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Ep. 114 – Creating Neuro-Friendly Spaces: Practical Approaches for Daily Life · ADHD & Neurodiversity: The Spicy Brain Podcast

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  Foreign.
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  Hello,
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  Michelle.
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  Welcome
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  to
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  the
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  Spicy
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  Brain
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  podcast
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  where
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  we
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  are
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  navigating
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  neurodiversity
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  with
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  joy,
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  curiosity
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  and
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  radical
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  acceptance.
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  High
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  kick.
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  So
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  welcome
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  to
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  anyone
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  who's
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  new.
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  We
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  love
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  having
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  new
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  people.
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  Meg's
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  been
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  bringing
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  a
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  lot
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  of
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  new
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  people
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  on
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  with
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  her
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  Twitch
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  stream,
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  so
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  if
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  you
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  haven't
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  caught
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  that
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  from
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  her,
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  definitely
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  check
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  into
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  that.
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  I
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  think
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  there's
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  a
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  discord
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  now
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  or
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  something
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  where
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  people
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  can
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  talk.
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  Yeah,
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  these
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  are
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  all
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  newfangled
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  things
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  that
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  I
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  don't
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  understand
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  very
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  well,
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  but
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  it's
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  exciting.
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  Understand
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  it
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  all.
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  Yeah,
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  we've
• 0:46
  been,
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  we've
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  been
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  doing
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  all
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  the,
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  all
• 0:48
  the
• 0:48
  discord
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  stuff
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  and
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  that's
• 0:49
  been
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  great.
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  And
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  yeah,
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  you
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  can
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  like,
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  join
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  and.
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  And
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  then
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  we
• 0:53
  have
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  times
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  for
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  talking
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  about
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  good
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  days
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  and
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  bad
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  days
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  and
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  memes
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  and
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  like
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  motivation
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  and
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  all
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  that
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  kind
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  of
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  stuff.
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  It's
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  been
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  really
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  fun.
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  So
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  if
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  you're
• 1:01
  returning,
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  you
• 1:02
  may
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  have
• 1:03
  caught
• 1:03
  that
• 1:04
  my
• 1:04
  intro
• 1:04
  was
• 1:04
  a
• 1:04
  little
• 1:05
  bit
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  different.
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  We'll
• 1:05
  see
• 1:05
  if
• 1:05
  anybody
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  figures
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  it
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  out.
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  I
• 1:07
  might
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  have
• 1:07
  switched
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  a
• 1:08
  word
• 1:08
  here
• 1:08
  or
• 1:08
  there
• 1:08
  because
• 1:09
  I
• 1:09
  don't
• 1:09
  have
• 1:09
  my
• 1:09
  card
• 1:09
  in
• 1:09
  front
• 1:10
  of
• 1:10
  me
• 1:10
  right
• 1:10
  now.
• 1:11
  But
• 1:11
  I
• 1:12
  would
• 1:12
  want
• 1:12
  to
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  say
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  that
• 1:13
  we
• 1:13
  are
• 1:13
  generally
• 1:15
  reading
• 1:15
  a
• 1:15
  book,
• 1:16
  right?
• 1:16
  Usually
• 1:17
  about
• 1:17
  something
• 1:17
  around
• 1:17
  ADHD
• 1:18
  or
• 1:18
  spicy
• 1:19
  brainness,
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  some
• 1:20
  neuro
• 1:20
  neurological
• 1:21
  kind
• 1:21
  of
• 1:22
  component
• 1:22
  of.
• 1:22
  Of
• 1:23
  our
• 1:23
  brains,
• 1:23
  understanding
• 1:24
  them
• 1:24
  better.
• 1:24
  And
• 1:25
  then
• 1:25
  we
• 1:26
  try
• 1:26
  to
• 1:26
  dig
• 1:27
  into
• 1:27
  that
• 1:27
  brain
• 1:27
  of
• 1:27
  yours
• 1:28
  or
• 1:28
  mine,
• 1:29
  sometimes
• 1:29
  both.
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  And
• 1:30
  then
• 1:30
  sometimes
• 1:31
  strategies,
• 1:31
  but
• 1:32
  not
• 1:32
  so
• 1:32
  much
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  with
• 1:33
  the
• 1:33
  strategies.
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  Depends
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  on
• 1:34
  the
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  day.
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  If
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  you're
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  coming
• 1:36
  here
• 1:36
  for
• 1:36
  strategies,
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  you
• 1:37
  might
• 1:37
  need
• 1:37
  to
• 1:37
  go
• 1:37
  to
• 1:38
  some
• 1:38
  other
• 1:38
  like,
• 1:38
  insta
• 1:39
  person
• 1:40
  who
• 1:40
  has
• 1:41
  it
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  all
• 1:41
  figured
• 1:41
  out.
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  We're
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  still
• 1:42
  working
• 1:42
  on
• 1:43
  it.
• 1:43
  I
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  know
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  we're.
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  We're
• 1:44
  not
• 1:44
  experts.
• 1:44
  We're
• 1:45
  just
• 1:45
  sisters.
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  Just
• 1:47
  sisters,
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  Absolutely.
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  So
• 1:49
  the
• 1:49
  current
• 1:49
  book
• 1:50
  that
• 1:50
  we
• 1:50
  are
• 1:51
  reading
• 1:52
  is
• 1:52
  the
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  Essential
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  Guide
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  to
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  Raising
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  Complex
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  Kids.
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  And
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  we've
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  sort
• 1:56
  of
• 1:56
  taken
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  it
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  kind
• 1:57
  of
• 1:57
  from
• 1:57
  two
• 1:57
  perspectives,
• 1:58
  right,
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  Meg?
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  Yeah,
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  we've
• 2:00
  been
• 2:00
  taking
• 2:01
  it
• 2:01
  from
• 2:01
  the
• 2:01
  perspective
• 2:02
  of
• 2:02
  actually
• 2:02
  parenting
• 2:03
  your
• 2:04
  kid,
• 2:04
  but
• 2:04
  then
• 2:04
  also
• 2:05
  parenting
• 2:05
  your
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  inner
• 2:06
  child.
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  So
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  I
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  firmly
• 2:08
  believe
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  that
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  all
• 2:09
  adulting
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  is
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  just
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  parenting
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  yourself.
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  And,
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  and
• 2:13
  so
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  we're.
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  Lauren,
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  like,
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  if
• 2:15
  you.
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  If
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  you
• 2:15
  didn't
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  have
• 2:16
  all
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  the
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  tools
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  you
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  needed
• 2:17
  when
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  you
• 2:18
  were
• 2:18
  a
• 2:18
  kid,
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  then
• 2:19
  you're
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  here
• 2:20
  to
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  like,
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  we
• 2:21
  can
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  learn
• 2:21
  how
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  to
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  parent
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  ourselves.
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  Absolutely.
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  And
• 2:24
  so
• 2:25
  this
• 2:25
  book
• 2:25
  has
• 2:26
  been
• 2:26
  another
• 2:26
  meaty
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  one.
• 2:27
  So
• 2:28
  if
• 2:28
  you've
• 2:28
  ever
• 2:28
  been
• 2:28
  following
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  us,
• 2:29
  you
• 2:29
  know
• 2:29
  that
• 2:30
  sometimes
• 2:30
  we're
• 2:30
  sometimes
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  maybe
• 2:31
  like
• 2:31
  three
• 2:32
  or
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  four
• 2:32
  podcasts
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  on
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  a
• 2:34
  sentence.
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  Yes,
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  one
• 2:36
  sentence.
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  Exactly.
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  One
• 2:38
  sentence
• 2:39
  in
• 2:39
  a
• 2:39
  book
• 2:39
  can
• 2:39
  kind
• 2:39
  of
• 2:40
  get
• 2:40
  us
• 2:40
  going.
• 2:40
  And
• 2:40
  I
• 2:41
  actually
• 2:41
  think
• 2:41
  this
• 2:41
  chapter
• 2:43
  might
• 2:43
  be
• 2:44
  that
• 2:44
  for
• 2:44
  us,
• 2:44
  we'll
• 2:44
  see.
• 2:45
  Yeah.
• 2:46
  So
• 2:46
  what
• 2:47
  I
• 2:47
  wanted
• 2:47
  us
• 2:47
  to
• 2:47
  think
• 2:47
  about.
• 2:48
  So
• 2:48
  I
• 2:48
  like
• 2:48
  in
• 2:49
  her
• 2:49
  book
• 2:49
  that
• 2:49
  she
• 2:49
  talks
• 2:50
  about
• 2:50
  the
• 2:50
  idea
• 2:50
  that
• 2:51
  if
• 2:51
  you're
• 2:52
  raising
• 2:52
  a
• 2:52
  complex
• 2:53
  kid
• 2:53
  and
• 2:53
  that
• 2:53
  might
• 2:54
  mean
• 2:54
  raising
• 2:54
  yourself,
• 2:55
  that
• 2:56
  that
• 2:56
  could
• 2:56
  be
• 2:57
  neurological
• 2:58
  or
• 2:58
  biological.
• 2:59
  Right.
• 3:00
  And
• 3:00
  I
• 3:01
  liked
• 3:01
  that
• 3:01
  idea
• 3:01
  that,
• 3:02
  you
• 3:02
  know,
• 3:02
  if
• 3:02
  you're
• 3:03
  raising
• 3:03
  someone
• 3:03
  who,
• 3:03
  for
• 3:04
  example,
• 3:04
  in
• 3:04
  our
• 3:04
  family
• 3:05
  we're
• 3:05
  gluten
• 3:05
  free,
• 3:05
  dairy
• 3:06
  free,
• 3:06
  that
• 3:06
  has
• 3:07
  whole
• 3:07
  levels
• 3:07
  of
• 3:07
  complexity
• 3:08
  to
• 3:08
  it.
• 3:08
  And
• 3:09
  I
• 3:09
  could
• 3:09
  probably
• 3:09
  have
• 3:10
  19
• 3:11
  podcasts
• 3:11
  just
• 3:11
  about
• 3:12
  that
• 3:12
  because
• 3:13
  let
• 3:13
  me
• 3:13
  tell
• 3:14
  you,
• 3:14
  like,
• 3:14
  when
• 3:14
  there's
• 3:15
  a
• 3:15
  pizza
• 3:15
  party
• 3:15
  at
• 3:15
  school
• 3:16
  and
• 3:16
  your
• 3:17
  kid
• 3:17
  isn't
• 3:18
  supposed
• 3:18
  to
• 3:18
  have
• 3:18
  dairy
• 3:19
  or
• 3:19
  gluten,
• 3:19
  it's
• 3:20
  fun
• 3:20
  times.
• 3:20
  So.
• 3:21
  Fun
• 3:21
  times.
• 3:21
  And
• 3:22
  you
• 3:22
  never
• 3:22
  know,
• 3:22
  by
• 3:23
  the
• 3:23
  way,
• 3:23
  when
• 3:23
  that
• 3:23
  pizza
• 3:24
  party
• 3:24
  is
• 3:24
  coming.
• 3:24
  So
• 3:25
  of
• 3:25
  course
• 3:25
  there
• 3:25
  are
• 3:26
  things.
• 3:26
  Right,
• 3:26
  right.
• 3:27
  So
• 3:27
  there's
• 3:27
  things
• 3:27
  like
• 3:27
  that.
• 3:28
  And
• 3:28
  then
• 3:29
  there's
• 3:29
  also,
• 3:29
  you
• 3:30
  know,
• 3:30
  obviously
• 3:30
  the,
• 3:31
  the
• 3:31
  things
• 3:31
  that
• 3:31
  we
• 3:32
  talk
• 3:32
  about
• 3:32
  a
• 3:32
  lot
• 3:32
  on
• 3:32
  this
• 3:32
  podcast,
• 3:33
  like
• 3:33
  adhd
• 3:34
  and
• 3:35
  we're
• 3:35
  going
• 3:35
  to
• 3:35
  be
• 3:35
  getting
• 3:36
  into
• 3:36
  hypersensitivity
• 3:37
  soon.
• 3:37
  I
• 3:38
  think
• 3:38
  that'll
• 3:38
  be
• 3:38
  an
• 3:39
  interesting
• 3:39
  kind
• 3:39
  of
• 3:40
  variant
• 3:40
  into
• 3:41
  it.
• 3:41
  But
• 3:42
  in
• 3:42
  this
• 3:42
  chapter
• 3:43
  specifically,
• 3:43
  she
• 3:44
  says,
• 3:44
  and
• 3:44
  I
• 3:44
  think
• 3:44
  she
• 3:45
  really
• 3:45
  is
• 3:45
  honing
• 3:45
  in
• 3:46
  more
• 3:46
  on
• 3:46
  adhd.
• 3:47
  But
• 3:47
  I
• 3:48
  was
• 3:48
  curious
• 3:48
  if
• 3:48
  you
• 3:49
  think
• 3:49
  this
• 3:49
  is
• 3:49
  true
• 3:50
  and
• 3:50
  if
• 3:50
  our,
• 3:51
  the
• 3:51
  people
• 3:51
  are
• 3:51
  listening
• 3:52
  think
• 3:52
  it's
• 3:52
  true
• 3:53
  that
• 3:54
  someone
• 3:55
  who's
• 3:55
  got
• 3:55
  ADHD
• 3:56
  just
• 3:56
  does
• 3:56
  not
• 3:57
  have
• 3:58
  a
• 3:58
  just
• 3:58
  get
• 3:58
  it
• 3:59
  done
• 3:59
  button.
• 4:01
  It's
• 4:01
  true.
• 4:02
  So.
• 4:02
  So
• 4:03
  I
• 4:03
  was
• 4:03
  thinking
• 4:03
  of
• 4:03
  those
• 4:03
  buttons,
• 4:04
  you
• 4:04
  know,
• 4:04
  like
• 4:04
  they
• 4:05
  would
• 4:05
  have
• 4:05
  at
• 4:05
  Staples
• 4:06
  or
• 4:06
  Office
• 4:06
  Max
• 4:06
  or
• 4:06
  something.
• 4:07
  Yes.
• 4:07
  And
• 4:08
  I
• 4:08
  can't
• 4:08
  remember
• 4:09
  what
• 4:09
  it
• 4:09
  said.
• 4:10
  Said
• 4:10
  when,
• 4:10
  like
• 4:11
  it's
• 4:12
  hard
• 4:12
  or
• 4:12
  I.
• 4:12
  Can't
• 4:13
  remember
• 4:13
  whatever
• 4:13
  it
• 4:13
  was.
• 4:14
  Yeah.
• 4:14
  Whatever
• 4:14
  it
• 4:15
  is
• 4:15
  done
• 4:15
  or
• 4:16
  whatever
• 4:16
  it
• 4:16
  was.
• 4:16
  And
• 4:17
  I
• 4:17
  was
• 4:17
  sort
• 4:17
  of
• 4:17
  thinking
• 4:17
  of
• 4:18
  this
• 4:18
  big
• 4:18
  red
• 4:18
  giant
• 4:19
  get
• 4:19
  it
• 4:20
  done
• 4:20
  button.
• 4:21
  And
• 4:21
  I
• 4:22
  thought,
• 4:22
  yeah,
• 4:22
  like,
• 4:22
  there's
• 4:23
  a
• 4:23
  gear
• 4:23
  I
• 4:24
  go
• 4:24
  into
• 4:24
  when
• 4:25
  I
• 4:25
  have
• 4:25
  to
• 4:25
  get
• 4:25
  something
• 4:25
  I
• 4:25
  don't
• 4:26
  want
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  do
• 4:26
  done.
• 4:27
  Yeah.
• 4:27
  And
• 4:27
  I
• 4:28
  just
• 4:28
  get
• 4:28
  it
• 4:28
  done.
• 4:30
  Yeah,
• 4:31
  I
• 4:31
  have
• 4:31
  that
• 4:31
  button.
• 4:32
  And
• 4:32
  she's
• 4:32
  like,
• 4:32
  yeah,
• 4:33
  they,
• 4:33
  they
• 4:33
  just
• 4:34
  don't
• 4:34
  have
• 4:34
  that
• 4:35
  button.
• 4:35
  And
• 4:35
  I
• 4:35
  was
• 4:35
  kind
• 4:36
  of
• 4:36
  curious
• 4:36
  if
• 4:37
  you
• 4:37
  related
• 4:37
  to
• 4:37
  that.
• 4:38
  I
• 4:38
  for
• 4:39
  sure
• 4:39
  don't
• 4:39
  have
• 4:40
  that
• 4:40
  button.
• 4:40
  And
• 4:41
  I
• 4:42
  really
• 4:42
  need
• 4:42
  to
• 4:42
  do
• 4:43
  one
• 4:43
  little
• 4:43
  bit
• 4:43
  of
• 4:43
  housekeeping
• 4:44
  real
• 4:44
  quick
• 4:45
  before
• 4:45
  so
• 4:46
  my
• 4:46
  ADHD
• 4:47
  brain
• 4:47
  can
• 4:47
  actually
• 4:48
  truly
• 4:48
  listen.
• 4:49
  For
• 4:49
  any
• 4:49
  of
• 4:50
  you
• 4:50
  who
• 4:50
  are
• 4:50
  wondering
• 4:51
  if
• 4:51
  this
• 4:51
  audio
• 4:52
  sounds
• 4:52
  a
• 4:52
  little
• 4:52
  bit
• 4:53
  different,
• 4:53
  Michelle
• 4:54
  is
• 4:54
  actually
• 4:55
  on
• 4:55
  the
• 4:55
  road
• 4:56
  right
• 4:56
  now
• 4:56
  and
• 4:57
  we're
• 4:57
  trying
• 4:57
  out
• 4:58
  cool
• 4:58
  techie
• 4:59
  stuff.
• 4:59
  We're
• 4:59
  going
• 4:59
  to
• 4:59
  see
• 4:59
  if
• 5:00
  we
• 5:00
  can
• 5:00
  keep
• 5:00
  up
• 5:01
  with
• 5:01
  her.
• 5:01
  So
• 5:01
  there
• 5:02
  might
• 5:02
  be
• 5:02
  a
• 5:02
  little
• 5:02
  bit
• 5:02
  of
• 5:02
  a
• 5:03
  delay
• 5:03
  or
• 5:04
  there
• 5:04
  might
• 5:04
  be
• 5:04
  some
• 5:04
  weird
• 5:04
  stuff,
• 5:05
  but,
• 5:05
  like,
• 5:05
  we
• 5:05
  wanted
• 5:06
  to
• 5:06
  make
• 5:06
  sure
• 5:06
  we
• 5:06
  still
• 5:06
  got
• 5:06
  our
• 5:07
  podcast
• 5:07
  out.
• 5:08
  Cause
• 5:08
  we're
• 5:08
  trying.
• 5:09
  We're
• 5:09
  trying
• 5:09
  new
• 5:10
  stuff.
• 5:10
  So
• 5:12
  thank
• 5:12
  you
• 5:12
  very
• 5:13
  much
• 5:13
  for
• 5:13
  letting
• 5:14
  me
• 5:15
  entertain
• 5:15
  that
• 5:16
  part
• 5:16
  of
• 5:16
  my
• 5:16
  brain.
• 5:18
  Absolutely.
• 5:18
  Okay,
• 5:19
  so,
• 5:19
  yes,
• 5:20
  as
• 5:20
  far
• 5:20
  as
• 5:21
  the
• 5:22
  get
• 5:22
  it
• 5:22
  done
• 5:23
  button,
• 5:23
  I
• 5:23
  do
• 5:23
  not
• 5:23
  have
• 5:24
  one.
• 5:24
  I
• 5:24
  just
• 5:25
  don't.
• 5:25
  It
• 5:25
  is
• 5:26
  not
• 5:26
  there.
• 5:28
  It's.
• 5:28
  And
• 5:28
  even
• 5:28
  if
• 5:29
  it's
• 5:29
  like,
• 5:29
  even
• 5:30
  with
• 5:30
  something
• 5:30
  I
• 5:30
  do
• 5:30
  enjoy
• 5:31
  doing,
• 5:31
  there
• 5:31
  is
• 5:31
  no
• 5:32
  get
• 5:32
  it
• 5:32
  done
• 5:32
  button.
• 5:33
  It
• 5:33
  doesn't
• 5:34
  happen.
• 5:36
  So.
• 5:37
  Okay,
• 5:37
  so
• 5:38
  I
• 5:38
  want
• 5:38
  to
• 5:38
  know
• 5:38
  what.
• 5:38
  That
• 5:39
  I
• 5:40
  do
• 5:40
  need
• 5:40
  to
• 5:40
  dig
• 5:40
  in
• 5:41
  here
• 5:41
  a
• 5:41
  little
• 5:42
  bit,
• 5:42
  because
• 5:42
  this
• 5:43
  is
• 5:43
  now,
• 5:43
  like,
• 5:43
  me
• 5:43
  just
• 5:44
  being
• 5:44
  nerdy
• 5:45
  and
• 5:45
  curious.
• 5:46
  So
• 5:47
  how
• 5:47
  do
• 5:47
  you
• 5:47
  ever
• 5:47
  get
• 5:48
  anything
• 5:49
  done?
• 5:51
  Right,
• 5:52
  because
• 5:52
  that's
• 5:52
  the
• 5:53
  problem,
• 5:53
  Michelle.
• 5:54
  You
• 5:54
  do
• 5:54
  get
• 5:55
  things
• 5:55
  done,
• 5:55
  though.
• 5:56
  I
• 5:56
  have
• 5:56
  seen
• 5:57
  it
• 5:57
  happen.
• 5:57
  I
• 5:57
  have
• 5:58
  experienced
• 5:58
  it.
• 5:58
  It's
• 5:58
  true.
• 5:59
  You
• 5:59
  get
• 5:59
  the
• 5:59
  podcast
• 6:00
  up
• 6:00
  pretty
• 6:01
  much
• 6:01
  every
• 6:01
  week,
• 6:01
  right?
• 6:02
  So
• 6:03
  there
• 6:03
  is
• 6:03
  something
• 6:04
  that
• 6:04
  gets
• 6:05
  done,
• 6:06
  I
• 6:06
  think.
• 6:07
  It's
• 6:07
  not
• 6:07
  like
• 6:07
  there's
• 6:08
  not
• 6:08
  a.
• 6:09
  Okay,
• 6:09
  there's
• 6:10
  not
• 6:10
  like
• 6:10
  a
• 6:10
  get
• 6:11
  it
• 6:11
  done
• 6:11
  button.
• 6:12
  Like,
• 6:12
  it's
• 6:12
  not
• 6:12
  like
• 6:12
  I
• 6:12
  can
• 6:13
  say,
• 6:13
  okay,
• 6:13
  and
• 6:13
  now
• 6:14
  I'm
• 6:14
  going
• 6:14
  to
• 6:14
  get
• 6:14
  it
• 6:15
  done.
• 6:16
  It's
• 6:17
  a.
• 6:17
  God,
• 6:17
  I
• 6:18
  don't
• 6:18
  even
• 6:18
  know.
• 6:18
  How
• 6:18
  do
• 6:18
  I
• 6:18
  explain
• 6:19
  this?
• 6:20
  There's
• 6:20
  a
• 6:21
  lot
• 6:21
  of
• 6:23
  connecting
• 6:25
  things
• 6:25
  to
• 6:26
  what
• 6:26
  I
• 6:26
  have
• 6:26
  to
• 6:27
  get
• 6:27
  done.
• 6:27
  So,
• 6:28
  like,
• 6:31
  like
• 6:31
  now,
• 6:31
  for
• 6:32
  instance,
• 6:32
  I
• 6:32
  know
• 6:33
  that
• 6:33
  whenever
• 6:33
  I
• 6:33
  go
• 6:34
  to
• 6:34
  the
• 6:34
  aquarium,
• 6:35
  I
• 6:35
  know
• 6:36
  I've
• 6:36
  got
• 6:36
  to
• 6:36
  get
• 6:36
  a
• 6:36
  podcast
• 6:37
  done
• 6:37
  that
• 6:37
  day.
• 6:38
  Like,
• 6:39
  so
• 6:39
  the,
• 6:39
  the
• 6:39
  getting,
• 6:40
  the
• 6:40
  getting
• 6:41
  it
• 6:41
  done
• 6:41
  button.
• 6:42
  Michelle,
• 6:43
  this
• 6:43
  is,
• 6:43
  this
• 6:44
  one's
• 6:44
  actually
• 6:44
  really
• 6:44
  hard
• 6:44
  for
• 6:45
  me
• 6:45
  to
• 6:45
  figure
• 6:45
  out.
• 6:45
  Like,
• 6:45
  how
• 6:46
  do
• 6:46
  I
• 6:46
  get
• 6:46
  things
• 6:47
  done?
• 6:47
  Because
• 6:47
  this
• 6:47
  is
• 6:48
  the,
• 6:48
  this
• 6:48
  is
• 6:48
  the
• 6:48
  problem,
• 6:49
  right?
• 6:49
  Like,
• 6:50
  I,
• 6:50
  I,
• 6:51
  I
• 6:51
  struggle
• 6:52
  with
• 6:52
  it,
• 6:52
  and
• 6:53
  I
• 6:53
  don't
• 6:53
  know
• 6:54
  what
• 6:54
  it
• 6:54
  is
• 6:54
  that,
• 6:55
  like,
• 6:56
  there's,
• 6:56
  it
• 6:56
  feels
• 6:56
  like
• 6:57
  there
• 6:57
  is
• 6:57
  this,
• 6:57
  like,
• 6:58
  hamster
• 6:58
  running
• 6:59
  around
• 6:59
  in
• 6:59
  my
• 6:59
  brain,
• 7:00
  and
• 7:01
  he's
• 7:01
  like,
• 7:02
  just
• 7:03
  trying
• 7:03
  to,
• 7:03
  like,
• 7:04
  keep
• 7:04
  up.
• 7:04
  And
• 7:04
  then
• 7:04
  every
• 7:05
  once
• 7:05
  in
• 7:05
  a
• 7:05
  while,
• 7:05
  it
• 7:06
  like,
• 7:06
  runs
• 7:06
  a
• 7:06
  by
• 7:07
  and
• 7:07
  it's
• 7:07
  like
• 7:08
  that
• 7:08
  thing's
• 7:08
  due
• 7:09
  and
• 7:09
  it's
• 7:09
  like
• 7:10
  the,
• 7:10
  the,
• 7:10
  the,
• 7:10
  the
• 7:11
  hamster's
• 7:11
  on
• 7:12
  fire.
• 7:12
  And
• 7:12
  it's
• 7:12
  like,
• 7:13
  ah,
• 7:15
  like,
• 7:16
  I
• 7:16
  gotta
• 7:16
  get
• 7:16
  this
• 7:16
  done
• 7:17
  and
• 7:17
  it's
• 7:18
  time.
• 7:19
  So
• 7:19
  I,
• 7:20
  I
• 7:20
  don't,
• 7:21
  I
• 7:21
  don't
• 7:21
  know.
• 7:22
  Okay,
• 7:23
  so
• 7:24
  you
• 7:24
  don't,
• 7:24
  but
• 7:25
  you
• 7:25
  don't
• 7:25
  have,
• 7:27
  you
• 7:27
  don't
• 7:28
  have
• 7:28
  control
• 7:28
  over
• 7:29
  your
• 7:29
  button,
• 7:29
  but
• 7:29
  there
• 7:30
  maybe
• 7:30
  is
• 7:30
  a
• 7:30
  button.
• 7:32
  Maybe
• 7:32
  there
• 7:33
  is.
• 7:33
  Okay,
• 7:33
  so
• 7:33
  like,
• 7:34
  for
• 7:34
  instance,
• 7:34
  like,
• 7:34
  my
• 7:34
  friend
• 7:35
  Jenza
• 7:35
  was
• 7:36
  telling
• 7:36
  me
• 7:36
  that
• 7:36
  she
• 7:36
  has,
• 7:37
  she
• 7:37
  has
• 7:38
  tabs
• 7:38
  open.
• 7:40
  So
• 7:40
  she
• 7:41
  has
• 7:41
  all
• 7:41
  these
• 7:41
  tabs
• 7:41
  open
• 7:42
  in
• 7:42
  her
• 7:42
  brain
• 7:42
  and
• 7:44
  she
• 7:44
  has,
• 7:44
  like,
• 7:44
  all
• 7:44
  of
• 7:44
  the
• 7:45
  check
• 7:45
  boxes.
• 7:45
  And
• 7:46
  I
• 7:46
  was
• 7:46
  like,
• 7:46
  that
• 7:46
  is
• 7:47
  so
• 7:47
  fascinating.
• 7:48
  Like,
• 7:48
  I
• 7:48
  want
• 7:48
  a
• 7:49
  tab
• 7:50
  and
• 7:50
  then
• 7:51
  once
• 7:51
  she's
• 7:51
  completed
• 7:52
  something,
• 7:52
  she
• 7:53
  actually
• 7:53
  closes
• 7:53
  the
• 7:54
  tab
• 7:55
  and
• 7:55
  then
• 7:56
  it's
• 7:56
  gone.
• 7:57
  And
• 7:57
  so,
• 7:57
  like,
• 7:57
  she
• 7:58
  had
• 7:58
  something
• 7:58
  where
• 7:58
  like
• 7:58
  a
• 7:59
  friend
• 7:59
  of
• 7:59
  hers,
• 7:59
  like,
• 7:59
  there
• 8:00
  was
• 8:00
  a,
• 8:00
  like
• 8:00
  the
• 8:00
  kid,
• 8:00
  like
• 8:01
  her
• 8:01
  daughter
• 8:01
  was
• 8:02
  playing
• 8:02
  with
• 8:03
  something
• 8:04
  and
• 8:04
  then
• 8:05
  gave
• 8:05
  it
• 8:06
  back.
• 8:06
  And
• 8:06
  then
• 8:07
  she
• 8:07
  like
• 8:07
  closed
• 8:08
  the
• 8:08
  tab.
• 8:08
  And
• 8:08
  then
• 8:09
  the,
• 8:09
  the
• 8:09
  friend's
• 8:10
  mom
• 8:10
  messaged
• 8:10
  and
• 8:10
  said,
• 8:10
  hey,
• 8:11
  do
• 8:11
  you
• 8:11
  know
• 8:11
  where
• 8:11
  that
• 8:11
  thing
• 8:11
  is?
