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Pamela, or Virtue Rewarded Volume 1 Letter 9 · The Samuel Richardson Library

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  Speaker 1: CHAPTER IX. TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY. i have been hindered by
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  Speaker 1: this wicked woman's watching me so close from writing on
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  Speaker 1: tuesday and so i will put both these days together
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  Speaker 1: i have been a little turn with her for an
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  Speaker 1: airing in the chariot and walked several times in the
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  Speaker 1: garden but have always her at my heels mr williams
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  Speaker 1: came to see us and took a walk with us
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  Speaker 1: once and while her back was just turned encouraged by
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  Speaker 1: the hint he had before given me i said sir
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  Speaker 1: i see two tiles upon that parsley bed might not
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  Speaker 1: one cover them with mould with a note between them
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  Speaker 1: on occasion a good hint said he let that sunflower
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  Speaker 1: by the back door of the garden be the place
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  Speaker 1: i have a key to the door for it is
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  Speaker 1: my nearest way to the town so i was forced
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  Speaker 1: to begin oh what inventions will necessity push us upon
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  Speaker 1: i hugged myself at the thought and she coming to
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  Speaker 1: us he said as if he was continuing a discourse
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  Speaker 1: we were in no not extraordinary pleasant what's that what's
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  Speaker 1: that said mrs jukes only said he the town i'm
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  Speaker 1: saying is not very pleasant no indeed said she it
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  Speaker 1: is not it is a poor town to my thinking
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  Speaker 1: are there any gentry in it said i and so
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  Speaker 1: we chatted on about the town to deceive her but
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  Speaker 1: my deceit intended no hurt to anybody we then talked
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  Speaker 1: of the garden how large and pleasant and the like
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  Speaker 1: and sat down on the tufted slope of the fine
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  Speaker 1: fish-pond to see the fishes play upon the surface of
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  Speaker 1: the water and she said i should angle if i
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  Speaker 1: would i wish said i you'd be so kind to
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  Speaker 1: fetch me a rod and baits pretty mistress said she
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  Speaker 1: i know better than that i'll assure you at this
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  Speaker 1: time i mean no harm said i indeed let me
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  Speaker 1: tell you said she i know none who have their
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  Speaker 1: thoughts more about them than you a body ought to
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  Speaker 1: look to it where you are but we'll angle a
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  Speaker 1: little to-morrow mr williams who is much afraid of her
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  Speaker 1: turned the discourse to a general subject i sauntered in
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  Speaker 1: and left them to talk by themselves but he went
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  Speaker 1: away to town and she was soon after me i
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  Speaker 1: had got to my pen and ink and i said
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  Speaker 1: i want some paper mrs jukes putting what i was
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  Speaker 1: about in my bosom you know i have written two
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  Speaker 1: letters and sent them by john oh how his name
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  Speaker 1: poor guilty fellow grieves me well said she you have
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  Speaker 1: some left one sheet did for those two letters yes
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  Speaker 1: said i but i used half another for a cover
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  Speaker 1: you know and see how i have scribbled the other
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  Speaker 1: half and so i showed her a parcel of broken
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  Speaker 1: scraps of verses which i had tried to recollect and
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  Speaker 1: had written purposely that she might see and think me
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  Speaker 1: usually employed to such idle purposes ay said she so
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  Speaker 1: you have well i'll give you two sheets more but
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  Speaker 1: let me see how you dispose of them either written
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  Speaker 1: or blank well thought i i hope still argus to
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  Speaker 1: be too hard for thee now argus the poets say
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  Speaker 1: had a hundred eyes and was set to watch with
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  Speaker 1: em all as she does she brought me the paper
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  Speaker 1: and said now madam let me see you write something
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  Speaker 1: i will said i and took the pen and wrote
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  Speaker 1: i wish mrs jukes would be so good to me
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  Speaker 1: as i would be to her if i had it
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  Speaker 1: in my power that's pretty now said she well i
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  Speaker 1: hope i am but what then why then wrote i
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  Speaker 1: she would do me the favor to let me know
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  Speaker 1: what i have done to be made her prisoner and
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  Speaker 1: what she thinks is to become of me well and
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  Speaker 1: what then said she why then of consequence scribbled i
