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The One About Even MORE VPR Moments · Untraditionally Lala

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  Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous, Welcome to an episode, another episode Give Them
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  Speaker 1: La La Podcast. We are going to talk today about
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  Speaker 1: your guys. Is well, I think to your guys is
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  Speaker 1: it's certainly one of my most favorite topics.
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  Speaker 2: It's one of mine too, Bend Those are the rules?
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  Speaker 2: What is that from?
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  Speaker 1: I don't know, another movie quote. I'm obsessed? Are the rules?
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  Speaker 2: Those are the rules.
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  Speaker 1: So this is going to be another episode. I'm just
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  Speaker 1: letting you guys know because you guys are used to
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  Speaker 1: a certain uh, what's it called routine. We'll call it
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  Speaker 1: the virgo and me loves a routine and we've been
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  Speaker 1: sticking to it for the past however long when we
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  Speaker 1: do our Wednesday episodes. But if you haven't noticed, I'm
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  Speaker 1: ready to pop. She sure is, so I just want
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  Speaker 1: to like, we're stacking the episode. So today I've asked
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  Speaker 1: you guys again what vander pump Rule's moments you guys liked.
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  Speaker 1: We're confused by what's stuck with you? Where You're like,
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  Speaker 1: I don't really know if I understand. I'd like her
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  Speaker 1: to venture into that a little more. Easton has a
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  Speaker 1: question which was wild. He was too because he doesn't
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  Speaker 1: watch the show. So there are now times that he
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  Speaker 1: because he's like now in the zone of the world, right,
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  Speaker 1: So he walked in, He's like, I got a couple
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  Speaker 1: questions for you today on the podcast about how you acted,
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  Speaker 1: and I was like, great, lovely, I love this. And
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  Speaker 1: then he brought up the seasons and I was like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: drinking Lauren even lovelier.
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  Speaker 2: Oh my god, this is great.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and just ask people to the Also what they
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  Speaker 3: wanted you to dive more into law?
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  Speaker 4: Okay, well but let's ask let's start with them, and
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  Speaker 4: then I'll I'll ask I know this season that they
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  Speaker 4: bring up.
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  Speaker 1: So.
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  Speaker 2: Were you on this season? I think you were law?
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  Speaker 3: Okay, but it sounds like all they put was Kristin
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  Speaker 3: and Jack sleeping together.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, isn't that so wild? What that they hooked up
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  Speaker 1: and she and he was fully with Stassy at the time? Okay?
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  Speaker 2: Is that was that the catalyst for the slap from Saucy?
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  Speaker 1: Yes? Were you?
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  Speaker 2: I was not on that season, but you watched.
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  Speaker 1: I watched there. That's when that's like a super iconic scene. Yes,
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  Speaker 1: they both Kristin and Jack's were adamant that nothing had
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  Speaker 1: ever happened.
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  Speaker 2: I watched.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, but if you know Jack's at all at some point,
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  Speaker 1: like we all know that, I think I will label
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  Speaker 1: him as a liar. Okay, I label him as a liar.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 1: I do think there are times where he breaks and it's.
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  Speaker 2: Like, why didn't you just like start with all of this.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, why do you have such conviction with the
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  Speaker 1: lie to suddenly you're like, I'm just gonna tell you
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  Speaker 1: the whole truth, nothing but the truth.
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  Speaker 4: So help me God.
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  Speaker 1: So Kristin was going to die on the hill of
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  Speaker 1: nothing ever happened. And remember she was with Sandoval, who
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  Speaker 1: was best friends with Jack's. It was this weird entanglement
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  Speaker 1: that they got themselves into. Shout out Jada, and I
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  Speaker 1: always say, people who get comfortable with each other and
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  Speaker 1: have a really tight bond and a really tight friendship,
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  Speaker 1: the moment you add alcohol, it becomes easy to get
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  Speaker 1: naked with them and insert things where they shouldn't and
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  Speaker 1: don't belong. Okay, happen with me and James, happened with Kristin,
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  Speaker 1: Dody and Jacks, happened with Rachel and Sandoval. It just happens, okay.
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  Speaker 1: And I do believe that the alcohol is the catalyst
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  Speaker 1: to the dick catapulting into the vagina, catapulting really just catapulting.
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  Speaker 1: So I wasn't around, but it was weird that like
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  Speaker 1: that happened a really long time ago, and then cut
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  Speaker 1: to where we are now, and I'm like, oh, it's
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  Speaker 1: still happening. We not we y'all should look into this behavior.
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  Speaker 1: Y'all should look into this behavior, you know, and kind
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  Speaker 1: of go, what's not working? Because you know, the definition
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  Speaker 1: of insanity is where you do the same thing over
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  Speaker 1: and over and over again and expect a different result.
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  Speaker 1: So let's not get super close as homies where it's
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  Speaker 1: like kind of inappropriate and then go and get fucked
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  Speaker 1: up together alone.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, unless you know, unless you're all friends and you know,
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  Speaker 3: like we're all gonna hook up, that's just what it's gonna.
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  Speaker 2: Be, then do your thing. But if not and there's secrecy,
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  Speaker 2: you gotta switch that up.
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  Speaker 1: I just think anytime if you're about to do something
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  Speaker 1: and you're like, Okay, if people were to find out
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  Speaker 1: about this, if I can't tell people about this, should
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  Speaker 1: I be doing it right? And if the answer is no,
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  Speaker 1: I this is something that I hope stays private, I
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  Speaker 1: would disengage. I would abort mission.
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  Speaker 3: So then with Kristen and Jack's I remember watching that
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  Speaker 3: and Kristin being like, we didn't we didn't?
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  Speaker 2: Were you? Did you? Is this kind of a differce season?
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  Speaker 1: Was this?
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  Speaker 2: This was? I believe? Wasn't this two?
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  Speaker 1: If it was two, I didn't come on until four.
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  Speaker 3: No, I know, but when you watched it, this was
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  Speaker 3: years down the road, right, you had already known everyone.
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  Speaker 1: I actually watched the episode during the pandemic.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, and I remember you, but I'd like you to
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  Speaker 2: repeat it.
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  Speaker 3: I remember you saying I don't know if it was
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  Speaker 3: just to me, but you said, like you watch it
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  Speaker 3: and you were like, oh, this is iconic. Did you
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  Speaker 3: like feel that way watching like the first couple seasons
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  Speaker 3: or no, like this is an amazing show.
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  Speaker 1: Like when without me on it? Yes, when I went
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  Speaker 1: back and watched it, I then understood why people were
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  Speaker 1: so obsessed, what hooked everybody, and honestly felt in that
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  Speaker 1: moment two things, Holy fuck, how did I end up
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  Speaker 1: here with this group?
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  Speaker 2: Right?
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  Speaker 1: And then oh my god, I feel really really fucking
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  Speaker 1: dope that I ended up here. You know, because you
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  Speaker 1: watch those moments and I say to people who are
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  Speaker 1: new to reality television, like for example, whoever joined the Valley.