• 8:12
  And
• 8:12
  she
• 8:12
  started
• 8:12
  freaking
• 8:13
  out
• 8:13
  and
• 8:13
  she's
• 8:13
  like,
• 8:13
  wait,
• 8:13
  I
• 8:13
  don't
• 8:14
  know.
• 8:14
  She's
• 8:14
  like
• 8:14
  going
• 8:14
  through
• 8:14
  all
• 8:14
  of
• 8:15
  her
• 8:15
  tabs.
• 8:15
  Like,
• 8:15
  I
• 8:15
  closed
• 8:15
  the
• 8:16
  tab,
• 8:16
  I
• 8:16
  don't
• 8:16
  know
• 8:16
  what
• 8:16
  happened
• 8:17
  to
• 8:17
  it.
• 8:18
  And
• 8:20
  whereas,
• 8:20
  like,
• 8:20
  I.
• 8:21
  If
• 8:21
  I
• 8:21
  do
• 8:22
  have
• 8:22
  a
• 8:22
  tab,
• 8:22
  it's
• 8:23
  like
• 8:23
  always
• 8:24
  open,
• 8:24
  it
• 8:24
  never
• 8:25
  shuts.
• 8:25
  And
• 8:25
  I'm
• 8:25
  like,
• 8:25
  oh,
• 8:26
  yeah,
• 8:26
  I
• 8:26
  know
• 8:26
  exactly
• 8:26
  where
• 8:26
  that
• 8:27
  thing
• 8:27
  is
• 8:27
  because,
• 8:27
  like,
• 8:27
  it's
• 8:28
  still
• 8:28
  there
• 8:28
  in
• 8:28
  the
• 8:29
  very,
• 8:29
  very
• 8:29
  forefront
• 8:30
  of
• 8:30
  my
• 8:30
  brain
• 8:30
  because
• 8:30
  I
• 8:31
  can't
• 8:31
  turn
• 8:31
  the
• 8:31
  tab
• 8:31
  off
• 8:32
  or
• 8:33
  I
• 8:33
  have
• 8:35
  a
• 8:35
  post
• 8:35
  it
• 8:35
  note
• 8:36
  and
• 8:36
  the,
• 8:36
  the
• 8:36
  adhesive
• 8:37
  of
• 8:37
  the
• 8:37
  post
• 8:38
  it
• 8:38
  note
• 8:38
  is
• 8:38
  very
• 8:39
  bad.
• 8:39
  And
• 8:39
  so
• 8:39
  like
• 8:39
  I
• 8:40
  post
• 8:40
  something
• 8:40
  up
• 8:40
  there
• 8:41
  and
• 8:41
  just
• 8:41
  falls
• 8:41
  off.
• 8:43
  Yes.
• 8:43
  I
• 8:43
  remember
• 8:44
  us
• 8:44
  using
• 8:44
  that
• 8:45
  analogy
• 8:45
  before.
• 8:46
  That
• 8:46
  was
• 8:46
  a
• 8:46
  good
• 8:46
  one.
• 8:47
  I
• 8:47
  thought
• 8:47
  of
• 8:47
  like
• 8:48
  your
• 8:48
  short
• 8:48
  term
• 8:48
  memory
• 8:49
  not
• 8:50
  encoding
• 8:50
  into
• 8:50
  long
• 8:51
  term
• 8:51
  memory.
• 8:52
  But
• 8:52
  then
• 8:52
  it's
• 8:53
  weird
• 8:53
  though,
• 8:53
  this
• 8:54
  fascinating,
• 8:55
  isn't
• 8:55
  it?
• 8:55
  I
• 8:55
  mean,
• 8:55
  that's
• 8:56
  cool.
• 8:56
  I
• 8:56
  don't
• 8:56
  have
• 8:56
  tabs.
• 8:57
  Well,
• 8:58
  because
• 8:58
  she
• 8:58
  was
• 8:58
  telling
• 8:59
  me
• 8:59
  about
• 8:59
  distinctly.
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  think
• 9:00
  she
• 9:00
  heard
• 9:01
  us
• 9:01
  talking
• 9:01
  about
• 9:01
  the
• 9:01
  stickies.
• 9:02
  And
• 9:02
  she's
• 9:02
  like,
• 9:02
  oh
• 9:02
  my
• 9:02
  gosh,
• 9:02
  this
• 9:03
  is
• 9:03
  so
• 9:03
  fascinating.
• 9:04
  I
• 9:04
  have
• 9:04
  tabs.
• 9:05
  And
• 9:05
  I
• 9:05
  was
• 9:06
  like,
• 9:06
  okay,
• 9:07
  but
• 9:07
  now
• 9:07
  that
• 9:08
  I'm
• 9:08
  saying
• 9:08
  it
• 9:08
  out
• 9:08
  loud,
• 9:09
  there
• 9:09
  are
• 9:09
  some
• 9:10
  tabs.
• 9:11
  Like,
• 9:11
  there
• 9:11
  are
• 9:11
  some
• 9:11
  things
• 9:12
  that
• 9:12
  turn
• 9:12
  into
• 9:12
  tabs,
• 9:13
  like
• 9:13
  where,
• 9:13
  like,
• 9:13
  I
• 9:13
  just
• 9:13
  can't
• 9:14
  stop
• 9:14
  thinking
• 9:14
  about
• 9:14
  it.
• 9:15
  And
• 9:16
  whether
• 9:16
  I
• 9:17
  want
• 9:17
  it
• 9:17
  or
• 9:17
  not,
• 9:17
  it
• 9:18
  just
• 9:18
  is
• 9:18
  like
• 9:18
  at
• 9:19
  the
• 9:19
  forefront.
• 9:19
  And
• 9:19
  it's
• 9:20
  like,
• 9:20
  you
• 9:20
  will
• 9:21
  remember
• 9:21
  this.
• 9:24
  Do
• 9:24
  you
• 9:24
  have
• 9:25
  an
• 9:25
  example?
• 9:25
  Like,
• 9:25
  do
• 9:25
  you
• 9:26
  have
• 9:26
  an
• 9:26
  example
• 9:26
  of
• 9:26
  that?
• 9:28
  Well,
• 9:28
  I
• 9:28
  mean,
• 9:30
  it's
• 9:30
  like
• 9:31
  where
• 9:31
  I
• 9:31
  put
• 9:32
  some,
• 9:32
  like,
• 9:32
  I
• 9:32
  don't
• 9:32
  know,
• 9:33
  it's
• 9:33
  like
• 9:33
  random
• 9:33
  feet.
• 9:35
  Uh,
• 9:37
  like,
• 9:37
  I
• 9:38
  think
• 9:38
  that's
• 9:38
  like
• 9:38
  one
• 9:38
  of
• 9:39
  those
• 9:39
  things
• 9:39
  like
• 9:39
  where,
• 9:40
  where.
• 9:40
  Yeah,
• 9:40
  it
• 9:40
  is.
• 9:41
  It
• 9:41
  has,
• 9:41
  it
• 9:41
  has
• 9:41
  nothing
• 9:42
  to
• 9:42
  do
• 9:42
  with
• 9:42
  what's
• 9:43
  normal.
• 9:43
  It's
• 9:43
  like
• 9:44
  anything
• 9:44
  that
• 9:44
  like
• 9:44
  feels
• 9:45
  good
• 9:45
  in
• 9:45
  my
• 9:46
  brain,
• 9:46
  like,
• 9:47
  right,
• 9:47
  the
• 9:47
  wedding.
• 9:48
  Go
• 9:48
  Keiki.
• 9:48
  Or
• 9:49
  I
• 9:50
  have
• 9:50
  amnesia.
• 9:51
  Like,
• 9:51
  I
• 9:52
  just
• 9:52
  can't
• 9:52
  stop
• 9:52
  thinking
• 9:53
  about
• 9:53
  it.
• 9:53
  And
• 9:53
  it's
• 9:53
  this
• 9:53
  tab
• 9:54
  that's
• 9:54
  constantly
• 9:54
  open.
• 9:54
  But
• 9:55
  I
• 9:55
  also,
• 9:55
  when
• 9:56
  she
• 9:56
  was
• 9:56
  talking
• 9:56
  about
• 9:57
  the,
• 9:58
  the
• 9:58
  friend
• 9:59
  who
• 9:59
  called
• 9:59
  and
• 10:00
  was
• 10:00
  like,
• 10:00
  hey,
• 10:00
  do
• 10:00
  you
• 10:00
  know
• 10:01
  where
• 10:01
  this
• 10:01
  is?
• 10:02
  Like,
• 10:02
  more
• 10:02
  than
• 10:03
  likely,
• 10:03
  if
• 10:03
  there's
• 10:04
  a
• 10:04
  good
• 10:04
  story
• 10:05
  behind
• 10:05
  it,
• 10:06
  then
• 10:06
  I
• 10:06
  will
• 10:07
  Remember?
• 10:08
  And
• 10:08
  it's
• 10:08
  like
• 10:08
  the
• 10:09
  story
• 10:09
  I
• 10:09
  remember,
• 10:11
  and
• 10:11
  then
• 10:12
  that's
• 10:12
  like
• 10:12
  the
• 10:12
  tab
• 10:13
  that
• 10:13
  I
• 10:13
  kind
• 10:13
  of
• 10:13
  can't
• 10:14
  get
• 10:14
  rid
• 10:14
  of.
• 10:15
  And,
• 10:17
  like,
• 10:18
  people
• 10:18
  like.
• 10:18
  So
• 10:19
  Brian.
• 10:19
  Okay,
• 10:19
  so
• 10:19
  for
• 10:20
  instance,
• 10:20
  like,
• 10:20
  Brian
• 10:20
  and
• 10:20
  I
• 10:21
  will
• 10:21
  watch
• 10:21
  a
• 10:21
  show,
• 10:22
  and
• 10:23
  he'll
• 10:23
  remember
• 10:24
  the
• 10:24
  people's
• 10:24
  names,
• 10:25
  like,
• 10:25
  no
• 10:25
  problem.
• 10:27
  And
• 10:27
  then
• 10:27
  he's
• 10:27
  like,
• 10:28
  telling,
• 10:28
  like,
• 10:28
  we
• 10:28
  were
• 10:28
  just
• 10:28
  watching
• 10:29
  paradise
• 10:30
  that's
• 10:31
  just
• 10:31
  out
• 10:31
  right
• 10:32
  now.
• 10:32
  And
• 10:32
  I
• 10:32
  guess
• 10:33
  the
• 10:33
  guy's
• 10:33
  name
• 10:33
  is
• 10:33
  Xavier,
• 10:34
  which
• 10:34
  I've
• 10:34
  just
• 10:34
  finally
• 10:35
  realized
• 10:35
  after
• 10:35
  two
• 10:36
  seasons.
• 10:36
  I
• 10:37
  realized
• 10:37
  his
• 10:37
  name
• 10:37
  was
• 10:38
  Xavier
• 10:39
  because
• 10:39
  he
• 10:39
  says
• 10:39
  to
• 10:39
  me
• 10:39
  something
• 10:40
  about,
• 10:40
  like,
• 10:40
  oh,
• 10:40
  yeah,
• 10:40
  well,
• 10:41
  that's
• 10:41
  Xavier
• 10:41
  Xavier.
• 10:42
  Da
• 10:42
  da,
• 10:42
  da
• 10:42
  da.
• 10:42
  And
• 10:43
  I
• 10:43
  was
• 10:43
  like.
• 10:43
  And
• 10:43
  I
• 10:43
  didn't
• 10:44
  even
• 10:44
  recognize
• 10:44
  it.
• 10:44
  I
• 10:45
  was
• 10:45
  like,
• 10:45
  who?
• 10:45
  Who?
• 10:46
  And
• 10:47
  he's
• 10:47
  like
• 10:47
  the
• 10:47
  main
• 10:48
  character
• 10:48
  of
• 10:48
  the
• 10:49
  show,
• 10:49
  Megan.
• 10:50
  I
• 10:50
  was
• 10:50
  like,
• 10:50
  oh,
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  mean
• 10:51
  the
• 10:51
  Secret
• 10:52
  Service
• 10:52
  dude,
• 10:52
  you
• 10:52
  know?
• 10:53
  Or
• 10:53
  like,
• 10:54
  I
• 10:54
  don't
• 10:54
  remember
• 10:55
  terms,
• 10:55
  but
• 10:56
  I
• 10:56
  remember,
• 10:56
  like,
• 10:57
  the
• 10:57
  action
• 10:58
  that
• 10:58
  happens
• 10:59
  around
• 10:59
  them.
• 11:00
  Right?
• 11:00
  You
• 11:01
  remember
• 11:01
  the
• 11:01
  whole
• 11:01
  line
• 11:02
  and
• 11:02
  plot
• 11:02
  line
• 11:03
  and
• 11:03
  everything.
• 11:03
  Probably
• 11:04
  not
• 11:04
  even
• 11:04
  the
• 11:04
  whole
• 11:05
  plot
• 11:05
  line,
• 11:05
  because,
• 11:05
  like,
• 11:05
  I
• 11:06
  have,
• 11:06
  like,
• 11:06
  the
• 11:06
  best
• 11:07
  part
• 11:07
  about
• 11:07
  watching
• 11:07
  a
• 11:07
  show
• 11:08
  with
• 11:08
  me
• 11:08
  is
• 11:08
  that,
• 11:08
  like,
• 11:08
  if
• 11:09
  I
• 11:09
  watch
• 11:09
  it
• 11:09
  and
• 11:09
  then
• 11:10
  I
• 11:10
  don't
• 11:10
  watch
• 11:10
  it
• 11:10
  for,
• 11:11
  like,
• 11:11
  a
• 11:11
  month,
• 11:11
  I
• 11:11
  will
• 11:12
  forget
• 11:12
  everything.
• 11:12
  And
• 11:13
  it's
• 11:13
  like,
• 11:13
  I
• 11:13
  get
• 11:13
  to
• 11:13
  watch
• 11:13
  a
• 11:14
  whole
• 11:14
  new
• 11:14
  movie
• 11:14
  again.
• 11:16
  But,
• 11:16
  like,
• 11:16
  I'll
• 11:17
  remember.
• 11:19
  I'll
• 11:19
  remember,
• 11:19
  like,
• 11:20
  very
• 11:20
  specific,
• 11:21
  random
• 11:22
  things
• 11:22
  that
• 11:22
  probably
• 11:23
  no
• 11:23
  one
• 11:24
  should
• 11:24
  remember
• 11:24
  because
• 11:24
  it
• 11:25
  either
• 11:25
  tickled
• 11:26
  me
• 11:27
  or
• 11:27
  it
• 11:28
  made
• 11:28
  me
• 11:29
  feel
• 11:29
  a
• 11:30
  certain
• 11:30
  way.
• 11:30
  Or
• 11:30
  there
• 11:31
  was
• 11:31
  like,
• 11:31
  you
• 11:31
  know,
• 11:32
  like,
• 11:32
  there's
• 11:32
  certain.
• 11:33
  Like,
• 11:33
  I.
• 11:33
  I
• 11:33
  will
• 11:33
  never
• 11:34
  forget.
• 11:35
  The
• 11:36
  reason
• 11:37
  why
• 11:37
  I
• 11:37
  stopped
• 11:38
  watching
• 11:38
  X
• 11:39
  Files
• 11:39
  was
• 11:39
  because
• 11:40
  there
• 11:40
  was
• 11:40
  a
• 11:40
  guy
• 11:40
  who
• 11:41
  got
• 11:41
  into
• 11:41
  a
• 11:41
  bath
• 11:42
  of
• 11:42
  iodine
• 11:43
  and
• 11:43
  it
• 11:43
  terrified
• 11:44
  me.
• 11:44
  And
• 11:44
  I
• 11:44
  just
• 11:44
  remember
• 11:45
  seeing
• 11:45
  his
• 11:45
  body
• 11:46
  and
• 11:46
  his
• 11:46
  skin.
• 11:47
  Or,
• 11:48
  oh,
• 11:48
  Breaking
• 11:49
  Bad,
• 11:49
  like,
• 11:49
  the
• 11:50
  third
• 11:50
  one
• 11:50
  of
• 11:50
  the
• 11:50
  episodes,
• 11:51
  like,
• 11:51
  where
• 11:51
  they,
• 11:51
  like,
• 11:52
  disembody
• 11:53
  a
• 11:54
  body
• 11:54
  and,
• 11:54
  like,
• 11:55
  you
• 11:55
  know,
• 11:55
  in
• 11:56
  the
• 11:56
  tub.
• 11:56
  And
• 11:57
  I
• 11:57
  was
• 11:57
  like,
• 11:57
  nope,
• 11:58
  I'm
• 11:58
  done.
• 11:59
  You
• 11:59
  know,
• 12:00
  But
• 12:00
  I.
• 12:00
  It's
• 12:01
  seared
• 12:01
  into
• 12:01
  my
• 12:02
  brain
• 12:02
  now,
• 12:03
  so.
• 12:03
  Right.
• 12:04
  So,
• 12:05
  like,
• 12:05
  both
• 12:05
  good
• 12:05
  and
• 12:06
  bad
• 12:06
  can
• 12:06
  be
• 12:06
  seared
• 12:07
  into
• 12:07
  my
• 12:07
  brain.
• 12:07
  And.
• 12:09
  Yeah,
• 12:10
  so,
• 12:10
  like,
• 12:10
  when
• 12:10
  she
• 12:10
  was.
• 12:10
  Sorry.
• 12:11
  So
• 12:11
  when
• 12:11
  she
• 12:11
  was
• 12:11
  talking
• 12:12
  about
• 12:12
  the.
• 12:13
  The
• 12:13
  wand,
• 12:13
  I
• 12:14
  brought,
• 12:14
  like,
• 12:14
  whatever
• 12:14
  the
• 12:15
  thing
• 12:15
  was
• 12:15
  that
• 12:15
  her
• 12:15
  friend
• 12:15
  was
• 12:16
  looking
• 12:16
  for.
• 12:16
  I
• 12:16
  was
• 12:16
  like,
• 12:17
  I
• 12:17
  would
• 12:17
  have
• 12:17
  known
• 12:17
  exactly
• 12:18
  where
• 12:18
  it
• 12:18
  went
• 12:18
  because
• 12:18
  the
• 12:19
  sticky
• 12:19
  would
• 12:19
  never
• 12:19
  have
• 12:20
  gone
• 12:20
  away.
• 12:20
  It
• 12:20
  would
• 12:20
  have
• 12:20
  been
• 12:20
  like,
• 12:21
  yep,
• 12:21
  that
• 12:21
  was
• 12:21
  there.
• 12:22
  Like,
• 12:22
  I
• 12:22
  know
• 12:22
  where
• 12:22
  it
• 12:23
  is.
• 12:23
  So
• 12:24
  I
• 12:24
  think
• 12:24
  that
• 12:24
  that's
• 12:24
  the
• 12:25
  part
• 12:25
  that's
• 12:25
  hard.
• 12:26
  So
• 12:27
  do
• 12:27
  you
• 12:27
  think
• 12:27
  that,
• 12:28
  like,
• 12:28
  okay,
• 12:29
  say,
• 12:29
  like,
• 12:29
  you
• 12:29
  were
• 12:29
  gonna
• 12:30
  go
• 12:30
  press
• 12:30
  a
• 12:30
  button
• 12:31
  to
• 12:31
  get
• 12:31
  something
• 12:31
  done,
• 12:32
  right?
• 12:32
  Yeah.
• 12:33
  So
• 12:33
  you
• 12:33
  have
• 12:33
  this
• 12:34
  room
• 12:34
  that
• 12:34
  you're
• 12:34
  trying
• 12:35
  to
• 12:35
  finish
• 12:35
  before
• 12:36
  our
• 12:36
  mother
• 12:36
  comes
• 12:37
  to
• 12:37
  live
• 12:37
  with
• 12:37
  you
• 12:37
  for
• 12:37
  a
• 12:38
  few
• 12:38
  months.
• 12:38
  Right,
• 12:38
  right.
• 12:39
  Which
• 12:39
  Brian
• 12:40
  calls
• 12:41
  the
• 12:41
  final
• 12:41
  frontier.
• 12:43
  And
• 12:43
  I
• 12:43
  could
• 12:43
  not
• 12:43
  remember
• 12:44
  the
• 12:44
  name
• 12:44
  of
• 12:44
  it,
• 12:44
  and
• 12:45
  I
• 12:45
  just
• 12:45
  kept
• 12:45
  calling
• 12:45
  it
• 12:45
  the
• 12:45
  Forbidden
• 12:46
  Planets
• 12:47
  because
• 12:48
  I
• 12:48
  think
• 12:49
  it
• 12:49
  makes
• 12:49
  a
• 12:49
  perfect
• 12:50
  sense.
• 12:50
  Like,
• 12:50
  there's
• 12:50
  all
• 12:51
  these
• 12:51
  tasks
• 12:51
  I
• 12:51
  have
• 12:51
  to
• 12:52
  do,
• 12:52
  and
• 12:52
  in
• 12:53
  my
• 12:53
  mind,
• 12:53
  it's
• 12:53
  forbidden.
• 12:54
  Don't
• 12:54
  go
• 12:54
  in
• 12:55
  there.
• 12:55
  Just
• 12:55
  close
• 12:55
  it
• 12:56
  off.
• 12:57
  Our
• 12:57
  bad
• 12:57
  undone.
• 12:58
  Go
• 12:58
  ahead.
• 12:59
  That's
• 12:59
  like
• 12:59
  a
• 12:59
  quick
• 12:59
  quit,
• 13:00
  I
• 13:00
  think.
• 13:01
  Yeah,
• 13:01
  we
• 13:01
  used
• 13:01
  to
• 13:02
  talk
• 13:02
  about
• 13:02
  that.
• 13:02
  The
• 13:02
  quick
• 13:03
  quit.
• 13:03
  Right.
• 13:04
  Oh,
• 13:04
  my
• 13:04
  God.
• 13:04
  So,
• 13:05
  all
• 13:05
  right,
• 13:05
  so
• 13:05
  my
• 13:06
  question
• 13:06
  to
• 13:06
  you,
• 13:06
  though,
• 13:07
  is.
• 13:07
  So
• 13:07
  now
• 13:08
  you're
• 13:08
  like,
• 13:08
  okay,
• 13:09
  I
• 13:09
  gotta
• 13:09
  get
• 13:09
  this
• 13:10
  thing
• 13:10
  done,
• 13:11
  right?
• 13:11
  Yeah.
• 13:12
  And
• 13:12
  you're
• 13:13
  saying
• 13:14
  what,
• 13:14
  like,
• 13:15
  in
• 13:15
  your
• 13:15
  mind,
• 13:15
  what
• 13:15
  happens
• 13:16
  if
• 13:16
  you
• 13:16
  press
• 13:16
  that
• 13:16
  button?
• 13:17
  Like,
• 13:17
  say
• 13:17
  there
• 13:17
  was
• 13:18
  a
• 13:18
  button
• 13:18
  that
• 13:18
  was
• 13:18
  like,
• 13:19
  okay,
• 13:20
  Meg,
• 13:21
  time
• 13:21
  to
• 13:21
  get
• 13:21
  this
• 13:21
  done.
• 13:22
  Right?
• 13:23
  What.
• 13:23
  What.
• 13:24
  What
• 13:24
  would
• 13:24
  happen?
• 13:27
  Well,
• 13:27
  I.
• 13:28
  I
• 13:28
  don't
• 13:29
  assume.
• 13:30
  I,
• 13:31
  like.
• 13:31
  I
• 13:31
  don't
• 13:31
  assume
• 13:32
  that,
• 13:32
  like,
• 13:32
  that
• 13:33
  there's
• 13:34
  a
• 13:34
  button,
• 13:35
  like.
• 13:35
  Okay,
• 13:35
  so
• 13:36
  let's
• 13:36
  just
• 13:36
  take
• 13:37
  the
• 13:37
  final
• 13:37
  frontier
• 13:37
  for
• 13:38
  a
• 13:38
  second.
• 13:38
  Okay,
• 13:38
  let's.
• 13:39
  So,
• 13:39
  like,
• 13:39
  for
• 13:39
  instance,
• 13:40
  I
• 13:40
  walked
• 13:40
  in
• 13:41
  there
• 13:41
  today
• 13:42
  thinking,
• 13:42
  like,
• 13:43
  I
• 13:43
  gotta
• 13:43
  get
• 13:43
  this
• 13:43
  done.
• 13:43
  Because
• 13:44
  we
• 13:44
  were
• 13:44
  talking
• 13:44
  about
• 13:44
  you
• 13:44
  guys
• 13:45
  coming,
• 13:45
  and
• 13:46
  I'm
• 13:46
  like,
• 13:46
  okay,
• 13:46
  I
• 13:47
  can
• 13:47
  do
• 13:47
  this.
• 13:47
  So
• 13:48
  I
• 13:48
  literally
• 13:48
  walked
• 13:48
  in,
• 13:49
  and
• 13:49
  I
• 13:49
  was
• 13:49
  like,
• 13:49
  okay,
• 13:49
  Megan,
• 13:50
  we're
• 13:50
  not
• 13:50
  gonna
• 13:50
  do
• 13:50
  anything
• 13:51
  specific.
• 13:51
  We're
• 13:51
  just
• 13:51
  gonna
• 13:52
  walk
• 13:52
  in
• 13:52
  and
• 13:52
  see
• 13:53
  what
• 13:53
  we
• 13:53
  see.
• 13:54
  And
• 13:54
  I
• 13:55
  saw
• 13:57
  papers,
• 13:57
  and
• 13:58
  I
• 13:58
  saw
• 13:59
  makeup
• 13:59
  brushes
• 14:00
  that
• 14:00
  I
• 14:00
  need
• 14:00
  to
• 14:00
  figure
• 14:00
  out.
• 14:01
  I
• 14:01
  saw
• 14:01
  all
• 14:02
  the
• 14:02
  stuff
• 14:02
  that,
• 14:02
  like,
• 14:03
  you
• 14:03
  know,
• 14:03
  I
• 14:03
  saw
• 14:03
  all
• 14:03
  of
• 14:04
  these,
• 14:04
  like,
• 14:05
  these
• 14:06
  decisions.
• 14:08
  And
• 14:08
  then
• 14:09
  I,
• 14:09
  like,
• 14:11
  my
• 14:11
  brain
• 14:11
  start.
• 14:11
  My
• 14:12
  brain's
• 14:12
  hurting
• 14:12
  just
• 14:13
  thinking
• 14:13
  about
• 14:13
  it
• 14:13
  right
• 14:13
  now,
• 14:14
  thinking
• 14:14
  about
• 14:14
  what
• 14:15
  I
• 14:15
  saw.
• 14:16
  And
• 14:16
  so
• 14:16
  then
• 14:17
  I
• 14:18
  walked
• 14:18
  in,
• 14:18
  and
• 14:18
  I
• 14:18
  was
• 14:19
  like,
• 14:19
  yep,
• 14:20
  this
• 14:20
  is
• 14:20
  why
• 14:20
  it's
• 14:21
  hard.
• 14:21
  And
• 14:21
  then
• 14:21
  I
• 14:22
  walked
• 14:22
  right
• 14:22
  back
• 14:23
  out.
• 14:26
  Okay,
• 14:26
  so
• 14:27
  wait,
• 14:27
  I
• 14:27
  want
• 14:27
  to
• 14:27
  break
• 14:27
  this
• 14:27
  down,
• 14:28
  though,
• 14:28
  for
• 14:28
  a
• 14:28
  minute.
• 14:28
  So
• 14:28
  you
• 14:29
  said
• 14:29
  your
• 14:29
  brain
• 14:29
  hurts.
• 14:30
  We've
• 14:31
  talked
• 14:31
  about
• 14:31
  this
• 14:32
  before,
• 14:32
  but
• 14:32
  what
• 14:33
  is
• 14:33
  it
• 14:34
  feel
• 14:34
  like?
• 14:34
  Because
• 14:34
  a
• 14:34
  lot
• 14:34
  of
• 14:35
  people
• 14:35
  say,
• 14:35
  oh,
• 14:36
  that
• 14:36
  hurts
• 14:37
  my
• 14:37
  brain
• 14:37
  to
• 14:37
  even
• 14:38
  think
• 14:38
  about
• 14:38
  it.
• 14:38
  Right.
• 14:39
  Very
• 14:39
  common
• 14:39
  phrase
• 14:40
  I've
• 14:40
  heard.
• 14:41
  But
• 14:41
  what
• 14:41
  does
• 14:41
  that
• 14:42
  mean
• 14:42
  for
• 14:42
  you?
• 14:43
  Because
• 14:43
  my
• 14:43
  brain
• 14:43
  doesn't
• 14:44
  hurt
• 14:44
  when
• 14:45
  I
• 14:45
  think
• 14:45
  about
• 14:45
  cleaning
• 14:46
  out
• 14:46
  that
• 14:46
  room.
• 14:48
  If
• 14:48
  anything,
• 14:49
  I
• 14:49
  probably
• 14:50
  get,
• 14:50
  like,
• 14:50
  a
• 14:50
  little,
• 14:50
  like,
• 14:51
  dopamine.
• 14:51
  Like,
• 14:52
  weird.
• 14:52
  Michelle,
• 14:53
  you
• 14:54
  know,
• 14:54
  yay.
• 14:55
  I
• 14:55
  get
• 14:55
  to
• 14:56
  finally,
• 14:56
  you
• 14:57
  know.
• 14:57
  Yeah,
• 14:58
  finish
• 14:58
  it
• 14:58
  or
• 14:58
  something
• 15:00
  hit.
• 15:01
  Yeah.
• 15:01
  I
• 15:02
  don't
• 15:02
  get
• 15:02
  a
• 15:02
  dopamine
• 15:02
  hit.
• 15:06
  It
• 15:06
  seems,
• 15:07
  in
• 15:07
  fact,
• 15:07
  the
• 15:07
  opposite
• 15:08
  of
• 15:08
  that.
• 15:08
  Yes,
• 15:09
  yes,
• 15:09
  exactly.
• 15:10
  Well,
• 15:10
  the
• 15:10
  brain
• 15:11
  is
• 15:11
  like.
