running track
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  track is wore one of the most individualized sports. So if I'm running a
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  hunt of me to dash, she just me racing against everybody else, even
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  against my own teammate, And this is my race, is just me.
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  As long as I'm good, I can win the race. When you run
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  in the floe about four, that mean you have four different people running a
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  relay running the race together. So at some point they have to take them
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  baton and you gotta hand it off. If you drop the baton, you
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  have to go back and pick it up, and you lose time and everybody
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  get ahead of you. So who are you handing enough baton off two?
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  Once you start to develop, who are you handing the baton off two?
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  Once you realize you at a certain level, At what point do you want
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  others to run just as fast as you? Because we have to remove the
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  mindset of scarcity and move into the mindset of abundance. Just because I help
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  you, that's not mean there's nothing nothing else for me. That's so good.
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  That that's so good. Okay, don't forget you just because I thought
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  of something. There's a race. So remember we just had all the tie
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  with coach right, shout out the coach of the again. And so we
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  just had that time with Coach D and coach j D and wanted we did
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  an exercise bro like it was a pretty doupe dope exercise and when it stretched
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  us and looking at so see stretched us somebody giving us the name of a
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  lady in the Bible, ladies name that no one really references, right,
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  and so um we had when she teamed us up. So we had thirty
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  minutes to come up with a six minute and delivered like a message. Right,
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  we's right, y'all being good, y'all being good. Oh, and
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  so we had this thirty minutes to first of all, look up who who?
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  This was the deal with some people that we did not know. Come
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  up with a message. So we're not just giving information like oh this who
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  we was, No, you gotta come up with a message about this woman's
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  life, right, about who this person is. And most of these women
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  maybe had no more than six verses about them in the Bible. So she's
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  strengthened us dogs like this, See's strengthened us. So mind you, So
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  we have to present this and with of course in front of it everybody and
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  we get feedback, right, and so it's me and Miss Carl shout out
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  the miss car we go. First of all, the process of even just
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  getting the information down together was interesting because I had my way of thinking and
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  she had with her thinking. She is great and I'm great. I get
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  reveluce on the information she get like, so what I'm trying to figure out?
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  How does that and go together? Right? Right? And so it
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  taught me that whole process of figuring out the information going by the knowledge,
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  embracing the strims and understanding of what we had to do, and being delivering
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  it with her. We had to deliver it together. Now you know how
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  much I can just talk, you know, and you know when I got
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  win, I go win. So I ain't like for one, I missed
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  my queue to start talking. I missed like que. The second thing would
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  happened was that I missed an opportunity to pass her back to tell I'm about
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  the I'm about them. I missed the opportunity to give her, give her
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  space to get to say what relatory information that she had. The team noticed
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  it right there was like good job, I love the energy, love this
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  or whatever. But she was trying to she was she has under something else
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  to say, Right, I didn't even notice it, didn't notice is going
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  to come in because I was listening for specific words and didn't notice when the
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  passing back to her. And so what that taught me was that what you
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  just said. Yeah, it's a team effort, but you have to be
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  self aware to be a good team player. Self awareness, breege choices.
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  Let's go, let's talk about it. When I become aware, I can
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  now choose. So if I understand what a trigger to me is and I
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  see that trigger coming, I cannot choose how I respond to that trigger.
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  That's so good because I am self aware, so I can now choose.
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  So now that you are aware that you miss the handoff, you are aware
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  that you missed the QTE that next time you speak with someone, if you
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  miss, you're choosing to miss because now you aware. So by coming to
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  self aware, it will move their excuses and yourself awareness becomes your accountability and
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  it makes me responsible. Man, I can't believe it's been in a full
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  year. Yeah, it's been a full year of transition and promotion, right
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  and so um for the longest time, y'all the company that were with one.
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  It was pushing me to promote and I was just like, nah,
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  I was for one. I kind of had a traumatic experience and I were
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  moving or trying to I was kind of still traumatized. Then in the midst
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  of that, I had went through this bad break up. Oh, Greg
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  greggon went through a life without went through this bad breakup, and um,
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  I think I had don't given up on myself. I think I think I
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  think it's fair to say I've gave up on myself. Um, and so
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  what frustrating grig as my leader? Do you want to say? It said?
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  What frustrated me the most is that what frustrates maybe most is that what
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  we just it's in general, it's in general, it's a generalized statement,
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  or frustrates me. To me, you got to be clear because the people
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  we're talking about mother get there. Okay, Well, frustration we need the
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  most is when you see a person that has such a gift, in such
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  a high level of potential, but they want to remain potential. And so
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  it's so potential is the ability to develop. You have the ability to develop,
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  but you never develop. And so what frustrated me was that you have
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  all this ability. You have all this ability, but you allow the spirit
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  of fear to hinder in corner your ability because because you fear the responsibility.
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  And that's why I was getting it so glagin yo, That's why I was
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  getting nick And I'm gonna give you. I'm gonna give you a quote that
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  changed my life. Back in January this year, one of my mentors told
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  me, he said, as a leader, it may not be your fault,
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  but it needs your responsibility. Right, So when you're leading people,
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  it may not be your fault that they did what they need, but it's
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  your responsibility. And so as leaders handing them returning, we have to show
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  people that they have the ability to respond to their ability. Wait, because
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  hey, you don't real what you just said. Yeah, say to him,
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  you have to show people leaders that we have the ability to respond to
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  our ability responsibility. But you said, but it's basically what I just took
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  from what you said is that you have a responsibility to let go of the
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  patuna. Isn't much as I have to grant b that's right, that it's
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  almost that the idea of the simultaneous need of you to move out my way
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  and for me to be able to move into it. It's the same thing
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  of me moving to Montgomery and standing under my mom's room. If I would
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  have stayed under her wing, I can never fly. That's good because she
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  is my mother, and I trust what she was saying. He is my
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  father, and I honored their father, so I trust he was saying.
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  So I was never. I wouldn't say never. I was hesitant on finding
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  my own voice as a man. So I leaned the horne and I developed
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  my voice. I get to develop me, I get the experience me.
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  I can just see myself feel I can just see what I'm bad at,
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  what I'm good at. I don't have that chrich Creach is not righte.
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  When they moved, I fall. So when I fall, I scraped my
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  I gotta remember how do I not scrape my arm again? So you needed
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  me to get out the way because I would becoming a crutch. Anything you
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  wouldn't do, I would do you right and so and so you needed me
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  to move so you could flourish because I wasn't. I was not going through.
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  I was not promoting, not for me. Not I was, y'all.
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  I was really choosing to stay in a place Um, I was comfortable,
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  Like real talk, we ain't gonna go too deep into it. Where
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  I was comfortable, I hadn't go let's go let's meet on the couch,
• 25:40
  right, So so let's let's go deep. So let's let's talk about Let's
• 25:44
  talk about why were you okay with just being comfortable? Because right you had
• 25:48
  a podcast you have just asked, right, you were gonna flourish? Ain't
• 25:52
  doing your thing? Why are you okay? Why were you okay? What
• 25:56
  it's being called? Oh? So financially I was straight? Right financially,
• 26:06
  Um, I was like, okay, I can live off the right.
• 26:10
  Greg at the time, let me tell y'all, I'm like when I say
• 26:12
  vulnerability on the Max with him, like we I don't think it's an area
• 26:17
  in my life that hasn't been touched in my relationship, Like we speak about
• 26:21
  a lot. Financially, I had gotten to a point in calm wise that
• 26:29
  was good. But Grig taught me how to manage my lanning. And you
• 26:33
  know, we still talk about this to this day, but he helped me
• 26:36
  build my credit. UM, shout out to you, because you you were
• 26:40
  literally a big help towards getting things done for the love lady center, Like
• 26:45
  if I didn't have good credit at a time, who was, like,
• 26:48
  I wouldn't have been able to That's a that's another word for somebody like,
• 26:52
  we can't be out here trying to. Oh, I want to help.
• 26:53
  I want to help, and you you broke help books. Broke people can't
• 27:00
  well the broke people. Hey with y'all filtheed each other the same piece of
• 27:04
  brilliant okay, but so financially I was straight um. But most of all,
• 27:15
  I didn't trust my ability to run basically almost the most a million dollar
• 27:22
  business if you break because he's the numbers guy, so he broke down.
• 27:27
  I was afraid of numbers. I was Oh, I was afraid of numbers.
• 27:30
  So let's pause right there. So when you think about that fear,
• 27:36
  oh, not wanting to lead a million dollar business, was it the business
• 27:40
  or was it leading the people because you didn't feel like people would follow you?