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  Speaker 1: These people have been my friends for a really long time.
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  Speaker 1: I've known them before the Valley ever came to Fruition.
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  Speaker 1: But I try to remind them there are gonna be
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  Speaker 1: moments where when it happens and then you have to
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  Speaker 1: relive it and it airs where you're like, oh my gosh,
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  Speaker 1: I'm so cringey, I hate this, And a lot of
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  Speaker 1: times those moments give it some time turn into iconic moments.
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  Speaker 1: So just try not to like get married to the
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  Speaker 1: way that you acted. Also try not to like refine
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  Speaker 1: the way that you're acting, because a lot of people
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  Speaker 1: they're like I decided, like, if we're filming, I'm not
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  Speaker 1: going to drink because I want to be in control.
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  Speaker 1: And it's like, oh, I kind of want to be entertained,
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  Speaker 1: So could you like maybe have a drink? Unlass, you're
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  Speaker 1: a sober right, But I'm like, you don't have a
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  Speaker 1: drinking problem, right, You're enore me. I'm not talking to
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  Speaker 1: these people who are unhinged when they drink, and it's like, okay,
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  Speaker 1: we gotta get we gotta get sober.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm sober.
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  Speaker 1: I'm interesting as books.
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  Speaker 2: Still very true, very true.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, can I tell you though you since season seven,
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  Speaker 1: after Dad had passed away, I did tell myself, I'm
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  Speaker 1: unhinged and emotional from his passing. I'm not going to drink.
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  Speaker 1: I'm only going to smoke weed. And we went to
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  Speaker 1: Solvank and it was my trip and production kept saying okay,
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  Speaker 1: and we were in the van. We had just landed
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  Speaker 1: and we took a little, a little private jet there
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  Speaker 1: because it wasn't very far and production Jenna, oh boy,
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  Speaker 1: Jenna Long, not Jenna Willis Long, you know what I'm
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  Speaker 1: talking about. Producer Jenna. She's she doesn't work for the
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  Speaker 1: show anymore with the show, but she was like, okay, law,
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  Speaker 1: you have to tell everybody. And she's so fucking cool.
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  Speaker 1: She's like, low, you gotta tell everybody, like where we're going,
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  Speaker 1: this is your trip. And I was so high that
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  Speaker 1: I would look at everybody, perched myself because I'm in
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  Speaker 1: the front row of the van and I look at everyone.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't even know. I would started laughing.
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  Speaker 1: And so Arian is like, so we're insulting, and you're
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  Speaker 1: gonna take his wine tasting. That'll be great. I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: and she's like and we're gonna stay at this hotel.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, mm hmm, that's what we're gonna do. I
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  Speaker 1: couldn't even function. I was so high.
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  Speaker 4: Is a fucking kite I dream about.
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  Speaker 5: Getting Yeah, And finally I was like, yo, I cannot
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  Speaker 5: keep getting this fucking high when we're filming because I
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  Speaker 5: can't produce words.
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  Speaker 2: You I can't. That's when you added the alcohol back in.
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  Speaker 1: Mm hm. I actually chose one and up.
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  Speaker 2: Yes I or both.
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  Speaker 3: I love that you talked about this because I went
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  Speaker 3: to the question that we had about They obviously just
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  Speaker 3: want you to talk more about it. Talking to Sassy
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  Speaker 3: and solving by the horses about your dad.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my god, that was torture.
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  Speaker 3: So that was the I remember that scene you're crying sobbing.
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  Speaker 3: Did you know going into that where you like, this
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  Speaker 3: is going to be a very deep, tough conversation or
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  Speaker 3: did it sort of just happen?
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  Speaker 1: Well? I was struggling obviously that entire time that we
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  Speaker 1: were filming. It was the darkest place I've ever been
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  Speaker 1: in my entire life. So there were moments because I
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  Speaker 1: knew that I was going through what I was going through,
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  Speaker 1: But I also knew that like everything I go in film,
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  Speaker 1: I can't just constantly be talking about my dad, even
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  Speaker 1: though that's kind of the the only thing I'm focused on.
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  Speaker 1: So when production, because I was kind of purging onto
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  Speaker 1: production just about how like today I'm going to funk,
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  Speaker 1: like we're with these horses and it's reminding me, Like
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  Speaker 1: there were certain things the song fast Car by Tacy Chapman, Yes,
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  Speaker 1: which has nothing to do with death, nothing to do
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  Speaker 1: with like a father daughter relationship, there was something about
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  Speaker 1: the tone of it that always brought me like sobbing.
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  Speaker 1: Even when I hear it now, I'm like, Okay, this
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  Speaker 1: like reminds me of.
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  Speaker 4: My dad, And subconsciously you could have listened to it
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  Speaker 4: with him, and that's why you hear it and brings.
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  Speaker 1: You back to that.
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  Speaker 4: That could be it, like as subconscious feeling of him.
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  Speaker 1: That totally could be it. And then I was watching
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  Speaker 1: these horses and I'm like, oh my gosh, like the
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  Speaker 1: thought of like these animals and you're I had just
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  Speaker 1: gone on the horse, remember, and I was like me
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  Speaker 1: being on a horse and just like feeling it breathing.
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  Speaker 1: We have to be in sync. There was something very
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  Speaker 1: spiritual about that too, and I was searching for any
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  Speaker 1: sort of higher power, because I started questioning my higher
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  Speaker 1: power at that point. I'm like, there is no God.
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  Speaker 1: There's really shitty people in the world, and like why
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  Speaker 1: my dad Stossy is great at just listening, which doesn't
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  Speaker 1: say much back to you. And I'm not saying that
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  Speaker 1: I wanted someone to like shut the fuck up, but
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  Speaker 1: I just wanted someone who was gonna like listen and
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  Speaker 1: feel for me and that scene. What's interesting about that
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  Speaker 1: scene is the guy who edited the replay of season
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  Speaker 1: ten where I talk about the one that was nominated
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  Speaker 1: for an Emmy. This brings me to one logical conclusion.
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  Speaker 1: They're hooking up. The same editor of that episode edited
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  Speaker 1: the scene of me and Stossy, me talking about my
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  Speaker 1: dad saying that my dad's just a memory and that's
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  Speaker 1: fucking me up. And he said the reason he was
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  Speaker 1: able to really sink into that editing process was because
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  Speaker 1: his wife had just lost a parent as well, and
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  Speaker 1: he was like, so I could in some way understand
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  Speaker 1: what you were trying to say because my wife had
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  Speaker 1: said similar things about her. I believe it was her
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  Speaker 1: dad that also passed away. So I thought that that
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  Speaker 1: was really cool that someone who actually was on that
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  Speaker 1: side of grief with me, was editing that scene together.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's beautiful. It was dark.
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  Speaker 1: That whole season was very dark. Bamby eyed bitch, Like
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  Speaker 1: that was a dark moment for me.
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  Speaker 3: Which is interesting because now you look back and it's like, oh,
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  Speaker 3: iconic baby, you mean named it?