• 15:12
  My
• 15:12
  brain
• 15:12
  is,
• 15:12
  like,
• 15:14
  right
• 15:14
  here
• 15:14
  on
• 15:14
  the
• 15:14
  left
• 15:15
  side
• 15:15
  of
• 15:15
  my
• 15:16
  head.
• 15:16
  It
• 15:16
  just
• 15:16
  Feels
• 15:17
  very
• 15:17
  pressure
• 15:17
  filled.
• 15:19
  And
• 15:20
  it's
• 15:22
  just
• 15:22
  like
• 15:23
  this
• 15:23
  throbbing
• 15:24
  that's
• 15:24
  happening
• 15:25
  in
• 15:25
  the
• 15:25
  left
• 15:25
  side
• 15:25
  of
• 15:25
  my
• 15:26
  brain.
• 15:27
  And
• 15:28
  what's
• 15:28
  interesting
• 15:28
  is
• 15:29
  like
• 15:29
  I
• 15:29
  was
• 15:29
  thinking
• 15:29
  about
• 15:30
  like,
• 15:30
  what
• 15:30
  makes
• 15:30
  it
• 15:30
  different
• 15:31
  from
• 15:31
  that
• 15:31
  versus,
• 15:32
  like
• 15:32
  the
• 15:32
  other
• 15:32
  day
• 15:32
  when
• 15:32
  we
• 15:33
  actually
• 15:33
  walked
• 15:33
  in
• 15:33
  and
• 15:33
  I
• 15:34
  like,
• 15:34
  literally,
• 15:35
  like,
• 15:35
  it
• 15:35
  was
• 15:35
  like
• 15:35
  the
• 15:35
  whole
• 15:36
  room
• 15:36
  was
• 15:36
  just.
• 15:37
  I
• 15:38
  just
• 15:38
  like
• 15:38
  shoved
• 15:38
  everything
• 15:39
  in
• 15:39
  there.
• 15:40
  And
• 15:40
  then
• 15:41
  I
• 15:41
  started
• 15:41
  getting
• 15:41
  frustrated,
• 15:42
  like
• 15:42
  when
• 15:42
  I
• 15:42
  had
• 15:42
  to
• 15:43
  move
• 15:43
  things.
• 15:43
  Like,
• 15:43
  I
• 15:43
  started
• 15:43
  having
• 15:44
  a
• 15:44
  little
• 15:44
  temper
• 15:44
  tantrum
• 15:45
  when
• 15:45
  you
• 15:45
  were
• 15:45
  like,
• 15:45
  okay,
• 15:46
  let's
• 15:46
  just
• 15:46
  move
• 15:46
  stuff
• 15:46
  into
• 15:46
  the,
• 15:47
  into
• 15:47
  the
• 15:47
  other
• 15:47
  bathroom.
• 15:48
  And
• 15:48
  I'm
• 15:48
  like,
• 15:48
  why
• 15:49
  am
• 15:49
  I
• 15:49
  gonna.
• 15:49
  Move
• 15:50
  stuff
• 15:50
  into
• 15:50
  the
• 15:50
  bathroom?
• 15:51
  Cause
• 15:51
  I'm
• 15:51
  just
• 15:51
  moving
• 15:52
  stuff
• 15:52
  around
• 15:53
  and
• 15:53
  it's
• 15:53
  not
• 15:53
  actually
• 15:54
  doing
• 15:54
  anything.
• 15:54
  And
• 15:55
  I
• 15:55
  was
• 15:55
  so
• 15:55
  mad.
• 15:56
  You
• 15:56
  are
• 15:57
  so
• 15:57
  mad.
• 15:57
  Yeah,
• 15:58
  but
• 15:58
  like,
• 15:58
  so
• 15:59
  mad.
• 15:59
  But
• 15:59
  what
• 15:59
  I
• 15:59
  realized
• 16:00
  is
• 16:00
  like,
• 16:00
  in
• 16:00
  those
• 16:01
  moments,
• 16:01
  like
• 16:01
  when
• 16:01
  I
• 16:02
  am
• 16:02
  not
• 16:03
  ready
• 16:03
  or
• 16:03
  I
• 16:03
  don't
• 16:04
  feel
• 16:04
  like
• 16:04
  I
• 16:04
  have
• 16:04
  control
• 16:05
  over
• 16:05
  it,
• 16:05
  it
• 16:05
  does
• 16:06
  feel
• 16:06
  like
• 16:06
  a
• 16:06
  cheese
• 16:07
  grater
• 16:07
  is
• 16:08
  grading
• 16:08
  on
• 16:08
  my
• 16:09
  brain.
• 16:11
  And
• 16:12
  I
• 16:12
  think
• 16:12
  that
• 16:12
  that's
• 16:13
  the
• 16:13
  part
• 16:13
  that's
• 16:13
  like,
• 16:14
  hard
• 16:14
  is
• 16:14
  that
• 16:14
  like,
• 16:15
  I
• 16:15
  need
• 16:15
  help
• 16:15
  doing
• 16:16
  stuff,
• 16:16
  but
• 16:17
  then
• 16:17
  if
• 16:18
  I
• 16:18
  get
• 16:18
  the
• 16:18
  help,
• 16:19
  it's
• 16:19
  like,
• 16:20
  you
• 16:20
  know,
• 16:20
  it
• 16:21
  just.
• 16:21
  It
• 16:21
  sucks
• 16:21
  to
• 16:22
  be
• 16:22
  somebody
• 16:22
  who
• 16:22
  loves
• 16:23
  me
• 16:23
  sometimes
• 16:23
  because
• 16:24
  it's
• 16:24
  like
• 16:24
  I.
• 16:24
  I'm
• 16:24
  asking
• 16:25
  for
• 16:25
  help,
• 16:25
  but
• 16:25
  then
• 16:26
  the
• 16:26
  help
• 16:26
  that
• 16:26
  they're
• 16:26
  giving
• 16:27
  me
• 16:27
  hurts.
• 16:29
  And.
• 16:29
  Yeah,
• 16:30
  trying
• 16:30
  to
• 16:30
  figure
• 16:31
  out,
• 16:31
  like,
• 16:31
  what
• 16:32
  is
• 16:32
  the
• 16:32
  best
• 16:32
  way
• 16:33
  to
• 16:34
  get
• 16:34
  stuff
• 16:34
  done
• 16:36
  is
• 16:37
  so
• 16:38
  hard.
• 16:40
  Yeah,
• 16:40
  it's
• 16:41
  so
• 16:41
  hard,
• 16:41
  right?
• 16:42
  It's
• 16:42
  hard
• 16:43
  for
• 16:43
  you.
• 16:43
  And
• 16:44
  like
• 16:44
  you
• 16:44
  said,
• 16:44
  the
• 16:44
  people
• 16:45
  who
• 16:45
  love
• 16:45
  you.
• 16:45
  Sometimes
• 16:47
  I
• 16:47
  wonder
• 16:48
  like,
• 16:48
  if
• 16:49
  this
• 16:50
  idea
• 16:50
  of
• 16:50
  a
• 16:51
  button
• 16:51
  is
• 16:51
  just
• 16:53
  like
• 16:53
  the
• 16:53
  idea
• 16:53
  of
• 16:53
  like
• 16:54
  not
• 16:54
  having
• 16:54
  one
• 16:55
  is.
• 16:55
  Is
• 16:56
  because
• 16:56
  there
• 16:56
  is
• 16:57
  no.
• 16:57
  You
• 16:58
  don't
• 16:58
  have
• 16:58
  control
• 16:59
  over
• 16:59
  this
• 16:59
  kind
• 17:00
  of
• 17:00
  ever.
• 17:01
  Yeah,
• 17:02
  that's
• 17:02
  probably
• 17:02
  true.
• 17:03
  Or
• 17:03
  is
• 17:04
  it
• 17:04
  that
• 17:04
  you
• 17:04
  just
• 17:05
  have
• 17:05
  to
• 17:05
  set
• 17:05
  up
• 17:05
  the
• 17:05
  right
• 17:06
  conditions
• 17:07
  for
• 17:08
  the
• 17:08
  button
• 17:08
  to
• 17:08
  work?
• 17:09
  You
• 17:09
  know,
• 17:09
  this
• 17:09
  is
• 17:09
  my
• 17:10
  question.
• 17:10
  I
• 17:10
  guess
• 17:11
  I
• 17:11
  don't
• 17:11
  know
• 17:11
  the
• 17:12
  answer
• 17:12
  at
• 17:12
  all.
• 17:12
  I
• 17:13
  just
• 17:13
  am
• 17:13
  curious
• 17:13
  about
• 17:14
  it
• 17:14
  because
• 17:14
  I
• 17:15
  wonder
• 17:15
  about
• 17:16
  that
• 17:17
  because
• 17:17
  sometimes
• 17:17
  you
• 17:18
  get
• 17:18
  an
• 17:18
  incredible
• 17:19
  amount
• 17:19
  of
• 17:19
  stuff
• 17:19
  done,
• 17:20
  right?
• 17:20
  It's
• 17:21
  true.
• 17:22
  It
• 17:22
  doesn't
• 17:23
  always
• 17:23
  have
• 17:23
  to
• 17:23
  be
• 17:24
  stuff
• 17:24
  you
• 17:24
  like
• 17:24
  either
• 17:25
  to
• 17:25
  do.
• 17:25
  It
• 17:26
  helps.
• 17:27
  Usually.
• 17:28
  Usually
• 17:29
  helps.
• 17:29
  But
• 17:30
  you
• 17:31
  know,
• 17:31
  I've.
• 17:31
  I've
• 17:32
  wondered
• 17:32
  about
• 17:32
  this,
• 17:32
  like,
• 17:32
  if
• 17:33
  you
• 17:33
  set
• 17:33
  up
• 17:33
  the
• 17:33
  right
• 17:33
  conditions.
• 17:35
  And
• 17:36
  I
• 17:36
  don't
• 17:37
  know
• 17:37
  if
• 17:37
  that's
• 17:38
  like
• 17:38
  actually
• 17:38
  a
• 17:39
  thing
• 17:40
  because
• 17:41
  what
• 17:42
  I've
• 17:42
  noticed
• 17:42
  is
• 17:43
  that
• 17:43
  like,
• 17:44
  when
• 17:44
  I'm.
• 17:46
  When
• 17:46
  I'm
• 17:46
  trying
• 17:46
  to
• 17:47
  work
• 17:47
  through
• 17:47
  something,
• 17:49
  I
• 17:49
  don't.
• 17:52
  I
• 17:52
  don't
• 17:52
  know,
• 17:52
  like,
• 17:53
  I
• 17:53
  like.
• 17:54
  Okay,
• 17:54
  for
• 17:55
  instance,
• 17:55
  like
• 17:55
  the,
• 17:55
  the
• 17:57
  sleeping,
• 17:57
  right?
• 17:57
  It's
• 17:58
  like
• 17:58
  set
• 17:58
  up
• 17:58
  like
• 17:58
  Set
• 17:59
  up
• 17:59
  the
• 17:59
  room.
• 17:59
  Like
• 17:59
  set
• 17:59
  it
• 18:00
  up
• 18:00
  so
• 18:00
  it's
• 18:00
  like
• 18:00
  all
• 18:00
  nice
• 18:01
  and
• 18:01
  you
• 18:01
  know
• 18:01
  like
• 18:01
  you
• 18:01
  have
• 18:02
  like
• 18:02
  this
• 18:02
  little
• 18:04
  like
• 18:04
  nice
• 18:04
  sounds
• 18:05
  and
• 18:05
  a
• 18:05
  nice
• 18:06
  smell
• 18:06
  and
• 18:06
  like
• 18:06
  you
• 18:07
  know,
• 18:07
  not
• 18:07
  those
• 18:07
  are
• 18:08
  the
• 18:08
  same
• 18:08
  things
• 18:09
  nice
• 18:10
  but,
• 18:10
  but
• 18:11
  like
• 18:11
  you
• 18:11
  know
• 18:11
  that
• 18:11
  you
• 18:11
  have
• 18:11
  like
• 18:12
  a,
• 18:12
  like
• 18:12
  you're
• 18:12
  setting
• 18:12
  yourself
• 18:13
  up
• 18:13
  for
• 18:13
  success.
• 18:14
  And
• 18:14
  I
• 18:14
  sensorily
• 18:15
  everything
• 18:16
  is
• 18:16
  going
• 18:16
  to
• 18:16
  be
• 18:16
  as
• 18:16
  calming
• 18:17
  as
• 18:17
  possible
• 18:17
  or
• 18:18
  whatever
• 18:18
  is
• 18:19
  good
• 18:19
  for
• 18:19
  me.
• 18:19
  Right.
• 18:20
  But
• 18:20
  like
• 18:20
  I
• 18:21
  realized
• 18:21
  that
• 18:21
  like
• 18:22
  after
• 18:22
  maybe
• 18:22
  a
• 18:23
  couple
• 18:23
  weeks,
• 18:23
  like
• 18:23
  I
• 18:23
  struggle
• 18:24
  to
• 18:24
  maintain
• 18:25
  a,
• 18:27
  a
• 18:28
  through
• 18:28
  line
• 18:29
  with
• 18:29
  that
• 18:31
  and,
• 18:31
  and
• 18:31
  I
• 18:31
  don't
• 18:32
  continue
• 18:32
  doing
• 18:33
  that
• 18:33
  even
• 18:33
  like,
• 18:34
  even
• 18:34
  like,
• 18:34
  okay,
• 18:35
  let's
• 18:35
  see.
• 18:35
  Something
• 18:36
  as
• 18:36
  basic
• 18:36
  as
• 18:37
  like
• 18:37
  brushing
• 18:37
  my
• 18:38
  teeth
• 18:38
  and
• 18:38
  washing
• 18:38
  my
• 18:39
  face.
• 18:40
  I've
• 18:40
  been
• 18:40
  doing
• 18:40
  that
• 18:40
  since
• 18:40
  I
• 18:41
  was
• 18:41
  a
• 18:41
  kid
• 18:42
  and
• 18:43
  I
• 18:43
  don't
• 18:44
  have
• 18:44
  like
• 18:44
  a
• 18:45
  specific
• 18:46
  routine
• 18:46
  that
• 18:47
  I
• 18:47
  do
• 18:48
  each
• 18:48
  time.
• 18:49
  And
• 18:50
  then
• 18:50
  even
• 18:50
  if
• 18:50
  I
• 18:51
  do,
• 18:51
  I
• 18:52
  can't
• 18:53
  remember
• 18:53
  did
• 18:54
  I
• 18:54
  do
• 18:55
  because
• 18:55
  I
• 18:55
  do
• 18:56
  it
• 18:56
  every
• 18:56
  single
• 18:56
  day.
• 18:57
  I've
• 18:57
  literally
• 18:58
  gone
• 18:58
  to
• 18:58
  bed
• 18:58
  and
• 18:59
  thought
• 18:59
  like
• 18:59
  did
• 18:59
  I
• 18:59
  actually
• 19:00
  brush
• 19:00
  my
• 19:00
  teeth
• 19:00
  and
• 19:01
  wash
• 19:01
  my
• 19:01
  face
• 19:01
  or
• 19:01
  am
• 19:02
  I
• 19:02
  remembering
• 19:02
  the
• 19:02
  thing
• 19:03
  I
• 19:03
  did
• 19:03
  yesterday
• 19:06
  and.
• 19:06
  Sort
• 19:07
  of
• 19:07
  this,
• 19:07
  the
• 19:07
  scent,
• 19:08
  the
• 19:08
  sense
• 19:08
  memory
• 19:09
  of
• 19:09
  it
• 19:09
  like
• 19:09
  you
• 19:10
  did
• 19:10
  in
• 19:10
  acting
• 19:11
  school.
• 19:11
  Like
• 19:11
  I,
• 19:12
  I
• 19:12
  remember
• 19:12
  what
• 19:12
  that
• 19:13
  feels
• 19:13
  like
• 19:13
  to
• 19:13
  do
• 19:13
  it.
• 19:15
  Yeah.
• 19:15
  And
• 19:16
  it's
• 19:16
  like,
• 19:16
  but
• 19:17
  like
• 19:17
  I,
• 19:17
  I
• 19:17
  honestly
• 19:18
  don't
• 19:18
  remember.
• 19:18
  Like,
• 19:19
  like
• 19:19
  I,
• 19:19
  I
• 19:19
  will
• 19:19
  have
• 19:20
  done
• 19:20
  it.
• 19:20
  I
• 19:20
  will
• 19:20
  have
• 19:20
  brushed
• 19:21
  my
• 19:21
  teeth.
• 19:22
  Like
• 19:22
  I
• 19:22
  can.
• 19:22
  Oh,
• 19:23
  I
• 19:23
  think
• 19:23
  the
• 19:23
  teeth
• 19:23
  is
• 19:23
  the
• 19:23
  only
• 19:23
  way
• 19:24
  that
• 19:24
  I
• 19:24
  could
• 19:24
  actually
• 19:24
  kind
• 19:24
  of
• 19:25
  know
• 19:26
  is
• 19:27
  because
• 19:27
  sometimes
• 19:27
  I
• 19:27
  can
• 19:28
  taste
• 19:28
  it.
• 19:28
  But
• 19:28
  then
• 19:28
  I
• 19:28
  have
• 19:28
  this
• 19:29
  new
• 19:29
  toothpaste
• 19:30
  that
• 19:30
  doesn't
• 19:30
  have
• 19:30
  much
• 19:30
  of
• 19:31
  a
• 19:31
  taste.
• 19:31
  Like
• 19:31
  it's
• 19:31
  like
• 19:32
  prescription
• 19:33
  stuff.
• 19:34
  So
• 19:34
  like
• 19:34
  right
• 19:34
  now
• 19:34
  I
• 19:35
  just
• 19:35
  brushed
• 19:35
  my
• 19:35
  teeth
• 19:35
  a
• 19:35
  little
• 19:35
  while
• 19:36
  ago
• 19:36
  and
• 19:36
  I
• 19:36
  can
• 19:36
  taste
• 19:37
  that
• 19:37
  I
• 19:37
  have
• 19:37
  brushed
• 19:38
  my
• 19:38
  teeth.
• 19:38
  But
• 19:38
  like
• 19:39
  this
• 19:39
  new
• 19:39
  stuff,
• 19:39
  I
• 19:39
  can't
• 19:40
  taste
• 19:40
  it.
• 19:41
  So
• 19:41
  I
• 19:41
  realized
• 19:42
  like,
• 19:42
  oh,
• 19:42
  I
• 19:42
  use
• 19:43
  a
• 19:43
  lot
• 19:43
  of
• 19:43
  senses,
• 19:44
  sensory
• 19:45
  stuff
• 19:45
  to
• 19:45
  remember
• 19:45
  if
• 19:46
  I've
• 19:46
  done
• 19:46
  something
• 19:46
  or
• 19:47
  not.
• 19:48
  And.
• 19:49
  Oh,
• 19:49
  that's
• 19:50
  interesting.
• 19:51
  Yeah.
• 19:51
  So
• 19:51
  like,
• 19:52
  if
• 19:52
  I,
• 19:52
  or
• 19:52
  like
• 19:52
  I
• 19:53
  have
• 19:53
  a
• 19:53
  bite
• 19:53
  guard
• 19:53
  for
• 19:54
  like
• 19:54
  my,
• 19:54
  my,
• 19:55
  my
• 19:55
  clenching
• 19:56
  of
• 19:56
  my
• 19:56
  jaw.
• 19:57
  So
• 19:57
  like
• 19:57
  if
• 19:57
  I
• 19:57
  don't
• 19:57
  have
• 19:57
  the
• 19:58
  bite
• 19:58
  guard
• 19:58
  in,
• 19:58
  I
• 19:58
  know
• 19:59
  I
• 19:59
  didn't
• 19:59
  brush
• 19:59
  my
• 19:59
  teeth
• 19:59
  because
• 20:00
  that's
• 20:00
  usually
• 20:00
  like
• 20:00
  the
• 20:00
  final
• 20:01
  step
• 20:01
  of
• 20:01
  brushing
• 20:01
  my
• 20:01
  teeth.
• 20:02
  But
• 20:02
  then
• 20:02
  there
• 20:02
  are
• 20:03
  some
• 20:03
  days
• 20:03
  where
• 20:03
  I
• 20:03
  brush
• 20:04
  my
• 20:04
  teeth
• 20:04
  but
• 20:04
  I
• 20:04
  forget
• 20:05
  to
• 20:05
  put
• 20:05
  the
• 20:05
  bike
• 20:06
  guard
• 20:06
  in
• 20:06
  because
• 20:06
  I'm
• 20:06
  like
• 20:06
  trying
• 20:07
  to
• 20:07
  do
• 20:07
  my
• 20:07
  floss
• 20:08
  and
• 20:09
  I
• 20:09
  can't
• 20:09
  floss
• 20:09
  until
• 20:09
  I
• 20:10
  put
• 20:10
  the
• 20:10
  bike
• 20:10
  guard
• 20:10
  in
• 20:10
  and
• 20:11
  so
• 20:11
  I
• 20:11
  just
• 20:11
  forget
• 20:11
  to
• 20:11
  put
• 20:11
  the
• 20:11
  bike
• 20:11
  guard
• 20:12
  in.
• 20:12
  So
• 20:13
  like
• 20:13
  it's
• 20:14
  a
• 20:14
  constant
• 20:15
  struggle
• 20:15
  for
• 20:15
  just
• 20:16
  like
• 20:16
  the
• 20:16
  basics.
• 20:18
  Okay,
• 20:19
  so
• 20:19
  I'm
• 20:19
  going
• 20:19
  To
• 20:19
  out
• 20:19
  myself
• 20:20
  on
• 20:20
  something
• 20:20
  that
• 20:20
  I've
• 20:21
  never
• 20:21
  really
• 20:22
  had
• 20:22
  this
• 20:22
  happen
• 20:22
  until
• 20:23
  the
• 20:23
  last,
• 20:23
  like,
• 20:23
  two
• 20:23
  months.
• 20:24
  And
• 20:25
  I've
• 20:25
  been,
• 20:25
  you
• 20:25
  know,
• 20:25
  particularly
• 20:26
  stressed
• 20:26
  and
• 20:26
  whatnot.
• 20:27
  But
• 20:28
  I
• 20:28
  made
• 20:29
  coffee.
• 20:29
  I
• 20:30
  pour
• 20:30
  it
• 20:30
  into
• 20:31
  the
• 20:31
  coffee
• 20:31
  mug,
• 20:32
  and
• 20:33
  then
• 20:33
  I
• 20:33
  go
• 20:33
  back
• 20:33
  and
• 20:33
  I'm
• 20:34
  like,
• 20:34
  did
• 20:34
  I
• 20:34
  make
• 20:35
  coffee?
• 20:36
  And
• 20:36
  now
• 20:37
  it's
• 20:37
  warm.
• 20:38
  Right.
• 20:39
  So
• 20:39
  you
• 20:40
  would
• 20:40
  think
• 20:40
  I
• 20:41
  would
• 20:41
  have
• 20:41
  gone,
• 20:41
  well,
• 20:42
  it's
• 20:42
  warm
• 20:42
  and
• 20:43
  the
• 20:43
  coffee
• 20:44
  grounds
• 20:45
  are
• 20:45
  not
• 20:46
  dry.
• 20:47
  Yeah.
• 20:47
  So
• 20:47
  you
• 20:48
  probably
• 20:48
  made
• 20:49
  coffee.
• 20:49
  But
• 20:50
  I
• 20:50
  was
• 20:50
  so
• 20:50
  disoriented
• 20:51
  that
• 20:51
  I
• 20:51
  had
• 20:51
  forgotten
• 20:52
  because
• 20:52
  I
• 20:52
  didn't
• 20:52
  sleep
• 20:53
  well
• 20:53
  the
• 20:53
  night
• 20:53
  before,
• 20:53
  that
• 20:54
  I
• 20:54
  didn't
• 20:54
  remember
• 20:55
  if
• 20:55
  I
• 20:55
  had
• 20:55
  poured
• 20:56
  the
• 20:56
  coffee.
• 20:57
  Like,
• 20:57
  I
• 20:58
  did
• 20:58
  all
• 20:58
  the
• 20:58
  steps.
• 20:59
  Right.
• 20:59
  I
• 21:00
  did
• 21:00
  all
• 21:00
  the
• 21:00
  steps
• 21:01
  and
• 21:01
  did
• 21:01
  not
• 21:02
  remember.
• 21:03
  And
• 21:03
  then
• 21:03
  made
• 21:04
  a
• 21:04
  whole
• 21:04
  nother
• 21:04
  batch
• 21:05
  because
• 21:05
  I'm
• 21:05
  like,
• 21:05
  well.
• 21:05
  And
• 21:06
  I
• 21:06
  don't
• 21:06
  even
• 21:06
  see
• 21:06
  where
• 21:06
  I
• 21:06
  put
• 21:06
  the
• 21:07
  cup,
• 21:08
  which,
• 21:08
  again,
• 21:09
  not.
• 21:09
  Not
• 21:09
  very
• 21:10
  much
• 21:10
  like
• 21:10
  me,
• 21:11
  But
• 21:11
  I
• 21:12
  didn't
• 21:12
  even
• 21:12
  know
• 21:12
  where
• 21:12
  the
• 21:12
  cup
• 21:13
  was.
• 21:13
  So
• 21:13
  I
• 21:13
  just
• 21:13
  made
• 21:13
  a
• 21:14
  whole
• 21:14
  other
• 21:14
  batch.
• 21:14
  And
• 21:14
  I
• 21:15
  thought,
• 21:15
  oh,
• 21:15
  my
• 21:15
  God,
• 21:15
  this
• 21:15
  must
• 21:16
  be
• 21:16
  what
• 21:16
  Megan's
• 21:16
  talking
• 21:17
  about
• 21:17
  all
• 21:17
  the
• 21:17
  time.
• 21:18
  Yes,
• 21:18
  that
• 21:18
  is
• 21:19
  100%.
• 21:20
  You
• 21:20
  don't
• 21:21
  know
• 21:21
  if
• 21:21
  you
• 21:21
  just
• 21:21
  did
• 21:22
  something
• 21:22
  and
• 21:23
  every.
• 21:23
  If
• 21:24
  every
• 21:24
  single
• 21:25
  thing.
• 21:25
  Like,
• 21:26
  you're
• 21:26
  really
• 21:26
  kind.
• 21:27
  You're
• 21:27
  a
• 21:27
  very
• 21:27
  nice
• 21:28
  person.
• 21:29
  I
• 21:29
  don't
• 21:29
  think
• 21:30
  I
• 21:30
  would
• 21:30
  be
• 21:30
  as
• 21:30
  nice
• 21:30
  or
• 21:31
  as
• 21:31
  kind.
• 21:31
  In
• 21:31
  fact,
• 21:31
  I
• 21:31
  know
• 21:33
  I
• 21:33
  would
• 21:33
  not
• 21:34
  be.
• 21:34
  Like,
• 21:34
  you're
• 21:35
  very
• 21:35
  patient,
• 21:35
  actually,
• 21:36
  with
• 21:36
  yourself.
• 21:37
  Yeah.
• 21:37
  Because
• 21:37
  I
• 21:38
  was
• 21:38
  sitting
• 21:38
  there
• 21:38
  going,
• 21:38
  like,
• 21:38
  oh,
• 21:39
  my
• 21:39
  God.
• 21:39
  You
• 21:39
  know,
• 21:39
  because
• 21:40
  it's
• 21:40
  really
• 21:40
  easy
• 21:41
  then
• 21:41
  to
• 21:42
  say
• 21:42
  horrible
• 21:42
  things
• 21:43
  to
• 21:43
  yourself
• 21:43
  after
• 21:44
  that.
• 21:44
  Yeah.
• 21:45
  I
• 21:45
  mean,
• 21:45
  because
• 21:45
  you're,
• 21:46
  like,
• 21:46
  automatically
• 21:47
  like,
• 21:47
  oh,
• 21:47
  I'm
• 21:48
  an
• 21:48
  idiot.
• 21:48
  I
• 21:48
  should
• 21:49
  have
• 21:49
  figured
• 21:49
  this
• 21:49
  out.
• 21:49
  Whatever
• 21:50
  I
• 21:50
  mean,
• 21:50
  was
• 21:51
  going
• 21:51
  through
• 21:51
  my
• 21:51
  mind
• 21:52
  anyway,
• 21:53
  so
• 21:53
  I
• 21:53
  could
• 21:53
  imagine,
• 21:54
  you
• 21:54
  know,
• 21:54
  we're
• 21:55
  always
• 21:55
  saying,
• 21:55
  like,
• 21:55
  oh,
• 21:55
  be
• 21:55
  nice
• 21:55
  to
• 21:56
  yourself.
• 21:56
  Well,
• 21:56
  it's
• 21:56
  hard
• 21:56
  to
• 21:56
  be
• 21:56
  nice
• 21:57
  to
• 21:57
  yourself
• 21:58
  when
• 21:58
  you're
• 21:58
  an
• 21:58
  intelligent
• 21:59
  being
• 22:01
  and
• 22:01
  you
• 22:01
  can't
• 22:01
  remember
• 22:01
  if
• 22:02
  you
• 22:02
  made
• 22:02
  your
• 22:02
  coffee.
• 22:03
  Yeah.
• 22:03
  Or
• 22:04
  if
• 22:04
  you
• 22:04
  brushed
• 22:04
  your
• 22:04
  teeth.
• 22:05
  Yeah.
• 22:05
  Maddening.
• 22:06
  Or
• 22:06
  if
• 22:06
  you
• 22:06
  brushed
• 22:07
  your
• 22:07
  teeth.
• 22:07
  Yeah,
• 22:07
  absolutely.
• 22:08
  Anyway,
• 22:09
  no,
• 22:09
  I
• 22:09
  think
• 22:10
  that
• 22:10
  that's
• 22:10
  why.
• 22:10
  Because
• 22:11
  of
• 22:11
  that.
• 22:11
  Maybe
• 22:11
  that's
• 22:11
  what
• 22:12
  it's
• 22:12
  like.