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  Speaker 1: she would let me see her instructions that i may
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  Speaker 1: know how far to blame or to acquit her thus
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  Speaker 1: i fooled on to show her my fondness for scribbling
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  Speaker 1: for i had no expectation of any good from her
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  Speaker 1: that so she might suppose i employed myself as i
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  Speaker 1: said to no better purpose at other times for she
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  Speaker 1: will have it that i am upon some plot i
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  Speaker 1: am so silent and love so much to be by
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  Speaker 1: myself she would have made me write on a little
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  Speaker 1: further no said i you have not answered me' Why,'
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  Speaker 1: said she,' what can you doubt when my master himself
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  Speaker 1: assures you of his honour?'' Aye,' said I,' but lay
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  Speaker 1: your hand to your heart, Mrs. Dukes, and tell me
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  Speaker 1: if you yourself believe him.'' Yes,' said she,' to be
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  Speaker 1: sure I do.'' But,' said I,' what do you call honour?'' Why,'
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  Speaker 1: said she,' what does he call honour, think you?' ruin
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  Speaker 1: shame disgrace said i i fear pooh pooh said she
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  Speaker 1: if you have any doubt about it he can best
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  Speaker 1: explain his own meaning i'll send him word to come
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  Speaker 1: and satisfy you if you will horrid creature said i
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  Speaker 1: all in a fright canst thou not stab me to
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  Speaker 1: the heart i'd rather thou wouldst than say such another
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  Speaker 1: word but i hope there is no such thought of
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  Speaker 1: his coming she had the wickedness to say no no
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  Speaker 1: he don't intend to come as i know of but
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  Speaker 1: if i was he i would not be long away
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  Speaker 1: what means the woman said i mean said she turning
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  Speaker 1: it off why i mean i would come if i
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  Speaker 1: was he and put an end to all your fears
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  Speaker 1: by making you as happy as you wish it is
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  Speaker 1: out of his power said i to make me happy
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  Speaker 1: great and rich as he is but by leaving me
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  Speaker 1: innocent and giving me liberty to go to my dear
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  Speaker 1: father and mother she went away soon after and i
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  Speaker 1: ended my letter in hopes to have an opportunity to
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  Speaker 1: lay it in the appointed place so i went to
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  Speaker 1: her and said i suppose as it is not dark
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  Speaker 1: i may take another turn in the garden it is
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  Speaker 1: too late said she but if you will go don't
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  Speaker 1: stay and nan see and attend madam as she called
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  Speaker 1: me so i went towards the pond the maid following
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  Speaker 1: me and dropped purposely my hussy and when i came
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  Speaker 1: near the tiles i said mrs ann i have dropped
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  Speaker 1: my hussy be so kind as to look for it
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  Speaker 1: i had it by the pond side she went back
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  Speaker 1: to look and i slipped the note between the tiles
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  Speaker 1: and covered them as quick as i could with the
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  Speaker 1: light mould quite unperceived and the maid finding the hussy
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  Speaker 1: i took it and sauntered in again and met mrs
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  Speaker 1: jukes coming to see after me what i wrote was
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  Speaker 1: this reverend sir the want of an opportunity to speak
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  Speaker 1: my mind to you i am sure will excuse this
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  Speaker 1: boldness in a poor creature that is betrayed hither i
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  Speaker 1: have reason to think for the worst of purposes you
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  Speaker 1: know something to be sure of my story my native
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  Speaker 1: poverty which i am not ashamed of my late lady's
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  Speaker 1: goodness and my master's designs upon me it is true
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  Speaker 1: he promises honour and all that but the honour of
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  Speaker 1: the wicked is disgrace and shame to the virtuous and
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  Speaker 1: he may think he keeps his promises according to the
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  Speaker 1: notions he may allow himself to hold and yet according
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  Speaker 1: to mine and every good body's basely ruin me i
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  Speaker 1: am so wretched and ill treated by this mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: and she is so ill-principled a woman that as i
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  Speaker 1: may soon want the opportunity which the happy hint of
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  Speaker 1: this day affords to my hopes i throw myself at
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  Speaker 1: once upon your goodness without the least reserve for i
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  Speaker 1: cannot be worse than i am should that fail me
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  Speaker 1: which i dare say to your power it will not
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  Speaker 1: for i see it sir in your looks i hope