• 27:42
  Which one was? Oh, first of all, you are not about
• 27:47
  to turn into a council session, because that's all that's sad, like,
• 27:51
  ain't trying, he's trying, ain't trying it. I'm trying me y't even
• 27:56
  spending all on the folds. But Okay, I answer your question. Don't
• 27:59
  don't dick. It was the people. So my experiences with the current people
• 28:07
  frustrated me, and I was just like, of course I and even it
• 28:11
  was back to when I was younger with not me feeling like people didn't like
• 28:15
  me, like me and my sister talk about it all the time, like,
• 28:18
  um, where I didn't know people and they can try to tell him.
• 28:21
  I know people did not like me in high school like it was.
• 28:26
  Don't even try to play me like I didn't know you. You didn't like
• 28:29
  me for whatever you reason. Didn't like me in college spade a spade keeping
• 28:32
  movement, right, So I took that no matter how hard I tried,
• 28:37
  I felt like it was never gonna be enough. So not only it wasn't
• 28:42
  just in that era of being at work, it was in my relationships.
• 28:47
  I had just got out. You know, well the guy was with as
• 28:51
  soon as I get this new house, get this new opportunity, and all
• 28:53
  the stuff like that, I'm doing so well, you did like, what's
• 28:57
  going on? I can't even keep I can't manning to keep relationship. So
• 29:02
  something got to be wrong with me, So don't even put me into in
• 29:04
  the running everybody, everybody a little in Grig. When I first got there,
• 29:11
  you know, all our clients were like, okay, where Greg and
• 29:14
  what it is? And it seemed like Griggs had this supercate bone or whatever
• 29:15
  I was. I cannot feel those shoes like I'm I was comparing myself to
• 29:21
  him. But and Sen And that's why I love about our relationship because before
• 29:26
  before I felt like um, and it's something I worked with you on.
• 29:30
  There's a ray is that I don't want to always seem like I'm taking right,
• 29:33
  I'm not up. We talked about and you just said this earlier,
• 29:37
  how do you receive? Right? How do you become a good receiver?
• 29:41
  I'm a bank ahead, you know, and you know this, Well,
• 29:47
  let's talk about that, right. So when we talk about giving the receiver,
• 29:52
  the heart has four ventricles, has four ventricles, right, if the
• 29:57
  heart is if you if the heart, it's giving blood, but it's not
• 30:00
  receiving blood without hard pump, We're gonna die. So if we are able
• 30:07
  to give spiritually, we're not able to receive spiritually, what would they lead
• 30:14
  us? So there's a ray So that and now and now we can get
• 30:22
  into the true root of why you was afraid to take over the location had
• 30:29
  nothing to do with the numbers. The root is the parts of the relationships
• 30:33
  and people from your past. The root is that you always feel you're giving,
• 30:37
  and then you feel that you're never receiving. But at the same time
• 30:41
  you may not know how to receive. And then once you didn't even deeper
• 30:45
  than that. If we don't know how to receive, then we can't even
• 30:48
  receive constructive criticism in ways where we not offended and were able to move forward.
• 30:56
  That's where I struggle when I first became a leader m because it wasn't
• 31:02
  necessarily what they were saying, it was how they were saying it mm.
• 31:07
  And once I realized when somebody told me, hey, bro, you gotta
• 31:11
  put that to the side, and when somebody talking to you, you have
• 31:15
  to be able to decide for what is the meat and spit out the bombs.
• 31:18
  And so that's the next phase on how we move shrom okay. We
• 31:26
  go from here on and afraid to receive it to okay while we're afraid to
• 31:32
  receive it, and then once we open up to that we are afraid to
• 31:36
  receive it, start praying and working there now I when admissions not conveyed that
• 31:38
  what we wanted to, how do you move forward on it? That's good.
• 31:45
  And I will say that even in our relationship, I can't I know,
• 31:51
  I can't go on base to our relationship. And I guess this is
• 31:52
  where God wanted me to us to be on a land because I feel like
• 31:56
  there's a uniqueness in our relationship. For one is not a tap to take.
• 32:00
  It'sn't give, it'sn't give and take right, and so I feel like
• 32:04
  it's a mutual understanding. Um, And I didn't know that until you.
• 32:10
  This is good. So when you being a leader and having somebody like a
• 32:17
  strong I was strong guy. Look we ain't, oh got let's be transpared.
• 32:23
  Me and Grid we toughed it out. And Jessica is varied. You
• 32:29
  can see opinionated, opinionated or vocal both. I mean, pinon ate.
• 32:36
  It can kind of calm off, listen, I'm not I'm not no sinc
• 32:39
  I'm opinionated too. It's like sometimes I may think what I'm saying is a
• 32:43
  fact. You may think cinepine because you might not agree when so that wouldn't
• 32:46
  be So it's like you vocal and you opinionated, and then as we just
• 32:51
  talked about sometimes it was hard for you to receive constructive criticism. But I'm
• 32:54
  so much better. Oh god, I'm so much better. So i'd be
• 32:57
  I'll be honest and transparent here and I tell anybody that this to that management's
• 33:01
  going forward. Jessica was one of the things that he was one of the
• 33:06
  reasons to help me grow my leadership because I am straightforward, do this,
• 33:13
  do that. I didn't give a lot of background to what I was doing,
• 33:16
  and somewhat of a micro manager. At one point, right and Jessica's
• 33:21
  came, this's a canon me and she said, this ain't gonna work.
• 33:24
  I said, what, I ain't gonna work. She was like, you
• 33:28
  telling me to do this and you talk this ain't gonna work, and like,
• 33:30
  but it's worth day where I've been. Why it's not gonna work.
• 33:32
  She was like, I'm not them, I'm different. Yeah, So like
• 33:38
  I'm like, okay. And the turning point for me was Jessica's from the
• 33:44
  quick on me. She tells me she's when the quick and the turning point
• 33:49
  for me that I had to realize I had to remove myself because I was
• 33:53
  so proud for and confident in what I had previously done. That was one
• 33:58
  hundred meter that's track on the right. I was so confident in what I
• 34:01
  had previously done that I was ignoring what you needed from me, right,
• 34:07
  And so it was one question I asked her that changed our relationship. We're
• 34:12
  having a one on one and it took about two hours. Yeah, you
• 34:15
  know. And at the end of this one on one, I said,
• 34:17
  if you was me, how would you manage you? She was too ready
• 34:22
  for that question. But that's but that is all that shows. Okay.
• 34:27
  So if if you're the leader, I'm I'm complaining about needs with folks.
• 34:31
  If you got a leader and you could do an all this complaining and all
• 34:35
  that stuff like that, and you ain't ready to show what in hands or
• 34:38
  quota where we say manage up right, if you're not being able to provide
• 34:44
  feedback what you're complaining for because you have no solution. And when I said
• 34:50
  how would you manage you? She started talking. I said, hold on,
• 34:53
  let me get something right this down. I wrote it down, and
• 34:57
  this is the two fall leaders. When somebody tell you how you want how
• 35:00
  they want to be managed. Number One by actingly listening, you're showing respect.
• 35:06
  Number two, you gotta follow what they say because if you're gonna commit
• 35:10
  to asking that question and you're gonna commit to writing it down, now you
• 35:16
  having to commit to what you're commuted to. You gotta commit you committed to
• 35:22
  because now your word is your bond. Yeah. And so once she told
• 35:27
  me how she needed to be managed, and I started managing her that way,
• 35:31
  and then she didn't like it because I said, whole, it's what
• 35:37
  you said. I didn't make this up. You made this up. So
• 35:42
  now we're in a position to where either we're gonna do it my way again
• 35:45
  or we're gonna have to see how we're gonna judge your way because this is
• 35:47
  what they said. But guess what, that's us learning how to pass the
• 35:52
  batona right, all right? And that's the thing that's so it. It
• 35:57
  creates healthy relationship because this is so good and you I want you to stop
• 36:02
  me whenever you feel the flow. But healthy relationships are confused with I like
• 36:08
  it all the time. Healthy relationship need constructive criticism, It need good feed
• 36:17
  that go ahead, go ahead is man, it's so powerful that you say
• 36:22
  that. I'll let tell a podcast two weeks ago, and they was talking
• 36:24
  about marriage. You're talking about marriage, and one of the things that people
• 36:30
  say is that a great marriage has to have compromise. And would you drive
• 36:36
  across a compromise bridge. No, do you want your immune system compromise?