• 22:12
  No,
• 22:12
  and
• 22:13
  I
• 22:13
  appreciate
• 22:13
  that
• 22:13
  because
• 22:14
  I
• 22:14
  do
• 22:14
  think
• 22:14
  that
• 22:14
  that's
• 22:14
  why
• 22:15
  I
• 22:16
  struggle
• 22:18
  and,
• 22:19
  like,
• 22:20
  why
• 22:20
  it
• 22:21
  is
• 22:21
  hard
• 22:21
  for
• 22:21
  me
• 22:22
  to
• 22:22
  just
• 22:22
  accept
• 22:23
  that
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  am
• 22:26
  not.
• 22:26
  Like,
• 22:26
  it's
• 22:27
  to
• 22:27
  be
• 22:27
  nice.
• 22:27
  Like,
• 22:28
  having
• 22:28
  to
• 22:28
  be
• 22:28
  nice
• 22:28
  to
• 22:29
  myself
• 22:29
  has
• 22:30
  taken
• 22:30
  a
• 22:30
  lot
• 22:30
  of
• 22:30
  time,
• 22:31
  and
• 22:31
  it
• 22:32
  has
• 22:32
  been
• 22:33
  hard
• 22:33
  earned.
• 22:35
  And
• 22:36
  I
• 22:36
  think
• 22:36
  that
• 22:36
  that's
• 22:37
  been
• 22:37
  the
• 22:37
  challenge
• 22:38
  for
• 22:38
  me.
• 22:38
  It's
• 22:38
  like,
• 22:38
  I
• 22:38
  haven't
• 22:39
  felt
• 22:39
  like
• 22:39
  I've
• 22:39
  been
• 22:40
  kind
• 22:41
  to
• 22:41
  myself.
• 22:41
  I'm
• 22:42
  much
• 22:42
  kinder
• 22:42
  than
• 22:42
  I
• 22:42
  am
• 22:42
  now.
• 22:43
  But,
• 22:45
  yeah,
• 22:46
  like,
• 22:46
  I
• 22:46
  mean,
• 22:46
  that.
• 22:47
  That
• 22:47
  is
• 22:47
  100%
• 22:48
  exactly
• 22:48
  how
• 22:49
  it
• 22:49
  goes.
• 22:49
  Like,
• 22:49
  I.
• 22:50
  I.
• 22:50
  It
• 22:51
  doesn't
• 22:51
  occur
• 22:51
  to
• 22:51
  me.
• 22:51
  Like,
• 22:53
  I
• 22:53
  made
• 22:53
  the
• 22:53
  coffee
• 22:54
  twice.
• 22:54
  Like,
• 22:54
  yep,
• 22:55
  I
• 22:55
  did.
• 22:55
  I
• 22:55
  made
• 22:55
  the
• 22:55
  coffee
• 22:55
  twice.
• 22:56
  And
• 22:56
  I
• 22:56
  will
• 22:56
  make
• 22:57
  it
• 22:57
  multiples.
• 22:57
  I'll
• 22:57
  make
• 22:58
  it
• 22:58
  a
• 22:58
  third
• 22:58
  time
• 22:58
  because
• 22:58
  I'm
• 22:58
  like,
• 22:58
  I
• 22:59
  won't
• 22:59
  even
• 22:59
  remember
• 22:59
  the
• 22:59
  second
• 23:00
  time
• 23:00
  I
• 23:00
  did
• 23:00
  it,
• 23:00
  you
• 23:00
  know?
• 23:00
  And
• 23:00
  it's
• 23:01
  like
• 23:01
  reading.
• 23:02
  Like,
• 23:02
  that's,
• 23:02
  for
• 23:03
  me,
• 23:03
  also
• 23:03
  is
• 23:03
  reading.
• 23:03
  It's
• 23:04
  like
• 23:04
  I
• 23:04
  read
• 23:04
  a
• 23:04
  line,
• 23:04
  and
• 23:05
  then
• 23:05
  I
• 23:05
  have
• 23:05
  to
• 23:06
  go
• 23:06
  back
• 23:06
  and
• 23:06
  read
• 23:06
  it
• 23:06
  again.
• 23:07
  And
• 23:07
  then
• 23:07
  I
• 23:07
  read
• 23:07
  it
• 23:08
  a
• 23:08
  third
• 23:08
  time,
• 23:08
  and
• 23:08
  it's
• 23:08
  like,
• 23:09
  the
• 23:09
  fifth
• 23:09
  time,
• 23:10
  I'm
• 23:10
  like,
• 23:10
  okay,
• 23:10
  wait,
• 23:11
  no,
• 23:11
  Megan,
• 23:11
  really
• 23:11
  focus
• 23:12
  on
• 23:12
  what
• 23:12
  these
• 23:13
  words
• 23:13
  are
• 23:13
  and
• 23:14
  what
• 23:14
  they
• 23:14
  mean.
• 23:16
  And
• 23:16
  that's.
• 23:16
  I
• 23:17
  think
• 23:17
  the
• 23:17
  maddening
• 23:18
  part
• 23:18
  is
• 23:18
  that
• 23:18
  there
• 23:18
  are
• 23:19
  some
• 23:19
  days
• 23:19
  that
• 23:19
  my
• 23:19
  brain
• 23:20
  can
• 23:20
  read
• 23:21
  perfectly,
• 23:22
  and
• 23:22
  it,
• 23:22
  like,
• 23:23
  understands
• 23:23
  it
• 23:24
  and
• 23:24
  it.
• 23:24
  And
• 23:24
  it,
• 23:25
  like.
• 23:25
  Or
• 23:25
  not
• 23:25
  perfectly,
• 23:26
  but,
• 23:26
  like,
• 23:26
  it.
• 23:26
  It's
• 23:27
  a
• 23:27
  lot
• 23:27
  easier
• 23:28
  to
• 23:28
  read.
• 23:28
  And
• 23:29
  then
• 23:29
  there
• 23:29
  are
• 23:29
  other
• 23:29
  days
• 23:30
  where
• 23:30
  it's
• 23:30
  like,
• 23:30
  five
• 23:30
  times
• 23:31
  minimum.
• 23:32
  Five
• 23:32
  times
• 23:32
  per
• 23:32
  line
• 23:33
  just
• 23:33
  to
• 23:33
  figure
• 23:34
  out
• 23:34
  what
• 23:34
  it
• 23:34
  is
• 23:34
  I'm
• 23:35
  reading.
• 23:36
  And
• 23:36
  that's
• 23:37
  the
• 23:37
  part
• 23:37
  that
• 23:37
  makes
• 23:37
  it
• 23:38
  feel
• 23:38
  like
• 23:39
  somehow
• 23:40
  I'm
• 23:40
  bad
• 23:41
  because,
• 23:41
  like,
• 23:41
  if
• 23:42
  I
• 23:42
  can
• 23:42
  do
• 23:43
  it
• 23:43
  well
• 23:43
  one
• 23:44
  day,
• 23:44
  why
• 23:44
  can't
• 23:44
  I
• 23:45
  do
• 23:45
  it
• 23:45
  well
• 23:45
  the
• 23:45
  next
• 23:45
  day?
• 23:46
  And
• 23:46
  there
• 23:47
  must
• 23:47
  be
• 23:47
  something
• 23:47
  that
• 23:48
  I
• 23:48
  am
• 23:48
  doing
• 23:49
  that
• 23:49
  makes
• 23:50
  this,
• 23:51
  you
• 23:51
  know,
• 23:52
  like,
• 23:52
  that
• 23:52
  makes
• 23:52
  it
• 23:55
  difficult.
• 23:55
  Like,
• 23:56
  there.
• 23:56
  That
• 23:56
  makes
• 23:56
  it,
• 23:57
  like.
• 23:58
  Like,
• 23:58
  right
• 23:58
  now,
• 23:59
  like,
• 23:59
  I'm
• 23:59
  literally
• 24:00
  hearing,
• 24:00
  like,
• 24:00
  my
• 24:00
  voice
• 24:01
  kind
• 24:01
  of
• 24:01
  coming
• 24:01
  back
• 24:02
  to
• 24:02
  me
• 24:02
  every
• 24:02
  once
• 24:02
  in
• 24:02
  a
• 24:03
  while,
• 24:03
  and.
• 24:03
  And
• 24:03
  it's,
• 24:03
  like,
• 24:04
  distracting
• 24:05
  me.
• 24:06
  It's,
• 24:06
  like,
• 24:06
  distracting
• 24:07
  me
• 24:07
  from,
• 24:07
  like,
• 24:08
  what
• 24:08
  I
• 24:08
  can
• 24:08
  do.
• 24:09
  And
• 24:09
  so,
• 24:09
  like,
• 24:09
  I
• 24:09
  think,
• 24:10
  like,
• 24:10
  okay,
• 24:10
  there
• 24:10
  must
• 24:10
  be
• 24:10
  something
• 24:10
  that
• 24:11
  my
• 24:11
  brain
• 24:11
  is
• 24:11
  doing
• 24:12
  wrong
• 24:13
  because,
• 24:13
  like,
• 24:14
  this
• 24:14
  doesn't
• 24:15
  bother
• 24:15
  other
• 24:15
  people.
• 24:16
  Or
• 24:16
  maybe
• 24:16
  it.
• 24:16
  I
• 24:16
  don't
• 24:17
  know.
• 24:17
  Maybe
• 24:17
  it
• 24:17
  does.
• 24:17
  But,
• 24:17
  like.
• 24:17
  But,
• 24:18
  like,
• 24:18
  definitely,
• 24:18
  like,
• 24:18
  if
• 24:19
  it.
• 24:19
  If
• 24:19
  something
• 24:19
  is
• 24:20
  a
• 24:20
  bit
• 24:20
  easier.
• 24:20
  Like,
• 24:21
  there
• 24:21
  are
• 24:21
  days,
• 24:21
  like,
• 24:21
  when
• 24:21
  I'm
• 24:22
  very
• 24:22
  super
• 24:23
  productive,
• 24:23
  and
• 24:23
  I'm
• 24:23
  like,
• 24:23
  okay,
• 24:24
  well,
• 24:24
  why
• 24:24
  can't
• 24:24
  I
• 24:24
  be
• 24:24
  productive
• 24:25
  those
• 24:25
  days?
• 24:26
  And
• 24:26
  then
• 24:26
  other
• 24:26
  days,
• 24:26
  I
• 24:27
  can't
• 24:27
  be
• 24:27
  productive,
• 24:29
  Right?
• 24:29
  And
• 24:29
  how
• 24:29
  maddening
• 24:30
  if
• 24:30
  you're
• 24:30
  always
• 24:31
  thinking,
• 24:31
  like,
• 24:32
  okay,
• 24:32
  if
• 24:32
  I
• 24:33
  set
• 24:33
  the
• 24:33
  right
• 24:34
  conditions
• 24:34
  up,
• 24:35
  I'm
• 24:35
  gonna
• 24:35
  be
• 24:35
  able
• 24:35
  to
• 24:36
  press
• 24:36
  that
• 24:36
  get
• 24:36
  it
• 24:36
  done
• 24:37
  button,
• 24:37
  Right?
• 24:38
  But
• 24:38
  even
• 24:38
  if
• 24:39
  I
• 24:39
  set
• 24:39
  the
• 24:39
  right.
• 24:39
  Conditions
• 24:40
  up,
• 24:41
  you're
• 24:41
  not.
• 24:41
  It's
• 24:42
  not
• 24:42
  true.
• 24:43
  And
• 24:43
  this
• 24:43
  is,
• 24:43
  like,
• 24:43
  why
• 24:44
  it
• 24:44
  sucks,
• 24:44
  because
• 24:44
  it's
• 24:45
  like,
• 24:45
  okay,
• 24:45
  so.
• 24:45
  Especially
• 24:46
  in.
• 24:46
  In
• 24:47
  school,
• 24:48
  it's
• 24:48
  like,
• 24:48
  okay,
• 24:48
  well,
• 24:49
  I.
• 24:49
  I
• 24:49
  genuinely
• 24:50
  can't.
• 24:52
  I
• 24:52
  can't
• 24:52
  tell
• 24:53
  you
• 24:53
  why
• 24:53
  I'm
• 24:54
  gonna
• 24:54
  Feel
• 24:54
  better
• 24:55
  one
• 24:55
  day
• 24:55
  or
• 24:55
  another.
• 24:56
  So
• 24:56
  if,
• 24:57
  like
• 24:57
  you
• 24:57
  have
• 24:57
  a,
• 24:57
  if
• 24:58
  you
• 24:58
  have
• 24:58
  a,
• 24:58
  if
• 24:58
  you
• 24:58
  have
• 24:59
  a,
• 25:00
  an
• 25:00
  exam
• 25:01
  on
• 25:01
  the
• 25:01
  day
• 25:02
  that
• 25:02
  your
• 25:02
  brain
• 25:03
  is
• 25:03
  not
• 25:03
  working
• 25:03
  well,
• 25:04
  and
• 25:04
  that
• 25:04
  is
• 25:04
  like,
• 25:04
  let's
• 25:05
  say
• 25:05
  half
• 25:05
  of
• 25:05
  your
• 25:05
  grade
• 25:07
  and
• 25:08
  you're
• 25:08
  screwed.
• 25:09
  Like,
• 25:09
  I
• 25:09
  was
• 25:10
  screwed.
• 25:11
  So
• 25:11
  it's
• 25:11
  like,
• 25:11
  it's
• 25:12
  so
• 25:12
  frustrating
• 25:12
  because
• 25:12
  it's
• 25:13
  like
• 25:13
  I
• 25:13
  don't
• 25:13
  know
• 25:13
  what
• 25:13
  day,
• 25:14
  what
• 25:15
  brain
• 25:15
  I'm
• 25:15
  gonna
• 25:15
  wake
• 25:16
  up
• 25:16
  with.
• 25:16
  And
• 25:16
  so
• 25:16
  then
• 25:16
  when
• 25:16
  that
• 25:17
  happens,
• 25:17
  then
• 25:17
  it
• 25:17
  makes
• 25:18
  it
• 25:18
  even
• 25:18
  harder
• 25:18
  because
• 25:19
  then
• 25:19
  I
• 25:19
  get
• 25:19
  more
• 25:19
  anxious.
• 25:20
  And
• 25:20
  then
• 25:20
  like,
• 25:20
  you,
• 25:20
  you.
• 25:21
  That's
• 25:21
  why
• 25:21
  the
• 25:21
  comorbidities
• 25:22
  come
• 25:22
  in.
• 25:22
  I
• 25:23
  get
• 25:23
  anxious
• 25:23
  and
• 25:23
  then
• 25:24
  I
• 25:24
  don't
• 25:24
  want
• 25:24
  to
• 25:24
  deal
• 25:24
  with
• 25:24
  it.
• 25:24
  And
• 25:25
  then
• 25:25
  I'm
• 25:25
  like
• 25:25
  freaking
• 25:25
  out.
• 25:26
  And
• 25:26
  so
• 25:26
  it's,
• 25:26
  it's
• 25:27
  all
• 25:27
  of
• 25:27
  these
• 25:27
  things
• 25:28
  together
• 25:28
  and
• 25:28
  it's
• 25:28
  just,
• 25:30
  it's
• 25:30
  really
• 25:30
  hard.
• 25:32
  Yeah.
• 25:32
  And
• 25:32
  I
• 25:32
  wonder
• 25:33
  now,
• 25:33
  like,
• 25:33
  as
• 25:34
  an
• 25:35
  adult
• 25:35
  kind
• 25:36
  of
• 25:36
  talking
• 25:37
  about
• 25:37
  this,
• 25:37
  like
• 25:37
  parenting
• 25:38
  yourself,
• 25:39
  what
• 25:39
  you
• 25:40
  do
• 25:40
  now
• 25:40
  or
• 25:40
  what
• 25:40
  you
• 25:41
  wish.
• 25:41
  Little
• 25:41
  Rosie.
• 25:42
  We
• 25:42
  always
• 25:42
  talk
• 25:42
  about
• 25:42
  little
• 25:43
  Rosie,
• 25:43
  right?
• 25:43
  The,
• 25:44
  the
• 25:44
  little
• 25:44
  four
• 25:45
  or
• 25:45
  five
• 25:45
  year
• 25:45
  old
• 25:45
  version
• 25:46
  of
• 25:46
  yourself
• 25:47
  would
• 25:47
  have,
• 25:48
  might
• 25:48
  have
• 25:48
  helped.
• 25:50
  Like,
• 25:50
  what
• 25:51
  is,
• 25:51
  you
• 25:51
  know
• 25:51
  what
• 25:51
  I
• 25:51
  mean?
• 25:51
  What
• 25:52
  are
• 25:52
  the
• 25:52
  things
• 25:52
  that
• 25:53
  we're
• 25:53
  saying
• 25:53
  to
• 25:53
  ourselves,
• 25:54
  we're
• 25:54
  saying
• 25:55
  to
• 25:55
  our
• 25:55
  kids
• 25:55
  or
• 25:55
  maybe
• 25:55
  I'm
• 25:56
  saying
• 25:56
  to
• 25:56
  Josh,
• 25:56
  sort
• 25:57
  of.
• 25:57
  Whether
• 25:57
  it's
• 25:57
  overtly
• 25:58
  or,
• 25:59
  you
• 25:59
  know,
• 26:00
  just
• 26:00
  through
• 26:01
  my
• 26:01
  reaction
• 26:02
  to
• 26:02
  things.
• 26:02
  Even,
• 26:03
  like
• 26:03
  sometimes
• 26:03
  I
• 26:03
  feel
• 26:04
  like
• 26:04
  even
• 26:04
  if
• 26:04
  I
• 26:04
  just
• 26:04
  breathe
• 26:05
  wrong,
• 26:06
  you
• 26:07
  know,
• 26:07
  this
• 26:07
  can
• 26:07
  be
• 26:08
  very
• 26:08
  telling
• 26:09
  to
• 26:09
  him
• 26:09
  that
• 26:09
  he's
• 26:10
  reading
• 26:10
  a
• 26:10
  whole
• 26:10
  host
• 26:11
  of
• 26:11
  emotions
• 26:12
  that
• 26:12
  may
• 26:13
  or
• 26:13
  may
• 26:13
  not
• 26:13
  be
• 26:14
  how
• 26:14
  I
• 26:14
  feel.
• 26:14
  Exactly
• 26:15
  right.
• 26:16
  But
• 26:16
  he's
• 26:16
  reading
• 26:17
  into
• 26:17
  it
• 26:17
  in
• 26:17
  ways
• 26:18
  as
• 26:18
  well.
• 26:19
  It's
• 26:19
  interesting,
• 26:20
  the
• 26:20
  breathing
• 26:21
  wrong.
• 26:22
  Because
• 26:22
  I
• 26:22
  think,
• 26:24
  I
• 26:24
  think
• 26:24
  that
• 26:24
  over,
• 26:25
  like,
• 26:26
  what
• 26:26
  I've
• 26:26
  found,
• 26:27
  like
• 26:27
  I,
• 26:27
  I
• 26:28
  can,
• 26:28
  I.
• 26:28
  I'm
• 26:28
  so
• 26:29
  hyper
• 26:29
  aware
• 26:30
  of
• 26:30
  what
• 26:31
  somebody
• 26:31
  else
• 26:32
  is
• 26:34
  thinking
• 26:34
  or
• 26:35
  going
• 26:35
  through.
• 26:35
  Because
• 26:36
  I've
• 26:36
  been
• 26:36
  told
• 26:37
  so
• 26:38
  often,
• 26:39
  like,
• 26:39
  well,
• 26:40
  you
• 26:40
  could
• 26:40
  do
• 26:40
  this
• 26:40
  yesterday,
• 26:41
  why
• 26:41
  can't
• 26:41
  you
• 26:41
  do
• 26:41
  it
• 26:41
  today?
• 26:42
  Or
• 26:42
  why
• 26:42
  can't
• 26:43
  you
• 26:43
  just
• 26:43
  like
• 26:43
  all
• 26:43
  these
• 26:43
  things
• 26:44
  that
• 26:44
  we've
• 26:44
  talked
• 26:44
  about.
• 26:46
  And
• 26:47
  then
• 26:47
  you
• 26:47
  start
• 26:48
  like,
• 26:48
  especially
• 26:48
  if
• 26:49
  you
• 26:49
  get
• 26:49
  it
• 26:49
  from
• 26:49
  like,
• 26:49
  you
• 26:50
  know,
• 26:50
  like
• 26:50
  one
• 26:51
  or
• 26:51
  two
• 26:51
  people,
• 26:52
  then
• 26:52
  you
• 26:52
  start
• 26:54
  saying
• 26:54
  whatever
• 26:54
  it
• 26:54
  is
• 26:55
  they've
• 26:55
  said
• 26:55
  before,
• 26:55
  you
• 26:56
  start
• 26:56
  saying
• 26:56
  it
• 26:56
  back
• 26:56
  to
• 26:57
  yourself.
• 26:58
  And
• 26:58
  so
• 26:58
  then
• 26:58
  all,
• 26:59
  you
• 26:59
  know,
• 26:59
  like,
• 26:59
  I
• 26:59
  become
• 27:00
  so
• 27:00
  hyperact,
• 27:01
  hyper
• 27:01
  aware
• 27:02
  that
• 27:02
  like,
• 27:02
  I
• 27:02
  don't
• 27:03
  even
• 27:03
  have
• 27:03
  to
• 27:03
  know,
• 27:04
  like,
• 27:05
  you
• 27:05
  don't
• 27:05
  even
• 27:05
  have
• 27:05
  to
• 27:05
  finish
• 27:06
  saying
• 27:06
  what
• 27:06
  you're
• 27:06
  going
• 27:06
  to
• 27:06
  say.
• 27:07
  I
• 27:07
  know
• 27:07
  what
• 27:07
  you're
• 27:07
  thinking
• 27:09
  and,
• 27:09
  or
• 27:09
  I
• 27:10
  assume
• 27:10
  I
• 27:10
  know
• 27:10
  what
• 27:10
  you're
• 27:11
  thinking
• 27:11
  because,
• 27:11
  like,
• 27:11
  that's.
• 27:12
  I'm
• 27:12
  trying
• 27:13
  to
• 27:13
  not
• 27:13
  get
• 27:14
  pummeled
• 27:15
  in
• 27:16
  My
• 27:16
  own
• 27:16
  brain.
• 27:19
  Say
• 27:19
  more
• 27:19
  about
• 27:20
  that.
• 27:20
  What
• 27:20
  do
• 27:20
  you
• 27:20
  mean
• 27:20
  pummeled
• 27:21
  in
• 27:21
  your
• 27:21
  own
• 27:21
  brain?
• 27:23
  Well,
• 27:25
  I
• 27:25
  hear
• 27:26
  negative
• 27:27
  stuff
• 27:27
  way
• 27:28
  louder
• 27:28
  than
• 27:28
  I
• 27:29
  hear
• 27:29
  positive
• 27:29
  stuff.
• 27:31
  So
• 27:31
  when
• 27:31
  I'm
• 27:32
  messing
• 27:32
  up,
• 27:34
  it
• 27:35
  feels
• 27:35
  like
• 27:36
  I
• 27:36
  am
• 27:38
  really
• 27:38
  messing
• 27:39
  up.
• 27:39
  Like,
• 27:39
  I
• 27:40
  am
• 27:40
  messing
• 27:41
  up.
• 27:41
  So
• 27:42
  I'm,
• 27:42
  like,
• 27:43
  just
• 27:43
  messing
• 27:44
  up
• 27:44
  so
• 27:44
  big
• 27:45
  because
• 27:45
  I.
• 27:46
  I
• 27:46
  amplify
• 27:46
  it
• 27:47
  in
• 27:47
  my
• 27:47
  head,
• 27:47
  and
• 27:47
  I.
• 27:47
  I
• 27:48
  heard
• 27:48
  somebody
• 27:48
  say,
• 27:51
  you're.
• 27:51
  I'm
• 27:52
  saying
• 27:52
  something
• 27:53
  in
• 27:53
  a
• 27:53
  volume
• 27:54
  two,
• 27:54
  but
• 27:54
  you're
• 27:55
  hearing
• 27:55
  it
• 27:55
  as
• 27:55
  volume
• 27:56
  ten.
• 27:58
  And
• 27:58
  I
• 27:58
  think,
• 27:59
  like,
• 27:59
  that
• 27:59
  that
• 28:00
  is
• 28:00
  trauma.
• 28:00
  And,
• 28:01
  like,
• 28:01
  when.
• 28:02
  When
• 28:02
  it's
• 28:02
  like,
• 28:03
  when
• 28:03
  everything
• 28:03
  I
• 28:03
  do
• 28:04
  is
• 28:04
  wrong
• 28:04
  or
• 28:04
  when.
• 28:05
  When
• 28:05
  I'm
• 28:05
  never,
• 28:05
  like.
• 28:05
  You
• 28:05
  know,
• 28:06
  when
• 28:06
  my
• 28:06
  bot.
• 28:06
  My
• 28:06
  brain
• 28:06
  is
• 28:07
  the
• 28:07
  thing
• 28:07
  that's.
• 28:07
  That's
• 28:07
  the
• 28:07
  issue.
• 28:09
  I.
• 28:09
  I
• 28:09
  hear
• 28:10
  all
• 28:10
  of
• 28:10
  that
• 28:12
  and
• 28:12
  all
• 28:12
  that
• 28:12
  past
• 28:13
  trauma
• 28:13
  in
• 28:14
  anything
• 28:14
  that
• 28:14
  somebody
• 28:15
  says
• 28:15
  that
• 28:15
  might
• 28:15
  even
• 28:16
  sound
• 28:16
  like
• 28:16
  a
• 28:16
  criticism
• 28:17
  or
• 28:17
  like,
• 28:17
  that
• 28:17
  sounds
• 28:18
  like
• 28:18
  a.
• 28:19
  A
• 28:19
  problem.
• 28:22
  Interesting.
• 28:23
  So
• 28:23
  you're
• 28:23
  saying.
• 28:24
  Yeah,
• 28:24
  so
• 28:25
  I
• 28:25
  just
• 28:25
  make
• 28:25
  sure
• 28:25
  I
• 28:25
  understand
• 28:26
  it
• 28:27
  a
• 28:28
  little
• 28:28
  bit
• 28:28
  anyway,
• 28:28
  is
• 28:29
  that
• 28:30
  I'm
• 28:30
  saying,
• 28:31
  meg,
• 28:32
  I'm
• 28:32
  really
• 28:32
  disappointed
• 28:33
  that
• 28:33
  you're
• 28:33
  late.
• 28:34
  Mm.
• 28:35
  Right.
• 28:36
  And
• 28:36
  you're
• 28:36
  hearing
• 28:37
  what?
• 28:38
  Like,
• 28:38
  I
• 28:38
  know.
• 28:39
  I
• 28:39
  am
• 28:39
  disappointed
• 28:40
  in
• 28:40
  myself.
• 28:40
  And
• 28:40
  you're
• 28:41
  right.
• 28:41
  Like,
• 28:41
  I'm
• 28:41
  a
• 28:41
  loser,
• 28:42
  and
• 28:42
  it's
• 28:42
  horrible.
• 28:43
  And,
• 28:43
  like,
• 28:43
  yes.
• 28:44
  Like,
• 28:44
  this
• 28:44
  is
• 28:44
  just
• 28:44
  me.
• 28:45
  It
• 28:45
  always
• 28:45
  happens,
• 28:45
  and
• 28:46
  I
• 28:46
  can't
• 28:46
  help
• 28:46
  it.
• 28:46
  But,
• 28:46
  like,
• 28:46
  I
• 28:47
  just.
• 28:47
  I.
• 28:47
  I
• 28:47
  don't
• 28:48
  know
• 28:48
  why.
• 28:48
  Like,
• 28:48
  I
• 28:48
  don't
• 28:48
  know
• 28:48
  why
• 28:48
  I
• 28:49
  do
• 28:49
  this.
• 28:49
  I'm
• 28:49
  not
• 28:49
  sure
• 28:49
  why
• 28:50
  I'm
• 28:50
  always
• 28:50
  late,
• 28:50
  but
• 28:50
  I
• 28:50
  am
• 28:50
  always
• 28:51
  late,
• 28:51
  and
• 28:51
  I
• 28:51
  just.
• 28:51
  And
• 28:51
  I
• 28:52
  start
• 28:52
  spiraling.
• 28:53
  Yeah.
• 28:54
  Yeah.
• 28:56
  And
• 28:56
  I
• 28:56
  think
• 28:56
  if
• 28:57
  I.
• 28:57
  Person
• 28:57
  who's
• 28:58
  receiving
• 28:58
  it,
• 28:59
  you're
• 29:00
  in
• 29:00
  this,
• 29:00
  like,
• 29:01
  whirlwind,
• 29:01
  too,
• 29:01
  going,
• 29:02
  okay,
• 29:02
  wait,
• 29:02
  now
• 29:02
  how
• 29:03
  do
• 29:03
  we
• 29:03
  get
• 29:03
  out
• 29:03
  of
• 29:03
  this?
• 29:04
  Right?
• 29:04
  Like,
• 29:05
  how
• 29:05
  do
• 29:05
  we
• 29:05
  break
• 29:06
  this
• 29:07
  cycle?
• 29:07
  Because
• 29:08
  that
• 29:08
  wasn't
• 29:08
  what
• 29:08
  I
• 29:08
  meant.
• 29:09
  Right,
• 29:10
  Right.
• 29:10
  And
• 29:11
  I
• 29:11
  think,
• 29:11
  like,
• 29:11
  in
• 29:11
  that
• 29:12
  moment,
• 29:13
  there
• 29:13
  is
• 29:14
  no
• 29:14
  breaking
• 29:14
  it.
• 29:15
  Like,
• 29:15
  the
• 29:15
  per.
• 29:16
  Like,
• 29:16
  it's
• 29:16
  like
• 29:16
  you
• 29:16
  just
• 29:17
  have
• 29:17
  to
• 29:17
  kind
• 29:17
  of,
• 29:17
  like,
• 29:17
  walk
• 29:17
  away
• 29:18
  and,
• 29:18
  like,
• 29:18
  not
• 29:19
  be
• 29:19
  triggered
• 29:19
  anymore.
• 29:20
  Because,
• 29:20
  like,
• 29:20
  once
• 29:20
  you're.
• 29:21
  Once
• 29:21
  I'm
• 29:21
  triggered,
• 29:22
  like,
• 29:22
  I.