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  Speaker 2: I shadow palette after it.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, Like, when I watch that scene, I have veins
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  Speaker 1: popping out of my neck. I'm going like this because
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, I have never wanted to get physical with someone,
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  Speaker 1: but like I'm I've not only consumed Champagne, I'm in
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  Speaker 1: a grieving process and we're in the we're in the
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  Speaker 1: anger stage, and like, I have never wanted to grab
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  Speaker 1: someone by their hair and yank them to the fucking ground.
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  Speaker 2: And you didn't.
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  Speaker 1: And I was, I like, let me tell you something
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  Speaker 1: like holding back, yes, and just the veins in my neck.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, you're like enraged, right right, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: because anything short of I'm so sorry for the loss
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  Speaker 1: of your dad. React, However, you need to just process this.
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  Speaker 1: I was coming for you.
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  Speaker 2: When you watch that, do you feel the feeling can't
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  Speaker 2: you go back there?
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  Speaker 1: Or no?
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  Speaker 3: Do you feel the feelings like you said, you see
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  Speaker 3: the veins and you're like, oh my god, I wanted
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  Speaker 3: to rip her hair out or whatever, or do you
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  Speaker 3: just like know, you watch and you're like, can you
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  Speaker 3: watch it without getting in a bad headspace?
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  Speaker 4: Do you watch it and take yourself back into Yeah,
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  Speaker 4: that mindset? That's for me even watching it after that, Like,
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  Speaker 4: I don't watch but I did watch that, and just
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  Speaker 4: hearing you talk about it for one thing, I was like,
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  Speaker 4: I can't because it took me to that point.
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  Speaker 1: No, I can't watch season seven.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah you can't.
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  Speaker 1: No, Okay no. And the first interview that I do,
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  Speaker 1: they have me talk about my dad passing away, and
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  Speaker 1: I say my dad passed away, and I start sobbing
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  Speaker 1: and say, it's so weird to say that. When I
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  Speaker 1: watch those things, it takes me back to such a
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  Speaker 1: heavy place. And there's a point during all of that,
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  Speaker 1: which is another reason why I think this past season,
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  Speaker 1: season eleven, where everyone was like so taken aback, how
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  Speaker 1: dare I have these questions for Ariana after she suffered
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  Speaker 1: her heartbreak, I'm like, I vividly remember me spiraling from
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  Speaker 1: the death of my dad, something that she knows very well,
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  Speaker 1: and her saying to Shina that I needed tough in
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  Speaker 1: the fuck up. So how is it that I can't
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  Speaker 1: ask questions about someone being cheated on? But when I
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  Speaker 1: lost my dad, someone who I adored, I needs to
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  Speaker 1: toughen the fuck up. And during that reunion, and maybe
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  Speaker 1: it's lost on me, I don't ever remember getting an
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  Speaker 1: I'm so sorry I should have never said that. I
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  Speaker 1: got a merry go round of fucking excuses of why
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  Speaker 1: she said that. So I think that anyone who signs
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  Speaker 1: up for reality TV needs to really be prepared that
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  Speaker 1: no matter what I mean. Lisa Renna, Lisa Renna lost
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  Speaker 1: her mom and was acting differently. I can't imagine why,
• 15:52
  Speaker 1: and she was very angry, and watching it, I was like,
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  Speaker 1: oh my god, I so feel for this woman, and
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  Speaker 1: no one gave her any grade.
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  Speaker 3: All the freaking credit for you guys to do reality
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  Speaker 3: TV because.
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  Speaker 2: The amount of things I've and I haven't.
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  Speaker 3: Even gone through trauma, real trauma, the amount of things
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  Speaker 3: and the emotion that comes out and the way I
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  Speaker 3: take it out on people, and.
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  Speaker 2: I'm a mess.
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  Speaker 3: And then a few months later I'm like, damn, Like
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  Speaker 3: if the ship the way I act ever is caught
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  Speaker 3: on camera, I'd be like, people would hate me and
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  Speaker 3: then you guys do it in front of camera.
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  Speaker 1: But do you regret how you ever acted?
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  Speaker 4: Because when the like the lossing of our dad, there's
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  Speaker 4: a lot of things that I don't I wish I
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  Speaker 4: would have done differently. But for me standing here today
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  Speaker 4: and doing everything that I'm doing, if I would to
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  Speaker 4: be back, I don't think i'd do anything different because
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  Speaker 4: I know I got to this point right. So in
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  Speaker 4: your headspace, do you would you have handled it different
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  Speaker 4: or any conversations differently with that or do you stand
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  Speaker 4: by with everything that you said because your emotions were
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  Speaker 4: your emotions.
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  Speaker 2: And people can relate now, Yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 1: I mean I handled it the old That was the
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  Speaker 1: greatest loss I'd ever experienced. I won't experience that type
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  Speaker 1: of loss again until my mom. We won't even go there.
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  Speaker 1: But that was the greatest loss I've ever had. So yes,
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  Speaker 1: I do think that way of where I'm like, had
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  Speaker 1: I not gone back to Vanderpump rules, there's so much
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  Speaker 1: that like, I probably wouldn't be sober. You know, I
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  Speaker 1: had to rewatch my behavior. But at the same time,
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  Speaker 1: I had such a soft spot, like I doubled down
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  Speaker 1: at that reunion, like I was not apologizing for how
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  Speaker 1: I acted, like my I don't know how to explain
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  Speaker 1: this to you.
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  Speaker 2: My dad died.
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  Speaker 4: But that's the other thing, is like, so doubled down
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  Speaker 4: because for me, just looking at it, if you would
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  Speaker 4: have had people care, you wouldn't have had that feeling
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  Speaker 4: of doubling down. It's almost like you doubled down because
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  Speaker 4: still nobody cares or is giving you that.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I was babied in any type of way.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, we're sorry about your dad dying, but
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  Speaker 1: like we're throwing you to the wolves. Great whatever. No,
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  Speaker 1: I'm happy I went back because now I'm a sober
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  Speaker 1: person and I got to grieve my dad and remember
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: him in a very healthy way. However, there's also the
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: other side where I think I should not have gone
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: back to the show season seven. I should have taken
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: a step back and really taken time for myself and
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: my family. But then I probably wouldn't be sober. So
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: I don't know.
• 18:37
  Speaker 2: Well, there you go, and also you saying that just
• 18:40
  Speaker 2: as like if you are watching, there's something so powerful,
• 18:43
  Speaker 2: like you had a platform and you showed people it's
• 18:47
  Speaker 2: okay to act. You can literally be a mess.
• 18:50
  Speaker 3: You can handle grief any way you want, and that's
• 18:53
  Speaker 3: okay because that's how you're handling it.
• 18:55
  Speaker 2: Like that is okay. That is so powerful. That is
• 18:59
  Speaker 2: so powerful.
• 19:00
  Speaker 3: It's so great to see people handle grief with grace.