• 36:42
  So why would you be in a compromise relationship? Right? So what you
• 36:50
  just said, what you just said was so powerful, because why everything we
• 36:57
  want it was on the other side of comfort. That's fat and it's good,
• 37:01
  and the relationship is not just about I like everything. But that's why
• 37:07
  in the previous question, I asked why you were so comfortable because you wasn't
• 37:13
  going to elevate where you are today until you face conflict because you was compromising
• 37:17
  with yourself. Yeah. Right, And so our relationship did not evolved until
• 37:22
  we face that conflict and went through the conflict. Some people want to go
• 37:28
  around, you have to go through. But see if we would have made
• 37:31
  the compromise while drift across team from the bridge. We have to face that
• 37:38
  conflict. One of the reasons I married my wife is because she was good
• 37:44
  at comfort the resolution. Why wait, four weeks, I'm sorry, I
• 37:52
  haven't stopped that digit here with the man dolls. She compression shout out to
• 37:57
  you by your husband says he made one of the reasons why he married you
• 38:00
  because you wan't gonna hold bad You was gonna confloted. You know what I'm
• 38:05
  saying, you want and you aren't gonna beat down some of us have.
• 38:10
  And this is just a relation. I know this in a relationship podcast,
• 38:14
  but you know since I brought up the fake that I had on that successful
• 38:16
  relationship, Um, sometimes we were we pulled back who we are because other
• 38:23
  folks can't manage it. Other people can't And this this is something that you
• 38:29
  taught me when when when that relationship all things broke when that person reveals himself
• 38:37
  and just saying, hey, I'm out right you you used the starter,
• 38:44
  but you made him very clear, like you're not Silla, No, this
• 38:46
  is not you. You strow somebody somebody gonna get him, but were gonna
• 38:51
  focus on you, like you need to focus on you. You are too
• 38:53
  that you are too that you got this much money. You got ducked like
• 38:57
  for one, he knew my paycheck, like he knew much. I was
• 39:00
  like, You're like, bro, like get yourself together, like no,
• 39:04
  this is not it. And so it's beautiful that you you just said,
• 39:08
  you don't know how many women you just free. Like you with your statement
• 39:15
  right there, like you just freed a lot of a lot of women in
• 39:17
  general. Um, And even when you poured into me and say, hey,
• 39:22
  like no, I like the fact that you, just like you just
• 39:24
  said, our relationship gotten better when we just dooced it out for two hours
• 39:30
  and I talked to him about everything, even what I don't I know already
• 39:34
  know he's gonna say something and get on my nerves. I know, even
• 39:37
  to say something to agitated me and give me, you know, to the
• 39:40
  next novel. But I do it because I trust them and build truth.
• 39:44
  And let's and let's go back to the beginning of the pod when you talked
• 39:46
  about going pro in life. Okay, you said that when their relationship had
• 39:52
  been I said, you feeling to develop yourself, you fouldn't do this?
• 39:57
  What was I What was I really saying? You feeldn't go pro in life
• 40:00
  because everything you want is on the other side of heart, everything you want
• 40:07
  is on the other side of horror. Why there's your conflict. You have
• 40:10
  to go through the conflict. And so sometimes a lot of times in relationship,
• 40:19
  we shrink who we are because we feel the other person can't handle it.
• 40:22
  You're compromising, You're driving across that compromise bridge. At what point do
• 40:30
  you become who you are and give them the opportunity to go through the conflict
• 40:36
  to see everything held handle it. You're blocking blessings is not even meant for
• 40:44
  you to block, because self awareness bridge choices. They are not even nowhere
• 40:50
  who you truly are, so they can't even choose to be with the real
• 40:52
  you. They not even know where who you really are, so they cannot
• 41:00
  even choose to be with the real youth. You are making choices for them
• 41:07
  because you are shrenthing who you really are. But then we are wondering why
• 41:14
  we're not in a relationship, or we're wondering why relationship not moving forward,
• 41:19
  But we're not even realizing that we're contributing by shrinking ourselves and not giving that
• 41:25
  person and the option of choosing to really want to be with us and choosing
• 41:30
  to get better to be with us. Going I first, me and my
• 41:35
  wife. I couldn't even express my feelings, I could even express mysef.
• 41:39
  I had to go to therapy to express my feelings to learn how to do
• 41:44
  that. She knew that, but because I was open on the fronting,
• 41:49
  she knew there's gonna be a struggle for me. So she chose to end
• 41:52
  of that conflict with me. And now we're on the other side and I
• 41:54
  can express my feeling. But had I not did that, we enter into
• 41:59
  relationship and now we're trying to have a conversation and I can't express and she
• 42:04
  like, hold on by your being aware. You didn't tell me about this.
• 42:07
  You didn't give me the opportunity to choose, and these who I really
• 42:09
  didn't want to be with, bro like do I didn't come closer? So
• 42:15
  you am I still living as my post still posting. You're like, but
• 42:22
  it's so man hat him twice away. Yeah, give me an option to
• 42:30
  figure out and you I almost said something. I have to wade in my
• 42:35
  words because I know how we really thought. What that's that's my frustration at
• 42:45
  any level relationship. So even when we talk about business, we talked about
• 42:47
  entrepreneurship, we talked about creatives. When I don't have the option or know
• 42:53
  all of my options, I don't know what's on the plate where you didn't
• 42:57
  cover the plate what you want? You want really? Aint no who you
• 43:00
  want me to eat blindly? And I what do I not eatingrid? I
• 43:07
  want the whiff half they put mushrooms in it. She made me drive back
• 43:10
  twenty minutes ago chapter she did not eat mushrooms. So I'm eating much froom
• 43:15
  blindly something else. I can say it all, but I can't see what
• 43:20
  it is. That's because you had me eating blindly, right, and so
• 43:25
  basically your wife had the confidence to be herself. She had the confidence to
• 43:37
  be herself, whether it was broken herself, whether it was frustrated self,
• 43:43
  what it was happy self. She showed you every area and said, hey,
• 43:47
  this is me. You showed me you, and we're gonna go with
• 43:51
  it. I think that's not just we marriage out. I honor you so
• 43:53
  much for it, just being being able to see your story. I know
• 43:58
  you. You aren't saying when I met you again, just made Capricia when
• 44:01
  I met you? Or what, yeah, didn't dating her? So I've
• 44:05
  seen you from dayton to engage to m married to now a father who were
• 44:14
  gonna get to that greglan Gel all right, So um, what it's It's
• 44:20
  just it just warms my heart and I can't even see Desi rais, that's
• 44:22
  kind of light up, like, oh, watch this, your marriage gets
• 44:30
  to show. This goes back to the timid the verson who talk about the
• 44:35
  way you treat your marriage allows people to trust you in business. That's so
• 44:40
  powerful, man, that's that's so powerful. Because I was talking to my
• 44:45
  gud daughter about she's struggling with choosing a friend, and she was talking about
• 44:52
  the girls that's pretty and wanted to fit in. And I said, I
• 44:57
  choose my friends based on how they treat other people. Immune treat other people
• 45:01
  bad. I cannot be friends with you because I have core values that I'm
• 45:07
  not going to compromise to be your friend. And one of my core values
• 45:10
  integrity, high level communication. Right, And so it's like, if you
• 45:16
  can't, if we can't communicate, we can't even resolve conflict, that's so
• 45:22
  good. If we can't communicate, we can't even trust each other, how
• 45:25
  can I trust you? By being solving So you're ask somebody a question,
• 45:30
  they remain silent. That allows you to think what you want to think.
• 45:36
  And if you think they lying, in you think they lying, how can
• 45:38
  you trust it? So when people say, what's your top thing in relationship?
• 45:44
  Some people say trust, I say communication and so and I And what
• 45:51
  I also want to share with people is one of the things I finally believe
• 45:55
  in. This is in leadership, This is in self development, this is
• 45:59
  in your marriage. Is if you saying good? It's in your business.
• 46:02
  Every church, every business, every down profit, every game has a vision,
• 46:12
  a mission and core values. Come on, now, that's good.
• 46:15
  Why don't you? Why don't you? And then when we talk about core
• 46:21
  values, Okay, if you go to a job, When you go get
• 46:24
  a job and you go to orientation, they training you on the core values.
• 46:30
  What are they doing? They are saying, if you step outside of
• 46:34
  what this company believes in, you have to go. So, why we
• 46:38
  are in a relationship and people step outside of our core values? Why do
• 46:45
  we stay? But we love ourselves? Though? Why do we stay?