• 29:23
  It's
• 29:23
  really
• 29:23
  hard
• 29:24
  to
• 29:25
  come
• 29:25
  off
• 29:25
  of
• 29:25
  it.
• 29:28
  So,
• 29:28
  like,
• 29:28
  I
• 29:28
  think
• 29:29
  it's
• 29:29
  about,
• 29:29
  like,
• 29:29
  taking
• 29:29
  a
• 29:30
  second
• 29:30
  and
• 29:30
  saying,
• 29:30
  hey,
• 29:31
  like,
• 29:31
  you
• 29:31
  know,
• 29:32
  figuring
• 29:32
  out,
• 29:32
  like,
• 29:32
  a
• 29:32
  way
• 29:33
  to
• 29:33
  have
• 29:33
  a
• 29:33
  break.
• 29:34
  And
• 29:35
  I
• 29:35
  can
• 29:36
  also
• 29:36
  see
• 29:36
  that,
• 29:36
  too,
• 29:36
  depending
• 29:36
  on.
• 29:37
  That's,
• 29:37
  like.
• 29:38
  I
• 29:38
  don't
• 29:38
  know.
• 29:38
  This
• 29:39
  is
• 29:39
  where
• 29:39
  it
• 29:39
  gets
• 29:39
  tough.
• 29:39
  Right?
• 29:39
  I
• 29:40
  can
• 29:40
  see
• 29:40
  having
• 29:41
  a
• 29:41
  break
• 29:41
  could
• 29:41
  also
• 29:42
  feel
• 29:42
  like
• 29:42
  someone's
• 29:42
  just
• 29:42
  walking
• 29:43
  away
• 29:43
  and
• 29:43
  not
• 29:43
  wanting
• 29:43
  to
• 29:44
  deal
• 29:44
  with
• 29:44
  it.
• 29:45
  So
• 29:45
  there
• 29:45
  is
• 29:46
  some
• 29:46
  give
• 29:47
  and
• 29:47
  take
• 29:47
  to
• 29:47
  it.
• 29:47
  But
• 29:47
  I
• 29:48
  think,
• 29:48
  like,
• 29:48
  you
• 29:49
  know,
• 29:49
  I.
• 29:49
  I
• 29:49
  Can't
• 29:49
  figure
• 29:50
  something
• 29:50
  out
• 29:50
  until
• 29:51
  I
• 29:51
  have
• 29:53
  processed
• 29:53
  and
• 29:53
  calmed
• 29:53
  down.
• 29:54
  The
• 29:55
  other
• 29:55
  thing
• 29:55
  that's
• 29:55
  really
• 29:55
  hard
• 29:56
  is
• 29:56
  that,
• 29:56
  like,
• 29:58
  even
• 29:58
  if,
• 29:58
  like,
• 29:58
  I
• 29:59
  calm
• 29:59
  down
• 29:59
  and
• 29:59
  I
• 29:59
  process
• 30:00
  it,
• 30:01
  I'm
• 30:01
  never
• 30:01
  gonna
• 30:02
  be
• 30:02
  on
• 30:02
  time.
• 30:04
  Like,
• 30:04
  it's
• 30:04
  just
• 30:04
  something
• 30:05
  that
• 30:05
  I
• 30:06
  physically,
• 30:07
  like,
• 30:07
  some,
• 30:08
  maybe
• 30:08
  some
• 30:08
  days
• 30:08
  I
• 30:08
  can,
• 30:09
  but
• 30:10
  there
• 30:10
  are
• 30:11
  other
• 30:11
  days
• 30:11
  where
• 30:12
  I'm
• 30:12
  not
• 30:12
  going
• 30:12
  to
• 30:13
  be.
• 30:13
  And
• 30:13
  so,
• 30:13
  like,
• 30:13
  that's
• 30:14
  the
• 30:14
  part
• 30:14
  that's
• 30:15
  hard.
• 30:15
  Like,
• 30:16
  I
• 30:17
  was
• 30:17
  listening
• 30:18
  to
• 30:18
  a
• 30:19
  friend,
• 30:19
  um,
• 30:21
  and
• 30:21
  he
• 30:21
  was
• 30:21
  saying
• 30:22
  that
• 30:22
  he
• 30:22
  got
• 30:22
  to
• 30:22
  work
• 30:22
  an
• 30:23
  hour
• 30:23
  early
• 30:24
  so
• 30:24
  that,
• 30:24
  like.
• 30:24
  And
• 30:24
  I
• 30:25
  would
• 30:25
  assume
• 30:25
  that,
• 30:25
  like,
• 30:25
  he's
• 30:26
  getting
• 30:26
  to
• 30:26
  work
• 30:26
  an
• 30:26
  hour
• 30:27
  early
• 30:27
  because,
• 30:28
  you
• 30:28
  know,
• 30:28
  he
• 30:28
  doesn't
• 30:29
  know
• 30:29
  if
• 30:29
  he's
• 30:29
  going
• 30:29
  to
• 30:29
  make
• 30:30
  it
• 30:30
  on
• 30:30
  time
• 30:30
  or
• 30:30
  not.
• 30:30
  And
• 30:30
  it's
• 30:31
  like,
• 30:31
  you
• 30:31
  have
• 30:31
  to
• 30:31
  be
• 30:31
  on
• 30:31
  time.
• 30:32
  And
• 30:32
  so
• 30:33
  now
• 30:33
  I
• 30:33
  have
• 30:34
  to
• 30:34
  waste
• 30:34
  an
• 30:35
  hour
• 30:35
  of
• 30:35
  my
• 30:35
  day
• 30:36
  to
• 30:36
  make
• 30:36
  sure
• 30:37
  that
• 30:37
  I
• 30:37
  am
• 30:37
  arbitrarily
• 30:38
  on
• 30:38
  time.
• 30:38
  And
• 30:39
  it's
• 30:39
  just
• 30:39
  like,
• 30:39
  it's
• 30:40
  just
• 30:40
  so
• 30:40
  frustrating.
• 30:42
  Yeah.
• 30:42
  Because
• 30:42
  this
• 30:42
  is
• 30:43
  really
• 30:43
  about,
• 30:44
  again,
• 30:45
  being
• 30:46
  in
• 30:46
  what
• 30:46
  is
• 30:48
  potentially
• 30:48
  called,
• 30:48
  like
• 30:49
  a
• 30:49
  neurotypical
• 30:50
  setup.
• 30:50
  Right.
• 30:51
  The
• 30:51
  world's
• 30:51
  set
• 30:51
  up
• 30:52
  in
• 30:52
  this
• 30:52
  way,
• 30:53
  but
• 30:53
  that's
• 30:54
  not
• 30:54
  really
• 30:54
  what
• 30:55
  your
• 30:55
  brain
• 30:56
  fits
• 30:57
  into.
• 30:58
  Yeah.
• 30:58
  And
• 30:58
  it's
• 30:58
  just.
• 30:59
  It
• 30:59
  doesn't
• 30:59
  feel
• 30:59
  fair.
• 31:00
  And
• 31:00
  that's
• 31:00
  the
• 31:00
  part
• 31:00
  that,
• 31:01
  that
• 31:01
  it's
• 31:01
  like
• 31:01
  this
• 31:02
  whole
• 31:02
  thing
• 31:02
  of,
• 31:02
  like,
• 31:02
  okay,
• 31:02
  well,
• 31:02
  we
• 31:03
  all
• 31:03
  have
• 31:03
  to
• 31:03
  do
• 31:03
  this.
• 31:03
  It's
• 31:03
  like,
• 31:04
  it
• 31:04
  doesn't
• 31:04
  feel
• 31:04
  fair.
• 31:04
  It
• 31:04
  doesn't
• 31:05
  feel
• 31:05
  fair
• 31:05
  that,
• 31:05
  like,
• 31:06
  other
• 31:06
  people
• 31:06
  get
• 31:07
  to
• 31:07
  just
• 31:07
  roll
• 31:07
  into
• 31:07
  work
• 31:08
  and
• 31:09
  then
• 31:09
  I
• 31:09
  have
• 31:09
  to,
• 31:10
  like,
• 31:10
  be
• 31:10
  there
• 31:10
  an
• 31:10
  hour
• 31:10
  early
• 31:11
  in
• 31:11
  order
• 31:12
  to
• 31:12
  make
• 31:12
  sure
• 31:12
  I'm
• 31:12
  on
• 31:13
  time.
• 31:13
  And
• 31:13
  it
• 31:13
  just,
• 31:13
  it
• 31:14
  doesn't
• 31:14
  feel
• 31:14
  fair.
• 31:15
  And
• 31:15
  I,
• 31:15
  I.
• 31:15
  That's
• 31:16
  the
• 31:16
  part,
• 31:16
  like,
• 31:16
  where,
• 31:16
  when
• 31:16
  it's,
• 31:17
  when
• 31:17
  things
• 31:17
  start
• 31:17
  feeling
• 31:18
  fair
• 31:18
  for
• 31:18
  me,
• 31:19
  that's
• 31:20
  when
• 31:20
  I
• 31:20
  start
• 31:20
  shutting
• 31:20
  down.
• 31:23
  Like,
• 31:23
  even
• 31:23
  right
• 31:23
  now,
• 31:24
  like,
• 31:24
  I
• 31:24
  just,
• 31:24
  it's
• 31:24
  interesting.
• 31:25
  I
• 31:25
  can
• 31:26
  see
• 31:26
  the
• 31:26
  people.
• 31:27
  Energies
• 31:27
  lower.
• 31:28
  Yeah.
• 31:28
  Like,
• 31:28
  who.
• 31:29
  I
• 31:29
  could
• 31:29
  see
• 31:29
  that.
• 31:29
  I
• 31:29
  can
• 31:29
  feel
• 31:30
  the.
• 31:30
  I
• 31:30
  can
• 31:30
  remember
• 31:30
  the
• 31:30
  people
• 31:31
  who
• 31:31
  just
• 31:31
  like,
• 31:31
  literally
• 31:31
  would
• 31:32
  just
• 31:32
  waltz
• 31:32
  in
• 31:32
  and
• 31:33
  they
• 31:33
  always
• 31:33
  were
• 31:34
  able
• 31:34
  to
• 31:34
  get
• 31:34
  there
• 31:34
  on
• 31:34
  time
• 31:35
  and
• 31:35
  it
• 31:35
  just
• 31:35
  didn't
• 31:35
  bother
• 31:35
  them.
• 31:36
  And
• 31:36
  it
• 31:36
  was
• 31:36
  just
• 31:36
  like,
• 31:36
  this
• 31:36
  is
• 31:37
  so
• 31:37
  frustrating.
• 31:40
  Yeah.
• 31:41
  And
• 31:41
  I
• 31:41
  think,
• 31:41
  you
• 31:41
  know,
• 31:42
  as,
• 31:42
  as
• 31:43
  you're
• 31:43
  talking
• 31:43
  about,
• 31:44
  I
• 31:44
  hear
• 31:44
  the
• 31:44
  frustration
• 31:46
  and
• 31:46
  also
• 31:46
  the
• 31:46
  idea
• 31:47
  that
• 31:48
  when
• 31:48
  you're
• 31:49
  younger,
• 31:49
  you
• 31:49
  don't
• 31:49
  have
• 31:50
  the
• 31:50
  language
• 31:50
  to
• 31:51
  discuss
• 31:51
  it
• 31:51
  with
• 31:52
  people.
• 31:52
  Yeah.
• 31:53
  Then
• 31:53
  you're
• 31:53
  just
• 31:53
  in
• 31:54
  this
• 31:54
  constant
• 31:54
  state
• 31:54
  of
• 31:55
  getting
• 31:55
  pummeled.
• 31:56
  And,
• 31:58
  and
• 31:59
  once
• 31:59
  you
• 31:59
  have
• 31:59
  the
• 31:59
  language
• 32:00
  to
• 32:00
  describe
• 32:01
  it
• 32:01
  or
• 32:01
  discuss
• 32:01
  it,
• 32:02
  sometimes
• 32:02
  that
• 32:02
  can
• 32:02
  help
• 32:03
  things.
• 32:03
  Right.
• 32:03
  But
• 32:03
  I
• 32:04
  mean,
• 32:04
  not
• 32:04
  always,
• 32:05
  but
• 32:05
  it
• 32:05
  definitely
• 32:06
  can.
• 32:06
  If
• 32:06
  you're
• 32:06
  saying,
• 32:06
  this
• 32:07
  is
• 32:07
  who
• 32:07
  I
• 32:07
  Am.
• 32:08
  And
• 32:08
  you
• 32:08
  did
• 32:08
  that
• 32:08
  in
• 32:09
  this
• 32:09
  last
• 32:09
  job.
• 32:09
  You
• 32:10
  said,
• 32:10
  this
• 32:10
  is
• 32:10
  who
• 32:10
  I
• 32:10
  am.
• 32:11
  This
• 32:12
  is,
• 32:12
  you
• 32:12
  know,
• 32:12
  I'm
• 32:12
  not
• 32:12
  going
• 32:13
  to
• 32:13
  apologize
• 32:13
  for
• 32:13
  it.
• 32:14
  And
• 32:15
  they
• 32:15
  selected
• 32:15
  you
• 32:15
  anyway.
• 32:16
  Right.
• 32:16
  And,
• 32:17
  I
• 32:17
  mean,
• 32:17
  some
• 32:17
  things
• 32:17
  happened
• 32:18
  with
• 32:18
  the
• 32:18
  government
• 32:18
  that,
• 32:19
  you
• 32:19
  know,
• 32:19
  made
• 32:20
  the
• 32:20
  job
• 32:20
  no
• 32:20
  longer
• 32:21
  available,
• 32:21
  but
• 32:22
  that
• 32:23
  was
• 32:23
  so
• 32:23
  different
• 32:24
  than
• 32:24
  any
• 32:24
  other
• 32:25
  time.
• 32:25
  I
• 32:25
  remember
• 32:26
  you
• 32:27
  having
• 32:28
  interactions
• 32:29
  like
• 32:29
  that
• 32:29
  or
• 32:30
  trying
• 32:30
  to
• 32:30
  understand
• 32:30
  how
• 32:31
  you're
• 32:31
  going
• 32:31
  to
• 32:31
  fit
• 32:31
  into
• 32:31
  this
• 32:32
  neurotypical
• 32:32
  world.
• 32:33
  Yeah.
• 32:34
  And,
• 32:34
  like,
• 32:34
  forcing
• 32:35
  yourself
• 32:35
  into
• 32:35
  that
• 32:35
  neurotypical
• 32:36
  world.
• 32:37
  But
• 32:37
  the
• 32:38
  problem
• 32:38
  is
• 32:38
  that,
• 32:38
  like,
• 32:38
  you
• 32:38
  know,
• 32:38
  a
• 32:39
  lot
• 32:39
  of
• 32:39
  these
• 32:39
  starter
• 32:40
  jobs,
• 32:40
  they
• 32:40
  all
• 32:41
  require
• 32:42
  you
• 32:42
  to
• 32:42
  be
• 32:43
  on
• 32:43
  time.
• 32:44
  And
• 32:44
  so
• 32:45
  it's
• 32:45
  like,
• 32:45
  it's
• 32:46
  just,
• 32:46
  how
• 32:46
  do
• 32:46
  you
• 32:46
  get
• 32:47
  experience
• 32:47
  and
• 32:47
  work
• 32:48
  if
• 32:48
  you
• 32:49
  have
• 32:49
  to
• 32:49
  punch
• 32:49
  in
• 32:50
  every
• 32:50
  single
• 32:50
  day?
• 32:51
  You
• 32:51
  can't
• 32:51
  say
• 32:52
  to
• 32:52
  them,
• 32:52
  like,
• 32:52
  hey,
• 32:53
  I'm
• 32:53
  neurodiver.
• 32:54
  Well,
• 32:54
  maybe
• 32:54
  you
• 32:54
  could.
• 32:55
  Maybe.
• 32:55
  I
• 32:55
  guess
• 32:55
  you
• 32:55
  could,
• 32:55
  like,
• 32:56
  say,
• 32:56
  hey,
• 32:56
  I'm
• 32:56
  neurodivergent,
• 32:57
  and
• 32:57
  this
• 32:57
  is,
• 32:57
  like,
• 32:57
  a
• 32:57
  reasonable
• 32:58
  accommodation.
• 32:59
  I.
• 33:00
  I've
• 33:00
  never
• 33:00
  tried
• 33:00
  that.
• 33:01
  I
• 33:01
  mean,
• 33:01
  I
• 33:01
  probably
• 33:01
  could
• 33:01
  have.
• 33:02
  I
• 33:02
  probably
• 33:02
  could
• 33:02
  have
• 33:02
  asked
• 33:03
  him,
• 33:03
  like,
• 33:03
  hey,
• 33:03
  this
• 33:03
  is
• 33:03
  like,
• 33:04
  this
• 33:04
  is
• 33:04
  what
• 33:05
  I
• 33:05
  am
• 33:05
  and
• 33:05
  who
• 33:05
  I
• 33:05
  am.
• 33:06
  And
• 33:06
  like,
• 33:06
  you
• 33:06
  know,
• 33:06
  this
• 33:07
  is
• 33:07
  my
• 33:07
  reasonable
• 33:07
  accommodation
• 33:08
  that
• 33:08
  I'm
• 33:08
  asking
• 33:09
  for.
• 33:10
  It
• 33:10
  would
• 33:10
  be
• 33:10
  interesting
• 33:11
  to
• 33:11
  see
• 33:11
  if
• 33:11
  they
• 33:11
  would
• 33:11
  actually
• 33:12
  do
• 33:12
  that.
• 33:14
  Absolutely.
• 33:15
  I
• 33:16
  guess.
• 33:16
  One
• 33:16
  question
• 33:16
  I
• 33:17
  had
• 33:17
  is,
• 33:17
  so
• 33:18
  another
• 33:19
  podcast.
• 33:19
  We
• 33:19
  had
• 33:19
  talked
• 33:20
  about
• 33:20
  this
• 33:20
  idea
• 33:20
  of
• 33:22
  reaction,
• 33:24
  the
• 33:24
  idea
• 33:24
  of,
• 33:25
  like,
• 33:25
  that
• 33:25
  you're
• 33:25
  going
• 33:25
  to
• 33:26
  just
• 33:26
  kind
• 33:26
  of
• 33:26
  respond
• 33:27
  versus
• 33:27
  react.
• 33:28
  And
• 33:29
  I
• 33:29
  wanted
• 33:30
  to
• 33:30
  talk
• 33:30
  about
• 33:30
  that
• 33:31
  in
• 33:31
  this
• 33:31
  context
• 33:32
  a
• 33:32
  little
• 33:32
  bit
• 33:32
  because
• 33:33
  I
• 33:33
  think
• 33:33
  it's
• 33:34
  really
• 33:34
  hard,
• 33:35
  and
• 33:36
  I
• 33:36
  think
• 33:36
  you've
• 33:36
  worked
• 33:37
  really
• 33:37
  hard
• 33:37
  at
• 33:37
  this
• 33:38
  to
• 33:38
  respond
• 33:39
  to
• 33:40
  your
• 33:40
  brain
• 33:41
  versus
• 33:41
  react
• 33:43
  to
• 33:43
  your
• 33:44
  brain.
• 33:44
  And
• 33:46
  I
• 33:46
  don't
• 33:46
  know
• 33:46
  that
• 33:46
  you're
• 33:47
  100%
• 33:48
  there
• 33:48
  right.
• 33:49
  With
• 33:49
  it,
• 33:49
  but
• 33:49
  I
• 33:50
  see
• 33:50
  it
• 33:50
  certainly
• 33:51
  with
• 33:51
  other
• 33:51
  people.
• 33:52
  You
• 33:52
  do
• 33:52
  it
• 33:52
  regularly.
• 33:54
  But
• 33:55
  I
• 33:55
  wondered,
• 33:55
  is
• 33:56
  that
• 33:56
  something
• 33:58
  that
• 33:58
  you've
• 33:59
  noticed
• 34:00
  either
• 34:01
  improvement
• 34:01
  or
• 34:01
  difference
• 34:02
  in.
• 34:03
  Within
• 34:03
  how
• 34:04
  you're
• 34:04
  responding
• 34:05
  to
• 34:05
  understanding
• 34:06
  now
• 34:06
  that
• 34:06
  you
• 34:07
  understand
• 34:07
  a
• 34:07
  little
• 34:07
  bit
• 34:07
  more
• 34:08
  how
• 34:08
  your
• 34:08
  brain
• 34:08
  works?
• 34:10
  Yeah.
• 34:10
  I
• 34:10
  think
• 34:10
  I
• 34:11
  have
• 34:11
  been
• 34:12
  kinder
• 34:13
  to
• 34:13
  myself
• 34:13
  now
• 34:14
  that
• 34:14
  I
• 34:14
  understand
• 34:14
  how
• 34:15
  my
• 34:15
  brain
• 34:15
  works.
• 34:16
  I
• 34:17
  think
• 34:17
  I
• 34:17
  find
• 34:17
  myself
• 34:18
  still
• 34:19
  beating
• 34:19
  myself
• 34:20
  up
• 34:20
  a
• 34:20
  little
• 34:20
  bit
• 34:20
  here
• 34:20
  and
• 34:20
  there,
• 34:21
  but
• 34:21
  then
• 34:21
  I
• 34:21
  notice
• 34:22
  I'm
• 34:22
  beating
• 34:22
  myself
• 34:22
  up
• 34:23
  and
• 34:23
  I
• 34:23
  stop
• 34:23
  and
• 34:24
  I'm
• 34:24
  like,
• 34:24
  wait,
• 34:24
  Megan,
• 34:24
  no,
• 34:25
  stop,
• 34:25
  stop,
• 34:26
  stop.
• 34:26
  No,
• 34:26
  this
• 34:27
  is
• 34:28
  you.
• 34:28
  This
• 34:28
  is
• 34:28
  like,
• 34:29
  it's
• 34:29
  okay.
• 34:30
  Let
• 34:31
  yourself
• 34:31
  have,
• 34:31
  like,
• 34:32
  let
• 34:32
  yourself
• 34:32
  relax
• 34:33
  or
• 34:33
  do
• 34:33
  whatever
• 34:33
  it
• 34:34
  needs
• 34:34
  to
• 34:34
  do.
• 34:35
  Like,
• 34:35
  Right.
• 34:35
  Like
• 34:35
  recently,
• 34:35
  like,
• 34:36
  I've
• 34:36
  just
• 34:36
  been
• 34:36
  so
• 34:37
  tired
• 34:37
  and.
• 34:38
  And
• 34:39
  normally
• 34:39
  I
• 34:39
  would,
• 34:39
  like,
• 34:40
  really
• 34:40
  beat
• 34:40
  myself
• 34:40
  up
• 34:41
  for
• 34:41
  it,
• 34:41
  but
• 34:41
  I
• 34:41
  was
• 34:41
  like,
• 34:41
  you
• 34:41
  know,
• 34:42
  I
• 34:42
  did
• 34:42
  a
• 34:42
  lot
• 34:43
  that,
• 34:43
  like,
• 34:44
  the
• 34:44
  last
• 34:44
  Couple
• 34:44
  of
• 34:44
  weeks
• 34:45
  and
• 34:45
  I
• 34:45
  was
• 34:45
  like,
• 34:45
  trying
• 34:45
  out,
• 34:46
  you
• 34:46
  know,
• 34:46
  I
• 34:46
  was
• 34:46
  trying
• 34:46
  to
• 34:46
  help
• 34:47
  out
• 34:47
  more
• 34:47
  and
• 34:47
  volunteer
• 34:48
  more
• 34:48
  and
• 34:48
  do
• 34:48
  do
• 34:49
  things
• 34:49
  that
• 34:49
  I
• 34:49
  just
• 34:50
  normally
• 34:50
  don't
• 34:51
  do.
• 34:51
  And
• 34:51
  like,
• 34:52
  I
• 34:52
  got
• 34:53
  so
• 34:53
  tired
• 34:53
  of
• 34:53
  the
• 34:53
  point,
• 34:53
  like,
• 34:54
  where
• 34:54
  this
• 34:54
  past
• 34:55
  Wednesday
• 34:55
  when
• 34:55
  I
• 34:55
  went
• 34:55
  to
• 34:55
  the
• 34:56
  aquarium
• 34:56
  to
• 34:56
  volunteer,
• 34:58
  I
• 34:58
  was
• 34:58
  not
• 34:58
  my
• 34:59
  normal,
• 34:59
  you
• 35:00
  know,
• 35:00
  just
• 35:00
  like,
• 35:00
  let's
• 35:01
  go
• 35:01
  at
• 35:01
  it.
• 35:02
  Excited
• 35:02
  to
• 35:02
  talk
• 35:02
  to
• 35:03
  everybody's
• 35:03
  self.
• 35:03
  Like,
• 35:04
  I
• 35:04
  noticed,
• 35:04
  like,
• 35:05
  I
• 35:05
  just
• 35:05
  had
• 35:05
  to
• 35:06
  conserve.
• 35:06
  And
• 35:07
  so
• 35:07
  I.
• 35:08
  I
• 35:08
  didn't
• 35:09
  do
• 35:09
  as
• 35:09
  much
• 35:09
  like
• 35:11
  seeking
• 35:11
  out
• 35:12
  people.
• 35:12
  I
• 35:12
  just
• 35:13
  sort
• 35:13
  of
• 35:13
  was
• 35:13
  there
• 35:14
  and
• 35:14
  was
• 35:14
  like,
• 35:14
  okay,
• 35:15
  if
• 35:15
  somebody
• 35:15
  comes
• 35:15
  to
• 35:16
  me,
• 35:16
  I
• 35:16
  will
• 35:16
  talk
• 35:17
  to
• 35:17
  them,
• 35:17
  but,
• 35:17
  like,
• 35:17
  I'm
• 35:18
  not
• 35:18
  going
• 35:18
  to
• 35:18
  do
• 35:18
  what
• 35:18
  I
• 35:18
  normally
• 35:19
  do
• 35:19
  and,
• 35:19
  like,
• 35:19
  try
• 35:20
  to
• 35:20
  look
• 35:20
  for
• 35:20
  people
• 35:20
  and,
• 35:21
  like,
• 35:22
  say
• 35:22
  hello.
• 35:22
  And
• 35:23
  you
• 35:23
  know,
• 35:23
  like,
• 35:24
  that's
• 35:24
  just
• 35:24
  was
• 35:24
  too
• 35:25
  much
• 35:25
  energy.
• 35:25
  And
• 35:26
  I
• 35:26
  think
• 35:26
  in
• 35:26
  the
• 35:27
  past
• 35:27
  I
• 35:27
  would
• 35:27
  have
• 35:27
  been
• 35:27
  like,
• 35:28
  man,
• 35:28
  Megan,
• 35:28
  like,
• 35:29
  you
• 35:29
  messed
• 35:29
  up
• 35:29
  so
• 35:30
  big.
• 35:30
  Like,
• 35:30
  you
• 35:31
  were
• 35:31
  so
• 35:32
  tired
• 35:32
  and
• 35:32
  like,
• 35:32
  you
• 35:32
  overextended
• 35:33
  yourself,
• 35:33
  and
• 35:34
  so
• 35:34
  now
• 35:34
  you
• 35:34
  wouldn't
• 35:35
  be
• 35:35
  able
• 35:35
  to
• 35:35
  do
• 35:35
  the
• 35:35
  thing
• 35:35
  you
• 35:35
  normally
• 35:36
  want
• 35:36
  to
• 35:36
  do.
• 35:36
  And.
• 35:37
  And
• 35:37
  then
• 35:37
  I
• 35:37
  was
• 35:37
  like,
• 35:37
  you
• 35:38
  know
• 35:38
  what?
• 35:38
  I
• 35:38
  watch
• 35:38
  a
• 35:39
  lot
• 35:39
  of
• 35:39
  people
• 35:40
  who
• 35:40
  are
• 35:40
  not
• 35:40
  me,
• 35:41
  who
• 35:41
  don't
• 35:41
  interact
• 35:42
  with
• 35:42
  people,
• 35:43
  like,
• 35:43
  and
• 35:43
  they
• 35:43
  just
• 35:43
  wait
• 35:44
  for
• 35:44
  someone
• 35:44
  to
• 35:44
  come
• 35:44
  up
• 35:45
  to
• 35:45
  them.
• 35:46
  So
• 35:46
  I'm
• 35:46
  basically
• 35:46
  doing
• 35:46
  what
• 35:47
  I
• 35:47
  think
• 35:47
  the
• 35:47
  majority
• 35:47
  of
• 35:48
  people
• 35:48
  do,
• 35:49
  and
• 35:50
  that's
• 35:50
  okay.
• 35:51
  Like,
• 35:51
  I
• 35:51
  just
• 35:51
  need
• 35:52
  to
• 35:52
  learn
• 35:52
  from
• 35:52
  this,
• 35:52
  and
• 35:53
  I
• 35:53
  need
• 35:53
  to,
• 35:53
  like,
• 35:53
  this
• 35:53
  is
• 35:54
  all
• 35:54
  data
• 35:54
  and
• 35:55
  this
• 35:55
  is
• 35:55
  all
• 35:55
  information.
• 35:56
  And
• 35:56
  I
• 35:56
  need
• 35:56
  to
• 35:56
  learn,
• 35:57
  like,
• 35:57
  hey,
• 35:57
  this
• 35:57
  was.
• 35:58
  I
• 35:58
  overdid
• 35:58
  it.
• 35:59
  And
• 35:59
  I
• 35:59
  need
• 35:59
  to
• 36:00
  be
• 36:00
  aware
• 36:01
  and
• 36:01
  conscious
• 36:02
  of,
• 36:02
  like,
• 36:02
  okay,
• 36:03
  if
• 36:03
  people
• 36:03
  are.
• 36:03
  Just
• 36:04
  because
• 36:04
  people
• 36:04
  are
• 36:04
  asking
• 36:05
  me
• 36:05
  to
• 36:05
  do
• 36:05
  stuff
• 36:06
  doesn't
• 36:06
  mean
• 36:06
  that
• 36:06
  I
• 36:06
  have
• 36:06
  to
• 36:07
  do
• 36:07
  it.
• 36:08
  And.
• 36:08
  Right.