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  Speaker 1: it from your cloth and i doubt it not from
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  Speaker 1: your inclination in a case circumstance as my unhappy one
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  Speaker 1: is for sir in helping me out of my present
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  Speaker 1: distress you perform all the acts of religion in one
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  Speaker 1: and the highest mercy and charity both to the body
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  Speaker 1: and soul of a poor wretch that believe me sir
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  Speaker 1: has at present not so much as in thought swerved
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  Speaker 1: from her innocence is there not some way to be
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  Speaker 1: found out for my escape without danger to yourself is
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  Speaker 1: there no gentleman or lady of virtue in this neighbourhood
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  Speaker 1: to whom i may fly only till i can find
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  Speaker 1: a way to get to my poor father and mother
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  Speaker 1: cannot lady davers be made acquainted with my sad story
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  Speaker 1: by your conveying a letter to her my poor parents
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  Speaker 1: are so low in the world they can do nothing
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  Speaker 1: but break their hearts for me and that i fear
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  Speaker 1: will be the end of it my master promises if
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  Speaker 1: i will be easy as he calls it in my
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  Speaker 1: present lot he will not come down without my consent
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  Speaker 1: alas sir this is nothing for what's the promise of
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  Speaker 1: a person who thinks himself at liberty to act as
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  Speaker 1: he has done by me if he comes it must
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  Speaker 1: be to ruin me and come to be sure he
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  Speaker 1: will when he thinks he has silenced the clamours of
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  Speaker 1: my friends and lulled me as no doubt he hopes
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  Speaker 1: into a fatal security now therefore sir is all the
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  Speaker 1: time i have to work and struggle for the preservation
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  Speaker 1: of my honesty if i stay till he comes i
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  Speaker 1: am undone you have a key to the back garden
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  Speaker 1: door i have great hopes from that study good sir
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  Speaker 1: and contrive for me i will faithfully keep your secret
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  Speaker 1: yet i should be loth to have you suffer for
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  Speaker 1: me i say no more but commit this to the
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  Speaker 1: happy tiles in the bosom of that earth where i
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  Speaker 1: hope my deliverance will take root and bring forth such
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  Speaker 1: fruit as may turn to my inexpressible joy and your
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  Speaker 1: eternal reward both here and hereafter as shall ever pray
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  Speaker 1: your oppressed humble servant thursday this completes a terrible week
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  Speaker 1: since my setting out as i hoped to see you
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  Speaker 1: my dear father and mother oh how different were my
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  Speaker 1: hopes then from what they are now yet who knows
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  Speaker 1: what these happy tiles may produce but i must tell
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  Speaker 1: you first how i have been beaten by mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: it is very true and thus it came about my
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  Speaker 1: impatience was great to walk in the garden to see
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  Speaker 1: if anything had offered answerable to my hopes but this
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  Speaker 1: wicked mrs jukes would not let me go without her
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  Speaker 1: and said she was not at leisure we had a
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  Speaker 1: great many words about it for i told her it
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  Speaker 1: was very hard i could not be trusted to walk
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  Speaker 1: by myself in the garden for a little air but
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  Speaker 1: must be dogged and watched worse than a thief she
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  Speaker 1: still pleaded her instructions and said she was not to
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  Speaker 1: trust me out of her sight and you had better
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  Speaker 1: said she be easy and contented i assure you for
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  Speaker 1: i have worse orders than you have yet found i
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  Speaker 1: remember added she you're asking mr williams if there were
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  Speaker 1: any gentry in the neighbourhood this makes me suspect you
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  Speaker 1: want to get away to them to tell your sad
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  Speaker 1: dismal story as you call it my heart was at
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  Speaker 1: my mouth for i feared by that hint she had
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  Speaker 1: seen my letter under the tiles oh how uneasy i
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  Speaker 1: was at last she said well since you take on
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  Speaker 1: so you may take a turn and i will be
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  Speaker 1: with you in a minute when i was out of
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  Speaker 1: sight of her window i speeded towards the hopeful place
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  Speaker 1: but was soon forced to slacken my pace by her
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  Speaker 1: odious voice hey day why so nimble and whither so
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  Speaker 1: fast said she what are you upon a wager i
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  Speaker 1: stopped for her till her pursy sides were waddled up