• 19:03
  Speaker 3: I look at it, I watch it, I learn from it.
• 19:06
  Speaker 3: But I also love not for this to sound dark
• 19:10
  Speaker 3: and not this is not what you did. When people
• 19:12
  Speaker 3: handle grief in a very messy way, I feel there's
• 19:16
  Speaker 3: something very calmon because I'm like, Okay, you can lose
• 19:19
  Speaker 3: your shit sometimes and we're all human and that happens
• 19:22
  Speaker 3: and it's okay.
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: I think when people ask me for advice, yeah, my
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: biggest piece of advice is surround yourself with people who
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: are gonna let you go through the process that is grieving,
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: because there's no handbook that tells you what to do.
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: It's not pretty, it gets ugly. You have moments that
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: are euphoric where who knows why they're like that, and
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: you're like, I'm gonna be okay, I can feel this
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: person with me. We're gonna be good to Oh, we're
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: slamming the bottle. Oh fuck. I hope that this doesn't
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: stick forever to I'm angry and I need to throw shit.
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: Somebody has to be around you who can baby that
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: and not make you feel guilty for it.
• 20:09
  Speaker 4: Yeah, Like if you're slamming the bottle, then your one
• 20:11
  Speaker 4: friend is like, I know that you lost, but let's
• 20:13
  Speaker 4: not take two shots right now.
• 20:16
  Speaker 6: Let's wait.
• 20:16
  Speaker 4: And that's that step back of having good people. And
• 20:19
  Speaker 4: the other thing is always showing like your emotion. I
• 20:21
  Speaker 4: don't know if you do that, but when I was
• 20:22
  Speaker 4: going through it, and when people the handful of people
• 20:25
  Speaker 4: who have come and said my dad, mom has passed,
• 20:27
  Speaker 4: like how did you get through it? I just say,
• 20:29
  Speaker 4: every emotion that you feel, you show, Yeah, yeah, because.
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: It's you know, once you're suppressed it, it's going to
• 20:35
  Speaker 1: come out at some point. And I also remember when
• 20:40
  Speaker 1: I had gone off on everybody all of season seven,
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: and then we did the reunion and Tom Sandoval said
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: something about how like everyone goes through his goes through shit,
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: his dad was hospitalized or something like that, and I
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: was like, good for you, Tom, I'm happy for you
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: that he didn't like when that happened to him. He
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: didn't lose his mind. And what I so badly wish
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: I would have said, is like you get to still
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: pick up the fucking phone, like I'm sorry your dad
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: was hospitalized, but like you could call it might not
• 21:11
  Speaker 1: be like, hey, how you doing to shut the fuck up?
• 21:13
  Speaker 2: Death is final, right.
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: Like mine was a very final thing. And by the
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: way that my dad and I had like a good relationship.
• 21:20
  Speaker 1: I'm not saying that people on the cast had different relationships,
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: but you cannot none of us can talk about something
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: like that when you don't know the ins and outs
• 21:32
  Speaker 1: of you don't know the relationship that someone had with someone. Right,
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: you're sitting there judging their grieving process, while that person
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: who's grieving is going over every moment they ever had,
• 21:44
  Speaker 1: the wrinkles on the face, how the hug felt. So
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: it's important to surround yourself with people who are gonna
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: let you go through every emotion and be there with
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: you yea, and not tell you how to handle it
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: or judge you for how you're handling it. Because we
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: wish that we could Saka been smiling wave, but it's like,
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: I don't know how to process this. Yeah, right, anyway,
• 22:05
  Speaker 1: let's move on to something.
• 22:07
  Speaker 3: But this was great though. I love I love the
• 22:09
  Speaker 3: that tangent. I think it's very important. Okay, something maybe
• 22:13
  Speaker 3: not happy, maybe happy, but lighter. Season ten reunion we're
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: jumping there. This is from SHAWNA. Was there any moments
• 22:22
  Speaker 3: that didn't air that you wish had?
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: So?
• 22:25
  Speaker 2: Season ten reunion?
• 22:26
  Speaker 3: Is you like that's red dress you? Or is that
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: most recent? Why am I blanking?
• 22:31
  Speaker 2: Is that?
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: Is that the one where you stood You stood up
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: and you're thinking of Arion in the that's Arion in
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: the redout dress and I was in the sequin I
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: cheetah print.
• 22:42
  Speaker 2: Oh due? Yes?
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: Okay?
• 22:43
  Speaker 2: Season ten is finger guns?
• 22:46
  Speaker 4: Is that the way you got up and did the
• 22:48
  Speaker 4: spin and you were like, I I have it? No,
• 22:51
  Speaker 4: you were by James, but you got up out of
• 22:53
  Speaker 4: your seat and you did a spin?
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: Did you not?
• 22:55
  Speaker 4: Wasn't that in a yeah? Like in your dress? You
• 22:58
  Speaker 4: were like, I'm fine, I look great.
• 23:00
  Speaker 2: No, this is recent? Is that recent?
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: No?
• 23:02
  Speaker 2: Season ten is like she sand twirl please.
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: Version of me?
• 23:10
  Speaker 2: This is the like.
• 23:11
  Speaker 3: Bitching her and James were like MVPs like yelling at Sandaval,
• 23:15
  Speaker 3: yelling at Rachel.
• 23:16
  Speaker 2: Maybe I don't know.
• 23:18
  Speaker 3: Yes, okay, was there anything that that didn't air that
• 23:23
  Speaker 3: you wish had?
• 23:23
  Speaker 2: You know what?
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: I really love that they're doing now is Peacock has
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: the extended version? Okay, so no, they actually kept everything
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: that I thought was worthy of showing. Okay, okay, they
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: showed like the the episode on Bravo and then the
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: next day the extended version airs on Peacock. And I
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: love that they're doing that because it gives you, like
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: they put in like the really petty moments that are
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: like so stupid but like funny or whatever that I
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: think kind of make the reunion.
• 23:55
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I love that. Okay, this is funny. You've talked
• 23:59
  Speaker 3: about this, but I've seen a few of these.
• 24:01
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna read it.
• 24:02
  Speaker 3: Kristen's speech at Katie and Schwartz's engagement party, and you interrupted,
• 24:07
  Speaker 3: how did this come about? Were you drunk? Did you
• 24:09
  Speaker 3: not want to be there? Were you forced to be there?
• 24:12
  Speaker 3: And you're just like, I'm fucking over it? Did you
• 24:14
  Speaker 3: want camera time?
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: Like?
• 24:15
  Speaker 2: What was it?
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: I wish that I could be like I was coherent
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: enough to just want camera right right right? No, I
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: was this is can you wrap this up? I was wasted?
• 24:27
  Speaker 2: Okay?
• 24:28
  Speaker 3: And did you not like I'm trying to bring myself there?
• 24:31
  Speaker 3: She wasn't making sense.
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: And by the way, the people I was around were
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: also wondering what the fuck was going on. So I'm
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: sitting here listening and I'm wasted, and I'm like, I'm
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: not the only person that doesn't know what they're talking about.