• 46:52
  Now? Either either either you don't believe either there's either that's not your core
• 46:58
  value. Number one, you don't trust your ability to be without that person.
• 47:06
  Number two or number three you're not set for ware. So you can't
• 47:09
  make a choice. And so we talk about going pro in life and what
• 47:19
  does that look like? What is your vision? What is the vision for
• 47:22
  your life? Because your vision is your GPS on where your life gonna take
• 47:27
  you? When you read the book of the Amya and he went to go
• 47:30
  face the wall Jerusalem. Once he dialloaded his vision, he didn't see everybody.
• 47:36
  He went inside the city and he prayed over his vision for he releads
• 47:38
  it to the world. What vision are you having that you are praying over
• 47:43
  before your meets to the world. What's your vision? What is your mission?
• 47:45
  You're formular for your mission statement, You're formula for your mission statement is
• 47:52
  passion and purpose over identity and can be a real formula pass in purpose over
• 48:01
  identity. So my mission is to make money while helping people, but my
• 48:06
  mission is to also create new leaders for the next generation. Right. That
• 48:09
  has nothing to do with being a father and then it tests to being a
• 48:13
  father, and then it tasted to being a husband. None of that.
• 48:15
  Why because that any given to any given time, that title can change.
• 48:21
  Wow, if you are only if you identify your mission, it's only being
• 48:24
  the mother that child was to die. Your identity dot with it your mission
• 48:31
  dot. We So we have to do the work to identify our mission without
• 48:39
  attaching it to a title. We have to do that work and then we
• 48:47
  have to take it a stre further and choose our core values. Keyword is
• 48:52
  core values. Core values. Core values are the components of the culture or
• 49:00
  the components of a culture that a company will not compromise for a short time
• 49:05
  success or financial game. The company will not compromise only even valiums for a
• 49:14
  short time success or financial game. And this culture. Men, if you're
• 49:22
  gonna be a part of this body, in this company, you have to
• 49:24
  buy by these values. How many people you have in your life inside of
• 49:29
  your culture that your alliance had to be a part of for a short time
• 49:34
  success and stunt financial game. But you know that's not who you really are,
• 49:39
  y'all. I ain't gonna lie. We normally don't do this, but
• 49:44
  we just had to take a hot break, like, hey, do you
• 49:49
  like this? We don't be real and you talk about transpans and we just
• 49:52
  had to take a hot break because my dog just the grid rallity. He's
• 50:00
  just worried. And you know how coaches, we're talking about ministry and market
• 50:06
  place and how there's a merging like when when when when Jesus went after the
• 50:13
  disciples, he went out in the disciples of the market disciples were in the
• 50:20
  marketplace, and he made them fishermen of media. And so yeah, like
• 50:30
  Jesus went in the church looking for follows, he was in business businesses.
• 50:36
  He was out here for suching for the entrepreneur. He was out of searching
• 50:38
  for the word argis because that's where the people are. That's what the people
• 50:45
  are people in the now. That's a Oh my wife would tell y'all just
• 50:53
  have random along, man, So just off the real like, okay,
• 51:00
  so what we were just talking about, uh was the ppizza. So we
• 51:06
  have to have vision, we have to have a mission statement, and we
• 51:08
  have to have the Corps values. So this is a transparent moment um.
• 51:15
  Um, So I'm immediate that I've been dealing with. Um. I've been
• 51:22
  in a transition and I've started and stopped this podcast on the back end fighting
• 51:30
  depression, all right. And one of the things that I've been fighting for
• 51:37
  is for what I want. But then when I wanted to write it down,
• 51:43
  I couldn't. Let's speak there though, So right now we're gonna try
• 51:50
  something. Oh, I want you, I want you to close your eyes
• 51:58
  and I want you to envision you trying to write what you are and when
• 52:02
  you try to write it and you see that you can't write it when you
• 52:07
  feel that pain that is in your body, then my stomach. Now I
• 52:13
  want you to do a quick prayer and just ask God, why do I
• 52:17
  feel this in my stomach? Why my stomach does any experience as of memories
• 52:24
  come about about why you think that you cannot write your vision down? Can
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  you feel it in your stumait? That's the face that you just had a
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  revelation. Oh what I hear is that I'm digested something that I need to.
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  I think it's it's none or they hate you know, regard to say
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  it's okay. I was trying to make sure that that I digested some words
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  or understandings, because the stomach is what holds your intake. But I have
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  not had the bowel or removal. And so what we just did was we
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  just showed their fear peasytly man in fest itself inside of the body. And
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  when you close your wives and think about what's stopping from moving forward, you
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  can't easy cly feel that elment. You can easy cly feel that right.
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  And so what you're doing right now, you're facing the conflict when you feel
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  the fear, and you prey upon their fear and you ask God for the
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  vision of the memory. Help you can get hash their fear. And once
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  you conquer that, you'll be able to write no problems. So when stella
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  compromising, oh sorry and just sitting what they're feeling in our stomach, now
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  we can get the action still to confront that feeling, that confliction, not
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  be get to confront their confliction. Then get to the other side and write
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  down everything. So, um, while we on our little bread, you
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  brought up the sack that first of all, I thank you for that.
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  I don't know, you know, I don't trust those through that with me.
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  And then be on the camera so you've got the only morning all that
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  and all the others. Little feetle down. Okay, y man, you
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  know I'm gonna say this right now because somebody needs to know. I'm proud
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  of myself because sometimes I can be so much in control, like which y'all
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  didn't see all the carerible I'm gonna be so either he said this boss lated
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  jos Ya'm I'm I getting boss lady is right. Um. When I'm talking
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  to business, are doing business? Um, but I trust you so much.
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  Um O relinquished control in that moment, even though this is my platform,
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  right, I'm doing air quotes right now because this is a platform that
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  I never envisioned for myself. This is something that was placed into me.
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  And then now there's a ray has become a purpose partner, um tangileblin.
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  You know someone that's like, Okay, that's that's uncomfortable. You really want
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  to keep doing this, right, And so now I'm a purpose partner who's
• 55:53
  also my accountability partner. And then I have you are so many things should
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  like my friend, my brother, my pussha and I just had to I
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  literally had a religious with quote relinquished control. And I think that's um the
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  importance of one of the importance of relationships, like evening what you're talking about
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  your marriage, Like there was no way that speaking on capricious side with hers
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  standing up in the saying hey this is now, I'm not gonna do this.
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  And it gave you the choice, like I had the choice to relinquish
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  control them all. I could have said no, I'm not closing my eyes,
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  right, And so there's a trust factor that is needed. And so
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  the question is how do I grow trust in relationship and then trust also enhances
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  the vision, the mission, and the core value. Man, that's that's
• 56:53
  an amazing question. So the way you grow trust in the relationship is by
• 57:00
  being impeccable on your word. So if I tell you one plus one is
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  two, but then I make it three, I just helped you not trust
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  me. Oh while, on a very basic level, all right, the
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  way you grow it in relationship is by committing to what you committed to in
• 57:21
  the relationship. So if I approach you and me and my my wife then
• 57:29
  girlfriend, gonta girlfriend and boyfriend, and we said we're gonna be exclusive,
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  but then I cheat, have I given her reason to trust me? Because
• 57:38
  sometimes trust operate as a glass. Once you break that glass and you try
• 57:44
  to put it back together, it never fitsts it. Yeah, it's still
• 57:47
  gonna be a cook, but it's never gonna be the same pristine that you
• 57:57
  once brought. Yeah, now you may have to start over, get a
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  whole new we're the young person. That's possible. So that's step one.
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  The other thing is one thing in leadership that I have learned is that we
• 58:12
  have to be able to submit inside of the leadership. And what people don't
• 58:17
  understand about submission. Sub means under. You have to be willing to be
• 58:24
  under the mission. Mission means calling. So could you have to be under
• 58:30
  the calling? So when I submit to being a leader, I have to
• 58:36
  be submitted. I have to be under the calling upon my life. M
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  So. So this is the thing we talk about relationship, We talk about
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  trust. People think only women should submit. Men have to be under a
• 58:53
  calling as well. At same times, you have to learn how to submit
• 59:00
  to somebody else. Street that's the other part of hassing the batime, the
• 59:07
  way you get there. It's tough self development, since you can't get anywhere
• 59:15
  without getting on that boat or self development. One of the things I had
• 59:17
  to do myself. It's this peel. It's about it didn't be about did
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  tall and a real hard to swallow car reality sky reality. Sometimes you gotta
• 59:31
  looking dead in the middle of at a camera. You gotta like dead in
• 59:37
  the middle of that mirror in your mad froom. You gotta just take that
• 59:39
  peel of reality and stop lying yourself. I made him vow probably about three
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  or four years ago, that the one person I would not lie to is
• 59:49
  me. I would stop lying at me. Yeah, yep, I gotta
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  see it with my truth. Can't nobody trust me if I don't trust me?