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  Speaker 1: to me and she held by my arm half out
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  Speaker 1: of breath so i was forced to pass by the
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  Speaker 1: dear place without daring to look at it the gardener
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  Speaker 1: was at work a little farther and so we looked
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  Speaker 1: upon him and i began to talk about his art
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  Speaker 1: but she said softly my instructions are not to let
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  Speaker 1: you be so familiar with the servants why said i
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  Speaker 1: are you afraid i should confederate with them to commit
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  Speaker 1: a robbery upon my master maybe i am said the
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  Speaker 1: odious wretch for to rob him of yourself would be
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  Speaker 1: the worst that could happen to him in his opinion
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  Speaker 1: and pray said i walking on how came i to
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  Speaker 1: be his property what right has he in me but
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  Speaker 1: such as a thief may plead to stolen goods why
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  Speaker 1: was ever the like heard said she this is downright
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  Speaker 1: rebellion i protest well well lambkin which the foolish often
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  Speaker 1: calls me if i was in his place he should
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  Speaker 1: not have his property in you long questionable why what
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  Speaker 1: would you do said i if you were he not
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  Speaker 1: stand shall i shall i as he does but put
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  Speaker 1: you and himself both out of your pain why jezebel
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  Speaker 1: said i i could not help it would you ruin
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  Speaker 1: me by force upon this she gave me a deadly
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  Speaker 1: slap upon my shoulder take that said she whom do
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  Speaker 1: you call jezebel i was so surprised for you never
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  Speaker 1: beat me my dear father and mother in your lives
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  Speaker 1: that i was like one thunder-struck and looked round as
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  Speaker 1: if i wanted somebody to help me but alas i
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  Speaker 1: had nobody and said at last rubbing my shoulder is
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  Speaker 1: this also in your instructions alas for me am i
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  Speaker 1: to be beaten too and so fell a-crying and threw
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  Speaker 1: myself upon the grass-walk we were upon said she in
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  Speaker 1: a great pet i won't be called such names i'll
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  Speaker 1: assure you mary come up i see you have a
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  Speaker 1: spirit you must and shall be kept under i'll manage
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  Speaker 1: such little provoking things as you i'll warrant ye come
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  Speaker 1: come we'll go in a-doors and i'll lock you up
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  Speaker 1: and you shall have no shoes nor anything else if
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  Speaker 1: this be the case i did not know what to
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  Speaker 1: do it was a cruel thing to me and i
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  Speaker 1: blamed myself for my free speech for now i have
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  Speaker 1: given her some pretence and oh thought i here i
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  Speaker 1: have by my malapertness ruined the only project i had
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  Speaker 1: left the gardener saw this scene but she called to
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  Speaker 1: him well jacob what do you stare at pray mind
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  Speaker 1: what you're upon and away he walked to another quarter
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  Speaker 1: out of sight well thought i i must put on
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  Speaker 1: the dissembler a little i see she took my hand
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  Speaker 1: roughly come get up said she and come in a-doors
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  Speaker 1: i'll jezebel you i will so why dear mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: said i none of your dears and your coaxing said
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  Speaker 1: she why not jezebel again she was in a fearful
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  Speaker 1: passion i saw and i was out of my wits
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  Speaker 1: thought i i have often heard women blamed for their
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  Speaker 1: tongues i wish mine had been shorter but i can't
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  Speaker 1: go in said i indeed i can't why said she
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  Speaker 1: can't you i'll warrant i can take such a thin
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  Speaker 1: body as you under my arm and carry you in
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  Speaker 1: if you won't walk you don't know my strength yes
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  Speaker 1: but i do said i too well and you will
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  Speaker 1: not use me worse when i come in so i
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  Speaker 1: arose and she muttered to herself all the way she
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  Speaker 1: to be a jezebel with me that had used me
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  Speaker 1: so well and such like when i came near the
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  Speaker 1: house i said sitting down upon a settle bench well
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  Speaker 1: i will not go in till you say you forgive
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  Speaker 1: me mrs jukes if you will forgive my calling you
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  Speaker 1: that name i will forgive you for beating me she
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  Speaker 1: sat down by me and seemed in a great pucker
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  Speaker 1: and said well come i will forgive you for this