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: Their tangenting and people around me were like, what the
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: fuck are yeah? Right, So that's when I was like,
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: we're trying to have fun. Can you wrap it up?
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: The fuck are you talking about? Yeah?
• 24:58
  Speaker 2: And you weren't getting along with there the time, right.
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: No, But that was Katie and Chores's engagement party with
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: people that had flown in.
• 25:07
  Speaker 2: I know you had hoops on, right.
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest, I don't know why she would
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: ever want to be my friend or ever forgive me
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: for that, Kristen or.
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: Ka Katy, you stand up, let me see, let me say,
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: but I don't. She stands up with the finger guns right.
• 25:23
  Speaker 4: Now, goes look at you, and she gets up and
• 25:27
  Speaker 4: she goes, yeah, look at me.
• 25:29
  Speaker 2: Who is yelling no? Like? Is it James?
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: I don't know, but that's what I didn't say.
• 25:37
  Speaker 4: I don't know if you like.
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: I didn't not like because I'm I've been taken over.
• 25:45
  Speaker 2: But I did remember, yes, stood.
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: Up yeah you did. Okay, Okay, so then so no,
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: you're good. Yes, I did stand up. And I actually
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: think that that was in the extended version that you're
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: talking about. What did you expect? What did you eat?
• 26:02
  Speaker 2: I did?
• 26:03
  Speaker 4: The only reason why I remember that is because I
• 26:05
  Speaker 4: loved it.
• 26:06
  Speaker 1: No, but he had been short. Sanaba had been like
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: so self righteous with me for years. Okay, like and
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: now I find out you've done this. Oh I'm about
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: to eat you alive. I'm going okay like that whole
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: Raquel had just like at the dinner table, told me
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: I'm a mistress and you guys are both gonna show up.
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: I'm fucking you up. Yeah, now I'm calm. Sort of.
• 26:33
  Speaker 4: Other question, when you go into a reunion or anything
• 26:36
  Speaker 4: like that, do you prep or do other people prep for?
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: Like any I don't know what anyone else does.
• 26:42
  Speaker 3: Actually made a great point. She's like, when you go
• 26:44
  Speaker 3: in and prep, it doesn't it doesn't go up.
• 26:46
  Speaker 4: Well, what's her name?
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: Did it?
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: Remember?
• 26:48
  Speaker 4: She was on Salt Lake she's not on it anymore? Yeah, yeah,
• 26:54
  Speaker 4: even what's her name? Did who came back on Orange
• 26:56
  Speaker 4: County or Beverly Hills? And she was like, I did
• 26:59
  Speaker 4: bring a couple of notepads, so I don't miss anything.
• 27:02
  Speaker 4: Oh yeah, So that's what I was saying, if not
• 27:06
  Speaker 4: only you, but do other people prep that way? Because
• 27:08
  Speaker 4: it is crazy to like see you guys go in
• 27:11
  Speaker 4: and then you guys remembering every single thing from that
• 27:15
  Speaker 4: whole season, because I'd be like, I don't remember. Yeah,
• 27:18
  Speaker 4: so that's where how do you guys even like, how
• 27:21
  Speaker 4: would you prep? Do you watch the whole season before
• 27:23
  Speaker 4: you do it?
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: Season eleven was the first reunion I went into that
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: I hadn't.
• 27:30
  Speaker 2: Watched because you're supposed to write.
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: I think you should, so you know what's being said
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: behind your back?
• 27:39
  Speaker 2: Just a good one.
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: I've seen this a couple of times.
• 27:42
  Speaker 3: Looking back on Mexico? Do you see the signs with
• 27:46
  Speaker 3: Tom and Rachel more clearly when you were there? Were
• 27:50
  Speaker 3: you like something's going on? Or were you just like,
• 27:52
  Speaker 3: I don't even give a hack about these two, Like
• 27:55
  Speaker 3: do do you go?
• 27:56
  Speaker 2: Yeah?
• 27:57
  Speaker 4: Yeah? When you were in Mexico?
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: Were yeah, they're fucking I'm trying to remember when I
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: started thinking their relationship was weird. I have to say
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: I thought that they were getting a little too close,
• 28:12
  Speaker 1: and I thought that just the entire time we were filming.
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: It was like the way that he defended her, it
• 28:19
  Speaker 1: was like I didn't think they were fucking, but I
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: was like, what are you fucking her? She paying you?
• 28:25
  Speaker 1: Like what the Mexico. No, I'm sinking at the beginning
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: of just like, I just thought it was weird that
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: she was always such a fixture, and whether Ariana was
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: around or not, it was like weird to me.
• 28:38
  Speaker 3: Yeah, And remember the Mexico was Schwartz. That was like, oh,
• 28:42
  Speaker 3: are they gonna kiss? Are they gonna it was Rachel
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: and Schwartz. When I was watching the show, I was like, yeah,
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: I could see if I hadn't known about Sandoval ike.
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I when I really kind of put it together
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: and I was like, I'm actually saying something now like
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: I had I had this weird like y'all are close.
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: But it was after the Labor Day party where I
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: talked about how I went to the barbecue Arianna's grandma
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: had died and then Tom Sandoval stayed and I was
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: like it was with Raquel the whole time. That's when
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: I was like, I'm saying something, something is not right.
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: But in Mexico, I believe that was in August and
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: you have to remember I didn't see them together. I
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: was kind of on the fringe. I was hanging out
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: with Katie and Christina. I didn't see what Santaval and
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: Rachel were like together.
• 29:29
  Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, So when I watch it and.
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: He's like rock cut, and I'm like, you guys probably
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: fucked on and I think they they did.
• 29:40
  Speaker 3: They did that like came out somehow. I don't know
• 29:43
  Speaker 3: if it was anyway wild Okay, I.
• 29:46
  Speaker 4: Have one yes season four, oh my first season episode ten?
• 29:54
  Speaker 2: Huh wow, Okay.
• 29:55
  Speaker 4: Cay, remind me you were I want to say it
• 29:58
  Speaker 4: was dinner you Kristen and Jack?
• 30:04
  Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, what was going through?
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: What alcohol was? Wait?
• 30:09
  Speaker 2: Reminded me was there something Saturday?
• 30:11
  Speaker 4: She was like giving him hugs. Jack.
• 30:14
  Speaker 1: We've talked about this. We've talked this episode.
• 30:17
  Speaker 2: Okay, okay.
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: This is the scene where everyone thinks I was petting
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: his penis genus under the table, but I wasn't.
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: What were you doing?
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: I was. I had my hand on his leg okay, okay,
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: and I was wasted. We know I saw you and
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: that's the same exact night that my I think they
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: showed me and Jack's leaving together. But my ex picks
• 30:37
  Speaker 1: me up, and that's the night that I on the
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: car sex.
• 30:42
  Speaker 2: While he drove stop it.
• 30:44
  Speaker 4: I just couldn't be over over over.
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: Remember I remember my way cute heels at this bar.