• 36:09
  It's
• 36:10
  hard
• 36:10
  to
• 36:10
  say
• 36:11
  no.
• 36:12
  Oh,
• 36:12
  yeah.
• 36:13
  And
• 36:13
  I
• 36:14
  think
• 36:14
  what's
• 36:14
  interesting,
• 36:15
  as
• 36:15
  you
• 36:15
  were
• 36:15
  saying,
• 36:16
  that
• 36:16
  this
• 36:17
  is
• 36:17
  data.
• 36:17
  I
• 36:18
  really
• 36:18
  like
• 36:18
  that
• 36:19
  approach
• 36:19
  because
• 36:20
  it
• 36:20
  takes
• 36:20
  away
• 36:20
  the
• 36:21
  judgment
• 36:21
  from
• 36:21
  yourself
• 36:22
  as
• 36:22
  well.
• 36:23
  Yeah,
• 36:24
  Like,
• 36:25
  I'm
• 36:25
  just
• 36:25
  gathering
• 36:25
  data
• 36:26
  to
• 36:26
  see
• 36:26
  what's
• 36:26
  working,
• 36:26
  what
• 36:27
  isn't
• 36:27
  working,
• 36:28
  and
• 36:28
  what
• 36:28
  I
• 36:29
  feel
• 36:29
  is
• 36:29
  so
• 36:29
  hard.
• 36:30
  And
• 36:31
  what
• 36:31
  I
• 36:31
  think
• 36:31
  for
• 36:32
  so
• 36:32
  long
• 36:32
  I
• 36:33
  was
• 36:33
  always
• 36:33
  trying
• 36:34
  to
• 36:34
  do
• 36:34
  is
• 36:35
  I
• 36:35
  was
• 36:35
  always
• 36:35
  trying
• 36:36
  to
• 36:36
  gather
• 36:36
  data
• 36:36
  around
• 36:37
  you
• 36:37
  too,
• 36:37
  to
• 36:37
  try
• 36:37
  to,
• 36:38
  quote,
• 36:38
  unquote,
• 36:38
  be
• 36:38
  helpful.
• 36:39
  And
• 36:40
  Josh
• 36:40
  and
• 36:41
  I
• 36:41
  had
• 36:41
  an
• 36:41
  Interact
• 36:41
  then
• 36:42
  last
• 36:42
  night
• 36:43
  around
• 36:43
  math
• 36:43
  again,
• 36:44
  you'll
• 36:44
  figure,
• 36:45
  and
• 36:46
  I
• 36:46
  do
• 36:46
  have
• 36:46
  permission
• 36:47
  to
• 36:47
  talk
• 36:47
  about
• 36:48
  these
• 36:48
  things,
• 36:48
  that
• 36:48
  he's
• 36:49
  given
• 36:49
  me
• 36:49
  that
• 36:49
  permission.
• 36:49
  So
• 36:50
  thank
• 36:50
  you,
• 36:50
  Josh.
• 36:51
  But,
• 36:51
  you
• 36:52
  know,
• 36:52
  he's.
• 36:52
  He's
• 36:53
  a
• 36:53
  senior
• 36:53
  and
• 36:54
  he's
• 36:54
  getting
• 36:54
  ready
• 36:55
  for
• 36:55
  his
• 36:55
  AP
• 36:55
  exams
• 36:57
  and
• 36:57
  all
• 36:58
  I
• 36:58
  wanted
• 36:58
  to
• 36:58
  do
• 36:58
  was
• 36:59
  to
• 36:59
  be
• 36:59
  able
• 36:59
  to
• 36:59
  help,
• 36:59
  but
• 36:59
  the
• 37:00
  things
• 37:00
  I
• 37:00
  were
• 37:00
  I
• 37:01
  was
• 37:01
  doing
• 37:01
  were
• 37:01
  not
• 37:01
  at
• 37:02
  all
• 37:02
  helpful.
• 37:03
  Yeah.
• 37:03
  And
• 37:04
  he
• 37:04
  started
• 37:05
  down
• 37:05
  that
• 37:05
  road.
• 37:05
  I
• 37:05
  don't
• 37:06
  know
• 37:06
  why
• 37:06
  I'm
• 37:06
  like
• 37:06
  this.
• 37:06
  I
• 37:06
  don't
• 37:07
  know.
• 37:07
  You
• 37:07
  know,
• 37:07
  I'm
• 37:07
  going
• 37:08
  on
• 37:08
  this
• 37:08
  whole
• 37:08
  thing
• 37:08
  and
• 37:09
  then,
• 37:09
  you
• 37:09
  know,
• 37:09
  it.
• 37:10
  It.
• 37:11
  I
• 37:11
  was
• 37:11
  trying
• 37:12
  to,
• 37:12
  like,
• 37:12
  sort
• 37:13
  of
• 37:13
  quote
• 37:13
  unquote,
• 37:13
  calm
• 37:14
  him
• 37:14
  down.
• 37:14
  That
• 37:15
  wasn't
• 37:15
  working.
• 37:16
  I
• 37:16
  was
• 37:16
  trying
• 37:16
  to
• 37:17
  acknowledge
• 37:17
  where
• 37:17
  he
• 37:18
  was
• 37:18
  at.
• 37:18
  That
• 37:18
  wasn't
• 37:18
  working.
• 37:19
  He
• 37:19
  just
• 37:19
  needed
• 37:19
  to
• 37:20
  be
• 37:20
  in
• 37:20
  it
• 37:20
  at
• 37:20
  that
• 37:20
  moment.
• 37:22
  And
• 37:23
  I
• 37:23
  realized,
• 37:24
  too,
• 37:24
  though,
• 37:24
  that
• 37:25
  I
• 37:25
  had
• 37:25
  triggered
• 37:26
  it.
• 37:26
  So
• 37:26
  then
• 37:26
  I
• 37:26
  was
• 37:27
  feeling
• 37:27
  bad
• 37:27
  that
• 37:28
  I
• 37:28
  had.
• 37:28
  Because
• 37:29
  in
• 37:29
  my
• 37:29
  attempt
• 37:30
  to
• 37:30
  help,
• 37:31
  which
• 37:31
  it
• 37:32
  was
• 37:32
  help
• 37:32
  that
• 37:32
  was
• 37:33
  not
• 37:33
  really
• 37:33
  even
• 37:34
  asked
• 37:34
  for,
• 37:34
  it
• 37:35
  was
• 37:35
  just
• 37:35
  me
• 37:35
  being,
• 37:36
  you
• 37:36
  know,
• 37:36
  but
• 37:36
  inski'd,
• 37:38
  getting
• 37:38
  in
• 37:38
  there,
• 37:38
  being
• 37:39
  like,
• 37:39
  well,
• 37:39
  I
• 37:39
  know
• 37:39
  what
• 37:39
  can
• 37:39
  help
• 37:40
  you.
• 37:40
  Then
• 37:42
  that
• 37:42
  caused
• 37:42
  him
• 37:43
  stress.
• 37:43
  And.
• 37:43
  And
• 37:44
  finally
• 37:44
  at
• 37:44
  the
• 37:44
  end
• 37:45
  of
• 37:45
  this
• 37:45
  whole
• 37:46
  sort
• 37:46
  of
• 37:46
  interaction,
• 37:48
  and
• 37:48
  part
• 37:48
  of
• 37:48
  it
• 37:49
  was
• 37:49
  he
• 37:49
  was
• 37:49
  really
• 37:49
  stressed,
• 37:50
  I
• 37:50
  think,
• 37:50
  and
• 37:50
  hadn't
• 37:51
  been
• 37:51
  expressing
• 37:52
  it,
• 37:52
  so
• 37:52
  it
• 37:52
  had
• 37:53
  had
• 37:53
  sort
• 37:53
  of
• 37:54
  bunched
• 37:54
  up.
• 37:55
  Right.
• 37:55
  As
• 37:55
  well.
• 37:56
  Yeah.
• 37:57
  But
• 37:57
  I.
• 37:58
  I
• 37:58
  think
• 37:58
  part
• 37:59
  of
• 37:59
  what
• 37:59
  was
• 37:59
  interesting
• 38:00
  is
• 38:00
  that
• 38:00
  it
• 38:01
  was
• 38:01
  the
• 38:01
  first
• 38:01
  time
• 38:01
  for
• 38:02
  me
• 38:02
  that
• 38:02
  I
• 38:02
  just
• 38:02
  said,
• 38:02
  you
• 38:02
  know
• 38:03
  what?
• 38:03
  I'm.
• 38:03
  I
• 38:03
  need
• 38:04
  to
• 38:04
  walk
• 38:04
  away
• 38:04
  from
• 38:04
  this
• 38:04
  and
• 38:05
  this,
• 38:05
  this.
• 38:05
  But
• 38:05
  I'm
• 38:05
  telling
• 38:06
  you
• 38:06
  right
• 38:06
  now,
• 38:07
  this
• 38:07
  isn't
• 38:07
  because
• 38:07
  I
• 38:08
  don't
• 38:08
  love
• 38:08
  you.
• 38:08
  This
• 38:08
  isn't
• 38:08
  because
• 38:09
  I'm
• 38:09
  mad
• 38:09
  at
• 38:09
  you.
• 38:09
  I'm
• 38:09
  just.
• 38:09
  This
• 38:10
  isn't
• 38:10
  mine
• 38:10
  to
• 38:11
  hold.
• 38:11
  Right.
• 38:11
  Like,
• 38:11
  I
• 38:12
  can't.
• 38:12
  If
• 38:13
  you
• 38:13
  need
• 38:13
  me,
• 38:13
  come
• 38:14
  and
• 38:14
  find
• 38:14
  me.
• 38:14
  But
• 38:15
  I.
• 38:15
  This
• 38:15
  isn't
• 38:15
  mine
• 38:16
  to
• 38:16
  hold.
• 38:16
  And
• 38:18
  so
• 38:19
  what
• 38:19
  happened
• 38:20
  was
• 38:20
  I
• 38:21
  went
• 38:21
  away
• 38:21
  and
• 38:21
  I
• 38:22
  went
• 38:22
  and
• 38:22
  relaxed
• 38:23
  in
• 38:23
  my
• 38:23
  bedroom
• 38:23
  and
• 38:24
  watched
• 38:24
  a
• 38:24
  show
• 38:24
  or
• 38:25
  whatever
• 38:25
  I
• 38:25
  wanted
• 38:25
  to
• 38:26
  do.
• 38:26
  And
• 38:26
  about
• 38:27
  like,
• 38:27
  45
• 38:28
  minutes
• 38:28
  later,
• 38:28
  he
• 38:28
  came
• 38:29
  in
• 38:29
  and
• 38:29
  he's
• 38:29
  like,
• 38:30
  well,
• 38:30
  here's
• 38:30
  my
• 38:30
  plan.
• 38:31
  Here's
• 38:32
  what
• 38:32
  I
• 38:32
  think
• 38:32
  is
• 38:32
  going
• 38:32
  to
• 38:33
  work
• 38:33
  for
• 38:33
  me.
• 38:33
  Here's
• 38:33
  what
• 38:33
  I
• 38:34
  think
• 38:34
  needs
• 38:34
  to
• 38:35
  happen.
• 38:35
  And
• 38:36
  I
• 38:36
  know
• 38:36
  I
• 38:36
  can
• 38:37
  do
• 38:37
  about
• 38:37
  an
• 38:37
  hour
• 38:37
  of
• 38:38
  work,
• 38:38
  sometimes
• 38:39
  only
• 38:39
  30
• 38:40
  minutes
• 38:40
  of
• 38:40
  work,
• 38:40
  and
• 38:40
  then
• 38:40
  I
• 38:41
  need
• 38:41
  a
• 38:41
  break,
• 38:42
  and
• 38:42
  I'm
• 38:42
  going
• 38:42
  to
• 38:42
  have
• 38:43
  to
• 38:43
  take
• 38:43
  regular
• 38:44
  breaks,
• 38:45
  and
• 38:45
  I'm
• 38:45
  not
• 38:45
  going
• 38:46
  to
• 38:46
  get
• 38:46
  all
• 38:46
  of
• 38:46
  it
• 38:46
  done.
• 38:47
  I'm
• 38:47
  not
• 38:47
  going
• 38:47
  to
• 38:47
  be
• 38:48
  completely
• 38:48
  prepared
• 38:48
  for
• 38:49
  that
• 38:49
  test
• 38:49
  on
• 38:49
  Monday.
• 38:49
  But
• 38:50
  this
• 38:50
  is
• 38:50
  what
• 38:51
  I'm
• 38:51
  going
• 38:51
  to
• 38:51
  do,
• 38:51
  and
• 38:51
  this
• 38:51
  is
• 38:51
  how
• 38:52
  I'm
• 38:52
  going
• 38:52
  to
• 38:52
  do
• 38:52
  it.
• 38:53
  And
• 38:53
  I
• 38:54
  thought,
• 38:54
  wow,
• 38:55
  both
• 38:55
  of
• 38:55
  us.
• 38:56
  Well,
• 38:56
  he's
• 38:56
  grown
• 38:57
  much
• 38:57
  further
• 38:57
  than
• 38:57
  I
• 38:57
  have,
• 38:58
  but
• 38:58
  both
• 38:59
  of
• 38:59
  us
• 38:59
  have
• 38:59
  grown,
• 39:01
  I
• 39:01
  think,
• 39:01
  through
• 39:01
  sort
• 39:02
  of
• 39:02
  doing
• 39:02
  this
• 39:02
  podcast
• 39:03
  and
• 39:03
  thinking
• 39:03
  about
• 39:04
  my
• 39:04
  own
• 39:04
  parenting
• 39:05
  and
• 39:05
  just
• 39:06
  us
• 39:06
  talking
• 39:06
  a
• 39:07
  lot,
• 39:07
  he
• 39:07
  and
• 39:07
  I.
• 39:08
  But
• 39:09
  that
• 39:09
  really,
• 39:10
  there's
• 39:11
  also
• 39:11
  sometimes
• 39:12
  nothing
• 39:12
  you
• 39:12
  can
• 39:12
  do
• 39:13
  for
• 39:13
  the
• 39:13
  other
• 39:13
  Person
• 39:14
  other
• 39:14
  than
• 39:15
  acknowledge
• 39:16
  that
• 39:16
  you
• 39:17
  know
• 39:17
  you
• 39:17
  love
• 39:17
  them,
• 39:17
  you
• 39:17
  care
• 39:18
  about
• 39:18
  them,
• 39:18
  and
• 39:18
  that.
• 39:19
  That
• 39:19
  can
• 39:19
  be
• 39:19
  so
• 39:19
  hard,
• 39:20
  especially
• 39:20
  as
• 39:20
  a
• 39:20
  parent.
• 39:22
  Yeah,
• 39:22
  it's
• 39:22
  really
• 39:23
  hard.
• 39:23
  It's
• 39:23
  like
• 39:23
  someone
• 39:24
  who
• 39:24
  you
• 39:24
  love
• 39:25
  like,
• 39:25
  it.
• 39:25
  To
• 39:26
  just.
• 39:26
  To
• 39:26
  like,
• 39:26
  say,
• 39:27
  like,
• 39:27
  I.
• 39:27
  I
• 39:27
  don't.
• 39:27
  There's
• 39:28
  nothing
• 39:28
  I
• 39:28
  can
• 39:28
  do
• 39:28
  to
• 39:28
  help
• 39:29
  and
• 39:30
  to
• 39:30
  just,
• 39:30
  like,
• 39:30
  be
• 39:31
  in
• 39:31
  the
• 39:31
  feels
• 39:31
  with
• 39:32
  them.
• 39:32
  Like,
• 39:33
  I
• 39:33
  think
• 39:33
  it's
• 39:33
  a
• 39:33
  really
• 39:34
  interesting
• 39:34
  point,
• 39:34
  though.
• 39:35
  You're
• 39:35
  like,
• 39:35
  okay,
• 39:35
  well,
• 39:35
  I.
• 39:36
  I
• 39:36
  can't.
• 39:36
  Like,
• 39:37
  it's
• 39:37
  not.
• 39:37
  Your
• 39:38
  feelings
• 39:38
  are
• 39:38
  not
• 39:38
  for
• 39:38
  me
• 39:39
  to
• 39:39
  hold
• 39:39
  on
• 39:39
  to,
• 39:39
  which
• 39:40
  I
• 39:40
  think
• 39:40
  was
• 39:40
  really,
• 39:41
  really
• 39:41
  smart
• 39:42
  on
• 39:42
  your
• 39:42
  part.
• 39:43
  And
• 39:43
  it
• 39:44
  gave
• 39:44
  him
• 39:44
  a
• 39:44
  chance
• 39:45
  to
• 39:45
  kind
• 39:45
  of,
• 39:45
  like,
• 39:46
  figure
• 39:46
  out
• 39:46
  and
• 39:46
  calm
• 39:47
  down
• 39:47
  and
• 39:47
  like,
• 39:48
  soothe
• 39:48
  himself
• 39:49
  and
• 39:50
  decide
• 39:50
  what
• 39:51
  he
• 39:51
  wanted
• 39:51
  to
• 39:51
  do.
• 39:52
  And
• 39:53
  I
• 39:53
  think,
• 39:53
  like,
• 39:55
  it's
• 39:55
  interesting,
• 39:56
  like,
• 39:56
  you
• 39:56
  know,
• 39:56
  if
• 39:56
  we're
• 39:56
  taking
• 39:57
  the
• 39:57
  perspective
• 39:58
  of,
• 39:58
  like.
• 39:58
  Okay,
• 39:58
  the
• 39:58
  forbidden
• 39:59
  planet.
• 40:00
  I
• 40:01
  see.
• 40:01
  I
• 40:01
  still
• 40:01
  call
• 40:01
  it
• 40:01
  the
• 40:02
  forbidden
• 40:02
  planet.
• 40:04
  The
• 40:04
  room
• 40:04
  that
• 40:05
  you
• 40:05
  have.
• 40:05
  The
• 40:05
  room
• 40:05
  you
• 40:06
  have
• 40:06
  not
• 40:06
  yet
• 40:06
  cleaned
• 40:07
  out
• 40:07
  for
• 40:07
  our
• 40:07
  mother.
• 40:07
  Yes,
• 40:08
  yes.
• 40:09
  Like,
• 40:09
  I
• 40:09
  would
• 40:10
  be
• 40:10
  curious
• 40:10
  if,
• 40:10
  like,
• 40:11
  so,
• 40:12
  like,
• 40:12
  if
• 40:12
  the
• 40:12
  help
• 40:12
  is
• 40:13
  like,
• 40:13
  hey,
• 40:13
  Meg,
• 40:15
  let's
• 40:15
  think
• 40:15
  about
• 40:15
  the
• 40:16
  forbidden
• 40:16
  planet
• 40:16
  today.
• 40:18
  And
• 40:18
  I
• 40:18
  want
• 40:19
  you
• 40:19
  just
• 40:19
  to,
• 40:19
  like,
• 40:19
  think
• 40:19
  about.
• 40:20
  Think
• 40:20
  about,
• 40:20
  like,
• 40:20
  what.
• 40:20
  What
• 40:21
  you
• 40:21
  could
• 40:21
  do
• 40:21
  in
• 40:22
  there.
• 40:23
  And
• 40:24
  the.
• 40:25
  And
• 40:25
  like,
• 40:25
  that's
• 40:25
  the
• 40:26
  help,
• 40:26
  right?
• 40:26
  It's
• 40:26
  like,
• 40:27
  hey,
• 40:27
  I'm
• 40:27
  gonna.
• 40:27
  I'm
• 40:28
  gonna.
• 40:28
  I
• 40:28
  know
• 40:28
  you
• 40:28
  don't
• 40:29
  have
• 40:29
  stickies,
• 40:29
  so
• 40:29
  I'm
• 40:30
  gonna
• 40:30
  just,
• 40:30
  like,
• 40:31
  give
• 40:31
  you
• 40:31
  this,
• 40:32
  like,
• 40:32
  blank
• 40:32
  sticky.
• 40:33
  And
• 40:34
  let's
• 40:34
  just
• 40:34
  see,
• 40:35
  you
• 40:35
  know,
• 40:35
  if
• 40:35
  you've
• 40:36
  got
• 40:36
  adhesive
• 40:36
  today
• 40:37
  or
• 40:37
  not.
• 40:38
  And.
• 40:39
  And
• 40:39
  you'll
• 40:39
  know
• 40:40
  what
• 40:40
  you
• 40:40
  need
• 40:40
  to
• 40:40
  do.
• 40:40
  Like,
• 40:41
  you'll
• 40:41
  know
• 40:41
  what's
• 40:41
  best
• 40:41
  for
• 40:41
  yourself.
• 40:42
  It's
• 40:42
  just
• 40:42
  like.
• 40:42
  But
• 40:42
  is
• 40:43
  today
• 40:43
  a
• 40:43
  day
• 40:43
  that,
• 40:43
  like
• 40:43
  that,
• 40:44
  that
• 40:44
  that
• 40:44
  sticky
• 40:44
  is
• 40:45
  gonna
• 40:45
  stay
• 40:45
  up,
• 40:45
  or
• 40:45
  is
• 40:45
  it
• 40:45
  not?
• 40:46
  Because
• 40:46
  it
• 40:46
  may
• 40:46
  or
• 40:46
  may
• 40:46
  not.
• 40:47
  But
• 40:47
  I'm
• 40:47
  just
• 40:47
  gonna.
• 40:47
  I'm
• 40:48
  just
• 40:48
  gonna
• 40:48
  give
• 40:48
  you
• 40:48
  a
• 40:48
  post
• 40:48
  it
• 40:50
  and
• 40:51
  I
• 40:51
  want
• 40:52
  you
• 40:52
  to
• 40:52
  write
• 40:52
  on
• 40:52
  there,
• 40:52
  like,
• 40:52
  what
• 40:53
  is
• 40:53
  it?
• 40:53
  And
• 40:53
  so
• 40:54
  for
• 40:54
  me,
• 40:54
  today,
• 40:54
  it's
• 40:54
  the
• 40:54
  forbidden
• 40:55
  Planet.
• 40:56
  Now
• 40:56
  maybe
• 40:56
  the
• 40:57
  fact
• 40:57
  that
• 40:57
  it's
• 40:57
  being
• 40:58
  called
• 40:58
  the
• 40:58
  forbidden
• 40:58
  planet
• 40:59
  today
• 40:59
  means
• 40:59
  that
• 41:00
  today
• 41:00
  is
• 41:00
  not
• 41:00
  the
• 41:00
  day
• 41:01
  for
• 41:01
  me
• 41:02
  to
• 41:02
  do
• 41:02
  it
• 41:03
  and
• 41:04
  that,
• 41:04
  like,
• 41:05
  it's
• 41:05
  forbidden,
• 41:06
  right?
• 41:07
  Yeah.
• 41:07
  And
• 41:08
  maybe,
• 41:08
  Maybe
• 41:09
  it
• 41:09
  is
• 41:09
  that,
• 41:10
  like,
• 41:10
  you
• 41:10
  know,
• 41:10
  tomorrow
• 41:11
  I
• 41:12
  might
• 41:12
  remember.
• 41:12
  It's
• 41:12
  called
• 41:12
  the
• 41:12
  final
• 41:13
  frontier.
• 41:13
  And
• 41:13
  if
• 41:14
  I
• 41:14
  can
• 41:14
  remember
• 41:14
  it's
• 41:14
  called
• 41:14
  the
• 41:15
  final
• 41:15
  frontier,
• 41:15
  then
• 41:17
  that
• 41:17
  means
• 41:17
  that
• 41:17
  my
• 41:18
  brain
• 41:18
  is
• 41:18
  more
• 41:19
  receptive
• 41:19
  to
• 41:20
  it.
• 41:21
  Yes.
• 41:22
  And
• 41:22
  I
• 41:23
  think
• 41:23
  this
• 41:23
  is
• 41:23
  the
• 41:24
  key
• 41:24
  too,
• 41:24
  when
• 41:25
  you're
• 41:25
  saying
• 41:25
  this,
• 41:26
  and
• 41:26
  sorry
• 41:26
  for
• 41:26
  interrupting,
• 41:27
  but
• 41:28
  as
• 41:28
  a
• 41:28
  parent
• 41:28
  thinking
• 41:29
  about
• 41:29
  that
• 41:30
  is
• 41:30
  there's
• 41:31
  some
• 41:31
  due
• 41:31
  date,
• 41:32
  right.
• 41:32
  That
• 41:32
  they're
• 41:33
  Given.
• 41:34
  And
• 41:34
  you
• 41:35
  are
• 41:35
  worried
• 41:35
  about
• 41:36
  that
• 41:36
  due
• 41:36
  date,
• 41:37
  and
• 41:38
  you're
• 41:38
  making
• 41:38
  them
• 41:39
  worry
• 41:39
  about
• 41:39
  that
• 41:39
  due
• 41:39
  date,
• 41:40
  and
• 41:40
  the
• 41:40
  teacher's
• 41:40
  making
• 41:41
  them
• 41:41
  worry
• 41:41
  about
• 41:41
  that
• 41:41
  due
• 41:41
  date,
• 41:42
  and
• 41:42
  all
• 41:42
  of
• 41:42
  that
• 41:42
  is
• 41:43
  there.
• 41:43
  And
• 41:43
  so
• 41:43
  that's
• 41:43
  why
• 41:44
  accommodations
• 41:46
  are
• 41:46
  something
• 41:46
  to
• 41:46
  very
• 41:46
  much
• 41:47
  consider.
• 41:48
  Right.
• 41:48
  That.
• 41:48
  That
• 41:49
  a
• 41:49
  variable
• 41:50
  due
• 41:50
  date
• 41:50
  might
• 41:51
  be
• 41:51
  needed
• 41:51
  not
• 41:52
  because
• 41:52
  somebody
• 41:52
  doesn't
• 41:52
  want
• 41:52
  to
• 41:53
  get
• 41:53
  something
• 41:53
  done
• 41:53
  or
• 41:53
  somebody
• 41:54
  is
• 41:54
  incompetent,
• 41:55
  but
• 41:55
  because
• 41:55
  they
• 41:55
  just
• 41:56
  didn't
• 41:56
  wake
• 41:56
  up
• 41:57
  with
• 41:57
  that
• 41:57
  sticky
• 41:59
  part
• 42:00
  of
• 42:00
  the
• 42:00
  sticky
• 42:01
  note
• 42:01
  that
• 42:02
  morning.
• 42:02
  Yeah.
• 42:03
  Like,
• 42:03
  if
• 42:03
  I
• 42:03
  had
• 42:03
  had
• 42:04
  that
• 42:04
  accommodation
• 42:05
  at
• 42:05
  work
• 42:05
  where
• 42:05
  it's
• 42:05
  like,
• 42:06
  okay,
• 42:06
  I'm
• 42:06
  gonna
• 42:07
  probably
• 42:07
  be
• 42:07
  on
• 42:07
  time
• 42:09
  80
• 42:09
  to
• 42:09
  90%
• 42:10
  of
• 42:10
  the
• 42:10
  time,
• 42:11
  but
• 42:11
  then
• 42:11
  there's
• 42:12
  those
• 42:12
  10%
• 42:12
  days,
• 42:13
  like,
• 42:13
  where
• 42:13
  it's
• 42:13
  just
• 42:14
  gonna
• 42:14
  be
• 42:15
  too
• 42:15
  difficult
• 42:15
  for
• 42:16
  me
• 42:16
  to
• 42:16
  come.
• 42:17
  Then
• 42:18
  give
• 42:18
  me
• 42:18
  some
• 42:18
  grace
• 42:19
  and
• 42:19
  leeway
• 42:19
  on
• 42:20
  those
• 42:20
  days.
• 42:20
  But,
• 42:21
  like,
• 42:21
  if
• 42:21
  I
• 42:21
  could
• 42:21
  have
• 42:21
  said
• 42:21
  to
• 42:21
  them,
• 42:22
  like,
• 42:22
  you
• 42:22
  know,
• 42:22
  hey,
• 42:22
  there
• 42:23
  are
• 42:23
  some
• 42:23
  days
• 42:23
  that
• 42:23
  the
• 42:23
  adhesive
• 42:24
  is
• 42:24
  stronger
• 42:24
  than
• 42:24
  others
• 42:25
  and
• 42:25
  be
• 42:26
  able
• 42:26
  to
• 42:26
  explain
• 42:26
  that
• 42:27
  to
• 42:27
  people.
• 42:28
  That's
• 42:28
  a
• 42:28
  totally
• 42:29
  different
• 42:29
  thing
• 42:29
  than
• 42:29
  me
• 42:30
  saying
• 42:31
  I
• 42:31
  need
• 42:31
  to
• 42:31
  be
• 42:31
  able
• 42:32
  to
• 42:32
  come
• 42:32
  and
• 42:32
  go
• 42:32
  whenever
• 42:32
  I
• 42:33
  please.
• 42:34
  Well,
• 42:34
  okay,
• 42:35
  so
• 42:35
  how
• 42:35
  do
• 42:36
  we.
• 42:36
  So
• 42:36
  let's.
• 42:36
  How.
• 42:36
  Let's
• 42:37
  talk
• 42:37
  about
• 42:37
  this
• 42:37
  reasonable
• 42:38
  accommodation.
• 42:38
  Great.
• 42:39
  Okay.
• 42:40
  Can
• 42:40
  you
• 42:40
  let
• 42:41
  me
• 42:41
  know
• 42:41
  ahead
• 42:41
  of
• 42:42
  time
• 42:42
  that
• 42:42
  you're
• 42:42
  running
• 42:43
  late?
• 42:43
  Oh,
• 42:44
  well,
• 42:44
  that
• 42:44
  I
• 42:44
  can
• 42:45
  do.
• 42:45
  Yeah,
• 42:45
  I
• 42:45
  can.
• 42:46
  Like,
• 42:46
  I
• 42:46
  know
• 42:46
  I'm
• 42:46
  late.
• 42:47
  Like,
• 42:47
  I
• 42:47
  know
• 42:47
  I
• 42:47
  can
• 42:47
  feel
• 42:48
  that
• 42:48
  I'm
• 42:48
  running
• 42:48
  late.
• 42:48
  I
• 42:49
  can
• 42:49
  let
• 42:49
  you
• 42:49
  know.