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  Speaker 1: time and so kissed me as a mark of reconciliation
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  Speaker 1: but pray said i tell me where i am to
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  Speaker 1: walk and go and give me what liberty you can
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  Speaker 1: and when i know the most you can favor me
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  Speaker 1: with you shall see i will be as content as
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  Speaker 1: i can and not ask you for more ay said
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  Speaker 1: she this is something like i wish i could give
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  Speaker 1: you all the liberty you desire for you must think
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  Speaker 1: it is no pleasure to me to tie you to
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  Speaker 1: my petticoat as it were and not let you stir
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  Speaker 1: without me but people that will do their duties must
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  Speaker 1: have some trouble and what i do is to serve
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  Speaker 1: as good a master to be sure as lives yes
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  Speaker 1: said i to everybody but me he loves you too
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  Speaker 1: well to be sure returned she and that's the reason
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  Speaker 1: so you ought to bear it i say love replied
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  Speaker 1: i come said she don't let the wench see you
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  Speaker 1: have been crying nor tell her any tales for you
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  Speaker 1: won't tell them fairly i am sure and i'll send
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  Speaker 1: her and you shall take another walk in the garden
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  Speaker 1: if you will maybe it will get you a stomach
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  Speaker 1: to your dinner for you don't eat enough to keep
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  Speaker 1: life and soul together you are beauty to the bone
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  Speaker 1: added the strange wretch or you would not look so
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  Speaker 1: well as you do with so little stomach so little
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  Speaker 1: rest and so much pining and whining for nothing at
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  Speaker 1: all well thought i say what thou wilt so i
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  Speaker 1: can be rid of thy bad tongue and company and
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  Speaker 1: i hope to find some opportunity now to come at
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  Speaker 1: my sunflower but i walked the other way to take
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  Speaker 1: that in my return to avoid suspicion i forced my
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  Speaker 1: discourse to the maid but it was all upon general
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  Speaker 1: things for i find she is asked after everything i
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  Speaker 1: say and do when i came near the place as
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  Speaker 1: i had been devising i said pray step to the
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  Speaker 1: gardener and ask him to gather a salad for me
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  Speaker 1: to dinner she called out jacob said i he can't
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  Speaker 1: hear you so far off and pray tell him i
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  Speaker 1: should like a cucumber too if he has one when
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  Speaker 1: she had stepped about a bow-shot from me i popped
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  Speaker 1: down and whipped my fingers under the upper tile and
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  Speaker 1: pulled out a letter without direction and thrust it in
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  Speaker 1: my bosom trembling for joy she was with me before
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  Speaker 1: i could well secure it and i was in such
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  Speaker 1: a taking that i feared i should discover myself you
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  Speaker 1: seem frightened madam said she Why, said I, with a
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  Speaker 1: lucky thought, alas, your poor daughter will make an intriguer
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  Speaker 1: by and by, but I hope an innocent one. I
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  Speaker 1: stooped to smell the sunflower and a great nasty worm
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  Speaker 1: ran into the ground that startled me for i can't
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  Speaker 1: abide worms said she sunflowers don't smell so i find
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  Speaker 1: replied i and then we walked in and mrs jukes
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  Speaker 1: said well you have made haste now you shall go
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  Speaker 1: another time i went up to my closet locked myself
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  Speaker 1: in and opening my letter found in it these words
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  Speaker 1: i am infinitely concerned for your distress i most heartily
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  Speaker 1: wish it may be in my power to serve and
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  Speaker 1: save so much innocence beauty and merit my whole dependence
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  Speaker 1: is upon mr b and i have a near view
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  Speaker 1: of being provided for by his favour to me but
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  Speaker 1: yet i would sooner forfeit all my hopes in him
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  Speaker 1: trusting in god for the rest than not assist you
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  Speaker 1: if possible i never looked upon mr b in the
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  Speaker 1: light he now appears in to me in your case
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  Speaker 1: to be sure he is no professed debauchee but i
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  Speaker 1: am entirely of opinion you should if possible get out
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  Speaker 1: of his hands and especially as you are in very
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: bad ones in mrs we have here the widow lady
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  Speaker 1: jones mistress of a good fortune and a woman of
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  Speaker 1: virtue i believe we have also old sir simon darnford