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: The slats of the wood were like two when my
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: heels kept getting stuck, and I was like or you know,
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: and I was a little bit drunk, so I couldn't
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: exactly maneuver around them.
• 31:07
  Speaker 4: Yeah, alcohol, But were you trying to also make any
• 31:11
  Speaker 4: like Kristin jealous or if anybody like season.
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: Four I was so fucking cool. I was like, I
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: had very few words to say.
• 31:20
  Speaker 2: M M.
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: Season four, can I tell you with my shitsue hair
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: finale where I'm like, where Chris or Stocy I pushed Kristin,
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: Stossy and Katie are trying to like get through to me,
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: And I'm like, if you want to be my friend,
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: you can be my friend. If you don't want to
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: be my friend, you can fucking blow me.
• 31:42
  Speaker 2: It's so weird, like who are you?
• 31:45
  Speaker 3: It's so wild that season four is your first season
• 31:47
  Speaker 3: and that's like your coolest because that would to me
• 31:49
  Speaker 3: would be like the pick Me Girls season, the like
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: you're trying to get all the lines set in the
• 31:54
  Speaker 3: but you weren't. I've seen a lot of that on
• 31:55
  Speaker 3: reality TV.
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: Yeah, it's not like you're trying.
• 31:58
  Speaker 2: You were trying.
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: You're just even know how to try.
• 32:01
  Speaker 2: I was in a foreign territory, right.
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: They're telling me that we're gonna we're gonna have you
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: meet with this person, we're gonna film it, and you're
• 32:09
  Speaker 1: gonna go to Hawaii, and I'm like, go to Hawaii. Hell, yeah,
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: my mom, I was in such unchartered waters.
• 32:18
  Speaker 4: Yeah, we can tell by the liquor intake Kristin or
• 32:21
  Speaker 4: I can't. I don't know who said it, but she goes,
• 32:23
  Speaker 4: is it bottomless tequila or something? Because you're just like
• 32:27
  Speaker 4: another shot when we're shot, and just keeps bringing him
• 32:29
  Speaker 4: the wretch that.
• 32:30
  Speaker 2: She's commenting on us, that's wretch.
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: Oh my god. Anyone on the show and anyone's drinking
• 32:39
  Speaker 1: at that point in time is laughable.
• 32:42
  Speaker 2: Oh, that's so funny.
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: There's a scene, can I tell you?
• 32:49
  Speaker 2: Yes?
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: In Mexico, there's this season six when I was finally
• 32:53
  Speaker 1: accepted by the took you two seasons and I it
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: took me a while, and we're at dinner and they
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: did not show this. You guys, there's a dinner where
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: I have my hair in a top knot. It's the
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: dinner that I believe. We're at a sushi restaurant Mexico
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: and Kristin throws the drink. She throws the drink at James,
• 33:21
  Speaker 1: but it hits me and she's and I'm like, are
• 33:24
  Speaker 1: you fucking kidding me, Kristen, And she was like, she
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: looks me, I'm sorry. I was trying because it did
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: not go where she wanted it to go.
• 33:33
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: The reason I didn't drink at that dinner is because
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: that afternoon we were not filming. We were on break
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: and I went to a restaurant with James and Shena
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: and someone else. We were at a high top. Poor
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: James has watched me faint many times, and I had
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: been drinking NonStop. I think I was overheated too much
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: alcohol and dehydrated. Yes, And I just slither out of
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: the chair and they came and like took me away
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: and had me laying down and I was surrounded by
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: like nurses. They wanted to take me to the hospital,
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: but my mom and my ex were on the phone
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: being like, you're not taking her anywhere. I will fly out,
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: I will send her a plane, like because I was
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: fucked up, right, And I remember a producer being like,
• 34:29
  Speaker 1: can we have cameras come in? I was like, no,
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: I'm fucked up. I just passed out.
• 34:35
  Speaker 2: Did they catch you passing out the cameras?
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: No, but they had to call production because I was like,
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: I was like, out cold.
• 34:44
  Speaker 2: You were definitely dehydrated. Had you smoked weed?
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: Probably?
• 34:47
  Speaker 2: Okay? Yeah, fucked up dehydrated.
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: And so I went back to the hotel and took
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: a load off, and then at dinner, I was like,
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: I'm only having diet cocaine and christened through a drink
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: at James that actually landed on me.
• 34:59
  Speaker 2: That would be make sense. Why you weren't fucking I.
• 35:01
  Speaker 4: Think she wasn't drunk because that over the table she goes, yeah, I.
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: Was getting along, was everybody at that point.
• 35:09
  Speaker 3: Though this person's question, I would like to hear a
• 35:12
  Speaker 3: little bit more about what your life was like right
• 35:14
  Speaker 3: before vander Pump filming.
• 35:16
  Speaker 2: So let's just say you fun fucking was that you
• 35:19
  Speaker 2: didn't know you were going to be on the show.
• 35:21
  Speaker 3: Are you always at the vander Pump bar? Are you modeling?
• 35:24
  Speaker 3: Are you what are you doing?
• 35:25
  Speaker 2: Who are you hanging out with?
• 35:27
  Speaker 1: My life was unhinged. I was a twenty three year
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: old living in Los Angeles, California, with a tight little bod,
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: and the world was mine for the taking. And it
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: was like I, for the first time have my own
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: apartment that like I can have boys over to and
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: like Wednesday nights, we'd go to Warwick and we went
• 35:46
  Speaker 1: to pool parties and we laid out topless, me and
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: Danielle and it was just like fun. Yeah, and it
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: was non stop alcohol at all times. But because we
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: were young, wild and free, it didn't matter. You're not
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: a degenerate or an alcoholic. You're just twenty three living
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: your fucking life.
• 36:05
  Speaker 2: And isn't that the fit modeling?
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: Yes, that's how I was making money. It's fit modeling
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: in downtown LA for like eight hours. I started at
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: forty dollars an hour, and this motherfucker hustled them to
• 36:16
  Speaker 1: one hundred and fifty an hour.
• 36:18
  Speaker 2: Forty dollars an hour back then is so much money.
• 36:22
  Speaker 3: By the way, No, I was making twenty an hour
• 36:24
  Speaker 3: nanning and thought I was rich.
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: And keep in mind, twenty an hour though, that's good.
• 36:29
  Speaker 1: Well forty yeah, Well they found me and I believe
• 36:34
  Speaker 1: it was like a modeling website and I was living
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: in Utah. They said, if you I told them I
• 36:41
  Speaker 1: was moving to LA and they offered me this gig.
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: And it was when I was nineteen. The first time
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: I had moved to LA, I ended up coming home.
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: When I decided to go back, I called them again
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: and said, I'm moving back to LA. Could I, you know,
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: pick up where we left off? And they said yes.