• 1:00:00
  Wow? And nobody trust me if I don't trust me, which is
• 1:00:06
  why I trust started self developing trust his work. Trust is sometimes transactional.
• 1:00:14
  You said you're gonna show up at this time, but should up at this
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  time? So kind I trust you're gonna be on time. And so it's
• 1:00:22
  all about still learning yourself and becoming aware. And so it's like one of
• 1:00:30
  my favorite quotes is what consumes you? Grooms you? What is consuming you?
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  And how is it grooming you? If I consume my hamburger, I'm
• 1:00:39
  gonna have heart disease from McDonald's. If I concerned that my whole life,
• 1:00:42
  I'm gonna have heart disease, it's gonna be grown in me right. But
• 1:00:45
  if I consume the right food, is gonna grow me to be a healthy
• 1:00:49
  individual. What's consuming your mind? And how is it grooming your mom?
• 1:00:54
  And so those are things that we have to see with to ask ourselves.
• 1:00:59
  And we first trust our be so quick to run other people to get other
• 1:01:05
  people to want to trust us because we never got validation as a child,
• 1:01:08
  so now we're seeking it as an adult that we never even thought about trusting
• 1:01:15
  our sil When we say we're gonna do something for us, do we even
• 1:01:19
  do it for us? We say we're gonna show a fly silk or fly
• 1:01:23
  our silk. So it makes it allow harder to trust you. If I
• 1:01:27
  don't even trust me, it really ain't got nothing new with you. I
• 1:01:30
  don't trust me, And so when we talk about trusting and relationship, then
• 1:01:38
  it's where it start. One of my I called him my mentor, but
• 1:01:43
  he did diaristed soul doctor Miles Moro, like that's my guy. Like I
• 1:01:52
  wish he was still allie today. I ain't gonnain't keep it, but that's
• 1:01:55
  my guy. And one of the things he said about marriage, he was
• 1:02:00
  like, Brad, it's missed me. Help. He said that if you
• 1:02:04
  get married at thirty, theyn't get married at thirty, that sixty years coming
• 1:02:08
  together they aren't the numb about each other. M while there's sixty years merging
• 1:02:15
  together that knows nothing about each other. You could you saying I do to
• 1:02:22
  everything you don't know? You are saying I do to everything you don't know.
• 1:02:30
  So then you trust yourself enough. Did you believe that you can evolve
• 1:02:37
  within the relationship and it submit and be under submission and be under the calling
• 1:02:45
  on the relationship with God and the relationship with your partner. Do you trust
• 1:02:52
  in that? And I think that's what we have to start, Like we
• 1:03:04
  have to start there, like we can't we can't skip steps, like we
• 1:03:10
  can't ignore we can we can't skip steps. We can't ignore it. But
• 1:03:17
  if you then skip steps, ask usself, where would you mean to back?
• 1:03:27
  And so I think to start trust in relationship, I think it's very
• 1:03:31
  practical for us to start without sail. He want some water? And how
• 1:03:45
  many times I get species? Not at all? Malvery, I'm it over
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  here. Yeah, I know. I like to talk me and I have
• 1:03:55
  like a revelation on top revelations with the usis. I just feel like I'm
• 1:04:02
  in glass, like I really do, Like I don't know, I don't
• 1:04:06
  even know how to respond right now. Um one, I will say this
• 1:04:11
  though, um earlier you were talking about going through and you know, I
• 1:04:18
  see stuff by bimpathy and THEO. You were talking about sketching stiff. So
• 1:04:28
  this brings it back to you said you can't go around it, you have
• 1:04:32
  to go through it. And the Bible even talk us about what Jesus says,
• 1:04:36
  no one can come to the Father except through me, right. So
• 1:04:41
  it's a lot of through in the in the Bibles. Even when you think
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  about um, the Israelites, Yeah, you can get to the promise,
• 1:04:48
  but through the wilderness. Man that that just told me right there when I
• 1:04:54
  said it. And so it's like your level or your not short inability because
• 1:05:01
  we're all able to go through because God, because God is able when he
• 1:05:05
  created us in his image, that image of his power belongs to us to
• 1:05:10
  right. So we have the power of the authority and the dominion to go
• 1:05:13
  through everything, to to step on step on serpent's head. We have that
• 1:05:17
  power. We can we can go through anything. And not only that.
• 1:05:20
  And just watch this, I even see hear the lords say, not only
• 1:05:24
  to go through it, but I provide the for the th earth. Because
• 1:05:28
  when we were talking about manna, it is what it is like, it
• 1:05:30
  is what it is. And God provided manna in the wilderness process. He
• 1:05:35
  provided what was needed to get through to the promised land. Right. And
• 1:05:41
  so when we say, hey, I am, it's not the inability to
• 1:05:45
  go through, but it's the unwillingness to go through. And so that goes
• 1:05:48
  back to what you were talking about heart posture. Man, what you said.
• 1:05:54
  It was so good When you just finished that, all I thought about
• 1:05:57
  was strong enough along the mill? What in me? Are you gonna be
• 1:06:01
  strong enough long enough? Yit like? Are you gonna be stronger than the
• 1:06:11
  long enough to get through? And I want to go to the Bible app
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  right, queen, just because you know, not even worse it out to
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  fall and it's and it's because, like these the folks on on the podcast,
• 1:06:29
  I ain't gonna there to see what I just mean, y'all if y'all
• 1:06:30
  listening right now. So I'm gonna tell you, Oh why, God,
• 1:06:36
  I don't know what this game me. So So we're in Ecclesiastics, chapter
• 1:06:43
  eight, verse fourteen, and m they said, and this is not all
• 1:06:49
  that is meaningless in our world. In this life, good people are often
• 1:06:55
  treated as though they were wicked, and wicked people are often treated as though
• 1:07:01
  they were good. This is so meaningless. So I recommend having fun,
• 1:07:08
  because there's nothing better for people in this world than to eat, drink,
• 1:07:12
  and enjoy life. That way, they will experience some happiness along with all
• 1:07:18
  the hard work God gives them under the sun. There's Ecclesiastic chapter eight,
• 1:07:24
  verse fourteen and fifteen and New translation version. And the reason why I wanted
• 1:07:29
  to read that is because some people think because they are good people, bad
• 1:07:32
  things won't happen. And it's good people. We have to understand that it's
• 1:07:42
  an ugly part in the Gospel, and it's good people we have to be.
• 1:07:48
  We have to pray on the going through. We have to pray to
• 1:07:55
  be strong enough long enough to receive what God has for you. Is it
• 1:08:03
  fair? I never seem to win to fair one time in the Bible,
• 1:08:06
  and somebody to find it for it the fairies for animals where they judge pigs
• 1:08:11
  and cows. So let's just take that out of bivocabul. They're fair eno
• 1:08:15
  unfair right? And so it just that was a revelation for me when I
• 1:08:19
  rid because I'm like, God, I'm a good person. Why this happening
• 1:08:23
  me? I like, I'm care of you good. I need you to
• 1:08:28
  be for me and lead my people and pray on going through. So are
• 1:08:34
  you going to be strong enough long enough? I was cutting in grass this
• 1:08:38
  morning and I was thinking about why do companies want people that are resilient?
• 1:08:45
  I thought about like, what is resiliency. It's the ability to be able
• 1:08:47
  to bounce back into respond. Right. But the way you become successful is
• 1:08:53
  being consistently resilient. If you're resilient just one time, then they tie,
• 1:08:59
  they gonna knock yea one. So are we consistently resilient with our walk with
• 1:09:04
  God? That would lead us to be strong enough, longer enough, and
• 1:09:10
  have the belief and the obedience to get to the promised land. That's so
• 1:09:14
  good. I was, well, I think we were talking about this,
• 1:09:16
  probably a couple of weeks ago desertate. Um about big picture thinking in the
• 1:09:20
  danger of it because we were talking about light or something like that. Um,
• 1:09:30
  I know, I'm a big I see I see it as a right
• 1:09:33
  up saying how I see the picture that I was. Yeah. So we
• 1:09:39
  were talking about how our relationship is working. Because I apology. I was
• 1:09:43
  like, I don't want to come off this, you know whatever, you
• 1:09:45
  know, I still I'm worried about everything. But she was like, no,
• 1:09:49
  Um, this is good for me because I am learning how to zone
• 1:09:54
  in on the details right, and what one thing that we don't like to
• 1:09:59
  do, we like for everything to be told to us. We won't thank
• 1:10:00
  you. Oh, the spirit, the same power that resides and him resides
• 1:10:04
  in us. And so if he's giving us the power, thank you.