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  Speaker 1: and his lady who is a good woman and they
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  Speaker 1: have two daughters virtuous young ladies all the rest are
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  Speaker 1: but middling people and traitors at best i will try
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  Speaker 1: if you please either lady jones or lady darnford if
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  Speaker 1: they'll permit you to take refuge with them i see
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  Speaker 1: no probability of keeping myself concealed in this matter but
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: will as i said risk all things to serve you
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  Speaker 1: for i never saw a sweetness and innocence like yours
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: and your hard case has attached me entirely to you
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: for i know as you so happily express if i
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  Speaker 1: can serve you in this case i shall thereby perform
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: all the acts of religion in one as to lady
• 21:51
  Speaker 1: davers i will convey a letter if you please to
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: her but it must not be from our post-house i
• 21:57
  Speaker 1: give you caution for the man owes all his bread
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  Speaker 1: to mr b and his place too and i believe
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: by something that dropped from him over a can of
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: ale has his instructions you don't know how you are
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: surrounded all which confirms me in your opinion that no
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: honour is meant you let what will be professed and
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  Speaker 1: i am glad you want no caution on that head
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: give me leave to say that i had heard much
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: in your praise but i think greatly short of what
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: you deserve both as to person and mind my eyes
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: convince me of the one your letter of the other
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: for fear of losing the present lucky opportunity i am
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: longer than otherwise i should be but i will not
• 22:42
  Speaker 1: enlarge any further than to assure you that i am
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: to the best of my power your faithful friend and
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  Speaker 1: servant arthur williams i will come once every morning and
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: once every evening after school-time to look for your letters
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: i'll come in and return without going into the house
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  Speaker 1: if i see the coast clear otherwise to avoid suspicion
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: i'll come in i instantly in answer to this pleasing
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: letter wrote as follows reverend sir oh how suited to
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  Speaker 1: your function and your character is your kind letter god
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: bless you for it i now think i am beginning
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  Speaker 1: to be happy i should be sorry to have you
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  Speaker 1: suffer on my account but i hope it will be
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  Speaker 1: made up to you an hundredfold by that god whom
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: you so faithfully serve i should be too happy could
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: i ever have it in my power to contribute in
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: the least to it but alas to serve me must
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: be for god's sake only for i am poor and
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: lowly in fortune though in mind i hope too high
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  Speaker 1: to do a mean and unworthy deed to gain a
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: kingdom but i lose time any way you think best
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: i should be pleased with for i know not the
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: persons nor in what manner it is best to apply
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: to them i am glad of the hint you so
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: kindly give me of the man at the post-house i
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: was thinking of opening a way for myself by letter
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: when i could have opportunity but i see more and
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: more that i am indeed strangely surrounded with dangers and
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: that there is no dependence to be made on my
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: master's honour i should think sir if either of these
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: ladies would give leave i might some way get out
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: by favour of your key and as it is impossible
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: watched as i am to know when that can be
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: suppose sir you get one made by it and put
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: it the next opportunity under the sunflower i am sure
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: no time is to be lost because it is rather
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: my wonder that she is not thoughtful about this key
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: than otherwise for she forgets not the minutest thing but
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: sir if i had this key i could if these
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: ladies would not shelter me run away any where and
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: if i was once out of the house they could
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: have no pretence to force me again for i have
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: done no harm and hope to make my story good
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: to any compassionate body and by this way you need
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: not be known torture should not wring it from me
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  Speaker 1: i assure you' One thing more, good sir. Have you
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: no correspondence with my master's Bedfordshire family?' by that means
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: maybe i could be informed of his intention of coming
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: hither and when i enclose you a letter of a