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: So it was fit modeling. They usually liked their fit
• 37:03
  Speaker 1: models to work four hours a couple days a week
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: because it's I don't want to say it's grueling, but
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: you have to change a lot of times. Yeah, and
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: the posing is very generic and they usually end up
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: cutting your head off. So fit modeling I not like workout. Yes,
• 37:21
  Speaker 1: it's like a very basic body to show what clothing
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: looks like on a body that goes on a website.
• 37:27
  Speaker 2: Did you have fake boobs at the time? Yes, Oh, interesting, okay, I.
• 37:31
  Speaker 1: Got fake boobs at twenty okay. But I asked them
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: if I could come in for full days, full eight hours,
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: like two to three days a week. If you need
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: me every day, I will be here. And I really
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: worked a lot. Yeah, so that's what I was doing.
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: I was doing my fit modeling and then drinking and
• 37:53
  Speaker 1: living my best life. And I would go to Sir
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: pretty often because my roommate soul sister, who I've known
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: my entire life, Danny Shay, worked at Sir.
• 38:05
  Speaker 2: So free drinks.
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: Mm hm oh so fun, free food.
• 38:09
  Speaker 2: That's amazing.
• 38:10
  Speaker 3: Oh that's like I would give When I bartended downtown Nashville.
• 38:14
  Speaker 3: All my friends came because it was free drinks for everyone,
• 38:17
  Speaker 3: and I would heavy pour the shit out of them.
• 38:20
  Speaker 3: Not good, they'd all be fucking wasted.
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: All wasted, totally, but free. Yeah. And I would go
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: to Einstein's every morning to get a bagel with cream
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: cheese and dip it in mustard.
• 38:33
  Speaker 4: I forgot you just opened up. I remember that now,
• 38:36
  Speaker 4: walking there with Lily, just sitting out.
• 38:38
  Speaker 2: Wow.
• 38:39
  Speaker 3: I love Einstein. We went to Einstein's when we were
• 38:41
  Speaker 3: in the podcast tour. While the three of us on
• 38:44
  Speaker 3: a podcast tour would be so fun. I know you
• 38:46
  Speaker 3: don't want it, but Eastern and I want it so bad.
• 38:48
  Speaker 3: Maybe after the baby, maybe a few months after.
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: Maybe just about a week.
• 38:53
  Speaker 3: Okay, every this is interesting. Every season Giant cast photo.
• 38:58
  Speaker 3: How does that work?
• 39:00
  Speaker 2: For the season or at the end.
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: The cast photo is at the end of the season.
• 39:06
  Speaker 3: Okay, and what if you some of you aren't getting along,
• 39:08
  Speaker 3: are you like, do you put it decide or do
• 39:10
  Speaker 3: you just not talk to them?
• 39:11
  Speaker 2: Because you're all in this cast photo.
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: Everyone has different call times. Okay, usually we are all
• 39:17
  Speaker 1: there at some point at the same time, but there
• 39:20
  Speaker 1: are some that we're staggered as when we come in
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: and staggered leaving. And this year, for season eleven, the
• 39:29
  Speaker 1: cast photo was done. We were in. We weren't all together,
• 39:34
  Speaker 1: so they cut us all in.
• 39:37
  Speaker 2: But are you usually all together?
• 39:40
  Speaker 1: Last year season ten, we were all together.
• 39:43
  Speaker 3: This is a loaded question, but has anyone ever asked
• 39:47
  Speaker 3: to be a part of the cast photo who's maybe
• 39:49
  Speaker 3: not the main cast, but they think they're important enough
• 39:51
  Speaker 3: to be part of the cast photo And they go,
• 39:53
  Speaker 3: can I be part of the cast photo?
• 39:54
  Speaker 2: And everyone's like, yeah, yeah, I guess I thought you
• 39:58
  Speaker 2: were not going to answer directly.
• 40:00
  Speaker 4: I wanted to be in it.
• 40:01
  Speaker 2: That's so weird.
• 40:02
  Speaker 3: But like, what is he he asked production and they go,
• 40:05
  Speaker 3: I guess is that how it works?
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: As was like to be in it, So it's so.
• 40:11
  Speaker 3: Strange, weird and main Okay, this is my question. Main
• 40:15
  Speaker 3: title So like, uh huh, who gets to be part
• 40:19
  Speaker 3: of that? Are you like, like, are you like feeling
• 40:23
  Speaker 3: so lucky if you're asked because you weren't part of
• 40:25
  Speaker 3: it season four?
• 40:26
  Speaker 1: Were you? I wasn't part of it season four or five?
• 40:28
  Speaker 1: Once you get a title card, which is the introduction
• 40:32
  Speaker 1: where your name appears, you're a main cast member.
• 40:36
  Speaker 3: Okay, so you it's an official So are you asked
• 40:39
  Speaker 3: before you're like, will you be a main cast member
• 40:41
  Speaker 3: this year?
• 40:42
  Speaker 2: And then you know, oh yeah, I'm going to be
• 40:44
  Speaker 2: in the title card. That's how it works.
• 40:46
  Speaker 1: No. I remember just getting an email that was just like, hey,
• 40:50
  Speaker 1: this is when we're shooting.
• 40:52
  Speaker 3: So you had already filmed the season and then you
• 40:55
  Speaker 3: find out you're a main cast members.
• 40:58
  Speaker 2: How it works?
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: Yeah? Pretty much?
• 41:00
  Speaker 6: I guess that makes it would make sense just to
• 41:01
  Speaker 6: see how well they did for the season and then
• 41:04
  Speaker 6: if you were And I'm just saying like, if you
• 41:06
  Speaker 6: were a main and somebody like you weren't, but you
• 41:09
  Speaker 6: put more stories, they could make you a ma a maze?
• 41:12
  Speaker 4: Right? Is that maybe how it works too? Like what
• 41:14
  Speaker 4: you gave us this season not indicate if you're a
• 41:17
  Speaker 4: main or not?
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: Was Ali? Did Ali have? Ali didn't have a title card?
• 41:22
  Speaker 1: Right now? I don't think it's like, are you going
• 41:25
  Speaker 1: to show up and prove yourself? Because if that were
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: the case, I think I would have had one Season
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: four and season five. I mean my storylines those seasons
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: were pretty heavy, right. I was a main topic, right
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: and I didn't get a mean title card. So I
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: don't know how they judge it, to be honest, I
• 41:47
  Speaker 1: have no idea, but we we shoot obviously, as you
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: guys see with our outfits. Title cards and cast photos
• 41:55
  Speaker 1: are shot on different days. Yes, the main titles take
• 42:00
  Speaker 1: usually in the restaurants and then the others take place
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: at a studio.
• 42:05
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 42:05
  Speaker 3: Yeah, this could be really sweet or not at all.
• 42:11
  Speaker 3: Which friendship do you miss? Is what they're asking. Are
• 42:16
  Speaker 3: there any you think back on and you're like or
• 42:18
  Speaker 3: maybe people you were friends with early seasons where you're like, yeah,
• 42:21
  Speaker 3: we just didn't remain friends or anything like that.
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: I really liked my friendship with They all have a
• 42:31
  Speaker 1: really special place in my heart.