• 1:10:08
  So when you watch this video, this is a shameless plug, and you
• 1:10:12
  have not watched the there's a simmon or a Bible teaching that a Bishop Teening
• 1:10:17
  Jakeson just did. Um this pass Niku, and it's called the power to
• 1:10:23
  stop y'all. When I tell you, I was on the airplane bawling like
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  bawling. And one of the things he talks about um in Joshua I know
• 1:10:36
  you love Joshua. Um. He came from Joshua five one through fifteen,
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  and one of the areas of that of that passage, he was talking about
• 1:10:48
  how the manner ceased and they were forced to eat I think the meals of
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  the Canaanite, right, And so his reverlation of that was that you are
• 1:11:02
  so used to looking up now into to look out. So I'm changing your
• 1:11:09
  focal point. I'm changing where you from what now. Yeah, I'm the
• 1:11:14
  daughter from vision, but I'm also the God of provision. I'm the god
• 1:11:20
  I can I can drop it down, but I can also give make you
• 1:11:25
  a farmer. I can make you I can make you appreciate what I've already
• 1:11:29
  done. I want to see. I want you to see outwardly, because
• 1:11:31
  the promise ain't right, the promise coming right or the promise scholars are right,
• 1:11:35
  the vision, the promise coming from the forward movement and for or thinking
• 1:11:39
  forward, gathering right. And so as I'm as I'm repositioning you as you're
• 1:11:45
  going through this process. As he talked about the mouth and manner and the
• 1:11:47
  method y'all have, y'all, I'm not I cannot go into this, but
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  he talked so good. But that was one thing that he spoke on.
• 1:11:57
  He said, God is what the direction is God providing. If you're still
• 1:12:01
  looking up, you're missing the outwardly provision. He ceased that, because that's
• 1:12:06
  what you needed. That was who That was the provision of the wilderness.
• 1:12:11
  And when you're no longer in the wilderness and you have no vision right,
• 1:12:15
  you have no understanding of who you are because oh watch this, let's talk
• 1:12:19
  about it. The first chapter of Joshua grid what does he say? He
• 1:12:24
  says, um yo, Joshua, most of the dead, and you are
• 1:12:30
  now the leader. I mean you to be bold and courageous. He said
• 1:12:38
  it three times, Grid, he said it three times. He called him
• 1:12:43
  one beautiful thing. I love about it. And now we've talked about this
• 1:12:45
  and first season he calls Joshua's name first. Then he gives them the command
• 1:12:53
  what does the name do? What do we just do? We're talking about
• 1:12:55
  what does the name mean or whatever? The name just solidifies the identify identity.
• 1:13:00
  So it's important for you to understand what your name is because at the
• 1:13:02
  time, every time you say Jessica, you say woman or will thank you
• 1:13:05
  for the thank you for the reminder. And so he says, Joshua,
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  be bald, andreage, courageous, woman of wealth, Jessica be bold and
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  courages being bald. And what I'm already called you club? What did that
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  say? What calling? And purpose over identity? My calling? This should
• 1:13:29
  my name? And then take it? Take it one more still? Safety
• 1:13:35
  man another stuff. Nah, people fail to realize that just because you were
• 1:13:43
  a leader, that's not meanly, that sometimes you're not afraid. Let's talk
• 1:13:48
  that talk and what people miss died also told Moses to mean bold and courage.
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  Oh wow, Moses was Joshua's mentor. That's so good. So at
• 1:14:06
  a certain point in Moses journey. When Moses was supposed to be leaving them
• 1:14:12
  to the Promised Land. He also had to hear, do not be timid.
• 1:14:16
  What am I saying? This for parents, as for leaders, this
• 1:14:21
  for husband and wives and anybody they're doing anything with people? Everybody needs the
• 1:14:30
  validation to be bold and correct. And you cannot miss the opportunity to validate
• 1:14:36
  your people. Because what God really was doing, he was validating them.
• 1:14:43
  Not only was he seeing be bold and courageous. Watch this courage comes from
• 1:14:47
  within. And God said, he saved me bold and created He said,
• 1:14:51
  being bold and courreated because I am with you and in you. So he
• 1:14:57
  is saying, call upon the power of me, because courage comes from the
• 1:15:00
  inside. So I am validating my power within you. You didn't rot in
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  the rouse, You didn't rot that thing around already? Will God? Because
• 1:15:15
  because what I had to realize was especially as men, Yeah, especially as
• 1:15:20
  men. It is not many women that validate their men. They tell you
• 1:15:27
  everything you're doing right, but don't tell you when you finally get it right,
• 1:15:33
  you're speaking right. And so what God did for Moses and Joshua,
• 1:15:41
  even when they missed up, even when they did wrong, even when they
• 1:15:45
  always wasn't in the right, he said, being bold and curates. And
• 1:15:49
  I am still with you and in you because courage comes from within you.
• 1:15:54
  So I am validate the power within you through your right and your wrongs.
• 1:15:59
  I still validate you because the validation is what push you over the talk man
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  it. So it was like he validated Joshua. He sold Joshua to me
• 1:16:13
  bold and courageous, but he always felt told his mentor at some point to
• 1:16:15
  vote and courageous. What does that mean? That meaning leadership? You will
• 1:16:19
  get afraid, but do you have the ability to do it afraid? Because
• 1:16:25
  the pure definition of courage is doing it afraid. So what does that mean?
• 1:16:30
  That mean I'm not allowing the spirit of fear to track because I'm going
• 1:16:34
  to do it afraid. Jesus was hungry, and then delb Wood tried to
• 1:16:45
  tempt him. But how did he fight spiritual warfare scripture? He fought it
• 1:16:55
  with scripture. He fought the war of any warfare with the devil with real
• 1:17:02
  and bullet coal scripture. And he did it. And he was supposed to
• 1:17:05
  bear his weakest bloody any just the who you have they talked, little up
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  of collegis to talk about um recognizing the NY tactics at least suck. And
• 1:17:20
  it's like if I'm not if if this is his own, if I need
• 1:17:28
  to go ahead, I'm not grounded in the word that I don't become sensitive
• 1:17:34
  to the spirit, so I'm not even unware of what's trying to attack me.
• 1:17:42
  So I can't You can't hear what you can't see. And one of
• 1:17:45
  the things that doctor Mark and I Roll talk that I thought that were just
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  so good. The prayer said that I candom come on earth as it is
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  in heav kingdom is coming to earth. What is a kingdom? A kingdom
• 1:18:03
  is a government with a corporate structure. So God has a kingdom, the
• 1:18:14
  en of Me has his own kingdom. How can you It's like you trying
• 1:18:18
  to go to war Russia by yourself. That's man. But but see,
• 1:18:25
  once you become a part of the military and army and y'all moved together,
• 1:18:30
  you may defeat. And so if you're not moving within a kingdom, how
• 1:18:34
  do you expect to defeat the in it? And that's why we have to
• 1:18:43
  be grounded in their foundation because it is Nig's level spiritual warfare. It's so
• 1:18:53
  it's so interesting here all about deals or y'all just don't know. Man.
• 1:18:58
  First of all, this is having definitely turned it to the Greek and show
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  or jiggle and jip, Greg, whatever, what we're gonna call your podcast?
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  My god, this is the introduction of his podcast. We're gonna we're
• 1:19:11
  gonna let y'all know when he come out. We all am you better property.
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  We donna let you know his podcast come out. But we're not already
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  talked about them. Oh what was called all that? Close your eyes?
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  It's a little to your eyes into a market deree. Oh Man, listen,
• 1:19:43
  Greg, I know I think this is um. It's so rewarding.