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: deceitful wretch for i can trust you with anything poor
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: john arnold its contents will tell why i enclose it
• 25:36
  Speaker 1: perhaps by his means something may be discovered for he
• 25:40
  Speaker 1: seems willing to atone for his treachery to me by
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: the intimation of future service i leave the hint to
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: you to improve upon and am reverend sir your forever
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: obliged and thankful servant i hope sir by your favor
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: i could send a little packet now and then somehow
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: to my poor father and mother i have a little
• 26:01
  Speaker 1: stock of money about five or six guineas shall i
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: put half in your hands to defray the charge of
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: a man and horse or any other incidents i had
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  Speaker 1: but just time to transcribe this before i was called
• 26:16
  Speaker 1: to dinner and i put that for mr williams with
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: a wafer in it in my bosom to get an
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: opportunity to lay it in the dear place O good sirs,
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: of all the flowers in the garden, the sunflower sure
• 26:29
  Speaker 1: is the loveliest. It is a propitious one to me.
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: How nobly my plot succeeds! But I begin to be
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: afraid my writings may be discovered, for they grow large.
• 26:40
  Speaker 1: I stitch them hitherto in my undercoat, next my linen.
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: But if this brute should search me, I must try
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: to please her, and then she won't. well i am
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: but just come off from a walk in the garden
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: and have deposited my letter by a simple while i
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: got some horse-beans and we took a turn in the
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: garden to angle as mrs jukes had promised me she
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: baited the hook and i held it and soon hooked
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: a lovely carp play it play it said she i
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: did and brought it to the bank a sad thought
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: just then came into my head and i took it
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  Speaker 1: and threw it in again and oh the pleasure it
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: seemed to have to flounce in when at liberty why
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: this says she oh mrs jukes said i i was
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: thinking this poor carp was the unhappy pamela i was
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: likening you and myself to my naughty master as we
• 27:37
  Speaker 1: hooked and deceived the poor carp so was i betrayed
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: by false baits and when you said play it play
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: it it went to my heart to think i should
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: sport with the destruction of the poor fish i had
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: betrayed and i could not but fling it in again
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: and did you not see the joy with which the
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: happy carp flounced from us oh said i may some
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: good merciful body procure me my liberty in the same
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: manner for to be sure i think my danger equal
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: lord bless thee said she what a thought is there
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: well i can angle no more added i i'll try
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: my fortune said she and took the rod do answered
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: i and i will plant life if i can while
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: you are destroying it i have some horse-beans here and
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: will go and stick them in one of the borders
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: to see how long they will be coming up and
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: i will call them my garden so you see dear
• 28:37
  Speaker 1: father and mother i hope now you will soon see
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: for maybe if i can't get away so soon myself
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: i may send my papers somehow i say you will
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: see that this furnishes me with a good excuse to
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: look after my garden another time and if the mould
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: should look a little freshish it won't be so much
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: suspected she mistrusted nothing of this and i went and
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: stuck in here and there my beans for about the
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: length of five ells of each side of the sunflower
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: and easily deposited my letter and not a little proud
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: am i of this contrivance sure something will do at
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: last friday saturday i have just now told you a
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: trick of mine now i'll tell you a trick of
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: this wicked woman's she comes up to me says she
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: i have a bill i cannot change till to-morrow and
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: a tradesman wants his money most sadly and i don't
• 29:34
  Speaker 1: love to turn poor tradesfolks away without their money have
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: you any about you i have a little replied i
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: how much will you do oh said she i want
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: eight pounds alack said i i have but between five
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: and six lend me that said she till to-morrow i
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: did so and she went down stairs and when she
• 29:59
  Speaker 1: came up she laughed and said well i have paid
• 30:02
  Speaker 1: the tradesman said i i hope you'll give it me
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: again to-morrow at that the assurance laughing aloud said why
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: what occasion have you for money to tell you the
• 30:14
  Speaker 1: truth lambkin i didn't want it i only feared you