• 42:32
  Speaker 2: Of course.
• 42:33
  Speaker 1: I had a really fun, fun time with Arianna when
• 42:36
  Speaker 1: I first was on the show. Katie my friendship with
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: her season well, we were friends for a really long time.
• 42:45
  Speaker 1: But season ten, I thought that that friendship was like
• 42:48
  Speaker 1: really on point and you know served it's I don't
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: want to say served its purpose, like I needed to
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: get something out of it. But when I think back,
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: I'm like, wow, that was even know it was a
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: hard time in my life. That friendship really got me
• 43:03
  Speaker 1: through a tough time in my life. So that friendship
• 43:09
  Speaker 1: I was very I'm very fond of. I had really
• 43:13
  Speaker 1: fun times with Kristen Dotie. I've had fun times where
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: it was like I think about me and the witches
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: of who where I'm like those There were so many
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: fun times that if I could go back and relive
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: those moments, I totally would. And although it's sad when
• 43:33
  Speaker 1: things shift, and you know, Katie and I were very close,
• 43:39
  Speaker 1: I don't think now we have anything in common, and
• 43:43
  Speaker 1: that's okay, anything or most things don't. I don't even
• 43:47
  Speaker 1: know what we would talk about. You know, we're just
• 43:50
  Speaker 1: in such different places. And I think that friendship was
• 43:55
  Speaker 1: meant to be the way it was for the time being,
• 43:59
  Speaker 1: and it ran its course, and I think that that's
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: totally okay. I have nothing but fond memories of that friendship.
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: I have nothing but fond memories of the friendship I
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: had with Ariana and Doty. But people change and move
• 44:16
  Speaker 1: on and there's not a lot to talk about anymore,
• 44:18
  Speaker 1: and we're just in different stages of life. So no
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: matter why we fell off, I don't really give a shit.
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: What I do know is the time that we had
• 44:28
  Speaker 1: together I really enjoyed, and I wish them all the best.
• 44:32
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I hear you.
• 44:33
  Speaker 3: I will say, we're not far away from it now yet,
• 44:37
  Speaker 3: and we don't know, like my personal fingers crossed.
• 44:40
  Speaker 2: I'm like another season of vander Pump.
• 44:42
  Speaker 3: But I think eventually, whenever it happens where maybe you
• 44:46
  Speaker 3: guys are not part of the show anymore, and the
• 44:48
  Speaker 3: shows and you're a bit distanced from it, you always
• 44:53
  Speaker 3: have this special bond of being on this like iconic show,
• 44:58
  Speaker 3: and I think it's just gonna like you're going to
• 45:01
  Speaker 3: distance from it, and then there's gonna be space. You're
• 45:03
  Speaker 3: all gonna be doing your own thing, and then I
• 45:05
  Speaker 3: think you're gonna come back together because it's so special
• 45:07
  Speaker 3: and you guys went through like so many crazy things.
• 45:11
  Speaker 3: You have this pod of people and like the world.
• 45:14
  Speaker 2: And like CNN and shit was talking about you. I
• 45:17
  Speaker 2: just think it's really special.
• 45:18
  Speaker 3: And like I said, I don't know if we're distance
• 45:20
  Speaker 3: enough from it yet, like you guys just filmed last year.
• 45:23
  Speaker 1: But I think that's why I really like doing these episodes,
• 45:26
  Speaker 1: even though I kind of became anti for a second,
• 45:29
  Speaker 1: I just needed some distance after season eleven. Now that
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: we're kind of we've all rounded rounded it out.
• 45:41
  Speaker 4: Fucking home.
• 45:42
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you know now that we're kind of through the storm,
• 45:47
  Speaker 1: because you know, you guys were catching heat after that,
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: it became a lot And I have to say, like
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: season ten, just that entire that entire situation that they
• 45:58
  Speaker 1: named scan of all talk me a lot. I remember
• 46:02
  Speaker 1: being on Watch Rabins Live and Andy asking about the
• 46:05
  Speaker 1: mob mentality and I said, no, they fucked up. Let
• 46:08
  Speaker 1: us have fun or whatever. And now that I've been
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: on the other side of it where people and granted
• 46:15
  Speaker 1: I didn't do anything that like Tom Sandoval, but I've
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: been on the other side of the mob mentality and
• 46:21
  Speaker 1: I don't look at it the same anymore. It's just interesting.
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: What when you put the shoe on the other foot
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: and you experience things that are very easy to be like,
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: we'll get over it. It's like, Okay, well let's reverse
• 46:34
  Speaker 1: the roles, and it's like, oh, well, I don't really
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: like this. This doesn't feel that good. I think I've
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: changed and I look at things differently, and I don't
• 46:42
  Speaker 1: know that I would ever want to be a part
• 46:44
  Speaker 1: of the mob mentality ever again and just be relentless
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: on somebody, you know, unless they're like a murderer or something,
• 46:52
  Speaker 1: or they go to sea world. Don't do it.
• 46:55
  Speaker 2: We'll get you.
• 46:56
  Speaker 1: But just my experiences in life these past couple years
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: have really there's been a lot of shifting that's happened
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: in kind of a short period of time. So when
• 47:07
  Speaker 1: we do these episodes, it takes me to a place
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: where I'm like, We've had so much fun. This has
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: been like the best time, the best days of our lives. Yeah,
• 47:20
  Speaker 1: the things that I preach to people where I'm like,
• 47:21
  Speaker 1: it's not gonna last forever, even in like sad moments,
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: just like enjoy the fuck out of it, right because
• 47:28
  Speaker 1: people move on, People forget and then they only remember
• 47:32
  Speaker 1: like the greatest of things, you know. So I'm glad
• 47:36
  Speaker 1: that we do episodes like this because it does take
• 47:39
  Speaker 1: me back to a place where I'm like Oh, we've
• 47:40
  Speaker 1: all had so much fun together, and who cares if
• 47:43
  Speaker 1: you know why we fell off. All I know is
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: I've had a really fucking fun time.
• 47:48
  Speaker 3: And these people, You've experienced something so unique and special
• 47:51
  Speaker 3: with them that you will never again in your life.
• 47:54
  Speaker 2: Experience with anyone else. And that's wild.
• 47:56
  Speaker 4: Yeah, like what you said about that, like distancing yourself
• 47:59
  Speaker 4: and I feel like you have a lot of outside noise,
• 48:03
  Speaker 4: so once you get away from that, I could see that. Yeah,
• 48:06
  Speaker 4: all three business women, Yeah, the.
• 48:09
  Speaker 2: Whole crew coming back together. Are you kidding me?
• 48:11
  Speaker 3: You'd be like friends, like when you saw friends them
• 48:14
  Speaker 3: all come back together. Yeah, a freaking Vanderpump Rules reunion.
• 48:18
  Speaker 3: But I'm still hoping another season.
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: Baby, I love it. Thank you guys for listening to
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: another episode of the Give Them La La podcast. I
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: love you and I will catch you next week.