• 42:50
  That
• 42:50
  way
• 42:50
  you
• 42:51
  can,
• 42:51
  you
• 42:51
  know,
• 42:52
  be
• 42:53
  aware
• 42:53
  of
• 42:53
  what's
• 42:54
  happening.
• 42:55
  And
• 42:56
  it
• 42:57
  just.
• 42:58
  I've
• 42:58
  already
• 42:58
  distracted
• 42:59
  because
• 42:59
  on
• 43:00
  the
• 43:00
  other.
• 43:01
  Well,
• 43:01
  but,
• 43:02
  but
• 43:02
  on
• 43:02
  the
• 43:02
  other
• 43:02
  side
• 43:03
  of
• 43:03
  the
• 43:04
  fact
• 43:04
  that
• 43:04
  you
• 43:04
  might
• 43:04
  need
• 43:05
  some
• 43:05
  variability
• 43:06
  with
• 43:06
  time.
• 43:07
  Right.
• 43:08
  But
• 43:08
  you
• 43:08
  might
• 43:08
  need
• 43:09
  some
• 43:09
  leeway
• 43:09
  with
• 43:09
  that.
• 43:10
  You
• 43:10
  also,
• 43:11
  on
• 43:11
  the
• 43:12
  other
• 43:12
  side,
• 43:12
  what
• 43:12
  they're
• 43:13
  getting
• 43:13
  is
• 43:14
  someone
• 43:14
  who,
• 43:14
  when
• 43:15
  you're
• 43:15
  there,
• 43:15
  you're
• 43:16
  extremely
• 43:17
  present,
• 43:17
  generally
• 43:18
  speaking.
• 43:18
  Yeah.
• 43:19
  Right.
• 43:19
  And
• 43:19
  so
• 43:20
  you're
• 43:20
  the
• 43:20
  one
• 43:20
  who
• 43:21
  connects
• 43:22
  the
• 43:22
  most
• 43:22
  with
• 43:22
  customers.
• 43:23
  You
• 43:23
  were
• 43:23
  their
• 43:23
  high
• 43:23
  salesperson
• 43:24
  and
• 43:24
  all
• 43:24
  these
• 43:24
  things.
• 43:25
  You
• 43:25
  were
• 43:25
  the
• 43:25
  person
• 43:25
  who
• 43:25
  got
• 43:26
  the
• 43:26
  most
• 43:26
  new
• 43:27
  businesses
• 43:27
  signed
• 43:28
  up
• 43:28
  to
• 43:28
  do
• 43:28
  the
• 43:29
  Apple
• 43:29
  stuff.
• 43:30
  I
• 43:30
  mean,
• 43:30
  you.
• 43:31
  You
• 43:31
  also
• 43:31
  are
• 43:32
  that
• 43:32
  person.
• 43:32
  And
• 43:32
  I
• 43:33
  think
• 43:33
  that's
• 43:33
  the
• 43:33
  part
• 43:34
  that
• 43:35
  is
• 43:36
  so
• 43:37
  difficult,
• 43:38
  is
• 43:38
  that
• 43:39
  this
• 43:39
  idea
• 43:39
  in
• 43:40
  being
• 43:40
  fair,
• 43:41
  we're
• 43:42
  not
• 43:42
  equitable?
• 43:43
  Yes.
• 43:43
  We're
• 43:43
  not
• 43:43
  equitable
• 43:44
  because,
• 43:44
  no,
• 43:44
  people
• 43:45
  do
• 43:45
  not
• 43:45
  get
• 43:45
  in
• 43:46
  trouble
• 43:47
  for
• 43:47
  being
• 43:47
  a
• 43:48
  little
• 43:48
  off
• 43:49
  at
• 43:49
  work,
• 43:49
  but
• 43:50
  they
• 43:50
  do
• 43:50
  get
• 43:50
  in
• 43:50
  trouble
• 43:51
  generally.
• 43:52
  Right.
• 43:53
  You
• 43:53
  don't
• 43:53
  get
• 43:53
  in
• 43:53
  trouble
• 43:53
  because
• 43:54
  you
• 43:54
  didn't
• 43:54
  make
• 43:54
  eye
• 43:55
  contact
• 43:55
  with
• 43:55
  everybody
• 43:55
  and
• 43:56
  say
• 43:56
  hi
• 43:56
  to
• 43:56
  everybody,
• 43:56
  but
• 43:57
  you
• 43:57
  do
• 43:57
  get
• 43:57
  in
• 43:57
  trouble
• 43:58
  when
• 43:58
  you're
• 43:58
  late.
• 43:58
  Yeah.
• 43:59
  And.
• 43:59
  And
• 44:00
  I
• 44:00
  think
• 44:00
  that's
• 44:01
  that's
• 44:01
  one
• 44:01
  of
• 44:01
  the
• 44:01
  things
• 44:01
  that
• 44:02
  when
• 44:02
  we
• 44:02
  think
• 44:02
  about
• 44:02
  management
• 44:03
  and
• 44:03
  I
• 44:03
  manage
• 44:04
  a
• 44:04
  lot
• 44:04
  of
• 44:04
  people,
• 44:05
  so
• 44:05
  when
• 44:05
  you
• 44:05
  think
• 44:06
  about
• 44:06
  that,
• 44:06
  I'm
• 44:06
  always
• 44:07
  looking
• 44:07
  to
• 44:07
  try
• 44:08
  to
• 44:08
  match
• 44:09
  the
• 44:09
  right
• 44:09
  kind
• 44:10
  of
• 44:10
  job
• 44:10
  with
• 44:10
  the
• 44:11
  person.
• 44:11
  I
• 44:12
  know
• 44:12
  everyone
• 44:12
  says
• 44:12
  the
• 44:13
  opposite,
• 44:13
  but
• 44:14
  I
• 44:14
  think
• 44:14
  this
• 44:14
  is
• 44:15
  really
• 44:15
  true
• 44:15
  is
• 44:16
  that
• 44:16
  I
• 44:16
  don't
• 44:17
  put
• 44:17
  certain
• 44:17
  people
• 44:18
  on
• 44:18
  opening
• 44:18
  shift.
• 44:20
  They're
• 44:20
  terrible
• 44:21
  at
• 44:21
  it.
• 44:21
  Right.
• 44:21
  I
• 44:22
  just
• 44:22
  don't
• 44:22
  even
• 44:22
  ask
• 44:22
  them
• 44:23
  ever
• 44:23
  to
• 44:24
  open
• 44:24
  up
• 44:24
  the
• 44:24
  place
• 44:25
  like
• 44:25
  the
• 44:25
  testing
• 44:26
  center.
• 44:26
  I
• 44:26
  just
• 44:26
  don't
• 44:26
  ask
• 44:26
  them
• 44:27
  to
• 44:27
  do
• 44:27
  it
• 44:27
  because.
• 44:28
  But
• 44:29
  they're
• 44:29
  the
• 44:29
  exact
• 44:30
  person
• 44:30
  who,
• 44:31
  if
• 44:31
  you
• 44:31
  want
• 44:31
  them
• 44:31
  to
• 44:32
  review
• 44:32
  a
• 44:33
  thousand
• 44:33
  videos,
• 44:34
  you
• 44:35
  know,
• 44:35
  they
• 44:35
  do
• 44:35
  it
• 44:36
  quickly
• 44:36
  and
• 44:36
  efficiently
• 44:37
  and
• 44:37
  they're
• 44:38
  the
• 44:38
  best
• 44:38
  at
• 44:38
  that.
• 44:39
  So
• 44:39
  I
• 44:40
  don't
• 44:40
  know.
• 44:40
  I
• 44:40
  think
• 44:40
  that
• 44:41
  this
• 44:41
  idea
• 44:41
  of
• 44:42
  factory
• 44:43
  worker
• 44:43
  mentality
• 44:44
  in
• 44:44
  a
• 44:45
  sense
• 44:45
  of
• 44:45
  you
• 44:46
  have
• 44:46
  to
• 44:46
  get
• 44:46
  somewhere
• 44:46
  to
• 44:47
  be
• 44:47
  on
• 44:47
  time
• 44:47
  to
• 44:47
  do
• 44:47
  the
• 44:48
  things
• 44:48
  that,
• 44:49
  that
• 44:50
  should
• 44:50
  be
• 44:50
  looked
• 44:51
  at
• 44:51
  within
• 44:52
  accommodation
• 44:53
  or
• 44:53
  disability
• 44:54
  kind
• 44:54
  of
• 44:54
  concept.
• 44:55
  Like
• 44:55
  we
• 44:55
  wouldn't
• 44:55
  ask
• 44:56
  somebody
• 44:56
  in
• 44:56
  a
• 44:56
  wheelchair
• 44:57
  to
• 44:57
  run
• 44:58
  up
• 44:58
  the
• 44:58
  stairs
• 44:58
  to
• 44:58
  go
• 44:59
  get
• 44:59
  the
• 44:59
  supplies
• 44:59
  from
• 45:00
  the
• 45:00
  supply
• 45:00
  closet.
• 45:01
  Yep.
• 45:02
  We
• 45:02
  just
• 45:02
  wouldn't
• 45:02
  do
• 45:03
  it.
• 45:03
  So
• 45:03
  somebody
• 45:04
  else
• 45:04
  would
• 45:04
  do
• 45:04
  that
• 45:05
  because
• 45:06
  it
• 45:06
  makes
• 45:06
  more
• 45:07
  sense.
• 45:07
  But
• 45:07
  that
• 45:07
  same
• 45:08
  person,
• 45:08
  because
• 45:09
  they're
• 45:09
  sitting,
• 45:10
  you
• 45:10
  know,
• 45:10
  their
• 45:10
  wheelchair
• 45:11
  bound
• 45:11
  and
• 45:11
  they're
• 45:11
  sitting
• 45:12
  flush
• 45:12
  to
• 45:12
  the
• 45:12
  floor,
• 45:12
  is
• 45:12
  probably
• 45:13
  going
• 45:13
  to
• 45:13
  be
• 45:14
  able
• 45:14
  to
• 45:15
  make
• 45:15
  eye
• 45:15
  contact
• 45:15
  with
• 45:16
  little
• 45:16
  children
• 45:16
  easier.
• 45:17
  You
• 45:17
  know
• 45:18
  what
• 45:18
  I
• 45:18
  mean?
• 45:18
  Or
• 45:18
  whatever.
• 45:18
  Right.
• 45:19
  Like,
• 45:19
  it's
• 45:19
  just
• 45:20
  looking
• 45:20
  at
• 45:21
  this
• 45:21
  and
• 45:22
  not
• 45:22
  looking
• 45:22
  at
• 45:22
  it
• 45:22
  from
• 45:23
  what
• 45:23
  you
• 45:23
  can't
• 45:23
  do,
• 45:23
  but
• 45:24
  what
• 45:24
  you
• 45:24
  can
• 45:24
  do.
• 45:25
  And
• 45:25
  I
• 45:25
  think
• 45:25
  that
• 45:27
  get
• 45:27
  it
• 45:27
  done
• 45:27
  button
• 45:29
  really
• 45:30
  makes
• 45:30
  it
• 45:31
  feel
• 45:31
  like
• 45:31
  it's
• 45:31
  a
• 45:31
  what
• 45:32
  you
• 45:32
  can't
• 45:32
  do.
• 45:33
  Right.
• 45:34
  And
• 45:35
  the
• 45:35
  reality
• 45:35
  is
• 45:35
  like,
• 45:36
  there
• 45:36
  are,
• 45:37
  there
• 45:38
  are
• 45:38
  natural
• 45:38
  consequences.
• 45:40
  So
• 45:41
  you
• 45:41
  know,
• 45:41
  everybody,
• 45:42
  like,
• 45:42
  so
• 45:42
  I
• 45:42
  was
• 45:42
  thinking
• 45:43
  about
• 45:43
  like,
• 45:43
  okay,
• 45:43
  there's
• 45:43
  this
• 45:44
  item
• 45:45
  that's
• 45:45
  due
• 45:46
  and
• 45:46
  mom
• 45:47
  and
• 45:47
  dad
• 45:47
  are
• 45:47
  like
• 45:47
  pushing
• 45:48
  like,
• 45:48
  hey,
• 45:48
  to
• 45:48
  remind
• 45:49
  them
• 45:49
  that
• 45:49
  that's
• 45:49
  due.
• 45:49
  And
• 45:50
  the
• 45:50
  teacher's
• 45:50
  telling
• 45:51
  the
• 45:51
  same
• 45:51
  thing.
• 45:51
  And
• 45:51
  it's
• 45:52
  like
• 45:52
  at
• 45:52
  some
• 45:52
  point,
• 45:53
  you
• 45:53
  know,
• 45:53
  if
• 45:54
  you
• 45:54
  don't
• 45:54
  get
• 45:54
  it
• 45:54
  done,
• 45:55
  there's
• 45:56
  a
• 45:56
  consequence
• 45:56
  for
• 45:56
  it.
• 45:57
  And
• 45:57
  that's
• 45:57
  the
• 45:57
  like,
• 45:58
  natural
• 45:58
  thing
• 45:58
  that
• 45:59
  you
• 45:59
  have
• 45:59
  to
• 45:59
  learn.
• 46:00
  And
• 46:01
  that
• 46:01
  has
• 46:02
  actually
• 46:02
  helped
• 46:02
  me
• 46:03
  to
• 46:03
  like
• 46:04
  recalibrate
• 46:05
  and
• 46:05
  focus
• 46:06
  on
• 46:06
  like
• 46:06
  what
• 46:06
  I
• 46:07
  find
• 46:07
  important.
• 46:07
  And
• 46:08
  so
• 46:08
  it
• 46:08
  for
• 46:08
  it
• 46:08
  to
• 46:09
  not
• 46:09
  be
• 46:09
  like,
• 46:09
  hey,
• 46:09
  you,
• 46:10
  you
• 46:10
  screwed
• 46:11
  up,
• 46:11
  kid.
• 46:12
  But
• 46:12
  more
• 46:12
  of
• 46:13
  like,
• 46:13
  oh,
• 46:13
  I
• 46:14
  don't
• 46:14
  like
• 46:14
  the
• 46:14
  way
• 46:15
  I
• 46:15
  feel
• 46:16
  when
• 46:16
  that
• 46:17
  consequence
• 46:17
  happens.
• 46:19
  And
• 46:19
  I
• 46:19
  feel
• 46:19
  like
• 46:19
  that's
• 46:20
  a
• 46:20
  very
• 46:20
  different
• 46:21
  place
• 46:21
  to
• 46:21
  come
• 46:21
  from
• 46:22
  than
• 46:22
  to
• 46:22
  say,
• 46:22
  like,
• 46:22
  oh,
• 46:23
  I,
• 46:24
  you
• 46:24
  know,
• 46:24
  I'm
• 46:25
  just
• 46:25
  doing
• 46:25
  this
• 46:26
  because
• 46:26
  everyone's
• 46:27
  telling
• 46:27
  me
• 46:27
  to
• 46:27
  do
• 46:27
  it
• 46:27
  and
• 46:27
  I
• 46:27
  want
• 46:28
  them
• 46:28
  to
• 46:28
  get
• 46:28
  off
• 46:28
  my
• 46:28
  back.
• 46:30
  Yeah,
• 46:30
  absolutely.
• 46:31
  And
• 46:32
  even
• 46:32
  when
• 46:32
  that's
• 46:33
  true,
• 46:33
  sometimes
• 46:34
  you
• 46:34
  still
• 46:34
  can't
• 46:34
  do
• 46:34
  it.
• 46:35
  Right.
• 46:35
  Exactly.
• 46:36
  Your
• 46:36
  brain
• 46:37
  isn't
• 46:37
  letting
• 46:37
  you.
• 46:37
  So
• 46:38
  I
• 46:38
  think
• 46:38
  that's
• 46:38
  where
• 46:38
  the
• 46:38
  whole
• 46:40
  idea
• 46:40
  of
• 46:41
  communicating
• 46:42
  what's,
• 46:44
  what
• 46:44
  our
• 46:45
  brains
• 46:45
  do.
• 46:46
  And
• 46:46
  for
• 46:46
  me,
• 46:46
  I
• 46:47
  tell
• 46:47
  people
• 46:47
  like
• 46:47
  I
• 46:48
  was
• 46:48
  whenever
• 46:48
  I
• 46:48
  taught,
• 46:49
  I
• 46:49
  would
• 46:49
  say,
• 46:49
  listen,
• 46:49
  there's
• 46:49
  no
• 46:50
  spell
• 46:50
  check
• 46:50
  on
• 46:50
  the
• 46:50
  board.
• 46:51
  I'm
• 46:51
  dyslexic,
• 46:52
  so
• 46:52
  you're
• 46:52
  going
• 46:52
  to
• 46:53
  see
• 46:53
  me
• 46:53
  spell
• 46:53
  something
• 46:53
  wrong,
• 46:54
  can
• 46:54
  you
• 46:54
  please
• 46:55
  let
• 46:55
  me
• 46:55
  know
• 46:55
  nicely?
• 46:57
  Teenagers
• 46:58
  who
• 46:58
  are
• 46:58
  never,
• 47:00
  they
• 47:00
  always
• 47:00
  were.
• 47:01
  Yeah.
• 47:01
  Because
• 47:02
  I
• 47:02
  told
• 47:02
  them
• 47:02
  ahead
• 47:02
  of
• 47:03
  time
• 47:03
  what
• 47:03
  to
• 47:03
  expect.
• 47:03
  They
• 47:04
  understood
• 47:04
  it
• 47:04
  wasn't
• 47:05
  because.
• 47:05
  And
• 47:06
  I
• 47:06
  never
• 47:06
  took
• 47:06
  it
• 47:07
  as
• 47:07
  there's
• 47:07
  anything
• 47:08
  wrong
• 47:08
  with
• 47:08
  my
• 47:08
  intelligence.
• 47:09
  Right,
• 47:09
  right.
• 47:10
  So
• 47:10
  I
• 47:10
  owned
• 47:11
  that
• 47:11
  I,
• 47:11
  that
• 47:11
  this
• 47:12
  happened
• 47:12
  and
• 47:12
  that
• 47:13
  it
• 47:13
  was
• 47:13
  frustration
• 47:14
  and
• 47:14
  it
• 47:14
  was
• 47:14
  always.
• 47:16
  Because
• 47:16
  I
• 47:16
  didn't
• 47:16
  know
• 47:17
  it
• 47:17
  didn't
• 47:18
  always
• 47:18
  happen,
• 47:18
  but
• 47:18
  it
• 47:18
  would
• 47:19
  happen
• 47:19
  at
• 47:19
  times
• 47:19
  I
• 47:19
  couldn't
• 47:20
  control.
• 47:21
  So
• 47:21
  that
• 47:22
  idea
• 47:22
  of
• 47:22
  owning
• 47:23
  who
• 47:23
  we
• 47:24
  are
• 47:24
  is
• 47:24
  the
• 47:25
  responsibility
• 47:25
  for
• 47:26
  us,
• 47:26
  I
• 47:26
  think,
• 47:26
  to
• 47:26
  teach
• 47:27
  our
• 47:27
  inner
• 47:27
  child
• 47:28
  and
• 47:28
  teach
• 47:28
  our
• 47:28
  kids.
• 47:30
  And
• 47:30
  then
• 47:31
  on
• 47:31
  the
• 47:31
  other
• 47:31
  end
• 47:32
  it's
• 47:32
  like,
• 47:32
  can
• 47:33
  we
• 47:33
  please
• 47:33
  create
• 47:34
  a
• 47:34
  community
• 47:34
  where
• 47:35
  that
• 47:35
  is
• 47:35
  acceptable?
• 47:37
  Yeah,
• 47:38
  well,
• 47:38
  and
• 47:38
  that's
• 47:38
  like
• 47:39
  making
• 47:39
  me
• 47:39
  think
• 47:40
  about,
• 47:41
  I
• 47:41
  got
• 47:42
  a
• 47:42
  ticket
• 47:44
  a
• 47:44
  couple
• 47:44
  weeks
• 47:44
  ago
• 47:44
  when
• 47:45
  I
• 47:45
  was
• 47:46
  working
• 47:46
  at
• 47:46
  the
• 47:46
  aquarium.
• 47:47
  They
• 47:48
  have
• 47:48
  a
• 47:48
  parking
• 47:49
  pass
• 47:49
  that
• 47:49
  you
• 47:49
  can
• 47:49
  put
• 47:49
  up
• 47:49
  on
• 47:50
  your,
• 47:50
  on
• 47:51
  your
• 47:51
  dashboard
• 47:52
  so
• 47:52
  that
• 47:52
  you
• 47:52
  don't
• 47:52
  get,
• 47:54
  you
• 47:54
  don't
• 47:54
  get
• 47:54
  in
• 47:54
  trouble
• 47:55
  and
• 47:55
  like,
• 47:55
  you
• 47:55
  don't
• 47:55
  get
• 47:56
  a
• 47:56
  ticket.
• 47:57
  And
• 47:57
  I
• 47:58
  forgot,
• 47:58
  like
• 47:59
  my
• 47:59
  ADHD
• 47:59
  just
• 48:00
  completely
• 48:00
  forgot.
• 48:01
  And
• 48:01
  so
• 48:02
  then
• 48:02
  I,
• 48:02
  I
• 48:02
  come
• 48:02
  back
• 48:02
  and
• 48:03
  I
• 48:03
  got
• 48:03
  a
• 48:03
  ticket
• 48:03
  and
• 48:03
  so
• 48:04
  I
• 48:04
  sent
• 48:04
  in
• 48:04
  all
• 48:04
  my
• 48:04
  information
• 48:05
  of
• 48:05
  like,
• 48:05
  oh,
• 48:05
  I'm
• 48:06
  so
• 48:06
  sorry.
• 48:06
  Like
• 48:06
  I,
• 48:06
  here's
• 48:07
  what
• 48:07
  happened.
• 48:07
  And
• 48:08
  you
• 48:08
  know,
• 48:08
  you
• 48:08
  know,
• 48:09
  which,
• 48:09
  like
• 48:09
  I
• 48:09
  was
• 48:09
  working
• 48:10
  that
• 48:10
  day
• 48:10
  and
• 48:10
  I
• 48:10
  was
• 48:10
  supposed
• 48:11
  to
• 48:11
  be
• 48:11
  in
• 48:11
  that
• 48:11
  lot
• 48:11
  and
• 48:12
  I
• 48:12
  just
• 48:12
  didn't.
• 48:12
  Here's
• 48:13
  my
• 48:13
  badge
• 48:13
  and
• 48:13
  here's
• 48:14
  my
• 48:14
  number.
• 48:15
  All
• 48:15
  that
• 48:15
  stuff.
• 48:15
  Yeah.
• 48:16
  And
• 48:16
  they
• 48:16
  just
• 48:17
  sent
• 48:17
  me
• 48:17
  back
• 48:17
  another
• 48:18
  message
• 48:18
  saying,
• 48:18
  okay,
• 48:19
  well
• 48:19
  we've
• 48:20
  observed
• 48:20
  this
• 48:20
  and
• 48:21
  the
• 48:21
  fact
• 48:21
  is
• 48:21
  that
• 48:21
  you
• 48:22
  still
• 48:22
  did
• 48:23
  do
• 48:23
  that.
• 48:23
  You
• 48:24
  still,
• 48:24
  you
• 48:24
  still
• 48:25
  forgot
• 48:25
  to
• 48:26
  post
• 48:26
  your,
• 48:27
  your
• 48:27
  thing.
• 48:28
  And,
• 48:29
  and
• 48:29
  like,
• 48:30
  luckily
• 48:30
  like
• 48:31
  it
• 48:31
  went
• 48:31
  from
• 48:31
  like
• 48:31
  a
• 48:31
  $50
• 48:31
  ticket
• 48:32
  down
• 48:32
  to
• 48:32
  a
• 48:32
  ten
• 48:32
  dollar
• 48:33
  ticket.
• 48:33
  However,
• 48:34
  there's
• 48:35
  still
• 48:35
  part
• 48:35
  of
• 48:35
  me
• 48:35
  that
• 48:35
  kind
• 48:36
  of
• 48:36
  wants
• 48:36
  to
• 48:36
  like
• 48:37
  get
• 48:38
  a
• 48:38
  piece
• 48:38
  of
• 48:38
  like
• 48:39
  a
• 48:39
  document
• 48:39
  from
• 48:39
  my,
• 48:40
  my,
• 48:40
  my
• 48:40
  doctor
• 48:41
  that
• 48:41
  says
• 48:41
  like,
• 48:41
  no,
• 48:42
  I
• 48:42
  have
• 48:43
  a
• 48:43
  documented
• 48:44
  disability
• 48:45
  that
• 48:45
  does
• 48:45
  not
• 48:46
  allow
• 48:46
  me
• 48:46
  to
• 48:47
  remember
• 48:47
  these
• 48:47
  things
• 48:48
  and
• 48:48
  I
• 48:48
  should
• 48:49
  not
• 48:49
  be
• 48:49
  penalized
• 48:50
  for
• 48:50
  the
• 48:50
  fact
• 48:50
  that
• 48:50
  like,
• 48:51
  I
• 48:51
  can't
• 48:52
  always
• 48:52
  remember.
• 48:54
  And
• 48:54
  like,
• 48:54
  there's
• 48:55
  a
• 48:55
  part
• 48:55
  of
• 48:55
  me
• 48:55
  that
• 48:55
  kind
• 48:55
  of
• 48:55
  wants
• 48:56
  to
• 48:56
  do
• 48:56
  that
• 48:56
  I
• 48:56
  was
• 48:56
  like,
• 48:57
  okay,
• 48:57
  I'll
• 48:57
  just
• 48:57
  pay
• 48:57
  for
• 48:57
  it.
• 48:57
  Whatever.
• 48:58
  It's
• 48:58
  no
• 48:58
  big
• 48:58
  deal
• 48:58
  with.
• 48:58
  Part
• 48:59
  of
• 48:59
  me
• 48:59
  is
• 48:59
  like,
• 48:59
  wait,
• 48:59
  this
• 48:59
  is
• 48:59
  going
• 49:00
  to
• 49:00
  happen
• 49:00
  multiple
• 49:00
  times
• 49:01
  to
• 49:01
  me
• 49:01
  probably
• 49:02
  when
• 49:02
  I
• 49:03
  do
• 49:03
  this.
• 49:03
  And
• 49:03
  so
• 49:03
  it's
• 49:03
  like
• 49:03
  I
• 49:04
  want
• 49:04
  to
• 49:04
  like
• 49:04
  establish
• 49:05
  that,
• 49:05
  like,
• 49:05
  hey,
• 49:06
  I
• 49:06
  should
• 49:07
  not
• 49:07
  be
• 49:07
  getting
• 49:07
  in
• 49:07
  trouble
• 49:08
  for
• 49:09
  this.
• 49:09
  Like,
• 49:09
  this
• 49:09
  is
• 49:10
  ridiculous.
• 49:10
  Like
• 49:10
  I
• 49:11
  had
• 49:11
  all
• 49:11
  this
• 49:11
  stuff.
• 49:12
  I'm
• 49:12
  providing
• 49:13
  you
• 49:13
  with
• 49:13
  that
• 49:13
  information
• 49:14
  and
• 49:14
  you're
• 49:14
  telling
• 49:14
  me
• 49:14
  that
• 49:14
  I
• 49:15
  still
• 49:17
  don't
• 49:17
  get
• 49:17
  it.
• 49:17
  Like,
• 49:18
  like,
• 49:18
  do
• 49:18
  I
• 49:18
  need
• 49:18
  to
• 49:19
  like
• 49:19
  have
• 49:19
  my
• 49:19
  disability
• 49:20
  paperwork
• 49:21
  in
• 49:21
  front
• 49:21
  to
• 49:21
  give
• 49:21
  you,
• 49:21
  to
• 49:22
  show
• 49:22
  you
• 49:22
  that?
• 49:22
  Like,
• 49:22
  this
• 49:22
  is
• 49:23
  why.
• 49:24
  So
• 49:24
  I
• 49:24
  also.
• 49:25
  Is
• 49:25
  there
• 49:25
  a
• 49:25
  sticker
• 49:26
  I
• 49:26
  could
• 49:26
  put
• 49:26
  on
• 49:27
  my
• 49:27
  car?
• 49:27
  Right.
• 49:27
  I
• 49:28
  don't
• 49:28
  have
• 49:28
  to
• 49:28
  remember
• 49:29
  to
• 49:29
  put
• 49:29
  it
• 49:29
  on
• 49:29
  the
• 49:29
  dashboard.
• 49:30
  I
• 49:30
  should
• 49:30
  ask
• 49:31
  them
• 49:31
  that.
• 49:31
  So
• 49:32
  many
• 49:32
  options.
• 49:33
  Yeah,
• 49:34
  I
• 49:34
  should
• 49:34
  mention
• 49:34
  that
• 49:34
  to
• 49:34
  them
• 49:35
  especially.
• 49:35
  You're
• 49:35
  volunteering
• 49:36
  there.
• 49:36
  I
• 49:37
  know,
• 49:37
  Giving
• 49:37
  of
• 49:38
  your
• 49:38
  time.
• 49:39
  So
• 49:39
  that's
• 49:39
  kind
• 49:40
  of
• 49:40
  wild,
• 49:40
  right?
• 49:41
  Yeah,
• 49:41
  no,
• 49:41
  it's
• 49:41
  completely
• 49:42
  wild.
• 49:42
  It's
• 49:42
  like,
• 49:42
  guys,
• 49:43
  are
• 49:43
  you
• 49:43
  telling
• 49:43
  me
• 49:43
  that.
• 49:43
  But
• 49:44
  like
• 49:44
  they,
• 49:44
  I
• 49:44
  guess
• 49:44
  the
• 49:45
  city
• 49:46
  owns
• 49:46
  that
• 49:46
  law.
• 49:46
  I
• 49:47
  guess
• 49:47
  they
• 49:47
  monitor
• 49:48
  that
• 49:48
  lot.
• 49:48
  I
• 49:48
  don't
• 49:48
  even
• 49:48
  understand
• 49:49
  how
• 49:49
  this
• 49:49
  works.