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: might make a bad use of it and now i
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: can trust nan with you a little oftener especially as
• 30:23
  Speaker 1: i have got the key of your portmanteau so that
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: you can neither corrupt her with money nor find things
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: never did anybody look more silly than i oh how
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: i fretted to be so foolishly outwitted and the more
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: as i had hinted to mr williams that i would
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: put some in his hands to defray the charges of
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: my sending to you i cried for vexation and now
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: i have not five shillings left to support me if
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: i can get away was ever such a fool as
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: i i must be priding myself in my contrivances indeed
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: said i was this in your instructions wolfkin for she
• 31:03
  Speaker 1: called me lambkin jezebel you mean child said she well
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: i now forgive you heartily let's bus and be friends
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: out upon you said i i cannot bear you but
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: i durst not call her names again for i dread
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: her huge paw most sadly the more i think of
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: this thing the more i do regret it and blame
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: myself this night the man from the post-house brought a
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: letter for mrs jukes in which was one enclosed for
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: me she brought it me up said she well my
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: good master don't forget us he has sent you a
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: letter and see what he writes to me so she
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: read that he hoped her fair charge was well happy
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: and contented i to be sure said i i can't
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: choose that he did not doubt her care and kindness
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: to me and i was very dear to him and
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: she could not use me too well and the like
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: there's a master for you said she sure you will
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: love and pray for him i desired her to read
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  Speaker 1: the rest no no said she but i won't said
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  Speaker 1: i are there any orders for taking my shoes away
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  Speaker 1: and for beating me no said she nor about jezebel
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: neither well returned i i cry truce for i have
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: no mind to be beat again i thought said she
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: we had forgiven one another my letter was as follows
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: my dear pamela i begin to repent already that i
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: have bound myself by promise not to see you till
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: you give me leave for i think the time very
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: tedious can you place so much confidence in me as
• 32:48
  Speaker 1: to invite me down assure yourself that your generosity shall
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: not be thrown away upon me i the rather would
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: press this as i am uneasy for your uneasiness for
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: mrs jukes acquaints me that you take your restraint very
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: heavily and neither eat drink nor rest well and i
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: have too great interest in your health not to wish
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: to shorten the time of this trial which will be
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: the consequence of my coming down to you john too
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: has intimated to me your concern with a grief that
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: hardly gave him leave for utterance a grief that a
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: little alarmed my tenderness for you not that i fear
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: anything but that your disregard to me which my proud
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: heart will hardly permit me to own may throw you
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: upon some rashness that might encourage a daring hope but
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: how poorly do i descend to be anxious about such
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: a menial as he i will only say one thing
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: that if you will give me leave to attend you
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: at the hall consider who it is that requests this
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: from you as a favour i solemnly declare that you
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: will have cause to be pleased with this obliging mark
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: of your confidence in me and consideration for me and
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: if i find mrs jukes has not behaved to you
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: with all the respect due to one i so dearly
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: love i will put it entirely into your power to
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: discharge her the house if you think proper and mrs
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: jervis or who else you please shall attend you in
• 34:17
  Speaker 1: her place this i say on a hint john gave
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: me as if you resented something from that quarter dearest
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: pamela answer favorably this earnest request of one that cannot
• 34:29
  Speaker 1: live without you and on whose honor to you you
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: may absolutely depend and so much the more as you
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: place a confidence in it i am and assuredly ever
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: will be your faithful and affectionate c You will be glad,
• 34:45
  Speaker 1: I know, to hear your father and mother are well
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: and easy upon your last letter. That gave me a
• 34:51
  Speaker 1: pleasure that I am resolved you shall not repent. Mrs.
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: Jukes will convey to me your answer.