• 1:19:46
  Um now that I didn't think you want you say that, Well, I
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  gotta give your flowers. Oh, because if I'm being if I'm being transparent,
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  you are actually one of the reasons that I started going deeper into my
• 1:20:08
  faith to even get to this point. You was like an accelerant for me
• 1:20:15
  to be able to get there, the excelerant to put on the fire that
• 1:20:17
  I had any that I did not know I had in me. You talked
• 1:20:21
  about a prophecy earlier you gave me. That's not the one I remember The
• 1:20:27
  one I remember is when you told me that I was going to build communities
• 1:20:32
  and I was going to be a leader of communities, and foolish me,
• 1:20:36
  I thought that man real estate. But when you see it, go be
• 1:20:43
  a fisherman of men. It was prophesying over me to go be a fisherman
• 1:20:46
  of men, for me to build not just physical structural community, but to
• 1:20:57
  help build people while people are so helped build me. And when you said
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  that, I'm like, how am I supposed to do that? Like?
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  How am I supposed to go build an apartment complex tomorrow? Fool Ish me
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  tod when talking about apartment complex, at least not right now, he wasn't.
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  And so I have to thank you for being obedient when you didn't want
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  to, when it was hard, when you were crime, when you were
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  struggling, when you was at a place where you didn't even know if you
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  want to trust God, you were still turning there and you're still pray over.
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  You were still speak of prophecy, and then you were It doesn't line,
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  And I just want to thank you. And that's why I think community
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  is so powerful. You cannot have community without unity. That's so good.
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  And so I think that's so powerful to be unified within the kingdom, being
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  obedient in your blessings and in your power. You're anointing in your guilt even
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  when you're not fully trusting it, because that's the definition of faith, right,
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  And I just want to say thank you because I needed that push.
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  I'm not one I grew up being churches where I didn't trust the physical building
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  the church. So I had started kind of losing the thought of church.
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  And so it was like when you made me realize that I could pick up
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  a bob of myself and go just start reading. Because I'm gonna tell you
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  what did it for me. You was reading I think Samuel and Samuel like
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  four thousand chapters. Okay, that's true. And like, bro, she
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  did not miss a day day if she had on far from God? Like
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  what am I doing I supposed to be leading? Huh he No way I
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  can. And full transparency moment here, and I want y'all to like she
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  talked about the weakness of your relationship. What she didn't bring up the very
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  first time me and justicammit in person to have longer than a two minute conversation.
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  It was when she was signing her contract to become a manager. Always
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  the same him location, and our the lead manager. She was the co
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  manager with me and um our manager was in there. Our leader was in
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  there. Oh my god, that's our first time. Me and listen like
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  talker with two minutes. And he looks over at her. He looks over
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  at me, he says, and you're gonna be comfortable with her making more
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  money even though you're gonna be teaching her right. And at fair point,
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  I knew the relationship would be different because I knew I was not in her
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  life and she was not in my life for money, right. And sometimes
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  it's hard to leave when you feel like the person you leave it's making more
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  to heal, and when you don't allow money to get in the way of
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  what God has for you and what God has for them. Because guess what
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  I could have went into a scarcity in mindset and being upset. Instead,
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  we looked their ways to make both our chicks bill right. And so I
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  just want to say that because I want to paint the guy. I want
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  to give you context of a full relationship on she was making. She made
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  more than me the whole time he worked to go And I just want to
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  get that context because even with it, I saw a thing she was doing
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  within the spirit that pushed me to want to get stronger in the spirit.
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  And so I just want to I just want to publicly to say I hadn't
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  told you this off camera before. What I want to I want to publicly
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  give you your flowers and I want to help will be saying thank you because
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  we all need people to push us, like I know you saying Dean Gregg
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  riding and you making me sound better than what I am amazing. But the
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  reality is I'm not mean without people like you, but that people like my
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  wife, my brother, my sister, my mom my dad, like I
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  have to pay homage, I have to get honor, and I have to
• 1:25:28
  give credit with credit due, right, So I just wanted to say thank
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  you. Um we just said conversation so about the heart pump banging. Yeah,
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  so you received that. I am and I'm so one thing that Gregg
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  and I'm gonna try to say this about current. One thing that Gregg is
• 1:25:53
  working with me on isn't my transparency, and so I'm about to be transparent.
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  I's trying to get oh oof. So, like he said, he
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  said this before Um, I think the time and of it. Even now
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  my eyes are watering up having a tim roll swalman like shout, oh I
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  can I can receive it because I can trust him. Um, I know
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  he means it. He shows me that he means it. But even right
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  now where I am spiritually, Um, we talk about transition, Lord Jesus,
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  I'm trying to sit out my words right now, y'all. Great,
• 1:26:53
  great got it? Great cat come maybe once it for two years because I
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  didn't even going through in for seas what God? Um, So as much
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  as he's talking about this woman, then hum showed up and was, in
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  my word and um, motivating somebody. I obviously I admire him, like
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  this is genuine like this this ain't no whn't do She walked in the doe
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  and were in each other face Like, oh, well, this is a
• 1:27:30
  genuine relationship with somebody I admire. And you you take me back to a
• 1:27:35
  place. Um, you take me back to a place where I was fighting,
• 1:27:44
  and I don't won't say fighting, but I was then to know God.
• 1:27:46
  And it's I'm honest, if I'm honest in this space of transition,
• 1:27:51
  in this wilderness season, I mean, like see like I'm losing you.
• 1:27:57
  You know, I feel like I'm so like they ain't that cheek no more,
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  you know what I'm saying, And um us to be able to have
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  this conversation and when you to remind me or sold me, use me,
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  you were so committed, but then you still see the committed woman and you
• 1:28:14
  know that first one words of affirmation is I love like with stuff like,
• 1:28:19
  oh, but I needed to see that woman again. You gave me a
• 1:28:26
  vision of that woman again. I haven't been able to see her and I've
• 1:28:30
  been able to see the woman that could even though I've been doing it,
• 1:28:34
  but I just couldn't see it, and just being in that space of frustrating,
• 1:28:41
  like I can, I'm getta get on this podcast and I'm at you
• 1:28:44
  know, I'm not even trying to act like I'm okay or whatever. I'm
• 1:28:46
  not trying to have good conversation like because this watch this walking in purpose is
• 1:28:53
  a healing point for people sometimes, you know, thank you all the spirit
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  I told you don't bring this up. And so it's a difference. It's
• 1:29:02
  there's a difference between walking on purpose or b or walking on purpose and being
• 1:29:10
  a walking in purpose or let me for a phrase that purpose purposefully healing and
• 1:29:18
  in purpose in healing or healing in purpose. So that's why, so purposefully
• 1:29:24
  healing and healing in purpose, so purposefully healing you have an opposite to do
• 1:29:29
  it like in your in your in your season of where you weren't really speaking
• 1:29:32
  or doing out this. You sought out therapy, you sought out um counseling,
• 1:29:36
  you sought out ways to help and develop yourself. But I feel like
• 1:29:41
  I'm on the other side. I am God is not allowing me to sit
• 1:29:45
  down and heal. He's like, No, you're gonna walk this thing out
• 1:29:49
  and you're gonna you're gonna expose. You're gonna do jess as you're gonna do
• 1:29:53
  naturally evoting, You're gonna raise the money for a Love Lady Center, You're
• 1:29:57
  gonna promote, and you're gonna go to school, and you're gonna do this
• 1:30:00
  as you heal. Because I'm the typing person, I guess honestly that if
• 1:30:08
  he takes that moment away from me and I don't and I don't have anything
• 1:30:11
  to do, I'm krish right, And it's not in the doing, it's
• 1:30:15
  the way he allows me to do because he shut everything that I think I
• 1:30:19
  want to do, Like even right now, Nationally Voted has not come out
• 1:30:23
  this year. He shut that down. So Nationally the Voted is a magazine.
• 1:30:29
  I think I spreading it, know the episode, but for the folks
• 1:30:32
  that watch it just because grig head, but it is a quarterly magazine.
• 1:30:42
  It's mine, it is it is mine, is my magazine promoting women entrepreneurs
• 1:30:48
  in the Kingdom right um. And so I haven't been able to do that
• 1:30:56
  because I haven't been permitted to the only thing that I've been permitted to do
• 1:31:00
  is just as go to school, go to work. I'm not even from
• 1:31:04
  me in this in this current moment as I speak. I joined the church
• 1:31:09
  there tet it so me my church, and I even talked to my pastors,
• 1:31:15
  and I love them. I loved them. And one of the things
• 1:31:17
  that they said to me when in a one on one, one on one
• 1:31:21
  that I'll take with me forever is that we're not only concerned with the woman
• 1:31:26
  of God, but we're concerned with the woman who and I've never we talked
• 1:31:34
  to something good. We're talking the life thongs that look, man, my
• 1:31:41
  path is so on and they ain't turning in life thong from one path so
• 1:31:46
  on that they started life out over here. I'm just saying. My patients
• 1:31:50
  say they name just seeing what they see, but they they talk to me
• 1:31:58
  about not only care about the woman a God, because the woman a God
• 1:32:02
  benefits everybody, right, everybody, that's stuff. Thank you all the spirit
• 1:32:10
  that's the gial. The woman of God is the give. The woman is
• 1:32:15
  good receiver. And so um, I'm not gonna say that, but we
• 1:32:27
  have to be mindful of who and dealing with because we'll misconstrue um and say,
• 1:32:35
  oh, you're not a woman of God because the woman isn't healing.