• 49:49
  But
• 49:50
  I'm
• 49:50
  like,
• 49:50
  there
• 49:50
  has
• 49:51
  to
• 49:51
  be
• 49:51
  a
• 49:51
  better
• 49:51
  system
• 49:52
  or
• 49:52
  a
• 49:52
  setup
• 49:52
  because
• 49:53
  like,
• 49:53
  I
• 49:54
  will
• 49:54
  forget.
• 49:54
  Like,
• 49:55
  I
• 49:55
  can't
• 49:55
  help
• 49:55
  it.
• 49:56
  I
• 49:56
  will
• 49:56
  forget.
• 49:57
  And
• 49:57
  yeah,
• 49:58
  like,
• 49:58
  could
• 49:58
  there
• 49:58
  be.
• 49:58
  I
• 49:59
  think
• 49:59
  the
• 49:59
  idea
• 49:59
  of
• 49:59
  forgetting.
• 50:00
  Yeah,
• 50:01
  and
• 50:01
  I
• 50:01
  think
• 50:01
  the
• 50:01
  idea
• 50:02
  of
• 50:02
  forgetting
• 50:03
  is
• 50:04
  so
• 50:05
  hard.
• 50:05
  Right.
• 50:06
  That
• 50:06
  it's,
• 50:06
  it's
• 50:07
  invisible.
• 50:08
  Yeah.
• 50:09
  There's
• 50:09
  no,
• 50:10
  there's
• 50:10
  nothing.
• 50:11
  There's
• 50:11
  no
• 50:11
  like
• 50:11
  brace
• 50:12
  on
• 50:12
  your
• 50:12
  head
• 50:12
  that
• 50:12
  people
• 50:13
  can
• 50:13
  see
• 50:13
  that
• 50:14
  you
• 50:14
  have
• 50:14
  that
• 50:14
  particular
• 50:16
  issue.
• 50:17
  And
• 50:18
  you
• 50:18
  know,
• 50:18
  I
• 50:19
  think
• 50:19
  this
• 50:19
  is
• 50:19
  partly
• 50:20
  why
• 50:21
  it
• 50:22
  really
• 50:22
  takes
• 50:23
  so
• 50:23
  much
• 50:24
  effort
• 50:24
  and
• 50:24
  energy
• 50:25
  for
• 50:26
  the
• 50:26
  person
• 50:26
  themselves
• 50:27
  and
• 50:27
  for
• 50:28
  the
• 50:28
  family
• 50:29
  to
• 50:29
  really
• 50:30
  think
• 50:30
  through,
• 50:31
  like
• 50:31
  how
• 50:31
  do
• 50:32
  you
• 50:32
  talk
• 50:32
  about
• 50:33
  this
• 50:33
  stuff?
• 50:33
  How
• 50:33
  do
• 50:34
  you
• 50:34
  make
• 50:34
  sure.
• 50:34
  Because
• 50:35
  you're
• 50:35
  having
• 50:35
  to
• 50:35
  do
• 50:35
  so
• 50:36
  much
• 50:36
  advocacy
• 50:37
  all
• 50:37
  the
• 50:37
  time.
• 50:37
  And
• 50:38
  all
• 50:38
  the
• 50:38
  time
• 50:38
  the
• 50:38
  only
• 50:38
  thing
• 50:39
  I
• 50:39
  can
• 50:39
  liken
• 50:39
  to
• 50:40
  is,
• 50:40
  is
• 50:41
  having
• 50:41
  to
• 50:42
  go
• 50:42
  gluten
• 50:42
  free.
• 50:43
  And
• 50:44
  like
• 50:44
  every
• 50:44
  time
• 50:45
  I
• 50:45
  have
• 50:45
  to
• 50:46
  tell
• 50:46
  people
• 50:47
  exactly
• 50:47
  what
• 50:48
  I
• 50:48
  need
• 50:48
  from
• 50:48
  them
• 50:49
  every
• 50:50
  single
• 50:50
  time.
• 50:50
  And
• 50:51
  it's
• 50:51
  never
• 50:51
  going
• 50:51
  to
• 50:52
  change.
• 50:52
  That's
• 50:52
  always
• 50:53
  going
• 50:53
  to
• 50:53
  be
• 50:53
  the
• 50:53
  way
• 50:54
  it
• 50:54
  is.
• 50:54
  Unless
• 50:54
  I
• 50:54
  go
• 50:54
  to
• 50:54
  some
• 50:55
  like
• 50:55
  gluten
• 50:55
  free
• 50:56
  place.
• 50:56
  Right.
• 50:57
  And
• 50:57
  so
• 50:57
  unless
• 50:58
  we
• 50:58
  live
• 50:58
  in
• 50:58
  a
• 50:58
  gluten
• 50:59
  free
• 50:59
  world,
• 50:59
  unless
• 51:00
  we
• 51:00
  live
• 51:00
  in
• 51:01
  a
• 51:01
  place
• 51:02
  that
• 51:02
  is
• 51:02
  accommodating
• 51:04
  and
• 51:04
  really,
• 51:05
  I
• 51:05
  don't
• 51:05
  know
• 51:05
  that
• 51:07
  you
• 51:07
  know
• 51:07
  that
• 51:09
  you
• 51:10
  can
• 51:10
  control
• 51:10
  the
• 51:11
  whole
• 51:11
  rest
• 51:11
  of
• 51:11
  the
• 51:11
  world
• 51:11
  for
• 51:12
  sure
• 51:12
  you
• 51:12
  cannot.
• 51:13
  But
• 51:13
  I
• 51:14
  think
• 51:14
  one
• 51:14
  place
• 51:14
  we
• 51:14
  can
• 51:15
  start
• 51:15
  is
• 51:15
  our
• 51:16
  own
• 51:16
  homes.
• 51:17
  Yeah,
• 51:17
  that
• 51:18
  is
• 51:18
  true.
• 51:18
  And,
• 51:19
  and
• 51:19
  so
• 51:19
  how
• 51:20
  do
• 51:20
  we
• 51:21
  start
• 51:21
  to
• 51:21
  create
• 51:22
  neuro
• 51:23
  friendly
• 51:24
  spaces
• 51:25
  in
• 51:25
  our
• 51:25
  homes.
• 51:27
  And
• 51:27
  I'm,
• 51:27
  you
• 51:28
  know,
• 51:28
  I.
• 51:28
  I'm
• 51:28
  saying
• 51:29
  this
• 51:29
  for
• 51:29
  me
• 51:29
  as
• 51:29
  much
• 51:30
  as
• 51:30
  anybody,
• 51:31
  right?
• 51:31
  Like,
• 51:31
  I
• 51:32
  don't
• 51:32
  have
• 51:32
  this
• 51:32
  figured
• 51:32
  out
• 51:33
  because
• 51:33
  obviously
• 51:34
  there
• 51:34
  was
• 51:34
  a
• 51:34
  complete
• 51:36
  meltdown
• 51:36
  last
• 51:37
  night
• 51:37
  at
• 51:37
  my
• 51:37
  house.
• 51:37
  So
• 51:38
  just
• 51:38
  outing
• 51:39
  myself
• 51:39
  100%.
• 51:40
  Like,
• 51:40
  you
• 51:40
  know,
• 51:40
  there
• 51:40
  was.
• 51:41
  It
• 51:41
  was
• 51:41
  just
• 51:41
  this
• 51:41
  whole
• 51:42
  thing
• 51:42
  where
• 51:42
  like,
• 51:43
  you
• 51:43
  know,
• 51:43
  just,
• 51:44
  okay,
• 51:44
  well
• 51:45
  then
• 51:45
  quit,
• 51:46
  you
• 51:46
  know,
• 51:46
  and
• 51:46
  then.
• 51:47
  And
• 51:47
  then,
• 51:47
  you
• 51:47
  know,
• 51:47
  all
• 51:47
  this
• 51:48
  stuff
• 51:48
  going
• 51:48
  on.
• 51:48
  So.
• 51:49
  And
• 51:49
  I
• 51:49
  know
• 51:49
  anybody
• 51:50
  who
• 51:51
  has
• 51:51
  experienced
• 51:52
  it
• 51:52
  themselves
• 51:53
  and
• 51:53
  her
• 51:53
  parented
• 51:54
  a
• 51:54
  kid
• 51:54
  who's
• 51:55
  got,
• 51:55
  you
• 51:56
  know,
• 51:56
  complex
• 51:57
  needs,
• 51:57
  this
• 51:58
  happens.
• 51:58
  You
• 51:59
  know,
• 51:59
  it's
• 51:59
  not
• 52:00
  like
• 52:00
  you
• 52:00
  can
• 52:00
  look
• 52:00
  back
• 52:00
  at
• 52:01
  your
• 52:01
  full
• 52:01
  parenting
• 52:01
  life
• 52:02
  and
• 52:02
  be
• 52:02
  like,
• 52:02
  oh,
• 52:02
  I'm
• 52:03
  so
• 52:03
  kind
• 52:03
  of,
• 52:04
  you
• 52:04
  know,
• 52:05
  leave
• 52:05
  it
• 52:05
  to
• 52:05
  beaver.
• 52:06
  Like,
• 52:07
  everything's,
• 52:08
  you
• 52:08
  know,
• 52:08
  mild
• 52:09
  and
• 52:09
  mellow
• 52:10
  all
• 52:10
  the
• 52:10
  time.
• 52:10
  But
• 52:12
  what
• 52:12
  might
• 52:13
  we
• 52:13
  be
• 52:13
  able
• 52:13
  to
• 52:13
  do
• 52:14
  to
• 52:14
  make
• 52:14
  it
• 52:14
  a
• 52:14
  bit
• 52:14
  more
• 52:15
  neuro
• 52:15
  friendly
• 52:15
  from
• 52:15
  the
• 52:16
  beginning?
• 52:17
  Well,
• 52:17
  and
• 52:17
  like,
• 52:18
  what,
• 52:18
  what
• 52:18
  that's
• 52:19
  making
• 52:19
  me
• 52:19
  think,
• 52:19
  especially
• 52:20
  with
• 52:20
  this,
• 52:20
  like,
• 52:20
  sticker
• 52:21
  situation,
• 52:22
  is
• 52:22
  that
• 52:23
  okay,
• 52:24
  you
• 52:24
  know,
• 52:24
  maybe
• 52:25
  right
• 52:25
  now
• 52:25
  I
• 52:26
  don't
• 52:26
  need
• 52:26
  to
• 52:26
  go
• 52:26
  and
• 52:26
  like,
• 52:27
  fight
• 52:27
  the
• 52:28
  system.
• 52:28
  You
• 52:29
  know,
• 52:29
  it's
• 52:29
  like,
• 52:29
  okay,
• 52:29
  the
• 52:30
  amount
• 52:30
  of
• 52:30
  energy
• 52:30
  and
• 52:30
  effort
• 52:31
  it
• 52:31
  would
• 52:31
  take
• 52:31
  for
• 52:31
  me
• 52:31
  to
• 52:32
  actually
• 52:32
  do
• 52:32
  that,
• 52:33
  just
• 52:34
  pay
• 52:34
  the
• 52:34
  $10,
• 52:35
  but
• 52:35
  then
• 52:36
  go
• 52:36
  to
• 52:36
  my
• 52:36
  home,
• 52:37
  go
• 52:37
  to
• 52:38
  the
• 52:38
  aquarium
• 52:39
  and
• 52:39
  say,
• 52:39
  hey,
• 52:39
  guys,
• 52:39
  this
• 52:40
  is
• 52:40
  actually
• 52:40
  a
• 52:40
  very
• 52:41
  stressful
• 52:42
  thing.
• 52:42
  And
• 52:42
  you
• 52:42
  guys,
• 52:42
  like,
• 52:43
  they've
• 52:43
  been
• 52:43
  talking
• 52:43
  a
• 52:43
  lot
• 52:43
  about
• 52:44
  disability
• 52:44
  and
• 52:45
  accommodating
• 52:45
  and
• 52:45
  doing
• 52:46
  that
• 52:46
  for
• 52:46
  our
• 52:46
  customers.
• 52:47
  I'm
• 52:47
  like,
• 52:47
  you
• 52:48
  guys
• 52:48
  should
• 52:48
  really
• 52:48
  be
• 52:48
  focused
• 52:49
  on
• 52:49
  this
• 52:49
  for
• 52:49
  us
• 52:50
  because
• 52:50
  it's
• 52:51
  not
• 52:51
  fair
• 52:51
  to
• 52:51
  like,
• 52:52
  like,
• 52:52
  why
• 52:52
  can't
• 52:52
  we
• 52:53
  have
• 52:53
  a
• 52:53
  sticker?
• 52:53
  That
• 52:53
  would
• 52:53
  be
• 52:53
  so
• 52:54
  simple.
• 52:54
  Like,
• 52:55
  can
• 52:55
  we
• 52:55
  just
• 52:55
  do
• 52:55
  that
• 52:56
  and
• 52:57
  so
• 52:57
  that
• 52:57
  I
• 52:57
  don't
• 52:57
  have
• 52:57
  to
• 52:58
  worry
• 52:58
  about
• 52:58
  this
• 52:58
  every
• 52:58
  time.
• 52:58
  Because,
• 52:59
  like,
• 52:59
  it's
• 52:59
  a
• 52:59
  barrier
• 52:59
  to
• 53:00
  entry.
• 53:00
  This
• 53:00
  is
• 53:00
  a
• 53:00
  barrier
• 53:01
  for
• 53:01
  me
• 53:01
  to,
• 53:01
  like,
• 53:01
  actually
• 53:01
  get
• 53:02
  here.
• 53:02
  I'm
• 53:03
  gonna
• 53:03
  start
• 53:03
  freaking
• 53:03
  out
• 53:04
  about
• 53:04
  it.
• 53:04
  And
• 53:04
  I
• 53:04
  did,
• 53:04
  like,
• 53:05
  yesterday,
• 53:05
  like,
• 53:05
  on
• 53:06
  Wednesday,
• 53:06
  I
• 53:06
  was
• 53:06
  just
• 53:07
  like,
• 53:07
  I
• 53:07
  forgot
• 53:07
  again.
• 53:08
  And
• 53:08
  like,
• 53:08
  I
• 53:08
  had
• 53:08
  to,
• 53:08
  like,
• 53:09
  walk
• 53:09
  back
• 53:09
  to
• 53:09
  my
• 53:09
  car.
• 53:10
  And
• 53:10
  I
• 53:10
  was
• 53:10
  like,
• 53:10
  oh,
• 53:10
  I
• 53:10
  was
• 53:11
  beating
• 53:11
  myself
• 53:11
  up
• 53:11
  a
• 53:11
  little
• 53:12
  bit.
• 53:12
  I'm
• 53:12
  like,
• 53:13
  oh,
• 53:13
  God,
• 53:13
  that's
• 53:13
  right.
• 53:13
  You're
• 53:13
  supposed
• 53:13
  to
• 53:13
  fit.
• 53:14
  You're
• 53:14
  supposed
• 53:14
  to
• 53:14
  remember
• 53:14
  to
• 53:14
  do
• 53:14
  this.
• 53:14
  Like,
• 53:15
  I
• 53:15
  can't
• 53:15
  remember
• 53:16
  if
• 53:17
  I
• 53:17
  did
• 53:17
  it
• 53:17
  that
• 53:17
  day
• 53:17
  or
• 53:17
  not.
• 53:18
  Like,
• 53:18
  did
• 53:18
  I
• 53:18
  do
• 53:18
  it?
• 53:19
  Did
• 53:19
  I.
• 53:19
  Like,
• 53:19
  I
• 53:20
  think
• 53:20
  I
• 53:20
  did
• 53:20
  it.
• 53:20
  And
• 53:20
  it's
• 53:20
  like,
• 53:21
  oh,
• 53:21
  I
• 53:21
  didn't,
• 53:21
  you
• 53:21
  know,
• 53:21
  so
• 53:22
  it's
• 53:22
  just
• 53:22
  like,
• 53:22
  oh,
• 53:22
  it's
• 53:22
  so.
• 53:23
  Yeah,
• 53:23
  I
• 53:24
  could.
• 53:24
  I
• 53:24
  could
• 53:24
  ask
• 53:24
  my
• 53:25
  home,
• 53:26
  like,
• 53:26
  let's.
• 53:26
  Let's
• 53:26
  make
• 53:27
  the
• 53:27
  accommodation
• 53:27
  Here
• 53:28
  first.
• 53:28
  So,
• 53:28
  like,
• 53:29
  how
• 53:29
  do
• 53:29
  we
• 53:29
  just.
• 53:29
  And
• 53:29
  I
• 53:29
  was
• 53:29
  actually
• 53:30
  thinking.
• 53:30
  I
• 53:30
  was
• 53:30
  like,
• 53:30
  maybe
• 53:31
  what
• 53:31
  I
• 53:31
  could
• 53:31
  do
• 53:31
  is
• 53:31
  just
• 53:31
  get,
• 53:31
  like,
• 53:32
  a
• 53:32
  piece
• 53:32
  of
• 53:33
  Velcro
• 53:33
  and
• 53:34
  then
• 53:34
  just,
• 53:34
  like,
• 53:34
  Velcro
• 53:34
  it
• 53:34
  to
• 53:35
  my
• 53:35
  dash.
• 53:36
  So
• 53:36
  then
• 53:36
  it's
• 53:36
  just
• 53:36
  there.
• 53:37
  Yeah,
• 53:37
  it's
• 53:38
  just
• 53:38
  always
• 53:38
  there.
• 53:38
  It's
• 53:39
  there
• 53:39
  because
• 53:40
  I
• 53:40
  was
• 53:40
  like,
• 53:40
  this
• 53:40
  is
• 53:40
  just.
• 53:41
  This
• 53:41
  is
• 53:41
  just
• 53:41
  too
• 53:41
  hard
• 53:42
  for
• 53:42
  me
• 53:42
  to
• 53:42
  remember.
• 53:43
  Yeah,
• 53:44
  no,
• 53:44
  that
• 53:44
  makes
• 53:45
  complete
• 53:45
  sense.
• 53:45
  But
• 53:45
  it's
• 53:46
  also
• 53:46
  having
• 53:46
  to
• 53:46
  think
• 53:47
  about
• 53:47
  that.
• 53:47
  Right.
• 53:48
  But
• 53:48
  then
• 53:48
  the
• 53:48
  other
• 53:48
  thing
• 53:48
  is,
• 53:48
  like,
• 53:49
  the
• 53:49
  problem
• 53:49
  with
• 53:49
  it
• 53:49
  being
• 53:49
  on
• 53:49
  the
• 53:50
  dash
• 53:50
  is
• 53:50
  that,
• 53:50
  like,
• 53:51
  sometimes
• 53:51
  the
• 53:52
  white
• 53:52
  of.
• 53:52
  It's
• 53:53
  a
• 53:53
  white
• 53:53
  piece
• 53:53
  of
• 53:53
  cardboard.
• 53:54
  And
• 53:54
  so,
• 53:54
  like,
• 53:54
  the
• 53:54
  white
• 53:55
  can
• 53:55
  actually
• 53:55
  reflect
• 53:56
  back.
• 53:56
  And
• 53:56
  so
• 53:56
  I
• 53:56
  thought,
• 53:57
  well,
• 53:57
  maybe
• 53:57
  I
• 53:57
  could.
• 53:58
  If
• 53:58
  you
• 53:58
  could
• 53:58
  put
• 53:58
  it
• 53:58
  on,
• 53:59
  like,
• 53:59
  the
• 53:59
  window,
• 54:00
  that
• 54:00
  would
• 54:00
  be
• 54:00
  better.
• 54:01
  So
• 54:01
  maybe
• 54:01
  I'll
• 54:01
  just
• 54:01
  like,
• 54:01
  Velcro
• 54:02
  to
• 54:02
  the
• 54:02
  window.
• 54:03
  Like,
• 54:03
  our
• 54:03
  fast
• 54:04
  pass
• 54:04
  has.
• 54:04
  You
• 54:04
  know,
• 54:04
  it's
• 54:05
  like,
• 54:05
  there's
• 54:05
  like,
• 54:05
  we
• 54:06
  have
• 54:06
  a
• 54:06
  fast
• 54:06
  pass
• 54:06
  for,
• 54:07
  like,
• 54:07
  the.
• 54:07
  The
• 54:07
  tolls.
• 54:08
  Like,
• 54:08
  why
• 54:08
  can't
• 54:08
  I
• 54:09
  have
• 54:09
  that
• 54:09
  for
• 54:09
  the
• 54:10
  car?
• 54:11
  But
• 54:11
  I
• 54:11
  could
• 54:11
  just
• 54:12
  get
• 54:12
  a
• 54:12
  sticker
• 54:13
  and
• 54:13
  just.
• 54:13
  Right.
• 54:14
  Stick
• 54:14
  it
• 54:14
  right
• 54:14
  there
• 54:14
  on
• 54:14
  my
• 54:15
  window.
• 54:16
  Make.
• 54:16
  Make
• 54:17
  your
• 54:17
  own
• 54:17
  sticker
• 54:17
  of
• 54:17
  it
• 54:17
  or.
• 54:18
  In,
• 54:18
  like,
• 54:18
  the
• 54:18
  back
• 54:18
  of
• 54:18
  my
• 54:19
  window
• 54:19
  or
• 54:19
  something.
• 54:19
  I
• 54:19
  don't
• 54:19
  know.
• 54:20
  I'll
• 54:20
  have
• 54:20
  to
• 54:20
  figure
• 54:20
  it
• 54:20
  out.
• 54:22
  You
• 54:22
  will.
• 54:23
  And.
• 54:23
  And
• 54:23
  I
• 54:23
  think
• 54:24
  that's,
• 54:24
  though.
• 54:24
  Speaks
• 54:25
  to
• 54:26
  that.
• 54:26
  It's
• 54:26
  everything
• 54:27
  like
• 54:28
  that.
• 54:28
  Right.
• 54:29
  It's
• 54:29
  not
• 54:29
  just
• 54:30
  this
• 54:30
  sticker.
• 54:31
  It's
• 54:32
  remembering,
• 54:33
  you
• 54:33
  know,
• 54:33
  to
• 54:34
  go
• 54:34
  pick
• 54:34
  up
• 54:34
  water
• 54:34
  bottles,
• 54:35
  or
• 54:35
  it's
• 54:35
  remembering
• 54:36
  to
• 54:37
  get
• 54:37
  your
• 54:37
  backpack
• 54:38
  ready,
• 54:38
  or
• 54:38
  it's
• 54:38
  remembering
• 54:39
  to
• 54:39
  do
• 54:39
  whatever.
• 54:40
  All
• 54:40
  the
• 54:40
  memory
• 54:41
  p.
• 54:42
  To
• 54:42
  eat.
• 54:43
  Yes.
• 54:44
  Yes.
• 54:45
  Like,
• 54:45
  if
• 54:45
  I.
• 54:46
  That's
• 54:46
  why
• 54:46
  there
• 54:46
  is
• 54:46
  such
• 54:46
  a
• 54:47
  high,
• 54:47
  high,
• 54:48
  high
• 54:49
  correlation
• 54:49
  between
• 54:50
  eating
• 54:50
  disorders
• 54:51
  and
• 54:52
  adhd.
• 54:52
  Right.
• 54:53
  Right.
• 54:53
  I
• 54:53
  mean,
• 54:53
  like,
• 54:54
  honestly,
• 54:54
  if
• 54:54
  I
• 54:55
  hadn't.
• 54:55
  If
• 54:55
  I.
• 54:56
  If.
• 54:56
  If
• 54:57
  breathing
• 54:57
  wasn't
• 54:58
  voluntary,
• 54:59
  like,
• 55:00
  I
• 55:00
  would
• 55:01
  probably
• 55:01
  forget.
• 55:02
  I
• 55:03
  don't
• 55:03
  know.
• 55:03
  Oh,
• 55:03
  my
• 55:04
  gosh,
• 55:04
  I'm
• 55:04
  so
• 55:04
  glad.
• 55:04
  I'm
• 55:05
  glad
• 55:05
  your
• 55:05
  head
• 55:05
  is
• 55:06
  attached.
• 55:06
  Right?
• 55:08
  It's
• 55:08
  good.
• 55:08
  It's
• 55:09
  good.
• 55:11
  Oh,
• 55:11
  well,
• 55:12
  thank
• 55:12
  you
• 55:12
  so
• 55:12
  much
• 55:12
  for
• 55:13
  talking
• 55:13
  to
• 55:13
  me
• 55:13
  about
• 55:14
  this
• 55:14
  today.
• 55:14
  I.
• 55:14
  I
• 55:15
  am
• 55:15
  endlessly
• 55:16
  fascinated
• 55:17
  by
• 55:17
  your
• 55:17
  brain.
• 55:17
  It's
• 55:17
  why
• 55:18
  we
• 55:18
  started
• 55:18
  doing
• 55:19
  this
• 55:19
  podcast.
• 55:20
  But
• 55:20
  also
• 55:20
  it's
• 55:21
  helped
• 55:21
  me
• 55:21
  to
• 55:21
  understand
• 55:21
  my
• 55:22
  own
• 55:22
  and
• 55:23
  my
• 55:23
  kids
• 55:24
  so
• 55:24
  much
• 55:24
  better.
• 55:24
  So
• 55:24
  I
• 55:25
  always
• 55:25
  appreciate
• 55:25
  when
• 55:25
  you
• 55:26
  let
• 55:26
  me
• 55:26
  dig
• 55:26
  in
• 55:27
  a
• 55:27
  little
• 55:27
  bit
• 55:27
  more.
• 55:27
  So
• 55:28
  I
• 55:28
  appreciate
• 55:28
  that
• 55:28
  today.
• 55:29
  Absolutely.
• 55:29
  Well,
• 55:30
  thanks
• 55:30
  for
• 55:30
  letting
• 55:30
  me
• 55:31
  be
• 55:31
  here
• 55:31
  and,
• 55:32
  you
• 55:32
  know,
• 55:33
  talk
• 55:33
  through
• 55:34
  it.
• 55:34
  And
• 55:34
  thanks
• 55:34
  for
• 55:34
  everybody
• 55:35
  for
• 55:35
  letting
• 55:36
  us
• 55:36
  try
• 55:36
  this
• 55:36
  new
• 55:37
  format.
• 55:37
  It's
• 55:38
  kind
• 55:38
  of
• 55:38
  interesting.
• 55:39
  Love
• 55:40
  you.
• 55:40
  I
• 55:40
  love
• 55:40
  you
• 55:40
  too.
• 55:41
  Bye.
• 55:41
  Bye.
• 55:49
  Thanks
• 55:50
  for
• 55:50
  listening
• 55:50
  to
• 55:50
  the
• 55:50
  Spicy
• 55:51
  Brain
• 55:51
  Podcast.
• 55:52
  Brought
• 55:52
  to
• 55:52
  you
• 55:52
  by
• 55:52
  Spicy
• 55:53
  Brain
• 55:53
  Studios.
• 55:54
  This
• 55:55
  journey
• 55:55
  Today
• 55:55
  we
• 55:56
  talked
• 55:56
  a
• 55:56
  lot
• 55:56
  about
• 55:56
  this
• 55:57
  mythical
• 55:57
  just
• 55:58
  get
• 55:58
  it
• 55:58
  done
• 55:58
  button
• 55:59
  button.
• 55:59
  And
• 55:59
  you
• 56:00
  know
• 56:00
  what?
• 56:00
  It
• 56:00
  seems
• 56:01
  like
• 56:01
  I
• 56:01
  still
• 56:01
  am
• 56:02
  searching
• 56:02
  for
• 56:02
  it
• 56:03
  while
• 56:03
  everyone
• 56:04
  else
• 56:04
  seems
• 56:04
  to
• 56:04
  have
• 56:04
  it
• 56:04
  figured
• 56:05
  out.
• 56:05
  But
• 56:06
  next
• 56:06
  week
• 56:06
  we're
• 56:06
  gonna
• 56:07
  dive
• 56:07
  into
• 56:07
  the
• 56:07
  strategy
• 56:08
  for
• 56:08
  actually
• 56:08
  how
• 56:09
  to
• 56:09
  push
• 56:09
  that
• 56:09
  button.
• 56:10
  Or
• 56:11
  honestly,
• 56:11
  maybe
• 56:11
  just
• 56:12
  to,
• 56:12
  like,
• 56:12
  find
• 56:12
  the
• 56:12
  dang
• 56:13
  thing
• 56:13
  in
• 56:13
  the
• 56:13
  first
• 56:13
  place.
• 56:14
  I'm
• 56:14
  not
• 56:14
  sure.
• 56:14
  But
• 56:15
  next
• 56:15
  week
• 56:15
  we'll
• 56:16
  be
• 56:16
  doing
• 56:16
  that.
• 56:16
  Make
• 56:17
  sure
• 56:17
  to
• 56:17
  follow
• 56:17
  or
• 56:17
  subscribe
• 56:18
  on
• 56:18
  your
• 56:18
  favorite
• 56:18
  podcast
• 56:19
  app.
• 56:19
  And
• 56:19
  if
• 56:20
  you're
• 56:20
  enjoying
• 56:20
  the
• 56:20
  show,
• 56:20
  it
• 56:21
  really
• 56:21
  helps
• 56:21
  us
• 56:22
  if
• 56:22
  you
• 56:22
  leave
• 56:22
  a
• 56:22
  review.
• 56:23
  It
• 56:23
  helps
• 56:23
  other
• 56:24
  neurospicy
• 56:24
  folks
• 56:25
  find
• 56:25
  their
• 56:25
  way
• 56:25
  here,
• 56:26
  too.
• 56:26
  But
• 56:26
  until
• 56:27
  then,
• 56:27
  here
• 56:27
  is
• 56:27
  to
• 56:28
  a
• 56:28
  great
• 56:28
  end
• 56:28
  of
• 56:28
  the
• 56:28
  week.
• 56:29
  And
• 56:29
  remember,
• 56:29
  Michelle,
• 56:30
  we're
• 56:30
  gonna
• 56:30
  stay
• 56:31
  curious
• 56:32
  and
• 56:32
  joyful
• 56:33
  with
• 56:34
  a
• 56:34
  whole
• 56:34
  lot
• 56:34
  of
• 56:35
  radical
• 56:36
  acceptance.
• 56:38
  Hi
• 56:38
  Cat.