• 1:32:41
  And so the place in place that I'm in is understanding the woman to enhance
• 1:32:46
  the woman of God. I'm so good. That's so good because I'll come
• 1:32:55
  to the realization that enough is never enough. And then no matter what level
• 1:33:02
  you think you're at, egg the gold post will always move. So even
• 1:33:09
  when you feel like the woman is here from this, oh hell, you're
• 1:33:15
  gonna have something else. But I want to I want to like through your
• 1:33:17
  story, I notice that you're seeing you're struggling with God right now. But
• 1:33:24
  then you come back and say what you permitted to do so, even through
• 1:33:28
  your struggle, you under the column because you because you are submitting to what
• 1:33:35
  he's telling you to do so, because of your foundation, because of the
• 1:33:41
  work you put in all of that time, because of the word that you
• 1:33:45
  have to stand upon. Even then when you're struggling, you submitted. I
• 1:33:51
  just gotta choose. But it's because of the prior work. When I say
• 1:33:58
  enough is never enough. What I mean is we're not gonna be done until
• 1:34:02
  he's saying you are done, my good and faithful servant. So the bar
• 1:34:05
  will always move. But just because the bar is moved, it does not
• 1:34:10
  negate the work that we previously did, no matter what season that you were
• 1:34:15
  headed. So so the work that you need, the field that you laid,
• 1:34:21
  watch this you We listened to bamboo season Yeah at the time now and
• 1:34:28
  he said that it takes a bamboo three years before coming above ground. But
• 1:34:32
  if you never plant the scene, then bamboo will never grow. Yeah,
• 1:34:36
  you have you planned seeing back then is growing now and is growing in the
• 1:34:43
  season where you conflicted, and the season of confliction you having, you are
• 1:34:49
  you are being harvest of your submission. You're being harvest of your permission.
• 1:34:56
  You're even harvest over your faith. You're being let particular harvest is going to
• 1:35:01
  carrying through your healing. But those were seen that you're planned and ground.
• 1:35:09
  It may not have been so fertile three or four years ago, but now
• 1:35:15
  you're starting to have their fruit. The self or where part comes in being
• 1:35:21
  able to identify that you played at those seeds and resume you have to receive
• 1:35:30
  the fruit and not underestimate a dream deferred because those seeds were deferred for a
• 1:35:41
  different season because all that it was planted, they was not meant to bloom
• 1:35:45
  in the season that that was in. So just because you plan a seed
• 1:35:51
  in marsh doesn't mean it's gonna bloom in April. It's gonna blow and it's
• 1:35:57
  time to bloom. But in order for the bloom, we got a cultivating
• 1:36:00
  water and take care of their seat. So that's what you have been doing.
• 1:36:02
  And now you're going through a certain healing season. God's sending your validation,
• 1:36:06
  He's sending you reminders. He's sending you those fruit of those seeds that
• 1:36:13
  your planet beats as you were faithful to His word. That's so power um.
• 1:36:24
  It takes me back to it is what it is like, you can't
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  make a bamboo grow faster than what it's designed to do. You can't.
• 1:36:33
  You can't make a tree, even a tree like it looks like tweegs.
• 1:36:39
  It looks like nothing when it first started development. All right, it looks
• 1:36:43
  weak. That's the hardest part, right, It looks weak. It looks
• 1:36:46
  weak. It looks like it's not gonna be anything. But when it grows,
• 1:36:54
  and then you know another thing. A homeboy challenged me on another just
• 1:36:57
  last week, and he's seen my growth or whatnot. And I was like,
• 1:37:04
  yeah, man, I'm trying to if somebody allowed me to help them,
• 1:37:08
  I think I can help them. And he said, he said,
• 1:37:12
  be careful in your pride when you feel like you get him a depth in
• 1:37:17
  the word of God, because the devil we used it against you, because
• 1:37:21
  he will bring up our pride and lead that to arrogance, to thinking that
• 1:37:28
  we the only ones that can help somebody in and make us get in the
• 1:37:31
  way of being receiving help. Right and so and so, what I'm saying
• 1:37:40
  right now, while we in the wilderness, why do we think we so
• 1:37:45
  special that God won't help us? So it's like, isn't that a level
• 1:37:53
  of we arrogance or I n thinking that we the only one that can pull
• 1:37:59
  up, or of us not trust to him. I'm feelingly trying to share
• 1:38:06
  you something. Let's share something with you. Oh, reading a devotional with
• 1:38:16
  my family. Okay, thank you for letting me know that, because we're
• 1:38:26
  gonna put a pain in it. Oh, oh God, he got me
• 1:38:33
  nervous. Great, great, got me nervous. I knew, I knew.
• 1:38:41
  I knew, but I played myself. I knew, but I played
• 1:38:45
  myself. You feel me, Oh, it's probably meant for me to share
• 1:38:59
  this with you, praying really then, Oh yeah, we're gonna but we're
• 1:39:04
  gonna put a pen in this. I'm gonna ask you to come back.
• 1:39:13
  I'm gonna ask you to come back because um you your voice, that the
• 1:39:24
  not all it I need. But you know how And this is a good
• 1:39:29
  example. I feel like Tim Ross was a voice for Mike Todd when Mike
• 1:39:33
  Todd with pastor Mike Todd got to the position where he was he couldn't expose
• 1:39:40
  the voices that develop him and now the beneficiary, he's the beneficiary of of
• 1:39:46
  the Mike Todd's um escalation on right and exposure but Mike Todd honor him and
• 1:39:54
  reserved her so much that he said, no, it can't just be me.
• 1:39:56
  Y'all gotta know where it comes from. And now Tim Ross has his
• 1:39:59
  own platform I can relate today. Mmm. So no matter where I go,
• 1:40:06
  you go with me, my dog that sits about man each one?
• 1:40:13
  Yeah, yeah, like you you. I'm letting if we try its old
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  hamil wafter soa we got it on. We get it am rig rally the
• 1:40:21
  shirt if y'all see me, y'll see this logo, y'all see me.
• 1:40:26
  It's a representation to me yo. Man, Like we've been talking for a
• 1:40:31
  minute. Um, I know y'all gonna ask. I already know they gonna
• 1:40:35
  ask some more. Um So just let I'm gonna let you see the deal
• 1:40:42
  before I close out. What's it? Out of everything we talked about in
• 1:40:45
  this session and these last few moments, what is the one thing that you
• 1:40:49
  want to leave with the people? Seven? Development? We talked about going
• 1:40:57
  pro in life. The start with self development. What consumes your grooms you?
• 1:41:00
  What is consuming you? How is it growing with you? And you
• 1:41:04
  have to expose yourself to different things because exposure equals expansion. What are you
• 1:41:11
  being exposed to and how is it expanding you? And so we have to
• 1:41:15
  be intentional with anything and everything that we allow ourselves to absorb, because they
• 1:41:21
  lead to us having trust issues, lead to us not being able to be
• 1:41:27
  obedient, or lead to us being able to struggle inside of relationships because they
• 1:41:31
  lead to us not being self aware. So we will not have choices.
• 1:41:36
  And so if I can lead me with anything today is what's consuming you?
• 1:41:42
  And how is it grown me? You? And on that no, you,
• 1:41:45
  guys, I hope you enjoyed it. I will be putting his his
• 1:41:50
  information and the bios whatever we got. You got my mind so messed up,
• 1:41:57
  y'all. I'm trying to figure out how he's gonna close this. But
• 1:42:00
  y'all, until next week. Remember, life can be much more simple if
• 1:42:05
  you just ask. I'll see your letter. Hey, y'all, thank you
• 1:42:14
  for listening to just ask. If you enjoyed this experience, be sure to
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  like, comment and rate so others can find the show. If you'd like
• 1:42:23
  to stay connected with me, feel free to follow me at the Jessica at
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  Smith on all platforms. Again, I'm your girl, Jacks. Until next time,